Smoke Sesh - extra special 420 episode

Episode Date: April 20, 2023

Happy 420 everyone I hope you’re all out there celebrating however you can, and I’m so excited to have you here for an extra special episode of Smoke Sesh. Light up! Grab a snack! Get comfy and let’s get into it. We have a jam packed episode starting with a little life update, sharing a bowl and how to stop with the white lies, we talk playboy, smokeable vibrators, how much weed do I really smoke? Coachella recap, my go to sesh drink and staying hydrated, favorite sesh rituals for a day out and a TLC day, running from the police and bad highs, content creation tips, eclipse season and what it’s bringing, CBD! Piercings, edibles the good and the bad, greening out, summer plans and vacation ideas, drug tests, mushroom sex, how to help those incarcerated for weed, uncut vs cut, boredom, current biggest epiphanies, how to not get anxious after smoking, you’re not crazy it’s just the weed, and how to be confident! It’s a jam packed episode full of lots of fun and I hope you guys enjoy

Listen, everybody needs a fairy godmother, you know? Just somebody to look out for them. Some people call me their fairy smoke mother, others their internet big sister, but you can call me Hannah, the host of Smoke Sash. So come hang out! Let's light up and talk everything there is to life. The good, the bad, the ugly, the embarrassing. I've got a story for it all. Hello! Hi! Happy fucking 420, everybody. oh my god how are y'all feeling it is a beautiful bright and sunny day okay the earth is really giving me that energy that i really fucking needed in order to persevere through this day

and frankly through this week i am loving the springtime energy i hope we are all kind of latching on to it and really taking as much as we can from it um and allowing ourselves to regrow a little bit feel a little alive from the sunshine but i'm ready to fucking party and i hope you guys are too um little psa 420 not only are we going to be doing our regular episode which yes you are listening to right now i love you um but also on spotify if you have it i will be doing a little extra probably 30 45 minute um hangout sesh video so everybody who you know maybe uses apple music or a different platform can still get the usual 420 content because i love you and i do not want to leave you out from our sesh okay but if you want a little extra there will be a video

up on spotify a little sesh and hang um nothing crazy but i wanted to do a little face-to-face hangout what's better than that also i'm literally shaking right now because not only did i chug a venti oat milk shake and espresso i don't usually go to starbucks but holy shit those are good and i am wired as you can tell um but i also just did a little merch drop i have been working on this for fucking forever and as an artist it is really incredible to have a vision in your head or have like even just a tiny idea of what you want to do and to put time into it and then to finally sit down and physically have that created from your ideas and spawned in real life it is a magical feeling and I just want to let you guys know that anything that you dream of or wish to do

you can create of course there's gonna be you know some some issues there were some shipping issues with these to get them to me. There was some design issues but don't let those things stop you because your dreams can become a reality. I created gold lighter cases. I've sold lighters before but I didn't want to sell like lighter lighters. I wanted to give you something that's going to last a long time and these are gold engraved lighter cases so you can mix and match with whatever your favorite lighter is if you run out you know you can keep using it it's not gonna tarnish um and it says star child and this beautiful cursive script on one side and has a beautiful star on the other side i just made an instagram post about it so if you're interested

it is linked in my instagram um feel free to support this time hopefully we won't run out so fast when i dropped hoodies they literally were gone in about two days which was fucking insane so i ordered way way more than i could have even imagined selling um so hopefully everybody who wants to get their hands on these can and we can all light up together whether it's a candle or a joint or whatever it may be i just want to share a piece of my heart with you guys so thank you all so fucking much for the support i hope you enjoyed a little 420 drop from me and don't worry i have so many more fun things planned for us this is literally just the start i'm finally getting into that flow space where i'm like okay every month we can do something um every month i can drop

something fun for you guys so everybody can kind of participate and i am so excited for that but With that being said, let's take a little rip in honor of our beautiful, wonderful 420 day. Okay? Okay, prepare. Okay, bowl is loaded. Are you guys ready? Today I'm smoking out of my canna-style bong and using my cute new little Starchild lighter. Cheers! Oh yeah. Alright. hi mommy so i just want to come on here ask for some advice so this semester i noticed like i

don't know i've just been i'm usually like a really like self-critical person and i don't really allow myself to make mistakes i'm hard on myself this semester i've been like more kind to myself and i have been making some mistakes you know like i have been overbooking myself with my friends and not really being the best friend to some people um but like I have good intentions and I've been apologizing and stuff um but I've been just like more just like I don't know strict with my own boundaries and like if I don't feel like going out I don't go out you know um but sometimes not wanting to disappoint people leads to me get telling like little white lies and this is not good so how do I get out of this habit thank you love you listen

we learned it young we learned it well everybody makes mistakes everybody has those days and I hear you it is a hard habit to get out of but you have to understand that um a mistakes are okay to make as long as you rectify them learn from them and then most importantly don't make them again So you're noticing a pattern of behavior that's maybe not the best, you know, you want to keep holding yourself to those boundaries that you feel, you want to keep also showing up for your friends, and it sounds like you're doing well with that, but I do understand the problem of like, oh, my friends want me to go out, and I don't really have a good excuse not to, other than I just want to stay home, and they want to pressure me to go out, so sometimes it's easier to be like, oh, I have this obligation, when really I don't. but here's the thing your friends aren't they shouldn't hate you if you don't want to do something with them um i feel like one of the number one things that i learned as adult and one of the number one things i think a lot of people learn as an adult especially an adult with adult friendships is everybody is very consumed within their own life and if someone

has a problem with you just simply being busy with whatever that busy might be whether it's an actual obligation or like hey I want to rot in my bed all day and I don't really want to do anything um if they're a real friend they should hear that and they should be like no yeah cool I'll catch you next time you know what I mean and I think that's where honesty gets you a lot further in that situation than you having to keep up with like little white lies um so just be honest I think your friends would be very receptive to that or whoever would be very receptive to that and if they're not like that's kind of on them you know that's something that they have to deal with you can't always be there for everybody for every situation um because then

you're going to be living your life for other people um we're not always going to be able to make it to things or you know to go out every single night with our friends um sometimes we're gonna have to be on our own time and that is a okay and as a good friend you should hear listen and understand that so i think it's just gonna have to be something you catch yourself in the act doing and be like okay i have this feeling to just like you know white lie and just be like you know what no pause i'm gonna tell the truth i'm gonna see how it goes and i guarantee you it will go a lot better than having to keep up with a bunch of little white lies because that's no fun live your truth live it honestly and people will respect that someone said uh my boyfriend got me

a playboy calendar i thought you'd love that i do love that that's amazing i want a playboy calendar i'm hoping to um i have so many like vintage playboys you know and i'm really hoping to be able to have a cute little area to um like hang them up or display them in my new apartment i am so very excited also one of you guys dm me the other day and said i bought this yesterday at hustler and i had to show you for 420 it was literally a smokable vibrator and i know you're like girl what I was also like excuse me what um yeah a smokable vibrator literally it had like a so essentially like you know what is like the battery part of a um of a cart you know a cart battery think of that but it's like the handle of like a vibrator it's like has the buttons on it

and the top that's usually round like if you have like a round handle sort of vibrator on screws so you can screw in your cart so it can either be like a cart battery or a vibrator battery like a two-in-one never ever ever in my life have i heard of this like i was giggling so hard i was obsessed so thank you for sending me that um that really made my day but yeah us stoners our minds we will literally create anything someone asked um what's the most weed you've been able to smoke in one sitting so if we're talking flour like sometimes when i'm hanging out with friends or we're just kicking it i'll go like bowl to bowl to bowl to bowl to bowl and i can easily smoke like like maybe like at eight in the morning and

like at eight in the afternoon and then like take some dabs in the evening like listen my tolerance is out of control safe to say um like 100 milligram edible is kind of nothing to me which now I'm having a lot of realizations like babe maybe we should cut back a little bit you know like maybe our tolerance shouldn't be so high but that's like not all the time um that's not even like once a week that's maybe once every other month um every single day like what I usually you smoke is i try to avoid smoking in the mornings and if i do feel the urge to smoke in the mornings i like to supplement with cbd as you guys know favorite cbd company pazpax you can use code smoke slash for 10 off had to get my little plug in there but seriously it makes a world of

a difference being able to like no i will allow myself that break but like supplement with something actually healthy and something that's like not gonna like deter my whole day you know send me into a anxiety spiral that I didn't really think I was needing that morning and then kind of not getting work done supplement with CBD so you can keep going on with your day and the best thing honestly is to just save save save until you're done with all your work in the afternoon evening then I will usually you know have a couple bowls maybe one dab but really really nothing crazy and that's what I usually do day to day there's also like days where I don't smoke I like to do it very intuitively and sometimes I'll like feel the urge just because it's a part of my ritual but I think

it's very important to really sit down and think with yourself and be like is this a an urge or b um is this something that I like actually want to participate in if it's just an urge and you don't really want to smoke and you don't really want to get high listen to that you know honor that you don't always need a substance um but yeah I like to do it very intuitively save it towards the end of the night but listen if i'm going all day and i'm going hard yeah i can i can consume a lot oh someone asked can we talk about coachella yes yes we can oh my god first of all i love a good festival no i was not in attendance one year i absolutely would love to go this year's lineup was just you know what it was pretty good but i need like 90 of the people who are there

for me to be like obsessed with in order for me to drop that much fucking money do you know what i mean like it's gotta be worth it worth it and not that frank ocean isn't worth it but after seeing how his performance went if i would have went this year definitely would have not been worth it um i'm already seeing cali uchis in like a month so that's fantastic but i love a good festival i love a good camping festival um i think people look at coachella and they're like that looks lame that looks boring because it basically just looks like a big corporate event for influencers which it kind of is and that's super annoying um because we just see everybody in the same outfit same design style you know posting the same thing at their penthouse pool

you know and i'm not about that when i do the festival experience i want the full fucking festival experience okay i want to be sweating my ass out in a tent in the communal showers from dusk till dawn running in and out and every which way of that festival grounds like i am living there okay that's what coachella is about that's what festivals are about and to be fair that's what the majority of people there are doing which i love there's a few influencers that i saw this year that were um all about the whole festival experience like sarah baska always does a Coachella recap of vlog and she's always camping going all out and I love that because you can tell she's like actually about the experience she's not there on an all-inclusive paid for you know

influencer meet and greet um and then also there's this TikTok girl I saw who was doing some vlogging style TikToks Isabel Wallace I think is her name and yeah she is like a real rave girl she is all about the like live concert experience so those are the kind of influencers that I was looking at when it came to the Coachella you know experience weekend one um and I love them for that those are the kind of people that I'm like yes they're there for the fun of it all not for the oh it's a brand trip you know because that shit's annoying I can't lie it is annoying coming from an influencer like I don't like seeing all that stuff and it's unfortunate that it's oversaturated but i did watch some of the live streams the performers did fucking incredible

um i think people were disappointed by freak ocean a little bit i was as a live streamer i was a little pissed that he wasn't doing like a live streaming event even if he knew it was gonna be shit like come on you have fans you gotta you gotta give it to the fans you know what i mean they're the reason you are so big and popular um and i feel like you kind of owe it to them a little bit like could you imagine if I got on here and I was like yeah I don't really care about all of you I don't really care about putting out quality content fuck you guys moving on with my life like what like I owe you guys my life I owe you um being able to do this podcast and you guys showing up and listening every week and I want to give that back to you you know what I mean

and I feel like that's just the honorable thing to do and it sucks that he kind of fell short you know what I mean um I know he has a lot of personal things going on but let's be real don't take the deal if you don't think you can do it you know um anyways yeah Coachella would have loved to gone looked like a blast um from the people who I did see going and let's be real any sort of festival is going to be a blast um but yeah the fits kind of fell short this year I didn't really see that many like fits that I was like oh my god you know like jaw on the floor I maybe saw one or two which was disappointing um and I think that's just because of the whole oh I'm sponsored by this person so I can only wear this person while also simultaneously um you know trends being

so quick that people are kind of losing their own personal style and falling victims to all of these micro trends they're trying to combine into one outfit which is just chaotic you know what I mean but I love a good I'm gonna watch a live stream and I'm gonna stalk the Coachella tag and look at outfits and chill in my bedroom kind of vibe one year would love to go would love to do a camping experience but not quite yet I'm not quite prepared for that yet there's other festivals I'd like to go to before Coachella would love to go to like Okeechobee um that is just always a fantastic festival and one that I've been meaning to go to for years uh but yeah if you went I hope you had a blast i hope you had a safe fun fantastic time um but yeah coachella kind of you know

hi so this is everyone's reminder to drink more water and if you're like a sugary drinkerly like soda lemonade like that stuff trust me i am with you let me give you a little hack so what you're gonna do you're gonna get those propel packets at walmart they're like the water section and don't get the actual bottles because those are fucking expensive for no damn reason get the packets there's like 10 of them for i want to say like two dollars and 50 cents like super cheap and then also get a matching flavor of kool-aid the stuff that you like squirt in your water i do grape love grapes such a grape girly but um and then put both of that in your water i used to maybe drink like a glass of water a day and now i'm reaching my goal of like 70 ounces every fucking

day now 10 out of 10 recommend love this hack and yeah love the pod keep it up bye i love a little hack from one girly to another uh yeah i got addicted to like cherry coke about three years ago my boyfriend got me hooked fuck that's like it's so bad um but yeah my dentist was like girl no more no more and for me it was like i just need a little flavor and like a little bubbly i need a little bubbly something you know to get me through the day like i love water of course i'm gonna drink her but i like to have a little fun drink on the side like come on so the top two for me other than water um which love the propel hack absolutely i've used mio before too um but right now i love sparkling water love an orange lacroix that is absolutely the best flavor also if you

just get regular LaCroix like unflavored you can take a fresh lime wedge and squeeze it in oh my god so refreshing so amazing low sugar love it still get a fun fancy little drink also a little higher in sugar but still healthy for you especially if you're hungover love this if you're hungover dehydrated dehydrated favorite sesh drink honestly by far is the pineapple coconut water i used to hate coconut water because it kind of tastes sweaty um but the pineapple if you get the pineapple version it covers up like a little bit of that sweaty taste um and it is fucking fantastic 10 out of 10 one of my favorite cess drinks so good for you has a ton of electrolytes if you're hungover and need to replenish um but yeah those are also my go-to

but also love a propel we gotta get our water intake okay girlies we gotta make sure we're hydrated love you speaking of seshes someone asked what's my favorite sesh ritual so i feel like there's many ways i can go about this but for me personally um usually it's either a like i'm gonna get outside in sesh or b it's like i'm gonna stay inside in tlc sesh so if it's i'm going outside I usually pack a little picnic I like to take like cheese crackers some fresh fruit a little LaCroix a little pineapple coconut water you know pack it all up throw a bikini on throw some like denim shorts over it and then either head to the park or like head to the river one of the two but definitely get outside I bring a little journal with me I bring some markers

headphones if you want and then I just throw my blanket out in the sun and I smoke it up and I journal and I munch and I yeah lay in the sunshine a little bit what is fucking better than that and also like that is so fun to do with friends as well you can each like bring a little item have a little picnic get together come on now and then also if I'm doing like a little TLC night in situation i like to smoke preferably out of my bong do a face mask make sure i have a really good munchie afterwards whether it's like sushi a frozen pizza i've been obsessed with the soup dumplings from trader joe's recently as well um and then a really good show to put on or like a movie um recently i've been watching yellow jackets which is trippy as fuck but honestly a

really good tv show um and i've also been re-watching game of thrones because my boyfriend's never seen it um those are my two go-to oh and can we talk about rupaul's drag race this season was fucking incredible spoilers if you haven't finished yet skip like 15 seconds but i was so team anitra i love anitra um absolutely a favorite but sasha colby come on she ate her up she is queen of queens you know every drag queen's favorite drag queen and that final lip sync was amazing she killed it definitely deserved it um but anitra anitra love her it was a fantastic season if you haven't watched still absolutely worth a watch all the queens this year were fantastic um but that's been another favorite binge of mine when it comes to post sesh need to

dissociate and consume some fun media hey hannah my name is julie giving you love from toronto canada just working from home right now hi as hell um just wanted to let you know that you're a very wise young woman i'm quite a bit older than you and you really got it going on you're doing such a good job um meddling with all the um roller coasters of life um my birthday is on 420 so I cannot wait for the episode that you're gonna put out and yeah love you so much girl keep doing what you're doing oh my heart happy fucking 420 birthday Julie oh my god what a perfect birthday are you kidding me although if I was in labor on 420 I'd be a little pissed but like how cute you know what I mean you get to celebrate extra hard so happy birthday thank you

so much for the kind sweet words I really appreciate it especially from um like there's a lot of women who are older than me who listen to this or people in general who are older than me and I don't think like age really installs any sort of you know of course you're gonna go through more and you're gonna have a little bit more wisdom but a big insecurity of mine is I know I'm young and of course I have perspectives on things but I always like to hear from people who have maybe gone through more than me that um you know what I'm saying is resonating and I'm not just a crazy 23 year old who's living in delusion um it's like actual relatively good advice my friend uh sydney actually we were talking about this and i think the number one thing that has

helped me the most have these perspectives and um you know look at the world this way she pointed it out she was like i can tell you were um you know raised with and probably by very good people and they really really looked out for you and after she said that i was like that is totally fucking correct I lucked out I hit the lottery of course you know all of our parents are gonna annoy us and we're gonna get frustrated with them um but I did very much so luck out with who I have as parents and who they surrounded me with not only was I raised with them but I was raised like in a community I lived in a cul-de-sac and I was raised by 10 other parents basically you know we used to joke that it takes a cul-de-sac but everybody that I was raised with

really looked out for me and you know made sure that I had a good head on my shoulders and it really resonates with me now being able to hang out with you guys and give a little bit of my perspectives and my experience so I'm glad that I can help some of you guys and yeah I'm very lucky I think it is a it really really shows that who you surround yourself with matters whether you know you choose it or not um sometimes you surround yourself with people who are not good and it's important for you to recognize and unlearn those things um but also sometimes you're surrounded with people who are good that you've maybe taken for granted and it's important to recognize and show appreciation um for that as well but love you happy fucking birthday to all my 420 babies

out there but especially you julie thank you so much love you oh my god someone said me and my friends are planning on smoking or planning to smoke at a bunch of churches on 420 what's yours no no no no babes i love you but if we're gonna learn from someone's mistakes please please learn from mine most traumatic uh not really but like most traumatic experience from my young age was it's like a sophomore in high school maybe a junior and me and my friends wanted to smoke you know it was one of my friends kind of first times really trying it and we wanted to make sure you know we were set up good and it was in the springtime probably around this time towards the end of the year um it was nice and warm and sunny out and we were about to go to a

party and so we were like you know what let's do a little pit stop you know go outside smoke a little bit it was like eight o'clock at night so it was nighttime um but we were like let's just kick it and smoke and then head to the party and why was the only place i could think of a church parking lot yeah like there go to a nature reserve go somewhere else um but we parked and there was this little um like garden that they had towards the base of this hill so it's kind of hidden down in the trees so we went down there and we were hanging out in this beautiful garden surrounded by crosses which is a little interesting and you know i was smoking i had a little bowl had my little grinder i smoked my friend out and then it came to the friend who had never

successfully smoked before like she'd smoked but she had never gotten high which is a pretty common occurrence um i think some people just don't inhale right or are afraid to which i get totally and sometimes it takes a few tries and this time i successfully got her okay pipes are very strong strong hitters and that it hit her hard and as soon as she hit this pipe blew it out keep in mind pitch black we are the only car in the parking lot all right we think we are safe sound having a blast and i know you guys have heard this story before if you are a new joiner it's a fun one kind of but um we see this car pull into the parking lot and all we see are headlights headlights and we're kind of just like giggling watching a little zoned out and the car turns so

we can see the side of the car and all it says on there is like police and we immediately were like oh fuck i don't know what kind of instincts kicked into me but i immediately grabbed my friends grabbed the pipe grabbed everything we started sprinting into the forest and we're running running and I look back and I see someone running down the hill with like a giant spotlight like coming after us so I'm like bitches we gotta go we gotta go so we're running running running and finally like I hit a spot that I think is enough you know far enough away and I grabbed them and I pull us to the ground and we look up and thank god I grabbed us because there's a barbed wire fence that we almost just like sprinted through grabbed them pulled them to the ground

and like a mother I'm just like holding them down and I'm like it's gonna be okay we're gonna be all right it's gonna be fine like repeating over and over again mostly for me like I was panicking panicking a little bit but also for them um and like I was digging in the ground and I buried the pipe and buried it at the grinder and we were just hiding hiding and finally the guy walks back up to his car and leaves um and that was the scariest moment of my entire life not only that but we immediately were like okay we gotta go we gotta get out of this parking lot before either they swing back around and come back through um or you know whatever seems to happen so i leave the stuff there so if someone catches us they don't find anything on us we get in the car uh my friend

who once again has never smoked before starts driving because it was her car and we're pulling out of the parking lot we're driving down the road and I look over and I'm like oh my god what just happened and she looks at me and she goes Hannah I can't drive right now totally forgetting that she could possibly be high and experiencing her first high ever um and I'm like oh my god okay I'm holding the wheel I need you I'm gonna pull over you're gonna take your foot off the gas we're gonna hit park and i'm gonna get in the um the driver's side and i'm gonna get us out of here safely i was like i am so sorry girl i did not mean to put you in the driver's seat for god you could possibly be high let me drive let me get us safely and then yeah we went to a

party party was hectic crazy insane but that really set the tone i was like oh my god no church parking lots the thing about church parking lots in any government property there are routine police patrols that's just that's just how it works okay they're gonna come through every once in a while and now that i'm older looking back we were just dumb and didn't realize that and they were probably doing a routine check and then saw one singular car in the fucking parking lot and they were like we're gonna go look at that you know like what's going on it's nine o'clock at night why is there a car here um and our asses were just hiding in the forest but yeah that was a very interesting to say the least and I definitely definitely learned my lesson but

yeah no church parking lots take it from me oh this is an interesting question um and one that I haven't answered in a while but someone asked what's what's some advice you would want to give to someone who wants to be a content creator um and i know this is redundant and i know every content creator says it which is testimony to probably how important it is post post post as much as you fucking can get creative with it stay true to yourself don't let other people get in your head um don't let other people live rent free in your head and post okay that's like one thing that i have had trouble with recently um is i just have a hard time expressing myself or i got caught up with how people perceive me how i was perceiving myself and i'm trying to step outside

of that and stop over analyzing myself so hard in order to just post um you just gotta put that content out there some of it will hit some of it won't it doesn't matter what does well and what doesn't as long as you are simply in the act of creating whether it's you know your content creator in the sense of i create you know giant paintings and i post them on my instagram or you're a content creator as in you know you promote your etsy account or you sell secondhand clothing or maybe it's like a personal promotion whatever it is just put content out there anything that you find is interesting i guarantee other people will also find interesting um but don't get caught up in the likes or how much engagement you're getting or if you're doing good or if

you're not doing good if you put more out there you're bound to have more reception but if you only put something out there every once in a while your chances of you know getting that reception and making those connections are really dwindled so give yourself as much of an opportunity as you possibly can have fun with it stay true to yourself do not ever do anything quote-unquote just for the money make sure you the love is there if you want to become a content creator because it seems easy or whatever it's not everything takes work of course it is not the quote-unquote simple way out um you really have to be vulnerable with yourself and be open with yourself um but number one uh piece of advice that I can really give anybody who wants to do content

creation is simply start posting that's it let's talk what's going on within the stars is anybody else realizing that it's kind of chaos everywhere and i'm i'm writing it pretty well knock on wood oh my god um i feel like you know when we have big universal things when there's big changes from the stars people get anxious um and people like to spread a lot of anxiety especially online so I'm gonna not do that for you um I think there is also a way you can look at things positively and make things work for you even if it is kind of anxiety inducing to some people um but right now we basically have a um an eclipse in Aries taking place um and we are following that with Mercury retrograde, and then we are following that with a, I believe, another

lunar eclipse in Scorpio on May 5th, so it's a lot happening right now, um, like, a lot, but, um, let's see, and when an eclipse is thrown into the mix, uh, the changes that take place become a lot more intense significant unexpected and permanent so these are quick fast changes that are happening within your life this doesn't also mean bad things it just means intense a solar eclipse occurs in lieu of a new moon and a lunar eclipse happens in place of a full moon it's during eclipse season that lovers become exclusive wedding bells ring kings are crowned babies are born divorces are signed addresses are changed and careers are made because an eclipse activates the north node of destiny and the south node of past life karma as a tendency to make major game

changing adjustments to the path we're currently embarking on so think of it as like the universe taking over the wheel and redirecting your gps knowing you've been driving in the wrong direction for far too long and although you may feel uncomfortable with taking this new route have faith that you're the right or that you're right where you're supposed to be and well on your way to what has been promised to you so um the aries libra axis represents the dichotomy between i and the we in astrology aries is the cardinal fire sign of confidence war ego identity assertiveness self-fulfillment encouraging you to stand up for yourself and speak your unique independent truth And then Libra is the cardinal air sign of harmony, togetherness, peace, justice, diplomacy, encouraging you to set aside your differences with others and find common ground.

So during this eclipse season, you can expect the hot, driven, and impulsive energy of Aries to tap into your inner self and let go of people-pleasing tendencies, which kind of in turn will bring you together closer with the people who are truly meant for you, who you can trust in. So some things need to be done on your own, even if that means ruffling a few feathers and disturbing this peace. um but this eclipse will be ruled by mars in domestic and family oriented cancer which is in its fall this indicates that changes taking place could hit very close to home especially if you're born with cardinal placements such as aries cancer libra and capricorn um basically lots of change coming very quickly don't be afraid change doesn't have to be scary usually it is bringing in the new the good the positive the better as much as you may think oh my god no it's not or this hardship isn't worth it or what is going on you will come out of it stronger more aware and understanding

with yourself people being more aware and understanding of you and you feeling more confident in turn so eclipses don't have to be so fucking terrifying because i just keep getting a tiktok video every other fucking one of people being like careful you don't want to do anything serious right now you need to be terrified you need to be scared it's like oh i just can't with that energy i hate the fear mongering i hate the idea that we all need to be in a collective fear of something when in reality there are so many good things that could come from this um it's all about how you look at it and what you accept into your life and how you approach it don't approach it with fear approach it with openness and love and understanding that you are truly on the best

path for you so i love you happy eclipse season i hope you're all surviving and thriving a little bit um but just hang on okay we will get through it hey girl hey bestie um i don't have a question i just wanted to talk for a second about the wonders of cbd um and how much it's impacted my life how much you've impacted my life because you're like what introduced me to cbd i used to smoke weed every single day and I was so dependent on it I would have to smoke every night before I went to sleep I would smoke before social situations I had so much anxiety all the time and CBD has literally been like a godsend to getting me to a place where I don't need weed and I don't even like I don't know I don't get the cravings anymore I don't get the urges um

It's really cool. Yeah. I don't know. Just wanted to shout you out and say thank you for that and that you've impacted my life so much. And I appreciate you so much for that. And I hope you have an amazing day, an amazing 420, babe. Cheers, cutie. Thank you for sharing the wonders of CBD with everybody. I know like I repeatedly say it, but I appreciate when other people are like no no trust me it works because as somebody who you know i have an addictive personality um cold turkey does not work well for me i go mentally fucking insane because when i throw myself out of routine whether it's a good routine or bad routine i feel off we as human beings our brain is so set on routine it's so important so if you can supplement with something that's

healthier it's a fantastic way to divulge that craving while also allowing yourself to satisfy you know a little part of yourself so I love that that has helped you so much yeah I love CBD it has been a godsend when it comes to my daily smoking habits and I love that it's helped you as well someone asked do I have any piercing healing tips they just got their belly pierced which i am i think i really want to get my belly button pierced but it's gonna have to be further into the summer because i'm going to mexico and i want to be able to get into the water without getting super infected um but when it comes to any sort of open wound healing like when i got my nipples pierced just don't touch them the best thing you can really do is just leave it

alone your body knows what it's doing all right your body knows how to handle and take care of wounds now i'm not saying that means neglect yourself um but general light simple washing don't be in there twisting and turn it around all crazy don't be pulling it if it's on like if you get your nipples pierced or like your belly button pierced make sure with towels to be very careful when it comes to drying off that area even if you use a loofah like i use a loofah my nipple rings get snagged in it all the time and luckily they're healed so like it doesn't hurt um but i can only imagine the pain of what that would feel like if they weren't healed so be very very gentle very very careful and also understand it's going to take time that uh piercing is not going to heal

within the span of like a week like maybe but like you gotta give your body ample time to really really take care of itself and make sure it's healed like my nipples took two years i know that sounds fucking insane but if you think about it they're like on a piece of skin that gets manipulated a lot like when you get cold your nipples get hard and then you know you the wounds break open but it takes a little bit longer because it's a it's an interesting place um my friends with belly button piercings though have said they've healed pretty well and pretty fast um but understand it takes time it takes patience and your body genuinely knows what it's doing so trust in that simple light care is really all you can do for yourself make sure

you're eating healthy make sure you're bathing but that's it and i love it i'm so excited to get my belly button pierced i have been thinking about it forever i think it's going to be the cutest little summer accessory so i'll be following you soon love you someone asked what's your opinion on edibles i personally me and edibles have a love-hate relationship i cannot lie we are either fighting or we're getting along and there's no in between now in high school although you know we'd go for a little smoke and drive sessions which are kind of the peak high school experience for me was when we would all pile into my friend's car have a little bowl go flying down the back roads and not that I condone this I just am looking back on you know the fun I had and we

would all just like share a bowl and giggle and listen to some good music with your girls like what's better than that um but when I wasn't doing that I was eating edibles and I had a fair share of edibles just completely take me on a ride that I did not sign up for nor wanted to take nor was prepared to take um and the thing about edibles is you have to be careful like with smoking you know you can you can understand okay I need like one hit and I'm good but quality control when it comes to edibles is hard um and dosage is also a little hard and so I've had you know a few times I think we all have when it comes to edibles you know like oh I can handle this and then we eat it or it's like oh it's not kicking in and you eat more and then it's just

like a hot hot mess like i've literally blacked out off of edibles before which has never happened to me when it comes to weed but like my brain got so overwhelmed that i was like i'm just gonna go to bed i'm gonna we're we're clocking out you know i i gotta lay down i talked about that one time i ate a whole pan now listen don't eat a whole pan of brownies of course things are gonna go bad um like i ate like eight of them when you were supposed to take one split it into fourths it was after my grandma's death i was going through some things anyways i ate that and then immediately like the walls started spinning i couldn't stand up straight um i literally was hallucinating that I was standing up taking out my contacts like preparing for bed when in reality

I was laying flat in my bed taking them out and putting them onto the pillow next to me but in my head I was literally standing at the bathroom sink crazy so when it comes to those just be careful and always understand that less is more but now when it comes to the love relationship that i have with them um as someone who has been smoking for a long time my lungs are starting to take a little bit of a toll you know like it it's you're inhaling a thing that is you know smoking it's not going to be great for your lungs obviously we all have to understand that um and so i do think edibles are a fantastic option when it comes to people who maybe have asthma um irritable lungs and want to stay healthy like my dad is a health king and he loves

edibles um just because you know you're not putting your lungs at risk so i personally have been leaning into into them a little bit more especially because we have dispensaries open and i can go find a quality controlled brand that is not just someone cooking them out of their kitchen although I love supporting small businesses I need a little bit of quality control and understand you know how much I'm actually getting myself into oh my god what is happening sorry someone was banging around on my door I think someone's moving in down the hall but anyways um yeah I just really love them for the health aspect of maybe I don't want to put my lungs through it today let me munch on something that's like cute gummy mango flavored come on now what's better than that

but yeah love edibles but also be careful they do like to bite back someone asked if i have any fun summer plans or vacations or wrecks because i want to have a fun summer and yes i actually have a lot coming up i've realized as an adult the more you plan for yourself the more fun life is i used to live life on a whim which like is fun when you're young and yes you should take those opportunities that present themselves that are very last minute or very impulsive sometimes but also when you find life being boring maybe it's because you didn't plan enough and that's something that I've run into a lot. I've kind of had a hibernation year this 23rd year of mine and I'm very excited going into my 24th year which my birthday will be on June 1st and I'm really trying to plan and be

active within my life so then I have more fun things going on and it's very easy to plan things for yourself like one I'm going to see Kali Uchis in Denver I'm very excited that's coming up in less than a month very soon I'm also moving soon so I'm going to be decorating and you know finding a new place and really making a home a home um i'm also going to be spending my birthday in mexico i really really wanted to wake up on a beach for my birthday um and mexico seemed like a fun place so we're going to a small little surf town um and i'm going to be spending a week there so fucking excited for that so not only going to colorado uh in the month of may but i'm also going to Mexico in the month of May June I'm going to take it chill and I'm going to spend it

at home I'm going to be getting outside a lot once again one of my favorite places to go locally for me is to the river so I'm going to be spending a lot of time there getting out in nature I want to do some videos some pod videos of me just hanging out answering your questions in nature kind of a sesh vibe energy you know what I mean um and then I'm hopefully going to get to LA again towards the end of the summer but really really while I'm here and before I move out of my hometown taking advantage of what I have here that maybe I have thought was cheesy or corny or I really haven't taken advantage of like maybe going to a little baseball game or going to the aquarium getting outside taking advantage of the natural resources the earth offers to us while

also integrating fun little vacations here and there um that i've planned for myself and yeah love denver it's like 10 hours away from kc so we're just gonna drive out there for a little weekend trip i'm gonna dance my ass off to callie for a second i was like is my outfit a little too much but like it's callie ooshies come on like she's incredible she's always going all out so like of course i have to go all out for my girly um and also she is a artist that me and my boyfriend really really love and have loved since a young age um one of you guys asked me what is some good music of hers to get into if you're a new kelly uchis fan one of you guys dm me and was like her music is making me ascend i need more i need more on youtube listen to her drunken babble

album um and i think it's also on soundcloud uh but youtube and soundcloud drunken babble first album of hers that i really really fell in love with um i think it is basically like an ep of hers but fan fucking tastic so good her most recent album was also like very lovey emotional vibes which i have been loving so i'm very excited to see her live for the first time and hopefully go to more concerts as well a lot of the concerts i go to are very last minute this has been a planned out one because you know you gotta fight for those tickets um and i'll probably end up at a festival but music is very much a last minute indulgence for me um and yeah i have a few trips planned out but you know if you really plan for your life you'd be surprised how fun you

can have and it's important for you to look forward and set up things for you in the future that you have to look forward to because when you're sitting around and you're thinking about the future and you don't really know what's going on it gives you some anxiety and also when it's like well is the future gonna really be fun and as an adult you have to make those opportunities for yourself and plan those things for yourself in order for the future to be exciting and in order to kind of have some motivation for your everyday life you know when I'm like getting ready for work and I really don't want to go spend eight hours at work I'm like listen but I'm gonna be partying up with Kelly and I'm gonna be in Mexico so let's just work our ass off and make it worth it you

know what I mean? It's fun. Make some plans for yourself. Enjoy the future a little bit. Hi, Hannah. Sorry if it's loud or windy. I'm on a walk right now. Okay, so I smoked with my friend on the roof, like, I think two nights ago. But we smoked, and I totally forgot that for the new job that I just got, I have to, like, go get a drug test. So this is, like, my fourth time smoking. like I'm pretty new to it um so I don't know if I just need to like wait a week or so but I have to get it done pretty soon um and my friend was like we'll just use someone else's ear and like I don't want to do that so do you have any like tips on how to like flush flush it out of your system or something I don't know I'm just pretty nervous about that thank you love you bye so I had

a friend who was a d1 athlete in college and the thing with d1 athletes is there are random drug tests every once in a while i think it's like a couple times a semester and it's not for every student it's like a lottery based system so you know everybody's like oh it won't be me you know i can hit this i'll be fine why would they drug test me and then she got the email one night post-sash that she has to be in at 8 a.m for a mandatory drug test and basically what we did in order to get her settled which now like where I am drug tests they don't care if you smoke weed because it's legal like they just want to make sure you're not on like injectables of course like they don't want to make they want to make sure you're not like methed out that's mainly

what they're looking for um especially living in a legal state but back then when we were a little bit younger and also nervous um what we did is we like hopped in the car immediately went to walgreens got a bunch of those cheap drug tests even see if they would show up in her system bought some serto bought some gatorade bought a bunch of water and essentially what she did is she just she just chugged as much fucking fluids as she could to flush it out um and then also like double checked with a store test and the store test said she was clean but she made sure to chug enough fluids and the morning came around she took it and she she seemed to be okay um but yeah uh when it comes to weed the way it stays in your system is in your fat cells um so if you have

a fast metabolism your body might process it very quickly if you have a slower metabolism it might take a little bit but like a friend of mine is a heavy heavy heavy dabber and has a little bit of a slower metabolism and the longest it took her to get a clean test was a month so I don't think it takes as long as people assume it takes for weed to exit your system I think people think it stays in your system for years or months on end and it can depending on how hefty of a you know smoker you are but I think ultimately it moves pretty quickly through your system so keep walking keep hydrated take a little store test I think you'll be okay but yeah like I said most employers are just they just want to make sure you're not like methed out at work naturally

i get that but careful love you someone asked me um have you fucked on shrooms and if so is it worth it um yeah a lot actually um when me and my boyfriend were first kind of hanging out with each other all we would do which i don't recommend but we were a little out of it you know we both going through it a little bit we were you know whatever we we are where we are now from this but we would basically get together eat mushrooms and have sex for like eight hours like it was insane me and him talk about it all the time like we used to have a lot of sex like i'm talking my pussy would be bruised afterwards because what what happens with mushrooms is of course it's going to release some serotonin it's going to make you feel

connected to everything and anything around you but also it makes orgasming kind of crazy like listen if you're gonna have sex on any substance i think weed is enough like you don't need any more than that honestly but i think mushrooms are pretty safe to have sex on if you have had experience with them and also you're with somebody you trust because i think it really built a fantastic bonding experience for us not only were we like incredibly horny for each other but also we would like have sex and then talk for three hours and then have sex and then talk and you know it really broke down those vulnerable barriers that people keep up for a while immediately it broke them down immediately um but also mushrooms something about sex that

is not so great is and this is funny um you know we you're not supposed to eat them after you've eaten food like directly after you've eaten food you want to eat like two hours before because essentially it's going to give you food poisoning that's what mushrooms are um and if you eat them while food is still in your stomach in your system processing it makes you feel a little sicker than you already do on the come up because it's such a change in your brain chemistry um that you're gonna feel a little woozy but if you have food processing in your stomach it makes you feel nauseous as if you're gonna throw up you're probably not you're probably gonna be fine it's something you just have to work through and it'll go away i promise um but one time

actually the time where me and him took like 10 grams fucking crazy don't recommend um we you know we ate that we ate some mac and cheese and then we were fucking and I was in like doggy style I they hit me so hard that I was just face down on the pillow just like oh my god working through it and he was behind me also working through it but both of our stomachs were like twisting and turning and luckily we have a good connection that like this didn't hurt my feelings like I wasn't like is it me like I was going through the same thing so I knew it was the mushrooms but he was like oh my god I think I'm gonna throw up like if I was sober in that situation and I was gonna hit it from the back and someone goes I'm gonna throw up I'm gonna be like

oh my god I'm never seeing them again like they hate me so much or I'm so disgusting that they're gonna throw up from black from back shots like are you kidding me but no no no it was just the mushrooms and he didn't want to throw up all over me because like how awful would that be not only for him but also me tripping balls um he did not throw up it was just a little woozy but yeah that was a little too much so it's just a fine balance if you're gonna have sex on any substance i think weed is a perfect thing to break down barriers to really build connection um and to get your senses heightened a little bit so you know you have a little bit more fun a little bit of a bigger o um but yeah mushrooms and sex can be fun but also it can be a little bit of a dangerous

game fantastic question someone asked um how to help those in prison for weed so this is a group that i have worked with before that companies that i love have worked with before and fantastic overall group to donate your time money support um energy towards they're called the last prisoner project i know you guys have heard me talk about them but they are a national non-partisan non-profit dedicated to cannabis criminal justice reform so through legal intervention constituent support advocacy campaigns and policy change they say they aim to release every last cannabis prisoner as well as to repair the harms of this discriminatory and counterproductive crusade so their website is lastprisonerproject.org fantastic fantastic overall group 10 out of 10

recommend supporting them donating your time energy money if you have it to them absolutely hi Hannah love you in the pod oh so very much I probably shouldn't be recording this right now because I'm literally about to be late for work but whatever okay so a little bit of backstory um I recently started seeing this guy pretty casually because I'm not really in the mindset for like a serious relationship right now and um not to be tmi but we had sex for the second time last week and i didn't realize it until the second time because i didn't even look at his dick or anything the first time because me first you know what i mean the girls are gonna get it um munches only anyways i didn't even realize until the second time we had sex that he's uncircumcised

which you know nothing on that but i've never been with somebody who's uncircumcised before as far as like going down on somebody i know it's a little different because they feel things a little differently with the foreskin than anything so i was wondering if you had ever been with someone who's uncircumcised and if you had any tips or tricks or anything like that um yeah thank you so much girly love you love you love you okay i wish i had more tips and tricks but i don't i have never been with a uncircumcised penis although if you didn't notice the first time like i think you can make do you know like i don't think there's anything wrong with that um if you are ever in a situation where you are unsure but you still want to pleasure your partner

you seem to like them you want to make sure they're having a good time too a fantastic way to approach situations where you're a little unsure of especially sexual situations is to simply talk about it okay so like if you're a little afraid of like how to handle it how to go down on him whatever it may be ask i don't think he's going to be embarrassed by it considering it's his dick and it's about to go inside you and like that's exciting and fun um you know what i mean so i would say just like ask or like when you are giving be like do you like this how do you like this do you like the way i do this um but i'm pretty sure like all dicks are very similar like they like to be sucked they like to be inside you they like to be licked they like to be kissed

whatever it may be like all of that's gonna feel good no matter what um but yeah i've never i've never been with an uncircumcised man so 10 out of 10 recommend conversating hey love your penis what do you like you know what i mean it seems it seems a little silly but also like if they're a mature person who's looking to have a good sexual situation and like enjoy sex and do it maturely um they should be able to have those conversations very easily and answer your questions do you know what i mean but yeah i think bring it up be like hey what do you like in bed what are your turn-ons how how do you like to be touched i feel like those are very um simple questions that anybody can ask their partner whether circumcised or not and i really recommend

doing so but you got this i believe in you just have some fun be a little vulnerable and yeah don't be afraid to ask a question or two someone asked what are my favorite go-to smoking accessories slash smoking items slash strains and i'm going to get more into that to the video episode i want to do a little haul from the dispo um but when it comes to companies brands things that i'm using every single day let's dive into it first of all um my lighter case obsessed we can move on from that though um I also have been religiously using um my grinder for my last drop which I'm hoping to do more grinders coming up soon um stay tuned for a bunch of fun things like I said um but blazy susan also has a fantastic grinder i like preferably a four compartment grinder

so not only does it have the mesh screen but it also has a catcher for the keef and all that like a bigger one about two inches ideally when it comes to pieces that i'm smoking out of i swear by canna style i love them they are fantastic they have some very quality heavy duty amazing pieces that will last me a fucking lifetime as long as you take care of them also um paper wise blazy susan all the fucking way that is really the only paper i smoke what is better than like a pink joint a pink cone let's be fucking real and then another um very simple company that i've been obsessed with they they have not only cones which taste amazing because they're banana leaf cones like they're sweet it's fucking incredible um but it's by this company

named bloomer and they make wildflower blooming filter tips so it's beeswax tips with wildflower seeds in them so instead of just pitching your um filter another piece of trash on the ground these are biodegradable um if you plant them they will bloom um wildflowers they're non-invasive also um and the papers are 100% organic non-gmo chemical additive free sustainably sourced caribbean banana leaves sun-dried cured for 44 days and hand rolled the uh bloomer tips the beeswax tips are 100% organic vegetarian wax blend with non-invasive native wildflower seeds so they have been very very fun for the springtime super cute a very fantastic gift to give your girlies as like a little stocking stuffer as a little springtime thing and then once again when

it comes to CBD Paz Pax has been an incredible company to work with I love their gummies they have these amazing um uh cbd and thc sour watermelon gummies they're completely vegan they're fucking incredible it's like a 30 count um so which is like an incredible quality for the amount of or quantity for what you pay they also have flour they have carts literally any way you like to indulge go for it they also have pre-roll packs that i think are fantastic and fucking adorable their packaging their thought process you can really tell that they put their all into it but those are all kind of my favorite go-to smoking related products items companies uh that I have been indulging in recently hi Hannah I love you I love the podcast I've been here since like

last September so yes I love you very much anyways I need some advice um I have not always been like this I don't know what happened to me I've like lost my sparkle or something but whenever I'm alone like on a day I don't have to work and this has become more apparent because I just had my schedule switched to three 12-hour shifts a week so I have four days off a week but I literally feel like an unintended sim like I'm tired of watching tv and on days I don't work I just I don't know what to do with myself I want to go outside but I don't like people looking at me um just please help what do i do how do i get my sparkle back i have so much creativity in my head i just don't know what to do with it love you oh baby your sparkle is there it's there i promise

you didn't lose it um you're probably just bored and that is a-okay when we get into routines and we grow up and we get a little older and we do the same thing over and over and over again we're gonna get just slightly bored of whatever's happening. And that's okay. That's a normal part of life, all right? It doesn't mean there's something wrong with you. It doesn't mean you're going crazy. It doesn't mean you're losing your sparkle. You just need some fun things to entertain you. Yeah, like I said, you just need some activities that you can plan for yourself. They don't always have to be like, go outside, go to a bar, go, you know, if you don't like being seen by people or you maybe are more of like a hermit mode recently and you're trying to honor

that have fun things that you can do inside um so maybe it's like painting you're gonna paint for a day or you're gonna sew or you're gonna draw or maybe you're gonna rearrange your house um maybe it's oh i haven't dove into this really good book yet and i've been meaning to um but it's really all about taking advantage of those days uh that you have off and having something to look forward to um if you just wake up on your days off and you're like well i don't know what the fuck i'm gonna do for me personally when i approach my days off that way i will just sit in bed all day every single day like i am such a hermit and i love my bed and it's fantastic but also you know we gotta have some more things going on for us um so I do like to just plan little things

for myself maybe it's meeting up with a new friend too maybe it's someone you haven't reached out to in a while and you're curious what they've been up to maybe it's a new store you've been meaning to check out maybe it's springtime and you want to take up um like going to a community garden that's around you and growing plants. There are so many community gardens in my area. There's one by my new apartment that I'm really looking forward to and hoping to get a little plot so I can just go spend some time in there and plant some fun things, grow my own veggies, grow my own food, grow some flowers maybe. And that's kind of out of the line of sight of people. I've realized community gardens are kind of like a oasis and I rarely ever see people there um doing work

it's always just like a few people at a time it's very secluded so if you don't want to you know be out and about that's a great option as well but there are things out there just ask yourself like hmm if I was the metaphorical best version of myself what would she be doing right now and through that idea you'll probably come up with a few things that truly in your heart you've been wanting and meaning to do it's all about taking advantage of that idea and putting it into use and actually doing those things but the world is full of so many different opportunities and so many different things around you that you can possibly do to just make your life a little less boring because I get it routine is good yes a structured routine is good but we also need things

inside of that routine that keep us on our toes and keep us excited for the next day. So come up with a few of those things. I promise you'll figure it out. You did not lose your sparkle. Boredom is normal. I get it. I've been that way for the past week. I'm like, I'm gonna sit in bed and just watch TV. And it's good to honor that when you feel that. But I also understand when it's like, okay, I'm over it. We got to get up, we got to go on a walk, we got to go to a coffee shop we gotta do some journaling whatever it may be do that I promise you'll feel so much better love you someone asked what is your most recent epiphany um I think recently it's that life is supposed to be fun um you have to make time for yourself in order for life to be a little fun

but also you have to make time for the universe to deliver those things to you to trust in yourself to honor yourself to understand that you need to live in the present if you live in the future or the past you will never be experiencing truly what is fully in front of you um and to take pride in the little things as much as you take pride in the big things i think those are my biggest most recent epiphanies um i think we get caught up in how hard and overwhelming life can be when in reality there are so many little tiny blessings planted around us every single day that if we just took a moment to escape from whatever hell we're living in from the past or escape from whatever things we are looking at in the future and just take a moment to sit

now in the present and look around us there are so many things we can give thanks for or be appreciative of um and we really just need to take time to live in the now and to honor those things and to take note of them when we see them um i love a gratitude journal but also just being mindful to connect myself to my every day to have something to look forward to to give thanks for the things around me to give thanks for myself i feel like those are such key important things to include in your everyday life um and have been a very big epiphany for me especially as someone who's been kind of running for a while and hasn't been living in the present um or giving as much things as I can I feel like this new springtime change has really taught me to pause to appreciate

and to meditate on it a little bit you know what I mean I feel like it's such a real question and thank you for submitting it because a lot of us are going to connect with this but someone said how to not feel like a stupid girl after i smoke every single time recently i tell myself i'm dumb felt you ever have that moment where you're like you know you have a few uh stories on your instagram or you just posted something or you just took a photo or you're simply just sitting and existing and then you smoke and then you're like over analyzing yourself to the point where you're like you're like oh like it's just a hot mess do you know what i mean you're like way too over analytical with yourself to the point where you get the ick and then you're like oh no this

is this is not good been there absolutely the thing with weed is it's gonna make you hyper focused while also slightly dissociative that's kind of the point of it all it's also gonna heighten your awareness um and heighten your senses a little bit so yeah if you're sitting there at post smoke just like overthinking about yourself it's not gonna be good same way as like sitting post smoke on your phone staring at your instagram is not gonna be very good for you especially if you are a person who has more of an anxious personality so i really really recommend if you're the kind of person who's like oh my god i smoke and then i overanalyze myself and then i start beating myself up have something to do after you smoke whether it's a i smoke and then i sit

down to paint or i smoke and then i put on a podcast and then i you know read a book or it's i smoke and then i go on a walk and i listen to my favorite music or it's i smoke and then i reorganize my closet i think it's very important for people with anxiety who do like to partake but also like find themselves slipping into a negative mindset um is to understand that your brain is going to want to go down a little bit of a rabbit hole but you have to allow it a rabbit hole to go down so maybe that rabbit hole is like oh my god i'm gonna deep clean my entire house maybe it's i'm gonna go on a wikipedia rampage over this one little idea that i have and i want to learn everything about it or maybe it's i want to paint a whole entire painting in the span of

30 minutes um whatever it is you have to allow your brain a rabbit hole to go down you have to kind of control your brain a little bit in a sense even though it's a little uncontrollable and it's going to be a little chaotic if you're a person who over analyzes yourself stop allowing yourself the time to analyze yourself and have something to do as a distraction does that make sense because i get that sometimes i sit there and i beat myself up and it's simply because i'm bored and I have nothing else to do and so internally my brain just turns towards myself because I'm just having a conversation with myself in my head and then I start overthinking and over analyzing and then I become the dumb stoner girl like you said um so have something your brain can do

in order to have a productive way to push your brain into a more interesting category of thought does that make sense i hope that makes some sort of sense but yeah i feel like it's a very normal routine especially if you are just bored your mind's gonna wander and if you don't want it to wander down that path you gotta have a distraction and know the distraction can't be your phone i know i know i know you want it to be your phone it could be a silly little video could be a movie could be music it can be a podcast but don't let it be just like scrolling on social media okay because that also i think in turn fires up the over analyzing when you're looking at other people when you're like comparing yourself to other people there's ways social

medias can be um you know inspiring like i think pinterest is and tumblr um but if you find yourself also thinking social media is a negative when you smoke the same way you think you know comparing yourself or like over analyzing yourself as a negative have a distraction have a rabbit hole for your brain okay oh i love this one and this is actually one of my favorite topics to touch on and is one that i've touched on ever since my entrance to social media but someone asked how to be more confident um and this is something that i've debated with myself a lot that I've asked myself a lot that I have ebbed and flowed with of course um and through my time as a human being confidence I can tell you it doesn't come from appearance it doesn't come from

money it doesn't come from any of these societal standards that people place on confidence confidence comes from your relationship within yourself one million percent when my relationship with myself is on edge i'm over analyzing myself i'm hating on myself the self-depreciating is real and a little too much my confidence is at a low when i feel unconnected to myself i feel like i'm not uplifting myself i feel like i'm not trusting in myself or listening to myself my confidence is at its lowest when my confidence is at its highest is when i'm my own best friend when i'm listening to myself when i'm supporting myself when i'm not letting others get in my head when I am truly listening to my wants and needs when I'm showing up for myself when I'm listening

to those boundaries when I'm dressing for myself when I'm cooking food that makes me feel good or allowing myself cravings or whatever it may be confidence comes from solely your relationship with yourself and if you're somebody sitting here like oh I can never be confident because I don't have a good relationship with myself that's not true listen I have been in such a low point in my life where I thought like this is never getting better I hate myself me and myself were so disconnected and I wanted to get rid of myself and it was awful it was a very horrible point in time with myself and it took a lot of time of me learning to trust myself again and learning that I'm not inherently bad and that I'm deserving of love and in order to feel deserving of love I

have to show myself that love and it took time but that was like five years ago okay that sounds like a lot i get it it does um but if you take the time and energy to put in work on yourself on your relationship with yourself to support yourself to uplift yourself that confidence will naturally flow with it okay and you will naturally radiate that energy to everyone around you one million percent and the best ultimate way to kind of uplift that confidence and to make that relationship with yourself healthy is to become your own best friend i know listen friends get in fights friends have falling outs i hear you i get it but it's all about working through those things and refusing to abandon yourself a friend never abandons another friend sure we need

time away we need space whatever it may be i get that but they never abandon each other a true friend they will never abandon another whenever they call on each other and they need help that person will show up immediately okay you have to be there for yourself you have to show up for yourself you have to support yourself not only the big things but the little things as well the small wins you have to take time to celebrate them um you need to listen to those gut instincts you need to listen to you know the little voice in your head even if it's like you know a little weird or odd you have to listen to it and give honor to it like sometimes i used to think that my old or my interests were like weird like i thought i was a weird person it's like yeah i

am a weird person we're all weird people like sure I collect like framed bugs and I'm a little witchy and you know I love the color pink and some people may find that weird but I have to be the one person who sits with myself and says no that's not weird and I love myself fully and I am allowing space for me to be myself every single day some people may find my outfits weird or the way I speak or the way I act and that's fine but I need to be there for myself to say I love you and I'm holding space for you to be your truly authentic self and i'm not going to judge you for it um and if i do i'm going to redirect that thought pattern okay very quickly with some affirmations with some you know positive compliments whatever it may be but you really really have to show up for yourself

and be your own best friend and in turn that confidence will follow suit one million percent okay and it's practice every single day when you wake up that's your practice okay showing up for yourself redirecting negative thoughts giving thanks giving gratitude taking yourself on dates supporting yourself showing up for yourself um investing in those weird hobbies you have listening to your inner child and inner teen asking them what they want asking yourself what you want for the future and going after it wholeheartedly that's how you become your own best friend that's how you garner confidence that's how you radiate it to the world all right trust me in my years of experience even though it hasn't been long going from negative a thousand how I felt

about myself to positive a thousand the one thing that made the key difference was me standing by my side and refusing to let myself hate myself anymore and showing up for myself and once again being my own best friend that's how I garnered the most confidence ever and you can too if I did it I'm living testimony that you can be your own best friend you will get there I promise you okay I love you anyways I think that's pretty much it for a 420 episode oh my god I have had a blast I hope you guys are having a fantastic fucking day thank you for sticking with me standing with me hanging out with me every single fucking week not only am I uploading this podcast but i will be uploading a video episode a like cute little q a 30 minute 420 video episode

on spotify so look out for that it is literally just me sitting in bed chit-chatting with you guys it's very cute i'm very excited wanted to put out some extra content for you guys remember to follow me on instagram at hannah marlene for any sort of podcast updates pictures memes you know all my favorite music random things that i like to share on there that's my go-to platform but i love you guys take a rip for me take a hit for me if you're a non smoker um i'm blowing you a little forehead kiss i love you and have a fantastic rest of your fucking week i will see you so very soon