Smoke Sesh - hookup culture, mercury retrograde & plastic surgery

Episode Date: April 2, 2024

Hello hotties and welcome back to another amazing episode of the podcast, hope you enjoy this episode of Smoke Sesh! Today we have a lot to catch up on such as what ive been up to, mercury retrograde and how it may be effecting your lives (and the podcast). We catch up on some podcast housekeeping and what you can expect from me soon, and dive right into all of your questions! Today we cover many topics but specifically, how to free yourself from the hater mindset and where it may be stemming from, good sex is important! and learning to prioritize that in your life, feeding off this renewal of spring energy, freeing myself from the service industry, learning to show your personality and accessorize outfits, plastic surgery, what I've had done and if I recommend it, deinfluencing you, injuries in the bedroom and taking it slow, taking time to heal when you need it, my current trips planned, go to spring drinks, don't change for a man, distracting yourself from your thoughts, synchronicity in relationships (unfortunately the audio was a little compromised so if you want to skip the time codes are 43:08-46:00) being a professional hoe and hookup culture nowadays, staying safe and protecting yourself while having fun, healthy relationships, finance tips and building credit, man child, spring break and letting your inner demons out, the breakup bucket list, and much much much much more! if you wanna see more from me or keep up with pod updates follow the instagram @hannahmarlene and for extra content join the Patreon club at patreon.com/hannahmarlene ! stay safe stay sexy and chat soon! MUAH!

listen everybody needs a fairy godmother you know just somebody to look out for them some people call me their fairy smoke mother others their internet big sister but you can call me hannah the host of smoke sash so come hang out let's light up and talk everything there is to life the good the bad the ugly the embarrassing i've got a story for it all hello hotties welcome back to another beautiful amazing wonderful episode of smoke sash i'm so excited to be here with you guys on this wonderful tuesday mercury retrograde struck directly today as you can tell this isn't our usual uh setup our usual lighting um that's because i'm having to re-record the intro um because my microphone decided to not work um and i didn't find out

until i spent two and a half hours recording and two and a half hours editing so now it's the evening time my eyes have gotten so fucking tired from staring at a screen i have my giant grandma glasses on we will get into a little prettier you know visual aspect and into um the actual recording here soon i just wanted to catch up with you guys real quick um and let you guys have a little psa sorry for the jump scare here that also means um the audio was compromised for one topic clip in this episode the rest is good please stay here please listen it's just one short little clip um but you can tell that my computer speaker is definitely picked up and we're recording that one so apologies in advance once again that is just like a small two minute clip um and i

couldn't have the intro be horrible audio so i had to get on here and re-record um but yeah talk about technical difficulties mercury retrograde said oh we're direct today great we will make ourselves known not me getting off like a fucking basically 72 hour shift and going directly into record this podcast and no no the universe is like she can't have an easy day she can't have an easy relaxing day we gotta make it difficult on her at some point in time but guess what mercury retrograde you really just gotta roll with the punches don't be too hard on yourself don't take it too personally you really just gotta be like f it we're gonna fucking roll with it and we're gonna get shit done you know what i mean i've worked like seven days this week your girl's

fucking tired um my new job has been amazing it's been so great i'm so thankful um but holy shit was this just not the cherry on top thank you computer for doing that for me not only did it cut out like a little ketchup but it also cut out me talking about mercury retrograde and i guess this is just a great topic intro to go ahead and fill you in on what this mercury retrograde holds um and what really to expect a lot of you guys have really been enjoying the astrology updates things like that and i wanted to include that in this podcast as well especially because it is definitely going to be lasting quite a long time i believe actually three weeks three and a half weeks from april 1st to 25th and also i don't want you guys to be so scared as you can tell

mercury retrograde is basically mercury moving backwards considering consider it doing the moonwalk basically in the sky and it also has a tendency to not only shift things in our life but bring change bring technical chaos bring communication issues i talked about this on my patreon on like friday last week so if you want the tea early if you want the scoop early join the patreon club we'd love to have you there patreon.com smoke shawty i'll be posting there a lot this week as we catch up with like just beginning of the month to do things um also beginning of the month list little ritual for you all cinnamon and salt blow it into your doorway to bring prosperity to bring peace um financial success all those fun things um but during this

time it's essential to be careful um and try not to take things too personally despite how difficult it may be okay aries the first sign of the zodiac is known for its fiery combustible and passionate nature after all it's the god of war um this intensity can sometimes lead to extreme temper tantrums which may be a result of exhaustion frustration and other factors it is advisable to double check your text messages and emails and think before speaking to avoid saying something that you may regret later in true aries form everyone will want to for to be forgiven fast but their actions and words may be hard to forget so watch what you say keep an eye out for old flames seeking closure during the upcoming total solar eclipse on april 8th this powerful energy

can help bring about healing making it easier to move on from resolved unresolved problems however you don't have to connect with them remember we have to do what makes us feel comfortable and we shouldn't be pushed to do things to make other people feel happy or secure we are the number one priority in our lives during difficult moments we may feel stuck due to a lack of progress or positive change this can be discouraging especially if our efforts seem to lead nowhere or result in setbacks it's important to be patient and kind to ourselves as we navigate through the vulnerable times putting too much pressure on ourselves can cause our emotions to overwhelm us so it's best to approach these challenges calm and gentle mindset even though it might be hard to do

honoring your inner child could be extremely healing during this mercury retrograde because we are igniting the parts of ourselves that have been repressed and unseen for so long it will give us a chance to look back and allow us to give our younger selves hugs and to amend some of the hurt or trauma we experienced as kids while reminiscing about the past we may come across information that now seems inaccurate and feel the need to make change uh to our opinions conversely we may also have a sense of relief when we finally address long avoided issues or see the truth and matters it's crucial to avoid making impulsive decisions or jumping to conclusions rather all the necessary information gather all the necessary information before reacting

let's ensure that we are not mistakenly attributing our emotions to others by projecting or gaslighting or that we are not being left vulnerable to drama we don't have to engage in these matters it is important to maintain a positive perspective and handle irritations and annoyances with humor although it may be challenging instead of reacting negatively it is better to adapt to the situation oh did you see the lightning wow and deal with it as it comes okay that's exactly what i'm doing right now um you'll see as i jump to the original recording in a second it was so nice and beautiful and sunny and now it's a beautiful little thunderstorm going on right now nothing hits quite as hard as a good spring or summer thunderstorm at night and

i'm just laying in bed rubbing my legs together like a little cricket it's like peak comfortness so excited to indulge in that tonight gays and gals we are in it hold on tight stand by yourself do the best you can okay literally like i worked a fucking basically 18 hour shift on saturday i had my first ever serving shift at my new job followed by my last ever well for now stuff last ever i say is if i'm not ever gonna work a saturday night let's be fucking real that's the money night um but for right now my last um evening night shift at my bar um i was there for fucking 16 hours and you know what i was literally before when i woke up i told my boyfriend i was like i'm gonna have a crazy mental breakdown today because i was just anticipating the chaos

but i think if you anticipate the chaos and approach it with like you know what this fucking sucks but we're just gonna fucking get through it you will have a good time because let me tell you this i wasn't rushing out of work i was having a good time i was chit-chatting my co-workers like making the best out of a bad situation chugging a fat red bull and just persevering and sometimes that's really all you can do is be like lol this sucks but we'll fucking be better for it you know what i mean me having to sit down and re-record this i'm like i don't want to i look a mess i'm sleepy eepy tired but we gotta show up for the girls and do what we gotta do you know what i mean i love you thank you so much for being here and with that being said we'll get into the

actual recording of the podcast anyways that's really all i've been up to my new job is fantastic i'm so excited and so happy that i really put myself out there and challenge myself to kind of try new things I've been in the service industry for a long long long long time a little bit too long um if I'm being honest um but I was like you know what fuck it life's too short I can't stay at this one place forever let's just apply somewhere let's try it out and this new restaurant is fantastic the food is amazing the workers are amazing the owners are amazing um and I have always wanted to like work with a company to run their social media and you know what i got there i pitched myself they're like sure let's do it so i'll be doing that so it's kind of like a

a three-in-one job not only will i will i be serving i'll also be bartending and i'll be running their social media so i'm taking on a lot but i think it'll be a really great step into a positive direction for me and guess what all of that came because i took a risk and i went after what I wanted so consider this a life lesson for you all you can make anything happen you just really got to put yourself out there and believe in yourself um and take risks as they come you know what I mean I think when you're willing to take risks the universe recognizes and realizes like okay this bitch is real like this bitch is trying she wants to you know evolve and adapt into a new version of herself let me help her along the way you know what I mean um and I do

think the universe will reward you if you're willing to try new things and put your all into them even if it doesn't work out you're gonna learn something you're gonna maybe face hardships you're gonna maybe face good things but in the end you're gonna be able to stand by yourself grow develop learn so much about yourself and i think that's beautiful anyways with that being said that's really enough to catch you guys up on i know why you're here i know what you're here for um and yeah let's just go ahead and dive into all of your questions actually actually should we smoke like should we oh my god should we be crazy should we smoke oh my god it's my day off believe it or not if you want to take a tea break i like took a unintentional tea break this week

like i really haven't smoked that much because i've been so fucking busy i'm like but you don't fucking time to smoke like when i was just constantly at home doing work at home you know working from home i'd be like you know what it's a break time why don't i just let me just hit this bowl whatever you know i got i'm here for eight hours i might as well just like smoke this bowl bitch when you're out and about and you're just like the only time you're home is either to stop to change clothes to go to your next job or to finally come home at the end of the night and you're just so tired you can barely shower you're definitely not fucking time to smoke definitely enough energy to smoke i like haven't smoked at all which means i might get a little loopy and

funny and a little crazy since i have taken basically a week tea break you know what let's get crazy with it let's smoke okay cheers girlies your playlist might get you through the work day But have you ever wondered how your ancestors spent theirs? What work helped them build a life? How did they adapt as the world around them changed? With Ancestry, you can search select historical occupational records for free for a limited time and discover the stories behind the jobs in your family tree. You've got questions.

We've got ancestors. Search free until August 31st. Visit ancestry.ca for details. Terms apply. did you guys see my uh spring outfit inspo on instagram i had like a little day or i had like a morning off or whatever and i was like you know what fuck it i don't want to just sit here on my phone and mindlessly scroll like i want to get creative with it i also have just like so many clothes uh are like gorgeous and amazing and true vintage pieces and uh like so cute and i really

don't get out of my fucking house that often talk about like doing things that feed your inner child girl growing up i was on girls go games girls dress up games.com whatever it is all the dress up games i was playing them 24 7 that's all i did on the family computer you know what i mean barbie.com my my scene girls oh my god they were everything to me little did I know I was a little fashionista when I was younger I just I only wore what my mom bought me you know obviously like every other little girl and now that I'm an adult I'm like oh I can play dress up oh I can just go in my closet and smoke and dissociate for a little bit and just dress up and put on a bunch of cute outfits that's allowed who the fuck would have thought

you know what i mean so i did that took some photos posted them on instagram instagram.com instagram.com hannah marlene if you want to see the photos if you want some spring inspiration i had a blast it was a great way to kind of kick off um mercury retrograde eclipse season as well just indulging in what truly makes me happy even if it might sound dumb to other people you know what it was a great way to kind of utilize my time in a healthy way and also honor my true interests so thank you for all the love on that post on instagram um i will also be making another like high and cooking with me real on instagram and then i will also be for patreon this week i will also be uploading a longer cook with me video because a few of you guys were like i would love

to hear you talk in these videos and it's like well i do but only long form because your girl can talk and talk and talk and talk and i really can't edit my talking down to just one minute that's actually insane so that is the plan for this week one more also catching up thing i know 420 is coming up ah so exciting um and i know your you girlies have been asking and asking and asking for the got weed t-shirts when they will be back they will be back this week they will be back honestly I'll probably have them on my website by the time I upload this podcast so go and grab them but I'll also be making a post about them on like Thursday or something just to let the whole world know um and these will be in stock for a while so I mean no rush but also if

you want it in time for 420 I would recommend purchasing earlier rather than later but yeah anyways let's get into all of your questions someone asked how to stop being a hater because i literally am annoyed with everyone i find when i'm like super annoyed with everybody around me even when they're not doing something wrong listen sometimes people are fucking annoying but like they're just being themselves how dare i hate on somebody who is being themselves maybe they're like not my cup of tea but that doesn't mean they deserve all the hatred in my heart because trust me there's a lot there i gotta save that for people who actually deserve it you know what I mean anyways I feel like the hater mindset stems from you and I don't mean to project

this onto you this not is not actually how you're feeling I just know when I feel this way I really become a hater um when I'm like tired hungry or I'm just hating on myself when my self-thought has been mostly revolving around hate and annoyance um that's when I start projecting it on to everybody else sometimes listen the world is too much for me and I need to step the fuck away and just chill the fuck out maybe have like a bubble bath smoke some fucking weed eat a good meal like after that I'll be good my hater my hater hat will be coming off you know what I mean sometimes you just need to rest and relax and recover valid but when you find yourself stuck in this mindset and you're like okay why have I been so annoyed for so long like I know

it's not because I'm hungry I know it's not because of hormones I know it's not like their fault like why the fuck am I feeling this way ask yourself and be mindful of how you are speaking to yourself and how you are speaking about the world around you internally because I feel like it will have a drastic effect on how you see the world externally but the best way to quickly heal a hater mindset if it's really just a surface level one is to just like take a break sometimes you gotta step away sometimes when everything becomes a little too overwhelming you just need to like ground yourself a little bit and remember what the fuck life is about have a little chill day so you just stop taking everything so seriously that's what today is for me honestly i'm like

everything has been too much i just need to step away enjoy my time here where i am from my couch get comfy get cozy i'm gonna eat a good fucking meal tonight i'm gonna have a fat burrito for lunch me and my boyfriend woke up to the birds singing we had some bomb ass sex went and got coffee instead of oh we're out of coffee grounds usually i make my coffee at home but we went and got coffee this morning all the flowers are blooming it was warm out I was in like shorts and a short sleeve shirt uh in the morning crazy wow spring really is here got coffee came home chilled for a bit now I'm here life is good sometimes you just need a fucking break and when I am like my biggest hater or anybody else's biggest hater it's because like the world's

getting a little too much for me and I just need to step away from a second that's okay everybody needs that allow yourself to have that moment but I feel you also once again some people are just fucking annoying and it's not their fault you know what I mean I know I annoy the fuck out of people and it's not my fault like I'm just being me don't hate on me maybe I'm not your cup of tea and that's okay but I still deserve respect and kindness the ash all over my clothing is actually insane right now anyways let's keep going someone said i feel bad for those who aren't getting fucked like me girl me too i feel that i'm like how do people live their life with bad sex do you know what i

mean i understand the whole like i'm not very sexual i'm more of like a missionary girly but like missionary should still be bomb like you should still be having the time of your life let's be real even if it's simple vanilla like it should still be mind-blowing um if you are honestly when i was like 18 i wrote like a list of rules for life and one of them that was on like the rules what's like small things like don't eat gas station sushi don't go out after 1 a.m um things like that like small little life rules um but one of them was also never have bad sex i feel like women um and it's not our fault but we don't indulge in self-pleasure enough like the same way men do men will indulge in self-pleasure as often as they possibly can

and i feel like we as women are kind of taught to put ourselves aside especially when it comes to sexual health and just sexual enjoyment um and a lot of that can be discovered through yourself you don't necessarily have to have relations with another person to enjoy sexual freedom and sexual pleasure but i think a lot of women have a hard time putting themselves first and when it comes to sex you should always be putting yourself first as a woman okay always good sex is everything you deserve good sex period someone said spring is really bringing out the lover girl in me real i'm like romance is real life is good i'm deserving of love i'm deserving of everything i've ever possibly dreamed of crazy how literally all it takes is a singular

flower blooming outside my window for me to be like ah life is good i'm deserving of goodness everybody's deserving of goodness we all deserve peace you know what i mean winter has a way of hardening ourselves especially as we brace for the cold and we're all just kind of like managing our best I love spring because it really is just like a renewal of energy and I'm just trying to feed off of it as much as I can build up that momentum again you know what I mean someone said hungover slept five hours and getting ready for the Easter Sunday service girl you and me both that was me on Sunday it wasn't really that busy oh it was so cute I had a five top table and they were all just like hanging out eating and they were all waiting because their sister had just

gone into labor and they were waiting for like the okay like she's pushing like now it's actually time to get to a hospital because listen labor takes 12 hours sometimes 24 sometimes way less depending but i feel like especially with your first child um not that i have a kid and i know about this i'm just from a medical perspective and my somewhat of a nursing history background I do know that labor takes quite a while um especially if it's your first baby so they were all just like hanging out waiting and I was like what an exciting Easter but also I'm kind of losing my mind because I've had no sleep at all um but yeah thus is the service industry do you know what I mean okay let's get into some call-ins I want to hear your guys's beautiful hot sexy

voices and I want to hear your questions from you personally so if you have any to send in um you can go ahead and send like a little TLDR like what it's about type it out and then voice memo note it to my dms my instagram is hannah marlene i do not check the meme page that i have um dms so you have to dm it to my personal also i do upload the call-in link um every single week along with the questionnaire on sundays keep an eye out for that on my instagram um but i know that hasn't been working for a lot of people so once again i'm always available through dm just send in a voice note and i'd love to hear from you anyways let's get into it hi hannah love you so much so okay my question for today is what are some of your favorite accessories i love accessories

with my whole heart i think they're just amazing um what so i want to know what are some of your favorite ones like you know sunglasses jewelry but like get down into the details for me what are your favorite ways to dress up a casual outfit thank you so much love you I am such an accessory girl when me and my boyfriend like first started hanging out one of the first compliments he gave me was like of course like you're hot sexy you're beautiful amazing you're so smart but also he was like I love your accessories first of all what man says that but also he's like I love your accessories like I love how it shows your personality I didn't realize I was a big accessory girly I think I'm just like a hoarder not only physically but also accessory wise um and yeah

I've always just like had fun nails either it's me painting my nails fun colors or getting them done I've always had rings I've always had um necklaces earrings I've always done my hair fun ways um one of my favorite accessories ever is literally my toe ring it's not insane but this toe ring i'm not gonna show my feet i've i had to think through that for a second but i've had this toe ring for like four or five years now i got it on in venice beach next to all the like t-shirt shops with fun sayings there's like a jewelry store and yeah he like put the toe ring on my toe that was a little weird but i've had it and it's honestly one of my favorite accessories just because I do I love my feet I think they're so cute um I do think I have a little bit of a long

toes so whenever I have like a little bit of insecurity I love to accessorize them um hands aren't an insecurity but I've always just like had rings feet toe ring titties nipple rings um nose nose ring that's about it um I also posted my little like outfit inspo for spring and a bunch you guys were like yes i love the accessories for every single outfit that you have um whether it's like a joint i think a joint is a perfect accessory to any outfit let's be real um or like a purse or a hand fan sunglasses whatever it is i do think you need at least one kind of like fashion accessory whether it's a purse sunglasses a hand fan it could be anything a scarf a hat i think you need like at least one accessory to pull an outfit together for me it's always just like a little

mini purse like um pink pantheress she gets it she gets it her accessory her purse i love that she brings it on stage like yes let's accessorize more um but i think when people are having a hard time making an outfit feel like themselves the one thing they're missing is an accessory whether it's shoes sunglasses an item a lighter a joint a hat um scarf purse tiny dog whatever it is i feel like when people are having a hard time making an outfit feel like themselves or they don't feel like themselves um it's because they're not accessorizing more okay not me saying i hate this lip gloss and i'm putting it on again it's because i just need some sort of moisturizer on my lips another pet peeve of mine having dry lips phone case accessory but yeah literally every

outfit i posted let's go through them um i have an accessory like the first one my accessories on this one are my sunglasses my mimi sunglasses my i am holding two lips i have a balenciaga bag on and then i have like fun chunky shoes it's literally just a plain simple dress like plain simple yellow dress but my accessories it elevates the outfit um chunky belt on this one fun little bag hand fan the next one I have like fun little bows in my hair I have a chunky belt on um leather jacket the next one I have like a headband big sunglasses um chunky shoes the next one I'm wearing like a actually not many accessories literally the only accessory in the next one is like a basket bag um the next one literally the only accessory is my hair's up I have big hoops

in and I'm like holding a phone like like this the next one literally just joint in hand sunglasses bag it's so simple but also every day I feel like myself when I accessorize because of my jewelry I love jewelry um one of the biggest things I've been trying to do as a woman and growing my style is really um invest in my jewelry um making sure I'm investing in quality pieces I don't mind spending the fucking money if it means it's gonna last forever and I never have to take it off you know what I mean um like think about it you buy a $30 necklace and it only lasts a month you're spending $360 a year you might as well just spend $360 on a piece that's going to last you forever that's kind of how I view it like be smart with your money instead of just buying the easiest

thing um but yeah I think the best way to find your style personally is through accessorizing someone said girl he is my safe spot but there are many reasons to break up with him what do I do is he really your safe spot if there are many reasons to break up with him because if there are many reasons to break up with him then he's probably not a safe place to be do you know what I mean a safe place is one that is literally the most comfortable experience you could ever have and I know you're not having the most comfortable experience ever if there are and I quote many reasons to break up with him you are just attached and your ego has a hard time letting go that's kind of harsh but it is reality I'm so sorry about that thoughts on fillers and Botox have

you ever had any done or would you know I have this really really like I'm very paranoid this is kind of like a weird paranoia but I'm really scared of waking up one day and looking in the mirror and not recognizing myself and I feel like a lot of people who get into the whole like oh I'll just get like one thing of Botox it's a slippery fucking slope and then all of a sudden they look like a whole different human being um and that's a slope that I really don't want to fall into I understand you can get it for very different or different health reasons things like that and valid real I'm also not here to shame women who do that I am pro women doing whatever the fuck they want but even though you frame it as like uh it's my choice which it is your choice

i still truly believe that you are altering your body and your aesthetic and your appearance to appease others um because even if it's something that you technically want ask yourself like where it's stemming from like why do i want that ski bunny slope nose is it because oh i'm i want it or is it because that's what society tells me to do usually most of the time it's because that's what society tells you to do and I really try especially internally I don't give a fuck what other people do period ever but internally I really try and understand that feeling and kind of work against it to kind of break that stigma within myself and I feel like if I get Botox or fillers it's really just going to revitalize that unhealthy need to appease others socially

also I've thought about getting a nose job a lot as you can tell my nose is a little she's a little crooked I still love her shout out to her Accutane did make my nose way way smaller which is kind of crazy I didn't know that would happen but it's definitely broken she a little crooked I've broken it three times okay like obviously it's not gonna look fucking perfect um and i've thought about getting a nose job first time i broke my nose i was playing uh crack the egg on a trampoline when i was younger and you know when you're jumping around you're going crazy on a fucking trampoline you can't really control yourself and they jumped on my face and broke my nose second time i was running in a cross-country meet and some girl elbowed me in the fucking face and

broke my nose bitch anyways it's a little crooked but i've thought i've thought i've thought deeply about like oh do i get a nose job do i whatever and the thing is i am terrified of waking up from surgery having my face permanently changed um and then not being able to recognize myself in the mirror even like lip filler i thought about lip filler but i'm still that fear of like i love myself even with my flaws and i don't want to force myself to become a version of me that just simply isn't who i am because this is who i am and i need to learn to be accepting of that that's just my own personal opinion that's just how i approach things um but once again i don't give a fuck what other people do y'all do whatever the fuck you want that's just how i feel about

botox fillers whatever i also gotta look at botox and fillers the same way i do like clothing trends because let's be real the same way like a peplum top was fucking crazy in in 2007 now it's like ugly and no one buys it and it's $1.99 at the fucking thrift store and I feel like physical beauty should not trend in that way but it definitely is and it has been for a while um and physically altering your appearance to fit a trend is scary because then like what if all of a sudden you have like all this fucking filler and then you know three months later all the kardashians are getting their filler dissolved and they're doing the complete opposite beauty aesthetic and now you're not like fitting in anymore then you have to keep changing yourself

and changing yourself and changing yourself the same way we have to keep changing our wardrobe and buying new things and blah blah i don't really want to feed into that kind of need to change in order to appease societally you know that's a slippery slope also it's a waste of fucking money i would rather going on a fat trip i'd rather go on a trip i'd rather fly myself to fucking mexico and lay up on a beach than like get my nose done you know what i mean i'd rather have more experiences i'd rather have more appreciation for life things like that than aesthetic appreciation I do have a shopping addiction that's a whole other topic of conversation but beauty aesthetic once again do whatever the fuck you want but for me I feel like it'd be a

really slippery slope my little ring light died so if the lighting is weird and ugly right now I'm so sorry I'm so sorry I'm really saddened to charge it anyways let me deep influence you guys a little bit this dior like lip plumping oh it's the dior addict lip maximizer yeah this thing probably like 45 do not fucking buy it's awful dior hello i mean package is cute but what do you mean lip plumper it just tastes like mint it doesn't actually lip maximize it's also like kind of a bad gloss it's not really hydrating i feel like my lips are super fucking dry afterwards i love a hydrating gloss i love a hydrating balm something like that this if that's what you're looking for it's not the fucking thing it's not what you need that's for sure anyways someone

said kitty cat teared during sex this has never happened to me before um yeah listen you gotta be careful you know what i mean like you gotta take it slow at first before you get crazy wait till you're a little more also you know the perpetual idea that like oh if you have more sex and you're looser that's just literally not a thing um it just means you're horny like when you're horny your body's like we're ready we're we're opening ourselves up do you know what i mean like i feel like when and i have um teared a little bit or like been injured during intercourse before and i found that it was because i a like wasn't completely prepped and ready or like super ushy gushy i just keep thinking about me posting this on youtube and i'm like this is getting

taken down i feel like it's because like i'm just not ready yet you know what i mean or maybe you know you dried out a little bit whatever it is you're going a little too crazy with it take it slow at first um that's the best way i can really advise uh having that not happen um and if it did happen i say you need like a week off hannah dr hannah's orders okay you need a week off from sex rest relax heal one time like when me and my boyfriend first met we were just like fucking like crazy like crazy he's a scorpio so he's very physical and lovey i'm a gemini so like i am always indulging in any sort of serotonin inducing activity constantly um and one of those is sex so we were just fucking constantly constantly constantly

we i think there's one day that we had sex like 12 times i'm telling you like she was bruised i got on facetime with my friend and i was like girl look bruised i have never seen it like that before i was like do i have to go to the hospital right now is this normal she was like girl you just need to fucking chill like take a day off it's not like it's not that big of a deal you just need a day off like anyways yeah that'll happen you got to be prepared make sure you have some lube whatever it is and if it happens if you have a little injury take some time off rest relax recover sitting on a bag of peas i mean with something in between obviously don't freeze your kitty cat off um is also really nice and helps heal hey girl a few days ago I broke my

collarbone skiing and I'm in so much pain to be honest I think that today is gonna be better than the last two days were at least um and I know that this time will pass eventually but it is a six to eight week process and I'm just out here in a sling you know like I don't have a brace excuse me um but yeah any tips just for staying sane because I love to climb and run but I can't do those things for like two or more months so that has me down a bit um I think I'm gonna play some Papasatagoria I feel like at a certain level like honestly even that requires two hands so I don't know um yeah anyways words love you thank you oh my god girl I'm so sorry uh I'm scared of like skiing not water skiing I grew up water skiing I feel like that's a pretty low

damage sport but skiing skiing like snow skiing I'm scared of that like it is so dangerous props to you for being able to do that and also breaking your collarbone and being in good spirits um that's insane but my grandma was skiing and she ran into a tree and she broke both her legs and my dad being the evil monster that he was as a child he would like he was like eight or something and he'd like mess with her and then run away because she she'd like she could only hobble around anyways insane um when you're sick or you find yourself in that sort of position where it's like of course you need to rest heal relax you need to really indulge in that feeling okay like don't think about everything you're missing your life is on pause for a reason

because you need to be focused on your healing so lean into that you know like you deserve to have a fucking break you deserve to play your pot uh papa's hot dog area okay you deserve time to rest relax this is unfortunately the universe giving you a physical reminder of that but also when you get back to everything your real life your usual routine you'll be so appreciative of what you have um so i'm so sorry you're going through this but also you will come out on the other side being so appreciative of life and also feeling so recovered and rejuvenated i'm sure someone said went to my first rave last night so much fun omg i love a rave i really do i think me and my boyfriend are gonna go to a hard summer in la in august i think that's the next rave i'm

really planning for I have a lot of trips coming up um I'm going to Arkansas for my birthday I just want to get out into the woods and just like be in nature for my birthday and then me and my friends are going to Jackson Hole um and just running around Yellowstone going on a bunch of hikes this summer and then I really want to get to LA I was going to go to LA for my birthday um but I feel like that was too much flying in a short amount of time so we're going to wait and i think we're gonna go to hard summer in la that's next wave i'm going to oh my god someone said hey i got swamp water added to the menu at the cafe slash sober bar i work at girl send me a picture i'm begging i spread the word to everybody i know i'm like no this is the best drink ever

talk about the best drink um for you to have this spring i get into my matcha era in like the spring summer I'm not really a matcha girl in the winter um but a matcha with a shot of espresso on top maybe a little vanilla simple syrup it is so good it is so so good hey um how do I prioritize getting up early when I'm at university with a boyfriend who prefers getting up late and working late and that kind of thing um because I'm so tempted to stay in bed with him but then I get stressed if I'm not up and it's past 10 a.m so yeah how do I prioritize myself in that regard even when I kind of don't want to because if I'm in bed and it's the morning with my boyfriend then I'm comfy I don't want to get up but I know it's best for me so yeah how do

I do that thanks I love the podcast bye I remember in my past relationships it was like a we're waking up at 3 30 p.m every day and the way I actually slept through most of my life so no your anxiety is valid because we need to get up at a decent time and get shit done like a normal human being I'll sleep in every once in a while I physically like can't sleep in that late anymore the latest I've probably slept in recently is maybe 11 30 12 that's just because I'm used to getting up earlier but I say tell this to your boyfriend be like listen I'm not sleeping in like if you want to sleep in sure but I'm getting up and I'm doing my own thing I doubt he'll care he's not going to be like oh why aren't you staying in bed with me but don't let somebody

else's uh routine fuck up yours you want to stay strong in yourself you got to stay strong in what you need and sometimes that's being like okay he can stay here whatever or I'm going to force him awake um and i'm gonna go get my shit done period because girl we got things to do sleeping in is nice when you can but when you can't you got to be on your own routine and don't let a man fuck up your routine you know what i mean how do i kill time while on a tea break all i can think about is smoking literally what i said earlier when you're on a tea break you're trying to avoid something you have to stay busy you have no choice you have to distract yourself the same thing with crushes when you find yourself in like crush psychosis where it's like this is all I can

think of I can only think about this man right now you need to pick up some more shifts at work you need to go volunteer at a soup kitchen like you have to distract yourself from these over-consuming thoughts and the best way to distract yourself is physically because me my brain we be fighting all the time it's hard to control my throat my thoughts when I'm busy and I'm preoccupied with something that's when my brain really can't take over so make yourself busy as busy as possible someone said bf is way less responsible than me i've asked him to step up and he won't what should i do um i think this is probably a big thing people are finding themselves with they're experiencing especially during this murky retrograde and eclipse lack of

synchronicity in relationships and i feel like the big three in relationships are a good communication b trust i do think trust kind of comes from good communication um good sex and then also synchronicity i think synchronicity is really important and synchronicity doesn't necessarily mean oh we have to have the same hobbies or we have to have the same job or we have to whatever i think synchronicity is simply you two growing side by side even if it's in different directions you're still growing together you're still working together you're still like moving on your own path as individuals but at the same time do you know what i mean and i feel like a lot of people find themselves having difficult times in relationships in relationships when the

synchronicity is off when you guys just like aren't meshing either through communication issues trust issues um overall just synchronicity issues like we're not growing together um and i do think that's a valid way or valid reason to maybe step away i really do i've had to do that in a relationship in the past um one that i was happy in one that i was having a good time in one that the trust and the communication and the sex was really good in um it was just like we have different priorities we have different goals in life we want to become different people i'm working a little bit harder than you or maybe they're working a little bit harder than me whatever it is and we're just not going in the same direction which means we need to split up and go on our own

pass just so we're both able to become the best version of ourselves um i feel like a lot of people hold themselves back waiting on their partner waiting on them to catch up waiting on that synchronicity to come back and you can work for it and you can like voice your opinions and be like hey i don't think you're growing with me let's work together to make this better um and they can hear that and understand and as a partner show up for themselves so then they can show up in the relationship but if they hear you voice your concerns and they're like i don't want it i don't want to do that i don't want to step up you just you guys are just growing on two different paths and sometimes you have to let that person grow so they can become the best version of themselves

but also so you can become the best version of yourself so very real issue people find themselves in but i really hate seeing a bad bitch wait for a man to catch up to her hey anna um i'm a long time listener of yours and I love the podcast thank you so much so entertaining I want to ask I've recently started like participating in hookup culture and I wanted to ask if you had any advice for it like how to not get feelings involved how to best communicate how you like to receive pleasure from the other person um how to really like communicate with them um how to get your needs met and the like if you have any kind of advice on that I'd really appreciate it I'm just entering my hoe era and I know you're a professional hoe so hit me up girl thank you so much

love you okay i don't know if i'd say i'm a professional hoe i am a lover girl too i actually you know what you know it's like born to be a lover girl for forced to be a hoe like the world hardens us all you know what i mean listen you can still be a lover girl and participate and like hook up culture you know what i mean it's the same way my girly was like um you know should i go on two dates or is this like too much is this okay it's like it's okay to be a lover girl and keep your options open but never let the world harden you sex does involve emotions you're going to have feelings that is valid stop forcing yourself to not have feelings it's okay know you know have a little one night stand every once in a while get tested prioritize yourself in

good sex if you meet them and you're chit-chatting and you the chemistry's not there and you don't think it's gonna be good don't do it just to appease the other person only do it if you are actually interested communicate have you been tested are you seeing other people are you going to jeopardize my sexual health things like that like i feel like people participate in hookup culture when they want to harden themselves to the world and there may be like an anti-lover girl but it's okay to be a lover girl and also participate in that kind of behavior you just have to approach it from a different perspective you have to approach it from a what is it doing for me perspective am i really gaining anything from this is this person really fucking worth it

and if they're not it's really not worth participating in um i feel like a lot of hookup culture nowadays is um i need to do i need to go i need to have as many experiences as i can but that's gonna honestly give you a lot of really bad experiences if you just say yes to every single sexual situation um i think it's okay to say no and actually encourage to say no every once in a while in fact probably most of the time um because you're gonna spend a lot of time with really lame men if your only goal is to kind of um hoe around as one says but if you want to feel that sexual liberation you want to go and you want to have fun go for it girl protect yourself stay safe only do it with people you can trust and you know

you're gonna have a good fucking time with period my i live in a really busy street and every time my boyfriend drives by when he's out and about like running errands or whatever he'll always like honk crazy so he he can like say hi or whatever and he just flew by and was like beep beep beep anyways being in a relationship something that i've learned going on literally last night we were laying in bed and he looked over at me and speaking of he just texted me he said damn sexy you looking fine as fuck in your chair the way you can see in here is scary anyways you're laying in bed last night I was so exhausted I was just like I had worked so much this week and he looked over me goes I love you so much can you believe we've been together for almost four years

now isn't that crazy like we have that's how long we've been together insane I think we're gonna go out to dinner this week and just celebrate you know what I mean um we don't really have an anniversary because we were in like kind of a what are we are you do I want to be friends we're kind of on weird points in our life we're trying to focus on ourselves and then you know you kind of get caught up in a relationship sometimes and that is sometimes the best way a relationship can start I think a big key factor in that is also just like wanting to be in one do you know what I mean like sometimes you can want to be in one but you can still question like is this the right time um but listen if you're not wanted do not stay period but a big part about um being in a

relationship i've realized is picking up where the other person kind of left off or maybe you guys live two very different lives but you come together and you can live a life together like you guys fit together like puzzle pieces in that sort of sense um one of those ways which is really small but it's what he's doing right now is i hate the grocery store i fucking talk about pet peeves a showing up late to the grocery store i hate the grocery store because where i live i shop like in the morning slash afternoons which is when the xanax mommies are out shopping um the xanax mommies who take over the fucking trader joe's and then just leave their cart in the middle of the fucking aisle and then when you're trying to get around them they just stare

at you like slack jaw wide-eyed like oh my god i'm not the only person in this fucking grocery sir like yeah bitch fucking move your cart you're xanaxed out i'm not okay i gotta fucking get out of here i'm like overstimulated i hate the grocery store so he does the grocery shopping i'm like i'll make the list i'll plan the meals because i'm a little bit controlling like that like i love to have like a good dinner at the end of the night i love to plan meals i love to cook i love to make sure like everything is taken care of taking care in that sort of sense and he hates that stuff i mean cooking loves stuff like that he'll come up with meal ideas but you know that's not like number one priority for him but it is for me so i'll send him to do the grocery shopping and look

at what he came home with look at these gorgeous tulips he was like they reminded me of you and it's spring and we need some flowers around the house aren't they so pretty anyways i have a big pot i'm gonna repot them into i need to do some gardening it's actually like about to rain i was gonna do gardening today um but I got these like my landlord dropped off these like railing flower planters um that I want to do some gardening with and plant some flowers and kind of bring life to my apartment that's kind of how I'm celebrating spring um upcoming but aren't they so cute he's so sweet someone said how do I build credit I love how my girl talk and it's like how bitch how do I build credit something I'm figuring out right now because I was so scared to take out

credit cards I my parents really put the fear of credit cards into me which honestly is probably for the best um they didn't really have any like bad credit experiences they just didn't want me to have any bad credit experiences but now I'm like 24 and it's like I have no credit question mark I mean you will build credit through like um maybe of student loans as long as you make regular payments full payments on those that'll help build credit um having an apartment and paying rent on time every single time will help you build credit that's an obvious one that maybe you don't really think about um but also whatever like bank you have um usually they will give you a credit card now do not ever put unnecessary items on this credit card i do not

believe in maxing out a credit card on all of your fucking finances I only put my gas on my credit card and then I also do it through my bank so I don't have to manage two different apps because I feel like when when I was thinking about taking out a credit card I was like well having to go into a new app and make a new payment um which just auto bill pay everything honestly so you never forget um but I feel like it's kind of like out of sight out of mind in that sort of sense so I just took one out through my local bank and now it's on my app I can see it directly under my checking and savings or whatever um and I only put my gas on there so it's a little bit of money going on there but it just shows that I'm active and I am I can healthily use a credit

card it's not about maxing it out it's not about anything like that it's just showing that you can pay bills on time that's literally all credit is um but yeah shout out to my parents for putting the fear of god into me for credit cards because i know if they never taught me about it i know i'd be 17 like taking out a credit card and just maxing that bitch and i see all these tiktoks of people like giving their um like uh credit history and they're in so much fucking debt and that is so scary to me the one thing you need to be scared of in this life is debt okay i wish it was more afraid of debt when i took out student loans that's a different topic but you don't need debt okay you do not need to be in a stuck in a financial situation like that so protect yourself

while you're young but credit is important it can come from many different places um just don't over max that and don't i would say just like with your finances be the most careful you possibly can be that is my best advice i'm not like a gambler when it comes to my finances i feel like will never work out for me stick to the facts be careful do your best period was asked on two dates with two different guys is it wrong to casually get to know two people at once I don't think that's wrong unless you're like fully entertaining like obsessed with someone else I say if your options are open then take as many opportunities as you can you know what I mean I don't think there's anything wrong with that I think what makes it wrong are the situations where it's like

I'm gonna rank the guys I'm dating and I'm gonna protect myself so I'm just gonna date as many people as I possibly can and never commit because love isn't real like blah blah blah I think that's unhealthy but if the universe just lined up two different men and they want to take you on dates then sure I don't think there's really anything wrong with that um people think they can escape heartache but avoiding it at all cost is itself a form of heartache do you know what i mean anyways roster talk about hardening your heart and stepping away from love the universe lining up two men and giving an opportunity i think that's healthy that's okay go for it man that can't communicate clearly but is so hot in a lana del rey older man type of way

girl you're dating a man child and he is only around you so he can literally suck the life force out of you he's a lame man and he has no personality so he's attaching himself onto younger people that he can use and abuse and suck the life force out of and personality out of until he has feel like until he feels like he's gotten enough from it and he can step away from you anyways spring break is here and i'm craving a feral night to let out my inner gremlins this is a real thing especially as a reformed party girl who I felt like held herself back for so long and then I went on a two-year bender like it's okay to have a night to go crazy that is healthy now when it's every single night that's when it becomes unhealthy do you see what I'm

saying that's when it's called binge drinking but every once in a while to let your inner gremlins out it's healthy it's real and as a reformed party girl it's the way i sustain myself and still function as a human being without falling into another bender do you know what i mean um but yeah i felt like when i was younger i held myself back i held myself back and then i was like oh my god the world is opening up to me i'm going to go crazy and i'm gonna do every drug imaginable for the next 625 days and then you're like whoa I'm burned the fuck out I'm not gonna do anything again and then it's a cycle I think the healthiest thing you can do especially being a young person who's gonna fucking go out and have a good time it's just like every once in a while for me

personally as I've gotten older I feel like that's like once a month for me honestly at this point probably less just because I'm so tired but when I was younger maybe it was like once a week once every other week now it's once a month you have to let those goblins out you gotta let those gremlins free you gotta let yourself get crazy indulge in the unseriousness of life do you know what i mean i feel like that is healthy people who don't do that you end up like going crazy at some point so do it healthily you know plan it out if you can being an adult is planning the days you're gonna black out like writing them onto your calendar a lot of you guys are just sending me questions and it's actually realizations that probably eclipses and mercury retrograde are

showing you that you need to break up with your boyfriend another one being i haven't heard from my boyfriend in two days after he was upset about something i did help that man doesn't care about you he's emotionally torturing you and he knows he is by his lack of communication and i know this because my mother used to do this to me when i was young she'd get mad at me and wouldn't talk to me for a week talk about trauma you don't need that from a boy especially one that you can fucking leave so run hey hannah first of all i wanted to say hey how are you doing and i love your podcast it genuinely makes me so happy and it's like a how-to guide from like the big sister that I wish I had and it just means a lot like you truly are so fucking inspiring and whenever

you're feeling low or you're not really feeling the best just think about how many people in their lives that like you're touching and genuinely making an impact on but um I wanted some advice on how to kind of feel whole again after a breakup especially a long-term one the one I got out of was two years long, and let's just say I got done dirty. He wouldn't change any of his behaviors that he knew hurt my feelings. I was carrying the relationship on my back, and he just diminished me, made me feel small. Thank you for any advice. I appreciate it so much. Period. Men be evil, but you're free. You're free. You're finally free from the evils of the world, so go out there um when i was in a relationship very similar to yours where i felt like i was

being completely held back and isolated from the world this is one thing that i did and i feel like it's a really really great because i feel like a lot of women have relationships with really bad men um and they want to isolate us and lock us in a closet and have us be little pets for them um so if you ever find yourself in a relationship and all of a sudden you find yourself free from that relationship this is my number one advice um you need to make a breakup bucket list um and this breakup bucket list is basically going to consist of a bunch of things that you were not allowed to do in the relationship or felt like you couldn't do in the relationship but now that you're out of it you can because fuck him do you know what i mean um so it was like maybe it's like

I'm gonna go out to a bar because he didn't let me go out maybe it's like a I don't know you know it could be anything whatever you felt uncomfortable doing in that past relationship or things that you felt like he was holding you back from go do them make at least a list of like five to ten things and then like involve your friends like fucking have a good time go out do it experience life you deserve it you should not be held back from the world and i'm so sorry listen sometimes we lose ourselves in people and that's you you didn't lose any time because you did learn something from it and you know what you don't like now but now it's your responsibility and your job to lean into yourself to accomplish everything you wanted to accomplish to not let anybody else hold you

back um and to just grow and be that beautiful person that you deserve to be um because you are deserving of it but yeah the breakup bucket list I created one of those right out of my last relationship and I felt like it was kind of as like a speed track to healing you know it was like okay I just got to get everything done on this list and then which I kind of did within the first week and then I was like okay I feel like a full human being now I feel like I got everything off my chest I'm good I'm learning who I am I'm taking advantage of life again I'm living life again let's get into it do you know what i mean anyways i love you you thank you so much for your kind words um congratulations on your breakup sounds like you're up okay um go live life

anyways i think that's it for the podcast you guys thank you for being here thank you for being you thank you for submitting all your questions um sounds like we're all kind of feeding off this spring energy remember to keep your head on straight as best as you can during this market retrograde um really all we can do during this time is try our best and stay patient um indulge in some self-healing behaviors as well and self-healing behaviors can be hard of course if we're not used to it or if we're not used to prioritizing ourself but it's definitely something that the universe wants us to lean into so with that being said i love you all so very much thank you for being here um and thank you for being the hot sexy beautiful people that you are um if you

want to see more from me follow the instagram at hannah marlene that's where i post questions call-ins things like that just stay up to date with my life i've been posting a lot of fun content there i posted some spring outfit inspo i'm posting a cooking reel um again this week um you guys have really been enjoying that and i've been having a great time because i love making food and you guys love seeing my recipes apparently because they're all great munchie food um um so i'll be posting some more of those i post consistently on the patreon we have a lot of fun new content coming up because it is a new month got a new a lot of new month things to catch up with um i usually post like a tarot reading for the month i'll post like some rituals for the

month i'll post um like our book club book for the month things like that uh monday manifestation sunday journal prompts and we'll do extra video content every single thursday on the patreon i believe this week will be just like a chit-chatting and cooking episode um i'm also doing patreon only questions on there as well and patreon.com slash smokes at shoddy um come join the patreon club it'll be fun um if not follow the instagram to stay up to date um and yeah thank you just for listening to this podcast and showing up for me every single week not only showing up for me but showing up for yourself putting yourself out there and um saying yes to the universe every time it asks you what direction you want to take take the positive one do you know what i mean take the high

road always especially during this murky retrograde season sometimes especially during this time best to keep your mouth closed if you don't have anything good to say with that being said i love you all so much have a safe sexy beautiful week and i'll see you all on next tuesday Thank you.