Smoke Sesh - rituals, high school & blowjobs

Episode Date: February 3, 2022

Happy Thursday! Doing a speed round of questions as Hannah fills you in on what she’s been up to. New moon/full moon rituals, high school, prom, the future, college, anxiety, blowjobs, how to be a woman and more. Thank you so much for joining this week always feel free to submit questions to Instagram @hannahmarlene and I’ll see you Tuesday ! MUAH!

Listen, everybody needs a fairy godmother, you know, someone to look out for them. Some people call me their internet big sister, others their fairy smoke mother. You can call me Hannah, the new host of Smoke Sash. So come hang out, let's light up and talk everything there is to life. Some good, the bad, the ugly, the embarrassing. I've got a story for it all. Good morning, everybody. Happy Thursday.

How are we all doing? although I say it is the morning it is actually not the morning I feel like usually I wake up and I film a podcast like as soon as I'm awake like 9 a.m 10 a.m um but today I switched it up a little bit I had a day off thank effing god um so I slept in and then what did I spend oh I slept in I then I went to pottery with my dad for a little bit made some mugs I've been loving pottery it's great to do um especially in times where I'm like I don't know I used to like I used to be in art school first of all so um I was creating and creating and creating and creating like over time creating and I think although that is like really really good for me it keeps me busy

it keeps me creative I love having assignments it also kind of burnt me out a little bit in a way um so like I'm trying to stay consistent with art and with creating so having like a little thing to do every once in a while having pottery to do something I don't really have to think too much into is really nice so I went and did that I had some McDonald's for lunch which was a vibe I usually don't treat myself like that but love it and then um what else I just got to my house finally to record this podcast if you hear a fan or something in the background like some kind of white noise in the background that's my heater i am so sorry it is literally like negative 20 outside it is freezing a cold front hit the f out of my state so um i don't know it was just so cold

my house is from like the 1920s so trying to heat it up is a process for sure um i just got my valentine's day dress i posted a little tiktok in it i'm so effing excited i did not think a it was gonna fit i thought i was gonna have to tailor it and it fits perfectly um and b i also did not think it was gonna show up like the package it said on its like delivery times that it was like missing and i started freaking out because i had like everything planned around this dress like i love fashion I'm obsessed and so um finally it got delivered after of course I purchased a backup dress last night for like 90 bucks so I guess I got two options maybe I'll do a outfit change in the middle of Valentine's Day but um yeah so I've been trying on some clothes I got some packages

in the mail I also got an incredible um Los Angeles apparel I love Los Angeles apparel I love them i have been a fan since they were american apparel um i have a bunch of pieces from like literal middle school early high school when i was going through my tumblr phase and um literally american apparel ran the world we had an american apparel like shopping like a like listen to get a like store of something popular in where i live aka missouri is really hard and like one of their very few stores they had on the plaza in Missouri so I was obsessed with them I have some swimsuits from them I have some like red shorts that I still wear from them that I got in eighth grade like the quality of their pieces is incredible I have never had an issue with any of

it um and so I've been ordering some more recently and as much as I love the quality of their stuff back um in the day I love the quality of their stuff even more now like 10 out of 10 always worth the purchase um even if you're buying second hand i think i just i just love their stuff it's great basics great everyday wearing stuff um but yeah now i'm gonna record a little podcast answer some questions and got some more errands to run but it's gonna be a good day you guys sent in so many fucking questions so many and so many that i haven't answered yet um i always feel like every time i'm like how can i answer more questions like i feel like i've covered every fucking topic like there's no way but every time it blows my mind there is more to answer and more

that i have on my mind so i'm gonna go pack a little bowl we're gonna take a little rip and we're gonna get into some questions you guys happy thursday i'm excited to be here hope you all are staying warm i think i'm gonna plan a bikini picture in the snow but there's also like not a lot of snow so i'm not sure if that will work and look bad or like work and look good also if hear my fan right now apologies like i said i'm freezing my ass off so it's kind of a necessity but um right now i'm gonna grind up some cbd weed and i'm gonna grind up some oh hold on pause oh my god the depop girly who sent me my wolfer dress something fell out of the package and i didn't even realize i love when depop girlies send like little stuff oh it's a little hamburger

eraser that's cute and a chill pill sticker and some paper stars that's really cute that's some extra shit i love it but i did pay like 90 so did i tell you about the time literally like last week i don't know if you saw my tiktok it kind of blew up about a girl who literally shipped me my stuff in a kitty litter bag which like props honestly yes girly let's save the earth like totally but also i thought it was trash like i straight up thought it was trash on my front porch so that's so funny i think about that all the time it makes me giggle um let me load this bowl i might do a half cbd bowl half weed bowl because i have some shit i still need to do today and i need to be productive for like i can't take a nap like i want to so some paz packs cbd like always

you guys know i'm 1000 a fan of also happy black history month everybody it is so exciting um me and paz packs are working on something together that i'm also very very excited for now we did this campaign last year and i thought it was incredible but we're doing it again this year past packs last year they donated only to the uh last prisoner project with person which personally for me is like my favorite organization you can ever donate to if you are somebody who has like i mean as a white woman who sees quite honestly only the benefits from weed and um i know a lot of people are facing harsh incarceration times and just straight up like victimization from the police force and from the government system um regarding weed and legalization i feel

like it is necessary for me to speak up and for me to do work and put an effort to ending those systems um and organizations that are harmful to communities um so we are working together for the whole month of february for the whole month of february paz packs is donating 100 of their profits to the drug policy alliance and the last prisoner project um just say no was a slogan for the 1980s version of dare a government-sponsored anti-drug propaganda campaign when this campaign began only four percent of american population thought drugs were a major problem by the end of the dare campaign that number jumped to 64 during the same time period the u.s prisoner population doubled um the u.s prisoner population nearly doubled so and we need to keep in mind that the

dare um aka the government sponsored anti-drug propaganda program um very much so was targeted against african-american communities um hispanic communities and i mean this campaign created the issue in the minds of americans and then um with no emphasis on treatment or rehabilitation from 1984 to 2014 america saw deaths blamed on drug use disorders skyrocket to 618 percent which is fucking insane but um the just say no campaign is um kind of just to raise money and awareness for solutions that actually address the complex issue of drug abuse in america aka overdose prevention centers widely accessible rehab facilities and most importantly decriminalization and regulation to end mass incarceration so with every order um from the just say no products on

pazpax.com um all of the proceeds will go to um the uh last prisoner project and um the drug alliance or drug policy alliance so you can also use code smoke sesh for 10 off i will be um donating all profits of um whatever kind of money i receive through that that discount code you know um i'm donating all of that this month because literally what of course we all need to donate and if you want to donate directly you can go directly to these websites um once again drug policy alliance and last prisoner project and donate there any amount of money makes an incredible difference if it's a one dollar five dollars ten dollars a hundred dollars anything you have do it we can all work together we can all overcome this and yeah i don't know i'm very excited i'm

excited to see where this goes if you guys do order from them let me know i would love to hear from you guys but yeah i'm gonna smoke some past packs we're gonna get into it answer some questions i love past packs um last when i first teamed up with them was last year at this time for this reason and they donated so much money to the last prisoner project when we worked together and i thought it was incredible and i'm so happy that we can partner again this february to do so again so let's hit this oh my god whoa oh my god that weed hit me the fuck back that was my first hit of the day though i'm so excited it's 1 30 oh my god sometimes i just get so busy that i don't even have time

to think about um to even think about smoking okay first of all i have been getting a lot of questions about hair hair care favorite hair things um and i need to take care of my hair better quite honestly like my hair is frying out of my head i am not even fucking with you but my bestie love her lex on instagram also on tiktok um on instagram i think she's love you a lot and then on tiktok i'm pretty sure she's um oh i have lockjaw obsessed incredible fashion taste incredible just like overall taste she's giving share literally you'll see her and then you'll understand okay but she has the longest most beautiful incredible hair and first of all i think i have never tried olaplex i've heard great things but i don't think there's any reason

to buy the whole line i've heard there's great things simply from olaplex three now adding a good shampoo and conditioner in is always of the utmost importance but specifically i asked her because um her hair is so incredible so pretty so gorgeous and i'm like what do you do like do you use a heat protectant what do you what do you swear by and she said okay two things i swear by are the miel i could be fucking saying that wrong m-i-e-l-l-e rosemary mint hair oil in scalp at night or for a few hours before you shower and then the bread beauty everyday gloss which i've heard her talk about the bread beauty gloss before i think she uses it like constantly every day so if you need any good tips personally i will be purchasing those in t-minus three hours so

i will give you an update on how they are if you're gonna purchase them with me and go ahead but that was her tips and i just quite honestly trust her with my life um because her hair is gorgeous beautiful brilliant so okay let's get into some more questions though um people have been asking me a lot what my high school experience was like and somebody asked me what my prom experience was like which i think is very funny i guess is prom coming up did prom happen i don't know when it is um I think is it for like I oh my god like I'm so old at this point I've completely disconnected from high school like once you get one year out of high school you really forget about it all like no offense just like so much more takes up your life and you realize there's

so much more that's more important that you forget a lot but my prom experience um I feel like I had a pretty good prom experience now I never went to prom with anybody I never had a date and I never felt bad about that because I always went in a big group I think that's kind of the best um idea and try and make it like non-dramatic non-problematic like I'm always like a go with the flow kind of girly so like being in a group was really easy for me because I was just like agreeing with everybody like I did not give a fuck you know what I mean it's being in big groups is only problematic for people who are have a hard time not being the center of attention and i was just chilling so prom i think so you can go to prom junior and senior year and junior year um

i was our class president so i was in charge of also planning prom which the best way to plan prom and literally all i had to do is that we came up with like mood boards and then we had people vote like at lunch based on what mood board they wanted and what theme i think we had like a circus theme we had like a night in paris theme now i have no idea what the fuck i remember we went with i think it was night in paris but like we just picked it based off what people voted on and then my school hired like i didn't have to blow up any balloons i didn't have to do any of that shit we hired a company to put it all on and it was incredible brilliant now did i spend a majority of my time at prom no prom is only fun for like the first few hours and then not so much

um i remember my parents ran the coat room though i i gathered them and made them run the coat room and by the end of the night I had checked it on them and I was like how y'all doing is the coat room going okay and they were like we're getting a divorce after this and I was like oh my god they did not they were just fighting hella and then everybody got to meet my parents and afterwards everybody was like Hannah I love your parents your parents are so cool and like they would remember me after that by my parents and I was like great yep I know my parents are cool but like do you know me no offense um but yeah i remember being chaotic for my parents super fun for me i went there for like maybe an hour or two after we went and got um food or

whatever i guess we went to lulu's maybe i think it was lulu's thai noodle shop um went there went to prom i think we all went separate just in cars and you no need to get a limo like whatever showed up was there for a few hours with friends i don't remember any drama or anything crazy but i do remember afterwards is the best part because that's when you just get a party and i specifically remember um going to one of our friends house and going to her basement and just like drinking a shit ton and smoking like someone brought like a shit ton of hand rolled joints and so we were just passing around six or seven hand rolled joints like in her basement just like chiefing real hard and I was real fucked up so yeah that's really all I remember from prom um

that was a vibe but yeah I feel like prom in your head like in high school it's so big it's so serious like everything in high school feels like a life or death and now like five years later maybe four years later I don't know it's not that far away from high school I can't remember anything like anything like when people are like do you have any embarrassing high school stories I'm like girl I don't remember anything like is it the weed is the trauma I don't know it's probably the distance it's probably just the time in between like I feel like those are two very separate lives that i lived so if you're in high school right now and you're worried about everything and things that are coming up and embarrassing things you did and whatever just

remember that literally you won't remember it in like four years and neither will anybody else okay so it'll be all right speaking of high school someone asked me very confused on after high school and my future career what would you suggest after high school and what to do i think that's a very valid question because everything that everybody told me to do felt like the wrong thing because I am at a very different point in my life than what I was planning in high school does that make sense um so I feel like the best way to exit high school and have a very easy transitionary period into college is if you consider that first year out of high school a transitionary period don't pretend like you have everything together don't pretend like you

know where you will be in four years use it as a tool to learn what you want to do because specifically with college and with future and all that shit i feel like senior year they want you to know what the fuck you're doing for the rest of your life they want you to know your school like i remember going to a banquet and having to deliver a speech on like why i wanted to be a nurse and why i was going to nurse nursing school and which college i was going to like college and all of that was like very important and it was kind of like a social thing like a social status thing like you wanted to be going to a good college now i could give less of a fuck like back then that was very important but I a thousand percent wish I did things differently um I picked

nursing because it seemed like the best thing and it seemed like it was gonna make me a lot of money and I knew the college I was going to was a very prestigious college and it would look good um that's about it I didn't really pick anything for myself or my personality or for the long term I kind of just picked it because I needed to come up with something and quick because they wanted those answers they wanted me to give a presentation you know what I mean I do not think that's how you should approach college I think we should be more okay with not knowing and not knowing doesn't mean you don't have anything planned not knowing means you are opening yourself up to more opportunities in the future okay you still have stuff planned you should still pick a college you should still

go to college you should still want to move forward with your life all those things are very good but pick things based on yourself pick a college based on do they have multiple options of things that i'm interested in like multiple majors go in the first year undecided who cares make sure that school has multiple majors multiple classes that interest you that you might want to do in the future okay and then also make sure that college where you're going the thing that you're picking you are able to live at and it will house and sustain a person or like a community that is beneficial to you and your personality and beneficial to you and the way you live i do you know who i am you do you do know who i am because you listen to me every

fucking week like i picked a private catholic school and i had a horrible time no one was shocked quite honestly well everybody was shocked but i personally was not shocked like of course you did not enjoy it i am not a catholic girl and i'm not a private person either like of course me and my college were gonna butt heads a little bit um so i just wish i the only thing i wish i did after high school and during high school was allow myself the opportunity to not know it's okay to not know and i don't know why everybody assumes that you not knowing makes you dumb or stupid or whatever if anything it really just opens more doors and possibilities to you it's fun to not know it's fun to have the future be a little bit of a surprise a little bit of a guess okay you

will figure it out as time comes as you get to learn more about yourself because you won't learn anything about yourself until you're out of high school quite honestly until you're on your own until you are doing things for yourself that is when you will learn all about yourself tbh but yeah just just don't don't worry about it you can you can chill for a little bit um i had one more high school question that i wanted to answer oh this one okay what the fuck do i do if my boyfriend is going to graduate and go to college but i'm a junior now listen listen listen i am going to give you i don't know your situation i don't know how serious it is but i'm going to give you quite honestly the very honest answer that i wish i could give

anybody do not go to college with any relationship and i guess i would be giving your boyfriend that fucking tip but also like allow yourself that one year that last year of high school to not be constantly worried about another person that is off living a whole different life okay because that person who's going to college like i said you are not going to learn anything about yourself until you go to college they're going to become a very different person like no offense although they will like contain the same traits they are going to become a very different person and i think you should allow them to be able to become that person okay i went to college my first year with no relationship nothing inhibiting me just free and i think that was perfect i spent

my second year in a long-term relationship and it ruined a lot of relationships at school for me and it ruined a lot of my interpersonal relationships with myself i don't think you should and i know that hurts i know if somebody told me like just let them go like just let them go especially if somebody's going to college but like that is the best advice i could give anybody and i think a lot of people would quite honestly agree with me long-term distance can always be done i think it can be done very well i think it can make a good relationship very strong but with somebody going to college for the first time you guys are both about to graduate i think it's easier for you to be like all right we can be friends we can do whatever

like you guys can hook up hang out when you guys come back for like breaks and stuff but allow him to be inhibited in that discovery process of himself his first year and allow yourself to be uninhibited by anything your last semester or your last year of um high school okay and i know that sucks i know i know like trust me i know that's like the last piece of information i would want to receive but people become very different in college i'm a very different person than who i was um my high school years and i dated a guy well my long-term relationship was somebody i also knew in high school and i learned very quickly that i did not like that person and that person was holding on to an old version of me and i very much so had outgrown that person now you guys can grow

together you guys can come back to you guys can come back to each other eventually like i'm not saying breakups always have to be on bad terms sometimes people break up because you know you have to grow you have to move on you have to do different things and that's okay doesn't mean there needs to be like complete break of ties complete like shattering each other's hearts sometimes it's just like i don't think it's gonna work out and that's okay i think that's totally fine i don't think there should be any hard feelings in that but always pick what's best for yourself i believe in you someone asked me should i just spend money on eating out because it will make me happy sometimes I am all about eating out um like I said my McDonald's today

was a treat I don't usually go to fast food or drive-thrus or anything like that um unless it's wings I have my favorite wing place here in Kansas City I will sit in the drive-thru for literally 45 minutes for those um but I think I don't know every time I order out I now here's thing if i do like if i go to a restaurant i want to go sit down if i think it's like you should be very intentional with where you eat being in public like eating by yourself is so fun one of my favorite things to do you can just sit on your phone hang out like some of my favorite customers at work are people who are just literally chilling by themselves like alone like love that vibe um but no i think if anything's gonna make you better it's a getting out of your house to go get food

be nourished by something yes eating out but also changing your environment or i there's really nothing that makes me feel better than cooking a full meal for myself um starting from scratch i'm talking like not box pasta and like box sauce okay i'm talking like full on you are making the sauce you get like a good i don't know i have my favorite like italian shop next to me that hand makes all of their pasta so i'll go get some of that um hand making the sauce a little bit of wine hand making maybe some bread starting from scratch and building something um makes me feel 10 times better but then also at the end of it you get something delicious to eat and the dishes are the worst part so after you use a dish every single time just wash it wash it wash it in the

middle of eating so once you can sit down you can finally enjoy your meal and eat i think there's nothing more satisfying and more fulfilling than cooking your own meals um and cooking for yourself make sure you um a low is that a word a lot maybe time for yourself so you have time to cook for yourself and i do think that will make you more happier than just spending money on doordash quite honestly um what is it oh i'm trying to find sorry i'm trying to find um this certain question what do what to do when they won't show any effort but when you threaten to end things they get upset and start being genuine why am i staying if i'm getting treated like shit it's hard to leave an environment that um like it's they're being manipulative first of all

like if they are not behaving in that way after the first time you tell them and they're continuing then that is manipulation if they're waiting to the breaking point to finally do something just to have you stay and then give up on it as soon as you're finally okay again until you yell at them again that is manipulation okay people need to be giving their all into a relationship it's okay to remind people of some things sometimes it's okay for you to verbalize something sometimes i think specifically in relationships people want specific things as well and then don't speak up for it and don't get those things and feel unappreciated but it's like you have to be able to vocalize those things to some people because quite honestly i am a very blind ass person like

no offense and i do see things i do try i do love people kind of in my own love language but everybody has specific things that they want done for them whether it's flowers whether if it's oh i hate doing laundry can you do the laundry whether it's oh i just i love having like alone time or it's oh i love being hot i don't know whatever your like specific thing is maybe that's just a specific thing to you and maybe that's not how other people are used to loving and that's okay and sometimes you do have to ask for that um i don't these are two very conversation two very different conversations we're having right now first of all you need to speak up for yourself if you don't speak up for yourself and don't ask for the things that you want that is self-sabotage

and then you're because you're going to get disappointed because you're not going to get them you're setting yourself up for failure now if you verbalize and ask for those things like you are doing okay and they're not happening until you are getting physically upset and it's showing to them that you were like very much so upset after the 12th time of you asking and then they're finally doing it to avoid you being upset that is manipulation especially when they go back to their previous behaviors okay i've had exes in the past who would do this they would treat me like shit treat me like shit until it's like the very last like i'm walking out the door moment and then all of a sudden it's what can i do how can i help it's like no you do have to leave those situations

like if it's not a back and forth give and take it's not gonna work okay you're gonna be sad you're gonna be disappointed and i'm so sorry that's happening to you i know how hard it is to leave and like you said why am i staying if i'm getting treated like shit because although you are getting treated like shit that little piece of your brain that's like oh maybe they're a good person is reinforced every time you get to that breaking point and he finally behaves better okay you just got to stand up for yourself like you got to you you are the only person who can stand up for yourself and for me personally like i'll although my friends probably had the same exact conversation with me when i was in the middle of that relationship um you deserve better

just leave you are gonna get to that point on your own quite honestly like it does take you working on those things by yourself to reach that point and we all reach that point at different times at different lengths but i pray and hope to god that you figure it out soon i believe in you i know you can do it you do deserve better all right i have i have been in those relationships and once you get out of them it is genuinely genuinely so freeing oh my god i'm praying and hoping that i have a joint randomly rolled in here i don't know why i would have a joint in my bag but like i usually i do i did roll myself a little mini joint you guys oh my god peace and love from past hannah she really knew i was gonna need this but yeah um i screenshotted something on

instagram actually um that had to do with that so let's see if i can find it i'm also gonna light this joint you want to smoke i don't usually smoke joints on um camera or camera on video because um i just love the aesthetic and the vibe of me ripping a bong on audio like i love that i love the noise or whatever anyways sorry i'm totally getting off topic where's a lighter okay let's hit this sorry she was not lighting i always use uh blazy susan's fyi hot girls smoke blazy susan always oh my god oh so yummy like come on a pink cone are you fucking kidding me there's nothing better did you guys have a good two two two i forgot to talk about that

um it completely snowed everywhere here so everything got shut down yesterday which was kind of awesome because i was supposed to close my restaurant yesterday and if i had to work on 222 i would have been very sad all the vibes would have been perf because would have been manifesting lots and lots of money um but i spent my day inside doing some art smoking some weed lots of journaling lots of vision boarding lots of manifestation vibes um but i hope you guys had a good two two two um it was an incredible day for manifestation i tried to warn you guys on tuesday to get some shit ready um and i posted some journal prompts and stuff like that on my instagram page at hannah marlene if you ever need

some recommendations but yeah oh my god this joint is really hitting i'm loving it oh my god i'm so hi i am so high let's finish this podcast because y'all are in my comments like where is it where is it i'm sorry girl i'm getting to it i promise you literally i will always get you a podcast every tuesday and thursday now at what time will it be out who knows but i will always give it to you um okay i'm gonna blast through some questions trying to finish this strong you guys just sent me so many good ones so we're gonna try and get through them quickly um advice for getting into relationships with someone with serious mental issues please help now listen we all have serious mental health issues we do but the key to being able to take care of your serious mental health

issues is if you can fully care for yourself now i do not thank anybody no i feel like that's not fair because we all can get into relationships whether we are fully healed or not but we do have to understand that you cannot heal another person and i don't want you taking on that stress or anxiety um but you can help people and you can be there for people especially during hard times so someone with serious mental um issues like that's fine do they have a good program do they have a good way of handling those and regulating their emotions they have a great way of figuring out um how to have a partner and deal with those things like are you guys mature enough to handle your own mental health issues and be together and show up to eat for each other and also not take

those things seriously or not take those things seriously as in like sometimes it can get personal but also like not be so personal um and understanding that it maybe is no big deal can you do that if so then yeah wonderful i think there's i feel like there's a big stigma of like oh people should not get into a relationship if they are not healed in themselves um but i don't think that's true i think everybody deserves love i believe everybody deserves a chance on love sometimes it just takes more work than others and that's totally fine as long as you're willing to put in the work that's like the big question someone said they have some wild stories for mixing ket with molly it's really popular in the uk is that called candy flipping i could be

completely wrong but is that called candy flipping i don't think i've ever done ketamine i don't think it would be the drug for me either like i know it's super popular within like the edm and like rave and just like club community but like molly is really popular with me and why i was addicted is because it's like an upper like it gets you excited it gets you like overstimulated it gets like all of your senses like heightened i don't really like having those things deadened and i don't like um like kind of downers and i feel like ketamine is kind of a downer in a way like when people go into k-holes like i believe that is just like the deepest darkest place you can go like i don't like numbing myself in any sort of way and i know ketamine doesn't

fully numb you um but i do prefer things that are like overall genuinely are bringing you up and that's usually molly so i've just always chosen molly so i've never done ketamine i'm sure it's trippy as fuck but i couldn't imagine mixing the two i i'm not sure if that's candy flipping you let me know um actually let's just google it god damn right here this is the 21st century oh no that's lsd and mdma i'm sorry i've never done that i've never done that but i feel like it could be a vibe honestly i don't recommend it i don't recommend drugs to anybody so if i'm talking about drugs openly please understand that but i'm not surprised it's really popular in the uk it's my goal i want to go out to the uk to go party and go to raves so

if you guys are big into the underground scene maybe I'll make my way over and I will need a full tour okay do you want kids someone asked me do I want kids um not right now I mean yes like I want children of course like there's some weird inner part of me that like of course wants to be a mom wants to start a family wants to settle down like I don't ever want to be a suburb mom but i could totally see myself being just like a like hard-working boss mom but also like i don't know a little bit hippy dippy in a way because i gotta keep that foley you know what i mean just like fun i was it was really fun to be a nanny um i'm just young and my favorite part of the day was giving the kids back to their parents so i know i'm not ready for

children um i do think me and my boyfriend have adorable kids and i am a little bit narcissistic and do you want to see what that looks like but yes i want to have kids i don't think i'd make a good mom right now i don't think i'd make a good mom in five years i do think once i pass 30 then i will start actually looking into what a relationship between me and the child full term could look like but i need to give myself to like past 30 past 35 or something um i do not want that right now but um do you oh my god how to be a woman guide for the girlies with no moms honestly very valid question but the thing is the how to be a woman like i don't think there's any one way of how to be a woman i see so many different types of women and so many different like styles and way

people express themselves and i think that is like so beautiful and so wonderful and nothing beats that so although i want to give you some like sort of guide and some like rules and some way of doing it there really isn't a way you either do it or you don't and the way you express yourself very much so has a big play into what society sees as womanhood so whether you identify as a woman or not whether you are feeling your femininity one day or not as long as you're honoring that feeling and expressing it how you want to then you're truly being a woman honestly honest to god and i think that is something i never learned when i was younger um i thought there was one way of being a woman and i thought it i think that made me very misogynistic and i thought there was one

way of expressing yourself and there was one way of like how people see women and there i mean there there is like society of course has those ideals but the true beauty in it and the true wonder of like why people love women and why people love overall very many very many different types of women is because you see women truly expressing and honoring their true selves and presenting their femininity in a way that is like i don't know honorable i don't know if that makes any sense quite honestly but there's no one way to do it just do it good oh my god how do you still give the good old gluck oh gluck gluck 9000 gluck gluck 9000 the gluck gluck 9000 if you have a bad gag reflex lmao okay so i give the best head no offense like and i think every woman says that

but like i really do believe i give the best head i need like if i got like a little bit of time i only need 30 seconds tops but if i have the time take the time that's very important when it comes to gag reflex um i kind of had a really bad gag reflex um when i was like younger and so the trick with holding your thumb okay so you like put the thumb in the middle of the your palm and then you close your fingers over your thumb and you kind of press down on that knuckle that actually works like 10 out of 10 that actually works i'm for real i didn't think that would work but when you got a deep throw or you got to take it a little bit deeper that is like 10 out of 10 also if you can't take a lot of dick like just use your hands use your hands

i mean you should always be using your hands but if you just stick to the good old you take one hand on the balls you're trying to fondle them just like in like what i mean fondle them you like just kind of like roll them around in your hand and then the other hand you keep on like the base i don't know if i'm using these terms correctly at all and then you just focus your mouth and then on the tip but use a lot of tongue then like they won't even notice how deep you're taking it and kind of like every once in a while dip lower and like take your hands off you'll be good like i promise you don't even need to deep throw um i don't know if like deep throwing even is like popular with men it has to be i don't know it's such a popular like term of course it has to

feel good to men um but also practice practice practice practice like you can take the time to slowly learn how to take more like that's really all i had to do like at first i was gagging the entire time but now it's like whatever just i can take it off um practice is 10 out of 10 always will help and like if you have a boyfriend you have like a man you're exclusive with or seeing or whatever if you're like hey can i practice on you what are they gonna do or you don't even have to say that if you're like can i give you head they're gonna be like hell yeah so like what is a win-win they get head you get a practice and then also that man should be reciprocating head back to you afterwards like like 80 of the time they should be giving you head back okay

the other 20 i'm usually just feeling like charitable it's just like an extra good day i want them to be extra happy i'm like lay down let me take care of you you know what i mean but 80 of the time they should be like okay now you lay back all right you know what i mean but some tips some overall we're just gonna go over it all at this point like you want to give good head let me tell you okay lots of tongue you start licking at first like lick the whole thing all over stop like start slow slow is important if you have the time okay and then put your mouth on it only the tip still some licking do whatever a little bit of slight suction and then you can slowly work on taking the whole thing in your mouth and then you incorporate one hand specifically

you're also going to want to have a lot of spit if you don't have a lot of spit especially for my smoking girlies who have a constant cotton mouth a you need to be chugging water always you do not get cotton mouth if you're not dehydrated i know who the fuck would have thought if you're dehydrated you're probably gonna get cotton mouth straight up also if you're nervous anxiety will give you cotton mouth too who would have thought um water always if you're planning on giving head chug water before also if you can't come up with a lot of spit choke on it a little bit like straight up shove that thing in your throat a little bit you will come up with spit like absolutely your your mouth will start salivating i've also done this before ask that

man to spit in your mouth i'll be like i don't have enough saliva can you spit in my mouth i'm crazy you guys listen have him spit in your mouth and then you can like spit on his dick i know i feel like men like that spit spit on his dick lots of spit very key and then you can incorporate one hand um and this is when i would probably incorporate one hand to like jerk them off and then like suck on their balls get if you can get both balls in their mouth one ball whatever suck on a little bit lick it and then lick from the balls all the way to the top this is a 10 minute conversation on how to give head oh my god um but it's serious like there's so many little things that go into it okay you do that lick and then you're gonna incorporate the hand and the

mouth this is a great time if you cannot take um like you can't deep throw that's great incorporate the hand all the time okay because your hand can take over whatever inches that your mouth can't and then after that after you've like go slow a little bit and then speed up then you can incorporate your hand to their balls fond of their balls a little bit with the jerking off with the sucking and then also i've noticed like make some noises like don't just be quietly giving them head moan a little bit do you like that ask them if they like it okay get some audience participation here okay like ask the audience you like this like just straight up you do need to talk um gag on it a little bit you can fake gag if you need to do whatever but like if you're

giving a performance give a performance like let's give some good head ladies the gluck gluck 9000 you got it i believe in you um i'm there's probably way more tips but that's really all i can think of off the top of my fucking head um but yeah love it i i used to hate it but i don't know i feel like i just didn't know what i was doing and then i also probably didn't like the guy and that made me hate it but you know i love my man right now and he gets a lot of head straight up he's also a good person so that makes the difference also also 69 if you want to like give head but you also don't like that like a lot of attention like straight up you're like i want to give good head but i want to like not have them too too focused on me 69 it's great because

they gotta focus on something else you get a little bit of pressure and you get the um attention taken off of you a little bit but yeah that's probably my favorite sex position 69 oh my god love okay we gotta answer some more questions here okay we're gonna blast through these and then we might have to take one more bowl and end this podcast but how to get a job you enjoy without degree or experience okay here's the thing when all these people are online and saying oh i got this amazing job oh i got this amazing job without a degree oh i got this amazing job with no experience that is a lie they are lying to you okay you can get a job without any experience if you have a degree but they consider they consider it a like a degree experience okay

but the biggest plot twist in history that i did not realize is i don't need a degree i can sometimes and most the time they prefer this get a job solely with experience okay if you so like instead of making your um portfolio or your like what is it a resume all like a list of all the colleges you've gone to and the internships your your like job experience is gonna be oh here's all the jobs I've done here are the people I've worked for here's the experience I've had but you do have to have one or the other um now if it's like a very I'm thinking like big corporate kind of level jobs like important like big jobs if you're talking about like waitressing you still gotta have experience you gotta like work up like even small jobs you do need to start

like and if you are starting with nothing you have to start at the bottom so think about what the bottom's gonna look like and think about how long it's gonna take you to get to where you are now because like i'm a bartender right now and although to you guys it might seem very fast-paced i hosted for a whole year served for two years i've served for three four months and now i'm bartending like that's a large chunk of my life that i have had experience in to get this job um social social media management something that blew my mind is that like working with companies for content creation social media work any type of like even like smaller jobs you don't need a degree but you do need experience and you've probably had the experience if you think about it

just list it out write it down and pitch yourself okay these companies want to see you pitch yourself have a fun resume have a fun portfolio okay but you don't always need a degree or experience you do usually need one of you of them tbh but if you have the drive and the power you can start from the bottom um do you do any rituals in the new or full moons if so what do you do yes my favorite thing to do which i love that it snowed because i can just go outside and collect snow and then let it melt and then boom i got moon water um is uh well if there's no snow i put a gallon of moon water out and i literally i had to write on my moon water jug do not touch because my boyfriend used all of my moon water one time to water the plants and i was like love that they're

they're gonna love that energy but i really needed that um so i usually leave a moon water jug out and then i use that to take a bath um i'll pour the jug in my bath i think the best way to use moon water is to take a bath light some candles put some epsom salt um smoke a joint right in your journal best best way to use any sort of um moon juice what are thoughts on boyfriends going to strip clubs oh um i've never had any significant others go to strip clubs if they did go to a strip club that would be a no-no in my opinion um although love strippers love them incredible personally my boyfriend does not need to be at a strip club no offense if he was gonna go to a strip club like why would i not be there is my kind of questioning you know what i mean

like why are you going without me um also if you are going to go without me i want all of the money that you are going to throw on them also deposited into my bank account um three times and i think that's very fair i literally told my boyfriend that i was like if you were going to go to a strip club i want all the money you're going to spend on those girls three times over deposited in my account he was like okay period now he's never been to one but like i feel like those are very fair rules um okay fave thing to go uh gift slash cook for your bf slash non-material gifts um non-material gifts would be anything that's supporting their hobby or true authentic self also yes um cooking things i think is incredible um personally i will always always always want a

handmade gift over something that you can just buy me in the store like i'm always that kind of person i think baking is incredible you can make some edibles if you're a little smoker girl i'm crazy little smoker girl oh my god um but you can what's better you can gift them some edibles like come on get creative with it i believe in you also my last podcast um valentine's day i don't know if you listen to that one it's great for some gift ideas i think that might be the podcast you guys oh my god thank you for joining me happy thursday i will see you guys next tuesday um once again actually let's hit a little bowl while i say the little outro we got going on um oh once again um paz packs if you want to help support the last prisoner project um and the

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was submitted to my instagram um thank you guys so much i have been starting to collect some of the longer ones you've sent to my dms um i do need to do a whole podcast on the longer ones you've sent me because we need to dive into those um but thank you again i wouldn't be here without you guys i see big things coming for the podcast and i'm so so excited to be here on the journey with you to have you with me for all the support you guys give me it's literally mind-blowing seeing like we've been in the charts for the past like since i started which is mind-blowing and i haven't checked the charts for a while but like continuously like randomly checking the charts and seeing smoke sesh up there blows my mind so thank you guys for listening every week thank you

for being here with me thank you for supporting yourself and supporting me i wouldn't be here without you and it's wonderful to have you here thanks for listening i'll see you guys next tuesday