Smoke Sesh - dating yourself, getting freaky, t breaks & pmsing

Episode Date: January 14, 2025

hello hotties happy Tuesday! so excited to get back together with you guys to hang and chat the chaos of life, we get into what I've been up to, surviving winter for the final months that we have, getting out the house and setting goals, TikTok getting banned, new recipes, pmsing and how to not be crazy, getting freaky and how to up the sex drive in your relationship, the LA fires and how to handle your natural disaster anxiety, living day to day, t breaks and how to successfully take one, dating yourself this 2025, my hatred for AI, what's on my current playlist, good luck and manifestation spells, smokers skin and how it effects you, does dick size really matter? maybe they just don't like you and that's okay, you'll find the right person eventually, plus astrology chaos and how to handle the new year with a positive attitude plus much much much more! if you want to see more from me come join me and the girls on the patreon patreon.com/smokeseshshawty and if you want to see what im up to follow me on instagram @ hannahmarlene and we will chat soon ! stay sane stay sexy, MUAH!

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hannah your host and i'm so excited to be back with all of my hotties today how the hell are we all doing mental health check-in mental health check-in the day i'm actually recording this is on monday which is the day of the full moon i hope you guys survived that one it was a full moon and cancer. And listen, when it comes to astrology, spirituality, whatever you want to involve yourself in, there are no rules and regulations. So if you're still feeling like the weight of the full moon on Monday, on Tuesday, that's very normal. Full moons are very powerful. They do have kind of like a draining energy if you do not handle them well. So especially with this full moon and cancer if you need to up the self-care if you need to take time to take care of your

mental health mental health checklist make sure you are doing okay in every category that you possibly can personally that is the best thing that you can possibly do i love my cancers they are very high emotional people they are very in tune with themselves and their emotions sometimes a little too much but that's okay that's okay but definitely if you can do one thing this week for yourself some sort of self-care routine self-care trick to make yourself just feel a little bit better I highly recommend doing so but I hope you guys had a wonderful full moon I definitely did not sleep at all I don't know what it is about full moons me and my boyfriend both get this way but the night of the full moon we don't sleep at all like we both can't sleep we're tossing we're

turning even my cat couldn't sleep like I was just going through I was hot then I was cold I'm on my period so I'm sweating and the cramps were hitting oh my god it was just too fucking much and then my poor cat he's like waking up in the middle of the night and eating way too much fucking food and then throwing up I'm like oh wow oh wow oh wow so best believe I am teensy bits teensy weensy bit sleep deprived those do make for really fun episodes because the uh the lack of energy being supplemented by caffeine really gets the brain going into new and fun avenues so best believe this will be a fun silly little episode whenever my period i'm feeling like down in any sort of way i kind of like to supplement a little bit in some sort of avenue

um today was throwing on a giant fucking fur coat and at the very least doing my makeup and straightening my hair that is the most i can do today um and honestly it is making me feel a little bit better I'm also going to go get dinner with the girls tonight have a little girls night I haven't seen them in a while just because we've all been you know how it gets with friends especially as an adult you really have to be understanding that like shit gets crazy for people and you just gotta like give them time and space to handle their business when they need to don't take it personally like you'll eventually get back together it's no big deal so we're gonna go out get a little dinner tonight hang out with the girls chit chat see what's up with them

um hopefully come home do a face mask and get a full eight hours sleep that is what's on hannah's to-do list today hopefully you can take some of my self-care inspiration and apply it to yourself i did do a big write-up on the cancer full moon what to expect how it might be affecting you guys on the patreon if you guys want to join the patreon come hang out with me and the girlies we have our fun little smoke sesh club over there patreon.com smoke sesh shawty and i just lowered prices so now is the time to join okay i was like these prices a little insane i'm tired of subscriptions going up girl trust me i feel you on that we're lowering every tier i also do a patreon only podcast every thursday so if you want your question answered every single week i answer

every single question on the patreon come join seven dollars a month nine dollars a month if you want extra smoke with me content what's better than that but thank you to all my patrons thank you to all my girlies who are listening there's so many new people joining as well so buckle up strap in because this episode i have a feeling it's gonna get a little silly last episode was our new year's episode we really talked about some inspiration new year's vibes but today i'm feeling slightly unhinged and a little bit more chaotic than usual so you know what fuck it let's get into your crazy questions and see what you guys have going on someone said girl i can't wait for summer i can't take this much longer me as fuck especially waking up this morning to a sheet

of ice covering everything that i own and a high of negative two huh hello we just got our biggest snowstorm in the past like five years in kansas city to be fair growing up i remember getting like big ass snowstorms I'm talking like feet of snow missing school for a week like crazy shit and then we kind of stopped having that honestly most of high school and the five years after that girl don't ask me I can't keep track of time we really didn't get any snow I mean we got snow but it was maybe a couple inches here and there and trust me when it comes to snow inches do matter they will not shut down school for a couple inches here in the midwest no no no it needs to be like negatives and like the toddlers can't walk to the bus stop in the snow a couple inches they're not

canceling shit we got like a foot and a half here plus ice plus freezing rain i have been inside i have not gone anywhere i think the only thing i did was grocery shopping and honestly even doing that i was like wow i feel myself filling with like whimsy and joy just because i am going out and doing something other than pacing in my house like a caged animal I cannot do winter I am not a winter girly I am a summer child for life and winter I can usually do like you know the first couple months the November the December because you have all the holidays that make it so worth it and so cozy and so comfy but January's hard January's hard because that's when all the snow comes truly that's when the real winter hits and there's like nothing really to look forward to

you know there's no holidays I mean Valentine's Day is coming up but that's a February issue like we got all of January to not go stir crazy so ways that I have been trying to help myself you know stay as mentally stable as possible is a planning for the future oh oh I love planning for the future I love making goals I love a to-do list mostly I love a vacation so finally my boyfriend got like vacation hours or days he was like these are the days i put in for start looking at places tell me where you want to go like yes sir i will absolutely so i finally started researching places for like my birthday where i want to go then how many days what's going on and started researching also for his birthday so simply like planning for the future coming up with

new summer plans summer trips even if it is like a weekend getaway last birthday i didn't even do a big trip usually I do a big trip like I've been to Mexico we did a week in Mexico we've done a week in LA we've done a week here week there for my birthday last year I was feeling pretty low-key like not in a big birthday celebration mood like really just wanted to focus on chilling relaxing being in nature so we just spent a weekend in Arkansas which is like a four-hour drive from here drove out there went swimming i dressed up one night had like a good meal we used the hot tub drove home perfect perfect it doesn't have to be anything crazy and to be fair the money we spent that weekend i mean airbnbs are probably the most expensive thing but if i were to stay home and like

do a crazy birthday here it probably would have been the same cost as just like spending a chill weekend out with my boyfriend so you can make these things happen you know like cut back on the online shopping cut back on that extra starbucks cup every morning or whatever you spend too much money on and i guarantee you can make like those big dreams those big goals that the future you will really appreciate and get to enjoy possible so planning for the summer coming up with ideas for the summer and what i'm going to do then another great way is just like going on little adventures I know during the winter you hate to get out blah blah blah but even running errands I was like wow okay I'm getting out in public I get to see people I get

to have these small little interactions I get to get out of my normal routine it feels good sure it's chores and running errands like yeah not the most fun thing ever but still I'm being able to kind of like broaden my horizons and that sort of aspect so if you can get out of the house even to like go to an art supply store and just peruse and maybe buy like one three dollar pen like come home do a little bit of art go to the grocery store get some fun little ingredients to make yourself like a warm cozy soup go to your local art museum go to your local free indoor activity and enjoy that thing that truly helps me get through the winter making little plans with your friends to go out to like a cute little happy hour small little dinner doesn't cost a lot of

money you can spend a couple hours there get a chit chat with friends broaden your horizon that way and then also at home some small things that i've been implementing that gets me out of the routine of like dishes laundry dishes laundry vacuum dishes laundry dishes laundry back room is like i'll do a 10 minute stretch once a day maybe like a 15 minute one if i'm feeling crazy maybe a 10 minute abs video if i'm feeling wild girl like simple literally nothing but just moving my body indoors and stretching feeling my muscles move allowing my body to move and stretch and get rid of the restlessness in that sort of way really really helps i usually do that right before lunch so like while lunch is cooking i'll do my 10 minute stretch to kind of like forget about the

hunger for a second and then have something to look forward to afterwards and it really has become a part of like my favorite thing of the day um it's been really nice and you don't need a fancy yoga mat i do it like on my floor on my rug very simple very easy very free activity you can find any of these videos on youtube whatever calls to you just do it move your body you will be thankful for it and then also get into some books girl get into the fantasy like we're losing tiktok you cannot be in that fantasy world anymore get into your own fantasy i don't care if they're like smut novels i don't care if like what you're reading but if you can just like escape into another world through the act of reading it is so fulfilling not only are you going to be smarter

for it you're going to be more literate you're going to learn new words you're going to practice your creativity and allowing yourself to enter this fantasy land I feel like people and adults especially have really lost the capability to do that some different ways that you can kind of keep yourself from like actually going simply like attention span is down that's why I'm not against TikTok being banned I know a lot of people are like no like sobbing over it girl on my two accounts i probably have like half a million followers on tiktok do i post there not really do i care that it's getting banned no because you have to think about like in the grand scheme of things like i know they're not doing it for the betterment of us duh it is all a money and government issue

but if you think about it people have felt so more aggressive and invasive and combative I think due to TikTok and a lot of habits that they've picked up on TikTok and I don't think that is good I really don't think that is good do I think YouTube shorts or Instagram reels is any better probably not but I think the habit of scrolling so much on those apps is less than that of TikTok I don't know it is kind of wild and dystopian to see people like sobbing and screaming over losing an app I get if you have like company ties to it and you're gonna lose out on money sure very valid but just the overall general user of being like no my app my one of eight apps that I circle through throughout a day it's like honestly I think we will be better off

for it maybe we should all pick up a book instead with that newfound free time because I know the amount of hours that I spend scrolling not good and the one trick I've learned when you feel like you don't have enough hours in the day is to do more with your day unfortunately that is the trick if you're sitting here scrolling and you're like oh i just wish i did more i wish i had more time you have the time you just gotta get up and fucking do it unfortunately girl i am so sorry to break it to you you just have to fill your day with things to do and you will feel accomplished i know how awful and horrible is that me telling you like no you actually have to do something you hannah that's not the advice we wanted but unfortunately it is the real world advice

that you do need to hear there's nothing more i loathe than getting into my car and running errands but as soon as i'm in that car and i'm moving and grooving i have my little playlist on i have my little podcast i have a cute fluffy coat like i'm chilling i start having a good time unfortunately like ripping the band-aid off and just starting to do something is the hardest part maybe fortunately so just get out there and do it pick up those new habits try that new hobby it will affect your life in a positive way and set goals for the future it keeps you strong in the now and keeps you moving towards and excited for what's to come p.s if you need a good recipe there's nothing better than breakfast are you guys a breakfast girl i'm definitely a breakfast girl

it is my favorite meal of the day you can put me an eye hop and like i will feel like i'm eating a four course meal like a five star michelin star style meal i don't know what it is about like pancakes and bacon but like satisfied um but i just did a japanese souffle pancake recipe have you seen those on um instagram or literally anywhere i've been researching japan trips but they have these thick ass jiggly pancakes and i'm like how the hell do you make those way easier than you might think you probably will want like a a hand whisk to do it i did it but i felt like my arm was gonna fall off very easy though i guarantee you have the ingredients in your fridge right now highly recommend making probably took me 20 minutes uh but that is up

on my instagram if you need a fun little tuesday activity boredom activity make yourself some pancakes girl someone asked how to get a grip on my pmsing because oh my god i feel like a cunt sometimes oh you're talking to queen cunt here um listen i unfortunately like i only take it on people that I feel like is a safe space which obviously I'm not harboring that space safe space by being a cunt but luckily me and my boyfriend have like an understanding and agreement like listen if you're gonna nut in me raw like I can have a mental breakdown while I'm PMSing like obviously my hormones are being affected duh by my birth control which is making me a little a little bit crazier than usual okay I will say the IUD makes me way less crazy than I was on the

pill like the pill actually made me want to you know take myself out of the game but the IUD doesn't make me feel that way I just get like a little bit more testy a little bit more testy definitely like very emotional the couple days before my period and of course you never know like oh that's what's going on you're like why am I crying all of a sudden why am I so stressed out all of a sudden and then your period hits and you're like oh oh so personally instead of having that jump scare once a month and not tracking anything I love tracking my period I love tracking it I have this app called Stardust I think it's great it's a great app of course it a period tracking app they do advertise that they don't sell your data to companies love that but

also like if there is an investigation opened up for some whatever reason and they and the police want to access your records they can access that app it does not protect you in that sort of way i don't know what you girlies are getting up to but like let me just put that information out there but personally i use it pretty often i love using it as a period tracker because not only can you track your period but you can also track your moods you can track your acne you can track your cramps you can track your cravings so I'll check it maybe like once every other day but it'll tell me like what hormones are rising in my body what I might be feeling I would compare it to like the co-star of period apps you know you know when you get on co-star and you're like damn this app is

reading me to filth it that is basically what this app does to me but it's more directed towards my hormones and also keeps that you know period of becoming a jump scare every month oh my god but yeah when it comes to pmsing being aware of it helps me be more less like insane um and more rational when it comes to my thoughts but also i think when it comes to like the high hormones sometimes the best thing you can do is give in to them when i am like on the verge of tears and you like try and force that gate in front of the tears that brick wall in front of the tears and you're like no don't cry don't cry don't do it it makes it way worse everybody's been there where it's like no no don't do it and then you just like burst out crying like girl allow yourself to feel

those things if you're feeling angrier than usual feel those emotions process them don't hold them back or else it's gonna you know be unleashed on the person that least deserves it if you're feeling sadder than usual like that's okay like let's lean into those emotions let's do a little self-care let's show a little self-love to help us process these things key to managing pmsing here is don't avoid it don't ignore it or it will be like a bad habit you know if it's something that we're gonna have to deal with every single month we might as well make our life a little bit easier and be aware of our habits our routines and what our body goes through I think as a woman honestly it's very powerful and very smart to be aware of your body to be knowledgeable of your body

to know what is going on what cycle you're in to take care of it I think it's pretty easy as a woman to kind of like want to forget about those things especially when there's like pain involved or negative emotions like you don't want to necessarily address those things but i do think there is a power and a self-love that comes from simply understanding yourself and your body tips to spice up sex life in long-term relationship love from europe oh hey girly i want to come visit you i want to be in europe my parents are going this summer and i'm like fuck oh i'm very jealous i feel like they they should send me on a europe trip considering how much i watch their dog it is basically my dog at this point like if you're gonna get a child you need to watch your own child

i love her dearly but my god uh spicing up your sex life yes i have many tips and tricks i think the biggest piece of advice i can give anybody in a relationship that's like I don't really know what like happened to like the sex we're having sex is not a chore sex is not a chore sex is a reason for you and your partner to forget about the chaos of the world and indulge in pleasure of each other sex is kind of like an escape and it's a it's a health it can be negative it should be a healthy escape I think a lot of people's sex drives die in long-term relationships when you get into the routines when you get into the chaos of life when it feels like a chore because you have so much shit going on it's not going to be fun if you're like well I have to have

sex like that's not going to be the most fun sex you've ever had nor do I feel like you should feel pressured to feel that way in any sort of capacity sex is an escape tactic for you and your partner to engage in mutual pleasure remember that i think that mindset really helps kind of bring that spark back like oh yeah like this should be fun like we should be going at it for like hours like we should be just like seeing each other and wanting to rip each other's clothes off like yeah and if not feeling that way like that's okay life gets crazy start fantasizing a little bit okay start fantasizing a little bit start being like oh like where do i want to do it next like what do i want him to do to me like you know maybe send him like a flirty little text in the middle of the day

a flirty little picture in the middle of the day you know spice it up start early don't do it like 10 minutes beforehand that's not enough time for foreplay like start it in the morning like kiss him goodbye and be like i can't wait to see you later i don't i don't know but like do something you know a little flirty fun and then give it time to build up get time to get excited for both of you guys um go to a sex store together i talk about this a lot go to a sex store together go look at things go be like oh maybe i should try this andre maybe we should try this lou maybe we should try this toy. All fun things to involve in your sex life. And men should not view sex toys as competition. Girl, that is your shield as you are going into battle. That is your sword. That is

your steed that you are riding into this major war that's going to happen. I don't know where I'm going with this but it is your companion okay men who feel like sex toys are competition like the best way that you can kind of like break that stigma in their head is to involve it and then for them to see no like this is just another way to give my partner pleasure like this is just another way for our enjoyment to be a better experience so go to adamandeve.com go to a sex store go try little fun little things spice it up maybe get a pair of handcuffs and get freaky if there's one thing you need to do this year it's have more good sex good sex emphasis on the good not just have more sex okay that's easy try to have better sex how to stay sane with all the

natural disasters going on oh my god prayers to all my baddies out in california in la that is fucking insane and so scary and i'm so sorry you're having to go through all of that if there's anything you need please do not hesitate to reach out i have been sharing like aid efforts in the area whether it is like shelters to go to animal shelters clothing drives um i love seeing everybody come together it does give me hope like in the wake of disaster to see community truly form itself I do think LA has a incredible community base and the fact that everybody is coming together to help each other is very inspiring I think it's good it's important to take like the good out of the bad sometimes but it is so shocking and so insane just how

quickly the wildfires spread like in in minutes in seconds it was overtaking acres and it is just heartbreaking and i am so sorry for anybody who has been affected by these fires i think a big thing that a lot of people our age is like i don't want to have kids like i don't know if we're gonna be alive in the future like like global warming like i genuinely don't know and the more I'm alive and the more things that I'm seeing the more valid that is becoming because it is a real thought you know and I'm glad that people our age are smart enough to actually think these decisions through like congratulations I think a lot of people just have kids and don't think about how insane having a kid is and how hard it is and how much dedication that it requires so if you're

the person who's like well I don't know because of this this this like thank you for being a well-formed individual and actually wanting to provide the best that you possibly can but when it comes to just generalized anxiety about future occurrences natural disasters wars whatever it may be that you just have like anxiety about I think the best thing that you can do to ease that anxiety is to live as truly and as fully as you possibly can every single day to appreciate the home that you do live in to appreciate what you are given to appreciate you know oh that shitty job that you got to go to or to appreciate you know where you are now even if you feel like you're over it you've outgrown it still one day you are going to be looking back you know five ten years in the

future and you will see it in a new light and you will miss it i have this quote for you guys actually it says you will miss this in five or ten years memory will smooth these circumstances is down like a river stone and you will find yourself longing for a shade of light or a moment of this particular innocence you don't know about what happens next and one day that will be the most alluring thing of all don't leave it all for nostalgia have a nice night now whatever night it happens to be i truly think that is one thing that really helped my generalized anxiety condition and anxiety about the future um when i was younger i have a little bit less will to live and that put me into some crazy situations and I said yes to a lot of things but I would be lying if I said I

was not truly living my life the most that I could every single day sometimes sometimes a little too much like we could cut back a little bit girl you didn't go through all those things but it really taught me about like freedom and the freedom of choice and the freedom of inspiration and even if it's like a hard fucking time right now wherever you are trying to find the light in the moments that you do have trying to make the most of a good time if it is a good time so when the hard times do come you have those memories to look back on you have that appreciation for not taking advantage of the time that you did so when you're 80 90 100 and you're on your deathbed you aren't regretting not living your life the best thing you can do to ease those anxieties

of the future is to live your life to the fullest now whatever that looks like whatever that looks like i'm not saying like drop out of school quit your job and get into crazy credit card debt like no girl you can find peace and happiness in a cup of 20 cent tea in the morning you can find peace and happiness in your five minute drive to work in the morning you have to open your eyes up to the appreciations of that of those possibilities and attempt to seek joy in every moment that approaches you all right fuck it since today's a little bit of like a silly episode let me smoke earlier than i usually would um i've been trying not to smoke in the mornings not like it's a new year's resolution or anything but today's for the girls and sharing a smoke with the girls

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BetMGM operates pursuant to an operating agreement with the Alberta iGaming Corporation. Standard message and data rates may apply. how do i take a tea break i feel like i'm going insane this i guess is um you know perfect timing um how do you take a tea break okay i've taken many a tea breaks in my life and i highly recommend them especially if you feel like you're feeling out of control in some sort of way and you can take a tolerance break from anything you can take a tolerance break from alcohol from sex from boys from spending money whatever you need to take a tolerance break from girl take it if you feel

like you need to it is a sign to do so i understand though this is regarding weed so let's get into it let's see i've taken a tea break because i got way too high and funny thing is um you would think like getting way too fucking high makes you more used to it or able to handle it better no no no know if anything it made my highs from there on out like scary like horror movie scary like high anxiety scary um so i had to take a tea break probably for six months after like my really bad edible trip i've also taken a tea break because i was in college and i could not smoke and focus at the same time it was either like full-on stoner or full-on student there was no in between so I took a semester break from weed during that time as well and both of which I don't regret at

all I don't regret it at all I don't think anybody you ask who has been on a tea break has ever regretted it because you come back feeling so refreshed more understanding of yourself stronger in yourself because you stuck to your goals and actually achieved them and it doesn't have to be months like mine was it could be a week it could be a couple weeks could be a couple days whatever you need take it okay now if you really want to do a tea break right I do recommend at least a week or more I think it takes I mean probably the human brain at least two weeks to fully get into a new routine and not be freaked out by change so if you're having a hard time yeah it's gonna be hard within the first two weeks your brain doesn't know what's going on

it's not a you problem it is a routine problem and this thing let's face it was a big part of your routine and anything missing from your routine your brain's gonna start kind of like freaking out or being like what are you doing where's my substance what do you what are you doing what are you doing and the best way to get that voice in your head to go away and I hate to say it is to stay busy you have to stay so fucking busy like so busy you don't have time to think I'm talking pick up that extra shift work a double you're going home after work no you're not you better make plans you better go to the gym I don't care where you're going do not go home and sit on that couch next to that bong that you want to hit of course you're

probably gonna give in of course the voices are gonna be louder you have to stay busy not only will you kind of be distanced from those thoughts because you honestly just don't have time but when you do finally get home at the end of the day you're gonna be too fucking tired and sure you're gonna lay your head down on that little pillow and you're gonna go damn i really want a bowl and then in a split second you're gonna be asleep full eight hours in bed that truly is the only way I have been able to stay sane during my tea breaks now I've done tea breaks where it's like I still have weed around me I still have bongs around me and I'm at home best believe I was so incredibly tortured during that time and so if you can save yourself from being tortured by

just staying busy accomplishing goals doing tasks running errands seeing friends whatever it may be in order to get through it will make the whole process more fulfilling and along the way you'll pick up a couple good hobbies and habits that will probably transform your life in a pretty positive way now i will give one little psa little warning to those who are going into a tolerance break the dreams the dreams the dreams are going to come back at full force and they're going to be pretty insane thus the you need to tire yourself out so you are fully getting into a deep sleep able to stay asleep because the dreams are crazy when you stop smoking they're vivid they feel real the worst dreams I've ever had have been when I stopped smoking not to fear

monger not to fear monger like I don't think you need to be that scared of it it's just if you are restless I feel like your dreams are going to be more vivid you're not going to be able to enter those deep deep sleeps anymore so if you can tire yourself out I do think it helps with the crazy dreams but do be warned they are not signs from god they are just weed withdrawals i promise you but yeah if you're thinking of doing it i highly highly highly encourage i think there's nothing negative that you will gain out of this experience it is only positives and if you're feeling like you need to do it it's because you probably need to do it can we talk dating yourself oh yes absolutely we definitely can i think a lot of people are too focused dating other people

in order to learn more about themselves when really you can learn that plus more by just dating yourself and not only will dating yourself make you understand yourself but it will make you choose better partners in the future because you're more understanding and willing to put boundaries in place oop i think dating yourself is so important especially for my girlies who are in their 20s young 20s any 20s like if you have not taken the time to truly and utterly focus on yourself you need to do so now like please psa it's okay to focus on yourself you are not scary it's just because you don't know who you are and if you don't feel comfortable with yourself it's probably because you don't know who you are unfortunately no one's going to tell that to you

no therapist is going to be able to hand you a spreadsheet of like all right here's your top personalities you have to do it through experiencing yourself through the world i know how terrifying are you kidding me luckily that is literally the answer like you're like hannah what's the answer girl get out there date yourself forget about these fucking men stop losing yourself in random relationships random situationships random hookups stop losing yourself in bad friendships stop losing yourself in bad habits and substances and get raw and real with who the fuck you are I had to do that after my whole molly phase my whole party girl era where I felt like I definitely looking back had a lot of fun definitely was running for myself was terrified of that had

no idea who i was very easy to escape into substances well once i stopped cold turkey i sat down and i looked at myself and i was like who is she who the fuck is she like that's not me i don't feel like that's me who is she usually that would scare me when i i felt this a couple times in my life but i also felt it at like 16 17 when i came out of my like years-long depression i was like oh i don't know who that girl in the mirror is i was more scared at that time than i was in my early 20s so very thankful for being brave during that time and just facing the fear head on listen you're gonna feel a lot of fear in your life the last thing you need to feel fear about or let fear control you about is yourself there is power in knowing yourself the same way

i talked about like there's power in knowing your body and how it works and how it functions there is power in knowing who you are and understanding who you are not only will it make you more confident approaching the world around you the world around you will feel more able to approach you you'll feel more approachable you'll be more willing to go after things that you never would have thought of to probably get further in life because you're willing to simply try because you have that trust in yourself you're probably going to make way better connections because you're willing to understand like what you will and won't settle for to understand what a good relationship is what relationships work for you what habits what hobbies inspire you and

drive you you're going to be able to have that important judgment that there is when it comes to interacting with people it is the most powerful tool on this planet and if you have not taken time to dedicate at least a little bit of time to yourself now is the moment to do so listen i'm giving you the okay I'm giving you the the go ahead you don't have to be that people pleaser it's not selfish of you to think of yourself and I am so thankful for the work I did put in because best believe it was scary I was like oh I'm nervous like who is she what's going on like what am I gonna get into and it took some like weird growing pains and figuring things out and losing people and gaining people and trying new jobs I went through so many different phases during

that period of time but now I feel so closer to who I am and just so much more confident because of it any sort of hard work you put into yourself will always pay off and will always be worth it trust and understand that during the hard times and what's beautiful about life is like you are ever changing and ever growing so there will always be new moments and opportunities to like be able to hone in on those skills and get further and gain even more knowledge and even more inspiration and courage it truly is kind of like the fountain of youth in that way like if you think about it when you see those like 80 year olds who are like so themselves skipping around not one care in the world you're like damn like she must have had a good life yeah she probably did

because she knows herself she knows what she wants and i doubt she settled for less 2025 is the year of dating yourself out are the situationships girl you're running from your yourself and there's nothing to hide especially behind a man who is doing you dirty that is the last person you should be hiding behind and if you think about it he's hiding from you because he doesn't know himself there's so many negatives that can come out of not knowing yourself putting yourself in bad situations hurting people um just doing negative behaviors engaging in negative activities things that don't truly call to you um behaving in ways that aren't truly yourself i feel like a lot of self-sabotage comes in here a lot of demeaning behaviors not only on yourself or other people

comes from not knowing who you are or just not liking yourself but you can change that there's always room for change there's always room for growth there is always room for development there is always time to start dating yourself do so what's your opinion on ai specifically ai art hate hate hate hate i hate it with every single fiber of my being are you kidding me i'm tired of seeing it i'm tired of companies thinking that they can get away with it as soon as i see a company use ai art they immediately lose every single penny that i was possibly going to spend there target was selling ai art christmas bags i'm like i can't even i literally cannot go back there not that i thought it was really a good company at all but there is like something to say

about companies who are unwilling to hire professional artists to do their fucking job like are you kidding me it just shows that you are lazy that you don't care about the consumer and that you don't care about quality and in my opinion those are three things that are going to lose me spending money on them i think it's important to also like think about where you're spending money okay like does this company actually deserve your hard-earned dollar like girl that starbucks drink is the same price as an hour of your work do you agree with every single thing that this company is doing like please think about it you have to be aware especially in a hyper consumerism like country i think companies feel that they have a right to your

money and i hate that we have to take that stigma away we have to start thinking and asking ourselves like does do I really want to spend money here do that do they deserve my money but yeah I cannot fucking stand AIR I mean like the silly stuff where it's like this is so bad that it's hilarious like sure usually I only see that in the context of like them making fun of it which is fine but every single time I see it come up on my feet in any sort of way or in real life in any sort of way that is framed in a serious manner i legitimately like want to die like it is the worst thing to ever see especially as an artist like it's so disheartening are you fucking kidding me like the one major thing about being alive and being able to see colors and understand beauty is like

what can come from it and certain people's creative ability and how they can translate that and how beautiful that can be to connect to on like a human level and you're stealing that away from us like i want ai in my kitchen doing my dishes doing my laundry doing the things i don't want to do so i can make the art not the other fucking way around uh literally do not get me started this is the one thing me and my republican grandfather like agree on i'll start complaining about AI art and like AI in general and he's like yeah absolutely I'm like at least we're all on the same page here when it comes to that like shit if there's one thing I'm gonna bond over him with at Christmas it's going to be our hatred of AI this is random but I just posted

on Instagram today because it's the cancer full moon posting some inspo for you all if you need it at hannah marlene wink wink anyways um i love posting on instagram because my following is 98 percent women yes hello hi girls love you and every time i post like even if it's a post for the girls not that i ever post for guys in general but like any sort of post i do it will bring out the men from the woodworks whether it's through like a comment and i will block you yes i will i will i love it i'm like one less strange weird sexualizing straight male in my space thank god thank god thank you for showing yourself low-key not a question but i need your spotify playlist please they must be such a vibe you know what one of like a youtube videos i've been wanting to make

for a while is like sesh and listen to music with me like session favorite songs right now but if you want to listen to what i'm listening to um you can look me up on spotify like my personal account it's just smoke sesh if you look it up it'll be like me in a bunny hat from 2020 um lockdown era it's so cute though i'm like we'll leave her up she's she was such a vibe at the time but my playlist that i'm listening to right now is titled finally some highlights from the playlist right now I usually just make like one playlist a year or two playlists a year and I just throw every single song that I'm listening to in that playlist during that period of time I do not make curated playlists based on vibe although I do love them I like to go back to

playlists and listen to all of the music I was listening to like during a specific era of my life I feel like it's so nostalgic and so nice um so keep in mind no organization at all other than this is the vibe i'm on but some songs that i've been listening to oh my love by fka twigs like smoke amy winehouse i do really love scorsese baby daddy off sZA's new album love is everywhere magdalena bay a world alone by lord oh my god not me in my emo era not me in my 2016 era followed by don't stop the music rihanna yeah call me cali uchis everything she wants wham young hearts run free candy statin many many more i will be adding more onto that list that will probably be my like 2025 playlist but if you want to go listen to it it's titled

finally and my username is smoke sash one word some simple manifestation rituals struggling to find the balance with work not necessarily a manifestation but i do have a good luck spell for you all because my boyfriend was going through it car got stolen got a new car two days later broken in everybody at work being an asshole i think just usps system kind of sucks question mark didn't know there was this much drama within the postal service which fucking it kills me like they need a reality tv show for sure but i was just feeling so so bad and i needed to go get crystals for my nephew because he's in this like he's like four and he's in this era where he loves dragons and loves crystals like rocks duh what kid doesn't fucking love rocks so i'm like

let me be the witchy aunt i'm i am and let me go to the metaphysical shop down the road for me if you need a good one in kansas city i go to aquarius books and gifts honestly love them fantastic super sweet super nice will answer any question you have they usually have like some sort of tarot reader there every single day and has been around forever but i went there to like not only get pretty rocks for my nephew and simultaneously like get him rocks that will bring him like prosperity and peace and you know creative ability and just selflessness things like that but I also went there to build a good luck like talisman bag for my boyfriend one great thing you can do is a money bowl I love a money bowl you just make a bowl green bowl altar space where

you can you know make it a place where you put money put affirmations put herbs put spices towards your finances but luck I think is important because it's something that you can carry around with you everywhere so personally i got him just like a little black satin bag you know they sell them to put the crystals in and then i filled it with cinnamon i filled it with black salt i filled it with bay leaves which i wrote down just like good luck sigils on and prosperity and words of affirmation i also had some mint bags that i put in there cinnamon just attracts protection it speeds up spells basil attracts courage luck abundance um mint attracts money and luck salt is very purifying but specifically the black salt was for um protection and to ward off like

the evil eye i put a little jade piece in there which reverses bad fortune brings luck and especially love in i put some um tourmaline quartz i think is what it's called which clears barriers and makes potential things possible opens up your future to positive possibilities and then adventuring which is a stone of luck when taking chance in life or like in competition i tied it up i i prayed over it for a second blessed it with some incense of choice and then i gave it to him to carry in his bag every single day i do think it genuinely has helped and if you can make a little good luck talisman for yourself i think it's um a healthy ritual to kind of take a moment to pray over yourself and manifest a little bit what you do need to bring into your life

so his was to like ward off the evil eye to bring in luck prosperity to get rid of any sort of like negative attachment that he does have which is making these crazy things happen in his life i love a spell for that reason i think it really garners hope um and truly does work like don't knock it till you try it babe and don't start with the evil ones such as like making people fall in love with you start with yourself start with bringing luck and prosperity to yourself smoker skincare routine listen i talk a lot about skincare routines especially being like an acne girly and i'm not saying that in the way of like oh you just get like one pimple a month no no no no I'm talking deep scarring cystic acne and when it comes to smoking my acne has never

been worse than when I was smoking nicotine I know not the smoking you probably were thinking of or wanting to hear about I looked 50 fucking years old and I had been smoking for three four years and I was probably 22 I should have been looking young why did I look so drained and gross and deep acne everywhere what was going on it was the nicotine it I hate to break it to you girls it truly is it has nothing but negatives to give you it's gonna kill your lungs it's gonna kill your skin there's nothing to gain from it I was smoking cigarettes and then I was also at one point in time smoking like a jewel or whatever um basically the og vape like we didn't have all the fun different flavors and stuff that you can get at gas stations now literally it was like four

different flavors you better enjoy one of them i loved that jewel it was like surgically attached to my hip i'm talking probably going through a pod every couple days genuinely genuinely have never looked worse now i haven't smoked um nicotine for probably at least four years at least four years i would say i fully quit by like 22 i was still hitting it here and there while i was 21 quitting was hard sure but the payoff the beautiful skin the glowingness the energy the lack of needing to fund this addiction the payoff was so worth it so worth it if you have skin and you're hitting your nicotine constantly i hate to break it to you girl a major part of it is the nicotine now when it comes to weed i know a joint is like hot and sexy and so so so cute

even like a bong rip but if you let smoke linger too close to your skin constantly naturally it's going to get irritated and naturally it's going to get infected start breaking down like i love a joint so sexy fantastic but the smoke really lingers in your area unless you're in like a well ventilated place or outside where it can just easily blow away it will break you out it will bong rip is a little better you know you can kind of contain it or blow it away from you pipes still pretty bad because you're lighting it so close to your face and all the smoke is lingering so close to your face it does have an effect on your skin i hate to break it to you girlies i know i love a joint she's so sexy she's so cute but also i know she's an occasional

occasional acquaintance simply for the sake of my skin oh my god does dick size really matter dot dot dot he has three inches i mean i mean it's all subjective you know you can work with it if it's something that you want to work with do you know what i mean i think the whole dick size conversation is not about like the micros and more about like the average and let's be honest i think women prefer an average size dick let's let's be fucking honest like i can't take a 13 incher every single night of my life i'm going to be physically torn in half that doesn't sound fun all right i mean maybe that's your style of fun and listen there's somebody out there for everybody okay but generally i think most women prefer average okay like if you think about it like

anatomically all right put your lab coat on girls the vaginal canal is only so deep also foreplay is important because i think um when you don't get enough foreplay like the naturally the vaginal canal will expand a little bit a little bit if you are like horny enough okay it's your body preparing for sex like your body knows what's about to happen but if you don't give it adequate enough time it can be a little painful because your body hasn't had time to adjust yet whether it's opening up your heart and soul and your pussy or if it's getting wet enough foreplay is important nonetheless you know the average size vaginal canal is probably the average size of an average dick okay so it works for us girls we're not asking for size big doesn't matter period now

when it comes to the smaller ones you know we love we love everybody we love what you got fantastic there is no shame at all it is all about how you use it because i've known girls who have dated men with like two three four inches but like they gave head constantly they cared about pleasure they were still receiving pleasure in their sexual adventures so there was fulfillment there it didn't matter it truly is all about if you can work with what you got so does size truly matter no but also if he is trying to fuck you with a tiny penis and is not caring about if you get off or not then yeah size does matter all right like she's gotta get off you gotta get off girl if you're having a good time have your good time with whatever size penis that finds you

but please please pleasure is important make sure you're finding pleasure no matter the size today's episode feels like oh gee so smoke sash i was so off the rails back in like my first few episodes um just because of like the purely i was unemployed and the amount of dabs i was taking in a day and i was just getting out of my party girl era um so the molly was still mollying in my poor little brain and i did not have one single care in the world like fully and openly talked about anything chaos i'm trying to get back there not that i had any shame or didn't want to in any point or way i just feel like i kind of got into the therapy aspect of it all which is super fun and i love that we can all connect in that sort of way but also like now more than ever do we need

a little fucking laugh speaking of what's your favorite smoke sesh moment if you're an og girly you'll remember when the abortion ban was placed in missouri let me think probably like 2021 2022 and I remember at the time I was staying at my boyfriend's house and I didn't want to drive all the way back to my apartment to record because it was like 30 minutes away so I was like fuck it let me just sit in my car and record this part podcast outside of his house and as I was recording the podcast like oh my god I can't believe you know passionately giving this speech about women's rights and how much we deserve like just bodily autonomy i look over and there is a child in a window like on the bottom floor like pushing back the curtains he's standing in the

window staring at me chewing on a hanger i was like if this is not a sign from god like he's chewing on a hanger hello that has probably been my funniest funniest moment of smoke sesh if you have like a favorite moment send it to me i would love to hear your favorite smoke sesh moment but there's been some there's been some crazy times in this podcast and i'm so glad that we've been able to experience them together how to get over someone when there's no closure your closure is they didn't care enough about you to actually give you a reason why two and five canadians will hear the words you have cancer that's why every step and dollar raised matters on september 19th Join thousands in Toronto for the Princess Margaret Cancer Foundation Walk.

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You've got questions. We've got ancestors. Search free until August 31st. Visit Ancestry.ca for details. Terms apply. Oop. Hello. They'll be like, they didn't properly say goodbye to me because they don't care babe and I really hate to break it to you but I think the hard news will make it easier to get over speaking of how to accept when people don't like you without getting an explanation people do not deserve you an explanation of why they don't like you also the

last thing you need to hear is a full-blown you know 14 page document of why someone hates your guts because no matter what they say it's gonna make you feel bad when in reality did you actually probably do something bad no i feel like when people genuinely do something bad people are willing to express like hey i don't like the way you did this and like thank you for that we'll heal we'll grow but when people just don't like you for who you are usually there won't be that conversation because there's truly nothing to pinpoint other than just like i don't like you and that's okay you don't have to be liked by everybody in fact i challenge you not to be not to be just like a dick to everybody around you please don't do that all right no one is

deserving of that kind of behavior but if someone's just not fitting into the natural flow of who you are if you try and force it it's never gonna go right so you might as well just allow people to appreciate you for who you are and if they can't do that then maybe they just don't don't deserve your space maybe they just don't deserve your time maybe they don't deserve to be around you it is no hard feelings nothing wrong with either of you the old hannah would be like most people are dumb and fucking stupid so of course they don't like you it's a problem with them not you which i mean you know you can take that advice as well but the fact of the matter is not everybody's gonna like you and it doesn't inherently make you a bad person it just makes you human scared i'll

never find a man i'm in third year college and hoped i'd find someone by now uh i don't know if many people I mean of course like the normal story you hear is oh we met in college and now we're married sure that does happen but in reality like did any of my friends meet someone in college and marry them no no one has and they're hot sexy successful women so don't think that it's a you problem unfortunately maybe the dating pool is just bad and maybe most men are sluts and don't want to marry right now and listen you let them be sluts all right focus on you do you the right man will fall into the place at the right time anyways happy capricorn season to all my capricorn girlies you guys are so hard working so inspirational i'm a capricorn moon so like i feel

you and if you need one piece of advice this season it's be kind to yourself the best way to be a successful worker is to be positive and not negative trust me if anybody knows this it's me and i know your tendency to be self-indulgent in negative behaviors to garner inspiration you don't have to suffer to succeed i promise you but i love the capricorns the girls especially the men a little testy a little testy why are you trying me like that i did it a capricorn man he was the most miserable person i've ever met my entire life um anyways truly you guys are go getters you are hard workers you are achievers you can make anything you want capable impossible in your life that's kind of the one gift you are blessed with so even if you're not a capricorn and

you maybe want to see where you're gonna find a little bit more inspiration look into your chart where Capricorn falls learn that chart learn how it's going to be affected during this time learn where maybe you're going to find a little bit more luck and hard-working abilities in what area of your life but anybody can draw from the seasons from the inspirations of the seasons and I highly recommend you do so listen if I'm going to live this life I'm going to live it in a little bit more whimsy and a little bit more understanding of myself I don't care if you're an astrology hater i'm sorry that you hate fun but also there is something to take from it and if it makes you a better person then i don't think you're doing anything wrong that's for sure capricorn season

is all about growth change achievement financial stability i promise you will get there during this time also with the cancer full moon please remember to take care of yourself show a little extra self-love during this time try and get as much sleep as you possibly can remember you can't achieve those big goals those big dreams all of the hard work that you do want to do if you are not caring for yourself the energy is derived from where from you so make sure you are energized well taken care of and willing to go out and achieve everything that you possibly want during your day but with that being said i love you all so very much happy tuesday i hope you have a fantastic rest of your day if you want your question answered and you want to come hang out

on the patreon patreon.com slash smoke says shawty um uploaded a cancer full moon um writing on there i'll be doing some weekly inspiration i do our podcast every thursday and then i usually like to do some sort of spiritual sunday where we talk journal prompts astrology spirituality whatever it might be that can garner a little bit more metaphysical inspiration i like to share that during that time but come hang out we have so much fun over on the patreon and if you want to see what i'm up to follow the instagram instagram.com slash hannah marlene um oh and i guess the spotify too a spotify is just smoke sesh one word if you want to hear my latest playlist girl i'm working on it don't judge um but it's titled finally i don't know why i titled it that it just

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