Smoke Sesh - signs from the universe, jealousy & seasonal depression

Episode Date: October 10, 2023

Happy Tuesday hotties! Thank you for all the love on the baby tees and completely selling me out that is insane ! I’m in shock and awe of you all and sending you all so much love today! I know what you’re all here for though, we chat what I’ve been up to, finally having a day to myself and how I’m celebrating my ideal day, appetite and weed, how to get your appetite back on track, Snapchat in the modern age of dating, hermit significant other and how to manage, signs from the universe and how to listen/when to listen, doing new things with anxiety, how to get yourself out of a funk, jealousy and how to manage it, dating 101, taking instagram pictures, MY Roman Empire, what to do when you feel like you’ve done it all, seasonal depression and how I’m managing it, Breakup 101 and how to do it best, getting the ick, what to do when you get too high, and much much much much more. I love you all so much thank you for showing up and giving me endless support and making this smoke sesh community such a fun place for everyone! Thank you for being here thank you for being you and showing up for not only me but for yourself I can’t wait to see you all next Tuesday! (P.S. if you missed the first t shirt drop remember to follow me on instagram @hannahmarlene for the second drop coming soon) MUAH!

Listen, everybody needs a fairy godmother, you know, just somebody to look out for them. Some people call me their fairy smoke mother, others their internet big sister, but you can call me Hannah, the host of Smoke Sash. So come hang out, let's light up and talk everything there is to life. The good, the bad, the ugly, the embarrassing, I've got a story for it all. Good morning hotties of the world, how the hell are we all doing today? we feeling good refreshed feeling lively this morning i hope you all are doing so very well thank you for all the love recently with the podcast so many new people are finding this

and listening to it so if you are a new smoke sash listener welcome to the party i hope you enjoy the fucking ride if you are returning listener thank you so much for being here um you guys i know what you're here for but i have to give a big thank you because yesterday i released the baby tees on my instagram and you completely sold me out in eight hours like before i went to bed we were completely sold out of baby tees and that is just fucking crazy i am just my mind is blown whenever i create something i always create it in mind that this is something that i want to wear this is something that i am looking for in my daily life and i hope every single time i hope and pray that what i'm looking for is also what the collective

is looking for and i think it's safe to say that you guys are gonna enjoy these so fucking much so thank you i from the bottom of my heart i cannot wait to get these t-shirts out to you guys to see you guys wearing them it's gonna be so fucking cute and we're all gonna be matching uh it's gonna be adorable also if you missed out a few people were like oh my god i don't get paid till thursday and you're dropping it on a monday like please i need these don't worry i'm going to be doing another drop after i get these done and shipped out so hopefully by the end of the month sometime keep an eye out on my instagram at hannah marlene for a second drop if you did miss the first but i cannot wait to see all you hotties out in your party tees living your best life oh my god

i have been just really on my go mode recently um i spent this weekend celebrating i live in kansas city so like the chiefs are very big here big football fans you know so we went out to the local bars this weekend and drank watched the football game i took my friend to the dispensary for the first time yesterday we got some lunch did my baby tea drop and then i had to work like a birthday party for the owners of my restaurant so your girl has just been hustling i was there for like five hours last night i made so much fucking money thank god if your manager ever gives you an opportunity to make some extra cash girl go for it honestly because you'd be surprised how much you might you might just make you know um now i finally finally have a day to myself

i feel like i haven't had a chill rest reset day in like a week so i'm so excited that i can be here and celebrate that with you guys and include you guys in it um today i will be smoking some durban poison if you guys want to smoke with me a lot of you guys asked me what my favorite strain is and i've tried a lot obviously i've tried a lot but over and over again my favorite strain whether it's a concentrate or a flower has been durban poison so if you guys were ever curious in what i smoke that's usually my go-to but let me load this little bowl we'll cheers and then we will get to everything that i know you guys are here for i feel like last episode i got through a lot of questions and that's kind of the goal for today i love just trying to get to as

many different topics ideas things as i can so let's try and get that ish done this morning Anyways, cheers, girls. Mmm, yummy. Speaking of having a day off, someone asked, what does my ideal, like, relaxed, chill day look like? So let me just share with you guys what I have planned for today. I like to get up a little early. A little early. i usually sleep in on work days because i work late so i have to catch up on sleep and i usually

sleep to like 10 but when i have days off i like to get up around nine just so i don't feel like i'm wasting the day and wasting hours i feel like as long as i get eight hours i am good to go no matter what time i wake up as long as you get those eight hours i am perfectly fine to live a full day so i like to wake up around nine have my little latte you guys know how important an espresso machine is to me literally i this espresso machine is like 90 i use it maybe twice a day if you think about like a dollar per use i have gotten so much use out of this and it was so worth it honestly and then it saves me money because instead of oh i want to go to starbucks or oh i want to go to this coffee shop i'm like why would i spend nine dollars on something i can make at

home and have it taste 10 times better another thing to or another way to make things taste better especially like drinks at home get some fun glasses get glassware that you enjoy that you like holding that is cute to drink out of i guarantee you will be using it constantly the stanley girls know what's up i don't have a stanley but i understand like once you have a good cup you are constantly using it so little life hack there have myself a latte i have my early morning like scroll sesh i like to use my phone in the morning to kind of gather inspiration for my day um and for my life do a little you know online shopping perusing make a little mood board do some affirmations whatever it may be i feel like my phone is a great tool for that especially in

the morning uh scroll on pinterest scroll on tumblr whatever it may be catch up on instagram do the fun little social media things my brain wakes up then I like to pull myself together sometimes when I have days off I'm either lounging in a robe all day like I'm not leaving my couch my bed and my robe is surgically attached to my skin or I like to get dressed up do my makeup put on a cute outfit there's really no in between there really isn't um right now I am lounging around in my robe. I feel like a robe is a necessity for every girl. I want to make robes for you guys sometime. I'm just really particular on my robes. I like a short robe, but I like it a specific fabric. I don't know. I like it a very specific style or pattern. I found all of mine

vintage, either in a thrift store or on eBay. Just give them a little oxy clean, a little hot, hot wash they're good to go okay they're basically brand new I love a robe but I like to pull myself together sometimes too depending on if I'm going out running errands doing some shopping whatever it may be of course my weed is involved in my day off routine I usually smoke in the afternoons on my day off dare I say when I work and stuff I don't usually smoke until after my shift just so it fully is like a relaxer it's not just like oh another hit it's like no this is going to put me into bed and put my ass to sleep like that's what I'm looking for when I work but on my days off you know I like to be a little stony throughout the day it's really nice um I

like to have one I mean obviously I eat three meals a day probably more love to snack but I like to have one really good meal whether I'm like cooking it for myself or I'm going somewhere and eating usually it's like a really hot bowl of pho or I like to make tikka masala at home one of the two but I always like to make sure I have like a really good meal usually dinner to look forward to specifically pho that's what I've been craving recently so I think I'm gonna drag my boyfriend to get that for me today um what else sounds weird but when my home is a mess my brain is a mess and usually the days that i have off are the only days i have to really catch up on my home cleaning making sure everything's organized making sure everything's in place

so i like to get like really really high and then put on some music put on a podcast put this on whatever it may be and just deep clean my house pick it up put things in place put laundry in the laundry machine fucking start my dishwasher pick up all the random cups and trash around you know get get it clean so then i have a good reset and then when i'm going to work i don't have a lot of time i don't feel as stressed um and then yeah get myself a good dinner get outside if i can maybe hit a bar if i'm feeling crazy i've been doing that a lot more often now that my friends are kind of back in town they're drinkers so i'm kind of reliving that life again after not drinking for a while um and then i like to spend my evenings either with a hot bath a good face

mask a really fun movie specifically right now but it's spooky season i'm really trying to binge watch every single horror movie known to man even though i've seen them all already they're always worth watching again i watched infinity pool last night honestly pretty good mia goth incredible amazing Alexander Skarsgård on a leash incredible anyways that and then also I've been working into my routine lately my friend got me hooked on puzzling oh my god I'm actually 80 years old what the fuck are you talking about Hannah you're into puzzling yes it's actually addicting something that you can do with your hands turn your brain off of you feel accomplished when you do it sometimes reading just doesn't do it for me because I have a hard time focusing but when it's

pretty picture and I'm trying to match things together I have I can sit down and do a puzzle for three hours like put a bottle and put a bottle of wine in front of me in a puzzle oh my god I will forget my phone even exists that and I also know I'm basically an 80 year old living in a 24 year old's body because my plants whenever they grow new leaves I actually get excited like my heart starts racing I'm like oh my god I'm a proud mother my plant is growing are you kidding me puzzling in plants anyways that's usually what my days off look like very much so rest relax indulge a little bit but also really focusing on the self-care aspect of it all taking care of the home taking care of my body making sure my mind is relaxed reset so then i can continue on with

my week and keep working hard so that's what i'm up to today and of course including you guys along with me love it oh this is a great great question someone said tips for getting appetite back i swear weed has ruined mine especially in the mornings so this is very prominent and i don't think people realize because when you think about weed you think about the munchies you know like i smoke and i want to eat a bunch of food so what do you mean you lose your appetite when you're not smoking weed or weed is making you lose your appetite that just doesn't make sense but weed gives you the munchies because when you smoke you have an actual release of hormones in your brain when you smoke so by smoking regularly your brain becomes reliant

on weed for that hormone boost okay and then without that hormone boost you're simply just not hungry and that's why when people smoke at night and they wake up in the morning they may not have an appetite so this is what i recommend of course making sure that your use is not constant so then your brain is reliant on this feeling in order to get hungry making sure that you're using it only at times where you feel necessary using in a way very similar to alcohol it's like i'm not going to drink at 10 a.m because that's going to cause a bunch of long-term damage my brain let's save it for like special occasions at the end of the night small amounts this will help your brain regulate itself outside of weed and then the hormone boost that weed gives your

brain that also causes the munchies that won't be happening as often and your brain will be able to regulate consistently throughout the day also have a go-to meal in the morning that is easy to make quick to make high protein because even if you're not hungry and I know when you're not hungry having to eat something feels like a chore but have something that you know you can be reliant on and consistent with and that you always enjoy even if you are not hungry and make it even if you're not hungry make it have a few bites have a couple bites whatever it may be but make sure you're including that in your routine because when you include that in your routine your brain will start looking forward to it it will start recognizing that pattern of behavior and leaning

more into it even if you're not hungry and in turn you'll be able to regain balance of your eating cycle again so i understand you have no appetite in the morning but girl scramble up some eggs or some cheese on top put that shit on some sourdough toast maybe some guacamole and have a singular bite you know two because then you'll be able to work up to three and then four and then you'll be eating a real meal consistently you have to plan accordingly you know there's no worse feeling than waking up in the morning and looking in your fridge and being like i don't even know what the fuck's in here i don't know what to make so i'm just not gonna eat plan okay what am i gonna make in the mornings that are gonna be good for me what am i gonna make in the afternoons that

that are going to be good for me that i can eat consistently um that i will look forward to and then at night but having that routine both with weed and with eating is very important and if you feel like you've lost your appetite i would really recommend cutting back on the usage someone said communication solely on snapchat i swear nobody asks for your number anymore thoughts yeah I know this if you ask for my snapchat you're a literal child and there's no reason we should be talking and that's just my opinion a lot of my friends consistently use snapchat I think maybe I'm just a little older if you're younger I feel like it's okay you know like when you're in that flirty era of figuring yourself out and getting random information I

feel like snapchat is okay if you're under the age of like 21 but once you turn 21 you know you start taking things a little bit more seriously and you would rather get a text or you know formal communication than a snap chat snap chats for friends snap chats for laughs and giggles once we're like comfortable with each other not for building a healthy foundation of a relationship especially when you're older like not that I'm getting snap chats right now or numbers but like if someone came to like my friend and was like hey can I give you my snapchat I think we would be embarrassed for them like honestly I think we'd be embarrassed for them because it's just like such an informal way of communication and is really just showing like

how little they kind of care about that interaction and about you low-key um I feel like some people enjoy it though because it's like a very low low commitment form of communication so they don't have to take things too seriously and then they don't have to really you know commit anything to this person or even replying and that's why they give it out whereas a number feels more I need to reply to this this is on like my to-do list is to reply to this text message um but yeah i think if you were trying to take dating seriously and you were looking for a real committed partner if they offer you their snapchat and not their phone number it is just not gonna work out dare i say dare i say okay someone said my boyfriend is turning into a hermit he says he

only wants to spend time with me but when i suggest going out with friends together he says he doesn't like the people the loud noises and gets anxious i love him so much and i want to respect him but i don't want to see him only on his computer or when he comes over to or when we come over to each other's places am i being crazy send help i it's so easy to turn to a hermit nowadays because we can get so much fulfillment and communication from a little tiny box and screen you know like we do not have to move from where we are now I'm not saying that is a I don't know like you can get good forms of connection out of it you can also get bad forms of connection out of it but it's really easy to not leave your house and also when you

don't leave your house for a while it's very easy to get overwhelmed with everything going on outside you feel out of place you don't feel like you're in your comfort zone so I do understand when a lot of people get stuck in this kind of place where they feel more comfortable just like internally rather than externally and I do feel like there's some validity to that some people just are not they're just not outside people you know like outside cats and door cats like some people are just not outside people they're a little bit more shy they're a little bit more introverted and they do feel like they don't get any sort of benefit from the outdoor as well as they can get a lot of benefit from being inside and doing things inside now I would say this really isn't a huge

problem unless you love going out love partying love being outside being with friends and your two lifestyles just don't match his introverted lifestyle does not match your introvert extrovert lifestyle he simply does not want to go outside you are not going to be able to drag him outside can you live with that that's something you're gonna have to ask yourself but another thing you have to ask yourself is am when i am with him and when we are spending time together in a place that we both equally enjoy such as your own places are we doing fulfilling interactive bonding type behaviors the same behaviors you would do outside like are we doing things together are we puzzling are we watching a movie together are we cooking dinner together are we having

enthralling conversations if he's just a lame-ass boyfriend who's gonna sit on his video game all day barely interact with you even when you are driving over to his house it's like you are gonna sit on your phone next to him while he plays on his computer that is not a honestly like i mean coexisting is very healthy but you also need to be including bonding type behaviors in that and if he is not wanting to do those things with you if he is not wanting to set those things up with you and plan even just like indoor dates such as like let's decorate for halloween and watch a movie or you know let's do a face mask together that'd be crazy i don't think any man on this planet has ever been like let's do a face mask together but you know like little bonding things you can do

indoors if he's not making that effort then oof i don't know girl you might just have to cut your losses or ask him for what you are seeking and if he can't provide that for you sometimes you just got to find someone where your personalities mesh better together and that's okay that's okay it's part of dating no matter how long you are together that's a part of dating is constantly asking yourself are we meeting each other at a place where i feel this is beneficial to both of us this is healthy for both of us and we're both happy that is a question you should be asking yourself consistently throughout the relationship and if you feel like you know maybe he's changed and he's too much of a hermit and he's too addicted to video games and you are getting

put on the back burner and you are telling him these things and he's listening but he's not really making changes maybe you gotta go but ask yourself these things sit with them these are important questions to ponder throughout a relationship i love you you will figure it out I believe in you oh okay I love this question someone said how to trust oh wait how to trust the signs you're getting from this girl aka the universe I oh my god I love being like in alignment I love when those quote-unquote coincidences happen or those signs show up or that angel number appears. I live for that because it means I'm living in tune with the world around me and in tune with my, I guess, intentional life path or the life path that the

universe has set out for me. So how to trust those signs, how to trust that feeling, intuition versus anxiety intuition will always have a calmness to it okay I know I need to do this thing sure I'm scared sure I have a little bit of anxiety regarding it maybe I don't know how it's going to happen or how I'm going to pull this off or you know it's a scary change but the calmness comes from the understanding of I know this needs to happen I know what path I've been given I know the hard decision I need to make it is just a matter of up to me to do it anxiety has no real facts behind it no real truth behind it other than fear it is simply a feeling based in fear so when you're feeling these things and you're kind of second guessing yourself

sit with that feeling and ask yourself am I about to have a panic attack over this and really there's no reason for me to be feeling this way other than like I'm just hyping myself up and giving myself more anxiety or do I feel this overwhelming sense of calmness in the storm it's almost like you are in the eye of a hurricane there's that calm center that you can find even though the chaos around you might be a little bit uncontrollable there is that calm knowing understanding. That is intuition versus anxiety. Now, I believe to understand and receive these signs from the universe and to be more in tune is to live in alignment. And this is why I talk about daily habits and encouraging you to pick up on the smaller things in life and really look

out for them because it will subconsciously make you look out for what you need what you want and science from the universe so yes the small things are important you will not be able to pick up the big things if you are not able to recognize the smaller things and there's little practices you can do with that gratitude affirmations um manifesting in your journal doing mood boards whatever it may be do something within your daily life that gives you i don't know just puts your mind right on the right track to really focus on the little things to appreciate the little things and to give thanks the universe can speak to you in so many ways sometimes it can feel like a little tiny pinprick sometimes it can feel like a full-on slap to the face i have been hit with

many of them and if you ignore the pinpricks for too long best believe you are going to get a slap in the face in my last relationship i knew it wasn't good for me i knew it wasn't good for me i just couldn't leave there was just something about me like i am not a quitter i will try try try until the end i will put my all into it whether that person's giving their all or not and sometimes you really have to learn when to cut your losses and i mean this man was a living fucking needle he just loved to just fucking pick on me to just pinch me to poke me to prod me and i ignored all of those when in reality i should have stood the fuck up and been like no this is the universe literally telling me this man is awful horrible to me that i should not be

here and i kept ignoring him kept ignoring him and then i got into this huge car accident i i feel like i've talked about this before but this was the biggest sign from the universe that i have literally ever received i went over to his house at like 1 a.m because he was going through something horrible awful it was during finals time so i was stressed out but i still wanted to look out for him i went over there i spent time with him we ended up getting into a little bit of a fight i leave it's like 3 a.m at this point right i'm driving home i've driven this road a million fucking times it's a highway main highway it's 3 a.m no one's out there i there's not much to worry about as i'm driving home this highway like curves into this sharp corner like

it's a pretty harsh curve i mean the midwest is pretty hilly you wouldn't expect it there's a harsh curve going under this other highway so i'm in the closest lane to the inside to the curve and you know i'm just doing my little drive listen to my little melanie martinez and all of a sudden i'm waking up in my car to a police officer unbuckling me pulling me out of my car telling me i should not be alive right now like what the f just happened i'm looking around me i see my car is completely totaled i've hit the back of a police car who has no lights on and is parked on the highway so no it's not my fucking fault no lights on in the middle of the highway I hit this police officer not police officer his car going 75 miles an hour my whole

car completely crushed collapsed up to my ankles my ankles bruised battered I could barely stand on them broke my nose I'm looking around me I'm like what's going on what's happening a cattle truck a cattle truck had overturned on the highway above us and black cows huge I don't think you understand how big a cow is ginormous cows were falling out of the truck onto the highway below but it's also 3 a.m and this highway has no lights and these cows are massive and black so people were just like crashing all around and these cows are on the highway and this highway ended up getting shut down rush hour traffic diverted this is a huge mess for the city and i'm like in the center of it at 3 a.m this officer looks me dead in the eyes

and goes yeah you should i don't know how you survived that you shouldn't be alive right now i'm like oh great thanks let me sit down let me sit my ass down right now then and think about what the fuck's going on horrible concussion i have just been in a traumatic event i have no one else to call i call this man and he is audibly upset that he has to get up and come get to me and come pick me up because i've been in a car crash not to mention day after the car crash i have to go to a funeral for like his grandpa or something oh that's what he was going through his grandpa died i have to go to a funeral nose broken black eye i have a horrible concussion both my feet swollen completely black i've sprained both ankles and also i believe the

only reason i didn't break my ankles is because i was wearing doc martens and they were the ankle you know i mean like the doc martin boots and the leather is so thick that it made sure my ankle couldn't snap like this was serious i'm wearing like little kitten heels with my bruised up fucking ankles i am barely conscious because i had the worst concussion of my entire life i'm trying to interact with people that i don't know at a funeral a very solemn event and he brings up what i had just been through as like it's a funny thing that just happened like lol can you believe that happened like let's laugh let's laugh at her and in that moment i stood there and i realized holy fuck the universe just tried to put a literal roadblock

in front of me to leave this man and i still didn't get it i still didn't get it we fight i leave i get in a car crash he's mad he has to pick me up he's mad i have to i was in a car crash he's making fun of me to his family being like lol can you believe this bitch got in a car crash and she has a concussion both her ankles are basically broken and she's a broken nose can you believe she's so stupid at that moment i realized yeah this shit ain't gonna work out and i should have listened to the universe the million fucking times she told me that this wasn't good because i knew in my heart it wasn't good and i know i like to try but you gotta know when to cut your fucking losses before that huge fucking roadblock comes in before the universe

slaps you across the face she will get your shit together at some point best believe it could be two years from now it could be five years from now but ultimately it is up to you to recognize the signs in your everyday life that things are not going the way you want to go and to enact the changes to put yourself on the right path because best believe the universe is going to do it for you at some point and it's not going to be in a way that you probably wanted it's not going to be in a way that was going to be smoother than what you could have finessed on your own listen to the fucking signs listen to them they're all around you be open look at the small things give appreciation for the small things look at your life give appreciation for it so when things are going

wrong or things are going off the path that you are destined for you can recognize them you find yourself at the center of the storm and decide you know what this isn't the right place for me and i i'm the only one honestly who can enact these changes in my life who can see the signs you can listen to them and it's better to do it now rather than later because the universe has something crazy planned for you good good things are always planned for you but they will always come to you very unexpectedly so dare to make a change what's that michael jackson song anyways sorry i'm getting off track here just listen to the signs listen to them angel numbers if you believe in them listen to them tarot cards if you like to pull them listen to them listen to your

gut instincts listen to the way you feel about those things um i feel like if you're an old lady around the midwest you always are like oh every time i see a red bird or every time i see a blue jay you know it means the universe is here with me and she's listening to me it's literally about those little things what they mean to you how they make you feel and how you react accordingly always react sooner than later someone asked how do i start going to the gym i know it's as easy as walking in but i'm just anxious familiarity you will become comfortable with anything after you gain familiarity but you have to start doing it in order to gain familiarity and keep doing it i actually want to start going to the gym more often i've been getting up and walking around

the park pretty often and that's great while the weather is good but i know the weather is not going to be good forever so i really want to i mean this this winter just to get myself out of the house and give myself something to do i really want to try and get to the gym more often um and i know it's gonna i'm gonna be anxious walking in there the first day that's guaranteed so you're not crazy for being anxious new things are going to make you anxious that's okay it doesn't mean they're bad feel the anxiety feel the fear but do that shit anyways also i feel like putting on body armor this sounds crazy putting on body armor to do anything makes you feel invincible body armor such as oh i am going to a new restaurant so i'm going to put on a cute outfit

that I feel confident in that's my body armor maybe it's I'm going to the gym so I'm gonna put on my sound canceling headphones and a really cute workout set or maybe like an oversized t-shirt that's my body armor when I'm at home my plush little tiger robe that's my body armor that's what I mean you have to have something physically on you or just like that makes you feel comfortable that makes you feel invincible feel the fear do it anyways create repetition all that anxiety and fear will disappear also if you're new to going to the gym don't just randomly start taking pre-workout pre-workout is going to be just like a shit ton of caffeine plus other vitamins minerals whatever the fuck but it's going to hype you up amp you up and cause a little bit of extra anxiety and if

you are already dealing with previous anxiety you don't need to add on top of it you don't need to add caffeine on top of it you don't need to add pre-workout on top of it that can come later once you feel comfortable do not add unnecessary anxieties to what you're already feeling feel it that will be enough encouragement that you need to get through that workout go in there try it out get on one machine and then maybe try two then maybe try three but slowly work your way into it I guarantee repetition will always make you feel less anxious about doing the thing someone said I am in such a funk how do I show up for myself when I'm in a funk this is what I do I start my shower I turn it up real hot real real real hot okay let my bathroom get all steamy hot

sometimes a bath is great but I like a shower too depending on if I have the energy to stand or sit I'll do either next I will slather on my favorite face mask it's the easiest way to kind of just do a little self-care it's not my go-to it is always a great face mask it always interacts well with my skin it is the ol henriksen cold plunge pore mask it is so good fantastic love it whenever I'm in a funk I feel like I've usually I haven't been taking care of myself I've been kind of laying around I feel greasy I feel grimy and I need just like a quick pick-me-up slather on that face mask sit on your phone for 10 minutes listen to a podcast for 10 minutes whatever it may be that shower is going to be running you're going to hop in the shower face mask on

shower your body fully do a full self-care routine in there i also love a like a sugar scrub when i'm feeling extra funky just so i can really like scrub nourish take care of my skin i love a face mask so I feel like I'm taking care of my skin at the same time that specific face mask is also great if you feel like you have a lot of clogged pores you haven't been doing your skincare routine as well lately hot hot shower sit in there relax do some deep breathing scrub your hair scrub your scalp scrub your body clean your face and just kind of like dissociate for a little bit it's the best place to just like sit with your thoughts is in the shower because you're actively doing the the the feeling the act of cleansing so kind of inter internally you're doing the same

thing I feel like my shower is a holy space and I love having long showers the number one thing I got yelled at for when I was younger was just like wasting all the hot water and being in the shower for an hour it's because I loved sitting with my thoughts and it was a great place to really just understand them feel them cleanse my body and my mind at the same time get out of the shower dry off wrap yourself in a little robe wrap yourself in a big comfy t-shirt put on your favorite pj set change your sheets and then go to bed that simple routine I feel like the next morning I wake up and I'm like ready to go ready to take on the day but cleansing your body your mind and then having a clean bed to sleep in oh my god it is a perfect plus eight hours of sleep

afterwards it's the perfect reset it's all you need maybe add in a really good nice warm meal after your shower nourish your body a little bit that way clean your sheets go to bed eight hours i guarantee next morning you will wake up you will feel so good someone asked how to tell your fuck buddy to stop hitting you up because you found someone new that's literally what you got to say what you said to me hey not interested anymore have a great life we had lots of fun but i'm kind of seeing someone else bye and then like just block them but i feel like don't like ghost them and block them like you have to give a little bit of explanation just like hey not interested illy though good luck with life block that's the best way to do it okay someone asked

how to control jealousy and i feel like there's many different ways to approach this because you can feel jealousy in a lot of different ways maybe you're jealous of your friend maybe you're jealous of your mom maybe you're jealous of this random girl on social media maybe you're jealous of your partner your partner's previous partners or literally you can be jealous of anything so i feel like here's a big group of tips that will combat any form of jealousy okay first be honest about jealousy's impact acknowledge that jealousy is hurting you or possibly your relationship don't deny or ignore your feelings don't act on them impulsively either try to understand where they are coming from and what they are trying to tell you about your needs and fears ask what your

jealousy is telling you jealousy can be a signal that something is missing or wrong in your relationship such as trust communication intimacy it can also reflect your own insecurity such as low self-esteem uh fear of abandonment maybe like past trauma try to identify the root cause of your jealousy and address it with yourself or if it's a relationship your partner discover the six human needs okay this changed my thought process according to tony robbins there are six basic human needs that drive our behavior certainty variety significance love and connection growth and contribution you've heard of these if you took if you've taken a basic psychology course jealousy can arise when one or one or more of these needs are not met in your relationship

for example you may feel jealous if you lack certainty about your partner's um like sexual history or if you crave more variety and excitement in your relationship find out what your primary needs are and how you can meet them in healthy ways with your partner now if your relationship is more based on like your insecurity i dare you to dive into your insecurities and list your insecurities write down all the things that make you feel insecure and in or inadequate in your relationship for example you may feel insecure about your appearance your intelligence your skills your achievements so challenge these negative thoughts with positive affirmations or evidence for example you may write down i am beautiful or handsome i am smart i am good at

cooking i am good at school i have accomplished this or that remind yourself of your strengths and your qualities that make you valuable and loved i feel like this is the best possible way to kind of retrain that thought that thinking especially if it's not based in reality so if you're the kind of person who scrolls on social media and just is very jealous the whole time whenever you feel that like oh i wish i had her body immediately stop yourself give yourself one compliment and then give her one compliment oh i wish i was going to his college stop yourself give yourself one compliment about your school and give them one compliment about their work like wow you know what i have done a lot and i'm very proud of where i've come and i've put my all

into my grades and you know what they're very smart and they worked hard and they got into that school and i'm proud of both of us for where we are literally that simple just like cognitive awareness of i need to change this thought as soon as i have it you're going to get in the habit of constantly thinking that way um cultivate self-confidence self-confidence is an antidote to insecurity and jealousy. When you are confident in yourself, you don't need external validation or approval from others. You also don't compare yourself to others or feel threatened by them. To boost your self-confidence, practice self-care, set goals and achieve them, learn new skills, pursue your passions, and celebrate your success. Consider the source of your insecurity.

Sometimes jealousy is not caused by your current relationship but by your past experience or childhood wounds. For example, if you have been cheated on, abused, neglected, or abandoned in the past, you might have developed trust issues or attachment problems that make you jealous in your present relationship. In this case, you may need to heal from your past trauma and work on developing a secure attachment style with your partner. Communication is key, okay, to overcoming your jealousy and insecurity in a relationship. Instead of accusing, blaming, or controlling your partner express your feelings and concerns calmly and respectfully use i statements instead of you statements for example say i feel jealous when you talk to or like feminine female friends posts or

photos instead of you're flirting with other women listen to your partner's perspective and try to understand your point of view don't assume the worst or jump to conclusions without evidence build healthy coping skills when you feel jealous or insecure don't act on impulse or let your emotions take over instead use healthy coping skills to calm yourself down and manage your feelings some examples of healthy coping skills are breathing exercises meditation mindfulness journaling talking to a friend listening to music reading a book doing something you enjoy also that thought change pattern of behavior immediately giving a compliment to yourself and other people whenever you feel insecure anyways i have a couple more here i will put the full list of what i just

rambled about on my patreon if you're interested today patreon is i believe hannah marlene maybe it's not so shoddy either way we have a lot of fun there i just made a baked and baking vid but a complete 360 change of topic you can overcome your jealousy you are not controlled by your jealousy it is all about how you approach your pattern of thought and behavior and wanting to do better wanting to change believing in yourself uplifting yourself through it all you can do it i believe in you okay how to find a partner um hannah's tips and quick guide to dating oh okay how to find a partner step one don't look for one like literally literally once you stop like once you step out of that desperation

the universe is willing to just like throw goodness at you once you step into yourself step into your life step into where you want to get step into focusing on yourself all the other puzzle pieces will fall in place because you're focused on what is good for you what is necessary for you what do you want if you're also heavily focused on this you will be able to vet a partner very easily well does he fit into my plan does he interact well with me do i actually enjoy hanging out with him or do i like hanging out with myself more does he encourage me to show up for me when you're living in that desperation when you're living in the i need a partner now you are willing to settle for everything or anything honestly you're willing

to settle for the most mundane plant man on this planet and you're probably gonna get stuck and you're probably gonna be very unhappy so it's not even worth it live according to your truth to your life to everything you want and if that man does not fit he does not fit cut ties move on do your thing keep moving keep keep living keep dreaming you will find a man who fits in there i guarantee hold your standards high that's the best way to literally find the perfect partner okay stop looking they will find you and if they don't fit be quick to remove that puzzle piece girl someone asked how do you take pictures for your instagram honestly getting a um tripod or like something to hold my phone has been a game changer because i used to rely on my friends or my

boyfriend and half the time the pictures wouldn't turn out how i wanted and then i was in a bad mood but if you have a tripod and i got mine on amazon for like ten dollars it's almost like a stick and you press a button and it turns into a tripod and it goes up six feet it's amazing if you look for like the stick ones on amazon you will find it i promise you um it was probably like probably like 20 bucks like nothing um but i do a lot of my photos on my tripod it just i put my phone in there it came with a little um like remote control that you can bluetooth your phone to and then it will take you can take photos through the little remote and it's fantastic practice at home first so then you get comfortable setting it up and then in public it's not so scary also having friends

with you to set it up with and then take photos with that's always fun so then you're not like alone doing it and if you're too scared for the tripod you have to kind of use your friends or your boyfriend or whoever as like a literal human tripod so what i will do is i will take my phone and place it in the exact angle that i want like literally pointing exactly where i want and i will make my friends hold it i'll be like don't move don't move the phone take photos directly from this angle pointing this direction i'm going to stand right here just keep hitting just spam the button okay and keep your photos on live photo mode so then you can um adjust accordingly you know but don't be afraid everybody likes a good photo like if i ever see a girl out taking photos

i will always be like hyping her up like yes girl you got this because i know how a little nerve-wracking it is but hey we're girls we're hot we're young we got to take photos while we can okay someone asked what's your roman empire my roman empire is me when i was 16 years old oh every day i think about her every day i think about her and i'm just like we gotta keep living life for her we gotta keep doing good for her she thought nothing was possible well i have to create all the possibilities that's my roman empire men be like i think about big hunky men all oiled up fighting each other on a battlefield every single day or once a week like what i'm like i'm thinking about my 16 year old self who wanted to die and living for her every single day men versus women

anyways that's my roman empire actually recently my roman empire has been uh marie antoinette i think about her a lot recently i don't know why i probably just think about her a lot because she's an icon a legend anyways yeah i can't believe men just be out here thinking about other muscly bulked up men all the time okay someone said i have my own place a cool job an amazing boyfriend but still feel like something is missing it's probably because you have accomplished all your goals on your list congratulations let's celebrate but also let's start some new goals when i find myself in a point in time where it's like i know i have everything or i know i'm in the place i'm supposed to be I know I'm doing what I can I know I'm I'm at a place where things are good but I

still look around and I feel like something's missing it's because I don't have any goals to set my sights to I've achieved everything and I'm sitting at the top of the hill looking down around me instead of looking up at the next hill and keeping moving forward so you've achieved the basics you got great apartment great job you feel like life's pretty stable now let's set some new goals maybe it's oh I've always wanted to travel to this place so let's look at a year a year and a half ahead for ahead of now and let's plan a trip or oh I've always wanted to move here maybe it's that or I've always wanted to do this hobby maybe it's that I've always wanted to literally anything once I feel like your place your life is in a pretty stable place job apartment love life

wise you can set so many different fun goals and achieve them very very fast not that your life doesn't have to be completely in order to achieve those things trust me my life is a little bit of chaos all the time and I'm still able to achieve those things but you're gonna have a little bit easier time because you just have like more time and more thought space to achieve those goals so I encourage you to start dreaming literally start looking around looking up ask yourself where do I want to be two years from now what am I doing what does that look like how do I get there what are the goals that I can do and set for myself to get there love you someone asked me about my birth chart my big three is a Gemini sun as you all know Gemini queen here Gemini sun

till I die um Capricorn moon oh love my Capricorn women Capricorn men you can die okay sorry that was aggressive I've been traumatized but I feel like a Capricorn moon is really great because I am constantly thinking about what I need to do next how do I get there working hard achieving which is a great way to keep my Gemini sun brain on track and then I am a Pisces rising if you couldn't tell by my eyes I am very dreamy very otherworldly always kind of living in a portal from here and there constantly love my pisces queens it's a great sign anyways yeah my big three gemini sun capricorn moon pisces rising fun fun fun someone asked dealing with seasonal depression a girl is struggling i feel this i feel this hard i didn't realize i had

seasonal depression until I was diagnosed with my mood disorder and all the other slew of things that I also have um but one of them was like of course seasonal depression summer I'm booked I'm busy I can get outside I can move around it's kind of like more of a situational depression rather than like a mental illness for me personally like of course I struggle with depression but it really flares up situationally um like really hardcore and one of those situations is when i'm just stuck inside i have nothing to do i'm constantly sitting on my couch on my phone so something i've really been preparing for when it comes to seasonal depression is just taking the time beforehand to prepare it's like those preppers who are like preparing for

anarchy to strike and for the world to end and they have like a bunker somewhere with like freeze-dried foods like that's me preparing for seasonal depression every single year I have realized when I prep when I set goals for myself for the for the winter things that I can challenge myself to do such as going to the gym during the winter having activities at home that keep me off my couch keep me intertwined with life such as puzzling reading a book doing art creating keeping my plants alive cleaning my house baking little things like that I have to have things that I can constantly do to keep me kind of distracted so I'm not just sitting with my thoughts for too long because when I'm inside I'm just sitting and doing nothing and I'm just

constantly thinking thinking thinking my thoughts have a tendency to take control of me my depression has a tendency to take control of me I feel like I'm going nowhere because I don't have any goals or plans for myself so set small goals set big goals set challenges for yourself for the winter I feel like it will really force you kind of out of your comfort zone a little bit but it'll also strengthen the bond with yourself it'll strengthen your self-confidence and in turn it will kind of deplete that seasonal depression a little bit so that's really my best advice I can give is just we got to be preppers right now we got to really prepare we got to set some goals we got to plan some activities the same way you would plan like a schedule for a two-year-old you got to do that

for yourself as well understand you can't get outside as much stick to a very routine sleep schedule if you can eight hours don't sleep in too late don't succumb to your bed or your couch whatever it may be get off your phone a little bit set goals have fun live life you will get through it i pinky promise also get a therapist if you need get on medication if you need both great things amazing can help especially if you feel like your thoughts kind of control you too much sometimes or you have a hard time dealing with them i know i give all this practical real life advice and i'm like your thoughts don't control you you're like hannah that sounds really fucking easy and it's not okay i it's easy for me to say that because i have done the time

with the therapist i have worked with my brain i've worked with another person to understand my brain and understand why i act like this and i only am able to be here because i asked for help because i sought out help um and it was honestly one of the bravest things i can do god the fucking cars around here are so annoying anyways so if you feel like you cannot control it on your own and you need a little extra help don't be afraid to ask for it especially with winter coming up get a little therapist to chat with once a week what's better than that keep you on track you know love you someone asked hannah please how do i break up with someone oof the only time i've ever broken up with someone it was very crazy chaotic like heightened emotions

like very much so in the moment you just pissed me the fuck up for the last time fuck you we're done that's how i broke up with someone and like i don't recommend getting to that point like as soon as you feel it listen to it understand it if you're googling how to break up my boyfriend should i break up my boyfriend help do i do you probably need to you probably need to and that's okay all right there's nothing wrong with you there's nothing wrong with him sometimes two people just don't fit and that is completely fine completely normal it's a part of life you have to take this pressure off yourself of well what if they were the one what if there's no one else out there i guarantee there's somebody else out there who's gonna make you happier who's

going to understand you and if you put the time and effort into yourself that person will show up that person will fit in perfectly but step number one you have to open yourself up to find the right person and if you're with somebody who's not the right person sometimes you just got to break the news now when you're breaking up with somebody you really have to make it clear it's not a i think we should break up it's a we are done there should not be any blurred lines you should not drag that person along as in a oh but we should break up but we should keep talking we should break up but we should stay friends the best thing you can do for for somebody is be straightforward forward we are breaking up i don't think we fit well together i am looking for different things

we need to go our different ways we need to end communication here i'm so sorry if there's any questions i can answer right now right right now we're not meeting up again right now i will answer those questions so we can close all doors so we can move forward that's the best possible way to break up with somebody don't do it over text don't do it over a phone call i got broken up with once by phone call literally like the day before christmas death penalty what the fuck are you doing calling me the day before christmas or i guess a couple days before christmas it was definitely not christmas eve anyways how dare you call me and break up with me pussy let's be real like show up do it face to face um and don't yeah don't be a pussy just show up and break up with

me it's not that hard it is hard it is hard i get it um but you really just have to understand you know what's best for you and only you can enact that change within your life so show up do it be kind be considerate close all doors don't leave any doors open for communication get your shit get out of there okay i promise there's somebody out else out there who's going to fit perfectly with you there isn't that oh just one person one fish in the sea that you're gonna find that's gonna be the perfect person for you there are many of them out there i guarantee so open your possibilities break up with your boyfriend someone said i might be too late but am i gay or are men just cringy you know what i'm a little bit of both if i'm being honest

like i just get along with women so much better so much better but you know i love i love dick i don't know it's hard it's hard men are just inherently cringy because i'm a woman and we are different and they are a little weird and gross and awkward but sometimes i can appreciate that because i'm not that and it helps me get outside of my comfort zone but i do understand getting cringed out by men um especially when you are a girly and you enjoy being with the girlies and being in your feminine energy having too much masculine energy can be overwhelming but when you're around masculine energy what it should do if it's healthy and you should be around it is it should be like it should equal you guys out like you feel comfortable within your feminine

energy around them they feel comfortable within their masculine energy around you and it's not impeding you're not having to take on masculine energy you're not having to you know change yourself in any sort of way you can kind of coexist within those energies healthily um and you know not be super cringed out all the time but i do understand that i do get that and if you're getting the ick or the cringe all the time that person's just not for you i really hope this isn't currently happening but someone said what to do when you're freaking out because you took so many edibles go to bed go to bed anytime i'm having a bad trip anytime i take a hit of weed and i'm like oh that was too much ate too much edibles i'm just going i'm going through it

whether i'm at a friend's house my partner's house my own house whatever it is my ass is getting up i'm saying hey guys i'm going to bed and if you're around a bunch of stoners when you hear that they get it they get it they understand you're too high and you need to be alone you need to go lay down and shut your eyes and go to sleep but the best thing you can do for yourself when you're too high is go to bed shut your eyes also if this happens to you quite often or you get a lot of anxieties from smoking cbd should be your best friend supplement with it half cbd flour half regular flour it will offset the anxieties completely oh you're freaking out you have a bad trip take a little hit of a CBD pen whatever it may be it really has this miracle benefit of offsetting

the anxiety that's naturally produced when it comes to ingesting too much weed and as you guys know my favorite is Paz Pax literally I fucking live for them I love them so much it's the best company it's the only CBD flower I trust to even smoke and put in my body Paz Pax love them P-A-Z p-a-c-k-s and you can use code smoke sesh for 10 off if you want to try it but whenever my ass gets too high best believe i'm either smoking some cbd or my ass is going to the nearest bed and falling asleep anyways i think that's it for the podcast you guys did you have fun because i had a blast sorry there were no call-ins this week i forgot to put the call-in link up and also my t-shirt link was in my bios the call link wasn't readily available and I just didn't get

enough so I am so sorry about that I hope you enjoyed listening to me talk for an hour and a half though um I love getting the Collins though so next week I will have that up I pinky promise I want to do confessionals episode two I feel like we do one every season we already did our summer confessionals so let's do a fall confessionals next episode so stay tuned for that questionnaire follow me on instagram so i can see all of your questions you guys know that's the most important at hannah marlene follow me there also for a t-shirt drop number two if you missed the first one i cannot wait to see you guys and all these cute little matching baby tees it's gonna be so fucking cute thank you guys so much for supporting me for being here for me for

showing up for me i just i am so thankful for this life that i get to live and getting to live it alongside next to you guys and learn with you guys and just travel through this journey of life together it is just so wonderful that i have fallen into this and you guys have fallen into it with me and i love our smoke session community and i'm so fucking thankful for it and i have so many big things planned for us and you guys and the community as a whole and i cannot wait to share it with you guys so stay tuned remember be safe be healthy support yourself uplift yourself have a little fun okay life is all about enjoying it eat some good food take care of your home take care of your body enjoy life i love you all so very much and i

will see you all next week