Smoke Sesh - princess era, the power of energy, & I teach you how to get laid

Episode Date: April 30, 2024

Hello hotties and happy Tuesday! Im so excited to back with you all for another Smoke Sesh! Today is a fun and (per usual) chaotic episode for you all as we go through a question speed round! We talk what I've been up to and plans for the week, outfit details and vibes for the summer, hot girl confidence and how to love your body this summer, sandwich review, princess era and how im indulging, outdoorsy tips, facemask recommendations, prioritizing rest and relaxation, getting caught up with and getting over fuck boys, maybe you're the problem, credit cards, strip clubs, getting through it, bad haircuts, frontal lobe development and becoming mentally stable, crazy girl advice, nicotine is the devil, the problem with pick me's, change anxiety, wisdom teeth removal & story time, the boyfriend list, following your dreams, phone snooping, positive energy and the power of manifestation, graduation celebration, crush energy and how to harness it, strict parents and navigating getting in trouble, weed anxiety, I teach you how to get laid, good for now, age gap relationships plus much much much much much muchhhhh more! If you want to see more from me feel free to follow me on instagram @hannahmarlene and join the patreon for extra podcasts and content for you all at patreon.com/smokeseshshawty ! Love you all and see you all next week! MUAH!

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Visit ancestry.ca for details. Terms apply. listen everybody needs a fairy godmother you know just somebody to look out for them some people call me their fairy smoke mother others their internet big sister but you can call me hannah the host of smoke sash so come hang out let's light up and talk everything there is to life the good the bad the ugly the embarrassing i've got a story for it all hello hotties welcome back to another amazing beautiful wonderful hot and sexy episode of the podcast my name is hannah your host and i'm so excited to be back with you guys on this beautiful little tuesday afternoon i i am on the brink right now i am i'm on the brink but

we are in our healing era so I don't have time to scream and cry and yell and freak out no no no adulthood things um I just sat down and recorded a full two and a half hour episode and I recorded it in the wrong frame rate as you guys can tell by the last episode I fucked up okay it was giving 70s vhs it was giving scary videotape it was not the most gorgeous thing to observe with your eyes it was definitely a little grainy little scary um but hey sometimes you mess up it was the end of retrograde you really just gotta roll with it make the best of what you can and so that is what i did last week but then this week this week my dumb ass did the same exact fucking thing so instead of uploading you know it was a good podcast it was

a good podcast funny laugh haha great time good podcast but the fucking video quality was so bad i just could not upload it for you guys usually i just do the best with what i can and put it out there but i'm a grown woman with a grown woman podcast and i don't want to be putting out content that is not just the best that i possibly can so we're gonna redo that two and a half hours you guys it is two o'clock in the afternoon i have yet to smoke probably also why i'm on the brink um i was really just rolling off of caffeine for that first episode so cheers let's hit this i have a jersey mike sub on the way currently it is about to be delivered we'll munch a little bit live on the podcast it'll be great we'll get some food in us some weed in us life is good I promise it is

not worth ending you just have to feed yourself and take a deep breath and things will be okay so let's do that real quick before we dive into all of your questions hopefully I didn't hit the pen so hard that I go non-verbal you know I had big plans for the day i was gonna get my podcast done me and my boyfriend were gonna go out to lunch get lunch go buy some flowers go buy some dirt i was gonna redo my whole entire front balcony um just kind of get some life out there get some new patio furniture one of my main goals this spring is to really spend more time outside and spending time outside doesn't have to be hard sometimes you can just do it from the comfort of your own home you don't necessarily have to like

be in the woods becoming one with the moss on the forest floor you can just step outside your front door like it doesn't have to be the most extreme case scenario sometimes it's just like my getting outside for the day was having my morning coffee out on my patio but i gotta make it a little bit more warming welcoming inviting my landlord is kind of a g and he dropped off some like planters for me he was offering like a discount on rent like get a hundred dollars off in spring and fall if you plant flowers outside and I'm like okay say no more I'm on it I got you so that was the plan for today because it's been raining all week and I haven't really been able to do anything other than redo and redecorate the inside and now that it's sunny and 85 oh my god I

want to be outside I want to redirect redecorate out there I'm actually filming a current bedroom makeover video on youtube so go subscribe i believe it's at smokes at shawty on youtube i think you can look up hannah marlene as well uh thank you for all the love on the 420 video go watch it if you haven't i'm hoping to have more like diy vlogs hang out with me videos up on there so currently i am redoing my bedroom because listen when i'm off in edible at 2 a.m i do not want to feel like I'm in a psych ward I want to feel like I'm in my comfy cozy princess tower and it was giving a little bit too much psych ward we had to stop redo and I wanted to put into a video for you guys so I was gonna go get some flowers some plants I think that's on pause

I think that's the plan for tomorrow today and tomorrow the days I record which are Monday Tuesday are kind of like my Saturday Sunday so I really do try and take advantage of it as much as I can and really just make sure I'm doing everything I want to do which it's hard to fit as many things into it as you possibly can but hey all you can do is really try am I right ladies am I right anyways yeah instead of having a literal mental breakdown over the podcast why not pause take a deep breath if I can fucking breathe and take it as a moment of opportunity to maybe just try harder maybe just do more so that's exactly what I'm gonna do sometimes you gotta roll with the punches it's not necessarily a punch you want to happen but it's one that you

can handle I pinky promise so with that being said not much to catch you guys up on I love you all so much thank you for being here so excited to be back with you all on this beautiful tuesday um since i missed out on a lot of questions last week uh because of my 420 story not clickbait a lot of you guys love that episode which made me laugh i need to do more story times aka i just need to leave my house more often but then shit like that happens and i'm like maybe i don't want to leave my house anyways that was really fun but i didn't get to a lot of questions because i forgot to upload the questionnaire. This week I uploaded the questionnaire and I did an extra questionnaire last week just to kind of get a few things as I was recording. So I have a lot of questions to

get through, approximately like 2,500 questions. So we're going to make this just like a mega awesome speed round for you guys and we're just going to get through as many as possible, as many topics as many conversations as many bad boyfriends as many bad highs as many worries that you guys have on your mind we're going to get to everything today so strap in strap on buckle up take a hit get your drink get your meal and let's get into it outfit of the day is giving xanax housewife um for my audio listeners i am in this cute little red gingham matching set not really matching set cherry red off the shoulder sexy slinky top and then cherry red gingham capris love a capri this summer i've been investing in a lot of capris very interesting very 2007 of me

um but this is from urban outfitters not sponsored i don't think they would ever sponsor me but it is sponsored by my shopping addiction but I realized this summer and spring like the vibes outfit wise that I want to put out there is like country slut like midwest princess like yes this girl was raised around cornfields and she's proud of that like she leans into it you know the cut off denim shorts with tall leather boots like the the budweiser oversized shirt with holes on in it and like mini denim shorts it's giving like lana del rey all american summer i'm kind of all about that like yes i need a 7-eleven slurpee in my hand and i need to be standing on the side of the road that is the energy i'm trying to put out there this summer and i feel like this outfit just

really encapsulates that so that's very hot and sexy of me anyways one of you guys asked hot girl summer around the corner need some body positivity advice okay great question love it let's get into it I feel like there's a three tips like actual tips that I can give you in your everyday life that will help and the first one is like step the fuck away from the mirror you do not need to be observing yourself that hard in fact you're squishing yourself under the microscope and I know that shit don't feel good like step away from the mirror when I'm two inches away from the mirror of course I'm gonna see every imperfection every wrinkle every gaping hole sized pore on my face and it's not gonna feel good and I'm not gonna feel good about myself

but when I don't scrutinize myself under that microscope and I take a step back and I simply observe the characteristics and move on my life is so much easier so much easier my skin's better I feel better about myself I feel like my relationship with myself is better you have to remove yourself from the microscope okay stop observing yourself so much and I understand it's hard because like we are a soul inside of our body like our body is connected to our soul there is no getting rid of our body or changing bodies and there is beauty in that and there's beauty in all of us being different completely and utterly different but it is like a relationship that I think especially in your 20s and as you are developing into a woman i feel like a lot of

women prioritize relationship with other people and men when they need to be prioritizing relationships with themselves and with their bodies and honoring their womanhood in the sense of simply accepting and uplifting um so yeah stop observing yourself so fucking closely stop hyper fixating on the little things stop staring in your at yourself in the mirror that long and observing yourself from a third person party it's not gonna feel good it's not but once you free yourself and remove yourself from the observer and simply as the exister your life is gonna get so much better and you become the exister by simply experiencing what a body can do okay the very basics of it I'm not talking what a body can do in the aesthetics of it all as in like how do I

look how am I perceived all that blah blah blah I'm talking about moving getting up walking stretching going for a run or lifting weights if you're fucking crazy enough but like moving your body as it is a body utilizing your body as a body rather than a form of like fitting in and a form of aesthetics remove the aesthetics from your body and just experiencing it as a body brings so much appreciation towards it like simply doing a 15 minute yoga stretch every morning had me accepting my body in ways that I could have never done like through a thought process simply experiencing it and giving appreciation for it as like a form of movement and as a vessel for my soul really really helped me heal and reconfigure how I think about a body instead of like oh this

is how it looks and I'm not good enough because I don't look like this and I don't fit in society like this it's like oh no I can breathe and I can move and I can stretch and I can walk outside and that's amazing and I am so appreciative of that and I'm appreciative of every moment that my body gives me honestly healthy or unhealthy you know what I mean like we're out here doing our best so stop viewing it as like a commodity and view it as a home you know give thanks move in ways that are utilizing the experience of having a body and that doesn't necessarily have to be working out i think pleasure also goes hand in hand with this i think people who have a very close relationship and positive relationship with their body experience a lot of physical pleasure

um because like duh of course if you're experiencing physical pleasure from your body you're gonna feel better about it your body feels better physically your brain feels better physically and like uh oh no not another fucking bitch telling you to work out to feel better you i'm unsubscribing that's not what i'm saying well kind of unfortunately sometimes the workout baddies are correct and like the endorphins you get after like going on a walk outside or going on a run or lifting weights or simply doing like a 10 minute yoga stretch like they're the science behind it is true i am not an anti-sciencer you have to believe in science and when your body releases these endorphins from moving it has a correlation with you feeling better not only

mentally but also physically another thing another little pro tip is allow yourself to be a body do you know what i mean so the first was take yourself out from under the microscope stop scrutinizing yourself so much step away for a second stop the hyper fixation two is allow yourself to interact with your body as a body and not as a commodity three is experience what it is like to live in your body as a body as in like and i've talked about this before if you a few of you guys have dm'd me recently and been like honestly this tip really helped me and it sounds weird but trust me there is a science behind the madness and it is just like being naked okay i feel like especially when we like hyper fixate on something we also have a tendency to kind of like dissociate

from it as well and I think I've done this in particular and I didn't realize I was doing this until I met my boyfriend who was a caveman who would be naked all the time if he could um that like it's okay to just exist in your body and allow it to be a body and allow yourself to like have roles have stretch marks be a body without scrutiny you know anyways my third tip is like just allow yourself to be naked and find comfortability in being naked i'm like the crazy people who are in like nudist communities i'm like kind of valid like i get it like if you are constantly dissociating from your body because you're over analyzing it over consuming it and then when it comes to interacting with it you just dissociate or like you're always in an oversized

t-shirt you're always covering yourself up you don't want to connect with your body in that sort of way you're gonna have a hard time building a good relationship with it um and i think a really great way to practically build a good relationship with it without having to like really focus on your thoughts rather than the relationship with yourself is just being naked in your apartment literally my caveman of a boyfriend when we first met we were naked together just constantly also we were on a lot of mushrooms but we were just constantly around each other and like you know naked because we would we would do what two people do when they're in love and then instead of me like over fixating on my body directly after that and like putting on clothes and covering up I was

with someone who was comfortable with himself and he was comfortable just like being naked around me and enjoying time together and cuddling like there was no need to just move on immediately it was like know let's experience let's let our bodies be bodies and just appreciate each other for that and that that changed a lot about how I viewed my body just allowing myself to be naked and be comfortable in my nakedness not over observing honestly not observing at all just allowing myself to be great way to connect also please have your windows closed when you're doing this like do please don't put on a free show oh my god i was redoing i'm redoing my bedroom you know um along the wall we have these huge windows that overlook to another apartment complex next door

and for a while we were like we don't think anybody lives next door because like our when our windows are like this close together like you they can see in here for sure and we we should be able to see in there but their blinds are always closed always completely closed completely dark in there and i'm like i don't think anybody lives there for a while we were like we really don't think anybody lives there I think that whole apartment is empty we were in the bedroom the other day like reorganizing rearranging and I look out the window and one of the singular blinds is like tucked open as if someone is peering into our bedroom and I was like oh no someone definitely lives there whether they're like a peeping tom and they're looking out the window or they're just

like is it clear either way someone definitely lives there but please close your blinds if you're gonna just like be naked anywhere i'm definitely the naked neighbor and i do not mean to be um yeah i think just allowing yourself to be a body exist as a body move as a body without scrutiny and without putting all these aesthetics and labels onto it will free you so much last thing the most confident fucking people i know they're not confident because they fit these aesthetics they're not confident because they look a certain way they're not confident because they have this certain thing that society presents as a need they are confident to me because they love themselves and they think they're cool how you feel about yourself will

have a direct reflection with how people feel about you has nothing to do with how you look has nothing to do with the aesthetics of it all or the societal fit in whatever it may be and has everything to do with how they carry themselves and how they feel about themselves the most confident people I know have completely different styles completely different aesthetics completely different ways of carrying themselves expressing themselves but the one key ingredient to their confidence is they simply have a good relationship with themselves like they have confidence and trust in themselves and they exude that and when you exude that other people believe it what you think about yourself other people are subconsciously picking up on as well when you are when we're

hunched over and we're quiet and we're closed off and we're not making eye contact and we're not wearing clothes we like and we're not expressing ourselves in ways we like the world is not going to want to approach us we seem very unapproachable probably because we don't even want to fucking approach ourselves but when you start building that relationship with yourself and this is probably the best tip that i could give anybody in their young 20s or in their 20s at all as you are trying to quote unquote figure out yourself focus on building a relationship with yourself and a good relationship with yourself if you want to be confident and hot and sexy you just have to believe you are and to believe you are you need to build that relationship with yourself and be

comfortable within yourself okay so focus on you not too much but focus on your relationship with you and building a good friendship you have to treat yourself like a friend the way to build a good friendship is literally by behaving as a friend to yourself are you constantly putting yourself aside and pleasing other people are you constantly you know demeaning yourself and pushing yourself down are you subconsciously acting on behaviors that you know are not good for you are you giving into things that you know you don't want to do or are not good for you or healthy for you in any sort of way guess what you're not gonna have a good fucking friendship with that person that sounds like a bad friend so you need to behave in the same way you would a good friend

to yourself in turn that will build confidence and trust in yourself and in turn you will exude confidence and trust to the world we are the energy we inhibit if you inhibit negativity and mean-spiritedness towards yourself people will think that's okay to do to you and in turn the world will push that towards you so believe you deserve good believe you deserve peace believe in yourself trust in yourself um take yourself out from under the fucking microscope and allow yourself to exist i feel like that is the best way to exude hot girl confidence this summer specifically when it comes to your body there is no perfect person there is no perfect shape there is no perfect aesthetic the hottest thing you can do for yourself is believe you're

hot and allow yourself to be yourself period oh my god my jerseys mic sub is here i have never had jersey mics let's do an unboxing you guys want to know the most perfect stoner food literally a fat sandwich for 420 my like recipe for the week was a scooby-doo sandwich which was humongous um it was actually too large but it was super fun to make because like damn those sandwiches looked so fucking good on scooby-doo let's be real i've never had jersey mics before but i've seen so many videos recently on jersey mics whenever i don't know what i want to eat i just look up hashtag mukbang on any social media platform that i'm on and then i just see what i'm craving but i've been seeing oh okay unboxing not to make you guys hungry i've just been seeing

so many jersey mike subs and this looks so good so cheers i'm also a sandwich connoisseur unfortunately i love a subway but honestly this is like an elevated subway i'm gonna rate it um i'm gonna rate it a solid like 9.2 out of 10 i think the best sandwich i ever had was from chiba hut in denver shout out to chiba hut um but that is literally a sandwich place for stoners like of course they get it but this place is impressive okay i'm shocked anyways okay well this podcast has been a full swing of emotions not me getting on here being like i'm gonna freak out things aren't going as planned you know what bowl smoked sandwich devoured water had life's good you know life is worth living listen you don't need to die you just need a nap

a bowl and a sandwich girl you will be okay i promise anyways also not to push the pen propaganda to you all sorry for smoking that in the beginning i just feel like when i smoke bowls on here youtube is like no no so the pen was an easy hit just to take in the beginning also was the first fucking thing I could just grab and hit in that very moment your girl needed anything and that was gonna work but oh my god the holes that are forming in my brain because of the pen are insane the reason I get on here and I will speak a full sentence and you will probably be listening and being like girl that made no fucking sense is because of the dab cards I had in high school now to be fair the ones I'm smoking now versus the ones I'm smoking in high school are

are completely fucking different things like honestly the ones i was the the booth carts the gas station carts i was smoking in high school were like half vegetable oil half food coloring half dirt from the ground like not good for you and the reason why my brain doesn't function correctly um these obviously not the same but way stronger i have noticed my tolerance has like skyrocketed completely because of them because i'm basically taking dabs all day and my brain is starting to shrink so unfortunately as easy as the dab pen is i'm still a hater um of it and i understand why so many of you guys have a hard time with it because damn it's like oh it's there should i should i no anyways i think i'm gonna force my boyfriend

to take me on a hike this afternoon since it's just so nice out and i've been inside podcasting all day which love no hate but I didn't get to do any planting this afternoon and I need to get in nature or I'm going to lose my mind hey pretty hacks for smelling classy and clean and rich suggestions I love you so this Taurus season I'm very much so in my princess era which means my focus has completely shifted so the New York Aries season Venus planet of love was kind of an opposition of Aries or Venus doesn't feel comfortable in Aries whatsoever but Venus in Taurus which is Taurus season happy Taurus season queens we are in our eleganza our rich our princess era okay Venus loves being in Taurus and this season is all about like finding elegance

and the little things having a good coffee getting in the sunshine smelling good brushing your hair indulging in like the classy things in life like the things that are easily overlooked finding pleasure in them and indulging in pleasure and getting pleasure out of it quite frankly all the Tauruses I know are some of the most princessy people like hard-headed of course but it's because they know what they want and they don't deserve anything less and that's the exact kind of feeling we should be carrying into the season oh my god the other day i tweeted that in my princess era saying no i don't wanna lounging in my gowns locked away in my tower combing my hair like that is the energy of the season and this question completely reflects that because of course you're

trying to figure out like how to smell the best you possibly can i entered this phase where i was like okay my physical care is at what it needs to be but i want to get into like princessy levels of physical care i was reading about queen cc i think that's her name um she had this crazy crazy crazy long hair and they would spend like two days washing her hair and combing it all out and braiding it up like that's how much time she devoted simply to caring for her hair her hair was so long that it would give her constant migraines so she would take it and tie it up in bows dangling from the ceiling so it was tied up away from her face taking weight off of her head like just like crazy levels of self-care and innovation and just thinking about yourself

in a uplifting way that i'm like i love anyways i hyper fixated on like how do i make my skin so soft my hair so soft and how do i make myself smell good and there's one product i could recommend right now which is the glossier dry touch body oil in the mist i think you can get it in just like the pump um oil but i have found that a slightly scented body oil is the best way to feel elegant refreshed and reborn every single moment of your life if you're afraid of smelling bad getting a scented body oil and putting it on every day like there's no way you smell bad because you just massaged oil into your skin that is the scent of fresh jasmine flowers bitch how are you gonna smell bad or be ugly you know this is also kind of like a self-love ritual i do

every day um i've found that when i'm not taking the time to bond with myself in some sort of way every single day i start dissociating from myself and then i the connection becomes a loss with myself i think taking intentional time to spend time with yourself and to honor yourself every single day is really important um and it's like a love spell in itself and the easiest way to do that is when you're just like at the end of your day showering doing your everyday basics basic necessities to a elevated level so a having a daily perfume i think is a great way to build like a sense of identity around yourself and how you want to be perceived i think a perfume is so nice to have or like a nice scented lotion um oiling my body and oiling my hair and deep conditioning

my hair every night and taking the time to be mindful about the time i spend with myself and you know verbalizing uplifting words of encouragement and giving gratuity to myself it is just it's really strengthened my relationship with myself made me really appreciate who i am and what my body provides for me as well as appreciating my beauty and honoring that in ways that i desire um and it is just like very much so princess it's giving locked away in her tower energy and i love that i'm obsessed with it but yeah glossier body oil i think it's really great just like every day uh body oil and it smells amazing it's just so clean and fresh and gorgeous and something i recommend for everybody but that is how i every day smell clean classy

and rich is with my daily perfumes and just like a little bit of body body oil but if you want to get in your princess era as well i think it is all about just becoming so self-obsessed with yourself so self-uplifting grateful and leaning into the pleasure of everyday life don't stray from pleasure in this tourist season at all lean towards love always someone's trying to be a hiking girly this summer shoe wrecks plus how to enjoy more time outside um investing yeah in good shoes and good workout clothing i think it's a great way to kind of enjoy outside more a you're gonna just be more comfortable and more confident in nature than if you were in like a pair of platform docs and ripped jean shorts like it's okay put on the athletic clothes put on the hiking shoes i just

got some old repurposed hiking shoes from ebay i don't think there's like a specific shoe out there that is better than others just simply being intentional about getting outdoorsy shoes is all you have to be intentional about i picked mine based off the look and i got them for like 25 bucks on ebay um they were just like lightly used hiking boots any hiking boot will do but to enjoy being outside more i feel like outside of course i enjoy but having clothes that i'm gonna be comfortable in while moving around outside like even if i'm sweating it's not like super uncomfortable um and bug spray so then you're not afraid of like getting eaten up outside literally the amount of bug bites i have right now i'm like that is the next thing i need to

invest in to be comfortable because they are after me struggling to find fragrance free and effective face masks not aztec clay oh i hate aztec clay it's literally so drying on my face i wish my face could handle it but it does great job on my pores because it's just drying out my entire face my two favorite face masks that i can use pretty often and keep them in the rotation are the a if you want something similar to the aztec clay face mask i talk about this a lot you guys know the old henriksen gold plunge boar mask i think anyways it's soft it's soothing it has that same green color as that aztec clay it's doing the same properties it's just less drying less abrasive on my skin um 10 out of 10 recommend i use it all the time i use it like once every

other week number two is honestly and I'm very picky about my face masks and not sponsored by anything ever unfortunately but loops I know you guys have heard of loops they sent me their face masks I'll be real they sent me their face masks about a year ago and I flew through those fucking face masks usually I don't wear sheet masks because they have fragrance in them they're gonna have like additives that are just not going to work with my skin sometimes simply what the mask is made of like that sheet material makes my skin sensitive literally she is so picky unfortunately but i gotta work with her because i love her um but the loops face mask it's like this jelly consistency they have a bunch of different types but i found that it's actually

very soothing to my face and my face loves them um i've been meaning to go buy some more actually because I think they're a perfect like refreshing face mask my friend keeps hers in her fridge so when she puts it on it's like cooling refreshing a nice like post outside summer face mask but those are kind of my two favorite for sensitive and effective fragrance free face masks someone said I feel guilty if I'm not working towards my goals 24 7 how can I learn to slow down a bit me me as fuck if i'm not like constantly in fight or flight mode when it comes to whatever work i'm doing i feel like i'm being unproductive and then i start panicking even more and that's a really unhealthy mindset to get to the like grind or die mindset will kill you

you have to focus on other things every once in a while just so you can keep maintaining that grind mindset like if you want to be able to actually achieve your goals it's not going to come from pushing yourself so hard that you burn out and in turn lose all your passion. It's going to come from pushing yourself hard, taking a little break, stepping away, pushing yourself hard, taking a break, stepping away, pushing yourself hard, taking a break, stepping away. That's what's going to come from, and if you don't allow yourself to take those breaks and to step away for your mental health, for your sanity, for your physical health, you're not going to be able to continue to do it it's not going to be a healthy sustainable way to live at all so so i would say you're just

doing more harm than good and once you start seeing um rest as a form of continuation as a form of i'm i'm still working forward even though i'm taking a rest because my future self is going to be able to do the best that she possibly can because i'm allowing her to take a break right now in turn i feel like that really soothed my like lock in grind or die mindset so it's okay to slow down it's okay to take those breaks understand you're still working towards the future when you are taking those breaks you're not stepping away you are just allowing yourself to rest reboot so you can keep moving someone said fucked my ex on the full moon am i cursed forever yeah i'm kidding listening listen sometimes you all make mistakes that's okay it was on the full moon maybe

hopefully so you can realize it ain't worth it and move on for the rest of your life when west jet first took flight in 1996 the vibes were a bit different people thought denim on denim was peak fashion inline skates were everywhere and two out of three women rocked the rachel while those things stayed in the 90s one thing that hasn't is that fuzzy feeling you get when west jet welcomes you on board here's to west jetting since 96 travel back in time with us and actually travel with us at westjet.com slash 30 years. So, I just, I feel so miserable right now because I broke up with my boyfriend two months ago

and ever since he wanted to get back with me but I told him that I would only ever go back to him if he changed, if he changed his habits, the way he treats me because he was treating me absolutely so horrible and I told him that he needs to change in order to for us to get together again but he didn't and i know that he still really cares about me because he has told me multiple times that i'm the only one like that understands him that

gets him that he feels so comfortable around me that he has never met uh a woman like me before and but now like this week he has been hanging out a lot with a girl he used to have like a situation with and he i heard that at several parties he was like fooling around with fooling around with other girls and you know not having sex or anything but just flirting with them and other stuff and i don't know i just feel so horrible knowing that i don't know if i don't know if he does that just to numb himself after the breakup because i didn't want to take him back or maybe he just wants to forget about me and tries to do that through girls or maybe he just doesn't give a fuck about me and he just is fooling around with other girls

because he has forgotten about me but he was telling me so many good things after the breakup that he really cares and wants to be with me but after i told him that he needs to change and i'm not taking him back right now he like i don't know what do you think and how what can i do to make myself feel better and not think about it because i'm constantly thinking about what is he doing with them are they fucking i don't know does he care about them more than he cares about me i don't know i don't know oh babe okay first of all baddie you seem like a baddie love that you had your boundaries love you that you stood by them love that you left him because that's what baddies do when things aren't working out that's okay that's okay sometimes you gotta leave

fantastic fine love you um sounds like you got caught up with a fuck boy and that oh it sucks it's the worst because you're like well they said they'd change well they said they'd do this well they said but they said listen men love to talk they love to talk they love to say one day maybe they love to say all these things but if their actions are not directly reflecting what they're saying then they don't mean it they're just lying to you that's a lie they are just trying to get their way men love to talk they love to talk their way into things don't let them you always have to trust the actions because if the actions were true to what he was saying he would have changed he wouldn't be he wouldn't be out talking to all these other women he'd be trying to do better

for you he'd be showing up for you but he's not because he doesn't actually believe the things he said also he doesn't want to not change because you're not good enough he doesn't want to change because he likes being evil like men don't want to change because they don't give a fuck they're okay with being awful humans and sometimes you just gotta let awful people be awful people but you don't need that in your vicinity you know you deserve a boyfriend who's gonna love care for you show up for you and every single way possible you know what i mean oh my god you know what i wrote in my notes app this weekend i said you might love him but can you call him in times of need can he change your tire will he help you okay because a lot of these men out here they

love you for the love of it all but they're not actually like in love with you they're not here to help you they just want the benefits of what come around you and not the problems I love my man because this week I went to like a spiral like a mental spiral of like I have lice I don't I probably have like a dry scalp or something but I was like fully convinced that I have lice like I can feel them crawling on my head there's no lice there I'm just insane um and when I finally came to him and I was like babe I think I have lice he like sat me down and he combed through my hair with me and looked at it until I felt comfortable enough he's like no baby you don't have lice and I'd be like well check here he's like no there's no lice

like I like I'm just insane you know but he's sweet enough that he's like let me sit down let me help her through this let me be there for her and her manic times and it sounds like this man's not going to be there for you so no need for you to be there for him you need to go out go experience life go enjoy go forget about this man okay because he's out making chaos of his life and sometimes when people want to ruin their lives you just got to let them go be a good girlfriend for a good boyfriend because that's what you deserve you know relationship needs to be equal and you can't put in all the work without somebody else also putting in work anyways i love you sorry baddie sorry you got caught up with a fuck boy it happens please remember that words need to

match actions okay and if they are talk talk talk talking but they're not showing you how they actually feel and what they actually mean then they're lying to you how to get out of a fixed mindset not being stuck in my ways stubbornness etc you have to understand that you are the only person getting in your way do you know what i mean like once you start viewing it like that and not a i'm the victim it's like a no i'm the victim but i'm the victim of myself mentality it's a little bit easier to understand and to break down and then notice when you're in those patterns or notice when you're in those behaviors like when you start seeing yourself like no maybe i am the villain you'll be able to recognize villainous activity is villainous a word

villain villainous right anyways you are the problem sometimes that's okay the only way to not become the problem anymore is to recognize and redirect is getting a credit card a recipe for disaster um it depends yes for some people and no for some people and i guess it depends on how impulsive you are my parents put the fear of god into me about credit cards like they were like do not ever get one they are the devil and honestly for a very impulsive spender that is probably exactly what they needed to tell me because if I were to get a credit card at 18 oh I would have maxed out like four of them by then like you should have seen the student loans I fucking took out could you imagine if I had a credit card on me and it was like a $2,500 limit

10k limit like oh my god I would have been going insane so thank god I didn't get one when I was in like a very impulsive age but now i'm 24 and i'm like oh no to be an adult in america means you have to learn how to play the money game like the older you get you'll realize you have to play the money game i say spend your early 20s um focusing on i mean like don't put yourself in any precarious money situations but focus on like your relationship to yourself and your relationship to the world and then like the middle to the end of your 20s i say that's when you really need to start focusing on your finances and like the little things about it unfortunately we don't have free health care I'm like wow I knew my frontal lobe was developing when I started worrying

about health care who am I but then I turned like 24 and I'm like oh my god I have no credit because I'm scared of credit cards and I never got one and to be a person in America you need credit I have to build credit if I want to buy a house if I want to do all these things so finally got a credit card I say if you're a very impulsive person this is how you do credit cards there's tips there's tricks you'll see so many reddit threads about how to do a perfect credit card i i just this is what i do and it works for me and it is the very basic level of necessity to owning a credit card without any extra input if i want to put extra input in the future fantastic but i gotta get this down before i can move on before i can do anything crazy is got a credit

card out i don't even know the limit i don't need to know the limit every time i go to the gas station to get gas i put my gas on the credit card that is it auto pay is turned on so it gets paid on time right before credit report goes out so it shows i don't have a balance so it shows i'm caught up on everything and i only spend it on gas because i'm only going to spend a certain fucking amount of money on gas i don't want to spend a lot of money on gas okay i go there maybe two times a month if i have to i don't have to drive a lot thank god but maybe two times a month if i have to what is that like 60 bucks i only spend 60 bucks a month on my credit card but at least it's showing usage and it's getting paid off in time and i'm not spending money i don't have

i think number one thing i can give anybody financially advice is do not spend money you don't have you will regret it anyways i guess shout out to my parents who are putting the fear of god into me about credit cards because i would have been crazy if i was younger um i'm glad i I do regret not having the best credit well it's not awful it's just like beginner credit you know what I mean um but I know I'll get there so I'm just happy I'm doing it healthily period thoughts on men and relationships going to strip clubs I'm crazy so I'm against it I would freak the fuck out um because why and also if you're gonna go spend money on another woman I better be getting 10 times that amount of money direct deposited into my bank account that's just how i

feel do you know what i mean like it's fine if it's a server it's fine if that but if it's like a sexual thing listen listen i'm not about it you can call me crazy you can call me controlling you can call me whatever you want i call it boundaries i call it i don't need to lose my fucking mind and i don't need to go insane so that doesn't need to happen ever you know what i mean um but yeah i say everybody has different boundaries some couples go to strip clubs together listen love strippers you guys are so talented you guys need to run it up get your money in this house we are pro strippers we are pro strippers okay but my man doesn't need to be there my man doesn't okay i'd go it's like an all-female strip club support women support

small businesses but my man does not need to be there call me crazy but listen i would never someone's like going through hardships but proud of myself for going through it period sometimes the only way out is through and you might as well make it easier on yourself by being kind and getting through the best you can then by freaking out constantly and putting yourself down stressing yourself out about it be a good friend hold your own hand walk your way through it you'll get to the other side i promise someone said i hate hate hate my boyfriend's new haircut here's the thing i think and hairdressers tell me if this is true or not i have a theory that hairdressers cut your hair shorter than you ask because they know in like a week or so it's gonna

grow out and it's gonna grow to the actual length you want but you gotta give a haircut like you gotta give a haircut like a good week or so to work itself out i feel like that's very normal when it comes to haircuts um but i say give it a week you know girl give it a week see if you know you start to feel it out after then start to get used to it after then if not get him a really cool hat you know like hey babe i got you something i'd be so mad i'd be pissed if i get a haircut my boyfriend comes home and he's like I got you a really cool hat I'd be like okay I'm jumping off my front balcony jokes jokes laughs funny how to be more woman and less girl uh my frontal lobe is finally developing oh my gosh listen I thought I was insane no I was just under the age of 25

I was just my brain was still developing of course I was going crazy girl she don't know what going what's going on because she's not there yet you know what I mean I'm about to turn 25 June 1st I think I'm gonna do like a drink with me episode that'll be fun for my birthday pop some champagne things like that as I'm getting older the more I'm realizing like oh my god no life does get easier they were right who would have thought I didn't but now I can and that's why life gets easier honestly I was really afraid for this birthday like I was afraid for 18 did not think i was gonna make it past that at all at all hot mess express and then i was in my early 20s and i'm like okay well we made it love that we're we're in it for the long haul we're staying

thank god okay god bless we came to that realization but now i don't know what the fuck i'm doing at all and i'm an adult question mark you're not alone everybody feels that way it's your early 20s you have no clue what's going on very normal very natural but then your prefrontal lobe starts to develop and you're like oh my god i can do this i can think things are good i am calm i am level-headed who would have fucking thought and i feel like to be more woman and less girl is to simply be confident and comfortable in yourself and your thoughts and the way you express yourself it's a there's a level-headed understanding about everything and that's what brings the woman-ness it's the calmness it's the like high priestess energy that

you step into out of the chaos and I promise it does happen no matter how crazy you think you're going trust me girl we've been there psych ward we've been there like I thought never getting better it does it does i promise but yeah i feel like with woman there is more like level-headed understanding thought clarity and appreciation for the world around you someone said x changed her profile pic to her and my dog that's insane right yes after an apology text from her um you know what i would do is i would go online and i'd find like a free pdf of like a cease and desist and then i would make it out to be like a cease and desist for her until she takes that fucking photo down from instagram that is what i would do like even if it's not real i think it'd

just be so funny to be like yes i saw it and yes i made a cease and desist like if she's trying to get crazy why don't you get crazier you know someone said uh-oh got addicted to vaping again better than cigs i guess question mark i don't know i feel like vaping is worse than cigs because you're not gonna smoke like a whole pack of cigs a day the way you would smoke like a entire you could kill like an entire vape that's like three packs um you're probably gonna smoke like a couple because you can only do it at certain times in certain places you know like you're not gonna light up a cig in bed i'm at like 8 a.m i mean maybe but like the way you're going to hit that vape every single second is not comparable to the way you would smoke a cigarette

i do know a great way to quit if you are having a trouble having trouble but don't want to get off a vape completely is slowly lowering the nicotine percentage so like every two weeks like lower a little bit go by a little bit lower and a little bit lower until it's like such a low percent that it's basically non-existent and then do the non-existent one for like a couple months just to get the hand-to-mouth coordination um and then slowly i think you'll just stop craving it and wean yourself off of it naturally it's like when a parent has a binky i was a binky kid i would like had a binky until i was like two and to get my to get me unaddicted to the binky bitches you're addicted to a vape like that's a binky okay but to get me unaddicted to the binky is my parents

like the little nib they slowly cut off a little bit and a little bit more rubber until it was just not there and i couldn't use it anymore and it worked so i feel like vaping can it can be the same exact way also zinning zinning is now a thing talk about another new nicotine addiction please do not zen you guys you're just dipping like not the making dipping popular like what that's insane you ain't a midwestern country girl until you have a uncle who dips and you get his dip cup confused with a cup of coca-cola and have the worst experience of your life like like dipping is crazy i cannot believe these people are doing it also it gives you a receding gum line it your teeth are gonna you're gonna smile and it's gonna look like something out of

like a reddit creepypasta post like you're gonna look like a jump scare photograph please do not zen your gums are gonna recede your teeth are gonna be crazy and sensitive and you won't be able to eat anything you're gonna gum disease like it is not worth it i cannot believe that has become so popular like if you're gonna smoke a vape i guess smoke a vape but also like try and wean yourself off if you can i feel like lowering the percentages really really helps um just to make it easier on your brain advice on having a friend who is low-key a pick me love you girl oof it's hard because trying to think of like the friends that i've had that ended up being pick me's and i'm like we're not friends anymore and guess what it's because they didn't pick me

they always pick somebody else or you know what i mean and it was never them picking themselves that's fine fantastic it's always picking somebody else um i feel like a lot of pick me girls it sucks to be in that mindset because it's like you cannot find peace within yourself so you think you'll find it through the appreciation of other people but you will never find the appreciation through other people because that's only like a momentary satisfaction whereas in appreciation for yourself is like a lifelong satisfaction so they're constantly going to be on the lookout for the next hit of attention for the next hit of dopamine for the next hit of appreciation and it's not a sustainable way to live and i feel like the people around them always get caught

in the crossfires and it is just not fun not fun it's not a fun mindset to be around because it'll always be like me last when i'm in a friendship like ever spending time together i don't ever want to ever be put in a predicament where it's like you threw me under the bus to appease somebody else that is just like not fair for anybody involved and it's kind of like the biggest heartbreak ever for any person to experience um and yeah i don't know i just never felt safe around pick me's and it's so hard i feel like a good friend can call you out classily and like give it to you straight and a good friend should be able to receive that information and understand appreciate the friend for coming forward and make adequate changes

um but if you're like hey girl this behavior i don't feel like you're uplifting yourself through it or appreciating the friendship and maybe putting me down i feel like you should be able to come to your friend like that and they should be able to receive and understand um but if not i think it's okay to distance yourself from pick me's i've just been put in many a dangerous situation for a ugly male's attention that i did not want to be put in and it is just not fun at all luckily I'm level-headed and aggressive enough to get myself out of those situations but I think back on younger Hannah who was a little bit more of a people pleaser and I'm like would she have made it out safe do you know what I mean so stay safe

not to like get scary there but like I think it is important who you surround yourself with and if you find yourself being put in situations that are unsafe it's okay to distance yourself from people who are maybe putting themselves in unsafe situations for male attention um but also always call your friends out healthily but i think people are afraid of like telling their friends how they truly feel and they just let resentment build up until it completely bubbles up and explodes and then it's just like the whole relationship goes up in flames like it's okay to tell your friends when you're not having a good time or when you don't appreciate a behavior so okay let's see if we have any call-ins is i'm gonna be finishing my degree

very soon i've got like two weeks left um and i do musical theater and i've been in musical theater since i was like seven or something like that and i've just come to realize that it's not for me anymore and it's a really toxic industry to go into and i just don't want that um and obviously there are other things that I potentially would want to go into but my university like just does not support a change of mind I guess um so my question is how the hell do I not freak out about this and how do I figure out what I want to do when this is the only thing I've done for my whole life um and as a girl that overthinks absolutely everything it's very difficult to remain calm about this decision that i've made so any advice would be appreciated okay love you a you can do

anything you want in the world i understand there might be some navigations you got to take some people aren't going to like it that's just such as your university but you know what's good for you and you're going after it find peace in that of course with change you're going to be a little anxious about it it's going to be a little scary mostly because you have no idea what's going to happen you know you're going off the direction you thought you were going to take real you're going to have some nervousness about that experience but once again that is just a natural reaction that is just a natural feeling that's going to come with it it doesn't necessarily mean you're doing anything wrong or you're messing up or you're not taking the right path

wherever that anxiety might lead you to it just means change is occurring okay nothing else more than that but you can do so many things you want like it sounds like there's a couple different path you want to take it sounds like you already kind of know where you want to go so don't worry too much don't lean into the anxiety too much trust in yourself and believe in yourself and understand through that anything is possible oh my god this is so funny i think multiple of you multiple of you guys got your wisdom teeth out i've been getting a lot of wisdom teeth questions this is very interesting um with wisdom teeth recovery tips i can't smoke or suck dick yeah girl it's just it sucks you just have to go through it unfortunately when I I don't know

why I had the most chaotic wisdom tooth recovery moment but when I got my wisdom teeth out my dad was taking care of me and he picked me up from the hospital obviously and I had been like put under anesthesia and this is the first time I've ever been put under anesthesia in my life so he picked me up and then he was like oh my god I go gotta go run errands I gotta go get something from Walmart let me leave my daughter under anesthesia in the car while I go get something from Walmart all I remember is waking up at the hospital my dad being there and then all of a sudden I'm in the car my dad goes don't leave okay and then shuts the door and locks it and goes in to get to get his shit from Walmart and then all of a sudden I'm like back home like

everything's fine but like what the fuck was he thinking he is oh my god I cannot anyways I had a bad time during my wisdom teeth recovery not because of like the pain or like the not being able to eat a lot of foods like listen I love a mashed potato I love apples applesauce like if I ever become an old person I'm gonna be living the life like that's all you need in life a smoothie you know mashed potatoes and gravy though like top tier food um but I was having a bad time because a I was dating a boy who was mean and b I had a really bad experience on hydros like I did not have a good time on hydros those are not a fun drug they were not the vibe that's for sure all I remember is my boyfriend like calling me while I was on hydros and being like

I think we need to break up and then I just started like projectile vomiting so that's why I had a bad time I don't know why you're having a bad time but I'm sure you're not in the same predicament I was in so find peace in that but you just gotta persevere through that pain I think it took me like a week to fully get through it and to feel better so I think when you're in a spot where you have to rest and recover leaning fully into the rest and recovery princess mode is key to healing as fast as you possibly can things to keep in mind with a new love interest i think before you find a new love interest or even at the beginning i think it's really important to make a list of like non-negotiables and things that you are seeking in a partner

like making a full list like a full understanding of what you're looking for maybe based off like what you don't like or didn't like in the past or like what you're seeking um how you want your partner to be and all in like ways of like boundaries and how they treat you how they carry themselves morals stuff like that make that in the beginning so then when you are lovestruck and you're in the honeymoon phase and you have those rose-colored glasses on if you have a moment where you're like wait a minute you can go back to the list and check the list and be like well is he good to me or is he just taking advantage of me does he withhold these qualities that I am seeking in a partner or is he the exact opposite and I'm just

digmatized do you know what I mean so I say make a list of like non-negotiables boundaries things like that and then just keep it in your back pocket for a rainy day just to keep yourself on track for what you truly seek my name is Eden I live in Ventura but I've been listening to you for a long time now like since one of your first couple episodes and I never really had the confidence to call in but I have been listening to you and thinking about getting a tattoo apprenticeship and I just wanted to say thank you because I listen to specific podcasts based on how I'm feeling for the day and a lot of yours have been able to really touch my heart and help me solve my problems and also think about mentally what i can be doing for myself and physically

what i can be doing for myself um but yeah anyways thank you so much for doing your podcast i hope you continue and i hope to meet you one day long time listener first time caller love you so good to hear your voice go after that apprenticeship girl and when you get it let me know i'll come get a tattoo um but i love that you guys are just going after your dreams always i'm glad i can be your hype woman i'm glad i can show up and provide a little bit of inspiration and show you that yeah you can do whatever the fuck you want to do you know what i mean you can make that dream happen i love you thank you for calling in i went through my boyfriend's phone and found vids he made with other girls before we were together oh oh no no that would be an immediate breakup

immediately because a we all know what you're doing with those videos we all know why you kept them any other sane person would understand when i leave a relationship i lose access to your body in that sort of way and access to pleasure of your body in that sort of way that's why you ended the relationship but he held on to it and that's scary so what i would do is i would go into his phone if i were you and i would delete every single one of those videos and i would also delete any videos of you in it i would hand him back the phone and i would pack my things and i would leave that is the only sane thing to do like really there is if you saw the videos with your own eyes there is no excuse at all what's your favorite way to manifest i love script writing

i feel like script writing is really powerful um fully envisioning and writing down the little details because if you're able to envision then you're able to create so being intentional about sitting down envisioning and getting into all the details envisioning as much as you possibly can um i do this in like eras of like five years at a time so i'll be like where do i see myself in five years like what do i want to achieve in five years and i will write down every single detail what i look like who i hang out with where i live what does my apartment look like what do i surround myself with what's my job like as many details as possible dream as big as you can that's the best way to manifest i also think energy is really important manifestation is completely and utterly

all about energy so if you are not giving gratitude and appreciation you are not making space for blessings you need to give appreciation for the world around you and appreciation to the universe for bringing blessings into your life and you need to bring positivity and appreciation into your life and give it back into the universe so then that is the direct energy that you are bringing towards yourself you ever feel like you're in like a bad mood and then bad things just keep happening and happening and happening and happening sometimes life just stacks up on you but like there is a reason that when it rains it pours it's because energy is movement and if you bring negative energy towards yourself if you encompass negative energy more negative energy

is going to be attracted towards you um it's going to be really hard to fit positivity in there when it's not the natural feeling the natural energy of that space so even when i'm having like a negative experience or like this morning it's like oh fuck i fucked up my podcast like i gotta redo it again is it gonna be good enough all these anxieties who cares whatever it just means i get to sit down hang out with you guys a little bit extra today um and maybe go over some things that i didn't get to go over with so bringing positive energy into maybe that quote to quote negative experience um manifestation is all about energy so holding positive energy holding space for yourself um and giving it to others as well giving gratitude to the world as

well someone said mother i graduate college this week oh my god i am so proud of you that is amazing you are educated smart sexy there is nothing you can't do honestly college is like one of the hardest things ever so um college is one of the hardest things ever so like you did that be proud of yourself celebrate enjoy i love you how to deal with an all-consuming crush i love like the crush psychosis of it all where it's like you are well i love the aspect i don't like being completely enthralled with another person like that i mean i think there's something beautiful about it because you want to discover love and you want to be love and you want to share love and that's awesome but also like when you become consumed by a man please pick up another

job please pick up an extra shift like the energy you want to put into that man you need to be putting into yourself um that doesn't mean completely get rid of him like have that crush girl you know go on that date that's amazing but also that like love and energy you want to pour into him that crush psychosis pour it into yourself instead push it into yourself show yourself that love become the hottest baddest bitch for him but also like low-key for you um i feel like when you get a crush it's so fun to like become the manic pixie dream girl and honestly i've found a lot of my best selves through that whether the men's state or not like there is something to be said about the energy that it inhibits and i think it's fun lean into

it like enjoy you know what i mean but also if you constantly have them on your mind don't do it just like sitting around pacing around your house like do it at a at your job pick up an extra shift like you might as well be pacing around and making money than just be being pacing around thinking about a boy at what age would you let your kids smoke hmm I don't know my parents never quote-unquote let me smoke in fact they're not too happy about it right now let's be real I mean my dad was a huge stoner growing up but I never knew um we never really talked about those things I mean they knew I smoked because I definitely got my shit taken away from me and I got in trouble but also like I'm not mad about it you know what I mean like that is the rational thing to do

when you are a parent and you find your kid doing something illegal I guess it's like as a parent you can't really tell them what to do once they're over 18 really I guess if they're under your roof sure but when they're under 18 and they're in your house like of course they're gonna get in trouble my parents would find my pipes and it'd be like okay you're grounded for a week or whatever like they never really got me like trouble trouble they weren't like too strict about it but like of course my mom was strict she was like that she's doing something wrong she has to have face a punishment it wasn't like grounded for years or whatever it was just like okay slap on the wrist i feel like though the one thing my parents didn't do right um is just like have a conversation with

me about it I kept doing bad things because I would just get in trouble and there would be no like understanding of it all it was just like my parents hate me so I'm gonna keep doing bad things girl no need to be emo I feel like if they just would have sat down and had a conversation to me like this is why we don't want you doing this or this is why we don't want you smoking weed you know your brain is still developing like sat down and had an actual conversation with me I probably would have been like okay no valid maybe they're right instead they never did that so i just thought they were against me like no they're just being parents let's be real but yeah i wish they would have had a conversation like this is why you need birth control this is why safe sex needs to happen

like that here's our family history of mental illness like i wish there was a lot of conversations they would have had with me that would have made me more understanding to who i am as a person and just like behavior as well i don't think i would let my kids smoke in my house under 18 you know a lot of those like in high school i had a couple friends who was like their parents did not give a fuck like you could smoke a drink do whatever you wanted under their roof and like we thought oh that was so cool that's amazing girl that's neglect your mom doesn't care because she doesn't care that's not a good thing they should care and sometimes i feel like when you're high schooler and you feel like your parent is strict your parent actually really just cares

about you so i don't know i don't know if i would promote smoking at all under 18 or 21 21 do you ever get anxious about the bad with smoking yeah of course but also that is just a side effect of weed like of course a chemical change is happening in your brain you're going to have a natural anxious feeling about that that is just science i am not a what is anti-science republican like i believe in the facts i believe in the truth and your brain is going to have a little bit of anxiety or create a little bit of anxiety when the chemicals are changing when you are inducing your brain into a because of a drug related substance there's going to be anxiety involved but also whenever i start feeling anxiety about things or overthinking or going on

a thought spiral whether it's like an edible or a joint I always pause and tell myself like this is the weed talking this is the weed anxiety this is not based in reality this is just me being anxious for no reason this will pass you just gotta feel your way through it but understand it's not based in reality you know what I mean how do I start sleeping with boys like I want to but I'm so scared and I don't know what to do lmao okay I'm gonna teach you how to get laid I guess so you want to get laid you want a boyfriend or not even a boyfriend you just want some dick valid listen everybody needs some every once in a while I'll never hate on what you got to do to get what you want to get all right here's what you do here's how you get it

you get your friends together you get your girls together who however many you get together you hang out you do each other's makeup you start pre-gaming there is no better feeling than the girls getting together and just getting ready to go out and building hype and enjoying each other in that sort of way that is the best feeling ever it feels like a coven meeting it feels like it's 17 75 and we're all witches having a meeting like it feels healthy it feels fun great way to build just like um feminine energy and positive energy in yourself is to have your girls around you hyping you up getting ready drinking dancing listen to your favorite playlists then you're gonna go to the bar you're gonna go to a club you're gonna go to your favorite spot whatever

it is you're not going to go to a new one you don't want to go try a new place you want to go to a spot that you enjoy a place you feel comfortable your favorite club your favorite bar wherever the hotties are you know what i mean wherever is the local spot we all have one you and your girls you're gonna get in the uber you're gonna grab that ox you're gonna play your favorite music you're gonna get to the bar you're gonna get to the club and what you and your friends are going to do is a you're all gonna go to the bar together you're all gonna get drinks and then you're getting on the dance floor you and your girls go dance get some energy out some nerves out of your system get some drink in you you're gonna feel like the hottest baddest bitch your

friends are there hyping you up you're dancing you're getting the anxiety out of your system you've had a couple drinks by now so you're socially lubricated next you're gonna go to the bar alone okay you're gonna go to the bar alone and when you walk up to that bar you're gonna look to your left you're gonna look to your right and you're gonna find the hottest person there the hottest guy at that bar alone you're gonna find him you're gonna walk your ass right up and you're gonna go you want to take a shot what are you drinking hey you're gonna go smoke literally anything of the sort will work i promise you don't have to have a crazy pickup line it can be something as simple as you're buying me a shot right now because i'm standing in front of

you maybe you'll be like hey i'm good i got a girlfriend cool whatever watch the next one maybe you'll be like oh you know whatever if he if he isn't into it he isn't into it go find the next hot guy there's plenty of them out there you know what i mean simply walk up to one and ask like i guarantee like 98 of the time that simply will work i promise you it will you're gonna walk up to him ask him for a shot ask him for a drink say hey you want to buy me this what's your name you get your drink you get on the dance floor and then you try and build some chemistry this is when you do the vetting process and i think having a vetting process is really important you don't just get the free drink and then go home with him you go you have your vetting process you go dance

you build some chemistry you make out you know are you having a fun time can he conversate with you are you building that chemistry building that energy are you guys feeling each other great fantastic that's when you go home you get laid perfect beautiful amazing end to the night but also if you were there and you're like feeling him out and trying to build chemistry and it's just not there and you're like oh this guy's a weirdo your friends are still there your friends are still there having a good time in a group and you have somewhere safe to retreat okay you have somewhere safe to go back to if you're like no no no like i cannot with this man i do not want but it's important to have a vetting process and like a backup just in case but i feel like this

exact recipe is the perfect way to get laid perfect way to have dick by the end of the night and if you don't guess what you're still out with your friends you're still gonna have a good time go home to your vibrator like whatever but if you want to get laid that is the recipe i'm not going to be like get on your nearest dating app and ask them to come over i love an organic moment i love a vetting process i love a night out with the girls i love a divine feminine kind of experience and i feel like that is the perfect way to do so is it bad to stay together when he wants forever and i don't he knows i don't want forever dot dot yes girl why are you wasting this man's time i mean i guess he knows you don't want forever but also like what is the point then i

mean i guess momentary fun but also i feel like you both have to be on the same page for it to be actually like a healthy momentary fun it's okay to get in like a small little fun little fling for the summer and understand like we're gonna have fun for this amount of time and move on it's not forever but you both have to be on the same page for it to be fun if he's just like well she's good enough and no one else will love me and you don't love that man girl set him free please oh my god i'd be so mad if my boyfriend was like she's good for now i'd be mad i'd be pissed leaving is an option speaking of someone said i slurp that dick every day and he won't make it official with me girl you could be slurping dick of someone who loves and cares about you i'm sure you'll have

a much more fun time i promise please he does not deserve kindness like some men don't deserve kindness and that's okay like you don't have to show it thoughts on age gaps in relationships i'm 19 he's 27 he is basically a predator i understand you're a year over 18 but he is 27 27 27 27 i'm 24 i couldn't even imagine going a year younger than me 27 27 almost 30 27 you're not even 20 yet that man is not dating 27 year olds because they look at him and they know that he's a loser please see that please free yourself i think some fun bonding things that i'm going to create for us is I want to make like a group uh playlist that we can all add to like a group sesh playlist that everybody can just add their favorites I think it'll be a great way for us all to

kind of just experience connect with each other and also get some new music out of it one of my big goals this spring summer is to listen to more music I feel like I always need something playing in order to like make my brain work whether it's a podcast a youtube video um but I want to lean more into music this year anyways i think that's it for the podcast you guys thank you for being here thank you for staying tuned while i re re-recorded this and sat down with you guys but i think i got to a little bit more questions than i did on the first one um thank you for submitting your questions thank you for being here thank you for listening and showing up every single week i really appreciate you all so very much you're so beautiful and amazing and i would not be here

without you guys so thank you for not only showing up for me but also for yourself i love hearing your growth stories and being like oh i used to do this but now i don't anymore thank you for showing me like i appreciate that i can provide that for you guys but i love you all so much with that being said i think i'm gonna go on a hike go change into my hiking outfit get some more food in me um this week i'll be posting a mango sticky rice recipe on my instagram as well as a couple other posts i have planned instagram at hannah marlene if you want to check out what i'm doing i always post on my meme account weekly but that and then also i'll be uploading a patreon only podcast on thursday patreon.com slash smoke says shawty if you want your question answered i answer

every single question that my patrons submit i want to make sure i get to every single one of you if you have a question so if you have something dire feel free to join you get so much more extra content out of it than just a patreon only episode we do weekly journal prompts we do monday manifestations i try and keep you updated on astrology what's going on in the stars and some diys things like that i'll be uploading a room makeover video for you all very soon on the youtube youtube is at smoke says shawty i believe but that's where you can find me i love you all stay sexy stay hot smoke a weed have good sex eat good food love yourself what's better than that happy tourist season love you chat soon