Smoke Sesh - im drunk.. high maintenance, getting kinky & most embarrassing moments

Episode Date: September 9, 2025

helloooo everyone and welcome to a very silly and first ever drunk ep of the pod! today we have a lotttt to talk about such as my recent activities, piercings, my new belly button piercing, how to ride it, hating the dentist, being high maintenance, setting standards, giving yourself what you want, dummy mommy, to cut off or not to cut off, how to cut off, getting kinky, building sensuality and seductiveness, stalking, exes, drunk vs high, most embarrassing moments, moving on, period s3x, hating your bf, being embarrassed by bf, dominatrix, shaving, living for the moment and manyyyy other TMI things- listen to find out! if you want to see more from me join the patreon at patreon.com/smokeseshshawty and follow me on insta to submit your questions every Sunday at hannahmarlene, alll the love MUAH!

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and help create a world free from the fear of cancer. Register today at pmcfwalk.ca. listen everybody needs a fairy godmother you know just somebody to look out for them some people call me their fairy smoke mother others their internet big sister but you can call me hannah the host of smoke sash so come hang out let's light up and talk everything there is to life the good the bad the ugly the embarrassing i've got a story for it all hello hello hello hotties of the world and welcome back to another sexy little slutty fun episode of smoke sash my name is hannah your host i'm so excited to be

here with you all today for this very drunk episode girls it's 11 30 a.m do not ever say I never did anything for you I went out drinking last night I'm filming this in the weekend which I don't usually do I'm just going out of town so I'm kind of trying to you know make sure I have all my bases covered make sure my girls are fed always hello um and I kind of went out last night and I woke up this morning and I literally like my first thought was oh my god I have to start drinking again not in an alcoholic way but just in a I promise the girls and I must show up so I have my crisp glass of Savvy Bee here are you curious what I drink I drink Boda Box wine I'm not even kidding I drink Boda Box wine there was a point in time in my life where when I was going

to buy wine or like a little bottle I mean if I'm going somewhere like to someone's house to a house party to anything where like i am a guest first of all this is a mother tips right here do not ever show up to anybody's house empty-handed ever ever ever if you are being invited over as a guest bring something and bring something that's not going to make their life more difficult like my mom whenever we would go over and this is just like a decorum 101 whenever we were going over to somebody's house she's bringing them like a candle a bouquet of flowers already in the vase so the person doesn't have to do work a bottle of wine you know a really good thing of coffee like of really nice coffee beans maybe um a dessert to share something where it's like you are just not

showing up empty-handed and you're also acknowledging how much work the person is putting into the event that they're throwing okay 101 here if i'm going to event like that where i need to like show up and show out yes i will wander into the liquor store and i will find a beautiful bottle of wine with a beautiful label with you know probably 30 dollars but when i am at home slugging it out like nasty hours and i am just like in a robe completely covered and scented lotion and a face mask on like i am breaking out the boda box sauvy bee okay that is what i drink so if you're curious little asmr moment for you and of course it's in a mason jar with ice duh hello but today is the drunk episode yes i am getting drunk at 11 30 in the morning

which is going to make for a very very silly episode i asked you guys to submit the questions you have been most afraid to talk about this is going to be similar to that of a confessionals episode but probably more so confessionals on my part because i'll tell you what when i get drunk i turn into this girl who's like oh my god i love you and i have all of the answers for you do not worry yes i am that drunk girl in the bathroom abso-fucking-lutely and i love being her i love being a girl's girl i love showing up for my girls so this is the celebratory we are in the bathroom stalls in a club and i am here to give you guys advice cheers to that ladies let's take a sip i'm sure you all can make a drinking game out of this where it's like every time hannah

says like take a drink every time hannah says period take a drink so let me know in the comments below how many drinks you do take and in which game you're playing but i am playing my own games here today you guys there's some work drama that i really really wish i could drop the t on one of these days one of these days abso-fucking-lutely but my god it's sitting at the forefront of my mind oh and i got my belly button pierced we're we're in a crazy era girls hannah is in a crazy wild era horseback riding lessons traveling belly button piercing on a random Wednesday my friend hit me up and she was like hey girl do you want to go get your or I want to go get my septum pierced like do you want to come with me I was like hell yeah because I want to get

my belly button pierced and oh my god not me flashing you guys let me see if I can if you could see the belly button piercing boop is she shiny and sparkly she better be because I paid good money for her but she was like I want to get my septum pierced was like perfect I didn't want to just go get my belly button pierced alone I need someone to come with me but also I didn't want to be like the only one getting something so love it universe aligned us per usual that is my sister absolutely and so we go there we're getting ready and if you need a good piercing place we went to supernatural in kansas city and they took such good care of us absolutely i mean i pulled up and they literally looked me in the eyes and they were like i don't think you have the anatomy

for a belly button piercing and i was like fuck i already put the deposit down i have been so so set on getting a belly button piercing he was like let me see let's play around with some ideas apparently so some people don't have the anatomy for a belly button piercing because of how thick your skin is and ultimately the skin at the top of my belly button is really tight oh girls yes she's tight i know you were wondering but apparently the skin at the top of my belly button is really thin so he was like listen if you want the top pierced we can do that for you but i am letting you know right now it could reject or if it does heal it's essentially going to dangle off like a saggy flap of skin and i said you that's disgusting why the hell would i do that

just give me my refund back he's like no no no we could maybe do the bottom i hadn't i've never seen a bottom belly button piercing chat let me know down below if you have a bottom belly button piercing or a top but i ended up getting the bottom of my belly button pierced which is really cute and i think it honestly matches my anatomy better because my belly button sits like pretty high up so this just kind of elongates my torso in a really beautiful way um and i was so afraid of the pain i haven't had a piercing since since i got my nipples pierced when i was 18 let's see I got my ears done when I was younger at Claire's duh hello you know coming of age moment as a child and then I got my nose done when I was 16 I was thinking about that I can't believe my parents

let me get my nose done at 16 I think I was like a sophomore in high school my dad was pissed but my mom was like let's go girl I got you let's go get your nose done fuck it um and honestly thank you for that because I love it and I've had it in sense and then I got my nipples done both nipples at one time if you're going to do your nipples do them both at one time I got that done 18 literally first month of my freshman year of college crazy crazy crazy I got my second piercings on my ears done by my roommate in college who had just like piercing needles and she ended up piercing my ears but went too far through and pierced my neck a little bit and then I had my belly button done at 26 that's a big jump of time so I was not like I was like oh god the pain is it gonna be too much

is it gonna be like cuckoo bananas crazy am I gonna be rolling around on the floor you guys easiest piercing ever genuinely genuinely now I will say if you're squeamish pause for a second just skip like 30 seconds but the only reason why it hurt is because it's a surface piercing so they have to go through quite a bit of skin i would say at least a half inch of skin not depth wise but across and when he was doing it he had to like switch up his grip so he did it halfway and i was like oh that was easy and then he goes take one more deep breath for me and then he did the other half quite frankly if I have my nipples done and an IUD I can do anything in this lifetime truly I can handle any pain so the only thing that like really hurt was like the second push through

after that no pain at all I haven't had any pain afterwards like genuinely luckily since I have my nipples pierced I'm pretty aware of snagging you know piercings or anything so I already am very careful when it comes to clothing and drying myself off they gave me really good instructions on how to care for it and I am what is it like five days from getting it pierced and honestly it feels completely healed I know I'm gonna jinx myself myself by saying that but like no pain at all no swelling the piercing is like the perfect length so if there was any swelling you know it wouldn't feel super confined there's no redness there's no crusties like fantastic 10 out of 10 experience i would say pain wise out of 10 it was probably like a three genuinely a three i could

see how people might up the pain level if they have a hard time with the healing process which they were very forward like the belly button is going to take six months to a year to fully heal which is hey nothing because after my nipples that took at least two years to completely completely heal I was like oh I'm ready I am good to go so I could see like if the healing process is a pain maybe upping that level to a four but in the long run easy peasy I would put it on the same level as getting like your ears pierced genuinely and listen I love an accessory when you're maybe like a little insecure and I know that's like the opposite of what you might think like oh highlighting what you're insecure about is that it's just going to make you think more of it no it's going

to make you love it even more and see it in a different light that's a big reason why I got my nose done because I had broken it so many times and I was like I don't want a nose job because like hello I am who I am and also ouch and also wow ten thousand dollars down the drain I'll spend sixty dollars on a nose piercing call it a day love my nose after my nose piercing oh I feel like my boobs are too small okay get the nipples pierced bam now I have something cute and shiny sparkly to look at and now I love them oh I think my belly sticks too far out cool let's put some dangly fucking jewelry on that bitch and call it a day I love it it makes me want to have my stomach out I can officially like rock my low-rise jeans with no worry in the world

tens across the board ladies I'm so happy I got it done oh but that's really all I've been up to lately nothing crazy well I guess kind of crazy if you really think about it but I don't know I'm in my mid-20s oh my god late to mid-20s that's wild and I am just like tired of sitting and watching life pass me by I'm like fuck it let's go do everything let's go do it book that flight book that piercing experience book that tattoo book whatever it may be I am ready to get out there and to yeah just live life I don't know I was kind of a hermit my early 20s and now I'm like and that was for everybody else's protection if I'm being honest I was just a fucking crazy bitch shit's like no no let's stay inside and meditate for three years now that i'm a little bit more

level-headed and i know how to just like control myself better and i know how to not give into temptation um i am definitely more willing to just be out and about to live life to get outside to go party and to go just say yes to everything so cheers to that girls oh with that being said enough of me let's get into everything on your guys's minds because it is crazy it is crazy i kept seeing the little questions pop up every once in a while as i was like scrolling or just like on instagram and i literally had to block my eyes a couple times because i was like these are too fucking good and i cannot read them or else i'm gonna bust out laughing i love you guys because you match my energy no other podcast is going to be as crazy and chaotic as this one is and i love

that about us we are real we are raw we are who we are and we love that no matter what so let's see what the hell you guys are going through oh okay girl how do i ride on top of my boyfriend i have no ass and can't get into the groove help this is interesting because it can be a little difficult depending on who your partner is now the ass doesn't matter don't really don't worry about the ass are you thinking cowgirl like reverse cowgirl because then maybe ass play comes into you know comes into the situation but if you're facing him like regular writing um you are basically just grinding like the same way and you can practice this at home by like putting a pillow under you and like pretend grinding you think it's like more like you're shaking ass but it's not

that way you almost want to like rub your clit against him does that make sense that's going to give you the most pleasure and honestly when you are on top fuck what you look like fuck what there thinking that is for your pleasure like men i don't know if you have the right man and he should be this way unless you're in a like a mommy dom situation he wants to give you pleasure he is probably going to get off on you getting pleasure from him so essentially when you're writing you have to like think of it as if like i am using the stick to get off and that will not only get you off because you're focusing on your pleasure and you're focusing on the right angle but also like he is going to get off by seeing you enjoy yourself and also like fuck what the

fuck he feels because he's inside of you either way so it's going to be a good time you know but you're going to want to like grind down from the front not shake ass from the back now if it's reverse cowgirl reverse cowgirl personally i don't get a lot of pleasure from like and especially if you've like a curved d that you're working with depending on how it's curved um it like reverse cowgirl could be super super fun but personally reverse cowgirl is all about them i'm like my ass is in your face like duh then you're just shaking ass to the gods if you can't get the right um like groove down what i would recommend is leaning forward shaking ass while sitting up straight on top of a d is like extremely hard okay like talk about scoliosis

lean forward grab his ankles put your feet underneath his hips so you have some grip and then go for it now i will say careful with how far you lean forward and how big he is you know like if it's a little on the smaller side you can't leave lean forward that much so maybe grab his knees but if he's like big enough to stay in okay then lean forward as far as you possibly can literally grab his ankles and then hook your feet under his hips so you have like a a solid base okay a solid connection and shake ass to the gods girl truly just throw it in a circle you know what i mean and to throw it you really are just moving your hips up and down you're not moving your back you're just moving your hips up and down while staying in that same position um but yeah if

you're on top girl it's about you it's about your pleasure so get yourself off with him and also i feel like sometimes if you're writing and they're trying to like match your bounce it's it's gonna be very very hard tell that man to sit down and sit the fuck still seriously i'm not even kidding because then it's like oh my god the rhythm's off like i'm trying to match this rhythm he's trying to match me but he can't control himself like bitch just lay down and let me enjoy you know and if you really want to take it far while you're writing him if you're sitting up reach back and like cup his balls while you're writing him and like play with them a little bit you'll be up there for five seconds i'm not even kidding i fear this might be the sex episode i

fear this is the sexual education episode oh my god someone said does it make me gross that i haven't been to the dentist since i got my braces removed you guys honesty hour i haven't been to the dentist in two years since i got off my parents um insurance because oh my god health insurance in itself so fucking expensive now i realize now that i'm an adult i realize why so many people are like go to college work for a company because those companies provide you with stability i mean a little bit of stability sure the pain might not be there but they have benefits those benefits are everything my parents are retiring and living their best goddamn fucking lives like so much in savings they're going on trips every single month they're living as how

they should have their entire lives and it's because they locked in and really maxed out all of their benefits and also with that like they worked for the government they were teachers for public schools so they got fantastic health care for like practically free well of course you know they take it out of a bit of your paycheck but practically free for your entire family and now that I'm like oh my god self-employed I'm paying for my own health care what the hell why is it like 500 fucking dollars a month to be fair I got the good health insurance just in case I had some pussy issues I had some ovarian cysts I was worried about surgery I don't want to pay out a pocket for that of course i'm going to get like the best one possible but still jesus christ the

base the baseline one was a hundred dollars and it didn't cover anything what the hell am i paying a hundred dollars for anyways anyways a big part of that was i didn't want to pay for dental insurance what the hell why doesn't the government or the health insurance companies think that like eye care and dentist is a part of health what what are we even talking about here of course your teeth and your eyes are a part of your health bitch if i don't have my contacts and i can't see that is loss of health and so i was just broke 20 something hour i didn't want to pay the 50 to 60 dollars a month for dental insurance and i knew like oh you know teeth are fine i take my time with my teeth I brush twice a day I have a really good oral bee like electric toothbrush get one of

those it'll change your fucking life I floss like twice a day it's more of like I have an oral fixation where I like picking in my gums picking in my gums twin and you know tongue scraper all of that I was like you know what whatever I'm fine but I fear I go to the dentist and on Tuesday and I'm so scared because I know they're gonna be like you've ate cavities cavities run in my family so I know that I'll probably have a couple but I hate having people in my fucking face like that it's the worst and I go to a great dentist like they have below deck like the most trashy reality tv you've ever seen playing two inches away from your face they have a flat screen tv that they can pull down from the ceiling directly next to your fucking face and I'm not somebody who

it's anxiety from the dentist like it's whatever I just I have a small mouth I have a really small mouth have we talked about this before every single time I would go to my creepy dentist when I was a kid he would always comment on how small my mouth was and I was always like oh okay whatever weirdo man and then I had to get braces and they gave me a palate expander and they were like fucking pulling teeth back there to make room it was crazy and i still have a small mouth because they'll be like open wider open wider for me there i can't go any further unless you need to have a joker smile unless you want my skin to rip across my fucking face like what the hell do you want for me so overall yeah i didn't go to the dentist for two years i know really bad i know i

know the dental hygienists are in the comments already like girl what the hell but we're being brave and we're going and if i can be brave and go and pay the money and get it all done so can you i actually heard a horror story and yes i will scare you into getting better scared straight this is what this is people were like like if you get a tooth infection you don't know it's there or like really bad teeth can lead to like dementia and to your brain like dying because it's so close like it's so close in proximity that if you have teeth problems it could go directly to your brain after that i was like and i'm booking the appointment thank you thank you so unfortunately one of those adult things taking care of ourselves ew how dare we but if i can get a facial like

every other month i can definitely go to the dentist twice a year it was just like pulling the money the trigger on the money and then also like i said digging in my face i don't want people digging in my face ever but we'll be brave and we'll encourage each other to go being high maintenance how can I become more self-sustaining I don't know I don't I don't know what you mean by this it might be the savvy bee getting to my brain but personally I'm high maintenance because I know what I can provide for myself so like that's the bare minimum you know what I mean like I think high maintenance is what you can give yourself absolutely and high maintenance comes in like many different forms for me personally it's like there's a certain type of

life that I expect and I know I can provide it for myself so like if you're gonna be in my life you also have to be able to like live up to those standards you know what I mean and that doesn't mean I'm like gonna kick people out if they can't go out to dinner like we're in our mid-20s I get it I have friends in grad school who it's like they're living off of loans like girl let me cover your fucking tap but I still know what I want I know what I deserve I know what I desire like and I simply will not settle for less and I think it's so important to be able to grow into yourself and especially in your young 20s if you're like I want to date I want to be with people but I don't want to be like male centered or male focused be you focused you need to be you focused

especially if you want a good partner if you don't know what you want if you don't know what you desire if you don't know what your bare minimum is when people come into your life you are just going to accept them for what they are instead of being like well are they a good fit do they fit into this crazy puzzle that is my life are they able to provide goodness for me because like i am feeling confident in what i've created for myself so are they going to come in here and make it better or is it just going to be the same or worse if you want to de-center men de-center women in the dating pool center you that literally is a tip and trick center you are you happy did they plan a good day are you happy you know did they make you feel cared for did they make you

feel loved did you have a good time I mean of course that it's a give and take relationship always like you are there also to try and like build the best connection possible to have a genuine real human connection with that person but like if it's not clicking and they're not living up to what you can provide for yourself it'll be very easy the answer in front of you of just like this is not the person for me so please i am begging you if anything be high maintenance and center yourself always especially with the dating scene nowadays i know for a fact these people want to be like wined and dined and like everything's about me me me me me and like i get that especially you're like this is confusing because you know center yourself

is it not about me me me me no you you were put on this earth to make genuine human connections you always have to give people a chance but in order to understand what you want what you don't want what boundaries to set what bare minimums you require what are red flags you need to know yourself fully and a lot of that is just like knowing yourself outside of a relationship knowing who you are when you're alone knowing who you are on your best day knowing who you are on your worst day knowing what drives you knowing what inspires you knowing where you want to get what kind of life you want to live knowing yourself is a superpower because no one once you know yourself no one can deny you of yourself ever no man can look at you and go you're fucking crazy

because it's like yeah duh but like get with it you know no man can look at you and say you're asking too much because you can hit them with well I give myself everything I'm asking for already like hello no woman can say you're too needy because it's like no these are just what I give myself on a day-to-day basis it's so so simple and I don't know why people are caught up with this people-pleasing aspect actually I do because I definitely was one of them I'm thinking back on like the men I've dated and it was all just like I thought love was was people wanting me you know and a lot of the people I dated didn't want me and I was playing the game for the desire of them wanting me but like oh my god it's like a dog chasing a car down the street like that is so

sad want yourself desire yourself understand yourself be high maintenance if they don't get it if they don't get with the program they're not supposed to be there at all at all my boyfriend right now truly is an angel we have our ups we have our downs you know as all relationships do but one thing about him is like no matter what standard I set he will always try and match it he will always try to make me laugh he will always try and show up for me in any way that I require and that's something that you should be looking for in a partner also someone who just sees you for who you are like a lot of relationships nowadays are like convincing you know I do deserve this I do deserve this like people should already inherently see that in you

um should see that magic inside of you should see that you know desire inside of you and want to give it back and that's also how you should feel about your partner that's how it's a good partner when you're like in the kitchen baking cupcakes for him and you know you're falling in love it's like okay yeah like i want to put myself aside for him when you are like wanting to go out of your way to do things that's what love is and it's beautiful and you should get that back from your partner but also like i don't think a high maintenance is a bad thing i think we should hold each other to higher standards to hold ourselves to higher standards so we always get the best possible outcome i fear the savvy b is setting into my brain i'm like oh let's get into the

crazy stuff i somehow have found myself in a position where i'm a domi mommy good dom tips personally i am not in the whole dom world i personally if anything i'm very submissive in the bedroom like hello I'm here to receive pleasure duh but like if you really want to get into the whole dummy world I think the ultimate thing you can do I mean depending on how far you want to go I don't know if he wants to be like bound and gagged that's crazy I'm not recommending that but very simple to ease your way into it and I recommend everybody does this to their boyfriend because crazy his mind's going to be blown i guarantee he's never had this done before suck it from the back and i know you're like hannah what

this is a very if any of my family is watching this please for the love of god why are you here anybody who knows me why are you here get away you but suck it from the back have him bend over and literally all of it i'm talking tip to tail not even kidding like to asshole lick it play with it have a good time play with the balls suck on the balls eat some ass go back down and then just like don't let him finish if it's like real dummy hours don't let him finish be like okay go clean yourself up that's crazy that's insane the sobby b is speaking but also if you want to get real wild freak hours ladies suck it from the back i'm not even kidding and if you're like how do i get back there like oh that's a lot

you can also just be laying down like laying down and then he kind of has his ass in your face and yes i'm saying this from experience unfortunately listen real freak hours i'm telling you it probably seemed very vanilla but let's be real it's almost like reverse 69ing so instead of you on top he's on top and then you have like full access and then you can go crazy and do this post shower always always if you're gonna have any man's ass in your face always do a post shower unless you're like a real freak and then you're like no don't shower you i'm not here to shame i'm not here to shame let's be real actually new drinking game take a shot every time I say let's be real maybe not a shop how about a sip because it's gonna be a lot should

I cut off friends who hang out with people who talk shit about me I think yes I think yes too but I definitely think you should give them a chance where it's not just like I'm done with you get away from me I think it should definitely be sort of like hey you know these people don't like me and talk shit about me to your face and it concerns me when I know this and you don't defend me because a real friend would defend me and stand beside me and I find this very odd so could you explain to me how this relationship works like give them a chance where it's like let's confront the situation like I said in the last episode I am pro-confrontation I used to be very anti-confrontation when I was younger and I think it made my life a lot harder than it was

supposed to be because I'd just be like oh yeah sure you can talk shit about me two and five Canadians will hear the words you have cancer that's why every step and dollar raised matters on September 19th join thousands in Toronto for the Princess Margaret Cancer Foundation walk challenge yourself friends and family to walk 21 kilometers in support of life-saving research together we can carry the fire and help create a world free from the fear of cancer register today at pmcfwalk.ca yeah it's whatever i don't want to stir the pot oh yeah my boyfriend's the worst person in the fucking world but it's fine i just don't want to cause a problem no bitch cause a fucking problem like i'm not even kidding i think confrontation brings people

closer i think confrontation is important for relationship building now this confrontation shouldn't be a once a week thing it shouldn't even be a once a month thing it shouldn't even be a once a quarter thing it should be very very rare that you're going through these confrontations with people who are good to you in your lives but they will come up naturally with anything in life you will eventually have a confrontation and it's important to always stand your ground and come at it with a level-headed point of view so if I were you I would definitely be like hey I find this weird and shady and I'm not sure why you still hang out with them if you want to keep hanging out with them that's fine but also I do find it weird and I feel like you don't value me as a

friend because of it okay pause for the answer if their answer is like well we don't give a fuck about you then yes cut them off get rid of them because why do you keep people around you in your life who hate you period you know you sometimes you're surprised by the answer where they're like you're so right we're so sorry about this we should uplift you we prefer having you as a friend more we're going to take a break for those people who knows but you have to give them an opportunity to answer to see their reaction and to go forward from there like i said when i was younger i was pro cut off immediately now that i'm real and rational i am not pro cut off immediately you get one chance maybe a couple if it's not that big of a deal to prove yourself and

then we move forward i guess speaking of literally back-to-back questions someone else asked how do you cut off a toxic person in your life depends on how close they are to you if they're really close like you talk every single day maybe it's a boyfriend maybe it's a girlfriend maybe it's a best friend where they're constantly hitting you up i think it's definitely like if you're trying to be nice about it you hit them with a goat a soft ghost and then hey sorry life's been really busy I'll get back to you soon you know if it's a relationship blow that shit up you know especially if they're horrible and awful like and thinking back to like my last relationship when we broke up oh that was fucking crazy you know sometimes you need those big blow-ups if you can avoid those

avoid those but preferably if it's like a soft cut off like if you're like yeah we hang out every once in a while i'm just kind of tired of having them in my life like maybe it's just somebody you see situationally or like a gentle friend i like to call them where it's like you know not the first person you reach out to but someone you just like have in your circle ghost i am pro ghost in that situation people will pick up on the lack of response okay lack of response is a response in itself and I don't think it's necessary unless they're evil and horrible and awful to look people in their face and just be like I don't like you I don't want to be around you I think that's a little crazy in itself unless they're evil if they're evil do that immediately you know but

if it's like uh it's just this weird in between and I don't really want to hang out with them anymore gentle ghost a soft ghost where it's like I'm just going to not respond anymore I know you're a freak yes so I've been dying to know what are your kinks oh honestly nothing crazy nothing as crazy as you might think like I'm not like in costume role-playing in the bedroom I can't keep a straight face for that that's not happening it's not happening I'm not gonna be in like a fucking maid's outfit like may I clean up your room sir no no no like I'm not a weirdo freak like that not that that's a weirdo freak era like please if you're into that I'm actually kind of jealous i wish i could keep a straight face and whatever you're into genuinely no shame as long

as you are two consenting adults what am i into definitely i'm more submissive like you can throw me around for sure you know like and i love my scorpio boyfriend because of that because best believe scorpio's biggest freaks biggest freaks they also have like big big hearts whether they want to tell you or not um but the key to their heart is sex I will say that that's for goddamn sure um definitely more submissive like even though yeah I have sucked it from the back before it's like preferably I'm being choked out you know spit is fun I know that's probably crazy to you not spit on like don't spit on my fucking face I will punch you but like in the mouth cute sexy hot love that um oddly enough my most recent fascination has been feet i don't want feet in

my mouth no thank you no no no no but my feet in someone else's mouth love love that that's hot that's sexy because i have really good feet like not to brag but i do and i'm like yes you should worship my feet duh duh hello they're so beautiful are you gonna forget about them uh choking light slapping a little bit of bondage here and there i love like not ditty hours i like being oiled up a little bit too i'm not gonna lie i do i love just like a slippery situation you know and i think that's really it i don't have like any like massive massive big kinks like i'm not trying to prove something or like i i feel like i'm not like that freaked out where it's like I need to pretend I'm a different human being you know or I need 18 dicks inside of me

I mean if that's what you're into cool congrats but I do very much so I developed my sexual exploration reading fan fiction and fan fiction's fucking freaked out kinked out I'll tell you that so i think a lot of my kinks come from my one direction fan fiction that i was reading at 12 absolutely so shouts out to wattpad that's for sure i've found in life though a lot of men get freaked out by like um not freaked out like they really enjoy kind of like secret public things i have recently learned this me personally not into it girl i'm not catching a charge for you to ejaculate a centimeter of cum that's not happening but i have found like a secret little bathroom hookup or you know secret little this in the car secret little this not like super public

like you're definitely away from people but it's like out of your normal range they love that shit they love it i don't know why i do not know why at all but ask any man like where his best blowjob was I guarantee it was in the bathroom of some sketchy fucking club I'm not even kidding oh how can I be more seductive I love this question hmm I think seductiveness especially when I'm thinking about like women who I just like run into and I'm like oh wow they are a siren and I'm hearing their call and I'm on my way you know like naturally so are women who are very in touch and in tune with themselves and this is why I say like prioritizing yourself and being high maintenance is so important because like I said when you know yourself no one can deny you of yourself

and there's nothing sexier than somebody being so genuinely authentic in who they are like completely authentic in who they are i don't care if you're the freakiest of freak i don't care if you're in a clown costume on the fucking corner i don't care if you're like head to toe covered whatever you feel comfortable in is what makes you you and inherently that is attractive you know and it takes time it really does take time especially if you don't know yourself it can be scary to get to know yourself it can be scary to uncover those sides of yourself because you're like maybe just a little fearful of just like other people's opinions or a little fearful of you know even just having to do the work work in itself is inherently scary or change in itself is

inherently scary but there's nothing more beautiful and warming and loving and amazing than just being wholeheartedly who you are unapologetically who you are unabashedly unabashedly unabashedly that's the word who you are and that can look like anything okay but i can spot a fake from a mile away i can spot a fake immediately because they look uncomfortable they look closed off they're looking around like what are people thinking about me what are they looking at blah blah, blah. They are so far out of their body that you can tell. When you are close to yourself, your energy is really close and confined in your body. Not in a negative way where you feel trapped, but in a grounded, wholehearted way. It's very beautiful. It is very seductive. But when you're

living for other people and not for yourself, your energy, your soul, I feel is like very disconnected from your vessel from your body and you can tell that like i'm thinking i've been spending a lot of time at the clubs and a lot of my club experience is just like people watching and dancing like i'm just drunk and i'm dancing and i'm kicking with the girls and i'm people watching and outside of the men but the men the women that i'm observing who maybe seem a little more reserved a little more like out of place it's not because of who they are it's because they're too concerned on everything happening around them and they're not feeling who they are inside themselves. I also think the key to seductiveness and being closer to your

body and feeling closer to your body and closer to yourself is dancing. Yes, the power of dance is very important. I did not start feeling closer to myself and more in my body and more in control of my life until i started dancing i felt very disconnected with my body my entire life the only time i felt connected to my body was when i was playing soccer and it felt like a spiritual experience because it was the only time i was utilizing my body how it should have been used once i started getting into the rave scene when i was like in my 17 when i was 17 18 i started dancing more i started being around people who are unapologetically themselves who danced with me who encouraged me to be myself no matter how weird or how uncomfortable it was or whatever it

was just like you are you and we love that for you i think it was the perfect scene for me to kind of grow up and come into myself because now like when i go out when i dance i feel so in tune with myself i feel so seductive i feel so hot i feel so sexy and it's not for other people it's for me that's the key to seduction you need to do it for you what do you feel hot in what do you want to wear what do you feel comfortable in what makes you feel good and positive and uplifted about yourself not oh is this man gonna really like me oh is this woman gonna think i'm hot oh is this person gonna think i'm moving correctly fuck all that bullshit no no no do you feel comfortable do you feel uplifted do you enjoy what you are doing right now because that is

genuinely all that matters and like i said the most seductive person on this planet is somebody who is a thousand percent themselves i don't care what you look like i don't care what you wear i don't care what you're doing truly there is a charm to it that is undeniable take a shot every time hannah says truly cheers oh no what to do when you can't stop stalking his ex free me from the shackles Hannah I am so thankful genuinely from the bottom of my heart that all of my exes except for the first one in which I was in your place were very quick to pretend they had no association with their exes much like I am as a Gemini when we break up you die mentally in my head like it actually we were sitting down the other day like and they brought up my ex my

friends and i was like who is that who the hell are you talking about they're like your first boyfriend genuinely i had blocked him off that i forgot his name like it is the gemini's the one thing they can do they can dissociate hard as hell you fuck me over you don't exist in my head anymore this is my world you're living in it you do not exist truly but that was a shock i was like oh who is that what the hell are you talking about they're like your boyfriend you dated for a year no no no I don't know him you know so I'm very thankful that some of the men that I have dated have been very similar to me where when we are done you cease to exist tagged photos done following each other on Instagram blocked deleted all photos gone out of my camera roll I don't even

have time to like think about that because it practically feels like cutting myself I am not going to do that to myself mentally they're gone from my life they don't want to be here they're gone so i am thankful for that because that has saved me a lot of trauma but in my first relationship i remember this man being like oh yeah my ex oh yeah my ex they followed each other on instagram they still had tagged photos so when i wanted to have those down bad moments i could just oh so simply and easily scroll through his fucking tag photos on instagram and just look at how good she was doing how hot she was how blah blah blah blah in my opinion now that i'm older i think that is very disrespectful and rude for your partner to do to you sue me sue me but there

should be no connection no communication period if you run into each other and it was like not a bad breakup and it's mutual whatever I don't care but but but but but do not make my life as a crazy woman harder now I feel like you know sometimes you gotta handle that shit on your own because if you go to your boyfriend and you're like I can't stop stalking your ex he's gonna be like what the fuck are you talking about so here's what you do and it very much so is going cold turkey and cold turkey is hard especially when you're doing like really negative things you gotta block her you gotta block her you gotta delete her from your memory you gotta remove the inherent urge to stalk her and social media makes like hyper awareness so prominent and I think it also gives

us this idea that we have access to other people's lives which we do i mean it's such an easy argument you're like you post online so you have we have access blah blah blah sure sure sure sure sure but you have to think about it from the perspective of if the ex knew you were stalking them would you want them to know would you want them to know and if the answer is no i would be so embarrassed you have to stop you gotta stop you gotta stop you gotta stop you gotta stop and also exes are always for a reason if that man I mean I hate a person who's like a partner and was like I fucking hated that fucking bitch it's like well you were probably evil too you know you gotta there's give and take you know I mean I shit on my ex-boyfriends here but it was

also like you know to be toxic is to be mutually toxic they brought me into some toxic behaviors absolutely but if he is like constantly bringing her up as my first boyfriend was constantly talking about her oh my ex did this oh my ex did that like actually driving you mentally fucking insane leave him immediately leave him leave him once you're in a new relationship that new relationship should genuinely overtake kind of all of your thoughts and the idea of an ex should never ever be present like prevalent at all it really should not be anything that crosses your mind like i said once i'm out of a relationship i pretend they're dead so that's the courtesy i provide to me that's the courtesy i provide to my partner if they are not doing that for you

big major red flags not that you should all hate your exes i think the best situation on a breakup is like mutual breakup it's probably the hardest but it's probably the best because no one's like dying on the other end you know there was no like severe trauma but your current partner owes it to you to put that boundary between him and his ex to not bring it up and also you owe it to your current partner to put that boundary between you and their ex especially if they've never brought it up you found this information on your own you found their instagram on your own you gotta stop and i know you're like that's so easy but it's really not in practice you gotta just resist the urge you fill the urge with something else this is a self-harm urge honestly where you're like

kind of breaking your own heart it's like let's do something else let's go on a walk outside let's go into the kitchen and put your fucking phone down and bake some cupcakes let's break out a puzzle you know return back to earth a little bit block delete move on you gotta move forward you gotta put boundaries in between or else you are the only one making your life a living hell and like why would you willingly ever make your life a living hell like life is too short don't do that to yourself ever and also i'm psycho so anytime i think about to x i'm kind of like haha i got your man lols like if you can enter that mindset where it's like l loser sorry you lost i have your man's ha ha ha ha not that you actually took him but like kind

of enter that delusional mindset it helps you with the jealousy a little bit where it's like no i'm not jealous of you you should be jealous of me yeah the sobby b is definitely kicking in this episode is definitely full of like red flag tips i'm so sorry it's not genuine no it is genuine it really is but like i said drunk girl in the bathroom energy today drunk sex or high sex love you bb uh high sex always drunk sex uh messy sloppy i mean freaked out hours drunk sex for sure if you're like trying to try something new and kiki do drunk sex absolutely but drunk sex i feel like i'm so detached high sex i'm like very detached i'm attached i'm very attached to my body i'm very attached to the situation i'm very aware if i'm gonna pick one or the other

i'm picking high sex all the way what's the most embarrassing thing you've experienced during sex how did you recover hmm i haven't had very many embarrassing situations during sex if i'm being honest i definitely been walked in on i've you know like queefed or whatever during literally done anal not shit on the floor but like hello there is and so sorry to whoever's listening two and five canadians will hear the words you have cancer that's why every step and dollar raised matters on september 19th join thousands in toronto for the princess margaret cancer foundation walk challenge yourself friends and family to walk 21 kilometers in support of life-saving research together we can carry the fire and help create a world free from the fear

of cancer register today at pmcfwalk.ca these words should never be spoken out loud like come dripping out of my ass of course there's gonna be it's gonna be a little brown hello i'm not douching my asshole for you like natural hours over here we'll get in the shower afterwards but like of course you as a man should be cleaning that up hello but i'm not embarrassed by that because it's just natural human functions natural human autonomy like whatever i should never be embarrassed about how like the body functions now i have been very embarrassed sexually before and we'll talk about it it's something that haunts my fucking nightmares if you've ever been embarrassed before don't even worry this is the worst thing that has ever possibly happened

picture this actually don't picture this i am a child i'm not a child i'm not a child i'm probably like end of high school but pre-vibrator era my cat's looking at me like shut the fuck up pre-vibrator era what do you do when you don't have a vibrator when you are fiending for sexual interaction as a woman what do you do what do you do girls answer down below right now pause answer down below what is it faucet head absolutely it is the tub faucet the girls and the tub faucet or the shower head close relationship i'll tell you that god this really is a confessionals episode for me oh my god so anyways this is so bad and it's like when I have kids I know I'm gonna be going through this bullshit

and I'm just not gonna question it because they're fucking teenagers and their hormones are going crazy but I remember being under that fucking faucet head legs spread enjoying myself my mom walked in on me she walked in on me you guys i don't i don't know how much she saw i really appreciate that she never brought it up and immediately got the fuck out of the room but i it takes something traumatic like that happening for you to be like i'm not even showering i'm not going in there like i don't want them to think that that's what's happening but literally i'm talking legs spread under that fucking faucet head and my mom walked in on me and she went oh and i went oh

that was the end of that conversation but wow that was probably my most embarrassing because my mom my parents you know very open individuals they had never like walked in on me or anything like that except for that one time because i think she was like bitch you've been in the bathtub for three hours you've been in here for fucking ever what the fuck is going on like let me check on you and make sure you aren't dead because it was also during my suicidal era where she's like no we need we need to check on her every five minutes mental health mental welfare check and it was like no i'm just getting off in here mom i'm so sorry oh that's probably my like my most embarrassing era to date absolutely there's nothing worse than

somebody walking in on you in a very vulnerable position my ex moved on so fast i don't feel great about it how can i deal with my emotions it's okay babe he's just trying to move on so he can fill that hole in his heart not because he actually is like enjoying moving on but because like i said once you break up with somebody there's kind of a hole that you need to fill and for better or for worse if anything he's probably catching an std so just pray on his downfall in that sort of way he's getting some strange pussy right now so like don't even worry about how fast he's moving on because best believe it's not a good moving on fast that's for sure should i let them eat it when i'm on my period they really want to help yes yeah if he's not

eating it on his period he's not a grown man or woman if a woman's not eating it on your period they are not a grown individual and like i know you're lacking some iron babe come get it over here it's so it's genuinely so simple i don't know why people have like this aversion to doing things on their period i mean a sometimes periods can be very intense so like if you're cramping if you're not comfortable if you feel like out of your body if you're just like pmsing real bad and you're like nobody even fucking look at me i get it you don't want to get eaten out at that point in time absolutely i go through periods in my life where it's like oh my god my pms symptoms are fucking crazy right now don't touch me don't look at me don't even perceive me valid real raw

absolutely but if you're in the mood and you're like bitch eat me out now or like i'm i want to get kinky I want to get freaky I want you deep in my guts periods are just extra lubrication genuinely like it's just a little extra you know some down there and if they're a real and if they're a real partner that you should actually think about having in your life they will not give a fuck if there's blood or not I think I was the first person my boyfriend ever had period sex with because when he first met me I remember I was like not first met but like in the in the beginning stages I was like oh yeah I'm on my period I don't know why I told him that I was a very open individual like whatever I'm sure it was just casual in conversation

and he was like oh like I have a blood aversion and I said you better get over that real fucking quick because I need you inside me in two minutes take your pants off and guess what blood aversion non-existent because they're too focused on like having a good time getting their nut off and you should be focused on that too now i understand if there's like a mouth involved with down there but if we're really thinking about the anatomy of it all he just needs to be focusing on the clit he doesn't need his tongue deep down your fucking pussy he just needs to be focusing on the clit and if he's smart and real he will know to avoid sucking the blood out of you like literally he will know to just stay on the top portion and to not move further

but oh my god i saw a tiktok the other day and it was like this girl rode this man's shoulders at like a festival like on top of his shoulders like woo party girl and then she got off and there's a period blood stain on the back of his neck you know what and he probably took that shirt off and never even fucking noticed you know i don't know why period periods period blood is so stigmatized bitch if a man scrapes his knee and is bleeding everywhere you think he's not gonna get his dick sucked it's the same exact fucking fucking way unless you as a woman are uncomfortable or not feeling yourself or not into it and then no need to do so but if you are horny and hot and ready to go like i said a period

is just extra lubrication oh my best friend stopped talking to me after her boyfriend puked on my car and cussed me out what the fuck so let me give you the real raw understanding of this because i'm sure you're like fuck you fuck you fuck you i need 30 for a car wash valid you are real for that when your friend is dating a man and she goes MIA it's not because that man is amazing fantastic wonderful to her it's because she's embarrassed of him of her and of the relationship I know this very very clearly when I started dating my ex I dated him for a year a year maybe a year and a half before I even introduced him to my family because why in my head I was like it's just not the right time it's just this it's just that it's just blah blah blah

no the real answer is she's embarrassed she doesn't want to be seen with him she loves what they do in that car and in that bedroom and who they are alone even if it's toxic but she knows once that toxicity is observed from a real perspective it becomes embarrassing of the situation she's in and she doesn't want anybody to see that so she disappeared because she is extremely embarrassed but she feels still connected to this man even though she probably should have no reason to ever be with him at all and she will come to the conclusion on her own that she's in the wrong position eventually hopefully I'm praying that she does but unfortunately at this point like you are the wronged individual I do think you should clock

her tea a bit where it's like what the fuck is this what the fuck is that fuck your boyfriend you deserve better period but don't be surprised if she's gone for a little bit longer after that she will come back to you after the breakup and I do think you should welcome her with open arms after the breakup absolutely key fucking prime experience when you are in your 20s is dating that toxic individual it happens we all dig toxic partners eventually if you don't you're lucky congratulations I'm jealous but I was that girl who disappeared for two fucking years from her friends and her family because I was dating a toxic individual and I didn't want to be seen with him I didn't want anybody to know I was with him but I still wanted to be with him hopefully

one day they come out of it but the best thing you can do right now is a like I said clock her tea okay you know make her a little bit more embarrassed she probably will withdraw further but when she gets out of there welcome her with open arms and tell her how proud she is that she got out of there that is literally all you can do at this point because yes you are right to be mad absolutely and you're right to be mad about her especially like disappearing but i wanted to be clear the reason she's disappearing is because she's embarrassed not because she hates you and thinks you deserve it i know she doesn't think that at all it's because she is so embarrassed of the actions that she doesn't even want to think about it and if she addresses it that makes

she that means she has to think about it maybe send a little text like i said a little girl what the fuck message but give her space she will come to her own conclusions absolutely in another life or this one would you be a dominatrix i always wondered if i'd be able to i think i would because a dominatrix is definitely like um it's a job you know i'm basically doming people all day at work when i'm like you don't know what to order i'm ordering all your fucking food for you just sit back and eat it's so easy like if the sexual aspect was take i know inherently it's sexual but if the sexual aspect on my end was taking taken out of it i think i could absolutely but like sexually am i into the dominatrix stuff no not at all but if a man was like

fucking stop my face with eight inch heels on mommy i'd be like for eight thousand dollars yes I will I'd be happy to I would be happy to for sure I'd be happy to I don't know I'm so deep into life at this point and I'm very like connected in sex in the sort of way where I understand like where it starts and where it stops and I understand like the job aspect of it all but if it's like I'm not having to really utilize my body in any sort of way and I just kind of get them off even if it's not getting them off i think i could do that i think it'd be i'd have no problem doing that very much so julia fox of it all where she's like yeah i'm locking a man in a cage for eight days and he's paying me 10 grand like i'm not doing anything but i i guess i'm

doing everything vibes oh my god someone said okay weird but you low-key gave me a foot fetish feet look good to me now no no no like dead ass your first pair of feet will change your life genuinely not the toes on camera but like and you know who who taught me that this is crazy callie uchis she posts her feet all the time but i'm also like it's so beautiful like her toes gorgeous the heel she's wearing amazing the ankle tattoos the anklets like very very gorgeous and for a while i was like no you can't see my feet because you're just gonna sexualize me and it's like well who gives a fuck like yeah i would rather people be like sexually attracted to my fucking feet than like objectifying me in any other way i think i'll officially make it when

i have my own feet or not feet finder no no no no wiki feet that's what it's called when people have wiki feet pages i'm like actually i'm jealous i'm jealous because i have good feet hello no literally though I will go in and get like a pedicure or something and they'll be like oh my god your feet like thank you thanks queen I love it but there's more like an artistry of it that I appreciate than like a sexuality aspect I mean to be fair I'm not ever I'm not ever looking at anybody in like a objectifying way I'm definitely more looking at them in like an artistic way the same way I'd look at like a marble statue it's like wow that's beautiful I love the anatomy of it all you know like I love the rolls of the curves I love the smoothness

of it so i'm glad i could introduce you guys to the feet community because love love but like i said i ain't smoking on it i ain't sucking on no feet someone asked do you use a rose no i use a wand if i'm gonna use anything i use a wand and oh my god if you are going to use any sort of toy down there please be aware of overstimulation there is such thing that you can use too much sensations down there and essentially it'll like wear your nerves down pretty much and i know this for a fact because it has happened to me i mean it'll come back you know if you just take some time off the sensitivity you'll come back so like don't even worry about that but and i'm so sorry to my ex for this i remember there was a time in my life where i was like using my vibrator so much

i'm talking like three four times a day i was freaked out and i was in college so like genuinely whatever you gotta do to make it through college i can't fucking blame you you know if you're gonna get off that many times girl go ahead absolutely but i i remember nerves fried and this man went down on me for like an hour maybe an hour and a half I don't know it felt like a long time a long time and props to him for not giving up I mean genuinely but honestly I was like you can stop it's just it's not gonna work it's not gonna work I mean he was going for it I'll give him that he was going for it but please be aware that you can accidentally fry your nerves take care of yourself and i do think that if anything's gonna fry your nerves it would probably be the rose toy

over anything because it's doing more than what like a simple vibrator would do where it's just like a little bit of vibration thoughts on doing shrooms before making big decisions i mean if you're gonna do any psychedelic please please please be careful but shrooms do have this quality of just like it feels like so I would compare it similarly to that of like an edible trip where you feel sometimes when you're on an edible you feel very disconnected it's like that disconnect but your therapist is also in your head like telling you what's going on so it's like you can see your life from a third perspective and also like clock your own tea where it's like you'll do shrooms and you'll be like oh wow i am dating this person because

they remind me of this childhood trauma i went through or like oh wow i'm repeating this negative behavior it'll bring you more realizations than anything so i think sure if you're trying to make a big decision go for it i don't usually take them medicinally like that but if i am going to take them i do always have some sort of realization in that sort of way where it's like oh fuck i fucked up or oh fuck why am i doing this or oh my god what's going on you know how to shave my puss without cutting myself up lol it's a struggle oh my god see i was gonna i was trying to find you guys alternatives i was really hoping that veet would work it doesn't it really doesn't work my friend it works for her oh my god i'm so jealous she's like i'll put veet on and i'll be

smooth for three weeks what i was like no no no i get a good four days after using v so v is out of my house because shaving shaving will last me at least a week at the very least of course if you want a longer and smoother transition i think waxing is probably the way to go but for me shaving is just the easiest and i have a really good shaving routine down here's what i do are you ready hannah's shaving routine for no ingrown hairs for the smoothest puss you've ever seen in your goddamn life she's glinting like some man's bald head i'm not even kidding and without cutting yourself a the razor you buy is very important you need a razor with at least two razors in it not just like a single razor and you need it to have the moisturizing bar on there like a thick

moisturizing bar the moisturizing bar should not be thicker than that of the razor blades but you need something where it's like once it gets wet it has a little moisturizer to it that is very very important now when you're shaving your puss bald you should never go against the grain ever ever ever ever ever do not ever go against the grain yes you can get a smooth shave by going with the grain there's no reason for you to ever go against the grain on your puss ever or your asshole do not do that go with the grain down okay if you're really worried use shaving cream but personally i feel like shaving cream kind of like i i can't see what i'm doing like i need to know what i'm doing and that's the moisture bar comes in handy when you're shaving

goes slow make sure it's a new razor down there with the grain and honestly the best way to shave is if you can sit down I know it's kind of weird but also if you can like hike a leg up or something and really like spread the skin that's what you want to do you never want to be shaving against loose skin two in five Canadians will hear the words you have cancer that's why every step and dollar raised matters on september 19th join thousands in toronto for the princess margaret cancer foundation walk challenge yourself friends and family to walk 21 kilometers in support of life-saving research together we can carry the fire and help create a world free from the fear of cancer register today at pmcfwalk.ca that's probably what's making you accidentally cut

yourself you really want to shave against smooth skin if possible pull it tight and then shave when you're done dry off do not put on underwear do not put on any tight clothes do not put on clothes that's going to get in like the creases of your thighs and rub against each other if you can do anything put on a robe for like eight hours go to bed naked you know what i mean next day if you're wearing underwear make sure it's seamless underwear if you're wearing pants make sure it's very light not tight pants because i find when i get ingrown hairs or any irritation after shaving it's because i'm wearing something tight against that area and it's always like in between my thighs like next to the lips and the thighs that crease right there and i know it's always because

i always wear like either tight underwear that day or the day after or tight pants and they rub they cause friction and they cause ingrown hairs it pushes that hair up into that follicle if you can also do your shaving at the end of your shower where it's like you've been in there for a while the follicles are loosened up the pores are open makes it much easier and like i said go slow oh my god i finished my wine should i pour myself a little more just for the end of the pod i want to get through a couple more questions before we end because you guys i'm having a key this is such a good time are you enjoying yeah i'm so glad you're here thank you for being here thank you for showing up every single week for me i have the best fucking time

doing this literally this is like my girls hangout such for the week and it is so fun let me pour myself a little bit and i'll be right back how to find the balance between double texting such calling but not being too overbearing oh can we talk about a situation a situation that happened this weekend not with me and double texting but um i love being about around my boyfriend's friends because they're all single and so they're always like hannah what do i do and here's the thing he came into town he had this girl he really wanted to see who you know they had been having a good time before he left town and he wanted to you know rendezvous with and so he was like texting her back asap calling her back asap i'm here let's hang out let's hang out let's do this

I'm at this bar I'm doing this guess who never showed up her yeah I think I I am anti double texting I think you should be open to communication but I do think in this day and age if you're going to play the game if you're going to play the game the game of it all if you don't want to play a game don't play a game but if you're going to play the game and like I said this is sobby be talking this is not sober hannah but like if you want to get toxic and you want to play the game don't respond people especially in this day and age they want something they can't have and if they can't have you they want you tenfold so make yourself unavailable oh i'm busy oh i'm doing this oh my friends plan this thing oh i'm doing this it makes you seem mysterious it makes

you seem desirable it makes you seem busy it makes you seem like untouchable and i guarantee these people will go after you tenfold they really will that's toxic advice i know if i was here not off the sobby b i'd be like no send that double text you know if they really liked you they would just respond you right away you know and that's true like if they wanted to be around you they would be making that effort back but if they're not making that effort back and you want to play the game and you want to get their attention don't respond don't respond if it's been like eight hours since they've responded to you and you finally get a snapchat back a ew snapchat i can't stand snapchat you finally get a text back don't respond they gave you eight hours

give them eight hours back you know and don't just be like sitting at home like oh my god i need to i need to text them back but i can't i gotta give it eight hours don't drive yourself and saying like that no go do something go out to the club go be busy they're gonna see on your story that you're at the club that you're having fun you know what i mean but to be unavailable makes yourself more available does that make sense where it's like when you are unavailable it makes you more attractive to people nowadays this is just something i've been observing from like a secondhand perspective where it's like i don't know what is going on with the dating scene literally scary scary boots I'm telling you and props to the girls who are going through it

but right now I know for a pact a fact a pact people want what they can't have and if you can become unavailable or desirable or exclusive they will want you more than they ever have in their entire life and I know that's fucked up but if you're really trying to play the game do not double text oh my god this is the perfect question for how wine drunk i am right now very much so i caught you in the bathroom crying girl someone asked should i leave my shitty boyfriend yes yes yes please please please do please i'm begging you i don't even care what age you are i don't care what age you are i don't care what you're looking for in life if that man is not making your life 10 times better than what you are already giving yourself

he should not be anywhere near you if you were crying in the bathroom of the club girl you need to get out of that goddamn relationship right now and i'll tell you why i'll tell you why you are young you are hot you are sexy you are intelligent you are a go-getter you have so much energy and you're wasting it on being miserable think about how many different things you could do with the time that it spares for you think about how many hobbies you could pick up how many clubs you could go to how many new friends you can make how many different degrees you could get if you weren't around this shitty goddamn fucking man who's making your life miserable like genuinely and when i broke up with my ex-boyfriend who i have never been more miserable

with like i'm talking like i was maybe 99 pounds soaking wet like so depressive didn't eat anything because he always shit on me like constantly just like an abusive ass fucking mean ass man like he needs to be hit with a car asap it was the hardest thing i have ever done in my life because when you're in such a low point i mean pulling yourself out of a low point is always hard but it felt so freeing someone also asked what's my biggest crash out to date and i think it would be leaving this man genuinely i remember and it's so funny when you get out of a toxic relationship it really is like the smallest thing that sets you over the edge you're like oh you think it'd be like a big nasty horrible thing that he does that puts me over the edge no it was him not taking his cat

to the vet and i said i'm done i'm done you're gonna sit here and you're playing fucking video games and not take your cat to the vet even though it's like practically dying like i'm gonna take your cat to the vet actually because you're a piece of goddamn shit and also like oh we're fighting now so you don't want to go to the concert that i spent 400 on tickets on because it's your favorite concert ever it's your favorite artist ever oh now you don't want to go and it's valentine's day yeah no we're done i'm going out i'm eating this molly and i'm gonna go dance and i'm gonna have a good fucking time biggest crash out today but genuinely if i could like synopsis it for you i don't think that's a word but synopsis whatever it for you it felt like i was

in a rolling hills field of just greenery and i was bareback on a beautiful horse going 100 miles an hour with my arms sticking out hair in the wind beautiful gorgeous like free running that's what it felt like and if you are holding yourself back from feeling that please i beg of you set yourself free let that wild horse inside of you run free girl you know what i mean especially if a man is holding you back the last thing listen we go through a lot of shit in this fucking country the last thing you should let anybody hold you back for is a man and if you're not having a good time he's got to go he does he does absolutely i think and and i've come to this realization because i've gone through so many shitty relationships and i think i went through

so many shitty relationships because my parents relationship was so good and i know that doesn't make sense but my parents relationship was so good where it was like whatever my mom wanted she got you know my mom is like build me a fucking greenhouse my dad's like it's done in a month build me a coffee nook in the kitchen done i need new hardwood flooring done my dad does it he doesn't give a fuck you ask he does you know very simple there's no arguing there's no back talk it is a good symbiotic relationship they're both two gemini's i don't know how it fucking works that's crazy to me my mom's crying my dad's immediately like i'm sorry i don't know what i did like what can i do for you you know what i mean and so i think i found myself in all these

relationships assuming it would work that way and they didn't and i was like well it should so why is it not like maybe i need to put more effort in no no no no no no no it should be very smooth sailing and easy from the start from the jump and if you find yourself hitting a rough patch you know you can sometimes work it out but if it's a rough patch for a long time if you are constantly fighting if you're constantly in tiffs if you are constantly asking yourself like i need to do more for him girl you gotta go you gotta go you know you gotta go but i guarantee the most free you will ever feel is leaving that toxic relationship like i said it feels like you're on horseback running through rolling hills like the hills are alive with the sound of music i'm not even kidding

and i need every woman out there in a toxic relationship to realize this and to understand this and to feel this feeling it is so freeing it felt so good oh it felt so good genuinely i was like uh wow thank god thank god i trusted myself thank god i decided to choose myself choosing yourself will always feel good and that's the first time i chose myself and i felt like majestic and after that i just became addicted to it honestly it only takes one time for you to choose yourself for you to be like no I'm set for life like I am my only priority truly someone asked craziest college story oh girl oh girl oh girl oh girl you know what I'll tell you about my craziest college hookup which was like barely a fucking hookup I should have known better but I

was like a freshman year of college and the thing is freshman year of college you're like I'll do molly whatever i'm having a good time i'm enjoying my time whatever and whatever i'm at this frat party duh i meet this frat guy and like we're hitting it off because we're both like artsy college students at a catholic school oh my god what are we doing here that's crazy oh my god that's wild no one gets us let's talk in the corner whatever and we're both the same age you know thank god and it's like probably i'm not even kidding i think it's like my first frat party ever so we end up going back to the dorms and i'm like oh my god my pussy so hairy which no hate at all but i was at a point in my time in my life where i was like i need to be bald at this point in my

time in my life i don't need to be bald you know a little bush will do we love her but i was like okay you know let me you stay here in your dorm room i'll be right back i just need to run downstairs and get something i need to change into something whatever bullshit because he lived on like the floor above me so I run downstairs my friends are in there they're giggling at me I'm in the shower I'm shaving my pussy as fast as I fucking can as fast as I can like I said if you don't want to cut yourself don't shave super fast I'm shaving shaving shaving I put on a cute little two-piece set I go upstairs we're making out I'm in his lap I'm looking around I'm like is what's going on because he had decor like I said photographer kind of like artsy guy and he had decor in his

dorm room and i'm looking at the photos like i'm making out with him but side eyeing at the same time looking at the walls and i'm like who is this girl in all of these photos who is probably our age who is this girl who is this girl what's going on so i pull away sitting in his lap fully straddling him on his futon mattress do you have a girlfriend do you have a girlfriend what's going on who is this girl no that's my sister we're just really close blah blah no no like that's my sister like yeah no i just love taking family photos whatever i then look down because i'm like you guys don't look alike this girl is blonde as hell and you have brown hair i looked down i have bled all over his pants i guess talk about like embarrassing moments but not even embarrassing

for me because he's evil I bled all over him because I had shaved so fast I'd accidentally cut myself and so I lied and I said oh my god I'm on my period I can't have sex with you I gotta go because I knew deep down in the back of my head that's his girlfriend he has a girlfriend he has a girlfriend he's a girlfriend he's his girlfriend and I'm spotting this and I'm seeing this and of course he didn't tell me because men are evil but now I know and I'm getting the fuck out of here and thank god i just bled all over him because now i have an excuse on to fucking leave get out of here so i literally was like oh i'm so sorry i'm gonna go i'm gonna go to tampa bye disappear gone but i think about that a lot where i'm like oh my god what the hell men are evil loki i was

the other woman did not mean to be but like what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck this is why say like don't go into college with a girlfriend or a boyfriend because you're going to go through a situation like this and you don't need to be there at all thank god i shaved my pussy so fast it started bleeding everywhere because i needed it out immediately but i literally looked around on this nasty ass futon and i'm like why the hell is there a woman in all of these photos i'm looking at talk about a jump scare i have to get going oh like i said horrible awful talk about pegging men please I'm not into pegging like I said I'm more of a submissive I'm not into pegging I'm not a pegger I don't think like I would like I said if I was like in a dominator situation was

for money and I'm like not getting any sexual pleasure out of it sure I'd peg a man for a good bag but is it something I could do and get sexual pleasure out of no now I could imagine if I'm gonna give you pegging tips even though I've never done it like low and slow is the way to go always same with like anal and i mean of course it's anal so like please just like slow and warm up have you guys heard of booty boot camp you guys know what booty boot camp is it's like they give you a pack of like all these different sizes of butt plugs so you can slowly work your way up especially as like a man i'm sure that's helpful i don't know though like as a man what do you mean as a man like as a woman i can take a dick up the ass it can't be like that hard for a man

to either at that the anatomy back there is not that different anyways that's a tmi but i've never done booty boot camp but have you heard of it if you're interested in anal and want to go slow probably the best way to go but if you're gonna if you're gonna peg a man like and he can't fit a butt plug in his ass then it's probably not gonna work out well the first time around and you're gonna put anything back there lube it up and also low and slow is the way to go how to loosen up the vibes at work when everybody's hyper focused on money i be walking around my work meowing like a cat anybody else do that am i the only one i be walking around like meow meow meow yeah oh she's so quirky and she's not like other girls no it's because i'm so

fucking high at work that i don't give a fuck i'm just like walking around meowing like instead of saying behind door corner i'm just meowing loudly because like hello or i'm here to have some a good time if i'm serving miserable ass people best believe i'm here to have a good time i'm here to make a little laugh about it i'm not here to be miserable too i'm not gonna let them wear off on me okay i'm here meowing around the corner like a weird little girl that i am so you can just be weird and then once you're the weird girl everybody else's weirdness starts coming out and it's kind of beautiful it only takes one person it only takes one person to make a change so be the weird girl that you are so everybody else is comfortable to

be the weirdo that they are amen i want to be able to have male friends but why do they all just want to fuck because the men that you're befriending only see women as objects and i think that's a big red flag i think men and women should be able to be friendly i think men and women should be able to be friends i think like if my which like my boyfriend does have female friends he went on a vacation with a female friend not alone but in a group and it's like i'm not worried because genuinely if i was dating a man and i thought he could only see women as sexual objects i would not be dating that man at fucking all so scary hello and it does suck when these men are like oh yeah we're good friends you've been good friends forever but i want to fuck you it's

like go fuck a fucking rock go fuck on my chicken like what the hell are you saying to me right now i hate that shit i hate it and i feel like men's brains nowadays have been rotted and i know it's not all men duh don't worry but if you are a man listening to this podcast please for the love of god not all women are sexual objects you don't have to fuck everything genuinely and if you're a man i encourage you to have female friends i encourage you to have women around you who are important to you who you listen to and who you view as human beings and if you're a woman dating a man you should encourage your man to have female friends that he is able to see as human beings and as real people but like i said if your man or men around you can't view women other than in a sexual

light they are people you should not have around you at all those are dangerous people lustful men lustful men like i said the most dangerous men of all i'm fucking my ex's new girlfriend's ex whoa whoa whoa whoa i'm fucking let me let's break this down okay socratic seminar style if i'm fucking my exes okay exes new girlfriends okay so two new people x okay so you are the exes in the relationship and there's the two new people you guys should just have a foursome like one of you already knows the other the other one already knows the other sexually like i think you could have a really good time in a foursome i'm not even kidding i'm not even kidding and i think you kind of get off on the idea of you know you're sleeping with their ex so why not do it

side by side and make eye contact if you if you're really into some freak hours here why not make eye contact while doing it i'm sure you'll get off harder than you ever had before honestly oh free yourself girls i'm really losing it it's 1 30 i should not be this drunk at 1 30 genuinely what is going on this is why i don't do these drunk usually every night this is my drinking habit and i maybe i shouldn't be drinking this much you can tell me in the comments below chat let me know below but i usually kind of just like i'm here i i do work i work from home of course and around five or six is when i shower and if i'm doing like a deep shower like i'm i'm going to town i'm exfoliating i'm shaving everything you know i'll pour myself a glass of wine and

i'll bring it into the shower with me i love a shower glass of wine what can i say especially with some ice cubes in it so it doesn't get too hot bring it in there i do all my work i do all my thing my shaving my getting ready whatever put on a robe and then i'll go cook dinner now if i'm not doing all that bullshit i'll at least pour myself a glass of wine while i'm cooking dinner and then i cook dinner and i have my little glass of wine and i romanticize my life and i sent i i light a little candle or whatever it may be and then i don't know it's just so nice i mean honestly my evening routine is shower glass of wine cook dinner eat dinner eat an edible preferably at like at least 10 grams of an edible I love being in an edible hole because my boyfriend

plays a lot of video games so he's occupied with video games for like four hours which I have no problem with like please do not bother me when I'm in an edible hole don't even like I'm not here anymore unless I need water and then I'll call you over but I love it because I'm just like in my own world on Pinterest with my headphones in oh my god it's fantastic but I probably have at least one glass of wine a night is that bad is that bad just one I mean tonight I probably won't drink because I'm gonna stop drinking here I haven't eaten anything oh my god and I'm gonna need to take a nap that's for sure but 1 30 I haven't like day drink like this in a long time i remember in college it'd be like we're going to the frats at 8 a.m start cooking girls like

start break out that fucking bag of wine or when i'd be at festivals it's like you just drink the entire three days and don't shower and just like keep it pushing it's crazy it's wild and i fear i'm i may be returning to that era in my life i don't know there's something so comforting about like your late 20s where it's a lot like returning to your late teens and early 20s but now you have money and stability so instead of being like mentally ill and depressed but wanting to do everything you're mentally secure and you have money and you can do it's it's so beautiful genuinely me off that saw baby me off that saw baby like life is worth living life is good every year is better than the next every day is better than the next every single opportunity i

have is so beautiful and wonderful and you know why it's not because of like oh money or like superficial things it's because every year i get to know myself better i grow stronger in myself I understand myself I'm not afraid to be myself I know myself more and I'm not afraid to go after opportunities or activities or things that I desire I don't hold myself back anymore I lean into my sensuality and my sexuality I allow myself to just be and it's so freeing a lot of your early 20s I don't know if you're listening in your early 20s but a lot of it is like I need to know who I am I needed to figure it all out but what's so funny is to figure yourself out and to know who you are comes with time and experience so no matter how bad you want to lock in and

journal until you know every single possible capability that you have it's just not going to be that way until you're willing to go party at the club and talk to the girl in the bathroom or go to the farmer's market or take that trip or sign up for that class just put yourself out there then you'll know yourself it really is so simple yet so beautiful and I know every year from here on is just gonna be better and more magical and more wonderful and more amazing and I'm so thankful to get to live every single day side by side not only with myself but with you guys like how lucky am i that's not maybe is really speaking but it really is just like wow how wonderful is life how beautiful how amazing is this opportunity we get to live and sure there's always shitty things going

on but what's beautiful about being humans and having autonomy is we always have opportunity to speak up or act on on those things you know we always have ways to show up for a community to be there for other people to provide hope and inspiration and just like I don't know be a warming light for everybody around us and I really hope this podcast inspires you if anything to not only become autonomous in your life to you know live for you because you are deserving of a good life and the only person who's going to create a good life is you and it doesn't take a lot of pressure you know like no pressure genuinely just a little bit of self-love goes a long way but also like you can go out there and be the change you wish to see you know although there's

many roadblocks in front of you you can't bust them fucking down and you get out there and do whatever you want to do you know it really is beautiful and wonderful how limitless our opportunities are and we are the only people who create these opportunities for ourselves so get out there embrace life with open arms accept change be the change you want to see provide hope provide inspiration give that friend a hug who you haven't seen in a long time compliment someone's haircut compliment their outfit show up for your friends show up for your family pet that stray cat go out dancing make yourself that good cup of coffee speaking of i just uploaded a recipe on instagram at hannah marlene if you want to see i made my own pumpkin

spice syrup yes for your morning coffees like i said we ain't supporting starbucks over here free palestine down you guys know where i stand duh make your own pumpkin spice at home celebrate the season i have many fall recipes coming out a lot of just like living life is embracing what's in front of us and yes winter can be terrifying fall can be a little spooky coming up but if you make the most for it live for every second that we have in front of us try and embrace the change in seasons and embrace ourselves through it all we can live a positive and eventful and fun and inspiring life something that we are all here deserving of absolutely you deserve the best whether you believe it or not I believe in you I know who you are listening right now and I know

how wonderful and amazing and beautiful and just like creative and individual you are and whether you can see that in yourself or not I'm here to tell you that that is who you are and you are deserving of just like all the magic the world has to provide all you have to do is open your eyes and your heart to receiving it and you are deserving of all of those blessings tenfold tenfold and i genuinely believe that like this isn't even bullshit like genuinely i've been so suicidal before and now it is my mission to just make everybody aware of just how wonderful life can be if we just learn to embrace ourselves the weird the wonderful the obscure the embarrassing talk about embarrassing i definitely talked about some embarrassing stories today who cares we're

all human we all go through life we all have those moments and i think just being here with like-minded individuals makes life seem a little less lonely so i'm just happy that we could have this beautiful community thank you all so much for showing up not only for me but for yourselves every single week hopefully i provided you a little bit of entertainment if you want more drunk fucking sleepover style episodes let me know i am happy to do so i need to do more high episodes but i have been loving just kind of like my edible thoughts because if i'm on an edible on these episodes i'd be like like no thoughts i'd be basically mouth breathing the entire time um but if you had a good time let me know down below chat let me know let me know but i know i

definitely had a good time and i'm just so thankful of the positive energy you guys provide for me and hopefully i can give that back to you guys if you want to support me follow the instagram at hannah marlene i upload the questionnaire every sunday you can submit your questions there every single week or just dm me a voice message a longer message let me know there and if you have the means to support the people who keep this podcast running are the patreon girls they know so many new things coming for the patreon girls they've been begging for a discord so i'm hoping to get one done at least by the end of september i have a new book club book of the month coming out i just did a tarot reading i always do a exclusive episode every single week where i answer every

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