Smoke Sesh - crazy selfish bitch, porn, aging, & pregnancy scares

Episode Date: February 7, 2023

Happy Tuesdayyyyyy, so excited to be back with you cuties for another fun and chaotic episode. Todays episode is fueled by way too much caffeine and some fun chaotic questions. We jump right in with talking about getting piercings, vaginas and pregnancy scares, porn and how it ruins men and how to support ethically, shrooms & how it helped with understanding identity, not trying to box yourself in, you’re the main character but you’re not simple, breakups and creating the breakup bucket list, nicotine is killing your skin and how to quit, being a crazy selfish bitch and owning it, media and how to consume positive media, cones vs bowls debate, presentation anxiety and group anxiety, saying no, saying yes, and finding the power in both, and finally aging and letting yourself age naturally, as well as much much much more, thank you guys so much for hanging out with me today if you wanna catch up more find me on instagram @ hannahmarlene and my patreon for extras and daily updates. Love you all and I’ll see you next Tuesday! MUAH!

Listen, everybody needs a fairy godmother, you know, just somebody to look out for them. Some people call me their fairy smoke mother, others their internet big sister, but you can call me Hannah, the host of Smoke Sash, so come hang out, let's light up and talk everything there is to life. The good, the bad, the ugly, the embarrassing, I've got a story for it all. Hello, good morning, how the hell are we all doing today, are we surviving, are we feeling okay? Are we powering through those crazy full moon dreams that I have been having? And I'm sure a bunch of you guys have been having as well. Really getting in the way of my sleep schedule

these full moons. I don't know if I can handle it because I really, really need my sleep. That is for sure. Not much to update you guys on. I've just been powering through life. I'm sure like a bunch of you guys have been doing as well. Haven't really had any super self-sabotaging behaviors lately, so I've just been chilling. Nothing crazy to update you guys on. I'm just a normal girl in a normal world, working my ass off and getting as much sleep as I possibly can. Smoking a little weed along the way. Anyways, yeah, no, I've just been preparing for for um valentine's day which will be fun but mostly because i'm going on vacation um in a week i leave on valentine's day and i'm gonna be gone for about

yeah a full week um it'll be really good i'm going to seattle and portland salem area so if you guys have any recommendations feel free to send them my way a few of you guys already have so i really fucking appreciate that because i have no idea where to go what to do in those areas if you have any thrift places that you like cute little coffee shops anything like that please please throw them my way okay i love your guys's recommendations when i went to california the last time i went which was like my last vacation um so many of you guys said or gave me so many great ideas and things to do and they all turned out fantastic so i really appreciate your guys's insight um just feel free to send them to my dms at hannah marlene on

Instagram but yeah no I've really just been prepping for that um we're gonna have a usual podcast next Tuesday um I'm just gonna pre-record because I am gonna be on vacation and then I'll be vlogging and giving little updates um as I'm on the trip if you guys are interested on my Patreon um which is I believe under Smokesesh Shadi or Smokesesh or Hannah Marlene I can't remember it's linked in my Instagram bio but if you want some extra content it'll be there and then um the week after that so in three weeks I know that's a lot if you just want to simple updates follow the Instagram I will always update you guys daily there um but there will be no podcast on Tuesday because I'll be flying back in and I'll be a little busy but

there will be one on Thursday possibly a little video episode um depending on what I have the energy for what i'm feeling the vibes for that day so still gonna release the podcast one's gonna be a couple days late but hey i'm always showing up for you guys showing out and i've been getting a new wave of inspired energy for this show because i've been binge watching sex in the city oh my god my mom used to watch the show all the time when i was younger but i was always like young and a child and i was like i don't want to fucking watch this like i had no clue what it was about um so finally watching it and honestly love so good love the like kind of the way that they inside it with a bunch of people's different perspectives while also coming from one person's

perspective or a group of girls perspectives and also the fashion the fashion is so good and it's really got me in a ebay binge which is bad so maybe i need a break from it but been getting very inspired lots of fun things coming your way from me from with love but yeah with that being said that's really all i've got to catch you guys up on um and i have so many fucking questions to get through i asked for longer ones and more call-ins so i really want to get into those so let's not waste any more time let's dive right into it hi hannah so i was just listening to your most recent episode i just want to say i love you and you were talking about getting a belly button piercing and i just have to say support from me 100 to all of my girlies who

are thinking about getting a belly button piercing fucking do it okay for me i was always so insecure about my tummy because like i have a bigger torso and i'm okay with it now it honestly like my belly button piercing made me more confident and showing my stomach like a my boyfriend thinks it's high i think it's cute you can get little dangly ones you can get it pierced from the bottom from the top and it heals so fucking easy there's gonna be some crusties um but as there is with all piercings i so so recommend get that fucking belly button piercing babe ah this is how i felt about my nipple piercings like they really just oof confidence upwards of course you have like a small panic timeline with any sort of body modification where you're like oh my god what

did i just do but usually that doesn't last very long and then you're like love this is incredible and the best thing about piercings if you really don't like them you can take them out but that's how i felt with my nipple piercings they really just up the confidence um and yeah i like my belly or whatever i just have a tiny itty bitty belly button so i'm kind of worried what it would look like but I've been really craving a new tattoo or a new piercing or something of the sort I'm entering a little bit of a chaos era um which is good like a healthy chaos not like the chaos I used to lean into which was just uh a self-sabotage I would like to say um I'm trying to just lean into the freedom of life and the choices that we have and give myself

more choices so maybe you'll see me with a belly button piercing soon i mean bikini season is coming up that would be incredible to have we shall see i i really want one okay you know what you sold me someone dm me and said i need nurse hannah on the case because i don't have a gyno oh my okay i've been having vaginal cramps nowhere near my period do you have experience with this i looked up my symptoms and all that it said was pregnancy that's the worst fucking thing about being a woman and looking up any sort of symptoms your neck could hurt and you would look it up and it'd be like you might be pregnant and it's like what no no no no no no I rebuke that I do not want that negative energy anywhere near me you're probably not pregnant it's just always like a

random symptom that comes up no matter what or symptom I don't know random kind of explanation that comes up no matter what as a woman they're always just going to be like you're pregnant ignore that if you actually think you're pregnant or like are genuinely very worried about it best thing you can really do is just immediately get up and go buy a pregnancy test immediately you're gonna have closure like in seconds okay so if you're actually worried about that go go get a pregnancy test but listen vaginas are weird they're temperamental they do not always behave exactly how they should because we're taught you know we go in cycles and the cycle should be even your period should last a pretty you know normal amount of days and it should be a pretty normal

amount of blood but then like one week you're gushing blood like a waterfall and the other week oh my god I don't have a period but I'm not pregnant what's going on why is my body doing this and yeah vaginas are just very temperamental the same with hormones they're not always going to be very even very steady perfectly on track um me personally yeah I have been there where like I will get random vaginal cramping when i'm not on my period and usually that is during your ovulation phase cramping is very normal when your body is releasing an egg and the egg is dropping down into your uterus where it is now readily available for um implantation so that could be the cramping that you're kind of oh my god i'm not my period but why am i cramping

um and also like i said they're just temperamental sometimes they just randomly cramp out of nowhere but it's them kind of doing their own internal processing internal cleaning um and as long as they're not extremely painful extremely debilitating getting in the way of your day then i would say you're probably okay normal fine healthy um now if it is getting in the way of your day you know you are experiencing pain go find a good doctor a doctor who's going to vouch for you who's gonna listen to you who's not gonna push your problems aside i feel like a lot of doctors when it comes to women are very quick to be like oh you're just a woman and it's like no no no i need a solution what the fuck are you saying to me um so take some time uh like searching through

doctors look at reviews i took time with my guy right now and i love her she's amazing um but if you are experiencing like debilitating issues when it comes to your daily life or sex life go see a doctor they know way more than i could ever give you information on and find one that you trust so then you actually feel like you're building a connection not only with your body but with another womanly professional and i also as a woman really recommend finding another female gyno um i have nothing against men uh i just have trauma and i do not need any more men down there especially because i'm like what do you really know other than what you've learned in textbooks I need somebody who has a lived experience in this okay so having a woman which has always

been a big comfort to me to go see because I feel like I'm just going to an older sister and being like hey what's going on but also like you have multiple degrees and a background in this and amazing reviews please fix me you know um but yeah vaginas are weird they're gonna give you a little bit of issues here and there and they're not always going to be on track with what you might be expecting as long as it's not like debilitating or getting in the way of your day your week whatever then it's just a part of having a vagina unfortunately but yeah love you speaking of pregnancy scares some girlie said she has one literally like i said go get a test go take it just and honestly get like three or four if you're actually genuinely afraid like that man

has been coming in you raw and you're on no birth control or birth control that you know has a percentage of messing up just like have some on hand especially if you've like an anxiety disorder like i do oh my god the amount of pregnancy scares i have gone through even just like oh my god i haven't sex in a month but i still think i'm pregnant like i just psych myself out so bad the amount of times i have made my friends sit in a grocery store bathroom with me while i take a pregnancy test is unmatched and guess what every single time i don't have a baby thank god thank god but literally just buy a bunch have them on hand because if you are pregnant sometimes they do say no and then sometimes they do say yes it depends on like the time you take them so take one

give it a few days if you're still nervous take another then by then if they're both no you will be good you know what i mean but pregnancy scares fuck the worst feeling ever especially as a woman um yeah so sorry to my friends who i've had to drag with me to many places to buy a pregnancy test um but also i think there's just like a really healing bonding moment you can have with your friends by just you know being like holy shit this is a moment i'm never gonna forget let me include the girlies in this you know what i mean um yeah oh my god i remember one time i was buying a pregnancy test and the cvs lady grabbed my hand held it and said no matter what you will be okay and i was like oh my god girl what like i appreciate the sentiment and the you know i appreciate the

words of encouragement but i feel like that's something that someone would do if i really am pregnant you know and then i took it and i wasn't thank god but best thing you can really do a get on some fucking birth control okay get get on birth control please god birth control uh regular visits to your gyno okay std tests and then also have some um pregnancy tests on you just with you all right especially if you have an anxiety disorder like i do where i'll just be laying in bed even if I hadn't had sex in months I'll just be laying in bed I'm like but what if but but what if you know like psyching yourself out just have a few on you yeah I'm just reckless and the amount of times that like I have have had unprotected sex and then been like yeah I'm probably pregnant

from that is a lot don't be like me I'm telling you this because I don't want you to be like me okay please god get on good birth control date good men and buy some pregnancy tests in bulk from costco that's all i can really tell you oh okay i've talked about this once before but i feel like it's a good thing to bring up again um what are your thoughts on watching porn in relationships i'm really struggling over here also someone asked um a very similar question they said hey bestie wanted to send an idea for the pod would love to hear your take on internet porn and its effects on society slash men and violence towards women women love you always here's the thing i support sex workers i support sex sex workers 100 million thousand percent you got

only fans love you you're in the porn industry love you get your bag do what you need to do i hear you i support you i will always be a fan of women doing whatever they want with their bodies but you have to understand that the porn industry as a whole and porn in general especially when it comes to free porn is extremely damaging and very harmful to men and has a amazing track record of bringing or of making men extremely hostile towards women aggressive towards women and like sexual deviance which is extremely annoying and not great but that is i think mainly because we fall into porn at a very young age especially because people growing up around my age and probably your age anything from like 18 to like uh 30 we were around the time where we had

unrestricted internet access from a young age so we probably found porn at a young age where our brains were just beginning to process and develop and the porn that we were consuming was free which is not great because a lot of the porn out there is not regulated and is not like on a set with consent forms with you know people making sure that everybody's comfortable people making sure there are std checks in the back uh they don't show you that stage of consent in porn where it's like hey yeah I agree to having this done and having this done and I don't like this so please don't do this and you know here's my STD screening and let's talk about consent and let's have a conversation before we jump right into it no what they show us is immediately men and women

just going at it or men and men or women and women whatever you know it's none of that before stuff that is like the most important part of sex um we just see the sex part and a lot of porn is very violent and degrading towards women a lot of it and a lot of these young men start consuming porn and women i i was a person who consumed porn at a young age um like 11 10 11 is probably when I first found it um but you start consuming it as at a age where your brain is just developing and also in the United States we don't have a good sex education basically they sit you down they're like you have a vagina don't have sex or you're gonna get pregnant and die and then with men they're like yeah you're gonna need to jerk off a lot that's literally all they tell you

so you're getting your sexual information from porn which is not great because a lot of the porn out there is revenge porn uh porn that you know women may have felt coerced into porn where they aren't comfortable in it um and we are consuming that and being like oh this is fine because you know it's porn no no no no no i have so many things that i want to say and my brain is literally just going in circles safe to say a lot of these men are fucked up because of it um and i have been in this situation where it's like you know i'm having sex and out of nowhere like he slaps me across the face and i'm like why the fuck would you ever think that is okay like i get it if you're kinky whatever but we didn't have a conversation about this and all of a sudden i'm getting hit

in bed what the fuck do you think you're doing and the simple answer is they're like oh well i saw it in porn so it should be okay no no no no no no a lot of this could be solved with just like restricted internet access and people actually paying attention to their children um giving good sex education and not teaching abstinence in school and also um ah that's literally it that's literally all you need those two simple things but no we didn't have it so a lot of these men grew up watching these things consuming these things and um assume that these behaviors are normal and women enjoy these things and like hey listen i'm a little fucking freak i am a freak bitch okay i like to get into some weird nasty stuff but let's have a conversation beforehand let's not assume

that these things are okay to do in bed without consent okay when you are having sex it is a very vulnerable position for both you and the man and a lot of men after consuming porn where there's such a severe power dynamic of men just essentially using women however they want that's how they believe sex should work and that is not how sex works whatsoever okay because if that's how you approach sex where men can use women however they want dump them leave turn off the computer fucking wipe their dick off and move on with their day someone is going to be hurt okay because that is not how sex should be that is not how we should approach sex sex is amazing it is brilliant it is an incredible way to um build intimacy between you and a you and a partner

and to get to know each other and to explore the world together as well as exploring your bodies and what you like and pleasure and it is so incredibly beautiful but i think porn has ruined a lot of young men's minds absolutely so when it comes to porn nowadays i honestly really really support men buying only fans i think that is a incredible wonderful thing to do if you're single if you're single hello if my man was subscribing to an only fans girl i'd be like bitch what the fuck you know like we don't need to be doing this right now you have a girlfriend you can come find me tell me your secret fantasies we'll do it and if you're a girlfriend who's like no my man can watch other girls do whatever you have a little bit of an open relationship

amazing wonderful I have different I'm a little too controlling but it's fine because I'm aware of it and I say these things and I have boundaries and you know if my partner didn't agree with them he could leave me and that's that's fine that's his prerogative but I have rules and boundaries in place um but if you're single male out there buy only fans support these women okay they are doing it on their own terms making sure they are safe making sure the content that they are putting out is content that they enjoy that they want to spread to the world they're not in these horrible awful contracts that you know some porn director has written up um or maybe you know someone went against their boundaries during a porn shoot but hey who cares we still need to make a buck off it

let's upload it on Pornhub that's fucked up I feel like a lot of these things men watch and they assume oh well this is a normal way to behave but you don't see this like the subtle interactions um that make it so you understand that hey there is some weird power dynamic here and obviously the girl is uncomfortable and the older I've gotten and the more I've kind of seen this well the older I've gotten the more I have seen this especially like you know I would see a porn video and I'd be like that girl is very obviously uncomfortable and I can tell because I have been a girl in that situation and why is this video have a million fucking likes on Pornhub right now when I can look in that girl's eyes through this fucking screen and see that she is

uncomfortable but millions of these people are watching this video and thinking that this is okay and this is hot not great so if you were going to consume porn i honestly really recommend supporting sex workers supporting only fans buying that okay when it comes to a relationship in my personal opinion i like i don't have time to watch porn in a relationship oh my god like i have all this stuff I need to do during the day um and then like I get home I make dinner my boyfriend comes over if I want to fuck we fuck and then I fall asleep like that's my day I don't have a lot of I don't have a lot of time to be sitting around watching porn um so if your boyfriend is a chronic porn watcher he's probably also a sex addict um and he's but I feel like sex addiction comes from

the stimuli that you get and the serotonin you get after jerking off um which like listen if your if your boyfriend wants to jerk off do whatever fine that's wonderful but porn's a different thing um in my personal opinion some girlies are okay with it that's wonderful that's amazing you really have to think about your boundaries within your own self and you have to stick by them okay however you feel you have to stick by that and stand up for yourself me personally like i don't i don't need to watch porn i'm good and i would assume my partner's the same but if he does like i don't want to hear about it i don't really care and also it's not getting in the way of our relationship if he is because i have never seen it um but if this is something

that you're coming into where he is constantly consuming and consuming it's consuming you have to really start thinking about like okay this is a porn addiction um this is probably a serotonin like stimuli addiction like this is stuff that you need therapy for straight up this is not something you can fix as a girly by giving boundaries saying hey i don't like this this is a chemical addiction that his brain has developed from years and years and years and years of consuming and you do need actual therapy for that so I would recommend therapy if your if your boyfriend is consuming that much porn and it's getting in the way of your relationship he needs therapy and you need to start questioning is this something I can stand by

you know does this really really affect me negatively mentally um you know or is this just like something that i'm noticing and i see that it's probably bad for him um and start asking yourself is this something i want to put up with for the rest of my life because it is an addiction and it's going to be a cycle and it's going to be hard to break out of and it's something that he's going to have to willingly want to do and if he can't do that he's not interested he doesn't give a fuck about your emotions or what you feel and he just wants to jerk off to internet girls you gotta cut your ties and leave for real there are plenty of normal healthy men out there okay um and his view of sex and like intimacy is probably skewed because of the porn he consumes and the

things that he's he consumes and you shouldn't have to you know fight with a online entity versus yourself who is real who's here who's building a relationship with a person in the now do you know what i mean sometimes you gotta cut your losses and be like this man is too fucked up to help love you you know but I can't take on this baggage I can't take on this drama I would love to have a healthy sexual relationship with somebody and I just cannot build that and he doesn't want to go to therapy or fix himself he doesn't see anything wrong with it which is fine and you know that's his prerogative but I can't be here to watch this continuously happen um so yeah porn love it hi shoddy bae um i know you've definitely answered questions like this before

but i was wondering how you get connected with yourself and like fully understand who you are if that makes sense like i did shrooms the other night and i was sitting in like journaling and i was like fuck like i think the reason why i feel just so like lost and like kind of hopeless is that I really don't have a good understanding of who I am and like I thought I did before because like you know I've been going to therapy for fucking like eight years now and like I journal and like I try and do shadow work and shit but I feel like this disconnect with like my own personal being is causing me to also like not be able to form good connections with other people and I was wondering if you had any advice for that and yeah uh thanks and I love you so bad

Love you. Okay, so one thing that shrooms actually taught me, because I went through a huge shrooms phase during the pandemic, like I was doing it every other day. I know, not good, don't recommend, the shrooms stop working and your brain stops working. anyways um the one thing that it really really taught me when it came to identity was you will never be able to pinpoint exactly who you are you know and i mean pinpoint as if like you are a character in a novel you know you got a picture of yourself and then it writes down every single attribute about yourself, who you are, your backstory, your personality traits, boom, your character there. You will never be able to do that because you're simply not a character, okay? As much as we want to be the quote-unquote main character, you know, oh my god, main character

moment. No, you are not a storybook character, okay? You're a human who is complex and ever-changing and constantly developing and which is a wonderful, beautiful thing. So if you are approaching the idea of self-exploration and self-identification through trying to kind of storybook character yourself, you will constantly feel trapped and not connected because your opinions are going to change on the daily, your views, your ideas, your interests are constantly changing and everlastingly changing, okay? And that's the beautiful part about being a human. So the thing that shrooms taught me was to sit back let go and stop trying to figure everything out okay the one way that you can honestly genuinely really connect with yourself and start to understand

yourself is by practicing challenging yourself and when I say practicing challenging yourself I mean challenging yourself through activities whether it is like okay I would like to go try this thing but I'm nervous I'm a little anxious I've never done it before fuck it I'm a new person it's a new day I'm gonna go try it I'm gonna build this relationship with myself through doing it whether I like it or not like it at the end of the day your relationship with yourself is going to be stronger you're gonna have more of an identity surrounding this activity based on how you feel about it um and it's ultimately going to uplift that self-connection within yourself whether it's you know trying something new trying something old leaning into the things you liked

as a child leaning into the fantasies that you have as an adult all those things are very very important activities when it comes to self-exploration self-identification and getting to know and connect with yourself better you need to release this idea that you need to have a grasp and a full understanding of who you are there's not going to be a time where you ever sit down and you fully know who the fuck you are because life is all about developing changing and learning who you are it's a active process and that process never ends you will never get to a point in your life where you're like this is who i am for the rest of my life no because what you don't want to change for the next 80 years you don't want to grow and develop for the next

80 years no we want to change you want to grow we want to do better so release that anxiety and that anxiousness of you know needing to figure out who you are okay we're not storybook characters we're not we're complex we're all vastly different and we're constantly and everlastingly changing and it's a beautiful wonderful very important to process to continuously go through so if you find yourself kind of feeling distant from yourself ask yourself when was the last time I challenged myself or when was the last time I tried something new or when was the last time I really leaned into something that I really really enjoy if it's just work sit down on your phone go to bed yeah that self-identity is not going to be super strong because you're not implementing those activities

to connect with yourself it's literally like a play date like you know when you were a kid and you wanted to have a play date you would you call your friend you talk about at school you know come up with that idea then you have to go home and ask your parents and you know your parents would set it up you will literally have to be the adult in your life and like set up play dates with yourself and get to know yourself a little bit and challenge yourself a little bit and step out of your box sometimes or step back into your box sometimes um but it is a constant learning process um and if you approach it from the idea that it is constantly a process and you are always going to be doing something to get to know yourself um and it's not something that you have to pinpoint

or put yourself in a box in some sort of way then you feel a lot more free and a lot more open to be able to be who you are and to really look at who you are and and appreciate who you are so stop trying to box yourself stop trying to storybook character yourself okay you're gonna change you're gonna develop you're gonna have new ideas new thoughts let yourself grow let yourself blossom and let yourself discover new things about yourself okay challenge yourself a little bit i promise if you approach it from a more free perspective life gets a lot easier okay someone said my longtime gf and i just broke up how do i deal with the heartbreak um i've talked about this once before this is kind of the best breakup advice i could really ever give you other than

me being like i love you you're amazing you will grow up you will go on to find love and experience love again which is like true fine wonderful but immediately after the breakup what you need to do is basically a breakup bucket list um and this will help you unattach yourself from this person and the identity that you built around them so you're gonna write down five to ten things that you were not allowed to do during the relationship okay whether it was like oh he was controlling and you know i couldn't smoke weed or you know i wasn't allowed to talk to the opposite sex there are some crazy rules people have in relationships i get it some are controlling some are not depending on how controlling it was write down five to ten things that you were not

allowed to do and then you have to go do all of them literally step by step go do all of them and that will really honestly help you just unattach from that person while also building up your identity within yourself and understanding like yes I can approach the world on my own and achieve things on my own I don't need this person next to me I don't need their love to support me like yes it hurts but we're moving on we're doing better and then after that don't jump right into a relationship you need to continue on that like self-confidence self-uplifting spiral um and take some time to really get to know yourself and ask yourself what you want what you're desiring for the future um write down like five things that you desire in a future partner so when you have

that relationship built up within yourself and you feel very comfortable with yourself and you're finally ready to maybe approach the dating world when you are going on first dates or getting to know people you can look back on a the breakup bucket list and be like well I had so much fun doing all these things are they gonna hinder me from doing any of these things like is it gonna be controlling again and b I wrote down five things that I really really appreciate and want in a future partner that maybe I didn't have beforehand and this person has all these things oh my god amazing I really want to pursue this or this person has none of these things it's going to be an absolute waste of my time um and why would I waste this precious time that I have with myself

on some bum when I can just go back to having fun with myself and probably in the future find somebody who's going to check off all the boxes that I need so two lists you need to make very simple very fun helps with self-introspection helps with uplifting yourself helps with moving on helps with kind of building that identity around yourself again love you you will survive you will find love again i promise okay this is a longer one from my dms but someone said so a while back you mentioned nicotine ruins your skin facts i'm trying to quit right now but my boyfriend always smokes cigarettes in the car with me and i'm worried about my skin i want it to glow tbh but should i ask him to stop smoking them around me i don't want to be like controlling

or whatever so if you if you're only worried about your skin him smoking cigarettes around you i mean in a closed car like yeah that's it might have a little bit of effect uh maybe ask him to just like crack a window but honestly when it comes to nicotine the biggest biggest effect it has on your skin is when you're literally holding it to your lips and breathing in um when it's that close like from the end of the cigarette to blowing back into your face um that's what's causing it while also you inhaling it directly from the cigarette nicotine vape stick whatever the fuck you want i don't know any of them um vape stick what the fuck am i 80 oh anyways you inhaling it like from the fucking source is what's killing your skin set your skin cells

and like ruining the collagen within your skin and the skin barrier um it's not people smoking it around you i mean like in a closed off car i get how it could be like a little congested crack a window but really the main issue is coming from the source so you just genuinely not smoking it is going to make the biggest difference i promise but yeah if you're having skin issues and you know just like IBS also if you're having gut health issues um if you are having you know bad skin constant headaches um mood swings yeah any IBS symptoms um and you're smoking anything with nicotine in it cut out the nicotine because I a million percent guarantee that it's that my friend is like yeah I think I have IBS and I'm like no it's because you are

constantly consuming nicotine and that is going to have an effect on the way your organs operate and your skin is also an organ okay you're gonna look 80 at 40 which like aging is a wonderful amazing thing but like let's age naturally okay let's let's let our skin do its thing on its own we don't need to hurry the process up okay i promise just cut it out you'll be so much happier also if you girlies need tips on how to quit nicotine for me personally i so i started smoking when the jewels first came out which like nicotine was expensive back then me and my friend said i drive like 30 minutes to the only gas station that allowed 18 year olds to purchase and then it was like 70 for a starter kit with the four different flavors which was like

original tobacco uh mango mints and one other one might have just been plain flavorless i'm not i can't remember what it was but it was like 70 for that starter kit and the device insane now you can get them for like ten dollars at the gas station which is crazy but for me the way that I kind of stopped and this was before you know all these crazy flavors were out and there were new types and new things it was just the jewel with those four flavors I ended up throwing up so much after just like drinking then hitting my uh my jewel and then like getting the spins and throwing up that I ran through all those flavors and then I classically conditioned myself to assume that nicotine equals throwing up so that's how I stopped but

you do not need to perform like psychological activities on yourself in order to make yourself stop you I think the best way to kind of stop the cycle of addiction is to just like replace it with something else and you have to replace it with a healthy addiction if you want to go further into healthy addictions i have a podcast titled that feel free to listen um but the best thing when it comes to nicotine is a getting a water bottle with like a like a straw lid so you can suck on that and make sure it's always filled with ice water okay so it hits you get a little bit of a brain freeze you get a little throat freeze it's similar nicotine it's not quite the same um but you have something that you can kind of pacifier on because a lot of people

like to use it as a pacifier um or cbd supplement with cbd i'm not even kidding cbd is amazing for you there's really not many um negatives about it like i said it's kind of the medical component of weed um of course lung health is always an important thing but like listen cigarettes are going to be way worse for you when there's like literal tar in them okay so yeah um supplement with something and then also you need a good week to detox um if you get through that week you should be good but your brain's gonna be a little bit unstable you're gonna be a little um you know mentally off the hinges and allow yourself to be so be like listen i'm going through something right now okay i just need to power through i need to get through it it's like

a little bit of a morning process um but stand by yourself a good week to two weeks you will be good as long as you stay away from it and also if you have friends around you who do um like smoke nicotine or you know have a jewel or like to smoke cigarettes and you guys like like you know go on cigarette breaks together have some cbd have a little cbd joint you can get them from passpacks.com uh use code smoke sesh for 10 off they're great on the go they come in cute little packages you can keep in your purse so then you can you know participate with the sesh um while also if you need that break that cigarette break is very helpful and needed towards you you can still supplement with something go out take a little break have some cbd um and also inform your

friends that you're doing this they can be supportive and they can stand by you and they can you know not tempt you not offer it to you and i'll be like hey you want to hit this because they know that you are really focusing on your goals and if they're good friends they will hear you out and support you and love you so I hope this helps hey Hannah sorry if you can hear my puppy in the background he's kind of whining anyways this might be a part two I just I want to know how to stop being so selfish and like wanting everything to be about me um I'm just gonna give you like the situation I'm in right now just so you like can understand where I'm coming from so I have a boyfriend love him so much he's so supportive so patient with me um

I have a long weekend ahead of me I'm recording this on a Friday I don't know if you can tell when but um Saturday and Sunday I'm busy and so I won't be able to see him till Monday night and I I saw him last night and I kind of just like came to the realization that I'm not going to be able to see him for the next couple days and we usually see each other like every other day and fuck it took me forever to send the voice message in so I really forgot where I left off but basically I saw him I saw my boyfriend last night and spent the night with him and I kind of just came to the realization how long it's going to be until I see him next and I asked him if he wanted to come over tonight because this is the last night that I will be free

and he said that he made plans with his boys and for some reason that just made me so upset and I'm not mad at him I'm just like upset about the situation and I feel like I'm like pushing my anger towards him like I'm just like kind of irritated with the whole thing and I'm irritated towards him I'm just like why am I mad like why am I being a bitch right now like why am I upset I'm gonna be gone because I'm doing stuff and it's like and I'm upset at him and it's like I feel so selfish and so shitty and it's like how do I not be that way if that makes any sense anyways I love you bye so from one crazy selfish bitch to another when it comes to relationships I feel you fully and understand you fully um you know being in a relationship is you're both going

to be a little selfish at times you're both going to prioritize yourself at times but that's how it is you know it's give and take um that's how relationships work and you have to understand that in order to kind of calm the crazy bitchness down do you know what i mean um so when i get that kind of way where i'm like well what the fuck you know like we have one night before i have to do all this shit and he doesn't want to prioritize me but you have to like stop yourself and be like okay do do i want to scare this man off like do i want to push him away do i want to drive him insane do i want to scare him away and you know make him go insane as well no no i don't and like i'm prioritizing myself by you know taking a couple days away from each other i get we're

probably not going to see each other for a little bit but if you're in a long-term relationship and you're taking some space and you feel a little bit like betrayed by that in some sort of way sometimes you just sit down remember how it is to be with yourself and appreciate having time with yourself and just like let the crazy bitch live within your head but don't let her lose okay i made a joke yesterday to my boyfriend being like i have to save my bitchiness for when it's honestly genuinely needed or else it gets out of hand okay like a superhero using their powers for when it's really only needed if I let my bitchness just like rule my life and I'm constantly behaving in a selfish you know crazy bitch way everybody around me is going to be

miserable and I'm also going to be miserable but like it's a fun kind of crazy miserable chaos you know what i mean and that fun crazy miserable chaos is fun but it's only fun when it's honestly genuinely needed so sit down chill out you know contain that energy that crazy bitchness that you want to release that has no reason to be released and save it for a time when it genuinely needs to escape and come out okay save it for a moment where you're like yes oh my god i gotta use this i get to you know just let loose okay because i don't think this is a situation where you really need to be like fuck you you won't spend time with me you don't love me you know he's doing things with his friends you're prioritizing your own time so instead of

sitting around and being like oh well you know he's not coming over tonight you know like he's not prioritizing me take a moment to prioritize yourself um because relationships are cannot be you know him making you feel good in order for you to survive that's not a relationship that's called don't know what the word i'm looking for is validation that's just called validation okay and you cannot survive simply alone off validation um you have to support yourself while also having your partner support you so you can still take this time to be selfish i don't think there's anything wrong with being selfish okay you are taking the time that you need off from your boyfriend to focus on yourself to do your things whatever

your little things are whether it's studying prior to prioritizing your time guess what you have extra time that's wonderful all right so with that extra time that your boyfriend's out hanging out with his boys be a little selfish maybe that's the night you know you go out with your friends oh like I have some free time I can go hang out with my friends tonight or oh my god I've been meaning to you know order this food that my boyfriend doesn't like and I haven't had it in a while i'm gonna order this in and just sit around and smoke weed and watch my favorite comfort movies i'm gonna be selfish tonight in that sort of way or i'm gonna take a hot bubble bath or you know there's other ways that you can still like prioritize yourself without behaving

in a way that is completely and utterly dictated by your boyfriend um without kind of releasing that crazy bitch energy do you know what i mean save it for a for a good time where you can just lose it you know also i have found that breaks in relationships are very healthy and very important i'm not talking about breaks where you're like we're breaking up for a week and then getting back together i don't know if that's healthy just because i feel like a lot of people go out and do crazy things within those breaks that end up hurting the other people more um if you're genuinely taking a break where you're like we just need distance but we're not gonna lose it on each other then that's fine but I'm talking about small breaks where it's like bye I won't

see you for a couple days or a week or whatever um my parents were constantly doing this um not like breaking up but like my dad be like okay I'm going on a week-long motorcycle uh trip bye and my mom was never like oh my god your dad's leaving I'm losing my mind no she was a bad bitch she was like cool bye I will see you in a week I'm gonna have my own time to be selfish and do my own things and we would always like have like fun dinners together or do things that you know dad was never interested in doing or like spend time together and that really taught me to prioritize my alone time especially within relationships because when that person gets back in three days or a week you will feel so excited and so happy and that spark you know that you

maybe haven't felt for a little bit will be there okay i think taking time away from each other is very important and very healthy and very normal within relationships and if you have a sense of abandonment when it comes to your past or your relationships or a little relationship anxiety like yes that's probably going to give you some anxiousness but you're not being abandoned okay you guys will find each other again and it will be amazing it'll be brilliant and you're probably gonna have some fun sex but prioritize your time while you guys are apart focus on yourself understand that a relationship has to be you two working together while also you two both being very independent of each other so focus on that independent time nurture that independent time

save your crazy bitch energy for when it's really fucking needed um spoil yourself a little bit and then when you guys get back together release that love onto him and appreciate him and just have some fun okay but I love you and this is a time to be selfish actually I feel the energy that you're releasing and I don't think it's selfishness I think you just want to be loved and you want to hang out with your boyfriend and that's fun and that's wonderful but we all have to prioritize our independence so take this time to actually be selfish and prioritize that independence and the things that you enjoy on your own as an individual love you love all my crazy bitches out there okay this is a great question someone said especially because I'm really working on it right

now tips on how to stop doom scrolling and having less screen time oh my god I finally turned on my screen screen time monitor and I was spending like nine plus hours on tiktok and I was like oh my god we gotta cut this shit out immediately you gotta cut this shit out so here's the thing with me um I I just love my phone and I love interacting with people and I love consuming content but there's content that you can consume that is productional and there's content that you can consume that is not great for you um and it's really important for you to figure out the difference between the two and understand that you don't need to completely cold turkey yourself from your phone just start integrating more productive content into your life um so things

that I've been doing is I have just been trying to stay off TikTok if I do get on there it's maybe for 30 minutes a day and when I find myself starting to doom scroll I will get on a more productive app if I just want to sit around and scroll like I let myself do that for a little bit that's okay like in the mornings or at night or when I need some inspiration but I try and use productive apps that actually get me interested in like exploring the world exploring identity and feeling a little bit of like whimsy um which for me personally is pinterest pinterest really helps um tumblr love tumblr oh my god and then instagram sometimes depends on how i'm feeling depends on if i can really find a good like hole to dive into that's like fun content um stuff like

that like I love size spoons content I love like I follow a lot of poets a lot of artists things like that follow people who are going to stimulate your brain you know what I mean instead of just like Instagram model Instagram model oh she's cute Instagram model oh I'm jealous of her life let me follow her like follow people who are gonna get you inspired about life you know what I mean I feel like that's very important you gotta like kind of set some boundaries within yourself of not consuming toxic content now when you find yourself doom scrolling though it really can happen on any app whether it is productive or not so the thing that I recommend doing is I will just like now put on a movie um turn off my phone get on my laptop where it's kind of harder to

deter from what I'm doing and um just put on a movie put on a tv show like I said I'm binging sex in the city because when i have these things on i can't just sit there and mindlessly watch it it's like i can sit there for a second but then i need to get up and do something or i need to go work on something or i can have this in the background while i'm like writing an essay or painting or whatever it is so i've been watching a lot of documentaries a lot of movies that i've just never watched before like i said i'm catching up on sex in the city anything that's like mindlessly in the background that keeps you kind of entertained while also you can do stuff throughout your daily life is wonderful music incredible find a new artist i've been finding

a lot of tiktok accounts recently that do like music reviews um and like reviewing different albums and like albums of the week and their favorite music and i love that because it inspires me to jump into some new music um music is always great um and then i have really been loving subscribing to people's patreons um i've realized that they share a lot of content and really good productive content that really helps me and you know gets me interested about life and connecting with other people so recently i subscribed to sizewood's patreon and she releases some like she releases small poetry and memes on her instagram but i know she released um just like fun uh like podcasts on there or like writings or book reviews or whatever um which is kind of

what I do but it's fun to view someone else's content and find inspiration through it so I subscribe to her and I've been listening to her podcast and you know reading her stuff recently and I even bought her book which has been really fun and also books books and are amazing thing to lean into um this oh my god this month on my patreon i'm doing a book review of joan didion's um sorry it's sitting next to me the year of magical thinking which is supposed to be like a heartbreaking really hard book to read but i have been kind of interested feeling like i need to lean into my more self-sabotaging behavior so instead of just like breaking my own heart in the real world why not dive into something that's gonna break my heart without me actually getting

hurt and actually I can maybe get something else out of it and learn something about myself while also reading through people's lived experiences so I'm excited to read this um but yeah books are an amazing way for you to kind of dive into a different world that is going to be productive and give you a new viewpoint while also like helping vocabulary stimulating your brain you know we love those things um and audiobooks are another great way to do this especially if you feel like you don't have a lot of downtime you're working you're running around you're doing something you need something in the background audiobooks are fantastic so that's kind of what I've been doing um and leaning away from scrolling scrolling scrolling because I feel like it gets me

in a loop and it also like sucks out my creativity because I feel like oh my god well everybody's done it and you know they did it better than me so what's the point which is a very dangerous kind of spiral to fall into so I have been really trying to retrain my brain and hopefully we can retrain our brains together and speaking of media I saw there's some discourse on tiktok about what's the correct way to smoke a bowl because Australians had heard that like we as Americans were floating up a full bowl in a bong and like passing it around and they're like that's disgusting because somebody at the end of it is gonna have like some burnt ass gross ass weed that they have to smoke which like agree like totally and I actually leaned away from bowls a

couple years ago and I've been taking snaps which is kind of what I call them but Australians I think call them cones um so basically they just throw enough weed in there that they can smoke on their own nothing more nothing less hit it smoke all of it dump it out refill for somebody else give it to them so then everybody has fresh weed they're smoking you're not having to like try and corner it to not burn the entire top of it and also if you are smoking a bowl bowl etiquette is you don't completely torch the top you have to corner it and if you have a hard time cornering it ask a girly they will help you someone will help you smoke it also like ask a guy if you're in like a smoke circle be like hey can you help light this for me flirting tip 101 like hey do

you have a light can you light this for me literally in any circumstance anyways ask for help corner it the best you can but for me personally i love snaps i guess cones is what they call them and yes i agree with the australians on this one that's that's the way to go okay okay someone said i'm afraid to talk in class during discussions how should i face my anxiety so when it comes to class presentation anxiety I'm a girly who would literally throw up in the bathroom before I would have to go give a presentation in class because I would just overthink it and overthink it and overthink it and overthink it so let me tell you this every single person who is sitting in that classroom that you are assuming is like thinking and judging and like hyper focusing on you is not

they're not they're hyper focusing on themselves and what they're gonna say and how they're gonna present they don't give a fuck about you in the best possible fucking way every single person in that classroom in the auditorium is sitting there being like holy shit i really hope i get an a on this oh my god what am i gonna say do i have it figured out right the same anxieties that you have before you go up and present is what every single other person around you is going through they are not hyper focused on you they are hyper focused on themselves so that should bring you a little bit of peace when it comes to presenting in a big group having a bunch of people focused on you having a bunch of people listening to you um same thing with class discussions they are all hyper

focused on their grade and what they're gonna say they're not really thinking about you you can say anything anything just get those points okay show up do it get the points I literally don't remember any of the presentations I had to give um that literally caused me to throw up in high school to this day and I'm like what six years out four years out I don't know how long it's been but I don't remember any of them so it's like why was I getting so anxious why was I getting so worried go for the egg go for the gold take some deep breathing exercises and understand literally no one's thinking about you so stop putting so much of an emphasis on yourself I understand it's stressful I understand it is chaotic it's going to give you a little bit of anxiety because you

are being judged but you're only being judged by the teacher that's it that's the only person in that room judging you. So I hope that helps. I hope this provides a little bit less anxiety for you. Hi. Um, I, first of all, I just want to say I am such a fan of your podcast. I listen to it all the time. Um, and I think you're really wonderful and I love your mind. Um, but I just wanted to call in and kind of talk about something that I've been thinking about recently. Um, which is like how to start like creating space for yourself because I feel like I am constantly just like kind of living for other people and like I don't put myself first very often and I don't really know how to like start doing that like I feel like I oftentimes want to

spend time by myself or like take care of myself and I end up like spending time with other people or taking care of them, which I do love doing. And I love all of the people in my life, but I want to know like how to start putting myself first. So yeah, thank you. I love you. Okay, so last week I talked about saying yes. And if people are feeling like they're more closed off, they haven't experienced the world as much, you know, they want to take on more opportunities, you need to practice the art of saying yes but for you where you feel like the outside world and your obligations are kind of eating away at you and your identity and your alone time and you need to spend time with yourself and focus and prioritize on yourself you need to learn how to

say no there's so much power in saying yes but there's way more power in saying no and saying no i'm not going to do this i'm going to listen to myself and i'm going to prioritize myself and i'm gonna really focus on myself and i'm gonna speak up for myself when i really want to speak up for myself there is so much fucking power in that and also when you do that it will classically condition yourself to want to do it more want to stand up for yourself more and it will build up that relationship you have with yourself because you took the time to look inward see how you're feeling process that emotion understand what you truly want and then verbalize it and speak up for yourself by saying no there's so much power in saying no okay I get off on saying no I love

saying no oh my god like I got into a point in a stage which like my 23rd year has been a lot about self-reflection staying in being with myself and it's hard to say no especially with obligations or your friends are like come on come on come out or you know uh people are being rude or you feel pressured into things and you know you feel like convinced to say yes but saying yes saying yes to those things never feels quite right but saying no saying no always feels right it does especially in those situations so you need to practice saying no a little bit okay it'll reinforce that relationship you have with yourself and then guess what you'll have even more time to spend with yourself to get to know yourself take that relaxing time that you need off and if they're

true friends you know real friends they won't give you shit for saying no um like of course you know they want you to come out you're like no no they're like come on please you're like no i really need to stay in they'll give you a little bit of shit whatever but like they should move on with their day go out have fun and support you as a human being doing your own thing it's okay to do your own thing every once in a while if they're gonna take that as like oh she's a bad friend I don't want her around because she said no once you should not have that person in your life safe to say and saying no comes with a lot of things saying no to obligations this obligation is not going to serve me I really don't think it's going to work in my best interest I don't

have a lot of time I need to prioritize the time that I do have I'm going to say no to this they're going to take it personally and they're going to be mean to you uh they are not somebody you need to work with they are not something you need to show up to you got to prioritize yourself if it's a sexual situation i'm not feeling this this isn't the right partner feels a little too pushy you know i'm not enjoying myself and you say no and that person has a well fuck you you know like bad in interaction bad kind of experience with that they can honestly fuck off okay because if you say no you speak up for yourself no means no the first time you fucking say it and people need to hear that understand it and appreciate it for what it is and you listening to yourself and standing

up for yourself okay and move on with their life okay it's not the end of the world saying no is not the end of the world it might hurt people's feelings but that is something that they need to deal with on their own that is not something that you need to deal with those are emotions that they can process on their own um you've processed your emotions internally and spoken about them they can process how they feel about your reaction and how you you know you saying no but that's not something you need to deal with and you have to put up kind of a wall there of not taking on other people's emotions and um other people's kind of burdens that they then want to push on to you after you set a boundary so say no it'll be fun you'll have such a fun time oh my god i love saying

no like oh my god girl you wanna go do this no and actually like now i'm in the point of my life where like i am saying yes to a lot of things like i'm leaning more into the yes side of things which is good because i've kind of been closed off from the world secluded really self-isolation in a good healthy way learning more about myself you know taking the time to really prioritize myself saying no a lot but now after i've done that and i've gotten my fix i'm now leading towards the yes side of things which is really fun because i have so many big fun things planned coming up i just booked my ticket to mexico for my birthday so that will be so fucking fun i just know i wanted to wake up on the beach in a small little beach town on my birthday so I'm glad that I have that

lined up but depending where you are in life you're in you're either in a yes phase or you're in a no phase and you have to stand by what you say and you can't live in a middle ground you really need to understand that like this is how I feel this is what I want to go with and I'm going to go with it full heartedly love you oh let's talk about aging someone said thoughts on anti-aging products okay preventative botox um preventative this preventative that what do you mean preventative like we're all going to get old and die you will develop wrinkles at some point in your life what do you mean preventative i don't understand this whole concept that is like women yearning for needing to stay young forever because needing to stay young forever and needing to look young

forever comes from a perspective of um male validation i'm gonna say it it does i need to look beautiful i need to be wanted i need to look this certain way in order for men to like me and it's i mean it's plagued us because you see men like leonardo dicaprio who is like very much sought after only dating young girls which reinforces this idea that like oh my god well I need to be young in order to be desirable and I need to look this way but no no no no that's not that's not reality okay Leonardo DiCaprio is dating young women because he's fucking weird and he has the money and influence and probably the want and desire to date young innocent and innocent I mean by like no world experience women okay he doesn't actually he doesn't want a woman

he wants a girl which is weird and fucked up in its own way but it's put this pressure on women like us to be like oh well i need preventative botox or i need to do this or i need to do that in order to stop the aging process listen we're all gonna age we're all gonna get old we're all gonna get wrinkles we're all gonna die the only thing you really need to focus on is skincare preventative botox what the fuck do you mean preventative botox what is it gonna prevent me from it's not gonna make me not die it's literally just a money grab it's a money grab okay that's all it is and like sure people may look good with it you can do whatever you want for yourself you can absolutely you know you can get botox i don't like no hey you do literally

whatever you want to yourself you get whatever body modifications you want i will never hate on women for doing what they want with their body but you have to think like where is this stemming from where is it coming from and why is it pushed so hard onto women you ever heard of preventative Botox for men huh like dot dot dot hello um like men do not have this fear this anxiety of growing up and aging in a sense of oh my god I'm gonna get older and I'm gonna get ugly no they have a fear growing up and aging because they're gonna die but like women have this built-in fear of like oh my god older means ugly it does not it absolutely does not and I really recommend finding some older women in your life who um have aged gracefully and have accepted age and have kind

of dived into it and really appreciated it and enjoyed it and surround yourself with them because they have a worldview that is unmatched and a self-identity that is unmatched okay love sex in the city sarah jessica parker okay she no botox no filters no nothing she's letting herself naturally age naturally you know process on it on her own which i think is wonderful and brilliant and beautiful and it sucks that seeing women naturally let themselves age is like oh my god she's fighting against society you know like she's really making a statement here but like it is especially in an age where like all these preventative quote-unquote measures are so common and filler and botox and body modifications are so common um like it's really nice to see a woman who's actually older

and looks older okay there's nothing wrong with that absolutely nothing totally normal totally fine and something that I as a woman who's growing up a little bit have started to accept um and really ask myself like how do I want to age how do I really view aging and how do I build a good relationship with aging without needing to conform in some sort of way to make other people comfortable and to live my life by making men perceive me better because honestly who gives a fuck what they think as long as you enjoy who you are you enjoy the way you look you work with yourself you identify what you enjoy and what you like and you stick by that whether it's yeah no I really like filters because or fillers not filters because they help them help me with the way I look

or I got this body modification because I love the way you know it boosts my confidence I literally just talked about nipple piercings and how it boosts my confidence body modification in any sort of sense bbl fillers whatever if as long as you sit with yourself ask yourself what do I truly want am I doing it for myself um and is it actually going to you know help my life improve my life make me happier understand where this is stemming from and you say yes this is what i want this is what i want to do amazing beautiful brilliant do whatever the fuck you want with yourself but if you are on the side where it's like i don't know if this is for me i feel pressure to do this um you know all that stuff then don't do it don't really accept and look within and decide

what is good for you and not what does society want me to do okay what are they selling to me all right because listen they're selling you a lot of shit a lot of shit that you do not need all right and you're beautiful and you're brilliant and you're gonna age no matter what why be afraid of it when you can just accept it and live your best life and enjoy it you know what i mean anyways with that being said my little rant i think it's the end of the podcast i know i'm so sad our time has come to a little bit of an end here um i'm gonna be pre-recording an episode on thursday for um tuesday's podcast because i'll be actually traveling on tuesday which i have a feeling i might release early on patreon if you guys are interested for my top tier girlies

if you want to hear it early feel free to join there I'm also going to be making a bunch of videos for Patreon this week such as like I'm going to review Grammy's outfits very fun I do a lot of like ask Hannah questions on there if you have any like deep dives you want to do on certain topics I released Monday's affirmations lots of fun little extras on there if you are ever interested in joining more hearing more doing more and I'm going to be posting a little bit of like a recent outfits on Instagram because I've been pulling out some outfits recently I have realized I have a shopping addiction but I never wear the clothes I buy because I wear the same comfy outfit every day which is just like an oversized t-shirt and no underwear and socks

so um I've really been trying to put together some fits with the things I've been buying so stay tuned for that if we need some outfit inspo extras extra videos extra podcast extra little things will be on my patreon you know where to find me on instagram at hannah marlene um and yeah i love you all i will see you so very soon uh stay tuned for some updates on just my travels things i have been doing um and yeah i hope you have a wonderful wonderful rest of the week um stay safe stay sexy stay hot stay beautiful stay courageous stay inquisitive and stay high love you all I will see you all so soon actually literally next Tuesday see you then