Smoke Sesh - new years resolutions, abundance & goodbyes

Episode Date: December 30, 2025

hello everyone and happy (almost) new year! we have a fun end of year recap as we talk about how I spent the holidays, 2025 year of the snake, 2026 year of the horse, foundation building for life, what I'm leaving behind, new years resolutions, setting easy goals, what rules I'm setting for myself, January cleanse, setting up for the new year, how I'm celebrating my new years eve, favorite 2025 beauty items, self care, consistency, cultivating abundance, what am I leaving behind, saying goodbye, ego deaths, letting go, good luck and much much more!submit your questions follow the instagram at hannahmarlenejoin the patreon club at patreon.com/smokeseshshawtywatch the vlogs at YouTube.com/hannahmarlene444

listen everybody needs a fairy godmother you know just somebody to look out for them some people call me their fairy smoke mother others their internet big sister but you can call me hannah the host of smoke sash so come hang out let's light up and talk everything there is to life the good the bad the ugly the embarrassing i've got a story for it all hello baddies of the world and welcome back and most importantly happy new year i know you're listening to this on the 30th and you're like bitch we have a couple more days no in my head sayonara 2025 you were something that's for sure but she can go ahead and get out of here i will be celebrating 2026 early and honestly i am so excited just to have a new year we will get into

all of the new year's things all the topics all the resolutions all of the rules all the fun things whimsical goal setting you guys know the vibes but first i must say happy holidays i hope you guys had a wonderful christmas whatever you were doing with family i hope it wasn't too insane or two taxing on your mental health trust me I know how crazy it can possibly get but this year we had a pretty chill Christmas I went up to Omaha to visit some family mostly my brother my sister in law and my niece and my nephew those kids who oh they are the smartest little children I have ever met in my entire life there is not one iPad in reach of those kids actually I don't even know if they know what an ipad is which thank god you can tell just how intelligent and how curious they

are which really just makes my heart so happy um but i went up there to spend time with them which was so much fun but so exhausting whoo if you have children out there props to you because damn those kids are just little balls of energy constantly constantly and then when they run out of energy it's like negative energy because they're just like freaking the fuck out because they're so exhausted and honestly I get it like as an adult I wish when I was that tired I could just scream and roll around on the floor but like babe we don't have time for that congratulations your child you can do that but whew and I have spent a lot of time around kids I love kids I don't get the thing big red flag in my opinion is when people are like I hate children it's like motherfucker

girl that's weird of you that's weird of you like i know more adults that are worse than kids if i'm being honest like they're kids could you imagine yourself at the age of five at the age of two like you were a nuisance i was in the fazoles going table to table like hi my name's hannah oh my gosh what are you eating like who was letting me do that like kids are supposed to be messy weird snotty crazy loud wild it's just a part of human nature and i think that's so beautiful and so wonderful no matter how insane it can get and out of control it can get my niece is just like so attached to me which is adorable i love her down she reminds me of what i imagined myself when i was a child which is just like a wild beast honestly like she's an older brother

so she has to be prepared for attack at any point in time she has to be willing to say what's on her mind otherwise her older brother is going to speak over her like she is you know opinionated she wants things certain ways she wants things to happen for her in certain aspects she loves playing with like imaginary toys she loves just being in her own world she loves arts and crafts i'm like yes this is the mini hannah i love her down she's so so sweet so cute and she was just lashed onto me the entire time which made me so happy we went ice skating together that was my nephew's like big wish for the whole family is like let's go ice skating and like Omaha Nebraska is using their taxes correctly because what do you mean you built a public ice rink and it's the

coolest ice rink I've ever been on it's like a almost like an infinity sign with a bunch of little smaller circles that you can you know slide around on was I able to do backflips and cartwheels on that ice absolutely not I was hobbling around like a brand new baby deer with my niece because she was attached to me by the hip um like definitely could have fallen over multiple children saw so many children wipe out but it was fun it was cute and we love a good little family activity and also there's just something about being around children that brings back that holiday joy and whimsy um just seeing how so excited they get about their gifts and about you know everything that they are just looking forward to with santa it is just so enthralling and so wonderful and

really brings the joy back to christmas that i've been missing for a while because it's like as an adult i'm like all right when is it over high key but i got my niece some calico critters and like a sylvanian family set she's obsessed low-key i got it for myself a great gift for kids probably the eight upwards older than four or five because there's some small pieces some small little tiny pieces to play with but they're obsessed with Zootopia so they were all about the calico critters she loved it she loves to play pretend she loves a dollhouse so that was fantastic and then I got my nephew a rock tumbler which is like here's the thing if you are an aunt or an uncle of small children it is your job to get the gifts that's like low-key gonna annoy your brother

or your sister whoever it is you have to kind of be a nuisance in that way and i didn't realize a rock tumbler would be that much of a nuisance until they were putting it together and then plugged it in and i was like oh no there's rocks tumbling in the living room right now you can hear it it's the loudest white noise i've ever heard in my entire life and not only that but they need to tumble for four weeks congratulations children now you get to practice patience i also got him some slime kit because what what little boy doesn't love like slime hello and it was like science slime it did a bunch of different things anyways listen santa hannah came through for the kids if there's one there's one person i'm gonna spend money on it's my niece and nephew like you

can have whatever you want if we are out and about and they want something they don't turn to my mom they don't turn to my dad grandma grandpa they don't turn to their mom or dad they look me dead in the eyes and they go buy that for me and i do every time card is out anything those kids want i got you but that was fun it was kind of a whirlwind i also had to like film this podcast early that week so i was like out of my routine it really threw me off and then we had christmas luckily christmas was fairly chill i mean my parents had cut off the crazy trump supporter family members that we had by their choice i was like whatever you guys want to do i'll be there i don't give a fuck like i can laugh and smile and pretend if that's what you want me to do but

they were like no let's do a chill Christmas so that was super fun just sit around drink some good drinks eat some good food oh my god you guys I had a moment with my parents that I've never had in my entire life which is like listen I smoke and eat weed you guys know me hello I love an edible I love a bong rip I love a dab pen I don't really love dabs anymore but like I respect them I understand I don't think my brain can handle that anymore but me and my parents shared a hotel room in Omaha and they were like let's go let's go downstairs and get some drinks for dinner like let's go upstairs first drop our stuff off I sat down on the bed before we went downstairs to the hotel bar to get some drinks and my mom was like eat one of these and I was like what is she talking

about I look up from my phone she's holding an edible container I was like oh mother I thought you had too much anxiety for this I assumed you know she's a wine mom through and through I did not think she'd be into edibles but obviously my dad's done some work on her i was like hell yeah i'll eat some of this give me give me a full one fuck it like give me a full one i can handle my own whatever i did not know how many milligrams they were and then we went downstairs had a drink which was drink number like four of the day at this beautiful cocktail bar in omaha nebraska literally shocked to say beautiful cocktail bar in omaha nebraska in the same sentence but listen i was flabbergasted and happy to be there the edible hit hard extremely hard and we were

like we gotta get out of here like high key we need to go upstairs and go to bed so i go upstairs my parents go upstairs and i'm like trying to find my makeup bag and i'm like oh my god my makeup bag's missing i don't know where it is my entire makeup bag with my toothbrush toothpaste makeup face wash anything you need to be a human being i can't fucking find it i'm like oh shit i went on i'm not even kidding a two hour long scavenger hunt off this edible trying to find my makeup bag downstairs to the car oh i forgot the keys okay back upstairs to the fifth floor okay now i got the keys now i'm going back downstairs now there's a strange man by the car now i don't want to go out there let me wait inside in the lobby until he's gone he's not leaving let me wait some longer

okay back outside okay i can't find it okay back upstairs and these hallways were so spooky i felt like i was in the shining hotel it was actually a nightmare scenario it was it was truly not those fun adventures you have on edibles it was one of those edible adventures where you're like when will this stop when will this stop but yeah that was fun doing weed with my parents that was a new one i will say um excited to know that they do that love that welcome to the club happy to have you here considering y'all demonize me for years for smoking weed well just my mom but that's neither here nor there but yeah great little chill christmas i am so excited for it to be over honestly genuinely like it was just too much i'm a creature of comfort you guys know me i like my

routine i like my planner i like knowing what's happening i like my days being in order and for some reason christmas falling in the middle of the week really just threw off my equilibrium completely now i am very excited for new year's eve coming up oh so excited and honestly happy that it's in the middle of the week it could not come sooner if i'm being honest but i'm already doing my new year's eve prep i went this morning and got my nails done i haven't had nails in like a month because i missed my last appointment oops sorry girly i just got some classic cunty thick french tips they're gonna look perfect i have a red bandage dress vintage white prada heels and a giant fur coat i will be wearing on new year's eve and i will look slayed the boots

house down i can't wait if you want to see the photos they will be up on instagram at hannah marlene but some other prep for me looks like making my new year's resolutions i'm sure everybody's thinking i say sarcastically what is hannah doing for new year's what are her new year's resolutions what is she looking forward to i did my predictions last episode of just like cultural prediction predictions what are people going to be into what are they going to be looking towards big recession vibes I fear it's like you know making sure we're buying the right items not just spending money willy-nilly being careful about what we're purchasing being intentional about our our motives and our direction and I I like to see it you know it kind of kills the

consumerism in us a little bit don't like to see a recession not here for that but I have made my new year's resolutions and they might be a little bit different than you could be expecting but maybe they'll inspire you to kind of think about your resolutions list and to also just hopefully get excited for the new year 2025 was wow i mean it's the year of the snake and it was like a very inward year a year where we were looking towards ourselves and not really making much direction or making much movement but instead shedding layers or being aware of layers that we need to shed and aware of things that were maybe holding us back aware of things that you know we don't want to be anymore and i think that was really beautiful in a sense but the stagnancy

really killed me where it's just like okay i'm learning the same lesson over and over and over and over and over again and it's the end of the year now and i'm fucking tired i'm tired there's no more time to learn the same lesson anymore bitch it's done we're done we have to move forward and I'm very excited for the year of the horse 2026 as you know horse girl here moving forward with drastic movement but also it's a one year so it's a beginning year and one year specifically are all about foundation building so although we are moving forward with haste we are really focusing that movement towards how do we want to really solidify our life what foundational necessities do we need things like job career comfortability maybe hometown where do you want

to live who are you what hobbies do you have what activities do you do we spent so much time this year 2025 thinking thinking thinking inward direction and we're looking lessons lessons lessons that now this year this next year 2026 is all about foundations foundation building and i think that's wonderful because it gives us an opportunity to build a strong foundation so if you're going to do anything this 2026 i highly recommend tapping into that energy and building a very strong foundation in which you want to stand on ask yourself you know big idea questions like where do you want to be in five years i think that's an important question to ask yourself what career are you interested in where do you want to live what does your future look like

does it involve a partner does it not involve a partner have you been dating the wrong people what is the right partner for you do you need to focus on yourself this year do you need to build long-lasting friendships instead of relationships this year are there friendships you've been neglecting that you need to put some work into what's your favorite scent what's your favorite activity let's start getting active let's start picking up hobbies let's start doing that building the foundation it's a very exciting year I'm very excited for I love a new year I love a foundation building year and I just think it's going to be really honestly so wonderful and so beautiful we've been learning some lessons and relearning them and hopefully getting over them at the end

of 2025 that started in 2023 so if you're like hmm a lot went on what were my lessons look back to 2023 and maybe like the the hardship that you had during that year you will be like oh wait i learned it then and then it happened again and then it happened here and i was also facing it 2025 yeah if the universe is asking you to release one thing one habit one bad situation you keep putting yourself into it's that thing look towards 2023 and now 2025 what's the commonalities between the both what do you need to release going into the new year but enough of me rambling let's go ahead and get into hannah's 2026 new year's resolutions here's the thing i will say if you are a very private individual and you have a habit of sharing things and then them not coming true

make your resolutions and keep them to yourself I will also say if you have a habit of falling flat on resolutions and making hard ones that you can't stay to you know watch out for that I like a good middle of the road resolution where it's like that's achievable I can do that I can do that I can do that I can do that daily I can do that weekly it's achievable it doesn't seem so far-fetched just so you're able to feel like you make more direction and are actually able to achieve things this year so starting with the biggest rule of all biggest resolution of all create less rules for myself I know I know it's like the opposite of a resolution that you would think but I'm kind of a freak and not like freaked out well that too but like I'm a freak when it

comes to behavior and i create a lot of rules for myself and rules that just like don't need to exist at any point in time things like um oh well it's too late to post that now so now you don't oh well it doesn't look perfect so you don't do it oh so it wasn't exactly how you wanted so give up oh you're not supposed to act that way so hold your true person inside you know oh you're not supposed to dance here so don't dance here oh you're not supposed to be loud here so don't be loud here I understand like there are just general rules in life that we have to follow such as like being a good person being spatially aware situationally aware those are fine those are dandy those are things that keep you situated healthily in society and I do think we need those

rules but I think there's a bunch of arbitrary rules that I create for myself that really are caging me in so although I'm going to go through 20 rules that I've created for myself for this next year I do think when it comes to rules that aren't actually benefiting me making me feel good pushing me forward or helping someone else then it's not a rule I should be following at all I'm tired of boxing myself in of like randomly holding myself back for what for what because my brain told me to do so yeah sure your brain thinks a lot of things and not all of them are correct okay so rule number one for myself create less rules live by less rules oh you're too old to do that who made that rule up you don't live by it oh i'm too young to do this who made that rule up

you don't live by it oh but this is what society tells me to do who made that up them and you doesn't mean you have to do it be aware of why the how and follow through on things that actually feel right and good for you that's what I'm kind of talking about when it comes to those rules number two and this is kind of funny but like real I'm just a girl okay I want to fix my back knee you guys I don't know what's been going on when it comes to my mid-20s and the acne hormonal acne flare-ups that I've been having but my back knee is out of control justice for my back knee girlies because there's truly nothing worse a pimple on the face like everybody gets them it's it's normal it's real if it feels very human but for some reason bacne feels like so out of place like

something I shouldn't be getting especially in my mid-20s and it's a huge insecurity of mine and so I've kind of just like ignored it for a long time especially throughout my 20s I'm like well what am I supposed to do about it it's just a part of how I live but I find it holding me back a lot my back knee holding me back yeah no pun intended babe but I don't want to be like I can't wear that shirt because of my back knee once again creating rules for myself that don't exist other than in my head I want to feel comfortable in all of my clothing and I know especially with the amount of fucking money I'm paying for my my health insurance babe use and abuse that health insurance that's another rule of mine bitch put that put that premium to work but i really want

to fix my bacne and low-key i think i'm just gonna walk in not that everybody should do this but low-key i think i'm gonna walk into my acne appointment and be like can i please get some accutane because i did find in my teens the only thing that fixed my bacne and my regular acne was Accutane and so listen I'll listen to the doctor whatever she tells me to do I'll do period but my acne is out of control not my face acne specifically my back knee and you guys I've tried everything literally holding my head over the sink to rinse out conditioner so it doesn't drip on my back making sure I'm exfoliating changing my sheets literally almost like daily I switched to a clean and clear uh additive free laundry detergent which in general i recommend for

everybody because the essential oils sometimes are really bad for my skin like i need a very simple gentle soap on my laundry no fabric softener um i've tried everything everything under the sun it just it's it's there it is what it is i have accepted it but also it's like i don't want to live with that insecurity when maybe i can do something about it whether it's starting a medication starting a topical cream anything of that sort it's like if you feel insecure about something and you can do something about it do something about it why not why not we have one life to live and it's also acne so it's not like that big of an insecurity but also it's like a nuisance and so i really want to get that figured out ideally she just put me on accutane

and I just do six months and hopefully it'd be gone because that's what happened the first round I wouldn't mind a second round of Accutane I think it'd be good for me I think it would I think the purge would be nice for myself but yep that's my second resolution the back knee has to go and if you are a girl with back knee you guys understand my struggle it is the most annoying thing ever I want to wear a shirt with no back on it and feel so comfortable hot sexy like I want a sexy back i'm bringing sexy back quite literally okay next one i want to do a youtube video every sunday so far not so good i haven't started yet but i have started planning um my first back to youtube youtube vlog youtube video youtube editing whatever you want to call it will be the first

sunday of the year so the sunday after you listen to this the fourth wait yes the fourth i'll be doing a baked and baking episode I'll be making um oreo truffle balls yes they're so good and hopefully so easy I don't know we'll find out but I really want to start posting every Sunday on YouTube I love vlogs I love creating and it's kind of it hurts my heart when I stop creating um I really realized this when I started painting again I was like oh wait I do enjoy doing this thing why did i ever stop like i understand that life gets in the way sometimes then you get out a routine and then you stop doing it but why not come back once again creating arbitrary rules for myself oh you've been gone too long now you can't come back yes you can no one told you that but

yourself so i want to start doing and get into a good routine of youtube videos every sunday i like interacting with you guys more i like showing you guys more of my life and like what i'm doing and what i'm up to and i think youtube is a fantastic way to do that if you don't know all my vlogs and all of my like little fun short videos are on my youtube channel hannah marlene 444 so check those out if you never have i think the last one i did was my japan vlog um but i really want to work on my content game so uploading on youtube every sunday and also i want to start doing clips of this podcast if i feel inclined if i feel inclined but i think i would have a really good time doing clip work and sharing that with people just to get more people here and to spread

the hannah gospel i say sarcastically anyways that's really my only content goals i feel good about the content i make i feel really happy with this podcast i feel very content it's more so like how can i elevate other creative ways i feel confident about and i really want to focus on youtube this year next one this is kind of silly but like i said create realistic goals i want to repot all my plants all my plants behind me I'm like they need new new soil they need a trim up they need a little a little zhuzh a little like home refurbishment they just need some good nutritious soil and I think I'm gonna do it in the winter time I know I probably shouldn't do that I think I'm gonna do it in the winter time because it'll feel more hands-on very grounding especially

as we kind of manage the rest of the winter but I want to repot all of these plants my monstera needs like extra soil i need to fix that one i need to trim this one it's like they've gotten a little out of control i've been in this apartment for three years and i love that but really i have not touched any of these since i've moved in other than watering them and i know they just deserve a little extra tlc maybe that'll be a fun little youtube blog let me know if you want to watch but i do need to repot all my plants another one i want to grow my perfume collection right now i have a pretty good collection going on um i only have three different perfumes and it's like it's not a cheap collection to get into but i love having different scent options

now that i have four or five different perfumes it's really fun like using it as a way to kind of like dress up my sim in a funny sort of way you know dress up my character where it's like how am i feeling what's the vibe i'm putting off and what do i want to smell like you know i usually try and get a new scent for each season sometimes the seasons will overlap like fall winter usually i'll use the same one or spring summer sometimes that'll happen if i find one i really like but i i really want to build my collection i think it's very chic i think it's very long lasting there are things that will last you a lifetime um and yeah i just love using that as a new way to kind of individualize myself and honestly like adorn myself i think there's

something really beautiful about perfuming yourself in the morning and using that as a sense of adornment and to show yourself a little bit of love any sort of scent thing like i love a sugar scrub i love a lush visit girl don't get me started on lush but i want to grow my perfume collection for sure another one which i think i've mentioned before is give more compliments there's so many times where um i want to just like stop a girl and be like i love your outfit and i've been better about this recently but you know the social awkwardness gets in the way of like but what if blah blah blah blah blah or it's like oh i thought about it and then i thought about it and they walk past me it's too late it's like as soon as you feel like saying oh my god i love that shirt say

it out loud oh my god you're beautiful tell them like there's no better feeling than going out in public and getting those compliments from other baddies so why not spread the love a little bit more i want to give more compliments to people i think it's a great way of showing gratuity and also just showing a little bit of love and it's important to kind of put yourself aside in those moments I don't know we we need to be spreading more love to each other and just being more aware of each other and not being afraid to like show appreciation to one another and I think a compliment is the ultimate way to go I've talked about this before though like the best way to start a conversation with somebody is to give a compliment the best way to kind of just like

interact with random people that you don't know is to give a compliment oh I love those shoes bam now you're talking about where you got the shoes now you're talking about going shopping oh my god you like thrifting me too you're gonna go on thrift date bam it really is that simple sometimes and not that I'm looking for that type of connection every time I give a compliment but I do just want to be more forward and direct with interaction with people outside and to kind of spread the love and joy no matter where I go another one is watch more movies I've realized I have not seen a lot of movies my letterboxd is sparse and a movie is just really good at combating the phone addiction the scroll addiction the 10 second video addiction youtube videos are also

fantastic for that but i need to get more into long form content and consuming it um movies are just so good and not me being like yeah movies are slept on but in my head they are i don't know i've just never been a movie girl if i'm watching a movie it's always been a scary movie i've watched every single horror movie there is but i want to get more into like the classics the artsy films the a24 of it all um and really just grow my repertoire a little bit i think it's good for just like cultural awareness for just also like connecting to the humanness of yourself the humanness it's fun to see like different storylines and to be able to like compare and contrast internally um and yeah i definitely need to be watching more movies consuming more long-form

content so that's big on my list get a new tattoo yeah i want a new tattoo it's been on my mind like all year this year my last tattoo I got two years ago and a bit content sense because I feel very balanced tattoo wise but I want another one I don't know I have the tattoo itch it happens if you're somebody with tattoos you'll get one you'd be like I'm good for a while and then it's like why not you know as soon as you get one it's like ripping the band-aid off you're like fuck it let me get another so I'm usually pretty intentional about the tattoos I get and just taking my time to think about it there's nothing that's popped into my head recently that I'm really like hyper fixated on like i need to get that but i have a feeling it's gonna happen this year

maybe it'll be a horse that'll be cute oh my god but uh yeah i definitely want some more tattoos at least one new one eat more veggies i don't know i'm good about eating my veggies but i really want to be like a veggie eater this year i don't know what it is maybe it's that post holidays like i've had too many mashed potatoes mac and cheese cornbread baked cookies pies cakes candies like maybe it's that but I really want to eat more veggies there's nothing better than like a roasted veggie a roasted butternut squash girl when it's cold out everything to me so good and incorporating more veggies into my meals I'm good about using like maybe one veggie in my meal but I want to add like a bunch of different variety i want to try veggies that i've never tried before

and i really want to become more plant-based than i am right now i don't think i'm going to go vegetarian but i think becoming more plant-based will give me the opportunity to wean off of meat a little bit and enjoy more vegetarian style meals while also like keeping that balance of being able to have steak here or chicken here or whatever i just think it's a good a good healthy a habit to have no more door dash no more no more she's done door dash is out i mean props those door dash drivers absolutely girl get out there make your bag you deserve the money but a big theme this year recession indicator is like no more wasted money do you know how many fees they tax on to all of the door dash stuff or instacart or whatever you want to use that's

just like instantly place the order now it's at your door I just I I don't want to waste my money on it because what am I doing I'm sitting at home and scrolling instead of getting in my car and going to get it I actually wrote this rule down because I went out with some co-workers the other night and it was for my co-worker's birthday we were just out having a good time but I didn't I have a I have this problem where I get stuck at the club and it's not like a problem girl I'm gonna be there I'm gonna be having a grand old time but it's like I have one drink which is good health like go home after that one drink but I'll have one drink and I'll have fun and I'm like and another and another and another and another and it's like babe we don't we don't need to be

doing that so instead of doing that instead of sitting around at the club for hours I had my one drink I danced it out for an hour I went out on the patio I smoked a blunt I met one of you cuties shout out i looked a mess it was post work so apologies for the mess i was but i did that and then i said goodbye and i left oh hannah leaving the club before everybody else who is she who is she are you kidding me because in my brain i was like i'm getting taco bell i'm going home and i'm door dashing myself taco bell and it's gonna be fantastic that's usually like my post saturday night thing is maybe i'll go out but mostly i just go home i get in the shower i order my door dash taco bell it gets here i eat it i go to bed it's a great routine but also how much money am i

wasting weekly on that door dash babe let's be real well i got in my car and i was like okay well let me order my let me check out like the door dash situation let me go home and check out the door dash situation and they were not delivering taco bell so my ass yes believe it or not drove to the taco bell and it was like the gates of heaven opened because as soon as i pulled up to that taco bell and it was probably like 1 a.m i was just like i was really feeding for that taco bell as you can probably tell and there was nobody in line not one person i pulled up to the window i was like hi i was so excited they made that burrito fat as fuck they knew i needed that shit they knew i was really looking forward to it and got home showered ate my food it was fantastic

and then i was like oh my god i could have door dashed that and spent 10 extra dollars but no instead i was responsible and left early and just got it on the way home and i saved myself ten dollars it really is the little things that start to add up so big new year's resolution no more door dash get up get in your car go and get it you'll have interactions that you'll never forget about you'll be able to you know still get it in the same amount of time you would if you door dashed it and yeah sorry you're gonna lose a little bit of screen time instead of sitting and scrolling on your phone but get up go get it if you can if you are able to get up and go get it that's how i feel about myself it's like why are we wasting money here get up go get it if you have

the means to do so. Speaking of money spending, buy it nice or not at all. I am tired of the plastic clothing. I'm tired of the clothing that is like disintegrating in the wash. I'm tired of the over consumerism of it all. And I think it's just because I'm getting older. That's just like a part of your brain forming where you're like, when I buy a sweater, I really want to wear that sweater for the next 10 years like I and I want it to be able to last for the next 10 years and that doesn't mean you have to buy it brand new name brand out of the store when I say buy it nice I mean just quality like I'm not just buying a pair of heels because they fit the most recent trend and I'm gonna wear them once even though they're gonna snap off my feet probably halfway

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Call or text 2-1-1 or visit ab.211.ca. no i'm going to maybe buy the vintage heels off of ebay they might have a couple scuffs on them but their quality they're well made they're beautiful and i'm gonna save some money by not buying them brand new or by buying something that's just a trendy little thing going on right now and i'm gonna wear them for the rest of my life until they fall off my body that's kind of the perspective I'm having what do they call it it's like um buy it nice or buy it twice is what they say and I do live by that I kind of learned that first when I started purchasing jewelry and it'd be like okay I'm spending a hundred dollars on a necklace which I could spend two

hundred dollars on and wear it for the rest of my life but no I want to save a hundred dollars so I'm spending a hundred dollars oh all of a sudden it's tarnished now you gotta spend another hundred dollars for a new necklace you see it just starts to add up over time even though you think you're saving money in the moment usually in the long term you're not pay attention to the blends when i'm like online shopping i will scroll down to the item details and i'll look at it i'll be like what is it made of is it a hundred percent polyester and you're selling it to me for over a hundred dollars i'm not purchasing is it a cotton polyester blend okay i'll think about it you know the polyester is going to exist in our clothes no matter what um well depending on what

you're looking at sometimes it is a great fabric for some items but that doesn't mean all items you know so I really am trying to pay attention to what I'm buying to buy it nice so I don't have to buy it twice and also I'm not gonna allow myself to buy something unless I've thought about it for at least four weeks maybe a little over four weeks maybe two months I'm not gonna buy anything unless it's something that I'm gonna have on a wish list and I'm gonna be very cautious I'm gonna build a wish list because I'm somebody who's like I see it I want it I like it I buy it and I love that attitude on myself yes girl have everything you want but like hello let's get fucking real because half the shit you buy is where is it where is it in the back of your closet

exactly so I'm gonna make a wish list and this is fun because it's kind of just like you get to like think about these things still while also like indulging in the thought with actually with not actually buying make a wish list you know rank my items put little prices next to them be aware of them maybe be aware of some sales and I'm only going to allow myself to buy a certain amount of items or like a certain budget of items every month which is going to be very low like probably like 200 300 you know oh you need new pairs of shoes okay I get that absolutely but like the random purchasing of it all does not need to happen I need to be buying things that I actually want that I need that I'm going to use and so I'm trying to hold myself accountable in that way

by setting a budget by making a wish list and by not buying things that aren't nice or aren't going to last and by buying things that I've thought about for a long time setting very good good not arbitrary strict rules for myself when it comes to purchasing because like where are we spending that money where is it going please be aware when it comes to saving money too the number one way I've kind of been able to convince myself to save more money is to set goals with that money I have a hard time when I'm like okay I'm just building my savings account but like that means I need to spend money like my savings account is getting bigger it's like no let's set some goals for that money instead of being like oh yeah I can drop this it's like

well maybe I'm saving all this money for a vacation maybe you want to go to Japan girl all you should absolutely book that ticket it's so worth it but it's like oh you want to go japan cool now you don't want to buy that random thing instead you want to put it aside to save for japan you see what i'm saying maybe you want to move oh that's gonna cost quite a bit of money babe it just is it really is that's okay set goals save that money put it aside and know where it's going know it's going towards the future that's always helped me save money another one that's very doable it's just like why don't you do it bitch i'm gonna floss every day i'm good about brushing my teeth i mean duh but it's like flossing we need to save our teeth do not get veneers

take care of the teeth you do have you're supposed to have those bones in your face for a reason but like i fell off of my like um like dentist you're supposed to go to the dentist what twice a year i don't think i went for like four years and then i because covid and then i didn't have dental insurance i'm not paying that money without dental insurance um and then i finally got dental insurance i was like okay yes make that appointment and they're like you have a cavity in each tooth i'm joking but like oh my god girl i'm like what the fuck what the fuck i should have been taking in my teeth flossing doing all that stuff so i want to challenge myself to floss every day or like water pick every day i'm really good about i got a tongue scraper that's changed my life

because sometimes I feel like I like a toothbrush isn't enough to scrape your tongue so a tongue scraper fantastic love electric toothbrush so I'm not thinking about the amount of time fantastic love next one floss every single day and at a time that makes sense you know like not in the morning do it in the evening do it before brushing or after I don't know which one you're supposed to do I think probably before but yes I want to floss every single day spirituality wise I want to work with crystals more crystals is a property that I've never worked with that often I do work with it I use it um pretty often in spell work but I don't necessarily work just with crystals I also don't know a lot about crystals I know how to use them in tandem with

spell work like especially like candle magic or herbal magic things like that but I do want to like make myself this is like a fun little activity I want to make myself a crystal bag that I can carry around with me every single day as a form of protection you're like oh that's weird and woo woo I don't give a fuck it's my life I'm living it however I want and I do want to work more with crystals um and also just make sure I have some on me every single day I think they're a powerful tool I think they're beautiful I think they're wonderful and I don't care if you don't believe i do and my life's going better for it speaking of woo woo i want to see my psychic more i do i really enjoyed my last meeting with her and i do need to schedule a new one um but i

really enjoy she's not necessarily a psychic you guys know she's more of like a intuitive counselor but i want to see her more i also want to you know and see more psychics in general get my cards read more in general um i just bought actually which i highly recommend last year this is the first year i did this i bought a 13 card tarot reading where they pulled a card for every year or not every year every month of the next year and you guys last year i got that reading and i was like this sucks it's all negative and then i went back you guys i went back and i reread it and i was like no they were spot on they were spot on the the etsy witches they're powerful i'm telling you literally it was like what january february you're struggling

with financial stuff because my cat was still very very sick and then it was march it's like unexpected happenings having to redirect having to to focus and it was like oh my god my car got stolen and then it kind of got into summer and it was like you're in an okay period you know you're enjoying the vibes of it all you know maybe you're getting closer to your lover things like that I was like yes and then it got to the end of the year and they were like you're really gonna be focusing on relationship dynamics you're gonna be heavily focused on it going to the new it was all so correct it was crazy it was wild and you know what I'll share with you the person I bought it from because i did really enjoy it they're on etsy they're called vitalis oracle v-i-t-a-l-i-i-s

oracle and it's the 13 card zodiac tarot reading um and so it's like a it's a next year forecast i just bought my newest one a couple days ago usually takes about a week for them to do it um and i'm so excited i really hope it gets delivered on new year's eve that'd be super fun to read but i do love having my tarot cards read i love talking to very spiritual people i want to go to more full moon meetings new moon meetings um things like that and just kind of get into the occult of it all i want to become more spiritual in a community sense you know but if you want a fun little tarot reading i highly recommend them on on etsy not sponsored it was just i was flabbergasted last year i'm telling you 2025 it was like 2025 is my year

and then i opened it and i was like no it's not gonna be my year and then it wasn't my year and i read back on it recently and i was like god damn they were literally right about everything it was wild oh my god oh i can't wait to see what this next year holds hopefully it's not as spooky as the last reading um okay and my last one which honestly i think is a really good one to end on i want to send more letters in the mail i do my friend my best friend from college she's so good about this she sends me monthly letters in the mail it's just like a little card a cute little card with a dumb ass little right it's nothing like super heartfelt it's usually just like something silly sometimes she'll put like a dumb joke in there but still she's going

above and beyond to send something in the mail and she does this for everybody in her family for all of her friends and i'm like that is there's nothing better than getting home and getting a letter in the mail that's not like a bill you know like I think it's so fun to have so fun to open it's so fun to send things in the mail and to just like get excited about them showing up to somebody's house I think it's a beautiful way to communicate with people and I love that she started doing it it made me very inspired and now I need to do it now I need to start sending her letters back because I don't know why I haven't once again it's like oh I just never did so now i can't setting arbitrary rules for myself no bitch start today start now so yeah

those are my new year's resolutions i feel like very approachable you know we got some self-care things we got some financial things we got some woo-woo spiritual things some outreach to friends and family things like that um and i'm very excited it's a foundation building year i know I will still be challenged in ways that will make me better for it but hopefully I'm hoping it's a little less inward because I was very like self-attacking this year and I really hope it's very like structural focused laying the groundwork like bitch construction vest on construction hat hard hat on I'm ready to get to work put me in one of those machines like girl we're digging old bones up and getting rid of them and I'm very excited I hope you guys are as well I hope

you have a wonderful new year's eve i'm hoping to have a chill one once again my only plans are looking hot and dressing up and getting a couple drinks i'm hoping not to be out too too late maybe make a little homemade pizza once i get home from the club oh fire anyways apologies that took up most of the first half of the episode since last episode was a little bit shorter we're gonna do uh hopefully a little bit longer episode for you guys today and go over everything that's on your guys's mind going into the new year someone said do you have any january um january goals consistency goals yes so i'm very i'm very strict with myself when it comes to january i talked a little bit about like um on the last episode uh dry january i am definitely going to be doing

that but also i'm going to be doing some other things when it comes to like kind of going cold turkey so i'm gonna be doing dry january i'm also going to be eating no refined sugar in january and i will not be eating out at all in january um i know taco bell girl i love it i love it down but i can make those grilled cheese burritos at home i know they're big goals hard goals but it's like four weeks bitch i can do four weeks i can do four weeks what is four weeks you know and unfortunately when it comes to my back knee sugar is just not good for me as soon as i and i have eaten i'm not kidding three entire bags of gummy bears in the past four days my acne's never been more out of control honestly sugar so bad for me dairy so bad for me and not that I want to give

it up for the rest of my life I just want to get rid of sugar to see like how it affects my body like oh does it will it actually get rid of my acne if it does like shit maybe I'm gonna be giving up sugar and then also I really want to stop doing fast food because every time I eat fast food I break out I mean that's just a given hello everything's fried in so much oil which oh it's tasty I'll tell you what but let's save some money let's make it at home and make it just like slightly healthier even though I'm using usually the same amount of oil I feel like it's healthier when it's made on my stovetop for some reason so those are the three main goals that I have I'm still pretty good at the working out I have been following if you're curious someone

asked how has your winter routine been going we are officially in the hibernation autopilot stage of the winter survival guide and i feel like i'm going pretty strong i've been doing yoga very consistently and honestly it's something that if i don't do i start freaking out a little bit like i need to be working out i need to be moving my body and yoga specifically is the perfect amount of like toughness and kindness where i look forward to going to the gym i can't power lift because it's like it's like too much macho energy that i don't feel like uh comfortable in i really enjoy yoga because not only are you really working out your muscles especially when you do something a little bit more fast-paced but also you are able to do like more poses that open up um your

spine your joints your hips sometimes we do classes where we're literally we did one last week where we were only focused on the hips and she was like if you start crying it's okay like it happens often it's like goddamn she's so right about that me sobbing as i'm doing like a hip opening stretch as i'm doing cow pose it's like okay but i do love yoga it's been really great and um yeah i i've integrated it pretty well that i if i miss a class i start kind of freaking out a little bit i'm like when can i get in when can i go there um and i've done pretty good on all of my other goals it was mostly just a working out goal i had for this winter just locking the fuck in and i feel pretty locked in it's been going really good any advice for the girlies in a

creative rut slash feeling the winter blues illy mommy oh love you you gotta do things that i think are very like approachable like if you're in a creative rut i don't think the first thing you should do is try and tackle like a really well thesis uh painting or series of paintings like babe we don't have time for that get out the colored pencils get out the hot glue gun get get unserious get very unserious it will make your life so much easier and do things not for the view of other people when I first started getting back into art recently I didn't want anybody to see it it was like this is for me this is for me to dive into anything that I feel called to do I'm going to allow myself to do I'm just going to challenge myself a little bit and I did

that for a while and now I'm getting to the point where I'm like okay I'm producing things that I feel confident about that i feel like i maybe do want to show people don't be worried about people viewing it or anything like that don't do it for the appreciation of others do it solely for yourself and get into doing things that um brought you joy when you were younger such as like literally colored pencils and a coloring book who hates a coloring book you know what i should create a coloring book i love a coloring book it's so nice to just sit down have a movie on in the background get out some colored pencils and do some coloring like who hates that it's so simple it's such an easy practice it's so entry level that anybody can do it where it doesn't feel like this big

overbearing challenge it just gets you in the creative zone it gets you into the act of practicing and I think before you get into creating like big projects you must get into the act of practicing first so practice practice for yourself do things for yourself don't show to the world just do it for you first and then you can kind of move forward from there tips on planning my first trip out of the country my 2026 goal is to go to ireland solo oh i love that for you so my 2025 goal was i want to go to japan and i made it happen truly it was just like a random thought in my head even my grandparents were like why japan it was like well i mean obviously trending a bunch of people are going there and also just like love the food love the culture

love the temples of it all of the shopping and it just made sense you know it felt very approachable i think um ireland is also very approachable solo traveling in a sense can be much easier than traveling with somebody else because there's no compromising there's no negotiating there's no compromising there's no dealing with anybody else's bad attitudes as long as you have a good relationship with yourself and like you can spend multiple days alone at home you'll have no problem going abroad solo and I do think eventually I want to challenge myself to go abroad solo I don't know if I'm gonna be doing much traveling this year like I said 2026 for me personally it's a very um foundation building year where I'm trying to like hone in

and focus and for me sometimes that means giving up big traveling like for a while I was like I'm going to Rome I'm going to Rome I'm going to Rome my bestie it's happening but sometimes you got to get real about life and i did my big trip last year so i think i'm gonna chill this year but if that's your goal you can make it happen i practically soloed japan i did if you really think about it like if i if i really think about the details of it all i was watching those flight tickets i bought them i booked the hotel i figured out the private transfer i did everything i knew where all the food was i knew how open how late they were open i figured out all the trains i figured out what neighborhoods to go visit like if you're passionate about something you will figure

it out and if you give yourself enough time you can make anything happen for yourself when it comes to solo traveling also i'm not anti-hostel it kind of depends on how you're feeling and how open you are to communicating with people and to making new friends but hostels are a great way to kind of meet people who are also solo traveling and to build those connections if you're not interested in that i highly recommend going the hotel routes okay get a fun hotel get a cozy nice hotel treat yourself enjoy but i think solo traveling is top tier i think it's um really slept on honestly um i think you can have so much fun alone and especially because you don't have to compromise with everybody you know that's fantastic oh you want to go do this congratulations no one

no one's holding you back go and do it I know but you should absolutely my only tips on out of country traveling is make sure you keep that passport on you and safe check for that thing constantly okay I kept it in a passport holder in my bag attached to my wallet so I knew where it was completely um put an air tag in your suitcase if you're checking a bag so if it gets lost you know where to find it TSA is usually always super easy when you're traveling abroad especially like customs Japan customs was the easiest customs I've ever had to go through kind of depends on when your plane is landing so it does kind of ebb and flow wait it out on ticket prices until they drop they will drop eventually always look up ticket prices on a

private browser so it's not tracking you know how often you're looking and biggest tip for solo travel do group excursions okay if it's like tour group this or come do this with a group cooking class this go do those things although you're alone you're gonna be in a big group you're automatically gonna be welcomed in it's gonna be a warm welcoming you're gonna get to meet new people from you know um who knows where you know who are also vacationing like you kind of network a little bit chat with them I think um tours are very underrated and I wish I would have done tours on this Japan trip it just didn't happen um but if I was going solo I would have done so many tours I love a tour because I don't know nothing like tell me everything I'm very excited to hear about

it and it's a nice way to kind of enrich yourself in the culture to also like be around people who are from there and then maybe you know you hook up with the hot tour guide no I'm kidding I'm kidding but like do tours it'll be the great the greatest way to celebrate solo traveling and of course solo travel be safe don't get inebriated alone don't go home with random people be careful be aware of your surroundings know where that passport is 24 7 2025 beauty favorites oh what have i been using okay i don't have a lot believe it or not not a lot of new ones i've found some good ones that i've stayed pretty dedicated to like the lineage lip mask it's the only chapstick i can wear 24 7 it's the only chapstick that makes me feel like i'm actually like well moisturized on

my lips because my lips get so dry and chapped but i have discovered some new skincare such as when i was in japan their rice masks are very popular it's like a cream colored bag with like blue details and a girl on the front and the rice the rice sheet masks are amazing i'm very acne prone they are so hydrating and so wonderful and probably some of my favorite face masks uh the loops face masks also fantastic and their eye masks the like uh peelable ones i love loops loops is fantastic i've really been into them this year anything from lush i've really been into luscious they're sticky dates body scrub i swear by a body scrub i use a body scrub once a week before i shave so good but the sticky dates one especially in this winter time oh you will

want to be eaten up it smells like you're showering with caramel sauce i'm not even kidding they also have this like lemongrass cuticle balm made out of shea butter oh my god it's so good i've never smelled anything so good in my entire life they're giant bottles like the spray bottles of body spray fantastic anything from lush anything from lush that company is so great so wonderful they put so much effort and time into what they create and it it shows it just shows through the product quality now dead of winter i swear by my i think the company's called like lost it all l-o-c-c-i-t-a-l-e and um they make this like body oil oh i slather myself in body oil it smells like jasmine if you're curious it's like a jasmine body oil very perfumey but

very moisturizing especially in the dead of winter oof it is just so nice to slather myself in it and i have to get a give a special shout out it's not really beauty i guess i've been talking about all the self-care things i haven't really found any new beauty supplies that i'm obsessed with but self-care wise and shampoo wise my dandruff shampoo shout out to my dandruff oh my god dandruff shampoo it's not even like I have dandruff it's just because I get a lot of oil build up on my scalp so I need like a really good clarifying shampoo and I fly through shampoo so I need it to be cheap it's called nizoral n-i-z-o-r-a-l it's anti-dandruff shampoo I also think it's really good for just clarifying and cleaning your scalp so shout out to her I love

her down tips for maintaining consistency on goals um number one set goals you can achieve if my goal was to go to the moon this year bitch i'm not achieving that you know set be realistic about your life okay be be real set realistic goals set entry level goals that you're able to like achieve within a week and then you move on to the ones that you can achieve within a month and then you move on to the ones that you can achieve within a year you got to get the momentum building if you have no goals right now do not start with the big ass goals start with something small such as like doing your dishes every single day i guarantee you'll then be able to get to the big goals as you saw my new year's resolutions very simple give a compliment to somebody when i think

they're fine love it easy very entry level goals eat more vegetables fantastic we can do that every single week it just makes you feel more confident about yourself it makes you feel more confident in consistency and it gets you excited about creating new goals and challenging yourself in the future so start simple work outwards if you miss a day it doesn't matter truly honestly it doesn't if i miss it like last week i couldn't go to the gym as often as i wanted to because of christmas and everything instead of being like oh well i'm just gonna stop going to the gym now because i haven't been in a while it's like no no bitch i'm gonna find the time where i actually can and i'm gonna go do those things you know i'm just gonna wait until i actually have the time

and I'm going to get back into it. Don't set yourself up with such harsh rules that you're set up to fail. Like I said, create less rules for yourself. You're the one who's making it hard on yourself. The gym's going to let you back in whether you've been there, you've been there for a month or a year. They want you back no matter what. Why are you not allowing yourself to go back? You see, don't set up such harsh rules for yourself that you're not able to actually follow it. Your goals can be achievable if you give yourself some time to be human in between, you know and also last but not least get a planner I know everybody watching this has extreme ADHD it is what it is like I talk at a pace and I talk about so many topics it's just like it's perfect

for the ADHD listener and it's that's why I made it this way is because I have crazy ADHD if you think I'm gonna sit here and talk about one topic for an hour and a half I mean I can I can you guys know me I absolutely can but like is that the most enthralling thing for me to listen to when I want to talk about 1800 topics no so I'm gonna talk about 1800 topics I used to be a mess and am a mess sometimes and I feel like my life for a long time especially like what 21 22 23 I feel like my life was out of control because I didn't know what tomorrow brought and I didn't know what next week brought I was just kind of like okay let's wake up and let's wing it let's figure it out like of course I'll figure it out no matter what but it was like this underlying sense of anxiety and dread

that always existed in me and I felt like I couldn't achieve any of my goals because it was like well I don't know what tomorrow brings and I might be able to do today but who knows about tomorrow or next week or a month oh my goodness I can't think that had a far that far ahead hello it's because you don't have a planner you're not looking at your monthly calendar you're not looking at your weekly calendar and you need to be doing so getting a planner changed my life and has made me achieve so many goals I never thought were possible because I was able to plan ahead I was able to go oh I have a lot of things written down for Monday and nothing written down for Tuesday let me lighten my load on Monday a little bit and move some things to Tuesday so I'm not so

overwhelmed on this day and then crashing and burning on Tuesday oh I have an open slot here fantastic I really want to do this thing let me reach out to that person and see if they're free let me see if they have a gym opening let me see if this let me see if that you have to have a planner you have to plan ahead you can beat the ADHD if you work on planning and are aware situationally of what's going on my favorite planner i just shared this with the patreon girlies they've been getting a lot of end of the year content if you want some fantastic end of the year content goal setting things like that join the patreon patreon.com smoke shotty um i just uploaded some end of the year journal prompts i also shared the link to this but i'll tell you

what it is my favorite brand of planners is the paperage planners you can buy them online at their website or I think Amazon has them I get I got the big one this year which I'm very excited about because I like I like looking at the monthly calendar on a large scale and then I have the little one that I can use just to throw in my purse or take around which has the whole week listed on the left side and on the right side is nothing so you can brain dump you can write lists you can write things and the key to using planners is it's not a journal it's not perfect planners are supposed to be messy you're supposed to cross things out you're supposed to cancel it and move it there whatever you write in the planner is not the end all be all it is like a game of chess

where you're trying to figure things out move things around it's like a puzzle almost so allow it to be a little messy a little weird a little discombobulated i also put some more tips on how to you know make planner usage a little bit easier if you have a hard time using it on my patreon so check that out but truly if you have a hard time setting goals because situationally you're not aware of time get a planner I have to look at everything in front of me or else it's just like I'm living day by day we don't have enough time to live day by day babe we got to get excited about the future tips on abundance and keeping good energy around also I just moved into my first apartment what are some good tips congratulations on the first apartment uh make sure you have that

auto withdraw on so you never miss a month babe get that auto withdraw on for any bills you have that's my top tip ever now when it comes to like abundance and keeping good energy around i do truly believe that energy is magnetic it really has this way of working where energy put out is an energy brought in and it's almost like monkey see monkey do where um if you are putting out positive energy and this is a big reason why i had the um give more compliments goal whereas if you're naturally emitted emitting positive energy you will naturally attract positive energy back it's just how it is i don't know it's like a law of the universe where whatever you give out and you should give out a lot of positive energy um you will get that back tenfold always always

always and that includes not only showing it to other people but showing it to yourself showing it to the items around you and showing it to people who don't deserve it i know that's the worst part that's the worst part when it's like you're evil but wish you the best truly like I have no time to give in to hate or fear-mongering or any sort of like negative energy because if you are miserable about a person you're gonna become that miserable person if you hyper fixate on hating somebody you're gonna I mean you probably do it because you hate yourself so much you see how that energy is magnetic you gotta be very careful about how you use it and if you have a slip up if you have like a little haterade moment it is what it is you know combat it with a little

bit of positive energy with a little you know but i wish her the best or whatever and it truly is that you know law of the land where whatever you put out you do receive back and that includes i really try and control what's happening in my head as well not only spoken word but mentally i really try not to hate on myself too much or if i do catch myself and redirect because it's very easy to get on that path of just like getting into the self-depreciating of it all and the more you do it the more addicting it becomes and the faster it flows into you like stop that train before it even starts rolling down those tracks babe read it wrecked with some positive thought with a couple affirmations with a couple like compliments to yourself you know be careful about the words you

speak on other people i think the words you speak on other people come back to be spoken to you you know so just be aware be situationally aware be aware of your perception of the world your perception of the world is everything it does control how the world then interacts with you now when it comes to abundance and bringing in abundance abundance to me is really just combating the lack mentality going i can't have that you're not gonna ever get it you know and it could be the biggest thing in the world you can be like i want a 15 story mansion that's not even it doesn't exist but don't tell yourself that I want this big beautiful fantastic thing instead of going oh I'll never get that that's not in reality go I'll get that one day having

that mentality and not holding yourself back and not telling yourself no no you can't have this no you can't deserve it it keeps that conversation with the universe open and it allows so many different possibilities to arise for yourself there should never be a world in which you're like no i can't do that it's okay to want things dare i argue it's okay to want good things and big things for yourself you should have very lofty goals and ideas for yourself i want you to think that highly of yourself that you're like no i can do that yes i will be the president yes i will go to outer space yes i will make 500 billion kajillion dollars i don't know what it is whatever you you know are looking at it's important it's important for a reason there's no reason you should

ever tell yourself no I think a lot of blocking abundance which for me personally I block my own abundance especially a lot this year by just saying oh that's not meant for me oh I can't oh I shouldn't oh this oh that stop stop that thought before it even enters your head combat it with you know a positive thought afterwards of no I can do that you know redirect to a more positive way but stop with the lack mentality it's blocking you from a lot of blessings and a lot of abundance that naturally wants to come your way and i do think if you keep that positive attitude with the world around you you will naturally attract so much abundance what are you saying goodbye to this 2025 two and five canadians will hear the words you have cancer that's why every step and

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operating agreement with the alberta i-gaming corporation standard message and data rates may apply okay okay i'm saying goodbye to lack mentality there is nothing out there that i can't achieve the only thing holding me back is me truly honestly that really is what it is so no more lack mentality what you want you can get and a big thing that i've had this lack mentality on a big realization i've had i cannot live in kansas city for the rest of my life i have to get out of year I have to get to California it's a big goal of mine it's probably something that I'll do within the next year um I have a lot of things to figure out before I get there but it's like I've come to the realization that I just cannot be here anymore I can't it's not meant for me I go to the same

bars I go to the same clubs I see the same people and it's great it's it's good it's good for where I am now but I know there's so much growth and possibility available to me if I go out and get it and for a long time especially like the past three years I've been like I can't get to California I can't do it I can't do it who's saying you can't bitch you can if you want it bad enough you can so 2025 I am saying goodbye to lack mentality 2025 I'm also saying goodbye to Amazon I am over Amazon me personally I'm so over just like cheap plastic goods I understand it can get here in two days um i also understand like the convenience of it all but i really am trying to cut back on it i'm tired of amazon having so much of my money that jeff bezos is so evil and

horrible girl he wants us all to die for him and i don't have time to do so anymore no more random online shopping no more random plastic things no more random goods i'm saying hello to being intentional intentional about what I keep around me what I keep on me and who is around me I am saying goodbye to self-doubt I think that's a good one there's a lot of things and just ways that my brain behaves where I go oh I can't do that I guess that has to do with kind of lack but also like within relationships or with people i deal with a lot of self-doubt and it's like no we need to get rid of that you are the baddest we got to give into delusion 2026 we are into delusion yes you are the baddest in the room yes you are hot yes you are sexy yes you

do deserve that we got to give into the delusion of it all this was a very popular thing in 2021 and i think it's going to be back for 2026 where it's just like nope i am the baddest i am the best and you are too like just because I am doesn't mean you aren't you know like we're not going to close off that thought with something negative it's like no we're all fantastic we're all awesome anything you want you can achieve I am saying no to self-doubt and I'm saying yes to delusion another thing I'm saying goodbye to is relationships that aren't serving you um and I understand that's a complicated topic when it comes to relationships because it's like uh with within relationships you cannot have a self-serving like a fully self-serving relationship

otherwise it's just selfish like you need to give and take that's a big part of the relationship of a relationship whether it's romantic or friendship is you have to put yourself aside sometimes you have to go out of your way to be a friend sometimes and sometimes it's not exactly what you want to do but it just means being a friend it's just what you got to do being in a relationship sometimes it's like oh you enjoy ice skating i don't let's go do ice skating you know sometimes you have to put yourself aside and that's real but there should be times where it does serve you where you do feel like you're in a good enthralling relationship where you feel seen where you feel heard where you feel shown up for where you feel surprised where you feel encouraged where you feel

complete i think these are things that are necessary in a healthy long-term relationship no matter what it is and so I really am saying goodbye to relationships that are one-sided I'm saying goodbye to relationships that are just like not real give and take not real balance I need balance in my life I'm saying hello to balance I love balance oof it's okay if it leans a little to the left we're gonna lean it back to the right but we gotta get that balance in I have to I have to I have to it's just it's necessary for me personally what else am I saying goodbye to i'm saying goodbye to processed sugar i'm saying goodbye to processed food in general the best i can y'all know i love a grilled cheese burrito you know what next instagram recipe i'm

gonna be making a homemade grilled cheese burrito stay tuned stay tuned for that i'm just trying to say hi most importantly this 2026 to intentionality i need to be way more intentional about my life how to stop yearning for a man whore crashing out but he's the best sex i've ever had outs 2026 are situationships man whores most importantly like i said last uh relationships that aren't serving you like who said this i don't know someone said broke men are really good at giving dick because it's all they have to give and that's so real the brokest men in your entire life the most bum men in your entire life will dick you down like crazy because they know it's all they have to give and if they can't dick you down like girl what are they doing sitting on

your couch eating your food getting in your fridge wearing your pajamas your robe to bed no no no no no no no no no no we are not doing that we really can't do that at all like there is no more time you are waste and i mean this so genuinely you are wasting years of your life and for what for some mediocre dick because in the grand scheme of things it's mediocre dick the real the best dick you'll ever have in your life is from somebody who loves you and isn't afraid to say it is committed to you wholeheartedly who wants to have fun with you who wants to spend the rest of your of their life with you who wants to like no matter who you are practically like impregnate you and i mean that as a joke not seriously please because that's like a threat

mostly like uh they are that committed to you that's that's the best dick you'll ever have the situationship dick no it's like a cheap slutty drink from a bar sure it's three dollars and it'll get you fucked up but at what cost when you could be having a premium martini that someone else bought for you yeah babe we gotta up our standards ins for 2026 actually having standards please for the love of god and i say that not just to you but to me too like i'm not even kidding we need to like actually hold people to standards because like there's an epidemic there's an epidemic with men and women where it's this whole like non-committal thing i just want you for sex i'm not gonna say i don't want you for anything else because then you'll actually leave me

we need to be leaving them we need to be we need to be making them scared you need to be making them scared you need to tell them oh you want nothing to do with me get out of my life block them oh they want back into your life venmo me seven hundred dollars like i'm not even kidding like we need to break this in people now because it's actually crazy it's like a mental health epidemic it's not good not good at all babe please you gotta leave these men in the trash where they belong because they are it's either you in the trash or them in the trash and which one do you want there i know it's not you how are you preparing for new year's i want to be the most magical i can be for 2026 illy honestly for me a lot of the new year's prep is just really deep

cleaning my house i love a good deep clean i love a good purge moment i love a reset also just like taking care of my body i like a good like before going to the new year's or new year's day a full shower day sugar scrub body oil fresh fluffy robe clean sheets clean house candle lit oh day of that there's nothing better there's truly nothing better and that's kind of how i go into any sort of like new phase in life mentally is by cleansing my body physically cleansing my mind spiritually by journaling um doing a little bit of like planner work and then cleaning my house a lot of the times i will then end up like getting rid of a bunch of stuff which is really nice it's just nice to kind of clean the house out um completely give yourself more room to exist but that's the

best way to celebrate just newness and to welcome in newness is to clean make room for it be intentional and do like a deep cleaning body home mind spirit whatever you need it's important take care of it show it a little bit of love no matter how you're feeling like a sunday reset but a entire year reset thoughts on ego death girl i'm in need for a good ego death i'm not even kidding i really am i've really been thinking about haha in minecraft or whatever doing mushrooms uh recently i think i really need a good solid trip i'm not gonna lie i think i need a good ego death i think i need a good like before the end of the year um like final turn in words of just like what are you holding on to that you don't need the big thing about ego death is it's

all about attachment specifically attachment to things that are just like not good for you and why you feel inclined to do that is it from like you're afraid to actually believe in yourself you're afraid to just see the truth for what it is like what's the fear behind that and how can we um address the fear with love and heal ourselves in that way and then finally address the fear with release i really think that's kind of the big overarching theme of the idea of ego death is just release and unattachment to things that aren't good for us and i have a really hard time doing that within myself because of like i just i have too much self-control where i'm like no i made the choice no i have to stick to it when in reality it's like maybe that choice is bad for you

maybe you can release that babe maybe you can release that so i do think i'm in good i'm in i'm just need a good ego ego death i do i need a good release detach detachment so honestly maybe new year's eve i'll do some mushrooms i'll keep you updated but yeah i i do love a ego death and i think you can do this within yourself i don't think you need like drugs to have an ego death i think you can achieve ego death naturally at like 10 p.m at night with a journal and a pen quite literally you write down 15 pages of all of your fears you will achieve the same enlightenment that you can on like hard substances i'm not even kidding if you have that kind of like inner looking and like awareness of self which i know you do if you're listening

to this podcast i know you do i know you do but if you do that and you do that work on yourself maybe you do it new year's eve you have no plans cool congratulations get that journal out girl get to work address those fears where are they stemming from how do we release them how do we make room in our life for better but I think an ego death can be positive I think a lot of it is just like attachment to things that are unnecessary and letting go and making room for good I think I'm in need of that very much so especially going into this next year the last weeks have been rough in need of some good luck going into 2026 you know what manifesting for us all I think we will have good luck going into 2026 I think it'll be luck in a way that we've never experienced it

before I think sometimes when we think luck we think oh my gosh life-saving moment oh my goodness you know we win the lottery we think big ticket luck but I think a lot of the times we overlook the small luck that really starts to add up like luck in things not working out for us I know I know especially when you want it really bad you're like what do you mean that's luck sometimes we want things so bad we don't realize actually it's not good for us and the best luck in this world is sometimes things falling apart you know um especially with this past year I mean it felt like my entire life fell apart you know it feels like I'm going into 2026 with a completely different view of how I want to live life and where I want to live life and just like the basis

and the foundation that I want to build life on and I feel very grateful for that and I think a lot of my luck came through hardship which is just like struggling and realizing damn I really do have myself through it all like that is luck you know near coincidences where it's like this is like there's something mystical going on like that is luck realizing your friends stayed beside you throughout it all that's luck picking up your paintbrush again in the past two years that's luck you know we overlook the little things but in reality the little the little things are what makes the big things so important and so special and what makes life so magical so i think really look back on the past year and through the hardships of it all ask yourself

but what am i lucky for what happened that you know maybe was hard but truly turned out to be the best thing like i think about um my cat danger you would think the health scare we went through together not lucky not lucky at all but now i have a fantastic vet who loves danger as if it's his own child i have a team behind him that is willing to like lay down and die for him to make exceptions for him i have you know i've built up that beautiful relationship which i found so thankful for i also have a really good relationship with him because it's like that trust uh that we've never had before because it's like we're going through this hardship together babe i'm so sorry we're going to the vet again but like i will figure it out and getting to have him here healthy

at the end of it all that's luck i went through hardship but that is some good luck that he at the end of it all is healthy is happy is feeling good about himself getting my car stolen you're like that's not good luck but i ended up getting the car of my dreams it's so nice especially this winter oh girl those heated seats i've never had heated seats before in a car like i've always driven beater cars it's so nice I am so lucky that happened to me or else maybe I would have never been pushed to go finally look for a fucking car you know and it needed to happen it's kind of like those situations where you're like no that's not luck sometimes there's some luck hidden in it we just need to change our perception so here's your homework before going to this next year

look back on this past year 2025 what hardships did you face what things did you go through that felt just like so incredibly overwhelming that actually might have some luck behind it secret protections that the universe put in place you know sometimes the universe knows better than us actually it always does what did the universe know that you didn't you know what are you going into this next year that you never thought you'd be able to achieve but were able to what were your challenges what were your hardships but also what good came out of it i think it's a great way to kind of change our directional mindset to get excited about the future and another little homework project if you could start your life from the ground up if everything was to start over

but everything you know now what would you do differently how would you build your life where would you be living what would it look like who would you be with you know what does your life look like what job are you doing what are you excited about do you have friendships are you alone where like get serious if you could rebuild your entire fucking life right now and be the same age you are and do and know everything that you do now but have done it differently what would you have done that's how you need to be living 2026 you will know from that answer answer from that journal prompt what you need to leave behind and what you need to take forward into this next year and i truly wish us all nothing but the best listen i love you all so incredibly much

getting to do this every year with you guys is such a blessing i learn more about myself every single day side by side with you guys and i think it's just so beautiful and so wonderful but i am ready to take all the shit i talk on this podcast and put it into action i'm tired of waiting i'm tired of sitting i'm tired of thinking thinking thinking it's time to get some action going it's time to get some movement going it's time to get excited about life to take control of our lives and to go forward in a direction that fulfills us mentally spiritually physically everything you desire you can create truly and honestly the only person holding you back is yourself that's oh fuck that's the lesson i've always learned true honestly i keep relearning this lesson

it's always me it's always me girl it's always me who's standing in the way of all those dreams me no one else there's no one else to blame at the end of the day okay it's you take accountability live your life live your life to the fullest don't hold yourself back don't create rules for yourself you can achieve whatever you want i'm looking so forward to the year of the horse 2026 it's going to be wonderful to us all and next episode i'll share what my psychic says about these next 12 years or 12 months of my life because that'll be interesting to say the least i have a bunch of last minute end of the year things coming up and also new year things such as book clubs tarot readings things like that on the patreon as well as a extra episode every single week where i answer

every single one of your questions if you have a dying question that i've never answered please join the patreon patreon.com smoke says shawty we have such a fun time over there follow my instagram if you want to see some hot ass baddie pictures from new year's eve as well as fun little tiktoks i've been making i've been sharing them on reels as well at hannah marlene and on sunday new vlog up fingers crossed i gotta get a new phone we'll figure that out but it'll be a baked and baking episode it'll be fun at hannah marlene 444 and with that being said submit your questions every week i love hearing from you guys i'm hoping to do collins here soon as well but new exciting things coming from smoke sesh every year and i cannot wait to see where this next year

takes us beautiful thanks for us all i know it stay sane stay sexy and i'll see you all so soon Two in five Canadians will hear the words, you have cancer. That's why every step and dollar raised matters. On September 19th, join thousands in Toronto for the Princess Margaret Cancer Foundation Walk. Challenge yourself, friends, and family to walk 21 kilometers in support of life-saving research. Together, we can carry the fire and help create a world free from the fear of cancer. Register today at pmcfwalk.ca.