Smoke Sesh - solo travel, valentines & being sexy

Episode Date: February 3, 2026

hello everyone and welcome back! im finally home from my solo trip to Oregon so we talk everything ive been up to, packed schedules, traveling solo, Portland Oregon, horseback riding, exploring, fear of travel, fear of being alone, solo travel tips, building self confidence, and allllll your questions about my acne journey, dry January updates, my resolution updates, upcoming February, year of the horse, valentines day, valentines day gifts, gift ideas for him & her, gift baskets, single on valentines day? how I would spend valentines alone, galantines, genuine love and how to find it, showing love, being sexy, how to feel sexy, adorning your body, WAP or dry, having compassion, being young, balancing fun in life and much much more!submit your questions follow the instagram at hannahmarlenejoin the patreon club at patreon.com/smokeseshshawtywatch the vlogs at YouTube.com/hannahmarlene444

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and help create a world free from the fear of cancer. Register today at pmcfwalk.ca. listen everybody needs a fairy godmother you know just somebody to look out for them some people call me their fairy smoke mother others their internet big sister but you can call me hannah the host of smoke sesh so come hang out let's light up and talk everything there is to life the good the bad the ugly the embarrassing i've got a story for it all oh my goodness welcome back to smoke sesh you guys i am so happy to be back with you all this week i am feeling refreshed i'm feeling renewed i have a new joyous sense of life and honestly

it's exactly what hannah fucking needed it really honestly is sorry if i look a mess to be fair i am kind of a mess today we'll go over how my trip to oregon and portland was in a second but i'm not even kidding you guys my plane touched down last night at 1 a.m got home no unpacking just stripped off all my clothes climbed into bed fell asleep alarm went off at 6 a.m today yeah five hours of sleep a big old good old five hours of sleep coming off of no sleep from my trip which like i said we'll get into um and then i had horseback riding lessons this morning i could not miss my horseback riding lessons i'll tell you what my alarm went off and i was like do i do i just text her like hey girl can i come tomorrow or something but no i was like

listen it's something I love it's something I enjoy it's something I like really really cherish like there's no use skipping out on it like bitch you're already up you already heard the alarm you might as well lock in and go to those lessons and you know what it was a fantastic time I did some horseback riding lessons or not lessons but some trail riding out in Oregon when I was there and I feel like that was like a really good change of pace so when I was able to go to lessons today I was able to do it with like a you know different mindset more of a comfortability because I've actually been on a horse recently and honestly it was a fantastic lesson I don't want to get too cocky because I feel like once you get too cocky or oh yeah I know everything that's when

the like life is like oh you thought that's when the universe is like oh you thought you you knew everything well bitch prepare and I don't need that kind of lesson especially around fucking horses like respect keep my distance make sure you know i am playing that safe but that was really great now i'm here i'm sitting down with you guys i'm ready to hang out and chat everything i have been up to because man i have been busy i left tuesday for oregon and i was there for about five five six days yeah something like that something you know time it's an illusion or whatever they say anyways i went out to oregon because i have family who lives out there um my aunt on my mom's side my cousins i have like a great uncle out there um they have always lived

in oregon my entire life specifically salem oregon so i've always spent you know random summers or you know random trips flying up and out there and i do really enjoy oregon but it's never like hmm yeah that's gonna be my first choice it's usually like oh family matters have to happen and thus let me go out there I think this trip really kind of opened my eyes up to some new explorations and a new sense of like appreciation because I kind of soloed this trip which was a first for me but I was going out there because it was time to celebrate some family my aunt just finished her cancer and radiation treatments which is so exciting um it was just incredibly heartbreaking that she got that diagnosis and being so far away there's only so much amount

of support you can really give my mom was flying out there like once a month and staying out for like two weeks just to help out around the house and to make sure she had the support that was needed which was so fantastic of my mom to do shout out to her if only i had a sister like could you imagine are you kidding me um and then i was like okay it's time to get out there my cousin also just had a baby brand new little baby and i don't know something about the older you get you know you figured about all the family drama you forget about yourself a little bit and it's like if no one is there to lift each other up then who's gonna be there you know so bitch let me book my ticket let's get out there let's celebrate you know making it through your cancer

treatment let's celebrate the baby let's go have a good time like i said i also kind of solo this trip i've been to oregon many a times usually with boyfriends or uh family i've never been out there alone and i haven't done a solo trip in a while my last solo trip i believe was to arkansas i think i don't know it's it's been such a long time so this was a new little challenge you know navigating rental cars flying all that fun stuff where when traveling with a partner it's kind of nice just to be like okay let's make sure we're going in the right direction let's make sure we have all the information we need blah blah blah blah sometimes you only got yourself and good thing i got a good fucking head on my shoulders because it was smooth sailing very

smooth sailing i got that premium insurance on that rental car just in case i crash that bitch who knows but i think the one thing i was the most afraid for um which like solo traveling wise which is so funny i don't know why this is the one thing i was scared of was driving i was so scared of driving i was like oh i i like traveling with people because i can just kind of like backseat it or passenger princess it where i'm like oh let me look out the window and appreciate and enjoy the view while someone else stresses behind the wheel so that's the one thing i really wasn't looking forward to but i'll tell you what kansas city has adequately prepared me to be able to drive quite literally anywhere i think kansas city was voted number one worst

drivers like if you're not going 25 over on the highway over 100 miles an hour like you're not keeping up uh not that i'm doing that please be fucking safe on the road there's nothing that pisses me off more than like a dumbass driver but out here you really have to defensive drive because you don't know what idiots are going to be around you and thus honestly portland which i flew into and driving around there the first day was so incredibly easy and so fantastic oh my god not me being like i i'm not gonna miss i'm not gonna miss a week of vlogs on the youtube channel yeah i did life just you know sometimes it gets in the way and i'm gonna offer myself some grace here okay this is a great lesson for you all just because you miss out on something or you don't do

it correctly or you don't blah blah blah blah whatever it is that you feel down on yourself about i am fantastic about like beating myself up over it like oh yeah like you really didn't live up to your expectations and that just makes me feel worse no we're not doing that we're offering grace and compassion and kindness because that gives me enough time to really like take time to edit and film the travel vlog that i'll be uploading this sunday early for the patreon girlies i never miss a patreon episode best believe come join come hang out patreon.com slash smoke says shawty and yes of course what i talk about here will be uploaded vlog kind of vlog style on my youtube channel hannah marlene 444 but i spent the first day exploring portland

i immediately got off that fucking plane and got out out into nature um the weather there compared to the weather here was fabulous we had just gotten like 12 inches of snow right before we left so i was like oh a little rain and 40 degree weather it's beautiful it's wonderful it feels like springtime where there's people around me and like parkas and coats and many many layers 18 scarfs i'm like running around a pair of overalls and like a thin ass flannel i'm sure i look crazy but as soon as i get off a plane my parents have me trained that like there's no relaxing on vacation if you are not utilizing every single second that you have to do something that you want then what are you even fucking doing like you're wasting your time growing up when we

went on vacation it was like go go go go hike this thing eat go camp blah blah blah blah so that's kind of how my brain works if i'm like sitting anywhere for an hour plus i'm like okay i'm wasting time when i could be on a trail in the middle of the woods so immediately got off the plane portland went to multnomah falls which is fantastic super easy drive from the portland airport it's a great stop if you were flying into the area and have like uh what is like maybe 20 minutes to go stop and see some nature it was so beautiful i love a good waterfall oof oshigoshi fantastic yes mother nature she is everything went out there i did a little bit walking around did some hiking went into portland towards the like uh the hawthorne area hawthorne street i

think is what it's called um there's like a like eight blocks of just like a bunch of like secondhand thrift stores things like that cute little restaurants cute little shops went there did a little thrifting had so much self-control which I'm very proud of because I've noticed the secondhand thrifting whatever you want to call it in Portland is kind of like a dump it's like they I feel like they just grabbed everything that they could from the thrift stores and then put like marked it up by like 20 and threw it in a store and usually that would make me very tempted but no i really really you know maintain my self-control didn't spend too much goddamn money didn't overpack my suitcase because i've done that many a times where it's

like you did not need to shop that hard to the point where you're at the southwest counter having to ask if you can buy a southwest duffel bag so you can you know actually make sure your suitcase doesn't weigh a hundred fucking pounds yeah life hack for you if you ever ever overpack and they're like it's gonna be a hundred dollar charge southwest sells duffel bags at the fucking counter for twenty dollars speaking of southwest their new updates suck i'll still keep flying it because i'm gonna cheap out every time best believe it's like i'll just go through the temporary pain of public transit in order to save money and get where i want to go and then do some shopping and then immediately i drove right into salem oregon to spend some time with my family

um big things we did uh i did like a bunch of hiking we went to silver falls to the i think it's the south fall that's usually the one hike that i always always do when i am in oregon is silver falls just because it's so close to my family's house did that did monoma falls um and then the next day which is the one thing that i was so excited about i went trail riding now that I'm like into horses or whatever now that I'm a horse girl certified not really I'm trying to earn my earn my keep okay I now that I'm vacationing or anywhere I go on vacation it's my goal to do a horseback riding situation wherever I am and out there there was a lot of like beach ride offerings but I'm a forest girl like I'm very a forest fairy and if I'm gonna be anywhere I mean

love the beach we did go to the ocean but I want to be up in the trees in the silence so my cousin had a friend who did a bunch of like has horses does a lot of trail riding and she recommended this place which if you are ever in the Yamhill County area in near Salem near I think it's like McMinnville or even you want to take a trip down south from Portland Rebbers Ranch R-E-B-E-R-S ranch oh my god it was fantastic it was so beautiful so incredible very well-kept horses very calm horses because sometimes you're like you never really know you never know how they're treating these animals you know and that kind of puts me on edge not that i doubted them in any sort of way but fantastic horses i did basically a private tour because i booked an early session

and i think i was supposed to be with two other people and they wussed out because it was raining girl put me on that fucking horse i'll be happy i don't care about a little rain you know a little a little weather is whatever to me it's not snow okay it's not 12 inches of snow i can handle getting wet you guys know i love to get wet anyways i did a two-hour ride up through the hills through the forest they had about i think like 250 acres out there i could only imagine during the summertime uh gorgeous but for january it was impressive it was very impressive i do recommend a rainco if you're out in that area but i highly recommend if you are in the area going to rubber's ranch and experiencing it because they just they really did a fantastic job me and the

girl were chit-chatting the entire time it's like a family-owned area she bought the company from her grandmother like passed down through generations just the passion she was telling me stories about oh yeah growing up seeing this and doing that and i've been riding these trails for this many years it was genuinely just so amazing and so impressive and it also is like invigorating something inside of me where it's like I have to keep doing this I gotta keep doing this I gotta keep getting outside I need to be in nature I need to be around horses it really solidified something in my brain that I'm like I am a west coast girl I do think I belong in the west coast I do I love a Missouri summer a Kansas City summer nothing beats it I know you're like

really nothing beats it no like if you know the spots nothing beats it but but literally any other time yeah I want to be in the west coast I don't think I'm meant to live in Oregon um I do love Oregon it's a little too like granola for me um I'm like in a flowy white skirt and people are side-eyeing me because I'm not in hiking pants it's like like that kind of vibe like I need a little bit more um openness to weirdness which is odd because you think portland it's as weird as it gets uh i feel like you know the la area or those kind of areas that's where it gets real weird i definitely belong out there i know my boyfriend was like i was expecting you to come home and like be packing your things like we gotta move and i'm like well i still feel that way i

definitely feel that way about the west coast but i don't think oregon is the spot for me i believe my parents will be moving out there so I'll always have an opportunity to get out into that state but I think just in my heart I am a California girl and I think that's going to be a big goal for this summer is to get down to California and do some horseback riding out there but I learned a lot of things about myself I learned how to trust myself a little bit more this trip solo traveling is so amazing and I highly recommend it to everybody. Everybody? Yes, everybody. And you know who I particularly recommend solo traveling to? People who are unsure of themselves. Listen, if you are unsure of yourself, if you doubt yourself, if you don't have a lot of self-confidence,

it's because you have not pushed yourself to that limit yet. And I mean that in a healthy way, like don't push yourself to the limit where you're like panic attacking on the floor like let's not do that let's do small trials and tribulations till we get to the big ones but solo traveling is so beneficial to building self-confidence self-trust and innate ability to be able to have fun wherever you go to kind of like um not be so in your head and to navigate oh my god i i will be doing many more solo trips after this honestly um i had someone ask actually i think this is a good time to bring it up they said did you travel alone i want to travel so much more this year but my friends and family are kind of broke slash with kids so it makes it hard i'm just

scared of getting kidnapped lol you know what very valid like i understand the fears any fear that you might be having about solo traveling i i mean definitely have had that fear too where it's like safety you know I'm a woman I don't want to be out late at night in certain places of course other people you feel safer you feel like maybe more supported but you cannot live your life in fear I mean be aware of your surroundings hello but like you cannot live your life in fear or you will not live at all that's just that's how it is you know you have to do it scared or you won't be doing it and I am learning that lesson a little late I continuously learn this lesson whenever I put myself to the challenge of just like being alone in a public space or trying something new

whatever it may be traveling out of the country going on a trip alone sometimes even like when the agoraphobia hits forcing myself to go to the grocery store oh my god Trader Joe's on a Sunday talk about trials and tribulations but that fear is going to exist no matter what you can be the most self-confident person the only difference between the person who is very self-confident and doesn't leave the house and the person who is not self-confident and doesn't leave the house is that the person who leaves the house feels the fear and does it anyway you know they both feel the same way they're both a little terrified they're both like uh-oh but what if this happens self-doubt this that and the other but the only difference between the person who does the damn

thing and the one who doesn't is they feel the fear and they do it anyway i think horseback riding has really taught me a lot about that when i was first starting i was definitely very fearful i mean who isn't i think with everything there should be a healthy level of fear that just keeps you self-aware that's good if you do not challenge your fear you will never live if you do not challenge your fear you will never get to do the things you want to do if you do not challenge your fear you will not build that self-confidence if you do not challenge your fear your fear will control you and I was very fearful going into this trip like I said just because I haven't done anything alone like in a different state for a long time as soon as you put yourself to the test

as soon as you stand beside yourself and you say okay Hannah we're trying this I know you're scared but get up you know lace up those fucking boots I'll hold your hand let's do this together as soon as you start doing it you will realize wow a it's much easier than you ever could have imagined b i'm kind of fucking cool for doing this and c i can have a lot of fun with myself okay and that is a really good lesson i think we all need to learn so if you don't have the friends to go with you you know oh all my friends are broke one's having a baby one's in college one's doing this one's doing that that's okay that's life that doesn't mean your friends don't love you and aren't down it just means they're busy with life I mean the best thing you can be

to a friend is understanding so let them do their own thing if they can't come with you that's okay oh your family is busy they can't do this with you they can't do that with you you know whatever it may be that's all right because guess what you have yourself always that's what the beautiful thing about life is is no matter what I mean a little scary depending on that relationship but no matter what you will always have yourself and that's why i always reiterate how important it is to you know have that or like challenge yourself to have a good relationship with yourself because no matter where you go girl she's following you he's behind me isn't he you know like literally she's always going to be with you they're always going to be with you you will always

be with yourself so if you're going to work on any sort of relationship in this life let it be with you and great way to do that great way to challenge it great way to take that you know relationship to the next level oh you want to get serious with yourself solo travel you don't have to go out of the country for a month you don't have to do these crazy big solo travels I want to but I knew I needed to work my way up to that level before I can just take off to Europe for a month or something and I think this was fantastic five days hiking well-known areas good weather chill environment somewhere i can have fun somewhere where i can see a bunch of different things full insurance on the rental car just in case for my anxiety purposes even though it's

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yeah this is when i talk about oh yeah i'm so tired well when i was staying at my aunt's house which god lover um my cousin i was staying in my cousin's room and for some reason he likes to sleep on a mattress that is what i would consider harder than the floor for some reason and i like a very soft mattress and not to be like oh a complainer complainer annoying no grateful free housing free whatever but i definitely was like i think the carpet would be softer than this so that was an adjustment of like my brain trying to figure out how to relax on that and then my last night which i actually needed sleep for because i had to wake up early to go you know full travel day i gotta wake up early i gotta make my flight i gotta i had like a two

hour drive from where we were staying at the ocean the night before which i think i induced this on myself we had clam chowder oyster shooters and smoked salmon all of which fantastic amazing wonderful wow wow wow amazing i love seafood until i lay down to go to bed honk shoe me me me asleep and soundly wake up it's 2 a.m i'm having the most gut-wrenching cramps of my entire life don't worry it's not gonna get too tmi here i'm gonna keep it pg as pg as i can but gut-wrenching cramps and you know sometimes in the middle of the night you're like okay whatever i'm just gonna cramp through it and go back to bed no i think i took about eight or nine bathroom trips after that i go to the bathroom i'm like okay maybe am i done is it over now can i finally go to sleep

no bitch you thought right when you're about to close your eyes another wave of cramps comes through and i thought i was going to be like vomiting but no my body wouldn't let me do that it was just it's just number two unfortunately and then finally i ran out of toilet paper and i was like okay let me go lay back down i check my phone it's 8 a.m i was like oh i have to like get up yeah i gotta like get up and fucking pack my shit and get out of here and that's what i did and then i got five hours sleep after that so i'm a little cuckoo bananas right now i'm not gonna lie i'm a little out of it i'm a little silly but that's okay it makes for a good time fingers fucking crossed but moral of the story is I had a blast I really enjoyed my time

it was so good to see family even if I don't see them that often it's always nice to just reconnect and also show support where it's needed we all need a little bit of support nowadays and the best thing you can do is just give that out I really needed to get into some nature the midwest winters have been killing my spirit and that was just so beautiful people are like how are you gonna go out hiking in that what you're really gonna go outside yes bitch what the fuck do you mean it's only 40 degrees back home negative 12 i went horseback riding today it was a high of 25 yeah 40 degrees is nothing okay with a little bit of rain i don't care it's nothing i'm good to go gotta see some waterfalls gotta go to the ocean it was beautiful it was wonderful um it it made

me more self-confident in myself it made me trust myself a little bit more built up that passion inside of me got that excitement going I'm excited to plan some more things for the rest of the year I'm excited for what the year um you know has in store for me considering that was just January like I'm so excited to see what travels I get into and you know how much more my confidence grows but if I can you know more of the story tell you anything it's feel the fear do it anyway work on your relationship with yourself because it's forever and the best thing you can have for yourself is a good relationship and the best way to have a good relationship is to stand 10 toes down beside yourself and do what you want for your heart that's what matters truly anyways many photo

dumps coming follow me on instagram at hannah marlene if you don't know where to submit your questions at hannah marlene on instagram you can dm me but also i submit the questionnaire every sunday on my instagram story so keep an eye out for that if you want to submit a call in which i gotta hunt for some maybe we'll do some today go ahead and dm me on instagram if it won't let you submit a call and just be like hey girl it it's not letting me in i'll immediately you know allow you to do so and i am currently editing the vlog so if you want to see the vlog it'll be up regularly on sunday at youtube hannah marlene 444 but if you want extra content if you you know wanted to see the photos earlier than i post them i already posted a photo dump of my travels on

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oh no one has been fantastic for me my skin has never looked better i know and not to push it on people because never ever will i push anything on anybody please talk to your doctors hello but i it worked really well for my mom like i said so i knew it was gonna work well for me and immediately like my skin the problem with my skin is the cell turnover rate isn't very good like my dry skin really likes to stick so this helps just like strip away the layers if you don't need layers stripped away then maybe it's not for you but it's been fantastic with just like clearing out gunk I am having some purging from the tretinoin and spironolactone combo that's okay you gotta just embrace the purge the best you can babe the thing about tretinoin is though it's gonna dry

the fuck out of your skin low-key spironolactone kind of does that too to me and my facialist put me on to the best moisturizer ever and I'm gonna go ahead and put y'all on too because oh my god it's amazing and i couldn't wear i didn't wear moisturizer up until like a year ago i'm not kidding i would try moisturizer i'm like oh this is the new big moisturizer let me try it i'd use it for like a week and immediately it'd be just like closed comedones clogging my pores it was like too heavy too oily my face does not fuck with moisturizer so it took me a long time to find a moisturizer i liked and this is the one i love face reality clear derma moisturizer it's fantastic it is a little bit pricey but my facialist put me onto it and i can slather my

skin in this like a real good thick layer especially post-tretinoin usage and it is just oh chef's kiss it's fantastic oh i definitely should have been using this way earlier on my poor poor poor skin but like i said moisturizers were not fucking with me i was not fucking with the moisturizers this one this face reality company so incredibly good clear derma moisturizer and for me i'm not using my tretinoin as much as my doctor said to um because i i just want to like really wean my skin into it so i'm only using it once a week right now and people talk about the sandwich method which is moisturizer tretinoin moisturizer which i think could be good if you're doing it often but since i'm only doing it once a week i do tretinoin and then a really thick layer

of this moisturizer and i am good i'm good but i had to put you guys on because i don't think i've talked about this moisturizer and it truly has been a lifesaver someone said the fucking groundhog says six more weeks of winter girl oh i saw him what's his name punxsutawney phil or whatever yeah you know what i think he always says that can i be real i think that fucking groundhog is always like six more weeks of winter and he's always right that's the one thing about the groundhog he is always fucking right i fear can we talk about how weird of a tradition that is like what do you mean the groundhog sees his shadow and will predict if it's going to be an early spring or not i could have told you it's not going to be an early spring just because of

the amount of snow we just got but i'm just i i think i can hold out a little bit longer on the winter because i did a little winter trip i think a winter trip is going to become a new routine for me because it is really nice to switch things up a little bit to get a little warmth on my skin even if it is only like 30 degrees more it's it's good for the soul makes you able to keep going through the cold times okay and hold out because summer is just around the corner girls we are almost there please stay strong oh speaking of what are you looking forward to post-winter love you diva love you you know what i think what i'm looking forward to most post winter is smoking a joint and eating a sandwich by the river there really is like that is peak existing right

there smoking some weed in a tiny ass little bikini preferably sydney mary bikini literally love her down girl smoking a fat joint in my hot ass bikini getting a good sunburn dipping my toes in a cold river hearing the leaves like rustling above me and the birds chattering around me and then facing a fat ass sandwich that is peak existence to me and that is what i hold on for every winter that's what keeps me going that's what that's what keeps me from not offing myself in the winter because there's more summers to come okay there's many more summers to come we must hold out stay strong girls oh my god you guys it's february what the fuck happy black history month oh my goodness but time is flying holy shit usually january to me is like the longest month of

the year january this year was pretty good oh speaking of i guess let's let's work on january before we move to february someone said how was dry jan how are all the new routines sticking would love updates on this um i honestly had a great january great dry january i think the only thing I really struggled with during dry January was um the impulse to drink around like when if I would like go in for a serving shift around co-workers or like I'd be invited for a night out I think that's like my new like thing I want to work on with drinking is I kind of doing the dry January bit kept me from not drinking every single night which was the problem let's be honest let's be honest with ourselves okay therapy here the problem was i was drinking every night i would

get like a bottle of wine not a bottle of wine a night but i have a couple glasses while i cook dinner and it's like you don't need to do that every night that's too much that's too much so it kind of broke that in me where i'm like i i can't drink that much like that's just too much for me but now i want to challenge myself to like go out and not drink and see if i could do it you know um because i know i can control the amount that i do now where it's like if i do go out and drink with friends i can stick to one or two like it really helped me with the quantity amount but now i really want to challenge myself to go out in a more social sense sober um so it was really good i did uh ended a little early um i mean hello i'm in oregon we're going to wineries

were enjoying premium high quality wine of course hello if I'm in Oregon I will be going to a winery I will be doing a tasting it's just it's just what it is so I mean okay I ended it what like four days early but hello that's still pretty good you know I can enjoy my vacation okay girls but overall good success feeling good feeling refreshed feeling renewed what else was I doing oh I was staying very very consistent with working out which was really nice I got into a good routine and then I kind of got my routine completely thrown out because of all the snow I couldn't get out of the house and then vacationing I'm not you know well I guess I was working out horseback riding hiking but I wasn't doing my yoga so I'm very excited actually to get

back into my routine now that I'm home it was a really good challenge I found a place that I really enjoyed I found instructors I really liked I found you know dates and times that worked for me and my schedule and so I'm proud that I stuck to that routine of like working out so it's easy if I fall out of routine to get back in because I know what to expect I know what worked for me before and now I can just you know reintegrate it again yoga really changed a lot for me um just like learning how to be aware of my body and be aware of my breath work and like really focus on what muscles i'm trying to hone in on was very interesting for me um i personally really really enjoy it and if you need something like intro to get into and you like haven't been working out

and you don't really want to do like high cardio high exercise i think yoga is fantastic for beginners and fantastic for people who want to just like slowly integrate into their body especially if like you have a complicated relationship with your body i think yoga is fantastic just with the peaceful nature of it all how can you not have a good time you know so that was really good what else was i doing oh i i was gonna try and do no fast food which honestly i did pretty good because guess what when i'm not drinking i don't crave taco bell who would have fucking thought oh my god who would have fucking thought you know i was occasionally like i could really go for a grilled cheese burrito but since i wasn't drinking i wasn't like impulsively like yeah let's go get

that fucking grilled cheese burrito it was like no no i'll just go home and make whatever that i have in the fridge you know so that was really good i think the very last weekend like right before i left town i did succumb to the taco bell urges it was like really really late one night and think there was nothing else open and if i didn't eat i was gonna become the devil incarnate so it had to happen but overall i did stay pretty strong on that and yeah i'm feeling really good it was a really good start to the year i'm feeling high energy i'm feeling you know a good time the chinese new year is coming up i believe it's on ah february 17th so we will celebrate that together in two weeks but year of the horse i'm feeling the energy ramping up i'm feeling us get excited

for the new year and i am just trying to hold on to my horses the best i can okay but the year of the snake is coming to the end so if there's any last minute layers you need to shed and get rid of go ahead and release those babe what we all need right now more than ever is probably like a really good salt scrub and a exfoliating mitt and get in that shower and shed those layers babe okay because time's moving quick and like I said it's already February holy shit I cannot believe and that means it's going to be spring and then summer and I just have a feeling this year is going to go by very quickly so I'm trying to indulge and enjoy the best that I can every moment that I have speaking of February Valentine's Day is coming up yep Valentine's Day oh Hannah

what are you doing for Valentine's Day this year I don't know I don't know I don't know every every year before I've always planned Valentine's Day I've even taken the day off or sometimes your service industry you work and then you celebrate like the day after or maybe the day before either way you know Valentine's Day can be whatever you want it to be but this year I don't know I'm glad my boyfriend picked up on the vibes because I was like I'm just I'm not planning anything I'm over planning I've done too much planning I planned fucking everything like I just want to be pampered and sit back and relax and enjoy so for a second I got scared because I I didn't tell him that which I probably should have I just kind of was like there's other things

going on that I need to focus on and so I was like oh god is he gonna forget that Valentine's Day is coming up is this gonna be a problem but no he mentioned it he was like would you be okay with abcd like just say yes or no and tell me what you're wearing and i was like okay perfect thank god thank god and if you're a man listening to this like a straight man with a girlfriend which there are straight men listening this podcast and happy to have you here okay learn some lessons through us all even though your girlfriend says she wants to plan valentine's day she doesn't even though your girlfriend says oh we don't have to do anything that doesn't mean you actually don't do anything just because she says oh gifts aren't that important doesn't mean

they're not important in fact i fear it might mean the exact opposite so make those goddamn reservations actually they should have been made probably a week ago i know everything's probably booked up that's okay fight your way in maybe show up in person and beg on your hands and knees those restaurants make a reservation get your girl some fucking flowers buy her the candy heart chocolates buy her fucking whatever the hell is in the valentine's day section oh but it's cheap and it's this and it's that yeah that's what valentine's day is about okay it's about the lovey-dovey ushy gushy a little dumb a little stupid but who cares because that's how love is okay so get your fucking girl some flowers get her that big ass teddy bear or a jelly cat if you

really want to go all out book that fucking reservation take her out to dinner and congratulations you're gonna get your dick sucked or your pussy ate it's gonna be fantastic for you but like i don't understand i don't understand the men sometimes who are like what i didn't know it's like what the fuck do you mean you didn't know valentine's day happens every year oh so let's see what happens with my valentine's day i think it'll be chill what i'm planning to do this year um we can talk about valentine's day gifts previously i've gone like all out like you know first year when you're like it's our first valentine's day together you can go a little crazy sometimes you know where you're like i gotta go all out uh my first year with my boyfriend

what i did was which is i mean i highly recommend doing i literally invited him over and i had a robe on underneath the robe i had like a lingerie set and i had a disposable camera and we went upstairs i took my robe off and it was like oh surprise and also surprise number two here's a disposable camera and you can't touch me until you have taken every single photo on this disposable camera of me in this lingerie set and then congratulations here's your valentine's day gift is all of these disposable photo cameras of me hot and sexy in this lingerie and you're to fuck me after like that's that is such a good first year valentine's day because like the vibes are still high and also like you don't want to spend an exorbitant amount of money it's like

okay who knows what's gonna happen after this first year but also like i want to get fun and hot and flirty and have a good time that's a good time i'll tell you what that's easy for you girls too because even if you do end up breaking up you have a really hot lingerie set that you get to keep and it's relatively cheap if you think about it well no disposable camera is like seven dollars and i'm sure you can get some cheap lingerie anywhere but that's what i did the first year what else have i done what else have i done i love a good like custom gift you know photo framed photo book um i've done a lot of photo books before um what my boyfriend skates so I think it was last year I took like a topless photo of me and put it on a skateboard so then

it's like a hot sexy photo of me on a skateboard pin-up style that was really good get creative okay get creative and um indulge on their passions this year I'm going real easy real like what we're almost five years in like I can chill a little bit on the gifts you know what I mean so this year i think all i'm gonna do is do like a little basket like a little gift basket of like all his favorite things what a good little gift who wouldn't be happy for that okay throw some like i don't know um kit kats in there some candy some cute little heart-shaped things maybe some like skate wheels or something you know of of the sorts a good beanie some some thick socks some Mountain Dew Code Red like just shove it full of all their favorite things fantastic gift

fantastic indulgence and they know they've been thought of okay and you can fill it up with whatever you want that's what makes a gift basket so good gift baskets are so underrated for any sort of celebration okay you can make them pretty cheap you can go to the dollar store you can probably fill one up for like 20 bucks you can make them super expensive literally anything you want throw it in a gift basket maybe it's all one color maybe it's all pinks and reds because it's valentine's day great valentine's day gift me personally i prefer jewelry last year i think i asked for like solid gold hoops that's all i wanted solid gold jewelry always a fantastic way to go in my opinion and yeah i literally have not taken them out since i love a good pair of jewelry

something that like i can always wear and think of them that is a fantastic gift a little bit pricier but like hey you better be spending it on the people you love but like i said in this economy gift basket might have been the way to go someone asked ideas for a solo valentine's day as a college student if i was soloing valentine's day which if i do recommend anything it's a galentine's day don't forget about your galentine's okay last year i was invited to a galentine's day and it was so fun and it doesn't have to be on valentine's day maybe just around show the women in your life that you love them but we just like all brought a fun little baked breakfast good and then they had mimosas and then they bought a bunch of like cardstock and glitter and glue and all

this stuff and we made homemade valentines like really old school homemade lacy fun valentines it was adorable and so fun to just craft with your girls um if you're a planner and you want to like have a good little valentine's day i highly recommend but also if you're soloing valentine's honestly peak peak experience oh I get to dedicate this day to self-love say no more okay and in a relationship or not I'm gonna do that for myself anyways so if I was alone on Valentine's Day this year this is what I would be doing a I'm gonna wake up I'm gonna go get myself a fun little coffee preferably like maybe like a little red velvet latte and I'm gonna chill in a cute little coffee shop with my headphones in I'm gonna journal a little bit I'm gonna enjoy my morning

to its fullest okay maybe get myself a breakfast burrito smoke a joint I'm gonna go home I'm probably gonna do nothing all day maybe actually I'm gonna do a little bit of shopping I'm gonna go out I'm gonna run some errands I'm gonna do some shopping I'm gonna get myself something that I've really wanted for a long time but haven't really pulled the trigger on it yet like maybe you want that new bag or maybe you need a new pair of shoes maybe a new jacket whatever it is use that as an excuse to go spend some money on yourself um if you're in the position to do so and if that's something that you enjoy i love a good shopping day oof nothing better then i come home and then it's like veg central like we are chilling the fuck out i'm smoking a lot of weed

i'm probably gonna have a bottle of wine to myself i'm gonna use some lush sugar scrub in the bath okay i'm gonna run myself a hot bath i'm gonna throw a fucking uh fuck it we're gonna put a bath bomb in the bath too okay i'm gonna use my lush sugar scrub i'm gonna scrub my body to the point where i reek of essential oils in the best possible way i'm gonna throw a face mask on i'm gonna be so stoned while doing all of this really take care pamper enjoy post shower post self-care post whatever probably gonna bust out the rose toy like let's be fucking honest ladies probably gonna bust her out bust one bust two and then we're gonna get some sushi that's how i feel you know i'm gonna door dash maybe you know maybe we're not door dashing maybe that's your

resolution this year maybe actually we're gonna go get in our car unfortunately and drive somewhere and i'm me personally if i'm having a solo day with myself it is always a sushi day and i'm gonna get like eight rolls and some crab rangoon and maybe some ice cream mochi if they got it and i'm gonna come home i'm gonna turn on a fun little rom-com and i'm going to veg out and eat as much sushi as i possibly can to the point that i pass out that is the perfect solo valentine's day why would you not make yourself feel special and loved and important on a day where being special and love and important is what it's all about okay i feel like people valentine's day in their heads they get in this place where it's like oh but if i don't have somebody who loves me then i don't

deserve to be celebrated like i fucking said at the beginning of the podcast the only relationship we have to the point of death is ourselves so why would we not uplift and enjoy and celebrate that relationship okay okay so please girls ladies they's them's men if you're here too you deserve all the things that i talked about as well okay just enjoy your day indulge in your hobbies indulge in your passions celebrate yourself make yourself feel loved that's what the day is about of course as well if you have loved ones in your life show up for them tell them a happy valentine's day get your girls some flowers it really is all that simple you know it really is that simple i remember back in the day like when i was like growing up with my parents house duh who wasn't

growing up with their parents house but you know every valentine's day would come around and you know it was never like a big crazy thing but always every day when i would come downstairs or every valentine's day when i come downstairs to have breakfast i would sit down and there would always be like a cute little gift bag and a little card for my parents just like stating that we love you and we're thinking of you and we're celebrating you today and that you should celebrate yourself and here's a cutie little thing maybe it's like a cheap little box of chocolates maybe it's a cute little stuffed animal maybe it's like a gift card to my favorite hobby it was nothing any like big or extravagant but it was the simple act of being known and celebrated and loved which was what

makes it worth it okay that's what valentine's day is about of course i'm sure it's like a corporate greedy you know whatever blah blah feasting on our love in order to make money yeah duh what isn't but i'm not here to be pessimistic and all that bullshit i'm here to enjoy my chocolate and my fucking candy hearts in peace and tell myself i love you in the mirror about a million times and rub myself down with essential oils and rub one out while i'm at it Just kidding. But you guys get out there, have some fun, enjoy Valentine's Day. It doesn't have to be so serious that I think some people take it like release and relinquish

the need to like have everything be perfect and really focus on the love because that's what it's all about. Last Valentine's Day, I think all we did was like go to an art museum and it was just so nice to be like, OK, pause quality time together. Let's go look at some art. let's like kiss each other in front of like a romantic painting and then like go get some mozzarella sticks and go home like let's keep it simple and enjoyable Hannah I love you so much I love you how can I call in more genuine love for February two and five Canadians will hear

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brands with the moments and fandoms that matter most. Learn more at Accenture.com slash Spotify. genuine love i love love love love love love i think love is everything i literally have a tattoo that says with love because not only is it a reminder to myself but also the fucking people around me to act with love and to really like go at things from your heart and i think you know love isn't an energy exchange everything is an energy exchange you know if you want to receive positive things you must wholeheartedly give positive things but also you can never like give energy and expect energy back you know you have to be selfless in that act you know because when you when you give something in hopes of it returning to you or when you do something

in hopes of you know you getting that thing back it's still kind of a selfish act you know you're still only doing it for yourself you must always behave and act in a way that is selfless that is full of love and that will always attract positive energy towards you and maybe the more genuine love you're trying to receive now here's the thing everybody's experience in life is going to differ you know one day you might have the best day ever the next day you might have the worst day ever but that doesn't mean it should change the way you interact and receive and you know experience the world around you you know no matter how hard of a day no matter how horrible of a day no matter what I am going through once again the whole point of my tattoo I will always be moving to my best

with love it really is the best way to call in a very genuine appreciation genuine experiences genuine interactions with people around you and I think it has made for the best kind of energy exchange with the world around me where it's like sure maybe I overexerted the love that I had today and yeah maybe I didn't get any of it back but the stranger in the grocery store stopped me and talked to me for like 25 minutes randomly and sometimes that's what it's all about you know I think nowadays genuine love can maybe be harder to come by because we have all I mean post-covid we've all become a little bit more selfish me too like I'm I'm not immune to you know growing older and getting a bit more jaded you know people are maybe a little bit more afraid to

you know show their heart on their sleeve is that the euphemism to really like allow themselves to be open and honest and real and that can make for harder connections or less genuine connections but if you don't start then who will that's kind of how I view it you know it's like oh you want other people to become more full of love and more genuine and more you know open and honest but there's no one showing them how to do it so like why not start with you why would you wait for other people to become more to become better when you could be the example that's in front of them once again acting from a selfless place of they might be evil and awful but i'm gonna be good no matter what and maybe just maybe i'll be able to sway them me being who i am will open their eyes

to a new perspective that's what matters that's what calls genuine love to you that's what also like allows you to experience genuine love good or bad and what hopefully will make the world a better place showing love to each other selflessly we need way fucking more of that right now right now more than ever we need love love for each other love for self in a selfless way okay it's real easy to get selfish out here it really is that's that's the easiest thing to do be self selfish oh me me me is all about me fuck you yeah of course that's the easy thing to do you know it's like it's like fight or flight once you go into survival mode of course you're only thinking about yourself but now more than ever we need to love on each other show love show appreciation

no matter what no matter if you're going to receive it back or not just be there to love each other selflessly how to feel and be sexy during sex i feel like i'm awkward and not satisfying my boyfriend well my question is are you satisfying yourself because that's what that's that's what makes you feel sexy okay okay so porn brain is really wrapped really fucked up our heads and i know this because it's fucked up my head when i was younger and when i was like you know first having sex okay you think okay how can i arch my back correctly and push my titties together and make the right moaning sound and not look crazy doing it all and it's like bitch you're not on camera none of that matters okay none of that matters you're not on camera

and what he's seeing is great no matter what even if you are in what is it cow pose not what's cat cat cow whichever one it is like even if your back is arched the wrong way it doesn't matter because he's they're getting to hit it from the back whoever they may be okay whoever's getting to experience you was getting to experience you and that's sexy enough so let's forget about their perspective and let's focus on your perspective because if you desire to be sexy in someone else's eyes you must be sexy in your eyes first okay it's kind of like monkey see monkey do if you perceive yourself as sexy hot amazing wonderful cool lovable kind compassionate other people will also visualize you that way it's kind of interesting how that happens it's almost like a

psychic spiritual connection where it's like it genuinely does not matter what you look like or what you dress like or this or that if you hold yourself to a certain degree in your head and you really do visualize yourself that way other people will also see you the same way so like i said fuck their perspective let's focus on yours you don't feel sexy that's okay we gotta start somewhere we know where you're starting but also like is it because you're seeing yourself from a third party perspective too much the porn brain of like you're visualizing yourself through the camera you're visualizing yourself from someone else's perspective that's how i was where it was like i was unable to be in my body and experience pleasure because i was way too focused it was

almost like astral projecting where I'm like watching it happen from above it was like I was not actually in my body experiencing and I was doing it from this like third party perspective and that wasn't allowing me to feel sexy because I was like way too I was perceiving myself way too much and the last thing you need to do during sex is perceive yourself okay like I said pleasure when you're in the bedroom the sexiest thing you can do is seek pleasure for yourself and your partner give and take give and take okay that's what sex is about receiving and giving you want to feel pleasure your partner wants to feel pleasure you want to make sure your partner feels pleasure they want to make sure you feel pleasure you owe it to yourself to seek that

pleasure for yourself and your partner as well even if you're like a submissive girly like of course you still want to make sure that you are enjoying your time and so is your partner truly and honestly i did not start feeling sexy in the bedroom until i allowed myself to almost like animalistically have sex i think i talked about this in the last episode did i where it was like how to have the best sex is to kind of just like really just allow yourself to be human and fully focus on pleasure that's also the best way to feel sexy you know sure you might not be in the perfect porn star position but when you reach that orgasm you're gonna feel the sexiest you've ever felt in your entire life truly and honestly now it does take some practice to get out of your head

and some practice to really focus on how you enjoy your pleasure what gives you pleasure what you like in the bedroom that's going to be a little bit of trial and error there but with time and with you know a good partner and a safe space you will eventually be able to escape your head and get to your body i think one of my most popular episodes is when we talked about high sex and the one thing that i really really think about high sex or having sex when you're just like you know under the influence of marijuana is that you are kind of forced to be in your body it's it's odd because usually with weed it does force you in your head if you're doing nothing but if you're doing a very physical activity you will be focused on that physical activity

and thus when it comes to you know being high during sex you kind of have no choice but to really focus on that pleasure because it's what's right in front of you and personally i do really enjoy high sex for that reason it it makes me actually focus on like oh wait i don't like that so let's switch it up oh wait this does feel really good let me ask for more of that like let me focus on the pleasure because it's what's in front of me and what's most important in my brain i don't ever want to encourage anybody to do anything but i do think that's what also like trained me to really allow myself to focus on pleasure i also think not to generalize but definitely for me as a woman we aren't really told we're allowed to enjoy pleasure you know

i think the number one act of defiance of you as a woman is to allow yourself to enjoy pleasure and to seek pleasure no matter how you know cheap of the dopamine hit it is it's like we are deserving of pleasure we are deserving of experience experiencing pleasure I think of course you know I mean I as a woman sometimes get two in my head about like are they enjoying it are they enjoying are they enjoying it when I don't ask myself am I enjoying it do I like this do I want this you know and I think it's important for us to ask ourselves those things that will build up self-confidence it'll build up love within ourselves it'll build up trust within ourselves and that's how you be sexy in the bedroom now here's a little surface level tip have you ever

worn lingerie before okay i think it's important to also decorate our bodies i found it very interesting when i met my boyfriend for the first time he was like you you like accessorize your body in a way that i've never seen before like it's almost like adorning a temple he's like you you have so many accessories and i realized that is because i enjoy the feeling of being adorned it makes me feel sexy when i am naked and covered in gold chains yeah i feel really fucking hot you know what else makes you feel hot a really good pair of lingerie something about my adult brain coming in there really is nothing hotter than a good matching set okay even if i'm not doing anything even if i'm like i'm not gonna have sex after this at all like being in the

grocery store and grocery shopping and like sweats or whatever or even just like a chill little outfit but knowing there's a bedazzled lace thong on underneath these pants and a matching bra it's like oh this is like my little secret this is like my cutesy little secret and it makes me feel sexy it makes me feel hot i'm adorning myself my body is a temple and it deserves to be adorned naturally it's gonna make me feel sexy i do every valentine's day the one gift that i do give myself among many things let's be honest your girl likes to shop is i do like to gift myself one like lingerie set whether it's like an expensive one from agent provocateur depending on my budget for the fucking month maybe it's like i go to sorella's which is like the local sex store and i go and i

get a cheap set whatever it may be I always every year like to gift myself a really good pair of lingerie because I do think the adornment factor is just uh it's so hot it really is so hot there's nothing hotter than a good matching set and also your partner will think you're really fucking hot too when you whip off that robe in a matching set and heels and hand them a disposable camera and they'd take photos of me hello hello my brain was really on 10 but they that was so smart of me i think i was like 22 that was really smart of 22 year old hannah honestly that was a good gift anyways anyways pleasure it's all about the pleasure babe seek your pleasure give pleasure to your partner adorn yourself celebrate yourself you're meant to be celebrated i love you speaking

of underwear someone said did you do you wear underwear to bed i want to let her breathe but i fear i'm too ushy gushy sad face love you xoxo okay well that's the opposite of a problem and no one break into my house but no i sleep naked when i growing up i never slept naked because hello i always put my door open because i was afraid of fires when i was younger so it's like yeah i'm gonna have a pair of pjs on hello duh college of course same community area okay but once I started living alone I was like oh yes I can be naked I forgot I forgot like I'm allowed to be you know there's not a lot of places you're allowed to be naked usually but in the comfort of your own home yeah you're allowed to be my partner is a very naked person not that they're like an

exhibitionist in any sort of way but they're the ones who taught me like it's okay to just like allow your body to be a body and like you don't always have to cover up like he's the first person i ever met that slept naked and so i kind of took that after him nowadays yeah i i sleep naked it's the only way to be comfortable if there's something pressed up against her when i'm trying to sleep and by her i mean my pussy i'm not gonna be able to sleep i really am not even like on my period if i am in like a pair of boy shorts or like uh boxers or whatever because i'm gonna free bleed it's my bed i can do whatever i want in it okay it's my house i can i'm gonna free bleed where i feel safest but like i still feel too confined and then i get hot and then she's sweaty and then

it's like i have to sleep naked or if i'm not sleeping naked i gotta be in all cotton all cotton underwear okay and yeah she's a she gushy you know sometimes there's gonna be a little leakage a little drippage and that's why you have an extra pair of sheets go ahead and change those bad boys out it is what it is but i guess do whatever's most comfortable to you to me she's got to be able to be out and free okay all day she's cooped up in these tight ass jeans with the fucking seam run rubbing against her hot sweaty okay she needs some breathing time and that time is always at night time someone said okay speaking of she goes she um sometimes i have a wop and sometimes i'm like the desert help i love you then that's okay sometimes i have noticed

personally the time of the month really kind of makes it dependent um also the substances involved really make it dependent like if i'm too high i've noticed my entire body is just dry like she's dry my mouth's dry and the best thing you can do in that position is just be like spit on it i'm not even kidding like sometimes i'll be like too high i'm never like too high to the point where it's like unsafe so keep that in mind but like sometimes i'm like it's too high in the cotton mouth is too real and i'm a giving head and honestly hot sexy if i can't produce the spit on my own which if you can't usually just gag on it for a couple seconds naturally your body will produce the spit but if you physically can't produce a spit i will look my boyfriend the

eyes and be like i need you to spit my mouth and then i'll just use that and then it's like hot and sexy um if it's down there go ahead and use some lube fantastic amazing if you're using condoms please be aware that some lubes deteriorate condom please just like get something that'll work well with what kind of sex you have absolutely don't sleep on lube okay lube's fantastic maybe a little um coconut oil maybe a little baby oil whatever whatever works for you and the type of sex that you're having fantastic but like yeah if it's too dry down there i don't want you getting friction girl you don't need a rug burn down there it's the last thing you need trust i've had one down there you do not need a rug burn on your puss okay that's gonna hurt for days on end go

ahead go ahead and go to the sex store with your partner get some strawberry flavored lube and go to town babe okay now i have noticed like i said different um different parts of my cycle really is dependent on like you know maybe I'm sure different organs are using more water than other organs so please just be patient with yourself but also make sure you're drinking water a I don't need you passing out trying to bounce on it be the best way to have a WAP 24-7 is to make sure you're extra hydrated extra extra extra hydrated because like I said your organs need the water first and your pussy does not always need all that water but when it is trying to source what it can and your brain has used all the water because you've only had a singular sip yeah of

course she's going to be dry down there okay naturally so so please make sure you're drinking enough water you're staying hydrated you're staying fed you're taking care of your body that overwhelmingly will definitely help but if you need some man-made moisturizer get crazy with it the last thing like i said you need is a rug burn and if worse comes to worse tell them to spit on it like literally poor little danger i was gone for a week and then i got home immediately went to bed immediately woke up went to horseback riding lessons came home sat down to film this podcast i'm like mom's gotta work okay you want those greenie treats and those churu treats babe oh you want a new cat tower you gotta let mama work but he's been walking in circles the entire

time around me like mom mom mom hello mom mom hello did you forget about me I feel so bad I'm gonna go cuddle hard with him honestly we'll probably go take a nap after this which will be fantastic but someone said what advice would you give a 21 year old boy you know what boy or girl 21 21 is kind of a hard age because that's when it really hits you that it's like oh adult 20 you still feel kind of childish 21 is when the the whole world I guess sees you as an adult I don't believe in the whole 18 thing that's a baby in my eyes 21 is when the whole world's like okay what you can you can gamble you can really smoke you can drink like that's when you get the adult privileges and I feel like the weight of the world can really sit on your shoulders so number one I

would say number one piece of advice I gave a 21 year old is you're not that old yet chill the fuck out number two have compassion for yourself and compassion for others you need i think at 21 you need a lot more compassion for yourself especially like if you're a 21 year old boy it's it's going to be very easy to get down on yourself or overthink yourself i think a lot of self-hate can though you project it onto other people thus have compassion for other people but number one have compassion for yourself it'll make your life way more balanced it'll make the trials and tribulations that you go through at 21 way more balanced it'll make the relationships that you get into way more balanced, having compassion for yourself.

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weight of the world does kind of finally sit on your shoulders and if you can have compassion for yourself it does extend into all other areas for your of your life and just makes it way more balanced i think a lot of the mistakes i made at 21 was because i didn't have compassion for myself because i was too hard on myself and and thus it i just made my life harder for myself when i really didn't have to speaking of balance someone said how to balance staying locked in and wanting to go out who said you couldn't have both who said you couldn't have both I'm in an era where I'm really trying to do both where it's like I want to be able to go out one night and wake up the next morning and go to yoga without any repercussions two years ago Hannah would not be able to do that

she would go out and be out till 6 a.m which was great at the time but like I said balance we need balance in life nowadays I really am trying to hold myself accountable and really just make sure that the life that I'm living is one that can be sustainable and I think with the whole like health era of like oh working out not drinking doing this doing that we can kill a lot of fun in your life and we need fun in our life you need to have nights where you go out dancing with your girls you're gonna have people who invite you out to a new jazz club and you should go you're gonna have people who want to go out to dinner and maybe stay a little bit later and you should be there and do those things you know having like something going on is always great for the next day so you

have an excuse if you do need to bounce early but also I do think it's important to be able to go out and enjoy your time and also be a functioning adult in society for me personally what that looks like is I'll probably go out like once a month I used to go out probably every weekend can't do that I've learned I just become an alcoholic again and listen I love getting fucking drunk and dancing with my friends like if I could do that 24 hours a day seven days a week I would but I can't we got to do other things in life so I allow that crazy side of myself to come out but also I feel like when I used to do this I'd be like okay once a week I'm allowed to go out and then I wait wait wait for that once a week and then I go crazy to the point where I'm like

like I said staying after 6 a.m drinking so much that sometimes like the next two days are ruined and it's like it doesn't have to be like that either chill the fuck out go out with your friends go dancing have a couple cocktails go home eat a fun little snack shower wash your face go to bed you know you can have balance with things you can still enjoy life party have fun and make it to yoga the next day or make it to work the next day whatever whatever the hell you have to do as an adult you just got to have a little self-control and balance in your life okay you don't need to go as hard as you think and if you do need days where you go really fucking hard and go crazy then go ahead just be safe and don't let it turn into a multiple day ordeal that's the only kind

of advice i can give you with that being said we are rounding out to the end of our episode i know i know no call-ins uh this week sorry i didn't get around to them but that's okay we'll have a heavy call-in episode next week because i did have a bunch of people that submitted them this week and i want to make sure i get to everybody's call-ins so if you did submit them go ahead and be like hey girl call in above if you want to submit them you can follow me on instagram at hannah marlene and you just dm me them there also if you want to see what i've been up to my hiking outfits my horseback riding adventures my beach photos those will all be up on instagram at hannah marlene if you want to see the vlog it'll be out on sunday hannah marlene 444 on youtube out early

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guys a little bit of dose of inspiration that you needed this week a little bit of love kindness compassion whatever you're seeking hopefully i could give it to you and if i couldn't maybe you seek that for yourself this week. Maybe that's your homework. But with that being said, I hope you all stay sane, stay sexy, and I'll see you all so soon. Two in five Canadians will hear the words, you have cancer. That's why every step and dollar raised matters. On September 19th, join thousands in Toronto for the Princess Margaret Cancer Foundation Walk. Challenge yourself, friends, and family to walk 21 kilometers in support of life-saving research. Together, we can carry the fire and help create a world free from the fear

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