Smoke Sesh - man hater, manifestation 4 dummies & mercury retrograde

Episode Date: May 10, 2022

Happy Tuesday! Hope everyone had a wonderful weekend & ready for a packed episode, we cover a lot! We talk gemini season and Mercury retrograde, how to navigate and what to expect, tanning, favorite foods for a fat ass, can you really be friends with men? and going from a man hater to not caring about men, manifestation and how to become a manifestation magician, affirmations and subliminals, journal entries and much much more. If you have confessionals for church Thursday or questions of any kind submit to Instagram @ hannahmarlene ! Love you all and I’ll see you Thursday! MUAH!

Listen, everybody needs a fairy godmother, you know, someone to look out for them. Some people call me their internet big sister, others their fairy smoke mother. You can call me Hannah, the new host of Smoke Sash. So come hang out, let's light up and talk everything there is to life. Some good, the bad, the ugly, the embarrassing. I've got a story for it all. Good afternoon, everybody. Happy Tuesday.

i feel like i usually wake up at like fucking like 6 7 a.m to start recording these i can't lie um so i'm actually recording the afternoon for once this is a big change um oh my god this weather here i don't know if any of my other midwestern girlies are going through it like i am but like so our spring we didn't get a spring it's basically been 50s and 60s and raining for the past two months um and then out of nowhere yesterday it reaches like 95 96 like very hot and if any of my other midwestern girlies relate um like if it's a dry heat i can handle 90 90 degrees like i've been to the desert been to utah been been there and i can handle 90 like it's hot but it's bearable at least in the midwest um it's hot and humid so like i'm hot but also like

i'm sweating a shit ton because there's so much humidity in the air oh my god it is just brutal anyways woke up yesterday morning and or no no this morning and i was just like sweating my ass off i was at my boyfriend's house and his air conditioning was broken so we were just cooking inside his apartment because it's so hot outside that i mean the heat was seeping inside but we weren't like we didn't have any windows open or anything we weren't really prepared so holy shit it was literally a toaster oven in there this morning i got the fuck out of there i slept in a little bit because i just really need it i don't know i really need to catch up on sleep i've been kind of uh an insomniac lately i've been having a lot of projects that i'm getting done and i love

getting projects done i love working on things creatively um i love that passion that you get when you're like okay i want to stay up all night and do this and like complete it and do it well like i love that feeling um i feel like throughout high school or when i was a teenager i was always just like so passionate about everything and i was up late drawing or i was up late reading and i love kind of getting back in touch with that but also i need to nurture not being an insomniac and you know getting enough sleep so i slept in a little bit as much as i fucking could with this heat and then i got the fuck out of there um picked up some coffee headed back to my place i'm now packing up some shit because i'm moving soon i cannot wait to give you guys like a little

new apartment tour it's so fucking cute oh my god cannot wait to decorate all the plants everything I need and then I'll be able to do like days in the life things like that update you guys there um make some videos make some more content for you guys but yeah I'm just packing shit up going through all my vintage clothes I'm going to be uploading a bunch more on depop soon so if you're interested follow me there um I think my link is in my bio of my instagram which is at hannah marlene but yeah packing all my rigs up packing all my clothes up it's kind of bittersweet because I absolutely love the house I'm in um it's the first I'm like I mean the house that I'm currently living in is the first place that I've moved out of out of my parents house like as an adult

um other than like college and stuff I don't really count that because it's just college like your first real big adult move that's like super important and mine was with this house this beautiful like a 1920s um house downtown Kansas City it is like so cute and the nicest like cutest neighborhood I'm like right next to a community garden right next to a giant park I've had so many memories around here especially with my boyfriend and like all my friends so it's a little bittersweet I'm just trying to you know appreciate it appreciate my growth appreciate the years that I've spent here because I have I've been here for like two two and a half years it's it's been quite a long time um but i mean i've enjoyed every second of it so i think like we

don't ever take appreciation for them now appreciation for the moment um i mean i really do try but then we get to situations like this where it's like we're leaving we're moving and everything's so bittersweet because we never took a good moment to really um look at the situations we're in and appreciate them for what they are and appreciate the people we're with and where we are and the growth that has occurred so i'm kind of just going through that right now it's really really awesome um probably gonna go take a walk later but we have to dive into a podcast there's nothing really interesting that's been going on in my life so don't have a whole lot to update you on um other than me going to work and me trying to figure out merch stuff and packing which i doubt

you guys want to hear about so let's get into some of your guys's questions because you guys have some juicy ones this week and i'm very excited also let's take a little bowl before we jump in also i need to shout somebody out um and get a po box lots of things on my to-do list i'm hoping to get a po box soon so you guys can send me like notes little letters drawing literally whatever you want um but katie this incredible girl katie bay uh period crochets on instagram oh my god made me this incredible hand crocheted tote bag that's green and she like hand created the design on procreate so it says smokes as shardy on the front oh my fucking god it is so cute fucking mind-blowing that she made this herself incredible thank you so much um i'm so grateful

for that i quite honestly have been carrying it everywhere i go and every single person has been like oh my god where did you get that and i'm like it's an original but go support go follow if you guys need any like really quality crochet done katie bae um crochets on instagram thank you thank you thank you again literally this tote bag has been everything to me i have been dragging it around all over everywhere i've been fucking going so yeah i want to get a um a uh what is it called fucking po box so i can interact with you guys more i'm very excited there's a lot of new things coming so please stay tuned as we transition through this phase and enter gemini season soon it's almost my season i'm so fucking excited speaking of gemini season i've had a few of you

guys ask me sorry the hiccups i'm also loading a bowl but i've had a few of you guys reach out to me and ask me um to cover more astrological events keep you guys updated with what's going on within the stars um on the podcast so let's talk about one big energetic shift that just happened which is mercury retrograde i know everybody's favorite well personally my favorite um i used to be a big hater and then i realized i actually do thrive within the chaos but what i don't thrive in is the pre-chaos okay we've been in a mercury retrograde shadow phase which is kind of like um um working its way up to the full-blown you know change and i'm not good at transition periods i really am not i don't like waiting i don't like being patient so the shadow phase has been a

really big kind of test for me i cannot lie but i made it through i've made it to um our mercury retrograde season which just started um I think today I want to say today but let's let's take this bowl and then I'll catch you guys up oh yeah first hit of the day sorry dead air very quiet for a second but i personally thrive during mercury retrograde a constant um it's the inner gemini in me i cannot lie but a constant lesson that i've been learning from the universe since i've been fucking born is to accept change to go with the flow okay and to chill the fuck out because i sometimes in a very i'm a very serious bitch and sometimes i need to just like calm down understand change happens and to go with it so um with this mercury retrograde um

uh it brings with us introspection reflection more chaos but as an agent of change so remember to be light-hearted and adaptable to keep yourself empowered and moving forward um um so this is just your reminder as we push through um our my career retrograde season is to embrace the change understand that the universe has has your back quite honestly even though things might seem fucking crazy and it's totally mind-blowing things are usually always working in your favor so trust be light-hearted with it understand that good things are coming um and to quite honestly just go with the flow that's the best way you can really enter gemini season um which fuck what day is that when does gemini season start let's see google

when does gemini season start i'm june 1st so i'm like in the middle of gemini season but may 21st is when gemini season starts interesting also i don't know what kind of curse has been placed on my fucking family but there's so many Geminis in my family my grandmother my mom and dad are both Geminis I'm a Gemini and then my niece who is about to be born is also a Gemini so craziness I'm not sure what that means at all within my family but there's a lot of Gemini energy within it um and i think that's why i have learned to kind of embrace the chaos embrace the change because both my parents are gemini's and i was raised by two people who were like well babe go with the flow so anyways hey hannah we're sending you so much love over here from

virginia we love the podcast and every week like when your podcast comes out literally makes my week 10 times better so i just want to say thank you but this week i'm asking for some advice um because my boyfriend just broke up with me and it was kind of unexpected but overall like he said he wanted to be happy with himself before he tries to make me happy which is valid but then he's saying like how i should wait until he's ready to be in a relationship with me and i just feel like that's not fair to me or him but i don't know what to do because obviously i love him so much so i'm kind of torn also summer is about to start but i don't really know what to do so please give me some advice anything at all and also my birthday is next week so that's so fun

i'm turning 20 but yikes um thanks so much queen i can't wait for the podcast hey happy birthday um well happy early birthday it's next week i'm assuming you're not a gemini i'm assuming you're a tourist queen i have so many tourist friends in my life they are just incredible they know what they want they always have a good head about them and they're great at organizing organizing and planning and being great friends um so i'm sure you're a wonderful person but so sorry your boyfriend just broke up with you when you said that he wanted you to wait for him i audibly gasped i did i did men have the audacity for sure because it's like how well first of all here's my thought process what are you waiting for okay because there's a possibility for you

to be waiting and not doing any personal growth not making any new connections that are necessary for your personal growth and essentially just sitting around for somebody else hoping that they possibly choose you again and hoping that they possibly get their shit together when in reality i think when a lot of people go through these phases of like i need to learn more about myself i need to you know figure myself out they realize that what was in their past usually wasn't best for them now i'm not saying you weren't best for them but if they need to do that work you should not hold yourself back from also doing that work does that make sense and in order to grow you can grow within a relationship I do think you can I think if you find a really healthy

relationship you both can do the personal work yourself I think health relationships can be very healthy in that way but also sometimes you have to be out of a relationship to do so okay and if you do love him if you do want the best for him i say let him do his personal growth that he needs to do um and i say just cut ties i really do i think like although that is quote unquote the harder option in the long run it is the easiest it really is like although that like 10 days of really hard getting used to being apart from somebody is like the hard option that is really hard work to do in order to move on from somebody in the long run you will thank yourself so I've been in this situation before babe my first ever boyfriend broke up with me because he was

like I gotta move to California and do and do inner work on myself and he was like but I would love to stay friends and I would love to come back to you soon I would love to like you know eventually reunite and in my little 19 year old heart I was like okay like true love does exist you know he will find me again and I put up with the bullshit of like a few months of like you know maybe we're friends and I quickly realized he did not like me anymore and I still had feelings for him and I was being dragged along and he really just wanted me there for emotional support for him as a friend but I couldn't offer that emotional support as a friend because I still had feelings and I needed to work through those feelings separately away from him um and I put up

with that bullshit for like four five months until I realized that this was just not healthy for me um and it was quite only benefit quite honestly only benefiting one person in our situation and that one person was him and I was miserable so keep that in mind um breakups are hard I hear you um literally been there um this exact situation like I said but I really do think it's important especially in situations like this to choose yourself and to although you have been choosing your partner over and over and over again um you need to do the honor of choosing yourself because they are not choosing you you know and that will build a very healthy relationship within yourself knowing that you always got your back that you're gonna pick yourself up that you can trust in

yourself I think I've gained a lot of trust within myself through breakups um and realizing that oh my god I put all this energy and time and attention into these men and I got what fucking nothing out of it nothing but when I put that time and attention and energy into myself especially after these breakups and I really do pick the harder options that are best for myself um looking back on it on it like as a 22 year old woman I'm so proud of like 19 year old Hannah I am I'm so proud of her for standing up for herself for knowing what is best for cutting that man off and letting him fall to his demise you know what I mean because ultimately I am doing better than I ever have so I get it breakups are hard it is summer though so quite honestly the

best time it can fucking happen you know go get with friends go have a good time um summer is all about like new discoveries for feeling yourself for new activities new um hobbies new friendships to be made so i think don't hold yourself back but also with breakups i think it's really important to have a no contact rule so treat this as your self-love summer okay discover what you like discover new things about yourself meet new people make those new connections and then at the end of the summer I challenge you to like either in your phone right now write a journal entry about how you feel and where you are and then at the end of the summer um write another journal entry about how you feel and where you are and then like read them side by side and look at how much growth and

progress you've done but really enact these um boundaries that are necessary for that self-growth to occur because you'll realize like reading them side by side i did this unintentionally just like kind of i mean journaling as a therapy tool and then going back and reading through old stuff um it's insane what i've grown through and what i have like uh accomplished and what i have essentially just like survived through and i'm so proud of myself it's so fun to look back and see how much i have um accomplished so i love you please stay safe please have a happy hot girl summer um but do not wait around for a man that doesn't even know what the fuck he wants okay love you also if i sound quiet or like choked up while recording this i'm just like i'm like

heat exhausted like i don't know what is going on like it like i'm like a spoiled dog when they have to go outside for the first time in the summer like where's my air conditioning where's my soft sofa i don't want to go out there to piss like what is going on but it's like seeping through my walls like i'm so hot my brain is just like i don't know i'll get used to it i'm such a complainer but like it was such a drastic change it was not like a oh i'm gonna dip a toe into that hot bathtub and slowly work my foot no i cannonballed into that bitch it is so hot out right now but i'm hoping after i finish this i can go tan i love tanning if any okay listen if you're like you're gonna get skin cancer you're gonna get wrinkles yeah probably but

i wear my sunscreen and like should i avoid the sun and hate my life no i'll take a few wrinkles okay if it means that i can get outside and lay in the sun and feel better about myself i consider myself to have the same amount of brain cells as a plant and i need the same amount of sun attention that they do in order to survive so i'm hoping i can go over to my mom's later and just like tan outside because in kansas city there's nowhere to tan there's no public pools we have no public pools we have parks but like i don't want to be out in like my string bikini in a park i feel odd not sure i would be the only one i think that's why i would feel odd um my backyard's kind of a hot mess can't do that my front yard i just there's too many homeless

people around but my parents they have a backyard so i might just blast over there 15 minutes away and go tan later just to really just make myself feel better also if you're an acne girly like like me the sun really helps with my acne i have no idea why but that sun exposure i think it maybe like dries out my skin a little bit um but in the summer i have like really really good clear skin because i'm always in the sun i don't burn obviously i take precautions to you know sunscreen it up wear a hat wear sunglasses whatever but i am not gonna deny myself the pleasure of laying in the sun in hopes that I don't have wrinkles 30 years from now I'm gonna go lay in the sun hey girl I love you in the podcast but I have a big question so I'm gonna

go ahead and skip to that so basically I've been friends with this girl for like two years but this past year she's been having repetitive issues with me that I do try to fix um I try and be as patient as possible with her I swear I've never been so patient with somebody in my life because she does matter to me it's just that she thinks that I don't care about her she claims that I don't listen to her problems or I'm not there for her but I swear to god I try my best for this girl but nothing I do ever seems good enough for her um I've done some inner work on this I've asked other friends about this but this problem never seems to resolve and she always has an issue with me so I'm just wondering do you have any advice about that okay thank you so much I love you

okay two hard truths I think some people want a relationship and then find themselves in a friendship and then become as demanding as they are in a relationship and then also sometimes people just aren't compatible so two things to think about there love you I understand the frustration especially when you are like I am putting in I've been I've been there in relationships before where it's like I have I'm putting in so much work into myself like and and it's like every step I'm doing I'm I'm doing it wrong even subconsciously apparently I'm doing it wrong and there's like no winning and sometimes I hate to break it to you sometimes those people are just miserable people and they hate on themselves so much inwardly that they in turn hate on everything

else around them in the same exact way okay it's a little bit of projecting there you said it yourself you're doing the inner work it's not like you're not doing any work you are trying to be a good friend for this person you are trying to show up in the best ways possible it just feels like you're falling short every single time maybe she has some demands that can't be found in you and no offense that is perfectly fine because it seems like you are doing everything that you can it seems like you're incredible and a great friend to her so maybe she just needs to find a different friend okay you've worked so hard you deserve the same forgiveness that you are giving her and it's in a sort of sense um so i don't know maybe you guys just need space she does need to

be less demanding um i'm like not demanding with my friends at all of course i want to hear from them but like if they need their space they can have their space if they want to rant they can rant whatever they want they can you know i hold space for them to be a person and an individual within the relationship and it sounds like they're not holding space for you um and allowing you to make mistakes and progress and grow through it so i don't know maybe you guys need a little break from each other maybe you guys need just to like you know maybe set some boundaries maybe you need to make it clear with her that you know she's being a little crazy and demanding especially from a friendship when you have your own problems going on um maybe she's looking for a relationship

in which in which she can find that kind of emotional closure within a person but i think um friendships do need to kind of have that openness within them um and allow the other person to grow to make mistakes and to be a better friend within the future and if she's not holding that space for you then you will never ever um amount to what she's holding you to because the stakes will just keep getting higher and higher so um if she's willing and open to hearing this communication I say try it you know I think a lot can be solved with very simple communication and I think a lot of people are really afraid to speak up for themselves and say what they're feeling um but no one's a mind reader so if she is open to communication i say tell her this be

like hey i'm a human um i would love it if you gave me an opportunity to grow and change but also you're kind of holding me to unrealistic expectations um and if if i can't be a good friend to you then maybe uh you need to find a different friend both of you guys you know but have that conversation with her if she's willing or if you think you need space take the space you need but okay let's load a quick bowl um you guys are so fucking funny i if you guys don't know if you're new here welcome exciting to have you i've actually been getting a lot of those dms recently so welcome to the family but if you don't know on my instagram every week i submit like a questionnaire where you guys can upload your questions for the week um type them out if you

don't want to audio submit them and i usually include the include oh my fucking god the audio link as well but um i was scrolling through them and you guys are so fucking funny the first one literally the first one how the fuck do i suck dick felts babes it's okay i you know asking the real questions you're really asking what everybody wants to know i would like to um push you towards the episode rituals high school and blow jobs i feel like i really covered everything there um i feel like people always think that blow jobs are like you have to be doing a lot of things at once but i think the simpler you keep it the better um eye contact always good i always prefer it if they're standing up don't know why that's just me

personally you guys let me know i just when they're laying down it's like it fucking hurts my neck i'm like i would rather just be on my knees it's way better that way um also literally you don't have to do a lot the fastest i've ever made a man come was like 15 seconds and the only thing i was doing was licking the tip that's it so it's like you i feel like everybody's like i gotta fucking take this nine inch dick down my whole fucking throat and eat the balls at the same time it's like no babe I mean yeah that can be super fun but you don't have to do that that also isn't always the best experience if you want to take it slow go for it if you want to take it quick go for it it's totally up to you and the best part about about blowjobs is you have the

power so make it fun for you you know but let's hit this bowl cheers to that oh yeah oh my fucking god what's all caps what's your fave foods girl your ass is huge now put me on so i eat um a lot of salmon and rice only because my fucking work has this like kids salmon and rice dish and it's so good salmon and rice i eat a lot of kimchi just because it's a good probiotic um i feel like it helps my skin i'm not even gonna lie um that's a shit ton of avocado like a ton of avocado and chipotle um what else and breakfast burritos those are like top three fave salmon and rice with kimchi breakfast burritos and chipotle with like a large side of guac like a lot of guac and like a small chip yes love 10 out of 10

hello my beautiful smoke sesh angel um my name is jada uh i'm from jersey just a little bit about me um i found you on tiktok and uh found my way to the podcast because i'm obsessed with you and your outlook on life and your perspective but my question for this week's podcast it might seem a little stupid up front like obviously the answer is no because like why would you do that but my question is do you think that it's important to try and like pursue platonic relationships with like men like do you think they're important to have in life because i don't want to cut myself off from any potential like you know friendships that i could have but like i just don't think that men have like the depth to engage in like a friendship that like I would want to

be a part of does that make sense let me know what you think okay love you love you and hello okay so male friendships um thoughts um okay so growing up I didn't have a whole lot of male friendships um specifically because I mean actually I did I they weren't like close friendships but was I interacting with men yes now was I close with them not really did I gain a whole lot of insight into myself from them not a whole bunch but I don't really think as long I mean as long as you're picking good male friends which I'm assuming you are I don't think they have really any inherent negatives okay or any inherent positives I can't even lie I can't um all the male friendships like

straight male friendships that I've had it's just been like yeah we can laugh together and have a good time you know but it's not like the female friendships I've had where it's like you know we're hanging out we're doing that in-depth conversation we're really touching on things that we maybe wouldn't touch on with anybody else um and i just think that's from a lack of vulnerability from men um a lack of i don't want to say emotional intelligence but a lack of communication at least and a lack of interest of wanting to communicate in that sort of sense and i really value that in a relationship and a friendship so yeah i don't know i say yeah if you want to have male friends go for it as long as they're not making you uncomfortable they're not

being weird they're not like fucking horrible human beings they have good morals you have the same morals then yeah i think you can be friends and i think there are a lot of men out there um i i feel like okay so i feel like growing up um when i was younger i didn't really think about men didn't really care about them like i had them in my life yeah i had friends with them but was i interested no that was like throughout high school and then when i reached college it transitioned into a um like i need a man to feel adequate about myself i had never been in a relationship i was like i need to be in a relationship i want to have a relationship i want to go through that and i felt like my self-worth was really um dependent on a man

um that continued through about uh through about two relationships and then i entered the phase with men where you're like i hate all men yeah i hate them they're horrible they're awful i've had enough of them i don't want to speak to a man every time a man looks at me i i just hate it um been there that's a great phase as well um and i think you usually ride through your man hater phase for a while i think that's just because throughout my validation seeking phase through men i started realizing that they were well all the ones i was interacting with were horrible and awful and i was not interested with that with interacting with anymore and i had no hope for men um and then I think you enter a phase when you get older that it's like

male neutrality you you're not really seeking them out you but also like you don't really care anymore you know and I think that's kind of the best way to get to it um you don't really seek them out or their input on you or your life or anything like that but also like it's possible to hold male friendships within this phase it's possible to understand that like yeah you can find you know somebody who is emotionally intelligent enough to have those conversations as a friend um and is also not a fucking asshole and also there are men who are assholes and horrible and awful but it's like you can make those decisions within your life to just like fucking avoid them and not entertain them at all costs so i feel like i've reached that third phase right now i

neither like nor dislike men but i can't hold those friendships within my life um i think i possibly could like some of the people that i work with great they're great friends they're always there for me um and they're not like horrible awful people you know i can have good conversations with them they're emotionally inept enough to talk about it um but i've rode through those three phases very fucking quickly and now i say just i don't give a fuck as long as you're making good decisions for yourself and the people you are surrounding yourself aren't horrible awful people I say you're chilling babe um but I was in that phase where I was like I hate all men I don't trust any men and I don't want them around me at all and for that time I think that was probably

good for me um but I did some growth did some changing did some realizing and I realized I don't care and if I am gonna even possibly let a man be around me or interact with me i'm gonna try and do my best to have it not be a horrible awful male and i'm gonna avoid those situations so i hope that helps oh okay someone asked me um what's your opinion on manifesting slash affirmation slash subliminals have you ever used them um i've talked i talked a lot about manifestation in the beginning of my podcast um but i consistently and always do a lot of manifestation a lot throughout my life um and i feel like when my self-worth kind of shifted upwards um my self-talk shifted up upwards and i think i do a lot of my manifestations simply

through my self-talk and through the conversations i have with myself um and also through my journaling um affirmations were super super helpful with my self-growth journey and um realizing my true worth and realizing who I am and who am I who I'm supposed to be so I think they can be really really helpful especially when you do need those um just reminders in your life um subliminals I have never worked with those YouTube videos those frequencies those waves never worked with um now I'm not discrediting them I don't really know a whole lot about them so I don't want to speak on them but yeah I've never worked with those but I do work consistently and always with a lot of manifest manifestation you are quite honestly the magician of your own

life you hold the keys to everything you want within your own life and i truly do believe that um you just have to take control of it and take advantage of it and like i said a lot of my manifestation is simply through my self-talk i got this apartment through manifestation it was it's brand new on the market there was nothing else that was even looking remotely close to it um and i'm very very picky about where i want to live and how i want to live and like apartment complexes i don't like big apartment complexes um i like smaller realtors i like big open windows i like hardwood floors like all white wall like i'm very very picky so when i set intentions for this i asked the universe i want this kind of apartment i want it to look like this i can't

wait to live in an apartment like this um i i can't wait until i'm moving in like visually like manifesting it in my head going over it visually seeing how i look and lived within that situation knowing how it's gonna feel knowing how it's gonna smell the breakfast i'm gonna cook how i'm gonna decorate it what it's gonna be like to wake up in the morning visualizing all of this and also when i talked about it and i feel like i have a hard time talking to my parents simply about like things going on in my life i talked about this on tiktok but it's because i've done a really good job at training my brain to speak about things in a very directly positive way just because I've realized that if I do speak about things in that way in turn situations are

better and in turn those things actually usually do happen but when I bring it up to my parents they have a quick way of spinning it in a negative so I had to retrain my brain to not spin things into negatives and to always spin things into positives and I still have a hard time doing that to this day but speaking on my apartment as in like when I move in even though I didn't even have a lease signed or when I found my apartment when I move in um when this is gonna happen um when I go through this like speaking of it in terms of the now even though that situation hadn't even presented itself to me um simple things such as that and i feel like that can work for anything like anything i believe i got my nannying job by doing this i got my house currently by doing this

um i basically got this podcast by doing this um just consistently trusting and believing in yourself and in turn the universe does so too um and i feel like that's simply how a lot of my manifestation work has done or has gone but you are the magician of your own life so if you're gonna be a magician at least be a manifesting magician you know hi hannah first of all love the podcast um love you your advice has literally like changed my life the past few months um and i really appreciate you and all that you do um But my question for you is, have you ever felt like you wanted to keep certain details of your life private, like off of social media? And how do you deal with having a lot of your private information public, I guess?

um I have a hard time sharing my private life on social media so I was wondering what you thought about that but yeah love you oh my god I love this question this is very interesting um and something that I think I recently have thought a lot about so let me explain to you my mindset now you said you're a very private person you don't like having a lot of your public information on social media and now i'm the opposite i have a lot of my public information on social media i put myself out there a lot i don't think one of us is better than the other i think you can exist either way on social media um i think if you want to put your information out there you want to talk about yourself you want to talk about things that you're interested in whatever it is if you want

to be very open on social media go for it and embrace it fully and really understand who you are before you do that and also if you don't want to put all your information out on social media you maybe just want to you're even if you don't want to consume it totally up to you um you know you like a more private lifestyle you don't like a lot of people knowing about you i think that is completely and utterly valid as well okay i live a very strange lifestyle i'm very open on the internet and i think a lot of people look at that and they're like i want to do the same but i'm not saying this is the best decision for everyone okay if you want privacy you are absolutely valid in wanting that um my boyfriend is kind of like that he likes having a little bit

privacy he likes you know having his own life um he doesn't like being in my videos or my tiktok that that much um which i'm not gonna push him to do that because he is absolutely valid in wanting that if he does not want to be in social media that is his decision and his right but in the same way me wanting to be on social media and me wanting to you know be honest and open with myself that was kind of hard for him to accept because he is a more private person and I was like well I offer you your privacy that is your right as a human being you need to offer me my ability to be open and honest in the ways that I want to especially on social media because that is a big part of my life and it's something that I truly and genuinely enjoy so either way you want

to do it or if you want to meet me in the middle and you know do a little bit of it and then keep a little bit private it's totally up to you how you want to use social media and I think anybody is valid in the way they use it as long as they're not spreading hate and being a fucking asshole online then like fine do whatever you want but um I think the reason I am so open and you know public with about who I am and the things I've gone through and things that maybe people wouldn't share is simply because i in the pandemic started using social media as a communication tool rather than as a tool of consumption and i found a lot of positives through it i gotta meet a bunch of like great people i gotta find a bunch of new insights um i mean none of you guys would be on

my podcast listening to me now if i didn't go through that and discover that and i realized I truly do have a love for social media because I love using it as a tool to connect with other people um and so that's mainly what I do it or what I use it for but I also think with being so public um and open about myself I do also have things that I don't share okay and I think that's also valid um it's totally up to you what you want to share and what you don't um I think there's things that like a I might need to work through before I'm able to bring it up to a podcast you know all the things that I discuss on this podcast I have worked through I've talked about a lot um I have found closure within relatively so I feel comfortable bringing up and speaking about

it and discussing it but you know there's other things that i'm like maybe i want to work on that a little bit more maybe i want to keep that to myself maybe that's a great memory that i only want to share with that other person and that is totally fine and valid as well um it is absolutely a spectrum of how you want to use it of how you want to consume of how you want to express yourself and i think that's the true beauty in social media um and i think a lot of people hate on social media a lot because they don't truly use it as a connecting tool they use it as like a rating tool um and that's not what it is um social media is so much more fun so much more interactive when you're using it as a way to make connections that you otherwise wouldn't be able to make within

um your your life and especially during the pandemic i was unable to you know meet anybody new to connect with anybody new so i started making videos and discussing ideas and i just was opened up to a brand new world so i think that's why i'm so open and honest i think i'm also probably kind of an anomaly i think it's i think i'm probably on the crazier end i can't lie um i don't think a lot of people are going out there and spreading all their information willingly um especially stuff that you should probably keep within a therapist's office but i don't know i've had a lot of positives with sharing my experiences and discussing with other people about them so i'm gonna keep doing it and i'm gonna keep hoping that i touch people

um in ways that i wish i could have been communicated to when i was um in a hard time so anyways totally up to you babe it's totally up to you if you want to keep it private keep it private if you want to go meet people discuss whatever do so share what you personally want with the world and keep the rest to yourself but love you oh someone has summer bucket list ideas oh okay let me think oh i i had a tiktok viral like last year around this time when it was like um hot girl summer but relationship edition it's just like how many places can you fuck your significant other um so i mean that's always a challenge in the summer but also okay so real real things right here okay i want to go to some flower farms i want to go

visit some more farms i want to go horseback riding i need to find somebody with horses around here um i want to do that i also would like to um go to the lake or go find a river for a day um there's some waterfalls and rivers at least south missouri that i want to go visit um or even the arkansas area um just escape into nature a little bit i want to try and spend most of my afternoons slash mornings outside specifically because i do have a lot of mornings off from work and i usually go in like three or four so i have like all morning to get shit done i want to spend a lot of them in the sun um and enjoying the weather uh what else i want to go berry picking for sure i want to go to an orchard or a berry farm or at least strawberries and blueberries there's a ton

of local farms around you i guarantee and it's also nice to support them in that way um best donuts i ever have like eaten came from a strawberry farm they were fresh strawberry donuts oh my fucking god so good what else what else um i want to go on one more vacation i'm not sure where i do definitely want to get to the beach i'm not sure if i'll accomplish that this summer but i also want to feel settled i want to add that to my bucket list i want to feel settled i want to feel accomplished in a sense i want to make sure my house feels full and happy and warm and opening and inviting so that's a big goal within my um a new apartment that i'm moving into this summer um i want to make new friends i want to try and get out a little bit more um try and not hold

myself up as much as i do in this in the winter you know i want to go experience new things try new places um what else i don't know that's really it i'm sure i'll have more but just more experiences and experiences that you don't necessarily get year round i feel like there's no point in holding yourself up in the summer um there's so much to go do and so much to go see um i also want to go to the farmer's market more and support my local farmers around here get my produce from there once i move into my new apartment my fridge is so big i love a fat fridge i love being able to just buy a shit ton of produce and just fill up my fridge with it it's like beautiful so summer bucket list that's about it hi queen i'm angel i'm from new zealand of all places and i just wanted to say

thank you for getting me through work with your podcast and just like thank you for being you because it is never a boring day with you in it um even though you're in like America and we'll probably never meet but you should come to New Zealand um I feel so close to you because we literally had the same birthday we both have ADHD and we have gone through like the same really awkward experiences from what i've heard um anyway this is so awkward anyway i wanted to ask how do you deal with a friend who's like spiraling because i have a mate who's like really really addicted to bud and no matter how much i try to help them it seems like they're getting bitter and then they just like throw away all my efforts by the end of the week it's frustrating but i

really really love them and i want to see them fully happy anyway love you my gemini queen rip a bong for all of us kiwi stoners hello lovey oh my goodness i need to go on a world tour we need to do like a podcast tour i just want to go visit everybody and see you all in person one day one day we're only we're not even a year in so we got so much growth to do thank you guys for joining me every week um and great question so sorry you're going through this i've definitely been there i can understand the frustration of when you're like fuck like i want to do like i want to help this person so bad i want to do the work i want to put in the effort they just don't want to and when it comes to that especially when it is a good friend

like the best thing you can really do is quite honestly express to them that you are there for them consistently and always set boundaries if you need to if you're like my efforts are running out um but like quite honestly and my friends get so frustrated with me about this particularly because i'm so hard-headed um i just have to learn things on my own some people are good at learning things from seeing it me and my boyfriend were talking about this the other day he was like um I can like see somebody make a bad mistake and I can learn from it and I'm like yeah I can kind of do that but I just have to go through it myself and then come to the conclusion to escape that as well on my own I'm just way too hard-headed I don't know why I don't listen to anybody

my life would be so much simpler if I did but yeah sometimes they have to come to their own conclusions on their own and they have to do that growth on their own and sometimes people don't want to grow so if they just need time and space to figure that out about themselves you just have to allow them that time and space and if you don't want to be around them for that time set boundaries if you need but i think the best thing you can really do for them is just express it hey we're here for you we love you but we want to see you do better we want to see you you know level up to who you're really supposed to be um encouragement is always the best way to show support but also um yeah you kind of just especially with people who are just hard-headed like at least me my

gemini self i'm like i just have to learn it on my own i have to go through it on my own or else i simply will never learn the lesson okay this um is not a question um my name is carly number one Hi, how are you, Hannah? I love your podcast. I'm also 22, same age, and I feel like I relate to you. I'm also a college dropout, figuring out my life, also on a very different life path than my friends. But what I am saying is not a question, but it's a suggestion. I want a sesh. I want a sesh. Can we get like elite smoke sesh shotties to get together for a sesh please my instagram is carly.ball i follow you please follow me back love you carly babes hello i do have some good news for my you know of age sesh girlies i'm hoping we

have some you know sesh is coming up soon i'm very excited um well i'm like how do i tease this information you're gonna get some opportunities where we can all sesh together at least online um you know we're still in a little bit of pandemic i'm not sure about meeting up with people quite yet but we are gonna have that opportunity coming up soon you'll you'll hear more information about it soon whether you want a private sesh or you guys want to do it in a group um but also for the future i can't wait until we can like you know meet up do a little meet and greet do a little live q a do a little live sesh like i i think there's big things coming for the pod like i'm very excited and i can't wait to meet all of you guys so stay tuned i promise

new information coming out fucking daily basically but very excited okay someone asked should i go on second date if the uh first impression wasn't that good um i say oh my god i mean sometimes you can it's totally situational sometimes you meet with somebody and you're like there's not that spark you know didn't have a great time not really sure what the next is gonna bring and if that's the case i say don't waste your time but if you're like you know what something might have went wrong you know they might have been a little uncomfortable at first you do want to give him a second chance you want to see where it goes you have a little bit of hope i say go for it but it's totally situational if you're like oh not interested in this man just no spark i say

don't sweat it but also like don't waste your time if you don't feel it and you you don't owe any obligation to go on a second date with somebody you know you don't have to continue it if you're like i don't see this really going anywhere and i don't see this being a good thing for me so oh okay someone asked me um can you read us an entry from your oh can you your little thing you wrote in your journal and yes i don't have my physical journal with me right now it's my boyfriend's house but um i do have a lot of my old like journaling i didn't really realize i was journaling but i totally was um in my notes app in my phone so we're trying to treat this as like a tarot poll of the day um hopefully it speaks to you in some sort of way hopefully whoever this

message needs to reach it reaches and we'll go from there okay um let's find one i'm just gonna go like all the way back okay so this is january 8th 2018 at 10 19 a.m so i was like 17 i think this was like after one of um my like first breakups okay i thought he was the one then i realized he was but there's a catch um i feel like the first this is the second paragraph i feel like the first paragraphs in my journals are just me like fucking spewing anything i want out and then by the second paragraph i'm like okay let me get my thoughts in order um out of billions people on this planet there will be quite a few people maybe a hundred or so that are the one um there isn't one person out of seven billion that you are meant to end up with there are tons of them

out there if i found them and lined them all up they would be very different though there wouldn't be a particular type or look they wouldn't have the same personalities or the same educational or nationality or monetary levels they wouldn't necessarily be the same height or religion but something about them that mix of personality would make each individually perfect for me i'll find another and that's okay there's a reason this didn't work and the universe is saving someone else for you down the road i can't wait to meet that person it's cliche but everything happens for a reason move forward do things for you get your life in order as best as you can in a way that makes you independent the rest will follow so little 17 year old hannah advice for you if

anybody's going through it but it's just a little something I feel like my journal entries are either super cohesive or just super nonsense anxiety dumps um but I also do a lot of like podcast planning and discussing big topics with myself through journaling as well and I think that's made me realize a lot about myself that I wouldn't have been able to do otherwise so love journaling anyways I gotta get this podcast out to you guys it's like two o'clock I started this shit late in the day i am so sorry but don't fucking worry babes i'm gonna be back on thursday i know literally two days away i can't fucking wait i'm so excited we have so many more um voice submissions to go through more um questions to go through i have longer questions i want to touch on

and uh we'll do some more confessionals on thursday we're gonna go to church on thursday do some more confessionals tis the season okay we gotta get those out of our system so we can move on with our self-care hot girl summer um but themes for the fucking day i'm loading a bowl also themes for the day um mercury retrograde we're in it babes we're deep we're really deep in it this is the time where change is gonna happen it's gonna happen i know you hate change i know change is the worst fucking thing to ever happen to you if you're me that's how i view it um but listen you have to accept it you gotta roll with it it's gonna be from may 10th to june 3rd okay so we're gonna go through it through the beginning of uh gemini season um but listen

the universe is working with you it's not working against you this change is going to feel very sudden it's going to feel a little scary at first but i promise it's in your best interest and the best thing you can do is just take a deep breath and roll with it and remind yourself to just go with the flow gemini season is all about going with the flow just having fun and trying to trying to make the best out of every situation so little cosmic update for you also manifestation manifestation is possible for everybody anybody can do it but i think it really does start with how you are treating the world around you and how you're treating yourself as well what world do you want to accept for yourself what world do you want to create for yourself

it's all possible you just have to redirect and retrain those um trains of thought sometimes and really speak to yourself in a direct positive uplifting manner literally the same way like a parent would speak to you or like a positive like a positive parent or a positive guardian would speak to you think of that person that has always rode for you always uplifted you always helped you through every situation speak to them and treat yourself how um they would treat you because you deserve to be your best cheerleader as well and everything that you've ever wanted will follow once you simply believe that it's gonna happen i was like i want to go to the beach all of a sudden i'm on the fucking beach i'm touring a a weed farm holy shit paz packs you guys already know

is the best um having the best time of my life i'm making something of myself who fucking would have thought other than me obviously um but it's all possible and it's all within reach um and i do think it starts with how you talk to yourself and really you got to accept those things for yourself you know you got to believe that you deserve them um and what else what else did we talk about let me hit this bowl we talked about so many fucking things thank you to everybody who submitted questions i really really do appreciate you um i'm gonna take this little bowl i gotta smoke some cbd because i gotta do some shit you guys already know paz packs code smoke sesh for 10 off if you ever want to support the pod quite honestly that's the best way me and

paz packs have been working together forever um and i love them so cheers to that also men men in your life really evaluate where you stand with them and who they are and are they bringing any sort of positive impact to your life if not there's no reason for you to be spending any sort of time with them um and there are there are good men out there i do genuinely believe you can find them um but finding them is all about accept or not accepting the you know what the low class men into your life you know what i mean not about accepting the bare minimum um and men really love to throw out the bare minimum anywhere they can um and they will scream and fight if you do

not take it but yeah you just you really gotta especially with like the roe versus wade thing going on right now roe v wade um possibly being overturned in the near future um i think it's really important to take into consideration the male friendships that you do have are they writing for you are they you know speaking out with you are they upset with you if not cut them off okay there is no reason for you to be spending any time with them especially there's no reason for you to be fucking them okay at all all right if that man doesn't care about what happens to your body there is no reason he should have any access to your body okay so really take into consideration the friendships and the relationships you have with men right now um and yeah i hope you all

have a wonderful rest of your day i hope you have an incredible tuesday if you have any last minute questions you want to submit you already know the um link for collins is in my bio at hannah marlene and you can always dm me um any questions that you have at any given point to my instagram at hannah marlene and i'll answer them here or if you do want to keep it private i can answer them there as well let me know i love you all so much kiss you on your forehead i'm gonna go lay in the sun you should too get outside it's summer go have fun go treat yourself to something today and i will see you all on thursday love you