Smoke Sesh - nudes, college, binge eating & yoloing your life

Episode Date: April 6, 2023

Happy Thursday!! So sorry I missed you guys on Tuesday ya girl was in the depths of a stomach virus, but I’m feeling better and back to chat with you all on this beautiful full moon Thursday! I chat what I’ve been up to and also the libra full moon/how to celebrate and honor it. We talk releasing people who have hurt you with love, flower vs carts, everything nudes (the good/bad/and ugly), making friends as an adult, learning to prioritize yourself, choosing a college and young adulting, my favorite spring hobbies, leaning into the yolo and being more spontaneous in life, anger management, right person wrong time, pazpacks & cbd benefits, rejection, binge eating, vag shaving 101 and Hannah’s Taylor swift era. Sorry the pod was out so late but that means I get to hang with you all again so very soon! I’ll see you all on Tuesday! Remember to follow the instagram @hannahmarlene for all the fun stuff I have planned coming up and stay tuned for some fun surprises. See you all soon! MUAH!

Listen, everybody needs a fairy godmother, you know, just somebody to look out for them. Some people call me their fairy smoke mother, others their internet big sister, but you can call me Hannah, the host of Smoke Sash. So come hang out, let's light up and talk everything there is to life. The good, the bad, the ugly, the embarrassing, I've got a story for it all. Hello my cuties, oh my goodness. oh oh my gosh have I had kind of the craziest week of my entire life question mark um yeah so I was deathly ill on Tuesday major apologies for not being able to hang out and chat I really wanted

to um I woke up that morning well I woke up multiple times that night and I was just tossing and turning my stomach was doing weird gurgling noises I was like something's not right but me being a person who hates throwing up I was like girl just go the fuck back to sleep go to bed go to bed go to bed finally in the morning my boyfriend wakes up to go to work and I just like shoot up straight out of bed and I'm like I'm gonna be sick I don't know what it is I think today's just gonna be an off day for me and usually when I get sick like as an adult I feel like when I was younger like there would be days where like I'm throwing up all day like that kind of stomach bug because you're around other nasty sick six-year-olds you know like you're gonna get

some wicked some very crazy illnesses um but now that I'm older like I don't get sick that often I'll get a cold here and there I'll you know get a little stomach bug where it's like I throw up once and I move on with my day or I like liquid shit my pants all day one of the two um but I woke up in the morning threw up sorry TMI uh threw up was like oh I feel so much better fantastic I'm gonna go to bed get a few extra hours of sleep wake up film the podcast tour the four apartments I was supposed to tour that day do all the work that I needed to do you know what I mean um yeah no that that is not how my day went when I tell you I was and once again TMI liquid shitting while also throwing up at the same time because I had no control

um every 10 minutes for a good 36 hours yeah I don't know what is going around right now but you girlies need to be washing your hands you be taking your vitamins you be drinking your water okay you do not want what I have and when I was younger getting sick was kind of fun you know you'd be like I gotta not go to school I gotta I gotta stay home I gotta watch Criminal Minds all day and just like munch on saltines and my mom's gonna make me chicken noodle soup and you know yeah no it's not like that when you're an adult which kind of sucks it's like I'm going through it but I'm also alone and I just want my mom to be here to take care of me but like she's not gonna do that because I'm a 23 year old girl and I need to be able to take care of myself so

I'm just gonna like silently sob and throw up and sleep all day um and also when you're an adult like you have things you start looking forward to like when you're younger your whole life is planned out for you so you're like hell yeah I gotta skip out on all these activities that I don't want to do love like I don't go to soccer practice I don't have to go to school I don't have to go to this meeting after whatever but then when you're an adult like you've set up things that you're excited for and work is hopefully like a little exciting for you and the things that you've planned for yourself are you know you look forward to them so when you have to kind of get rid of them it's like fuck like I really don't want to be sick today and

it's funny that illnesses always fall on a day where you seem to have a lot going on for yourself it's like the universe is like JK girl nah we we're not doing that today you need to take some time to really throw yourself on your ass so you know what it's like to be down bad so then you can really appreciate life going forward and you know what maybe I needed that maybe I didn't because it was really brutal but we made it through I'm feeling good it's Thursday I might get a pot out to you guys before the end of the week I just toured an apartment this morning it was fantastic um one thing about me is I hate a gray apartment I hate an apartment that's all gray like why are we painting everything gray nowadays I don't want to feel like I live in a prison or in a cement box

I would like to feel like I live in a historical you know loved pre-loved I don't mind a little bit of pre-loving home you know and it's been so hard to find that so this morning I had a tour set up and I showed up and it was very cute and it's in a location that I really enjoy um and the guy who was supposed to meet me there was running late so I was just kind of sitting outside enjoying the the cool breeze the nice weather since I wasn't able to be outside for the past two days I've just been like holed up in my bed just completely out of it zero thoughts zero ideas zero life participation um and I was just sitting outside and one of the tenants came out and was like hey are you trying to get inside like can I help you I was like oh yeah no I'm

supposed to tour they're like I think I know you like you seem very familiar do you have a podcast and I was like that is so funny yes I have a podcast thank you for recognizing me can I please come inside and they were so sweet they let me tour their apartment and see it and then finally the guy showed up and we sat there and we talked for an hour and a half about this apartment like so long one thing about older people that I really really appreciate is they can be very passionate about life or they can be uninspired and when you find older people who are extremely passionate about life and what they do and that drives them I love that shit I eat that shit up But I think it's why a lot of you guys enjoy me as well, because not only am I maybe a

little older or the same age or even younger shit, but it's nice to just find somebody who's very enthralled with life and really enjoys what they do, because it gives you a little bit of hope of being like, OK, I can make this fun, like I can play the game of life and enjoy it, you know, and this man was definitely doing so. sure he was a landlord but he was in the business of restoring historical homes and making them livable while also you know keeping the original foundation and keeping the original idea behind it and I loved that he had so many different ideas so many different things that he wanted to you know keep going for this apartment and I really appreciated that and loved that and honestly it

was beautiful and I think I might be moving in soon so stay tuned we're gonna have a cute little new backdrop for video episodes um but yeah today's been a fantastic day and I didn't really think it was gonna go this way I thought I was just gonna throw on a hoodie sit on my couch all day smoke some weed and you know hang out with you guys but I spent my whole morning with some very passionate creative artistic people and honestly it was just what I needed to be like okay life is good you know I can be throwing up and shitting myself on the toilet for two days but that doesn't mean life isn't worth living because let me tell you this after the 100th time of me throwing up I was on my knees begging and praying god to make it end like girl take me out

of the game I don't want to be here anymore this is awful um but yeah life is worth living you just have to meet people who are inspired as well as you you know same interests and it seems like the people who live in this building are very creative people people who you know they said like one of them does vintage clothing selling and like fashion design the one that I met that recognized me and let me tour shout out to them um did like music and art and photography which was fantastic and yeah I just I love when life gives you opportunities to run into equally minded people and provide you that inspiration so yeah fantastic little morning for me I hope you guys are all doing okay please please please once again wash your hands you do not want what I have

and it seems like it's definitely going around but yeah I'm getting dinner with a friend tonight we're gonna get me some sushi maybe a little miso soup very excited about that the sun is out it's a little chilly but it's nothing crazy I think today's gonna be a fantastic fucking day I also believe correct me if I'm mistaken but I believe tonight's a full moon yes okay it's the full pink moon tonight I think it's like last night slash tonight you know how full moons be like they're full for a for a second um but it's a full moon in um Libra I believe it's a full moon in Libra and since we are in the sign of Aries the season of Aries the sign of self um that full moon in Libra is really gonna bring some air to our fire the fire sign of Aries asks us to be bold and

decisive and to take action quickly based on instincts alone ruled by Venus the planet of love and beauty, Libra reminds us to connect with what we love in life. Libra also helps us connect with our hearts and communicate with others from this place. In its highest energy, Libra gives us patience, compassion, and the willingness to understand other people's perspectives. On this full moon in Libra, it's important to have some boundaries around your heart, mind, and energy. These boundaries aren't meant to be harsh to others. They're meant to protect your peace. So very on brand that I am randomly touring an apartment and talking with creatives chit-chatting making friends very very on brand also the fact that I'm about to go get dinner

with a friend probably take a hot bubble bath this afternoon and smoke some weed like that is how I um treat myself honor myself also this apartment has the most incredible deep clawfoot tub he was like if you like treating yourself and taking baths this is the tub for you i was like sold you know what just can i sign the lease now like can i just move in i'm so fucking excited so that being said little reminder on full moons we don't really do any manifestation we do do a lot of releasing and a lot a lot of inner work so this is a perfect time to really treat love honor yourself ask yourself where you strayed away and what you need to get back in touch with and also like what brings you joy and lean into those heavily um especially if you've been neglecting

them i get especially when you're sick or you're busy or you're working overtime it's really fucking easy to neglect yourself and to forget about yourself and sometimes you know getting thrown on your ass is a really good reminder to be like hey girl like you gotta focus on you you gotta do what is good for you sometimes it's the hard thing to do but sometimes it's the best choice sometimes it's the best thing for you and that's what's the most important so keep that in mind I think it's a wonderful amazing full moon and also it's supposed to be a pinky full moon so if you can get outside and check it out I believe it will be in full glory around nine or ten go give it a little look and happy spring that being said no more chit-chatting I know

what you guys are here for i'm gonna try and do a speed round this episode get through as many possible questions as i can and yeah also psa very fun things coming out on 420 so follow me on instagram at hannah marlene if you're interested that is where i'm going to be doing most of the releasing but also there will be a video episode uh coming out for 420 as well and i'm so excited to have a um a 420 episode with you guys and to be celebrating the season and a holiday with you as well so let's let's get into chatting let's get into the questions okay first question someone asked ways to release in love a person who wronged you some shadow work prompts question mark so i feel like the best way to release a person um kind of with love and love can be a place of

um not caring instead of like full-on hatred i'm gonna ruin this person's life which hey i am never against a girl getting a little bit of revenge let me tell you this um especially against a man okay but i feel like sometimes love can be the opposite of hatred and sometimes it can be just like indifference it doesn't have to be like I need to learn to love this person who fucked me over because straight up that person fucked you over and you do not need to give them the time of day or really any of that loving energy especially if they don't deserve it so sometimes the best thing you can give a person who is kind of you know in the wrong but you are not really the revengeful type is to cut ties and release and I think the best way possible

it's a little witchy is to do a cord cutting ceremony um so get two candles you wrap twine around both you let them burn of course never light any candles without paying attention to them I've done this before and they both like went up in flames chaotically very on brand for what I was doing a cord cutting for but pay attention to your candles um and i feel like watching that and visualizing that is a fantastic way of releasing while also allowing yourself to identify that they a were not a good person they b wronged you and c you deserve better you love yourself more and enough to not allow that into your life anymore and by accepting that somebody can fuck you over that is a part of life it's bound to happen but that doesn't mean you have to accept

it or allow it into your life and you are going to fully release them because you know something is greater for you there are better things out there for you that is releasing with love that's the ultimate releasing with love so maybe do a little journal prompt on what you have experienced in the past versus what you would like to appreciate and bring into your life in the future After any breakup, I think the best thing you can really do for yourself is make a list of five to ten things or after any breakup, such as like friends or family or, you know, actual relationships is to make a list of five to ten things of things that you will require and want in your next relationship. um whatever that relationship may be in order to you know have standards and have things to look forward to while also understanding what you do not want to bring into your life anymore and what you want to release i feel like that's the ultimate way of releasing with love i love myself enough to

understand that this is not what i deserve someone asked flowers versus carts uh flower being weed flour crunchy grind up roll it bowl it smoke it flour carts being dab carts we all know what carts are um flour all the way it's going to be the healthiest for you um it's going to be probably the easiest way to smoke well not the easiest but the best does that make sense i feel like when something is way too handy when you have something around you all the time um that doesn't necessarily make it good and when i have a cart on me i am constantly ripping that shit i'm constantly smoking it and a it fucks up my lungs because it's way too hot it enters directly into your fucking throat and lungs um and b i'm using it way too much and c my tolerance is skyrocketing

so if i were you i would ditch the carts if you're the kind of person who likes a cart because they are simple easy um you know you're not gonna get caught with one get edibles instead way healthier for you and the ideal is flour as somebody who is a chronic smoker i smoke a lot i cannot have something around me that i can constantly hit all the time because i understand that me smoking every 10 minutes is not healthy for me um and if i truly want to smoke then i should be able to roll something and step outside my apartment and smoke it um and if i am too if i'm feeding for something too hard then maybe i'll eat an edible but as the responsible adult i am and the responsible adult who wants to take care of their lungs flour filtered through water as in a bong

is the best possible way um and make sure you're getting high quality flour especially with carts i feel like a lot of the carts people find unless you're getting getting them directly from a dispensary they're street carts and they're cut with shit and that shit is not healthy for you because you honestly have no idea what you're smoking on okay you could be smoking on that pesticide pack okay you don't want that all right cut the carts now i do love a cart from a dispensary every once in a while especially if i'm if i'm on vacation treat myself a little bit but i do prefer flour all the way okay someone asked nudes slash filming into me it whoa filming intimacy my god my brain is literally giving out slash revenge porn okay many questions

all in one first of all if you're under 18 i gotta give you the legal advice here don't send nudes all right just just don't because then it's considered cp which is no fun at all for anybody involved i'm gonna give you just the legal adult responsible answer all right i don't know how old you guys are i wasn't even sexually interested in anybody under 18 because i was on so many fucking mental health medications that your girls she was dry and i was focused on not dying okay so i wasn't really sending nudes at that age but once i get older i understand you know you get some bodily autonomy and you know you feel sexy and you develop some hips and some titties and you want to take some hot photos every once in a while especially if you have a loved one

in your life that you want to be sexy and fun and flirty with and nudes can be very fun for that let me tell you this me and my boyfriend have made a few fun videos I can't lie and also like I have had like um I've done a valentine celebration for him where essentially I showed up in lingerie at my door when he came over and handed him a disposable camera and said you can't touch me until this disposable camera is filled up and made him take his own nudes of me so then he could have them there's like fun ways you can go about it but then also like there's times where it's like i'm feeling myself in the morning i we have boundaries where i know like maybe i don't want nudes when i'm at work from him because that throws me off but he doesn't

really give a fuck so maybe i'll send them to him because i'm feeling sexy and i know you know it'll get get things spiced up for after work um but i think it's really important a to have a conversation with the person you're you're talking to about boundaries and how they feel about nudes like hey do you like a little spicy picture every once in a while um when do you not like them i understand maybe at work is a boundary when when you're around family like i don't know it's important to have these conversations about sex because nobody has these conversations and everybody assumes that the rules are the same but they're not there's nuance to everything especially when it comes to sex and everybody has different boundaries different levels of where they like

to go different things they like to play with so have these conversations it's not embarrassing it's not weird and in fact it's a little sexy like it will get your juices flowing being like so what do you like you know like tell me about it um me and my boyfriend have also wanted to do like an art book filled with nudes that we've taken of each other i feel like that would be very fun um but there's fun ways you can play about play around with it make sure you are both consenting individuals make sure you have boundaries in place of what you are comfortable with if a man is begging you for nudes hey send me a titty pic hey send me an ass pic oh you don't want to show off for me uh that shit's gross cut that man off immediately if he's thirsting over

the phone that fucking hard imagine what the fuck he's gonna be like in person you do not need somebody around you who is going to be begging screaming crying for that shit okay that's embarrassing that's weird cut those men off because there's a lot of men out there who are going to be weird and creepy like oh you won't send me a titty pic like what's going on like do you not love me like yeah bitch i'm doing homework leave me the fuck alone you know and you don't want to be around that person in person where they're constantly pushing on you to be sexual when you don't want to be so boundaries once again now revenge porn is unfortunately a thing luckily as times have progressed laws have changed in favor of women thank god um i was just

listening to a podcast about uh fuck what's her name essentially she is a she was a actress and when she was really young they did like a nude spread of her when she was nine like put makeup on her i don't know if it was for playboy or what magazine um very illegal very fucking gross shit and she took them to court and the court sided with them but this was back in like the 80s 90s luckily as time has progressed you know women have been like i don't give a fuck anymore this is my body i'm gonna sue the shit out of you and if anybody ever tries to you know extort you tries to upload your shit somewhere send it anywhere take that straight up immediately to the police and i'm not the kind of person to be like call the police call the police because

that's like listen the police can't do a whole lot i'm sorry but like file a lawsuit get them in strict legal trouble because your body and what you are as a human being is not up for someone to just play around with, ever. And if they ever feel like they are allowed to play around with it and upload that shit and freak you out, freak them the fuck out. I say go all out. I don't play around when it comes to, you know, men thinking that they can upload revenge porn. That shit is not okay whatsoever and I get that it is a fear being like I don't want to send nudes because I'm afraid of this thing happening if you have that fear that's a very real fear and if you don't want to send nudes that is absolutely okay you do not have to but if you are going to I think

it's important to do it with a person that you are loving and trusting with and that you are both on the same page um and that you have vetted to be like this person is a good person um they haven't done any sketchy shit in the past they shouldn't do any sketchy shit in the future fingers crossed hopefully um and i trust them you know you have to have that trust with the person but yeah nudes can be very fun like i said you can you can play around with it make an art book out of it you know show up in lingerie and hand them a disposable camera um you know have some fun with it get creative and it's a very fun way to also spice things up especially if you're in a long-term relationship where it's like shit we go to work don't talk all day then we come home we fuck

it's getting kind of boring like you know send a little spicy text even or a spicy nude it doesn't always have to be like photo it can be you know a fun little paragraph about what you want them to do to you after work there are fun ways you can spice it up without getting fully explicit it and fully sharing yourself um but boundaries talking vetting a person to make sure they are good and trustful um and have some fun with it you know what i mean and also don't be afraid to go after creepy men who try and use you for real take legal action love you hi hannah i don't know i'm like struggling to send this right now like it's like not going to so hopefully this one sends through, but I have a question on making friends, because

I'm fucking struggling, Hannah. I moved to a different county. It's, like, the neighboring county to the one that I used to live at, and I'm struggling. I moved there, like, 2019 with my family, and then the pandemic came, so I was sheltered from society, so, like, it was my last year in high school, and then my last year in high school, I didn't really have the chance to, like make friends over there which like it's fine whatever but then after that I took a gap year and I started working and when I was working I was working with grumpy old men who like were honestly like so pessimistic obviously why the fuck would I want to be friends with them and I just you know I let work take over my life I wasn't really able to make friends and for the like since January I've

been trying to like be out there more and make friends but honestly I I've been struggling to make new friends i still haven't made a new friend um like i've always grown up with friends like i've always just had like my girls with me like i've like growing up that's all that's always been something i was used to like literally i was like fuck boys i love my friends and like that's all i care about and like now i'm really on the opposite shit like i have a boyfriend and i feel like i just don't have friends locally and i kind of like beat myself up for it because i'm like like when i spend time with my boyfriend i just feel so guilty because i'm like oh my god the only person you hang out with is like with your boyfriend but it's like no it's because

my friends look far as fuck and making friends with them is a hassle and like plus like our schedules and stuff but i just don't hang out with them but it's like i just want friends that live locally that like i could consistently hang out with more and i've just been fucking struggling like i just like obviously i know like compliment somebody if you're thinking that or like laugh at them if something's funny i do that but like i just don't know how to like form a friendship like I don't know I'm struggling so if you have anything you want to like share like please okay let me tell you how I made this friend that I'm going to dinner with tonight because I've known her for only a few months like four or five months I was serving

in my restaurant and I was serving her and her boyfriend and she complimented me on her paint on my pants I was like oh my god that's so sweet sick love it thank you um and then we just started chatting and she made me giggle and then we exchanged you know instagrams and she was like if you ever want to hang out you know hit me up and I I took that like I am such a flaky Gemini I'm so sorry my life just gets so chaotic like I'm the kind of friend as an adult where it's like oh my god I love you you're amazing but also I have so many fucking things going on right now I don't even know where to fit you in and luckily she vibed with that and like you know I've replied her Instagram stories every once in a while being like lol love it and eventually we you know there

was a vintage swap a vintage meetup and I sent it to her and I was like hey I don't have anybody to go with to like this with me like of course my boyfriend would go like my boyfriend's always down to go with me anywhere but like trying to reach out escape my boyfriend the same kind of way you're like I need to make friends um and she seemed like a like-minded individual so I hit her up it's like hey do you want to go with me she was like I'm down we smoked some weed we went we hung out it was a fantastic time and now like she's pretty cool we've hung out a few times are still getting to know each other but I went over and painted at her house a little bit uh we're going out to dinner our boyfriends have hung out together we've gone thrifting it starts slow

like I feel like when we're kids we assume friendships are well we assume friendships are gonna be like when we're kids where it's like we meet somebody we're around them constantly we're best friends and like immediately but when we're adults we are busy we are so enthralled in our own lives that you have to allow a little bit of give and take and a little bit of space like sure it's not like when you're in fourth grade and you're seeing each other every single day it's gonna be like oh I see you once every other week or once a month or you know if you're really really good friends then multiple times a week which is fantastic amazing but you have to allow for that give and take and you have to allow for other people to have some space and to reach

out you know individually so I say look around local activities reach out to maybe some people maybe you're following on Instagram or mutual friends that you've never really connected with um and if there's something you want to go to be like hey um do you want to go with this go with me to this like hey what are you doing on this day uh you know and it's okay to feel a little weird about it. It's weird to make, you know, interpersonal connections. I get that, but it's fun. It's fun because you're stumbling a little bit and you're trying and you're getting to know a person. That's what's fun about it. So compliment a girlie, hit her up on Instagram, find some cute like-minded girlies around you, go to a coffee shop, you know, go to your favorite local restaurant,

go to whatever it is that interests you go to a local show go to a local concert and then like maybe find somebody who's similar to you and find an activity that's going on and then be like hey do you want to go with this oh my god why am i having a hard time with that sentence go with me to this do you know what i mean i feel like that's the best way to kind of set up a friendship is to be like here's a mutual meeting place that we can both go to and have fun at um and also kind of take the stress away from being like we're sitting down face to face in a quiet room at somebody's house you know unless that's the way you like to get together with people um but I feel like a mutual activity is the best way whether it's going to a park going to a concert going to a local

vintage shop going thrifting going out for coffee whatever it may be that's the way to make friends um and like I said give time give a little space it's okay to get rejected like I saw some girl be like I asked this girl to be my friend and she said no and it's like yeah that's just because when you're when we're adults we get we get a little bit more harsher in a way of like we don't mean it to be mean but maybe she doesn't have time maybe she's not a friendly person you know at least she's giving you that boundary right now instead of faking it um so just try put yourself out there I guarantee if you just like open yourself up to that energy the beautiful thing about the universe is if you open yourself up to the energy that you are trying to bring towards

you and fully open yourself up like actually put time and energy into something the universe is guaranteed to push it tenfold back towards you but you have to prove that you are open and ready and willing so put yourself out there try a little bit hit up a few people maybe hit up a mutual friend and I guarantee it'll work out but don't give up love you someone asked how to deal with exhaustion girl I'm so tired girl I feel you I do feel you let me tell you this there have been times in my life where I am overwhelmingly bored and I have absolutely nothing going on and I'm miserable and then there's been times in my life where I am so overwhelmed there's way too many things going on I don't know what to do with myself I am way too busy and I'm also miserable

and being overwhelmingly busy is a better miserable than being bored and miserable does that make sense because at least you have something going on you're working you're moving forward you're keeping your body moving we as humans love to be in motion we're not meant to sit on our couch all day sure every once in a while um but being in motion and I hate to say this is a little bit better of a miserable than not being in motion but it also is very important for you to prioritize yourself and if you need a mental health day take it okay if you need a fake that i had the same illness that hannah had and i got a call to work do it you know what i mean you have to also prioritize yourself you can't always prioritize everything else around you and push push push

push yourself down you have to make sure you're also prioritized the same level as every single other thing going on in your life it's fun to be busy but it does get overwhelming sometimes i hear you run yourself a hot bubble bath you know at the end of your long work day maybe make yourself a fun little seltzer a fun little drink whatever it is that calls to you um maybe prioritize a friend that you haven't prioritized in a while and get dinner maybe finally put up oh my god pick up that book that you haven't even touched um maybe you know anything that happens to call to you make time in your day i promise you have time whether it's early in the morning where you're usually sitting on your phone for an hour and a half or late at night where you're usually

sitting on your phone for an hour and a half or somewhere midday where you're sitting on your phone for an hour and a half find time i guarantee there is time and if there's not make time okay call out do whatever you need to do i promise they will forgive you okay love you oh someone asked how to make decisions on which college to go to fantastic question um i've actually got this question a lot recently i can tell a lot of you guys are trying to decide where to go listen if you are a young person who is graduating you are getting out of your senior year go to college i know i said i dropped out i know twice holy shit but i do not recommend that i made every wrong decision so you don't have to i think college is overwhelmingly important and here's the thing

it's not going to be high school point two all right it's not going to be oh wait point two what the fuck is going on my brain today as you can tell i have not had any nutrients for the past two days um have not been able to hold anything down except for water so that is the energy that my brain is running off of but it's really making for a fun podcast can't you tell like i am running 100 miles per hour right now my brain cannot even keep up 0.2 hello 2.0 it's not gonna be high school 2.0 when all of your high school teachers are freaking you out like this you know college is not gonna be like this your professors are gonna be evil and mean and cruel no no no it's not always like that of course you have bad teachers every here and there but that's what rape my professor

is for oh my god love it okay so college is important to get a job unless you're in a creative field and you are starting a business from yourself from the ground up which is very fucking hard if you are thinking about doing that i at least recommend going to college so you can get your you know you can get some grasp of what you want to do college is about finding yourself i know people say it's about oh finding a job and finding out you know what you want to do in life that's literally what it's about it's about finding yourself and you have not found yourself in high school i know it seems like it i know it feels like it you will do a complete 360 in college because a you finally have financial freedom or not financial freedom you finally

have freedom from the world you're finally a semi-adult okay and you are just now being put on your feet as an adult to experience the world around you and that is going to bring a brand new horizon of what you are going to experience when you are picking a college you need to pick a college based on can I envision myself here is this going to be a fun place for me to go are the people who are attending this college people who i would look up to or i want to become or are cool people do they seem like like-minded individuals is it in a location that i enjoy such as maybe a city you've never been to or one that you've always wanted to move to or it's in a location where you know it's a busy city or maybe even a small city but you can escape

the college life and go visit the outside world a little bit. And C, does it have at least three or four majors that you are interested in? Not one, because I guarantee at least 98% of you are going to switch your major within the first year. If I were you, what I would do is pick a college that you can go have fun at because that is priority number one if you're having fun it's going to make the school work a lot easier if you're miserable in your everyday life you're going to be miserable in your school life as well okay when i went to catholic school i was miserable in my in my everyday life so i was miserable in my school life sure i was doing good that didn't mean i was healthier having fun all right dropped out but at the art institute that i went to oh

school life was fantastic it was in a city I loved my current city um the people there were very kind very sweet and I excelled in school work and excelled in a way that wasn't just me putting an effort it was me enjoying it that progressed me forward in a way that was impossible okay it was because I was having fun in my personal life and in my school work so pick a school that you can have fun in both like student body wise um like club wise activity wise you see people there who are very similar to you and also city wise okay I really wish I would have gone to like CU Boulder or a Los Angeles school or even New York no I picked Omaha Nebraska a catholic school both of which do not embody me whatsoever all right you got to pick a school that

is very similar to you and see you have to make sure you have options if i were you i would go undecided my first year get all of your you know pre-req stuff out of the way your basic gen eds out of the way figure out who you are chit chat with your friends see how their majors are going and then decide that's what I would do if I were you that is probably the best fucking way to choose a college and everybody's gonna be like no you have to have your decided your major decided before you go to a college no no no no that's too much pressure to put on a young person who is going to finally become an adult and finally decide what they want to do and it's gonna put too much pressure on you to not change your mind and I wish I would have allowed myself the leeway to

change my mind and to develop and change a little bit but I didn't have that leeway because I was going to a nursing school and there was no arts at this nursing school so unfortunately I had to drop out now if I went to a bigger state school or a school where it offered more than one things that I was interested in I could have stayed at that school and I could have kept going to schooling without having to switch schools completely because it would have had different majors that I was interested in so all those things very very important make sure you're going to enjoy your life there make sure it has multiple majors you are interested in and yeah because you are going to really blossom and grow into a amazing lovely individual and

you're also going to be around a bunch of like-minded people which is very very fun and you're gonna have a blast I guarantee it love you hi Hannah so I was listening the most recent episode of the pod which I love as always but something that you were talking about within like the last 10 minutes um reminded me of a conversation that I literally had with one of my friends yesterday and it was about like feeling old in your 20s and the way that he explained it to me I think was just really beneficial and I thought that it could also help the other girlies who are feeling a little bit older than they actually are so like the average lifespan of of humans, like 80 years, right? And think about that in terms of the stages of a butterfly.

There's four stages, you know, like egg, caterpillar, cocoon, butterfly, right? So when you are in your 20s, you are barely just becoming a caterpillar, you haven't even reached your full grown state yet. And I thought that that was like such a beautiful and like beneficial way to look at it. Because like, we haven't even become butterflies yet. We are still babies in our 20s. But anyway, I love you. Oh my God, I love this. And once again, for all my college cuties, young 20s, very, very, very true. I feel like we are expected to be living this beautiful grand life, but we're just children.

We're just babies. And you have to allow yourself to be that way in order to grow and change. You can't hold yourself to these high, crazy expectations of having these beautiful grand butterfly wings when you are literally crawling on 100 legs doing the best you can inch by inch like you got to understand where you are and accept that in order to grow but i love you thank you this was so cute someone asked what are my favorite hobbies or activities for spring okay a just get outside you would be surprised how much the earth and the ground is changing and growing right now and it is so enthralling as a person who is like i feed off that energy like i

love that I'm kind of in sync with the earth where it's like cold freezing I'm tired I'm still powering through but finally I have some hope and like I'm sprouting and new ideas are coming to me while also the leaves are growing on trees and flowers are blossoming so get outside go for a walk go to your local park walk around your neighborhood for a sec or something you would be surprised how many things you're gonna see and also if you do it on a daily basis you would be surprised how many things are going to change every single day and how many new things you're going to find. Um, I found like a river last year that has the most beautiful hiking trail ever towards it. Like deep ass river. You can go swimming in, like I have swam naked in it all

summer. It is fantastic, but get outside and explore your local nature. Also be when it comes to nature um there are a lot of they're called you pick places and essentially they are just small local farms that allow people to come out and pick their own fresh fruit fresh berries fresh veggies whatever it is um so i love getting seasonal fruit or like fresh flowers there'll be flower farms that do this as well look up like berry picking local farms anything like that local orchards in your area and go and get out in nature and then pick your own fresh fruit you know what's better than that when I was a nanny I would take my nanny kids to this like every spring and summer we would always go strawberry picking raspberry picking blueberry picking whatever it may be

and just get outside get our fingers a little dirty in the mud fantastic um some other springtime favorites planting gardening anything that is me connecting with the earth painting I open my windows every single day that's kind of a ritual for me in the spring um just letting fresh air and even if it's a little chilly I love to just like change out the stagnant air in my apartment um but yeah I think really focusing on connecting back with nature especially when you have like gotten away from nature in the wintertime and kind of hold ourselves up inside it's fun to reconnect with what is directly just right outside our houses someone asked i am scared of missing out on life experiences and not embracing the yolo energy babes you have to embrace the

yolo energy okay and i get you're not probably missing out on anything um i feel like people think they need to like quit their jobs and move into a van and travel across the country in order to live the YOLO experience and like hey baby girl go for it if that's what you want to do go for it like I am all here for it but like you can embrace the YOLO energy while also having a full-time job and a apartment in the same city you can take a weekend trip every once in a while when your friend is randomly like hey you want to go to this concert even though you've never heard of it you can be like yes i want to do that when you are exhausted and tired and your friend is like hey you want to go to dinner you can you know put on a cute outfit and go out to dinner and have a fun

conversation and live that yolo energy um if there's a even like a uh event that's nearby or maybe not even nearby but you can get a cheap plane ticket there go for it it's all about taking opportunities that a come our way but also sometimes you have to make opportunities for yourself if you want to live that YOLO energy but you don't feel like it approaching you or the world approaching you in that way sometimes you got to make it for yourself like when I was 18 me and my friend just randomly were like we wanted to see this concert but they weren't coming anywhere near us so we were like well shit are we gonna drive 17 hours to Vegas last minute with $200 in our pocket and we did and it was fantastic we had the best fucking time ever it's something

that I think about all the time um and now she literally travels and roller skates like for a living basically like has the best time ever um and I love that she's embracing that yellow energy a little bit more but that one moment with her is something that I'm gonna think about forever sometimes it's about planning your own like spontaneous moments that you just have to take advantage of I have two of them coming up very soon one of them is I knew I wanted to be on a beach uh for my birthday so I just randomly booked a hotel in Mexico and was like everything also fall into place and you know it really has I took one month of a little bit of saving and I you know bought a plane ticket and then another month of a little bit of saving and I paid for

the hotel and that's really all I needed I can get there I can get to the hotel it's gonna be cheap to eat there I'm gonna be having a great time and then also Kali Uchis is coming to a city kind of near me it's like 10 hours away Colorado and I was like fuck it I really want to see her I'm going to go there and you know I don't really have a whole lot of plans other than finding a cheap hotel room that I have booked uh but maybe you have friends somewhere that you can go out and visit maybe you have family somewhere that you can go out and visit maybe there are different opportunities or classes or you know um events close to you in your city that local creatives are putting on. You have to kind of seek that energy in order for the universe to push that

energy back towards you. And when it does push that energy back towards you, take advantage of it and really step into it and say yes to things that would have maybe, you know, not frightened you, but maybe make you a little nervous. Nervous is a feeling that you guys don't need to be so terribly afraid of. New things are going to make you nervous. That's just a part of life, but it doesn't inherently mean it's bad okay nervous nervousness means good nervousness means new and it's a it's you're gonna have to practice getting through that energy in order to feel comfortable in new situations so practice it a little bit connect to your local creatives connect to your local communities um and you know look outwards as well seek those opportunities

in honor of Aries Susan do you have any um tips for managing your anger in a healthy way I'm a Aries and I'm a very angry bitch and I act on my anger very quickly and like I would like to fight someone constantly so yeah just tips for that I hope you're feeling better bye oh girl working out and I know that's not the answer you want to hear because like when it comes to mental health and anger and stuff like nobody ever wants to be like yeah just go to the gym go take like a little yoga class like bitch no I I don't want to do that like I can barely crawl on my bed but unfortunately like it's actually pretty good advice and I know it's annoying but especially when it comes to anger issues which I have adopted a little bit of my dad's um throughout

the years like getting up and going on a run is a or like at the end of the day after a stressful day going on a run is a fantastic way of just like releasing that pent-up energy that is not releasing it through your fist to their face you know what I mean um my dad had pretty severe anger issues growing up and the gym has become his safe haven and he is a very chill man now like you would have never thought and I didn't really ever have to deal with any of that growing up thank god because he was always in the gym like he would get off work go to the gym get that anger out of him come home um and I think it has absolutely done wonders for him take a boxing class take a self defense class take a class where you can like physically punch things if needed um go on a run

but I do think healthily exerting that energy is important when you sit there physically with it it's just going to build up and build up and build up and you're going to eventually crack in a way that's not healthy so let it out hey Hannah um I was wondering if you have any advice on how to deal with um very much right person wrong time um i've been talking to this guy for a while now and the universe is being a hoe she really does not want us to meet um like our schedules aren't landing up um his truck is in the shop he lives a couple towns over and i don't drive um and he's been working like 100 hour weeks and or yeah 100 hour weeks and I'm I'm just still in school it's very hectic and confusing and I'm feeling kind of stuck

and I don't know how to proceed oh anyways I'm running out of time but um love you and I love the pod um but please send help listen let me do the conversation the universe is trying to do for you but through words um yeah right person wrong time or not even the right person who fucking knows but definitely the wrong time if there are that many obstacles in your way within the first six months to a year of dating it's not worth it those obstacles come when it's like three years in like when you have gotten into the groove of things and you guys love each other and you've gotten over the hardships and you've gotten you've settled in the relationship like that's when you put the work in to be like okay we're long distance or we're gonna take turns driving here

or it's okay if we're a little far away from each other or all that jazz you know the hardships that do come but when you guys like haven't even hung out maybe four or five six times and you are facing all these issues maybe it's just not it's not the right fit you know and that is okay that's all a part of dating you do not have to force things to work for you and in fact I encourage you not to force things to work for you and to open yourself up to allow things to behave naturally and to come to you naturally and to feel like the universe is actually working in your favor and presenting things in your favor those are the relationships that are like oh like I love those they are so enthralling they are so exciting okay so I say just cut it be like hey I don't

think this is gonna this is gonna work we just really haven't you know it's just the stars are not aligning and that is an okay normal fine thing to say in the dating aspect of things okay sometimes it just doesn't work out sometimes you got to cut ties and that's just the hard part of being an adult but it's a great thing to practice oh someone said just started smoking past packs because of you it's helping so much with my anxiety i love that oh my god i love that you guys are taking my my advice i promise it's not a placebo effect i'm for real about my past packs okay especially for my girlies who sent in a few questions and was like i get extreme anxiety with smoking but i'm i i like it's so infused in my day-to-day life that i don't know what to do

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put yourself out there and shoot your shot i'm i'm so scared of rejection here's the thing if you are afraid of rejection you wait around for everything to go right you are going to be waiting around for the rest of your life the rest of your life you will never get up and do anything ever you have to rip the band-aid off and understand that some people aren't going to like you some people aren't gonna vibe with you some jobs aren't gonna work out some things are not always going to go your way but guess what we call that character development okay it is absolutely okay and fine for other things to have a negative reaction when it comes to you we as human beings are not always going to mesh and vibe with everything around us we all have different tastes we all have different

interests we all have different life experiences it is all about putting yourself out there and attempting to find the people who are meant to be around you and that comes with a little bit of rejection okay you're not always going to be able to make people like you you're not always going to make things go your way but if you wait around for everything to work out correctly for you nothing is ever going to work out correctly for you because you're never putting yourself out there so rip the band-aid of rejection off get it over with just start trying okay the more you encounter it the easier it gets which i know is terrifying because you're like i'm gonna get rejected a hundred times and you know that's really gonna put me down it's like the first

time's gonna put you down but once you learn to not take it personally and understand that honestly nothing is ever personal if something works out for you works out for you if it doesn't work out for you it's just an obstacle to overcome and better yourself through that's how you not take it personal I guarantee there are people out there who you know want to love you want to be around you want to support you and it just takes time working through the people who don't in order to get to the people who do and you know it's a process for everybody sometimes people don't have to put in that much work some people sometimes people do have to put in more work than others um but it's all about the way you approach it and not being afraid to approach it rejection

is not somebody turning you down it's somebody turning you a different direction okay that's all it is someone asked how do you get better at eating healthy i'm a binge snacker will eat a fiesta size bag of chips listen snacking is fantastic snacking is amazing i don't believe in the three meals a day and i also don't believe in any of those fad diets i don't believe in intermittent fasting i don't believe in any of that shit eat something every three hours you will be happy and i'm not talking a giant meal every three hours i'm talking like a little snack every three hours that is the way that we as humans are made to eat and you are probably sitting here thinking like oh my god that's a lot of food it's not so in the morning you wake up you

have some yogurt three hours later maybe you make some eggs and toast three hours later maybe you make half a sandwich three hours later then you have like a little veggie snack tray three hours later then you have dinner three hours later then you have uh you know a snack before bed that is a very very healthy way to eat okay now you can't have a fiesta size bag of chips every snack but you can fit it in for a little bit of a snack every once in a while and then also that is a fantastic way to stop the binge eating cycle that i find myself in a lot where it's like i don't eat i don't eat i don't eat and then i'm just like so starving that i eat everything in sight allow yourself to eat okay every three hours put some sustenance in your body your brain will feel

better your muscles will feel better you'll have more energy your metabolism will be better we as humans are meant to eat allow yourself to eat okay i promise you're not gonna get in trouble you're not gonna get hurt it's not gonna make you a worse person food is nutrients okay the universe gave us this beautiful wonderful delicious food for us to indulge in so indulge a little bit little snacks every three hours it's like a grazing i like to consider it grazing okay you got to have little tiny things every once in a while to make sure you're not getting put over the edge or put under the edge someone asked shaving badge tutorial please um okay so best way is okay and i've also never got a um bikini wax i've never got a brazilian wax

anything like that but if you guys need field research let me know i'd be more than happy to go get one in order to let my girlies know how it is um i don't mind shaving uh i do have a bush love the bush makes shaving way easier because you know you leave the little landing strip bush part but then you shave the rest which is fantastic a you need something to shave with not a razor i'm talking a cream something gentle soft to moisturize the area i really recommend exfoliating either with a damp washcloth. I feel like that is a perfect exfoliator in order to loosen those hairs a little bit. I don't recommend a sugar scrub that close because I don't want you getting that sugar scrub inside of you. It's going to cause some nasty nastiness but on top and on

the inner thighs I think it's perfectly fine if you want to use a sugar scrub exfoliator but I think a wet damp washcloth is perfect enough just to you know loosen the hairs. Then you want some sort of moisturizing cream something to shave with whether it's a shaving cream uh coconut oil um yeah hair conditioner like listen it's hair you can use that i use hair conditioner on my legs i think it works perfectly um and then lastly or not even lastly you want a razor that has one of those moisturizing strips on the top the moisturizing strips on the top make or break a razor okay I used to think the men's like two blade razors were fantastic no they don't have the moisturizing strip on the top look for like they get like like really soggy wet like it's a

weird texture whenever they get wet you guys know what I'm talking about but and I think they're pretty much traditionally women's razors unfortunately um because men's razors are always cheaper but the women's razors with the thick moisturizing bar on the top that's what you want for shaving your vaheen. Okay, next, you shave with the grain. You do not shave against the grain when it comes to your vagina, okay? That's how you get severe ingrown hairs. That's how you get cuts and tears, whatever it may be. Shave with the grain. Sometimes it takes going over it once or twice whatever it may be shave with the grain you do not want ingrown hairs lastly you can put a hair oil down there when you're done you can moisturize down there a little bit when you're

done if you need um but the best thing you can honestly really do is not wear pants for like 12 hours afterwards okay no pants no underwear that's why i shave at night immediately go to bed don't have anything tight or uncomfortable pressed against you and also I don't shave down there every single day like I can shave my legs every single day you know if they grow but the more you shave down there the more irritated it's gonna get so give it like a good three day period in between shaving and that is the ultimate way to go okay last but not least someone brought up my Taylor Swift era which I think is so fucking funny um someone said I know in one of your old pods you talked about how you saw Taylor Swift front row that's insane do you still love Taylor

Swift how do you feel about her era's tour all Swifties rise up honestly little me is living for the fact that like everybody my age and in their 20s is like selling out Taylor Swift because when I was going when I was like 12 it was only other 12 year olds so I love that we all grew up and still love her that much um fan wise I have kind of fallen out of the loop just because other things have interested me more but I still have that deep love for her um I have you know I'm not going to the heiress tour I wish I was I think it would heal a lot of my inner child um it looks like so much fun i think you guys are all having a blast but yeah her concerts are always amazing they are a full-on fucking performance baby and when i was like 13 or 14 me and my friends were

headed to our nosebleeds and yeah some strange man pulled us aside and handed us front row tickets because she said she sells half the front row and then she saves half the front row to give away for free um and we were some of those lucky girlies and yeah we got to go for free and she was fantastic and after that performance I knew I could never see her again because it was like peak life experience I have I had the full Taylor Swift experience okay and I was good I was like I love it I'm going to let other Swifties go have their experience and you know live their Taylor Swift dream so I got my fill I hope you guys get your fill I hope you guys have so much fucking fun but yes I was a Taylor Swift girl through and through ever since I got my first DVD

of hers her like debut album when I was like 9k till like 18 I was obsessed with her um but yeah I love that she's kind of quote unquote coming back you know what I mean um everybody is in love with her and I'm really living for the energy they're providing her because it really is feeding inner Hannah inner young child Hannah so little water break right there with that being said I gotta get this podcast out to you guys I know I've made you wait long enough it's been a couple days it's almost three o'clock here I gotta go run some errands and I have so many more questions I needed to get to but hey we will be back together in a few days okay next Tuesday or this upcoming Tuesday I will be back with you guys to answer more and more and more of your

questions i'm so excited once again stay tuned for my 420 episode also follow my instagram there will be merch out on 420 not hoodies but still some very very fun merch um that i had in the works for the past few months hand designed by yours truly um but yeah follow my instagram at hannah marlene if you're interested in that and you know what i will see you guys so very soon Love you all so much.