Smoke Sesh - season of love, summer body & period sex

Episode Date: February 4, 2025

hello everyone happy Tuesday and happy February! we have a packed episode today as we chat the never ending stress from January, what ive been up to, and how im handling it. we dive right into all your questions talking bikini season and the summer body trend that's killing us all, my go to valentines gift guide and how we celebrate valentines day, what does it feel like to fall in love? can't come anymore and getting spicy, freeing yourself from the man and giving more ultimatums, stress relief routine and letting those emotions go, accidentally click baiting my boyfriend, should your partner financially support you? breakup season and do it now, reels updates, period sex, fear of flying especially now, cleaning your pieces, morning breath- hot or not? girl code when it comes to crushes, relationship privacy, single on valentines day, staying sane in the political and economic state of the world right now, dry January updates and alcohol is evil, season of love and how to spread love this month and show up for your friends and family. Love you! going to be a good month! if you want to see more from me follow me on instagram @ hannahmarlene and if you want an extra episode every week join the patreon patreon.com/smokeseshshawty for more, stay sane stay sexy chat soon MUAH!

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hello hotties of the world welcome back to another wonderful episode of smoke sesh my name is hannah your host and i am very excited to be back with all of you guys today i feel like i'm kind of serving farmer's daughter okay little midwest princess i haven't broken out these overalls in quite some time but i walked out of my house yesterday and it was 60 degrees and sunny hello spring is that you the birds are chirping the sun is getting stronger the sun's also not setting at 5 p.m oh my gosh i have a will to live again are you kidding me let's go i am so excited for spring you guys we survived winter and i know that little groundhog said six more weeks of winter i'll see it i'll see it when it happens but for now i'm gonna enjoy this nice weather

i need to start kind of goal planning for spring i have been indoors too long i'm ready to like go to a park and walk around in the mornings you know i'm ready to go sit on a patio and have a little drink with my friends what is better than that um but i am feeling renewed rested and energized this tuesday and i hope you are all as well if not hopefully i can give you a little bit of my energy share that positivity with you all not a lot to catch you guys up on the grammys happened a oh my gosh the only thing i was really really rooting for was for doji to win best rap album of the year and of course she did because she is so freaking talented if you have not listened to alligator bites never heal highly highly recommend doing so it is the best album

of the year period the best album i listened to all year so incredibly good she is so talented um that was really the only thing i was like holding out for also her performance was amazing i love just seeing everybody kind of give her the hype she deserves i've been listening to her since 2020 2021 I found out about her through my boyfriend actually and then I've just been following her since and wow wow wow wow I love as as an artist myself like I just love seeing other artists grow and how they transform themselves and really devote themselves to art I think it is genuinely so inspiring and yeah that was just it's so fun to watch the Grammys and just see like I'm like sobbing the entire night because all these people's dreams are

coming true um and I'm I'm just so happy for them so that was fun a little renewed sense of of joy there I had a company party um the other night as well which was interesting not the girls fighting at the company party I was like let me have one drink and get out of here I can I cannot be inside this building any longer especially if I'm not clocked in um and also a little drama for you all poor little he's sleeping next to me so I won't say his name too loud but poor little danger ended up back at the emergency vet i know you're like hannah you're you're a horrible awful pet parent how dare your cat keep ending up at the emergency vet listen listen i am i don't know how cats survive in the wilderness when this cat is genuinely so sensitive

and just like random shit keeps happening i feel so bad for him i literally have him on like premium food like supplements you know monthly check-ins doctors like calling them every day making sure he is healthy but he ended up having a another um anal gland blockage i know you're like girl what his poor little booty hole i know i think um i don't think it was a um a problem that kind of resurfaced i think it was the doctor at least thinks that there was still an underlying infection that was not completely flushed out um since it was abscessed last time I I feel like maybe they should have flushed it out with antibiotics and just fluids which they didn't do whatever you know we're working through it um but I I caught it early on this time around I'm like

let me pay way more attention to his butthole this time around and I caught it as soon as it happened so he wasn't in any pain I noticed it he wasn't really noticing it took him in they cleaned it out and then got him back on antibiotics so hopefully this will completely get rid of the infection that was going on and hopefully he can feel a little bit better but I love him so much I don't know how I'm going to be a human parent when being a cat parent stresses me out this much like every single ounce of my brain goes toward making sure that he is happy and healthy like i can't imagine having a child that is acting against their own self-interest constantly mothers out there props to you props to you because that is insane but other than that

other than slightly losing my mind every once in a while january is over we made it through january girls we survived january what the hell was that month gemini stations direct in or jupiter stations direct in gemini so we will have a little bit more at least for me the gemini placement we'll have a little bit more luck and prosperity a little bit more energy you know forward momentum that is what we're seeking in this month it's the month of love we have the oscars coming up we have oh my god the super bowl this sunday that's gonna be so incredibly fun yes i live in kansas city yes i cheer for the chiefs i know you probably hate them and think they're evil but like i kind of love being on the evil side for once like everybody was rooting for them two years ago now

everybody hates them i kind of like love a hate watch you know so me and the girls are gonna go out and watch the super bowl have a good time probably do the same exact little routine we did last time because it worked out perfectly we were literally the only people at this teeny tiny little dive bar it was amazing um and yeah get a little drink on watch a little football watch some silly little commercials it'll be great i think this week's gonna be a good week it's gonna be warm i'm gonna try and get outside make sure my life's a little bit on track with the spring renewness energy though i do feel like especially when like january was so hard there is that stagnant residual energy that i do feel and i think the best way to get that out of your system

and get that out of your life is truly to just like deep clean and purge whether it is emotionally physically spatially usually for me it's spatially like in my home i just like to mop the floors fucking like open the windows let in fresh air get rid of old clothes purge in that sort of sense so whenever i feel that forward momentum i like to take advantage of that opportunity and that's probably what i'll be doing this next week you know bringing in renewness but yeah gonna be a good little monday gonna clean a little bit hang out i gotta go make a protest sign for my mom for the teachers union they're like who can make a giant

protest sign i'm like girl i got you don't worry about it let me put this art degree to work like fuck it um so other than that yeah we are just chilling danger is oh my god he's on pills so i'm having to force feed him pills. Have you ever had to force feed a cat pills? Genuinely the hardest thing I've ever done in my entire life. Poor baby. But other than that, we're chilling. We're having a good time. We're enjoying today and I hope you are all as well. But that's really all I have to catch you guys up on. Enough of me rambling and chatting. Let's get into everything that's on your mind. Someone said trying to get fit for summer. Okay, listen, I've been TikTok brained like a

little too much recently i've been posting a lot if you guys want to follow my account i'm sure you follow my main account that's where i blew up on i haven't posted on there in years though i kind of love looking at it as an archive and instead i've been posting on my spam account which is at fairy smoke mother m-o-t-h-a but you know the trend where it's like see you this summer and a thong bikini and a attitude and it's literally like a cup of water in front of them girl what is with the ed trend is it because we're entering a recession and groceries are too expensive that it's like well let's just starve ourselves what the fuck is going on i feel like i am back in the trenches of like pro anna tumblr 2014 energy it is actually disgusting

and very confusing so i posted me eating taco bell and i said see you this summer in a tiny bikini burrito hand and an extra fat attitude because I don't care how you perceive my body period period listen listen as a woman and I'm gonna say woman because I'm about to turn 26 I've gone through my little second puberty I feel like my frontal lobe is developing a little bit more I feel like I'm I'm more of a woman now you know this thought process is a very juvenile thought process even when I am interacting with adult women who are self-conscious or overly critical about their body or what they're eating or like like you know starving themselves to achieve a certain aesthetic even though they're older I still find that a very juvenile thought

process because it truly is holding you back you know those thought processes you have when you're young that are like not really based in reality you're like why was I thinking that way I just didn't know I didn't experience the world yet I hadn't learned juvenile okay and if there's one thing you can do for yourself in this life it is set yourself free from the chains of holding yourself back and forcing yourself to kind of behave a certain way for an aesthetic for a societal pressure girl no one cares what you look like in a bikini the only person thinking about you is you and you being overly critical about yourself to the point of you having to fit a certain aesthetic is not going to make you feel better because listen I have been there I have

been there when I was skinny mini teeny tiny I was that small because I was so stressed self-stressed and so just like self-critical it was awful and guess what at the time sure did I achieve those aesthetic levels of bodily function and form yes but in my head was i able to recognize that no when you put yourself into an overly self-critical kind of mindset you will never live up to what you want you will always be hating yourself you will always be self-critical you will never be enough so it is just not worth your time putting emphasis or energy even on forcing yourself to fit a certain stereotype it is not worth it at all especially as a woman listen there are a lot of people that are trying to hold us down and force us into a certain type of person

a certain behavior you know try and force us into not being full actualized individuals now more so than ever so don't let them win don't give in to these kind of mindsets i have seen my aunt completely lose her entire life over this and it sucks because it's like oh my god your entire personality is how much you fit on your plate and what size jeans you wear like i can't talk to you about anything because there's no substance there's no substance here and it's genuinely so heartbreaking there is no such thing as a summer body we can't keep thinking of bodies as like a trend i feel like that is just so harmful and puts way too much pressure on us individuals the only thing you should be thinking about how you look this summer is what sexy ass

bikini you want to wear how small do you want it to be what pattern what shape think about the bikini not the body the body wearing it is going to look good no matter what okay when i go to the beach when i go to the pool the hottest sexiest women are the ones who are there they feel comfortable in themselves they own the space you can literally feel the aura rating radiating off of them because they are just so comfortable in themselves and who they are and how they function there is no second thought of well do i have a role here or a stretch mark there no they are sprawled out in the sunshine enjoying a little mimosa reading their book going into the pool diving in and enjoying it enjoying it the best way to kind of like become comfortable in yourself

is to just become accepting of it you know i was born this way i'm gonna look this way i can't force myself to have bigger boobs or have wider hips or get skinnier i can't i mean i guess i could i could get surgery sure but like girl we don't have the money or the time for those fucking things like i am who i am i am lovely just as i am i am also a representative of every other woman who has come before me and I'm gonna own that shit because I know I'm beautiful no matter what period but two in five Canadians will hear the words you have cancer that's why every step and dollar raised matters on September 19th join thousands in Toronto for the Princess Margaret Cancer Foundation walk challenge yourself friends and family to walk 21 kilometers in support of

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you know what fits what doesn't what kind of vibe am i going for i love a new bikini every summer i always get like at least one or two new bikinis to kind of like have the vibe of the summer and specifically if you want a great bikini source sydney mary bikini i love her endlessly recycled sources handmade handcrafted one-of-a-kind bikinis genuinely so gorgeous they are some of my favorite bikinis i've ever owned in my entire life best believe i am doing a little titsy bit of shopping this time around valentine's gift ideas for my girlfriend she loves to skate and do art okay i guess we can chat valentine's day it's a little early um but like i'm sure most of you guys are scrambling like what the fuck do i get oh my god like how do i make this the best valentine's day

ever listen i love valentine's day since i was a kid we always kept it chill you know i mean i woke up every valentine's day my parents would make me like a cutesy little breakfast and i'd always have like a card or maybe like a small little gift just to show appreciation and i really really appreciate my parents for um doing that for me because it kind of set a precedent of me with like my lovers in the future you know like i had boyfriends in the past you're like well i don't give a fuck about valentine's day like duh duh you don't because you don't care about love you don't even love me so of course you don't want to get me a gift or hang out with me or spend time with me or go out to dinner with me or buy me flowers like duh you don't like me that's

why you're not doing these things for me but when i met a person who actually did care about me did want to celebrate the holidays with me it was kind of like that clicking moment of oh okay everything's making sense here like your partner should want to celebrate with you you know what i mean now that i work in the restaurant industry valentine's day in my relationship i mean we're almost five years and it's a very low stakes kind of day in my opinion in my humblest opinion i hate going out on valentine's day if you go to a restaurant on valentine's day your food is going to be worse the servers are going to be stressed the fuck out your food's probably going to be more expensive you're going to be wasting a bunch of fucking money and also like you're going to a place that

is obviously going to be slammed and packed so you're going to get a little bit lower of an experience if i were you and in fact what we do as a couple is we always celebrate like either a couple days before or a couple days after either way we always have one set day or maybe evening where it's like this is going to be our valentine's day sure on the day of we do a little bit of celebrating when it comes to gift giving and like you know some freak nasty sex like of course that's gonna happen day of but gift giving I think gift giving doesn't need to be as hard as it is I think a lot of people think gift giving needs to be like they have to read my mind and understand my heart and soul and I think that can work if your partner's love language is gift giving but let's

be real a lot of people are just kind of bad at it and it doesn't mean they don't love you it just means they're bad at it me and my boyfriend have kind of found a gift giving routine that works for us so maybe this can work for you guys in your relationships if you find yourself being continuously disappointed by uh your partner's just lack of awareness we ask each other for things we do we do listen as a partner there's always like something that you know they want they just can't pull the trigger on it and buy it for themselves so we always ask each other for those things this year um i asked for gold hoop earrings okay easy like let me just send you the link babe bam buy it on your lunch break and then um my boyfriend asked for he doesn't listen to

this so i'm not spoiling anything but my boyfriend asked for orthopedic slides oh my god is he 80 years old he's just working so much and on his feet it's like he really wanted something that's going to make him comfortable at the end of the day bam sent me the link that is gift number one asking for something receiving it easy peasy low stakes you're going to be surprised you're going to feel loved and appreciated because it's something you wanted and also you didn't have to spend money on it fantastic second gift there's a there's a two-parter here yes there is something that you come up with on your own yes something you actually have to think about so sorry about that but usually the second gift is a more sentimental option something handmade maybe

with a little little kissy lips on it something cute and sexy and fun for me in the past valentine's day gifts that has looked like last year i got my boyfriend a custom skate deck with a picture of me topless on it great amazing hanging on our wall hot sexy um the year before that he's gotten me like he made me a scrapbook out of all of our old film photos um this year I might have like our old polaroid photos framed cute little something to hang on the wall sentimental vibes um hot and sexy I've done and I've talked about this before but I had him come over and literally I was in a two-piece matching lace set with a robe on top and essentially I just took the robe off and I handed him a camera and I said you have to fill up this entire

disposable camera of photos of me before you can touch me hot sexy get creative get creative but yeah to make it low stakes the first gift something we ask for something we just don't want to buy for ourselves and would love to have our partner buy for us and second gift is something sentimental a heartfelt notes a cute little you know something to represent the relationship and how you feel about that person with those two gifts i think your partner will feel loved and appreciated every single holiday i promise you but yeah i mean you know your partner better than i do and getting them something that you know helps them invest in their hobbies i've gotten my boyfriend like I surprised him and bought him a couple hours at a glassblowing class and he

enjoyed that you know at the end of it he goes to pay and the guy's like no you know your girlfriend already took care of it thinking ahead getting creative like if your girlfriend likes to skate maybe I don't know if it's like roller skating or skateboarding get her a new deck maybe get her a new pair of shoes or new wheels whatever it might be maybe you're like babe I am not gonna bother you for a full day and i'm gonna let you go skate with your friends all day like that's the kind of gift that my boyfriend would like it doesn't have to be crazy you don't have to be dropping racks you know i think the sentimental idea plus just like doing something for them that they wouldn't do for themselves really checks all the boxes and flowers flowers you gotta get your girl flowers

on valentine's day non-negotiable chocolates also if you are feeling like going above and beyond last year i made my boyfriend buy me exactly like 12 different bouquets of flowers and listen the right man will listen to you i said no i need 12 bouquets and i need 12 different holiday um valentine's day balloons from dollar tree you know what the right person will hear you and the right person will do those fucking things best believe that is exactly how we celebrated valentine's day last year but when it comes to celebrating day of you know you can do your gifts day of you can have some freak nasty sex day of but truly in my heart i hate going out on valentine's day especially as a server like i just get it i know how the industry is and that is a hectic

fucking day i will be working just because i love money and i love a good bag but it's like stressful safe to say oh valentine's day though so cute i don't get people who are like i hate valentine's day girl do you hate love like i don't see i don't see you sitting here being like i hate christmas like it's the same exact thing you don't like celebrating love you're like celebrating your partner oop oop red flag red flag how are the beginning of relationships supposed to feel i'm new to this oh oh the beginning of relationships girl you should be absolutely fucking infatuated to the point where it's like kind of a downfall you know what i mean like it should be something that is like over consuming you are fully in love all for this person like

you are willing to lay down in front of a train for them and i know that seems like insane and you're like girl no that's a red flag no no no no no the right person will not have you second guessing the right person won't have you being like well maybe i don't know the right person won't have you crying upset angry mad within the first month of you guys talking no i do think the crush psychosis is real and it is very much so real when you are in a healthy relationship it should be a give and take though like that infatuation that you feel the wanting to hang out the wanting to spend time together that other person should be doing that as well they shouldn't just be texting you at 3 a.m for a hookup call girl don't wait around for that that's for fucking

sure but most importantly within that first month of kind of dating there should not be any hard times dare i say at all at all there should not be hard times you should not be having fights with somebody that you've only known for a month that doesn't make sense you both should be on your best behavior you both should be wanting to impress the other person and through that of course there's not going to be any friction but if you find yourself and i've been here before so trust like i know that man should not make be making you cry within that first month of knowing each other when you are first dating there shouldn't honestly be no hardships because you are both behaving the best that you possibly can it's low-key been six months since my boyfriend has made me finish

it would happen before i don't know what's wrong i don't think anything's wrong i'm sure you guys kind of just got into a routine and like the same routine just got old for you so like you need to spice it up you do you need to spice it up now do i think you should look that man in the eyes and go you haven't made me come in six months no no no you should not that is not what you should say to him please for the love of god but could you suggest hey you know like i would love if we just involved a vibrator hey i would love it if we switched positions hey hey like slow down let's take our time whatever it may be like i think you just need to switch it up i'm sure he's trying if he's not trying i mean definitely encourage him a little bit but i think this is normal in

relationships where it's like all right we just got into the same routine like we've perfected it we've perfected our gymnastics routine but then again it's kind of becoming repetitive and boring and in order to truly get that big oh experience you gotta switch it up involve some toys you know it's like swing from the ceiling get crazy on it you know i think you should really try and enjoy and switch up the routine a bit i think you'd be surprised just how quickly it might come to you again ended three months situationship with nonchalant man because he couldn't commit he cried and gave me a gift okay well a gift is not going to cover you know you being a piece of shit and not wanting to date me but like i will take a bag thank you and i will block you honestly

most situationships don't even give a gift so consider yourself lucky but also if he doesn't get his shit together like right now and is immediately like on his hands and knees being like wait wait i'm so sorry i fucked up like i do need you in my life then he is not the man for you and you know what i genuinely believe i think women should be the only ones to have ultimatums and i think women should give way more ultimatums than they do like too many of these men are getting away with fuck shit because like you're afraid of hurting their feelings no babe hurt their feelings say what's on their mind be real with them because they're not being real with you and if they can't pick up on the fucking clues and actually take accountability of their own

fucking life and hear your emotions for what they are then they're not the right person for you babe go let them roll around in the gutter where they want to be how do you deal with stress i love your content hon oh hon thank you thanks sweetie uh stress oh i've been so stressed so stressed so stressed to the point where i literally posted on tiktok i was like life's trying me that i actually am thinking about dying my hair pink and smoking cigarettes again like i'm i'm to that point i am i'm getting there like please god i am not your strongest soldier but i truly am trying my best stress is fun for me personally stress manifests as like anxiousness and a lot of crying I find when I'm stressed and I try and like bottle it up and hold it in I eventually end

up exploding later on so here's my go-to like get the stress out routine first of all I take off literally all of my clothes i wash my face and i do dry brushing have you heard of dry brushing i love dry brushing not only does it make my skin glow and gorgeous it's a really great self-love routine where it's like i am going over every part of my body and really appreciating it for what it is it's also like a lymphatic drainage technique um and also it gives me that sense and that feeling of like all right i'm physically swiping away old skin i'm physically swiping away negative emotions um and yeah dry brushing it's a little painful i will say but it does get the job done love it fantastic so i'll dry brush and then i'll get in a hot shower i will sit on

the ground with the hot shower running over my body and then i'll just cry yeah yeah by the time you finish crying and then you do your whole self-care routine of like washing your face washing your body maybe doing a little sugar scrub action I love Lush's body scrubs fantastic you know get out of the shower you will feel reborn you truly will I literally just did this the other day which is how I know that it works because I was so stressed out over my cat I just felt so bad I was like I'm not a good parent why does this keep happening you know and I know I needed to get it out of my system because like i had things to do i had a life to live and i couldn't just sit here and suffer from anxiety so immediately jumped into that routine physically

swiping away the stress allowing myself to release those emotions and then i love a shower because you get out and you feel like a brand new human being and also i feel like it's a safe space where no one's gonna walk in seeing you butt naked on the linoleum ground rolling around crying you know it's a safe space you can do that in the privacy of your own bathroom fantastic and when you come out you're going to be smelling amazing looking amazing feeling much much better so funny i am very very thankful to have people in my life that are like aware of subliminal boundaries and not overstepping them such as like my parents or my family or my boyfriend like they see this podcast and they're like no that's the girls kiki like it's almost like a slumber party and the

girls are in the slumber party room and like your parents are like we're not gonna walk in there we're just gonna let them have their time you know like we know they're safe we know they're having a good time but like i don't want to go in there and be a mood killer and i'm so thankful that everybody in my life gets that vibe and that energy truly like this is the girls just sitting and having a good time don't come in here and ruin it my boyfriend though he's so funny he is honestly a saint for seeing some of the titles that i release on here and not listening um but last episode i talked about stalker story time and he's like listen i like i don't listen to your podcast but do you like is there something i need to know about like do you have a stalker

like should i be concerned do we need to protect you and i'm like that is so fucking sweet no i don't have a stalker thank you for checking in on me thank you for not crossing any boundaries um but no like if he knows that if there was a problem or something really serious i would come to him but it's so funny that he's like not me click baiting my own boyfriend that was funny to me oh i'm an ft student not working is it wrong for me to ask my boyfriend for to financially support me this is interesting oh i like this question i feel like it can go many different ways honestly it really just depends on how long you are into the relationship if it's in the first two years i would say no i would say you shouldn't ask your boyfriend to financially support you

I think within the first two years there's still a big error of like maybe you guys could break up I think you don't truly know the other person until you are fully two years in um and I don't want him to possibly leave you high and dry with no money no financial support and all of a sudden and you're scrambling so if i could convince you to maybe get some sort of part-time situation i highly would encourage doing so i don't think it is smart for any woman to completely and utterly financially rely on a man ever and i do want you to be smart about that okay um now if it's his idea and he's like babe i just want you to go to school and i want to take care of you i wouldn't say no i definitely would not fucking say no that's for sure but still be smart if he's

giving you money pocket a little bit away for a rainy day you know don't just go out and blow it to the point where it's like all right i have no savings account like be smart about it but also if he's if it's his idea and he wants to like girl go for it now if you're two plus years in like maybe three or four years in I think you're allowed to ask a little bit more about this I think that's when you're actually like kind of working in tandem as a partner now asking anybody to fully financially support you I don't think is ever fair to the other person but asking for a little bit of help is always okay um I know friends who have definitely done that in relationships where it's like you know I'm four years in with my partner and they just lost their job like I'm

gonna be the breadwinner for a second until my partner can find a job again that's very normal that's a serious thing that most people in relationships are going to go through at some point in time and like if you can't rock with it and ride for that person then you know are you really meant to be together me my boyfriend are about to go through this a little bit not because he's losing a job because he's overworking himself and I'm about to kind of semi become jobless especially when I have a tattoo apprenticeship like I'm essentially going to be working for free not for free but for my education it's a trade honestly but am I going to be making as much money as I was previously when I could work more shifts no so you know he's gonna have to pick up a little

bit but he understands that and is here to support me because we've been in this relationship for so long am i fully financially respond um like going to rely on him no not at all i am a very independent woman that's for sure i will never fully financially um live off of a man but once again if he's here and he's like babe focus on school and you just let me take care of the bills you know who are you to say no to that a lot of breakups going on right now a lot of i let my man go i broke up with my man oh my goodness yeah it was the january chaos there was a lot going on with the stars a lot of stress a lot of testing i felt like the universe was doing a lot of like are you clocked in are you paying attention are you actually doing the work you need to do

are you with the right people and I think January is perfect for that you know if you're gonna leave your man like you might as well do it January or February because I actually think it January February is the best time to leave your partner if you're like I fucking can't do this anymore but I'm looking for a sign do it now because spring's gonna roll around you're going to be outside a little bit more the natural influx of energy is going to be there to help lift and power you through that breakup and then summer is going to be here and you can live a hot girl stress-free summer because you went through that mourning process over that springtime I have been through two major breakups and both of them happened during January February and honestly if I ever

have to like plan a breakup again it will be during that time I felt like it was just perfect you know your heart's broken everybody's heart is kind of broken during January February whatever time is moving so fucking fast though all of a sudden it's you know March and April and flowers are starting to bloom and although you're maybe sad inside there's like more green around you and you're outside a little bit more and you're you're mourning but also like the renewal and the regrowth and the earth is helping you power through and then all of a sudden summer's around and you've completely forgotten all about it yep yeah so if you are thinking about it do it now if you have done it now proud of you it's going to be a little hard at first don't worry but

ultimately like i think you did the right thing always oh you guys also i on instagram at hannah marlene hi come hang out um i posted my january favorites so if you want to see what i was loving this january music wise smell wise beauty products tea things like that um come hang out on the instagram also with the super bowl approaching i will be releasing my much asked for wing recipe just in time for the super bowl so that should be up either wednesday or thursday stay tuned but yes at hannah marlene thoughts on period sex no thoughts it's just another day honestly back back when i was younger i had a lot of thoughts about period sex of like oh but like what if it's like so messy and what if like a chunk comes out or you know what if

he's just he can't stand blood blah blah blah like now now that i'm older and i have been through so many periods like it truly is just another day of having sex if anything like congratulations it's just wetter down there no no no but like listen i think period sex can be great i do the first kind of week or maybe first three days before i start my period don't fucking touch me don't touch me don't look at me don't say anything even slightly off tone to me that's how I feel I get a little testy the first couple days before my period I'm cramping I'm like my boyfriend's trying to hug me I'm like ow don't don't touch me but on my period I found that like my cramps aren't bad it's usually like right before my cramps aren't bad it's just I'm going

through the process you know I also don't wear tampons anymore so that really has helped my cramping and helped with the natural flow of kind of just like getting my period over faster um and i have an iud so my period is very light like i have it but i'm only spotting which is a game changer because when i tell you previously i was practically bleeding out every month which was not okay because it was making me anemic i had no brain space because my brain didn't have enough fucking blood like it was just bad all around but now i feel like i've gotten into the groove of the period where it's not interfering my life too too much so period sex in my brain is not something i'm really having to think about it is truly and honestly just another day your man should not have

to be quote-unquote brave or quote-unquote love you enough to have period sex truly he should be thankful to be up in there at any point of the month he should be on his hands and knees praying down to you for even offering up a slice or a crumb if your man looks at you like you are a nasty bitch when you are on your period that man should not be anywhere near a pussy at all i met my boyfriend he had never had period sex before he's like no like if i see blood i'm about to pass out like well you better buckle up and best believe you know he's like immediately after having it he's like no this is great like i don't even know why i thought about it being anything other than just normal sex you know i mean don't be on top i do know that if you're gonna have

period sex put a towel down don't be on top just sit back and enjoy it and take it if you're gonna have period sex that's for sure but yeah not many thoughts enjoy have a good time if you're horny go out there and get some good fucking dick period no matter the cycle that you're in and please for the love of god use protection with the state of the world right now please please i'm begging you please use protection please take care of yourself as a woman you need to protect yourself safe sex is safety okay having safe sex it's the same thing as like carrying around a can of pepper spray when you walk home alone at night like you need to be aware of your surroundings and the effects that your life can have on you flying tips i'm so scared and anxious especially

after uh the recent events oh my god you guys what the actual fuck is going on what the actual fuck is going on like genuinely that is all i have to say like i knew it was going to get bad but like who like literally i'm about to go buy a car honestly this week because with the tariffs and everything else that this fucking insane clown is putting into place i'm like no i need to get my shit handled now now now I have always had flight anxiety I don't I just hate being out of control I'm a bitch where it's like if you take me out of control I am gonna have a panic attack and that's a problem that I do need to work on ultimately ultimately fact is it is safer to fly in an airplane than it is to fly in a car and I know this because I've been in many a car

accidents I have not been in oh my god knock on wood one plane accident do you know what I mean and of course when we are seeing it more often and just so devastating and just like so insane how these things are happening it's gonna be hard not to think about ultimately the best thing that I can really encourage you to do is just make sure you have a person with you who is going to be there to kind of help you through and support you and if you don't when I fly alone I am a 25 year old woman and I bring a stuffed animal with me I know I do I don't give a fuck you can look at me like I am a crazy fucking psycho little freak I will be grasping onto the stuffed animal the entire flight if it brings me a little bit of comfort fantastic put your headphones in put on a

movie to distract yourself close the window hold on to your stuffed animal hold on to your lover's hand write it out all right truly that is the best way to get through a flight do not take a pill before a flight do not take an edible before a flight if you have flight anxiety I love weed I took an edible before a flight and the entire time the only thing I could think about was the plane going down do not do that to yourself and guess what to me my boyfriend he took like double the amount that I did so he's passed out next to me on the airplane and I'm sitting over here like having a panic attack get yourself a sparkling little you know sprite ginger ale help calm the nerves do not eat any sort of substance before you get on an airplane ever ever i know a lot of

people drink before you get on an airplane but then you see these like white women getting kicked off airplanes for like biting police officers yes someone i know from high school i'm pretty sure like popped a pill and drank too much before getting on a flight and was is banned from flying ever again because she bit a police officer when he was trying to remove her from the airplane do not get inebriated on an airplane please for everyone else's safety and yours to bring a stuffed animal bring a lavender smelling salt to help calm your nerves you know put in your air pods and put on a movie and just close that window do the best you can truly though if you really think about the fact of it all it is safer to fly in an airplane than it is to drive in a car i've literally almost

died in a car crash like i if anybody's gonna tell you it's that but yeah truly truly i think everybody's just kind of looking around like right now like what the fuck what the fuck that's literally all i can say like what the fuck i love the restaurant i work in too because um the owners in my restaurant are from Iran and Turkey so they are aware and used to a kind of overwhelming government impact and they know how to handle it in a way that I think is very refreshing especially as someone who I mean all of us this is a little new to us hello so like we had to have a meeting about the the ice raids i mean we had to have a meeting like do not let these fucking people in if they try to speak to you walk away immediately grab one of us they do not have the authority that

you think they have you need to stand up for your neighbors and for yourself this is what community is about this is why community is more important than ever we are here to protect each other you need to keep an eye out and warn people as soon as you do like see anything please please if you can protect your friends and your family right now do so but the owners of my restaurant were like you know what we're fucking over this they got a giant ass flag in the front of our restaurant that says donald trump is an evil motherfucker have a good day he was like i don't even want to play around if there's anybody that comes in this restaurant and think that that man is a good guy they can get the fuck out of here and i love that energy working for a company that has that

energy while target is firing dei employees and taking down that fucking opportunity that they have like oh what the fuck truly is all i can say please please show up for your friends show up for your family show up for your community outreach outreach outreach and support we need each other now more than ever someone said you should post more vlogs love you baddie i am planning on having a self-care self-love vlog out on valentine's day yes the girl is providing the girl is pulling through always I just feel like not only do I need a good self-care day but I do want to provide a little bit more content for you guys so stay tuned for that that should be out on Valentine's Day February 14th see you then how do you clean a bong I'm worried about using harsh chemicals

listen with the way that resin builds up and just how intense it can be you are gonna have a to use like a little bit of harsh chemicals but I don't think you necessarily need to buy any of like the pre-packaged pre-made harsh chemicals all you need all you need listen to me all you need is isopropyl alcohol and like really coarse thick table salt something where it's like a little rocky so when you put the isopropyl alcohol in there and a little bit of a coarse table salt you can put it in a baggie close it up or like stuff the ends with like paper towels so it is completely stuck inside the piece and then just shake the shit out of it let it set let it hang out if it needs to hang out overnight to really loosen that stickiness from the smoke and the

weed and the dabs whatever you are hitting it with but all you need is isopropyl alcohol and coarse table salt and then when you're done with that i honestly will go ahead and just like clean my piece with soap and water as well just to make sure i get all of the isopropyl alcohol out of there all of the table salt any sort of residual kind of chemicaliness i will deep clean that bitch every time i am due for a deep cleaning i hate cleaning my pieces it truly is like the bane of being a a smoker is like i hate cleaning pieces thank god my boyfriend is just such an amazing individual and is like let me do that for you babe god bless god bless but you know sometimes you gotta be a big girl and clean those pieces lung health is important and making sure you have

fresh water every time you smoke and making sure your pieces are clean is going to do that for you every time but yeah sometimes like the pre-packaged like chemical cleaners have a little bit too many additives in there that i'm like man i can just do it myself probably for cheaper too um yeah simple ingredients ice purple alcohol coarse table salt you'll be good oh kissing with morning breath hot or not interesting interesting i mean if you're on a real freak mode hours that man could rectally shit himself and you're gonna be like oh i love him no i'm kidding i'm kidding but like truly like the morning breath probably wouldn't bother you um also like if it does bother you no i hate like if you are against smells or you can't do smelly thing i don't think it means like

you don't love them or whatever like if your partner is smelly they're smelly period and maybe that's just a sign you need to do it from behind you know like if you don't want his morning breath on you girl flip around is it against girl code to hang out with a boy that your friend used to have a crush on oh it is only against girl code if you talk to her and she feels weird about it if you are ever ever going to hang out talk to whatever a person or an interest that your friend has had a thing with whether it is a fling a crush I don't think you should talk to ex-boyfriends at all I don't think you should talk to ex-situationships at all that's gonna get complicated and messy and it's going to look backstabby and weird I don't think you should do

that a crush though that was never entertained or you know never received some sort of back and forth I think that's a little less pressure but I do think you should talk to her first about it see how she feels even if she's smiling and saying yeah go ahead as tears roll down her eyes don't do it you know if she's like oh yeah whatever like that was just a fleeting moment sure absolutely go ahead but read the room read the room if she has some weird feeling against it it's gonna fuck up your relationship and the last thing you should let fuck up your relationship with a girlfriend is a boy okay boys are not worth getting rid of friendships all right do you keep relationship matters private or do you talk to your friends and family about it um two and five

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with ancestry you can search select historical occupational records for free for a limited time and discover the stories behind the jobs in your family tree you've got questions we've got ancestors search free until august 31st visit ancestry.ca for details terms apply usually honestly when it comes to like relationship issues i rarely if i used to be okay i used to be the girl who it's like as soon as I faced some sort of like adversity in my relationship or some sort of like you know oh my god I'm tripping up over this I would immediately go to my friends and use them as a therapist and then I realized like that was unhealthy and your friends do not want to hear you complain about your boyfriend for the millionth time to be fair I wasn't I'm

not doing that a lot in my current relationship but I was doing it a lot in my past relationship and now now that I am in a good relationship I feel like the problems that we do have are things that I can immediately address with my partner which is great I think if you do have a problem the first person you should address it to is the person you have a problem with now if you're kind of like how do I go about this or maybe I need to blow off a little bit of steam then sure a casual conversation with your friends is okay now you need to be careful about what you tell your family your family will judge your partner 10 times harder than anybody else that is your family hello they are essentially dating you to become a part of your family so they're going to judge

him and be like well should he even be a part of our family should he even date our our daughter whatever it is only go to your family with very casual silly stuff do not go to them with real big problems the things that i tell my parents about problems in our relationship are like oh you know my poor boyfriend's just working so much oh he's just making so much money like like non-serious issues where they're like oh cool you know whatever but if I have like a real problem where I'm like oh like he's pissing me off maybe I'll go to my friends casually about it but honestly the first person I go to if I have a problem is to that person to my boyfriend immediately like there's no time to sit here and think about oh but what if but what if no

let's talk it out let's communicate now let's fucking get rid of these bad emotions and get this shit handled single for valentine's day and all my friends aren't what should i do for myself instead illy oh my god girl you gotta have a self-care day you gotta have a self-care day absolutely you need you need to buy yourself flowers buy yourself a yummy little sweet treat i will have a valentine's day some baked and baking recipe up next week so if you need something sweet to make yourself stay tuned chocolate dip strawberry cheesecake bars girl girl don't even get me started they're so good but get yourself something sweet to munch on maybe your favorite food whether it's like for me it would be jajangmyun i love jajangmyun black bean noodles

maybe it's some pho maybe it's tacos maybe it's pizza whatever your heart calls for get yourself something yummy to eat buy yourself flowers maybe buy yourself a little bag of your weed smoke some we'd turn on a rom-com a fun little rom-com a fun little cutesy little thing uh take a good bubble bath or a hot shower or throw on a face mask and like relax relax valentine's day is not always about the couples it is just about love period love for yourself love for others love for friends love for partners whatever it is you're not being left out because you should hold love for yourself you know and you should celebrate yourself I love Valentine's Day because it's just a reminder to really love and appreciate everything around you how to not make a mess when I'm cooking please

just one tip thank you so much so for me when I'm cooking I always have I think Rachel Ray taught me this but on the side I always have like a scrap bowl or a bowl for the trash so when I'm I have like scraps of peppers or scraps of strawberries whatever it is I throw that in the bowl if there's packaging i throw that in the bowl and then by the end of it all i have all my trash in one place i can dump it in my trash can now every single dish i use goes straight into the sink and as soon as i'm done cooking um or like as it's finishing cooking i throw all the dishes from the sink into the dishwasher so by the time i am done cooking there's only like maybe two or three dishes to clean up once i'm done eating that's how you do it i love you so much hannah broke up

with my boyfriend of two years a month ago and i don't know how to cope with no sex girl buy yourself a hitachi wand buy yourself a vibrator go to the sex store go get some fun kinky shit to just have fun with yourself okay that is what you need to be doing like if you don't own a vibrator or like some sort of dildo or something fun to just like fuck yourself with then that's why you're not feeling fulfilled honestly i think most women have more fulfilling sex with themselves than they do with most men so get out there get into the pleasure of it all girl have a good time how to be informed but also not emotionally depleted exhausted and scared illy i love you too oh my gosh on tiktok we have breaking news we have breaking news we have breaking news ah

my brain i can't handle it there's too much breaking news constantly like literally i am losing it and i think most of us are and like rightfully fucking so because crazy shit is happening a stay informed they want us to get overwhelmed with like things and kind of just sit back and let it all happen we're not here to do that you need to stay informed and stay aware of what's happening so then you can keep yourself and your community safe at this point in time they are turning us all against each other that is the last thing we need to be doing okay stand up for your trans friends stand up for your gay friends stand up for your friends who are here who deserve a space here who deserve love and kindness and appreciation show that to them now

more than ever i think love is a radical way of fighting it back against like the man in a sort of sense especially when they want us to feel like down and hated and angry they want us to feel these negative emotions so much that it turns us into zombies do not let them turn you into a zombie okay stay strong stay full of love stay full of appreciation of your neighbor of yourself of your community show up for them give back to them support them love them protect them that is how you stay sane during this time absolutely and it it does suck that so much shit is going on that it feels overwhelming but don't let that turn you into a shell of a person unfortunately the shock factor of it all is what they want to do to you they want you to kind of succumb to this all

no fight back you need to love everybody in your life with your full chest more so now than ever oh my gosh also it's February it's the end of dry January wow I hate alcohol yeah yes my company party was yesterday which was what like the second and so of course roll up we have a couple drinks I have like a mind eraser do you guys know what a mind eraser is do you know what a mind eraser is it is kalua vodka sparkling water and a splash of diet coke and essentially you chug it as fast as you can yeah i had a mind eraser and then like a glass of wine or something when i tell you i got home and i felt like a train had fucking hit me i am over alcohol there's something about your brain chemistry when you turn 25 where it's just like you can't process alcohol as well as you could

when you were younger and i'm so thankful i got that party girl phase out of me early like i did my brain damage early rather than later because like i'm imagining right now at this point in time of my life taking as much molly as i used to do and truly i feel like i would have a schizophrenic episode now like i feel like i would enter a realm and never come back so i am thankful for just getting that need to be a crazy bitch out of my system earlier rather than later because now i am just like oof I mean I love a casual glass of wine here and there but I just truly especially taking a month off it's like wow now I can really see how it affects me um last year I did dry January and it was truly to cut back on drinking I was drinking way too much I was I mean I'm young

I'm having a good time sure but like should I be having three glasses of a drink every single day no no you shouldn't no that's not okay why do you feel like you have to drink why do you feel like you can't live without alcohol let's challenge that let's stop drinking for a second that was last year i feel like i got that under control which was really good and then this year this year was truly all about like how does it affect me is it even affecting me in a positive way like i know why i drink now i've handled my compulsions but now like let's figure out if this is even something that's good for me or not and yeah I think a casual cocktail with the girls here and there is fantastic you know watching the big football game and having a beer fantastic sure

whatever but drinking every night truly cannot be good for my brain or organs and is something that I never want to do ever again in my entire life like I am just so over alcohol and I'm really into weed like I know I've always been into weed and duh hello smoke sesh how are you not into weed but I have just really been a proponent of the positive effects that it does have especially with like long-term usage now I'm not gonna sit here and be like you need drugs in your life no but like if you're gonna sit here and put all of the substances in front of me and I'm gonna choose the least harmful one ultimately that's gonna be weed for me I feel like it's something I can indulge in healthily it's not negatively having consequences on my brain or

my body I'm not waking up the next day like hungover feeling horrible and awful it's not turning me into a person that's making me make bad decisions or making me so inebriated that I black out and lose hours of my life do you know how scary blacking out is I like that was a common occurrence when i was younger and now that i'm older i'm like that is just so terrifying i mean i was blacking out because i didn't want to be alive like that was just an escape tactic not healthy not healthy please don't do that but now it's like i love a little gummy at the end of the night and just crawling in bed at 9 p.m and scrolling and having a little laugh on my little phone and then getting a good eight hours of sleep and then waking up at 8 a.m feeling refreshed

are you fucking kidding me i never thought i would be an adult an adult sitting here saying that especially after my party girl phase of like i love molly and i love raving and you know like going crazy i do think my party girl phase is going to come out a little bit more this year in the sense of just like being outside more and maybe going to more shows going to more concerts not doing hard drugs you know sticking to the weed but yeah I don't know dry January taught me a lot this year of just like I don't need it in my life I don't I really don't it doesn't do me any good and I'm proud of myself for sticking through it and being aware of my habits and my consumption and just what substances I am inducing into my brain and the effects that it's having and

positive and negatives in my life it's important to take accountability of your life and ask yourself, you know, look in, check in. Is this man good for me? Is this habit good for me? Is drinking good for me? Is this job good for me? Asking yourself these questions. No one else is going to ask you these things. So be aware, be mindful of the life you're living and make sure you are living a good one, a healthy one, a prosperous one, one that makes you happy. You know how do i lock back in for february because girl january was a mess oh girl oh girl oh girl we are prioritizing love this february i think february is perfect january is always hectic it is this month more so than usual all right i kicked it off with you know my cat going through

something he's going through something at the end of january again like just stressed all month the inauguration uh like what the fuck is happening there's too much happening too much it was too much it was too much and i think collectively we all need a big fucking deep breath and to show each other a little bit of love a little bit of love now more so than ever so if you can prioritize that this month whether your self-love is you know checking yourself bitch the way you're behaving is not okay you cannot behave this way you cannot be this person i want to see you do better you that tough love that tough self-love you know sometimes we need that that is love you know i think that is a really potent form of love where it's like i'm gonna tell you how it is because i

love you i think we need to love our neighbors and show up for them more than ever especially with the economic and political state of the world right now like we need to be showing our neighbors love i'm about to go bake some stuff and like give it to them just provide a little bit of prosperity and peace to the people around me try and stay mentally sane so i can be there for the people around me show myself some love for going through hard times um yeah i think the best way to lock in for february is to truly just lock into love self-love romantic love love for partners love for parents love for roommates love for the world around us I feel like we lost a lot of love this January I don't know if you're feeling the same way that I am but

I think that's just definitely what we need to bring back so that is how I'll be locking in this February the hard work the hard difficult work of just career and all that will start March but February consider February a good restart to really focus on what is good for you what prosperity do you want to bring into life what is helping you what's causing you setbacks how can you provide more love to the people around you and to yourself how can you honor yourself in one way this month I think that's a really good way to kind of build a solid base layer so then we can be boss bitches in the future but like if you want me to go out here and like a button up and a tie and make sales and lock in like a boss bitch hard worker i just don't think february is for that i think february

is for really getting ourselves physically mentally spiritually back on track so focus on that we'll get there don't stress yourself out i love you all so much if you want to see recipes january favorites and much much more follow the instagram at hannah marlene if you want to be silly on tiktok at fairy smoke mother and last but not least i do an extra episode every single thursday where i answer every single one of your questions on patreon plus much more astrology updates weekly inspiration things like that sunday spiritual stuff we talked about the um the last new moon i provided some journal prompts this sunday it's great we have so much fun over at the patreon patreon.com slash smoke slash shoddy but with that being said please stay sane treat

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