Smoke Sesh - crying at work, fashion, say what you feel & selling your soul

Episode Date: October 3, 2023

Happy Tuesday hotties hope you’re all doing well, I’m back for another amazing episode of the pod! Today is a loaded day as I try to fly through as many questions as I can and get to the bottom of it all! We talk what I’ve been up to, daily habits & some homework for you all, what happens if he can’t get hard and awkward sex, evil exes, UTI’s, meditation, bisexuality, anxiety & facing the fear, putting together an outfit, fashion, trends, cleansing your space, crying at work, holiday season and awkward small talk, libra season energy, fear of failure, spicing up the sex life, sexy tattoos, sick routine, fall vibes, IUD, Taylor swift love story, bad friends, saying how you feel, weed guilt, selling your soul, and most importantly it’s never too late! If you want a baby tee they’re dropping soon follow my instagram so you don’t miss it @hannahmarlene and I’ll see you all so very soon! MUAH!

Listen, everybody needs a fairy godmother, you know, just somebody to look out for them. Some people call me their fairy smoke mother, others their internet big sister, but you can call me Hannah, the host of Smoke Sash. So come hang out, let's light up and talk everything there is to life. The good, the bad, the ugly, the embarrassing, I've got a story for it all. Hello hotties of the world, oh my goodness. welcome back to another amazing episode of smoke sesh i'm so excited to be here with you guys be hanging out on this beautiful little tuesday usually i wake up and i am just like ready to go

like at 9 a.m i'm sitting down on my little couch in my little robe chit chatting with you guys but Today was a little different. I woke up at like 11, which is pretty late for me, but I feel like my brain really needed some rest. I've been getting up pretty early the past week and when I finally have a moment to actually let myself sleep in, I try and let myself do that without feeling bad about it because I feel like I lose hours in the day, but who cares? My brain is so rested. Thank god had a little wine night with my girly last night I actually feel like I'm 80 like when I was 16 I felt like I was 25 and I was going out and partying and doing all the things that you shouldn't be doing at as a teenager you know and now I am in my mid-20s and I am acting like I'm

80 like last night after work we I went over brought sushi she bought like three bottles of wine and we hung out and puzzled. We puzzled. I'm getting into puzzles, you guys. They're actually really fun. I was shocked. I was like, a puzzle? Are you kidding me? No, it's so fun. And a big thing about my apartment is I really want like interactive things in my house. So when people come over, if I'm going to a party, people don't feel like awkward or uncomfortable. There's something that you can pick up, grab, look at, do to kind of get your mind out of that awkward space. And so I got a puzzle for my house and it is honestly so fun and so healthy for your brain, which God knows if you smoke, you need that. So we spent last night whining and puzzling. I got

home at like 2 a.m. and slept in. I'm still horizontal in bed hanging out for the rest of the day. Gonna get some hot pot later with some friends. It's gonna be a good day. For the next couple hours I am here with you guys. So excited to just spend the day with you guys. See what's on your mind. See what the overall vibe and the universe is and what we're all going through. I love seeing your your replies and just being able to get a feel for the energy that we're all kind of experiencing because you'd be shocked how much of us are going through the same thing and that's why I love hearing what's on your mind what the vibe for the week is and what kind of questions you guys have this week was pretty hectic for me just been working overtime spending time with

family spending a lot of time with friends which has been so fulfilling and so fun I really have been loving getting out of my house a little bit more than usual and exploring the city that I'm in I was very much so in like my hermit mode for the past three years um and now I'm just getting back out and experiencing the world again um and it feels really nice Tuesday night last Tuesday I said we were supposed to go out and get like tacos and margs and I ended up getting way too drunk blacked out on these pictures of margs at this restaurant and it was just like too much of a silly time me and my friend like became besties with this older couple next to us because they were smoking cigs and i was like i need one of those just i need a puff please

oh my god and the lady was like you guys remind me of me and my friends when we were your age and honestly that is the best compliment you can ever get from an older woman because that's just them being like you guys look like a lot of fun and you guys need to keep having fun but yeah blackout drunk on Tuesday had to be sober for the rest of the week just to chill out and then had a little wine night last night hot pot today what's better than that that's really all I have to catch up with you guys about oh my god one more thing the merch the merch I have to bring it up we have to talk about it finally all my stuff came in I did a little teaser on my Instagram yesterday and you guys seem so excited for it which literally my heart is so happy because every time I come

out with a new design a new thing to drop for you guys it's always like a limited time drop and it's the only time I'm really gonna do it so I'm doing black baby tees I wanted to do some side some sort of iconic 90s baby tee but make it my own something that's never been done and i know there's a lot of them out here all the little niche like og bff um hose for clothes kind of baby tees like oh mighty you know they all have their own different style but i wanted to do something very specific to me and how i feel and what kind of shirt i would want for like my party girl nights out so i'm doing a black baby tea sizes extra small to 2xl i feel like it's a pretty good range unfortunately my supplier only goes up to 2xl but it is a very stretchy very forgiving

fabric um and it says got weed on the front in like the got milk logo in swarovski crystal rhinestones what is better than that I'm gonna do a little photo shoot with it this week and drop it hopefully by Monday so follow me on Instagram at Hannah Marlene if you want to see the baby tees if you want a chance to purchase one that is where I will be doing all of the releasing all of the linking all of the dropping so if you want to support me and you want you know a little something to feel closer to everybody else get yourself a baby tea I'm all about the merch I just I want it to be like merch that's not necessarily merch like it acts as everyday clothes and that is exactly what I feel like I was able to come up with so I'm so excited for this drop I hope you

guys enjoy please support if you want to that's my little plug for the day anyways on to your questions I know why you're here should we smoke I feel like we should first of all let's prep ourselves for this podcast I'm gonna go get a large glass of ice water okay because I'm a little hungover or I'm not hungover I'm a little dehydrated wine has a very specific way of dehydrating me that is very interesting and we're gonna smoke just to set the vibes right and also one of you guys dm me and was like if I get the got weed baby tea do I have to smoke like even if I don't smoke can I get it bitch of course that makes it kind of funnier because I'm someone's gonna be like yeah I got weed and you're like oh I don't I don't smoke like come on I love that

all right let's get ourselves together oh my god I think I'm starting a new little routine for my week as well every week I'm trying to really focus and hone in on like one habit we talked about this last week like daily habits and how they really change your like life in general and they have such a big impact um but every week I'm really trying to focus on one new thing to add in and this week yesterday me and my friend like woke up we went to the park we went on like a mile and a half walk and then we got coffee and I went home and that was such a fantastic day just or way to start my day I feel like it really just set me up with so much energy compared to the times where it's like I wake up and then I just sit around all day until I gotta go to work or all morning

till I gotta go to work um I think I'm really gonna try and keep it in my routine and I think that's my challenge to myself for the week so if you want like a fun little homework goal or homework thing for the week you know real life advice that you can do in your everyday life add one daily habit to your week I know it's a Tuesday it's not too late to start add it to your week or find something that you want to add to your week and then I challenge you to do it all week you can skip a day that's okay just don't skip two days in a row but I challenge you try something maybe it's like I'm gonna pick up a book in the morning instead of my phone or maybe at night or I want to go on a walk every morning or night or you know maybe I need to cook

for myself more maybe i need to take care of my body more in a hygienic sense maybe i need to take care of my home in a hygienic sense literally anything it can be anything but set a goal for yourself and then challenge yourself to stick to it it becomes a fun little game after a while but i wanted to share mine with you so maybe it'll inspire some of you guys already we're just gonna start strong here which i love it i know what you guys are here for someone said hooked up with a guy he could not get it up is it me no it's not you it's never it never is you okay i pinky promise okay big sister talk here if a guy can't get it up it really is not you okay i pinky promise it is him but also like i don't mean to put all the fault

or like an emphasis on it on that man because i think it really doesn't matter like getting it up is not a huge issue and i know it feels like it but people make mistakes you know and when it's like kind of like a sexual mistake in that sort of way like a man can't get it up you don't want to like shame him for it because i know it can be embarrassing and he's already shaming himself for it so you really just gotta act like can pretend like it never happened like queefing when you during sex you know it happens it's a part of life we have bodies they make noises who cares but you don't want that man to like look at you and giggle or like stop fucking you because of it or like say anything about it like everybody just pretends it doesn't happen and you just keep

moving on you know but i do think when men can't get it up it is it could be anything it could be oh he's putting way too much stress on himself or he's overthinking maybe he's too high or too drunk and you know bodily functions aren't working correctly maybe it's oh my god he jerked off earlier and he didn't think he was going to be having sex again today and he cannot come that often or get it up that often and he used his like one ticket for the day or whatever it is there's so many different factors that can go into it and really you just got to be like oh well next you know we got to keep it moving on whether it's like in the middle of your long-term relationship or it's the first time you guys hooked up you know if it's the first time you

guys hooked up you can also take that as like a maybe this isn't gonna work out you know no hate no fault whatever but you know maybe this isn't this isn't right for me that's okay you do you boo um if it's the middle of a relationship or it's like a long-term partner and this is like very random don't be too hard on them you know don't take it personally it really is not a huge deal but nothing's wrong with you i don't think you did anything wrong i think sometimes bodies are just crazy and they act crazy someone said wrote in about an evil ex a few weeks ago i got a restraining order protect yourself girlies slay proud of you honestly like do not be afraid to go to any extent to protect yourself as a woman and never feel bad about it like you deserve peace

and safety love you some girl said girl we are like twins because i remember you telling a story about having a uti and peeing in your boyfriend's bed and the same thing just happened to me no utis are the bane of my existence i don't really like i don't really get like bv or like yeast infections i get utis usually utis are caused from like just messy sex or holding my pee in too long it happens sometimes it's just so fucking random you never could have expected it but yeah don't put that shit off as soon as you feel like you have a uti go to the doctor and get an antibiotic don't get the over-the-counter pills don't i mean get the azo get that cranberry juice for after the doctor's visit to offset the symptoms just a little bit until you can get

the antibiotics in your system but go to the doctor because literally i was putting it off I was like no these over-the-counter pills will work I I know they will I believe in it and then I woke up one night and I was literally pissing in his bed I peed myself but you can't help it like it's not I didn't do it on purpose I was like drunk peeing the bed like you have no control over your bladder and I peed his bed and he had no idea about it until like a couple months ago when I finally told him because he's such a heavy sleeper and I pissed the bed and I woke up and I changed these sheets under his sleeping body the lengths us as women will go to to be like no that didn't happen i need to fix this like i gotta put in some fucking energy right now at 3 a.m we gotta

change these sheets my ass got up cleaned the bed like with cleaner put sheets on under his sleeping body he never knew he never knew i had to tell him he's like what do you mean you i you piss the bed i was like yeah i just like i peed the bed next to you he's like what so funny anyways if you have if you feel like you have a uti literally burning i can't hold my pee something's going on you know you know okay go to the doctor someone asked how do you meditate and i actually have a really fun theory on this or not even theory it's just the way i look at it people look at meditation like you have to be like a monk like i have i'm sitting crisscross applesauce like eyes closed humming you know like owned thoughtless energy and that's fantastic no hate

i just cannot get into that position in that sort of sense i meditate every single day of my life but i meditate when i am just like mindless in the shower scrubbing my body cleaning my hair that's my meditation I meditate when I just no thoughts and painting my toenails red for like 15 minutes I meditate when I am cooking a meal for myself enjoying the smells around me no thoughts just enjoying this moment with myself and putting effort into this meal that I know I'm going to enjoy I meditate when I'm sitting down to do a piece of art and get into the flow state and create those are my ways of meditation because I simply cannot turn my brain off but when I am doing a task puzzling that's a great meditation oh my god but when I'm doing a task at hand I

am able to shut my brain off and really just focus on what I am doing and in turn I'm able to enter that like mindless meditative state and I love that I love that I can tap into that in my everyday life and I guarantee you guys are meditating every single day of your life you just don't know it so honor that honor those like mindless moments that you have and those activities that give you that moment of peace and that moment of just like almost like escapism in a way but healthy moment of reflection you know but I am just not a girl who can just sit down on a yoga mat and close my eyes and enter a meditative state in fact that will send me into the opposite of a meditative state and i will be like losing my fucking mind overthinking so i love leaning into

habits that let me enter that reflective mindless meditative state so nice hey hannah so love the pod i just had a question though duh um but okay so i've been dating this guy for like a year and a have and I love my boyfriend um however I'm like I was kind of like no labels like down on the down low pansexual and I recently saw like Lily Rose Depp and her girlfriend and I was like holy fuck I think that's like really cool I could like totally see myself with a girl and like I think girls are really hot and like I like you know whatever and like have low-key been like finding girls attractive but I don't know how to go tell my boyfriend this because I don't want him to be like so you're looking at girls now checking out other girls while being with me and it's just like

it's really it's really weird it's really weird i don't know how to approach it or like do i even talk to him and tell him about this or just keep it to myself so yeah send help love you honestly i don't think that's a conversation you need to have in your relationship unless it's like hey i want to have a third like i want not a third like oh i'm just not about the polyamorous relationships they get so sticky and they're so hard to do especially at a young age like unless you're like I want to have a three-way with you and I want to find another girl because I feel this way about women that's a great way to bring it up or it's like hey we're breaking up because I want to explore my attraction to women but I just think that's probably something that you need

to think about with yourself more than you need to think about with your partner um and you know your attraction to women is valid no matter if you're in a um heterosexual relationship or not if you're with a man or not um you are not like going against yourself by being with a man but those are valid feelings and you know you can be attracted to women and men of course but i really don't think it's like an issue or something you need to bring up to him unless you're like this is becoming a problem like I really want to be with a woman and I don't want to be with you um or like I would like to explore this with you alongside you and I would love for you to join me that's the kind of way I would probably bring it up and like of course you can share things about

your partner that you're discovering about yourself of course I'm not saying you have to hide that part about you um but I think you need to have that conversation with yourself more so than you need up that conversation with your partner especially if these are new feelings or feelings that you're tempted to explore and you know that that is not a part of your relationship agreement um that's when i would start bringing those things up like hey i'm attracted to women i want to explore that do you want to explore that together with me or this is just like a feeling i've been having or hey we got to end this relationship because i want to explore my attraction to women but you got to figure that out within yourself first you got

to figure out where you want to go with that within yourself first before you figure it out within your relationship you know but congrats women are hot love them someone asked how to calm anxiety doing things alone so i of course i'm gonna beat you over the oh beat you guys over the head with the practice term it is about practice because like the quote is you got to feel the fear and do it anyway like you cannot live your life live your life based on fear and anxiety you have to understand that like i'm going to feel this fear and anxiety because it's a new thing and that's just a trigger of mine and that's okay that doesn't mean it's bad i am going to feel this way but it doesn't mean i shouldn't do the thing it doesn't mean i shouldn't go out there

and experience the world it doesn't mean i'm not deserving to experience those things you really have to understand that like your anxiety and your fear are not there to control you you can control them your brain can't control you you can you can control your brain and the practice of just getting out there feeling it and then understanding that the situation was okay and you're okay at the end of the day and there's no way to feel that way or no reason to feel that way that in turn will reinforce the idea that the your anxiety based on this is not real let's chill out it'll make the next time way easier we have to feel the fear and do it anyway and I like doing this in a controlled sense if you have a hard time like getting out of your house and you feel

anxiety leaving that's okay that's valid so let's let's control the situation a bit and let's do things that you know are going to be a a safe experience so like you have a lot of anxiety getting out and doing things alone let's not go to a brand new concert with a hundred thousand people alone that's going to be a very high anxiety and spirit experience let's control it a little bit let's go to our favorite coffee shop order a coffee and sit there for 30 minutes with a book and then leave that's a controlled experience that you know will be a good time relatively low anxiety and a great practice opportunity maybe you want to raise the stake a little bit and you want to do something that you've never done okay well let's do a pretty low

stake thing let's you know maybe try a new restaurant maybe it's I want to go to a workout class maybe it's I really want to go to this park and walk around something new something you've never done but not that high high energy high anxiety thing like i'm not gonna go jump out of airplane by myself no like let's just go to the coffee shop and then work your way up okay you got this i believe in you don't let the fear control you okay i love this question and i've tried to record this a couple times now and i keep jumbling myself up so i wrote out like a detailed plan on how to do this because I want to be very clear. Someone asked Hannah help how to find my fashion sense and how to put good pieces together. So I have really been focusing

on this lately and I've been really redirecting the way I shop and the way I collect clothing and my spending habits. So let me just share what has really worked with you and how I have spent time discovering myself and what I enjoy first things first if you have no idea where no idea where to start you have to start with inspiration my favorite place to do this is on Pinterest just because it is a constantly everlastingly black hole of content like it will always feed you new content it will learn from what you do it will it's such a good app for finding art inspiration home inspiration and specifically clothing and outfit inspiration it's one of my favorite places to really just collect ideas and thoughts and feelings on clothing and really anything going

on in my life house home food but it has a very very specific and intentional niche for clothing and I think it makes it a perfect app for doing so so collect inspiration oh I like those boots save oh I like the way she put this outfit together save there doesn't need to be a rhyme or a reason you have to connect with that feeling and it's a great practice connect with that feeling in your heart as soon as you see something and you know you like it don't think about it just save it you can think about it later when it comes to putting an outfit together but you need to get in tune with the feeling of oh I enjoy the look of this and following that feeling or oh I dislike this like or this look and I'm not trying to convince myself of it no connect with the feeling

of I enjoy this we'll discover and lean into it later step two you have to have actual pieces in your closet this starts with basics you need to have jeans that fit you got to have them in a couple different washes or different styles that you enjoy okay you got to have very basic black white tanks tees tops very simple basic sweaters simple basic skirts simple basic everyday shoes and now these things of course they're going to be a little bit more plain and that's okay because you need plain staple pieces to build a good outfit off of so focus on the way it fits on your body do you enjoy it maybe i need new jeans because my ass is a little fatter now that's okay let's invest. Maybe winter is coming around and I need some very basic solid sweaters. Okay,

let's invest in that. Or I really need to focus on a color that I think looks really good on me and I can wear every single day. So let's focus on that color. Focus on the basics. And then when it comes to finding the outstanding pieces, the unique pieces, the pieces that breathe life into your outfits, I encourage shopping in thrift stores and on eBay. And then this is a very different type of shopping you're going to do because you're going to redirect back to your inspiration. You are going to look at your inspiration. You're going to find outfits and you're going to look at the way they build them. Oh, they have a long skirt and I have a long skirt. Maybe they're different patterns, maybe they're different shapes, whatever it may be. But we have

a common denominator here. Then we're going to build a outfit based off of that skirt you have based off your inspiration. This is when you can get a little crazier with your shopping and finding new fun funky pieces and I really encourage of course the thrift store and using your inspiration to shop accordingly for these fun funky pieces but these are the things that are going to breathe breathe life into your outfits and then you're going to use your inspiration and the way other people are building their outfits to build your own okay i really like the trend of the short shorts with the big boots so i'm gonna go in my closet and i'm gonna find some short shorts and some big boots it's not gonna look the exact same but the build is what i'm basing it off of

i really like this oversized sweater and this mini skirt and these kitten heels i know i have an oversized sweater in there and some kitten heels and a skirt that i can figure out and put together you have to base it on the build while also using your personal inspiration and things that call out to you and the uniqueness of you through clothing um and through that kind of shopping and i feel like when i limit my spending to things that truly inspire me and basics that i know will last i spend less because i wear my clothing more and i fall in love with my clothing more rather than oh this girl wore it and it just came out and it's so cute and i can wear it to this place once so i'm gonna spend 150 and then never wear it again and then i'm gonna do that

tomorrow and the next day and the next day because i need a new outfit for every single situation or because i can't wear this one thing across many different experiences focus on basics and focus on low ticket items that give life to your outfits accessorize don't be afraid to throw on a fun pair of sunglasses or a belt or a necklace okay thrift stores have endless amount of these find staple shoes that you can wear constantly throughout your outfits a good tennis shoe a good boot a good heel that's literally all you need very simple i love a good birkenstock too because it's a perfect like lazy girl I'm just gonna throw these on and get out of the house um but yeah I feel like through using through tapping into that feeling of I like this and

leaning into that and then using inspiration to build pieces from staple pieces in your closet and pieces in your closet that you believe breathe identity into you you will be able to put a good outfit together and also practice you have to practice that i love i love going into my closet and just playing dress up for hours smoking a bowl going in there and just like putting together outfits playing dress up setting things next to each other seeing how they look you know i live for it oh my god it's one of my favorite things in the world it probably stems from me being like a child and playing like dress-up games online for hours because I only had like the same three t-shirts and I really dreamed of one day having a beautiful closet and putting together fun funky

things and now I can so honor that but it will take practice putting these outfits together and then also it will take practice going out in public wearing these I feel like a lot of people have amazing styles and a great fashion sense and they know who they are you're like hannah i got it but they don't wear them out in public they wear them in their house or they just hoard them for one day but they never do it go out and practice wearing these things set up a dinner date with your friends and be like i am gonna wear this outfit and challenge myself to this dinner date with my friends to it or oh i know me and my partner are having a date this day and i really want to put together a good outfit people you are comfortable with will make you more comfortable

in the clothes you're in and make you more comfortable in the situation and that will in turn uplift your spirits uplift your confidence and make you more excited to wear your next outfit out have fun with it life's about dress up and playing dress up and having a good time so dare to express yourself and dare to tap into who you truly are i don't know i think clothes can be so expressive um and i love utilizing them in my everyday life to just express how you feel also focus on how you feel if you feel like a lazy girl one day entertain that dress based off how you feel if you feel high class energy girl one day dress up that way if you feel like presidential another day put on a blazer and a mini skirt literally you have to focus on how

you're feeling and the way the clothes speak accordingly and how they speak about you when you look at it that way instead of just like an outfit it makes it more fun it makes you more comfortable and you're gonna feel way more confident in it love you oh i'm almost over a guy i was in love with but now i keep having dreams about him and i don't know why girl you got to claim your space his energy is still in your space you got to clean it you got to claim it literally stand up right now go to your local witch supply store you are going to buy some incense you're going to buy a couple white candles you're going to get some salt and you're gonna go back home and you're gonna you need to find an incense that really speaks to you

i know people sage their house but i'm pretty sure that's a closed practice and i don't know i love a kapal incense kapal is like my favorite incense set so i'll go i'll get that i light it and you're going to walk around your bedroom you're going to walk around your home whatever it is and you're literally going to say out loud this is my space this is my area this is my energy bitch you gotta stand there and you gotta claim it but you really gotta cleanse your space you can use um you can put salt like sea salt or just like white salt in a bowl by your door you can get a dream catcher so you don't have bad dreams like literally i am all about claiming your space and being like nope nope that energy is not allowed especially not allowed in my dreams

and i you gotta declare it and then i guarantee you'll be okay but really whenever people pop up in my dreams i have to be i get up immediately and i have to be like i gotta cleanse my space i have to cleanse my space how the hell is there energy seeping into my subconscious mind scary like get away someone asked what's my go-to breakfast oh breakfast burrito all the way are you kidding me it is like a full amazing way amazing meal to start your day little tortilla action you can get like um those trader joe's or all the hash brown patties those are my favorite things or just do some like diced potatoes eggs cheese you can throw some guacamole in there sour cream or if you're feeling crazy some hot sauce literally i can be hung over i can

be mad i can be angry i can be sad i can be sick if you give me a breakfast burrito i recharged refueled feeling amazing it is literally the best food ever someone said i cried at my new job and i'm extremely embarrassed embarrassed i don't know how to move on from it oh girl everybody cries literally you just gotta you gotta own it be like yeah that shit sucked i'm gonna cry and then i'm gonna keep moving on from it because everybody else did like no one will look at you differently I have cried many a times at work I there's three that I can remember number one I was pretty young I was like 18 and I just got my first ever like serving job and I it was not my fault but the chef freaked out on me because you know they're fucking assholes and he yelled at me and I started

crying and I went out back and I was like I'm gonna go out back I'm gonna let it out and he came out and this is when i realized like okay i was just being a little sensitive in that moment and maybe it was a hard day for me and i think i just like got in a car accident or something it's like it was a hard day for me i'd showed up at work someone snapped on me i'm just not having a good day and he came out and he's like hannah i'm sorry i did not mean to say that please get back inside i i did not mean to do that and then i realized he was just like an aggressive talker like he's not aggressive he's just kind of loud um and i was like it's okay I was having a bad day and we worked it out I also remember another time I cried at work

and I'm just going to share all my stories so you feel comforted but another time I cried at work because I was just having of course a really bad day and my co-worker was being mean to me oh my god he was stealing tables from me what a fucking dick he got fired though so karma anyways it was pissing me off and I had this table who's being so hard and I just I just lost it so I went out back I started crying my manager's like are you okay do you need to go home I'm like no I'm fine this dude's just fucking pissing me off like can you talk to him and I was out back crying she's like yeah I'll go talk to him you just do your thing hang out I was out back crying and my table had left like they had paid and left I went out and cried after they paid and it was like a mom

and a dad and their kid and the kid was like a baby they were walking on the corner and they saw me crying and they were like oh honey can we pray for you and i was just like in tears and in shambles and like obviously that's the last thing i want but i didn't say anything so they just like burst out into prayer and like she like set her arm on my shoulder she's like god loves you everything's gonna be okay and i went back inside they had tipped me 10 what do you mean god loves me you're giving me 10 bitch oh i was so mad i was so mad what do you mean you're gonna see me crying in an alleyway you're gonna pray for me and then you're gonna tip me like three dollars god what do you mean god loves me obviously he doesn't anyways and then recently i had a little

breakdown at work because this table it was a seven top and turned into like a 25 top 25 people ended up being there they're all moving around they're all like no i didn't order that i i ordered this you didn't bring it they're like literally gaslighting me and i'm losing i'm losing it i'm losing my mind and finally like I bring out all the checks and I know I split them up correctly even though they were driving me insane and I give it to them and then there's like three they hand to me they're like we didn't order any of that we're not paying for it even though they did and I just lost it I lost it I went in the back I started crying and I if I cry at work it means something really got to me like I'm a tough I'm a tough bitch you know like I don't

cry often even if I did who cares but like if I start crying it's because something happened and so when I cry all my co-workers are like oh shit like those people are rough like that's tough I had I've had grown men scream in my face and I didn't cry like of course it shook me up and I was like damn bitch what the fuck but I didn't cry so when I cry it's like meaningful and all my co-workers like gather around to just like help me out that's when like a good work environment is necessary like of course sometimes work's gonna make you cry but like how management handles that and how the people around you handle that says a lot did they apologize they step in to help you did they make you feel better do they give you space they give you time that's what's necessary

and that really helps me feel less awkward at work and be like whatever yeah i fucking cried because we all have breakdowns we all are human and work is so fucking stressful so don't feel bad about it you should still be just as confident crying doesn't mean you're weak it means you're human and it means you have an emotion and it means that shift was really fucking rough for you so let it out girl who cares you're okay love a good cry at work honestly though it's so cathartic i'm like in the walk-in freezer sobbing my tears are like freezing to my face it's like a little face mask then i'm so glowy afterwards and i ended up i always end up get free food because people feel bad anyways oh my god i'm dreading this i'm actually dreading it someone said what

did you do during the holidays when you hate your family i don't necessarily hate my family but i do hate the awkward small talk where they're like so what are you doing and i in my 25 year old brain i'm looking at this 60 year old man attempting to even figure out if i should try explaining how i work on the internet without it sounding like i'm a sex worker because like no hate like i hey but you know that's like the first thing they're fucking thinking so i just stopped talking about myself and at holidays in order to get through them a i'm everybody's drinking love that love a good like i'm gonna walk around and smoke and or eat an edible and show up to this fucking dinner i'm gonna eat some good food and also i'm going to ask you a lot of questions

okay if you're weird and bad at small talk in any sort of situation if you want all the pressure off of you if you want to feel in control of a conversation ask them questions it is the easiest fucking way to have a conversation if you don't know what to say oh my god i like those shoes where'd you get them oh i love your hair how how'd you do that so what are you up to how's your job it takes all the pressure off of you and it is a great way to start a conversation is a great way to continue a conversation um if you're a little awkward and weird at family events general small talk ask the other person questions that is the number one way i'm really gonna get through the holidays because oh my god they are just so much work i had a little taste of it this sunday

i had to wake up and go to my grandpa's like join birthday party it was cute but i'm like oh my god so i'm waking up at 9 a.m to cook pasta salad to get there at 11 and then i'm hanging out all day and then i gotta go home and then it's two o'clock in the afternoon and i'm just like fucking exhausted and that's what the holidays are all about but yeah to avoid all that awkward weird small talk it's really just like no you no i'm gonna turn this around on you what are you up to because there's one thing i know people love doing and that's talking about themselves always hello miss hannah my question for the pod is what are your thoughts slash associations with this Libra season because personally as a Libra I see it as our boss best moment our independent

girly our single roster era because also of Halloween like we want to be sexy as fuck but then as Libras we kind of try and find the black and white and the gray in the situations so we're thinking oh my god am I doing this because I'm emotionally traumatized from past serious relationships am i emotionally disassociating is it this or is it that am i putting on a facade uh as libras we are such overthinkers so let me know what you think also love to see you as a casey girly and also a casey girly so love you i have been loving libra season so far and i actually wrote about this on the patreon um if you want to follow my patreon it's at hannah marlene i believe come join the join the patreon club it is so fun there but um i wrote

about libra season on there like a week ago and this is what i said i feel like it really encapsulates how i am really trying to celebrate this time libra season provides what i think most people expect leo season to bring instead of swiftly swinging from one end of the spectrum to the other this time provides peace understanding in ourselves and inspiration as well there will be there will be an energetic shift in the air asking us to lean into harmony and love. Libra is ruled by Venus, the planet of loves. This time is giving cozy social fall romance vibes. Falling in the middle of the year, Libra also asks us to reflect back on our past year and ask ourselves, how do we want to finish this chapter? We're able to witness all the effort we've put in over the past six

months and start to see some of the seeds or intentions we planted at the beginning of the year bloom. This can be a powerful time to readjust our efforts and our energy into relationships and projects that feel aligned and reciprocal. Libra season also has us focusing on the important relationships and connections in our lives. We also may feel called to experiment with our style, our personal aesthetic. This is your cosmic green light for a rebrand. In its most beautiful form, Libra brings a sense of enchantment that has the power to transform seemingly overwhelming problems into manageable ones. We can't force or manipulate this transformation, but we can change through acts of kindness, fostering social bonds, or simply by firmly believing in the

importance of justice and beauty in ourselves. Cheers to Libra seasons. I love my Libra baddies out there. The overthinking is only going to stop you, and I know you Libra seasons are always there to find out the truth and to balance the scales so focus on peace and harmony that will get you further than anything else someone asked what if i fail question mark no like you need to i'm not putting bad juju on you right now and i'm not preying on your downfall i think failure teaches you more than success ever could ever the most successful people you know were the people who are not afraid to fail not afraid to try new things not afraid to be a fool to be the odd duck out they believed in themselves and they tried it and when they fail they don't give a fuck because

that's an opportunity to learn and change and grow and means the next time you're most likely to succeed so yeah what if you fail but also what if you succeed and if you do fail who cares it just means the next time you're going to know more about yourself you're going to understand more and you're going to be better for it the people who do not grow do not develop do not succeed in this life are the people who are so afraid of failure that they do nothing they stay stagnant they don't accept change because it's scary and i get that but you cannot live there forever you have to dare to dream you have to dare to try things you gotta dare to fail a hundred percent i failed a lot i have i i i'm the first one to admit it okay i have failed a lot but

that has made me such a better person such a better person and it makes me more willing to try new things more willing to try new projects more willing to understand myself more you gotta dare to fail it's okay failure doesn't mean you did something wrong or bad or you're an awful person or I don't know it really means nothing other than I need to approach this next situation differently and if you let failure take over you you're gonna stay stagnant you're never gonna change so learn grow develop dare to dream someone asked how to spice up sex with my boyfriend of a year I love him but we need to switch it up literally I think you both need to venture to your local sex shop and go inside and just look around just look around it's gonna be a little

awkward uncomfortable for probably both of you you're being a little vulnerable here or it's gonna be really fun one of the two but go in look around pick up things ask them about it do you want to do this would you like to try this oh my god look at this lol like have some fun with it I guarantee you will leave with like two or three new things. Don't be afraid of sex toys. Red flag? Red flag in a man is if they're afraid of sex toys. What do you mean? What do you mean you're jealous? What do you mean you're jealous of a piece of plastic? Oh my god. Embarrassing. Like let's utilize this to make the sex even crazier, more fun for everybody involved. You know what I mean? Love it. Have fun. Go explore. Try new things. Dare to you know lean into the

kinkier side of life okay someone asked ideas for tattoo placements that aren't too visible but when they are it's sexy uh my first ever tattoo that was like professionally done not by myself with a tattoo machine in someone's fucking basement um it is in between my shoulders on my back it's a big eye um first ever tattoo it's so hot because it's hidden under my t-shirt so unless my hair is up or i'm wearing hair up and i'm wearing a tank top you can't see it i got it and i didn't tell my parents about it because i thought they'd hate me and i hid it from them for a year and then my ex-boyfriend at dinner the night before or no the night of i'm supposed to have a party at my parents house for new year's eve night of the dinner before my parents leave

and give me the house so I can throw a party my dad makes a joke it was very odd but he made a joke about like me having a hidden tattoo on my back completely randomly had no idea that I had this and we were me and my two friends who were there just played it off and then my ex at the time goes how do you know about the tattoo on her back you could hear a pin drop in that room and then my two friends just fucking burst out laughing because they're like this dude just fucked up so hard and my dad almost cried because he was like oh my god you had a tattoo and you didn't tell us it's i didn't tell them and that's what hurt them the most but i was a little nervy i was a little scared you know and it was fun to like keep it to myself but also they didn't know

about it for a full year because they couldn't see it on your back behind your shoulder in between your shoulders so cute so sexy literally love that tattoo it's one of my favorites sick routine slash remedies please i'm dying okay you're gonna need a blue gatorade ibuprofen depending on your illness you're gonna need some sort of like mucinex or you know depend based on whatever illness you need you have get that medication of course um you are going to need a ice cold glass of water you're gonna need some miso soup you're gonna need maybe some some toast with some cinnamon sugar on top what's better than that a banana very light things but specifically the miso soup always heals me um and you're gonna need a tv in front

of you with your favorite movie on and your bed and you've got to be naked and just lay lay out be sick lean into the sickness I feel like whenever I'm sick and I have to pretend I'm not I feel worse but when I'm sick and I'm like oh I feel so awful and this sucks I'm just like rolling around in pain I'm fully feeling it and I get over it faster so take like a day do your sick routine take a hot hot shower sit on the shower floor just like steam it out blue gatorade ibuprofen cold water miso soup you'll be good someone asked what's your favorite way to set the fall vibes well it is fall here it's officially october but it has been like 95 degrees here for some reason it's actually still summer is what it feels like but i'm still

trying to set the vibe around my house so the other day me and my boyfriend spent time decorating the house for halloween dollar tree has some amazing really cheap decorations if you're trying to decorate on a budget decorate the house for halloween i love a simmer pot or like changing out the candles for like more of a fall cinnamony pumpkin-y vibe um i change up like my coffee routine now i use like a spiced chai that i mix with my espresso to give it more of like a fall energy I'm taking the moment to go through my closet and clean it out and pull out all my fall pieces um and really change that up and then also see what I need um I've been really taking advantage of the outside as much as I can I want to do some like fall celebration things such as

like go to a pumpkin patch go apple picking little things like that um but there's a lot of things you can do to set the fall vibe and those are just a few things I've been doing specifically decorating for Halloween I don't I don't think it's early like it's October but that really oh immediately changed the energy in my house I'm like yeah it's fall I know it's 95 degrees out there but it's fall in here that's all that matters someone said pros and cons of your IUD want to go on but terrified of weight gain I love you so much I don't think weight gain is a side effect of IUDs I have experienced a little bit of a weight gain but I don't think it's from my IUD I think it's because I eat chicken tenders and quesadillas and all the yummy foods every single

day and I should probably just like put a salad in there every once in a while but like who cares you know I've just been indulging of course my body's going to change accordingly I'm getting older it's just a part of life IUD I don't think it inherently has a effect on your weight gain but me and my friend last night we were talking about our IUDs and we were like wow we love them we absolutely love them and we both got our first ones around the same time which was like seven years ago and then we both got our second ones around the same time which was like five six months ago and compared to the first time to this time just science in general and women's health has made such a jump recently and i think the experience with iuds nowadays and

getting them now is so much better than back then when no one really knew what the fuck was going on or how to treat pain management or how to talk to the people about this and a lot of doctors will tell you it doesn't hurt that bad but anything involved with like getting some sort of contraceptive that's long-term there's gonna be a pain involved like it's an invasive procedure so advocate for pain management get you some pills get you a suppository that's gonna open your cervix like talk with your doctor see what they have they definitely have things available for you so advocate for yourself i'm not gonna lie to you and say it doesn't hurt the first time hurt really bad but they didn't really know what they were doing second time when i say it hurt i mean of

course there was pain involved but it was so fast me and my friend literally sat up and said the same exact thing which was wow that was an amazing experience like of course iud is painful but our people went above and beyond to make sure we were comfortable to make sure it was quick to make sure pain was minimal to make sure we have medication so it doesn't hurt and the side effects I don't have any like I was on birth control for a while and the pill I mean and I felt like it made me fucking insane probably because I didn't take it the same time every day and of course not taking your hormones at the same time every day is gonna fuck with your brain and your body a little bit and I think it made me fucking crazy but this I don't have to think

about it I don't have to take it every day if I'm nervous about it if it's shifted or whatever usually you know because there's going to be a pain involved I haven't had that ever happen to me and if you're worried you could actually like reach in and feel the strings make sure the strings are there um sex i have pretty rough sex and i feel like it is not painful whatsoever um your sir it makes you also a little bit more aware of your body because your cervix does like change positions throughout your cycle which i find very interesting or at least mine does like it tilts different directions so sometimes like a position I can it's a little bit tighter in there I can feel my IUD a little bit it's not painful I'm just aware of it and when you do feel that you

can just switch positions like oh I'm in cowgirl and it's hurting a little bit let me just go into reverse cowgirl switch positions and usually that does help a lot my period is lighter my cramps are minimal um i do get random cramping sometime but i feel like sometimes it's just gas it's not my iud um and i have crazy wild sex all the time and i feel like it is just so protective i feel so comfortable with it um and other than the slightly painful procedure i love my iud and so does my friend who has had one long term we actually switched like i had the kylena and then i went onto the morena i started with the kylena because it was lower hormones and smaller and then my doctor didn't have this one so i got a different one and she did the opposite she had the morena

and then she switched to what i had which is the kylena and we we both really like them um i feel like it regulates my period a little bit better i used to have very very heavy periods i'm talking super plus tampon every hour and i don't have as much bleeding i feel like i can function more in my everyday life and overall it is just a 10 out of 10 experience advocate for yourself for medication in order to make the procedure a little bit better make sure your doctor is cool if you don't feel comfortable with your doctor don't go there and get it okay there's plenty of doctors under your insurance i actually went to a doctor outside of my insurance so if you don't have insurance it's very affordable out of pocket the device itself is $1,200 you're like whoa what do

you mean affordable I didn't pay for it literally there's companies out there who are willing to give it to you for free because of the Roe versus Wade thing getting overturned like there are a lot of people putting money into contraceptives and making sure women have access to it and abortions and there's funds out there that will cover the cost of your IUD look into it I did and I got mine for free and then the application and insertion and then the visit beforehand i paid all out of pocket no insurance because this doctor was fantastic and i just absolutely loved her and i felt so safe and comfortable with her um and she made me feel so seen and i really wanted to it was an investment honestly and it was only like 350 so so you can do it i believe in you

bitch a new coach bag is 350 and it's not even gonna last you as long as an iud will or give you as much protection and coverage okay invest in the iud invest in you i i felt like investing in my iud was such an investment in myself i knew i was gonna be more sane on it i knew i was gonna be protected because i'm a little crazy when it comes to sex um and i knew i wasn't gonna have a fucking baby on it which i love that's the most important part so i love it 10 out of 10 i cannot say more good things about it honestly oh my god oh my god someone said just said i love you to my situationship during sex haha i'm not in love i don't know why i did it listen i i'm not crazy here i don't think you're in the wrong i don't like you are making love

you're creating love you're having sex that's what sex is no wonder it accidentally slipped out you could if he doesn't say anything about it or he doesn't become weird or he just pretends like it didn't happen valid but if he does become weird or he's like why did you say that you can just be like dude the sex was just really good i'm sorry don't think too much about it you know like really don't um but like no wonder sex is love you're creating love you are bonding with another person and you feel that way it slips out you know it happens most people when things crazy things happen during sex they're usually just gonna ignore and move on you know someone said thoughts on taylor swift and travis kelsey thought number one listen i'm a kansas city girly

i we have been chiefs fan since the day i've been born like the chiefs are everything here okay so of course travis kelsey was a big person around here like i'm not a huge football girl but best believe when we won the super bowl i was black out drunk in a club absolutely like celebration time city is going crazy so the fact that taylor swift is even relatively connected to kansas city i'm in love i'm loving it i'm loving it literally the restaurant they went to after the last game i almost worked at and i thought was like what the fuck why didn't i get a job there because i probably would have met her anyways i wish them nothing but the best she's finally with a hot man which is exactly what she deserves finally out of the british empire you know she's done dating

these skinny British men she needs herself a man and I hope he can do that for her cheers I hope they do well and have successful babies together that's my goal the one thing I'm really mad about is the Chiefs tickets are gonna be so expensive now because everybody's like oh Taylor's gonna be there now that she's been at two games I know those tickets are gonna be so expensive and they already were expensive it was like $200 for like nosebleed seats for Chiefs games now it's gonna to be like two times that fucking price so best believe i won't be going to any of those unfortunately but maybe maybe one day i'll run into taylor swift oh so cute someone said my best friend is dating my recent ex what do i do so i'm assuming you're young because

when i was younger i was probably in a place where i would let that slide but now that i'm older never ever that person's not your friend i hate to say i hate to break the news to you that person is not your friend that's just how it is it is girl code number number fucking one to not contact not be in touch with and to not entertain somebody else's ex and this is why i also really encourage having friends who are like not exactly you in another body you know i mean of course it's fun having the same interest and stuff but have friends who are different than you who will look at the menu date and be like ew because it's not their type those are my favorite friends because they will never ever you know like fuck someone i'm into that girl code number one you do

not fuck someone's ex you do not even date someone else's ex okay that you are friends with so that girl's not your friend and i really encourage you just distancing yourself from her someone asked how do i make my needs heard while staying chill i feel like a lot of women are afraid to bring up what's on their mind because they want to still seem like the chill girl and as soon as you bring up something wrong that somebody's doing you immediately become the unchill girl but in fact by you not bringing it up you are the unchill girl because you are getting walked all over and you are probably stuck in some people pleasing tendencies and sometimes you gotta be you've got to be not afraid to break the chill girl character because sometimes a chill girl character is simply

a fucking doormat so stand up say what's on your mind say it calmly say it as soon as you know how to put it into words so then you're not sitting with it and then you blow up on the other person and it causes a bunch of drama calm collectively state what's going on i really don't appreciate when you do this i would appreciate if you did this more often i see you doing this but i wish this i i statements i feel statements put the ball into their court and then give them an opportunity to do with that information what they will if they hear you and they're like no totally and they don't do anything about it that's when you have to ask yourself is this a person who is is worth having in my life like do they actually see and hear me for who i am

or am i just another side character in their everlasting saga of experiences um but yeah yeah you gotta just put your feelings out there because if you don't the other person's gonna have no idea what's going on and in turn the worst thing you can do for any sort of interpersonal relationship whether it's romantic or friendship is to not say what's on your mind because then you're not giving the other person an equal opportunity to either fix the situation to show up for you to show up for themselves whatever it may be you can't live in this fantasy world in your world in your head you have to live in the real life in the oh my god the cotton mouth is getting to me you have to live in the real world thus you must be vulnerable and speak what's on

your mind calm cool collected you got to say it as soon as you can put it into words so you don't blow up on them once again or like build resentment that's even worse say how you feel give them an opportunity to react you would be surprised how many people are like emotionally aware enough to be like oh no i hear you and i will do better thank you for coming to me and if they can't do that is that a person you want around you think about that think about it but yeah always say how you feel never be afraid ever hi Hannah so I just had a question basically asking how to not feel so guilty when like getting high every day just a little backstory like when I was 18 I'm 20 now when I was 18 my boyfriend started using weed before me and I it made me so uncomfortable no

particular reason I was just young and innocent and didn't like it and it being like a part of his life like I eventually grew more comfortable with it and I was happy with it um and now I get high like all the time I take edibles because I live at home and also I'm a singer I don't want to fuck up my lungs um but so I do smoke a little bit now but I get high almost every single night always at night like I I'm gonna run out of time so I might make a part two but um I like get high every night I go to school I do everything I need to do and just it's kind of what I do to unwind or if I have some free time so I'm totally fine with getting high most nights like I'm not usually high throughout the entire day I don't wake and bake just because but I still feel so guilty for getting

high almost every single day and it's just what it's grown to be because it's like it's such an accepting community and like all of these things being like yeah you're fine but for some reason I still feel so guilty like I'm destroying my morals or like I'm a worse person because of it or because or like I'm gonna deteriorate my health or things like that but I oh my god it just stresses me out so bad and I also have really bad ADHD so you give me a decision I will not be able to choose by myself I need an outside source to convince me one way or another I just spent the last hour debating on whether I should take my edible right now and I finally decided to just do it so it really sucks waste a lot of time especially since I take edibles but anyways love you thank

you so much bye I don't know growing up and going through the whole like dare program like if you went to public school of course you got many a talks on drugs are bad and weed equals meth and you should be terrified yet like we're going home and our parents are drinking every night and that's socially acceptable um I feel like there's a lot of fear and um just yeah just fear instilled in the usage of weed and I feel that too um but I think your guilt might be coming from not only that but also like your daily usage so if you're just like worried about you're using it too much or you're using it in a um in a way that you think is unhealthy to you I mean you can listen to that feeling and you can understand that feeling is valid and like hey maybe getting high every single

night is not what I want to be doing let's cut it back to four times a week you know like we can still manage this while also using it in a positive way I mean it sounds like you're using it in a positive way you know you get your shit done you know you're a singer and you shouldn't smoke so you do edibles like it doesn't sound like you're drinking on top of it it just sounds like this is something that you do at the end of the night after you get all your hard work done in order to chill the fuck out and what's so wrong about that you know like i i think you're totally fine and i feel like a lot of the fellow weed users you know feel a lot of guilt and shame for what they do because of the historical background of guilt and shame on weed and you know the dare

program really villainizing it which oh my god the history behind that is so interesting please go learn about it it is just solely rooted in just like racism and oh it's awful but the residual factors of fear that it has placed in us by these government programs just villainizing weed so incredibly hard um of course there's like residual guilt it's like it's like the catholic guilt that catholics feel whenever they stop becoming catholic it's like oh my god but god's watching me like i have all this guilt and fear that i've grown up with and it's still here and that's something that i think you should just practice processing and practice rationalizing with yourself whenever you do feel that guilt just be like no you know i feel this way but i know this

this feeling isn't based in reality i know i am not like using constantly and smoking in the morning and smoking all day every single day like this is something that i do to chill myself out at the end of the night i'm not getting so fucking high that i like can't speak i'm drooling everywhere. Just like a chill little edible at the end of the night to take, you know, the stress off my day. I think that is probably one of the most healthiest way to use weed. And I know this because my dad is one of the healthiest people I know. He's like 55. You would never think about it. He's like out here running. He runs like multiple businesses. He's just like jack of all trades very athletic very focused on his health and that is the exact way that he celebrates his

everyday night okay he eats a little gummy after he showers eats dinner has a little gummy sits on his phone watches tv for like an hour and goes to bed and he's the healthiest person i know literally so i think i think you're totally fine i think you were in the clear here i think you need to work on that inner feeling of guilt and uplifting yourself through it and understanding that those emotions aren't always based in reality and i love you and you'll be okay enjoy your edible cheers girly someone asked do i think selling your soul is a real thing yes because i have almost accidentally done it once um selling your soul is not you making a bind with the devil it's not you know any witchy voodoo things like that I mean it can be but it's very nichely that

you know I think selling your soul actually comes from you following a path or doing something that goes completely against who you are that was me when I was in nursing school I was like holy fuck I have sold my soul to the devil I don't want to be here I am miserable this is awful I'm at a Catholic school I'm definitely not Catholic I am just like I feel like I am a in I'm me but I'm in the wrong body in the wrong place I feel like I've literally sold my soul and I had to get myself out of that and get myself back on the right path but I think that's like a more real world example of selling your soul and something that people do a lot a lot a lot a lot it is completely get going against your morals your character your value your wants your needs um and disregarding them

that is selling your soul someone said i want to fuck my ex for the plot i know i shouldn't but i'm horny af don't do it girl stay strong stay strong the one most important thing that i'm so proud of in my life is that I have never gone back to any of my exes ever ever and I feel so strong and proud for that and trust me it was it was difficult you have those moments those low moments where you're like maybe no don't do it you're gonna regret it so much it's not even for the plot it's literally plotting on your downfall do not don't do it you are stronger than this someone said i lost all my routines and good habits i'm falling so behind in school sos illy i think all you really need is for someone to tell you it's never too late to start again

you know no matter how behind you feel it's never too late to ask for help to put a game plan into action to get yourself back on track work on one thing at a time to get yourself back there to have a conversation with your teachers to get your grades back on track it is never too late ever your life is a continuous flow of energy you are never working backwards you're never behind you were never falling behind it is never too late you can keep every single day every moment you can decide to move forward no matter what and also asking for help people are always so afraid to do this and I used to be just because I like felt like a burden for some sort of reason for asking for help oh my god no everybody's willing to help you if you are willing to show

up and be like vulnerable and say hey I need help doing this people are so willing to help you and if they're not girl fuck them but if you need to go to your teachers and be like hey I've been having a rough time is there any way I can do a b c d what can I do you simply showing up for yourself and showing them that you have interest in bettering yourself people will see that and they will want to help you continue and do better so don't be afraid to be a little vulnerable ask people for help and you it is never too late you can always start again today okay anyways i love you all so very much thank you for being here thank you for being you thank you for celebrating today a little with me by joining for this beautiful episode of the podcast if you want

to support me baby teas will be out shortly at hannah marlene on instagram follow me there get yourself a little baby tea we're all going to be matching and so fucking hot it's going to be so good if you want to see more from me obviously i put out this podcast but you can follow me on patreon for all the extra goodies all the fun things there if you liked my little virgo writing it'll be on there as well as so many other fun things all the extra content um and yeah i am have a little bit of a sore throat so i'm gonna try and chug some water i'm gonna take some ibuprofen i'm on my period ew um and then i'm going to hot pot with some friends tonight so i know that miso soup and some udon noodles and some beef is really gonna cure me and then i'm

going to take a fat or a hot shower big bath lay around beautiful little amazing day off and I love celebrating it with you thank you for being here remember to honor yourself in some sort of way today and remember our homework if you want to incorporate one new daily habit it is never too late to start I know it's Tuesday but it is never too late start today do great you're amazing I love you I will see you all so very soon