Smoke Sesh - happier, hotter & higher than ever

Episode Date: April 16, 2024

Hello hotties! Happy Tuesday im so excited to be back with you all for an extra special lil 420 smoke with me celebration! I know it's a little early but it's fun to celebrate anyways! Join the party as I take a hit in-between each question and go over everything on your mind! We chat what ive been up to and staying busy this spring, finding joy in the little things of life, I get into my favorite ways to smoke ranked and finally spill on my favorite strain (what's yours? would love to know!) we talk protecting your peace and what happens when you go to far with it, opening up to connection and heartbreak, moving for a man and making peace with your unlived lives, career pivots and bringing positive energy into your path, FOMO, how to handle, Coachella recap, and making sure youre not missing out on life, nipple piercings and how they changed my life, favorite stoner activities, how to turn down a man, sex and exchanging energies, big sis advice to leave that man! hippies, heels, what's your purpose in life, pipes, mercury retrograde, getting outside, please breakup with your lame BF, and much much much much more fun! I hope you enjoyed this little celebratory episode and can't wait to see you all again next week! If you want to see more from me follow me on instagram @hannahmarlene for outfit and lifestyle inspo, the pattern at patreon.com/smokeseshshawty ill be posting lots of extra content there this week and finally don't miss the 420 VLOG on YouTube! Youtube.com/hannahmarlene LOVE YOU! stay sexy, see you soon, MUAH!

Listen, everybody needs a fairy godmother, you know, just somebody to look out for them. Some people call me their fairy smoke mother, others their internet big sister, but you can call me Hannah, the host of Smoke Sash, so come hang out, let's light up and talk everything there is to life, the good, the bad, the ugly, the embarrassing, I've got a story for it all. good morning hotties welcome back to another beautiful amazing wonderful episode of smoke sesh my name is hannah your host also kind of giving camp counselor today so consider me your guidance counselor for the day um i'm so excited to be back with you guys in this beautiful

little tuesday afternoon today is our celebratory 420 episode i know we're a little early but as you know a professional smoker dare i say 420 can be celebrated every day you know what i mean 420 you know you can celebrate on the day but the real professionals know you can honor and love it every single possible day and that's what this podcast is all about. So we have some fun things coming up. I have a lot planned for you guys. I have been booked and busy trying to make sure this week is jam-packed with so many fun things and just activities and making sure that this podcast is going to be super fun for you all. Whether you're celebrating on 420 with me or a little bit early, we're going to have fun either fucking way. Today what I have planned for you

guys is you know those youtube videos where it's like doing my makeup and tank taking a hit in between every single time i do my makeup that's what i'm gonna do except for it's gonna be questions i'm not doing my makeup obviously i'm full glammed up right now so between questions i'm gonna take a hit you can smoke with me consider it a little you know bonding experience for us all but it's gonna be a fun silly goofy time and i am so excited for that but i hope you had a wonderful weekend I hope you enjoyed the last podcast episode um I have been once again so busy but also if I'm not busy then I'm alone with my thoughts and that's even scarier like I would rather just constantly be running around doing something than to be left alone well I like

being left alone but I cannot just sit I cannot just not do anything my brain does not allow that to happen thank you ADHD thank you um so I have just been work work working I've been working on my other job kind of over time a little bit making all that shmoney getting all your orders shipped out to you guys thank you so much for supporting me i love you all so much so many fun new things coming for you all um i will also be posting a 420 vlog on the youtube channel um some of you guys watch this on the youtube some of you on the youtube i sound actually 80 um some people are like a 23 year old teenager i'm a 23 year old 80 year old you know what i mean anyways most most of you guys watch this on spotify which love love all my listeners no matter where you come from

so so so much um but it will be on my youtube channel and i believe my youtube channel is smoke says shoddy so stay tuned for a little 420 vlog um i'll be filming that this week and then i'll be doing a special smoke with me episode on the patreon on thursday and posting so many fun recipes and reels and outfits on instagram you know the fucking drill this is my holiday season and best believe i will be going all out for you guys um i know every time i start this podcast i'm like it's spring you guys it's spring are you kidding me it's spring i'm so excited i have so much of a renewal for life again and honestly it's only been like 50 degrees but this past weekend it was like 80 90 so it was hot as hell out and i just got to celebrate the whole weekend outside

even if i was at work um we have a huge patio section so i'm outside running around in my little short shorts like having a good time chit chat with people yesterday i worked morning brunch which morning brunch is not for the week that's for fucking sure especially in the restaurant industry psa though if you're a girl who loves to just like chit chat and lie and eat join the restaurant industry okay this is the easiest job i've ever had in my entire life like as long as you're just like a little upbeat good on your feet fast thinker enjoy chit chatting with people you will succeed and you will make so much fucking money which is why i've been stuck in this industry for like four years it's like it's just oh i need two hundred dollars let me pick up a

four-hour shift do you know what i mean anyways um i just was serving and then i got off like around three which was really nice all my co-workers were like just starting to drink and like hat party they were like gonna party the rest of the day but i wanted to get out of the city i love the city so much i love living in the city as you guys know i live in kansas city and as you can tell from the fucking police sirens in the background of these episodes uh it's a busy fucking area like it is booked and busy out here cars flying around police flying around constantly just and i love that because i feel like as a person who is constantly on the move it's really nice for everybody else to be in the same kind of mindset as me so then I have that motivation to

get up and run around like if you're a busy person live in a busy area that's how you're going to keep your motivation but I was kind of feeling the burnout recently and I was like I want to get out to the country I grew up in the country well ish um I grew up like on the outskirts of a suburban city and then the country so like my backyard was like cornfields you know what I mean like Kansas girl okay Midwest princess vibes like I'm playing in the forest for fun I'm throwing rocks in the river for fun like are you kidding me um but I kind of wanted to tap back into that energy so I got off work yesterday and I was like okay boyfriend pack it up we're going out we're gonna go out hang out there's a some cute little wineries out there I was like let's

just go sit in nature get a bottle of wine chill let me put on a cute outfit maybe take some photos because I'm a girl who likes to look hot and have fun and what am I gonna show my grandkids to prove I was hot and sexy at this age other than photos so like let's go out let's take as many as possible let me put on a cute outfit let me feel myself a little bit let me sit in the sunshine maybe develop a little bit of a tan because your girl is so fucking pale um but yeah we just went out enjoyed we stopped by to see his family um and his niece which is really nice because i love being around kids to give you such a good perspective on life and it's like yeah no sometimes you don't need to think about all the stressors in life just like fucking sit on a swing and swing back and

forth and laugh a little when's the last time you were on a swing you're depressed go put your ass on a swing go swing okay that's a depression psa i understand depression is not going to be fixed by a swing but also find joys in the little things in life go sit on a fucking swing i was like wow this is a great time it really doesn't cost money to have fun girl put me on a swing at sunset on a hot summer night and i'm gonna be living life to my fucking fullest anyways did that and now i'm here hanging out with you guys enjoying my day um busy week this week but I think for the rest of the day I'm just gonna kind of deep clean decompress smoke with you guys and then me and my boyfriend are gonna go get a big lunch um I'm gonna go get some noodles because that's what I've

been craving and after a lot of hard work you gotta reward yourself some sort of way and with me I'm a very food driven animal so I will be going and munching especially after how much I'm gonna smoke on this episode anyways it's all i really have to catch you guys up on watch out for the youtube video join the patreon if you want all the extra content and follow me on instagram at hannah marlene to see all the fun little outfit posts i have coming up the reels the cooking with me so many fun things i've been posting non-stop on my instagram i know you guys are annoyed but i've been having a good time so come join have a good time with me with that being said let's smoke and let's get into all your questions this outfit truly is giving camp counselor though i wanted to

kind of dress the part so i was like let me bust out one of my best ebay finds for the audio listeners it's like this mustard yellow shirt and i've always been looking for a graphic with um or i'm always looking for vintage graphics with like weed paraphernalia you know what i mean like i love a vintage weed shirt i just feel like they're so funny in a sense but also like kind of hot um so this is a vintage 70s original this buds for you a screen printed t-shirt i got my urban outfitters little micro hot shorts calling it now hot shorts like the short short short shorts are going to be so fucking in this summer um my little green micro hot shorts and then it is hair oiling day pro tip you guys have seen my hair so many of you guys have been like girl

your hair looks so good thank you thank you i've been trying so hard i thank you for noticing i love you um but one of the things that has really made my hair so much healthier is like doing one day a week where i just douse it in oil specifically the bread hair oil um put it in some braids otherwise i don't braid it because i've found that well for my fine ass brittle ass hair I cannot braid my hair that often because simply putting a ponytail in it it's gonna snap but if it's oiled it has a little bit more elasticity and I'll oil it for like 12 hours all day if I can um just to make sure it's getting all the nutrients and moisturization that it possibly can so hair oiling day threw in some cute little bows I got these on urban

outfitters and call it an outfit we're good so we're gonna kick things off here with a little joints just because it's easier for me to talk and smoke rather than just like a whole bowl we'll get into the bowls later but this is one of my favorite ways to smoke um a lot of you guys ask me like oh what's your favorite way to smoke what's your favorite blend what's your favorite strain my favorite strain ever is called durban poison um it always always always fucks me up i remember the first time i smoked it me and my boyfriend we were in colorado okay pro tip if you want a man to fall in love with you go on vacation like within the first two months of meeting i love it it really is just like throwing yourselves to the wolves and it's like well if you can't get

along on a vacation then you definitely can't get along in real life like if you can't get along on a road trip you can't get along in real life so i love being a little manic pixie dream girl when i first met my boyfriend i was like we're going to colorado for your birthday let's go packed everything up went out there so fucking fun just find a cute little cheap airbnb in the middle of nowhere smoke some good weed have some good sex he'll fall in love with you trust um anyways i remember we went out there and he was like oh i love this strain this is like my brother's favorite strain let's buy this i was like okay you know i know nothing about fucking weed other than it gets me high and i enjoy it which is really all i need to know so sure let's get it we go home

it's his birthday right like we had some steak dinners whatever but like birthday birthday let's get fucking freaky you know it's nighttime hello what else are we gonna do so we sit down we smoke this durban poison together immediately i am like oh i can't move i'm going directly to bed like this shit put me to bed put my ass to sleep immediately and honestly that's kind of what i like out of my weed i love hybrid if i'm trying to like do something with my day or enjoy my day but like a sativa dominant or like an indica dominant has such a way of just knocking me out i need a hybrid of some sort in order to function like a normal human being well a semi-normal human being that's a little high um but yeah durban poison has always been my favorite and when i'm

smoking preferably i like to mix half cbd with um half thc you can buy cbd like predominant strains at a dispensary you don't necessarily have to like go to a CBD store they will have CBD predominant strains wherever you are looking especially at a dispensary um but for me personally since the weed is so strong now like bitch this is meth out here the way this has me fucking acting like the science behind it really has me fucked up um and I mean shout out but also I cannot handle that much all the time. I like to mix a little bit CBD with my THC just to make sure I'm not losing my mind fucking completely. And my favorite, favorite, favorite, favorite way to smoke is a joint, specifically a Blazy Susan joint, which I might roll here in a sec, just

because I love anything pink. And also the papers burn really, really nicely. But for now I have this i need to finish off so let's dive in i guess favorite ways to smoke like ranked would be joint underneath that bong specifically bong with ice in it there's this company i saw love a targeted ad like thank you for knowing me but also i'm a little scared there's this company that does like freezable bongs maybe i'll buy one and see how it goes and let you guys know but so joint bong preferably a cold one not a lukewarm water one i don't even know what would be in the middle i guess after that would be blunt i don't like a blunt though they make me break out if you smoke blunts your skin's gonna be bad i hate to say it especially if you have sensitive skin all that

like nicotine smoke plus the nicotine is going to make you break out um maybe a hemp wrap above that and then a blunt then we're getting to the bottom bottom tier then a pipe pipe is always going to be at the bottom simply because holy shit does that fucking hurt my throat okay wait let me let me reorganize there's so many different ways so we have joint bong we'll go hemp wrap and then we'll go pen like cart and then we'll go blunt and then we'll go pipe dabs are its own fucking thing that is its own world but that's my list someone said tourist season is coming up i'm a tourist thoughts what are the vibes so one of my best friends growing up was a tourist i love a tourist you guys are so fucking money motivated hanging out motivated chilling motivated very like

luxurious grounded solid understanding fun people and I love that energy especially as an air sign who's just chaos constantly I love a Taurus we're going me and my Taurus bestie are going on a vacation this summer and literally she's like I made the whole itinerary and here's all the information and this is what you need to do i'm like love that thank you thank you because i'm a control freak and when i don't need to be a control freak it's really nice not having to be so shout out to my tourist babes the vibes are enjoying life living luxuriously working hard making all that fucking money smoking weed growing into the best versions of ourselves possible and doing the best we can that's kind of the tourist season energy i love a joint but also

the worst thing is when you ash on yourself which happens pretty often for to me unfortunately someone said protected my peace so hard i have one friend left and she lives abroad sos i'm getting lonely here's the thing i feel like a lot of us see protecting our pieces oh i need to close myself off to the world I get kind of the protecting my peace I'm redirecting I'm really analyzing what my life is what's good what's bad what needs to change making those changes and then feeling lonely after that because your life is so much different now but you cannot close yourself off to the world and I feel like when people say I'm protecting my peace a lot of the times and I don't know if this is necessarily your situation this is just an overall PSA a lot of the times

and I've been this person you are afraid of getting hurt thus you close yourself off to the world but hurt is a process in life that brings emotion that brings experience that brings understanding and you have to sometimes go through bad things and make mistakes and make bad friends in order to have a new perspective to have new understanding or if you're protecting your peace constantly you will never be able to open yourself up and experience the joys and the heartbreak that life brings but in order to experience the joys you must experience the heartbreak as well so i mean protect your peace obviously i think it is very important especially if you come from a place of like uh people pleasing where you have a hard time putting yourself first i feel like the term

and the understanding of protecting your peace is like taking a the first step forward to finally uplift yourself and show up for yourself and making sure that you are taken care of the same way you take care of other people but also don't get stuck in that loop of well everybody's out to get me everybody's out to hurt me I don't want to open myself up because what if I get hurt I need to protect my peace I I want to live in this peace for forever because then it gets very lonely and then it gets very isolating so dare to put yourself out there dare to open yourself up to the world dare to make new experiences and meet new people and make new friendships even if they don't end up going the way you wanted to you will always always always be able to take something from that

under self understand yourself more in aspect to the world and the world around you and in turn your peace will grow okay it will turn from loneliness and isolation into actual peace and understanding about yourself in relation to the world around you so yes of course protect your peace stand up for yourself make sure you are capable of taking charge of your life but do not self-isolate it's a very dangerous path to fall down and also understand that with joy comes heartbreak but you cannot isolate yourself into one emotion the beautiful thing about life is being able to experience every single aspect of life every single aspect of emotion and sure that comes with good and bad but also you have to experience the bad to experience the good always

to have understanding of the good to have appreciation for the good so don't be afraid of the world and the world around you put yourself out there show up for yourself in that sort of way but also of course protect your peace i knew the past link wasn't working where it was the call-in link for a lot of you guys and i felt so bad so now i am only taking call-ins um through voice memo on my instagram dms do not dm my meme page i do not check those dms dm my main account instagram.com slash hannah marley okay let's get into it hey um i've been listening for forever and you guide my spirit and soul through so many things so thank you um so i did a weird thing and I moved to Ireland to be with my boyfriend because he's Irish so now I'm living in Ireland

and I don't know if I regret it or not because like I know you're not supposed to do things for boys and I don't know if I'm like missing out on things at home because all my friends are at home all my family's at home in America um but I have like a job here and everything and everything's fine I'm just like did I move here to be with him and now I'm like regretting it um and if I'm debating regretting it does that mean that I regret it um any help would be appreciated thanks oh this is an interesting one because it sounds like it sounds like you're doing good like it doesn't sound like you moved somewhere and then he broke up with you and now you're stuck in a country that you don't like it sounds like you're having

a good time where you are and you genuinely enjoy it but maybe you're having a little bit of that FOMO he talked about maybe you are fearing um missing out on a life that you could have lived but also like I don't think there's anything wrong of of course don't like do things for men but also I think you took an opportunity and ran with it and that in itself is impressive I love that you just said yes and you know what you'll try it out um if you're happy where you are and you've built a life where you where you are don't miss the life you are currently creating by looking back on a life that you're not living do you know what i mean don't miss the life that's actually in front of you by paying attention to some other detail whether it's past present future

simply put it's not existing and that's okay it's also okay to have these questions and to think about these things and to rationally think through the actions and decisions you're making and do those mental check-ins of am i happy here is this worth it and it sounds like you're doing that um but also if you're having a good time don't miss your life that's currently ahead of you because of this unlived life that you possibly could have had make peace with your unlived lives and move forward and enjoy the one you're currently in um now if your boyfriend is a piece of shit if he is not being accommodating if you hate the country if you are not enjoying the life you're currently living then sure maybe you know whoops we made the wrong decision but it was a learning

experience and bitch you gotta move to Ireland that's fucking crazy and amazing and you can always go back you have those people there you have your family you have stability and another place so you do have a backup plan at least but try and enjoy the plan that you're currently in um try and make the best of where you are right now and enjoy your life right now but also understand you do have that amazing support system and you do have something to fall back on if all this doesn't work out for you right now it just sounds like maybe you're doing that internal rational thinking of did i make the best choice am i truly having fun here unfortunately that's not an answer i can give you that's only an answer you can give yourself and i know you truly

understand what the answer is and what the best option is for you and i know you're smart enough to make that decision and to rationally think through it and understand pick the right answer um but i think either way you'll be good one way you're in a country a new country discovering new things new beautiful landscapes with somebody you love and you're building a life with them and that in itself is so gorgeous and beautiful or b you didn't like where you lived and that's okay but now you get to go back to everything that you remember all your friends and your family and you get a re-pick back up on that life either way but you'll get through it you'll figure out the best option i pinky pinky promise someone said thoughts on completely changing careers after 25

every single day is a new start to your life and every single day gives you a new opportunity to change and grow into the person you truly want to become so if you're in a place that you're just like not having a good time guess what today is a new opportunity to start having a good time tomorrow is a new opportunity to start having a good time the next day is a new opportunity to start having a good time but unless you stand up and make that change and see the difference you want to bring to your life it's not gonna happen i am so pro making a pivot in your life pivots are so important in your life especially in relation to like the universe and trust in yourself in the universe the universe will always see you trying something new you putting yourself

out there you taking a risk you making a pivot and it will always reward you every single time if you have trust and belief in yourself you have to bring that energy into you reach out bring that trust and belief in yourself make that hard career choice in turn since you're bringing that energy into yourself the universe is going to push that energy to you as well so you will have a windfall of success tenfold that's how it works in my opinion energy can be you know exchanged energy can be given taken um it's kind of like a physical thing in my brain so if you are pulling worry and stress and anxiety into your world the universe is going to see that as a yes we talked about this before the universe only understands yes the universe is going to see that as you saying yes

and push that into your life more but if you make a pivot and you're like but i believe in myself and i trust in myself and i know this is going to work and i am bringing peace joy love understanding to myself the universe is going to push that into you as well you have to make the first call though you cannot wait around for the universe to kind of take action of your life it will eventually and it will not be in a way that you want so you might as well make the first step yourself so then you are not left in a chaotic state because the universe always makes chaotic changes for you you might as well make a stable change yourself um we are the dictators of our own life choose to make the choices you want to make don't live for anybody else make that fucking career pivot you

will be successful no matter what you do stay passionate okay that joint was so yummy but it's time to switch it up a little bit um i brought out or i've broken out strawberry bong for us all as we move through some more questions so cheers you guys maybe I'll work through the tier list live with you guys joint bong what's next did I say pen next we'll try that next I'll have to hunt around my apartment I'm sure I have one somewhere um okay someone said do you have any 420 plans I'm kind of just spending all week celebrating 420 um simply because I will be booked and busy on 420 actually I think I talked about this last week but um I will be going to to visit my brother out of town um with my parents and I'm going

because it's my nephew's dance recital and listen I have so many 420s to celebrate but those little kids you only get so many years as them as like the little cute kids they are so you might as well go out show up celebrate every way you possibly can um especially like as an aunt that is my literal one job so I will be doing a little road trip to visit them I will be stuck in my in a car with my parents and their dog who is basically just my sister I guess um they were like oh we booked a hotel room with two beds for us so you can have a bed and then we'll sleep in the other bed and i was like you know what it's 420 i'm an adult now with adult money who can make adult choices i'm gonna book my own fucking hotel room you know like i want that bougie experience of

just like being alone in a hotel room on clean sheets in the hotel robe off an edible like that is all i'm looking forward to now where we're going i also went for college um so i lived there for a little bit probably like two years so i know the area pretty well which means i will be eating very well because there's a few restaurants out there that i have not been able to go to since i literally decided to walk out and pack my shit and quit college so i'm very excited to kind of be out there also get some family time um it's a little stressful being around your family but also if you make the best of it usually it'll go pretty well um luckily that day really is not about me so I just have to physically be there and show up and enjoy and then drag everybody

else to all the restaurants I want to go to and then kick it in my hotel room off a gummy that is exactly what I want to do on 420 um so I'm gonna make it happen for myself I've also kind of realized like a lot of my life I've been like oh I wish I would have oh I wish I would have I'm kind of feeling this way after lana chela the fomo i had this week actually listen the fomo i have every single time i see coachella going down and all the posts of course when like half the fucking world is at this one big music event you're gonna feel a little bit of fomo it's just you know it's catered directly to you the algorithms are pushing fomo to you because you're seeing all these amazing performances and these people having the best time of their lives

and listen I wish I was the influencer who's getting paid to do Molly at Coachella unfortunately I'm not maybe one day um but the thing is I saw that lineup I was like you know what it looks really good I love Lana I would rather just go see her on her own so I don't have to go fight the crowds and the lineup for me to go to a festival the lineup has to be at least like 50% of people I want to see. And that's a lot because I mean, the Coachella lineup is at least 200 plus performers. And when I looked at it, what, like six months ago when they finally released it, I was like, eh, love Lana, but you know, I'm okay. It's not something that I want to go spend thousands and thousands and thousands of dollars on. And sometimes as an adult, you got

to realize what the good choices are and what the bad choices are. But also I think as an adult, you need to realize when you want to make a decision and when you want to make something happen and make it fucking happen against all odds um I have a feeling this next year Coachella is going to be really really good the lineup is going to be amazing and I will probably send it Coachella is something I've always wanted to do since I was a kid it's something I have always really enjoyed and look forward to the style the art installations I would love to partner with an artist and like go out there and help set up that would be so fucking fun um I mean Coachella was an art festival before it was a big music festival so there are so many

great artists out there and installations and specifically interactive installations which I find very interesting um but yes as a person who's gone to many a festival I have to really like the lineup before I send it so as I was feeling that FOMO I was also thinking back to that time when I was seeing the lineup and debating going and I was like no I'm okay you have to remember that like no you made the choice you made the good choice don't let this unnecessary feeling take over your life you know I feel like FOMO can have some positive benefits from it such as taking advantage of life and really saying yes to those opportunities and just sending it no matter what but also it can really hinder you by making you feel lesser than and I feel like a lot

of people have FOMO around this time the spring summer all the spring break trips the Coachella the festivals the summer plans FOMO is like a real fucking thing that a lot of us are gonna have to deal with during this time I think like the best way to really beat that FOMO is of course take advantage of your life and make sure you're making opportunities happen for you if you want to go to that fucking music festival make it happen pick up those extra shifts grab an extra summer job get a few people to go with you so you're not splitting so you can split the cost with everybody but make it happen for yourself for the opportunities that you want to make it happen for because i'm sitting here watching coachella and i'm like well a thank god they

have a live stream that helps so incredibly much but also i have so many other fun things coming up so i don't feel like i'm missing out on life like sure that looks fun and i'm so happy everybody there had fun i'm so happy they had the time of their life like that is so incredible but also I know I'm going to be having the time of my life on these different vacations I have coming up that I did have planned for myself that I am excited for and sure they're not right now but they will happen and I will have a good time no matter what and I feel like really the best way to break FOMO is to make sure you still have like things lined up in your life that you can find joy in things that you are taking opportunity of that you are saying yes to you once again are the

dictator of your life you can make anything happen for yourself um i have had 200 in my bank account and i have road tripped for a week to vegas with my friends like go see our favorite um artists like you can make it happen all we had was like 200 in our bank account a car and a place to stay with my uncle that's it that's all we needed and guess what we fucking made it we had a great time and it was a great experience in my little 18 year old brain to be like okay no you can do that thing just because you know you're used to that mindset of a child where you're like i'm under my parents roof i can't you know go out and do all these things now you can now you're an adult now you can create the vacations create the experiences go to these places if you want to um it's gonna

take planning a little bit of budgeting some hard work but you can make it happen and after that road trip i got home and i had such a security and understanding in myself and life and i realized like you have to say yes to these opportunities if you truly want to you have to make it happen for yourself because that's what life's about it's not always going to be the easiest thing but those experiences really can have great learning moments and um just wonderful human connection moments earth connection moments that are going to change the trajectory of your life forever so great way to beat FOMO a say yes to the things you want to say yes to say no to the things you want to say no to understand you can find inspiration from it and take that wanting

to be there and put it into something else that maybe is more on brand for you and more something that you're actually going to enjoy rather than something that the masses enjoy um take advantage of life say yes to the opportunities you want to say yes to and make plans for yourself you know make sure you have things that you're like living for when i found myself having a hard time in life it was because I was living the same day over and over and over and over again and I had no plan for tomorrow that's gonna make life really hard it's gonna make those days seem so much longer but when you have something coming up like a trip or an experience this doesn't have to be big I'm not saying drop a couple grand but like even if it's just like I love to go to the sauna I love

to plan like one day out of the month where I go to this 20 bucks for an hour and I go to the sauna and I just close my eyes and I sweat it out and just enjoy my life like it doesn't have to be big it can be so very small but as long as you have something planned and coming up you will be living your life for something rather than living your life for the excuse of just living and listen living can be great props to you but also I understand when those days start to feel long because you have nothing to look forward to so have something to look forward to seek joy in life find inspiration plan for yourself create the life you want to live you can do anything if you stand by yourself and believe and work really fucking hard that's

also something i had to learn work hard play hard okay important part of the sesh hydration time one of my friends growing up she was always like the water bottle friend she was always the friend who like had a bottle of ice cold water on her at all times and that is the exact friend you want to be at the sesh whether you're smoking or not if you're the friend with the ice cold water bottle i'm falling in love with you i'm sorry it's just bound to happen anyways cheers stay hydrated bitches i actually just ordered a new water bottle i the perfect water bottle to have is hydro flask with a straw top water bottle lid this is also how i broke my vaping addiction was this water bottle right here um because it's the straw is shaped like a fucking vape and if it's full of

ice cold water it kind of hits your brain the same way nicotine does not necessarily but also kind of it's a great little placebo effect 10 out of 10 recommend this bowl is not just a regular bowl this is a keef bowl um if you're trying to get fucked up keef bowl is where it's at also i love it when you have a cute little grinder and you like forget that there it creates keef and then you check your keef catcher and you're like whoa i've it struck gold the best feeling ever anyways cheers crossfaded on that iced coffee bong hit vibe this is funny i haven't talked about this in a while someone said nipple piercings i really want

them but i'm scared of the healing process so i'm not like a body mods you know gauges piercings kind of girl but as somebody who has always been on like the smaller chest side you know what I mean I've always kind of had a hard time accepting that as a woman and so I think the best way to accept is to enact upon and to kind of honor and celebrate in some sort of way and for me and my weird brain it was like nipple piercings because nipple piercings are like a decoration it's like an accessory you know like I'm a very gold jewelry girl like my nipple piercings are like little gold bars it feels like I'm decorating myself in some sort of way and honoring honoring my little my titties you know so cute um so at the age of like I think I was 18 I mean at least 18

for sure but I went off to college and I met some fun friends who were like very impulsive like me in the local tattoo shop did $50 Fridays which is you can get both nipples pierced for $50 hilarious also a little sketchy but also the shop seemed kind of reputable I had no tattoos at that time but I was ready to get my nipples pierced I had actually it's kind of crazy to think about I got my nipples pierced before I got any tattoos before I even pierced my ears for the second time I had my nipples pierced um I got my nose pierced at like 16 that was my birthday gift from my mom shouts out to her thank you queen for understanding what I wanted my dad did not want me to do that also shout out to my sister-in-law who like talked my dad off a ledge because he's like

I don't want her to have a hole in her nose he has he doesn't have a southern accent but I don't want her to have a hole in her nose for the rest of her life and my uh sister-in-law was like well I got my nose pierced and you literally can't tell because it healed up and he was like oh he just knew I was impulsive and he was afraid I was gonna make like a physical change that I was not gonna be able to backtrack on because I am a very impulsive and then backtracking kind of person especially when I am not acting in alignment with myself so he was a little afraid of that but literally I got my nose pierced and I have yet to take it out since I was 16 um I got my nipples nipples pierced at 18 and I have yet to take them out I got my first tattoo well tattoos on my feet

don't count because those were impulsive and I regret them but I got my first tattoo when I was like 20 um and I don't regret it and I got this one on the back of my arm a couple months ago and I don't regret it and all of these I do not regret because they are something that I have really thought out why do i want it what does it represent is it actually acting in alignment with me um is it something i'm gonna regret a little bit later on is this just something i want for a week and then i'm gonna change my mind um these are things that i've sat with myself and i've been like no i have wanted this for years once i sit with it and i know okay no this is something that truly is something that i want that's when i get it and that's why i have never regretted

any of my like quote-unquote body modifications in that sort of sense so I think if you're wondering to yourself like oh am I ever gonna gonna regret this or you get it done and then you have the initial fear that initial fear is very real okay you just changed your body for your rest of your life you're gonna be a little anxious about it don't worry give it a week it's like a it's like getting your hair cut and then you're like oh my god did they fuck up my hair no just like give it a week for it to settle you'll be good I promise I promise let me chill your anxiety it's just like the adrenaline panic you're fine anyways i love my nipple piercings i love them i think it's probably one of my favorite things that i've done

you know in relation to my body it has made me so much more confident it has made me feel more connected to myself um in the sort of way where it's like it feels aesthetically pleasing and also they feel good you know what i mean like before my nipples were not sensitive like i mean i could feel them hello but they weren't like that sensitive now it's like if you think about them they're sensitive like like i can't even think about them anyways yeah but i went to the sketchy ass tattoo local tattoo piercing shop at my first ever college at 18 with all my friends for $50 Fridays and I got both of them pierced and the thing they don't tell you about nipple piercings is the first one you're not gonna feel you aren't because the adrenaline is pumping

pumping pumping and the thing about adrenaline is you won't feel pain you'll feel like euphoria do you know what I mean it's like going on a scary roller coaster ride like you get on you're like building up adrenaline building up adrenaline and then it feels so so scary and it feels like it's gonna be painful but then you go on it and you have the time of your life and then you get that euphoric feeling afterwards any sort of scary thing is gonna have that kind of process um especially a piercing um so the thing is you get the first one done and you don't feel it because that adrenaline covers all the pain it's like that roller coaster ride but then it's like staying on the roller coaster and doing it again so the second one if you do it in a row all the adrenaline

has worn off by now you know what to expect you know the pain but there's no adrenaline to cover the pain so the second one hurts way more way more anyways one of them's a little left-sided like it's a little tilted not too bad where i'm like i need to get this fucking re-done but it's a little tilted and that's because on the second one I jumped a little bit because I thought it would feel like the first one the second one's gonna hurt a little bit more if you do them directly after each other so stay calm cool collected and they'll be straight but yeah I love them I love them I love them I love them so much that after I got them done I we went to Target to go steal stuff because what else do you do when you're young and chaotic do you know what

I mean I'm not in that phase anymore don't come for me we've all been there but it's a target to like go steal alcohol or something and my friend was coming out of the target my lifelong friend who moved here our first like bonding interaction was she was walking out of the target and I was walking into the target and I had so much adrenaline and I was just crazy that I was like look girl I got my nipples pierced she's like show me and I just flashed her in front of the target the amount of people I flashed at that moment but I just like did not give a fuck uncomfortable amount anyways so fucking funny first ever little bonding moment with us hilarious but yeah love them there's so many cute little ones you can get you can get like little characters

you can get little like images you can get rings you can get bars whatever but I think it was the best aesthetic choice I've ever made if you want to get them done go for it the pain level was like uh honestly i don't even remember it anymore and in comparison to my iud nothing is painful so yeah 10 out of 10 recommend go for it why not life's short if it's something you've thought about for a while why not make it happen for yourself moral of the story okay so after that keef bowl we're gonna offset that highness a little bit with this cbd hemp blunt loves it you need like something to do as a stoner first of all if you like art go check out my reel i painted these jeans they were so cute they're so easy to diy they're like little flower painted

jeans i just had these jeans they did not fucking fit i needed to do something to them so i could actually wear them and enjoy them and so i was like fuck it let me just paint them because i love flowers and i wanted to add some flowers onto it very in lilies are very in and so i made a little DIY video for you all if you want to check that out but me and my friends most recent favorite things to do um while just like a little too high is we we recently bought a um A-list stubs membership we all did because at AMC you can go see like two movies a week for free and we just get so obscenely high and go see a movie and just enjoy when's the last time you've been to the theater when's the last time you saw a show a movie didn't touch your phone for two and a half

hours go do that i love the experience of a movie i love a reclining sea i love a buttery popcorn bucket there is nothing better go enjoy go try it out it is the perfect like activity to do as a stoner 10 out of 10 recommend this is not even an ad i just genuinely enjoy someone said how do i nicely reject guys without feeling terrible about it you shouldn't feel bad for the way you feel men shouldn't make you feel bad for the way you feel of course i understand not wanting to be a dick about it but also sometimes you should be like i'm okay thanks though like you're sweet someone else will love you like i feel like it's not a mean thing to say i think the mean thing to do is not say anything or like be super rude about it but also it's like just

don't feel bad for the way you feel you know say what's on your mind someone said is sex exchanging energy yes that literally is all it's about it's an exchange of energy and you'll be able to feel if the energy is off and if the energy is off feel it leave do you know what i mean but if the energy is not even on to begin with it's not going to be a good time do you know what i mean you need to feel that connection feel that energy before even touching each other to be able to have like a fantastic amazing beautiful sexual experience if you're not having a good time before sex with the person you're not gonna have a good time after it completely is a exchange of energy which is why i say don't have sex with bad people because then you're exchanging energy with bad people and

either they're putting bad into you or you're putting bad or good into them and they don't deserve that you know what i mean i also feel like once i started seeing sex as an exchange of energy i started valuing myself a little bit more and asking myself like do i want to even take on this person's energy is this a person who i think is going to give good energy to me is this a person i want to give good energy to things like that um and i stopped finding myself in bad situations and being way less impulsive which is a very important thing to learn about yourself and to learn how to do um before sexual intercourse hi hannah love you love the pod i've been listening for a couple years um so this eclipse season type stuff has been throwing me and my friends

through the ringer um my best friend actually was just cheated on for the fourth time and this time her partner was sleeping with her cousin which is a fucking insane um and she's having a lot of big life changes she's probably not going to be able to stay where she's living um and i'm just kind of looking for how i can best support her um she's probably going to end up living with me i've let her live with me in the past because of like unfortunate situations i just really don't want her to end up going back to this person because they're fucking okay well number one it sounds like you're an amazing friend number two why did she not leave him as soon as he first cheated on her number three what what the fuck what anyways to be a

good friend in this sort of situation where you're like oh my god what the fuck is my friend doing also how the hell does she keep finding herself in these situations and oh all these awful fucking people surrounding themselves with her you are now her personal hype man you are now only talking shit on that man and as much as you possibly can so you can nail that idea in her brain constantly constantly and i'm not pro talking shit but i am pro outing people on who they truly are and making people see who these people truly are but also you need to be her own personal hype man constantly like you're the baddest bitch out there he doesn't deserve you you deserve someone who's truly gonna love you these people are hurting you because you're putting yourself down you can't put

yourself in these situations and allow these people to do these things fuck them you glow up you become the baddest bitch you possibly can be and watch them suffer and you succeed like you got to hype her up okay especially after that i feel like after you you are in a situation where you get cheated on a couple of times you start thinking of it you stop seeing it as this big thing when it is a big thing you're like oh it just happened again it's like he slept with another person he slept with your cousin that is not a small thing eclipse season that is the universe showing you exactly who he is that's the universe showing you and giving you the direct message of this man is a piece of shit look at how much damage he can fucking do to you are you going

to take charge of your life are you going to make the decisions you need to make in your life in order to have this stop happening to you are you just going to keep putting up with it like you have been do you know what i mean that is the eclipse season message okay the eclipse is bringing things to light um this mercury retrograde is bringing things to light and showing the chaos that is truly happening and making these changes in your life truly happen but a part of the thing is you have to be willing to do the changes necessary make the changes necessary realize the situation you're in and want better so she needs to want better you need to show her that she deserves better you need to hype her up you need to talk shit on that boyfriend as much as

you possibly can why is he still a boyfriend why is he still a boyfriend please put your friend on the line she needs to break up with him asap and that is hannah's big sister advice of the day let's talk about hippie bullshit the negative connotation hippies get listen i hate to say it but the hippie bullshit is kind of real it's not necessarily a negative connotation it's just how some of them act like i guess i would be considered a hippie where i am now because i'm like smoking weed and i have an open mindset you don't need to be in tie-dye you don't need to be a white person with dreads and beads in your hair and taking on other people's culture like that is not what a hippie is and that is the hippie bullshit I think like quote-unquote hippie is a

mindset I've also kind of been the hippie bullshitter when you don't know who you are it's a great kind of persona to take on it really is especially if you're like a peace love smoke weed kind of girl it's a great person persona to take on when you don't know who the fuck you are um and i got trapped in that mindset for like from the ages of like 17 no no 18 to 19 because i started dating a hippie and i was like well first of all i love a performance oh it's my personality disorder i'm sorry i'm trying to break that stigma but back in the day i loved a performance i loved taking on a new personality to try to kind of like appease another person to win them over trauma trauma red flag red flag not healthy but i understand why you want to do it

anyways i was going to a catholic school at the time so i also felt the pressure to kind of push myself in the very opposite direction of what that would be which is flowy pants long hair nipples out constantly falling in love with a hippie man at the time was also falling in love that is a i don't think i knew what love was at that time i think i had a extreme like for him you know he was the hippie bullshitter where it's like peace love unity but also i'm the most judgmental and hateful person on this fucking planet you're like oh this doesn't this doesn't add up it's like i'm a bad person but i have crystals on me so you're like what excuse me what the hell that this is not adding up do you know what i mean um he's like i love everybody

and I always provide peace and understanding for everybody around me but I'm gonna break up with you and I have a secret girlfriend on the side and I'm moving to California for her and also that artist you introduced me to we're gonna go see and I'm gonna post about because my new favorite artist because she's such a hippie evil evil evil white men with dreads evil evil do not trust but yeah hippie bullshit is very real um and it is a psychosis it's like a spiritual psychosis that you can lose yourself inside of because you're kind of pushing yourself away from yourself um like you're trying to escape who you are who you are meant to be or or you don't know who the fuck you are and you don't know how to build a real personality and

so you can take on this persona very easily because there's a vast history of existing such as taking on different religious cultures um taking on different cultural backgrounds and behaviors and understanding instead of just doing your own fucking thing do you know what i mean it's different when you're from that culture but when you're not from that culture it's like an appreciation is a real thing of course but when you're basing your whole identity on it it's a little bit more than appreciation but yeah you guys seen that girl on tiktok that white girl who's like i got my information from the pyramids and you're like bitch what you're from the suburbs of Milwaukee what do you mean the pyramids like I'm confused anyways I'm not gonna go on this big

whole rant but it is a slippery slippery slope losing yourself and kind of pushing yourself away from your true self into a performative version of your identity is not healthy it's not gonna get you closer to yourself you're gonna make some interesting connections and have some interesting experiences but I'm not necessarily going to state that they're good and I do think the hippie bullshit is very real especially when you don't know who you are um who you want to be and you don't want to put that um pressure on yourself to figure it out but yeah real hippies i think it's just like you don't have to look a certain way you don't have to act a certain way it really is all just like a peace love unity mindset the biggest hippie i know is like a i went to high

school with her love her seeing her grow and be a human being is so interesting to me um but she's like a migrant farmer like she moves farm to farm and area to area every season and works with the land and connects with herself in relation to the land in relation to the small communities around her and uplifts everybody she comes in contact with and it is so inspirational to see that's a true hippie and she's doing it in wrangler denim and vintage dresses and like hiking boots that's inspiring that's true hippieism but yeah anyways hippie bullshit very real very real watch out psa advice for wearing heels i feel naked without platform boots but i want to be dainty and girly i'm not going to put my feet on the screen but i'm looking at my favorite pair of heels ever

they were thrifted they're about a one inch kitten heel they're tiny tiny little baby heels they're not like heel heels but they're like cute little slightly lifted dainty little heels i love a kitten heel you're trying to get into heels but you don't want to wear heels i hate i hate like big heels because holy shit my fucking feet rather wear a platform but i love a dainty kitten heel that is the perfect way the perfect in between um of like a bad bitch fucking Louis Vuitton heel and a platform boot and you're trying to be dainty and girly kitten heel it is how did you know what you wanted to do with your life career wise I'm so so so lost I still don't think I know what I want to do with my life and the thing is when you say what you want to do with your life that's

usually in relation to like a job a job is really easy to figure out but like what do I want to do with my life i want to find joy in the everyday experience i want to eat as much good food as i possibly can i want to have as much good sex as i possibly can i want to smoke as much good weed as i possibly can um i want to make connections to the earth and make connections to my friends i want to build a life around me that is uplifting and supporting of not only myself but the people around me um that's what i want to do in my life but my job how did i figure that out i still don't really know like I don't have like a career other than just like a technically I guess you would call me a freelance artist I would consider myself more of a freelance artist than I would like an

influencer if you know what I mean I guess you could also consider my career an influencer but then you could also consider my career a bartender a server a cocktail waitress you know what I mean sometimes you don't need to put so much emphasis on the career make your fucking money get your bag up period whether you're having a good time at the job or not you can use that you know hate for your job there to find inspiration in a different one to find your true calling in a different one try new um internships and build connections that way and figure out what you want to do that way but what do i want to do with my life i want to enjoy celebrate love experience job wise as long as i'm paying the bills i'm happy not me being like i hate pipes but look

at how cute and like on brand this one is it's a cute little strawberry pipe like are you kidding me anyways let's hit this cheers i love her she's so cute but pipes in general that's like all i smoked in high school like there were no joints or blunts i think early college is when i smoked a lot of blunts but pipes oh my god me and my friends would sneak out of her basement window like one man each other up to the basement fucking window crawl out like a fucking army man run to her car and then we just drive on the back roads of the country like smoking out of this nasty ass pipe we had but honestly some of my favorite moments i love a little like car ride with your friends listening to music a little high vibe and out like that is the best experience ever

too many questions on here about going back to your ex it's mercury retrograde it's making you miss things a little bit too much chill the fuck out they're your ex for a reason period i will never be pro going back pro going back to a person um even i've never had a situation where it's like well we loved each other like right person wrong time i've lied and said to myself that that's what it truly was it was not you were dating a loser um and with time you'll realize that so give yourself at least a little bit of time if it's been years and you're still thinking about them then sure maybe could be a good idea but that is like a one percent chance and i know none of you guys submitting this question are actually going through that um yeah they're your ex for a reason

stay away mercury retrograde is trying to teach you a lesson now is not the time astrologically to get back together with an ex if you want it to be successful period someone said work burnout because nice weather is coming please help get a patio job i got a patio job i serve in my little short shorts or like please wear dresses and shorts and tank tops because it's so hot outside and we do not want you like passing out i'm like perfect i'm gonna shop my little butt off and i'm gonna get so many cute outfits um and now i get a hangout on a patio even when i'm working enjoying the nice sunshine the weather good food um and i'm making money win win win win get a patio job also i understand if that's just simply not possible and i and completely vibes you know

but have plans after work if you can't um at least do something outside of work afterwards to enjoy the day if you can't like go get a patio job i understand that's not the easiest fucking thing ever you might have a nine to five and that's completely valid but yeah make plans after work go get a little drink with your friends go smoke in a park with your friends go on a walk do something small to at least enjoy the day you know oh this is a crazy long question it's a little drama filled i like a little drama so let's get into it i love when you guys send me long paragraphs of just like chaos happening in your lives and you're like help me see the light i'm like yes girl i got you i can see every perspective and specifically i will always see the light

anyways this person said my boyfriend's been doing coke he knows i don't really like it and it makes me anxious we made a deal he'd only do it socially and when he can afford it and he would chat to me about it first so we're on the same page though he's got it and done it behind my back asking me for money for petrol oh okay okay petrol is giving giving european and then the next day today has messaged me as he was staying at his parents for the night that he had basically immediately went to get it and stayed up all night sniffing and usually wanking which is part of why i don't like his habit as it leads to that which i'm okay with though occasionally and not for four hours you know and i don't know what to think i was really pissed off when he texted me and he's

very emotionally aware even though uh even though he doesn't do it that often it's been three weeks since he last did it until last night and i know it's his life though i need an unbiased opinion i trust and love him i just feel like there's pent-up anger towards me that he doesn't trust love me like he says you've been together for two years now and lived together for uni he makes me feel like i'm not fun enough for him i stopped doing drugs drugs and accepted smoking because they started making me anxious he gets this though it's difficult it's difficult girl help okay what wild wild wild listen people who do cocaine and party and jerk off all the time have to also have a partner that parties and does cocaine and jerks off all the time

that's just how it works when it comes to drugs and like hobby activities you really kind of have to be on the same page with your partner there no one really tells you that like if you don't do coke do not have a partner that loves cocaine you are not gonna have a good time that seems a little blunt so sorry did not mean to come off that harshly but it genuinely is like a conflict of interest you know what i mean and i'm not the judgy type listen i'm not a cocaine girly but if you are like whatever props not my cup of tea not my vibe not something i really like to associate myself with but also i'm not the person to be like controlling of other people's lives so if that's what you want to choose to do with your life like okay whatever you know what i mean but

that doesn't necessarily mean i want to be involved in it so if you're if you don't want to be involved with it you need to have a partner that's not involved with it do you know what i mean i too would be pissed if my boyfriend was stealing my money to go buy a bag lying to me about what he's doing and then going into a fucking cocaine hole of porn consumption and jerking off i don't need that kind of energy in my life i would like a grown man who's gonna not do cocaine and run away to jerk off for four hours you also deserve a grown man who's gonna do that you say you love and trust him i think you do love him i do not think you trust him because if you did trust him you wouldn't have a problem with these things do you know what i mean why is he stealing your money

for a bag please babe find a man who's not gonna use you for drug money we're past that i love you i love you i love you but two years in you should not be having these big situational problems these big situational problems are things that you realize within the first three months and you ask yourself am i gonna go along with this and actually participate and we're gonna be on the same page or is this vibe completely the opposite of my vibe and not something i can live with you got to make that choice and it sounds like something that honestly you cannot live with it sounds like it's causing you a lot of stress sounds like you have a conflict of interest in life experiences and what you truly want to be doing in life also i just pulled up your instagram

picture and you're a baddie and you definitely do not fucking deserve that whatsoever so yeah fuck that man let him be a man child in peace let him go do his cocaine and jerk off on his own fucking time on his own fucking money and go live your own hot sexy life okay babe okay baddie those are not small relationship problems those are big relationship problems big conflicts of interest you do not deserve that also he's not going to change he feels like he needs to suppress himself and hide these habits from you which is not healthy um and it's not going to build a healthy relationship for you guys and he's going to continuously feel that way because that's what he wants to do those are things that he wants to do let him be his own person let him go do those

things okay it sounds like you don't want to be controlling so let him do those things but do not associate yourself step away you deserve a man not a man child we've been talking about man child men men children a lot here recently there's a lot of them out there watch out girls anyways i think that's it for the podcast you guys i know i had so much fun here with this beautiful little 420 special episode i hope you guys enjoyed as well um remember to be kind to yourself hopefully you learned something in this process maybe this the only thing you learned is how to have a good time and how to see the brightness in life and that's truly all I could ever want for any of you guys I hope you enjoyed smoking with me today and hanging out thank you

for being my sesh partner for the day I really appreciate it I can't wait to go munch on some I'm gonna go get jajangmyeon it's my new hyper fixation food it's like my new treat myself food they're like black bean pork belly noodles oh they're just so filling and so like heartwarming it's amazing i cannot wait um if you want to see more from me though follow the instagram i'll be posting a lot this week leading up to 420 um also all podcast updates will be posted there if you have not got your baby tea yet do not worry they are all in the mail they are all on expedited shipping they will all be there before saturday before 420 i pinky promise a few of you guys have been panic emailing me which i get um my stock just came in late which i really apologize for

but i purchased that expedited shipping three day shipping she will be there they were all shipped this weekend um and it should update automatically through your email i love you guys have a fantastic rest of your day if you want to see the 420 vlog go follow the youtube channel i think it's under smoke says shawty you can also look up hannah marlene um and if you want any extra fun sexy hot enjoyable silly content join the patreon club you want to show me some love you want to support me join the patreon we have so much fun over there i've been planning so many fun things for you guys um i just posted the monday affirmations and i'll be posting a little smoke with me episode um patreon only patreon.com slash smoke says shawty anyways i love you all

have a fantastic rest of your day happy 420 and I'll see you all next week