Smoke Sesh - new era, eclipse season & edible thoughts

Episode Date: August 26, 2025

hello hotties and happy Tuesday! welcome back to another crazy episode we chat what I've been up to, horseback riding, fall weather, club appearances, dancing the pain away, eclipse season, manifestation, following your intuition and heart, period tips, period panties, period smell, heating pads, body is a temple. natural beauty secrets, beauty tips, frat party safety 101, party safety, boob job, plastic surgery, second puberty, body changes, broken nose, dating apps vs dating in person, entering a new era, new era prep, dreaming, making space for blessings, perseverance, hooking up as a girl, unhinged edible thoughts, college side hustles, making quick money, current go to bedroom positions, the big O, penetration, the girls get real and much much more! if you want to see more from me join the patreon at patreon.com/smokeseshshawty and follow me on instagram to keep up with what im up to at hannahmarlene, stay sane stay sexy and ill see you all so soon! MUAH!

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and help create a world free from the fear of cancer. Register today at pmcfwalk.ca. listen everybody needs a fairy godmother you know just somebody to look out for them some people call me their fairy smoke mother others their internet big sister but you can call me hannah the host of smoke sash so come hang out let's light up and talk everything there is to life the good the bad the ugly the embarrassing i've got a story for it all hello hello hello hotties and welcome back to another fun little sexy episode of smoke sesh my name is hannah your host and i'm so excited to be back with you all on this chilly little

tuesday girl why the fuck did i wake up this morning and it's 65 degrees outside the fall is not here yet i am hanging on to as much summer energy as i can there is something called the solstice okay there is an equinox coming up that's when i'll start celebrating fall that's when i'll start breaking out the pumpkins don't worry i have a million fucking fall recipes lined up for you but i am not gonna start baking pumpkin bread pumpkin mac and cheese pumpkin cookies pumpkin muff muffins mid-august end of august that's not happening no no no no no no no but i haven't seen a lot of videos recently of people saying this is supposed to be a cold winter so mentally i am starting to shop and prepare i am starting to shop and prepare i really am just take battening

down the hatches so this winter does not beat me over the head like it usually does but enough of that being said enough of that being said i hope you all are doing fantastic and well this week i honestly had a pretty good little week um i was supposed to take horseback riding lessons starting last week but it was like 98 degrees last Tuesday yeah big change between this Tuesday and last Tuesday and they texted me they're like hey just so you know like we don't do any lessons like we shut the whole barn down essentially if the weather is over like 95 degrees because it's just unsafe for riders it's unsafe for horses it's unsafe for people to be working in that kind of heat nor do the horses really want to be working in that kind of heat but if I was a horse and it's

98 goddamn degrees outside and you're putting this fucking giant person on my back and expecting me to do like an hour of like walking hell no i am laying down and dying and killing the person on top of me so i appreciate that they were like yeah we don't do this because a that shows me they care and b i just it puts a little bit more trust um into them because i know that they yeah they care about their horses they care about what they're doing they're not just gonna be like okay for the sake of 60 let's put people in compromising positions hell no hell no so actually i will be starting them today as you're listening which is very exciting i'm excited to start this new journey in my life i'm entering a new era it's a season change you know we're

we're rounding up to a new season to fall every time we enter a new season i feel the sense of I need to shed my skin and like be reborn physically, mentally, spiritually into a new person. So I am feeling that call to action. We'll get into what that is for me. But this week I didn't really do anything crazy. Just kind of hung out, did my own thing, playing catch up for my vacation. So a lot of cleaning.

It was a new moon. So my brain was like not letting me sleep at all. So I was just up late, literally like dust mopping my fucking walls. yes i am insane yes when you turn 25 you will start mopping every single part of your house do not worry everything clicks into place if you're young if you're in your young 20s everything clicks into place eventually do not worry just give yourself time and patience that's all you really need in your early 20s but oh this weekend i decided to go out so me and my co-worker and then also my friends they decided to join me which was really really fun um there's this club

down in like the west bottoms of kansas city which is like the industrial district it's where i used to go party when i was like really young back in my rave days i used to go party down in the west bottoms all the time because there was this underground like warehouse that held like after party raves until like 8 a.m it was the best and it was the best in my opinion at 18 years old because it was bring your own booze yes no regulations babe i'm talking warehouse you had to find like a specific door where you could maybe see neon lights shooting out the fucking edges and then knock and hope for the best i think it was like five dollar cover bring your own whatever the fuck you want to drink whatever substance you want to drink there were like couches out there

were vendors it was crazy i don't know why i was spending so much goddamn time in this warehouse hello so spooky scary but when i was in my rave phase i used to spend a lot of time there and then over covid it got shut down i remember one time i was there like the police are here you gotta go and the police were like what the hell is going on like we're not arresting any of you guys because there's too many to even do that Kansas City police do not fucking care a cab period but I think back like now that I said you know my brain is kind of finally developing and I feel a little bit more stable I think back to the compromising positions I used to put myself in for the sake of partying when I was younger and I'm like I didn't need to be there I didn't

need to be doing that but you know at least I had a good time and everything ended up working out in the long run I guess but I used to party down there all the time and over COVID it got shut down and then I don't know of course like during COVID the party scene was gone I was kind of forced to get sober over COVID which was really nice minus mushrooms I did a lot of mushrooms during COVID wow is this honesty hour did I take a truth serum this morning I feel like every episode was a truth serum episode but i am kind of dressed as if i'm in like oh it's girls night i got my glasses on because my contacts are all fucked up i'm going to the eye doctor on thursday i got my little matching two-piece lacy set like i feel like we're at a little girl's sleepover so

of course we are giving 3 a.m confessionals kind of energy 3 a.m truth serum energy anyways post covid that area has really really developed so it's so funny walking past like the old warehouse that i used to go party in when i was younger to a new warehouse where you know it's just way better vibes but it's called in the lowest ferns honestly i love it there the people who work there are so so so sweet they always have fantastic music new djs coming through they do like an outside area every once in a while where they put up this big airplane hangar and you can like party outside it gets busy busy on those nights so i don't go i like to go on the on the chill nights let's be honest but yeah my friend had taken like a really big test and she's like I just need to like blow

some steam off I just need to go like dance out and my other co-worker she's like a freak I love her down and she loves to dance it out so I was like all right let's fucking go it's so funny I ended up meeting I didn't realize I knew the DJ I didn't look too much into what was going on that night but I ended up knowing the DJ and his friend from my Omaha days when I was in art school or not art school up there but when i was in the art scene up in omaha it's like oh my god small world of course i gotta be at the front dancing it out holding the vibes down down and one thing about me i'm gonna make the girls comfortable at the club you know like i feel like a house mother whenever i'm at the club i'm like i've earned my i've earned my awards i've earned my stake here you

know i've earned my place let me help you find your place and there's these all these girlies probably like mid-20s who were celebrating a birthday and i could tell they were like should we like go behind like oh my god should we go behind the dj booth like there's a spot open there's a spot open like should we just go back there and they were kind of like looking around for permission and i was like girls go back there i was like literally you're fine don't even worry like just go back there the only requirement is if you're going behind the fucking dj stand the dj booth you have to hold a vibe i'm talking you are now a go-go dancer and you need to be holding the vibe down behind those men do not stand there arms crossed sunglasses on mean mogging the girls who

are actually at the front dancing hell no what rancid vibes are you creating for the environment right now you need to hold it down throw some ass act like you're the sexiest hottest person in the entire world because you are because you are so hold that energy but go back there i was like no literally you're fine go back there as if it's my club i'm like no no i saw the opening i saw the weariness and like they just needed somebody to be like you're fine so i i i gave them the okay and best believe they held it down they were throwing ass for the fucking vhs camera that they were recording on it's like yes queens yes girls but it was a blast i had a good time i do like to go out dancing every once in a while i just need to get out of the house and especially

like blow off some steam after just like a long work week or just i have a really bad habit of locking myself inside for too long and i do need to like make it a goal of mine where like i need to go out at least once a week at the very least or at least once every other week maybe let's start there um and i feel like i have gotten my drinking under control i definitely have my alcoholic genes in my system you know thank you to my ancestors for those but when i used to go out drinking before it would be like i have one drink and then i want a shot then i want another shot and then i want to take shots with these people then i want to have this drink and then i want this drink and i would wake up the next morning feeling so horrible and awful and just like oh well what did

i do like i don't remember i'm practically blacking out like oh my god who spiked my drink after my 18 fucking vodka shots yeah no you spiked your own drink babe i just am not there anymore because i know how it makes me feel like i've done it enough times that in my brain i'm like i can't do this anymore so i started limiting myself to three drinks three drinks and i either usually i do it as like i'm gonna have two at home because hello saving money i have my three liter box of wine that I get for twenty dollars let me have two glasses of wine while I'm getting ready before I go out and then you know get ready go out and then maybe have one more drink while I'm there ideally ideally I have three drinks at home I get there and then I party and only drink water until

I'm like kind of sober and then I dip out so then I'm not just out super super late I feel like that is the perfect recipe if you're trying to go out and like not ruin your entire life and not wake up the next day feeling like you got hit by a fucking bus three drinks three drink rule always holds me down but yeah it was a good little week it was nice and warm it's starting to cool down a little bit i am like so tempted to break out all of my fall stuff i'm not there yet not the hold on girls hold on strong we can just we can love a little bit more summer i'm a little kansas girl i'm a little missouri girl actually i don't claim missouri i do live here kansas city but i was raised in Kansas yes Kansas girl down so I don't consider end of summer until the sunflower fields

bloom how adorable are you kidding me but out in the country like where I used to kind of I grew up on the edge of the country and then like the suburbs um but every end of summer there is like one farm that grows like miles and miles of sunflowers for people to like come take photos and so I don't count it the end of summer until I see those sunflowers in bloom and I get to go out there and take some photos so I think that's happening this week um and I will be out there taking photos yes Kansas girl things um enough of me rambling I know you're like bitch shut up girl get to my questions and I hear you and I love you and I understand you but that's what I was up to this week thanks for catching up with me I don't know if you guys like my little story time

rambling sessions but listen i could go for hours you know me i'm sure you guys are going through a lot though especially considering this most recent new moon which kicked off our eclipse season yes eclipse season is in full swing um i don't think we need to be too worried about eclipse season the same way like mercury retrograde works i think with the stars and with you know changes in astrology you see a lot of videos online of people just fear mongering fear mongering fear mongering and like yeah if you're a horrible awful person who's reaping horrible awful benefits maybe you should be a little fucking afraid but no i think for the average individual for the average human being um these are just changes that bring forth a lot of transformation a lot

of understanding and through transformation understanding brings security security and self security and future security and just understanding of self which i think is really really beautiful so if you always look on the bright side of things guess what you've nothing like to worry about I guess while we're on the top of eclipse season we can go ahead and go over what to expect so we had a new moon in Virgo which was essentially bringing um clarity and balance to maybe things that felt unbalanced it's bringing a sense of like um I compare it you know mid-20s your brain like clicks into place I think the new moon in Virgo definitely had that same clicking into place feeling that your brain fully finishing developing does so whatever realizations that

occurred on this new moon however uncomfortable or even however loud that they may have been these are going to be kind of the themes that we carry along through this eclipse season eclipse season essentially opens what is very much so called a portal which allows us to accelerate change you know create profound personal and collective transformations and once in a lifetime evolutionary opportunities essentially we are being asked to set clear practical intentions commit to taking action on them and revolutionize their identity from the inside out new moons carry the energy of new beginnings which i think is a fantastic good omen for eclipse season where it is essentially we're like cleansing the slate we're cleansing our palates and we are setting

forth on what we truly desire we had that new moon in Virgo at zero degrees and it's a sign of connecting to the feeling that we are standing on the edge of a new chapter like we are standing on new beginnings like like I said I am very much so in the new seasonal change new transformation mindset like I am ready to go and go after everything that I've ever wanted so I really don't think that this is something to be fearful of or scared of I do think this will be kind of like the kick the jump start that we need to really take hold of our lives to look around us to take accountability to enact change and transformation in the areas that we so desperately desire to do so but maybe don't have the energy or inspiration to do so so I think it's fantastic

fantastic news I think it is a perfect time to be going through an eclipse season especially towards the end of summer as we're entering the fall season where we ask ourselves you know what do we need for this hibernation time what do we need for getting through winter what do we want to carry with us into this next year and what do we want to leave behind these are all themes that are probably on your mind and these are themes on your mind for a reason listen to them listen to your heart listen to your intuition okay get real with yourself because if you're not real with yourself the universe will be period anyways with that being said hopefully that's a dose of inspiration you need going into the rest of this episode let's get into everything on your minds

someone said any good period products you recommend period panties worth it i've never tried the period panties i swear by and i swear by this period you don't need to pay i don't know how much the period panties are but knowing that it's for women's periods it's probably going to be 10 times the price that it should be unfortunately unfortunately hello why is an individual tampon like $1.25 what the actual fuck anyways anyways the only thing you need for like free bleeding which i'm a huge proponent of men out there shut the fuck up i'm a woman going through my period if i want to do something i'm allowed to do it but free bleeding love it it does that mean i'm like pussy out on the fucking subway pressed against the fucking subway seat no it doesn't

that's what men assume it is but like it just means when i'm at home like hello i'm gonna give her some time to breathe and relax and all you need is like Hanes men's boxers not boxer briefs I don't know the difference is boxer briefs when it's like more airy like more so like a short no I'm talking like the tight ones you know the tight ones the form-fitting ones those are what you need that's all you need first of all fantastic 100 cotton usually so she actually can breathe and they're so easy just to throw on you feel like I mean kind of like you're in a diaper but not horrible if you want to throw a pad on in inside of it they fit perfectly but that's what I free bleeding and I don't use period panties girl just some classic cotton Hanes boxers they are

everything to me honestly just that and I love a sticky heating pad I mean heating pad no matter what especially when I was going through my ovarian cyst situation which it did end up going down thank god but i love a sticky heating pad especially if you're like on your feet or have to work a lot you can't just like sit with a heating pad um i love a sticky heating pad you can get them on amazon i always get the ones that also have like lavender infused in them fantastic fantastic because can we talk about the smell of period blood can we girls sleep over can we talk about the smell of period blood why does it smell so much like dirty old change like why does it why is it giving pennies why is it giving rusty pennies hello hello like no matter how clean

you are down there no matter what you do like the blood in itself i i don't know what it's infused with it is not normal blood that's for sure maybe it has magical powers i mean it does we are kind of like portals but the smell is crazy crazy you ever been in like a I remember in high school I'd be like you're going into the bathroom the girl's bathroom and I'm like oh my god everybody's on their period right now like you can absolutely smell it through the halls and this is no shame this is just the reality of life like truly don't even worry about it it really is just the raw reality like best believe when I'm in those Hanes boxers in bed I do not give a singular fuck Two in five Canadians will hear the words, you have cancer.

That's why every step and dollar raised matters. On September 19th, join thousands in Toronto for the Princess Margaret Cancer Foundation Walk. Challenge yourself, friends, and family to walk 21 kilometers in support of life-saving research. Together, we can carry the fire and help create a world free from the fear of cancer. Register today at pmcfwalk.ca. But yeah, the sticky heating pads with the lavender essential oils You aren't gonna smell like rusty pennies and then also it just has like calming effects I've used it for like if i'm on my feet working just moving around

But I need a heating pad because it's just like oh my god, my ovaries are gonna explode I also use them while I was getting my iud which I found very very helpful because I felt like with the heat It immediately just like loosened up my muscles a bit naturally, but that's all I swear by sticky heating pad with lavender if you're feeling spunky and then also literally haynes boxers how important do you think physical attraction is in the relationships i think chemistry and attraction are number one i don't think you can be in a relationship with somebody you are not attracted to and i don't mean attraction on like a physical level i think um like love languages can be an attraction chemistry can be an attraction the way you communicate with each other the energy that

you kind of have with each other that spark okay it doesn't mean you have to like look at them from across the room and be like that's the sexiest man in the entire world bring him to me I mean it can be that way but I do think attraction in general maybe not physical attraction but attraction needs to be there I think it is the basis of all healthy relationships and I do think a lot of relationships fall apart when people lose attraction when people are like okay maybe we're not on the same page anymore maybe we've lost that chemistry we've lost that spark you know maybe you've let yourself go you stop taking care of yourself the way you used to it is what it is but i do know in our hearts deep down as human beings we do need that initial spark that

initial chemistry that initial attraction to build the foundation of a relationship what are some good natural beauty enhancers oh okay i'm starting a new series on the podcast called edible thoughts because this is my new routine at the end of the night instead of smoking all day because I just don't get anything done and then like by the end of the night I'm like oh brain dead that's not gonna help um I started just like waiting waiting I'll have like a glass of wine while I cook dinner and then I'll eat dinner and then after dinner I'll pop like an edible or two usually around like seven to ten milligrams is what I'm going for and I turn into you know essentially the Willy Wonka grandpa in bed and I have the craziest thoughts and feelings and I started writing them

down to share with you guys on the podcast of course of course can't leave you guys out but this was one of my edible thoughts I was like oh my god you know the saying your body is a temple el boo lame you know because I feel like all the people who are saying it are saying it in a shameful way like how dare you do that your body is a temple you shouldn't treat it that way you i don't like shame i don't engage in shame i hate shame it is like the number one way to kill your soul and spirit but but technically your body cares for your soul you know it houses your soul so i do kind of need to treat it with the same kindness as a temple you know like the same way like um nuns or priests whatever they really really care for their church they take time

taking care of it monks like this is their place of worship this is where their spiritual soul is housed they take extreme dedication and care to caring for the grounds to making sure that it is well maintained and i don't think our bodies are really any different and i think it also like clicked for me last night when I was thinking about this because I feel like me and my body have always been in competition with one another where it's like oh but what about this oh but comparison to this person oh but if I tweak this thing oh but like it's always been kind of that competition mindset when in reality I think I could heal a lot of that competition mindset if I just start thinking of it like no this is this beautiful vessel for my soul and it is like divine

in the same sort of way so I need to care for it in that divine sort of way and that kind of brings the fun back to it you know what I mean that kind of brings the fun back to like having to pay attention to your body or even just like wanting to care for yourself because it comes from more like a glamour magic self-care sort of way and I love that I really do but natural beauty enhancers honestly i've been on my tea grind lately i think tea is so amazing so beautiful especially some green tea or some peppermint tea or a little chamomile action oh my skin has never looked better or more juicier truly and honestly i think green tea in itself is like such a major detoxer detoxer okay no no like genuinely i think it does a fantastic like i'll eat a whole kaniak combo and

then hit it with the green tea best believe i feel like it it neutralizes the damage i did so i love a tea that's been big on my list recently um also rose water i've been incorporating rose water into my like a beauty routine if i need like a refresh throughout the day i'll hit my face with a little rose water before i do my makeup i'll hit my face a little rose water whatever it may be even like going out for the night but i've had my makeup done all day little rose water spice it up my esthetician put me onto that when i was just like she like finished off the routine with it and i was like what the hell is that and i'm gonna need to purchase it immediately so i love a rose water spray that's a little tip for the girlies it's

also kind of glamour magic because it's just showing yourself a bit of love devotion kindness this is not really a natural beauty enhancer but this is a psa i do need to give the girls do not use fabric softener if you get body acne do not use fabric softener if you get body acne this is not what you need to be doing this is going to give you more acne absolutely i didn't realize because i was like oh my god my back is breaking out like crazy what did i do what did i do my facialist was like well do you use this i was like no well do you use this oh well do you use fabric softener I was like well yeah like I need my sheets to feel like I'm climbing into a cloud hello of course I use fabric softener I want them to smell cute and fresh like yes

she's like yeah it's that oh oh so I stopped using fabric softener and guess what 10 times less acne I'm telling you guys do not use fabric softener if you get bacne and yes I'm a bacne girl I can't help it I can't help the jeans I was born with I don't know what it is but yeah stopped using fabric softener and it has changed my life oh also someone was asking for just like more girly tips you know what I mean because I shared the Vite X African net sponge situation that I did last week and I have been on that grind recently I actually just did it yesterday and I don't know it it gets me smooth but I feel like I could be smoother of course like a wax would probably do the most um but i have been on my vx african net sponge i think if

i don't use the v if i still go back to shaving i will use the african net sponge still because oh my god it makes my skin so fucking smooth i did v my butthole for the last time for the first time yesterday which was interesting because i was very afraid i was gonna get a third degree burn in my butthole i was very very afraid everything i googled said do not do it do not do it but sometimes google and my friends you know recommendations differ so i asked her i was like do you think i can use it down there she's like hell yeah i use it in the creases and the folds i use it everywhere girl like you're fine just don't leave it on for 25 minutes like hello don't leave it on too too long so i did i'll tell you what she's smooth as hell she's smooth

as hell i feel like maybe i'll keep doing it in like the creases like the the armpits and stuff but the legs i find my legs to shave like way faster i've just been doing it for so many years so two minutes i'm done honestly i think those are all the newer beauty tips that i've been using recently but if i come up with more best believe you girls will be the first to know frat party safety people keep getting spiked yeah um okay college drinking safety one oh fucking one do not drink anything the frat is providing you that is the biggest key to safety do not drink anything the frat is providing you oh oh here's my beer that's already open nope oh here's our jungle juice nope oh drink out of this wine bag nope nope nope nope nope nope

unless you're literally opening it in front of me or maybe like a keg because i don't know if you can spike a keg i don't know the spiking technology nowadays do not drink anything a man puts in your hand period period it really is like that and if you are going to like a frat party just bring your own you know like get a handle drink a little bit in the dorms please be careful please be careful do not black out okay the goal is not to black out the goal is to have a good time get a little tipsy bring the drink with you so you have something to hold on to so you're not like desperate when you get there and willing to drink the roofie punch you know what i mean make sure you are going to these parties with people multiple people make sure

you're going to frat parties with your friends who are there who are good friends who will care for you who will take care of you and make sure you get home safe who are aware of your surroundings the least safe girls to party with in college are the ones who are boy crazy because they will leave you dead on the floor to go hook up with a man and i think that's so fucked up do not ever put your friend's safety aside for what flirting with a man who flirts with everybody it's not worth it you need to make sure that like you are there with your girls and like sure you can flirt you can do your little thing you can you know hook up if you want to but make sure you are holding each other accountable where it's like is this a safe situation you know does my friend approve of

it is she like yes he's hot girl go for it you know am i not like blackout drug like make sure you're holding your friends accountable and that you guys are committed to going home at the end of the night together does that make sense do not ever enter a bedroom at a frat party you know even if he's like oh yeah come to the bedroom and smoke with me no no we can go outside and do that you know hello um and also if anything happens it's not your fault period it really isn't and you should press charges i do think so absolutely oh and share locations share locations you're young you're having fun it's okay if like you guys go off on little side quests i get it i am such a side quest girly when i'm drunk i'm like i'm running away from my friends to go do this like

i'm running away to go do this i just i'm on my own adventure i can't help it you know what i mean um make sure they have your location so yeah key tips a don't drink anything from the frat party make sure you buy your own alcohol make sure it is safe and sealed b make sure you're going with friends friends who hold you accountable friends who want the best for you friends who want to take care of you c stay away from closed doors okay and d share location and e abcde yeah um like i said if anything happens do not blame yourself but always key priority number one taking care of yourself amen i think the college in my or the frat in my college that spiked the most people was pike i think pike go to pike you're getting spiked that was the saying that's

so fucked up but like thank you for the warning was i ever at a pike party no i was not because of that thoughts on getting a boob job as a member of the itty bitty titty committee um how old are you and can you give it a couple more years because um i used to consider myself a part of the itty bitty titty committee which like i don't know if you're staring at my boobs right now but they're a solid b i would give them a solid b without a bra they're a solid b well depending on the time of my cycle because what's funny about a cycle is sometimes i'm having like a really good boob day and sometimes i'm like oh my god did my boobs get drained of all of their like magic and energy i don't know what it is but i'm a solid b and for a long time i've always been like do i get

a boob job do i get a boob job do i get a boob job do i get a boob job because my mom like not to blow up her spot but she has fantastic boobs fantastic to the point where i literally asked her i was like did you get a boob job mom why don't i have those what the fuck i ended up just getting like my dad's jeans like the women on my dad's side of the family definitely are on the smaller side of things which hey no hey you know what I mean but my mom was like honestly I didn't really develop at all until my later 20s and also mostly after giving birth and like she only breastfed one kid I was not breastfed does that explain anything um but she was like she's like just wait like wait it out who knows what'll happen and then also like if you're gonna get it

do if you want to have kids do it after you have kids because then they'll probably like sit better and you know there won't be as much like room to mess around like if I got if I got a boob job before kids and if I decided to breastfeed like my boobs look completely different even though I had a boob job like they wouldn't look the same just because I mean pregnancy and having to breastfeed changes so much about your anatomy so that changed things for me I was like okay maybe I have hope maybe I have hope and I will say the older I get the bigger my boobs get the more I to care my body and like also allow myself to gain weight like healthily and you know allow myself to develop as a woman the bigger my boobs get so i'm giving it time i am i really don't want

to do any sort of like invasive medical surgery on my body until like later in life you know if i do decide to do that because i'm young and i don't need to put my body through any of that trauma right now that's for sure also when we're this young like do we really have the finances to be doing that you know like twenty thousand dollars for a boob job i could spend that on oh my god what could i spend that on i guess when they're on an amazing vacation like i could literally take three months out of my year and go on vacation you know for twenty thousand dollars what else could i do like the world is your oyster but then again i'm not gonna sit here and shame you to not doing it if it's something you want to do like i am all about you know women's autonomy and doing

whatever the fuck they want to do with their bodies but I will say as I grow older and like just going through second puberty and you know seeing how my body is changing into more of like a womanly figure from like my stick skinny figure that I had in like high school you know I am realizing that like I just need to give myself time to grow and develop because like even if I got a boob job I'm thinking about like if I got a boob job at like 19 they would look a certain way but then your body's still developing so they would completely change no matter what so give it time give yourself some grace and yeah do whatever you want to do at the end of the day you know what i mean also sorry about the sniffles and um like my nose running my allergies are crazy

and also so i have like a crazy deviated symptom i've broken my nose probably five times let's go through it first time uh we were playing crack the egg on the trampoline and like we were rolling around you know on the trampoline and my face got jumped on not on purpose you're just little kitties so broke my nose there second time cross-country race got elbowed in the face broke my nose there third time oh car accident broke my nose there 75 miles an hour into basically a brick wall aka a parked car broke my nose there i do know that and then most recent time that i remember was in jackson hole wyoming after the cowboy bar i came home and the shower was really slippery and i slipped and fell out of the shower and hit my face on the toilet so with this deviated septum

my nose drips a lot i know it's giving like cocaine usage you guys know my disdain for cocaine but yeah please bear with me on the sniffling especially as the weather changes it just fucks with my head someone said dating apps feel so hopeless and soul-sucking yeah that's because they are I think if you're using dating apps I mean listen people do find love on dating apps for sure absolutely but I think if you use dating apps narcissistically then they do what they actually are supposed to do which is essentially just like a boost of confidence you know get on there swipe your little heart away have a little fun flirt a little conversation that's what they're kind of for you know but I think like most people are searching for love in the real world let's be

honest people are searching for love in the real world and i've said it once and i'll say it again but i think any woman anybody i don't care who you are can walk up to somebody they find attractive at a bar at a social event at whatever spark up a conversation and be like buy me a drink you know i think if you're in an area where it's like mostly singles of course like be aware of you know maybe they have a girlfriend maybe they have like something going on but you can always walk up to somebody spark a conversation feel out the energy feel out they want to keep talking and casually just be like okay do you want to buy me a drink and then go from there I think that works 10 times better than a dating app and I know as women you're like

but I need a man to come up to me but I don't want to blah blah blah like sure you can have that absolutely but also like are you going to really let that person go if you look at them across the bar and you're having a little flirt off are you really going to let them go or are you just going of like grow some balls and walk up to them and say something I think women can always pull I truly believe that I think women can always pull I think you can always walk up to a man if he's single you know shoot your shot and probably shoot 10 for 10 always you guys I added to my fish tank I got some little like baby tetras which are like teeny tiny little like blue fish and I got eight of them because they'll school together to put my fish tank and they're so cute I also got another

snail but oh my god my snail was attacking the other snail not attacking at first i was like maybe they're fucking no he was eating its shell i was like this is not gonna work i gotta remove you guys i really do but i'm in my fish tank era i love it i'll get so high and just stare at these fish it truly is not geo in my living room and i love every second of it someone said i feel like i'm entering a new era how to prepare oh you and me both babe new season we are entering a new season a new bombshell has entered the villa like everybody is feeling it in their bones the need for change the need for transformation that in tandem with just like like i said going into physically a new season we're about to enter fall we're about to enter winter we're looking towards

those months and how to prepare and also like eclipse season astrology kind of in tandem with that where spiritually we are being asked to change and transform everybody is feeling the need to like spread their wings and fly and it is very valid and very real and I think that's what creates the drive and whimsy in life so give into it okay if you feel the calling give into it not in a bad way but in a good way so to prepare I talk about dreaming I talk about dreaming you know manifesting in that sort of way being able to create a future out of what you dream and seek for yourself a lot of this for me comes through script writing and visualization script writing is when I sit down and I literally will write out every single detail of what I want my life to look

like in who knows it could be three months it could be a year it could be five years whatever timeline you're looking at I will literally sit down and script write from morning to evening as many details as possible it'll be like I wake up in a bed with this these sheets with my big windows my cats laying next to me you know I have like a silk pajama set on and long blonde hair I get up I put comfy slippers on and I walk through my penthouse apartment like dream as big as possible in as many details as possible like where do you work what does she look like what does she wear what does she eat what does she do what are her hobbies script right in detail I think it is a very powerful manifestation tool and then also visualization I'm a big visualizer

so I do love a mood board if you guys are ever in the mood for like spiritual homework or just like self-work homework i share that on the patreon every sunday sometimes monday if i miss the day or if i'm like busy on the weekend but at least once a week i'll share some homework i think the homework for this week is going to be mood boarding for our new season so i do love getting on pinterest and just collecting a bunch of photos of like what i want to do who do i want to be what am i visualizing it could be anything from like food to environment to activities to colors to shapes to truly anything i feel called to and then i'll just like collage it all together so then mentally and physically just like i have a well-rounded understanding of how i want to

change where i want to grow what do i want to develop and what do i want to include now if you're trying to include new things in your life especially going into a new season here comes the hard parts here comes the hard part girls you gotta create room for it you gotta create space you gotta let go you gotta get rid of you gotta do a spiritual and energetic cleansing okay because if you don't have room for new things for new blessings for new manifestations they're not going to come true and the only thing blocking those manifestations from coming true from that new season from being exactly what you want it to be is you're holding on to old baggage you're holding on to old things that are not helping you grow that are not helping you transform you're holding

on to negative behaviors negative thought patterns negative people negative places you're not allowing that forward momentum because you're holding on so tightly to the past you're holding on to basically an anchor when you're trying to float to the top you know what i mean so what can we release you know what do you need space from what do you need to get rid of those are also questions you need to be asking yourself you can journal this out you know you can light a little candle sit down with your journal and ask yourself like what do you need to purge from your life if you are essentially like packing boxes spiritually to get rid of things if you're making a donation pile in your mind what are your things you want to donate what are the things you

want to get rid of that you don't need spiritually anymore what are the things that are holding you back that you can release to make space for newness and prosperity or what newness are you trying to bring in and like what's its opposite that maybe you're holding on to once you get rid of that opposite you'll make space for that positive so cleansing and also just like perseverance you know sometimes life gets hard sometimes it gets a little crazy sometimes it gets a little wild that's okay but we need to persevere through it all those dreams that you wrote down in your script writing you can make those happen you just must persevere you must take the next step you must keep moving forward you must do the work to get there you know what i mean you know thinking

about getting rid of things is easy but it's doing it that's the hard part you know cutting ties with that person moving out of that place getting rid of that negative thing getting rid of that negative energy doing the self-work that's hard that's a little bit darker it's hard to do but it's necessary you must persevere through it so then you're able to bring new things and new blessings i'll tell you what though it is always always worth it i made a friend at the club she's like the um like the host the little host girl i was like you you're my new bestie like we are gonna dance it out every time i'm at this club like we have to dance it out together and she looked at me while we were dancing behind the dj booth and she's like i hear i'm so jealous of you

like you like it looks like you have everything together and i was like how old are you like let me clock your t how old are you she's like 22 i was like oh girl oh girl you have so much time like when i was 22 i was a hot mess you have a cool ass job you have a cool ass vibe like you're doing so much better than me at 22 but i'm also like 26 you know this comes with time this comes with dedication like do not worry every year every single day every single week is an opportunity to level up to become who you want to be like do not be jealous because you will be me and you are kind of me like do not even worry babe any sort of self-work you put into yourself will always pay off tenfold it will always be worth it even the hard work even the dirty work even the grimy work

where you're covered in mud and dirt and blood and scabbed up girl it is always worth it i have gone to the deepest darkest depths of my soul to do some work and it's scary and it's spooky down there i'll tell you what but it is always always worth it because i always come out on top i always come out with new understanding i always come out in a better place i've been able to build the life that i wanted to build for myself for years because i just never gave up i persevered i persisted i kept trying i kept putting myself out there i kept making space for myself i kept manifesting i kept dreaming it is always worth it because you will create the life you so wish you desire but it's exciting new season we're entering our fall era you mind if a white girl

catch a little vibe with the orange trees you know what i mean you mind if i put on my knee-high boots and my tweed skirt and take a little stroll down the autumn leaved trail that was a word salad i'll tell you what but it is exciting there's a change in the air there is this idea of newness and beginning and listen halloween's coming up it's gonna get a little chillier it's gonna get a little colder we got so many holidays coming up end of the year things we're starting to look back at the beginning of the year and asking ourselves like where do we want to go now how do we want to transform it's an exciting time feed into that excitement make sure you build that excitement up in yourself don't freak yourself out or try and scare yourself like build that energy up inside

yourself so you have something to kind of like power through with to feed off of energetically to keep you pushing forward but it's going to be so amazing and so beautiful i cannot wait to see where we all get oh it's gonna be so good oh someone said i know i deserve more but i'm also horny af and a girl has needs is it okay to just hook up for fun absolutely absolutely you think i'm gonna sit up here and be like no you are not allowed to have fun as a woman and you must always hold yourself to higher standards that's crazy like men be whoring themselves out i think if a woman wants to have a little peen for a little fun or a little puss who is going to blame her hello we're women we deserve to have fun we deserve to enjoy our sexuality as much as the

next person now i do think if you are going to hook up you should at least have some standards okay like at least a couple if you think they're not relationship material that's okay are they at least good sex material are they good sex material are you you know have amazing chemistry is he super attractive you know is it a hookup where it's like i'm gonna be thinking about this dick for a long time that's what you go after those are the standards you have you know not just like oh I'll settle for any man in here because I just need a little bit of some peen no no no no no like at least have some standards where it's like you're attracted to them you know that they'll provide a good sexual time like you're making out at the club and it's like oh my god this is

amazing I can't wait to see where it goes next don't just settle by being like well I'm in this position now sure whatever because that's going to be a mediocre experience and your needs are not going to be met and that's not going to be fun at least have some standards where it's like okay but like are we gonna get freaky like am i throwing ass on this man and he's catching it like are we gonna get freaky as fuck after this then go for it absolutely but no i'm never gonna shame a woman for wanting to hook up with a man or wanting to like enjoy their sexuality i am pro sexuality i'm pro experience your sexuality but like minimal standard to the point of like are you gonna have a good time are you gonna have a good time are they gonna have a good time can

that man provide a roller coaster style hookup experience for you then yes please please go after it oh my god i pulled up my notes app and it's the edible thoughts um another edible thought i had was i was it was like a tiktok video that came up and it was the chapel roan um subway song i think she dated the girl that the subway is about when she was like like before she was like big big big blow up famous and i thought to myself i was like actually actually i think the worst situation ever would be you dating like a niche artist and then you break up and then all of a sudden they're like the most famous artist in the entire world could you imagine that is my worst fucking nightmare could you imagine you would never be able to escape them i mean best

nightmare or best dream would be you being the artist you know what i mean like girl fuck you now you gotta see me on every fucking billboard but i know that girl is like ripping her hair out like what the fuck what the fuck i cannot escape i cannot escape that is like so scary but congratulations chapel rowan oh and also tiktok shop has not gotten me yet it has not gotten me yet listen i've added things to cart i've seen those lip stains i've seen those cheap ass sets i've thought about it i've thought about it often edible especially like i'm in there like but it's 20 but it's 20 tiktok shop has not gotten me yet though and that's the one thing that i'm like i'm i have to stay strong simply because i haven't done it yet but the one thing that almost gets

me every single time the one thing where i'm like actually adding it to cart and pulling up the card information and about to get up and go get my card the candy shops the candy shops the online candy stores where it's like you can build your own mixed bag of candy for not just like five pounds for 35 or whatever or like the mixed containers of gummy candy the gummy candy websites oh girl girl every single time i am on that goddamn app 10 30 rolls around i am deep into 10 milligrams practically one with my bed i get those gummy candy videos it takes everything in me not to buy 10 pounds of candy right then and there but like i said nothing on tiktok shop has gotten me yet so i'm like i must stay strong i must stay strong someone asked side hustle jobs

for making money all caps in college okay i don't think you're gonna make like money in college especially if you're young just because hello you're in college that is your full-time job i will say that but i do think you can make enough money to like have fun on the weekends afford like alcohol afford like some new clothes every once in a while afford like going out to the movies or like once in a while being able to like go out to eat with friends and also like groceries like i don't think you're gonna be able to make like saving money but i think i think you'll be able to make money enough that you'll be able to live and survive um what did i do in college um oh i sold out edibles do not recommend i don't do that anymore please state who is watching me at every

point in time i don't do that anymore but i did definitely do that in college my freshman year when i was at a catholic school because no one sold weed at the catholic school and i said there's a niche here there's an opening why don't i do it okay so that's what i did don't recommend don't recommend I also babysat I think babysitting can be very lucrative if you find the right families if you're in a college town where it's like rich families girl get on care.com pay to have that background check done get yourself a little part-time babysitting gig especially if it's at night it's like I would show up we'd have an hour there where it's like you know the kids gotta go to bed at like 7 p.m at the latest so it's like let's have dinner let's turn on a movie

okay good night then you're there while the parents are still out because they know their baby's asleep so that they're out it's like 11 maybe 1 a.m so then all you got to do is like hang out eat free food do homework if you need to like it's so easy and they usually pay fantastically so i think babysitting is a fantastic gig especially while you're young even after school nannying if it's like not super super time consuming like i think an everyday thing could be too much serving is also great if you do have previous experience and if you can find a restaurant job that's like yeah we only need you on the weekends or whatever I think that can be a fantastic gig to do when you are in college but ultimately ultimately I think the

best job in the entire world to have in college is to work like the front desk somewhere on campus always always not only will they like a pay you hello but usually it's like minimal requirements so you get to basically just sit there clocked in doing homework the entire time if you have a hard time doing homework it's also like okay well it's forcing you to do it because you're sitting there like the front desk of the library front desk of a certain study hall front desk of a dorm building that's the absolute best place my mom did front desk at a hotel but only at nights in college so she would be clocked in like until 1 2 a.m from like i don't know 7 to 2 and like that was her shift but also like no one's coming into the hotel that late or needs anything that late so she

was just studying the entire time like i said these will pay for the little things is it enough to save probably not but it's enough to like make enough money to survive so do whatever you can you know also number one way to make money in college is if you have a fake id you know be the person who buys the alcohol if the bottle was like 20 bucks tell them it was 25 and pocket the five for yourself that's that's really how the the college kids make money i'll tell you what someone asked what's your favorite position currently are we talking sex positions of course you guys are of course you're talking sex positions currently um my go-to's have been oh um face down ass up what is that oh back shots duh hello like I just get to lay there and I know my ass looks good so

hello um that and also reverse cowgirl a lot of reverse situations recently I think that's because okay so t here's the t girlies um as you move through so pretend my hand is like your uterus so right now it's an up and down position if you're an audio listener um as your cycle changes your uterus will naturally tilt kind of in different directions so like on my period sometimes it'll like sit lower and like tilt up um when i'm ovulating sometimes it'll sit higher and tilt back um it will like kind of change the tilt change you know the space inside so according to however my uterus is sitting i usually adjust the sex position accordingly because like if my uterus is sitting lower and tilted forward that's going to be really uncomfortable for back shots

you know what i mean because it's like my uterus is essentially a punching bag now and no one wants to go through that especially with an iud inside of you like talk about horrible awful pain so so you adjust accordingly you know like i can't always do reverse cowgirl especially in certain points of my cycle because like that position like i said will feel like a uterus punching bag situation but right now felt it's felt nice it's felt right for whatever cycle i'm i think i'm ovulating right now but i definitely go through phases where it's like okay this week we're pretty much only doing like missionary or on top this week we're doing like a lot of mostly 69ing this week we're doing a lot of like back shots this week we're doing this this week

you know usually i find like one rhythm that feels nice and then like i'll feel my uterus shift i'm like okay well let's switch positions so pay attention to your body key to having good sex being aware of your body i know it's a little scary to be aware of your body sometimes but she you know is meant for experiencing pleasure you know pay attention to what feels good for you pay attention to like what pleasure um is heightened in what positions if you you know can even let's talk about this let's talk about this i've never talked about this before coming from penetration vote below if you can you know get off on penetration or if you can't i think what is it i think it's only like 20 of women can actually come from penetration oh i was close i

did a guess but it was 18.4 of women can orgasm from intercourse alone okay i'm the kind of girl where it's like honestly i can but but the um the orgasm i feel from penetration compared to the orgasm i feel from um like clitoral stimulation very very different very different i think a real orgasm feeling comes mostly from clitoral stimulation truly and honestly i think that gives me like the real like leg shaking eyes rolling into the back of the head but i can't have a similar euphoric feeling from penetration it just does not get me all the way there it does not i mean we can do our little thing for sure but if i want to like really get off clitoral stimulation is a must i don't know where i was going there but i don't know the thought came to

my head men be like what do you mean my four inch dick didn't get you off girl not to size shame listen not to size shame but men don't be afraid to use your fingers okay don't be afraid to get down there get dirty make sure she's getting off and you know what maybe you're like uh maybe you're a man who's like going into battle like if you need a sword aka a vibrator like if you need some tools to finish the job no one's gonna complain no one's gonna complain let's talk another biggest fear not only the you breaking up and then your ex is like the world's biggest pop star could you imagine going over to a man's house and he is a community vibrator like you go over you go over for like a hookup situation and he pulls out a vibrator like how many women have you used that

on and do not put that on me at all that's scary oh how fun you guys we have so much fun here on the smoke sesh podcast today really has given sleepover energy so thank you for being here i don't know why i'm a little delirious today i don't know what's going on but i'm definitely like cuckoo bananas o'clock i'll tell you what i think it's because i have a lot to do i have a lot to do today which is like thankful hashtag blessed hashtag happy but sometimes when i'm like on i'm on go go go go work mode it's like oh i'm a little i'm a little out of it loves i will say but i think we had fun nonetheless i love you all so much i hope you had a good time let's keep doing these little girly episodes let's keep doing these little sleepover episodes maybe i'll get

like my bed out here and we'll just do like a real sleepover episode i want to do a wine episode because i get off the wine and i get fucking crazy it'll be definitely a toxic episode so prepared for that maybe we'll do like a real sleepover wine episode that could be hilarious there's anything you want to see from me oh someone asked for like more homework um i do post a lot of homework on the patreon but i will start making more homework segments for you guys if there's things you guys want to work on but like i said if you want to support if you want to keep the smoke sesh podcast running a listen to those ads thank you spotify listeners and b if you want to donate and support the patreon patreon.com smoke sesh shawty i love my patreon

girls the girls really be supporting and uplifting and loving each other over there and it makes my heart so happy that you guys have each other every week they submit questions for the patreon only episode which last last week it was two hours long okay so if you want more content like it's not just an extra hour like i go until i answer every single fucking question and under each question it's like the girls responding to each other just giving support which i think is so sweet and kind so if you need a little support if you want to be deeper in the community come join the patreon patreon.com smoke says shawty i do upload a lot of content there and with a new month coming up that means new book club books new tarot card readings I'll be uploading a fall

mood board lots of things like that anything that I come across you know and I'm like you know what I need to share it with the girls I always share there I'm uploading a new recipe this week it is a did you guys ever grow up uh eating the breakfast toaster strudels not the strawberry ones but like the egg and bacon and cheese ones those were my faves we weren't an eggo house we were either cereal or toaster strudels house that's what we ate every single morning so i'm making a bacon egg and cheese toaster strudel recipe i mean literally they take five fucking minutes so come hang out on the instagram if you want more ideas recipes see what i'm up to at hannah marlene but with that being said i love you all so much remember to make space in your heart and your soul

and your spirit for new blessings for new amazing opportunities don't forget to dream a little bit this week to create the future that you so desperately desire and want in your life i'm starting horseback riding lessons i'm so excited i'm like i just know i need to be on a horse i do i know new season i know i need to be on a horse let's figure it out let's get on a fucking horse and guess what i'm doing it anything you want to do no matter how weird or crazy or side questy it is go out go do it go enjoy your life your life's meant to be lived and enjoyed and experienced be safe, stay sane, have fun, stay sexy, and I'll see you all so soon. Two in five Canadians will hear the words, you have cancer. That's why every step and dollar

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