Smoke Sesh - psychedelics, sexuality, spring favorites & motivation

Episode Date: March 28, 2023

Happy Tuesday my cuties and welcome back to another amazing episode of Smoke Sesh, very excited to be here with you on this beautiful Tuesday. I start off chatting waking up early & achieving your goals, t breaks, cbd & anxiety. We chat roommate issues and accepting you can’t change others, is it possible to party healthily? Partying with a bf, and when does it become toxic. Weed is fun! And how to use it. My current go to and spring favorites, dating and how to open yourself up to true connection, change of mindset means change of space, being too kind, psychedelics and my favorite.. magic mushrooms. The vibe this Aries season, sex & spiritual connection, 21st b day goals, over analyzing yourself and others, living with fear instead of letting it control you, sexuality and stop trying to “figure yourself out” and finally some motivation and pep talk this Tuesday to not give up on yourself and to move forward with love

Listen, everybody needs a fairy godmother, you know, just somebody to look out for them. Some people call me their fairy smoke mother, others their internet big sister, but you can call me Hannah, the host of Smoke Sash. So come hang out, let's light up and talk everything there is to life. The good, the bad, the ugly, the embarrassing, I've got a story for it all. Oh my goodness, hello! How we all doing today? Are you thriving? Are you feeling good? Feeling fantastic? Feeling fresh and ready to take on the day? Oh my goodness, have I had a morning. Recently, I have been setting my alarm for like

8 a.m., which listen, I like to sleep in, okay? I like my eight hours. I like getting my sleep in. i like being adequate refreshed ready for the day but if i wake up at like 10 or 11 every single day i kind of lose my mind and give me like anxiety or give myself anxiety because i'm like oh my god i have so much shit i need to do and now i have less hours in the day for me to get shit done and now i'm freaking out so i've been waking up just like bright and early getting myself a nice little cup of coffee and getting my chores done early in the morning to kind of set my day off on the right foot and honestly round of applause for me because it has been feeling fantastic especially because now towards like the end of the day where I am tired and I am exhausted after doing everything

I can like sit down and really relax and like adequately give myself time to chill out instead of being like well I didn't get this done I didn't get this done so this morning I woke up I responded to some emails I had a little meeting I went and got groceries I went on two apartment tours both of which were amazing I'm very excited I can't wait to you know get into a new space create a new groove for myself you know what I mean very exciting being able to move and enter a new space and kind of have that space to find your to find that time in your life I feel like the space I'm in right now is I mean it's amazing and brilliant and very cute but I need more space and I need to let myself branch out a little bit more so hopefully one of these spaces will allow that

for me very exciting I did a little apartment tour on Patreon if you're interested just to kind of document um my space currently just so i can look back and be like oh cute because i will be out of here in like a month but now i'm finally sitting down chilling out you know spending my time with you guys doing my favorite fucking thing ever thank you guys so much for being here thank you so much for you know spending your tuesday with me there's nothing i love doing more than hanging out chit-chatting with you guys giving out some advice sharing a laugh sharing a little smoke you know what i mean especially in my new place very excited to just like oh my god be able to smoke a fucking blunt on my couch there is literally nothing better like i

missed that about my last house it was a 420 friendly house this apartment definitely not 420 friendly um but it's very exciting to move into a space where i can you know like hit a bong with you guys and hang out a bit uh speaking of which i have been cutting back on my smoking a little bit recently my lungs have been giving me some issues my brain has been giving me some issues i find myself dissociated all day which is not healthy especially for your little brain so i've been supplementing with cbd eating a little cbd gummy in the morning to kind of chill myself out get rid of that anxiety um and then switching to edibles at night i'll eat like one 100 milligram edible in the evening you know chill myself out i do not recommend 100 milligrams

to people who are not a professional maybe i recommend 10 uh but that's what i've been eating and it's been good it's been a nice little change of pace no more eight dabs at night and eight bowls during the day that is just way too fucking much um but if you are in the process of switching over trying to cut back I really really find that supplementing um CBD in place of weed really really helps me and also if you have anxiety and you find that you know weed gives you a little bit of anxiety that is a natural side effect of it I do like to be honest with people like it is going to give you anxiety because it's breaking down a lot of walls and barriers for you um but usually you can push through the anxiety in about 10-15 minutes if you can't supplement with cbd i

like mixing my bowls with cbd to give me a little bit of like a body relaxation effect and to offset that anxiety that weed does bring my favorite as you guys know is paz packs if you guys are interested you could use code smoke sesh for 10 off any order with that being said i did literally just eat one of their watermelon gummies so fucking incredible gonna hang out with you guys eat a little lunch i gotta go walk my parents dog and yeah that's all i got planned for today nice little cloudy tuesday afternoon hope you guys are doing well let's cut the chit chat and let's get into business you know what let's start with a little bit of a longer one maybe one for my dms this one is about you know speaking of renting and roommates and friends and how to

handle difficult situations i think this is a good one to start off on but she said hey girly i'm uh so i'm having a bit of roommate trouble one of my roommates is straight up a narcissist and horrible to live with she doesn't clean isn't kind or considerate of me or anyone else living here however every time i've had a conversation with her about it she denies doing anything wrong and plays the victim i lived with her for three years and it's only been this bad for the past year or so we were best friends in the past so that makes it a lot more complicated but our relationship has lessened to acquaintance level at this point i can tell she's in a rough place mentally so part of me does feel bad but her presence genuinely brings my energy and mood down

i'm stuck in my lease for six more months so i really don't see a way out any advice on how to protect my space love you so there's a lot of factors here um a you know this is like a new behavior like you said it's been in the past year you also know it's probably due to her declining mental health or mental state maybe she's not in a good place she can't really take care of herself so if you find yourself stuck in this in a situation where it's like there is nothing you can do to change someone's behavior because yes through a lot of things in life you're going to encounter behaviors that you do not like or really enjoy or want around you and it sucks that you're stuck in a lease for six more months but what you can do and what you can control and what you can

work with is what you have and the space that you have so I'm guessing you have a room so make your room your oasis make your room your perfect spot to hang out in maybe if you can't hang out in the living room or the kitchen or whatever make sure your room is good and awesome and amazing for you and a perfect little space for you to spend time because you have control over that space now if she's an unorganized person if she's facing mental health issues sometimes a chore chart can really help instead of being like oh you never do this or you never do this sometimes just being like okay you know this day it's this person's turn to take out trash this day it's this person's turn to do this make sure your dishes are done make sure your trash is out very simple things like if she

can't dust and vacuum like you might just have to pick up that responsibility and yeah like i said that sucks i get it um but work with what she can do and maybe like pre-set it up for her and like it sucks to kind of have to do that for somebody but if they're in a rough place and you are trying to make it work you know for you you might have to take extra initiative and be like okay chore chart here's who's in charge of this here's who's in charge of this and then once again control what you can control make sure your dishes are done make sure your trash is out make sure your um you know your room is a nice oasis for you and then also maybe make some friends that have a place outside of yours you don't have to spend all of your time at home i know it sucks

when it's like i pay rent i should enjoy my space um which is like yeah valid maybe maybe talk to your landlord and be like hey this person is not you know doing their duties i've asked can i get a cut on rent or like can you contact them about it because we need to be able to live you know in unison and maybe coming from someone higher up instead of like oh my roommate's attacking me i need to play victim it's like okay no like the owner of this place is contacting me about this behavior i need to pull it together you know um but really when it comes to a situation where it's like this person's behavior is freaking me out and i cannot do anything about it you can't change people you can't really force them to behave a certain way that you want them to behave

especially when they're in a little bit of a mental health decline all you can really do is control what you can control which is what you have access and space to so like i said maybe it's your own bathroom maybe it's your own room maybe you just take over the living room make sure that is done you know maybe the kitchen whatever it is um and let her space be a mess let her room be chaotic let her be chaotic but do what you can for yourself don't let that get in the way i love you this one's funny someone asked um how to be healthy but still party every single night very good question because i feel like when people think partying they think drugs sex drinking getting crazy blacking out and like that is not healthy every single night like you cannot do that

every single night but i do think you can party every single night all right the key is the things that make partying unhealthy such as over drinking doing too many drugs getting yourself into bad situations those things you can't do every single night you can do like once a month like honestly you can do it like once a month for your for your brain to be healthy um but if you're doing them every single night which let me tell you i have been there me doing molly like every single other day you are going to kill your fucking brain not only your brain but your body and your will to live so if you're in like college or you are you know got party friends or you like to go out that's fine go out dance maybe have one drink maybe two but don't

get too crazy like if you want to party and do it healthily you need to be able to party sober okay i know it sounds crazy because you're like what no partying is about getting fucked up it's like no partying is about going out with your friends having a good time enjoying your life dancing a little bit and then like getting your ass home when i go out now i do it in a pretty healthy way just because I have had too many blackout situations getting myself into trouble doing too many drugs on accident so what I usually do is like okay my friends are going out I'm gonna eat a full meal drink some water pull myself together meet them around nine or whenever it is maybe ten hang out with them and as soon as I feel my body like click into and this is like

maybe after one or two drinks nothing crazy as soon as I feel my body click into a oh I'm tired I want to go home like as soon as I feel that I do not disregard that feeling my ass just gets up and leaves I don't even say goodbye I mean maybe if it's like a necessary situation my friends get that like I just like to Irish disappear and they know I'm fine as long as I text them when I get home my ass I will just get up and go home and go to bed and that honestly is the best way to like healthily party every single night it's okay to go out and have fun and experience life with your friends but like yeah you can't be getting wasted and doing drugs every single night that's not healthy so like cut back a little bit go home a little early you know treat yourself to a nice

little netflix binge uh when you get home and go to bed that's the way to party healthily in my opinion. Also, chug water. Make sure you're drinking water for any situation, but especially if you're going out and partying with friends. Another take on partying, someone asked opinions on going to parties in college with friends while in a relationship. Oh boy. I still partied while in a relationship. I was in two relationships throughout my college experience. One was pretty chill non-controlling and the other one was like very abusive very controlling on the first hand where it was a little healthy he did not give a fuck if i went out with friends because he knew my friends and he liked them um and most of the time i was just like hey i'm going to a party

tonight and be like oh well i would love to come with you and like yeah i do want to sometimes go out alone with my girlfriends and that should be respected and then yeah sometimes i want to be with my boyfriend at a party and being able to like make out with him right then and there and I want him to come along with me and be able to have a good time that was a healthy situation a he respected my alone time b he also respected the time he had with me number two emotionally abusive situation if I even thought about going to a party if I even thought about going out he immediately started a fight so he knew I'd be anxious so he knew I'd stay in so he knew I would not want to engage with my friends because I would be like anxiety induced worrying about

what he thought about me and this was a long distance relationship so he did not want me to go out partying if I even went out partying he immediately thought I cheated and would just start like screaming at me and berating me um he did not want me to have fun he did not trust me he was insecure he was a lame ass fucking loser and if you find yourself in that situation where you're like I just want to go party with my friends but my boyfriend's being fucking weirdo and is like putting me down about it it's because he's insecure and he doesn't know how to trust and not only does he not trust himself but he doesn't trust you and a relationship needs to be built on trust so I say drop that fucking man and go out and have a good time with your friends

now if he supports you and he loves you and he wants you to go out and have a good time or he wants to go party with you then awesome honor that bring him with you have a good time but if a man is trying to shame you into not having friends and into not doing things because he's an insecure fucking baby cut ties immediately and run as far as you fucking can ideally as far as you can to a party and then just like party the breakup off you know that's the best way to kind to get over a breakup is just party it out hang out with your girlies have a good time you know someone asked is it bad to smoke because it's fun no that's like the whole point but also with anything that's fun you have to understand that there's a time and place i saw joe rogan doing a

oh my god not joe rogan i did not mean to bring up his name on this podcast i really really apologize who am i thinking of seth rogan i saw i saw him do a interview talking about weed and they're like you have never cut back on weed and in fact you smoke all day every single day and he's like yeah i do because he he has found no issue with it getting in the way of him behaving and creating and living his day-to-day life like he even said he would have never made half the movies that he did made if he wasn't high sitting around with his friends talking about it you know like he gathers his creative energy from it he uses that in a very positive sense but we are not all Seth Rogen we are not all you know creative beings living off of our creative funds um and

using weed for that I would absolutely love that and hopefully fingers crossed I'm slowly getting there but like we as people who have like nine to five jobs and have to wake up and go to work and be sober sometimes can't do that all the time so with anything that's fun i say just save it as if you are like using alcohol does that make sense like you wouldn't wake up and chug a fucking vodka red bull at 8 a.m before you clock in for your shift and then get off work and chug another one like that's kind of a little insane like just a little bit or like you wouldn't bring a vodka a red bull to work to drink on the job because that's just simply not allowed so i say in order to like adequately and honestly use it use it the same way you would use alcohol so like at the end

of the night to relax maybe when you're hanging out with friends um in that sort of way in a social kind of way in a winding down kind of way not in a constant kind of way but i do think there are moments and times where you can smoke during the day have fun during the day especially if it's like your day off like fucking go for it or if you're in a creative field like Seth Rogen said like go for it but you got to figure out what works for you but yeah weed is really fun I do agree oh my gosh okay someone asked me what are my spring 2023 favorites okay I think this is a great question because I have some fun things that I have been collecting recently and I think they will you'll enjoy them as well i think that's what i'm getting to first of all gold jewelry i've

been trying to hunt down more gold jewelry find more gold jewelry just add to my collection and not only am i buying them on like ebay and etsy you just really have to scroll and look for vintage stuff you know wait around until it's cheap but also the m jewelers have some very very nice quality pieces especially in gold and silver so things that will last you because i'm the kind of person who's like as soon as i put jewelry on i do not take it off like i'm not the kind of person to take my jewelry off that shit better last through rain sun snow sweat heat um and the m jewelry really provides that so i got like a cute little h ring i got some new gold hoops because my other ones uh they got like bent and then a new choker which i had gotten from them

before um just like a little box chain choker and I got another one because I loved it so much um I broke my other one I got fucked off of me during sex anyways they really last like the other one I had I had for like two years so that is a great place to look if you are um looking for some nice jewelry some cute quality pieces when it comes to skincare I have really been taking that seriously and you guys know i have some essential favorites that i have carried throughout the years the first one being um this beautiful green face mask by ol henriksen it's called the cold plunge pore mask if you're like me and you have gaping seeping oily pores do that shit once a week your skin will thank me i've also been on the hunt for the best um moisturizer and recently

or last month i tried the youth to the people moisturizer and i felt like it broke me out a little bit and also didn't make my face super moisturized so this month i was trying the doe skin do doe skin instant angel lipid rich moisturizer and honestly i've been loving it um it really really hydrates my face i find myself waking up like glistening you know and not in a weird greasy oily way but in a beautiful like oof my face is so happy kind of way um and it isn't clogging my pores which is really really nice and then last thing for my face is the polish choice two percent bha liquid exfoliant um if you find yourself having a hard time with like skin buildup or you notice that your skin will get kind of thick or a little flaky and you

can't seem to get it up this is or get it off this is a perfect exfoliant um use it like once a week maybe once every other week and it really like I wake up and I feel like I just shed a full layer of skin and I have a new perfect baby angel layer and it's incredible skincare wise that is what I have been reaching towards makeup wise I haven't been wearing a lot of makeup but I'm looking to dive into it so maybe I'll have some recommendations for summer coming up some other little favorites of mine are um recently I got some of these bloomer tips and bloomer um pre-rolls which are fucking amazing and very very cute um essentially they're just beeswax tips like uh like joint tips that have flower seeds in them so instead of like smoking smoking i finish my joint i throw it on

the ground it's just another piece of paper to decompose and rot in the earth these are naturally occurring uh ingredients like the wraps are made of banana leaves um and the beeswax breaks down releases the flower seeds boom there you go naturally planting some flowers wherever you go makes me feel a little bit better about throwing the very end of my joint on the ground so that is fucking adorable and very fun and very cute i say get your girlfriends them very easy like little um gift stuffer for your smoker girls or smoking friends um and then last but not least very into loungewear recently like such as like i want to lay around my house while also looking really cute and los angeles apparel has some very very nice like i'm talking lifelong basics

like i have had a pair of their shorts since they were american apparel they have not once ripped they have not once broken I wear them every single night they're just like red booty shorts um so I invested in some yoga pants some yoga shorts and then some just bralettes and those are going to be things that I'm just going to be wearing all spring and summer long when it comes to just fun basics in order to keep my life funky and fresh you know what I mean but that's really all i have been um carried towards recently if you guys have any favorites please let me know but those are kind of my favorites recently i'm sure i'll have more fun things to update you on but gold jewelry fun clothes skincare like what's better than that hi hannah i really want to get

your advice on dating especially that new dating period like the first five dates you know basically I took about a year off of dating because I left a very long and very unhealthy relationship, but I just went on a first date with a guy and it was lovely. I haven't seen him since just because we went on break for school and stuff, but I don't know. Should I reach him out and set up a second date? Should I wait for him to reach out to me? Part of me is being like, if you want to see him, just tell him. Part of me doesn't want to see needy or clingy and is really scared of giving off that perception. And just all of the other little things. I don't really know how to text a new guy I'm seeing I don't know how to ask him things I don't really

know how to act so any advice on what to do in that beginning of dating period would be so useful love you oh my god cutie hi how exciting new crushes new love jumping into the dating scene fuck that other man for uh putting you through that but you deserve love and you deserve to have fun so when it comes to like new relationships and how I entered my relationship and the mindset that I entered my relationship with was I'm excited I want to have fun and I want to make sure that the other person is putting effort into me so what that means is I'm not going to sit around and wait for someone to chase me but also I'm not going to do the chasing it needs to be a very solid middle ground where both of you are interested in each other both of you are giving

effort into each other both of you are showing general interest and speaking on that and saying that you're interested and both of you are being your authentic selves very very important so I know you're like oh I don't want to scare this guy off or maybe I don't want to seem too forward but like I think that's the exciting thing about dating is playing that little game and you know being excited to wake up in the morning and text them and see what they're doing or getting excited to set up that second date so I really wouldn't be afraid to reach out and be like hey I had a lot of fun would you like to you know hang out again and then maybe go from there and if they you know maybe run away from that or they aren't interested that is completely and utterly on them if you are

behaving as you would with a friend if you are being authentic you are showing interest you are putting effort into it then you ultimately are doing nothing wrong when it comes to the dating world if they think that's fucking weird or they're like oh she's showing interest in me then like he's a fucking freak and you probably don't need to be interested in him if he thinks you showing interest is weird like you really think he's going to reciprocate that further on down the line so be yourself show up as you would with a friend like be authentic if that scares them off then let them be fucking scared um you really need to lean into authenticity instead of like putting on a front when it comes to dating

because you don't want the person to fall in love with that front and then have to play a game for the rest of your life. Like you want that person to love you for who you are fully through the good and the bad. So show up as yourself and also show interest. I think it's fun to like text every now and again or you know it's like Wednesday and you usually hang out on Friday so you're looking forward to Fridays and you're getting excited

and you're like hey what are you doing this weekend? but it has to be a give and a take so not only do you need to reach out and be like I'm excited to hang out with you I would like to hang out with you maybe like what are you doing this weekend like do you have any plans um but he also needs to be sending those questions sending that enthusiasm back to you I mean my boyfriend first hung out like we spent two days together attached at the hip and like immediately he was like I am very interested in you are you interested in me can we spend more time together and I honestly loved that I was like thank you like no guessing games like I know he's interested in me sure this doesn't mean we're like in a

relationship but it means that we have a mutual interest here so I love it when people like give that energy into relationships there's no room for confusion there's no room for games there's no room for fakeness there's no room for fronting it is this is who I am do you accept me will you love me can we build a relationship together and I think there's something beautiful about that um and also like the waiting game is very fun and enthralling so you know ask him what are you doing this weekend or how have you been or what did you get up to over the break and if he's like dry or he doesn't respond or he's not enthused like you don't feel like he's very interested i say just let it go don't put too much emphasis or interest into it let him be a fucking weirdo and move on

all right there are going to be people who are going to reciprocate that energy and want to spend time with you and think you're super fucking cool and interesting and somebody that they want to you know share a life with so lean into those connections if you feel like it's a weak connection that's okay we're not gonna fully get along with every single person on this planet we're not going to completely merge our hearts and souls with every single person because we're all so different we all have different tastes we all have different morals we all have different ideas of how to live this life and that's okay if a puzzle piece doesn't fit don't try and force it but if it does fit you know lean into it have some fun and be a little vulnerable open yourself up um i feel like

when people try and like put on a facade or push people away because they're scared or you know try and hide their feelings or try and play games with people that's when relationships get tricky and they get messy and they get not fun so try and enter as pure and open and honest with yourself as you can because I feel like if you really open yourself to that energy it will get reciprocated back to you I love you crushes dating oh my god how fun how exciting I hope you have a fucking blast okay dating is all about having fun don't stress yourself out don't freak out over you know ugly boys have a good time have some good sex get some dinners go on fun dates and live your best life someone asked what do you do when your life feels stagnant i literally get up and i rearrange

my entire house even when i was like a kid and i would be just like kicking it in my childhood bedroom it would be like 3 a.m and i'd be like having an existential crisis like who am i what am i doing like how do i change right now how do i switch things up right now and i feel like there is a fantastic way to enhance your energy and to listen to it by rearranging the flow of energy around you especially through your home like even if you just have like a little childhood bedroom like one desk one bed or rug whatever it is like throw some art up on the wall change the direction of your bed change the direction of your desk whatever it may be i guarantee that will really really help affect not only your mindset and the way it flows but also the physical present if you

need to change asap move your space someone said i'm a legit too kind how can i stay true to myself without being disrespected slash walked over so people pleasing being too kind um swaying away from yourself in times where you need to sway towards it that in turn is not actually you being truly kind or actually kind because you're not being kind to yourself do you know what i mean um by dishonoring yourself by not listening to yourself by you know saying yes when you just said no you're not being kind to yourself and in turn that really doesn't mean that the kindness you are projecting outwards is in turn doing anything so practice saying no i know it's hard i get it but practice saying no and you're gonna feel like a lot of regret and a lot of shame

after you say it especially if that person has a um bad you know response to the way you feel but when that happens you need to understand that you standing up for yourself means more than their comfortability you need to make sure that you are comfortable as well and no one's going to look out for you and what you truly love but yourself so listen to yourself listen to your gut say no and honestly people shouldn't have such a big problem with other people saying no like that's just a boundary that's totally fine when people are like man i'd rather not to me i'm like cool love that thank you for being honest with me thank you for you know feeling open to share how you truly feel i love that i will never take that personally i feel like when people have

a hard time with boundaries and especially boundaries within themselves they take no as like a very harsh slap in the face and honestly that's something they gotta deal with and they gotta figure out all you can really do is make sure that you are comfortable and taken care of okay also let's talk psychedelics because i'm about to take some not like right now but coming up soon now that it's spring and i've gotten my hands on quite a few mushroom chocolate bars um i thought we would talk psychedelics i feel like there's been a big rise in psychedelics we've entered the age of aquarius which means there's going to be a big collective shift in the way we're thinking in the way we approach things especially through like group setting

um and i think psychedelics are starting to interest a lot of people now i feel like when we talk about psychedelics the first thing people think about is like acid acid is its own its own situation i am not a huge fan of acid i've done it once um and i i mean like i had a good time but my thing is when stuff starts to last too long i get uh really terrified that it's going to be permanent and acid trips are like eight nine ten hour trips they're pretty long um and after mine i didn't sleep for three days it was during the middle of finals i mean it really helped me do fantastic on my finals but I was going through like a month-long breakdown sesh after I took it because I feel like just the way the chemicals acted on my brain did not really

help me um it was really trippy it was pretty fun lots of like visuals lots of world-changing um visuals but not a lot of that like mind intriguing insight which is why I love weed Weed is fantastic for just kind of a slight psychoactive to push your brain into a place that is great for creativity, for looking inward, for diving deep. Acid is pretty synthetic and I'm not a huge fan of it, so I do not like to recommend or promote it. I am the California sober type, okay? Mushrooms, weed, those are my go-to.

that's what I seem to lean in towards just because those are the kind of things that are a natural they come from the ground they're naturally occurring and also when they react within my body it feels very natural of course it's putting you into a place that is unnatural a little anxiety inducing because it's different but the effect it has on you that impact it does feel natural um so i personally really love mushrooms i do and if you're gonna do them there are some very safe ways to do them such as a if you're going to do them i honestly don't recommend eating them in a chocolate bar it's very hard to adequately dose it's very hard to get the right amount um and if you're a kind of person who's like i would rather eat less than

more I would recommend just straight up getting them raw okay like dried raw mushrooms um that is my favorite way to go about it um and the safest I think most normal dosage is like two grams for like okay I need a clock out for the day and this is what I'm gonna be doing I feel like the new fad though is microdosing um and we'll get into that but when it comes to like a solid trip a you're going to want to have eaten a good meal about two hours prior okay you want to have given your body enough time to have sustenance to have processed it before you eat you are not going to want to eat right before trust me i've almost vomited because you're essentially giving yourself food poisoning that's what mushrooms are um your body is ingesting them and then processing them and

then essentially you're giving yourself a little bit of a poisoning um so you do not really want food in your system you're not going to want to eat on it food isn't going to seem very interesting if you are going to eat food fresh fruit always a go-to some nice little coconut water some water some very simple light foods but really food is not going to be on your mind um when you're tripping number two you are going to want to be in a safe place i recommend um doing it within your own home doing it outside at a park if you're going to do it in public make sure you have somebody with you who is not tripping aka a trip sitter to watch over you to make sure you're safe to make sure you just have somebody to lean on just in case things get a little crazy cuckoo

listen i've done 10 grams at once do i recommend it no did it kind of perma fry me for a second yes you don't want to play around with big dosages and then also bigger dosages do not lead to more insight the lower dosages are going to give you the best possible experience by you adding more and adding more and adding more you're not going to gain any more insight your brain's just going to shut down trust me me and my boyfriend took like 10 grams together thinking we were gonna have like an ego death experience you know as they talk about um no my brain just basically shut off and i went to bed um and then i have had kind of a hard time since then keep to the lower dosages you don't need that much um make sure you're in a safe space make sure you're

with people you trust people who are not gonna freak you out people who are not gonna freak themselves out make sure they have a pretty good mindset make sure you have a pretty good mindset i feel like the ego death quote-unquote trips that you hear about are from people who do not have a strong mindset who think these are fun things just mess around with um who are probably going through things in their life when it comes to mushrooms it is going to bring up all of those inner things that you cannot run from and present them to you in a bite-sized kind of way of presenting it if you cannot process these things in your day-to-day life it's going to be extra hard to process them while under the influence of mushrooms mushrooms bring everything to light

bring your situation bring your experience to light and if it's a happy positive experience it's going to be a pretty happy positive mushroom trip understand that it is only short term it'll be over eventually get some fun lights get some colored pencils me and my friends like to make bracelets when we're on mushrooms um have some fun friends to sit around and chit chat and talk with and yeah you'll you'll be good to go but when it comes to psychedelics mushrooms are my go-to now i have a differing opinion on microdosing i think microdosing can be very very helpful and i think it can be amazing for mental health but the way that people are microdosing i am seeing is like oh i take a tiny bit every single day the thing with mushrooms is they're going to stop working

after a while if you do them often so you want to do them maybe once a month once every other month once a season you know what I mean these are things that you need to honor and respect and save for times that you think are really valuable when you do them every single day they stop working and they the effects kind of wear off so highly recommend not doing that but I do think you can microdose like once every three days I think that could work just because it's such a low amount but be safe have fun and I do recommend it I think um mushrooms have really brought a lot of clarity and interest into my life especially when I'm the kind of person to be like oh I'm just gonna put this thing aside and really just not think about it no no no it's it will

present it to you and you will have to deal with it right then and there so for me it's kind of a good thing especially when I have fantastic things going on in my life it really brings me a lot of love and light and just brightness like into my body you feel connected with nature you feel connected with the people around you it puts you on this like very interesting same wavelength where you realize everybody is interconnected we aren't as individual as we think and that's a very comforting feeling because inherently you're not alone um and yeah tis the season it's very much though a spring season thing ideally my perfect place would be like in the forest next to a river eating some mushrooms with my boyfriend just hanging out or like with my friends I've done

them with my friends like in this little shed they had that we had like glow-in-the-dark paints and fun music and beanbag chairs and just had a blast I've done them in my room with just some fun lights and some i like will make like a bed on the ground i'll put all my blankets and pillows and shit on the ground because you won't really want to be humanized you'll want to be like connected and floored and like close to the earth close to the ground um and be safe make sure you're getting them from a reliable source make sure the people you are with you trust make sure you trust yourself and just have a good time i recommend setting intentions before ever for any trip things you want insight on things you want to think about and then also like do some gratitude

before so if you start having a little you know like you start going negative you can look at that gratitude and redirect that mind flow as long as you are good at redirecting that mind flow and working with your mind flow you'll be good and you'll have a fantastic time it's done wonders for my mental health it's really showed me i'm not alone it really showed me that it's all about the little things in life um to not take things so seriously and to really listen to my inner self and follow that inner trust um and yeah I love them why don't you just ask for some tips and tricks so I hope this helped I hope you have a safe trip and I love you hi Hannah um this is Max calling from Miami and I just wanted to first off thank you a little bit because I don't know I

feel like this time last year I was such a different person and I feel like every year every spring like I can look back on any season and be like oh my god this season last year I was like so different but this year I do I don't know I feel like I have you to blame a little bit for that like I would listen to your podcast and you talk about like confidence and all this stuff and I would like laugh because I was so insecure that I could just not see myself having any sort of like I don't know like genuine personality and like feeling like myself but I don't know I'm slowly getting there so thank you and then I don't know I'm I've been in Miami for a few months I'm living with my sister and I just like hadn't gone out and I'm starting to go out now and it's like

a little bit scary and nerve-wracking and I just have so much anxiety but I'm also so excited so any advice on like that hello thank you for calling in and I'm glad that you can adapt elevate you know yourself especially with me in tow i'm glad i could bring that into your life miami how fun honestly and you're living with your sister so that's kind of nice because you've lived with each other probably forever um so i would just say be yourself it's the same with dating like just be vulnerable put yourself out there be yourself fully and openly and i truly believe that if you act within the energy that you you know source from that true pure energy that like i'm not hiding myself i'm not shamed of myself i'm gonna be who i truly am by tapping into that energy and

projecting it outwards and you know being within that it will bring people to you like a fucking magnet especially people who rock with your energy and who fuck with you and who see you truly as you are and are like i like her i fuck with them i love the way they behave i love the way they are i'm not gonna try and change them i'm just gonna rock with it also by tapping into that pure untouched like lovable like um undismissive energy that you truly are it pushes away insecure people people who are going to be ashamed of you people who are going to look down on you people who are not going to truly love you so it's a win-win i say tap into that energy get out there put on a cute fucking outfit you know go out with your sister maybe if she knows the the vibes of

the city and where to go and also don't be afraid to spark up a conversation have some fun bring a joint along best way to make friends is by sparking up i guarantee there's gonna be at least five people who come up to you and are like can i hit that so take advantage of it i love you Every week I always ask the vibe of the week and someone said, um, the vibe is I'm journaling instead of hitting a bitch with my car. Love Aries season. I love Aries season. It really just brings the like untapped pure energy out. Um, especially in all of us. I feel like we're all kind of diving into ourselves, diving into what we truly want. Um, and taking note of that and leaning into it. Now I love also a spiteful Aries. So if you need to get that

revenge i hear you peace and love but also i don't want you in jail please do not hit a bitch with their car love you someone asked um why do i keep having sex just because i want someone to be close to me it's because we as women are taught that the only inherent value is the sexual energy we put out especially when it comes to men we know that they're definitely interested in sex so in order to feel close to someone we just be fucking and like yeah i do think sex is a fantastic way to connect to somebody but that i think it's also important to have that connection outside of sex and to try and reach that connection outside of sex a relationship a you know well yeah a relationship a connection cannot be built solely on sex yeah you can have great sex with people

but does that mean they're actually a great person and you really like them no no no stop letting dick run your life casual sex that's fine you can have it but you have to understand the difference between a true connection and a sexual connection and also as women we are going to feel a connection through sex no matter what i feel like it's impossible honestly to have sex and really feel like there is zero connection um sex is so spiritual sex is like sacred you are giving your all to each other you're also experiencing this magical um moment that is like an orgasm like you are giving that to a person and they're also giving it back to you they should be if they're not cut them the fuck off okay so like that's why i think sex is amazing and wonderful

especially during a relationship but it's so tricky when it's outside of a relationship and you're like i feel this connection they don't feel this connection with me but it's only because we're having sex with each other so be careful sex can be very very powerful and it should be powerful it should be like you know it should bring that connection and bring those feelings but make sure you're giving it to a person that deserves it you know someone asked 21st birthday ideas um they said destinations included i'm not gonna be like pack up your girlies and go to mexico because like let me be real with you that's not how i celebrated my 21st birthday my 21st birthday was during the pandemic um so i was very very lucky because all of my friends

were usually far away were in town and you know what they did for me god they're fucking real ones i i love them so much these are girls who have been in my life since i was like basically born um but they planned a scavenger hunt for me um of all the places that traumatized me as a uh growing up child not like traumatized bad like lol remember when we ran from the cops here lol remember when you did this here um so they did a um scavenger hunt for me they woke me up 10 a.m outside with a boom box and a microphone they made me take a shot there and then they had a scavenger hunt of all the places and i had to take a shot at every single place that we went to and then by like two o'clock i was 21 shots in don't recommend that's just a that's like a i

don't know it's a thing we do around here you just take 21 shots on your 21st birthday you're gonna black out it's not gonna be good it's just you're gonna be a hot mess but that's kind of what your 21st birthday is four and then by like two o'clock i was just out of it throwing up they're holding my hair back um and it's one of the places i take a shot at was in front of a church like my old church so it was me taking a shot from this like like seven foot cross and i sent it to my mom and all she said was oh no i do remember that i forgot everything after that i think i got kicked out of a daiquiri bar um and then all of my co-workers which this is the cutest thing ever at my old house there was a park like a block away so i was like everybody meet at the park at like three

bring drinks bring blankets one of my co-workers brought like water balloons oh my god and we were all just hanging out smoking weed having a fantastic time and then we had a water balloon fight and then i woke up on my front porch so it was a successful 21st birthday if i do say so myself it's all about just having fun being around the people you love um and drinking really honestly and lots of smoking for me personally but you celebrate however you want to also shout out to my birthday girlies a few of you who sent in that your birthdays were this week oh my god congratulations i hope you have a fantastic fucking day and happy birthday from your girl hannah all right someone asked i feel like i overanalyze my friend's behavior are my friends

really shitty or are my feelings valid somewhere in the middle let me let me just explain something i went through i realized that i am way too hyper focused on my own being like the way i breathe the way my fucking heart beats the way my hair falls the way i'm walking how many steps i'm taking i am way too over analytical of myself and that shit sucks it hates i hate when i put myself under like a magnifying glass like that because i'm a human i deserve to make mistakes i deserve to be a little messy a little weird a little wild you know that's all about being a human and in turn not only was i putting myself under a magnifying glass but i was putting other people under a magnifying glass as well and that simply put is not healthy you have to allow people to be

themselves to make mistakes to be a little weird and gross and wild because we as humans especially when it comes to connection we want that freedom we want to be able to be our full and open selves so there's kind of like a weird point where you get to like i have to let these people be themselves and I also need to let myself be myself and I need to stop putting people under a magnifying glass including myself I need to take a step back and allow myself and other people to breathe a little bit now of course it's normal to make judgments about people to maybe assume that they might not be good friends for us or might not be a good fit but if you're just getting annoyed by the way they're breathing like maybe you need to take a step back and give them some space and

take off the magnifying lens you know now they're doing like actual shitty things that's different like if they're backstabbing you not listening to you not accepting boundaries that is way way different but if it's just like you're nitpicking things about people that's no fun and also you're probably doing it to yourself which is also not fun so take a deep breath step back and also when I find myself in that position where I'm like either nitpicking myself or other people something that is really helpful to flip that mindset and to put yourself immediately on a better path is to be like I'm gonna give that person three compliments right now or I'm gonna give myself three compliments whichever one is you know I'm hyper analyzing um if it's myself immediate three

compliments if it's someone else immediately three compliments and that comes with jealousy that comes with over analyzing that comes with just general hatred from my heart if I find myself down a negative path and like an unjustified negative path immediately I'll just like boom three compliments move on with my day but yeah over analyzing is not fun for anybody especially being over analyzed it's like damn can I breathe you know like I just want to be myself and I don't want to be judged for it so if they're being a bad friend though that's different um but if you are just overanalyzing them maybe just take some space to yourself um and yeah hey girl this is Ana Trejo I'm 23 I live in Texas I've been listening to the pod since its conception I

am just in a place right now in my life where I don't know where to go I am interested in so many things and I have so much passion and my dreams are very big my cat says hi and I just am so scared to take a leap and to do something different I've been working in the same job for about two years now I specialize in giving children professional piercings especially on their ears and I just don't know what else to do because I love so much um yeah love you thanks for listening bye oh my god your cat I'm crying that was so precious okay let me give you just like a quick mindset change because I feel like you are looking at this perspective of like oh I'm fearful I'm at a point where I don't know what to do where there's so much ahead of me

and that scares me and blah, blah, blah, blah, blah. That's like, I feel like that's where you are. When in reality, how I view this is a, you have a cool ass job. All right. You have a lot of ideas and a lot of creativity and a lot of passion. Um, you're just afraid of change a little bit, which I get. And I completely understand, but let me bring this up. The fear is going to be real no matter what whether if you stay in this position for the rest of your life and think and think and think or if you actually take the step forward into one of the million ideas you have that fear is going to be real no matter what so wouldn't you want to take a risk move forward develop as a human being and work through that that fear or would you rather just sit with it

forever and not move forward do you know what i mean like fear is natural fear is a normal human emotion i feel like a lot of us feel that and then they're like we like freeze and we're like oh i don't know what to do like i don't want to feel this feeling anymore but that feeling is a normal natural human emotion it's going to come to you especially when you're in a point of change especially when you want to move forward especially when you want to develop as a human being very normal it doesn't mean that there's something bad coming all right it just means that the unknown is out there and we as humans are a little fearful of the unknown i get it i have been so afraid of change my entire life but working through it and moving forward and even attempting

like it doesn't even have to go well attempting one of those million ideas you have feels so good it feels so good because you're listening to yourself not only your heart but your brain and those ideas you have and you're bringing them into real life like a real life manifester and it doesn't have to go well okay do you know how many projects i've picked up and in my head it was supposed to go one way but it went a complete 360 it made me more passionate it made me have more drive and it made me want to work forward more it didn't put me out it didn't make me be like i give up on everything it made me crave more you have to not be fearful to take that next step you got a cute little kitty cat joining you you have a cool ass job you seem very creative go

after it you deserve the world you deserve everything but the only person who's gonna bring that to you is yourself i know how terrifying listen the fear is gonna be real no matter what so you might as well go after what you dream and deserve of okay someone asked we know how to suck dick but how to eat pussy and figure out sexuality question mark um i've never eaten pussy um so if anybody wants to call in and give some fantastic tips all i really know when it comes to any sort of fellatio giving back you know it's all about having fun and not being afraid to get a little messy those are like the top two tips when it comes to like giving pleasure like it is about them listen to what they like try new things and

if you know they moan louder at one thing then that's that's the one you know um and have fun like i feel like you really do have to have fun like when i'm sucking dick i'm like this is the most fun I'm having in my entire life like I'm going crazy and like when I get my pussy eaten like I want that person to be enjoying it like I want them to be having a fucking blast you know what I mean so I feel like that's the same thing also figuring out sexuality I when it comes to sexuality like I know I'm bisexual but I don't think you need to figure it out we're so concerned with labels and like i understand labels are great for like inclusion and you know making people feel comfortable and seen but if you're the kind of person who's like i just don't know don't feel

the need to put a label on fucking everything you know we as humans are so constantly ever-changing we're constantly discovering new things about ourselves so don't try and like box yourself into a corner allow yourself to experience the world fully and openly if you think you like pussy like sure go after it try it out if you think you like dick like sure go after it try it out but you do not have to put like a label on yourself if you don't feel comfortable sexuality is a spectrum i fully and one million percent believe that so allow yourself to kind of wave on the spectrum and figure yourself out on your own time you know and finally i figured i would give a little bit of motivation i feel like a lot of you guys are kind of in a rut

or you're trying to work through or power forward whatever it is whether you are you know mentally in a rut and you don't know how to see the future or see the brightness or maybe you're trying to power through the last bits of college um or maybe you're fearful of the future and trying to move forward um someone said mother please please give tips for staying motivated so i can pass my second semester of college here's the thing you cannot give up on yourself i don't care if everybody else has given up on you i don't care if the people you trust most have given up on you i don't care if you are so used to giving up on yourself that that is what's comfortable from this day forward you cannot give up on yourself okay and I understand the burnout I understand getting

tired but there's one thing I learned from long distance cross-country training oh my god it's that the first mile is easy the second mile gets a little harder the third mile you're okay the fourth mile you're okay but when you're rounding out to the last two miles that fifth and sixth mile that fifth mile you're thinking about stopping you're thinking about it the entire time you finish it though and that sixth mile that last mile it's almost like the finish line is so close that you could give up now and still feel comfortable don't finish the fucking race whatever you started whatever you are trying to move towards go after it you do not deserve giving up on yourself anymore if you're trying to build trust with yourself if you are trying to

you know really get to know yourself bring what is best into your life you cannot give up on yourself like every other person in your entire life you have to be the one person to stand by yourself to trust in yourself and to motivate yourself to get fucking through it and I know it's hard it's not fun you're gonna cry you're gonna want to scream and let it out I recommend it like emotions can be overwhelming let them out let them go free understand that negative emotions do not inherently mean that you're a negative person they any emotion is allowed to visit you but do not let it sit with you longer than needed let that shit go look into the light and understand that at the end of it all you are going to be able to stop running to look forward

to have achieved your dreams to have achieved your goals and that's gonna feel better than you stopping right now you finishing it you getting through that line you persevere persevering through every single mile is going to feel a million times better than you stopping short of what you deserve. Instant satisfaction is not the same as long-term goals and achieving them. You as a human need to be able to set long-term goals and achieve them. All right, don't give up on yourself. Stand by yourself. Show up for yourself in any way possible and allow those emotions to enter and exit your body freely, okay? When I was younger, I used to get into a negative mindset or I would get into a place that was just hard. I would dig myself into a rut and then I

would sit with it. I would feel those negative emotions. I would assume I'm a negative person and I would take on those emotions as my personality. No. Those emotions are there to come into your body to show you something you need to take something from it and then you need to let it go that's what emotions are for they're not for overcoming your entire body and controlling you for the rest of your life negative shit sucks i get it feel it take from it what you need and move on with your life understand that just because it's a negative situation right now doesn't mean it's going to be awful forever I guarantee I was in a point in my life where it was about two three fucking maybe five years of just like awfulness me hating on myself me ignoring

myself me not showing up for myself let alone other people showing up for me that definitely wasn't happening and by me turning my back on myself and giving up early and not showing up for myself and not listening to myself it was just the icing on the cake of like damn everybody fucking hates me like not only is it my outer circle whether i was a little delulu and assumed everybody hated me because i hated myself i turned my back on myself and that was like the final straw that broke the camel's back you need to learn to show up for yourself to be brave for yourself to trust in yourself through the good and the bad like that relationship is going to be the most important relationship you ever build within your life fuck a romantic partner you and

yourself that is what's most important within your life okay so trust in yourself show up for yourself don't give up on yourself you deserve happiness you deserve peace you deserve prosperity go after it okay run until your little heart gives out because it will feel so much better going after everything that you've possibly dreamed and desired and wanted than giving up and living a menial small life okay i love you all you all deserve the best you all deserve the most important and incredible life experiences um and i wish i could go live all of your little beautiful lives for you but you guys have to be the one to peel yourself off the floor when you're down to comb your own hair when you can't seem to brush it to bathe yourself when you can't seem to

make yourself make make it in the shower to finish those fucking assignments you know even though that is the last fucking thing you want to do i understand it's hard but i believe in you you will get there you will get through it and i love you all so very much that being said i think this is basically the end of my podcast I've chugged a yerba mate I've gotten back into yerba mate recently if you can't tell I am a little um cracked out caffeined out feels good I love me a yerba mate especially the revelberry incredible natural caffeine um but I'm gonna let me see I'm gonna power clean my house I'm gonna cook me some dinner I'm gonna go try and get out in the sunlight i'm gonna set some goals for the week and i'm gonna try and have a fantastic rest of

my week and i hope you guys too uh do too i hope this was a fun little podcast for you guys and i cannot wait to chat again next week whoa if you want any extras any fun little sit down and chats any you know video content um goal setting um affirmations that will all be on my patreon which is at hannah marlene if you are curious i have like over i think i have 200 of you guys on the patreon which is fucking crazy i love it you guys are so sweet i love hanging out with you guys um like every other day basically there so extra content will be there my instagram is at hannah marlene you already know um and yeah i will be back next week for another amazing incredible wonderful brilliant episode and i cannot fucking wait love you all so very much

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