Smoke Sesh - control freak, favorite things & home for the holidays

Episode Date: November 14, 2023

Happy Tuesday everyone!! So sorry I missed last week but thank you for being so forgiving and giving me a opportunity to take a rest. We catch up and chat taking breaks when you need, my current favorite things that bring me daily joy, financial stability, holiday survival, love languages and how to show people love, control freak and learning to go with the flow, how to stick to routines, sick season, being a new adult, friendship conflict, home for the holidays, when do you need to take a break? comfortable silence, falling in love with yourself, letting your body be a body, body count, and we smoke a little bit before I head out. Love you all so very much and I can’t wait to chat next Tuesday! MUAH!

Listen, everybody needs a fairy godmother, you know? Just somebody to look out for them. Some people call me their fairy smoke mother, others their internet big sister, but you can call me Hannah, the host of Smoke Sash. So come hang out! Let's light up and talk everything there is to life. The good, the bad, the ugly, the embarrassing. I've got a story for it all. Good morning, hotties of the world! Welcome back to another amazing episode of Smoke Sash. I'm so excited to be back with you guys so sorry I missed last week I really really apologize

I just listen we all have our days we all have our moments where it's like I gotta listen to my brain and my body and both are telling me bitch lay down and take a rest and if I don't do that I think my brain and body are going to fully collapse. So it was a little practice in self control, self reliance, listening to my brain and body and acting accordingly. And I'm so sorry I missed it. But sometimes, you know, you just need a day to chill, rest, recover, I wasn't feeling super great, I got on here to start recording. And I felt like the words that were falling out of my mouth were just like random garbage words and it didn't make sense and you know when the vibes are off and you feel it sometimes you got to listen to it and take a step away so hopefully

you guys got to catch up on maybe some episodes you missed um but I'm so excited to be back I'm sure you all are feeling the burnout at some point this past month especially with the holidays coming up with winter you know approaching um end of semesters and I feel like it's just a good lesson that you know if you do feel like you need to take a rest or to take a step away or to just like be more in tune with your body and truly listen to it and what it needs it is important to do so it is important to be in tune not only with your body and your mind and to listen to it and act accordingly not only is it going to build like trust within yourself and like a rapport within yourself I talk about being your own best friend all the time and you know that's a part of

it is being able to listen to these cues that your brain and your body give and to act accordingly um so this is your you know sign that if you need a little rest day if you need a break don't feel bad about it because you know I felt really bad I was like no the girls the girlies you know they want to hear from me they want to hang out but luckily you guys are so amazing and I have built such an amazing community and you guys are so uplifting and forgiving that everybody was just like no girl do your thing we feel you we will see you next week and honestly that made me feel so so loved and appreciated and it was just what I needed but you can give that to yourself as well and if you feel like you need just a day a little rest to step away from the

world for a minute take a little bubble bath lay in bed all day not change out of your pjs it's okay to do so every once in a while i pinky promise the world is not going to end if you prioritize yourself and your rest and your recovery in fact the world will probably feel a little bit better if you do so you know there will be a light at the end of the tunnel you will make it to the end of the path if you do so but when you push yourself and you push yourself and you push yourself and you know you don't listen to those cues from your brain and your body that's when the burnout truly takes a hold and you crash in your burn and girlies we do not have time to crash and burn so listen to yourself provide adequate breaks if needed but i am so excited

to be back with you guys um and i know why you're all here so we'll wrap up this intro very quickly I want to dive into all of your questions and get as many as I can do today done so let's get into it okay first of all you guys were asking me for some of like my favorite things and a favorite things list and I have really been indulging in all of my favorite things recently so I thought like why not get into it I'm gonna make a comprehensive list of you know things that I currently use and I love and things that I'm also asking for for Christmas like a big Hannah's Christmas list and I'm gonna post that on my Patreon but I figured right now I would just share with you guys things that I use in my everyday life that truly bring me like joy and

peace and make my day a little bit easier to get through so first of all my espresso machine you guys hear me talk about that that bitch all the time but me and my espresso machine we are we are besties okay I used to be like you I used to be like you and I used to go out and I buy my six dollar now it's like nine dollar little iced coffee every morning and honestly too expensive with this economy we do not have time for that like starbucks i'm good i don't ever need to go there ever again in my life because guess what i have an espresso machine and if you think about it like mine was on amazon i think it was like 70 but that's going to the coffee shop seven times That's one week of use. Okay, so you immediately get your money's worth. I have had mine for over two years. She still works perfect, amazing, beautiful. And it's the one thing that really gets me up out of bed in the morning is to go make my little iced coffee, little hot coffee drink and whatever flavor that I want.

And you can go to Whole Foods, World Market, get yourself a little fun syrups to put in there, stock up on some oat milk. But when I tell you this coffee every morning probably costs me 10 cents to make and I drink like three of them a day. Yeah, incredible. I love it. So espresso machine is definitely on my list of things that keep me alive and healthy. number two I feel like the way to truly survive winter and like the winter blues is you have to get a little cozy okay especially when you're in your house like feel free to nest a little bit start decorating but specifically like what you are like putting your body in you gotta get a little cozy you've heard me talk about my robes and my robe obsession um I think every girl should

own a robe I love my robes I've actually thrifted a lot of them and I feel like people at first were like that's gross but girl you throw it in a little tub of oxy clean you throw it in the wash it is basically brand new okay I thrifted my robes but also I got a pair of slippers my toes have never felt better okay I have my fuzzy little slippers I got them from Huff so they have like little weed leaves on the front it's adorable um so I got myself little slippers and they are keeping me so comfy especially during the winter with all my hardwood floors my toes start freezing and falling off my body so my slippers are my new best friend as well as I started investing in like matching pj sets I found myself walking around my house and like

oversized t-shirts too much and listen I love a good oversized t-shirt I love a funny tee you know but the matching pj sets I feel like elevate you a little bit and make me feel a little bit more put together even though i still am a hot mess um and i got my pj sets from this company called night sweet thing question mark they're adorable they were so cheap but you can find pj sets anywhere i think i'm gonna get my um boyfriend matching polo pj set for uh christmas i remember during christmas like on christmas eve every year my parents would get me and my brother um pj sets to like wear to bed and like that was like our first gift so it's a little nostalgic makes me super comfy and i feel a little bit less of a hot mess in them next some other tlc

self-care things that i really enjoy when it comes to like hair and skincare you guys have heard me talk about this all the time but that's how you know it's like a tried and true product is the bread hair oil oh my god it actually saved my hair my hair has grown like six inches since i started using it and when i tell you it didn't grow at all before that like i had fried it so bad that it wouldn't grow whatsoever and then i started actually oiling my hair and it has completely fixed the problem and i am obsessed with it it smells like fruit loops it can be used on all hair types love bread um i also use like this face mask called by ole hendrickson it's called the cold plunge pore mask i feel like it's perfect during the winter it feels like

you're rubbing birds bees all over your face has this beautiful rich green color it really feels indulgent um and it actually works well with your skin it's not one of those face masks you're gonna put on and be like oh great it felt good but nothing happened no when i tell you this shit sucks my pores out of my face it's incredible it basically is witchcraft i feel like a signature scent is really important and it's something that i've been trying to focus on um as i've gotten older i have used for the past oh my gosh three years the glossier you perfume and it is the perfect scent the issue is i got it before they did like the not the rebrand but they like reformulated the perfume and i've heard it isn't the same so now i'm kind of in a bind of like

what do i get but i feel like choosing a new perfume is like choosing a new era for your life like what do i want to smell like during this time what who am i stepping into what is future you going to smell like and be like my mom always wore like burberry perfume my dad always got it for her as a gift um so now I'm trying to figure out you know what my new scent is going to be like but if you've never gone into a Sephora and just like high as hell stood around for 45 minutes smelling all the perfumes I really really recommend I don't know why perfume is so expensive nowadays I know there's like replicas that you can buy online I'm sure they're just as great but it is such a fun thing to figure out for yourself and kind of ask yourself like who who do I want to

be what what person do I want to become and who do they smell like now you know I'm a fan of cannabis everything cannabis anything weed love her um and when I buy my bongs or my pieces I always buy them from canna style I love canna style canna style has the cutest pieces the most durable pieces they last forever amazing amazing owners and customer service um i feel like pretty well priced they're bigger pieces that are more expensive are the same price as like my local smoke shop small pieces which i know they're just getting mass produced shipped in no like this company is amazing they make amazing pieces and they're continuously doing new drops with like new themes new items constantly just evolving the um smokers ability to smoke out of cute things and

i love that for them i always smoke out of my strawberry bong she is huge but she is so lovely and beautiful and i'm so thankful for her um also if maybe you get a little bit of anxiety from weed and you're trying to figure out maybe i need a tea break maybe i need to step away from smoking for a little bit cbd okay cbd is your best friend i i keep paz packs cbd gummies on me at all time my favorite is their pomegranate but they're sold out rip but they have this like strawberry lemonade that i've been dying to try um and like half a gummy a full gummy when i tell you i eat one of these and then i just dissociate and deep clean my house for four hours it is perfect no anxiety great chill body feel I love it also if you're looking for a little gift idea their pre

roll packs are so freaking cute and like a perfect stocking stuffer or like extra and a gift for your friends when you're shopping for them this Christmas you can use code code uh oh my god code smoke sesh of course at pazpacks.com for 10% off if you want to try it out I need to be restocking soon and last but not least i love my jelly cats i sleep with my jelly cats every single night if you don't know what jelly cats are jelly cat is like this company that makes soft plush toys and they are the cutest stuffed animals i've ever seen in my entire life and it really just uplifts like younger hannah the younger hannah who lives on inside me because i had the most insane collection of stuffed animals when I tell you there's about seven giant storage tubs in my

parents attic full of my childhood stuffed animals like she was a collector I loved my stuffed animals I always had one on me at all times then you know you grow up you stop using them or hanging out with them and I feel like it kind of I felt like I lost a part of my childhood so now like having more in my life and being like oh a new collection dropped let's look at their holiday stuffed animals and having cute ones around it really just uplifts my spirits and then the perfect cuddle buddy last night I was reading the jellycat like reviews on the stuffed animals and honestly they will make you cry it is adorable everybody needs a jellycat in their life pretty cost effective for how amazingly soft and durable and big they are um I will be getting my

niece and nephew their first jelly cats i probably will be getting myself one for this holiday season i already have like two i need to add to my collection asap but jelly cats are everything to me they're so freaking adorable anyways those are my current favorites i figured we'd do a you know a new list this holiday season get you guys inspired for what to ask for for christmas or maybe little things to indulge in for yourself but I feel like having things that make your everyday life more comfortable and more enjoyable and make waking up and going to bed a little bit easier are the most important things in your life um and I really really like to focus on the little things that bring me just small amounts of joy throughout my day keeps me from completely going

off the deep end anyways someone asked why the hell is it so hard to save up girl we are in a recession everybody out here is struggling so it's not just you i would like to say that if you're listening and you're like hoof girl this financial stability where no one has that right now i think everybody's struggling a little bit and that is okay because we're all in it together okay um we probably will get through this it's giving 2009 recession vibes which means we will get through it everything will settle out eventually we just have to survive the now so do what you can make sure you pay your rent first then groceries then everything else and indulge a little bit every once in a while also speaking of financial stability and not knowing her whatsoever

but hopefully knowing her soon this Christmas and like gifts giving season can be a little stressful especially if you're like holy shit I have to buy 20 presents and I don't have 20 present money I genuinely believe that the amount of money spent does not matter whatsoever I'm not the girl who's like i need a three thousand dollar chanel purse or you don't love like no i don't give a fuck about that because no one has to think about that they can just go out spend money no brain cells used just purchase bought given i love gifts that come with thought okay that come with love handmade hand decorated you put thought and energy and time into this and i can tell and truly that is all that matters to me the worst gifts i have get i have gotten were gifts where i

was like oh wow you didn't think about me whatsoever like at all like i had an ex buy me diamonds but it was in silver and i was like look at me do i look like a silver girly to you why would you ever think that it's just because he thought he could spend money and get off easy no I don't give a fuck think about me think about who I am if you put time and energy into a gift like even if it's time and energy like thrifting me the perfect jacket for ten dollars I will love that jacket until I die literally so don't stress out too much this holiday season understand what truly matters is what comes from the heart okay hi Hannah um so I've been listening to your podcast for quite some time now and you always preach on telling boys what we want and what we deserve

and that we deserve it and I've kind of been doing that with my boyfriend we've been together for almost seven months and things are going well but one of my love languages is receiving gifts I feel very loved when I receive gifts um and it's not like in a spoiled way but I would just love some flowers I I think that's a really romantic gesture and my boyfriend hasn't really ever done that and I do tell him like that I would love flowers and he hears me like I know he listens but he hasn't done it and I I love him so much that like it hasn't really bothered me but it still bothers me so i don't really know what i should do and i would just love your advice so thank you hey babes okay i feel like this is a pretty common issue within relationships which is

you know our love languages don't match up and i'm not gonna sit here and be like if your love languages don't match up you shouldn't be dating because i don't think that's true at all i feel like any relationship can work out it's just what kind of effort do i want to put into this and of course the relationships where you guys do have matching up love languages they might be a little bit easier but it doesn't make anything else invalid do you know what i mean um my boyfriend's love language is very much so acts of service he loves doing things for me like whatever it is if i'm like take out the trash he's like yes ma'am like you know that meme of that man that meme where it's like we're in a when a bad bitch tell me to do something and he's saluting

that's literally him if i'm like babe can you pick me up a soda at the gas station on your way home he's like oh my god it'd be a fucking honor you know and i have although it's not my love language i have noticed it and i do show appreciation for it because it is his but also i'm like you or my love language one of them is i love god what's it called just like gifts i love getting little gifts like being thought of and being surprised with something um and that doesn't come naturally to him that doesn't make him wrong it doesn't make our relationship wrong it just means that you gotta go about it a little differently um and i have found especially when it comes like the whole flowers things where it's like i want flowers but i don't want to have to ask for

flowers because then i'm asking for flowers and then it feels weird because if i feel unloved which is just it's valid but also I understand that's coming from like kind of a crazy place in my brain um I have noticed that you kind of like have to show them how you enjoy being loved and it doesn't have to come from a I want flowers so I'm gonna tell you to buy me flowers kind of way it can come from a place where you are showing love to yourself and in turn the other person person recognizes how to show you love because you are doing it to yourself okay so an example of this could be you know you want flowers but you obviously don't want to ask for flowers so you are going to buy yourself flowers and show up at home with them and be like oh i love flowers i

got them for myself and i just love having them and that like once you do it a few times it literally classical conditions classically classically conditions classical conditions intro to psych person please chime in here um it'll condition them to like recognize that to recognize you enjoy if they're a good partner and smart enough to do this which they should be and if they're not that's when you start questioning things okay you gotta be like showing them literally how you show love to yourself such as oh i'm gonna buy myself flowers or oh i want to take myself out to dinner so i'm gonna go out i'm gonna get dressed up and i'm gonna go out and buy myself dinner um and making it known through your actions and your pure

enjoyment what you love and what you enjoy because men i mean there's some dumb ones out there but they should be smart enough to pick up like what you enjoy and the things that bring you joy and if you show that to them you don't have to tell them if you are just doing these things in your everyday life and showing that to them they should be able to pick up on that and then reciprocate it i feel like if you're a genuine functioning human being you should be able to do that because like we as partners and we as women recognize what our boyfriends like um what our partners like and we take note of that and then we try and reciprocate that in their life because it's what they enjoy you gotta show them what you like and if you like flowers show up at home with flowers

if you like a fancy dinner out go out to dinner get all dressed up if you you know go out with your friends or something whatever it is that you enjoy doing you gotta show show it to them you know and it sucks to kind of tell someone what to do sometimes sometimes it's required if it's not something that's like a big deal but most of the time if you are doing your love language to yourself your partner will pick up on it and also if your partner is too stupid enough to pick up on what you enjoy and your hobbies that's when you start questioning things and being like okay what the fuck like do they know anything about me do they truly care about me is this what i'm deserving of but also i feel like when they just don't they haven't been shown that

like if my partner had a hobby that he never showed me or something that he enjoyed that he never showed me i simply would never know of it but he doesn't have to tell it to me i just simply sit back and observe because i love them you know oh this is a good one someone asked tips on releasing control and going with the universal flow illy i love you so i'm like a mega super control freak and like maybe it comes from my forced hyper independence as a child and being required to just know everything as soon as I came out of the womb and maybe it's not the healthiest thing but I am working on it but everybody in my life knows that I am just like a hyper control freak and it's not like a I'm gonna have a mental breakdown I used to be like

this but luckily not anymore but I'm pretty good about it now where if things don't go my way that's okay but previously like if things didn't go my way in any sort of way or like even just a slight you know idea or thing was off I would just like have the most insane spiral in my head like emotional spiral because it's not what I thought it was going to be and if something isn't what I think it's going to be than simply like I don't matter or that thing doesn't matter and that was like a really negative thought process that I put myself into and getting out of that I simply had to release control the universe really put me through some fucking tests to get to this mindset when you are a control freak the universe I feel like will be like okay well we're gonna put you

through some trials and tribulations so then you will get over this like feeling this thought process and you will learn how to handle this better I was in multiple car crashes multiple breakups dropping out of multiple colleges I was getting in fights left and right I was getting addicted to things left and right and literally it took a while but I eventually got there and the moral of the story here is you will never have full control of what is going on around you ever okay like you're not god you're not the universe you aren't able to decide these things and ultimately decide an outcome now a lot of what we work towards and truly set up for ourselves do happen okay i'm not saying everything you want won't happen but sometimes it won't and

when that thing doesn't happen you simply have to accept and release and the biggest thing I learned going through so many hard times was you will get through it period I feel like when I felt like I was losing control I thought it was the end of the world and I thought like okay so life ends here that's simply just not how it works you will get through it it might be a little hard it might be a little difficult you might have long nights you might cry a little bit but ultimately no matter the situation you are put in no matter how hard how big how small how emotionally you know draining you will overcome it because you are strong you are smart and you are resilient period all you have to do I feel like when you feel like you're losing control is allow yourself

yourself to open up your future again okay so when I felt like I was losing control or like this life path had ended or you know this idea had ended or maybe it didn't go the way that I thought it was going to go I thought like physically I was at the end of a trail and then it was just like woods in front of me there was no other trail to go on like this is the end and there's nowhere else to go but that simply is not correct there's always another path you can take there's always a new idea you can take on you just have to be willing and open to open your future to take a new path to kind of take a step back reconsider rethink game plan a little bit and then move forward because ultimately if that path is ending simply all it means is that

was not for you and it was not for you in the best way possible sometimes it doesn't feel like that you're like girl did I really have to go through that like I'm tired of being God's toughest soldier sometimes you do but ultimately going through things reopening your future for yourself regain planning with yourself and deciding to take a new path it will completely and utterly build this trust within yourself that is unbreakable knowing that you are going to be by yourself and stand by yourself no matter the situation no matter what you go through you will get through you will get to the other side and ultimately you will get on a better path that is such a beautiful feeling to have with yourself and sometimes you're not going to achieve

that until you go through hard things and I didn't achieve that until I went through some trials and tribulations the universe was like girl you got to learn so we're going to put you through two years of hell and listen was it fun no but did I stand by myself and believe in myself and continuously work hard through it to build a good future for myself yes and the outcome was something that I never could have possibly dreamed of but it's better than whatever path I was going down way better. I am so thankful to be where I am today. And that couldn't have happened if I didn't simply believe and trust in myself and allow my future to open back up with new possibilities. It's not the end of the world. I promise you. There's so many different paths and ideas and

things for you to take on. There's an endless amount. So when one path ends, that's okay. you gotta drop the control freak act and you can be a still be a control freak this is how i've realized you can still be a control freak but when you realize that something is ending don't hold on so tightly to that thing hold on tightly to the hope of yourself and lean into something new so you can put that control energy into something new and push yourself into something better instead of holding yourself back in the past you got this i believe in you i pinky promise someone said my under eye bags have been insane not mine but theirs but also mine and i actually just got the most incredible like eye cream and it's so cheap i ordered it on amazon but i'm

pretty sure target carries this brand it's called the okay so it's by good molecules and it's the yerba mate wake up eye gel it reduces signs of puffiness and plump the appearance of fine lines and i used to have like really fine like under eye bag wrinkles and really dark circles and puffy under eyes and this like eye cream when i put it on in the morning it like tightens everything up it is like cooling it's amazing i love it 10 out of 10 recommend someone asked how to keep to your routines I can only ever seem to stick with it for three days max you got to give yourself breaks and you're like girl what I give myself breaks they're just too fucking long I hear you I hear you if I were you and you have a hard time sticking to routine first of all let me tell

you a little concept about the brain here once you do something for two weeks your brain will catch on to it as a part of your routine and it will be easier but those two weeks are gonna suck a little bit. Okay. And if you think about two weeks in the whole entire span of your life, like that's nothing. So you need a full two weeks to be able to build it into your routine and become comfortable with it. It's going to feel a little bit uncomfortable during those two weeks. Number two, you do need breaks. Okay. If you do it every single day for those two weeks, you're probably going to be burnt out at the end of those two weeks. And when that two weeks comes up, you're going to take a lifelong break and never go back to it honestly so maybe for those two weeks do it

every other day okay so you do work out one day one day off work out another day one day off or you work out two days a row and then you have one day off the key here is you never take more than one day off you are allowed one day off as much as you need but you never take more than one day because if you go more than one day then you're gonna break the routine you're gonna break that brain pattern recognition it's gonna be harder to get back to so two weeks at least until it gets a little easier pinky promise a month and it'll be completely part of your routine like you won't even have a second thought about it but if you give yourself at least one day breaks in between or one day breaks whenever you need never more than that I guarantee it'll be a

little bit easier to complete I promise you oh my god yep tis the season how do you survive sickness season I've had the worst cough ever for over a week yeah especially with the holidays coming up and you guys we're gonna see a lot of people soon stuff is gonna start going around whether it's stomach bug flu whatever you have cold cough runny nose when the weather starts drying out and it gets a little colder you're bound to catch something so be prepared okay understand sickness isn't something you can really avoid i mean you can you know prohibit it as much as you can try by washing your hands by not touching things and then touching your face um making sure things are clean not sharing like drinks or silverware or anything like that

even if your friends don't seem sick um those are the best precautions you can take but ultimately like everybody gets sick at some point um and I feel like it comes out of nowhere and then you just feel miserable so here are some things that I like to keep on hand just in case I catch a little you know cough catch a little cold a i love a warm lemon ginger tea especially if you have a cough like you said or if you're a little bit of sore throat warm tea a little bit of honey a little bit of lemon a little bit of ginger that is basically just penicillin in a cup like it is amazing for soothing for easing even if you feel like you've caught a cough from like smoking too much or like just a little bit of irritation from smoking too much i've found warm honey and lemon

and ginger beautiful amazing it's basically just the medicine bowl from starbucks which we do not need to go to but you can make it from the comfort of your own home amazing uh next make sure you keep little heating pads or cooling pads on you if you are prone to fevers or just aches and pains during the winter make sure you keep ibuprofen and mucinex stocked up in your medicine cabinets mucinex specifically if you're a snotty girl like me like i feel like my sinuses must be just like fucking huge because when i get like a cold there is just so much snot that comes out of me and like drips down the back of my throat ew tmi gross but mucinex specifically the active ingredient guafenicin i think you can buy guafenicin as like a mucinex is really fucking expensive but i think

you can buy guafenicin as like a off-brand you know cheaper option and that is basically the active ingredient that breaks down the mucus cells and turns them into liquid so it just completely drains out of your system you but amazing very helpful stock up on tissues that are moisturized when your nose doesn't fall off your body make sure you have plenty of hand cream and lotion and face lotion around you make sure you have um your favorite sick foods just in case you are not able to leave bed keep a frozen pizza in the freezer keep some bagels on hand easy things that you can just throw in cook not have to leave or really put much thought into these are the preparedness things that i do for the upcoming cold flu season i also like to keep

some like blue gatorades on hand just in case i catch a stomach bug um but yeah we will get through this i promise it's gonna be short-lived i feel like every time i catch an illness i'm like this is the end i'm dying no no you will get through it it just sucks a little bit take time to rest decompress make sure you get plenty of sleep make sure you're drinking plenty of water and prepare if you can someone asked tips on transitioning from a teenager to an adult it's hard but also very very exciting i feel like the one thing you really need to understand is so you go from a teenager where you have you're you know you're under your parents roof you're kind of living by their rules you are excited to jump into adulthood but once you jump into

adulthood you're kind of basically a kid again like you kind of regress a little bit but that's honestly in your favor because if you were supposed to jump from 17 to 18 and at 18 you're supposed to be like your parents like act and behave and have the financial stability of your parents that would be bonkers love that would be crazy okay that would be so stressful way too intensive i feel like since you kind of jump from a older kid to now a young adult it allows you more time to discover yourself and to spend time discovering yourself your young 20s honestly all of your 20s are all about discovering who you are as an adult, who do you want to become, and chasing after those goals, making mistakes, allowing yourself to make mistakes, allowing

yourself to try new things, going to new places, taking on new ideas and new perspectives, talking to new people, discovering new ideas. This is what being a young adult is about. so allow yourself to do those things don't be so hard and rigid on your rigid on yourself like you're an adult sure but you're not an adult like i'm 24 i'll turn 25 in june oh scary um and i feel like i won't fully be an adult and like adult adult as in have everything kind of figured out to the point where i feel a little bit more stable until i'm 30 so you have all of your 20s to just play around and discover and that is exactly what you should be doing don't take yourself too seriously but also lean into yourself and learn to trust yourself and

build a good relationship with yourself but that really truly comes from trying new things making mistakes that's how you truly discover new things about yourself so don't be afraid to do so but I see the people who crash and burn the hardest in their 20s are the people who take themselves way too seriously and hold themselves to the standards of like 50 year old adults that's just impossible allow yourself to be a kid you're discovering the world with new eyes with a new openness with a new sense of wonder lean into that that is exactly what you should be doing hi Hannah so I need some friendship advice I've been friends with this girl for a really long time and we've been really close but lately she's been getting really upset with me for hanging out with

other people or hanging out without her and just for some context I'm finishing my last semester of college right now and I also work so I don't have a ton of free time and other friends will be making plans with me like weeks in advance because they know that and she's just never really the one to text me and then when we do hang out she kind of just wants to sit inside her room and she really just can be kind of negative and complain but I do love her it's just that I don't I feel kind of upset that she's mad at me for hanging out with other friends and I want to do stuff with my weekends not just sit in her bedroom I'm running out of time but I just need some advice on whether I should keep this friend um or what I should do love you okay I can see both

people's point of view but i have been in your position before she's obviously lashing out because she feels unloved or like unappreciated um she feels like you are not recognizing her as a friend anymore maybe she's the last choice but also what you stated was very valid a you're super fucking busy like girl we gotta plan ahead and if we do something i would like to go out or maybe we can do something fun inside such as like oh watch our favorite movie or do a craft or like decorating but we can't just sit and do nothing you know but these things have to be communicated to her so unlike the love languages where it's like you can show this person they should be able to catch on this is a very specific problem where just a little bit communication is needed hey girl

I understand if we haven't been hanging out more and that is upsetting and I would like to hang out more but I need ABC in order for this to work is there anything I can do for you to make this process easier send text message or just talk about it and if they're a good friend they should be able to hear you and understand that and be like oh no you're right like maybe just things aren't lining up and it's causing a little bit of conflict but you're a good friend to me and I want to be a good friend to you so we're gonna make this work and i'm gonna hear your needs and you're gonna hear mine and we're gonna work through it and then you know maybe she texts you earlier a couple weeks in advance ask for your schedule and then plan something and then

you can do something that maybe she enjoys which isn't necessarily going out but you do a craft inside or you watch your favorite movies together maybe like decorate sugar cookies like literally anything where it's just like maybe a little bit more introverted you understand her needs she understands yours you work together that's a very mature thing for both you guys to have to come to but I think you need to make the first step of just being like I'm sorry if I'm upsetting you and I would like to hang out more but I need you to work with me as well and stating your needs so then she has an opportunity to be a good friend and hear you out and work with you I think friendships are a delicate balance any sort of relationship is a delicate balance of both people

wanting to put in energy and both people putting in equal energy in communication um so yeah what you just told me i think is very valid and i think you just need to tell her and she should be receptive to it definitely speaking of holidays coming up we're all gonna have to reunite with our families very soon really excited for those awkward small talk conversations when they're like so what do you do and everybody around me is doctors and i'm like i post photos of myself on the internet and i talk about my mental health they're like oh shame shame that's why i don't tell my family anything anymore i'm like i work in social media marketing you know like sometimes you gotta gloss yourself up and avoid the truth a little bit but someone asked how to survive

living back at home for a week after uni i love my family but they can be crazy yeah girl i i feel you i feel you i remember last time i was like really around my family for a long period of time was my cousin's wedding and oh my god that whole time i was like this is why i'm mentally ill like this is why i have emotional breakdowns okay so it's not well it is me but also there is a common denominator here you know and that was a little eye-opening experience but also during that time I really prioritized like myself a little bit of course I was there for somebody else and prioritized that and showed up to that but also when you need a break it's okay to take a break okay you have the family obligations you know Thanksgiving's at three o'clock on this day

or you know christmas dinner is at seven o'clock this day but you have a lot of free time during that time that you're back home so when you do have free time i really i really encourage you to connect back to your younger self you have the opportunity to kind of step back into a younger version of yourself so step back into a younger version of yourself and be a little bit more kind and loving during this time okay i can be a little triggering but now you're old enough to understand those triggers to process them a little bit and to kind of help heal yourself during that time so prioritize like walks away from your family when you get a little bit too overwhelmed go for a long walk go for a run take a drive through your old hometown with your favorite like playlist from

high school you know what i mean connect with your friends who are back home for the holidays as well this is a perfect time to spend time with your friends that you maybe have felt a little bit disconnected from everybody's back home send them a text be like hey what's up when are you free I would love to see you would love to go out for lunch I guarantee you guys will be able to hang out reconnect spend some time together it's very exciting um you don't have to tell everyone everything okay that was something I really had to learn younger um because I would just be like oh yeah blah blah blah blah blah and then I would see this like look of fear in people's eyes like you have to understand that your parents want to hear that you're doing okay but they don't need

to hear the crazy details about you blacking out on a Saturday night unless your parents are cool like that or your aunt and uncle are cool like that or your grandma is then vibes totally but Usually, they just want to hear what you're hopeful for, what you're excited for, and just the good things in your life. And I know that sounds superficial, but maybe I just have a little bit superficial family. Not going to lie. Also, if you find yourself in small talk conversations, you're like, I don't know what the fuck to say here. Ask people questions about themselves. One thing people love to do, talk about themselves.

Always, always. So ask them how they're doing. what are you up to? How's your family? Are you doing anything exciting coming up? I guarantee you will get stuck in a 30-minute conversation that you're not very interested in, but the other person will feel very loved and appreciated, and you won't really have to talk about yourself and your trials and tribulations. That is one of the best family holiday hacks I've ever learned, is to just ask them about themselves. And also, I understand family can get annoying, can get overwhelming can get a little bit tricky sometimes which is why I'm like you know take a walk hang

out with your friends a little bit so you can get some time alone but also if you are lucky to have good parents maybe a little bit overbearing but genuinely trying and good parents they simply just want to spend time with you when you grow up and you leave they start to feel a little bit lost in a sense and they start to want to just spend more time with you and that can feel overbearing in a sense but they just miss you they're your parents you know they're going to miss you and that might come out in the wrong ways it might be a little bit annoying when they're like hey you want to bake cookies with me but sometimes that is the best thing you can do is to just show them a little bit of love if they've shown you so much love throughout their

life you know they probably feel a little bit lost with you gone so they're gonna want to spend a lot of time with you during this time that you're back home so take advantage of it because growing up I feel like I really took advantage of my parents a little bit and you know they were kind and they were loving but I didn't truly appreciate them or spend time with them and I kind of regret that now as an adult and I wish I could go have a movie night with my parents or you know take a step back in time and really help my mom cook dinner one night and just talk with her um so if you have those opportunities and you feel like taking them take them okay but also once again if you do get overwhelmed and you need a break hit up your friends go to your friend's house

go for a walk take a drive down the back roads that you used to drive on your way to high school play your high school playlist get a little nostalgic with it it's only a week it's not forever you will go back to college you will go back to your freedom so while you're here use it to the best of your ability love you I love how this episode has just become like a holidays episode like let's prepare let's truly think through the things we're gonna have to get through in the next couple of months love that for us oh my god someone said they quit weed I'm hoping it brings back any motivation for school a hundred percent it will actually a thousand percent it will listen weed is great and amazing and there's many many benefits but also like i'm

not an idiot and i'm not going to be some dumb weed influencer who's like no there's only positives to weed no anything on this planet can negatively affect you anything okay so if you find that maybe weed is your one thing that's negatively affecting you then let's unpack that and let's work through it and maybe let's take a step away from the weed I listen first year of college in nursing school I was smoking 24-7 I was not showing up to classes I had zero motivation because I just wanted to get high all the time yeah that's not gonna get me the best grades ever and obviously I lost my scholarship really put me into some uh difficult situations but I was able to get my scholarship back and then that next year I was like you know what I am not going to smoke except

for the weekends or like at night after I have everything done and when I tell you when I limited and I put a moderation into my usage my school work was better my attitude was better I was feeling better about myself and better about who I was because I wasn't getting high to avoid the world anymore wow who would have thought literally once you realize you are having like a negative behavioral repetition once you like recognize it you need to stop unpack it and figure out like where it's coming from and how you can combat it because I feel like people who are self-aware and like a little bit too overly self-aware they're like yeah I know I do bad things period but they never put into action on fixing those bad things you girlies are so

self-aware and so you guys know so much about yourself inside and out if you're anything like me you know your bad habits you know your good habits you know every single thing about yourself so unpack the bad habits you have the ability to work on them to reinforce your life in a positive way to make a change to take on a new positive habit you have that opportunity and that skill so do it I dare you I dare you you know make a change in your life do better um you can do that and if you feel like weed is negatively affecting you it probably is period and a tea break isn't going to be the worst thing in the world if anything if you feel like weed is negatively affecting you and you feel like you're in this like cycle in this loop a tea break will make

you feel better it'll be a hard change like any sort of new um ritual is but you can get through it and you can get to the other side once again i really recommend cbd as like a replacement for weed if you just like the ritual aspect of weed like sometimes girl i just love the feeling of like rolling a joint and going outside and having a break to smoke it well guess what you can still do that but with something healthier something that's not going to completely numb your mind to a point where you are just like a zombie which has a great effect at some point but sometimes it's not necessarily needed um so listen to your body take a tea break if needed and i guarantee if you feel like it's negatively affecting you and your school work taking a step away will help i

promise someone said how is it normal to feel like you've run out of things to talk about with your partner yes this is normal in any sort of human relationship that you're gonna build and i feel like the true ones that last to the end of time the true good relationships friendships whatever it may be that last are the ones that you can sit in silence and it's comfortable you know i don't know what they call it shit it's like co-play maybe that's what it is where two people can be in the same room and they're not necessarily act like interacting but they're doing their own thing next to each other and that in turn like provides the sense of security and safeness that is truly what i believe makes a good relationship like the friendships and like it'll be a little

uncomfortable at first sure because you just feel the urge to fill space and you feel the feel the urge to fill conversation but allow yourself to sit in silence allow yourself to enter that just zone of comfortable existence that is truly the most bonding the most comforting the best experience you can have with another person on this planet in my opinion someone asked how to fall in love with yourself and actually i found this really beautiful post on tumblr that i thought i would read to you guys because i've really been getting back into the whimsicalness of social media and the inspiration that it can bring i remember using social media when i was a teenager and like instagram was brand new tumblr was brand new pinterest was brand new and all i

really used it was to scroll at 1-2am at pictures and ideas and truly dream about my future life and I lost that and I'm trying to get it back so I've really been using Tumblr a lot and Pinterest a lot more recently because TikTok has kind of sucked lately it has been awful and I know it's because so like the servers that we use for TikTok are not the servers that everybody else used for TikTok because they went through that whole lawsuit and they moved them from overseas to a U.S. based location which means the U.S. has control of the TikTok algorithm the TikTok feed and that's why we see so many videos getting like re-put back up on our feed that we've already liked or already have seen like it's like deja vu in a sense um or we're getting pushed certain

videos like I feel like I get a lot of mukbang videos now specifically like American food mukbangs and I'm like this is a little too dystopian for me so let me regress back to the apps that truly make me feel good and that is tumblr tumblr tumblr has so much whimsy on it I get so inspired from tumblr there's way less rules on there too love it anyways someone asked like I said how do you fall in love with yourself and I wanted to read this text post because I thought it was amazing it is by user stuck in april shout out but she said you need to unlearn the idea that confidence is conceit i see this belief imposed on women especially that if they're very unapologetic about loving themselves it automatically means they're narcissistic slash think they're better

than everyone else that is not true at all you can love yourself while also acknowledging you're not inherently better than anyone else you can love yourself while also being kind and supportive to others it's okay to be both of these things at once you need to let go of the scarcity mindset women everyone really but especially women get pitied compared against each other all the time you see it with female celebrities in the media but it's very prevalent in real life as well this is very much years of societal conditioning and both women and men partake in this behavior ignore it rest easy knowing that there are can be multiple beautiful women multiple smart women multiple funny women in any environment at any given time there is enough clout to go around

you don't need to feel like if there's another pretty smart girl it means you no longer have the space to also be pretty smart girl instead operate from an abundance mindset always and i mean always be happy for other girls when they succeed when they're praised when they're loved whatever see them not as competition but as inspiration envy is such a colossal waste of time because nobody else else's accomplishments have any bearing but your own get to know yourself more I love the analogy of dating yourself because it's true I went through a rough period of being around my ex 24 7 to the point I didn't even know myself and then I spent the post breakup year hanging around everyone else constantly to numb my thoughts now I'm spending more time alone than

ever and I'm getting to know myself so much learning about my taste in fashion music everything and I've had so much more time to invest in my hobbies and skills, which is very instrumental to building healthy self-esteem. Of course, there's a more balanced way to do this, but make sure you're not running away from yourself. What do you like outside of everybody's opinion? Don't interpret this the wrong way. It's completely fine to be inspired. Every single person you know has copied someone else to an extent, but if you find yourself going too far, not trusting yourself to make the simplest decisions, just following trends blindly and nothing else, you've left the inspiration territory and started crossing into plagiarism. Move from a place of self-direction

and really think about what it is naturally appealing to you. It doesn't matter if it's not popular or nobody else likes it. If you like it and it makes you happy, that's all that you need. Practice self-love. I had to do this, but it works wonders. I started intentionally telling myself that I trust my own taste, that I trust my own choices, that if I think something's cool, it's good enough thinking to myself or talking to myself kindly etc eventually all this stuff will become natural to you and you won't find yourself having to expend so much energy into simply loving you for you don't give up even if it's hard to believe at times simply don't give a fuck seriously just don't give a single fuck what someone else has to say there's always that

one person who tries to tear you down belittles you gaslights you etc and if you know in your heart you're not doing anything wrong, just ignore it and keep it pushing. You can't be everyone's favorite person, nor should you want to be. Think of your favorite celebrity, anyone ever. They probably all got subjected to hate. Now think of how they're successful still and how it didn't take anything away from them. There you go. If literally everyone on this planet starts hating you, loving yourself is still the antidote. To clarify, how others perceive you does not hold wait but if legit every single person I know started hating me and I still love myself I'd probably still live a full life because my perception is all that really matters in the end

I don't need anyone else to be my number one fan I can do that myself just fine it technically is actually your world and everyone else is just living in it so enjoy that stop giving a hard time to the one person who will always be with you through thick and thin yourself eat good food watch good shows read good books just have fun I love you hey Hannah love you appreciate you love all the baddies listening I want to ask how to step away from fixating on my physical appearance because lately I've been pretty worried about how I look when I'm just going about my day I've been looking at myself in reflections a lot like store windows mirrors you know and I've been taking just kind of too many pictures like when I feel I look good which is nice you know it has

a time and a place but it's as if I want to cement myself looking good in my own mind because I think I attach a lot of my self-worth to my physical appearance and I want to learn how to live my life you know aware of my physical appearance but not consumed by it um so if you have any tips regarding that please share love you i truly believe learning to view your body as simply a human body rather than a standard as a woman is a very important skill to learn and to consistently practice throughout your life especially with the standards we're given and the kind of way we are forced to view ourselves more from the third perspective rather than as something something that's simply existing and carrying our soul um is very important um and it's something that i

am trying to get into more because i wish i would have gotten into it earlier um and for me personally the way i'm learning to view my body as a body as something that is a structural form that i have taken on something that helps me get through every single day that keeps me functioning is and I know you might hate to hear this is working out I know I know whenever I'm like having a hard time and someone's like just hit the gym I'm like I will punch you in the fucking face but I feel like specifically when it comes to viewing your body more as a body and rather than a standard that you need to live up to or a certain achievement you need to make is to view your body in the way it needs to be as in a functioning form that is carrying you through

this life and the best way to ultimately do that is to move it to strain it a little bit to test your limits whether it's running whether it's a little yoga video meditation for 10 minutes on youtube i've been doing like 15 to 30 minute pilates videos on youtube um whether it's just going for a walk outside simply allowing your body to be a body and to feel it and interact with it in the form of a body is a great way to like recondition your brain into thinking of it differently and then you start appreciating it more for what it does for you and you know the soreness of your muscles and the strength of your you know calves or your arms or even just like your neck anything starting to view it and appreciate it for a body and what it provides

for you there rather than a standard and things to live up to is a very important skill to hone in on and the only way to do it is to actually interact with it like that um and i've been trying to think my way through it for a long time and be like oh no i can just you know change the way i you my body and that's true I can but I do think interacting with it in a sense of actually using your body to its full fullest extent that you can is a very amazing way to instantly get you into that mind space and to appreciate your body for that way um and I hate to say the people who are like go to the gym are right because I will never be like a power lifter or anything like that i wish i can only do my little 30 minute pilates videos but it still makes me feel good

you still get that instant dopamine hit which is going to also um uplift that thought pattern that healthy thought pattern it's going to have a uh positive reinforcement behind it you're also going to kind of get a break from the real world for a second which is really nice um it it starts to become your everyday escape um and it really does help with the way you view your body so i hate to be like go for a walk or get a yoga mat and start practicing yoga or just go to the gym if you need to get out of the house but i do truly think it helps especially in this situation oh my god i have the worst cotton mouth this is also your sign to drink water i know you girlies are dehydrated and drinking water the is the most important in the morning like i have the

bad habit of not drinking water until the night and then i'm like chugging water to catch up you gotta have your brain function all day and you've got to fuel it in the morning so drink some water okay love you oh my god i'm having realize realize realize you know i'm having that moment someone said struggling separating being feminine from being materialistic holy shit i kind of never thought about that and i'm having a lot my brain is like imploding on myself because you're so right the amount of tiktoks i get where it's like christmas list here's all the things i want or here's my wish list at any point in the year or here's my haul of 100 different things i bought or you cannot live without this one cent you cannot live without

this one clothing item you cannot live without this one way to do this one thing and then it changes every fucking week there's so many standards that we have as women have to live up to not only like smarts wise but also beauty wise but then also like materialistic wise and i feel like that's really imposed on us especially like during middle school where it's like or even high school where it's like if you don't have the lululemon leggings you're nothing i remember when I was a kid like if you didn't have Uggs you're nothing like bitch my parents couldn't afford Uggs I got the off-brand bear paws you know like I could not afford Uggs and I feel like that was a really good learning period for me because I don't have those shoes anymore like sure they

come back into fashion and stuff but was that really such an important thing for me to have no not really like did it make or break my social standards during middle school no not really did i need that hundred two hundred dollar pair of uggs not really do i ever need these things not really not really not me giving a favorites thing list listen i'm just trying to inspire you guys and truly be real with the things that bring me joy but also like true why is our femininity so tied up in like the things that we consume and the need to consume more and more and more I feel like I've really tried to combat this recently especially just like during the whole Palestine conflict and not knowing like what companies to support or like which companies

to avoid I feel like I'm just gonna not spend money whatsoever unless it's like second hand or thrifted like all these big corporations get so much fucking money every single year specifically during this time and like Black Friday time and I'm just sick of it like I don't have the money to spend i don't have the energy to do it and i know like a year from now this item that i'm gonna buy is gonna have no real meaning to me whatsoever so i might as well just go to the thrift store and spend three dollars on an item to get that kind of like listen girls i gotta get my fill in on my shopping spree rush but i'd rather spend three dollars at a thrift store on something and give it kind of a new life a new resurgence of life then buy the new it thing the

new you need this thing um that is not gonna mean anything for me a year from now also all the things on my favorites list are things that I have had for over a year they so they do mean something to me but that's like a small majority of the things that I've purchased throughout the year and I've really been trying to combat my spending habits especially being in the recession that we're in like I don't need to have the urge to spend all my money on all these different things um and I feel like TikTok pushes it more than anything Instagram I'm usually just finding cute pictures cute poses clothing outfit inspiration Pinterest I'm usually finding uh outfit inspiration and not things that I need to buy more so like how am I gonna put this outfit together from the clothes

in my closet like what can I use in my closet to put together a cute outfit um like home inspiration decoration ideas um cute pictures cute art ideas and then tumblr is all about the poetry the words the fun collage pictures i feel like it's just a little diary for me but tiktok i have really tried to distance myself from that app lately because the over consumption that is rampant on that app is just too too much for me honestly and yeah you don't need to consume you don't need the newest thing to be the this idea of like femininity and to be this idea of the current it girl you the true it girl in the world is what you make of it it's truly who you are what you want to embody the ideals you want to take a hold of um and i feel like removing the materialistic

ideals from your sense of self is very very important so little challenge for the week ladies don't spend money on unnecessary things challenge for me literally every week someone said thoughts on body count recent partner shared his and i don't know how to feel since mine is one i'm assuming i mean anything over one i think feels high especially if you only have one that's why i body count and like asking body count and sharing it is such a young person move because i don't know i don't know i feel like that is just a information that never ever needs to be shared ever to your partner because it's only going to be only going to cause a little bit of conflict it's only going to cause self-doubt self-worth issues it's only going to cause

the other person's partner to overthink and i don't think you guys ever need to share body count with each other if a man ever asks you to share his body or share your body count with him run run as listen i'm run as far as you possibly can i'm begging you that is the biggest red flag ever ever but i also understand like it maybe like casually slips out or comes out in conversation randomly and now you're stuck with this information that you can't overthink about and when you get stuck with that kind of information about your romantic partner that you're just like ah oof you know you have that kind of feeling about a you can talk to them about it and be like let's unpack this or b you can just choose to forget for your own sake of mind

sometimes you can just choose to forget because ultimately like you're dating they're with you the past really does not fucking matter whatsoever and if they are making the past your problem that's a red flag please please run run as far as you can if they're like you're not like my ex or you know i've slept with all these people and they've done this and you don't ah i'm like losing my mind right now having to think about that don't share body counts with your partners though but if you are stuck with that information girl I would just choose to willingly forget you know I don't think body count really has anything to do with anybody's internal world or sense of worth or um anything really relative to a healthy relationship what really truly matters

is how they treat you how you feel in this relationship do you feel loved do you feel you know uplifted do you feel safe those the things that really matter body count that does not matter whatsoever honestly girl if he's been with a lot of guys he knows what he's if he's been with a lot of people he should know what he's doing so you should have a blast period someone said if you see this you have to hit the bong okay okay fine if i have to you know since you're making me no i'm about to cook some lunch and i really need to smoke a little before i start munching away so let's smoke together this has been a really fun episode of the podcast time flew by today and it was a really nice you know returning episode me missing

a week I'm like I'm returning back and I haven't missed a week since um when I was in Mexico for my birthday and um just the times didn't add up I was in Mexico and I couldn't record a podcast so honestly I feel like I was deserving of one little week especially with the holidays coming up sometimes we need a little brain break before tackling what winter provides us you know thanksgiving is next week what the f also am i the only one i don't know why i never got taught this or maybe i wasn't paying attention to school in school i think that's probably the biggest answer i just wasn't paying attention in school um thanksgiving is always on a thursday every year it's always on a Thursday it's always the like second to last Thursday of the month or something

so that was a new realization for me listen constantly learning new things love that about life but yeah with Thanksgiving coming up and the holidays just around the corner it's nice to kind of give yourself a break before having to jump into all the festivities also I feel like the one way to really survive the holidays and truly enjoy them and not make them a full shit show is to get into the nostalgia of it all you know decorate your space hang up like ornaments on the tree you know get a little mini tree for your apartment if you can watch your old favorite christmas movies the movies you would always watch at home you know take advantage of the times where your parents want to hang out with you especially if you're at college and you don't see them

like often you know go do things with them go spend time with your childhood friends spend time in your childhood bedroom um and enjoy it because i don't have my childhood bedroom anymore i have my parents but it's a new house a new place i can't re-enter that realm and i really wish i could and the only ways that i can kind of re-enter that space now as an adult is to indulge in the nostalgia of it all so dare to have a little fun you know get a little creative host like a night with your friends where you decorate sugar cookies or you know do a friends giving where everybody brings their favorite food um get back in touch with old friends get back in touch with your family as much as you can handle take breaks when needed that's really the key to

surviving but anyways let's hit this bong and i'll let you guys go on with your day cheers whoa anyways with that being said i have to get on with my day and i have to get this out to you guys so thank you all for being here thank you all for submitting your wonderful beautiful questions hanging out with me a little bit it has been a fucking blast i love spending my tuesday afternoon with you guys every single week it is so beautiful to be able to experience this life alongside you hopefully i can provide some laughs some encouragement some uh answers along the way that's really my only goal as we take this journey that is life together it was fantastic having you guys here today take a bowl for me or do something nice for yourself in honor of me i would love for

you guys to if not take one thing away from this just it being listen to yourself take care of yourself honor and trust yourself love you all so much i will see you all so very soon