Smoke Sesh - The 4/20 Special

Episode Date: April 20, 2022

Happy Wednesday and happy 4/20 we celebrate our 4/20 together with a extra special extra long episode. Today we feature you! Thank you to everyone who submitted call ins and voice memos and sent questions to the Instagram @ hannahmarlene. We covered everything it feels like, from the history of 4/20 to personal questions, favorite strains, call ins and stories, favorite way to celebrate, aliens, shrooms and more. I can’t even type out how much stuff we covered in over two hours of fun, give it a listen and let me know, I love you all so much and I’ll see you next week! MUAH!

Listen, everybody needs a fairy godmother, you know, someone to look out for them. Some people call me their internet big sister, others their fairy smoke mother. You can call me Hannah, the new host of Smoke Sash. So come hang out, let's light up and talk everything there is to life. Some good, the bad, the ugly, the embarrassing. I've got a story for it all. Good morning, everybody! Happy 4-fucking-20!

oh my god how are we all doing today did we all wake up happy feeling rejuvenated if not hopefully this podcast can get you in the mood i'm so excited to be with you here on this lovely day of all days oh my god what are our plans what are you doing i want to hear um this is going to be a little bit of a longer episode if you can't tell um i'm hoping to at least hit two hours if not more we'll see what it gets to by the end of this um because i'm only doing one podcast this week our 420 special i asked for you guys something very very exciting and something that i'm also going to be incorporating into our podcast a lot more of um i just wanted more interaction with you guys i want to get to know you guys more so than just reading

the dms you send me and the questions you send me so i set up a super duper special way of connecting and i asked for you guys to send me your voice recordings your questions your concerns your stories literally anything um and i will be putting that link up once a week um same way i put up the questionnaire once a week probably be on the same kind of page same format put that in my Instagram bio of some sorts so you guys can find it easily. But I woke up this morning and I had 44 voice memos from you guys, which is insane. 44 of you guys went out of your way to send me a little message to submit something. So thank you guys so much. I'm so excited about this. I love that this is like a little call in speak your mind let's chat I love that um especially I want

you guys in the future to if you want to if you want to if you want your privacy 100% understand but tell me a little bit about yourself I think me and the audience would love to hear about you see who's listening um it's I just love the idea of being able to connect to you guys and connect to so many different people around the world through a literal podcast so very excited to get into it i have really not been up to anything recently just been hanging out rejuvenating um i know i talked previously about a merch drop on 420 let's give a little update um but i think i'm gonna put off the merch drop until after i get back from vacation i know just because okay just because i want it to be perfect all right i want everything to be perfect and not in a sense

of like perfectionism i just keep putting it off i i keep hindering myself in a way that is unhealthy there's a that you can do perfectionism in that way and i definitely have done it that way but for my first like real merch drop i have been working so hard on it i finally got the hoodie and the grinder blanks in and they're incredible and i love them so i'm finally gonna do some printing and the website should be up and running for pre-order like quite honestly right when i get back from vacation so keep an eye out for that i definitely will update you about everything going on with that um on my instagram so if you're not already following follow me there i hand marlene you already know the drill also little life update for you guys i got the apartment i got it

i am so fucking excited um because that means i'll be able to set up a little studio in my home to do video podcasts i know right fucking crazy so i can't wait to get that rolling too that won't be for another at least another month or so um but i'm debating whether or not because and i want to hear your insight let me know what you're thinking um i would love to upload them on youtube but as we know i like to partake i like to partake when i'm recording and as you guys probably join with me or don't whatever um and you can't post that on youtube i mean maybe you can but it gets demonetized so I'm debating whether I want to post on YouTube or if I just want to make a Patreon make it uh Patreon's really great because there's so many different tools you can do

and you can kind of have it be like your own go-to social media place so I'm debating between the two and either doing one one little fee or cutting out some parts and putting it on YouTube let me know what you think i'm very interested to hear but i got the apartment i'm internally screaming i cannot wait to thrift all the shit that i'm gonna get and put in there and it's gonna be beautiful i think the the thing i'm most excited for is probably all the plants i'm gonna collect and also all the art i have really really wanted to collect art um just as an adult i've always created art and i've never really gotten into the act of you know purchasing from artists supporting artist and having beautiful pieces to put in my home so I want to get a jump start on that get

into it I think that's going to be my favorite part about moving is simply just decorating but the apartment is beautiful I'm so excited I'm finally taking these steps forward and this podcast is just going to get better and better baby but as we all know today is 420 so exciting this is the first 420 i have spent with you guys here on the smoke sesh podcast we have never celebrated a 420s together um i'm sure our celebrations are just gonna keep getting bigger and better on this holiday of holidays um i've definitely celebrated some 420s on my tiktok page but that's a little it's a little finicky because tiktok really hates everything that i do quite honestly not the people the app the app really just it does not like me so switch to here

so excited um I don't have crazy big plans for the day um I have gone I have had 420s where like I baked I baked a whole edible cake one year designed it put smoke sesh on the top it was beautiful um I've had 420s where I spent the whole day outside just smoking hanging out with friends um that was incredible I've had 420s where you know me and my friends are sneaking out of her basement window and running off to go drive around and smoke because we're in high school and have literally nothing else to do um but 420 today looks like well my last 420 actually I was a nanny so I worked all day didn't partake at all and then I think we had tacos at night but that's about it my 420 today it looks very productive very relaxed very chill I got my uh

went to the dentist yesterday had the entire my entire face was numbed um so I couldn't really eat any really yummy foods so I think that's what my goal for today is um I'm gonna start my morning with some mangoes if you guys don't know mango really helps just like intensify your seshes quite honestly if you've never tried it before give it a little shot um so i'm gonna have some fresh mango and oatmeal for breakfast have a good little sammy for lunch i'm obsessed with a good sandwich i can't lie or like a breakfast burrito those are like my favorite foods and then for dinner my boyfriend's gonna whip something up it's his job because i will be at work i know working on 420 that should be punishable but unfortunately we live in a capitalistic society

and i'm very money hungry so i'm gonna work my little ass off make some shmoney come home eat some good food take some dabs let's spend my afternoon with you guys smoking hanging out answering questions and quite honestly nothing sounds better than that if i could i would be doing this podcast outside um like in the park or something but i live in the midwest and as all my other haughty midwest girlies know the weather is fucking insane it can never never make up its mind quite honestly literally ever um like two days ago it was 95 and sunny and beautiful and I had to wear a tank top and shorts today it's like 40 and cloudy and it's gonna thunderstorm all day so you really never know what you're getting here but it keeps me on my toes um but

yeah I work every single day until I go on vacation I'm really gonna hustle and then I just get a little a little break I'm very excited to share what I get up to in LA with you um that week the podcast releases might look a little different because i will be gone tuesday to thursday i'm not sure if i'll just do a one podcast episode again i'm still trying to figure that out but stay tuned follow my instagram at hannah marlene and i will always always always update you there on changes schedule things going on but it is spring there's a lot of new things happening there's a lot of shifts in the universe so bear with me as i figure it all out and we'll figure it out together all right now let's talk 420 do you guys know why 420 is a thing i didn't

but i found it out so let me share it with you um what is 420 and why is it on april 20th uh 420 is in short a holiday celebrating marijuana why april 20th there are a few possible explanations for why oh my god there are a few possible explanations for why marijuana enthusiast day of celebration landed on this day but the real origin remains a bit of a mystery steven hager a former editor of the marijuana focused news outlet high times love that magazine that magazine and playboy are the only two that i like religiously collect constantly look out for he told the new york times that the holiday came out of a ritual started by a group of high school students in the 1970s as hager explained a group of california teenagers ritualistically smoked

marijuana every day at 4 20 p.m the ritual spread and soon 4 20 became code for smoking marijuana eventually 4 20 was converted into 4-20 for calendar purposes and the day of celebration was born so love that but one common belief is that 4 20 was the california police or or penal code for marijuana but there's no evidence to support those claims another theory is that uh there are 420 active chemicals or 420 active chemicals in marijuana hence an obvious connection between the drug and the number but that's not quite true either nearly 500 such components there's nearly 500 such components in marijuana a lesser known possibility comes from the 1939 short story in the walls of eric's at hp lovecraft and kenneth sterling the story

describes curious mirage plants that seemed fairly similar to marijuana and appeared to get the narrator high at according to his watch around 420 since the story is from 1939 it's perhaps the earliest written link between marijuana and 420 whatever its origins is 420 has become a massive holiday for cannabis aficionados so there's a little bit of history for you history lesson of the day but as we're sitting here enjoying our 420 smoking up um partaking one could say i think it's very important to also note that marijuana is not completely legal throughout the united states which is quite honestly mind-boggling to me and there are tens of thousands of people incarcerated for something that you and me get to enjoy every single day so i think it's very

important to also while we're celebrating this national holiday reach out and help people who cannot celebrate who have been imprisoned who have been targeted um unfairly by the prison and the police force so my favorite organization personally is the last prisoner project the last prisoner project works to reduce the harms of cannabis criminalization through legal intervention education and criminal justice reform advocacy you can go to their instagram last prisoner project um you can also go to their website but i think their instagram is um super helpful with finding important resources because their link tree through their link tree you can help like take action so you can sign petitions you can donate you can learn from um like their last prisoner

project re-entry initiative you can watch different like um informational videos you can sign petitions um contact your representatives learn more spread the word i think they have incredible incredible resources that anybody can do very easily to help out in a situation that is completely completely unfair so that's one thing you can do today please do so is it is it too early to smoke a bowl no no never it's like 9 30 never too early should we load one i think we should it's a national holiday how do we not get into it early okay if i didn't have to work today i think i probably would have no one reason i am working today is because i didn't work yesterday i had to go to the dentist holy shit don't you know what stop drinking sugar

stop drinking sugar that's my one psa for the day um i really was not a huge sugar fan growing up like the most sugary drink i drank was juice i think it was not a big like my family's not a big dessert family we're not a big sweets family like i never really was a sweets person until i my boyfriend and he drinks so much soda and he turned me into a cherry diet coke girly okay i love cherry diet coke um well actually i loved regular coke until i went to the dentist and they were like drinking sugar is worse than eating sugar she was like i would rather have you take spoonfuls out of a bag of sugar and munch on them and swallow them than to have you drink like a coke from mcdonald's and i was like what she was like it this the liquid since it's like a liquid

version of sugar it gets in all the cracks in your teeth and gets everywhere and just like coats your teeth and she said it changes the ph balance of your mouth for upwards of 20 minutes and it just like completely deteriorates your teeth and i was like oh did not know that anyways had a cavity had to get that shit filled super fun actually not fun at all but my dentist is a bad bitch she really did that shit i had to get i literally had to get a cavity filled whoops whoops anyways sugar is the devil liquid sugar is the devil don't drink full sugar soda she said i could have what diet coke coke zero whatever it is the low sugar one but I feel like I should just cut it out you know just cut my losses I had fun it was a vibe but for now I should

say no sugar let's hit this take a little hit oh yeah okay all righty like i said i asked for your guys's voice memos voice questions stories literally anything so we're gonna dive into it um like i said this is i'll put this link in my instagram um i'll probably post it once a week and then after i finish all this i'll probably put it in my link tree i gotta update my link tree get all that shit working um but you can literally like i record straight from the microphone in my phone like i hold my phone about two inches away from my mouth and i just speak into it when you're uploading these video or not video these audio recordings it works the same exact way because it's using the same app that i use i might sneeze um and also whoa that was like

an attack god damn and also it just uses the microphone in your phone so whenever you're recording the audio is going to be perfect it's going to be great just hold it up to your mouth just like a little bit and speak clearly I understand it only gives you a minute so it also allows you to put titles so if you put like part one part two I can figure it out and upload just bear with me as we get into these I'm so excited our first one's pretty good so let's hear her out hi miss Hannah um this is well I probably shouldn't say my name but um I am from Washington and stay we love you over here um I just wanted to ask a question um I have a best friend who currently is traveling right now um and she was telling me how her boyfriend is constantly calling

me sexy and stuff like that and she's she's really open and she's not a jealous type of girl but it's gotten to the point where it makes me a little bit uncomfortable and it's starting to make my boyfriend uncomfortable but because he's like complimenting me all the time um and i'm not sure how to tell her that makes me uncomfortable without like compromising our friendship it's also her first relationship so i understand that she doesn't like really know boundaries that well yet um so yeah i need your help please tell me what to do okay i love you oh my goodness i'm obsessed with this new feature okay well first of all wonderful to meet yo thank you so much for submitting a question love my washington state girlies too um this is tricky this is

tricky because well first of all my mind is going why the fuck is he like not that you can't compliment other people i think like men should be able to have a healthy relationship with women and be able to compliment them but i hear you when it gets to a point where you're like this is weird and men easily they quickly cross that line okay i would say that your friend should yes step in and maybe say something to him express that maybe his boundaries are a little different than others but like you said she is in a new relationship it's really good that you have that insight too because i feel like a lot of people are quick to be like no fuck my friend they should have blah blah blah and it's like listen we're all learning we're all making steps here um so it's good that

you have an understanding for her i'm not saying she should kind of get off the hook here i think you guys should still have a conversation but you're right in those early relationships you don't know how relationships work other than how relationships were presented to you as a child and that could have been really great that could have been really bad that also could have just like been non-existent so it's really depending on that now you do have to have kind of a few relationships to learn where your boundaries lie what you enjoy in a partner what you really need within yourself so especially in my first relationship i had a hard time being like like you said setting boundaries knowing what i wanted um being able to step in and tell my

partner like hey i don't like that cut that shit out i didn't have the balls yet quite honestly because in new relationships you want everything to be perfect you want everything to be sparkling you want it to be clean and in reality nothing is that way so she's got her rose colored glasses on now the man is being weird i'm gonna be straight up also you have a boyfriend like what's why is he you know um the man's being weird so i think it's very important you do maybe express to your friend hey um i like him maybe you don't like him whatever you don't have to be facey but hey I don't appreciate when he's like this way to me because that's the kind of behavior that I save for and that's the kind of the expression that I save for me and my boyfriend or you and your

boyfriend be like I enjoy it when I get this attention from my loved one but I don't feel comfortable when it's coming from an outside source or when it's coming from uh your partner you don't have to like don't blame her don't kind of shame her but straight up express your boundary I think that's very important and I think your friend will understand I really do um some girls have a hard time with boundaries I hear you on that I'm hoping she's she can understand um I feel like a lot of people sometimes believe that boundaries are like you attacking them when in reality it is anything but the but that boundaries quite honestly are you just wanting to strengthen the relationship through trust and honesty so i think it's very

important for you to be able to test the waters and you know speak up to your friend or straight up tell the boyfriend if your friend's on a trip she's doing something she's having the time of her life you don't want to worry her the next time the boyfriend says something be like hey that's weird i really don't appreciate that can you speak about me a different way that is maybe not sexualizing me all the time because i am not that way okay the boyfriend has an issue with you fuck that who cares you don't have to worry about the boyfriend unless he's like your friend or something but you i hear you and i understand when it's like you don't want your friend to be mad at you so you got many ways of going about this but i definitely think the main goal is yes

you should explain your boundaries because as a woman i hear you on that it's weird when men only see you in a sexual light and they cannot see you as a human and so those compliments that they're giving you that attention it feels weird and i feel like some men only express gratitude towards women in that way they can only do it in a sexual way so if you want your friend to be chilling on her trip doing her thing let her do it tell the boyfriend not your boyfriend tell her boyfriend hey i don't appreciate it can you stop sexualizing me period let him deal with his emotions after that but if it's something that you can bring up to your friend you trust her you know she's um not that she's going to respond to it well but she has the insight in herself to

not take it personally um i think it's also very important to maybe express that to her as well but don't make it seem like that's a uh her fault she is i feel like a lot of women feel attacked too when their boyfriend does something wrong because they feel like oh well it's my fault it's my i should have done something but no that's his behavior that's his fucking world your friend's great she just happens to have a boyfriend who needs something he needs to be checked okay so good luck keep me updated I hope it all goes well anyways I hope that was helpful in any sort of sense but I don't think you should ever compromise your boundaries for someone else's just peace does that make sense um especially if they're like kind of close to someone who is a

good friend of yours you know what I mean I think if they truly are a good friend they really will hear you out um stick up for you and hopefully try and make some changes especially if they are important boundaries which this one seems to be let's load a little bowl oh someone asked me where is it let me find the question do do do i am so sorry i am so sorry we're gonna have um oh how do i limit what my intake of weed throughout the day finally fucking found it so i like well since it's like 10 a.m i like mixing my cbd flour with my regular flour so i'll do like a little half and half or maybe 75 25 higher on the cbd personally i like a heavy cbd morning just because a it helps me relax helps

me clear my mind in the same way that i'm kind of looking for that effect from weed but it doesn't give me the weed hangover that i would have if i were to smoke like basically an eighth throughout the entire day um love mixing cbd into everything that i'm smoking it just actually kind of also helps offset the whole anxiety feeling if you get yourself like a cbd pen like if you're someone who's has like chronic anxiety when it comes to smoking fair i hear you i get that question a lot actually people are always like i get super anxious when i smoke and i feel like they frame it as if and even i kind of looked at it this way for a while but i thought it was my fault i thought i was doing something wrong i thought i was the weird one i thought like oh my gosh i'm just a

little i just get overwhelmed with weed like it just does that to me but in reality you can find peace in knowing it does it to everybody whenever anybody asks me about anxiety and weed i always say anxiety is a side effect okay and if you look at it like that either a okay if the anxiety is a side effect and you don't want to feel it cool maybe weed's not for you and that's totally valid i i encourage you to not smoke if that's what you think is best for you i don't really give a fuck if you smoke or not um but b i think it also brings peace whenever you are having those periods of time where you're feeling high anxiety after smoking and understanding that okay this is just normal some a little side effect and it will pass eventually if you give it about 20 minutes

it usually will pass because usually you can distract yourself from it but if you can't if you're not good with that if it gets overwhelming overwhelming cbd is your friend and as we all know paz packs is a friend of the show um you could use code smoke sesh for 10 off anything you order i love their cbd flower i love their carts for specifically when you get super anxious if you smoke cbd it offsets the anxiety and kind of brings down the thc a little bit that like a little bit of a head feeling that you get and it makes it more of a body high do you know what i mean so give it a shot if you do have high anxiety um smoke sesh for 10 off pazpax.com um yeah i love them that's the only way i get through my whole day um and kind of limit my

intake throughout the day so instead of just smoking a eighth of flour i may be smoking a few grams and then a majority at least in the morning until i switch over to dabs is cbd so let's do a little cheers to that one it also just helps with like the brain mush feeling i feel like if you just smoke smoke smoke every single day you get to a point where you're like i'm just like foggy i'm clouded and CBD doesn't do that to you so love hey me and the girlies are in the car um we're driving back from your homeland actually we're just coming back from Kansas City we were there um for the weekend fun my friend lives there and I thought it was going to be all cornfields but I was

mistaken it was very cool no but i love the podcast i listen all the time my therapist knows about you all good things but we're um yeah right now we're on the way to texas roadhouse so fun gonna get a blooming onion so excited um okay bye i love you the therapist part sent me that i love that you told your therapist about me because i feel like a lot of therapists would listen to this podcast and be like that girl needs a professional she needs professional help oh my god glad you enjoyed my city my homeland love kansas city i agree with you on the cornfields i feel like everybody assumes that like you're right it is going to be cornfields and there are just luckily they're like 30 minutes away it is a pretty big good

great city also the little giggles behind you sent me like at the end everybody was giggling i was giggling so funny thank you thank you for listening to you and the girlies thank you so much i cannot emphasize enough how many times i've been in a texas roadhouse just belligerently high out of my mind choking down those delicious like cinnamon butter rolls holy shit that is like a epic 420 food right there hope you all have a wonderful day very fun to hear from you guys literally when I mean submit me anything I mean anything I just want to hear your voice I want to hear from you guys I want to connect I love this oh my gosh someone asked what's the craziest combination i've ever done when i was high love you love you um so if you guys don't

know i actually started doing tiktok by doing um high food reviews so i would just get completely completely just destroyed off these edibles that my current boyfriend when we were first talking he would just send me home with trays of edibles and when i mean trays i mean like 16 like whole brownies or cookies um and i would just eat them and then eat random food that i found in my house and i think my favorite one by far we've all been there is just getting super high and going to the pantry and finding the croutons and just like munching down on some fucking croutons you it just like it hits different it's 3 a.m you got the worst cotton mouth of your life you're so high you think you're hearing noises and you're just munching down on some fucking croutons and you

wake up and your whole mouth is destroyed and you're like whoa what happened yeah that's my favorite weirdest combination though i think my my best combo was i would take a uh just like a tortilla wrap of course peanut butter and jelly that bitch and you eat that after like nuking it in the microwave for like 15 seconds um with a pickle spear yeah maybe throw some like lays potato chips on the wrap but that is a fave for sure hey let's load another bowl I know we getting crazy here huh but someone asked me um let's see what do they say I feel like my life is so boring but I feel too shy to change that okay much to think about um when I was younger I thought or maybe I was but I thought I was an introvert I thought I needed to stay home I thought I was

too shy to speak and when I say this like it's kind of hard to believe because I literally get on the internet and just share everything about my life pretty open-heartedly um I don't come off as introverted I don't think I really am very introverted I would say I'm a little bit of both but when I was younger I thought I was completely introverted and super shy like I could not look my aunt in the eyes I could not look my family members in the eyes I was so so just socially conscious and super shy and it took a long time for me to break out of that but once I started to like you really just have to take that first step once you take that first step i realized i'm not shy i'm not and all those years i spent sitting in my bedroom doing nothing talking myself out

of experiences i was depressed i hated my life i was always constantly jealous of what other people were doing i was constantly overthinking what i was doing and i was basically just putting myself myself in a jail cell that was my mind I was conditioning myself to be okay with being like just like hindering myself I was conditioning myself to be okay with hindering myself from experiences and people and places and once I finally broke out of that mindset and that the only way I could do so was by simply challenging myself and my parents really tried to challenge me they tried to help me but I am a hard-headed fucking bitch and if I don't do it my way I simply will not learn from it so my parents put me in like competitive piano or tons

and tons of sports or all these different hobbies and they pushed me and they tried to you know get me out of my comfort zone a little bit and get me interested in being you know out in public and that really regressed me a lot because they were all things i didn't want to do and i felt like i was being forced into a situation that i did not want to do i would be like throwing up in the bathroom before my piano recitals at like 12 because i could not even fathom the idea of standing in front of more than 20 people it was horrible it was excruciating and since i was in those experiences so much and they weren't experiences that I set up myself it was very easy for me to be like yeah no I'm an inside girly I'm an inside girly I don't need to interact

period but then you know I started having life experience and little ones and they started getting me interested and the only reason that they started getting me interested was because i was actively choosing them i took a risk and i went to a concert that i was a little nervous about or i took a risk and i hung out with this new friend that i was a little nervous about and they all usually went very well and when they didn't go well i never really took it hard on myself because i knew that that was something i didn't enjoy and in turn i found insight and there's no reason to feel shame for that and i realized very quickly i'm a fucking extrovert and i was so sad and so depressed simply because i was locking myself away in my brain get out of

your head okay and if you are introvert valid i hear you love it you should nurture that as well but what i'm trying to say is i don't think you should hinder yourself and the only person who is is you you're too shy that's okay that's all right i'm very shy even to this day as confident as i come off i am a little shy if you run into me in public i'm like probably gonna be a little quiet because i am shy and that's okay i value that in myself but still i don't think you should let it hinder your hinder you from going out and enjoying the things that you want to try that you want to do don't overthink it just send it just try it i guarantee you will learn so much about yourself through the process and in turn you will want to do more okay i love you you deserve to be

happy you deserve to experience new things challenge yourself a little bit it is hard i never said this shit was gonna be easy i promise you it's not but if i can do it little 11 year old hannah throwing up in the fucking bathroom because she was too afraid to go stand in front of one person and play a song on the piano if she can get up and now do things that she never could have imagined then you can all right um what are your like favorite places to go in Kansas City like like coffee shop you always talk about like some good ass coffee like that shit sounds good as fuck and I want to know where it's at because I live like 30 minutes away and I really need some good shops like good places to eat good coffee places just because it's so fucking boring here

I literally hate it I have nothing to do like I'm so fucking bored also do you have any tips on getting the stench out of hock boxing a car because my car is stanky it's stanky as fuck and I need to clean it or something like I need do you have any tips on that you know what I used to hate my city um and like want to leave my hometown so bad and I think that's just a general feeling of when you're growing up wanting to get out wanting to explore but then I realized maybe I wanted to leave because I didn't like myself and I thought escaping could fix that and so I challenged myself and I stayed and I learned to love myself and in turn I've learned to love my city a lot um coffee wise oh babe oh babe when it comes to coffee my favorite coffee is crow's

coffee just because it's so close to my house they really have they make incredible incredible stuff and also their breakfast burritos are to die for best breakfast burritos in the fucking city um if you want to have coffee with a view messenger coffee is incredible if you go to messenger go up three flights of stairs all you're on the roof you have the best view of kansas city while you get to eat your delicious pastries that they have and your incredible coffee whatever you happen to choose um they're all super nice there as well um what else oh um if you go to city market coffee i really recommend i recommend if you're going if you're coming to kansas city especially during the summer come on a friday afternoon because first fridays first fridays oh my god

will be going on in the crossroads so that's just like a big arts event and it's incredible the whole city gets out for it um they'll have like fire dancers they had like a skate expo there once they have so many new and incredible things there's always like random people walking around boom boxes dance circles people doing live graffiti um and all the shops are open so it starts at like three I usually get there around five um and you can just wander around go through so many different galleries people have tons of different showings um and then I recommend walking down to all the food carts or food trucks or whatever get that for dinner I really recommend the hangover burger me and my friends used to challenge each other to eat this whole entire

hamburger because it's quite honestly the biggest hamburger you could ever imagine um one time I ate it and then fell asleep on the streetcar for a few hours who knows it was a while i just woke up and i was like whoa like straight food comma they have so many great foods and options especially from the food truck area um if not town topic is a go-to oh my god every time i go to town topic you have to go there late at night there's just so many shenanigans going on last every single time i go to town topic i see a naked woman literally i every single time i see a naked woman i don't know why maybe it's like the hot spot for like getting something you know but last time i went there well two two times ago i took my boyfriend because he had never been to

town topic before late night great food grab um down the crossroads and we were standing in line it's literally a shack like it's a little tiny shack there's a bar inside with maybe five stools it's like the go-to spot when you finish a concert an event go there eat for whatever you're here for they're open late night um but we were standing in line because pandemic diners closed you can go up to the window though and i look over and there's this like man standing next to the dumpster and i'm like what's going on and then i look away because i'm like whatever i don't really care and then my boyfriend's like staring he's like what what are they doing what's going on and i look over and there's a man standing in between two dumpsters and i like squint my eyes a little

bit oh straight up he's getting head someone is giving him head behind the dumpster I was like stop looking like what is going on I was like this is insane so funny I was like stop staring at least let him have some privacy but literally we had no idea what's going on we were like why is he just standing there with his hands on his hips yep straight up giving head or getting head and then uh last time I went I was like remember that was so funny I can't believe that was happening like straight up in public like right in front of us and he was like yeah that's crazy and we stood in line nothing really crazy happened um I don't know if like a if like a group of people were waiting for like someone to show up but as soon as we got to the parking lot literally like

maybe 10 different cars pulled in at the same time and parked all around us and then once we got out of the car they all left I was like what kind of meetup was about to happen here anyways we go we get our food i'm like well nothing crazy happened you know it's pretty normal night as i am walking to the car i see a fully naked woman no clothes on this woman on all fours like crawling over this wall to get away from like where you're about to walk by and i was like oh my omg omg what is going on anyways yeah love town topic not sure why that keeps happening um the crossroads is a great area in general and also we have a we have a ton of amazing venues if you ever see someone coming to town who um you enjoy and they're at the truman they're at

the midland they're at the uptown go go sprint center is or whatever do we have a sprint center whatever our big arena is downtown they change the name um bullshit don't go there your concert it will be good but it will be at a very very big distance and also it'll be at a very high price try and catch your artists when they're at any of those venues that are smaller i think those are just like the best best places to go especially um the midland it's like a giant mansion essentially and you just get a party in this giant mansion love it um but yeah those are my recommendations for Kansas City there's so many great little spots that you can find um great different so many great food places as well I really recommend if you're coming on Friday also go to the um river

market in the morning there's some great like secondhand thrift stores um also if you're going there eat at hibashi house I have to plug them they are the best people hardest working people best best mediterranean food you will ever find and i mean that with my whole heart habashi house is so good and they take care of you they make sure your food is good one time they even brought me like extra stuff i was like this is love it impeccable so go show them some love you can really spend a morning up there at the farmer's market like on the weekends love getting like fresh organic produce fresh local produce fresh bread um and there's this one um guy who comes out and he brings his like um what are they his orchids he makes he grows show orchids i actually

visited his um well we have these caves in kansas city i know weird and they use them for storage and one time me and my mom went because he grows all his orchids and all his succulents and all his plants in the caves so he went to the caves and saw all of his beautiful stuff and then it caught on fire birds botanicals that's what it's called if he still offers tours or still has it available go tour his plant shop in the caves i do know the caves caught on fire a few years ago but i assume everything's kind of back to normal now see if he's still located there if not you can visit him in the mornings on the weekends at the farmer's market he's always there and he always has the best quality um lowest price plants so check it out i love my city come give her some

love um and then when it comes to your car smelling been there been there in college i absolutely would have been caught with weed if i didn't have a car because i would have been too reckless with where i was smoking it um literally the only place i went to smoke was my car i would just i would walk out go to my car smoke and then go to bed so when i tell you that car smelled okay i'm telling you it smelled like it smelled i don't know how the police officers who were looking in there did not find anything um one time i got pulled over on the way home from college literally did not even know but i had like a half ounce in my console because that's where i kept my stuff totally forgot about it because i'm a stupid idiot and the police officer pulled me over and i was

like i'm so sorry officer was speeding i know but we just got with spring break we just got off class like we're headed home and he was like i'll let you guys go you have a good spring break literally shocking because i got home and i opened that console and i was like if he really would have checked this car like he probably should have because i know it reeked i would be oop i my parents should have to pick me up that is for sure um but when it comes to the smell in cars um there's specifically something you can get is it osium do you guys know what i'm talking about osium let me look it up yes osium spray will solve everything and i mean everything not the gel get the spray it's literally like a can that you can set off in your car and it will just

completely get rid of all of that smoke smell okay if you need it like gone like you're going home from college the next day your parents you know are gonna be all up in that car making sure you're not doing crazy shit osium use it i guarantee things will be better also you can literally go to the like um at least where i live you can go to the uh car wash and you can get like the new car smell things like literally the stuff they put in cars to make it smell new do that that basically masks everything and then also make sure you're vacuuming it well because you know crumblies they fall in there you don't want those in there and they also stink up the place so oseum give it a good wash i believe in you hey hannah i'm abby i absolutely love the podcast i'm so glad that

spotify recommended it to me it's the only one that i listened to so i do have one question and that is how do you get yourself out of like a creative rut or an art block or just like a rut in general because i feel like i was doing really great back in january and i just sort of have gone back downhill a little bit so yeah I don't really know how to find my like inspiration or motivation again so yeah I don't know anyways I love you thank you and happy 420 love you happy 420 um so I actually found this this morning I'm crazy um I think it'll be very helpful but Bjork literally i think commented this on a reddit post so let me read this to you um she says thank you i think creativity always lives somewhere in everyone but it's in but its nature is quite

pranksterish and slippery and every time you grab its tail it's found a new corner to thrive in perhaps the trick is not to force it and put it up against a wall and want it to be in a particular area but rather with a lot of kindness sniff it out and wonder where it has gone to this time around if it's in sauce recipes writing theater plays paper mache improv with nephews discovering new hiking routes or simply trying to figure out a family member's sense of humor i def don't succeed in this all the time and but feel overall things have been more fertile when i trust this creature's instincts and follow it rather than me willfully reforming it into a circus animal by coloring by numbers anyways as much as you'd like to ignore this animal you have to attend it

because if you don't them dark time them dark times turn up dot dot dot love that i think that is the best way to explain creativity and losing it you're not gonna find it in the same places that you might have i am constantly discovering creativity and new and exciting things okay and it's okay to get bored of some things all right that's fine but when it slips away from you you're probably not going to find it in the same things that you used to and you need to start finding new routes new areas and delving into those interests that are kind of peak like um that are kind of picking your brain you know that little itch you gotta scratch it okay and it's not gonna be in the things that you used to find I used to love to paint I could sit down I could

paint for hours I still probably could but it's interesting how my creative abilities have shift from painting to podcasting a very very different type of medium something I never thought I would do something I never thought I'd be able to do find it within yourself to search for it again okay you do have to kind of also force yourself to search for it and that's okay you will find it though eventually it'll come back to you girl i've already submitted like three questions at this point but i have a little bit of a confession story time type deal so this summer um me and this guy were talking and i thought he was super cute and like super flirty whatever and we decided to smoke together so he comes over we smoke and i get caught in

mouth like a fucking bitch we're smoking a joint and I normally smoke bowls and I feel like the paper has something to do with the way I get caught in mouth but whatever and literally I start fucking lisping because my mouth is so dry so if you are smoking with somebody please have some water on you because literally I was so embarrassed and we stopped talking after that shortly after that so yeah i think i might have icked him with my with my cotton mouth whoops okay we've all been there i hear you on this literally it's okay though i get it um but yeah hot girl rule number one always have water on you always that hydro flask is attached to my fucking hip i cannot lie because i realized that other people don't always have water with them and growing up i always had

an amazing friend who constantly had water on her every sesh i knew she'd have water every time we hung out i knew she'd have water and you know those girls who always have like the good water you know it's like it's like bone chilling that water it was that water i would be like bring more i need more water bottles please anyways yeah you can't always rely on other people to bring water so always have water on you but i've been there with the cotton mouth i have been there i specifically remember me and um my now boyfriend like when we were still in the talking stages we were hanging out i don't know if we were on mushrooms too which we definitely would have added to it because then you overthink the cotton mouth and in turn the cotton mouth worsens

um i think we were because i also i pierced his ears that night um anyways horrible horrible cotton mouth I'm talking Sahara fucking desert I'm talking my tongue is turning into beef jerky in my mouth and when I get in those situations where I'm that high and have that bad of cotton mouth I feel like you also kind of overthink so you're like should I get water should I not get water I don't know what to do you know and you're also with somebody who you're a little nervous around because you want them to like you you're still trying to figure out your relationships so you're like like doing deep breaths anyways i go down on him not sure why i thought that was a good idea considering my cotton mouth um i just remember i don't know if i was overthinking it and

i thought i had no spit in my mouth or if i really had no spit in my mouth but i really tried my best I tried I tried and then I had to stop I was like this isn't working my entire mouth is completely bone dry like I feel like my teeth are gonna fall out of my face so always have water on you hot girl rule number one okay let's take another rip oh my god I already loaded a bowl for myself look at that okay let's hit this babes i'm trying to decide on what i want for lunch today i just ate those mangoes they were like perfect oh my god you gotta let mangoes get like just slightly wrinkly on the outside before they're good also this is your psa girlies it's mango season go stock up they're all on sale um you

gotta get them or you gotta let them sit out and get just like slightly wrinkly on the outside that's how you know that they are good and they're gonna be super juicy when you eat them also when i was a nanny the best best thing that i ever let these kids do and something that really taught me about myself and just like letting myself be more inhibited which is really nice to do that learning process while also being around children was i would cut up their mangoes And then I would give them the seeds and I would just like, let them sit on the back porch and just go feral on these seeds. They would just be eating them and they didn't care what got on them, what got where, like

literally they did not care. They just ate and they enjoyed and that was it. And it really taught me like a life lesson that I should be a little bit less inhibited and i should just eat and enjoy and be a little messy and have fun you know experience those things so literally when you cut it up another great like just kind of like inner child healing tip is if it's a nice day and you just hose yourself off go outside devour a mango with your bare hands and let the like juice run all over you have fun or just go in the shower and eat it it's like it's liberating it's like a very great physical liberating moment a little crazy

but give it a shot let me know i'm debating ordering a euro for lunch i know it's my favorite food or um mcdonald's because i don't eat mcdonald's a lot and like if i'm gonna eat mcdonald's it might as well be on 420 um and i love love love i get a kid's chicken nugget with a fry and then i get a um either a spicy chicken sandwich or i'll get a burger depending on the day and a large coke but after my doctor said no coke maybe i'm not getting coke sad sad day someone asked me if i believe in aliens it would be selfish of me to assume that we are the only living creatures in a universe that is so extensive and expansive is that a word anyways i feel like it's just

selfish and it just more so perpetuates the human identity so no or wait yes i do believe in aliens I do I believe they do exist now they asked do you believe in aliens and what do you think they look like um quite honestly I want to believe that they have like spaceships and like lasers and they're full-formed beings but a more general sense of what i believe aliens are are when we go into the universe and we're looking for aliens or other life forms we're only looking for them in the definition of what we believe life is here on earth what is it something that i don't know what is life let's look that up real quick okay google says the life is the condition that distinguishes animals and plants from inorganic matter including the capacity for

growth reproduction functional activity and continual change preceding death okay so that's what we assume life is we're looking for like organic material something that can reproduce usually it's like a water-based like you need water for life we always assume we need water for life but since like the universe is so expansive and there's so many different ways for like materials to combine and create what if aliens are like imperceivable to our brain because it's a form of life that we are simply unable to experience because it's outside of how we choose to see life you know what i mean what if there is life existing but we're looking in the wrong places because we're only looking for organic material that consumes water that

reproduces all this stuff what if it's existing in a different dimension i don't know i do think life exists out there i also think we're looking in the wrong areas um and also i want to assume that they're like big like communities like i said spaceships aliens like full-formed beings but also they could be microscopic they could be so large that we're unable to perceive them they could come in so many different ways i think that's so interesting to think about and it makes aliens a little bit more fun assuming that you just simply can't see them um or perceive them generally in your brain so keep that in mind that's kind of what i believe aliens are um i had this art teacher very odd very odd man um it was like a private teacher that my parents got he was

like some just local and he like it was like here I have a short story do you want to read it and it was about him being abducted by aliens in like the like mountains of Mexico and I was like this is super interesting how do you think of this he was like it happened so maybe aliens are real do I know no have I had any experiences not necessarily maybe one day I do want to get back out to like the Utah area because there was so many fun like alien themed things going on because it's near area 51 what Nevada yeah um so I do want to get out there because I do like the phenomenon of aliens but do I believe that we can perceive them or that we are able to come up with an identity for them no I think it would completely blow our minds to even be able to understand what they are

anyways hi so I have a question for the pod I know I'm a little bit late but um so how do I care less than my boyfriend smokes cigarettes because I know he has his own life own choices but I grew up in like a no smoking house policy nobody in my family smokes cigarettes and um I also don't smoke because I'm just scared of my mom so I don't know every time he smokes I just like make a comment even though I don't want to because yeah that's my how my mom used to act but I don't know how to um avoid that or how to care less about it when you said you're afraid of your mom felt felt growing up my house was also a no cigarette household i kind of had this little feeling of nostalgia about it though because growing up my grandpa always smoked cigarettes

so i kind of related it to like oh grandpa you know what i mean cigarettes aren't that bad but then he died from them so not to laugh may he rest in peace love him but that was his choice to make um but my mom is super anti-cigarette because of that so feel you on the being terrified to even ingest one because your mother might find you um if it does bother you i think that's a valid thing and i think it's something that you know you should speak up about but like you said he does have his own life he can make his own choices now is he smoking inside is that allowed i would say hey if you're gonna smoke I would really appreciate it if maybe you just like did it away from me so instead of being controlling and being like you're not allowed to do this at all or else we're gonna

break up like ultimatum like harsh rules for a very simple thing um you know let him be his own person but also set boundaries within yourself if you don't like cigarettes you don't like the smoke around you hey can you like step outside can you go do this elsewhere can you wait a second I think those are very normal general fine questions or not questions but fine boundaries to set um and if he's your boyfriend and he loves you totally he'll be down you know what I mean it's a very easy change to make and you're really not asking a lot but I get you hi Hannah I wanted to say I absolutely love your TikTok so much they make my day you're one of the very few people on TikTok that like makes it maybe feel not toxic um usually I feel like shit right after watching

TikTok but I don't know I always end up with a smile on my face when I see your videos so thank you for that speaking of your energy my question is you always do have this like really strong confidence man Nelly Furtado man-eaters like mentality going on which I really appreciate but my question is is that a fake it till you make it thing or have you actually found true confidence within yourself and how if so so yeah let me know oh that actually means a lot love you thank you for telling me that because tiktok is a special kind of hellhole that i uh have been avoiding for a while i've recently been uploading more or not episodes god damn i'm the podcasting mindset um i've been uploading more videos and i'm gonna try and keep doing so

so hopefully i can bring that sense of peace to tiktok that it really needs but i feel you on the scrolling and then feeling horrible afterwards because holy shit it's just a lot of regurgitated like hate period anyways i'm gonna try and keep uploading on there so stay tuned thank you for the support i really appreciate it your words do mean a lot to me um now when it comes to confidence and i talked about this okay i talked about this in a few or like two podcasts ago um if you look for the true confidence title that one go listen if you want to go on like a 10 minute deep dive um but you're right like i said i feel like i do come off as if i have a lot of confidence now since you have followed me on tiktok i'll explain a little bit i'll do a short

explanation but like i said go listen to the true confidence um episode a few it's like two episodes back um i do a deep dive on this because true confidence is not faking it till you make it okay and i feel like the first time we covered confidence in this podcast i was really heavy on the fake it till you make it you know idea but i've grown from that and let me explain since you follow me on tiktok you probably have followed me since i started making those videos where it's like uh encouraging videos with music and i'm like walking do you know what i mean um on my main account which is smokes at shoddy um those were fake it till you make it things okay i was in a period of my life where i was faking it till i make it um now faking till you make it is a

important step in confidence but it's not a sustainable way for you to source confidence it is a very short period and you learn that very quickly that lasted like a year and i was feeling very good about myself but like i said it's not sustainable and i kind of fell back into a hole again and it's kind of why i stopped posting on tiktok i felt bad about myself i was like why isn't this working anymore you know what I mean and I really had to sit down and do the work and I cover the work I did uh back in that episode to kind of build up a true confident sense in myself and to build true confidence is to have a secure relationship with yourself okay if you're more interested in that go listen but I think that's genuinely genuinely where true confidence comes

from and it is a process I'm still getting there I think I will be getting there for the rest of my life what is the point of living if you're not consistently learning and growing and changing um but fake it till you make it is a very great starting point when you are just like zero confidence I don't know what to do I don't know how to practice these activities or how to practice self-love literally just forcing yourself to do it I know I know it doesn't sound fun but it really does work it's not sustainable though you need to heal the relationship with yourself so go give it a little listen let me know what you think but i think i'm on the right path now and i'll keep growing i'll keep learning so i'll change i'll share more with

you if more does come to me but true confidence is really found within a healed relationship between yourself and trust from yourself so i found this post and i think it's a very great explanation i think they worded it perfectly so let me read it to you i'm doing a lot of reading today but i kind of like having little excerpts of texts that i enjoy um i like sharing and expressing things that really touch me so hopefully it touches you too and this comes from sweet like a cherry on tumblr but they posted stop the self-doubt and just decide that you are sexy and then you will will and then you will be and i feel like that is kind of the fake it till you make it part it's very important to start with that idea and understanding of um like you just

have to start somewhere to get to your end goal. Now this is the true confidence. They then continued with, I still see some of you in the tags with self-doubt saying this is easier said than done. Stop putting any focus into how you're being perceived by others and start focusing on how you're perceiving yourself and treating yourself. When you know and believe that you are sexy, nobody can say anything about you. Whatever people say is about themselves. If you cling to a false center that depends on others, you'll always be looking to what people are saying about you you'll always be following other people trying to satisfy people trying to be respectable you'll always attempt to decorate your ego this is a losing game rather than being disturbed by

what others say you should start looking inside of yourself whenever you are self-conscious you are showing that you are not conscious of the self at all you don't know who you are if you had known then there would have been no problem you are not seeking opinions then you are not worried about what other uh what others say about you it is it is irrelevant it doesn't matter when you're self-conscious you are in trouble when you're self-conscious you are really showing symptoms that you don't know who you are your very self-consciousness indicates that you have not come home to yourself yet decide that you are sexy and you will be i'm serious bitch period put it perfectly hi lovies i live in joshua tree california but i am so willing to make the trip

to LA when you're visiting I would love to meet up girl I will smoke you out you are literally the reason that I can continue my day love you love you you guys are so sweet one day it is my goal to do like a big park meetup I don't know where preferably somewhere where weed is legal that is really all the only places I want to travel but I do want to do a big like girls meetup stoner meetup like let's hang out let's smoke let's get outside so maybe one day maybe one day someone asked any advice for taking shrooms alone and i think this is a very great question um personally my favorite way to do shrooms if you are partaking is to psa psa i'm not recommending don't report me i am just sharing my experience um so my favorite way to partake

in the shroomies is to quite honestly do it alone because i feel like when i do it with other people sometimes unless i'm very very comfortable with that person like my boyfriend or my best friends that i've known for years um when i'm around them i'm not thinking about my relationship towards them i'm very comfortable and secure in myself that's very important i can do it around people like that because I find security and understanding and peace within our relationships period now if you can't find that doing it by yourself is quite honestly better because then you can really just sit there and hang out with yourself spend time with yourself and really evaluate the relationship that you do have with yourself during the pandemic I did a lot of them I had a lot of

time on my hands quite honestly um so i um this is like what you should do i don't think you should spend it inside um at least not a majority of it i think if you were ever doing mushrooms you should quite honestly be outside the whole time if you possibly can um it's great inside what my boyfriend did for me the first time we ever uh did them together was you should do this for yourself as well if you're just alone is instead of being on the bed he took all of the comforters and pillows and shit off and made this like little bed on the floor like this little like nest almost it was so cute and he had a little table and i just dab stuff up i like being on the floor because i can i like being grounded i always just end up on the floor if i'm on shrooms like i just can't with

chairs or beds i'm like i need to be low i need to be on the ground okay i need to be connecting to the earth um it's like make a little comfortable area for you in your room have fun lights if you can if you have those led strips have them change fun colors um have a good don't turn a show on never watch a show just have like a slideshow image thing if you can my personal favorite is the google chromecast images the hd super nice beautiful images that they will quite honestly just put on for you when your tv is just like not in use those are the best thing ever the best it's all nature related if you can't get outside love now if you can get outside i just recommend going to a park bringing a blanket bringing a good drink you won't be hungry i don't remember

i don't i don't recommend oh my god eating while you're doing them definitely eat two hours before two hours remember that do not eat anything closer because you will get sick you're basically giving yourself food poisoning um lots of water fresh fruits if you really are hungry I guess are probably the best but get outside bring a journal with you bring a notebook with you bring colorful pens bring markers anything you can bring headphones you can listen to good music and just be outside I used to my favorite thing would be to just wander around my neighborhood I would just walk blocks and blocks and blocks and just look at all the beautiful houses see all the beautiful different yards i love my city especially because all the houses are different

like every single one i feel like growing up in the suburbs you really get bored of the mundane and seeing the same thing just over and over and over again just maybe in different colors so i love the uniqueness of my neighborhood i love exploring it i love kind of just like also talking to myself i know that sounds crazy um but just having those conversations with with yourself i think you'll have a great time i think you'll have so much fun and have a trip sitter on call okay have somebody that you can call if things go bad and you know the vibes will be lifted things will be good if you do find those dark areas um they can come help you very rare though with shrooms if you're like not so rare when you do acid that is like a very easy slippery

slope to get into shrooms are very much just a good time peace love get into nature oh good question and we're also going to load another bowl oh i don't even have to load one my future yourself set it up for me i love that i just keep loading them and forgetting how many has this been it's 420 so i'm trying to go hard if you're keeping up with me i'm impressed you don't have to i don't recommend but i've seen i've heard some of you guys do so um so stay safe but someone asked thoughts on whether weed is actually good or bad for you illy love you too um i think it's both and I feel like a lot of people are going to be like well what especially like stoner men are like but it's good and they don't see any other perspective I have seen both good and bad

for it so let's get into it oh my god anyways I feel like with internet culture especially and I have to call it that just to kind of be like once you spend enough time in real life you realize and internet culture really is a thing chronically online really is a thing i saw a tweet the other day and it was like um you can really tell who spends too much time online by their outfit i was like what like there's some truth in that but i feel like a very being online a lot they force you to choose whether something is good or bad and no one sees the nuance in anything and I'm kind of all about the nuance so yeah I think weed can be good for you and it can be helpful I also think it can be bad and you can use it absolutely in the wrong

ways um it all depends on how you are using it and what you're using it for okay it can be great it helps people um with who they are it helps people medically it helps people with their anxiety my therapist is has said before that she's like um she said once that I probably self-medicate because I have a lot of anxiety and ADHD and so that's basically what weed was for me and she had no issue with it she just thought great now you don't have to be on fucking like Adderall if weed is great for you um just careful with the consumption because I've also been in the points where I cannot exist in the world unless I'm high I do not like who I am or like the people around me unless I'm high I can't do anything but get high that is a negative bad thing yes I agree

and I feel like there's a lot of people who have the mindset that we can only be good and in reality they're in this negative space and they refuse to address it and it took me a long time to address it within myself because i was also in that mindset also i was dating a man who was in that mindset who was like well you could there's only good properties about weed man and it's like okay but i don't like who i am and i'm completely just dumbing myself down by smoking all the time and it took me breaking up with him realizing he's a fucking loser and realizing i completely lost myself and everything and also basically failing out of college i had to just completely 360 my life and fix my relationship with weed i had no choice um i stopped smoking

for a while and that was probably the best decision i could have made i just went cold turkey i finished the last fucking blunt with my friend and i went home to my very strict parents and i just cold turkied it basically and tried my best um and once i was able to fix my relationship with weed and see that yeah you know what you can be irresponsible with it it can be a bad thing and i understood both sides that's when my relationship was fixed because i knew what was a good use so i would do all my work i would get all my work done i would go to the gym i would finish shit that i needed to get done and then i would use it as a treat to wind down at the end of the day i have nothing else going on cool it's 10 o'clock at night great i'll load myself a little bowl

you know no issue with that but once you're using it or you have to accept that you can use it in a bad way to kind of see how you are using it within that spectrum so yeah I think it can be good I also think it can be bad um me and my co-worker were talking the other day like weed is so accessible now to like a younger audience and sure I was a younger audience that partaked at a young age but like the situation that i was in was there was only flower i was young but there's only flower and i had to like quite literally crawl out of my fucking window onto the roof to smoke a tiny little hit if i wanted it i was not able to sit in my room like the kids now and chief on a fucking dab cart that is basically i'm just hitting and hitting and hitting like a

that is a very big difference and I think one is good I mean not necessarily good I don't think anybody should smoke under age period but like there are levels to good and bad within this thing and I think it's very important to ask yourself those hard questions am I using this in a productive way am I using this in a way is that that's maybe masking myself a little bit do I need to fix my relationship with weed I think every stoner should ask themselves that question and I think it's a very valid thing to ask yourself and take the steps that are necessary to change to fix whatever if you need it if you gotta go cold turkey for the rest of your life that's fine I was able to fix my relationship and now I'm able to use it in a healthy way and

understand that um so I feel like it's completely up to you and your journey but yeah I think it can't be good and bad hey there hannah i'm a musician and also an artist and i really wanted to ask you how to really take care of your lungs as a frequent um stoner smoker whatever smoking bowls smoking carts just what's your plan of action and do you ever feel funny when you're smoking too much thank you so much for being such a great artist and supporting other artists me as a musician i it's hard for us females you know to make a living out here doing art and to see you succeeding it makes me feel really happy so please keep it up i look forward to your videos every tuesday and thursday thank you so much and bye-bye oh that was so sweet i love you um also for future

reference if you ever submit another question feel free to plug yourself babe i don't care i'm here to support you you guys support me endlessly thank you so much um you said you're like a musician and artist please if you have a new song that's out um if you have a band name whatever shout it out babe i will post it i love that um but when it comes to lung health i quite honestly think like well some people are like smoke this herb to make your lungs healthier and smoke this like mullion leaf can make your lungs kind of open up and i they say they're helpful um anything going in your lungs like as a medical student anything going in your lungs is period not good okay whether it is a mullion or not um it does have properties that are beneficial i do agree i have

tried it i did enjoy if you kind of have a hard time hitting things or you need to clear out some mucus i think it's great not every single day any herb that you're adding in there i think you need to be careful with how much you're ingesting and you gotta do your research so i'm not sure if i would recommend any of that just because i don't have a lot of experience with it i do think there are great properties though um i think the best way to honor your lung health and to make sure that it's in good condition is to make sure that you're smoking the correct way okay i feel like a lot of people like literally my boyfriend has had a friend whose lung has collapsed from smoking like yeah that can happen if you're not taking care of yourself and the best way to do so is to

make sure you're smoking correctly so like when you're taking dabs don't take them directly after you torch that shit you know make sure that the right temperature don't burn your throat don't burn your lungs when you are smoking out of a bong use a filter so that when you're breathing in it's a smoke you don't inhale any of those uh nasty like what are they called scooby snacks even with a pipe use a filter if you can um or like a screen on a filter i guess you call them screens um but use one on there so it is just smoke you're inhaling smoke so it like in general not great for you but best way that you can minimize damage is make sure you're doing it correctly make sure you're not burning your lungs make sure you're also taking like small enough hits you're not

overwhelming your system you're not overwhelming your lungs um also i think it's an old like um i remember being told this when i was a baby stoner but um i would hold in my head i would breathe it in and i hold it in as long as i can and that actually doesn't really help as soon as you breathe it in you're gonna feel all the effects that you're gonna feel from it holding it in is only gonna make your lungs like super tired and the smoke in there being in there too long is just gonna over kind of irritate them so just be careful and also if you can't handle smoking super a ton um limit your intake amount you know limit your intake when you're doing so also water water water water lubricate yourself up b i think if you do so you'll be great but

just make sure you're smoking correctly and i think you'll be good hey babes so um i work at h&r block and i so today's the 18th and it was the day that taxes are due and i had quite literally the worst fucking day at work i had so many people scream in my face i had several people say they wanted to fucking sue me I don't know what's in the air um I guess my question is just how do you deal with fucking assholes like especially at work when you're supposed to be like professional or whatever the fuck I just want to cuss them out like it pisses me off that I have to fucking deal with them and it pisses me off that I have to be nice to them and yeah how do you deal with it how do you not let it get to you how do you not cry because I sob and everyone at

working here we stopped too and I know crying is not a bad thing but it's a little embarrassing so if you have any tips or advice that'd be greatly appreciated thank you oh my god babe I feel you especially working in the service industry like I feel you when I was like a baby server I used to take it very personally I'd be like these people are so mean they're so mad at me like what can I do but then there's like nothing I can do because it's like not even my fault so then I get overwhelmed because there's so much negativity being pointed at me and I feel you I would literally go to the back and I would cry because I would just be so overwhelmed and I didn't really know what to do with like the fucking attitude on these people like what is going on so best thing

I can really tell you babe is as I've grown up I've realized a lot of people's anger is not directed at me it's directed at something sure but it's not directed at me it's usually them projecting something so whenever people get in this mood i now kind of find it a little silly i'm like wow okay like this is really pressing you like you're really upset and sometimes i'll have those asshole customers where when you're talking to them nothing you can do is good enough literally nothing nothing you can do and you have to accept that and you have to understand that and then my favorite thing to do after that is make them feel like shit and i don't mean make them feel like shit by being a bigger asshole and being super mean to them the best way to make

somebody feel like shit is to be so fucking nice and kind and caring that they just immediately turn into the asshole they know they're being an asshole they know they're being a fucking like cunt quite honestly all right i love that word um but like when i when i i had a customer recently who was like this just nothing i said or did could fix anything i went up to him i was like oh is everything tasting all right you know you gotta fucking ask these questions make sure and he was like no this is horrible and i was like okay well is there anything else i can get you i can have them remake it he was like it was too salty you know i'm like okay let's start problem solving because that's my fucking job i can't just walk away and be like well sucks finish your meal and

pay for it then um unfortunately i have to and i have to entertain their hate the same way you probably have to okay but literally kill them kill them with kindness because they'll realize they're being a fucking dick um he was like no i don't want you to take it back and have them remake it because they might spit in my food they might spit in my food i've worked in the restaurant industry for like four or five years i have never seen that happen i was like sir that doesn't happen in restaurants but if you think you're such an asshole they're gonna spit in your food you might be fucking right and you might need to do some inner self-work i was like that doesn't ever happen i would guarantee that would never happen but if you are gonna eat it i can't leave

on it or if you aren't gonna eat it and you want us to remake something i can't let you have both dishes like i do need to take it back and then have them remake it and he was like no no it's fine i'll eat it and i just kept being like i'm so sorry sir if you know if i could really go back there and hand make it myself i would unfortunately that really i just i can't but if i could i would go hand pull those noodles and make you fresh broth and all of that and he just like quickly realized he was being just annoying he was like no it's fine it's great and then I turned to the person he was with and I was like is everything great for you sir is everything tasting wonderful for you because he had not spoken up once his friend had just been a dick and he had sat there

passively and he was like everything's great I never said it wasn't good and I was like exactly exactly and you guys were eating the same fucking thing yeah that's what i wanted to hear he was like no everything's great i love it and you really just have to like it's kind of like being an asshole but you're just so nice and it makes them realize how fucking insane they're being and that man tipped me 20 on 60 because he felt so bad at the end of that interaction because he realize he was mistreating a little service worker who doesn't want to fucking be there and is being not even being paid to put up with his bullshit i get paid five dollars an hour okay so you really do have to just make them feel like the asshole that's my favorite thing to do if they're being

an asshole don't be an asshole back be the opposite so they realize how fucking crazy they're being and sometimes if you can just walk away it got to a point where i was like well i'm sorry and i just left you know like some people you really just can't help and they want to be an asshole to somebody to get it off their chest when in reality that's not going to make them feel any better don't take it personally i get it service industry is hard working with customers is fucking mind-boggling sometimes the behavior they pull out of nowhere it is tax season so people are probably stressing but they're not stressing over you they're stressing over them being fucking late and not doing it on time so i love you hopefully tax season isn't too hard on

you now that it's hopefully over hopefully there's not any extensions you have to deal with but you'll make it through i believe in you babe so someone asked what is the point of life and very good question very broad i think there's a lot i think there's a lot of beauty a lot of different dimensions a lot of different passions that people have and i think you really find it in three different places um the relationship between you and yourself and how incredible and beautiful it is that only you know and understand yourself and only you get to experience the creative and wonderful world um that is your mind and how you use it and how you see the world i also think um i mean once you reach a positive self-relationship

or if you have reached that you'll realize that very quickly um life is a lot easier and a lot more fun to live when you love yourself i also think the point of life is the connections that we make here on earth with other human beings um it's wonderful to see how diverse people are in interests in ideas in thoughts in what they've been through every single time i get out in public i talk to somebody i've never talked to i realize there is a lot i don't know about this world and there's a lot i'm very excited to find out about and i feel like a lot of the connections people are making online right now are negative. Everybody wants to fight each other. Everybody wants to be right. Everybody wants to argue. And I simply don't have time for that. But what I do

have time for is to sit here and allow you the space to express yourself and open yourself up about the experiences that you have faced and the things that you are going through and make connections through that. I think it is wonderful and beautiful and brilliant. And another reason why I'm excited to go on vacation because every single time I go on vacation every single time I quite honestly get out of the house I always always just run into somebody who has something to say and I just make room and space for them to just go on and I learn a lot from that um I think we kind of talk over each other a lot and I think it's important to um make those connections authentically and honestly and love each other by doing so um community is very important a lot of

people emphasize love love is not everything i think community is more important the connections you make you make through that i think it's more important to know a million people than it is to know one person um just because of all the different viewpoints so within yourself within other people and within the world around you you have to learn to find beauty within the small things you cannot find beauty in only going on vacation or getting sad that you're not living life this way or waiting for this thing you have to enjoy sometimes simply your morning cup of coffee you have to learn to find love in simply sitting outside and in the sun for 10 minutes life is all about the small joys i feel like a lot of people only celebrate the big things and

want to show off the big things but true life and true love and the point of life quite honestly is found in the mundane so the relationship within yourself the relationship within your community and the relationship you have to the world around you i think those are the points of life um but hello hannah i love you so much i fucking love your podcast um but my question is how the fuck do i get good dick around here because i live in texas the pickings are slim as hell um and i live at home and i'm 18 like what like i don't want um dating apps because i'm way too scared to actually meet up with them so like where do i meet guys and like can you actually get good dick when you still live at home yes or no please help oh my god

girl that was funny you're funny um i like you um i also just took a massive hit so give me a second but you know what you need you just need a vibrator i'm being a thousand percent honest you just need a vibrator um okay belisco uh but oh fuck i don't know how to say their name it just hold on let me look them up let me let me look them up um honestly love them um they sent me something and i was a little concerned on if it was gonna be good or not but belessa or belessica belessa co so it's oh my fucking god b-e-l-l-e-s-a-c-o this is not sponsored i'm just giving i'm just giving a little shout out but them they have they sent me a sex toy and it was like a it was like one of the like suction ones never tried it loved it great cute

packaging 10 out of 10 they also have a bunch of different things on there i was shocked by the amount of toys that they would have um like um what was i trying to say i feel like when you go to the store like a the um stripper store love it sex store um they have a lot of things and i feel like the boutique things that you see on like instagram they offer like three things and in reality they're like aliexpress drop shift you know what i mean they're like basic like you usually have to go to the sex store to find good toys um but this website they had everything under the sun they had like the rabbit which is really popular they had this little suction thing they have basic wands they had like stuff for men they had like um like like a fleshlight they had one

of those they had bondage ropes they had butt plugs i'm not saying get into that i'm just saying if you need a wide variety if you're interested in a good place to go i think this place was great i love it 10 out of 10 um so i'm gonna plug that just a little bit but i don't have a code maybe one day i'll try and see if i can work something out get all my girls something good but i say you need like a vibrator specifically because you said you a don't want to meet up with men you I feel that weird it's uncomfortable it's a little scary I also feel that um and you just want good dick guess what they make them in all shapes and sizes and you can get them not connected to a man I know right like incredible I feel like a lot of people replace wanting to find connection

with sex and especially as a woman i feel this way because i'd want to feel some sort of connection some sort of closeness to somebody um and i'd be like oh well sex and it's like no it doesn't have to be that sometimes you can just get off okay figure that out somewhere else but then also um still go out and make connections with human beings because that's really internally what you're craving you're not craving sex you're just trying to fulfill the need for human connection with men with sex because it's easy you know what i mean so maybe you don't need dick maybe you need a vibrator but also if you are just like i just want to hang out with a guy and have some good sex i feel you i feel like you can take pretty much proper precautions to do so i don't

think tinder's the place to do it i haven't been on sex apps in fucking years uh so not really sure what's going on with those but what my friends have said i feel like most of my friends use hinge um i feel like they just have a better like they've always said people are more um like not responsible more mature on hinge so maybe if that's what you're looking for like a higher maturity level not like a tinder maturity level maybe go with that and also maybe you get to know the person before setting up a little fun date i don't know so that is a little less scary but i believe in you also maybe you just need connection go hang out with some friends and then go get a good sex toy and have fun i think that's the vibe that i was talking to my co-worker the day and i

was like yeah i didn't date anybody until i was like 1920 and she was like shocked she was like you didn't date anybody like and i mean i didn't date anybody i mean like virgin i didn't do shit until 1920 like i didn't even kiss anybody okay and you know why a i was on fucking antidepressants so sex drive basically non-existent but b i was always always always hanging out with good friends i had a good community around me i wasn't craving any outside validation so i didn't really need men i just had a good community i made my connections there i made feeling like the process of existing it was a little easier around them you know what i mean and then also if i was fucking horny i'd just go home and my friends were real ones and they were older than me and they bought me like

a little vibrator for my for christmas they bought everybody vibrators so funny um and yeah that is why i never literally had any experience with men until i was older because i just felt fulfilled in other places so if you're kind of not interested in the whole man part maybe you just you need a fake one you know what I mean hi Hannah my name is Jay and I am not only a fellow Gemini but I'm also a massive fucking stoner and in love with your podcast um I'm an assistant manager at a cannabis dispensary so I'll be to go hard but my question for you for your special 420 episode is what are your top five favorite strains um I don't know if you are a girly who likes to be strain specific but I certainly am so I want to hear what the smoke sesh fairy queen

herself has to say what are your favorite strains because I am open to any options that my queen goddess stoner is smoking but anyways everyone have a safe 420 um stay hydrated and thanks Hannah I love your podcast so much bye oh my god literally every time I listen to you guys say something i'm like it makes my heart so happy oh my goodness also bad bitch running that dispenser we obsessed with that i have never touched on the topics of strains on this podcast because um although there are ones that i particularly enjoy um i feel like sometimes what i like a lot of other people might not like um so i usually just try and accept that and that's fine i don't really share because i sometimes like things that maybe provide like are a little

bit more anxiety inducing for people and i don't ever want somebody to try something and be like that was a horrible experience don't like it because i kind of have a high tolerance and i like high thc um i do like a hybrid but i do like a sativa dominant so let me kind of share with you i'll give you the in on what has caught my eye what i personally have really enjoyed if you guys are looking to try some new ones if you're looking to kind of see what to look for here's the ones that have like kind of got my heart now what i've been enjoying recently which has kind of been a shock is pink runts specifically the flower um it's about 16 thc but it's great in it's like a great in between so it's like a little bit calming but also energizing and it's a little low thc

it's not like super duper high so it's not overwhelming um but i feel like this is a pretty popular one i feel like a lot of people know about this one um but it's really sweet it smells very sweet and it kind of tastes like candy like it's it is a very sweet hit especially if you roll a joint um where it's like a little bit more concentrated um love 10 out of 10 it's great for just literally relaxing and it's great um like great uplifting body high effects so i smoke in the morning i'm pretty much chilling at night it's mostly a body high but love it's been great for a very relaxed sweet yummy kind of smoke next is probably alien og um this is one that i actually kind of got a lot of in high school thanks to a friend of mine um and specifically i

love it i think it's like what is it it's a hybrid i'm pretty sure but um it's great for literally just spacing out and being creative like i think the person who created it what was created to deliver intense effects to the head and the body the potent strain will take everybody to outer space like yes um i loved it because i was in such a creative um period of my life so it was actually very helpful i think it was a very great strain to have found me quite honestly because in high school i didn't have i didn't have a lot of choices but alien og love great for getting creative and just spacing out and having a good time now if you're a hybrid fan or even like an indica fan anything that contains the name northern lights or even just the mainstay

northern lights is great i think it's a great indica um i had it back when i think when i was out in California um but they say they say it's kind of like a hangover relief and it's great for just chilling on the couch and I kind of agree you know when you just like need to just lay down all day and just binge out and kind of rest and relax this is perfect for that because your whole body will just be like one jello mass um but it's an indica cherish for its resinous buds the pungently sweet and spicy northern lights will relax the muscles and pacify the mind in a dreamy euphoria so love that also these all might seem very um like popular these are all like very big strains like very popular strains but i also try and pay attention to a lot of the strains

nowadays are of course like high like mixed you know they have come from multiple different mother plants which like makes sense of course you want to combine like things that give you different effects but I try and pay attention to what the mother strain is of what is what I'm like about to buy just so I know I'm gonna like it does that make sense I also like trying new things but hopefully i don't know if i'm using the right terminology also because i know zero terminology i apologize i'm sure you know more because you're a bad b but blue dream um it's pretty much legendary and it balances full body relaxation with the general gentle cerebral invigoration i love that but activities to do while smoking listening to music drawing painting or writing

but the legendary blue dream is a sativa dominant hybrid that originated in california by crossing a blueberry indica with a sativa haze blue dream balances full body react relaxation oh like i said with a gentle cerebral invigoration i love that novices and pros alike enjoy blue dreams effects which ease you gently into a calm euphoria so love okay and lastly um specifically also in um like dabs i love this um but durban cookies uh or durban poison but durban cookies is the durban poison dominant phenotype of girl scout cookies known for its invigorating mental energy and medical grade body buzz durban cookies offers a more energizing experience with a powerful pain relieving qualities making the sativa dominant strain a top choice for patients treating aches

throughout the day it's like 21 it's not super high um but love it just it really is quite honestly like the red bull of um of weed strains if i could explain it one way so i had that out in california in colorado with my boyfriend when we went out there for his birthday and smoking that in the mountains and then he like went off and skated and i went like i would draw we went uh walking around oh my god incredible 10 out of 10 anyways also love that you're a fellow gemini love my gemini's i feel like gemini loves their sign in a way that no one else kind of quite does um although maybe leo leo also we both kind of have that narcissistic self-love quality about us so love you as well um someone else how do i stop being so vengeful um and i think the best way to

kind of be less vengeful is well at least for me personally i realized no one does it quite like karma um karma has their own special way of delivering somebody's own special kind of payback and it's really specific to them it's something you could never know never predict it's something you quite honestly could never do so i've always just tried to put my trust in karma because she really does always come back and i know this because i have faced a lot of karma um i know she gets your ass at some point so if they do you dirty i guarantee the universe will have your back and give them the payback that they need at whatever level they need i feel like when you involve yourself with drama it also invites karma into your life and when you involve yourself

in like um quite honestly vent like vengeful activities it'll bring a lot of drama and just more unnecessary negative feelings and emotions into your life um so just release go get a good punching bag a nice soft pillow take it out on that and trust that the universe is also a cunt and has your back and will deserve or will deliver people what they deserve i i promise you the shit that the universe has done for me i forever trust in her hi hannah my name is meg i love your podcast so much um you talk about journaling a lot now I've been journaling for a while now but I've never really gotten super into journal prompts now I don't know if you use journal prompts but if you have any any suggestions or like things to write about that have like really helped you

what would that be thank you okay so when I first started journaling I felt like I very much needed journal prompts just to kind of force me to interact with my journal kind of get that relationship started um and i made a ebook it should be in my link tree in my instagram at handle marlene um it's also really cheap i i just kind of combined all of the journal prompts that i used throughout that time into a giant word doc and then made it into a little cute ebook so if you really need like set skills and prompts i really recommend that there's none on the top of my head that i can really think of that kind of changed my life i feel like they're all just like very easy very simple things also you don't have to send me money uh i don't like if you don't

have that that's okay i don't care um if you want to support the podcast feel free love it if you aren't able to still love you just the same you can also find a ton of great ones on like um like pinterest online you can get on tumblr people have combined their own um lists so it's very easy to search up what you kind of need to work on and then go buy that um but i have a big conglomerate a bunch of different things in that ebook specifically something that i then graduated on to and something that really kind of stuck with me with journaling and kind of made the interaction more worthwhile and fun after i got out of the basic questions was um i simply wrote letters to myself um i would write letters to my younger self i would write letters to my future

self i would write letters to my current self and how i'm feeling even writing letters to the I think I start a lot of my current journal entries with like Dear Universe right now. And that kind of helps the creative or creative process start flowing and going. So I think it's a really fun challenge to kind of write to your younger self, write to your nine year old self, write to your 12 year old self, write to your 16 year old self, your 19 year old self, your future 25, 30, 50 year old self, 70 year old self. like it's a great self-practice to also kind of learn and love yourself throughout the process so that's a great tip personally um right now my journal is very much just like a dump i just get in there and i dump whatever feelings emotions things that are stressing me out um i write a lot of letters like i said but yeah hopefully that's helpful hello miss hannah i love you and i just wanted to ask what do you think made you want to start posting TikTok videos and just kind of putting yourself out there in general because I feel like I really would like to get more involved

in like social media and just opportunities but I'm not sure how to or I'm scared that I'll come off like cringy when you first start you know so let me know your thoughts on that love you girly not love you okay so I started posting like actually posting authentically not giving a fuck um I feel like everything kind of before that was a little facey which is fine we all need to grow and learn but it was during the beginning of the pandemic and I was feeling very alone I didn't really have a lot of people around me um and I wanted to make connection the only way I could make connection because we were in a fucking pandemic and you can't physically make connection is I just started trying to source it online I tried to present myself in a way that

like I kind of just gave up on not presenting myself in a way that I gave up on caring I actually gave up on caring um and I just started making videos and making things that interest me and even if it was just like two comments I loved it I loved interacting with people I loved building up those mutual friendships I enjoyed creating content it started to like funnel into a more of a creative process something that I never really thought I would have found and it also helped me meet a lot of amazing people and see a lot of different amazing insights I think TikTok was a very different place two years ago although it has its it had its um negativity then it's nothing compared to what it is today um which is why I kind of distanced myself but I've realized

once I got over the hump of being scared being cringy because you're right I'm sure people looked at my videos friends family whatever people who don't even know me and looked at my videos and were like ew cringe but I do not give a fuck because I don't look at myself that way and sometimes I would get too high and go through my videos and delete a bunch because I would just overthink so I think it's very important when you're high to stay off social media um because you really just kind of over focus on your identity a lot but I started posting authentically I started posting things that I liked and I realized a lot of other people like the same things and I don't really give a fuck if people think it's cringy because maybe we just don't

like the same things maybe they just have bad taste so i'm gonna keep working i'm gonna keep searching for the people who um we kind of you know vibe and i feel like i've gotten there and i love it and it's really brought a different perspective to how social media should work for me um instead of trying to use it as like i need to use this as a business tool i need to perfect my image i need to i just use it for fun i get on here i get on this fucking app and i have a ball and you know what you guys have a ball with me and that is all i could ever ask from social media and i think going about it that way kind of really helped me um just fix that relationship because social media can be really really toxic but i think it all depends on how

you're using it so don't hinder yourself try to create things you genuinely like try and create new things don't just regurgitate the same things that people are talking about over and over again but get out there get creative have fun try something new I guarantee you'll meet some cool people you'll have a great time um I think people aren't using it to connect and we really do need to use social media to connect like we're we're very lucky to have this um privilege because like holy shit back in the day you'd have to write a letter and that shit would take months to get across sea and then they would write you a letter and it would take months to get back like I could not imagine it is overwhelming I hear you if it's too overwhelming I think

breaks are healthy but I think everybody can develop a positive relationship with it so go for it have fun see where it gets you love you smoke sesh fam cheers you know what i'll take a hit to that love that a few of you guys sent in you guys smoking and i love that you guys are taking bond grips with me thank you so much you guys like constantly provide endless support and i love it i just like am i could not be more grateful like it's incredible this kind of community that we've built together because like no offense i wouldn't be here without you guys um you are very much so a part of the podcast as much as i am also as i'm grinding up this fucking weed you guys these grinders are gonna be so fucking cute i had to like redesign

the merch three four maybe five times i actually did like seven or eight different merch designs and they're not like merches and like uh they kind of are merch you know what low-key but it's like cute it's so fucking fun um i redesigned it so many times i might come out with the other designs later on when i can find a better print system a better supplier but right now i'm gonna hand screen print all the hoodies oh my god they're gonna look so good this design is a beautiful i think you guys are gonna love it and the grinders they're like metal and they're like baby pink oh oh my oh my god let's hit this oh yeah okay i didn't think i saw this audio when i was going through them um but they said

not sure if my audio is sent but midterms are coming up so we should care because local represent local representatives matter so much and hot people research and vote in midterms period if you can go vote go vote all of these crazy bullshit political things are happening at a level in which you can make a difference the fucking what was it don't say gay bill what the hell is that you can make a difference because that is in local representatives that people in your city vote for go out and vote if you were 18 focus on who you are electing like and i didn't really well i kind of lucked out in having this be very clear to me because both my parents work within a school district and i didn't realize how much power the school

board had over the school district and what they are learning but right now like in the school district that like um i used to go to the craziest people are being elected and are making such negative changes in the school district that aren't affecting them do you know what i mean like they're implied they're implicating so many different rules that are harshly and negatively affecting these children um and they will never see any negativity from it because they aren't rules that are implied on them it's all these adults who are fucking insane and want to have a power trip so they go for the school board um literally crazy but like you can make a difference in that you can make a difference in what is happening at a local level and i feel like only

people vote for like the president the big election no i mean yes like obviously vote in that but what is most important is what is happening in your community right now community outreach right now to the people around you so show up speak out and fight for what you believe in but yes go vote okay so someone asked and this is a very important question because i feel like a lot of my girlies are graduating high school this year can i get a round of applause congratulations very exciting but um they asked how did you figure out what you wanted to do after high school please help i'm struggling felt and i feel like a lot of people struggle and i actually i feel like everybody struggles um because of societal expectations what's necessary what you got to do

applying to colleges oh my god very stressful one piece of advice I'm really gonna give you when it comes to finding out what you want to do is don't have a set plan coming out of high school and I know that sounds very contradictory but hear me out I feel like the people who allowed themselves to flow and change into new ideas and paths had a lot more success than the people who were like I'm doing this I'm going to college for this I'm picking my college based off this and it's gonna work out because between when you graduate and the year to two years after that you are going to change drastically your view on the world will open you will have quite honestly the whole world at your

fingertips which you don't have in high school there's still rules you're still living under your parents house um you learn a lot about yourself too and i just want you to have the open mindset to change okay if i was going to college right now i would go to college undecided i would pick a college that i know i will succeed at because i know i will enjoy okay the community the vibes like i picked a private catholic school and i had a horrible time because i am not a private catholic person as we all know now if you are a private catholic person maybe you should pick a private catholic school you would love it okay but i can't do with all the harsh rigid rules so i already was not set up for success i had a hard time at a personal level there

and that transferred to my school work and i had a hard time at an academic level so if i was going to college right now if you were worried about what you want to do and college is your choice go undecided pick a school you enjoy and you're gonna get good scholarships at okay and take that first year to get your gen eds out of the way discover who you are and then pick something based on that i also think a gap year is a great idea it's just very hard to get back in the school mindset after you've had a gap year um you do have to be all or nothing when you go back like you have to put your all into it um or else you just will not succeed I had a hard time at first once I took a gap year in between school transfers um and I had a hard time going back I'm not gonna

lie it was a whole year off I love my independence but I also was very passionate about the next school I was going to and in turn I put a lot of passion into the work I was doing so make sure what you're choosing is something you are passionate about I think it's okay to take the time to learn what you want to do to learn what is best for you and to let yourself develop and grow into the world before you choose that okay also for girlies who maybe like aren't super interested in college um I personally believe we put a lot a lot a lot of emphasis on um like our career and our career has to be like what we are meant to do what is our our life's purpose is our career is what we're doing in the world with and making money from um but i believe

that your job does not have to be your passion and personally that's kind of the case for me like this podcast is not my job it's not the biggest money maker in my life okay it's something fun i do i bring in a little money from it but this is more of a creative endeavor that i'm doing um and i source my energy and my passion for life from outside of a career like my friends my family and all my other interests i don't live to work i live to be happy and to love and to be kind as cliche as that sounds sure there are people who love their job and are super passionate about it and truly that's amazing but that's not what defines you i think that if you like your job enough and you like the people you work with then that's all you can ask for rather than searching

and searching for something that may not exist for you as long as you have passions and hobbies that fulfill you that's all that matters and i read that little snippet from flazon um that's their uh like blog but that really spoke to me because you put so much emphasis on these children on deciding what they want to be for the rest of their life when they're quite honestly haven't even been in the world yet and then you maybe find out you don't want to do that thing and you feel like a failure because you're because everything everybody thinks you're backtracking when my parents went to college they had one choice of doing something and they had to fulfill it because they had to make money and they had to I don't know they just had this mindset that they had to

kind of settle and although they found passion in what they're doing and I think they're great and super passionate and they are truly making change within the world I also think they're very lucky I think a lot of people do not find that and if you can find that lovely but also I don't think your career should be your passion I think who you are and the world around you should be your passion so give yourself space to grow give yourself the time and energy to help yourself grow and allow yourself to change that is what I would really tell anybody kind of graduating from high school right now hey queen happy 420 I just wanted to ask you coming from a beginner your best tips besides staying off your phone and deleting tiktok and all that stuff for just trying to be

present in the moment and grounding yourself more but yeah I love you and I'm so excited for your merch to drop because if that shit gets sold out it's because of me okay bye oh my gosh okay so I feel like it's really hard to get off your phone when you're bored I feel like we covered that before like yes you have the inclination to get on your phone so what I would say is challenge yourself to be or put yourself in situations where you feel the urge to not be on your phone like i love my boyfriend because i could spend days with him and never get on my phone i would be fulfilled i would be happy with our interactions and who we are with each other i wouldn't get bored um and i feel like probably you all have friends like that i have friends i

can be around for hours and not want to even touch my phone find situations you also enjoy and it brings that into you find a like sometimes art classes I could go to an art class and sit there for seven hours and have no inclination to even touch my phone uh concerts like I went to a concert recently and my boyfriend was like yeah I hoped you were okay because you didn't post anything I was like I know like that's surprising but I really was just in the moment because I enjoyed it so much i didn't feel the need to get on my phone and post some things i feel like the best experiences that i have are the are the experiences that make me forget all about the world that's going on inside my phone so i think seek those out also personally for me just like

giving myself tasks to do so i'll make a task list for the day and when i'm feeling maybe unaccomplished or i feel bored and i don't know what to do instead of immediately just reaching for my phone and scrolling on tiktok for like six hours i'll go to my task list and be like okay what can i do that will make me feel motivated um and also just like get me up and going and then i'll go do like some chores or something so i feel like that's also a little helpful but seek experiences that want you or that help you disconnect from your phone quite honestly hey babe um I need tips for making my own decisions because I am so indecisive it's literally ruining my life like I so any tips that you have to like that could like maybe

help me out a little I don't know it's on my way anyway love you have a good day i love you oh my goodness so something that like my i kind of learned in math class love okay so i hate math i hate math i could not do math in high school middle school and all my math teachers made me feel like insufficient um not good enough i don't know why we just had bad relationships um i actually had a math teacher once that someone threw a table at because they did not like them I was like damn that's intense it was not me throwing the table but in spirit maybe um but I had this one math teacher in high school she was a bad bitch um she was like a big hippie she taught like intermediate math which is like the lower math which is what I was in or whatever

it was called um and so she was very understanding and she loved helping people understand and one day we were just sitting there and i don't know what big decision i had i can't remember but she brought a coin to me and she brought just like a little quarter to me and she said flip it and i was like what she was like yeah flip it you have two choices flip it let that let the coin decide and i was like oh like okay like i guess like sure it'll make a decision for me but it's not really making a decision and I flipped the coin and it landed on the answer that subconsciously I was like kind of not really wanting and I didn't really know that until the coin landed on it and she was like well how do you feel about that answer and I was like it wasn't the one I was

really wanting and once I verbalized that she was like there now you have your answer don't pick that one like don't rely on chance but if you need something to help you motivate you forward just force yourself to pick one flip a coin once that answer reveals itself you'll really know in your heart which one is better um because it'll land on something and you'll either be like yes peace calm or it'll land on something and you'll be like why quite honestly so that's a fun little practice if you really are super indecisive because i feel you on that also that math teacher i loved her she always had just like boyfriends she was never married actually she might have married once but i think it was a bad decision she always had boyfriends and literally she forced

her boyfriend to ride their bikes six miles to my graduation party she showed up they had their bikes in tow she brought her boyfriend with her she's like i wanted you to meet him i was like oh my god keep in mind she was like 65 like riding a bike that that much whoa impressive but yeah i loved her oh my gosh we are like over two hours i could keep going i would keep going but i have to go to work i have to go to work i also gotta get myself some lunch i didn't realize how late it's been those mangoes really helped it really gives you just like an elevated high definitely 10 out of 10 go eat some mangoes go smoke some weed on this happy 420 go get outside i wish i could get outside right now there's no better way to experience 420 than to just smoke

outside in nature get out go on a little walk go take a little drive i well you can't smoke and drive but my favorite thing in high school to do would be to just like go on drives with my friends and we just like load a bowl and pass it around in the past in the past officer in the past i've grown i've changed but yeah just honor yourself treat yourself i think 420 is all about indulging a little bit we all have our sweet tooth we all have our little like um our little what is it called and i don't know indulgence i guess something you really want but don't often give yourself i feel like that is weed to a lot of people so 420 is just a great holiday to really indulge and have all your favorites you know what i mean but i love you

all so much thank you so much for joining me for this 420 special oh my goodness it's been a good one have you guys had fun we just really kept going with this i was having a great time i also love all of the questions you submitted me i didn't even cover half of them um i need to do so but i will resubmit that link so you guys can send in more audio messages i love that did you guys love that i love that thank you so much to everybody who did send me something um it was so great to hear from you guys and just get to connect so if you ever ever ever have a question once again if you would like to submit it by audio by voice message please feel free to do so now that we have that as an option i will always be providing it for you but also if you prefer

your um animinity and and it's not animosity oh my god i had this issue earlier my fucking brain if you prefer to keep yourself anonymous i understand i hear you and i support that as well i still want your questions i still want to help you answer those so i will always provide that questionnaire and like always my dms are always open to anything you guys want to submit me um whether it's funny pictures life experience new questions um anything i i just love to hear from you guys i love using this as a connection tool so let's smoke one more little bully bowl um also i will be in la next week i'm not sure what that looks like for the podcast i'm still trying to figure out maybe some scheduling things um either it'll be two podcasts um a little later in the

week or it'll be maybe one big one we'll see i'm not quite sure yet but i will update you guys please follow the instagram at hannah marlene all updates are posted there also if you're from the la area i'll probably post a questionnaire um on things to do in la on my instagram but if you have any recommendations any things you particularly enjoy any good food oh my god please all the food any dispensaries you want me to go to any weed you want me to try any strains that are your favorite please please please submit them i want to maybe do some like instagram lives going over strains so i would love to talk about that with you guys um and also i would love to bring it up on the next podcast so any recommendations i am more than happy to take

last time i went to la it was a fucking blast i'll be posting a lot while i'm there so you guys can come with me go on a little vacation with me i'm just so excited i work every single day until we leave like literally i bartend every fucking night and then i will get off my bartending shift at like 11 o'clock at night and we have to leave at 5 a.m yep we gotta leave at 5 a.m so it's gonna be really good it's gonna be really worth it i just can't wait to go sit on the beach and chill and eat some good food some ceviche some korean barbecue some oysters some fresh seafood or not seafood fresh sushi um because in kansas city you do not eat the fucking you don't eat the seafood you don't unfortunately unless it's salmon usually they can quality control salmon

pretty well but you don't eat the seafood in Kansas City it's just sketch it really is we're just too far away from water for it to be fresh you know what I mean so let's hit this I will submit this podcast as soon as I can so you guys can join me on your 420 adventures you can bring me along with you as well I hope you guys had a wonderful 420 thank you for joining me oh my goodness i'm gonna go work my ass off eat some good food smoke some weed with my co-workers maybe we'll see but i hope you all have a wonderful rest of your day have fun celebrating also once again last prisoner project if you want to do something today which you really should i'll be doing so as well donate write letters reach out repost literally anything you can i love them as a

resource if we get to indulge we should help people who have been victimized by this so let's hit this bowl and with that i hope you all have a wonderful 420 thank you for joining me