Smoke Sesh - indecisive, starting over & not giving a fuck

Episode Date: May 26, 2026

welcome back to smoke sesh hotties! we have sooo much to catch up on as this gemini season energy has me in my element, we talk what I've been up to, much needed rest, horse shenanigans, upcoming birthday, opinions, others opinions, not caring what others think, overthinking, learning how to not give a fuck, why exes are exes, cons lists, reminding yourself why you left, searching for the good things, finding a good partner, dating around, putting yourself out there, back door play LOL, pms, pmsing, period apps, allowing yourself to go crazy, taking flirty photos, plant based, being vegan, doing your best, vegetarian, living in duality, tick season, being outside, bugs, feral childhood stories, fun drinky drinks, hosting activities, throwing a good party, introvert vs extrovert, opposites attract, making a choice, being indecisive, how to make a choice, following intuition, trusting your gut, starting over, finding peace, moving forward, good vs bad and much much more!join the patreon! new episodes (and more) at patreon.com/smokeseshshawtysubmit your questions and call ins every week on instagram.com/hannahmarlenewatch the new vlogs every Sunday on YouTube at hannahmarlene444

listen everybody needs a fairy godmother you know just somebody to look out for them some people call me their fairy smoke mother others their internet big sister but you can call me hannah the host of smoke sash so come hang out let's light up and talk everything there is to life the good the bad the ugly the embarrassing i've got a story for it all hello hotties and welcome back to another episode of smoke sesh my name is hannah your host and i am so excited to be back with you all today honestly i've had such a good day usually usually i sit down and record this i mean recently and i've just been like beaten and battered and exhausted but I actually took time to rest and relax yesterday I laid in bed for about

I don't know six hours way too long honestly way too long but it was exactly what I needed I just needed a good bed rot sometimes a girl just needs a good bed rot and can you blame her I consider it my princess in a tower moment where it's like if I do anything it's gonna be things it fulfill me such as painting or music or maybe a little laundry no no laundry let's be honest but mostly it's just enjoying myself and moving minimally and that's exactly what I did I just had a busy weekend and I needed a day to recoup and sometimes you got to take those days or else baby you're gonna crash and burn and we do not need that at all so today woke up feeling good bright and early alarm going off at 7 30 in the morning keep in mind one of you guys asked me

great time to bring it up how do you wake up to an alarm and actually get the fuck up and like i don't know live life usually my day since i work late like late nights um i usually sleep in so on the rare occasion that i do need to wake up early like catching a flight at 4 a.m or having to go um to lessons and getting up at 7 a.m honestly do you guys want me to give you the real fucking answer it's my anxiety that gets me up it's my anxiety and feeling like if i don't fucking get up right now the world's gonna crash and burn so i have to get up and i don't let myself set multiple alarms i think if you set multiple alarms you're training your brain to go actually i have more time let me take more time let me wait it out let me wait for that next alarm we don't want

to train our minds to do that we want to train our minds to hear the mind numbing apple alarm sound and to immediately fight or flight response get the fuck up also a good coffee after getting up early is a great incentive to do so so yeah when my alarm goes off i set one singular alarm there is no snooze there is no second alarm we're not training our brains to do that as soon as my alarm goes off bitch I get up I stand up I rub my eyes I go pee I make myself a coffee and I just keep it pushing we keep it pushing we keep moving and that's what works best for me I feel like in college when I would set multiple alarms and I would just like wait it out oh snooze let me wait it was just like ripping teeth out of my head like you might as well just rip the band-aid off and

get up and just live your day so got up bright and early immediately made my coffee got in my car got my boots on girls i was headed to the barn and i was on the highway keep in mind i have like a 45 minute drive to the barn it is it is an event when i do go out there um my trainer texted me she's like hey not feeling great is it okay if we reschedule lessons which i don't care about because i'm currently have a horse so i can go out there either way but i was like you know what i'm in the car i'm feeling good it's bright and early i want to get out and just be in nature to start my day off and so I was like all right you know it's fine I understand no big deal seriously especially when you're dealing with a chronic illness like take care of yourself babe

but I gotta get out there I gotta get out there I gotta ride I gotta listen to the birds chirp and I did it was such a beautiful way to start the day per usual and now I'm here hanging out with you guys I had a couple horse fiascos this week nothing like too terrible or crazy but like things that i'm learning which is very interesting and also things that are insanely anxiety inducing having animals in general is just anxiety inducing but then having a 1500 pound animal that is like constantly seeking death for some reason is even more anxiety inducing um so the farrier came and i mean farrier was fine but his little apprentice oh i've never seen i've never seen a grown man get bitched out like this in front of me it was spooky it was scary but also a shout out to the

man for standing on business he just cut my horse's uh feet a little too short cut her toenails too short the girls know when you cut your toenails too short it's like oh i'm a little sensitive and she's barefoot anyways so extra sensitive feet flat on the ground real bad not good she was like oh ouch and so the farrier was like okay we're giving you free shoes this time around and it's coming out of his paycheck this man was trembling in his boots kills me so funny thank god because i was gonna bitch that man out and i didn't have to so that was number one i can really only ride her in the arena right now i'm maybe gonna try and hit the trails tomorrow for a little vlog you guys i've been vlogging consistently on youtube and if you like my hair if you like how

blonde it is if you want to know the secret to getting my hair long and beautiful and luscious and golden well i dyed it myself this weekend and it was a fiasco safe to say so if you want to watch that insane process it is up on my youtube channel as well as cooking videos vlogs whatever really you want to watch i guarantee it's up hannah marlene 444 i'm hoping to film a horseback riding vlog just like come to the barn with me kind of vlog that will be up this sunday and then the next sunday is my birthday birthday vlog we'll get into that in a second second horse fiasco okay was my horse is allergic to flies allergic to fly bites tell me why giant animals who live outside can be allergic to flies tell me why that's a thing i'm confused i'm confused all right

anyways she's allergic to flies so when they bite her she gets these huge welts and she's been fine so far but when i spray her down i spray her down with like a gallon of natural fly spray bitch i'm running through this thing i'm spending buku bucks on fly spray and i was like we gotta find an alternative so the owner of the barn was like well you could try a fly sheet which is like this essentially like this coat that they wear all summer it's mesh the flies the mosquitoes they can't get into it i'm like all right yeah two hundred dollars versus fifty dollars a gallon kind of fly spray we'll try it we'll give it a try and she she gave me a fair warning she was like listen you're gonna put her out in the pasture with the herd of like 15 other horses

and they're not gonna recognize her so it could go really good where they don't recognize her and also don't give a fuck or it could go really bad where they don't recognize her and then they think she's an intruder and try and chase her the fuck off i'm like oh okay i was like can she hold her own can my girl fight though like can my girl fight you know can she hold her own they're like yeah she's pretty high up in the pecking order um between the mares she's pretty much the top mare in her group oh my god i'm realizing i'm becoming such a horse girl and i'm so sorry but like i just am learning so much and so i have to share it with you guys it's like the only really interesting thing going on in my life right now so i put her in this fucking fly sheet i put her

out in the pasture and I'm like teeth chattering like oh god what the fuck's gonna happen and I stood out there by the gate watching her for at least 30 minutes 30 45 minutes and you know she wandered out there you could see all of the horses heads turn like I mean she looked a little spooky it was odd it was an odd sight to see and they were all like who the fuck is this and they all circled her kind of checked her out and then she went she started eating and they were fine they kind of went to grazing one of them tried her Elvis who's a little fucking snot I'm spilling Celsius everywhere I'm a mess I'm a mess today I'm a freaking mess BRB while I Clorox myself in the ground but he kind of tried her he came up and like nipped at her while she was eating

and she turned the fuck around bit the shit out of him he like ran off I was like okay things are good things are good she can hold her own you know she'll fight back it'll be fine I told the barn owner she was keeping an eye on her they were doing like yard work she's like i didn't go to work they're like it's okay we'll keep an eye on her things are looking good i'll keep you updated i'm showing up to work keep in mind i'm showing up to the restaurant to help out because an evil co-worker got fired shout out fired simply for having like a bad attitude talk about deserved because yeah why are you getting pissy as a grown man why are you getting pissy and snapping in front of customers like please smoke more weed before you come into this shift

anyways I digress I'm showing up to one of the busiest nights we've ever had scheduled I'm talking house full okay turn times an hour like crazy shit I'm running late all right anxiety already like oh my god what's happening I haven't eaten anything had like two celsius's girl my heart is fluttering like a hummingbird's wings and I get a text from the barn owner and they're like hey just so you know they're all kind of like chasing her and um you know cornering her off into the pasture and being really really bad and she's like i'm gonna keep an eye on it for a little bit longer but if it keeps going this way and she can't eat like we got to take it off her i'm like totally fine whatever you want to do works with me i get another text they're like

yeah so they chased her into the electric fence and she got so scared she peed herself and like my heart's breaking my heart's breaking take the thing off her I can return it it has like a 60 day warranty I don't give a fuck I'll return it but like poor thing she was shaking her boots they all came after her I felt like the worst owner ever but I had to try I had to try I feel like a horse scientist testing things out went to the barn the next day gave her a million gajillion treats and the barn owner was so understanding understanding she was like it's okay like we had to test it out she's been in a sheet before it went well this time she hasn't been in one for a while we're not surprised she's telling me the story that we're one halloween they took one of

their horses and painted like a skelling like a skeleton put it into the herd the they didn't recognize him and started chasing him around poor guy he had no clue what was going on so those were my high anxiety moments this weekend she's totally fine and they immediately accepted her again once the the blanket was off i mean she did look a little scary in those blankets but i just felt so bad i was like oh my god she's getting all the apples she wants all the apples and all the grass she wants i don't give a fuck she's getting spoiled so yeah just a hectic little weekend and then now i'm preparing for my birthday trip i leave for california on friday so every single day i pretty much have like double the amount of work to do so i can have a week off babe what's a

week off it means you just double up on the work the week before there is no such thing as a week off don't worry i'll be here next week to celebrate my birthday with you guys my birthday's on june first gemini season i am feeling the gemini season energy i'm feeling so myself so in my zone and so with it i'm feeling good gemini season is a special time and i think it throws a lot of people off especially earth signs and water signs because they're not used to the airy quality of us you know the the nature of duality the i feel this way and then it could immediately fucking shift bitch like who knows it really does throw them off but you have to lean into the air sign ditzy bubbly go with the flow kind of energy that we bring to this season that is a lot of fun very

energetic and can push you into new areas and new territories that you never would have gone before hopefully in a healthy way i'm feeling invigorated i'm feeling enthralled with life i'm feeling confident and I'm feeling good okay I'm about to turn 27 shocker can't believe I'm making it to the 27 club wait that's a bad thing never mind but bitch I'm happy to have made it this far and if younger Hannah could hear that like I'm turning 27 she actually would have been like how how is that possible anyways I can't wait to be in LA we're going to Malibu we're running around i'm doing a shit ton of shopping and then we're going to sequoia national park i'm hoping to at least hug a big tree and maybe get into a fresh river if i'm lucky enough if you want to

see me on that trip and follow along follow the instagram at hannah marlene lots of fun things coming out on there as well as where i upload the questionnaire every week and where i take your call-ins so if you ever have a question follow me on instagram and like i said that vlog will be out after my birthday hannah marlene 444 on youtube i've been having so much fun on youtube we're just getting creative and crazy over there i also can't believe i dyed my hair and it came out this good is it perfect no absolutely not but like damn did i save myself six hundred dollars yes absolutely i did anyways enough of my rambling because bitch i could sit here and ramble all day and i'm about to for another hour but let's get into your guys's questions how to stop caring

what other people think oh I had like one viral video and I do stand by this sentiment where it's like why would I care what other people think when they're dumb and have bad taste like mic drop mic drop it really is that simple like I have the best taste in the world because it usually is in regards to me I have the best energy in the world I have the best everything in the world because I'm me and you should think that same way about yourself but when it comes to what other people think they ain't thinking the same way as you babe all right and they probably have horrible taste and they're probably a little stupid so why would you listen to them now i do think to navigate accordingly you do need people in your life where you do care what they think

okay you need friends and friends are important that actually when they place judgment on you it comes from a place of love care kindness understanding and what they know you can be okay they're coming from a good place their judgments coming from their heart i have very close friends that they will say shit to me and i'll be like damn you're right damn you're right those people i care about their opinions i can i also count the amount of people who i care about their opinions on both hands yeah probably on one singular hand if we're being honest when it comes to people outside of the seven people i care about i cannot spend time caring about what they think because they don't fucking know me they don't know me they don't know me they

don't know who i really am they haven't grown up with me they haven't even spent 10 fucking minutes with me they probably judge themselves they probably hate themselves they probably want other people to suffer i always assume that they're probably gonna have negative intentions if they're placing negative energy negative thoughts negative opinions onto me and for my own peace of mind for my own protection i really have to not give a fuck like i said i'll place care and kindness and attention to the people who do care about me and to myself. But outside of that, it is a waste of energy. It is a waste of time. It is a waste of everything, any sort of energy I can expend to worry about what other people think. Now, does that mean I'm going to

be an evil, horrible, awful bitch? No, I'm a good person. I show up. I could be in a room full of 100 strangers i'm still gonna try and be a positive uplifting kind caring individual all right so i understand that the initial you know shock value of interacting with me or running into me or seeing me in a room should be positive because i bring a positive energy why would i walk into a room and assume everybody thinks i'm ugly evil and awful when i know i'm none of those things you've just not placing those identity factors on yourself when they simply don't exist in the first place you know no one's thinking about you as much as you're thinking about yourself everybody is too in their head to like thinking of themselves more than they can be

thinking about anybody else around them so worrying about what other people think is just like you creating false narratives and false realities about myself if i'm going to create false narratives and false realities about myself best believe they're gonna be like Hannah is the sexiest fucking bitch in this entire room she has got everybody's attention she is so kind so caring so compassionate she brings a light and rainbows and sparkles and sunshine everywhere she goes that's the fucking false narrative that I'm gonna create about me which isn't super false but it's a bit inflated you know like if you're gonna be delusional and in your head about something why would you spend your time being in your head about something negative and i understand when sometimes

your your like brain gets ahead of what is true i get that way too but you cannot let your random intrusive thoughts control everything about you and when it comes to like ocd when intrusive thoughts are too too too much that's when you get working with a therapist working with medication working with whatever you can find that is a healthy coping mechanism and tool to get out of your head a little bit but if you are an average normal person with average normal intrusive thoughts you do have control over those things and you can sit down with yourself and say bitch that ain't true we're not going down that path stop right there let's think about something more positive let's uplift ourselves let's uplift the people around us because bitch those negative

thoughts are a waste of goddamn time also there's something about growing up and your brain kind of fully clicking into place fully turning on completely you'll get there if you're struggling and you're a young person don't worry like you have time you will get more comfortable in your brain but you do have control over your brain if you were a regular average human being you know what I mean I also understand when you don't have control over your brain and thus I recommend and getting second opinion getting help not me like other people don't matter and their thoughts don't matter and i'm like get a second opinion no no no no like a professional opinion someone you trust like i said i don't think you should walk around being like i don't give a fuck what

anybody thinks i think it's good to care about what your friends think good to care about what your family thinks if they're healthy individuals good to care about people uh what people you trust think about you what you think about yourself but outside of that bitch it is what it is and that's up to god if he's up there not up to me i know what i bring i know the energy i carry i know how i present myself i am not an evil awful horrible bitch okay so why the fuck would i assume other people think that way if two plus two is four and four plus four is eight then you what i mean you see what i mean do the mental math understand what is true what is fake and bitch if you're gonna be delusional you might as well think you're the biggest baddest best bitch on this entire

world i just use bitch like a million times for the past four minutes please don't get me demonetized i left my verbally abusive boyfriend last july advice for not going back i miss a lot of parts a lot of parts like what when he would yell and scream at you sorry no i've been there I've been there listen distance makes the heart grow fonder because bitch you forgot what it was like you forgot okay and for your own protection you need to remind yourself why you left in the first place and this is why when I think you break up with somebody listen you break up for a reason it's probably because you weren't a right fit but specifically when you break up from a situation that was just like wow toxic you have to make a cons list okay you gotta make a cons list this

list is so important because it lists all the reasons why the fuck you hated him and needed to get out in the first place fuck the rainbows sunshine butterflies that you thought it was or maybe it was two percent of the time let's focus on what it really was which was the very highly negative aspects of it this list is so important it could be something as small as a tiny ick you got from the way he chewed to like damn he really threatened me and threatened my life and that's not okay and i need to remember that and have that solidified in my brain so whenever you get those ah fantasies what could have been and i get it what could have been what could have been is out there you're not gonna find it in him that's for sure revisit that cons list

create that cons list so you have something to reference over so when you are feeling like but maybe but maybe no reminder cons list read through the whole thing like it's the bible get back into reality place those feet on the ground and like i said what you seek what you want and also what you had in that relationship that was good does exist outside of him you do not need to accept the evil horrible awful parts of a person for the two percent of good things when there is a 100 good person out there that's going to give you that two percent plus 98 more is that the right math oh my god i can't believe i can't do 98 plus two you know what i mean so like yeah the good qualities that you did experience were good qualities and you can seek those out

in people if he was a kind compassionate individual outside of how he treated you well guess what you can find a kind compassionate individual that also treats you the same way that is also kind of compassionate to you if he would surprise you with flowers once a month and that really meant a lot to you congratulations you can carry that over to another person and seek out a person who's going to do the same things without being abusive to back it up if he happened to be good with kids congratulations you can go seek somebody that is also good with kids but also isn't going to drag you to the pits of hell with him do you see what i mean the cons are important the cons are why it didn't work out and why you weren't there in the first place it keeps you

grounded in reality and when the bad is too much and you start thinking about the good you gotta remind yourself of the bad now the good is good i'm not gonna negate the good everybody has good parts of themselves but also does that mean you need to accept the negative parts no no you don't babe actually go find somebody that has qualities that you did see and enjoy and you know you like plus is also just good all around you know what i mean you deserve that you're deserving of it you can find that if you stand strong beside yourself it might take some time it might take you setting hard boundaries it might take you getting out there and actually looking but you going back to what you know is not good is not going to happen to change and in fact dare i say the

definition of anxiety insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results that you're going insane you going back it's gonna be no different we don't do stockholm syndrome around here babe okay you're free accept your freedom go after the good the complete good the all-around good you do not have to accept negatives for some positives you deserve only positive i think i might be too picky with dating how do i get over this i don't think there's no such thing as too picky with dating like if you don't want to be in a relationship with a man you don't have to be if he doesn't check every single fucking box and like you don't have to be with that person you know what i mean you don't have to settle but when it comes to like dating going

on dates I do think you need to open your horizons a little bit you know you gotta be like I don't know but like let's try all my friends who have gotten into like real solid good relationships I'm talking married about to have kids like I'm like damn you were very mentally unsane and now you are so incredibly sane it's actually shocking like congratulations I'm actually impressed don't say that a lot but like no genuinely all of them before going on that first date were like I don't know I don't know if this is gonna be the right thing or had told them no before like I just don't wanna and then they went on it and then it was fantastic and amazing okay I actually saw a video I don't know this is good advice because I'm not like practicing dating right now but this girl

was like you need to stop dating like a wife and date like a whore like first of all going on a date doesn't have any implications doesn't mean you have to get sexual with them doesn't mean you have to sleep with them doesn't mean you have to spend any money just means you have to spend time with them right it could be a coffee day it could be a activity day it could be a walk in the park it could be a five-star dinner who knows everybody has different ideas of what they prefer a date to look like but if you are judging everybody so so so hard by like their profile picture by their you know hinge by whatever it is if there's like one thing that gives you the ick and you completely throw them out it's like okay but you also like might be throwing out a good situation you really

don't know until you get in the present moment I mean if you get to the date and you immediately are like nah I'm not fucking with this you can get up and leave you don't have to be there but I do think there's something to be said about just like putting yourself out there and that of gambling with life which is if you have these free amount of pennies and you're at the penny slot and each penny is a date and you keep putting them in and putting them in and putting them in trying and trying and you know attempting to gamble a little bit eventually you're gonna win big but if you're too afraid to put that penny in you're you're limiting yourself a little bit you know it's all about experience you know you should go into dates as if you're just going to hang out

with a good friend if it goes anywhere else other than that fantastic if you go and hang out with them and you're like oh bad vibes i gotta dip great do whatever you gotta do but i do think there is something to be said about simply trying putting yourself out there and seeing what happens because i think you'd be surprised with how positive the outcome will be now if there's like major red flags before you even meet up with these people fuck them you know what i mean but if it's just like uh i'm tired i don't want to today maybe put yourself out there try it see what happens you can always literally pick up your phone and your person leave like no one's stopping you but yeah my friend who just got married she's like I remember when she was first about to like date

this man he'd asked her on like five dates and she's like no I'm tired no I don't wanna no I'm just I'm not in the mood and then finally she's like okay whatever yeah let's go to this fancy steakhouse or whatever and I remember by the end of that day she was texting us like wow I can't believe it went so good wow I can't believe I had such a good time wow I can't believe you know how this turned out she was shocked she was surprised and now married he's rich she's living her best life so just try just try you guys are fucking crazy why are there so many butt play questions today and not even for the girls for the guys what is going on how do you stick a finger in a man's butt also how do you dirty talk back-to-back

questions your take on butt play for men in the bedroom oh i don't be sticking fingers inside anybody well any men that's for sure first of all nails nails it didn't go it's not gonna work it just it's not gonna work nor do i have a desire to be in there but like if you do no nails that's the first thing i say no nails and if you have normal natural nails make sure they are cut polished and clean okay oh my god i think about this all the time how dirty men's hands are and how often they just want to stick them inside of you and it's like actually i don't want clumps of dirt coming out of my vagina i'm joking but like please cleanliness cleanliness is so important even for women you know what i mean if you're a woman with a woman if you're a woman

with a man cleanliness of your fingers please go wash them use an antibacterial soap if you're going to be sticking them in any orifices I'm like I that's just that's just being compassionate and considerate for your partner now I'm kind of going from the perspective of what I have experienced personally not for me doing it to somebody but for me having it done to me which is go slow go very slow actually i'm having a flashback moment i'm having a that's so raven moment i think i have stuck my finger in a man's butt before oh my god i think i have i think i have and i think i blocked it out because i was like never again anyways it wasn't like bad but definitely was like listen go slow ask for permission first always and like you don't

have to be knuckle deep sometimes just just the tip is enough like that's sometimes all it takes also i have to give a psa for anybody who's doing backdoor play like if you're going to go back there you gotta be prepared to get dirty so if you're not prepared to get dirty then like don't go back there you know what i mean like i think especially with men they watch way too much fucking porn and then like they're expecting an asshole to be squeaky fresh and clean babe i'm not douching before you come over that's not happening if you're going back there you better be fully prepared for what the fuck goes on back there because I'm human and it's real so but yeah I don't know I don't do personally a lot of butt play with men but I do do it on myself

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Learn more at Accenture.com slash Spotify. I don't know I'm not like a digger I don't like to dig I don't like to get in there I don't I don't want to be I'm not like dominant in that sense so I don't feel inclined to do so also with the nails it just never was an option in my brain but I mean if you want to who am I to ruin that fantasy for you you know what I mean like girl have fun make sure you have a like your partner's cool with it you're willing and able you have plenty of antibacterial soap on hand maybe a little lube if you're really getting in there and have fun you know that's what sex is for exploring with your partner getting crazy getting freaky and we're getting wild who cares as long as you

guys are enjoying your time together bro i can't believe i remember that it literally was like a coming to god moment oh wow listen you got to try everything once maybe you've already answered this but how do you navigate pms slash pmdd especially with a boyfriend i don't give a fuck about the boyfriend part bitch he better be thankful to even be in the proximity of me and if i'm pmsing and i'm freaking out like that's not a me problem in fact it might be a him problem if he's having a problem with it imagine bleeding out of your vagina chunks falling out of your vagina for seven days every single month like light-headed dizzy losing blood low iron chunks falling out of your vagina like i don't care if i'm also pissed off and that's a problem to you actually

the real problem is that you're having a problem you see what I'm saying like I don't know don't worry about your boyfriend just like maybe give a fair warning I always give a fair warning I really do I really I'd like to keep my partner in check with my cycles they're aware of like what I'm going through mentally and physically and if they want to surprise me with chocolates and flowers and make my life better then they can but like I track my cycle um some people track their cycle some people don't i personally track my cycle because with my iud sometimes i have a period and sometimes i don't sometimes it's so light i don't even know what's happening so i do like to be aware of my cycle what cycle i'm in if it's luteal phase if it's ovulation era um and

like how my mood and tenderness can change accordingly this is literally not sponsored also this is just like what works for me as a woman and what i've actually been using um i use the stardust app i really enjoy it um not only does it really allow you to track where you are and your cycle but also i find it very accurate it will literally message me in the morning and be like babe you're gonna be bleeding today and i'm like what is it talking about and then i literally do start now i will be honest i don't know of any app on the phone that is not selling your data that is just what happens on the phone so if that is something you are seriously concerned about then maybe a paper calendar is for you i wish we as women are protected but unfortunately

we are not and big tech loves taking our data and selling it to every single company available they love making money off of us so keep that in mind me personally i don't care if they sell my period data if they want to use that against me bitch i'd throw me in fucking jail like go ahead whatever how dare i track my cycle bitch you're gonna have to come and get me like you're gonna have to come and get me so yeah keep that in mind but it does allow you to track like cravings cramps intensity of cramps type of flow um discharge it lets you track breast tenderness body tenderness what else feelings symptoms gut health sex drive activities altered states cycle disruptors what birth control you are on what kind of tests you've been taking if you're

trying to get pregnant medication supplements and it also has a section for endometriosis so if you have any sort of like endometriosis pain or abdominal swelling or painful sex or joint pain tugging pain heartburn anything like that it allows you to try to track that I find it has so many options that I think are just so brilliant that people don't think about so you can obviously kind of tell that women made this but also like women can be evil and sell your data too so keep that in mind for me this just keeps me on track me aware so when I'm like oh my god I'm losing my mind i open my my period app and i'm like oh no actually i literally am gonna start my period in like three days now for me a lot of it is just like patience when it comes to pms symptoms when

i'm having a crash out when i'm freaking out over the fact that like i can't eat pizza today if i'm like losing my fucking mind for no goddamn reason if everything is annoying me if everything is just overwhelming i really just do remind myself and try and be kind and compassionate to myself um so then I'm not overwhelming myself by feeding into these emotions I'm just letting myself feel it and move on if I need to have a mental breakdown I allow that to happen I don't put too much pressure on myself because of it and I think that does help in general does it completely mitigate me having PMS symptoms no I fear there is no way for me to get rid of that it is just a part of my cycle and what happens is losing my goddamn mind i think being aware and

proactive and just kind to yourself and understanding does help mitigate the situation just a little bit now boyfriend partner whatever you can give them a fair warning but me personally unless you are also bleeding i don't give a fuck what you think okay if i'm rolling around and crying on the floor you better console me and keep your goddamn mouth shut all right my patience is wearing thin my patience is wearing thin tips for taking spicy photos i for real have no idea what i'm doing and feel more silly rather than sexy you know what i feel like taking sex in general i think really interacts the same way for me and sex is not always p and v sometimes like intimacy can also be what we consider sex such as like taking spicy photos

doing a cute video um anything that requires you kind of feel yourself and get into the mood does require a little bit of build-up in my opinion and even like taking sexy photos boudoir photos whatever it may be does require that build-up um for me personally like sometimes you know I'm just feeling myself in general and I don't need a ton of build up but I can just take a quick little ass photo feel myself send it out but in general when I'm trying to build that energy up I really try and get into the mood of just feeling myself elevating that feeling okay turning on a good playlist taking time to do my makeup doing a little like getting a cute new little two-piece set maybe a fun little garter situation if I'm feeling crazy okay taking my time working

my way into it and then naturally you're gonna feel fucking sexy when you take those photos if you're in the middle of a work day okay lunch break and you're trying to take a tit pic and you're not feeling yourself babe it ain't gonna work it's it's not it's not gonna work is it still gonna look sexy yeah duh but like are you gonna be feeling it completely no because you didn't take time for that build-up so like turn it into an event have fun with it you know what i mean i also think personally you need really two good angles for like hot sexy photos okay two good angles that work for you and your anatomy for me personally as a small boob girly under the boob is what works for me it makes it look much larger above maybe that ain't gonna work

i'm gonna look flat chested okay that's not gonna work but if you have massive titties jealous this congratulations above will really work so will below baby girl ass photos always from below okay if you want anything to look bigger take them from below that's how you get it done i also love a little scoop action so then they look real cheeked up fantastic great if you got small tits sometimes i push them together and hold them like this great hot sexy sometimes i'll do from above holding and then like sticking my little tush out cute fun feel yourself though okay and don't be afraid to take a thousand pictures delete half of them and only keep the ones you like that's all right as well but it takes time it takes knowing your body takes knowing how you

feel what feels good for you what looks good and honestly if i'm being completely real and honest with you it's all gonna look good no matter what and whoever is receiving them should be eternally grateful and on their knees worshiping them if they get them no one's complaining about an aspect i promise you that but yes i think with anything especially just like the feeling of sex you need to build up that desire within yourself to really get in the mood have you ever considered going plant-based slash vegan i feel like i've talked about this before but it's been a while um i was vegan for like five years in high school um except for except for a spicy chicken sandwich thursday on thursdays i would always eat spicy spicy chicken sandwiches listen very gemini i

need to be a contrarian but it's like if i am vegan 95 of the time then i'm going to consider myself vegan okay i feel like here's the thing what is really keeping me from becoming a vegan or a vegetarian is like i really can't be a hundred percent one thing um i have to allow myself to have freedom or else i lose my fucking mind and if i try and over control my eating it just gets messy and weird and ugly really quickly now to all my vegans out there shout out miss billy eilish listen i love what you're doing i love the message great fantastic but there is a reason people don't like vegans and it's because sometimes you can be too much of a stickler to the rules and i love an animal activist we do we love it fantastic i like the message i get it

definitely but also it's like if you are simply trying to cut back on your meat consumption there's something to be said about the importance of that you know if you eat one spicy chicken sandwich on thursdays maybe every other thursday but the rest you're vegan it's like that's that's Good. I'm proud of you. Is it 1000% vegan? No. But like, is it doing less damage to the earth by consuming less processed meat? Yeah, absolutely. If I'm being honest, I am pretty much vegetarian. I don't eat a lot of meat in my life. When I cook at home, I do cook mostly like carbs and beans and lots and lots and lots of veggies. I uploaded like a cook dinner with me video and it was tostadas and it's like that is literally just beans and cheese and guacamole it's like

that is my perfect meal I don't need meat to survive I don't eat a lot of meat in general do I sometimes yeah but is it something that I really prioritize in my life no not really and I do enjoy the freedom of that would I consider myself 1000% vegetarian no no not at all but I feel like when I was vegan especially for like it was like the first three years I was like completely and utterly vegan like no spicy chicken sandwich Thursdays it's crazy I say that but like for real I was suffering a lot with the internal battle and also like the mightier than thou perspective and it was not like a healthy place for me to be in personally personally and once I allowed myself to just like eat intuitively really follow what I was craving allow myself

to have like a little bit of everything and do whatever I felt called to do I found that naturally I just did not eat a lot of meat I didn't need the label to really like control me I don't I don't like controlling my eating in that way like I said it gets a little tricky and difficult but I do appreciate when there is flexibility with things and when there is understanding with things with everything in life and so for me that means just doing what intuitively feels right sometimes when on my period and I don't have any fucking iron in my body and I'm craving a fat juicy steak it's like I gotta eat that fat juicy steak okay but most of the time I'm like let me eat a roasted sweet potato and roasted veggies and guacamole shit ton of guacamole shit ton of pasta let's be honest

and call it a day I don't think I could ever be a hundred percent something like I said the duality of the gemini i have to allow myself to really do whatever i want to those who are thank you congratulations we love it whatever you feel comfortable doing with your body is important and i'm proud of people who can limit their meat consumption because it is just in general really bad for the environment but no matter what your part looks like it's important nonetheless no matter what you feel called to do it's important nonetheless and if you eat a lot of meat and i've never tried being vegetarian maybe try for a week i personally get a lot of satisfaction from eating mostly veggies and carbs honestly mostly carbs for being truthful protein here and there

just to get you know make sure i'm getting everything i need but yeah i do believe in freedom happy happy memorial day i do believe in freedom and that includes freedom of people living getting to live however they want as long as it's not hurting anybody and if that means you're vegan except for spicy chicken sandwich thursdays that is valid in my opinion babe tick season is here how are you staying safe since you are always in nature okay if you're not in nature in the summer maybe you don't know about ticks but like the tick season right now is the worst and honestly if i can encourage you to do anything this summer it's get the fuck outside so let me go ahead and give you a tick safety psa oh my god me and my horse went for a trail ride and we got back

I was I didn't have any ticks but she had at least 100 billion on her legs and I spent probably 30 minutes going and picking every single tick off of her I mean we're going through pretty high brush so of course you're going to collect ticks if you want to avoid ticks in general make sure you're not if you're going on a hike you're not going through any brush if the if there is brush on either side of the trail make sure it doesn't touch you usually ticks don't come from like falling off of trees they can they can jump from the trees onto you from above very rare but it does happen but most of the time they are going from something that is on the ground to then crawling onto you so if you are moving on a path that is clear and there's no brush touching your

legs the probability of you getting ticks is pretty pretty low now the old hikers trick to um keeping ticks off of you is mostly what kind of clothing you're wearing so long pants tucked into thick wool socks and the wool socks they'll crawl on it and most of them will get stuck on the wool socks so you can just pull the socks off pull the pants off and they're not really getting under you they're not getting to your skin long sleeves if you got them button up the ends of the long sleeves really really tight so they're just on the surface of your clothes if you do get any and you can just remove the clothes and you're good now you can use like bug spray tick spray but I found recently through my research that it can be like really unhealthy for you and also like

really bad for your clothes it's like we the scientists haven't come up with something better actually one of the people that i ride horses with she actually is a scientist who studies parasite she's a parasitologist isn't that interesting so she created some really fantastic advice which is just use mostly mechanical plus chemical um against them and against any sort of bug bug bites you can use like a paramethrin spray for your pants and boots but like i said it really will stick to your clothes for practically forever i find that the wool socks trick works the best and of course as soon as you are done being outside in nature strip those clothes off and shower okay i have a tick story for you this is when i really reveal my roots of being a kansas

girl growing up in the middle of goddamn nowhere kansas when i was younger growing up when i was bored in the summer what did we do bitch we went and played in the forest and i grew up on the outskirts of a major town so it was like i was the last house on the outside of this town and then behind us was just wilderness like it was pretty much just forest and farmland and so it'd be like okay my parents are gone i have nothing to do let me go run around in the middle of nowhere in the forest and there was this old abandoned barn that we would hike like two miles out to and then we just play around in the barn and then hike back well one day we were hiking through our usual spot which included very tall like prairie grass that went up to our chest I mean on an adult

probably up to your waist and I mean we were pushing through it pushing through it whatever we went to the barn we did our little thing we came back and I knew after being outside after playing outside always always shower because you want to get the the bugs off well this time around me and my friend, we just took a bath. So I just sat in the water up to my waist. Well, the next day I had about 100 tiny, tiny, tiny little seed ticks all the way up from my belly button to my scalp. They had crawled from my legs under the water to my torso and my scalp. I know you're probably like itching listening to this i am it's literally freaking me out because i didn't wash my whole body i wasn't able to wash them all off and they only saw the water that was on my legs

and they were like oh run and they ran all the way up my body my mom spent probably a good two and a half hours going over my entire body and trying to pluck off all of these tiny seed ticks keep in mind I have a bunch of teeny tiny little dark freckles so she'd be like oh is this a tick or a freckle and be like ripping my skin off I went to school the next day covered in calamine lotion like head to toe pink in calamine lotion to keep myself from itching so bad that was one of the worst tick experiences I've ever had I'm not kidding she pulled a hundred ticks off of me no joke after that I am very cautionary when it comes to ticks and right now they're pretty bad like I said as long as you're avoiding the brush you're not brushing up against like directly

against the trees you're using you know you're wearing the correct clothing you're using a bit of some sort of like bug spray and you're showering directly after you are probably in the clear but I'm not fucking around I know multiple people that ride horses at the barn that I'm at currently who have like long-term illnesses from ticks and what they carry and i'm like i'm gonna be spending more time in the woods than i ever have since i was a child this summer and i'm not fucking around i'm taking this shit real serious okay and you should too always protect yourself plus tick bites are like the world's most itchy things ever it's just not fun so but you need to get in nature and you can't let the bugs scare you bugs are usually not bad ticks

kind of suck but every other bug is pretty cool and chill in my opinion i don't know i fuck with them they can come smoke with me we deserve to be in nature but that means we must share nature with what is already out there and that includes the ectoparasites so protect yourself what's your favorite little drinky drink right now bitch i'm loving a celsius celsius has been taking all my money recently i love a celsius specifically the pink lemonade celsius they've changed my life they taste exactly like pink lemonade and they have just the right amount of caffeine me and my dad are caffeine sluts we love a caffeine he's the one who got me hooked on red bull when i was younger and now it was like i loved red bull but then rebels stopped working on me and i'm talking i

got the big cans stopped working on me completely had to switch over to celsius once that stops working i'm probably gonna switch to yerba mate love a yerba mate but he even was like this is celsius is the only thing that works on me i'm like me too what the fuck is going on with us if i need a dose of energy which is like every day i really do run on celsius but then at the end of the night i love making recently i've been into this and i'm actually making a recipe video on this this week so if you need a fun little garden bev i've been in a grapefruit mood recently i love grapefruit grapefruit is so good the tanginess the citrus a little hint of something sweet so i've been doing a garden paloma where i'll do like fresh grapefruit juice a little bit

of fresh lime juice maybe a couple lime wheels um a vanilla sugar muddle that all together ice and then i top it with like a garden seltzer preferably like the wink paloma beverages chef's kiss so good if you want the recipe it should be up like end of the week this week but yeah any sort of garden bev with fresh herbs fresh citrus oh god it's so good how to host events not centered around social drinking i have found that people usually only social drink when they have nothing to do with their hands and they want to look like they're busy or feel like they're doing something that removes them out of their head so if you are going to host an event that doesn't have any social drinking which i think you can do and i do encourage people to do so

you have to have an activity an activity at an event is a game changer if you want to throw the best events known to man have an activity okay cornhole darts pool fucking sticker books and paper bracelet making station i went to a valentine's day once and she had a valentine making section and she had like one that she had already made so people could look at it and kind of come up with their own and i'm not kidding no one ate or drank that entire party everybody was so locked in glue stick in hand making cute little fun valentines and just going fucking crazy people really underestimate the power of a craft that really does bring people together and activity and activity is so important pottery making making little magnets diy stickers like i

said bracelet making anything painting paint by numbers rhinestoning stuff like just have something there and people will naturally gravitate to it because I think when like I said when we are drinking especially me I found this especially in social situations when I'm drinking I just am drinking to kind of like fill an awkward moment or to have something do with my hands or oh I'm not talking to anybody I can like sip on my drink and do my little thing right here also it just takes the pressure off of you because you're getting a little drunk but I went out for like a social event this weekend and I kind of compartmentalized that and then I was like oh damn i'm drinking too much let me go play darts for a little bit and that was a perfect

little distraction to keep me from going above and beyond but yes activities activities activities hi hannah how do you deal with being an extrovert with an introvert partner um i don't think this is as big of a deal as you're probably making it i am very pro in a relationship that our lives do not need to be intertwined and in fact it's very important for us to have separate lives outside of each other um i compared to my boyfriend and very very very introverted um so when he is out and about doing his thing blah blah blah he's always inviting me which is very nice and kind and considerate and yes do i go out with him every once in a blue moon definitely do i want to be mostly at home absolutely but am i also happy at home yeah

and i'm also happy that he's going out and living his life and enjoying his time with his friends yes definitely are you kidding me you can have an introvert and an extrovert that have a very healthy relationship together as long as they are simply comfortable with their own internal world and happy for each other so if you are an extrovert partner and you're like i want to go out and i want to do this and i want to travel here and blah blah blah and your partner's like i don't want to all you got to be like is okay cool you don't have to but i'm gonna go do that thing you should do that thing you shouldn't let your partner hold you back if you're the introvert partner and your partner wants to go run off and do this activity and do this hobby and go to this

place and you're like actually i'm just happy at home that's okay be happy at home and also be happy for your partner out living their best life you know what i mean you don't have to drag your introvert partner out every single time you go out you just have to have a good social life and a happy life on your own now if you need your partner to go out with you every single time you go out then maybe you should be dating an extrovert if you're unhappy that your partner doesn't want to go out all the time maybe you should be dating an extrovert but i think the two can coincide together very very well as long as they are both two whole well-rounded individuals with good well-rounded um worlds within themselves they're they're two very distinct individuals that are

happy with themselves if i was dating an introvert that was as introverted as i was we were both home all the time bitch i would strangle them out i would be like get away from me i just want to be alone you know what i mean so i think it does you know they as they say opposites do attract and they do work well together for that reason how do you handle indecisiveness i'm always overwhelmed by choice well how beautiful to have a life that's so full of choice I think also with time you're going to get to know yourself a little bit more and you're going to feel more inclined to one thing than the other and naturally you will gravitate towards that it just takes being a human and having experience being a human and having experience learning what you like and

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right thing it is just a choice there's no right choice or wrong choice there is just choices in this life sometimes the wrong choice actually becomes the right choice because you learn something from it sometimes the right choice actually becomes the wrong choice because you take it the wrong direction you see take out this positive and negative quantitation in your life and things become much easier everything equalizes very very quickly now if you literally simply can't choose i'm gonna go ahead and tell you how to actively decide what you need to do right here right now i've talked about this before it works this is a real activity you can do in your life okay if you're like do i break up with him or not do i pick this college do i pick this career

do i get tacos or do i get pasta um should i take this trip should i go study abroad should i get a pet should i get a um whatever literally any question you have all right you ready you ready you take a coin and you put it in the palm of your hand you flip it and then whatever it lands on that's your answer now is that exactly what you need to choose no but the feeling of what you have about what the universe picks that will tell you what the real answer should be okay let's say it's like a tacos or pasta kind of question i flip the coin heads is pasta tails is tacos and it lands on heads and it's pasta and i'm like oh shit i kind of wish it would have landed on tacos i'm really just craving tacos bam that's your answer you don't

have to pick what it lands on but you have your answer should i pick this college or should i pick this college flip it it lands on one you're like yes thank god i knew it was gonna land on that that's your answer or oh shit i really wish it would have landed on that one that's your answer do you see what i'm saying here it really is just a practice to get you more in tune with what you actually are feeling the desires you have and also it's going to make you decide very very quickly i naturally just grew out of my indecisiveness i had a lot of indecisiveness when i was younger indecisiveness about everything what are you wearing where are you going how long do you want your hair to grow like literally the craziest fucking things you could think of especially

like big decisions I got paralyzed by fear of choice because I was like how do I know what's right and what's wrong you don't babe you just have to pick one that you feel in your gut is maybe gonna work out and then you have to go forth accordingly there is no second guessing there is no um like looking in an opposite direction you really just have to go after it once you do choose and you'll know whether that choice is right or not like i said i picked a college that i thought was right and it wasn't that's okay then you're faced with another choice do i stay or do i go there's always more choices to come that will allow you out of something or allow you in a different direction or give you different opportunities but if you stay paralyzed by

fear you will not move and this life is all about movement moving forward moving any direction that you can find anywhere but backwards even sometimes we think moving back backwards is actually moving forwards i've had to move home before okay i've had to re-settle some things i had to you know readjust some i thought that was moving backwards but actually it was a positive choice forward to a different future but you have to choose you have to choose and you gotta just go with your gut okay your gut will tell you if you feel nauseous by the choice you chose baby it ain't the right one if your gut feels a little queasy but ultimately semi-settled you're probably fine speaking of this is a great one to kind of end on here tips on completely starting over life

career romantic health fell apart this week well congratulations and welcome to a new era babe I know you're like bitch what do you mean congratulations I'm losing my mind I about to turn 27 and I have started over a lot I started over a lot but there's two really big times that I've started over and one was when I my mental health was in the gutter and I basically had to start from negative 100 work my way to zero and then work my way to 100 you know what I mean and that took a lot of time it took a lot of self-focus it took me really really honing in and trying to figure shit out and working my way backwards to work my way forwards but it was so incredibly worth it to get where I am now another point in time it was me realizing damn I actually

hate where I am I made the wrong decision I need to do something else I need to make the right decision by doing something else and that included me moving back home dropping out of school finding a new school to go to completely starting over as a freshman at 20 like it felt awkward it felt weird I felt out of place but I knew I needed to do it and I think having the opportunity to start over is such a blessing because it's an opportunity to redirect onto the positive path okay and sometimes life forces it out of you sometimes it's not exactly what you wanted to choose sometimes it's out of choice sometimes it's like damn i fucking totaled my car i'm injured from it i'm limping i have health bills now and i broke up with my boyfriend and i'm in my final season trying

to finish my first year of art school it felt like everything was fucking hitting the wall and I had like a fucking molly addiction things weren't good I had to start over completely there where I had to kind of like let go of vices let go of people focus on myself again redirect back towards what's positive for me but every single time I'm thinking back to when I have started over it has always been so incredibly worth it and as I approach my 27th year I'm starting over in a way that is really just giving my old self the opportunities I always dreamed of and it feels so settling and calm I feel like a boat in the middle of the ocean no horizon just gentle easy waves and I think where I am now younger Hannah would have panicked from the unknown by not being

able to see land by not knowing which direction to go but having taken chances taken risk tried to understand myself made choices realize what was right for me realize what was wrong for me and ultimately through it all gaining trust kindness appreciation and confidence in myself I am now in a place where although there is no horizon there is no land I don't know which direction to go the only thing I'm focused on is how calm the seas are and how happy I am to be in this gentle rocking boat in the ocean to know that any direction I go I will end up at land to know I will figure it out to know all I need to do is choose and there is something so beautiful about that that will only come with time and trusting yourself and trying things and I hate to say that

you know you just gotta wait it out or trial and error things in life but that's really what life is about and you will get in a better place but if you see through this what you think is a hard time the next time you are faced with a hard time which will happen again that is just life not everything is rainbows sunshine butterflies but a lot of it is you will find yourself in a position where you have that internal balance internal confidence and you won't be so shaken by things kind of falling apart or starting over or having to make a decision or having to choose a hard decision or move forward in a way that you never thought you could have and I'm really thankful to be where I am and I never really thought I would have gotten here I would never thought I would

be so sane I never thought I'd also finally give in to my passions and follow through with what I want to do and who I want to be and took a lot of time and stumbling and trying on different hats and working forwards and working backwards and making wrong decisions and making right decisions for me to finally get here but I'm so proud of that journey I went on and those experiences I had and trying things out because I would not be where I am without it so yes are you going through a hard time right now do you feel like you're starting over do you feel like you're in the middle of the ocean with no horizon and you're freaking out and you're panicking a little bit yes absolutely but babe all you got to do is pick a way to go and keep going forward and eventually

you will reach that land it is always worth the journey the journey is always worth it the destination destination doesn't fucking matter journey is what teaches you who you are how you adjust to things what matters to you what is important to you baby girl you just got to keep swimming you just got to keep swimming and in order to keep swimming you know in the hard times you got to be kind to yourself you got to allow yourself to crumple down and cry only to stand back up again that's okay it's all right we're humans with emotions going through hard things going through hard times having a little bit of a panic attack panic attack here and there it's okay all right that doesn't mean you're going to be panic attacking forever just means you had a

little moment and now you got to keep moving forward but i believe in you everybody who is here I think is seeking that inspiration to keep moving forward who is seeking that kind of like glowing light at the end of the tunnel and bitch if I found the motivation to keep going you can too I'm not even kidding you definitely can I believe in you I believe in you you should believe in yourself anyways with that being said I hope you have a wonderful week I can't wait to share all the birthday celebrations with you guys I am genuinely just like so incredibly excited um i don't think i've ever been this excited for a birthday in my entire life just kidding i say that every year it's the gemini in me i just can't help it but be excited summer's here it's hot

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