Smoke Sesh - elevate yourself, bad parents & make him fall in love

Episode Date: February 6, 2024

Happy Tuesday hotties welcome back to another amazing little episode, excited to start off the week with this audio episode for you all, we catch up on everything I’ve been up to, jelly cats, getting too drunk at the family even, we smoke a little bit and then jump into all your questions such as how to elevate yourself in small ways, being the bigger person and pretending they don’t exist, school, becoming the dream version of yourself through what you do today, getting engaged, toxic behaviors & getting too controlling, bad parents and learning to forgive, best solo date for Valentine’s Day, sexuality and feeling valid in it, frat boy ego, what to do for a bad anxiety week and how to calm down before a first date, how to be the best girlfriend and actually make them fall in love, spring time FOMO, some homework for you all, raves and much much much much more! Had a blast with you all today and hope you guys have an amazing week, remember to follow the instagram @hannahmarlene and I’ll see you all Thursday for our video episode of the week! MUAH!

Listen, everybody needs a fairy godmother, you know, just somebody to look out for them. Some people call me their fairy smoke mother, others their internet big sister, but you can call me Hannah, the host of Smoke Sash. So come hang out, let's light up and talk everything there is to life. The good, the bad, the ugly, the embarrassing, I've got a story for it all. Good morning, hotties of the world. welcome back to another beautiful little tuesday episode i am so excited to be back with you guys um hanging out on this beautiful beautiful day i just feel like the weather keeps getting nicer

it keeps getting sunnier warmer and i am just so ready for spring and summer although we only had like a month of winter i'm okay with that i don't need any more i'm good i'm ready to get outside enjoy this nice weather and really just step into you know my spring summer version of myself I feel like that is peak me I feel like I'm just so much more comfortable in everything that embodies me in the spring and summer and I'm so excited to step into that energy um but I hope you guys are doing well I don't have much to catch you guys up on I've pretty much just been working doing my thing still kind of recovering from my flu sickness snottiness you know the drill um I'm hoping that's the last time I get sick for this little winter stint about this time last year

every year every year in the winter I'll get sick twice it's just you know I'm in the service industry I'm around a shit ton of fucking people and they're dirty kids and they're not washing their hands and they're sneezing on me and I you know it's a mess it's a mess what can you do you know you can wash your hands you can cover your mouth you can do as much as you can um but eventually it's gonna get to you last year I got so sick with like this stomach flu that I was like TMI but I was like throwing up and shitting myself at the same time it was insane I have never been that sick in my entire life so I'll take the flu over that that was insane I that's what I always remind myself I'm like girl you don't have that sickness it's just the flu you'll get over it

just deal you know like it sucks but it could be it can always be worse so I'm just looking on the bright side of things enjoying life you know I have been like really focusing on trying to get this podcast up and making it fun for you guys and editing it and you know how to do some stuff my family you know gotta prioritize that part of your life gotta hang out with my friends which was nice and yeah now all of a sudden you blink and it's Tuesday and here we are but we have a lot coming up we got the Super Bowl this weekend hopefully I do not get as drunk as last year I'm really all I'm hoping to do is maybe like play a game of pool in a local sports bar eat some chicken wings have like a couple beers and then go home and go to sleep that's the ideal that's

really what I'm looking forward to this weekend and having a day off um I've been planning some trips for the summer too just to get excited as somebody who like has a hard time especially during winter and like having something to look forward to and giving myself something to get excited for so then I can keep motivating myself through life and not get so stagnant I feel like trips and just like um get togethers and fun things like that are the best way to really look forward and enjoy life so I've been really trying to focus on what I want to do for my birthday and I have a girls trip planned with my friends my childhood friends which I'm so excited for and then I think I'm going to try and get back out to LA later on in the summer once you know

you get through the June gloom and goes back to sunny in LA that's what I'm going to try and go so i got some stuff planned trying to save some money trying to purge my closet go shop my depop if you'd like and yeah all the usual but not a lot to catch you guys up on i know why you're here i know what you want to get into so let's not waste any time actually let's waste a little bit of time i want to smoke a bowl it's 11 30 here 11 30 um i woke up a little late but it was kind of nice i really needed to sleep in sometimes you got to let your brain do what it needs to do slept in i'm two espresso shots deep the magic happens when i get some extra sleep i have two espresso shots as soon as i wake up chug some water and then smoke a bowl oh my god it is just

creative heaven so let's get into it as i load this bowl um i had a few of you guys a few of you guys whoa asking me why do i have two different intros and it's just because since i am doing like one video episode and one audio episode I like to make that distinguishable because when I upload my video episode on Spotify it will I don't know where you guys listen to this I'm assuming most you guys listen to this on Spotify but if you're like an Apple podcast user or maybe you listen somewhere else it will just upload as a regular audio file um so I like to keep the two different intros just so if you're listening on a different platform and you're like there's no video then you can kind of remember oh yeah this is a video episode maybe i can go watch it on spotify or

maybe i can go watch it on youtube thank you guys for all the love on my youtube channel i've been loving it um i am gonna try and post like actual youtube videos like day in the life get ready with me um like mukbangs i don't know fun little videos like that as well um as the usual podcasts so yeah thank you for all the love i've really been enjoying growing that and just sharing myself with you guys and I really appreciate you all being so receptive to it and um I love doing the video episodes and I'm hoping to transfer I'm trying to do it like you know I'm gonna ease us ourselves into this um which is why I have one video one audio but eventually I want to do all video as I get a handle on it and as my practice grows that's really where I want to

grow with this so I'm glad you guys are enjoying it because that is kind of what I want to transition into um into all video because i like seeing your faces i like being face to face i like hanging out with you guys like what's better than that anyways cheers let's hit this bowl beautiful i knew my boyfriend was the one for me when he would just like randomly show show up at my house with like edibles and bags of weed and he'd be like i got you something babe it's like oh i love this man he he he gets me you know you ever get too drunk around your family and then you're like oh no oh no oh no what did i do anyways last time my brother came into town just a while ago um him and his family family came into town for i think like thanksgiving

who knows anyways we were all hanging out having some wine I was having a little too much wine but we were just chilling talking and I got onto the topic of conversation of jelly cats oh my god I love jelly cats it's like the one thing that really brings like my inner child so much joy is like stuffed animals apparently my mom every time I go to my mom my mom's house this is what happens when you get older and like collect things is you move out and then every time you go back over to your parents house they like have bags of shit for you to take home with you like hey girl you forgot this there's here's a bunch of stuff so I came home last week or like Sunday with art supplies that I left there and you know blankets I don't know random shit anyways

apparently I have five giant tubs of stuffed animals in my parents attic maybe I'll make a video going through it and going through like childhood memories that'd be fun um but i love stuffed animals that's like the one thing that i have really really really enjoyed since i've i've been a child maybe it's because i'm a little you know neurodivergent and i love like textures and like really soft feelings and it brings me a lot of comfort but i love jelly cats they're like one of my favorite things on this planet if you don't know what a jelly cat is it's just like the cutest softest little stuffed animal you could ever purchase um i have like four now thanks to my brother but I was like drunk and I was showing my sister-in-law my brother like oh my god look

at this one look at this one oh my god we were like going through the website and I woke up the next day I was like oh my god that had to have been so annoying and I love when you're like kind of a little anxious about something then somebody reassures you like no no you're girl you're good because I showed up um on Sunday for a Sunday dinner with my family and I missed our little Christmas celebration because they were sick and then I was sick and you know it happens but I finally got to open my gift from them and they got me a little jelly cat it's a little aloe vera plant jelly cat and it is so cute and it was so reassuring because I was like okay thank god I wasn't being annoying here like they were actually like oh no this is cute we should get her one you

know and I got my niece and nephew one for Christmas as well they're like the perfect gift if you want to spend like 30 or less and get something for like a friend that is like fun and cute and kind of brings out their inner child or like you need a gift for a random child in your life jellycats are the way to go yeah my collection is growing and i'm so happy about it they are just adorable uh pro tip valentine's day gift get your girl a jellycat i got one last year i got my little avocado my first ever jellycat and it is it is probably one of the best gifts i've ever received so oh also i talked about a bunch of valentine's day tips and uh valentine's day gift ideas on the video episode for the week last week so go give that a listen if you need some ideas

me personally i got my boyfriend a skateboard with like a sexy ass photo of me on it um that either he will skate or i will hang it on the wall and then i also got him a wallet because his is actually getting destroyed why do men always have like disgusting ass wallets like what they're like 30 bucks just buy yourself a new one anyways that's what I got him so if you want the full tea on valentine's day and like pro tips go listen to that last video episode I gave a bunch of great ideas but anyways let's get into all of your questions oh someone asked any tips to subtly make changes in parentheses they said getting my nails done and a new tat soon I feel like you're on the right path um I feel the prettiest when I am indulging in very very subtle

ways of like uplifting myself physically um like maybe it's something as subtle as I'm just gonna straighten my hair sometimes when I straighten my hair I just feel like glamour okay girl I feel like Hollywood and all I don't even have to be wearing makeup like as long as I straighten my hair I'm like okay okay pin up okay beauty queen um my nails if I don't have my nails done this is just like a weird thing about me a I started doing it so I wouldn't pick at my face because if I have like giant chunky nails I can't get the right you know angle I can't dig in there thank god that actually worked but now it's like a really great way for me to express myself outside of the normal beauty standard routine um like i don't have to do my makeup i could have a messy ass fucking hair

horrible outfit but if my nails are done it's like oof i feel hot sexy ready to take on the day speaking of i'm getting my nails done on thursday and i'm so excited i am that girl that will let my nails grow out until they're basically ripping off like i'm think i'm going on five weeks now crazy so excited for my appointment but like girls they're on they're on i'm not trying to switch it up too early anyways nails my toes if I like I'm trying to subtly elevate my look doing a little you know french tip on your toes doing a fun little color on your toes I feel like that's super fun another great way to subtly feel you know a little bit more glamorous is jewelry I love accessorizing in fact that's one of the first things my boyfriend like verbalized to me

that he really really enjoyed that about me he's like you have so many accessories and it's just like so hot so when i met him i was wearing like nine earrings 10 necklaces i had like bracelets rings anklets like he fucking broke them all off me like a little too not like in a bad way in a good way you know what i mean but um literally he was like i love your accessories and i love jewelry i love having little ways to decorate myself in that sort of way i get most of my jewelry off of ebay pro tip if you are like i don't know where to get good cheap jewelry just source from ebay um i found a lot of my pendants on pendants on there um just look for like solid gold uh gold plated gold plated is gonna eventually tarnish gold filled is probably better but i usually look

for solid gold um or sterling silver i'm a gemini so i have to indulge in both types of metals i have a sterling silver hand I've actually gotten most of my sterling silver from uh metaphysical shops as I travel um any sort of like random crystal store that you go to all their jewelry is going to be pretty much sterling silver um of course always ask but sterling silver lasts a lifetime go find a cute stone go find a stone that will uplift you whatever it may be go support local small shops um they will always have it for cheaper I have never bought a ring like a sterling silver ring for over 75 dollars um and i'm wearing four right now one was gifted to me shout out to my great grandma she made jewelry um and she made specifically turquoise silver

jewelry so that's cool um and yeah any sort of jewelry love that it's gonna elevate a look i have a toe ring like what but it's like that cute little accent on my foot isn't making me overthink my feet anymore it's making me be like oh look how cute little things like that tattoos i got a new tattoo it made me really enjoy my body aesthetically wise i felt like i had a huge i have a huge tattoo on my left arm so on my right arm it felt kind of naked i wanted to balance myself out new little tattoo easy little hundred dollars sounds crazy but you know every time every once in a while you can indulge but that is a great way to just subtly elevate a look um and then last but not least i think just clothing um you don't have to do your makeup you don't have

your hair but like maybe you're wearing a cute t-shirt and it makes you feel fun funky fresh and just like yourself maybe you get a new pair of shoes and it's like i'm stepping out on the town i feel good um but yeah i think there's a bunch of ways that you can just subtly elevate yourself without having to like indulge in consumerism or indulge in like um just overall ways that society likes to pressure women into showing themselves for the world and I feel like the best way that you can simply and subtly elevate your look is just take care of yourself I know I know it's like the obvious answer but making sure you're eating well and you're actually feeding yourself making sure you're not you know you're like getting up and moving your body um in a healthy

way not just sitting around all the time but not also like overworking yourself to the point of exhaustion um making sure you're brushing your hair and brushing your teeth little things like that um just like small indulgences in the physical and that sort of way always has a way of affecting you positively that in turn will make you glow from the outward or from the inside outward so yeah you don't always have to go out and spend a hundred dollars in order to feel good about yourself girl like take a bubble bath and watch your favorite tv show and maybe close your eyes early and just take a nap and wake up and you will feel refreshed and so much better and elevated so love you but that was a great question hey hannah um i'm just gonna keep it short

basically this weekend the guy who i was dating kind of my situationships girlfriend or i don't even know like hook up um requested to follow me on a sunday evening basically ruined my sunday evening so i confronted him about it he spewed all the usual lies guys spew she's crazy she's obsessed with me and then he basically kind of flipped it on me and was like oh there's just like a lot of miscommunication between us blah blah blah and like whatever and then he was like oh I only did it for my friend and I told him I was kind of mean I started being really petty but basically I have to see this guy every single day he's very integrated into my life and I just want to know like if you have any advice on how to deal with people who you don't

like you have to see every single day thank you okay a that is a mess he's manipulative and trying to fuck every girl out there possible without them knowing about each other so i say yeah best thing you can really do is be like damn that sucks he's a fucking freak and a weirdo though and i don't want to interact with him at all we are not entering codependent situationships this season girls that is out that is last year's fad we are over it we are uplifting ourselves we are realizing that we are quality human individuals who deserve love period and i'm not going to allow you the space and time to manipulate me in order to get your sexual fulfillment girl bye anyways my boyfriend had like a falling out with a really good close friend of

his and the way he went about it which is the exact way i went about it and last night i told him i'm so proud of you for like doing this because a lot of people are like well i'll give him another chance i'll give him another chance like oh it's whatever oh blah blah blah and they keep getting hurt and hurt and hurt because you're making excuses for a person who does not give a fuck about you the best way to interact with somebody on a daily basis that you a do not want to be interacting with and b it's like it's just hard to do so you need to pretend that they aren't even fucking there okay literally pretend they don't exist like if they come up and talk to you you should be like oh yeah turn around walk away if you are in the same circle of friends who are

having a conversation and they're standing next to you pretend they're not you can still engage the conversation and walk away from the situation but act like they don't exist block them on all social medias remove all forms of contact if they come up to you to speak you can get your ass up and walk away um if they're you know walking up to the same group of friends you can choose to leave but simply acting like they don't exist i think that is literally the best way that's how i personally am the bigger person it's like for my mental health i can't talk to you so i'm gonna turn my back and walk away before i say something absolutely fucking insane so yeah that's what i recommend it sucks but really just act like they don't exist on this plane of existence anymore

because do they deserve any attention from you no do they deserve any response from you no he's trying to play you and this other girl and probably five other girls behind that so cut yourself out of the situation tell him to fuck off and never speak to him ever again love it but you got to be strong you have to be strong if you're gonna do this you have to be a strong person okay i know it'll feel like you want to go back i know it'll feel like you want to spark up that conversation he'll probably manipulate you into wanting to do so if you talk to him so just yeah pretend like they don't exist don't even look in the direction if you do look in the direction just blank stare whatever my co-workers like x was at my restaurant the other day that's exactly what she did as well

and it's like i love that energy because these people who are like manipulative and mean and weird they feed off of like literally energy vampires they feed off of you freaking out they feed off of your anxiety they feed off of the lies they're gonna tell you so don't give them that energy anymore for them to keep feeding that is the best way to go about it 10 out of 10 recommend oh okay wait this is so cute someone said listening to you at school thank you for keeping me company i'm 25 and everyone else in my class is like 18 19 so i just do my own thing which is totally okay um but love you thank you for keeping me company love you oh my god i've been there also I um when I restarted art school you have to start as like a freshman and everybody

was like 18 17 18 19 and I was 21 so I felt very out of place but also you you kind of have like the upper hand which is nice um I obviously didn't feel comfortable really like making friends because I was like you are 18 you're a baby you do your own thing but also it was like I was more stable in life I feel like that gave me the upper hand while they're 18 and chaotic and they want to go out and party and valid amazing been there done that I gotta get through school but I think that's gonna be me again here soon I really the older I get the more I realize education is important and even if I maybe am gonna be like an entrepreneur and not really utilize my degree I still I still want to get it for a while I really did not want to go back to school and I thought it was a waste

of time but now the older I get the more I'm like you know what a bachelor's degree would be cool to have um so yeah I think I might end up going back to school I don't know if it'll happen this year maybe next year but it's something that I really am looking forward to so I'm proud of you for getting in there and getting into school and yeah 18 19 year olds can be a little annoying I remember being in class and like it was me it's like 21 and then the oldest person in my class was 25 and the rest of us were like rest of them were like 18 19 17 and i remember like bitch i was in art school your professors are have done probably some weird shit it's fine it's normal but one of them like pulled up uh pictures of like one of my professor's old performance pieces and it was him

naked he was like look at this oh my god isn't this so funny and sometimes as the older person you have to be there to be like that's weird you're embarrassing you're probably gonna be doing something like this soon if you can't take this shit seriously you shouldn't be in art school literally i had to look him in the eyes and be like you're not a child anymore stand the fuck up and act like an adult or get the fuck out like this is art school hello there's gonna be naked people in here every fucking week and we're gonna be drawing them like you're giggling about this like i would be pissed if i was a professor and some fucking dumb ass freshman was like oh my god look at her like you dumb bitch grow a pair of balls and let people do what the fuck they want

in life and yeah i had to call him out and then he quickly got his shit together but yeah 18 19 year olds can be annoying but you got the upper hand there and i bet you're excelling and i bet you're amazing and i'm proud of you for going back to school if you're in school this is your psa to not drop out just get it done you're there you might as well just get it done you know what i mean oh my god the questions today are so cute i love the energy this week very much so like lovey-dovey springtime energy is what people are are indulging in right now you know valentine's day is coming up the sun shining we're feeling good and i love feeding off that energy um someone said what does dream you hope for yourself in this new year love you love you cutie um dream me

dream me i'm saying say yes to every opportunity like sometimes it seems scary or you're like i don't know if i have time for that or whatever just say yes just go do it you're gonna have a good time no matter what i know it's a little scary and it might be a little expensive like this girl's trip we're going on at first i was like i don't know if i have the money to do so but i was like you know what we're gonna relocate a few trips we're gonna prioritize this because these are like childhood friends and we're gonna just fucking do it and we're gonna have a good time because come on like you're not gonna go on a trip with your childhood best friends let's be real let's make it happen um just say yes just do everything work hard i feel like i've kind of been

in my my three years of rest and relaxation girl that's too long you only get one year um and this year i really am just like kind of over it i'm tired of sitting around and i'm trying to get up and work more um I love working it's my Capricorn moon I really just can't stop thinking about it I know it's annoying I hate oh I don't hate like I love a girl boss queen you know but sometimes I'm like I'm tired I don't I can't take on that energy right now right now I need to take on that energy it's what's good for me it's what I'm feeding off of I'm trying to work hard putting out hoodies soon for you guys follow my Instagram at Hannah Marlene hoodies are gonna be up I'm gonna have like a fun 420 drop I've been working hard on the patreon I'm gonna do a baked and

baking vid for you guys this week I have video episodes going up like I love being creative and working and doing this kind of stuff it really really fulfills me and drives me it makes me passionate about life um it's something that I knew made me passionate I just wasn't actually jumping into headfirst and this year I'm just taking every risk I can jumping into it headfirst working hard um and putting myself onto the right path and then also one thing that I realized I was kind of neglecting for future Hannah and dream Hannah was just like the little things about what it takes to be an adult such as finances and you know making sure your fucking car is taken care of small little things like that so every month I'm dedicating that month to like one hard adult task

so last year or not last year last month it was health i really needed to go get my like teeth cleaned and get some cavities filled so that's what i did that month that was like my to-do thing i had to do it on wednesday that was like my appointment i i hate the dentist i don't know why it feels so invasive like there's nothing wrong with my teeth they're pretty good and i take care of myself it just feels like so invasive my mouth's kind of small so my jaw locks up not fun but it was a good time like my dentist was so fucking nice and we were watching um bravo reality tv so i was just like giggling my way through it not scary easiest little hour appointment ever just get it over with little things like that i'm dedicating like one month too so i don't feel

overwhelmed and then start neglecting myself further so january was like health teeth physical checkups whatever this month is finances I didn't realize how many like subscriptions I had that I had no idea what the fuck they were for like I kind of just wasn't paying attention to what was coming out of my account because um I'm a server so I just put money in every night I don't really think about it just make money put it in whatever I actually have been paying attention to what the fuck's been coming out of my account because we recently went to checks instead of cash and I'm like holy shit what is this company and why are they taking $15 a month what the fuck's going on who are you I'm like emailing them I'm like you need to take my credit

card off the list they're like we don't have a credit card under that fucking number I'm like yes you do because it literally got withdrawn like my brother's a lawyer I will figure out how to sue you please just like just stop charging me $15 a month anyways there was like nine places that I had to figure out that for I was like do I need HBO max do I need this Amazon Prime subscription can I save this money um so yeah I'm really focusing on finances investing a little bit more slash saving a little bit more and figuring out what works best for me as you know somebody who's more of an independent contractor rather than somebody who maybe has more work benefits And in turn, I would have to think about how I can utilize those work benefits to my best capability.

I am so jealous of all my friends who work for a company and have like a matching 401k. I never would have thought I would say those words out loud ever in my life. But I'm like, holy shit, your company's just throwing money at you. And I'm so jealous. Pro tip, working for a company might not be that bad, especially if they've got great benefits. Look into it. but yeah little things like that next month i gotta find health insurance so but listen i'm not thinking about that right now that'll be a next month issue right now let's focus on finances

but that is definitely one thing that i really am trying to take a hold of and be an active participant in my life so then future me has it a little easier um we've done the hard work we figured it out we know how to go about it now so yeah just take more opportunities travel more enjoy life get outside um and really step into my life and stop just going with the flow of life and actually take direction in it but yeah I'm excited I think it'll be a really good year not only for me but for all of us way this is so cute Hannah I just got into engaged how should I hard launch pick ideas oh my god i am so excited for you um i have no idea i'm i literally have not thought about engagement at all i feel like i'm at the age where people are like girl you should be engaged

but i'm scared and i'm good i'm happy where i am shout out to my girlies who are getting engaged that's so excited i can't wait to be a bridesmaid at some point in my life like oh my god um if i was getting engaged and I was gonna post photos of the engagement I feel like you have to go two ways you have to either go like super serious here are our like cute pictures of our ring and our engagement or you gotta take it not serious like you can save the seriousness for the wedding and maybe have a little bit more fun with the engagement like I either love seeing an engagement photo that's like here's us in the fields and i'm in my white dress and we're taking professional photography i'm like love that okay girl let me see the ring and i also love like a silly little

like funny caption and just like a picture of the ring like i love something that's a little silly too like a little unserious depends on the vibe and who you are personally but either way whichever direction you're going you gotta go all out like get extra silly with it do like a really funny caption um and if you're going serious like take that shit seriously but yeah no I'm pretty sure if I was getting engaged it would just be like my caption would be just like me screaming and a picture of a ring I told my boyfriend he can't propose to me though um until I have a ring picked out and girl I'm not even thinking about that best believe he's not picking it out i don't trust people to pick out a ring for me i'm so picky when it comes to my jewelry also just

like psychotic so obviously not ready for marriage but yeah i'm definitely gonna have to pick out the ring that's for sure oh someone said my boyfriend asked for my instagram password is that okay no that is not okay nor is that normal at all at all if you also are a girl who needs their boyfriend's instagram password to feel comfortable in that relationship a ask yourself where that's stemming from and b ask yourself if that's a rational fucking thought because it's definitely not if you can't trust him unless you have his instagram password then either a he's fucking around on you and you know it and you're trying to control him so he doesn't and in turn you should really just be leaving because you can't fucking trust him as far as you can throw him

and ask yourself if that's somebody you really actually want to be with you know do you want to be with somebody you can't trust do you want to be with somebody that you need to be on all their socials in order to trust no you shouldn't you should the first thing you should have in a relationship is trust that's for sure um and if you are insecure like if they did nothing and you are so insecure that you need someone's instagram password to feel comfortable in a relationship the instagram password is not going to make you feel comfortable it's going to make you want more and more and more of their private personal information and you are always going to get your feelings hurt because if you are that insecure it's going to take the littlest of things to get

your feelings hurt okay no you should not be sharing instagram passwords in a relationship dare i say you shouldn't even have each other's fucking like location i am anti-sharing location i think it enables a lot of like negative behaviors i think it enables a lot of toxic behaviors and like if you need to know where i am you can call me and i will let you know I am also in a healthy relationship going to be proactive and just tell you where I am very simply put like I'm psycho and I am not allowed to have that information simply because I know if I have someone's location I'm going to lose my mind checking that thing I'm too crazy I'm too crazy and we got to put boundaries out there so the crazy is not enabled but no you

should never be sharing any social media passwords if you can't fucking trust what your boyfriend's doing on social media because of whatever reason should you be together should you should you be together that is a valid question you need to be asking oh this is an interesting one how do i view my parents as not only a parent but a mistake making human being um i had a hard time with this when I was younger because I felt I don't not like neglected in a term where I felt like really really really completely put off to the side but just in a sense where it was like the true me wasn't being seen as a child and I really really neglected my parents for that or like not neglected but negated them and um felt like I held a lot of resentment towards them for that

even though they were simply parents doing their best and now I look back and I'm like wow they they put their all into it and they're not perfect human beings and they're gonna mess up some places and I should have been able to realize that as a young person but also sometimes you're a young person you're dramatic and you just feel you feel some way about it and you gotta feel it and you gotta let that rage out you know sometimes that's just how it is especially when you're a teenager and you're going through changes and hormonal things it's a mess sometimes and you're gonna feel pretty fucking crazy and that's valid and that's very real and a normal human emotion I like I wish my parents would have sat me down and like explain that to me but that's just not

what they did and I held some resentment for that but I had to realize and the older I do kind of the older I get and the more I realize about the world and the more I'm able to also interact with them as like a child but not necessarily a child in the sense of you are taking care of me you are worried about me instead I'm like a full-grown adult and you don't have to worry about me anymore um the more I'm able to forgive them and be like you know what no they did their fucking best and like me as a parent you're gonna mess up sometimes like you're gonna have slip-ups you're gonna yell when you shouldn't have you're gonna you know not be able to allocate as much time as you would like because you got to work I get that that's valid all you can really

do is your best um and sometimes you know a parent's gonna mess up and that's okay but I also understand and there is validity in having bad parents like not everybody is blessed with parents who are making little mistakes sometimes you have parents that are making big mistakes every single day and I truly believe that if you don't want to forgive them that's okay like that I find validity in that I don't think you have to forgive everybody I think you just have to forgive yourself and show up for yourself in the way that you've always wanted um that's the best way to kind of heal that situation um is realize hey you know this is a cycle that maybe they're stuck in but I don't have to be um I can escape this I can get out of this I can break this cycle

like I I have that choice in this life and I do think you can find a lot of peace through that and you don't have to necessarily forgive your parents to find that peace but if you're just like an angsty teenager who's mad at your mom for something small i think you should offer them a little bit of forgiveness like we are going to make mistakes in this life i as a child i'm gonna make a shit ton of mistakes and i would hope that my parents are gonna forgive me for those and see me out for who i am and i think we also owe if we have good parents who are making small mistakes we owe them that kind of forgiveness as well um sometimes it's easy to think all about us us us us us and then you know you're looking back and you're like shit I really put the people I loved

through it and I kind of regret it now but hey sometimes you have a little crazy spur of the moment situation going on sometimes you get put in the mental hospital hey sometimes it happens that's okay um but yeah I don't know I think the older you get the easier it does get once you move out of your parents house it gets way easier to kind of see the situation for how it is and not be as affected by it offer a little bit more forgiveness um with distance does come understanding and peace so understand that um especially if you're like a high school student who's maybe just going through it your parents generally do want what is best for you um and if you are in a really tough situation for you with your parents and there may be me making more mistakes than

they should as a parent i am sorry that is so so tough to deal with um it's not your job to fix them but it is your job to show up for yourself and take care of yourself in the way that you maybe need and crave um and it sucks when your parent can't show up in that way you don't always have to forgive them but the best thing you can always do in that situation is at least behave in the way that you know you deserve so i love you but yeah i think a lot of parents out there are simply just parent people who are trying to do their best um they're still trying to be human beings but we're all going to be flawed at some points and the best thing you can really do is forgive accept and try and move forward someone said what's your favorite solo dates valentine's

day is coming up and i'm single but want to treat myself illy um so i didn't really talk about solo dates on the valentine's day episode i talked about like you know galentine celebrate with your girls fun activities to do with your partner but like if i was single right now if i a i always work on valentine's day i talked about that i have no choice like girl i gotta make money it's the busiest day in the industry i will be working on valentine's day but like little things to show yourself love you can do in or out of a relationship a i would probably buy yourself flowers like let's be real bouquet of flowers like 15 go buy yourself your favorite flowers that's probably what i would do first um and then put on a cute outfit and if i were you don't celebrate on

valentine's day celebrate like the day before or the day after especially if you're alone no need to be at the bar looking at a bunch of fucking couples no need to be sitting around all that do it the day before or the day after i really recommend um and then just like you know go to your favorite restaurant sit at the bar go to your favorite restaurant but sit at the bar that's probably my top tip if you're going out to eat and you don't want to just like get a table for yourself go sit at the bar the bartenders are always chill as fuck you might spike spark up a conversation with somebody else sitting at the bar alone the amount of times like my regulars have like turned and looked at each other and then had like a four-hour conversation is insane um it

happens all the time 10 out of 10 recommend but go to your favorite restaurant or like maybe an upscale restaurant that you've always wanted to try like go all out go enjoy like get a little fancy have some champagne and then come home take a bubble bath go to bed bust out a nuba vibrator that would be my solo date idea hey hannah um i feel like i'm struggling right now so i just wanted to pop on here love you love the pod i need some big sis not really big sis because you're the same age as me advice you know so basically i've been dating my boyfriend for almost three years and i love him to pieces wouldn't trade him for the world he makes me the happiest girl ever however i want to make a girl happier um i would like to believe that i'm

bisexual still but at this point uh the only man i can ever see myself being with is the current one I'm with um I want to date a woman if I ever don't continue this relationship which that's not really in the cards right now like I plan to marry him but it's just something I'm struggling with and I just I don't know I almost feel like I'm in a cross-oriented relationship if you will I don't know I know it's kind of awkward weird different but any advice would be appreciated I feel like this is a pretty common thing people go through um and I'm here to tell you I don't think you necessarily have to have the experience in order to feel valid in your emotions um the way that i approach it is like i know i like girls i do like i am in a heterosexual straight

monogamous relationship but i know i like girls and me being in this relationship doesn't take away from that i am also in this relationship so i need to be fully focused on this relationship and not looking outwards if you find yourself looking outwards more than you're looking inwards maybe it's time to call it quits but i think a lot of people don't feel valid in their feelings unless they act on them and you don't need to act on them in order to feel valid in them like i don't need to go eat pussy right now in order to know that i like it um like i don't have to have been in a relationship with a woman to know that it's possible for me um it is something that i know about myself and is a fact and is real and I don't need to and you don't need to necessarily

go out and have those experiences in order to know that that's how you feel maybe it means that you would like to have those experiences one day and that's fantastic and that's amazing and you know that it's an option and you have done the inner work in order to understand that about yourself and that's perfect because that's what we need to be doing in this life is asking ourselves these questions and coming to terms with it but I do think if you find yourself in a relationship looking outward more than you're looking inward it's time to take a pause and ask yourself like am I being a present good partner in this relationship and if you are looking outwards too much and you want to go explore hey there's validity in that okay you can go explore but you

also cannot drag another person along through it I am I'm a hater when it comes to polyamorous relationships i am i have never seen and like if you are in a polyamorous relationship and it's working out amazing you you're breaking generational curses but every single time i see a young person in a polyamorous relationship it never goes well for them the only time i've ever seen like a swingers a polyamorous situation work is with like 60 year olds who have been married for 40 years and that's because they know each other they have rules and checks and balances in place they also are like they've done their time together okay now it's time to go explore they're older they've got a good head on their shoulders but young people like if you want to

be out exploring and discovering new things about yourself in that sort of sense and you might hurt somebody else in the process because you're in a relationship just get out of the relationship like before you hurt somebody just leave if you feel that deep of a inkling to go out and explore sexually like just leave the relationship i don't think cheating is ever justified i think anybody should ever cheat i don't think you will either this is just like an overall psa i guess um but i think what you're feeling is valid and a lot of queer people and maybe more hetero normalized relationships do feel this way but i'm here to tell you like what you feel is valid and you don't necessarily have to go out and experience it right now in order to feel

validated um you know that hey what's what's going on right now it's great love it things are going good maybe one day they won't be going good and then i'll go date a girl then i'll know i'll have an opportunity to date a girl but i do think you know sounds like you're with a good man things are going good i don't know maybe you can bring a third in if you're feeling freaky um if you really want to try it i feel like that might be the best situation and if you really really are like thinking about it too much and acting in ways that maybe are not good for a monogamous relationship maybe it's time to remove yourself from that equation before somebody gets hurt but it sounds like you're in a good relationship it also sounds like maybe you can just chat with your partner

about how you're feeling um and they might be able to help out with rationalizing and making you feel validated in that sort of sense but no i don't think you necessarily have to go out and experience in order to understand the way you feel is valid like i know i like girls have i been in a relationship with a girl no but also that doesn't mean that i don't like them like we know what we like there's validity in that maybe one day i will date a girl who knows but right now i gotta focus on where i am and making the best out of it and making the best relationship possible for the one that i am in um and if you don't feel like you can do that anymore nor do you want to and you're looking to explore other relationships then maybe it's time to do so girl my neighbor below me just

started blasting music so apologies if you're hearing random things in the back who knows my mic's pretty good though so i think we'll be okay but just a psa um someone said channeling my inner frat boy energy because if i had one percent of that ego life would be better real there's something to learn about frat boys in the sense of we need to prioritize ourselves a little bit more one thing about them they don't give a fuck about anybody else to the point where they're a little evil in that sort of sense but the one thing a frat boy is going to do is always prioritize what the fuck he wants to do no matter what anybody else thinks and there is something to learn from that you know especially if you have a hard time like prioritizing yourself or you're a

little bit of a people pleaser go go hang out with a frat boy for like a eight hour stint of time and you will realize how little they take people seriously and how much they take themselves seriously and prioritize themselves it's actually insane to realize um and the ego is out of this fucking world which is why if you are fucking around with a frat guy careful girl you might get your feelings hurt if you get too serious in that situation like just have fun sometimes it's okay to just have fun and live life in the moment like do you really need to wife that frat boy up no no you don't but there's something to take from it sometimes you know the best thing you can really do from your for yourself and like prioritize yourself is to be a little selfish

especially if you have not been selfish in the past best thing you can do is learn to be a little selfish to prioritize yourself in this life you're gonna get so much further than you ever possibly would have being a people pleaser what to do for a bad anxiety week you need to de-stimulate yourself okay you are over stimulated usually my anxiety is caused by like way too much happening around me that's out of my control and it's just like poking me in the sides and tickling me and pulling my hair and it's overstimulating me i'm going crazy i want to crawl out of my skin and just sob on the fucking floor that's what a bad anxiety week looks for me so the best thing you can do once you finally maybe have some time to yourself to decompress and you're like what the

fuck do i do you are overstimulated we gotta take the stimulation down okay we need to chill out we need to sensory deprivation tank ourselves like mentally and physically whether you're literally going to a sensory deprivation tank and like laying in one and just like just you and your thoughts which is a lot but at least it's nothing else around you or like just locking yourself in the bathroom and maybe turning on your favorite music and just like laying in the bathtub um taking a long hot shower something very very simple that is still like stimulating in a sense, but is also going to decompress you. I love a bath. I talk about baths all the time on here. I love a bath. I don't know if it's because it makes me feel like

I'm back in the womb. I don't know if it's because it's like a de-stimulation tactic that I use in my everyday life, but I love just closing my eyes, maybe having a book in my hand, maybe just like playing music having my favorite podcast on something very simple that is stimulating to maybe take my mind off of everything but also it's not overstimulating in a sense where i am swiping swiping swiping content content content this app this app this app distracting myself you know like that's not healthy that's not going to decompress you that's going to make you even more stressed so we got a sensory deprivation tank ourselves okay maybe it's like i'm going to put a fluffy robe on and sit my ass on the couch and put on my favorite tv show and like that's it maybe i'm

gonna do some art distract myself maybe i'm going to knit maybe i'm going to zone out and play my comfy little cozy animal crossing game simple stimulation okay you've been way too overstimulated you gotta really decrease that and focus on one thing now and it's also okay i feel like when you've been in a bad anxiety place and overthinking to behave in some like disassociative yet healthy behaviors in a sense of like okay i'm going to just lay in the bathtub okay i'm gonna just read a book okay i'm just gonna watch a tv show or play a video game simple stimulation coming from one source allows you to kind of check out a little bit and decompress but also it's like in a healthy manner doing art uh knitting you know very very simple you got to under stimulate

yourself you've been it's been a little crazy and that's okay but we gotta take a step back and we gotta calm our brain down a little bit now what are your go-to hype me up methods before going on a date with a new boy a a shot i know i shouldn't be recommend recommending drinking but like sometimes when you just need to calm the nerves and equal the playing field i'm gonna eat like half a cbd gummy gummy or i'm gonna take a shot before i go out not like overly drink okay but i'm gonna i'm gonna have a little something to take the nerves off because i'm being a freakazoid right now and i'm freaking out okay so we gotta chill out a little bit i also think before going on a date with a boy or just anybody in general getting ready with your girls whether it's like

i'm on facetime with my best friend and getting ready before the date and i'm gonna hang up on that facetime when he rings the doorbell i'm not gonna cut her off any earlier and we're gonna talk it out and we're gonna have a good time and we're gonna uplift the vibes or like i'm gonna be with my friends physically getting ready to hang out with a boy you know like i'm gonna be with friends we're gonna be uplifting each other they're gonna be there to combat those anxieties and those negative feelings right then and there um i think when you're alone you're kind of like i'm gonna sit here and overthink everything and push myself into a spiral and that's not necessarily healthy so yeah i think having a friend with you to get ready whether virtually or like in person having

multiple friends around you and yeah like it's okay to take a little something to take the edge off you know smoke a little bowl before you go on the date take a little shot and then get in the car i feel like valid scene okay let's not binge drink before but like i genuinely believe like the best way to kind of chill myself out before like a intense social situation is like, I'm gonna have a glass of wine. I'm gonna, I'm gonna smoke a little joint. You know, we're gonna take the nerves off in that sort of way. Eat a little CBD gummy. If you do that, I see you. You're valid. Me too, girl. How to be the best girlfriend he's ever had. Okay. Okay. I would love to talk about it because I've approached the girlfriend angle in many different ways I feel like with my

I've approached the girlfriend angle from the perspective of okay I'm going to change myself completely into a whole different person that I know he will like in order to get his attention and to garner his love and that will make me the best girlfriend ever nope it doesn't work you lose yourself he breaks up with you you don't know who you are you've missed a couple years of life it doesn't work don't try it I've also gotten the angle where I'm gonna be so toxic and so like semi-evil and just like fighting all the time and picking fights so that our both of our anxieties are raised and he will never forget about me ever in his life yeah he's not gonna forget about you but it's definitely not going to be because of a good reason like he's only going to be thinking

bad things about you it doesn't work you're gonna break up because you're being too toxic I've also gone the route of I'm gonna be the best girlfriend ever by not speaking up for myself and allowing him to be the man and you know I'm just gonna make sure he's happy and that's all I'm gonna prioritize my happiness on is if he's happy and he's feeling good about himself and I'm just never gonna say no and i'm never gonna speak up for myself and i'm just only gonna focus on him that is too much focus to have on another person he's gonna be uncomfortable he's gonna feel like he's dating a robot he's gonna break up with you it does not work do you want to know how to be the best girlfriend ever possible be yourself okay you want him to never forget about you be a little

weird be a little odd be yourself act yourself be a human make mistakes okay whenever men like describe a manic pixie dream girl it simply is a girl who's like not afraid to be themselves and dye their hair they're like wow she's everything it's like yeah she's being herself like that's literally the hottest thing you can be in the world to a man is yourself and if you're like well he doesn't like me that way then bitch he doesn't like you and he's not supposed to be your fucking boyfriend if he doesn't like who you are isn't able to have a little laugh with you bitch why the fuck are you fiending after him okay you know what i call that i call that dick induced psychosis let's get you some medical help because i'm nervous if he doesn't like you for who

you are and you're still pining after his attention you're a pick me you're trying to get his attention in order to feel good about yourself and you will never feel good about yourself because he will never give it to you okay be yourself if a man actually loves you if you are yourself and you're a little weird and awkward and whatever he's gonna fall ten times further in love with you head over heels in love with you if he likes you those little quirks and those little like odd things about you are going to make him fall deeper in love that's how it works when you're in love okay anyways you know what also is gonna make you the best girlfriend ever when you look him in the eyes and you tell him bitch get your shit together no whatever it is speak up for

yourself when you hold them accountable and you're like no you can't fucking speak to me that way watch your fucking attitude they love that shit they love it they love a woman who can speak up for themselves they love a woman who's like yeah you know what you you had me there like i was being a little bitch and you called me out on that and that's hot men love that and if they don't love that they're a fucking pussy who can't handle a real woman okay speak up for yourself you never speaking up for yourself is not going to make a man like you it's not they're gonna feel like they're walking all over you and they're gonna use you however they want and they're either gonna take advantage of that or they're gonna be turned off by that both not good things

so speak up for yourself tell that man to sit down and shut up every once in a while honestly my god like they will love that i promise you i promise you it is the best thing you can do for yourself if you want to be a girlfriend and to be a good girlfriend is to hold your partner accountable okay it'll be a hard conversation it'll be hard to talk about but also it's like those are the best conversations it brings you closer together makes you understand yourself a little bit more understand your partner a little bit more they're great the sex after fantastic 10 out of 10 and also i think what makes a person like the best girlfriend ever is just showing up for them and their love language like if your partner really loves a home-cooked meal

and you're like i don't know how to cook that's okay maybe try every once in a while they'll see the effort they'll appreciate it maybe they really like receiving gifts girl buy that man a cute little something i don't know maybe they really love like um like acts of service literally just like know their love language and love them enough to show up before they have to ask for it i feel like that's not really a huge issue when it comes to girlfriends because we're the best and we always know what men want and we always know how to appease them so like i'm sure you're gonna be doing that but like it's okay to get a little lovey-dovey and write a love note that's so cute men love that okay it's how you are the best girlfriend ever also not just men partners in

general obviously i feel like that's all whenever i like say general uh male female relationship situation that's just because what that's what i'm in and that's what i'm visualizing in my head but also the tips that I give are for anybody in a relationship people love to be loved they love to receive flowers they love to receive notes they love to know that they are loved outside of the aspect of saying I love you and simply having sex so make sure you're taking care of your relationship and celebrating your love in that way as well but stop changing yourself for men stop turning yourself into a fucking doormat okay and stop being toxic in the name of love those three things do not work be yourself uplift your partner hold them accountable that's how you

become the best girlfriend ever oh it's getting warmer out and i always feel so lonely slash FOMO during spring slash summer it's probably because you're seeing all these people on trips and doing this and doing that girl fuck the noise go enjoy your life i have a challenge for you if you are similar to this where you're like I find myself feeling FOMO feeling left out when it comes to springtime because people are out and about more go on a walk in your local park go to your local park go on a walk put your headphones in go on a walk turn on some fun sentimental music go look around go enjoy life go get in the sun I you will feel 10 times better I feel like I felt a little lonely last spring and so this is a new challenge that I came up for myself this spring

I need to go on one walk one time a week you can do once a week that's easy you get off work at five six whatever it is you have your gym bag in the car you change in the bathroom at work you drive straight to the park you go on a I don't know 15 30 hour long walk with your headphones in go home make dinner go to bed simple maybe you have Saturday Sunday off okay we're gonna go on a walk in the morning we're gonna go get a coffee and we're gonna walk around the park and drink our coffee get outside you guys need to be in the sun you will not give a fuck what anybody else is thinking or like doing in that moment I promise you but you need to get outside and indulge in the nature because you're not feeling FOMO because of what other people are doing you're feeling FOMO

because you're not doing something so do something you don't have to fly to Italy okay I'm not fucking flying to Italy trust me I don't have fucking money for that but I can go outside and indulge in the springtime summertime funness the same as everybody else is doing and that's how you cure that FOMO it's not by doing the exact same thing that they do it's by simply having your own fun routine to do in the spring summer that makes you feel included in that season okay get out of house go lay on your front porch in the sun i don't know there's little things you can do but sunlight is going to fix you being in nature that's what's going to fix you it's going to make you feel more in tune with the season with the vibes for the season so i challenge you one walk

a week you can do that that is the world's simplest challenge i believe in you oh someone said going to my first rave in june any tips slash advice illy it is officially rave season girlies i feel like rave season starts like february march and ends like august september that's when most of the raves happen that's when most of the festivals happen and i'm so excited for it there's a rave going on this month that i might go to subtronics will be in town i think i might see them but i'm also seeing Zedd's Dead next month. I don't have any festivals planned yet but I might stop by some of them. None of the lineups I've really been wild about so I haven't really indulged on any of those festival tickets. I really want to get to Red Rocks this summer as well. If Alice in Wonderland

plays there I will probably go see her. She is probably my favorite DJ ever. First time I ever in molly i started rolling and peeking as soon as she came on stage and when she comes on stage she has this like huge fire ring behind her and i was peeking so hard i was like is everybody else seeing what the fuck i'm seeing anyway so my heart is like specifically attached to her and i want to go to her red rock show whenever she announces that but i love raves i love raves you don't feel comfortable at other music events go to a rave you'll feel comfortable um don't feel comfortable about your body and want to feel uplifted go to a rave everybody is out and on show and being uplifted and celebrated and people wear the funnest outfits people aren't afraid to be crazy

people aren't afraid to be themselves people aren't afraid to strike up conversation and like support and uplift each other and i love raves for that reason they are just so much fucking fun um I also am a sober raver sober in the sense of I'm not doing all the drugs everybody else is on you don't have to and I honestly recommend not um I recommend just like going a little high bring a little joint with you eat a little edible before maybe have a couple drinks while you're there but I think that's the best way to really indulge and enjoy and I love raves specifically festivals um I feel like if you want to get more involved in the whole culture of it all go to a festival and camp um but raves in general they are so inviting to every single type of person out

there they are so welcoming to every single type of person out there um and tips and tricks a wear a good outfit a comfortable outfit I feel like you see all the fashion rave girlies and listen they're only wearing that for that one photo and they're changing into sweatpants and a t-shirt so wear something comfortable get a little pashmina make sure you have comfortable shoes on all right um i love a lot of jewelry but um i feel like my jewelry ends up getting stuck in someone's fishnets and like ripping them uh so keep the jewelry at a minimal um have fun accessories and make sure you are hydrating and eating a quality amount of food before i see people pass out left and right at raves it's because there's a lot of people in there it's gonna get hot it's

gonna get steamy um make sure you are eating and drinking water make sure you're taking care of the people around you bring narcan with you if you want to be a good supporter um and yeah overall i don't have to tell people to be nice at these shows because that is the understanding i feel like people are meaner and ruder at more mainstream concerts people understand concert etiquette at raves so you don't have to worry about that hair your hair is gonna get fucking gross and matted if it's down put it in a braid put it in some space buns make sure it's up and out of your face it's gonna get hot sweaty steamy in that concert venue I promise um wear fun sunglasses there's are gonna be a lot of lasers and yeah have fun open yourself up to the world talk to people

enjoy the connection that music brings to people um I feel like it's really easy to connect at raves more so than any other concert um event or situation and go with an open heart and go to have some fun you're gonna have fun no matter what make sure you're just taking care of yourself and your friends along the way um and yeah make sure you have a fun little outfit on go enjoy i love love love raves though and it is rave season slash festival season so if you're thinking about buying that ticket i 10 out of 10 recommend doing so hi hannah my name is hannah as well so i just wanted to call in and say hi from a fellow hannah um i have a million questions but i really did just want to come on here and say thank you for the podcast and for sharing your

journey and just allowing yourself to grow so fervently it's very inspiring and I feel like I get to live not only vicariously through you but I feel like you're a sister or kind of like a higher version of myself and not in the sense that you're higher but just you inspire me to see what I can be and push me to be better and it's really nice because you also don't make me feel bad about myself which is what usually happens when i try to make myself um improve anyway just want to say thank you from me and every other person out there who listens because we all adore you so thank you oh my god my heart is going to fucking explode hannah i love you you're so sweet i get so many of these messages and it just brightens my day every single time

I get to read them or hear them um because sometimes I'm like why the fuck am I doing this is this am I making a difference is this actually you know doing something because the one thing I've always wanted to do since I was younger is just like outreach and work and I've you know worked in the industry with like mental health and outreach to suicidal teens and just like teens who are going through it and I felt like I could not ever find my avenue to actually like sit down and make a difference and this is the one thing that I'm like okay actually maybe I'm doing it maybe I'm putting myself out there and people are listening and we're all gonna work together to kind of just be like honest with ourselves and uplift ourselves through that and I'm just so

happy that I can provide that for you guys and I'm so happy to do this every fucking week it's actually a dream come true um and i wouldn't be here without you guys so many of you guys want more for yourself you want to do better and that shows with the thousands of people who show up every week and listen to this and submit questions and who are vulnerable and who open themselves up so we can all kind of look inward and then project outward our best versions and step into our higher selves so thank you that is so motivating and i am just so appreciative for every single one of you and i hope you are just as appreciative of yourself that i am of you um and yeah just you showing up every week really just shows me how much we want to do better as a collective and

how much we want to just simply like learn to have a little fun and have a little laugh at the mistakes we have and truly just grow into the best version of ourselves so i am so happy to be here with you guys and i love you all so very much thank you that really meant the world to me anyways that is it for our podcast you guys i had so much fun with you all happy tuesday i hope you had a fantastic wonderful day um i am going to go outside enjoy the 67 degree weather excuse me maybe go make myself some good lunch make a little egg sandwich i've been craving one so bad recently um and yeah i dare you to go out and enjoy the day as well um thank you for being here thank you for being you i'm so excited to sit down and do the video episode with you all as well

this week i hope you enjoyed today's podcast episode though and i cannot wait to see you all this thursday