Smoke Sesh - release your inhibitions, go with the flow & summer maxing

Episode Date: June 30, 2026

hello hotties, happy retrograde, lets get right into it! we have a lot to catch up on as we celebrate the Capricorn full moon, and current mercury retrograde taking place, how to survive and what to look out for, self care, pleasure, getting your life together, committing to yourself, summer maxing, living life to the fullest, doing the most, releasing your inhibitions, letting go of the past, breaking cycles, freeing yourself of burdens, moving on, glamour magic, being beautiful, how to glow, being attractive, miscommunications, ghosting, moving on, pouring into your own cup, loving yourself, being the love you deserve, go with the flow, control freak, making plans, planning ahead, setting and achieving goals, life limerence, limerence, online mogul, entrepreneur, making money online, following your creativity, high functioning, depression, masking, doing what you can, managing your energy, high functioning vs low functioning, surviving life and much much more!watch the vlogs on YouTube at hannahmarlene444join the patreon! new episodes (and more) at patreon.com/smokeseshshawtysubmit your questions and call ins every week on instagram.com/hannahmarlene

listen everybody needs a fairy godmother you know just somebody to look out for them some people call me their fairy smoke mother others their internet big sister but you can call me hannah the host of smoke sash so come hang out let's light up and talk everything there is to life the good the bad the ugly the embarrassing i've got a story for it all oh my freaking goodness hello hotties and welcome back to the smoke sesh podcast my name is hannah your host and i am so excited to be back with you guys today we have a fun little episode today i don't know i'm running from demons so like let's run together girl let's be wild and free like horses running through a field okay away from our problems oh the day you're listening to this

day i'm filming this um it's actually the capricorn full moon and the start of a very long mercury retrograde so mama i am in incognito mode i am i'm just trying to protect and prepare the best I can. If you are ever curious of learning more about what's going on in the stars or keeping up with them or getting a little bit more details, I do write-ups on the Patreon, everyweekpatreon.com. But I'll go ahead and give you guys just some like warning signs of maybe what you have been feeling and how to transform those emotions into maybe something a little bit more uh useful okay your emotions are probably a fucking mess right now you're probably feeling a lot of things you're probably a little ticked off a little annoyed a

little sad a little maybe happy maybe you're euphoric maybe you're a little manic right now I know I am at some peaks that's for sure maybe you're you're just feeling a lot of things all at once and maybe that might make you feel like you're gonna explode but let me go ahead and give you some grounding y'all if you're not a familiar with grounding let's get familiar okay leaning into your emotions this retrograde this full moon it's not gonna help you I know because you feel overwhelmed by your emotions they are the like most prioritized feeling right now makes you think that this is what you need to be prioritizing no baby actually actually the cold hard truth and facts is what you need to be focusing on okay i talked about this on the patreon pros and cons

lists are going to be your best fucking friend right now pros and cons lists get real get honest get truthful about the life you want to live about who is living in your life about the habits you have about the activities you're doing baby are you living a life you want to live or is it one that is running away from you and how can you catch up by really taking accountability for what you're doing and maybe implementing some new things along the way but getting sad or getting emotional about oh but oh but this person left me or oh but i missed out on this opportunity or oh this person was you know being rude to me today and then having that ruin your whole fucking day that's not gonna help cancer babies trust me i know how emotional y'all can get and happy birthday

it's my party and i'll cry if i want to but please for the love of god there is this detached on emotional side of cancer that they're really good at practicing that i think we really need to lean into in this cancer retrograde of i'm feeling a certain way but also here's the truth of the matter and let me take steps accordingly knowing the reality of what the situation is to better my life to make a change to you know transform myself in some sort of way okay retrogrades are always full of lessons of a little bit of chaotic energy so be careful while driving be careful in communication do not open your mouth up too fucking wide girl not everything needs to be said do not lock yourself inside as well okay i think in retrogrades people get scared

they're like i'm gonna withdraw i'm going to revert back to my indoor self i'm going to become a hermit i'm going to live in the dark that's not going to help you either because then it's just you and the demons alone it's okay to you know escape a little bit go out have some fun celebrate life that's what summer's all about we should be embodying that completely but please let me go ahead and give you guys your retrograde psa just be careful out there i i've been like looking behind me for the past week like oh my god is there something coming is there something coming for me i feel like something's coming for me i feel like there's a monster in the distance and the ground is shaking as it's sprinting towards me so baby I am gearing up I am suiting up I am prepping

to the best of my ability and I hope you guys are too but yeah like I said if you want more information join the patreon patreon.com slash smoke so I already would love to have you there speaking of extra content I just uploaded the weekly vlog for you guys I know I said last week maybe I'll go horseback riding maybe I won't well I did I took you guys horseback riding if you want to meet my horse if you want to know more about my journey of how i started getting into horses even though you guys probably already know it if you just want to see what it looks like there whatever if you just come hang out follow me on youtube hannah marlene 444 it is up there now go give it a little watch who knows what we'll get into this week but i have a feeling it's going

to be probably getting stoned and thrifting if you have any vlog recommendations or vlog requests comment down below i would love to hear what the girls are into what they'd like to see from me because baby i am here to provide i also have another recipe going up on instagram i made breakfast bows bows are like my favorite thing to make and also my favorite thing to eat at my old restaurant specifically these breakfast bows are like breakfast sandwiches but in a bow bun which a bow bun is like a steamed rice bun so they're so soft like a maple aioli oh oh my god i'm literally about to go make another batch right now so good so easy incredibly easy that is up right now on instagram and also you guys i'm doing a vibrator giveaway

cancer season self-care self-love mercury retrograde baby we you deserve something good for yourself i'm doing a vibrator giveaway with balessa up on my instagram right now speaking of someone asked me what is my favorite vibrator and personally i'm like oh i'm a wand girl if i'm gonna be honest i'm such a wand girl i know the rose toys get a lot of love and like those are good don't get me wrong but like you ever have something that's a little too good and you're like this might ruin something for me maybe i might become part robotic like i this might ruin something for me let me only break this thing out when I really need a little a little extra a little extra something you know what I mean that's when the rose toy comes out that's when

the pebble comes out that's when the any of those suction crazy things come out but no on an average day on an average Wednesday girl the wand the wand is where it's at I feel like sometimes with the suction toys since they're so intense okay welcome to tmi tuesday um since they're so intense you can like lose feeling in your clit i'm not even kidding you can literally lose you can go numb down there the same way like men can get numb from jerking it too many fucking times it's like yeah your sensitivity is shot now you have to go to like the ends of the earth to try and get off suction toys can also do that to you so i want to give you a psa but also like fabulous wonderful will have your toes curling and you levitating off the bed not lying anyways

like i said you guys deserve a little self-care a little tlc so go get yours now while you can baby i have like eight of them in my bedroom right now i'm not a girl who uses anything that goes inside of her though I don't I don't I don't need penetration to get off like I really don't I'm not gonna be that girl that's like yeah I need a dildo no I'm not if you are fabulous congratulations but I feel like if something's inside of me within like solo play I'm getting overwhelmed there's like too many components going on I'm like there's it's like it's too much it's too much there's too many cooks in the kitchen i can't do it i need something simple easy peasy maybe like two speeds like let's not get too wild with it i'm a simple girly i like to keep it

simple like i said because you you can desensitize yourself so please for the love of god be careful be careful but have fun moral the story retrograde pretty much be careful but have fun you guys it is so incredibly hot out summer is officially here and i'm feeling the energy i'm feeling like the antsy energy of just like baby i'm gonna be outside i'm gonna be outside i have been inside for too long and it's time for me to get my life in order it's time for me to get my life in order best way to deal with chaos to deal with like impending doom is to organize the fuck out of your life and maybe this is a bad coping mechanism I have but I'll tell you what it does elevate me every single time but I feel like sometimes I'll wake up in life and this happens periodically to

all of us where I'll go what the fuck am I doing where am I what's going on like oh my god like what what have I been doing what have I been doing I've been in like just a free flow mode for way too long nothing like important has happened in my life and it's because I am not doing anything important in my life not that like this isn't important or I don't have value in the things I'm doing more so like the structural importance of putting yourself out there of scheduling events of going and doing things of setting up appointments of scheduling out your days so you feel like you get the most out of it you know what I mean you know what I mean so me coping is gonna to be me going you know what what happens if we did live our dream life every single day for a

month like what happens crazy what happens you know 30 days 30 days what if you commit 30 days to living your life exactly how you want it to and I understand there are some things that you have to work around such as work baby you gotta afford those bills I understand absolutely but what are you doing after work talk about your nine to five how about your five to nine are you coming home and sitting on your phone and scrolling and scrolling and scrolling and scrolling brain turning to mush okay cognitive dysfunction and then falling asleep and getting no sleep like or are we like going to the gym going to the park meeting up with a friend for dinner going home and paint it you see so it's like utilizing the time i do have in the most important way but like

what happens we have i don't know millions of fucking days in this life so many days like so many days what happens if you took the time to dedicate 30 days to yourself i think this is a very transformational tool you talk manifestation baby the universe wants to see you work hard in order for you to receive gifts it's not just gonna bless you with things i mean here and there don't get me wrong but it needs to be like okay bitch prove it to me how bad do you want it are you really gonna show up for it are you really gonna be here for you for it are you gonna be here for yourself show me show me the proof in the pudding babe and so i feel like i've been asking asking asking asking doing a lot of witchcraft love it fabulous amazing but baby it's time to

work harder than i've ever worked hard in my entire life and i am excited by it because it's working hard on myself not working hard for other people not trying to prove myself to other people not trying to make my parents happy not trying to have something to brag about simply put just doing it for me and seeing what the fuck comes out of it seeing where i am in 30 days so i'll be starting July 1st there's not very many rigid rules baby I am not doing 75 hard I don't hate myself actually but I will be doing 30 Hannah's way 30 Hannah's way of waking up early trying to get out to the barn or getting a workout in or going on a walk before it is 1 million fucking degrees outside because the earth is catching on fire hate to break it to you global warming is

real if you're listening to the podcast yes you do know that okay it's fucking hot it's hot i'm a little antsy let's get outside let's enjoy this planet while we got it okay coming home making myself a good breakfast taking care of my body doing some painting getting some work done cleaning my house hanging out with my cat setting up dates with friends putting myself out there doing content creating things i enjoy to create i love making the vlogs they've brought so much enjoyment into my life recently cutting back on the weed cutting back on the alky okay social drinking only and summer maxing if i'm being honest if i see an event someone's posted on instagram bitch i'm gonna show up and i'm gonna be there i don't care if i have to go alone i

don't care if i be that annoying friend that's like will you come with me will you come with me we come with me i'm just in an era where i'm like fuck it let me put myself out there let me see how things go let me try this let me try that what do we have to lose nothing nothing and we can lose ourselves it's very easy to lose ourselves when you're living for other people you're trying to meet other people's expectations you're trying to you know make other people happy in your life who simply put don't give a fuck about you um you're trying to balance other people's lives for them you're trying to invest yourself emotionally into things that just like aren't worth your time you're getting overwhelmed with your own emotions you're locking yourself inside

like no summer maxing I need you guys to get at least one sunburn I need you guys to set off at least one firework I need you guys to share a social drink with a friend I need you guys to go out dancing i need you to be in a body of water i need you to eat a popsicle these are things i'm requiring from you in order in order for you guys to have a good summer simple easy indulgent fun silly that's what it's all about okay i feel like the pre-retrograde shadow phase i was like i'm scared i'm scared i'm scared i'm scared and now it's like the monster's here bitch what's it gonna do what's it gonna do we are stronger we are stronger than the demons we can outlast them i promise you but it does take you getting real with fucking life working hard and seeking joy

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heart into making sure it's protected get insurance that's really big on care find an agent today at dejardin.com slash business coverage so that's your little pep talk for the day that's honestly my little pep talk for the day my god I have just been losing my mind a little bit but in a in a good way I've had a good week so far I went horseback riding couple times the farrier came out checked on my horse's hooves after they got fucked up but she's all good we're good we worked it out on the remix you know I did some planting on my balcony I made some really fun recipes I've been hanging out with my cat and painting he's been loving being outside even though it is a million degrees out i think on his arthritis it just feels like laying in one big heating pad but the

heating pad is the earth um i finally fixed my fish tank and the water issues i was having my fish have never been happier and i got snails and the snails are living their best life wow love it big win i have fourth of july off to celebrate what i don't know but i'm taking back america okay the republicans have everything right now okay we deserve to have some fun as well we deserve to celebrate life as well and what can be of the american dream of the true american dream of equality of liberty and justice for all no matter who you are i don't give a fuck we do not discriminate okay that's what i'll be celebrating the world cup has brought so many people into the city that are just like really having so much fun and i've been feeding off

their energy a lot it's been fabulous when i have been going to work it's been like the sweetest customers ever and i've just been kikiing with them i met this angel the other night who was like you have so much life left to live go out and live it don't let anything hold you back and also here is this ranch i worked on in hawaii you should go work there i was like baby girl love you down but white girl me I don't think I'm supposed to be there but I appreciate the angel energy you just brought down here to earth to me I did need that pep talk thank you so much if I could kiss you on the lips I would but your husband's sitting right there girl she was cracking me up the bill came she goes we do gender roles around here give it to him he makes

one dollar to my 75 cents we he'll pay he'll pay I was like girl oh it's so funny I made a new friend i put myself out there she reached out i was like yes fuck it girl let's go hang out she was such a vibe such a key we have another hangout set up i've been reaching out to people left and right to just like go out and party and live life this summer and yeah i am just i'm not gonna use the word thriving because i'm scared of the repercussions but we're doing our best and that's all we can really do this summer okay i'm gonna go frolic in a field i'm gonna go ride a horse i'm gonna go set off some fireworks and i'm gonna go live my best life and i think you should too okay feed off that energy run from your demons it's okay they'll catch up to you

eventually you'll handle that shit but try and have as much fun along the way as you can with that being said let's get into your guys's questions for the day because i think you guys are losing your minds and hopefully i can approach with a little bit of resilience and excitement for you in order to keep you guys going the best you can okay how to leave the past behind releasing inhibitions feel the rain on my skin yeah now that's what i'm talking about now that is what i'm talking about okay this is exactly the energy we need to be leaning into of like baby the past is in the past the forward is the only is the only place to go the forward girl get it together it's early i just my parents the airport they went to croatia so i'm like 8 a.m film time sure

why not oh the espresso has yet to hit my brain anyways speaking of retrogrades retrogrades have a silly way of making us like circle back and re-evaluate and bring demons from the past back to you and just like kind of make you regress but the regression is a test where the universe is like let me put you in a situation let me give you a situation let me give you a person let me give you a person place thing a noun an adjective any of those things any other things you could think of as a test this is the universe testing your will your patience and your dedication to the future the future you hold so dearly in your heart the future you dream about every single night when you lay your head down on that pillow the universe goes how bad do you fucking want it

so understand when you find yourself in a place where you go oh i'm reacting like i'm 16 again or oh why is that evil ex situationship crawling out of the woodworks oh why am i back into this shitty bad habit again oh why am i smoking weed and drinking to drown out my feelings why am i getting overwhelmed with my feelings why am i regressing to this place any of these things if you feel yourself circling back for the millionth time it's for a reason and this is a test this is the universe going will she pass or will she fail will she be stuck or will she see it for what it is no she deserves better and move forward accordingly with the knowledge she now has from living in the future do not fail this test okay you will not release your inhibitions you

will not feel the rain on your skin please for the love of god the only way out is through and that is forward moving backwards rehashing old situations i know in your brain you're like but like i didn't figure it out and it's unfinished business and maybe if i figure it out it'll give me closure and i'll know more about myself and i'll know more about the situation no no no no no no no no no no no no no no babe actually the definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting a different ending a different outcome please let's not give into insanity this season let's give into peace and quality and clarity okay that's evil situationship is not gonna show you love baby he never loved you she never loved

you they never loved you that polyamorous relationship you were in that you felt you know unloved in baby yeah that's because you're supposed to move forward you're supposed to move forward whatever it was you're supposed to move forward whether you forcefully removed yourself whether the universe shut it down whether the person broke your heart whatever happened was supposed to happen every retrograde I have the same fucking situation come back up and this one is the one where it ends baby you know it it all ends with us okay because the truth of the matter is I keep going back thinking but I'll learn more this time but I'll adjust it this time but I'll know more but I'll I'll be able to understand it differently no it's not how it works it's not how

it works the only way sometimes to move on is to accept things for what they are good bad ugly and go damn whatever that was sucked but also I know in the future I never want to go through that again or have that in my vicinity again or experience that again so I'm gonna move forward into a life that I know will not have that. It's really simply put, I promise you. Sometimes the only closure you need is going, actually, the future that I'm envisioning in my head, that's a Raven moment. The future that I'm creating, that I'm hyping up, that I'm dreaming about does not include this habit, this situation, this person, this place, this thing, adjective, noun, whatever I don't know sometimes that is all the closure you need and I think you can give that

closure yourself you don't need outside forces to tell you everything is okay not everybody is going to be here to hold your hand and help you through it but you can be there for yourself I promise you that you can be there for yourself you can hold your hand you can help yourself through it and you're strong enough to do so but do not fail these tests be aware be on the lookout have your head on a swivel if you have these triggers that you feel like you've gotten over and some random person tries to trigger you baby walk away walk away if evil exes crawl out of the woodworks let them be leave them in hell to burn if you feel like yourself slipping into bad habits bad thinking patterns whatever it is remember you can move forward accordingly you do not have to give

in to temptation all right there is peace in knowing that like we have a little bit of control over our lives what we choose to have in it what we choose to release but also there's a lot that we don't have control over and sometimes we just have to accept shit for what it is and move forward onto something that we desire more that we desire and prioritize more whatever those things happen to be a new job a new place a new um apartment a new new anything you know but whatever you dream of and whatever you feel desired to go to you can do i know you're strong enough but do not move backwards it's that is a big old waste of time and i do think through true acceptance of self you do fully release your inhibitions there is this like side of myself that i have recently

accepted where it's like you know what i'm kind of a weirdo i'm kind of a freak i'm like i got a big mouth on me I love to yap I'm kind of annoying sometimes but like who cares that's who I am fully accepted they're not like bad traits they're not horrible awful things that I'm doing you know if I was evil then I'd be like all right let's switch things up but I've come to accept simply put who I am the good the bad the ugly the embarrassing hello you've heard me say this a million times and it does have this like quality this this acceptance does have this quality of like true peace if you can accept you know what i fuck up sometimes i'm human i'm weird i like to dress weird i like to show up and show out whoever you are maybe you're a little awkward maybe you're

a little bit more quiet maybe you're not a club girl maybe you just prefer to stay at home and read but you've been pining to be somebody you're not accept who you are who you are is good who you are is valid and real and honest and important uplift that side of yourself whoever it is and i think you will feel true peace you will feel the rain on your skin you will be able to release your inhibitions okay don't pretend you're somebody you're not accept yourself fully release what you don't want someone asked do you practice glamour magic i'm mesmerized by you when i watch your youtube videos oh my god thank you no actually if you watch my youtube videos I'm a mess and I don't practice glamour magic I think I just love myself and don't give

a fuck what I look like and I think there's an air and a quality to that that does give off this glow that anybody can inhabit anybody can inhabit also retinol you guys tread no one has changed my life I love retinol I do my skin never looked better the purging phase pretty fucking crazy pretty crazy i was like oh my god am i ruining my skin no you do have to go through a little ugly to get to the good i'm not gonna lie and also like the acne i am purging is acne that i felt like was reoccurring like you know when you get spots that you break out and you're like oh my god it's the same spot over and over and over and over again the the retinol is helping break down the skin cells to finally purge it completely so you kind of have to let it go and not pick at

your skin because you will scar but after you go through the phases of you know slowly introducing it slowly getting your skin ready upping the dosage you know then kind of allowing yourself to purge taking it one day at a time now my skin wow wowzers wow we i'm not even kidding my main issue was like my pores i feel like my pores were large which like maybe we just need to step away from the mirror like that simple but this has shrunk my pores it makes my face a little bit more greasy but I think that's just because I'm like super hydrated um and it's gotten rid of like consistent acne spots that I would get all the time that I could not get rid of before I'm literally about to start slathering my body head to toe in retinol in tretinoin are they the same

thing I think they are either way I think that's probably why you're seeing the glow I gotta give the the pharmacist a little bit of an award here for what they have done for me thank you thank you to my dermatologist but no i do think there is this air and this quality like perception perception is so simple um and it's kind of silly if you really think about it when you think like hot sexy batty you know you think like certain traits you think of certain traits that are popularized by society maybe like right now it's like the boob job the lip filler the clear skin the tan skin whatever it is whatever you're thinking of in reality none of those objects although none of those things matter none of them matter what does matter for true beauty for true

like essence for true ethereal quality is like this innate knowledge of like no i'm gorgeous like I love myself I I think I'm beautiful and also I don't give a fuck what anybody else thinks I don't really care if you think I'm gorgeous or not you thinking I'm not the epitome of beauty does not take away from what I think about myself and I think there is that like I don't give a fuck attitude that does create this internal glow you know the most beautiful women i know the most gorgeous women i know the most like ethereal fairy goddess oh my god i'm praying at your temple women i know are not women who like are fitting into stereo stereotypical beauty standards they are women that simply put just know themselves and love themselves and aren't

here to prove that to anybody but themselves and it does give this radiant quality baby you can pray at your own temple you do not need a mass following to pray at your temple to make you feel good you can visit your own temple you can give your own offerings you can you can pray at your own temple you can honor yourself you don't have to wait around for someone else to say that you are beautiful you are worthy you are divine you are loved you know what i'll go out and tell you that right now if you need it but like wasting your time waiting for somebody to tell you that uh-uh we we don't have time for that tell it to yourself you know who you are love yourself show up for yourself and let yourself just be yourself good bad ugly you know I don't care if I'm breaking

out I've kind of gotten over this this hump that I've been in recently where it's like oh but like what if my tummy oh but what if my acne oh my back knee oh this oh that oh but what yeah it's a waste of brain cells i'm outside i'm so insecure it's like i'm supposed to be engaging in conversation like i'm supposed to be engaging in the world around me this is a waste of fucking time a waste of brain cells a waste of thinking processing it's like there's no more time for that there's no more time for insecurity we need to spend more brain cells on having fun and being hot and flirty and having a good time and summer maxing not does my butt look good does do I fit this beauty standard do I this do I that no no no no no I am perfect exactly how I am good bad ugly

and I love myself despite my flaws and that will give you that glow that you're so so desiring and also retinol i love retinol i cannot i cannot say enough good things about it but also like everybody's different please talk to your doctor please for the love of god i am not qualified two and five canadians will hear the words you have cancer that's why every step and dollar raised matters on september 19th join thousands in toronto for the princess margaret cancer Foundation Walk. Challenge yourself, friends, and family to walk 21 kilometers in support of life-saving research. Together, we can carry the fire and help create a world free from the fear of cancer. Register today at pmcfwalk.ca. This episode is brought to you by Accenture.

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and fandoms that matter most. Learn more at Accenture.com slash Spotify. Hello. Oh my gosh, hi. I just want to say I love your podcast. I listen every week. um you really motivate me to just like stay more positive and uh especially when i'm at work just not being so much of a funk but anyways i'm currently going through i guess a friendship

breakup kind of in a way uh we had our first miscommunication and uh i thought that we kind of you know figured everything out uh and then she just kind of randomly after that stopped just stopped talking to me or uh sending me stuff or liking any of my stuff and uh you know it's just really weird because I don't really know how to feel I feel like I went about the situation the best I could and I'm kind of having the approach of like you know I'm not gonna beg someone to be my friend so you know I'm trying not to dwell on it too much but I guess my main question is just do you have any advice for just like you know I guess grieving a friendship or letting go of a friendship that you know wasn't good but you know you're still

sad because you still liked having that person as a friend you know yeah I don't know just do you have any advice any tips any um have you ever gone through a situation like this yeah I don't know okay I hope you have a awesome day oh love you first of all second of all this happens to all of us I don't know sometimes people just get burnt out on each other and that's okay that's okay i understand you said it was like a miscommunication and miscommunications happen they happen in the workplace they happen with friendships they happen with relationships they happen with parents they happen with with everybody miscommunications are very very very common um and they are something that also like usually good people in your life should understand your intentions or understand

you know what maybe they didn't mean to go off that hard my bad or maybe they didn't mean to say that thing whatever it's not that big of a deal um but also sometimes you know you strike a chord with somebody and they're like i need to take a step away and just kind of like take some time to myself that's also valid i feel like that's pretty valid in relationships friendships any sort of any sort of interpersonal relationships sometimes people need to take a step away now the completely ghost is very interesting because usually in these situations i would say reach out anyways fuck it what do you have to lose okay obviously she can't communicate her real feelings about the situation but you can still keep kind of trying to figure it out if you don't

have the energy to do so and you know you want it's a two-way street you're like it's her turn to reach out I also understand that but the thing is I don't know sometimes this just happens in life in relationships and I wish that she was maybe a little bit more mature enough to be like hey you know maybe i just need some time away or you know maybe i just need some time to myself that's totally understandable that's totally fine but the completely withdrawing is very interesting and sometimes you just have to take motives at face value when we're left the ghost ghosting is hard because when you're left with unanswered questions when you're left with no closure you're like you're creating like a million different scenarios in your head of

what you did wrong what they're thinking about you what this what that and it's like that's just not a fun place to live in especially in your head so I'm sorry if you're going through that but also the only closure you're going to get from the situation is this happened the miscommunication and she desired decided to handle it by completely cutting me off and that's how she handles conflict so I'm gonna let her handle it that way and I'm gonna move on and you know try and find different people in my life that maybe handle shit differently, who maybe are a little bit more mature to communicate things with me, who, you know, will understand where I'm coming from a little bit more. That's really all you can do is take the situation at face value and ask

yourself, do I want this in my life? Do I want someone who handles conflict in their life like this? Or do I need to move on and find a friend who's a little bit better at understanding or saying i'm sorry or speaking up for what they think simply put okay i think ghosting is pretty i think it's pretty immature if you're doing it to a man and the man's evil i don't give a fuck but especially like a friend simply just saying hey i'm going through something right now i just need some time away you know or sorry i've been so busy recently i just i need a break i need some space it has something to do with you i'm just kind of like taking some time to myself i think that's such a simple and easy thing to do especially to somebody that you respect and care

about that i don't have a lot of respect personally for ghosting you know and like i said relationships ebb and flow especially with friendships you can take a month apart you can come back together act like nothing ever happened it happens you know but you wasting time trying to fill the gaps or figure out the situation or a b c and d and maybe if i if i say this right thing then she'll forgive me and this and that it's just that is a massive waste of time real honest authentic relationships will not have you sitting there questioning what is going on what are the motives what did I do real honest authentic relationships will not have you questioning yourself like this miscommunications happen they're not that big of a deal it is what it is but this reaction is

something that I think you can take the power back and look at and go do I want someone in my life who handles conflict who handles things like this with friends in this manner or do I want someone maybe a little bit more mature and understanding so sorry you're going through this it's very hard it's very difficult but I do think through understanding of the situation you'll be able to move forward and maybe find friends who are a little bit better and also I don't blame you if you reach out and go hey what's going on you know unanswered questions are hard but sometimes the situation just is what it is and we have to accept it but ask ourselves do we want that in our lives how do i stop feeling the need to be loved by a man and pour that love into

myself so tell me which one of your parents didn't give you enough affirmations as a child so tell me which of your parents did not love you enough as a child i feel like sometimes even like listen listen listen listen listen this is no hate on my parents but like girl they were busy they were busy they were booked and busy they were busy individuals all right and i have this like only child complex even though i'm not an only child because my brother is so much older than me that i was like but have y'all forgotten about me like my brother's off doing all these things but like hey y'all i'm still here you forget about me you know and it causes complex within myself to be like constantly putting myself in situations or

environments or with partners where I'm like pick me choose me love me don't forget about me the way my parents did don't forget about me and it caused so many problems in my relationships and not like not like problems for myself but more so just like damn why are you dating that man who just like doesn't give a fuck about you oh because it's familiar okay you know what I mean And so a lot of like innate knowing about yourself and your habits, the good, the bad, the ugly, knowing I kind of go after these avoidant people because I was around these avoidant people or I go after this type of person because I was around this type of person growing up or, you know, I'm used to this kind of love.

So I go after this kind of love. Having that innate knowledge about yourself will give you power and also it'll give you understanding of the dynamics that you find yourself in and knowing whether or not you want to pursue something based on past knowledge and future desires okay you cannot go back you cannot go back you cannot fix that but you can choose partners that love you you can know wow i did not like feeling that way let me go forward and find somebody who does the exact opposite who doesn't make me feel that way oh I didn't like this quality let me move forward and find someone who has a different kind of quality but also I think if you and like I don't want to say because

this is like so I don't know I feel like it'll hold people back but like not to say that like if you don't love yourself you shouldn't find yourself in a relationship but I do think it kind of makes it unequal in a sense you know it's important to love yourself fully to know yourself fully to then be able to understand what you even want in a relationship you know to feel secure in yourself so when someone else is coming into your life you can understand if they disrupt your security or if they maybe add on to it make you feel more secure when I found myself getting into relationships in a place of lack in a place of I need this to feel wanted I need them to want me I need this I need that it never worked out because I was never satisfied and they were

never able to give me what I wanted and that's not fair that's not a fair relationship giving into yourself feeding into yourself loving yourself pouring into yourself you will never regret that you might regret doing it to somebody who ultimately at the end of the day will never be able to love you the way you desire but you'll never regret giving it to yourself and also it'll set you up in the future for good positive relationships like I said where you're able to actually evaluate the situation of things of is this good are they actually adding to my life that is perfect and beautiful and wonderful or are they coming in and fucking disrupting things and ruining it now my life's chaos even though before it was so beautiful and lovely because

I knew how to love myself I also think there's power in knowing how to love yourself so then you can communicate to future partners how you enjoy being loved you know you can't assume all partners in the future are going to be mind readers sometimes you do have to say hey you know I really enjoy this form of love I love gift giving I love physical touch I love words of affirmation this is what I enjoy do you mind you know you know working with my love languages a little bit that comes from true self-love to true self-knowledge and giving yourself the things that you want you desire okay I do not think you will ever regret pouring into yourself okay if you want to talk about regrets I don't have a lot of regrets in life I don't regret things in life I really

don't but I do have like qualms about like wasted time that I could have spent on myself that I then poured into someone else who was maybe undeserving of it or poured into a situation that was undeserving of it poured into like unnecessary feelings that was undeserving whatever it is you know wasted time wasted things it is it is what it is you move forward you have plenty of time left in this life don't worry everybody is listening to this is young okay if I can urge you to do one thing this summer it is pour into yourself whatever you want whatever you desire whatever you're seeking give it to yourself you deserve it okay cancer season treat yourself self-care self-love it is the season of self-love i'm not even kidding now is the time to practice

this to its fullest oh you want to go um get a massage you're like damn i'm really touch deprived but I don't really want to hook up with anybody I need to go get a massage go get a massage oh you know I've been really wanting to get a facial recently go get a facial oh I've you know really wanted to go to the pool and tan go do it I don't care if you have to go alone or if you have to beg a friend to go that's okay go do it oh I've been wanting to go to this activity or I want to go dance I want to go out and drink and dance go out and do it pour into yourself feed into your desires give yourself everything you've ever wanted not only will it build a good rapport with yourself where you're able to inherently trust yourself more listen to yourself trust

your intuition trust your gut feelings your gut instincts because you're able to build up that connection and relationship with yourself but also it'll set you up for success in the future if you do want to build a relationship with someone who's not a fucking loser you already have such a beautiful fulfilling wonderful life that if someone comes into it you will be able to understand quickly okay expeditiously if they are there to fuck shit up ruin your vibe or if they are bringing an air of calm to your life while also elevating it i have a friend right now who's like she's like majorly single like celibate single been this way for a while you know she she was like divulging him in a little bit and then she was like actually actually he's

evil and awful we're going celibate we're going single and it's gotten to a point where she has like worked so hard on her life and what she wants building routines going to yoga going to therapy doing events going and hanging out with good friends having you know just like a good routine in her life new job new environment new things she took the time those hard work sure there were nights where she cried there's nights where she's lonely there's nights where it's hard where she's maybe going through mental things whatever it is you know but she did not give up on making a beautiful life for herself and now of course right when you do that they start coming out of the woodworks you're like what are you doing can i come over can i do this can i do that and she is

able to read through these fucking men like no other because they're like hey let's watch love island together i'll be over at 9 30 p.m and she's like no no you're not coming over to my place at 9 30 p.m on a thursday to watch love island when i have to get up and work in the morning like it really is that simple understanding where before maybe if you were so desperate for love so desperate for attention it's like oh yes please come over 9 30 i don't care i don't care if i'm exhausted tomorrow i don't care if you only came over to sleep with me i don't care this i don't her that like i need this attention i need this one i need this desire no she's giving it to herself she's filled up her cup her cup is overflowing simply from herself she knows this

person is coming to sip and slurp and slop out of that cup and take from her and she's simply it's a simple understanding of maybe that ain't happening that ain't happening you're not getting a ticket to that ride okay goodbye and good night summer maxing these this season it's gonna look like pouring as much love as possible into yourself and not feeling guilty about it you deserve everything you want you deserve to feel good you deserve to have a fantastic summer you deserve to go live all of your dreams and you deserve to give it to yourself you can give it to yourself you know yourself more innately than anybody else does i do have this true belief and knowledge that when we are born we know exactly who we are we do and then we spend so much of

our time getting like pushed away from that true self pushed away from that true understanding of self by society by our parents by family by random inputs from other people and then we find ourselves in adulthood lost and wandering and trying to find our way back to that to that childlike quality that we have you have it within you you can find it you can give it to yourself but no one else is going to give it to you okay pour into your cup you got this i believe in you okay summer maxing means loving ourselves despite it all and going after and getting everything we want and desire but that man who only texts you at 9 30 who is avoidant who leaves you on read who doesn't show up for you who doesn't know your cat's name who doesn't care about you they are going to chug

that cup down until you're empty and leave you with that empty cup okay and that is not what you deserve hi hannah i have been approaching my future plans in a go with the flow sort of attitude where i'm not forcing anything but letting the path unfold i'm having trouble distinguishing when to surrender and when to really go for something for example i've been thinking about moving but i don't know how to trust myself sometimes i feel like i need to get out of my city i've lived in for almost a decade and other times i can't imagine leaving the life and opportunities i have here i'm afraid of ending up stuck either in my current world where i'm not realizing all of my dreams or stuck in a new place and regretting the decisions and wishing i was

where i used to be all change is change but what if i really lose out because the timing was not right roar do you have any tips for figuring out when to go for something i need a little soul searching assistance and hopefully first-hand advice if you have any thank you infinitely oh okay first of all love you baby love you down i think this is something a lot of people feel and a lot of people probably are feeling i don't know summertime just has this ability to be like all right let's look at all the options get overwhelmed with options and then let's kind to do nothing it's so easy to do it really is I will say I don't know I feel like people or I was this way where I was like the go with the flow mentality is the mentality to have where

you're like I am just living day by day and I am making the best of it and I am I'm having such a grand day today and I don't care what comes tomorrow because today is the day today is the day okay but but what about five years from now what about 10 years from now what about 20 years from now I think go with the flow mentality is fantastic for simple situations not day-to-day living I do not think go with the flow is going to help you at all with building a life that you dream of I know I know I think go with the flow is going to keep you stuck in limerence it's going to keep you from making the choices you desire to make it's going to keep you from making the hard choices that you have to make it's going to keep you from going after and living in that city

you desire or achieving that college dream that you've always had or going after the job because that's a tomorrow problem and today is today you know I think go with the flow is fantastic when you're just hanging out with friends and someone's like hey should we go to the pool and you have nothing else going on with your day yes go to the fucking pool okay go with the flow is fantastic when you meet a new friend you're like should we go do this thing yes go do that thing go with the flow is fantastic when you're traveling with a group of friends and you know you're just trying to make the best out of that situation go with the flow is fantastic when maybe you're approached with hard things and instead of overwhelming yourself with negative emotions you're like

let's just take it one step at a time go with the flow is fantastic also for managing anxiety when it comes to making hard choices but go with the flow is not gonna help you actually live your life okay i hate to break it to you guys this is something i had to learn recently semi recently but you have to have plans in life okay i look at my parents as kind of like this epitome of this where like they achieved a lot with the very little amount of money that they had okay they achieved a lot and that all came from looking forward setting goals and planning not go with the flow we have two children we want to get them through high school the best they can we want to have them in extracurricular activities we want to make sure that they can go to college we want

to set ourselves up for retirement so our children aren't being forced to take care of us we want to make sure that our retirement is comfortable so then we're not also having to pick up a second job in retirement we want to make sure that we're set up for success we want to make sure our kids are set up for success so there is no extra anxiety you have to do that in life there is something called playing the game of life and baby sometimes you have to play it and that includes setting goals achieving things going after them making hard decisions but i do think sometimes you get stuck in this moment because like i'm not even kidding i have lost at least three years of my life recently to this go with the flow mindset of like if it happens it happens we'll figure it

out and it's like cool amazing but there's nothing to figure out when there's nothing fucking happening in your life because you're not setting goals you're not achieving things you're not going after things you're not looking forward to things you're not making hard decisions you're not going out there and trying new things you're not putting yourself out there nothing is happening in your life and yes maybe go with the flow is protecting you from bad things but also it's hindering you from good things and i really want to like just like seriously like kind of get this point across my fucking head so maybe if since i'm like mostly just rambling to myself maybe you guys will also take from this maybe something you need to hear as well because I

know it's something I need to hear good things are never easy okay achieving big dreams big accomplishments are never an easy feat they never come to you easily there's going to be trials you're going to be tribulations there's going to be mathematical equations that you have to solve how do I do this how do I get here how do I move my things okay this is something I'm thinking about when it comes to like moving across the country do I sell all of my things do I pack them all up how do I get there how do I find an apartment from across the world like issues upon issues upon issues upon issues if I let that deter me if I let those problems deter me and go no but it should just flow easily to me no like if it's gonna happen it's gonna happen no but like

you know it's just maybe it's not meant for me because like I don't want to work to go after it like what a wasted life you know go with the flow is good for situational things but not for long-term goal planning and goal setting that is going to take work it's going to take effort it's going to take planning it's going to take mood boarding it's going to take everything pros and cons and listing and it's going to take hard work it is period point blank it really is it's not going to take you assuming things are going to happen it's going to really require you to go i want that and i'm going to go after it okay and don't get caught up with trying to make the right decision every decision is the right decision let me go ahead and just break the ice for you

we've talked about this before with decision making but every decision is the right decision whether it puts you in a new city that you fucking hate and you realize damn i hate this city i want to go back home guess what it was the right decision because now you will never spend your life regretting not moving to that city and not discovering that thing even if it goes completely fucking wrong at least you have the answer now and in turn that makes it the right decision because you were exploring that opportunity it could be the right decision by moving to a whole different city and going wow i love this city i'm so proud of myself for doing this thing wow it turned out quote unquote good in the grand scheme of things there's no such thing as a right

and wrong decision there are only decisions in our life and we must make them to the best of our ability to align with our dreams with our desires with our wants and we owe it to ourselves to go after them okay i do not want you getting stuck with this limerence i think we people talk about limerence they talk about it mostly in a relationship aspect where you're in this place of like frozen time of waiting on this man waiting on this man waiting on this man i don't give a fuck about men anymore okay how about waiting on your life waiting on your life waiting on your life waiting on your life to take form waiting on your life to finally put you in that city waiting on your life to finally accomplish your dreams your life is not going to live for you

you have to live your life and that means making scary decisions making hard choices doing hard things crashing and failing sometimes but getting back up and trying again go with the flow is not going to help you achieve those things but go with the flow will kind of keep you semi-balanced as you make those hard decisions I have somebody in my life right now that's like I just can't plan I can't plan I don't look forward to the future I'm unable to do so I don't want to I don't want to look forward I just want to live today because tomorrow is scary and I'm just trying to make the best of it because if I think about tomorrow I'm gonna get overwhelmed and I don't want to do that so I'm just gonna think about today and it's like it makes me want

to rip my fucking hair out because it's like okay well today sucks like you can make tomorrow better by learning from today to then look forward to tomorrow or look forward five years from now to make your life better but no you're just stuck in the same shitty situations shitty environments things you don't like doing not having enough time for yourself and you refuse to make a change because you refuse to plan ahead you just want to go with the flow I personally I just believe that's lazy and not at you but at me okay don't take it personally don't take it personally most of when I'm rambling most of it has to do with me no offense but there is going to be a moment in time where you are required to step up and start living life and I do not want you to be

fearful of it the one thing that I want you to be fearful of in this life which is something that I have become innately fearful of is not living a life that you desire and want getting stuck in situations because they're comfortable instead of forcing yourself out of your comfort zone to go and discover more beautiful wonderful things not making hard decisions because it's easier to stay where you are with what you know instead of going after what you want i do not want you to let life pass you by because it will it will all right and if you have a hard time making decisions start small start with hanging out with a new friend start with going to a new event start with going and trying a new pool out start with eating a new meal simple small work your way up but living in

this limerence of life will have you waking up at 80 and going what the fuck am i doing and it might put you into some more trouble than you like because you didn't have the wherewithal to plan ahead retirement what's retirement i never planned for that now i gotta work till i'm 95 oh my god I had kids but I never planned ahead for their future and my future so now we're all struggling you know it's like to set yourself up for the most success possible you have to look forward you have to see the roadblocks as they're coming and do your best to adjust accordingly to work with them to work around them however you can but the best way to force yourself to make a decision to go if I don't make a decision I'm gonna be fucking stuck here and do you want to be stuck

here or do you want to take a risk which probably has an amazing outcome to go and live the life that you dream and desire it's all up to you it's all up to you and I know that's scary but also like thank god it's not up to someone else because other people don't have the standards I have other people don't have the dreams the desires I have other people aren't able to see the world that I see it the way i see it i think that's beautiful same thing for you as well you know other people are not able to dream as big as you or as beautifully or as bright as you but you have that vision inside yourself you have that desire inside yourself if it's inside of you you are able to go out to find it to create it but you must get outside and go find it you must make that decision

you must take on those challenges you must face face them head on or else bitch life's just gonna slip you by i don't want that happening for any of us okay there's a beautiful big beautiful world out there and all it requires from us is a little bit of risk a little bit of risk what's going on i'm meeting this woman to go on a group trip and i've been working full-time at a bakery because That's something I'm really passionate about, but I've really been wanting to make money online and I have really been putting inspired action and it's been paying off. But I feel like there's just part of me that doesn't know really what the next step is to make money online. And I know that you've been doing this for a while, so I guess I just really wanted to ask you and also you're an inspiration. So, yes. Also, thanks for letting me send you a voice memo.

but let me know your thoughts on that and I hope you have an amazing day okay I think this is a great question I don't talk a lot about the entrepreneur penurial penurial entrepreneur whatever side of things and just like being a content creator online and listen I'm going to tell you this real quick there is no recipe there is no formula to follow there is no a b c and d and you're going to get a million dollars. There is no join this platform, join this thing. You know, there, there is no hack. There is no easy way. If it was like that, maybe everybody would be doing it. But I have, if you haven't watched my money manifestation video on YouTube, go watch it now. Um, the way I talk about money there is the same way I talk. I like think about money when it

comes to creating online and that is number one there's plenty of money to go around there is plenty of money in this world i promise you that there's plenty of money there's plenty of people who are willing to spend money who are willing to pay money even me like maybe i online shop to the max i am very quick to give out five dollars ten dollars fifteen dollars 150 dollars like i like to shop like i said there's enough money okay so don't get worried and caught up with the idea of I have to follow this algorithm or I have to do this thing or I have to you know join this platform whatever it is the only way to make money online is to follow your creativity yes yep and you're like I'm more analytical I want to sell gadgets and gizmos okay cool you still have

to follow that creativity that desire of wanting to sell that thing of wanting to you know market yourself to be able to make money maybe art is your calling okay great post your art get into your creativity figure out how you like to present yourself simply just upload your work show yourself off the more you upload the more people see your stuff simply put you have to follow your creativity same thing with me I kind of got caught in this environment of like oh but I have to upload these days and I have to do this and I have to do that and it's like once I gave up that idea and I was like, I'm just going to post whenever I want, however I want. I'm going to talk about whatever I want in this podcast. I'm going to share whatever I want on Patreon. I'm going to

make whatever YouTube video I want that I'm curious about. That's when, you know, the financial aspect of things started working out. But I didn't do it for the finances. And I think that's why it worked so well. I think when you try and grasp onto the finances, I have to sell this painting to to make my rent I have to I have to I have to that's when it gets like a little desperate and that's when that lack mindset comes in instead of going you know what I would love this painting to go to somebody who loves it let me just share it with the world let me upload it a bunch of times let me just set the price for like a really honorable amount that makes sense for me that makes sense for a buyer and let's see what happens I guarantee that painting will sell

you see what I mean but you cannot do it for the money aspect you have to do it for the creative aspect you like baking baking is your passion maybe you want to sell baked goods okay there are people making probably hundreds of thousands of dollars out of their kitchen at home selling at farmers markets selling online even like facebook marketplace selling food you know what i mean you can also do those things but you have to share your creativity with the world you have to follow that creativity and be open and authentic and i guarantee naturally things will fall in line and you have to keep showing up you're probably not going to make a lot of money at first like I said I did this podcast for four years without making a single cent but I did it for the love of

the game I did it for the creative aspect and avenue that it really brought forth because I enjoy doing it I enjoy being here and naturally the money came through I don't care how much money this podcast makes you know what I mean I'm still gonna sit up here and do it every single fucking weak and in turn it keeps my motivation alive it keeps my creativity alive it probably is more enthralling for you guys because i'm not sitting up here just like desperate and also high danger naturally the money just follows naturally it will i guarantee you you have to keep those avenues open and you have to follow your creativity i think that's the best way to make money online 1000 think about the influencers that are making millions of dollars those people started out just

like making random shitty videos that they just found interesting and they didn't care if anybody else found it interesting but they personally enjoyed it it really is that simple there is no trick or secret thing or secret algorithm boost or whatever it is just following your calling following your passion and putting yourself out there authentically consistently and having fucking fun the money will follow i promise you hi i'm so grateful all of the advice um you and your podcast have given me over the last half a decade isn't that crazy actually that is wild i have not even thought about that five years oh my god we're coming up on our five-year anniversary how exciting my question for this week is what would you recommend to someone who struggles to

keep up with routines slash good habits while going through it mentally especially when not keeping up with them causes more of a decline on my mental health i love you your podcast and the energy and wisdom that you bring to the world oh you are so incredibly sweet listen okay I know I'm high functioning but I have been very depressed lately let me just get real and raw and honest with you okay I'm not someone who like outwardly will seem depressed or seem sad or seem overwhelmed like I really do keep a cool calm composure about myself that makes me seem like I'm functioning well but internally it's like like we're going insane and that's why my parents were so shocked when I went to the psych ward because it was like what do you mean she's fine it's like

no babe we do suffer in silence I fear anyways I have been mega struggling okay and not in a way where it's like concerning at all but definitely in a way where it's like okay if I don't take note and do something about it this is just gonna keep getting worse so like you know we're in control of our lives let's know the habits let's know the routines let's adjust accordingly the thing with like having routines having habits and also being like a depressed person or going through a hard time is doing the things you love doing the things you enjoy even just like doing laundry keeping up with life going to work whatever it is takes a lot out of you and more so than usual especially when you are in those low points getting up out of bed is harder going

and doing laundry feels like ripping your teeth out of your face coming home from work and thinking about cooking yourself dinner feels incredibly overwhelming and that's when I say with hobbies and with routines there are like two sides of things where there's like the overachieving side and there's the underachieving side and it's okay some days when you need to underachieve and it's okay some days when you have more energy to overachieve so say your habit or hobby is the gym okay let's use this as an example so on the days you're feeling good a little manic a little crazy you're like i'm gonna go fucking run eight miles i'm gonna go bench press 200 fucking pounds i'm feeling it i'm feeling good i'm hyping myself up congratulations that's fantastic

go after it go do those things you have the energy to do them now say you're like in a lull you're like I'm not feeling good but also I need to stay in this routine otherwise I'm going to fall out of it so today's going to be my underachieving day and it's okay to have your underachieving days where you're like I'm not feeling great but we got to keep up with this routine so then we don't completely fall flat on our face so today at the gym is my underachieving day maybe I'm just going to go walk 30 minutes on the treadmill we're not running eight miles today but I'm at the very least going to go walk 30 minutes on the treadmill and maybe they have a sauna I'm going to go sit in the sauna for 15 minutes you're not in your usual routine of bench pressing 250 pounds but you're

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here to help call or text 211 or visit ab.211.ca bet mgm operates pursuant to an operating agreement with the alberta i-gaming corporation standard message and data rates may apply team of life that keeps you you know moving forward and keeps you enthralled with life let's say your habit or hobby is something simple that we need to do every single day you know such as like um laundry okay so maybe you're having an overachieving day where your laundry pile it's like i'm doing all of my laundry it's going washer dryer and then it's getting hung up on hangers and then it's getting put away in my closet like we're doing all that in one day i'm feeling good i'm feeling funky i'm all this laundry is getting done cool love it fantastic maybe you're having an underachieving

day and that laundry pile actually looks like the devil itself and all you can physically pull yourself to do is put the laundry in the washer let it run and then move it over to the dryer and let it run no hanging it up no putting it away just like we just gotta put one through the wash and that's it that's okay that's all right maybe it's a different kind of like everyday activity such as like um uh eating you gotta eat baby you gotta eat maybe you're having an overachieving day where you're like i'm gonna make a 10 course meal for myself i'm gonna make homemade sourdough and homemade pickles babe i'm gonna do i'm gonna go above and beyond and create this fantastic fabulous dish because i have the energy to do so cool love it as you should you

got the energy go for it girl you're in your manic episode let's go crazy in the kitchen maybe it's like i just had the hardest fucking day ever i'm so depressed i just came home from work all i can physically bring myself to do is make a packet of ramen that's okay as well or maybe subsequently let's treat ourselves let's order doordash let's go pick up some chipotle let's keep it easy simple like you see how you're still in your normal routine of okay habits hobbies still living day to day still moving accordingly a little bit high functioning but also you're not pushing yourself over the edge where you're like massively depressed and trying to run eight miles massively depressed and trying to cook a thanksgiving meal massively

depressed and trying to deep clean your apartment from head to toe it's like no sometimes you can kind of like step back a little bit and you know do just a little bit of that thing but still stay in routine that you know keeps you on track and keeps you feeling good you do not have to be high achieving every single day but I do understand that there is value to staying in routine and trying to keep in routine so then you don't fall out completely and end up you know just completely giving up on the things that do actually work for you I don't want you to withdraw from life all right I want you to stay in routine of life in good routines but also you have to understand where your energy levels lie how much your energy how much energy you can give to certain things

what certain things matter to you and it's okay to ebb and flow with that energy if you feel like you're lacking it in some aspects of your life that is a okay that's something i've had to tell myself recently where it's like you know what i don't want to do any of these things right now i actually just want to sit in bed and rot i know that's not good for me i know that would be a cycle I'm returning to I know that would be something bad so let's not do that but let's kind of like lower our expectations a little bit with like what we're expecting from our painting what we're expecting from our work what we're expecting from our day-to-day lives you know we'll get back on track we'll feel better soon don't worry you know we have low points we have

high points you will return from to the high I promise you but for now all you can really do is focus on staying in routine as much as possible and doing what you can for yourself with the energy that it allows you all right with that being said you guys please for the love of god stay sane this retrograde i'm kind of excited to see where it takes us i think i'm closing a lot of chapters coming up here soon and opening a lot of doors that i'm very excited about and i pray and i manifest that you close off the things that are no longer serving you and fully enthrall your life with things that are desirable that are exciting and that make you feel fulfilled in this life even if it just comes from you baby that's all that matters get out there in summer max okay

go to the pool get your tan on go you know make yourself a salad go eat a popsicle go run around in a field i don't care what it is i don't care what you feel called to do but go and do it no matter what it is please release your inhibitions and go out there and live life you deserve to i'm sure i'll be partying it up and dancing this weekend i cannot wait and i hope you guys are too oh i'm also making a jello shot recipe that'll be up on my instagram i feel like that'll be fun to make i gotta get my parents to the airport though so i got to go i love you all so much i hope you have a fantastic rest of your week if you want to see more from me join the patreon patreon.com slash smoke so shoddy it's a new month coming up so we have a lot of fun new things coming up as

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