Smoke Sesh - inner child, kitty confidence & grippy sock vacations

Episode Date: February 10, 2022

Happy Thursday!! Only one episode this week you guys but hannah answers so many questions including how to heal your inner child, how to adult, kitty confidence & sex confidence, attachment styles, long distance, read your crazy confessionals submitted to Instagram @hannahmarlene, talk everything grippy sock vacations and the new episode of euphoria and what to expect. Come hang out and let’s light up welcome to Smoke Sesh with Hannah

Listen, everybody needs a fairy godmother, you know, someone to look out for them. Some people call me their internet big sister, others their fairy smoke mother. You can call me Hannah, the new host of Smoke Sash. So come hang out, let's light up and talk everything there is to life. Some good, the bad, the ugly, the embarrassing. I've got a story for it all. Good morning, everybody. Welcome to Smoke Sash.

it is oh my gosh what day is it thursday thursday february 10th welcome back it is wonderful to have you guys i know we missed um tuesday i know we missed tuesday i'm so so sorry my here's the tears what i've been up to actually um my i've just been working like i've been working my ass off like I have been making my fucking shmoney I kind of got upgraded um to a bartender position which like love work making that shmoney um it's a great experience I love doing it but my hours are like 10 times longer which is fine but Tuesday rolled around and I sat down to record and I did record I did record a full episode and I was like I feel like I just didn't put my all into it I feel like I could do better like the girls they deserve something good and um

also Spotify changed their rules about some things so I just had to I wasn't sure if like my podcast that I was gonna put out was gonna break any rules I was like oh I'm just gonna we're gonna put it i'm gonna not stress out i'm gonna just chill i'm gonna get through my work um i'm gonna get through my work day and my work week finally fucking ended and um i'm just gonna put one out on thursday and do an extra long one and i feel like that's tbh that's way better in my opinion um like i said i will miss i'll miss some days okay but i will get one episode to you every week um but yeah that's basically what i've been up to i've just been fucking tired like exhausted ladies like you guys ever put your all into your work and then you it stops and you're

like oh my god like that was brutal i feel like i just went to war like damn my feet hurt like my legs hurt i don't know my ass is getting fatter but like my ass hurts like i don't know i'm just constantly walking and running around but yeah no it's been good i've been making so much money so now i now that i have a day off um i do some self-care i'm gonna do go get my nails done i'm gonna go hang out have a good time get some matcha i don't know get me a little euro for fucking lunch i'm gonna treat myself you know it's my day off speaking of treating myself um we have an updated self-care routine ladies and we're gonna do it together right now i actually have my eye patches on so but the other morning i was having a slight mental breakdown and i ended

up in the sephora on the plaza sorry if it's echoey i'm in my bathroom oh my god i just dropped my lip mask in the toilet okay anyways we're back i spent 200 at sephora the other morning i know i was going through it um i just like here's the thing i'm not a big makeup girly like i'm not into the fancy makeup the fancy foundation like fancy lip i don't know i'm not into makeup what i am into is skincare i love it any sort of like self-care shit obsessed um so right now well first purchase was the um peter thomas roth um water drench hyaluronic cloud hydrogel eye patches okay these are just like well here's the thing my under eyes they get super duper puffy especially in the mornings but not just that they also get super dry i don't know why i don't know

if it's like my foundation or what's going on but they get really dry so this is infused with caffeine and then i love hyaluronic acid as like a moisturizer um i am obsessed with these i've been using these all the time and they were 55 um but they come with 30 pairs so like that's gonna last me for fucking ever okay what else did i get i also was using um the there was like a neutrogena um hyaluronic acid like water gel moisturizer that i was using and it's like 20 dollars um at like a drugstore and i was using that and i i liked it but it also felt like it made my skin dry in some sort of way like i was like i know this is a moisturizer but why is my skin dry so i was like love the hyaluronic acid i think like the ingredients in this like are

adding up correctly and there was also some perfumes which like any sort of perfumes putting that on your face is just like gonna be a no-go it's gonna dry the fuck out of your skin so i went and i got the um the glow recipe plum plump cream hyaluronic um cream it's like a dewy moisturizer oh my god okay so first of all this packaging adorable it was i think it's like 30 something dollars which my other one was like 20 but the best part about this first of all doesn't make my skin dry because it's like a cream it's like a cream moisturizer the other one was like a gel moisturizer no perfumes also um it's refillable you can go get refillable pods that you can put back in to um cut down your package waste which i think is incredible also the lip mask i just

dropped in my toilet I'm gonna butcher this name the Laneige Laneige anyways the lip sleeping mask oh oh my god it makes my lips actually the softest they've ever been like it's incredible I love this and then I combo it with the um the Dior lip oil during the day that's like all I wearing my lips throughout the day it's like my favorite kind of lip gloss oh 10 out of 10 10 out of 10 and then also i haven't tried this yet i've heard like only good things about it tbh um and i've realized my face is really dry and i really didn't even know it like my face is begging for moisturizer so i got this um youth to the people super berry hydrate and glow dream mask and i got the trial size the big size was like 40 and they had like a little trial size at the checkout

so i just went and snagged me one of those i still gotta try it but i will let you know how it goes um but yeah and then i also got some of the um oh my god fuck what are they called the little like hydro stars um oh starface starface sent me some of the little patches and as somebody who has had acne and has also been very insecure about their acne in the past just because it's like when i don't have acne i feel really good because it's like something i've had to achieve like i've spent a majority of my life with acne putting these little cute ass fucking colored stars and hearts over my pimples and just leaving the house and going out makes me feel so fucking cute and it makes acne like an accessory and also they're really good like

they're really good they help your acne spots and they take down on the um scarring so love that if you're one of my agony girlies just like me throw on a little um starface star go out run your errands live your best life oh my gosh obsessed but yeah doing a little self-care this morning i'm gonna go get my nails done i'm trying to prep for valentine's day which i'm celebrating valentine's day on saturday if it was on monday i'm like that is so odd that's such an odd day um so i'm celebrating valentine's day saturday i have no idea what i'm doing yet i do know i need to get my nails done um so that's really all i'm planning on doing today filming a podcast hanging chit-chatting with you um oh my god i went thrifting the other day and get this so i

i told you guys like in previous podcasts like i want to start a little playboy collection because i got two playboys at this like thrift mart and it was like twenty dollars per playboy and i was like holy shit okay so then i was looking at them on um like ebay i was looking around and they were all like twenty dollars too so it's like whatever if they find me in real life then i'll purchase them me and my boyfriend go thrifting that's like one of our favorite things to do together um we went thrifting the other day and i walk into the thrift store and i spent like a good hour there both of us he found a few things and i found nothing which literally never happens i am constantly like i am scrounging through those racks i'm looking at every single thing trying

to find something and i found nothing so i'm finally like what the f okay like i guess i'll just save money like that's fine and i go up to look at the jewelry and like wait for my boyfriend to check out and you know how like at the jewelry case um they also put like expensive stuff behind the jewelry case i was looking at the bags or whatever and i looked behind some shoes and i was like are those playboys like do they have some playboys hidden back there so i asked the lady i was like are those playboys can i look at them and she's like oh yeah yeah she pulled out three five packs of playboys and each five pack was twenty dollars and she was like yeah we don't know if we can legally sell these because apparently like if it's a uh veterans association

or like you know how um thrift stores are like church associations they can't even sell romance novels so she was like we definitely i don't know if we can do playboys but we have so many and i was like really like you guys have more she's like yeah we have thousands in our inventory basement and i was like can i see them she's like yeah literally i have never seen this part of a thrift store but i went downstairs to where they were sorting the piles and piles and piles of clothes honestly my dream and they had literal crates full of playboys so many fucking playboys and she was like it's 400 for all of them and i was like love that i cannot spend 400 i will buy all three five packs upstairs but it's cool to like see everything they were doing downstairs

and oh my god so many playboys so i went and i bought all three packs and love it i love having them as like table reads as coffee table reads everybody always picks them up and looks through them um i'm just i'm obsessed with them and i was like damn the universally pulled through today three packs of five of playboys okay all right we have a good day anyways that's really what i've been up to I've been trying to just like work make money I had to pay rent so let's take a little dip save some money so I can go on some trips have some fun um in the upcoming months but let's you're all here for one thing and one thing only so let's dive into some questions um I have so many questions and I even asked for your confessionals and story times as well so we have

tons of those coming up i'm so excited i'm gonna make it a little bit longer of a podcast for you guys it might come out a little bit late today but i will get it out to you so you guys can have a good thursday let's jump right in okay first question me and my boyfriend have been talking for almost five months now we've had sex i've given him head but i just started letting him give it to me i've been so insecure about how my kitty looks but how do i feel more confident in myself to be open to pleasure valid valid valid okay well since we just talked about playboys um something about me personally i i never really felt um super duper insecure about like what's going on down there because i didn't really grow up or i wasn't really around an environment i'm

talking before i got involved with boys but i wasn't in an environment that really put emphasis on like that in general and then i started talking to guys and i realized misogyny exists and like men can be really mean and here's what i've learned very quickly very very quickly if a man is going down on you or a woman or whoever if you got a kitty cat someone's eating your pussy they don't care they do not care what it looks like what's going on how you're built the only things that i recommend are keeping it clean okay if you just went all day maybe take a little shower you know i don't know just keep it fresh keep it fun and you'll be good that's it that's literally it okay there's not this competition there's not this preference that

boys want there's not any of that okay that's what like society and misogynistic men are telling you but when it comes down to it if a man like looked at my pussy was like no i'm not eating that i'd be like you pussy ass little bitch goddamn like you won't eat pussy like that is embarrassing for you sir leave my house never speak to any woman ever again because that is a crime against human nature quite honestly um no when it comes down to it like if someone's eating pussy they're eating pussy because they love you and they want you to feel pleasure and like you're not thinking about how it's built like when you go to suck off your boyfriend you're not thinking about how he's built you're just thinking about oh i'm gonna give him head you know what i mean it's the same way both

ways so don't get it confused that other people have different intentions now if it's just like your own personal insecurities that's okay that's valid we've all been there we all have our own insecurities we all are curious as to oh like is this normal does everybody look this way and here's the thing no everybody probably doesn't look that way we're all built like very very different and that's okay that's valid something that i have come to kind of realize and a way for me to kind of accept myself and not really care about it um is to expose myself to other women um and not like in a weird way but like collecting and like looking through vintage playboys there is every single type of pussy in that thing that you can imagine because guess what men have

all different fucking tastes every type of pussy beefy five layer um they got the smooth they got the bush they got the full bush they got everything they had the landing ship every single type of pussy as well as every single type of boobs okay they got triple d's in there they got baby a cups they got nice mid-sized b's and c's okay they have everything so understanding that like you could be a playboy model like literally privates don't matter boobs don't matter none of that matters that is all superficial shit that men try to think that men try and convince you to think matters when in reality it does not it doesn't matter women hold the power okay you hold the power you have the pussy don't feel insecure also if you don't want to compare yourself to

other women because i understand sometimes that causes some weird jealousy issues and if you're not comfortable doing that simply get a mirror and get comfortable with yourself masturbate in front of a mirror touch yourself in front of the mirror check yourself out in front of a mirror take pictures okay take photos take videos get comfortable with yourself and how you look and you will feel so much better okay it's when you don't know what's going on down there and then you're worried about other people not knowing and then you're concerned and then you get anxious that i understand like all of that insecurity and that worry builds up but it's all about pleasure it's all about your partner gifting you something making you feel good okay they should be also like

encouraging you telling you you look good telling you they enjoy eating your pussy okay but promise there's there's nothing wrong there's nothing you don't need to feel insecure okay everybody deserves head everybody deserves good head and i don't want you feeling um like worried about yourself to get in the way of that okay everybody's beautiful everybody looks great there's also like a website i'm totally forgetting what it's called um but it's like someone like all pussies are normal all something like that you can probably find it but it's like illustrated pictures or also maybe real pictures i can't remember they showed it to us in like eighth grade of a bunch of different pussies hundreds upon thousands of of pussies okay and not

in a sexual way like very much so like medical like these are pictures of pussies and every single one was vastly different vastly different okay and that's how i had to realize like whatever all pussies are different and they're all beautiful and they're all lovely and every man should be lucky to eat it so period there's that okay um what do you think of friends with benefits with your ex and still both have feelings for each other but can't date it sounds like there is going to be a really bad heartbreak i'm so so sorry um it i i just like if there's residual feelings involved and you're putting yourself in a position where you can't adequately express and feel those feelings in turn you're just pushing

yourself down and your true self down and so you're putting yourself in a cycle to be kind of using each other with no ending goal and what is that good for it's good for the present moment it's good for feeling good right now but you're gonna feel like shit your future self is not gonna feel good no offense hope you guys figure that out but oh my god if you haven't discussed already i need your big three slash chart i have talked about this but i'll bring it up again um my sun is in gemini of course i'm a big ass loud mouth air sign um my moon is in capricorn i am all about my fucking money and then my pipe or my rising is in pisces so take that as you will let me know what any of that means if you have any insight on astrology i would love to know um okay when

are you getting a po box girly i know i need to get on top of that let me know if you guys would actually be interested in a po box um i have some plans for the podcast but yeah if you want me to get a po box i'm so down i will look into it also i've been having people ask a lot like are you getting a youtube channel will you ever make youtube videos and like no i will never make vlog style youtube videos like tiktok ate away my brain for fucking videos like that um i can barely even make tiktoks but i um might record like video record my podcast for the future if you're interested please please please dm me at hannah marlene and let me know um because like all of the feedback you guys give me like a bunch of people will always give me feedback and be like

i don't know if you're ever gonna see this or i don't know if you cared it's like i do care like you telling me you enjoy my podcast means the world to me please if you have like tips suggestions like you want to see videos you want a po box like please please tell me because that's how i make those decisions and if it seems like nobody wants it then i'm just like whatever i won't do it so if you want something always speak up for it let me know finding okay someone asked how to find the balance between villainous bad b and the peaceful hippie okay i know you probably had good intentions behind this and i know you're you might be young but i think characterizing ourselves into characters and trying to fit that narrative especially our

actions and our behaviors and everything we do is very damaging to yourself and your true self and i think it makes a lot of people act outside of what they would truly do so are you really a villainous bad b no no one really fucking is if if someone was a bad bitch but also like evil no one would fucking like them when you're like how to find the in-between maybe you're just already it maybe we all already are that okay the the thing that's really gonna make you feel good is not behaving like this type of person or behaving like this type of person it's behaving like yourself so when you encounter things that you're like oh well how should i behave don't think of it oh should i be the villainous bad b or should i be the hippie chick no what would you do

straight up what would you do in your heart act on that that's gonna make you feel way way better than anything else um okay navigating attachment styles with someone you're dating oh we're both avoidant okay so this is gonna be an answer you guys probably don't like but before getting into a relationship well here's the thing everybody approaches relationships very differently you could be like i'm avoidant but then you get into a relationship and all of a sudden you are in english's attachment style okay um you need to understand both fully and also do the work for both of those before you get into that relationship or else shit's gonna hit the fan like straight up shit might hit the fan and that's okay you can always work through it um but if you're like an

anxious attachment style you really have to work on letting go you have to look you have to learn on not giving a fuck you have to learn how to i don't care don't check things don't be that crazy bitch let that person be their own person i know and it's really hard but the more controlling you are in a relationship the more you're gonna push that person away and the more you're gonna go fucking insane so in all it's not a good idea okay and developing an even stronger anxious attachment style is just gonna make you go fucking crazy and probably not make your relationship go anywhere okay now if you're gonna avoid an attachment style you need to understand that you can't run away from your problems for the rest of your fucking life you can't avoid everything

that's good and bad for you because you don't want to feel emotions because you don't want to get hurt because you're scared okay you have to own that shit own what you're feeling or else you're right you are gonna get hurt you are gonna feel that pain because you didn't do the work you didn't put in the effort and now you lost that person okay you have to understand that like i don't know just becoming self-aware and understanding you're doing those behaviors is very very good positive you need to be aware of them to make adequate changes and changing the way you behave and think um but with both of them like i said just having a conversation with your head and having having an open honest conversation with yourself um and redirecting those thoughts

is really the only way to combat those um and your partner can't do that for you your friends can't do that for you only you can do that for you so when you have those thoughts pop into your head oh they don't like me oh they're out doing something oh whatever you have to be the one in control of what you do and what you think you have to be the one to be like nope cut that shit out stop thinking about that you're you're batshit crazy like get that shit out okay you have to be like the warden of your own thoughts oh this is a good one and i talked a little bit about this on my tiktok and i kind of finally figured it out so i think it's a great thing to bring up on the podcast um people ask me all the time like how do i care for my inner child how do i heal my inner

child how do i do all that and i feel like when you do look up those things a lot of the recommendations are like shadow work and our journaling um and like yes valid sorry not to make fun of it um but personally for me i felt like that that wasn't doing shit okay no offense like journaling is great for current day overthinking over analyzing just getting thoughts out of my head but for inner child work all that shit like I didn't really need to do any inner child work because I think most well like yes I have to do inner child work but most of the inner child work that I faced and I didn't really realize I was doing this was coming from how I was treating myself as an adult okay does that make sense um because I came

to this realization after i nannied but when i was a nanny i was taking care of two very young kids like i was completely in charge of them and i was completely in charge of taking care of them okay and like if i did not take them to the park for like three hours in the morning they would not sleep at all during nap time so then i wouldn't get a break and then it would be like a nine hour work day instead of a seven with the two hour break because they're taking a nap if i didn't put in the work to tire those kids out they in turn wouldn't sleep and i wouldn't catch a break okay and i realized that also translated to myself after i stopped nannying um i realized if i didn't get out and get my goals done and get my shit done and tire myself out

at night when i went down to lay in bed i would just overthink and overthink and overanalyze and not sleep and just dig myself into this deep pit like treating yourself as an adult is straight up becoming your own parent in a sense okay same thing with like eating habits if it was up to me i would be eating fucking what like swedish fish and oreos if it was up to those kids that i was nannying they'd be having like orange juice and popcorn for for breakfast lunch and dinner but no that's like not an healthy meal. I'm in charge of them. I have to make sure I'm cooking them a balanced meal. I'm making sure they're eating all their vegetables, that they're drinking all their water, staying hydrated. All those things are very important and they couldn't make those decisions

on their own. So I had to be the one to step in. When you grow up, you realize your brain is very many different parts of you, okay? You got your inner child, you got your inner teen, and then you also have to be the adult of all of those and you really have to learn how to be an adult of your inner child or of yourself almost as a child in order to kind of heal those things so things such as like what um like feeding yourself nourishing food okay you have to treat yourself like a child be kind and patient with yourself make time for play um accept that you're gonna grow and change notice your needs let yourself have fun okay create structure for them that's super important if i don't feel like i have any structure i feel like my life is a fucking mess

um disciplining yourself over punishment okay punishment really never helps and simply believing in yourself you have to treat yourself like a child to kind of be a successful adult okay you to parent yourself like a child but also same thing with your inner child you have to parent your inner teen as well and i feel like my inner teen is more so my emotions um my depression working with my depression working with my impulsiveness working with my self-sabotaging that's me parenting my inner teen and having to be like no we're not on our sad girl bullshit lace up your fucking shoes let's go outside let's go on a walk let's get in the sun let's schedule a therapy appointment you know what I mean no one's gonna do that for you but yourself so it's

really all about like relearning how to parent yourself and that really has helped me kind of feel like my inner child and my inner teen are help uh healthy and happy okay and I really don't have very many issues that's why I had a hard time figuring out how to answer that question because i was like i feel pretty content and you know the journaling and all that bullshit that i see online is just like not it until i realized no it's the actions you make every single day that helps heal those things so how do you not feel guilty about smoking your bf's weed and rarely supplying makes me feel it makes me feel bad tbh um here's the thing when we like met each other and started hanging out that was just how it was and that's just kind of how

it's been our whole relationship so he doesn't really make me feel bad or anything about it i know it costs him a lot of money but also like i pick up in other areas that he doesn't as well so it's like he covers the weed cool fun let him cover the weed i cover something else you know what i mean like it's really not that big of a deal um and also sometimes i do pick up sometimes um but like I don't know sometimes that's a situation and I appreciate and I love him dearly for it and he knows that so I don't think like there's a huge issue the issue is when you're consuming and consuming and consuming and not aware and not trying to also pay back in some sort of way because like I definitely am it just might not be through weed because here's the thing

if we're gonna be, like, I've just had bad experiences with plugs. Wait, we'll get into it, actually. Um, plugs. You have to be very, very careful, okay? Um, even in, like, a legal state, you still have to be very, very careful. Um, people are weird. People get creepy. Um, I, two years ago, three years ago, I went to go pick up from this guy, and he had been kind of weirding me out but I needed weed so whatever and if you're ever getting bad vibes do not go it is not worth the weed it is not worth anything if you're getting bad vibes don't go have them drop it off I don't know something where you can keep the contact minimal because I got there and he pulled up and he's like hop in the car real quick like okay I hop in the car I

get in and he goes I think I've told this story before but terrifying he goes we're gonna go for little drive now and i was like what like i am hopping in your car to buy a couple g's like let's go actually i might have been buying molly or something i don't know this was in the past feds if you're listening fuck you i don't do this shit anymore spotify please keep this podcast up but literally he goes we're gonna go for a drive and i looked over at him and i was like you need to keep your cool like you gotta keep your shit together because this could go many different ways hannah and i got really scared um and he literally locked the doors and drove off with me in the car literally drove off and he was just like driving around these

apartments trying to talk to me and i was like uh-huh like i don't know if he thought this was a fucking date drug dealers really be like bro we've been doing this a lot what's up you come over a lot like yeah i need fucking drugs what are you talking about this is not a date i don't care about you locked me in the car drove around with me for like five minutes until i was like i gotta go like i need to get back to my car and he was like oh yeah i got someone else coming so i'll go drop you off and he dropped me off and he was like well i hope to see you around i was like yeah bye hop back in my car drove off blocked that man have has never spoken to him again what is going through your head as a person to think that locking somebody in your car and

driving around with them is okay like what scared the shit out of me so after that i'm like yeah my boyfriend wants to go out and be the one to purchase it that is fine by me as long as i don't get myself in one of those situations again perfect because god damn you guys need to be careful for real you have no idea who these people are you have no idea if you can trust them especially when it comes to also like the shit you're getting make sure it's clean make sure you're getting it tested always always always stay safe okay that is like the key to everything oh okay i need help advice i got caught with weed and now my parents are testing me um here's the thing I think it's very helpful to be very honest with your parents I wasn't honest

with my parents for a long time and then I realized the best way for me was to just be honest and not hide it and um now that was when I was like 20 so if you're like 16 maybe just hold off on the weed for a little bit okay but I think the best way is just to be very honest to be like yeah I do fucking smoke weed but i'm not drinking i am not doing fucking meth so yeah you can drug test me but this might come out positive sorry like i don't know what else to tell you you got good grades you're you're not a bad person you got extracurriculars okay you got fucking you're not doing meth okay those are four gold stars right there i think you can smoke a little bit of weed you know what i mean also if you're in high school don't smoke weed i don't know if you're 121 don't

smoke weed psa i gotta say that legally um but like yeah i feel like my parents were almost at the point of drug testing me when i was 20 um living in their house until i was honest and i was like dude i'm like doing everything right in my life but i smoke weed like what's the fucking deal and they were like you know why yeah you're right i was like straight up honest with them and i do understand some parents are not the most reliable with honesty so take that information as you will um but honestly like if you're a good person you're getting your shit done like whatever you might come up positive every once in a while also like borrow pee from a friend but oh have you ever been in a long distance relationship and if so do you think it's

worth it i think it's very worth it for strong couples for strong couples it makes you guys closer because you have the time to like if you're both mature and you can work it out you know you take the time to make time for each other so you're still in a relationship talking to each other throughout the day or when you do have a moment maybe facetime each other once a day um taking the time to you know enjoy each other's company but also it gives you a lot of time and opportunity to focus on yourself which is really really nice which is why i think it makes strong couples even stronger because they both take the time off to build their career build their success build their own personal happiness and then when they come together

finally like it is like two power couples now if you are jealous if you're insecure if you have bad attachment styles you're gonna go fucking insane with a long-term or a long-distance relationship okay you're gonna constantly be checking their whereabouts oh my god where are they i'm i have anxiety all the time i'm so nervous if you don't have a sound sense on yourself and your partner you're gonna go bash it insane and i have seen a lot of people do that so i think it can make couples very much so stronger and make them more um in tune with themselves and their partner and it can make things like very good but also if you're young if you're in college okay if you're trying to do long distance and you're just if i mean if you're

a jealous person like and you're anxious and you can't control those thoughts maybe it's not the best for you okay but that decision is completely up to you someone asked me pegging question mark valid i have never pegged anybody um i think it'd be really fun i think i'd be interested in it internet what did i just say interested in it do i think it turned me on no i don't know i'm not a very dominant person i am i'm like i'm but i'm not super submissive either i'm like a little bit of both so i'm not sure if pegging would super duper turn me on because like i think it is a very dominant thing but if you are a dominant person and you've tried pegging let me know what is that like did you like it i'm curious i'm very curious okay how to tell

someone is just a hookup or is genuinely interested valid question ask i know i know you're like bitch what ask ask ask ask literally ask and if they don't know say great well i hope you take the time to figure it out but i'm gonna go straight up because these people will play you especially people who don't know their own emotions they will play with your own with your fucking emotions okay they will play you like a fucking fiddle okay because if they're avoiding their own emotions they're gonna avoid you they're gonna avoid yours 10 times harder ask that person hey are we just hooking up or are you genuinely interested in me okay and like it doesn't have it doesn't have to be like you can be drunk you can be whatever it doesn't matter whatever gives

you the confidence ask it you will feel 10 no 100 times more peaceful if you just ask them what their intentions are first of all here are the here are the options okay they say yeah i just want to hook up okay period you know their intentions you can redirect your feelings understand like cool if i have too many feelings in this situation maybe i gotta cut it off because i can't afford to just hook up with someone i have feelings with if you don't have any feelings towards them cool great now you got a great friends with benefits hookup situation you guys don't really care about each other emotionally you can just fuck cool if you ask them or if they say yeah i am genuinely interested in you cool now you can take the time getting to know each

other and you can say would you like to be mutually exclusive so then you're just hooking up with each other and then you guys have the time and energy to devote each other devote to each other and see if you guys like each other awesome then you can take it from there there's so many different options it's just the not knowing that is gonna drive you batshit fucking insane so ask and if they say i don't know run okay run because they are not in tune with their emotions at all they like they know what they want everybody knows what they want are you brave enough do you have the balls to fucking say it if you don't i don't want you in my life straight up why would you want somebody in your life that doesn't know what they want with you

like that's okay that's valid but don't waste your time on them okay straight up but yeah ask them ask them no balls ask them okay we'll get into some more questions in a little bit but i also ask you guys for confessionals and story times because we did that one episode and that was so fucking fun so ask you guys for some more wild crazy story time so we're gonna get into those because you guys are insane um hooked up with a nfl quarterback who turned out to be a joe rogan fan no offense are you surprised he's a joe rogan fan he's an nfl quarterback nfl quarterbacks give me republican vibes just football in general gives me republican vibes like of course he's a joe rogan fan also mini rant also that's funny that you've hooked up with him um

but mini rant how the fuck is joe rogan gonna get on this on the the internet and say the n word but i can't take bong rips on my own fucking podcast like what is that like i didn't upload on on tuesday because i was afraid that i was making mistakes and then i was like no joe rogan is a white male who gets away with too much too much so i'm gonna just send it i'm gonna just take bong rips whenever i want so you guys are fucking insane i threw up on my boyfriend's dick while giving him head he didn't know till after me pissing my boyfriend's bed listen it happens if you're taking like listen even if you're taking four inches like anywhere between like four to like nine is too many inches to fit down your fucking throat throw up might

happen but that is the risk those men take for getting head straight up if they want deep throat that is the risk they simply have to take it's like with anal it's like if you're doing anal you better not freak out if you see a little bit of poop because like you're shoving a dick in an asshole like there might be a little bit there are repercussions to your actions okay you threw a little bit is okay i'm surprised you covered it up that well that's impressive okay um i've never orgasmed in my life except for like maybe one time get a vibrator and focus on yourself okay if you're focusing on a man to make you come because i had this friend and she was like i was in a five-year-long relationship and he never made me come and i was like oh oh my god what like

criminal criminal um but i think you very much so need to know how to make yourself come before you can focus on having your partner make you come so buy vibrator buy a little toy hang out with yourself do it on yourself and i guarantee you'll figure out the tips and tricks to what you like okay because that's like um that's like the biggest thing is knowing what you like oh my god i'm pregnant and two different guys think it's theirs um um honestly take them both for all their money straight up take them both to the delivery room take them both for all of their money oh my god i made out with my teacher in eighth grade he was 26 still regret it though he should regret that that is oh my god oh my god i feel like i had a

teacher in eighth grade make me sit on his lap and then he gave me an a weird weird it's always the middle school teachers i don't understand stay safe out there because men are fucking weird um my boyfriend treats me so good he's the best but i can't stop thinking about my ex break up with that man break up with him let him be a good person to somebody else you got some issues you got to work through that's okay that's okay um and if you're still thinking about your ex maybe in like a trauma way like i'm hoping you're unless you're thinking about them in a love way like if you love your ex still leave that man that poor man set him free okay and um if you're thinking about in a negative way maybe you need to work through some trauma

um one night me and my friends got super drunk and literally had a foursome yeah i feel like i've heard a lot of those it's always just that you just get drunk and have a foursomes like sometimes it just happens okay um oh what i had an emotional affair with the director of my play who's twice my age and married we never had sex i wouldn't do it but it's months later and i still think about him all the time that's crazy that's psycho how old are you are you if you're in high school avoid that man with all costs lost my virginity on shrooms with someone else sleeping in the room oh my god someone else sleeping in the room on shrooms okay first of all psa ladies don't have sex on shrooms or molly you will chemically become obsessed with those people

straight up you will chemically become obsessed with those people so unless you you are prepared for that avoid at all costs i pick my nose and eat it 24 7 i have no shame but obviously i don't fucking tell people you know what you said you pick your nose and eat it 24 7 have no shame period i have no shame in you either do i pick my nose and eat it no because i think that's fucking disgusting personally but you know what if you need a little snack here's here's the thing if you're confident about it people don't give a fuck okay this bitch just said i eat my i pick my boogers and eat them 24 7 and the confidence that exuded from that i was just like period okay girl get into it okay i work at a coffee shop and every day i would steal um stuff syrups lots of

red bulls etc i think that's uh i think that's just working in the restaurant industry i be taking ramen spoons sometimes and lots of food um but i am disgusted by penises but i am in a relationship with a person who has one what you're disgusted by them just like i know they're not the most attractive thing to look at obviously but like maybe you need to maybe you like pussy okay you guys are wilding oh my god i've emotionally cheated on every boyfriend i've ever had tripped on shrooms realized i'm a lesbian this epiphany happened a day ago by the way honestly at least you had the epiphany at least you came to some sort of sense okay when i was in my stealing phase i stole from michael's but my mom caught me because i was

very poorly finessing washi tape into my purse see i never stole around my mom because she knew i'd be acting weird i knew she'd know um but it was always me my little friends who go into sephora and steal so much like way too much i don't know how i never got caught like in my younger phase but i definitely got caught when i was older um how do i tell my parents that i have a sugar mama and she pays for everything um maybe don't tell them i put a spell on my ex's hoodies before giving them back that's so funny me and my bestie got drunk and invited two boys over but one was short so we had a threesome and shorty just waited what you made shorty wait outside listen give short boys a chance sometimes they got some schlangen d's straight up also

they're very sweet i'm not gonna lie but watch out there's a hawk there's a hawk short boys watch out okay me my best friends whoa what okay my best friend's boyfriend said he wanted to fuck me when he was high what do i do when he was high high on what no one just goes says no one is just saying crazy shit when they're smoking weed i would tell your friend and tell them to drop or else you're gonna end up in a cassie and maddie situation and you're gonna get the shit beat out of you no offense um it may sound selfish but sometimes i wish i could just drop everything and leave don't we all don't we all wish we could do that i might have a porn addiction okay valid stop watching porn i know as hard as it seems i don't know if you're male or female but i

understand getting into addiction of anything it's hard to get out of the cycle but um especially with porn i feel like porn is super addicting for a lot of people too um but ah you really just gotta stop and you'll realize once you stop like if you just go cold turkey and maybe get a hobby or just stay out of your house so you don't do it that your life will become so much more better because porn it does not have a great effect on the psyche and a lot of the sexual situations you're also seeing are probably not the best depiction and not the best version that you need to be watching especially for your own mental health but me and my boyfriend bleached our pubes and tied them pink together i fuck with that okay i'm kind of scared about bleach next to

my pussy but i fuck with it um my ex and i have been broken up for three weeks as of now i still think about his dick he must have some good dick that's kind of funny that's not funny i'm so sorry you guys broke up but like the dick is on the mind oh my god you guys are crazy okay i lied under oath sorter i accidentally mentioned something that wasn't true about my abuser which he did m-word me but i said an extra thing that he didn't do but i knew he has done it to multiple people so he got more time because of what i said you know what you be his karma you be his karma um i know it's bad when you start off with that in all caps okay i hooked up with this guy that had a gf oh and i also had a bf oh my god didn't let him fuck though because i felt bad and made

him leave okay we need to redefine hooking up because when i hear hook up when people say hook up my brain goes sex is that what you guys think is that what your brain does but apparently to a lot of high schoolers hooking up means i kissed so you kissed and this is past you had a bf at the time whatever you live you learn don't hook up with people when you have a boyfriend just break up um oh i don't care how to tell my roommate slash bff of eight years that i'm dropping out and moving to europe say hey i'm dropping out and moving to europe come with she might do it she might you never know um the guy i've been seeing for four months is still on the fence so i redownloaded hinge okay valid you should really just what do you mean on the fence this

is once again what i mean by like you know or you don't know or you leave okay on the fence oh i don't know if i want you or not i know if i want a person like the second i fucking meet them so when people are indecisive about me i'm like i must just not fucking matter so valid you should just cut him off um um i'm seeing such fucking around my team leader at work careful your life might become hell if they're an asshole they might make you they might make your life a living hell if you guys start fucking um i literally think about railing women 24 7 and all i want is some empathetic connection what oh okay what there's so many fucking stories

i got eaten out by a girl for the first time this weekend and it wasn't better than when a guy did it really really maybe she just hasn't eaten a lot of pussies straight up maybe she doesn't have a lot of practice like as a woman i've never eaten pussy but i feel like i would know what to do but also i feel like you also need to add a little bit of practice into there you know what i mean i'm confused because you keep referencing the tiktoks you posted recently but i can't see oh on my tiktoks it's not on my main account at smokes as shawty um on tiktok that one i haven't been on in fucking forever because it has like i don't know i just it never gets to the right side of tiktok so i've been using my second account which is fairy smoke mother um m-o-t-h-a

and it's my secret account so that's where i've been posting all my videos um i don't like my friends at all and the kind of people they are but idk what to do just start finding new friends take different classes get involved in new groups isolate yourself because bad friends oh my god sorry, bad friends will bring you down, I have the hiccups, I'm so sorry, my tummy is like, bitch, you need to eat some food, it's 11 30, okay, um, bad friends will bring you the fuck down, okay, they do not care, if they don't care about you, they really don't care about you, straight up, um, and also, if they're a bad influence, and you're kind of scared of that, just, like, isolating yourself away from them is probably the best way to do it, um, so, just careful with your

friends because when your parents are like oh you jump off a bridge for them if your friends jump it's like yes and that's like valid you should have friendships like that but be careful who you would do that for because the question is would they do that for you too okay um oh what when i was nine i forgot my keys at home and had to go to the toilet i just took a massive dump into the sandbox of a public playground my friend's brother found it the shit after a few days and told the friend about it she told me and i had to pretend like i knew nothing that is so fucking funny that's funny they're probably like what cat took a giant shit out of here my ex owed me a new pipe and i told him the new one was only 100 so he paid me but it was

15 period take that money take that money um i actually hate being a nurse but i've put so much into it um I feel like I can't leave here's the thing the best part about nursing especially if I did get stuck in nursing which um I don't think I really would have had an issue with it there's so many different types of nurses okay you don't have to be a hospital nurse you don't have to be like one of those nurses does that make sense I feel like something that would work for me personally because I'm a little bit chaotic and I need that energy is I was looking at um psych ward nursing because I love my mentally ill bitches um and also prison nursing I feel like that would also be very interesting whether i worked at a male or female prison um i think

like the i don't know i just think like there's so many different routes you can go through and also they need more prison nurses because um i don't know just like come on everybody deserves care okay me and my boyfriend kind of put a timer on relationship because of college coming up i think that's valid i think that's very valid if you both are like we're having fun but we're both going to college maybe we'll meet up in the future it's nice that you put a timer on it just like have as much fun as you can before you gotta go and then once you leave and you do get to college and you integrate into that experience it's really much more easier to move on because you're in um a whole different like um phase of your life you know what i mean

okay i have a boyfriend but me and my best friend flirt a lot to the point that i'm not sure if it's a joke and i don't know if i want it to be a joke when we're high she talks about her future and what it would be like if we were a couple my bf thinks it's funny but my bff's partner is mad at me okay well obviously your friends has some feelings towards you okay but you both have partners you need to figure that shit out because you don't want to drag your partners through the mud um my boyfriend doesn't have an ig plus i don't post him either and it makes people think i'm single maybe just throw him up there sometimes like why don't put why don't you post him i don't know i post my boyfriend he's fucking hot why wouldn't i post him um if people think you're

single maybe it's but also like it's your instagram page if you want to post only pictures of you that's valid um i think the whole like oh social media blah blah i don't know it's a whole mess so if your boyfriend doesn't care that you don't post him whatever um what oh people are just asking me questions sorry i gotta get through so fine one time i faked being high just to embarrass my mom when she took me to get drug tested that's funny that's a rude move i'm not even lying i'm simultaneously my favorite and least favorite person in the world felt um it'd be like that not even gonna lie i used to be super toxic making fake accounts of my friends and texting their friends saying oh my god it just stopped it just

stopped what were you saying you didn't send the rest of it making fake accounts of your friends and texting their friends were you saying bad shit that's crazy i'm not even gonna lie didn't even finish but you got me hanging on the edge of my seat um anyways that's like all of our confessions we really push through it if you like the confessions if you get like the story times let me know if i should do in the future i'd be more than happy i can start asking for more of those but we're gonna get back into some more questions so we can finish this podcast and i can get this to you guys in a orderly fashion because you guys hop in my fucking dms at like 8 a.m in the morning and i'm like where's the podcast and i'm like love the energy girl but i

woke up at 11 o'clock oh no i woke up at 9 30 but i'm trying i'm working hard i'll get this out to you i promise okay let's keep going oh my god somebody knocked on the door and i almost had a panic attack like why are people knocking on my door it's like when people call me and i'm like why is my phone ringing what's going on anyways no one was outside so weird but we're gonna take a little bowl um and we're gonna get into the last bit of questions um somebody asked me what i was doing for valentine's day and i'm not sure what i told you guys i need to go back and listen um on what i was like what i said i was planning on doing on valentine's day i know i did a valentine's day episode um but what's going on so far is i know i need to go get my nails done

i'm gonna get like pink french tips with rhinestones and then um we're celebrating saturday because monday he works all day and then i work all night because i'm a server and like i can't miss the holidays because there's such good money days you know what i mean like if you're a service industry worker you can know how it is like you just got to work holidays so we're really not going to see each other a majority of valentine's day until um um the morning or night so we want like a full day together so what i'm planning on doing saturday is i think we're gonna um just spend the morning together chilling drink some coffee probably go thrifting we love thrifting together go do that there's this really good italian place so maybe

go probably go grab like a they have like meatball grinders so good go grab some of those maybe a little panini have some lunch take a nap maybe like i really love just like chilling relaxing smoke some weed and then at night the plan is i think we're gonna cook dinner together i love cooking dinner together i think it's fun i think it's intimate i'm gonna go to trader joe's get some like fresh flowers make a little charcuterie board i think we're gonna do i was gonna do pasta but i think it's a little too heavy so i think i'm gonna we're gonna homemade pizzas i thought that was cute little fun funky fresh homemade pizzas and then i got him if you're listening to this you're gonna ruin fucking valentine's day so don't listen to this my boyfriend um

i got him this like vintage antique um jewelry box it's completely sterling silver and the inside is crushed red velvet so cute as like oh my god it's adorable and then like when we first got together i pierced his ears we were on mushrooms and i pierced his ears he hates needles so the fact that he could trust me to pierce his ears and do it correctly and now he loves wearing earrings and like he loves making them match his outfit um like just fun shit like that so i got him two pairs of i got him these like persian australian opals sterling silver earrings and then these sterling silver star earrings and they have like a amethyst in the center and they're so cute and then he has a little jewelry box because he always loses his jewelry so he has somewhere

to keep it and i think it's i'm gonna it's gonna be adorable and then we're gonna go out for drinks i i like going out we would go out for dinner but i feel like it's gonna be slammed on saturday so i'm gonna avoid the packed stressful restaurants and i am i think we're just gonna go to this like jazz club but go get a couple cocktails listen to some jazz and then i'm gonna fuck the shit out of um that's about it oh also a fun little thing that i think we're gonna do in the afternoon is i got lingerie never done this before i don't really know where i came up with this idea but it's a vibe i got some lingerie so i am gonna go get a disposable camera and i'm going to give him that disposable camera and i'm gonna be like can you take some pictures of me because literally

somebody's like who takes your photos on your instagram me now those these aren't gonna be photos that are going on instagram these are for him that's why he's gonna take the photos of me and then he has a full disposable camera full of like nudes essentially and me and lingerie that he took and then it's all his um but all of my instagram photos on all my photos on instagram are either me setting my phone up on the street or him taking the photos he is my photographer he is my he loves styling me he loves photographing me he is amazing he helps me out so much so i think that was but that would be a fun little thing to do so those are my plans i'll update you on tuesday with how it actually goes but i'm very very excited for valentine's day i love love

i love self-care we'll probably spend the morning doing some self-care um i wanted to go get our nails done together i thought that would be fun even my bartender um last night because i was serving he was like oh you have my girlfriend i think we're gonna go get our nails done together i was like that's such a good idea like i was thinking about that but also i might go today i might go today because i'm impatient either way do some self-care treat yourself buy yourself one thing you love buy yourself flowers eat some chocolate eat watch that movie you like buy your favorite food it's valentine's day treat yourself treat the ones you love tell people you love them because you never know when they're going to be gone so never regret not saying it

okay i meant to answer this question actually like weeks ago and i'm so sorry um i did make a full mental health podcast um all about my mental health and my mental health journey it's called everything mental health i think it was one of the second or third ones i released um so if you are curious with my journey or any tips and tricks and things like that i did do a full fucking episode and it's a great um uh reference point but also somebody asked me like hey things are getting a little hard i don't know what to do um can you tell me your experience with grippy sock vacations um which is like valid um if you need help ask for help period it is the strongest thing you can ever fucking do i will say that to the death of me because here's the thing

i got to a point in my life where i was actively trying to kill myself whether it was through behavior attitude or action um i was trying to kill myself sorry i'm in the bathroom i was i'm trying to clean my bowl so i can smoke um and i didn't know that i was like 16 and no one had had the mental health talk with me they don't ever cover mental health in school other than psychology and it's not in a practical everyday sense because it's it's more but so based on like i don't know fucking psychology i don't know what to tell you um but and my parents never had a conversation with oh depression runs in the family these are the warning signs if you feel this way i just thought i was fucking crazy and i didn't know

i had depression and anxiety and all these things and i didn't know that until i was admitted and it was like day two of me being admitted like i didn't know any of that until i got i asked for help and got the help i needed i didn't know what depression was i didn't know how to solve it not even solve it but i didn't know how to work with it how to make things better now here's the thing um my admission was very rushed and i live in an area where the mental health options are not a lot. So if you feel like you do need help, take the time to do the research. Look into places that are going to work in a way or work with mental health in a way that you enjoy. They have a good program set up. It's maybe financially available to you. Do that research before going

if you do have the time because mine was like I went to therapy for the first time and she immediately admitted me and I had I went to my friend's house for like 30 minutes and my parents picked me up with a suitcase and took me to the psych ward um so mine was a very quick turnaround and that kind of made it a little stressful in a sense so if you have the time and you do think you need help do the research but overall like it wasn't a great experience because it is kind of like jail um in a sense but that's what I needed like I needed to be in a highly watched and controlled environment because I had no control of myself and I was a danger to myself so like valid I did need to be there um and if you think you need that that's like a perfect place to go

um and it was pretty short as long as you are working on yourself and you're showing effort in your meetings and you're actually getting somewhere your stay's not going to be long because their goal ultimately is to teach you how to work with it teach you what to do your triggers your warning signs your coping mechanisms you have like workbooks of shit to do um they kind of work together to figure out what's wrong and then you're not solved once you get out of there but they build you up with all of the knowledge and everything you need to make it work once you get out again and can integrate back back into the real world and I did need that break I was in high school I was fucking not even doing anything and in any of my classes I didn't give

a fuck I didn't care um and I did need that like little week-long break that I did get so if you need help get help I didn't have a fun time there but I would be dead if I wasn't there So when people are like, oh, but it's like sometimes it's not fun Yeah, no shit healing is not always the most fun thing in the world But if you don't feel safe around yourself get help. Okay, I want you here. I need you here I want you to succeed. I want you to feel good and I can't make those steps for you your parents Well, they they can make those steps for you. My parents did at the last minute, but sometimes they don't see the warning signs so look out for yourself stand up for yourself admit yourself if you need to if you do need the

help because like straight up i would not be alive if i did not go on my little grippy sock vacation um because i didn't know what depression was i didn't know what i was going through i thought i was fucking crazy and i thought i needed to die until i realized oh me and these 24 other people in the psych ward with me are all basically going through the same thing and it's kind of reassuring and it's kind of validating and it's kind of like okay I'm maybe not alone in this this isn't as scary as I think it is like I can handle it like getting to know the nurses and the volunteers and the people working there who had grown up with depression too had had family members face it they all were working there because of something that happened or whether

it's personally or family wise they all were passionate about it seeing all that and like I didn't really in the forefront of my mind at the time really notice all of that but taking the time to look back on everything that was happening subconsciously I was noticing it and it's kind of nice to evaluate that and see that now but I think grippy sock vacations are very valid if you can afford it I do know my family couldn't super duper afford it but there are payment plans there are different things you can work through i don't care how much the money is you deserve to live you deserve to feel good you deserve to get help okay period point blank that is like the overall vibe um but yeah i think grippy sock vacations are good they're fun they're vibe they're not like

a vacation people just say that because it's like the psych ward has like a negative tendency you know what i mean like when you say i went to the psych ward some people are like oh okay you're right you know what i mean but if i'm like i went on a grippy sock vacation they're like oh vibes okay you know what i mean but it's like it's the same thing so it's called a grippy sock vacation because they don't let you wear shoes like i couldn't wear shoes because i couldn't have laces because i thought i was gonna hang myself so and they cut they literally cut the wire out of my bra so they give you these socks with like this grip on the bottom of it so you can get around and like not slip over and fall anyways let's take a little bowl hit now that

it's 12 o'clock oh my god okay we're gonna get a few more questions in smoke a little bowl and then i gotta go because i have so much work to do but i'm very happy to be here with you thank you for hanging out okay tips on hanging with someone you like for the first time i'm nervy lol okay exciting um okay so the best way to kind of like in any situation just like not feel awkward and not feel like weird and odd does that make sense um especially like when you're meeting a potential partner for the first time or you're meeting someone new and exciting or you're trying to make a friend and you're at a bar and you're talking to somebody whether it's any of those situations the best way to approach people is to treat them exactly as how you would

treat your bestest friend think about your bestest friend like the dynamic you have like you guys never miss a beat you're always laughing having a good time treat those people like that okay and if because because you vibe with that person your best friend because you both have the kind of the same energy you're both getting along together now you do have to adjust based on everybody's personalities but overall that is how you act inhibited with your best friend you know what i mean straight up act that way with those people the first time you're meeting them because if they get the vibe they will get the vibe and it will make that connection like super awesome and if they don't you will very much so know very quickly and you will have your answer you will

just be like nope we can't vibe like i'm sorry sure it's awkward it's weird but you have your answer you can't vibe the best best way for real to go about it anytime is to straight up just act like you're hanging out with your best friend okay and if they can't hang they can't get with the vibe then they're just not meant to be in your life okay that's totally fine i used to be so worried if like people liked me or like impressing people trying to make people like me and then i realized like it shouldn't be me pining for everybody's attention and affection it should be very much so mutual you know what i mean like it should very much so be a give and take and if it's not maybe it's just not meant to be okay let's talk a little bully bowl um i'm gonna try

and find some more questions to answer um but i think i have like a bullet oh yes i do okay oh is there any dream hair color you have besides blonde i'm thinking about dying my hair so let's answer this ever since like game of thrones came out i've always wanted like calise white hair um now i also don't want my hair to fall out of my fucking head from bleaching so i haven't tried it yet um but maybe one day i need a good trustworthy hairstylist because i don't trust myself um but um oh season or episode five reactions euphoria yeah let's end it with that that's good i know everybody's did their little takes had their funsies with it i tbh have no idea where this season is going okay people are like

it's so slow it's so slow but if you think about it i don't know how you guys watched the last episode of you or not last episode last season of euphoria i don't know if it was i think it was released every sunday like normal i didn't watch it like that i watched it once it all came out just like back to back to back to back to back so i felt like that season went by very quickly okay and i feel like everybody's saying this season's going by slowly because they literally just have to wait a week in between episodes and they're like oh my god nothing happened in that episode but it's like there were filler kind of episodes to build character to build plot in the last season too we just consumed them so fast and moved on that we didn't even

think about we didn't have time to really process it anyways um i'm excited i don't know where this bitch is going at all rue really had it out for everybody um everybody she broke ties with jewels she broke ties with oh my god what's his name dominic fike i don't know his name in the fucking show um he's a bad person and i knew that from the beginning um he even was like yeah i like rue better as an addict and it's like god damn i mean yeah like god damn that's bad but he was fucking like i don't know like what is the word aiding in her drug abuse not the vibe anyways jules was in the right for for sure telling her mom now were they in the right for flushing those drugs no because that woman is so terrifying and she has it out for rue and rue might die

fez might die i'm not sure if fey is some sort of like snitch or something but she might be i don't know there's a reason she's in those episodes still and it's not just because she's there you know what i mean like she wouldn't be there if she wasn't important i don't know i literally have no idea i wish i had some sort of like fun conclusion i'm wondering if nate might murder his dad or i'm also wondering if nate might murder jules because jules kind of now she didn't do this inherently but in his head she is the only one of his dad's flings to be around or even accessible and you saw what the fuck he did to that one guy who even made out with maddie like she in his mind is what ruined his family is what made his dad go off the deep end that video so i

don't know if she he's gonna go kill his go kill Jules I don't know if he's gonna go threaten somebody to get the tape the tape's probably gonna become very important soon I don't think Jules would be around right now if it wasn't um I'm thinking Maddie might watch that shit and release it um because nate just fucked her the fuck over and cassie's gonna get the shit beat out of her and i cannot wait to see it now here's the thing i don't think maddie's gonna necessarily beat the shit out of her beat the shit out of her because i like that's too quick and too forceful and too harsh um that is her best friend maddie's gonna be very slow and she's gonna be calculated and I think she's known something has been going on so I think there's something that she's been

planning we'll just see what happens I don't know I'm very excited for Sunday though I literally like we're all just sitting here like where the fuck is this gonna go where where is this gonna go for real like who knows we're halfway through the season this could go anywhere so I'm excited I'm so excited literally like Sundays are the best it just gets so fucking high and get Chipotle and watch euphoria like what's what's better than that come on um but thank you guys for joining me happy thursday next week i'll have two episodes out okay i'll update you on valentine's day okay i'll have plenty more questions to answer let me know if there's any themes you want to see any specific questions you have feel free to dm them to me at hannah marlene that's my main

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