Smoke Sesh - less serious more fun, the chill girl & seeking love

Episode Date: June 25, 2024

Happy Tuesday hotties so excited to be back with you all for another fun episode of smoke sesh, my name is Hannah your host and we have a lot to talk about this epiosde! We talk about having to make scary big girl changes, how to adapt, quitting your job, and the emphasis of choice, how lucky are we! The world is our oyster, we also talk staying cool in this crazy summer heat, getting "into shape" and preventative measures for age, strengthening your relationship with yourself & body, kitty care and shaving tips, men should never complain, high & unbothered, new music, physical contact, bpd breakups, how to become the "chill girl", what is love? why is it so important? where can I find it? losing yourself in a relationship and how to get individuality back, go to accessories, ghosting, making a change in your life, less serious more fun, and much much much much more! I hope you enjoyed todays episode if you want to see more from me join the patreon patreon.com/smokeseshshawty and if you want to see what im up to everyday follow the instagram @/hannahmarlene and we will chat soon! Stay hot! MUAH!

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But you can call me Hannah, the host of Smoke Sash. So come hang out. Let's light up and talk everything there is to life. The good, the bad, the ugly, the embarrassing. I've got a story for it all. Hello hotties of the world and welcome back to another beautiful, amazing, wonderful episode of Smoke Sesh. My name is Hannah, your sesh host, and I'm so excited to be back with you all for another beautiful little episode. another little smoke sesh hang out um i don't have much to catch you guys up on sorry i talked for 40 minutes about my trip last episode but also i think a lot of you guys were feeling inspired um and loved hearing about it even though i was just rambling about myself i mean i guess that's

the whole point of a podcast but sometimes i'm like am i boring question mark hope i kept you entertained um a lot of you guys also work in national parks was not aware shout out to you thank you for taking care of our earth um what a fun fucking job this fucking squirrel i swear to god if he gets in my plants i'm gonna freak out they know better they know better i feed them peanuts i feed them fresh strawberries they know not to fuck with my peppers give me a second they're like children they're like children literally last night i forgot to feed them in the morning because i had to work a brunch shift uh which honestly went really well great time um I've been loving working brunches, honestly.

You want to work two days a week and make enough money? Girl, go work a brunch shift. It might kill you, but those 9 a.m. wake-up times are really the only problem I have with it. I get off at like 4 o'clock in the afternoon. Fantastic. I have a couple of mimosas after I get off. I go home. I'm feeling good.

I cook myself a big dinner or I go have dinner with my family. Come home early. Usually go get ice cream with my boyfriend afterwards and just take a bunch of dabs. scroll on my phone do some art what is better than that are you kidding me how amazing of a sunday i haven't worked sundays in a while um my my schedule is changing up a little bit i had to be a big girl this week you guys i had to be a big big girl um and i had to i had to put my two weeks in at my job i've never put a two weeks in before usually like all my other jobs it's like oh I'm working for the summer because I'm a student so like obviously I'm

gonna have to leave at this date and I just let them know the date as soon as I get hired and that's that they know what's going on it's not like a two weeks notice it's actually like a three months notice um also I love this water bottle let me plug it in a second I'm not sponsored I'm just obsessed um but usually it's kind of like that situation like when I was a nanny i was basically just leaving once the kids went to school so very simple it's like oh when the kids start school on this day you know we won't really need you anymore because we'll just pick them up from school when they're done easy peasy um this is the first place i've actually had to be like no i'm leaving i'm leaving in two weeks i feel like two weeks is not a lot of time like

not a lot of notice but ultimately that is the best amount of time for a worker to give a person and I had to be a big girl I was so nervous and my manager she's super cool she's so sweet she just wants to see me grow and prosper so when I told her why and like I was just I needed to quit this job to kind of focus on this and really just focus on connecting with you guys and making sure I'm putting out the best content possible and I was really just straining myself across multiple different jobs me and my Gemini self and then having Gemini parents who believe that like no work is ever enough and constantly raising me under that pressure but not also under that pressure like they weren't really putting that in my mind intentionally they were more so just like

exhibiting that and so I saw that and that's like what I kind of like to do I like to have 10 fucking jobs and stress myself out for no reason um I was just like hey you know I don't think I can work here I'm only working there one day a week anyways like I think I need just like to retire this job come back later if i need it's good to have like a good place to fall back on in case you know where you want to go doesn't really work out um so it's always good to have good relations with your job and your manager if you want to if they're a piece of shit then fuck it just leave um but this was a place that i didn't want to just like fuck them over and she was so sweet she was like no i'm happy for you i want to make sure that you're living your best

life and you're taken care of I think the last time I worked is when I had my mental breakdown and just started sobbing and crying and just had to leave so I think after that she's like hey girl like no whatever you need for your mental health or happy just don't like off yourself so that was awesome I have two weeks left there July is gonna feel like kind of like a whole new lifetime which I'm very excited about I feel like I went on my trip and I did so much like soul searching and seeking and just discovering of the world and it really renewed this part of myself that I haven't really exuded in a while which was just general curiosity and drive for life who would have thought like sometimes you just need to fucking run away into the forest and

let your imagination run wild and live your best life in order to realize like really that's all it's about like if you think about it my grandma when she was my age she was already two kids deep and they were probably five years old at this point and that's insane but that's because she didn't have a choice you know like she didn't have a choice that's just what you did you went to home at class you learned how to cook you learned how to sew you learned how to have babies you got married at 18 because guess what you ain't going to college and you definitely are not getting a fucking job unless it's a seamstress or an actor or something I don't know um so you get married young you have babies and you don't really have goals those are your goals those are the pre-set

up societal goals so I feel like I've kind of been feeling that pressure the older I've gotten not from like anybody in particular just like a general society thing I don't know why babies are being pushed to me so fucking hard especially like with the algorithms and stuff everybody's getting pregnant everybody's getting pregnant everybody's becoming a trad wife which like love cooking and all that but like i kind of i kind of got my brain a little bit where i was like holy shit no i need to like settle down and get a house and have babies soon and i think that was killing my brain and rotting my brain because that's not what i really wanted to do sure seems fun one of these days but honestly like if you are young if you are a woman you have a choice now make those

fucking choices don't sit here stagnant and do nothing with your life go out and make the choices that the women who came before you did not have the ability to like to do you know how lucky are we to be a woman in this time and have choices be able to make choices to say yes to say no to go here to leave to come to go to do literally whatever the fuck you want so i really think with this like last half of my 20s wild the first five years um were really all about just like understanding myself in relation to the world as an individual especially because i had finally been left to my own devices at like 20 i think that's when i dropped out of college um and finally got my own apartment started paying my own bills and had to like kind of realize and

conceptualize what it is to be an individual under capitalism and survive and also try and be an adult and have social outings and also like be a whole human being and take care of yourself and feed yourself and that is very difficult it is difficult um and i feel like the first five years of your 20s are really just figuring that out who am i in relation to the world and now this last half of my 20s I'm really trying to focus on who am I in relation to the world but also how can I connect to it and how do I want to connect to it what do I want to say yes to what are the choices that I want to make I feel like I didn't want to make any choices in my early 20s because I didn't feel prepared enough but once you hit 25 and you're halfway through your 20s you realize holy shit

sometimes you just got to choose sometimes you just got to fucking go for it and guess what sometimes it's not gonna work out sometimes it is sometimes it's gonna take you on a different path that you never could have thought of but the key here is you must make choices you cannot stay stagnant you need to keep moving and swimming through this life you can't you have to be like a shark okay you can't stop swimming or you're gonna die anyways that's kind of the realizations i've been coming to recently sorry it's a lot to dump on you in this first 10 minutes also this water bottle this water bottle not sponsored maybe i should reach out to them i've been a hydro flask girly my entire life you've seen me with my little cute pink water bottle i've been

a hydro flask girl until i went on this girl's trip and i love hanging out with girls because they simply want to see you better your life always always and sometimes that comes with just like my friends putting me onto things whether they're like literally not selling it to me but are like pitching it to me or like no you need this or it's just like i'm viewing them use it and i'm like wow that would make my life so much easier but these like oh wallah water bottles holy shit you guys these are perfect i love my hydro flask because it kept everything cold like that's literally the whole point of it hello but i have to have a straw lid i always have to have a straw lid hand to mouth fucking context i need it um but it leaks everywhere the straw

lids on hydro flask leak everywhere everywhere it's the worst so this as a straw lid and like a chugging portion and when you close the lid it's not gonna fucking leak and has a handle i was like sold it's like 25 bucks easy peasy all my friends had one i was like girl i need to get on that bandwagon anyways happy to be here happy to have my awala i'm planning a couple more trips soon which is getting me a renewed excitement about life again I really am just gonna try and spend this last half of my 20s especially because like if I want to have kids one day which is that I'll figure that out later that's like a 30s thing you know like I'm still young I need to be traveling as much as I possibly can when I'm young like hello that's the whole point of working as a

server like I'm not starting I have a career but I'm not starting like a big career because I don't really want to settle down because guess what I want to be able to up and leave for a fucking month I go to Europe and run around I also need to be able to make the money to do so thus the serving and bartending and honestly happy to be here happy to be here will I be a career server no but does it fund what I need it to fund yes and sometimes that's all you really need focus on the good in the now always anyways I had family dinner with my parents last night that was pretty chill it is hot as hell girl the summer solstice happened it was the first day of summer all of a sudden why is it 105 degrees outside why is it the hottest it's ever been in my entire life

a little nervous about that a little scary all we can do is really do our part shop locally support locally recycle you know the fucking thing don't buy for big corporations that are awful try and buy less plastic recycle if you can things like that we as the modern day consumer this is not our fault i would like to say that this whole global warming thing that is it's not our fault it's not our fault all we can do is really do our best i think corporations like to push it on the little people like oh you need to stop using straws bitch you need to stop dumping oil in the ocean you need to stop dumping your giant fucking fishing nets in the ocean hello let's be real like the little people us little people we can only do what we can do we can do our best that's

it sometimes you still rely on the best but honestly like it is the big corporations and the government not doing anything so be mad at them don't be mad at yourself literally all we can do is the best eat less red meat recycle things like that but goddamn if it's not hot so i've been trying my best to just stay cool and enjoy my time and get outside while i can who's got a pool who's got a pool why the fuck do we have no pools in my city i need a pool because my life is just it is missing something and you know what it's missing it's missing sun tanning next to a cool body of water and the river's too hot right now unfortunately anyways i love you all that's enough rambling that i would like to get out of the way i hope you're

all doing well i hope summer is treating you well i hope you're being kind to yourself in this heat i had to work in my uh restaurant that serves hot soup uh with no air conditioning so trust me i understand how testy and upset people can get when it's hot and i promise it's not you it is the heat it has a funny way of making people go a little a little specially crazy so stay cool stay calm stay collected this summer and stay hot and sexy if you're gonna stay any kind of hot anyways love you let's get into all your questions because i know you have so many oh also if you need a nice little cool summer recipe i posted the perfect summer lemonade on instagram today well i guess yesterday since you're watching it on tuesday so if you need a good summer listen the best summer

snack is when you go to that hot ass state fair that they always throw in your city randomly in the summer and it's like way too fucking hot you're sweating it's steamy you can hear the cicadas outside and you're like oh i either need a like a fried oreo or b that good ass state fair lemonade that they make you know the one it's so refreshing it's so good it's like the peak epitome of summer it's so fucking easy i made the recipe on my instagram but it's like the perfect way to stay cool this summer you can just throw it in your backpack throw it in your purse keep moving okay have a little sip here and there and you can put anything you want in it like i put i homegrown some strawberry mint so i put strawberry mint in there some lavender some

strawberries just anything i had laying around i also had like mangoes i thought about doing like a mango lemonade you could do like a mango jalapeno lemonade you could just do like regular lemonade with a little bit of vanilla in there literally anything your heart desires lemonade is so easy it's so fun to share if you're doing like a late night event you could throw a couple shots of vodka in there you know what i mean girls anyways get out there enjoy stay cool how to get back in shape girly stop the laziness question mark question mark question mark this is something i've really been wanting to kind of focus on recently um especially after going hiking and just traveling and things like that using my body to like move and to sightsee and to just like

get through things and going on these like eight mile hikes i realized how important it is to take care of yourself and to take care of your body also seeing my parents grow up i've been really lucky to have parents who really take care of themselves physically not like an almond mom situation my mom's probably the most healthy healthy insane person that there is when it comes to uh womanly tendencies i don't know how else to put it i definitely don't have an almond mom she'll eat whatever she wants and she'll work out here and there but that's what makes her healthy do you know what i mean my dad was a track coach and athlete all of my life so he's always naturally been very healthy but seeing them age has really put that into perspective because there's things

that like my parents are doing and having a very easy time doing that I see other 50 60 year olds attempting to do and they can't and you know why they can't it's because they did not start when they were younger the things that you do in your 20s affect you in your 30s and your 40s so it's almost like preventative care. You don't need Botox, girl. You need to stretch those joints and maybe work on those back muscles. That's really what you need in order to age healthily as an adult. Eating semi-well, you know, like the 80-20 rule, making sure you're getting enough protein, you're getting enough vitamins, things like that. That will make aging as an adult and your body changing as an adult way easier and you will have like less problems in the future

the reason you see all of these older individuals in different countries like aging to such a point that is impossible in the west and being able to move and accomplish things and do things as an adult where maybe adults here are not able to do those things they need like severe care and time that you know is different from other countries that's because they're taking care of their body they have a community they're eating healthily they're getting out and moving every single day and i have slowly been realizing that the more i age listen my younger 20s was all about going crazy and doing way too many drugs and partying and eating bad and whatever sometimes you gotta overindulge you're a kid just have fun whatever um but now i'm really trying to focus on the

little things and like the small things in life that can really elevate my life um and one of those things is maybe getting into a little bit better of shape and it doesn't necessarily mean i need to go out and run 10 miles today i mean that's so fucking cool if you do it doesn't mean i need to go power lift 150 pounds um that's so fucking amazing if you do if you listen to me while power lifting or running a marathon like shout out to you that's fucking insane please pat yourself on the back but it doesn't always need to be exerting yourself in that sort of way if you want to fantastic amazing set goals achieve them go after them always but I think simply like integrating maybe like a and I was doing this for a while and I realized how much better I felt just

in my day-to-day life when I was doing my Pilates for 15 minutes every day like I was talking about just a small little routine even if it's just a 10 minute stretch yoga flow in the morning I feel like my body feels better my energy is better my libido is better my view on life is better because my body has exerted that like energy that it's storing necessarily and so that's something I really need to be focusing on and kind of doing now especially because I can't get outside as much because it's so fucking hot it's just doing small little workouts in my apartment I thought about getting a pilates membership um and just going to a you know a class every here and there and whatever but also it's like my schedule's so crazy and i don't want to pay that money and i

also get a little shy in groups but i'm not gonna let that hold me back okay i'm not gonna let that hold me back you can still do it at home you can still stretch and do preventive preventative care at home that's why i post a lot of cooking videos because i think a lot of people don't realize cooking a is so easy so healthy it's a great way to kind of just like take care of yourself it's like a gift to yourself in that sort of way um and i love making sure that i'm eating somewhat well and everything always takes tastes better home cooked anyways you don't need to get into a shape there is no shape you need to get into i think you need to get into your strength i think the way we view this should change a lot because I think a lot of people especially women focus on

working out to fit a societal norm to get skinnier to get more in shape I want my summer bod when I think there's a lot of power in the way you frame things and changing it from getting into shape where it comes from a necessity it comes from a place of lack to getting into my strength which come which is putting yourself in a place of like uplifting of growth instead of coming from a place of lack you're just adding on to the beautifulness that you already are I think reframing and then going at it that sort of way will help the longevity of you working out and staying in shape or staying in strength and wanting to keep doing those things because when I was doing and feeling my best during Pilates it wasn't to get into shape it was to get into my strength I was

like holy shit i my neck hurts all the time guess what it's because my neck is so fucking weak holy shit my back hurts all the time it's because my back is weak my muscles are weak they're exerting extra energy to be able to do these normal things so like let's get into our strength babe but to stop the laziness and really just get into a routine of being able to do these things you have to start i mean it seems fucking obvious but you really just have to one day get fucking over yourself and tired of it and just start all right that's gonna be the hardest part that's the hardest part of it all whether it's starting to work out or it's getting a new job or it's any sort of like daily task that is hard and that you're kind of dreading doing but also kind of

want to do starting is going to be the hardest part always the easy part is just doing it Sometimes you literally just have to force yourself to do it and you will feel better afterwards for it There's a lot of self-care things that are not fun to do. That's one big adult thing that you'll learn There's a lot of self-care things that you're just like this isn't fun I don't like doing it, but ultimately you will be better for it, bitch Do I want to do the dishes? No, but I know i'm going to be stressed off I wake up in the morning see a pile of dishes. Do I want to go do my laundry no but i want to be able to wear a cute outfit tomorrow and all my shit's

dirty so like let me just make sure i'm doing it do i want to work out probably not but will i feel better afterwards for it yes i always will also being a previous drug addict um there are ways to feel that way without substances without rotting your brain and putting worms in your fucking brain to eat holes in it um and believe it or not the gym girlies are on to something you can get high off of working out there is an endorphin that it releases naturally into your body that helps with depression that helps with self-confidence that helps with feeling good that makes you feel this natural high first time i ever felt this natural high uh i was like 12 and i ran cross-country meet for the first time ever and i ran so fucking hard that i vomited at the end

you would think i would feel awful after that but the endorphins that were flooding through my body felt so addicting and so good honestly girl you want to do molly without feeling molly work out like go for a run push yourself i went on this eight mile hike with my friends and two of my friends had to stay back they were like we cannot finish that we're not going up there I was like you know what I'm here so this is a once in a lifetime event me and my other my other friend finished the hike and it was hard it was all up hills on the side of a fucking cliff but by the time I got to the top of that mountain I was like I am so glad I did this did I want to do it no I'm so glad I did it though because a my endorphins are flooding me I'm seeing this

beautiful sight that's a once in a lifetime sight I'm feeling good I'm with my friends and that feeling is so addicting if you start working out and start strengthening yourself you will start feeling that and that in turn is going to be like like Pavlov's dog it's going to help you want to do it more it's going to condition you to feel good and understand that no this is a good thing to do this is good for myself I'm feeling good I'm going to keep doing it I'm going to want to keep do it doing it it's funny how your body will like naturally give you positive reinforcement for good things seek positive reinforcement from your body always always anyways that's a big goal of mine something i've definitely been thinking about in fact i'll probably finish this podcast

and go eat a salad i've been craving a lot of fresh veggies this summer because it's so hot i'm like i want my insides to be cold um and then i'll probably do a little workout routine just because i talk all that talk but bitch if i don't walk the walk then why the fuck am i here pussy shaving tips i just shaved for the first time in honestly like a month yesterday because i was on a girl's trip bitch why am i gonna shave my hoo-ha like let her free let the bush free i was in a bikini but like fuck it let that bush fly girl you know what i mean i'm not around my boyfriend also my boyfriend doesn't care like if i had a full bush never shaved in my life like i'm talking four inch bust down silk press down there he would not care he'd be happy to be there anyway

but there's like a certain aesthetic that I like and it's not necessarily hairless I hate that aesthetic everybody likes their own aesthetic but the hairless is listen we all know it's weird it's a little creepy when men prefer that we all know we all know everybody prefers different ways of shaving different ways of body hair I had armpit hair for a long time um honestly probably for like 10 years just because I was like I don't like having it or I don't like not having it like it's natural men have it why the fuck do I need to shave my armpits like that's just another thing that I have to do in my routine like I don't want to fucking do that so I just didn't shave my armpits for years and it wasn't something I really thought about or anybody really shaved me for

um it was just like oh I prefer hair there so I'm gonna keep my hair there now I shave it because I for some reason I'm sweating so much like I don't know what it is about getting older I think my hormones changed a little bit and now I sweat so much and the hair was making me sweat even more so now I shave for that reason not for an aesthetic person but down here or aesthetic reason but down here girl there's a certain way I like it there's a certain way I keep it and I still have a bush but shaving is so difficult for no reason like why the hell am I getting ingrown hairs all the time all the time and after years of shaving and attempting to shave and years of ingrown hair i have had a pretty good routine recently that has kept me fairly smooth and

smooth for a while and no ingrowns so here's my foolproof method a you need a good razor you do need one of those women's razors the men's razors they don't have that little moisturizing bar on the top it's usually only two different like actual razors i like the four razors with a thick gas fucking moisturizing bar on the top i think the moisturizing bar makes a huge difference in the way you shave because down there there need you need a lot of moisturizer you need a lot of moisture okay if you dry shave it's gonna be very very irritated so i think if you find a razor with one of those thick gas moisturizing bars great i do not use shaving cream down there because I do not want to risk getting shaving cream in any sort of creases or anything like

that because your girl gets UTIs so easily like you can look at me wrong and I'll get a UTI so like I'm not putting any extra like soap in there or shaving cream I'm not risking it okay the shaving bar works perfect perfectly there's not a lot of it it's only where you're shaving simple a good razor every single time i do not reuse razors on my girly okay i can reuse razors on my armpits i can reuse razors on my legs like i get it one use that razor's not dead don't throw it away you can reuse it on your legs in a couple days but every time you shave down here your girly you need to be using a new razor um just a to make sure there's no bacteria in it there's no extra hair in it you are getting a good clean shave every stroke that you get that is very

important you need to go with the grain never ever against the grain down there your legs you can go against the grain down there you cannot go against the grain the follicles and the overall hair is going to be a little bit thicker than what's on your legs which means it is going to get like ingrown way easier because there is more there so you need to go against the grain so you're not pushing those follicles back up inside themselves and thus causing those ingrown hairs you need to go with the grain new razor with the grain make sure you've been standing in the shower for a good 10 minutes okay don't dry shave outside the shower be in the shower make sure those pores are nice and warm and open and ready to go you can exfoliate if you want i don't necessarily do that

i don't think it's needed down there i think as long as you i do it at the end of my shower routine so that i've been in there for like 15 minutes and the skin is nice and soft the pores are open the hair is soft you're ready to shave and then i think that's pretty much it with the grain new razor make sure your skin is prepped and ready to go moisturizing bar moisturizing bar but i do think a lot of the ingrown hair and like the bad effects that people feel is because of the care that they do afterwards okay do not put on that thong afterwards do not put on that tight ass pair of pants that are gonna be just like bunched up there i like to go commando afterwards for as long as i possibly can in fact today i'm in yoga pants no undies because i shaved last night

and i don't want any extra like pressure or like um rubbing of any sort down there i need her to have time to breathe have time to sort herself out and i feel like when you have like extra um like if you have tight underwear on and it's giving too much friction that's what causes those ingrown hairs and that's what causes a little bit more sensitivity so girl go commando if you need i love commando it's summer it's hot girl you don't need that extra pair of underwear like fuck it your man's gonna love it if you pull up in a sundress and no undies babe so like if you're at home put on his big t-shirt go commando you know but give her time to breathe give her time to do her thing that's what causes most of the ingrown hairs is wearing too tight of clothes

directly afterwards i don't like shaving and then immediately putting on a swimsuit that's going to be too tight and then it's wet and then you're cold and then it's wet and frictiony bad bad all around make sure you have time in between to give her time to breathe um and yeah that's really my best kitty shaving tips you don't need to shave if you do not want to shave you do not need to if a man says you have too much hair tell him he's a fucking pussy and i don't sleep with babies hello like you can do whatever you want you can fit into any aesthetic that you want you do not need to do these things if you want to do them for yourself i highly encourage you doing whatever you feel is necessary for yourself but like with my armpits if you're like why am i being forced

to shave i don't want to like this is so weird why do women do this and not men if you're feeling that way and you don't want to you don't have to girl the bush is back i love my little bush make sure i shave around and make it all pretty and like trim but i love my bush okay if you want a bush a full forest down there go for it if you don't want to shave your armpits go for it do what is best for you always love you oop someone said why do men turn into big babies when they haven't had sex in a while um because men are used to throwing tantrums for what they want and getting what they want no matter what and they believe that they have ownership over women's bodies especially women who are close to them and if that's the way your man is behaving you're dating

or around a big baby and in fact he does not deserve any pussy for that behavior okay you cannot reinforce negative behavior with a positive reinforcement you need to reinforce negative behavior with a negative reinforcement as in leaving that man to die hello i'm tired of men complaining that they're not getting pussy when they're being dicks and being mean and being rude all the fucking time yeah you're not getting pussy because you have a bad fucking attitude you think i'm gonna get good dick from a man who's complaining all the time about everything no i'm definitely not okay if you guys if you and your partner haven't had sex in a while a your man should not bring it up and if he does bring it up it should be like a

hey i've noticed like you know are you okay is there anything i can do is there any way i can build this romance men aren't fucking stupid in fact if they're not getting pussy they should be like taking you out on dates like trying to up the romance a little bit you know trying to spark it up a little bit not complaining that they're not getting it uh i honestly the older you get the more you realize like most men are not going to complain about not getting pussy if they're not getting pussy they know it's for a reason and they know they need to fix that attitude real fucking quick or they need to check in on their woman and make sure that they're okay um but if you're around a man who's complaining about not getting pussy please leave him in the dirt leave

him in the dust to complain to rotten hell how do you live such an unbothered and peaceful life well i used to be bothered all the fucking time and never at peace and i realized that you cannot let things that are so negative control your life completely or else you become a shell of a human being and i realized well it's always going to be harder choosing peace but it will be of course always more peaceful and way way more better to your mental health i'm always seeking love i'm always searching for love because I've been in those deep dark pits I've been there I've let hatred and you know bothered let people bother me and I've let shit affect me to the point where it over consumed my whole entire life and I forgot who I was as a person whether it was depression

whether it was small tiffs whether it was drama and my god it is just so exhausting it is so just draining it is not a way that you want to live life and i know some of you guys have probably been there and sure maybe it's the harder choice choosing peace and choosing love but my god does it not make life so much easier always always even in the negatives i will always seek love even in the negatives i will always be like you know what maybe that person was having a bad day that was a weird fucking interaction but at least i can move on with my day if i'm having a bad mental health day you know what tomorrow will be better always seeking the light in order to make sure that a i'm taking care of myself and i'm making this life the best life possible and b

i'm just making sure that this is a peaceful moment for me no matter what no matter how stressful no matter how bad i'm making sure that i'm taking care of first in the most peaceful loving way possible also the weed definitely helps people keep saying brat brat summer i have not listened to brat yet i'm kind of waiting for the perfect exact moment to listen to it i feel like when i listen to these big important like drops of music and discographies in a sense or even just albums i really like to put myself into like an intentional moment to listen to it and i feel like i really just need a night where my boyfriend's gone and i can change my led lights to like neon green and i can take a fat dab and like chug a vodka lemonade and just dance around

my house to brat that's exactly what i need um recently i have been taking my time to listen to k trinata's new album so good so good i love him so much um my favorite on that if you need a good like summer album listen to k trinata's new album um my favorite on that uh discography right now it was pink pantherist we were blasting that on my girls trip or snap my fingers her song with him but now it's changed to uh the anderson pack i think it's called due to me i don't know the anderson pack song that they collabed on on that album but that's the album that i recently was really listening to now i need to transition into brat so i can have a brat summer i feel like it's hot out it's sticky out i need to get into my brat summer vibes so that's my homework for the

weekend I will be going and listening to that and maybe I'll get back to you next week and give you guys a review but yeah I like to be very intentional about my music especially getting into like sad girl music so young and just over consuming it I like to really just set the scene and make sure that like because I feel like when music comes out five years down the road you're gonna be like where was I at that point in time what was I doing how was I listening to it what was I going through what emotions was it conveying for me and I feel like that's so so so special and that's why I love music um so I'm gonna be trying I always try and be intentional about like when I play albums and uh when they find their way into my life and I like to do so very naturally I like them I like

to let them come to me naturally um and recently that's been Cajunada for me but I have a feeling I'm gonna transition into Brat very soon how to deal with a lack of physical contact out of a relationship but girl just needs some cuddles get you a weighted blanket no even better get you a weighted stuffed animal that's the way to do it okay oh i love a weighted blanket that saved me during my last breakup literally it felt like there was another human on top of me and it's kind of like uh have you ever heard like the um i think they make them for like dogs and stuff like thunder vests so it's like a weighted vest for you to put on your dog so when like fireworks are going off they're getting anxiety about loud noises it like makes them feel soothed and held

you can do that for you as a human being as well like you don't need to add a van babe you need a thunder vest you need a weighted blanket you need a weighted stuffed animal i know they sell weighted stuffed animals at target um or adopt a cat if you're in a healthy place to do so but that would be my best advice don't settle some maybe you can hire a professional cuddler that could be fun but if you really really need physical contact go hold your friend's hand at brunch and then go to target together and go buy a weighted stuffed animal how to get over an ex when you're a bpd baddie listen the bpd baddies know it best we know how to completely remove ourselves from a situation and completely disregard it i mean maybe not in the moment when it's like overwhelming

our senses and our emotions but listen we know how to fucking split and dip that's for sure um so you just have to do that honestly like as soon as I break up with somebody I pretend you never existed sure I remember those moments that we had that were good that were probably a lot of them bad but it's almost like me side by side with like this faceless person you know it's more of like an entity of sorts I don't remember the person anymore I completely split I pretend they are not alive they are not a human being they never existed in fact I block everything I delete everything like literally i pretend that shit never fucking happened i mean i've only ever had bad experiences so that's really worked for me um maybe if you've had like only good experiences

it might be a little bit harder but i feel like for me what's best so i don't ruminate on the past in any sort of way which is very easy for bpg girlies to be like what if what if what if let me get consumed with all these emotions of what if is to really just like physically and mentally remove yourself completely or honestly remove them completely from the picture um and that's why i always advocate for blocking and deleting everything listen it's gonna be good for your mental health i promise no as a bpd girl you cannot be friends with your ex are you insane i mean yeah but like don't be that fucking insane don't put yourself through hell for nothing um so yeah I really just pretend that person never existed literally like a faceless person next

to me that's how I imagine those memories and that's been best for me I really want to be a chill cool girl but I'm so anxious about everything and can't hide it oh I feel that that was me like going on this girl's trip me and my friend were talking and she's like I have a really hard time just like releasing and letting things happen and letting go like I'm a planner I really try to make sure everything's planned and here's this and here's this and here's our itinerary and i'm not a go with the flow person but me and her we made eye contact and we were like no this trip we are going to because i'm just like her we're going to allow ourselves to just go with the flow we're not going to get upset over anything we're going to say yes to everything or no to what we

don't want to do we're just going to go with the flow and do what we can and try our best and as a chronic anxious girly that was really good practice for me that was great practice for me oh my gosh that was so good for me to practice just like releasing and letting the universe take over my experiences there is some things you can control always always there's always some factor that you can control maybe it's okay well i'm gonna i'm gonna be the plans i'm gonna make the plans for us we're gonna go with my plans maybe it's all I can control in this situation is my outfit maybe it's all I can control in this situation is how I handle it you can be a control freak in any situation but sometimes the control needs to be directed at you not at other people

okay and practicing that is such a good healthy thing to do putting yourself in environments as a control freak that are new and are a little scary and you're a little unsure is really good practice for being able to step out of that control of other people and focus on control of self control of looking forward of like environments and things making sure that you're taking care of yourself making sure you're taking care of your mental health making sure you're controlling your urges and your desires and your control freakness you know um there's always a way and there's always something that you can control in a healthy manner but you need to realize like when controlling something is obviously unhealthy and only stressing you out I feel like the cool chill

girl accepts what she can's and understands what she can't that is peak cool chill girl and girl if you can't if you can't accept it or control it or any of that you start panicking girl smoke a bowl or step away from the situation if you're getting overwhelmed by something you can always remove yourself you have control over that there are certain things you have control over there's certain things you can't you have to accept what you can and do the best with what you can't but honestly i think modern day or like everyday practice is really good putting yourself in environments that are new to you that are you don't know what to expect challenging yourself in that way it's going to strengthen the relationship between you and yourself and also

deter that control freakness in a healthy manner it's going to put into perspective you know maybe I can't control things but also sometimes things work out better when I'm not and the things that I can control I'm going to put my emphasis there I'm going to focus on that because I know that will turn out well because that is the option is making sure that it turns out well because I can control it but what I can't sometimes you got to leave and let the universe handle listen the universe is always going to put you on the path that is best for you you literally just have to lean into it and let it happen someone asked what is my perception of love um i feel like love nowadays has been kind of deterred in a way that makes me a little sad because everybody got very

very very selfish in a way that is kind of heartbreaking in a sense i think selfishness is important when it comes from a place of maybe not putting yourself forward enough and like people pleasing a little too much and emphasizing selfishness in a way to preserve self and to uplift self but i think a lot of people nowadays have kind of just like over consumed self and they're they've lost love in that sort of way um love is all around us love is everywhere love is the light that you seek in every single possibility and every single person and every single moment that is love love is the birds chirping outside your window to wake you up in the morning love is the cicadas chirping at night to lull you to sleep love is that long-term friendship that you've

had since you were a kid the one you made on the playground love is growing a plant from scratch and baking it into a pie and sharing it with your friends love is everything it's everything and it's everything to me i thought love was so hard to come by when i was like in my most depressed state i thought it was gone i thought i would never find it i thought i would never know love but we are love we are love we are literally the physical embodiment of love think about how like humans are made it's made through sex and sure not always the best way but most of the time it's made through the act of creating love and making love and i think that's so beautiful um but we all as human beings are able to connect to this divine being this divine power whatever you want to call

it god the universe in reality it is just love and it's unconditional love um and i think you can seek it and be it no matter where you go even in your darkest moments you will always find love it will always be there even in the small things even in the big things and if you don't know how to find it I really really recommend starting small sometimes starting with yourself can be the hard part especially when you are having a hard time connecting to yourself searching for love in yourself or others is going to be a little bit more difficult but finding love in the everyday moments in life will always be availability and will always be a possibility um whether it's the way the sunshine comes through your window that makes it look a little extra pretty or your plant

growing a new leaf or the little squirrels that come and visit you every day and hopefully don't eat my fucking plants but like you can find it no matter where you go and i think people have lost touch of love they've lost touch of seeking love i think a lot of people have forgotten that it can be found no matter where you go um and i really encourage you guys if you're not looking for love to watch out for it all these people are going on these little like flower walks just so cute because i did some of my nanny kids when i was younger where they have like the little tape wristband and then they go walk around and they go pick little flowers and put it on their tape wristband and then it's like a little flower wristband and i think you can do the same thing

with love where it's like i'm gonna go on a love scavenger hunt instead of a wildflower scavenger and i'm gonna have my tape wristband that is my heart and i'm gonna go out there and i'm gonna go seek and search for small little moments as much as i can i think it has a great way of really emphasizing and uplifting the human spirit and also making sure that you are in connection to life and life is in connection to you so if you don't know what to do with your day seek love how to remember who you are when you have a boyfriend it's consuming you and you forgot this is hard because i think in past relationships i would have really really connected to this question and been like oh my god yeah me too i've completely lost myself i've completely isolated

myself and that's not healthy it's not healthy and i think you know it's not healthy but i think it stems from one of two reasons a you are over lifting your relationship and you are putting in all of the work and you're also like kind of self-isolating in that way where you are only hanging out with your boyfriend and only connecting to yourself in relation to your partner and really just making sure they're happy they're happy they're happy what can i do for the relationship i'm stressing myself out over the relationship blah blah blah that sort of way or it's your partner isolating you it's you isolating yourself in the relationship and just like making sure you're over consumed by it or it's your partner completely isolating you both of which are not

healthy um and both of which i think if you're feeling you really need to practice your individualism um i've been that way kind of in the beginning of my relationship it's very easy to get all consumed and make it the only thing you think about but that does not make a relationship healthy and in fact it's the number one way to kill a relationship you would think putting all your time and energy and feeling into a person would make it healthy but it's going to stress the other person out and not only the other person but it's also going to stress you the fuck out because your life is not your relationship you have choices to make as an individual remember choices you can make choices now you can be an individual girl you need hobbies you need to get

out there you need to uplift yourself as a person and like my boyfriend has way more hobbies than me but i still find ways to make sure that i'm uplifted as an individual and sure we come together and we support our relationship every once in a while but we do take very very like a lot of care to make sure that we are having individual time and that that individual time is uplifted if your partner is isolating you and not allowing you time to be an individual or not supporting your hobbies not supporting your individual activities putting you down in that sort of way i've been in those relationships that is not healthy and you need to free yourself immediately he's not going to change he's not going to share you he doesn't want you to be in

the world he wants you to be his little girlfriend that he can fit in his pocket and will do anything he says that's not healthy that's not a relationship you need to get out sometimes we are the bad people sometimes we are the ones who are kind of like making the situation difficult not your partner maybe your partner is so sweet and uplifts you and wants you to be an individual but you find yourself being over consumed in a relationship your relationship is not your life it is a big part of your life and it's something that you do get to share but it is not your life you need to be an individual in order for that relationship to be completely healthy um a healthy relationship is not two people together it's two individuals coming together you're not two halves making a

whole you're two holes experiencing something side by side so i think you need to challenge yourself a little bit you need to go out and do an activity alone you need to go hang out with your friends you need to pick up a hobby even if you don't want to leave the house like stay home but don't do something for the relationship do something for you make a bubble bath cook a meal that you really like and eat it alone start watching your favorite tv show and pick up knitting i don't know what it is but if you find yourself self-sabotaging in that sort of sense where you're allowing a relationship to over consume you you need to up the individuality a little bit okay that's how you make a relationship so so healthy is by being two complete

individuals um also it's a great way to have just like alone time and my boyfriend's out skating doing his thing i have alone time here to record my podcast to um maybe do a new recipe if that's what i want to do maybe it's do some art play some music paint a little bit but finding who you are when you have been over consumed in a relationship really just comes from tapping into yourself and if you've not tapped into yourself in a while and you don't know how to do that think back to when you were seven to when you were 14 to when you were 16 to when you were 19 however old that you had that dream and that spark still alive what would they want to do right now what would they want to do right now with your adult money with your adult time with your adult perspective

what would they want to do right now I love living my life side by side with my childhood self because it's like she's always a part of me and now I get to make her dreams come true oh I couldn't afford that tumblr shirt at 16 well now i can oh i couldn't afford that art supplies at seven my parents wouldn't buy for me well now i can oh i couldn't go to that place but i always dreamed of well now i can bring her dreams alive she's still alive inside of you you need to uplift her and in turn uplifting her is also uplifting yourself you are the same person but i love you losing yourself in a relationship is very easy once again love can be over consuming but when it becomes over consuming it becomes unhealthy so taking care of yourself is also taking care

of a relationship and if your partner doesn't want you to be an individual they are not a partner that is a warden you are living a jail cell okay free yourself as someone said tell me what accessories i need you need a good big purse whatever purse you like all my friends have the bagu they love the bagu because you can fit anything inside of it mine is kind of a bagu it's the same fucking size and shape but it's a denim bag i love a big purse i don't like a tote bag because it's a little too big i mean i like a tote bag but i don't like a big purse tote bag kind of sense um because that's i can't carry too much stuff i'll become a hoarder find a purse that fits you find that good everyday purse that fits enough stuff that you need carry it around with

you okay you need a good purse i love my rings i think my rings are a great way to accessorize as well as my everyday necklaces my everyday earrings um i've found all of mine second hand whether it comes from a local crystal store a thrift store ebay is a great option if you need really good solid good jewelry um yeah it's jewelry on instagram and their website makes amazing amazing solid gold jewelry they are my go-to um remember when it comes to quality jewelry the more you invest the longer it lasts okay i don't take any of this off it all stays on my body i don't want to take it off i'm lazy hello but i also don't want it turning my neck green so sure i'll pay an extra hundred dollars if that means it's gonna last me a lifetime and i'll be able to pass it

down to my children easy easy um what other accessories i like to accessorize my nails that's a big accessory for me i always have my nails done even when i didn't have long ass acrylics and they were short little stubby nails um i would always do like fun little paint on them and i painted them myself i wasn't really spending a lot of money i would just do like cute little dots little flowers i would put little rhinestones on simple simple um recently i have elevated to getting my toes done a little cute accessory that i have that is overlooked are the feet i have a toe ring i've worn a toe ring for like four years now in fact i want another one i got it in venice beach um there's this one like jeweler on venice beach that will put toe rings on

and anklets on for on for you my boyfriend was convinced that he had a foot fetish but also like he was putting that shit on so who cares like he wasn't making it weird but also like what a job you know at least you're making money and helping me out in the long run so who cares um little anklets are a great way to accessorize bangles things like that i love a good chunk chunky necklace and then when it comes to just everyday wear like something small like this headband accessory boom done a hat accessory boom done um a cute little belt anything and i love getting my accessories that are like not everyday wears but maybe every once in a while just something to spice it up from thrift stores do not miss the accessory portion of a thrift store okay

buy that rhinestone belt buy that fun belt buckle buy those weird pair of shoes um buy that crazy purse buy that crazy necklace whatever it is i guarantee you'll find a way to wear it and i feel like the best way to accessorize especially on the low is with thrift store purchases always always um a lot of my accessories have come from a thrift store but everyday things i really just focus on my purse my bag my nails that's really all i can do oh a big slept on accessory is your hair i realize there's so much i can do with my hair i just don't i usually throw it up in a clip where it's down but like braiding it space buns pigtails doing fun things with your hair is always a fun way to accessorize as well and a very easy way to change it up dyeing your hair

shaving it whatever it is also a great way bumping into a hinge guy irl who ghosted how to carry yourself baddie affirmations please baddie affirmations i will not let a mid-male affect my self-worth i am worth more than what i received i'm seeking love and light in every single situation possible and i do not accept anything less um period what i would do in that situation i just pretend i didn't know him whether i did or not hide that shock hide the look of shock on your face pretend you don't know who it is oh sorry keep moving on that's the best way to be like a hot unbothered baddie literally unbothered pretend you don't fucking know them always always it's a great it's like kind of like a not a flex but it's also like a you didn't get to me and i

know you wanted to get to me but you didn't and i'm still living my best hot sexy life and you get to see me in this bar flirting with other men now so suffer haha i feel really stuck and miserable in life i really want to change but how do i do that i'm gonna read you something and hopefully it inspires you a little bit but it inspired me and i also shared it with my patreon um i'm really trying to be more intentional about my patreon recently because life's been kind of crazy this summer and i've been slacking a little bit so i'm so so sorry about that but i have a lot of exciting things planned and the content i'm making now is going to be just like so amazing now that i have more time and i'm so excited to share that with you guys but let me read this to

to love is to risk not being loved in return to hope is to risk pain to try is to risk failure but risk must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing you might not know what you want to do but there are directions you can take you need to just choose okay sit down allow yourself to dream allow yourself to think of who you want to be in five years all the different possibilities all the different ways of being and sometimes you just need to put one foot in front of the other and go after something the best way to build confidence to build courage to build understanding in yourself is to simply try you might fail guess what at least you stood by yourself and you had the fucking balls to go after it you might succeed and then guess what

you had the strength and the courage to go after what you wanted whether you knew you wanted it or not and try something new and guess what it worked out there honestly in my opinion is no such thing as failure at the end of the day you will get something out of it and you will be able to grow and be a better person because of it you feel miserable because you are stuck but you are never stuck well you're stuck you think you're in a place where you know you need to change you need to do something you just don't know what so that's why i always tell people to dare to dream i feel like dreaming is so underrated these days people have like one idea of what they want to be maybe what they want to become dream there's so many options out there there's so many choices to make

like we have the ability to make a choice now there's so many different things you can become and try you could be a chef you could be a park ranger you could be an astronaut you can be anything you want to be. You need to dream a little bit so then you have the confidence to go after it and you need to stand by yourself as you go after it whether you succeed or fail because either way you'll be a stronger individual for it. Feeling stuck in life is feeling like you have no options. You always have options. You must create them for yourself. No one's going to come up to you and give you all of these options and lay out all of these paths for you and tell you which one to take that would make life so fucking boring unfortunately we do have to find those paths

on our own but you will find the path that works best for you i promise the universe is always working and pushing you onto the right path what is meant for you will always be for you you're gonna have ups and downs in life no matter what but find peace in knowing that the universe is always going to put you on the right path on the path that is good for you that is best for you so find peace in that but stand strong beside yourself and dare to dream a little bit okay once again like i said in the beginning we are so blessed to be able to have choices and be able to you know make choices in these lives and dream and accomplish things especially as women who haven't had that for a long time so take advantage of that you know take the confidence that your

great-grandmother wish she had and the choices that she wish she had and use the strength of all the women who came previously before you to push you into what you truly desire and dream of love you someone said how to make life feel less serious all the time hannah please um you know what that's why i smoke weed like tbh it's because you remember being like you know like the stoner culture from when you were like a teenager and it was all about just like getting high and having a giggle with your friends and like getting the munchies and like running around and getting into trouble like that feeling is so nice to tap into especially as an adult now who actually has responsibilities and bills to pay you don't bring that up we don't want to hear it I know I know

but a great way to kind of just like not avoid your problems but I think healthily tap into a side of yourself that is a little bit more unserious is weed and I've been trying to be a little bit more intentional about my weed consumption lately um and just like the emphasis that I have on it um I've been really focusing on like substances in my life and why I use them like my relationship to alcohol and my relationship to weed and I feel like my relationship to alcohol is a little bit more unhealthy than my relationship to weed my relationship to alcohol is definitely like an escapism tactic and not in a healthy way I feel like when I'm drinking it's to kind of just like disappear from my emotions and be quick a quick little happy forget me not you know what I

mean but it makes me feel bad the next day it makes me feel heavy it makes me feel not great and that usage is definitely not healthy and I'm trying to reevaluate whether it's taking a step away or um finding a healthier way to use it I think there are there is a healthy way to use it and the way I really do want to use alcohol is um you know a great pairing with a great meal you know having a crisp glass of wine one glass of wine shared with a group of friends um you know like intentionality of it all am I drinking after work to forget what I did no I should not be doing that but am I maybe sharing a glass of champagne and a celebratory dinner sure that's a healthy way to use it um but I'm really trying to deter my alcohol usage a little bit but my weed usage

has always been pretty healthy in the way I use it and it's been very like unserious in that sort of way where I'm not smoking to forget who the fuck I am or what happened or to take the edge off I'm smoking to kind of dive into that little 16 year old part of my brain that is very unserious that like I just want to dance around my house and have a little giggle and a little laugh and dream a little bit and make a little mood board or get into my creative side and do some painting and I think weed is a great great tool for that and I do believe that's how it really should be used honestly if you are using any sort of substance to completely remove yourself from life or forget your emotions that is ultimately a unhealthy way to use it but like babe if you

want to bring out the unseriousness of life smoke a little joint and pull out a fucking paintbrush and like have you seen those challenges where it's like someone sits in front of you and you guys paint each other and then you turn it around it's always so silly because like obviously people's art skills are going to be completely different and the way we view each other is going to be completely different like how fun like there is a great way to use it to tap into that unseriousness of life um and i love using weed as that kind of tool for me it's been really healthy in that sort of way it just brings out that fun little silly 16 year old side of me and i love to honor her and cherish her in any way possible um but also let me give you advice that's not

substance-based the unseriousness of life can really be tapped into when you know what to emphasize um you know what is important in your life you know what to take seriously when you take everything seriously it's gonna be a little bit too heavy life's gonna feel way too fucking heavy tapping into the unseriousness of life is really understanding what to give weight to and what not to like there's sometimes people come at me sideways and it's just like that was wild but also like whatever I'm not gonna let that get to me I'm not gonna let it become heavy on my heart because they're obviously feeling some sort of way but I'm not gonna let myself feel that same exact way a lot of projecting in that sort of way um or maybe it's like sure work is stressing me

out but babe that's a nine to five I'll take that seriously when I'm clocked in as soon as I'm clocked out like I'm not letting that eat up any more of my time I'm not getting paid to think about it you need to realize what is worth taking serious and what is not i also think having unserious people in your life is a little healthy not unserious in the way where they're kind of like putting you down or putting themselves down or putting you in bad situations or putting themselves in bad situations more so people who see the lighter side of life who have that whimsiness that childhood energy to them i love having people around me that are just like silly and goofy and bring that out of me because I am a very believe it or not stoic and serious person

and I have a hard time tapping into that so having people around me who are a little bit more silly and fun is really good for me like my boyfriend is definitely that like he's a skater boy of course of course he's gonna be like a little bit more silly and a little bit more dumb and I love that because it helps me tap into it but yeah you really need to understand what's worth taking seriously in this life and what's not um when you take everything seriously the things that are actually important are going to be mixed up with the things that you should not put any weight towards so understand what's important to you and what's not and act accordingly and when all else fails smoke a little weed anyways i'm sorry i didn't smoke with you guys

today oh i know it's not like the whole point of the fucking podcast i guess a little fun smoke such thing could be like take a hit every time I answer a question fun I'm out of weed though this is like a first in my life I went on vacation and my boyfriend didn't buy any flour because he usually smokes dabs um and he gave away the other part of the flour while I was gone so I didn't like sit around and go bad um and I've been so busy that I really haven't asked him to do so so I believe he's out doing that right now but I didn't have any flour on me and I didn't want to take dabs at 12 30 in the afternoon just because we're trying to be serious about our consumption and make sure my brain's taken care of and my body's taken care of so apologies for that but

also I think someone asked me like how would I describe this podcast to someone and the goal really is just you know that like group of people you know sitting down in high school with a random circle of a group of people at the party who kind of want to escape but also just like chill and connect and everybody's vibing they're sunk deep into that fucking couch maybe two people are drunk here maybe one person's high maybe they're passing oh my god maybe they're passing a blunt around maybe somebody's smoking somebody's not maybe somebody's asleep in the corner this is the safe space at the party sure there's so much music blasting and there's chaos there's glasses breaking over there but over here it's the people who are wanting to chill to experience life side

by side maybe somebody needs to get something off their chest and this is a safe space for everybody to just listen and receive and give their thoughts maybe this is a safe space where somebody is like what do you guys think about aliens like let's have a dumb conversation we're not all smoking maybe some are maybe some are drinking once again maybe someone's passed out in the corner either way i want this to be like that safe circle at the party but on like an internet basis that's the goal of this podcast and maybe I was the girl who didn't smoke today but that doesn't mean you guys don't have to hit a little bit for me smoke a little joint for me if you're on a tea break stay strong believe in yourself dare to dream make choices we're so lucky to have this life

and to be able to live this life and I think we take it for granted and we sit and we wait for something good to happen when in reality the good is what we create of it um and we really just have to go out there and seek goodness and love and every single possibility that we can find so hopefully i was able to give that positive energy towards you i hope you were able to feel that today um and i love you all so much i thank you so much for supporting me and everything that i do um i've really been feeling a lot of the love lately and i really have been intentional about this next season of my life to just give give give it right back to you guys and hopefully i was able to do that today but i love you all so much thank you for being here thank you for being you stay

sexy and stay cool out there oh my god i think it's like 105 out today my apartment can barely keep up i think it's like 78 in here it's hot as hell but i'm gonna go eat me a nice big fresh salad i'm gonna go do a little pilates workout i think i'm cooking fettuccine alfredo for dinner tonight probably make me a big ass jug of green tea or lemonade or something to stay cool um and yeah with that being said I love you all thank you so much for all the questions I kind of went on some tangents today I didn't think I would do that but hopefully they were inspirational for you all and next week I'll do a little bit more of a question roulette I'll try and get through as many many many questions as I can um but thank you for being here thank you for being you stay

cool stay sexy stay safe seek love and I'll see you all next week