Smoke Sesh - idgaf mentality, healthy habits & growing up

Episode Date: January 16, 2024

Hello hotties happy Tuesday! I know this isn’t a video episode but I’m excited to add video episodes to our weekly routine on Thursdays! Still keeping our usual Tuesday audio episodes for you all though. I sit down and chat what I’ve been up to, dry January and how I’m coping, plans for the week, we talk routines, to break or breakup, planning towards the future and traveling, quitting bad habits, red flags and learning to read them, looking cute in the cold, nighttime scaries and how to avoid them, earning respect from men? nipples, growing up and looking forward, periods and pain as women, pregnancy, idgaf mentality and where to devote your time, exclusivity and much much muchhhh more. Thank you for being here for Tuesdays episode I love you all so much! Thank you for always supporting and sharing the love, Thursdays video episode will be out for you all very soon and I can’t wait to chat and smoke with you there! Once again remember to follow me on instagram @hannahmarlene and join the patreon for more fun, see you Thursday! MUAH!

Listen, everybody needs a fairy godmother, you know? Just somebody to look out for them. Some people call me their fairy smoke mother, others their internet big sister, but you can call me Hannah, the host of Smoke Sash. So come hang out! Let's light up and talk everything there is to life. The good, the bad, the ugly, the embarrassing. I've got a story for it all. Good morning, hotties of the world. Welcome back to another amazing Smoke Sash episode. i'm sure right now you're thinking hannah why is there not a video attached to this episode and that's because listen we had to have like a little a meeting of sorts with all the girlies

we had to come together and talk about how we wanted to do this podcast listen we're a democracy here i like to hear from you guys i like to hear what you're thinking what you want to do and i put up a little poll on my instagram and i asked you guys do we want one video episode a week or or do we want one audio episode plus a bonus video episode because that's low-key what i was kind of leaning towards but i wanted to know from you guys you know anyways you guys voted you voted for i mean i think like 4 000 of you guys voted for one regular audio episode plus one video episode a week thank you love you the girlies who did vote for just like one video episode a few of you guys dm me and you were so sweet you guys are like the only reason i voted for

this is because i don't want you to overwork yourself and i don't want you to get burnt out you guys are literally the fucking sweetest like thank you so much for worrying about me but listen it's my job it's my job to make these and put them out to you and give them to you and hang out with you and I have the best fucking job in the world so if that means I can do another episode a week and give you guys more content that's exactly what I want to do it also takes me a little bit longer to edit the video episodes and export them and upload them and blah blah blah you guys don't care so it's easier for me to put out these little audio episodes and then I get like a couple days to put out a video episode as well so psa every tuesday per usual per normal i

don't want to fuck up your schedule we're not switching things we're adding things every tuesday you're gonna get your audio episode beautiful amazing lovely and then on thursdays on spotify and on youtube there will be an extra video episode for you guys which i am just so excited for um i have been learning how to edit i love being face to face with you guys when i chit chat hang out there's nothing better um all the support recently has been so fucking amazing and i am just so happy to have you guys be a part of this community and how loving and encouraging you are i am just so happy that we have been able to garner this kind of relationship together and you guys are the baddest fucking bitches on this planet and i'm so lucky to have you standing next

to me and with me every single week so i wanted to give back and listen video episodes are i love them i love them but i also miss just hanging out and doing a little quick audio episode so that's our little you know city council meeting psa we're getting an extra episode a week tuesdays regular audio what you're listening to right now and then thursdays are going to be the usual video episode um i think in the future i am going to be uploading the video episodes earlier on the patreon so if you want to become a patreon member please do i love my patreon girlies you have so much fun on there i post pretty often i do a lot of vlogs on there as well um any exclusive content that's going to come out like on youtube or anything like that is

always posted to the patreon first so if you want to support me and hang out with all the other girlies join the patreon i believe it's patreon.com slash smoke says shoddy um but yeah that's really all i have to catch you guys up on i have been what the fuck have i been doing not a lot if i'm being honest we've been snowed in for the past like week um we have gotten not like a ton of snow in comparison to what we have had in the past considering we used to get like multiple feet of snow but the main issue recently has just been the cold it's freezing out it is so cold out i'm talking it's colder in kansas city missouri than it is in alaska what what are you talking about like what do you mean it's colder here than alaska and i don't remember it being this cold

when i was younger oh scary i'm not gonna think too hard about it listen i do the best i can to prevent climate change i'm just one person we all must work together it is the billionaire's fault let's blame it on them quite frankly but i have been just like cuddled up inside as much as i possibly can recently um still staying consistent to my january goals my new year's resolutions i love my like daily you know stretching little pilates yoga mat just like moving my body a little bit i'm still going strong on dry january um i'm like what halfway through the month at this point i'm like let's just keep it going um my poor boyfriend's like let's go on a date to this like club let's go on a date to this bar and i'm like yeah love you cannot do that unfortunately

unfortunately cannot join you um but I have found a fantastic alternative I'm gonna actually make a little cocktail with me video tonight but there is this THC infused um like I want to say alcohol but it's not an alcohol um because there's no alcohol in it thc infused spirit i guess is what i would call it um and it's called nowadays oh my god i'm obsessed with this stuff and it honestly has been a lifesaver for me during this dry january because listen i love my i love my thc girly that girly will stay with me through my entire life alcohol not as healthy for me not great this is a fantastic fantastic alternative and of course i had to dm them and get you guys a discount because listen i need to put you guys on but i also want you to save your money as much

as you can um so you can use code hannah m15 all capitals h-a-n-n-a-h-m-1-5 for 15% off if you would like to order from them you just log on nowadays.com so yummy and a few of you guys were dming like girl does this really work like are you actually feeling something i was on my ass literally i only use two ounces because you know a normal cocktail you only use two ounces i was curious what it tasted like and it almost tastes like a lemon drop it's pre-sweetened and a little fruity little lemony so it's perfect for mixing with any sort of like seltzer water um with any sort of juices you have it mixes really well with that i would not recommend it for like a savory cocktail um or like an espresso martini like bloody mary espresso martini not gonna work but a normal ass

fruity fun cocktail perfect and it gives you the same effects that like you know you want that little buzz after a cocktail you want that little you know you want to drink it and feel a little okay i'm relaxing i'm sinking into the couch this is exactly what it gives you but a thc feel instead of a alcohol feel which is great um i made myself a little cocktail the other night and i was expecting you know oh it won't do a lot girl i was like i looked at my boyfriend i was like i have to go lay down i have to go lay down illy but i'm gonna go put myself to bed quite frankly um so yeah i think it's a fantastic alternative especially for those who want to feel like still a part of the whole you know drinking socialization minus alcohol maybe you're

on your dry january um excursion maybe you are just trying to adhere from drinking for a little bit i am obsessed with this stuff um i have been having a little glass of it every night and it works faster than an edible i feel like edibles i gotta wait for them to hit you know you gotta wait for your body to digest it to process it but i think this is since it's liquid form um it really just like completely sinks into your system and immediately hits and it's so yummy anyways enough on that i just thought i would put you guys on because it's the most recent kind of like cannabis thing that I have been very interested in and it's like my been my only hobby for the past what five days so yeah that's really all I have to catch you guys up on um yeah

I've been spending my days just inside cuddled up me and my boyfriend went out to like one of my favorite winter activities and also like spring activities is going to like a local diner and just having breakfast for as long as humanly possible and just drinking as much like free refill black coffee as you can there's something just so nostalgic about it i love a long breakfast i love breakfast in general i love the vibes of a diner um i took some photos so i posted those on instagram go share go send a little like go say hi love you hannah marlene um instagram at hannah marlene you guys already know but yeah really that's that's really been it we're going out to dinner this thursday for a little date night um but yeah that's i i know you're like

hannah stop talking we want to get into the questions i hear you i hear you i'm so sorry let's smoke a little bowl first because i know why you guys are here and then let's get into some questions all righty let's hit this little bowl together and let's get into it oh my god you can literally hear how clogged my my uh bong is right now oh i love a good bong pole when it's like that you know sound this one is struggling bitch it's struggling anyways cheers let's dive into it okay speaking of drinking i guess this is a good one to dive into someone said what do i do if my boyfriend loves drinking even though his body rejects it that was me that was me i was coming home and i

was projectile vomiting and my boyfriend was like girl girl what's going on like listen it's fun you're a party girl i get it you're cute you're hot you just want to have a good time but like there's a difference between having a good time and like going out and enjoying your time and coming home versus like blacking out and being a mess there is a very fine line between the two and you are way across that fucking line so like let's sit down let's have a conversation and he did and I honestly like really appreciated that because I knew deep down like oh I'm I'm kind of a mess right now but like I was like oh but I'm a cute mess and he had to sit me down and be like no you're not being a cute mess like there's throw up on like in the sink bitch what what's going on

you're throwing up outside of my car what's going on and it was just simply because i was just like drinking way too much and when he sat me down and actually talked to me about that i was like you know what you're right that's very unfair to you because you're not the one going out and drinking and enjoying this time so when i come home and i'm a hot mess and i make your life more difficult it really isn't fair because you didn't sign up for that kind of experience you know like of course he's gonna stand by me and support me and love me no matter what and he's gonna you know hold my hair when i am projectile vomiting but you know you're like wait wait a minute that's not fair because he doesn't like getting this way for a reason so it's not fair

that i'm bringing that around him um and i really appreciated him just like putting it into perspective for me so i think you could do the same um especially if you think he's like over drinking or just as a mess when he comes home i think a very fair thing to say is like hey if you're gonna be like sloppy blackout drunk maybe just like don't come to my place i'm just trying to have a very peaceful chill girls night and i don't want to deal with that energy um i think that's a very fine fair thing to say especially if he's about to get sloppy fucking drunk um and possibly become a problem for you for the night uh and if he is kind of shocked or mad about that listen that's an issue he can deal with on his own you communicated your issues you communicated

how you feel what you're expecting it's his job to figure out his emotions after that um and then i think just sitting down and being like hey i think your drinking is going way too far in a sense like i love you cutie but can we please stop throwing up at home or like being a mess at home it's really becoming a problem those are very very fair things to say and i think the um sign of a good partner is somebody who can sit down and listen to your issues or not even your issues but your concerns or your ideas or your thoughts they can sit down they can like be receptive to them they can process them and understand them and see from your point of view and then figure out what to do accordingly after that taking you into consideration and your feelings

and what you just communicated and making changes accordingly that is a sign of a very good healthy real relationship um simply just being able to communicate how you feel and what's going on and having your partner be receptive to that and try and make sure the next time is better in whatever sort of sense is going on i've been in so many relationships where it's like what you're doing is not okay and they're like no you're fucking crazy and now you're being mean and now i'm the victim that is not a healthy relationship that is not healthy communication girlies if you're finding yourself in that position please get out of it um i was stuck in that for so long trying to teach a man how to communicate bitch he's not four he's 20 something

he can fucking communicate and figure it out on his own don't baby him let him figure out the world on his own and stand on his own two fucking feet and if he can't communicate girl you are dating a toddler let's be honest let's be real so you know talk about your concerns bring it up i don't think he will have a huge problem um especially if he's able to see things from your perspective because yeah once i saw it from my perspective from my boyfriend's perspective i was like oh we gotta chill girl you're not being the hot cool girl anymore you're being the hot mess anyways love you oh someone said going back to dating after he said he wants a break I'm assuming because there's little information to work with I'm assuming he wanted a break

and now you guys are dating again after he took a break um and there's like two ways I think this could go either it was a mutual break or he wanted a break which let's be honest you said he wanted it so let's go with that information um if it was a mutual break I think for me personally you're either with me or you're not and when you're not with me there's no going back to me you had what you had we were together you either figure it the fuck out while you're here or you lose your opportunity bye next it's very simple i'm also just a i'm a scorpio venus okay i am just like a little too possessive and not controlling but i know my worth and i really am not going to settle for less and if you don't want to fucking be in my life then good riddance quite frankly um

so if i was in your situation and my boyfriend came to me he was like i went to break he would never get an opportunity to speak to me again after that great have fun on your break for the rest of your life quite frankly um if he just wanted to set you aside so he could enjoy time alone he could have done that in the relationship he could have done that in a more respectful way being like hey you could hey girl i need a night to myself hey i'm going out with the boys tonight i will see you in the morning i love you i'm gonna take a weekend to myself that's fine that's normal in a relationship everybody's gonna need time to themselves but if he wanted to break up with you knowing he could come back to you so he get time alone

the way he is viewing you is not as a equal partner in my opinion the way he is viewing you is as oh his girlfriend oh somebody who will listen to him someone who will do what he wants that is also in the respect of he put you aside so he could come back to you later not a we mutually needed time away i think sometimes relationships can work if you both are like no no mutually we need a break I need a year alone we need to break up we need space I we both want to be single right now and then you get back together later with some distance with some time I think that can work once again if it is mutual very mutual but there is a weird thing that happens during those breaks that make going back to that relationship really hard um what were

you doing constantly having those questions you know did he sleep with other people oh he did sleep with other people okay i'm gonna go the rest of our second time having a relationship thinking about that thinking about that break thinking about what he was doing and that stress is just not worth it that overthinking is not worth it and i guarantee he's not fucking overthinking about it and he's putting all of that on you and that is just not fair whatsoever find a partner who loves and respects you and communicates what the fuck he needs during it instead of casting you aside um so he can go and quote unquote enjoy life and then know that he's casted you aside and know that he can come back to you because you're still in love that's fucked up that's manipulative

that is just not fair in my opinion so not sure you know how things were going or if it was mutual or not but I say if a man wants a break with you girl he just wants to break up and a break is a man knowing that he can put you aside and come back to you later and you are not leftovers girl you're not leftovers you don't get to you don't deserve to be treated like leftovers quite frankly I love you please leave lame manipulative men in 2023 we're in 2024 let's move on love you hey Hannah love the pod I just want to call in because I was curious about what you thought about planning trips I like want your advice on how to like set up little fun trips for yourself in the future I feel like that's something I really want to do this spring and summer but

I'm having trouble sitting down and like doing it and like organizing my life and thoughts in a way that's like useful I know that sounds like stupid but also the way that you touch on how important it is to have a planner like what sort of planners do you recommend for people how do you recommend going about that like I just want to get better at organizing fun experiences for myself and my friends and like people I love and yeah thank you love you cutie I love staying organized oh my god it's my favorite thing I used to be somebody who could not look at the future or it would provide it would like make me anxious because I didn't know what was coming but then I realized I was only anxious because I wasn't looking towards the future and I didn't know what was coming

and I could understand what was happening in the future if I just looked ahead anyways um I um I love a planner I love being able to plan my week I love being able to plan my month once again I think every planner is different and you need to find one that works for you um you might find one and not like it get a different one maybe it's an open journal maybe it's like a monthly wall calendar whatever it is whatever you think will work best for you maybe order a couple i just got mine for really cheap on amazon um they're great love it have it on you um make sure it's a fun color so you'll use it make sure you have fun pens so you'll actually write in it um but yeah when it comes to traveling um i do a lot of my traveling in the spring summer and i want to

travel more in the fall so you really got to ask yourself like what places and where do you want to go a let's make a list what's the best time to go when can i work it into my schedule when do i have open times during my schedule when do i have like free time maybe there's a long weekend in the summer um and then i think i really cannot start planning until i book it so once i have a couple days that i know are good days and a place i book the airbnb i book the plane ticket whatever it is plane ticket probably first and then airbnb um just because you're gonna get cheaper plane tickets if you don't wait um and then after that i'm able to actually actualize it and plan i really recommend airbnb like experiences i think they have really fun things set up that

you can do tours you can do fun little excursions events things like that um and then just allowing yourself to look at fun restaurants see if there's any events going on in the city um what are the best things to do what's close to your airbnb um i always make sure i'm staying at a fun place i think having a good hotel or a good air airbnb really makes or breaks the trip specifically good location cute aesthetic fun place easy to get to things like that um that really makes or breaks a trip for me so I take a lot of time to really plan where I'm going to be staying where it's going to be and then activities accordingly around it right now I'm planning my LA trip so really I'm just finding a cool Airbnb and then I just hope to be on the beach every day and eating

good food every day so I'm more so focused on the food um but the first thing I gotta do is book that plane ticket find some days that work for you okay think of the places you want to go close your eyes pick a fucking place book a ticket everything else will fall into place I guarantee if you have the ticket book booked you will figure it out that was me about this time for Mexico I was like I want to go to Mexico I have no idea where or what or how I'm going to be staying there or what I'm going to be doing but I want to go to this place in Mexico so fuck it I'm going to book a ticket and I will figure it out I'll figure it all out and then it gives me time to really think and plan and figure out what I want to do and kind of have something to

look forward to as I plan throughout those months up to those trips and that gets me excited for the future so really when it comes to planning where you want to go figure out the best time to go not only for you but also that place like you don't want to go to Florida right now it's cold go to Florida maybe in the spring when it warms up in the summer in the fall you don't want to go to LA right now because it's cold you can't even sit on a beach you want to do that in the summer ish um really think about like when's the best time to go realistically not only for you but also the place and then sometimes you just got to say fuck it and book the ticket and I guarantee everything else you will figure out someone said thoughts on quitting caffeine and soda um that's

my goal for this year so I went to the dentist I have another dentist appointment coming up I hate the dentist anybody else hate the dentist I don't know what it is I just like I hate having my mouth clopin well depends the situation this this situation specifically yeah bitch get out my fucking mouth i hate that shit anyways you gotta go to the dentist you gotta take care of your teeth but last time i went to the dentist she was like girl you have to quit the soda and at that point i was addicted to cherry coke let's be real i was very addicted to cherry coke i was having one or two a day oh kind of a mess she was like listen soda she's like i would rather have you sit in front of me and chew down three candy bars like three snickers bars because that will do less

damage to your teeth than drinking one can of soda i was like what are you talking about apparently since it's like a liquid sugar it can get in all the cracks and crevices and all the bad places in your mouth more like easier it's more accessible um compared to like a solid form of sugar she was like it is the worst thing you can do for your teeth and not just your teeth it's kind of the worst thing you could do for your overall health just like the things you are drinking again you might as well do like a sparkling water and after that i was like congrats you successfully scared me i'm switching to lacroix and i did and honestly it was a great habit to be um I'm very happy I did it but caffeine girl I just I don't know if I can do

caffeine you might be stronger than me and less reliant but I feel like in the grand scheme of things and looking at all the stimulants I've tried caffeine might might not be the worst um I'm also not drinking it that often I have like a coffee in the morning and maybe a coffee in the afternoon now if you're drinking like a celsius three times a day maybe we got a problem let's split that one up let's maybe stick to one can instead of three but um i think it's also important to maybe switch to a healthier form of caffeine once again celsius your heart might stop not the healthiest form of caffeine you a little black coffee not gonna be awful for you a little green tea oh bitch i love a green tea talk about a healthy caffeine option not only is it good for

your skin and your body and full of antioxidants um it's also just like it's a form of caffeine of course but it's a little lower dosage very easy on the system um and overall i think very great for you i love a green tea go to okay so go to your local asian market get some lychee syrup order on amazon i don't care maybe some honey but specifically lychee syrup mixed with a chilled cold green tea um and then like maybe a little lemonade on top or like soda water it is the best i love green tea anyways go after your goals if you're like hey i want to try this challenge do it nothing is stopping you same thing with dry january i was like i don't really give a fuck what people think about me and i think it'll be a really fun challenge fuck it i don't care if

it means i'm not gonna go out to drinks with my friends i don't care if it means maybe we have less date nights because i just simply don't want to go out and be tempted i'm gonna do what i think is best for me and i love a little good challenge i haven't challenged myself in a while let's do it and i have really been enjoying challenging myself so i dare you challenge yourself see what you can do i would say if you're gonna start with anything definitely start with the soda oh my god my girlfriend lied and emotionally cheated on me with a 13 year old she's 18 i'm still with her but should i do i even have to answer this just she should be facing jail time you need to be running as far away as possible oh my god oh my god oh my god please i'm begging you when you see

a major red flag waving in your face in any sort of relationship whether it's best friend whether it's like romantic relationship please read the sign for what it says and process it and make actions accordingly okay you know it's weird and fucked up i don't know if she's trying to convince you it's not but you need to get out of there you need to go please run away oh my god there's like this middle school drama that's coming to my brain the craziest shit happens in middle school i don't know why middle schoolers are like unhinged but in my middle school this girl got her boyfriend sent to juvie i guess because they were underage because she this is pre-phones i know you're like girl what do you mean you didn't have a phone no no when i was in middle school we had like

a razor like there's not even as many buttons as there are letters and there's a tiny little fucking screen you can't really take you can't take photos on them like you can't take photos on phones crazy to think about at this point because i'm seeing like five-year-olds walk around with the iphone 15 and i'm actually like scared scary anyways she was taking nudes on her boyfriend's ds and then reported him to the principal and then he got sent to jail for child pornography wild shit also the same girl who came to my school with her grandma's dildo and was running around the halls touching people with her grandma's dildo and then when someone found out about it and like obviously reported it she threw it away and like buried it under trash so

my principal had to get in the trash can and dig to the very bottom of it and like whip out this giant dildo and then all the people who got touched with this dildo had to go get tested for like they go get an std test just in case craziest shit happened in middle school that's not even like the worst someone asked how to make my outfit cute while it's so cold out long puffer and snow boots at the moment okay real most the time majority of the time when it's cold out i'm not trying to look cute i'm trying to survive i'm trying to not die walking to my car and that's valid you don't have to try and look cute doing that you know like sometimes we just gotta survive and that's real valid um but i also understand getting fucking tired of it and being like

i want to look cute i'm tired of looking like a literal snowman walking around that's when i suggest just finding all you need all you need is like you said a long coat and some cute snow boots you already got the fit down maybe a cute scarf if you want to spice it up maybe some cute gloves if you want to spice it up I think you could take that long puffer and those boots you're wearing and throw on some cheetah print gloves and a matching cheetah print scarf and bam now you gotta fit um but my main winter shopping consists of cute long coats I think long coats are the best way to survive the winter um I posted my photo today which I think is a perfect kind of like cold winter outfit which was my um thick ass Doc Martens with a nice grip on the bottom so I'm not

gonna fall thick ass levi's my long penny lane coat that i thrifted for like 12 bucks um and that's like my go-to cold outfit but i do think you have to focus on like what you're doing outwards because the the outfit underneath it can stay cute as long as you're warm on the outside too sometimes you've got to get from point a to point b and you're not gonna look the cutest and that's valid but if you are tired of you know looking like a snowman um i recommend just investing in a cute long coat maybe some cute boots um or elevate the look with some cute gloves and a matching scarf oh how do you survive oh wait how do you avoid nighttime scary slash depression i guess survive as well how can the girlies enjoy a slow evening so i think routine is everything

our brains love routine i'm going to keep repeating that it's going to be a routine in my fucking life until you build a routine in yours quite frankly um routine routine routine routine can't get up in the morning build a routine you like have a you got nighttime scaries build a routine you like um i think routine is very important and it's kind of weird being an aunt and seeing how serious my niece and my nephew's routines are and how integral they are to them being a full functioning human being at the age of fucking two and like the better their routine is and the more on they are with their routine throughout the day the like happier they are the more understanding they are the more they're able to function and although they're two and i'm

like 24 i see that two-year-old version in myself when i like mess up my routine or my i don't get my nightly routine and or i don't get my morning routine on in i feel like my whole life is completely tilted like i'm not on the right path so routine is very important especially if you have a hard time waking up or slowing down build a good slow down routine um especially if you get the nighttime scaries if you just eat dinner and jump into bed and don't do anything you're gonna have a lot of time alone with your brain doing nothing and that is what's scary so take your time you know take your time taking a shower take your time brushing your hair make sure you brush your teeth make sure you maybe get like a little snack in before treat yourself to like a couple oreos i

don't know something yummy you know um maybe like smoke a bowl before you get into bed i don't know if that's a part of your nighttime routine maybe get a little nowadays drink in i don't know wind down a little bit and then I think the media since we all consume media at any point in the day specifically at night the media we consume is very important when I do get those nighttime scaries or I get anxious at night I think the best thing I can do for myself is put on a tv show that I've seen before a comfort show a comfort movie comfort youtube video whatever it is but on this podcast whatever brings you just like a little bit of comfort and serenity and something that your brain has already watched and known and understand put that on on the background even if

you're swiping on your phone put it on the tv played in the background of your phone so you do kind of have that calming relaxing presence maybe it's music maybe it's a record literally whatever calls to you and calms you down i think having slow media that your brain has already recognized playing is the best way to kind of counteract those nighttime scaries in tandem with a good slow down long slow down routine so your brain has time to understand okay it's nighttime we're taking our time we're doing our steps my brain is thinking through them winding down thinking about the day calming down so then when i do finally get into bed i'm not sitting there overthinking hyper anxious whatever it is because i've given my brain time to chill the fuck out

and quite frankly my long showers taking care of my body and my hair and my teeth getting a little snack in um having my little edible for the night and then reading um even if you're playing a little movie you've already seen in the background my brain needs like so many things going on at once and i don't know what the fuck happened to it or why it got ruined and i need that but i do need like four different things playing at once which is crazy but i also think reading has been very helpful for me for like slowing down and winding down and getting my brain to calm down at the end of the night escaping into a book rather than my phone and having tiktok pop up so many fucking crazy videos for me to get anxious about i don't need

that i don't need that i'm gonna scroll on pinterest i'm gonna scroll on tumblr um i'm going to fucking read a book and I'm gonna have that tv show in the background that I've seen a million fucking times so my brain knows what's happening and doesn't have to overthink doesn't have a lot of stuff to process one form of media to process maybe anyways routine enjoy your time slow down take your time nourish yourself nourish your body give thanks and then crawl into bed you'll be exhausted I promise hey Hannah I'm literally under my desk at work recording this because I really need to ask you this but how do I earn the respect of my male co-workers because I feel like they just look at me like I'm just this lovely little girl but I've got a brain and a

nice ass I want to be respected so how do I do that without coming across as a total bitch thanks love you honestly once you give up trying to appease men and show them that you are an actual human being your life will get so much better there is no reason for you to have to earn their respect just because you're a woman they should respect you and understand that you're smart and capable because you have the same fucking job as them okay and if they're demeaning you in any sort of sense do not take that shit call them out on it literally like contact hr but i am so tired of women feeling like they need to prove themselves for to men just because they are women girl fuck them if they are like demeaning to you or don't see you as an equal do not give them any of your

time okay quite frankly you're allowed to be a bitch at that point like you're allowed to call them out on it you're allowed to like if they're not giving you the day or time then you don't have to give them the time or energy you don't have to be overly nice because they don't see you as you okay men just see you as who they who you fucking are mention it view you as lower or lesser because you're a woman and if they are you don't owe them anything you don't owe them any of your time or your respect you don't have to appease them okay appease yourself stand by yourself stay true to yourself um be that badass fucking smart ass bitch that you are stay hot stay sexy stay cute but you don't need to impress men or appease them in any sort of way especially your

co-workers like fuck them you just got to get along and be cordial with them but like if they're not going to respect you you don't have to respect them this question is crazy i kind of love it you guys send the wildest shit to my dms and i live for it i love you guys because like i can't be the only one here saying weird shit we gotta be in this together girl okay someone said do your nips actually get hard when you're about to fuck or no because i'm scared of having soft nips what is the obsession with being scared of having soft nipples like they're not supposed to be on hard all the time i did hear about like this new there's so many crazy fucking cosmetic procedures please i love you you're beautiful how you are please but people are injecting like silicone

into their nipples so they're permanently hard scary scary your body like your nipples get soft and hard because they're supposed to do both they're not supposed to permanently be one certain way so please let them just be how they are all nipples are beautiful quite frankly um and i think if you like have if you like the look of a hard nipple you might like having your nipples pierced I got mine pierced and honestly I was about to say 10 out of 10 experience but I'm like I'm like a somebody who just gave birth and is like two years into it I'm like oh birth wasn't that hard like oh yeah getting your nipples pierced wasn't that hard that's just because I have time away um yeah no it's gonna hurt like any sort of piercing I feel like it wasn't the

most painful piercing I've had um the the second one hurt more than the first because after the first year adrenaline kind of wears off and the second one is like the real actual feeling and healing takes a little bit of time i would say about two years you're gonna need maybe three for your nipples to be completely completely healed um but i love the look of them and i was a little insecure about my my titties my nipples all the above and then once i got them pierced i feel like adorning yourself and decorating yourself is the perfect way to kind of honor yourself like your body is a temple your body is an altar let's put some things on it let's decorate let's celebrate it um and getting my nipples pierced really helped me kind of celebrate my

small boobs shout out shout out to my small boobs um actually i'm going through like my second puberty or whatever i have been for like the past two years and now i'm like oh okay woman okay woman and it's a fun feeling i love being like okay no i'm actually growing into my body loves it love the way our bodies change and develop as we grow very interesting things happening uh with time and with just living life you are going to change your body's going to change the way you think about things is going to change and i think you should be thankful for everything um where was i going with this oh soft nips girl i i think if you're horny your nipples do get hard but also like if you're cold they're gonna get hard um like there is really no

meaning behind it if you like a hard nipple just have him play with them and I guarantee they'll get hard but don't don't think too much about it because I guarantee they are not thinking much about it like if you put some boobs in my face I'm not hyper analyzing their fucking nipples I'm like boobs amazing love them any shape size any nipple I'm literally like great fantastic thank you I'm not hyper analyzing it you will think more about yourself than anybody else on this planet so if i was going to give anybody any sort of recommendation for anything it's stop thinking so much about yourself your nipples are beautiful but yeah if you like like the aesthetic of a hard nipple i really really really having mine pierced period oh someone said i'm turning 25 this year

in may i'm excited and loving the woman that i'm growing to be that is so cute because i'm turning 25 in June and I really feel like like looking back on it I'm not 25 yet but looking back on my young 20s like 20 to 25 they were really hard in a sense of like you develop this whole idea identity and this whole self in high school and then you go to college or you get out of high school and you move on with your life and you're kind of like thrown back on your ass you're like a baby again but you're like an adult baby so they're treating you as if you should know everything but you're like no I'm still learning and growing why is no one helping me why is this harder than it should be why do I feel like I've just regressed completely and it's because you've

entered a new stage in your life so you are kind of pushed back to the bottom but you're working your way to the top and it's okay to know nothing and it's okay to try everything and it's okay to make mistakes and grow and learn and change because your brain's also still developing during that time you're developing your life's developing you're changing your mind you're doing this you're doing that and then when you hit 25 I feel like you've gone through it and you're like okay at 25 you start to feel a little bit settled you may not have it all figured out you may still be trying to figure shit out or figure out what you want to do like I'm 25 and I'm still figuring out what I want to do but you have a more stable mindset and you kind of are able to stand by

yourself a little bit stronger and a little bit more hardy than what you used to and that in itself makes all the chaos around you feel a little less intimidating because you have an identity you have an understanding of yourself you've been through some shit your brain's developed you're like we can do this we can figure it out and that is exactly what i'm stepping into and it feels so so nice my friend actually came into my restaurant last night and i got to sit and chit chat with her for a while and i'm so thankful for having her in my life um she's older than me but i love having women in my life who are older than me so i can just like talk and learn from them and understand the world from their perspective and just get advice and she is i think she's like

30 but she's like listen i'm like i've been having a great time i've been living my life sure but she's like i'm just starting to figure out like what i actually want to do and that's okay it's okay to take your time it's okay to wait a little bit longer than usual to you know go to school or figure out what you want to do you have an endless amount of time on this earth and you don't have to have it all figured out today but you do need to at least dream and look forward and try your hardest and as long as you do that you will have everything else figured out like my dad's 50 and he just changed careers and he's successful but he's able to be successful so fast because he spent so much time living this life understanding things building up a knowledge and having that

time under his belt so then he's able to apply it accordingly um and when you're 20 or you're in your young 20s that's going to be so much harder because you have just so you've less experience so it's okay to know nothing it's okay to want to learn everything and want to try new things and want to develop that's really all you can do at this point but don't put any extra pressure on yourself the older you get the more stable things get the more you'll be able to understand yourself and stand by yourself so just give it time stay true to yourself try as many new things as you can but yeah I'm very excited to turn 25 and previous years I don't think I've ever be able to say that is i'm excited to turn 25 and turn 26 and turn 27 but i am really looking forward to my

birthday this year and i know it'll be a good one and i know with every year to come i have just more joy and hope and happiness that i'll be able to experience so cheers oh any period cramp remedies every first day i'll throw up for hours the pain's unbearable i used to be like this like when i first used to get my period i would literally be projectile vomiting from pain if a man ever calls you weak he's a fucking pussy the fact that we have to put up with this every single month is crazy it's crazy but a the best thing i ever did as a woman for my overall just like health of my fucking like uterus and taking care of my body and my hormones was finding a good doctor okay there's so many doctors I've been to that I've told them my issues

and I've talked to them and they're just like oh it's nothing that's just a part of being a woman bye and it's like no no no I'm coming to you because I have serious questions I have like a serious problem and finding a doctor that will listen to you that will work with you whether it's like you have a serious problem or just something as simple as like finding a good birth control and like working with you and what you want um i think that's a very important thing to have under your belt and something that i've really been trying to figure out during my oh my god trying to figure out what the fuck i'm doing as an adult one of them is finding good doctors um and i guarantee most of you are on your parents health insurance you can find a doctor under your

insurance just log into your insurance see what providers are are offered and then look at their reviews I looked at a lot of reviews for my current doctor and she was just everybody was raving about her and going to her really showed how important it was to have a good doctor stand by your side and not just recommend whatever they're supposed to be pushing actually making sure you were taken care of and the things that you want to work on are worked on so I worked with her to find a good birth control and finding a good birth control really helped me balance my hormones um really helped me negate my cramps a little bit because we once again my cramps used to be I'm talking I would fill up a super plus tampon in 30 minutes I would go through a box of

tampons in three days super plus tampons like I was using so many I was bleeding so much I was anemic I was having the worst cramps possible it was just not good for me and I eventually got on the iud because the iud i was supposed to get on was supposed to completely get rid of your period and i didn't want that i still wanted a period so i didn't have that oh my god am i fucking pregnant you know scaries i wanted to at least have it every month so i knew you know hey this is your check-in that you're not fucking pregnant congratulations um but being on my iud really really helped slow down my periods and now i barely have any cramps i'll have like more ovulation cramps than i will actual period cramps i was laying in bed the other night and i looked

at my boyfriend i said i literally just felt my egg detached from my fallopian tube and travel to my uterus and he looked at me like what the fuck did you just say to me but that's like when i'll actually have cramps and then my period is very light it's two or three days i can wear like a panty liner and be good to go for the whole day my cramps are completely mitigated and that's because i work with my doctor to find a um a to look at my hormones and b to find a birth control that would kind of help with my hormones and help balance things out a little bit so i wasn't in pain all the time just because you're a woman doesn't mean you just suffer constantly if you're having problems advocate for yourself find a doctor who listens to you find you know figure

out the problem okay you don't have to live in this excruciating pain but general um just cramp advice is ibuprofen okay any sort of ibuprofen acetaminophen i take a thousand milligrams listen i had someone come into my dms and was like a thousand milligrams is so dangerous do not recommend that to people i'm never like recommend recommending okay listen but when i was younger i would go over to my friend's house and her mom was in the army and she would give me um i'd be like i need ibuprofen i'm having cramps and she would give me these pills that were humongous and they were military grade ibuprofen you know how much is in military grade ibuprofen a thousand milligrams of acetaminophen so i'm like if they're giving this to military people

i can fucking have it okay um so i take about that much in order for my pain to stop when it comes to cramps and then i discovered the beauty of um sticky heating pads you can get on get them on amazon um i get like lavender infused sticky heating pads and they basically work the same as like a hand warmer but they're adhesive so you can stick them on and wearing wear them throughout the day those are a fucking game changer because you can wear them under your clothes you can wear them um i mean naked in bed it's not gonna fall off you don't have to hold it on you stick them on it's warm it smells like lavender it's relaxing it's calming fantastic especially for everyday use um and just making sure you're staying hydrated making sure you're eating enough iron

you're up on your daily vitamins simple things like that making sure your body is rested and well taken care of will make periods a little bit easier um straining or exerting yourself or not getting the right nutrients is not a good idea during your period it's going to make things 10 times worse in fact our date night this week is um we're going to like a what is it called like a brazilian meat place you know i'm talking about where they come around with the meats and the sticks because i am anemic and my boyfriend's like you need to eat more red meat when you're on your period because the amount of times you're like about to pass out is cray cray um so that's our date night is going and eating as much red meat as we possibly can and love that for us but

yeah take care of yourself okay advocate for yourself find a good doctor um you do not have to live in pain just because you're a woman i promise you what you're going through especially if it's interrupting your daily routine you can find an answer to and fix the sticky heating pads though on amazon oof those literally changed my life really really recommend hi hannah i don't necessarily have a question but I'm in a bit of a situation that I would be curious to have your input on or just like a good topic for the podcast but I currently live with my now ex-boyfriend and it's been really interesting I don't know what it is about not having the label that makes it so much easier to take space from each other and I don't know like love each other

better it's so weird there's not expectations or pressure or any bullshit and it's literally we have not connected like this in a while and it's really weird I don't know if you've ever been in a situation like that but anyway I love the podcast and I do live in Manhattan so I always love hearing any suggestions you have about places to visit in Kansas City so keep them coming love you not me being like in the beginning of this podcast breaks don't work just break up but that's only I think if it's a one-sided break this seems like a um like mutual break that is working really well for you guys because I think this happens to a lot of people you know you're in love you're having fun the talking stage is exciting mutually exclusive like what are we

gonna be and then you become like a little too obsessive and then you get into a relationship and the relationship becomes about control and like a little too obsessive with the other partner and i think healthy relationships need that space they need that allowance of space and time and allowing each other to be their own individual and if you lose that in a relationship it's hard to feel like you're actually in a relationship you know you feel like you're in like kind of like a controlling situationship um so i think you guys maybe just like got a little too deep into the relationship in a sense as in like your identities were built around it rather than built around yourself and yourself you two as whole individuals coming together to then form

a relationship you two were existing as if you needed to be together in order to be a relationship you needed to be one person to be in a relationship when in reality the healthiest relationships are two very individual people coming together to share their love and maybe you guys being on this break but still living together and spending time together is good for you like it might show you okay like we can be in a relationship but be individuals we can be in a relationship but still take time to ourselves um and yeah i think that is a very healthy move on both of your parts as long as you guys are both kind of like being dedicated to each other in a sort of sense as in we're dedicated to ourselves in order to be dedicated to each other then i think you guys

could probably get back together and work things out um but yeah it's kind of funny how that happens that happened to me and my boyfriend when we moved in together um when we were living apart we i don't know i had a hard time not being away from him but seeing myself as an individual and then coming together i was always like waiting for my other half in a sense and now that we live together we have way more of our individual lives being elevated than when we lived apart and it's kind of funny because our relationship has become healthier for it um we are kind of exhausted by each other that we live together so we spend more time alone or we have more hobbies or we take time apart more often and it really has made the relationship way healthier and just better for

both of us because we're able to really focus on ourselves now we feel comfortable in our relationship we know we're loved and safe together now we can really just focus on building ourselves outside of the relationship and building that individuality and my relationship has never been healthier um and more wholesome than us being two individuals very very very individual spending time alone um you know we have separate offices we spend time apart during the day but then we're also able to come back together and share that love together and know that at the end of the night we're still going to be together um and yeah i think it's a very beautiful thing um i think a lot of people get relationships control or confused and they think it's all about control and the other

person listening to them and you know doing what they want and being the person that they want when in reality you really have to accept your partner as a whole as who they are and if you can't then you shouldn't be together but yeah i think that's really nice for you and love you my manhattan girlies shout out um yeah i love kansas city i'll please come up to my city and visit anytime we would love to have you but yeah love casey i don't know i feel like some girl on tiktok called kansas city a secondary city and like obviously we're not a major city we're not new york but i love living in a secondary city like it's not too overcrowded it's not too busy there's just enough things to do there's a lot of opportunity um and i do love my city i've been thinking about

moving to la for a while but i kind of put that on the back burner i found a really fucking cute apartment and i've built a life for myself here and i couldn't be happier but shout out to you i hope your relationship goes well um call back let us know if you get back together but slay queen love that you guys are kind of figuring it out oh someone said talk about kelly uchis being pregnant um i love that woman she has such a beautiful soul real i love her so much a i think we all kind of knew she was pregnant she still had a bunch of like um events to attend and events to go to and when you have obligations and you're pregnant especially like really pregnant it's hard to hide it like pregnancy changes the way your body shape is it changes the

way your face is it changes everything um because you're creating life inside of you and that's that's insane to think about like you are generating life and bringing it into the world we as women are so powerful and incredible and beautiful and that is just insane um but i also respect that she didn't want to speak on it until she was ready um i think pregnancy is a very hard thing to go to especially if you're somebody kind of like in the public light because you have to take so much just like random unnecessary comments about everything and that's just not fun to do especially when you're trying to focus on being the best healthiest version of yourself both mentally and physically in order to produce the best healthiest version of a baby that

you can um but she is so gorgeous and so pretty and i love seeing all the like pregnancy outfits i'm like okay mood um she's such a fashionista so seeing how she dresses up her baby bump is so cute like Rihanna when she was pregnant and doing all her outfits love it her being pregnant and her outfits Suki Waterhouse wore this incredible red dress to the Emmys last night and I just love the way women are like adorning their bumps instead of like hiding them um I love how like pregnancy fashion has changed completely it's so cute shout out to Kali Uchis I'm praying and hoping for a healthy beautiful baby for her um and yeah what a goddess what a queen someone said how do you manage your peace of mind and staying grounded it really is the i don't give a fuck

mentality and the i don't give a fuck mentality is very much so based and rooted in like peace and understanding of everything i think a lot of people assume that i don't give a fuck mentality is girl fuck you i don't care you're lesser than me i'm more than you blah blah blah like ego ego ego that kind of mentality no if that's the kind of mentality you take on you are gonna care about everything just in a very negative way and that's not what we're trying to take on we're trying to take on the i don't give a fuck mentality in a sense of what's yours is yours the things you're dealing with is yours i don't mind being here and helping out and helping you stay grounded as a human being but also like if that's not my fucking business that's not my fucking business and i'm

just not going to dedicate my time to it. And I really am only honestly going to dedicate my time to things that are worth taking up my brain space and worth worrying about. I have suffered from severe anxiety for a long, long, long time. And that's been a very hard mental thing for me to wrap my brain around is just like, I don't have to care about everything. I don't have to give everything a hundred percent of my brain power i don't have to overthink the way that person looked at me while i was crossing the street and spin myself into a panic attack you do not have to dedicate all your brain power to something and it really is all about choosing what to give your energy energy to and asking yourself if that is a worthy thing to give your energy to and so you

really have to adapt that like girl i don't give a fuck like drama i don't want to be involved not gonna entertain it um your life problems cool I'll be here to listen but also like not gonna make it my problem as well um random interaction that went wrong that person was a freak I'm not really gonna give any energy to it because it's just gonna ruin my day it really is like sitting and working with yourself and working through those things and if you do find yourself ruminating ask yourself like why like is this worth it is this actually worth thinking about and spending time on and most of the time the answer is fucking no it's not it's why am i thinking about this and why am i overthinking about this and taking time to work through your

thoughts and work through those emotions is what really helps you get to that mentality quicker um but really girl most things in this life are not worth your time and there really only are a select few so you have to balance it out if you're not going to take control and balance out what is important and what's not everything's gonna take up your time your life's gonna get eaten away you're gonna be way too involved with other people's lives you're gonna get way too involved in drama and we do not have fucking time for that we got shit to do we got places to go you got to figure out what's worth your time and what's not everything else in between i don't really give a fuck about quite frankly someone asked how long is talking acceptable until we

make it official asking for a friend illy um okay we'll tell your friend i think after three months you should at least be exclusive if you're hanging out um like a couple days every week for three months after three months you should at least be exclusive now sometimes it takes a little bit more time sometimes less time to jump into a relationship but i think exclusivity is something you should talk about first before you get into a relationship especially if you guys are kind of unsure of where you want to go at least understanding that you both are committed to learning about each other and committed to getting to know each other and committed to only being with each other for right now i think that provides a lot of peace of mind so then you can healthily develop a actual

relationship um and that just comes with time i don't think there's a time frame for when you should be in a relationship um i think exclusivity should be the first thing you talk about especially if you feel like you get stuck in talking talking situationships whatever it is really often i say bring up exclusivity ask them hey are you only interested in me um i need to know that for my own peace of mind are we exclusive and yeah if the answer is yes great now we can work on trying to form a relationship and figuring out if a relationship is good for us because when you are still bothered by the preconceived notions of oh is he fucking with someone else oh is he fucking with someone else am i gonna fuck with someone else whatever it is that's not a healthy

grounds to really build a relationship so find exclusivity first all righty someone said how to create healthy habits with weed after misusing for a while to distract yourself from life okay been there girl don't worry sometimes you know you find yourself falling down the rabbit hole and you're like, okay, I need a year off. Usually that happens to me after I have a bad experience after I have, you know, just like a not so good relationship with weed, maybe a really bad edible experience. I'm like, you know what, not feeling it. I'm just going to naturally deter myself from it. But then I also find myself, you know, being like, okay, we got to break down these habits, we got to work on these habits, and we got to build healthier ones. And for me, I think the

healthiest way to consume weed while also being a functioning human being is to do so after you have all your chores done i'm talking after you have all your to-do lists done maybe when you get off work whatever it is your wind down process pre-dinner you know first thing you do when you come home that's fine just make sure you have your shit done during the day it's when you are prioritizing the weed over getting your shit done that's when you know you have a problem i think the best way to kind of mitigate that problem is to work on your to-do list get your shit done get your life organized and then enjoy when you are finally stepping into your um into your relax ritual you know what i mean anyways i've been there so many times it's okay you're not alone

there's nothing wrong with you sometimes you do fall into that habit of escapism girl i fell into it with molly so at least it's just weed you know what i mean but you can't live in vacation mode for forever and that's a hard lesson i've had to learn um you do need to prioritize your life and prioritize getting shit done i like to i like to pretend for a while oh yeah i can smoke weed and get things done yeah totally no girl you get it half done and then you got to finish it the next day but then you're also high the next day so you get it only a quarter done and that's just a mess get your shit done and then relax and treat yourself that's okay life is about balance you know but you gotta make sure you know when it's the right time to use it um and i don't think

there's anything really wrong with smoking every day especially if you're like only smoking a little bit at night i think you'll be okay i don't think you need to be too hard on yourself but yeah once again if you find yourself falling into unhealthy habits unhealthy rituals like me with drinking i was like i'm drinking way too much i'm blacking out way too much i'm like My memory is awful, whatever it is. I want to break this cycle. I can see it happening in front of me. I know it's bad. I want to make a change. You are the only person who can sit there and enact a change in your life. So do it. Okay, stand up. Get your shit done. Make sure you're making healthy decisions. You create the life you want for yourself. You create the future you want for

yourself and it starts with today so ask yourself what changes do i need to make and act accordingly i also think another really really great just another thing to touch on before we go okay is healing is not linear we talk about healing a lot on this podcast we talk about breaking cycles breaking you know just bad habits whether it's drinking smoking relationships people thoughts whatever it is healing is not linear you are not going to go from bad directly up to good that's not how that chart's going to work you're going to have good days you're going to have bad days that chart's going to bounce around a little but just because you have a bad day just because you slip up if you are stuck in the mentality of oh no i can only go up from here i can only do

better if you slip up you're going to fall completely off the bandwagon and you're going to get worse quite frankly because as soon as you're like oh i made the mistake i'm a bad person you fall back into those habits and you're going to fall hard so give yourself some forgiveness stand strong by yourself understand that some days are going to be better than others some days you're going to do good some days you're going to do bad but you're going to be working on healing every single day no matter what okay you're still going up in that graph there just might be some some ups and downs throughout it allow yourself to go through those naturally okay don't be too hard on yourself stand strong by yourself you deserve somebody who stands with you and the only person

who's going to be with you from now until you die is yourself so you might as well invest in it i love you so much i hope you guys are having an amazing wonderful beautiful tuesday i hope you guys are staying warm oh my god it's so fucking cold please bundle up please i'm begging you okay you got to keep those fingers and those toes warm um and i hope you enjoyed this podcast thank you so much for all the encouragement recently and just the support and so many of you guys are listening to this podcast so many new people as well um and the support on the video podcast um i have been having so much fun doing those and in fact i'm gonna go record thursday's episode after this so if you want more content for me you know where to find me i'm gonna be posting a

video episode on Thursday on Spotify and on YouTube whether you have Spotify and can watch video there or if you have YouTube you can watch video there either way I just want to put more content out for you guys I want to hang out with you guys face to face and smoke a little bit more on camera with you as well but I love you so much I hope you have a great rest of your day stand strong stay true and I will see you all on Thursday I guess