Smoke Sesh - confidence, chilling out, baby stoner tips & burnout

Episode Date: August 29, 2023

Happy Tuesday my hotties! So excited to be back with another episode as we celebrate this retrograde season and new starts in our lives, today we talk navigating acne & my new go to acne routine! Stress paralysis and getting shit done, weed princess and never showing up empty handed, how to keep it casual & casual sex boundaries, fall activities, birth control, new chapter of adulthood and navigating your 20’s, baby stoner tips, making hard decisions, my go to drink when going out, navigating confidence, how to chillllll out, help I can’t come? Instagram, navigating burnout, exes, having hard conversations, the upcoming blue moon! Go to scents, how to truly glow up, bangs, drug tests & sooooo much more! So happy to have you here for another episode of the podcast, if you wanna see more follow me on instagram @hannahmarlene and I’ll see you all next Tuesday! MUAH!

Listen, everybody needs a fairy godmother, you know? Just somebody to look out for them. Some people call me their fairy smoke mother, others their internet big sister, but you can call me Hannah, the host of Smoke Sash. So come hang out! Let's light up and talk everything there is to life. The good, the bad, the ugly, the embarrassing. I've got a story for it all. Hello hotties of the world! Hi! How are we doing? How are we feeling today? i hope we're all surviving and doing our best that's really all we can really do right now tbh it's the end of summer many full circle moments are happening for a lot of us a lot of us are getting into new endeavors trying new things putting ourselves out there a little bit

which can be you know big emotions can arise from that and that's okay but i hope you are all surviving and doing well and trying to live your best life i know i am um i have really oh my god with all of these planets going retrograde i feel like i have kind of been more so focused on what's going on around me currently right now here rather than the future or the past which is where i am usually stuck and it's a nice change of pace you know i've been like okay let's get my skincare routine really checked into shape let's look at all these ingredients find products that really work for me boom amazing i will share with you guys those if you would like my little new skincare routine i'm like let's focus on our body and feeling good and trying to make sure we eat

good every day and get some movement in let's really focus on like purging our closet and putting on outfits every day that make us feel good and putting effort into you know trying to show myself to the world in a way that i believe is truly who i am i'm really getting back to the core of who i am and in turn who i want to be i talked about the book atomic habits last um episode and i feel like that could be a very good homework book for all of us and i'm about to order it and you know what maybe i'll do that as our homework book for the month on patreon for september but every habit that you do every day really does make a difference in who you are going to be 5 10 15 years from now even the small things things that you would like never imagine would add

up to have a lasting impact on your life they really do um and i am really just trying to hone in and focus on what's important to me in my everyday life and what makes life a little bit easier to live and more exciting to live and yeah it's been a really nice kind of change of pace but yeah with all these retrogrades going on I feel like all of us are really being forced to focus on like our home and are we comfortable where we are and are we happy where we are and what can we do to make our situation even if it's good or maybe if it's bad but how can we make it better and i love that theme i don't have much to ramble on about today i'm not gonna lie it's a very chill easy day in the hannah household um i woke up had me a little oat milk latte

been hanging scrolling editing photos doing my usual thing you know what let's go ahead and smoke as well why not you know it's the day off let's cheers to it um maybe you can smoke with me maybe you're not going to either way happy to have you here happy to be back for another episode of smoke sesh my god i feel so lucky to be able to do this with you guys every week and I really liked how we did last week's episode where I was just flying through questions like absolutely flying through um and I feel like I got to a ton of them because I mean there's so many constantly thank you so much for always being here and giving me something to talk about really letting me tap into the collective energies um and yeah so I think that's kind of the theme

of today my adhd brain is really going insane so i'm really gonna honor that and try to get through as many questions as many different topics as i can today what's better than that anyways let's cheers and hit this whoa oh my god perfect okay first up skincare routine because back in the day i used to tell you simple is better and you know what i stand by that simple is better but there are some small things that you can add in that will really just elevate things for me personally i have very very clog prone skin okay like i will get acne if someone even looks at me wrong so it's hard for me to find products that work with my skin so keep this in mind when i am telling

you the products that i'm using but a i started double cleansing this has been a game changer if you have gaping hole like pores like i do or clog prone skin i personally use the peach and lily ginger mel oil cleanser um because i heard really good reviews about it and i looked into the ingredients and it really does not have any clog prone ingredients um and i will start by using that to scrub all of my makeup off don't wipe your eyes with it i have found that i feel like it stings my eyes and all of my eye makeup comes off with water so I'm not really worried about that but an oil-based cleanser okay step number one you will scrub your face for like a minute and then when you look at your hands you will see all the pores that it pulled out in your hands

it's crazy because oil attracts to oil so really just helps like suck all the gunk out of your face and I love it and then I go in with just a normal cleanser um whatever cleanser works best for you I've been using the CeraVe hydrating one and I found like that is a pretty good option for me then I have found that it's really hard for me to find a moisturizer that doesn't break me out I was previously using the instant angel moisturizer and it just like I would put it on and then it would make my face feel itchy and i would break out into bumps and i found out that that is called fungal acne listen crazy but like these thick and like really rich moisturizers were breaking out like crazy so i started using the malezia m-a-l-e-z-i-a five percent urea

moisturizer has not broken me out at all it's fantastic and it's specifically formulated for fungal acne so if you're the kind of person who's like i need a good moisturizer but it all breaks me out this is the one they also make a um what is it oh a 2.5 benzoyl peroxide gel that i also use I just use it on spots so sometimes if I have like acne on my back or like a pimple on my face I will kind of go over the area with the benzoyl peroxide before I use the moisturizer I used to have a benzoyl peroxide face wash that I used every day when my acne was really bad and I feel like that was good but I got to a point where using benzoyl peroxide every single day has just dried my skin out and then for big tough pimples and finding a way to kind of chill them the fuck

out basically other than a pimple patch which i have mentioned starface before and i love them but the mario badescu drying lotion this stuff is amazing especially if you are prone to just like picking and you need a quick fix to kind of shrink that pimple down or bring it to a head i really like the drying lotion you just dip a little cotton swab in tap it on i woke up with this huge pimple on my cheek today and like it popped it did its thing and then i immediately put this drying lotion on just like completely got rid of it it was insane and then two things that i have been using for forever the ole henriksen cold plunge pore mask i use that once a week it feels like you're rubbing birds bees all over your face but it's my favorite like

clay based mask um and it's non-drying which i really enjoy and i feel like it has a great way of sucking out all those pores as well and then the polish choice two percent bha liquid exfoliant with salicylic acid oh my god tongue twisters i use that like two three times a week just to kind of help with my pores again and to get rid of any clogs but that's kind of been my routine those have kind of been my foolproof favorites especially for acne prone skin um and i've been loving it and my face has been loving it so if any of these inspire you try them out you will love them yes let's talk stress paralysis um someone said coping with stress and unmotivation combo so much shit to do and no energy to do it i feel you stress paralysis is basically when

you have a task of ahead of you um it could be a big thing a small thing many different things but the thing is you visualize it you overthink it it causes you stress and when you feel stress you in turn naturally feel like you need to run away from it. You know what I mean? Many people think that running away from the stress or avoiding the stress is going to make that magically disappear. But no, as everybody with stress paralysis knows, it doesn't make it magically disappear. It just makes the stress worse. And then it becomes like an avoidant behavior so literally the only remedy and i learned this the hard way in college when i was going through it and i was there was just so much ahead of me and i was overthinking it and then i

was avoiding it and my stress is at an all-time high the only way to get my stress down was to get that shit done simply to just log into my zoom show up do it turn it in immediately the stress is gone well who would have thought who would have thought like I know it's the like obvious answer but when you have stress your immediate reaction or for me as someone with anxiety and high stress, my immediate reaction is like, so I'm going to pack my things and I'm going to go and I'm going to avoid this as much as I can. No, that is not a healthy behavior. So if you find yourself doing this, I challenge you literally just try to get it done. Because as soon as you feel like the dopamine hit of turning something in or getting that test done or calling

the doctors or submitting that hard paperwork, as soon as you get it done, you will get that dopamine hit of just like, wow, I accomplished something. And that is more powerful than feeling like you're avoiding something and not having to do it. Actually doing it and turning it in, you will feel much more accomplished, you feel much more proud of yourself. And you get the dopamine hit of like accomplishment, checking something off your list. And once I started doing that like as soon as you just like do the first thing it becomes an addiction and you're like how much can I get done and I go through this every once in a while I'll have like you know my avoidant time my avoidant time and finally I'll be like why am I avoiding this let's just

get it done like I was that way about my student loans I was like I don't want to think about it I don't want to think about it and then I realized like I wasn't sleeping at night because I was thinking about my student loans bitch just get up and log in and figure out a fucking payment plan and as soon as I figured out my payment plan was zero dollars I was like wow this is way better than I ever could have possibly imagined I should have just done this sooner so I get the unmotivation I get the stress I get wanting to run away from your problems and your anxiety but that will never solve anything in your life and in fact you will feel better like the ultimate cure right now is simply get up and get the shit done that you need to get done it's not as scary as you're making it

in your head i promise someone asked what is my favorite strain of weed um free weed that is my favorite strain tbh even my boyfriend came home with weed the other day he's like i know i'm in hard to getting this i was like yep yep you get it i should not be a lone girl out in the world purchasing my own weed i'm just kidding um but i am a weed princess that is for sure and a weed princess is the girly who just arrives and smokes here's the thing i'm not a moocher though like of course i have my own shit i'll bring stuff to parties i'll make sure that i can provide for people because there's no better feeling especially in the weed community being able to help someone smoke that can't smoke you know what i mean like yeah you want to puff this joint sure love it

girly hope you have a great rest of your night you know what i mean i've also met some of my bestest friends simply like out at a party smoking somewhere and they come up to me and they're like hey can i hit that and then it turns into like a three-year friendship love it never go somewhere empty-handed um life advice first day don't go empty-handed bring a bottle of wine bring some flowers going over to their mom's house for the first time bring a bottle of wine bring some flowers going to a party bring some alcohol bring some weed going to your best friend's house for the first time bring a plant bring a cute book bring a candle i don't know don't ever go anywhere empty-handed life advice it looks so good on you because it shows that you are planning ahead and

looking forward to that event and looking forward to that experience always hi Hannah hope you're well um so the past few months I've been living the single life and I'm honestly having so much fun I'm having such a blast like getting to know myself better um and I feel like I am like my happiest when I'm single um just like vibing by myself getting to know myself and spending more time with friends etc but the issue comes about when I like so I'm really horny all the time like I really want to fuck somebody and it's been a while since I've had sex and I really want to just like hook up casually with someone or have like a fuck buddy kind of vibe um but I'm really bad at doing that um I'm gonna run out of time so I'm gonna do a part two I'm really bad at

keeping things casual because I always catch feelings and I always get emotionally attached to people even if I like know that it's not like someone that I would want a long-term relationship or like anything serious with I still get freaking feelings attached and that's why I've been in a relationship like it feels like my whole life like I'm about to turn 24 I feel like I've been in and out of relationships since I was like 14 and that's why I want to just like be single right now and fuck around but yeah like I'm just bad at not getting emotionally attached to people so yeah I was just wondering if you have any advice for how to just like maintain the boundaries of keeping it casual with them and with myself and like not making it anything more serious I'm into

both guys and girls but like I don't want to hurt a girl's feelings I don't care if I hurt a guy's feelings but um yeah any advice you have would be much appreciated I love you so much thank you i'll be doing well so here's the thing i do think women can casually date and can casually have sex now you got to ask yourself am i that kind of person and if you do think you're that kind of person then amazing give it a shot here's some things you can do to kind of prep yourself a you're gonna have to set boundaries with yourself what would the perfect kind of friends with benefits look like is it a one-night stand that you never have to see ever again is it a reoccurring person in your life get to know what you think the perfect kind of

situationship-esque thing would be and how it would be the healthiest maybe it's like you know we only see each other for sex i am only over for the allotted time that sex and aftercare takes all right maybe it's um I really never want to see them again and they're only one night stands maybe it's like we don't do any outside talking or texting other than if we want to meet up to have sex and set those boundaries with yourself understand that like this is just a sexual relationship I'm not building anything more and I also as somebody who you know is perpetually in relationships i feel you on the i feel like i've been in a relationship my whole life when you have a habit of falling in love with people that are like not worth falling in love with

understand that you have that habit and then also like maybe pick like a flawed man you know like intentionally flawed like this person i will never build a relationship with i don't really want to build a relationship with but they're a great fuck buddy you know what i mean so then you don't really have the habit of falling down that rabbit hole but set those boundaries with yourself and then also when you enact this relationship set boundaries with that person tell that person the kind of boundaries that you want tell them that this is an only sexual relationship so then they don't try and make more of it or they don't fall in love and then you hurt their feelings you know make sure there is no gray area like this is what this is period do you know what i mean

make sure you know that with yourself and make sure your partner knows that so then there's no accidentally falling in love on either of your parts there is only you know i trust this person but i only trust them sexually in that kind of way but yeah i do think casual relationships can be done i'm just the kind of person who has to like really think it out and really set harsh boundaries with myself so then i'm not like oh yeah we're only fuck buddies but i was also at his house for three days no that is called a like that's boyfriend behavior okay and you don't waste boyfriend behavior on bums basically anyways love you someone asked favorite fall activities oh my god i'm so excited for fall there's like a slight chill in the air now it's supposed to be

like 101 again next week but it's like 80 right now and i'm really living my fall fantasy um and my best friend is moving here in a week to spend the fall with me so i am just like i can't wait to show her everything that we midwesterners do during fall like apple picking pumpkin picking go to a cidery or like a winery make yummy soups the sunflowers um start blooming next week so i'm gonna go out to lawrence and spend like a morning up there and take photos of the sunflowers there's always like a halloween rave that goes on that's super fun um all the like um haunted houses downtown are the best to go to just fun little things like that like i can't wait to be cozy and comfy and just enjoy the last bit of warmth before we enter winter oh my god i keep getting

uti is because the condom keeps breaking and i'm popping plan b's like candy help okay first of all you need lube like if the condoms are breaking it's because there's too much friction so you need lube and baby girl you need birth control okay plan b is not birth control we talked about this in the last episode plan b is plan b baby girl you need some birth control before you sleep with your next partner and while you're there you might as well just get a little std test just because like i could not be sleeping with a person or like be completely celibate and still in my brain i'm just like so paranoid like why not you know someone said seriously i need help navigating this new chapter of life and adulthood listen if you are under the age of 30 there's a

few things that you should know a this is not supposed to be easy this is not going to be an easy time for you so i don't care who's lying to you i don't care who's stressing you out whether it's other people or you you simply are not going to know a lot of things and once you allow yourself to not know the more you're gonna learn okay except that you don't know shit in order to grow and learn and discover the things that you need to discover but you're basically an infant in a world of adults so stop stressing yourself out would you be like screaming at an infant child for not being able to do like fractions hell no you wouldn't because that's way too far ahead of what they need to know they need to focus on very basic things so stop stressing yourself out okay

this is a time where you're not gonna know shit allow yourself to not know shit so you can learn it's also supposed to be a time where yes it can be stressful but it should be a lot of fun you should be having a lot of fun in your 20s because i feel like you should be uninhibited during this time like you shouldn't be well this is personal I understand everybody has their own like ideals and who they want to become of course but like you shouldn't be a stay like a stay-at-home wife you shouldn't be locking yourself inside away from the world you shouldn't be like closing doors of opportunities during this time this is a time where you need to be like putting yourself out there and trying new things and allowing yourself to have a little bit of fun so if you

find yourself in a position where you're not having fun that's probably like my biggest red flag whether it's like a partner who's not making life fun or a friend who's not making life fun or maybe it's you who's not making life fun for yourself and not allowing yourself to like do things that you want to do you need to be having fun during this time also do not get fun confused with or like not having fun confused with like working hard you're gonna be working hard during this time and guess what having to do the hard shit and working hard is not fun but that doesn't mean it's unimportant that's not the kind of fun i'm talking about the kind of fun i'm talking about is like the uninhibited allowing myself to explore the world not closing off doors kinds of fun

that's what the fun you need to be having but you're also going to be working really hard during this time and you need to be working hard during this time. Just because college isn't fun doesn't mean it's unimportant. Just because your job isn't fun doesn't mean it's unimportant. Just because taxes aren't fun doesn't mean it's unimportant. You know, you got to place priorities where they are. Get your schoolwork done and then go out to a party that your friends are going to. You know, it's all about balance. And last but not least, you should allow yourself to make mistakes. This is a time where you're gonna make a lot of mistakes whether it's oh i picked the wrong person to be in my life or i went to the wrong place at the wrong time or i said the wrong thing or i embarrassed

myself who cares we're all embarrassing right now we're all figuring ourselves out no one's gonna remember because everybody's way too focused on themselves anyways just allow yourself to make mistakes but also allow yourself to learn and grow through them okay mistakes directly shoot you upwards into growth if you approach them the right way if you see them and understand them and learn and move forward from them okay they're not always like a regression they're actually probably going to push you further because you're going to learn more about yourself and the world around you through the mistakes that you make and also growth is all about not making the same mistakes again so don't be too hard on yourself when you make a mistake but also learn and grow

so you don't continuously make the same mistakes throughout your life I feel like these are kind of the best tips that I can give anybody in in their 20s like I'm 24 right now and like when my parents were this age like they had already had a child and they had bought in a house but they don't understand what the world is like now and I am glad that I am like forgiving myself and allowing myself to try new things and allowing myself to grow and have a little bit of fun while I'm young you know like I'll figure it out as I learn these new things about myself and maybe I'm not on the same path that everybody else is on but I'm happy where I am and that's all that matters oh weed tips for baby stoners less is more only smoke flower if you're a baby stoner you should

not have a cart in your hand do not smoke carts carts are literally like a gateway drug like in my opinion they are just like so concentrated that your tolerance just skyrockets and then you need more and more and more that's not what you need if you're a baby stoner you should be smoking flower okay it's the easiest way to navigate your high it's also probably the best for you because you can't be doing it everywhere you can't be like in the school bathroom hitting your pen you can't be like in your bathroom at home hitting your pen like you have to go outside which will also limit your use which will keep your tolerance high your lungs healthy and keep weed kind of that um that treat that it really is especially if you're a baby stoner flour is the way to go

if you're gonna smoke i really really recommend either a joint a gb or a bong just for lung health um weed will mold so whatever weed that you have you need to keep in a sealed container whether it's a baggie or a jar and you need to keep it in the dark okay because you don't need to be smoking on moldy weed and like infecting your lungs keep that shit in the dark airtight container fantastic you should not pay more than like 15 for a gram 15 is even a lot but i understand some of you guys are desperate you should not be paying more than $15 for a gram anything above that is crazy you're getting ripped off oh my god even the dispensaries here in Missouri a gram is like $25 I'm like hell no that is a scam right there um and let's see never go anywhere empty-handed

always always recommend that whether it's like you and your friends going in on weed and like someone has the weed and someone brings the papers and someone brings the lighter or the vibes whatever it is and don't smoke alone that often i feel like when you're young and you're just starting to smoke i feel like smoking with people really helps you conquer and train that anxiety that weed does induce and that anxiety is very normal please remember that that is a very normal side effect if you don't like it weed might not be good for you it might not be the best thing for you to be partaking in and listen to those feelings and understand that maybe it's just not good for you no one should think differently about you because of that um if someone was around me

and i offered them to smoke and they're like yeah i just don't like it i would be like cool love it glad you can be here more for me not gonna judge you know what i mean um but if you smoke around people more in the beginning um it really helps you train that anxiety and then you won't get as anxious um whenever you're smoking around new people or new places or even just by yourself um yeah i don't even know what else to say i feel like those are kind of the best tips i can really give you oh someone said you helped me finally leave my very codependent and toxic relationship thank you thank you for doing something that is bettering your life and setting you free in life we always have choices and we are not victims of our circumstances we can always

choose to be like you know what fuck you you're mean i don't want to be around you get out you know like we have choices to be like you know what i don't think this person is serving me in a healthy way anymore and i don't think you know i'm serving them in a healthy way anymore and we need to not be together or i need to go on a new journey in life or i need to make this hard decision to put myself onto the right path whatever it is it's never going to be easy but it's always going to be good and I find comfort in that when it comes to hard decisions I'm so proud of you someone asked what's my go-to going out cocktail slash drink um if I'm out drinking it's always going to be a vodka soda with lime just because I don't want to be hungover in

the morning and the worst hangovers I have ever had has been from a mixing alcohol you got to stick to one type okay one kind for the rest of the night um and be from sugary drinks so like i can't drink margarita after margarita after margarita i will be so dehydrated and have the worst headache of my entire life um i can't drink cranberry vodkas all night because then i'll be puking red like when i'm out vodka soda easiest it's literally just water and vodka basically and then a little lime for some minerals and to give it a little bit of flavor the easiest to get down they're my favorite now before i'm going out i will either like drink some seltzers my favorite are quirks they're by a local company called boulevard um but they have some amazing flavor

they're like uh sparkling flavored seltzers um or i will make like a margarita i love a good mark especially before a night out like it's okay to have like a little a little yummy drink before hitting the vodka sodas um but yeah that's usually my go-to if i'm going out and i want to have just one casual drink it'll usually be an espresso martini at the end of my meal to kind of give me a good little buzz before leaving so yummy someone asked how to be confident without making other people feel bad here's the thing if the people around you are confident in themselves then your confidence in you being your true self should never ever make them feel bad about themselves but sometimes you know confidence can make people uncomfortable especially when

those people might be insecure or have feelings of self-doubt or jealousy but also those are feelings that those people inhibit and need to work on and those are things that they need to figure out and that is not your problem to solve your problem is to be or not even your problem your purpose is to be your 100% true confident self and if that makes another person uncomfortable that in my opinion is a million percent their problem you know what I mean because true confidence exudes like naturalism and it exudes like pureness in a sense it's not you being a show off or you being you know pushy or you being like self-centered in any sort of way that's not what true confidence is but there are people who think that's confidence no true confidence has

this air of pureness because this person is just so them and honestly for people who are a little bit jealous or a little bit more self-centered and a little bit more rigid and I it might be uncomfortable by your confidence I used to be that person and seeing other people exude confidence whether it made me feel good or bad helps me retrain my brain to be like I want to be like them how can I be like them how can I follow in pursuit of my true self and I feel like it's going to be more inspiring than anything else so own your confidence if someone puts you down because of it it's because they are constantly putting themselves down that is a problem that they need to deal with not something that you can ever fix that is a problem between them and

their therapist if you want to give them a good therapist number maybe give them your own but once again never feel bad about being confident in yourself ever honestly um i feel like it'll be inspiring and even when people might not know that it's inspiring and if they're a little bit more self-depreciating um in turn it will have a lasting effect on them because now some of my favorite people to be around are people who are just truly 100% themselves they're not afraid to be a little weird or a little little quote unquote off like they are themselves and they love themselves and they don't give a fuck what anybody else thinks those are my favorite people those people are so inspiring so uplifting and there's a lot that we can all learn from them so don't be

afraid of what other people think let them deal with their own emotions you just handle yourself hi hannah i hope you're doing well i'm calling because i had a question have you ever removed an episode from spotify if yes what was the reason nope i have never taken an episode off of spotify or any of anything that i've uploaded has basically stayed up not even just basically it's stayed up you know sometimes i'll notice like oh fuck i forgot to put the intro in and then i'll fix it but like i have never taken an episode down i wonder if any platforms have if i talk about crazy shit but usually when i'm recording this i'm very cognizant of things that i talk about are things that i'm willing to talk about with anybody um and i usually feel

comfortable as crazy as they are and you're like why is she comfortable talking about that i don't know i feel confident in myself i feel comfortable even in my mistakes even in my growth and my journey i feel like it's all things that i'm okay being out there you know and if people want to be nosy in my personal life and listen to them go for it like have fun they're gonna be more uncomfortable than i'm gonna be you know what i mean also not only am i vetting like what i want to talk about but i'm also vetting your guys's questions i know i don't always get to all of your questions and i love you all so much there's only so much that i can answer within you know an episode but sometimes you guys be saying some crazy shit and i am even like i don't know if

they want that out there like i understand being in a manic state and feeling like you have online and anonymity but i uh i'm always looking out not only for myself but also for you guys so sometimes you guys say some crazy shit and i'm like i don't know if they really want that out there i don't know i'm like that's why we have confessionals you know that's when you say your crazy stuff but yeah no i've never taken an episode down these things go up and then i surrender to the universe now with that being said someone said and i had to i had to giggle my boyfriend stuck a sweet tarts rope in my ass and ate it out y'all are some freaks and i'm proud of you i'm proud of you for following your freaky dreams with your boyfriend and i'm proud of him for

partaking in them period you know like i love freaky people like yes be uninhibited do your thing have your fun also there's nothing wrong with very like chill sex but like sweet tarts are open the ass i love it you're living life to the fullest someone asked any tips on how to chill the fuck out uh yeah i'm honestly way too good at it if i'm being honest i very much so value my chill the fuck out time because i am just so high strung at any other point in my life so i really have to prioritize like having time to myself and adding things into my routine that give me a moment to kind of decompress whether it's after work or after school or whatever it may be and usually usually this is either in the mornings or at night if it's a morning it's usually just me

having a moment to like catch up on my favorite podcast and make myself a yummy coffee and just sit and scroll on my phone and make a new pinterest board like something very simple you know really just honoring, getting creative and having time to not really have to think about any of my other priorities. Like this is sit, sip coffee, scroll on my phone time. And I usually do that for like about an hour if I have a moment in the morning. Sometimes my chill the fuck out kind of routine looks like, oh, I'm going to get out of my house. I'm going to go to the thrift store and I'm going to hit my pen before I go inside and I'm going to spend like an hour wandering around the thrift store see what I can find just have a moment to kind of get out of my real world and get into

more of a creative side or maybe it's I'm going to sit down and paint and I'm going to smoke a little bit and allow myself to just have fun you know like I would as a kid now if it's like an evening decompression time if i have a moment i'll take a bath i have like this beautiful gorgeous like 1920s like clawfoot tub in my apartment it is amazing it's a perfect size for like a bathtub um so if i have a moment i will take like a long bath and really just sit and decompress or you know most of the time i'm just taking a shower but i let myself like sit in the hot water and just like dissociate for a little bit sometimes i have a little shower seltzer or like a shower cocktail that's always fun um my i feel like my the face routine that i talked about

in the beginning is really meditative for me and a great routine just at the end of the night to just like mentally note that like i am clocking out right now i'm doing my little face routine and as soon as i slap that moisturizer on girl i'm smoking i'm having a good meal and then i'm gonna sit either on my phone or i'm going to sit and watch a movie one or the two but you have to prioritize like little moments throughout your day that are for not thinking about the big important things therefore simply just existing in this moment in time and if you allow yourself moments to do that you'll be way more chill i promise anyways we really need to chill out today so i'm smoking another bowl feel free to join um you know that meme where it's like sometimes a

bitch just want to lay up in the eternal cycles of death and rebirth that is me that's like the theme for right now in my life like and i used to be very scared of like completing a new cycle in my life like embracing change it was a very anxiety inducing thing but the more you do it the more it's like riding a roller coaster and the more used to it you get um and now i am just excited to be on the ride and to really just complete another cycle in my life and to keep it moving because at this point in time it feels like i've lived like a million lives in one and it's kind of comforting in a sense because I know I can get through it. I know I can develop and grow through this and I know only good things are coming my way. Cheers to that.

Mmm, yummy. Ooh, someone said, and I've been here, just started antidepressants and I can't come even though my boyfriend is going to town help mom illy love you this is a real phenomenon you're not broke and there's nothing wrong with you this is a very common occurrence with antidepressants and this shouldn't put you off from being on antidepressants it's just a part of sometimes mood stabilizers or things that are going to affect the way the chemistry in your brain works sometimes things aren't going to connect the same that they used to and for anybody who has a hard time coming or maybe too fast or maybe too slow i want you to know there's nothing wrong with you and everybody behaves differently based on just who they are and that

is valid um all you can really do is work with what you got girl you know like you gotta weigh the scales like maybe i'm not coming as often as i used to but also like i don't want to die like i'm not going to kill myself so like the scales are we like it's an equal trade you know what i mean and also i feel like especially from like a male point of view when it comes from sex sex is only for coming do you know what i mean like that is the only goal especially from the male idealized perspective porn perspective but that is not what sex is about sex is about exploration and connection and like foreplay like sex doesn't mean you have to come it can be just an experience and being able to get intimate with your partner and there's something beautiful and holy in that

do you know what i mean so there's nothing wrong with you there's nothing broken i found for me personally it took a little bit more foreplay a lot of men think like oh her legs are open like dick in come that's all that matters no no no no there is so much more to sex okay explore it get to know it i feel like the more kind of fun you have before the you know grand finale the easier it is to come especially when you're on antidepressants oh this is a fun one best approach to why are you following random random bitches to boyfriend and not in a crazy toxic way so here's the thing you can follow whoever you want as long as they're not posting weird promiscuous photos okay because here's the thing from an outsider's perspective

that looks bad it looks disrespectful to our relationship and I don't like being in a relationship where I feel disrespected and I feel like other people are seeing me be disrespected put it that way and if he's like no it's not disrespectful blah blah blah i can like ass pics then maybe you guys just have different morals and if he wants to be a fucking baby then he can be a baby liking ass pics single how will he like that when he's no longer getting in real life ass he's only getting online ass how sad is that fucking life so yeah sometimes you just got to be harsh with men i can't lie that might be a little toxic but i think when you approach it as a this is disrespectful to our relationship they usually get it because they want to be respectful

um but if they're liking like promiscuous photos that's a no-go if they're following promiscuous pages that's a no-go um but if you're like following random girls that i don't know and it's just like a couple and you know maybe they were high school friends then i'm not gonna get upset like it's not that deep you know like you shouldn't only follow men that's a red flag it's a red flag when men can't build healthy relationships with women you know that's the biggest red flag there is it's the it's the ass pics it's the titty pics it's the liking you know thirst traps or following thirst trappy pages for me personally so yeah i say hey it's just disrespectful and if you respect me you're not gonna do it and if they don't get that okay if

they don't get that basic simple conversation they're gonna disrespect you in other aspects of your relationship and you need to get the fuck out someone said how do you fight off burnout i work two service industries jobs and i'm going insane oh i love a good call out i love it in any sort of situation um when I was younger there was no staying home from school sick unless you had like a 104 degree fever or a broken bone you were going to school I don't care if you're depressed I don't care if you're sad I don't care you're going to school which taught me to kind of put my own emotions aside sure it taught me to like go after the goal and get shit done no matter what but it also taught me to really just push my emotions to the side and power through no matter

what which led to a lot of bad habits of me having horrible awful extreme burnout and me working myself to the point of like death and that's just not healthy and then I learned I remember the first time I ever called out for work and I was so scared that they were gonna fire me and I was like hey I can't come in today and they were just like oh okay great we'll find someone just cover your shift have a great rest of your night and now I am so quick to call out I am so fast to call out you can't be a reoccurring you know disappear you can't just be dodging everything in your life oh we had plans no I'm good oh I have to go to school no I'm gonna lay in bed all day every single day oh i have to show up for work no i'm good that's not what i mean i'm talking about

when you feel like you're gonna burn out and you know this day is usually a pretty routine easy day for you nothing new is gonna happen it's just gonna be another shift you have to work or another class you have to go to this is an easy day for me to call out sometimes you just gotta to stay home and call out and focus on yourself for that day, okay? Give yourself a moment to just like get a full breath of air. You need to allow yourself to do that. There's a healthy balance with everything, obviously, but if you feel like your outside world is chaotic because your inside world is chaotic, you got to get control of your inside world before you can even think about controlling your outside world okay allow yourself a little break have fun with life okay you're

allowed to take a moment to pause and breathe oh my god i have the perfect answer for this someone said i have to see my ex to give him his stuff back thoughts question mark so last breakup i went through was very messy very very messy but it was kind of fun like you know what i mean like looking back I was such a drama queen but it was because I hadn't been a drama queen for like the two years that we were together and he was so mean to me and finally like I was allowing myself to be mean back so me being the person who is very easily swayed I knew how I felt when I wasn't around him such as I know I shouldn't be in this relationship he doesn't love me it's not good for us but when i was with him all those things flew out the window and i thought

things could work so i knew being around him wasn't healthy and he had already done half the work um he i like had my location off and then i accidentally turned it on to like text my friend and i happened to be at the club um when we were broken up and he like he immediately what i knew he was stalking my location so i knew he saw that anyways i get fucked up at the club i end up back home i'm stumbling up to my parents house so drunk i look on the front porch i'm like what's sitting up there he while i was at the club at like 2 a.m had driven from his apartment well packed up all my shit at his apartment drove it to my house and dropped it off and my ass was so drunk i saw that pile of shit that was just like all my stuff stumbled upstairs to the bathroom

violently threw up and then had a fat nap and i woke up the next morning and i had a game plan i said my ass is not seeing that man i'm not driving over there and wasting gas to see that man to drop off his shit when he sneakily came over here and dropped mine off like i'm next level petty so i hired a task rabbit love them they will move stuff for you they will help you carry stuff they'll help you hang stuff up they're great i hired a girl for moving i hired her for an hour it was like 30 bucks she thought she was gonna be like moving shit in and out of apartment so when i told her no all you need to do is pick up this tub full of my ex's stuff take it to his house and drop it on his front porch she was more than happy to help me out and in fact she sent me

a photo of his stuff sitting on his front porch and said have a fantastic rest of your life job completed and i have never been more at peace it felt like i just won a game of chess so if you're the kind of person who's like i should not see them nor be around them because i can't control myself control the situation get that shit dropped off have a good friend of yours do it for you give him 15 bucks whatever it may be but if you can avoid meeting up with your ex i highly recommend avoiding it hi miss hannah this is my first call in so i'm kind of nervous but um i wanted to ask you how you approach having serious conversations with your partner specifically you know a boyfriend because anytime I've had like a very specific thing that I want to convey and communicate

I completely shut down I get so anxious that I literally like become paralyzed and go entirely silent and it makes it really difficult for me to say how I'm actually feeling and then it's hard to get anywhere so I just wanted to ask you how you kind of open up those productive conversations and say what you need to say but anyways yeah that's it I love you miss girl thank you bye hard conversations are never fun and I get you being paralyzed by all of your thoughts and emotions and that's why I'm psycho crazy and I will literally write down a script before I ever bring anything up like I'll kind of like purge in my journal or like in my notes apps and like get out everything that I'm feeling and why I'm upset and why it's awful and why I'm mad and

whatever because that'll help me work through the unnecessary emotions that stop you from speaking that get overwhelming okay you're releasing them you're feeling them you're letting them out into one big like mind dump of what's hurting you or what you're upset about then from that you've kind of you know ran through probably a couple bullet points I don't like when you speak to me like this I feel insecure about this I am upset with this whatever it may be it kind of narrows down what you truly are kind of trying to convey and then when you bring it up to them say hey I want to have a I was wondering if we could have a conversation real quick that's you getting the icebreaker out of the way okay we know we're having a serious conversation

i know he's listening and then the hard part you're gonna have to tell them how you're feeling when you don't tell someone else how you're feeling you are in turn being selfish i know especially when you're raised to kind of push your emotions away and not really be in touch with them you think that is the good thing to do for other people but if other people don't know how you're feeling then they don't have an opportunity to help you to fix themselves and to work forward into the future alongside you so in turn you're kind of doing more harm than good not conveying what you have on your mind it doesn't have to be perfect it's gonna be a little messy especially when you're trying to like get your point across but when you are trying to get your point across

don't put all the blame on them don't be like you do this and you you you I don't want to hear about you I don't want to hear about them okay I am statements I am feeling this way because of this I am a little stressed because of this I am disappointed because of this because that gives them an answer to how you're feeling and why and it gives them an opportunity to be like you know what I hear you and I do see where you're coming from and I'm so sorry and I know that this action causes this feeling in them and I don't want to make them feel that way so I'm gonna fix that action you know it gives people a very easy basic game plan so communicate communicate not communicating is the worst thing you can ever do in your life okay and once you

get it off your chest you feel so good but as someone who has become paralyzed in those situations and it's like hey can we talk and then it's like silent because i'm like overwhelmed allowing myself to have that mental brain dump before enacting the deep conversation really allows me to work through and process those emotions so i have a clear mind and a clear idea of what i want of what i want to say to them i am statements love you you got this someone said blue moon in all caps yep we have a blue moon tomorrow august 30th um and a blue moon is basically just like you know he's saying once in a blue moon they don't happen often but they only happen when it is like the second full moon of the month like this month we are we're gonna have two full moons

usually there's only one um we had one in the beginning of august and now we're having one on the 30th so it's considered a blue moon and while full moons are usually all about release since this is so rare and we are on we are in like this high time of retrogrades and a bit of a venus retrograde and a mercury retrograde we are completing circles we are starting new chapters and this is a perfect time for manifestation so what you can do if you want to honor it is i would get a white candle and i would get bay leaves don't buy bay leaves at your grocery store they're going to be way too fucking expensive go to your local like little whip witch shop whip witch shop oh my god tongue twister and buy bay leaves there they're going to be way cheaper and then on your

bay leaves you're going to write down your manifestations simple short sentences nothing long and also you're not going to try and manifest many different things at this time you want to really hone in on focus on what you want to manifest if they go hand in hand that's fantastic you can do multiple but make sure they are kind of categorized to one simplified idea then under the full moon light your white candle your white candle is going to be your offering and then you're going to burn your bay leaves for luck and on those bay leaves they will have your manifestations and read your manifestations out loud while you burn these but this is a quick little ritual to kind of focus on your manifestations and figure out where you want to go

and what you want to go towards in this new cycle of life love it someone asked when are we getting new march queen i hear you i hear you i did lighters at the like spring beginning of spring lighter covers that was super fun but i've kind of been just sitting back and thinking of what i want to do next because around this time last year I did hoodie drops which was so fun but I also felt like you know with one drop of hoodies with a high quantity I only allowed people during that time period to purchase them um and you know people two weeks outside of that who maybe couldn't afford at the time were like damn I if only my paycheck came sooner so this time around I'm still doing hoodies but they're all going to be one of a kind smaller drops every couple weeks

so then you'll all have a chance to kind of get a hoodie and also they're all going to be one of a kind airbrushed hand painted by me so cute i literally can't wait and i'm also planning some baby tees that'll be more of a big drop i believe but i think i'm going to do a couple of the big drops of the baby teas um but i have so many fun things that i am designing for you guys and i can't wait to see you guys wearing them love you also whenever i post about the march it'll be on my instagram at hannah marlene so follow me there um if you want a chance at getting any someone asked what do you smell like slash what perfumes do you use i'm terrified of smelling bad i don't know why i'm just terrified of it so my main perfume which it has been my main perfume

since i literally got it is the glossier you perfume it is so fucking good but i heard it was reformulated so i'm scared to repurchase i've heard it's not as like intense of a smell and the smell is very clean floral powdery um so i think as my next little gift to myself i'm going to go get some new perfume and the perfume that i'm looking at getting is the burberry her perfume jasmine floral powdery berry and my mom always wore burberry so i feel like i should follow in her back in her path and get the burberry her perfume it looks so good and then just like an everyday smell i guess from my lotion would be i swear by the hemp's sugarcane papaya body moisturizer i slather myself in this shit every single day um it is so hydrating it doesn't

break me out and also it smells incredible it's my favorite someone asked glow up tips please you're so fine literally glowing up is just playing a character it is it's like sitting down at the drawing board asking yourself well starting with what you got who am I right now who is Hannah who are you what you know traits do you inhibit good and bad for better or for worse and then you ask yourself who do you want to be and what traits do they inhabit and what do they grow from and what do they look like and what do they do and what do they practice and it's like these two characters standing side by side and then every single day you have to just show up as the character you want to be talk about main character syndrome literally you just got to show up as the

person you want to be in any sort of situation that you put yourself in and it's just playing a character and then it becomes reality basically once again atomic habits your everyday habits builds you into who you are so if there's an everyday habit that you can include in your daily life that like dream version of you does like what are the daily habits dream version of you um has is it like morning yoga or like a morning walk or they read for 10 minutes with their coffee or you know they're they always put themselves together or they put themselves out there more like literally like a child dream of who you're going to be and then show up as them every single day and then you will blink and all of a sudden you're like literally living the dream

life that you were imagining like a year ago it's insane I do this myself pretty regularly um I love to do self check-ins you know who am I how am I feeling what's going on what can I change what can I grow from what can I add into my life to elevate my life in any sort of way what am I doing that i miss doing what is something new that i can incorporate and then guess what i get up and i fucking do it and that's how you glow up okay and the reason i glow up i feel like constantly is because i'm constantly doing these check-ins so ask yourself what is future you want to make a mood board i literally have like a pinterest mood board that i'm like that i put photos in of things that I want to inhibit in my life whether it's like a cute room or a cute outfit

or a fun meal or like friends having fun or an aesthetic photo I put them in there I visualize it I see something cute a cute idea all these people on a picnic I'm gonna go on a picnic I don't have to just look at these things and be like oh I wish no I can get up and do these things in my every single day life okay imagine who you want to be and then go out there and fucking do it become that girl okay that's literally how you glow up you have to dare to dream and then you gotta dare to do it and then all of a sudden it's like stepping into a new skin if you are mean to yourself if you put yourself down if you are overly critical or overly mean to yourself you are never going to have a glow up in fact you're gonna dig yourself backwards into a hole and trust

me i've been there i've been there okay where it's like i know where i want to go but i'm just so self-depreciating that I am just digging myself into a deep dark hole it is being mean to yourself is never going to get you where you want to go so you got to change that habit in your life stop bullying yourself and start uplifting yourself when you feel like you know oh I'm starting to think about mean things about myself change that thought immediately immediately give yourself five compliments immediately uplift yourself whenever i would compare myself to other girls i would you know the first thought is to think negatively about yourself or think negatively about them as soon as i felt myself thinking that way immediately give that person

five compliments and give yourself five compliments like it has such a way of just like redirecting your brain towards the positive and away from the jealousy away from the criticism away from the self-centeredness you can get through it you always have the choice to move forward you always have the choice to glow up so dare to dream get out in your life take control of the reins step into your character you know it's like being a little girl and stepping into those little princess high heels and you literally become a new person it's like that okay have fun be silly try on new hats try on new pants try on new characters dare to dream and go out and achieve your goals someone asked are bangs worth it i don't know if i can handle the maintenance as you guys know

i'm a bang girly in fact first time i got bangs well actually first time i got bangs my mom gave them to me when i was like three and then the second time i got bangs i was like 20 and i went got bangs and i came home and my mom didn't speak to me for a week she was so mad at me but i was looking so good so i don't really care but she was so pissed that i got bangs and guess what i look good with bangs she just thought my hair was gonna look choppy and i was never gonna take care of them little did she know i've had them for like four years now um and i think bangs are pretty fucking easy to take care of um i cut them at home by myself if you're scared of that just go to a salon they'll cut them for like 10 bucks pretty fucking cheap um and care wise i

shampoo my hair like normal i condition my hair like normal only the ends i oil my hair like normal only the ends and then to style them i use a straightener and you know it doesn't matter how they dry or how you sleep they can look a little crazy you can pin them back if you need and then when you want to have normal brain bangs you just use a straightener to straighten them down and give them a little curl and yeah then you got bangs every single day love it it is kind of brutal in the summer when you're like sweating and then your bangs are like wet and sticky so carry extra bobby pins on you or like extra hair clips um but i love a good hair clip i feel like it's the perfect accessory when i don't want bangs um and i like being able to change it up every

once in a while so yeah i recommend bangs 10 out of 10 if you want to do something with your hair i am i recommend it so much just try it out like you can always dye it back if you're scared you're gonna fuck it up then go to a professional um but yeah dare to just try new things with yourself you'd be surprised how much fun it is and how much inspiration it gives you for life oh someone said drug test detox my friend just did this okay best bet no matter how much you smoke no matter you know how you metabolize it the best bet you are gonna have is you need at least three weeks three weeks clean after those three weeks take an at-home drug test i guarantee you will basically be clean now if you also eat very clean during that time and don't eat fats and sweat and

work out you will metabolize the fats which hold on to the cannabinoids in your body and in turn you will process them and get rid of them faster okay now if you're very short on time you're going to take a little detox you are going to take some b12 so there's still vitamins in your pee that you can test and you're gonna pray that's really all you can do anyways i think that's really it for our podcast i love you guys thank you for being here thank you for being you thank you for being as crazy and uninhibited that i am and thank you for daring to dream and daring to make change in your life i love hearing when you guys are like i finally broke up with him or i finally went after this job or i finally got a job or i finally tried this i love hearing that shit and i'm so happy

that i can help you guys kind of find that within your life i feel so lucky to kind of you know go through this life together and figure it out together um thank you for being here thank you for being you i appreciate you guys so much and be kind to yourself during this time um remember to be patient with yourself and to forgive yourself allow yourself to make mistakes allow yourself to have fun that's what life's about we're all just here trying to figure it out okay have a fantastic rest of your week and i will see you all next tuesday