Smoke Sesh - the divine feminine, sex toys & girl blunts

Episode Date: January 25, 2022

happy Tuesday! Today we talk serving and how to make the most $$$, serving sugar daddy dates, the divine feminine and how to step into it, porn, sex toys, girl blunts & how to roll and future festivals hannah’s going to. Welcome to Smoke Sesh feel free to light up and hang out! See you Thursday

Listen, everybody needs a fairy godmother, you know, someone to look out for them. Some people call me their internet big sister, others their fairy smoke mother. You can call me Hannah, the new host of Smoke Sash. So come hang out, let's light up and talk everything there is to life. Some good, the bad, the ugly, the embarrassing. I've got a story for it all. Hello everybody, happy Tuesday. How are we all doing today?

i personally am fucking exhausted i am exhausted i have closed the restaurant every fucking night for the past like four days which means oh my god literally like the restaurant industry is great i personally love it my restaurant is like the perfect fucking restaurant to work at especially as a server because I don't have to work lunches um we don't even fucking have lunch options um during the week I only have to work night shifts which is awesome because I always have like my morning um to myself like usually until four o'clock like I have that full day to myself um but you know you go into work at four and ideally usually I'm off by like nine or ten so it's like perf like quick five hour shift i make a couple hundred dollars like awesome

but when you close um you could possibly be there for a little longer just just you know like possibly be there for a little longer um the first night i closed we close our restaurant at 10 o'clock at night um if you are this type of person don't be don't be please i'm begging don't be um because we had we had um all of the guests leave the restaurant you know the only two people were sitting at the bar that's it i wasn't even serving them at that point i had no tables left i was ready to go home it was 11 o'clock at night like we're supposed to be shutting this bitch down like getting her packed up literally only two people at the bar and they were so incoherently drunk that they were just like i was like passive aggressively cleaning and like

looking over at them like to see if they would even notice that i'm trying to like close the restaurant down and fucking put up chairs and blowing out candles they're just giggling having a good time i was like fuck this like no offense no offense but like my restaurant is not a bar it is not a bar if y'all want to drink there are like 12 bars right next to my restaurant they can go to that but it was 11 45 at night i was there almost until midnight and i was like i i want to die i this is this is my nightmare this is horrible i want to go home so i have just been exhausted it ever since that and i've been trying to fucking just power through i finally have some days off um starting tomorrow so thank god i'll finally do some resting relaxation if it if it seems like i

like disappear off of instagram for a while i'm not updating you on my life as much um tbh that's usually because i'm just so busy at work and i have no energy in the mornings to do anything but lay in bed quite honestly um so i will be updating on instagram about my life what i'm doing on my days off when i finally have a chance to fucking pull myself together but wow work is working me it's it's really working me i'm not gonna lie um but hey the money's good and my shopping addiction is going hard so oh my god i just bought my valentine's day outfit i'm i'm so excited we'll go over all the valentine's day plans and you know my past valentine's days and what i'm expecting to do um probably once february hits so next tuesday's

podcast i think let me check let me check my fucking calendar yeah next tuesday next tuesday's podcast will be february 1st so we'll do a little special valentine's day segment that day i feel like that i gotta i gotta wait till february at least you know what i mean we're gonna power through this week um today's episode might be a little short i got work in t minus two hours so i'm gonna fly through some questions help you out the best i can on thursday's episode i'm gonna ask for some anonymous confessions some story times to maybe read into um on the podcast i think that'd be so fun um so if you have any feel free to dm me or dm them to me um i'll also put up a questionnaire of course i always do on my instagram at handle marlene if you're interested

um but holy shit let's get into some questions okay first question which i mean we were already kind of talking about it um people have been asking me actually i in the past i gave you guys advice being like you should get a serving job if you need money quickly um because it is fast fucking money you know what i mean um so a lot of you guys were like how do i become a hot server how do i make all of that money like um working as a server i just started need some tips slash advice such funny stories so like listen i i got you serving was never something i thought i would start but now that i have started it i make almost the same amount serving and people always look down at me when i say i'm a server my family my friends like whatever they're like you're a server

you know what i mean that's just like a classist viewpoint on things like people just think that if you aren't working like a college level education job um then what you're doing isn't valuable when in reality everything anybody is doing to work is valuable because it's adding to society and also i'm making the same if not more and not paying off student debt um than the people who did graduate and got those big girl big boy jobs you know what i mean because my friend's a nurse and i my first college choice not that i'm saying you should drop out of college and do any of this i'm just saying serving is a great option for people in college you can make so much money for people outside of college personally i just love it um i was talking to my friend so like

my original goal was to become a nurse and make money that way because i knew it was really good money um and she was talking about her salary and although right now she's getting a ton of fucking bonuses because of covid and picking up extra shifts hourly we make about the same like straight up i make about the same amount of money as my um friend who is a a brand new nurse okay and I could probably make more if I picked up more shifts I'm just lazy and I can work a majority maybe four days a week because I do work outside of it but like it is such good money so fast so when picking a restaurant personally when I reapplied for serving jobs I was looking at restaurants with appetizers that were at least over $10 on average and entrees that were at least

over $15 on average does that make sense because you don't have to do as much selling to make your tips you gotta assume that everybody's gonna tip 20% no matter what I show up to work I do my hair I got my lashes on I got my makeup done I got a fit on you know what I mean like I am showing up to work to serve in the most presentable manner that I possibly can because people I mean I've done the little test before I've shown up and not makeup and I've shown up in makeup and I listen I don't make the rules but people tip better when I'm in makeup and that's like perfectly fine whatever like respect respectfully like people tip better when I have a good outfit on people tip better when I have my hair done and like whatever that's fine service industry is kind

of a surface level um job like you've got to have yourself looking good so um if i'm showing up to work i'm assuming i'm gonna make 20 off every table no matter what now that means i want their tabs to be high okay you have to be a salesperson as a server every server is a salesperson and if you're not looking at your job as a salesperson you're not gonna make money um as soon as they sit down you grab them waters you ask if they want anything other to drink um other than water now you go ahead and take that opportunity to run down the list of cocktails you have all of our cocktails are ten dollars um maybe a little less maybe a little more i usually also like to sell bottles of wine if someone is ordering if somebody's ordering a glass of wine i ask

are you gonna have multiple are you gonna be interested in a another glass around your main course because if so um i would really like to suggest a bottle of wine we always um cork it for free for you and send it home with you if you want to finish off the bottle at home later oh my god women eat that shit up they love it they're like okay yeah you know what i'll get a bottle and then finish the bottle you know at home get a little freaky you know like they like that they like being entertained people who go out to eat like having an enthusiastic entertaining server um and it really takes practice to kind of be able to open yourself up and be comfortable in those situations but the more you practice the more you'll get it i guarantee um but you're a

salesperson you gotta sell that shit sell a few appetizers sell at least an entree to every person try and push a dessert if you can okay because you gotta rack up that bill straight up like you it's your job to basically rack up that bill okay the the higher the bill is the more you get tipped um like i had somebody i had like a six top and they all ended up getting appetizers and entrees and desserts and the tab was like over four hundred dollars so that's like a hundred tip for me like you got to think about it like that so literally put on your best self show up i always spray on some perfume because my restaurant smells like a restaurant and um i usually wear the glossier perfume because it's like powdery and um like citrusy and a little

fruity um which is kind of the opposite smell of my restaurant because it's a fucking oh i'm not gonna tell you what kind of restaurant it is but it's a restaurant it smells like grease and hot oil oh my god so when i walk through there people are like head turning like what is that smell and it's me you know what i mean people like that be presentable be open to people you gotta sell them shit um i don't know serving serving it's it's really easy once you get um a handle of it and the money really really will flow quickly but be yourself people love it try and work at a restaurant that has higher um entrees and higher priced items also the area I work in is important because there's just like so many factors you never would have thought of but the area I work

in is important because everybody who lives in the area is like rich very much so but they're also like kind of humble about it does that make sense it's like it's like millennial rich um not like it's like 30 year old rich right now where they're like i have money and i also have money to tip they're not like old people who are stingy with their fucking tip money you know what i mean like you gotta earn this like these people are like no i'm making good money and i will always tip because of that which is fantastic great like if you can find a restaurant where it's like high priced items or like moderately priced items okay good hours good environment good area a good location boom pow you will be perfectly set like straight up um oh my god but i always

get like a fun customers like i love being a server because um i get to interact with people a lot and i get to interact and talk and get to know people and i've had some interesting tables before i haven't had any interesting tables like super lately um i had a lot of nerds recently which is kind of fun because they get so uncomfortable they just like don't know what to do and they don't make eye contact with you and i'm like i don't know if you're talking to me or like your friend because you're not looking me in the face when you're trying to order but like i understand the social anxiety like i've been there i'll work with you i'm so sorry but like um my friend the other day had a um sugar daddy table which like respect respect she she

got a fat tip from him too we could tell it was a sugar daddy table i've had a sugar daddy table before too it's interesting serving the sugar daddy tables i've never been in the sugar daddy realm i've never been on a sugar daddy date i've never tried to do any of that um because i'm too weird and awkward and i don't know but um i have served one before um i don't know if i've told this story and usually usually it's very discreet like with the two people that came in the other week it was discreet the only reason we could really tell is because of like the age and the way they were interacting um they both kind of just sat on their phones the whole time but the one time i served a sugar daddy table it was like when i was a new server a couple years ago

and this like lady walks in she's like i'm gonna meet this man here um i need to be a corner booth like blah blah blah i was like okay girl i got you she sits down she's beautiful i was like hell yeah this man comes in sits down with her i was like oh father maybe it's a dad like obviously very much older than this woman she was like mid-20s maybe he was like mid-80s so like i was like oh you know daddy daughter date maybe he walked right over sits down plants a kiss straight on her lips and is like hugging on her and i was like oh oh okay and i didn't know if i was being like so every time i like think these things i'm always like hannah that is so rude and judgmental like don't think that way like maybe they're just in love like you know whatever so i go over there

i drop their waters and i'm being very nice they're both being very nice towards me she's being like very understanding he's being like i don't know making jokes like they order like seven entrees to share multiple drinks to share he's fucked up they're just sharing food ordering more food like this is a fat tab he's like eventually like in the middle of the meal he's like oh you're very beautiful I was like oh thank you you know it's sweet um he was like oh you know me and her I love her so much we met the same way uh same way your work is she was my server one day and I just you know I I just help her out now I pay for her rent I pay for her car she's a nurse she's in school I pay for her schooling she just keeps she just hangs out with me and just is you know I was

like oh my god girl you have this shit figured out why is this not me like what um he was like yeah i just pay for her like i was also like why are you telling me this like i had these ideas you did not need to tell me this this man was like drunk and just like blabbering you know what i mean and i could tell the girl was like a little bit uncomfortable but i'm not one to judge i'm like girl get your money I was like okay hell yeah well I hope you guys are having a good time I do remember he tipped me very well and and in cash period if you're gonna tip always tip in cash because um then we don't have to claim it on our taxes period um but yeah I have served a sugar daddy table and yeah they always take care of you they always do every sugar daddy they um every

sugar daddy table always tips the people very well which is like impressive like y'all aren't broke there's no brokenness going on with these tables they have money they're just there to like literally eat dinner with a pretty girl and then go home which is like a move good for them straight up my restaurant's the perfect place if y'all want to come on a sugar daddy to eat my restaurant uh please come sit at my table and please make your mans to me fat because that is i just want money god i gotta work today holy shit i'm not prepared my restaurant really is the easiest place to work out though i love serving um i think it genuinely fixed a lot of my social anxiety problems um my social anxiety problems really stemmed from my anxiety um my lack of self-esteem

and my lack of experience interacting with the public um once i fixed the lack of experience interacting with the public my self-esteem rose because I had more practice I realized no one gives a fuck I realized everybody's more in their own head than they are in yours no one can fucking see in your head that raised my self-esteem and then now I'm pretty much chilling I'm not gonna lie I it took me a good year though of like learning how to interact with the public when I first started hosting like I couldn't even look people in the eyes but get out there get her done you can do it I believe in you you'll make so much money um but yeah I don't know it's been good so far I don't plan on serving for the rest of my life it's a good thing right now because like

it's just so much money so quickly like I walk out with multiple hundreds in my hand every night and then that goes directly into my bank account so like as somebody who doesn't really know what my future looks like but for the time being wants to travel wants to look hot wants to have flexible hours wants to be able to have her mornings to herself it's like perfect so i really couldn't be happier where i am um thank god i am planning a trip to mexico though so i need to pick up some shifts so i can fucking pay for that airbnb oh my god but okay let's get into more questions i gotta get this done cheating okay not to jump into this but like cheating i had somebody send a dm oh it's 10 30 in the morning my brain needs to wake up okay so let me read this to you because

i think it's something that a lot of a lot of people in general can relate to okay so in love with my current partner he's genuinely the man of my dreams and i see a future with him but lately i found myself carrying around some baggage from my last relationship for being betrayed and cheated cheated on and i'm scared it's going to affect my current relationship i'm trying really hard to heal the trauma but i find myself scared that my boy current boyfriend will cheat on me because of my last and it really fucks my mind would love some advice if you have any okay so like i've never been cheated on um to my knowledge i think somebody probably cheated on me i'm just not sure when and i don't know the details thank god i personally would rather not know tbh that sounds

so bad but like like you're saying you're having a little bit of relationship trauma um from previous experiences and that's okay that's valid i'm not like your feelings are valid no matter how you're feeling them i understand it can be scary opening yourself up to a new relationship especially if you've been hurt in the past um my current partner has some relationship trauma from the past um and it comes up but uh as the partner who is kind of helping their partner through that trauma knowing that trauma and having them be open and honest with me about it in the past and knowing that kind of background also knowing that that anxiety when it stems from him is from something in the past and not from something really i've done and not all i have to do is

really reassure him and show that like i am a loving kind person who's going to be in his life forever that usually settles the score okay so with your partner if you are having this relationship anxiety they're your partner and you should never feel scared to share that with them okay be like hey i'm feeling a little bit of anxiety it's not your fault i just would love some reassurance right now okay and if they're your partner they're gonna do that if your partner cannot reassure you when you're feeling a little nervous a little anxious a little you know that is not a partner they are not ready to be in a partnership no offense you need somebody who's going to show up and be there for you and reassure you even when you aren't asking for reassurance okay

it's okay to have some anxiety make sure your partner is there to work with you and make sure you're being open about your past with your partner that is super helpful okay you don't have to go through this on your own you're together you can work on it together also cheating anxiety in general um i've never been cheated on but i feel like every person who goes into a relationship is a little bit if not a lot afraid of getting cheated on um and in my past i let it dictate my relationships way too much um i was talking to my co-worker about this and it's just way better to protect your peace of mind than it is to worry about somebody else's actions does that make sense um so like in the past i used to track my my exes like i would have

their location on like their phone plus their snap maps they would have to respond to me quickly they would i would get anxious if they weren't responding to me quickly i would get anxious if um they their car was in a new place that i didn't know of i was constantly checking location i was constantly just oh my god so much anxiety so much nervousness and for what it is a goddamn waste of time because here's the thing if they want to cheat they are going to cheat it's going to happen and there's no amount of control that you can put into that relationship to make it not happen the only thing you can do for yourself is choose hopefully the right partner and if they do cheat on you understand you did everything right you went into that relationship with the best fucking

like mindset the best ideas you wanted to love that person and they don't love themselves enough to see that and they did cheat on you and that's not okay but you learn their true colors and you can move on all right they have broke ties you can move on i have learned that if somebody that i'm in a relationship with is going to cheat on me it's a waste of my time to try and control them because that's going to push them further away and it's going to drive you more insane the best you can do is give that person all the freedom in the fucking world and hope and pray that you know what they're a real partner because a partner is somebody who's going to show up for you somebody who's going to constantly uh you know put you first make decisions based on well not really

but like you know a partner's not gonna fucking cheat on you i don't know they're gonna do things that are good for both of you you know what i mean um but releasing that control and also not giving into things that allow you to have some sort of control because it makes you go a little crazy um yeah like the whole location thing i don't think you really need people's locations um i think it's gonna drive you insane like my boyfriend won't respond to me for like three hours and i'll be like okay when in the past i'd be like oh my god where is he is he out is he out doing something is he you know it doesn't matter i don't care i'm peaceful in what i'm doing if he's off being a fucking hoe let him that's fine he can be a goddamn hoe but

that isn't that's those are his decisions and you cannot control other people's decisions and the less you try and control people's decisions the more peace you'll find um straight up but if you are having anxiety from the past and you are in a current relationship or you're trying to get into a current relationship or you're even just talking to people be honest with your past be honest with what's happened to you okay i saw a tiktok that's like never tell a man what you've been through because then they'll know how they can treat you if that's the kind of men you're interacting with you are not interacting with good men oh my god like what the fuck like that's terrifying that you're interacting only with men who are going to use your past against you oh my god run you are

not making good decisions in your life if you're constantly around those people okay in reality most people can see fucking multiple sides of things most people are there to listen to you especially if they're there um in hopes of having a future with you they're gonna understand you they're gonna listen to you and they're gonna try and work through it and if they don't that person's not meant to be in your life simple oh my god the divine feminine the divine feminine an album by mac miller um no so i've been getting a lot of questions about the divine feminine like a lot i think i um maybe covered it not even covered it i brought it up um in the last podcast talking about the divine feminine um and people are like what is the divine feminine how do i

step into my divine feminine what do i do oh my goodness and okay we'll do a little breakdown so the divine feminine like although i when i just when i speak of this i'm speaking this speaking of this outside of like sex and gender and more so in a fluidity type of way okay so keep that in mind um i believe every single person like if you think of it as a spectrum of like male female um i think every single person has that spectrum within them but it's not at a set point i think it ebbs and flows all right keep that in mind as well so um there's a divine masculine and a divine feminine if you're a man that does not mean you're a divine masculine if you're a female that doesn't does not mean you are divine feminine it is a energy and a mindset

and a power that you can step into no matter your gender or sex okay does that make sense um i feel like a lot of people are asking me how to step into their divine feminine because a lot of people especially right now post pandemic we're all trying to put our lives back together make the right decisions be in control a lot of us are in our divine masculine kind of mindsets and that's okay but you do need to ebb and flow pretty equally between the two to keep yourself regulated does that make sense okay it's very if you think of it like this you go out you do all these chores you go complete all your tasks in a day you go do everything that you need to do check off all your lists easy you're tired you're exhausted you just

put in some hard fucking work you get home at the end of the day all you want to do is do your favorite self-care things such as like oh maybe take a bubble bath and read and light a candle and relax and feel your body and your energy and just chill okay the divine masculine would be what you're doing in that day the taking control the finishing tasks the doing all that the divine feminine would be the end of the night actions relaxing chilling very much peace flow kind of mindset okay it's not some big thing you need to step into it's not some oh special spiritual trick that only like hot sexy women know no divine feminine is available for everybody it is just an emphasis on taking care of your psyche and your body and your well-being okay

men especially need this okay like not even i say men especially need this but like everybody especially needs this um me myself i personally have been stepping into my divine feminine more um because i have kind of been way into control of my life and way too controlling and it's made me feel too masculine in a sense um and when i say masculine once again not male female i don't know it's confusing i'm trying to explain this i can't um but i've been feeling very much masculine energies in myself because i am super duper independent i like way independent probably to the point where it's like a little bit harmful like i have a hard time asking for help i have a hard time kind of working with others sometimes especially if it's like a project

of my own um i like taking control i like being in control um that's all great that's all fine but it gets exhausting after a point and um i have been trying to intentionally step into my divine feminine to kind of combat those overwhelming anxious feelings about control in my life so let me tell you what i've been doing the divine feminine is really about honoring um your own sacred femininity and everybody has femininity in them no matter who who they are okay um men need to step into their divine feminine women need to step into their divine feminine um but it's basically just like soft but fierce when necessary loving and supportive we find natural access to spiritual qualities like receptivity patience the ability to listen and the care for all life

through honoring the sacred feminine um now here's some really great ways to kind of reclaim and step into it so reclaim rest all right the hustle culture the grind culture is going to kill you it's going to actually kill you okay you need rest you need relaxation almost more than the fucking grind part okay you need to make sure you're taking care of yourself embrace your sensuality now sensuality is not sexuality um sensuality is kind of about physical pleasure but not in a sexual manner so think about um touch feeling um sensitivity with the body so it could be dance it could be bath it could be textures any sort of that sensuality within the body um journaling i journal all the time i journal all the time i'm getting some questions

that are like how do you journal what questions do you answer i don't answer questions in my journal occasionally i do if i don't know what to mind dump or get out i don't really have anything i'll just do like a daily page um look up a few questions online i have a little repertoire of questions in my phone as well that i'll pick up sometimes um answer the answer those questions if i need to but that rarely ever happens when i'm writing in my journal it is not pretty it is not fun um people are like how do you get your thoughts together even cohesively enough to write them down no my thoughts in my journal aren't cohesive that's not the point of it i'm just dumping so i don't feel as overwhelmed in my head i'm journaling to get it out okay

journaling is super helpful um because it can help tap into your creativity another quality of the divine feminine practice self-love um the ultimate way to probably embrace the divine feminine is to practice self-love um one of the biggest components of self-love is compassion and compassion is the love language of the sacred divine feminine okay um what else get in touch with your dreams um interpreting your dreams and the symbolic nature of those can be very helpful personally i don't do a lot of dream work within myself but i've been getting a lot of dms from people who do a lot of um dream work uh kind of step into your space honoring your space make sure your divine energy is flowing throughout your space in your home and then

prioritizing me time okay so you gotta have time to yourself you gotta have time to reconnect with yourself like hanging out with friends and your partner is super fun lovely funky fresh um but if you're constantly around people all the time you kind of take on and adapt to those qualities and the type of behavior that they enjoy and you need time alone to be able to understand who you are how you behave in a space where other people aren't okay that's very very important tap into your intuition like i said there's nothing more power more powerful than a woman's intuition quite honestly um listening to yourself trusting your gut trusting those instinct feelings now once again um instinct feelings intuition are going to bring you some sort of sense of peace at the end

of the tunnel they do not cause anxiety related thoughts okay um and yeah i don't know but the divine feminine i think is very important i think it's very important to kind of find a good balance within yourself between the divine feminine and the divine masculine because too much of one thing is never good and it's really good to try and find a balance because personally i've been feeling way better way rested more um i don't know just like more comfortable in life by trying to intentionally have very um equal aspects of the divine feminine and the divine masculine in my life but yeah i'll try any of those things let me know how it goes but anybody can really step into it and i really encourage you all to okay so someone asked me we're gonna blast you some

questions here by the way we only got like 21 minutes left so let's get into it i'm gonna make a cup of coffee smoke a little bowl but someone asked me how do you deal with feeling like your friends secretly hate you even though they don't like you said they don't and if they did hate you they wouldn't be around you um straight up you have to assume everybody likes you there is no problem unless otherwise stated all the time that has saved so much of my mental health my peace and unnecessarily unnecessary overthinking and anxiety if they're in my life i'm assuming they're choosing to be in my life and if they're not fucking grown up to exit my life like a grown-up then that's on them i that's straight up on them you know what i mean that's not your fault

also they do like you if they didn't like you sorry i'm me shaking oat milk next to the mic i am so sorry no thought was going through my brain um but if they didn't like you they wouldn't be there period you have to assume that people's intentions are true because inherently they are true you cannot always assume their ulterior motives or else you go crazy um unless they say otherwise period okay next question um how do you find motivation while depressed i don't um my depression cycles go very quickly because i allow myself to be depressed and i know that's like never an answer anybody would ever possibly give you including a therapist like who's gonna be like yeah no be depressed

like it's okay me i'm telling you that it's okay to be depressed the best way to get through a depressive episode is to feel those feelings fully um in the shortest amount of time that you possibly can because then you can like actually take the time to feel your emotions why am i feeling these emotions what can i work through at this time can i journal what can i do to make myself feel better once you take those steps those actions you actually will start feeling better you can't fake it until you make it through a depression it's probably just gonna make you worse like you can fake it through confidence but you really can't fake it through a depression um work through those emotions work through what you're feeling allow yourself to you

know maybe soak a little bit go take a bath but then like once you feel like it's over you're ready to step back into your life to find you know motivation again do start with small steps very small steps start with lists lists are very helpful and it's very satisfying to cross them off a list even if it's one thing a day um but really start small work your way up to big activities big things big chores you know but you'll get through it i guarantee oh my god okay thoughts on porn and anal sex porn culture specifically um i think a lot of the porn that is that is accessible for free is not good porn nor is it showing um a type of now here's the thing like oh god have i talked about porn on here yet before okay so like porn i think porn

is important because we do not get an uh a um adequate sexual um health explaining slash knowledge here in america they do not teach us any sort of sexual health other than abstinence okay and like maybe wear a condom so here's the thing i think porn would be a very good teachable way of using that tool to help people understand sex um but there's a lot missing from porn that you don't see um when you're watching a three minute hardcore fucking i don't know like hardcore porn gangbang bitch you're not seeing them sit down at a table an hour maybe a week before, exchanging notes saying they are both clean from STDs, exchanging verbal consent. What is okay? What is not okay? Is it okay to come here? Is it okay to come here? Can I, can I do

these things to you? Exchanging verbal consent. The STDs and the verbal consent is never shown in foreplay, is never shown in porn. And that's why I think, you know, porn is probably not the most healthy thing for young people to be consuming especially because a lot of the free porn that's out there is very like anti-women porn does that make sense it's very aggressive it's very um harmful like sure you can be into that type of sex like girl me too but like i don't think we should put those preconceived notions into young people's minds that sex should be painful and or harmful in that sort of way like hardcore shit is fine but like that's not normal sex does that make sense i'm not trying to slut shame like at all at all like there are goods and bads to porn

now i think only fans is probably the closest we're gonna get to ethical porn um you have to be like 18 plus no matter what if you're gonna upload on that now i think it should be like 21 plus tbh i don't think anybody should be able to like uh probably like even strip or like sell porn until you're like 21 like straight up um and also like only fans allows for girls especially because i feel like the system the adult system kind of takes advantage of young women um OnlyFans allows for girls to be their own bosses to be in control of what they're producing how they're producing it it is completely up to them which I think is very important um but also too much porn consumption is not good not good ever period but like a little bit yeah whatever

you can watch it that's fine but like also be go be aware of what you're what you're watching um anal sex listen we're gonna get down and dirty and honest with each other okay let me take a sip of my coffee before we get into this um i love it um i know i might be crazy so like first time i ever did anal i hated it it was horrible it was a little traumatic um well i was also greened out and this man tried to shove his dick inside of me um and yeah not good not good not good not good but new man great fantastic um someone else asked me about favorite sex toys i think everybody should incorporate sex toys into sex lives i think they're super fun they switch it up a little bit you know what i mean um i don't know straight up sometimes you know what

maybe your man's fingers are getting tired and you just need a little vibrator perfect love it vibrator is a great thing to incorporate into your um sex lives because a it's great for you you know you can come very easily from a vibrator um and then also this is crazy i'm giving you so any tips but like i'm your big sister so like use these wisely but if you take a vibrator and like put it um on the underneath kind of like just like gently on the underneath part like behind the balls like the gooch you just set it there oh my god also heard great things from other women also um a butt plug i think they're super fun i know it's a little crazy um but i have a vibrating butt plug which is even better because like i like toys that are kind of pleasurable for both

of us does that make sense um so like nipple clamps it's interactive for both of us it's for me but also he gets to put them on me uh vibrator you know it feels pleasurable pleasurable for both of us butt plug super fun also it's a vibrating butt plug so when it's inside of you and it vibrates first of all it's like it's shaking everything down there so it kind of feels like you would vibrate it on your clit but also like if a man's fucking you um it vibrates like right on the um like the top of his like shaft so then like it vibrates him and then that feels really good now all of these tips your man will come in three to four seconds i am not even fucking kidding you three to four seconds okay so like you use these wisely very wisely um anal sex is

great i i oh okay so like i don't know i've done it a lot with my man but the best way to probably do it is to maybe start with a butt plug because then you can like stretch yourself out a little bit because like your asshole is tight everybody's asshole is tight okay and men think they can just ram their dicks into your asshole as if it is a vagina no vaginas are like they can stretch a little bit they got a little bit more give plus it's like naturally just like sweat down there you know naturally like ushy gushy that doesn't happen with anal and men think that like oh i can just shove my dick inside an asshole like i can a pussy no that's not how that's gonna work so like lube important take it slow i recommend like laying on your belly like flat i think it's

called the kim k pose i'm not even fucking with you um but you just straight up lay on your stomach legs out like just just lay like a dead person on your stomach you know put a pillow underneath your hip bones so it has like a little bit of arch but also you don't have to intentionally arch your back you can just lay there and i think the best way to do anal is just to kind of straight up take it um because it's like overwhelming a little bit and then yeah lube it up and go slow go slow the this is like a lot of tmi but straight up so like your asshole has like two sphincters does that make sense there's like kind of two uh i don't know but it you have to like the tip past first so like start slow because you got to make sure those like muscles

those sphincters are like a little loose before you could take a whole cock okay so yeah i don't know give it a shot get a little freaky if you want but like take it slow communicate with your partner buy some toys buy some i've gotten like um i love like um from you can get bondage tape from like the sex store so you can like a bondage tape but also it's not tape like it's like just like this like silicone thin but it sticks together so it's nice um but it doesn't like hurt your wrist or anything what else whips i don't know like get into it like whatever excites you bring it up to your partner see if it's okay see if it works together have these conversations before sex um maybe not during sex so you guys don't feel any sort of like pressure like bring

it up casually i don't know see if they get excited about it i don't know i'm a little bit of a freak I'm not gonna lie like I'm a big freak actually straight up so if any of those tips are a little bit too much like respect but I love sex I love having sex and I will always give you honest answers oh god mom and dad if you're listening to this oh I'm so sorry I already told you not to listen to this but god damn how to set respectful boundaries with friends um with good friends needing some help okay if they're good friends when you set a boundary um it's not gonna shock them they should be perfectly fine with it they should be chill with it they should just be like okay cool you know there should be no drama also like a boundary doesn't ever have to be like

harsh and intense and ah you know like i feel like people are like well when i'm setting a boundary it needs to be dramatic in some sort of sense no just be like hey uh i need a little bit more time to myself i don't know what the boundary is but like we're gonna come up with theoretical here hey i need a little bit more time to myself just to be alone if they're good friends they're gonna be like okay if they're bad friends they're gonna start drama so like you really should not be afraid if anything you should gauge who what kind of person they are based on their reaction um to what you're gonna say but what you're saying should you should never feel like what you're saying is wrong especially if you're standing up for yourself and setting

boundaries they're good friends i guarantee they'll be okay with it um oh god thoughts on abortions or teen pregnancy um i think straight up oh well of course like uh my body my choice always always like this if you want to get an abortion cool if you don't want to get an abortion cool period those are my thoughts it's like not even that deep i don't know why there's people marching outside of places where people can get abortions like it's not that deep if they want to get it cool if they don't cool hello have you ever gotten too high and what are some alternatives to getting over that um cbd if you ever get too high like i said i've partnered with passpacks i still partner with passpacks i love them i've partnered with them for years um i use them daily passpacks

CBD whether it's a flower a little pre-rule a dab pen which is incredible um CBD helps naturally bring you down when you are overwhelmed that's why as somebody who has a generalized anxiety disorder um smoking weed which also gives you more anxiety I like to mix CBD into it or get a higher strain or get a strain with higher CBD just like a little bit higher than average um so then it helps combat those anxious feelings cbd is incredible i love it so much you can use code smoke sesh for 10 off at past packs as well if you're ever interested in trying it learning to feel pretty again without a shit ton of makeup on love the pod so like i've had to come up with the realization that i'm like two kinds of pretty like well obviously i'm pretty in so many different

ways because i love myself and i'm beautiful and i'm gorgeous and so are you um but i have had to learn to learn to love myself when i have a full face on lashes um fucking winged eyeliner like a crazy bitch like love it love that whole put up look but also i love when i have my hair natural and i have a bare face and i um just like fresh clean face i love both and you have to learn both learn to love both um also giving yourself giving yourself time to see yourself both ways um when i was younger like middle school to high school i wore mascara and like a sharp winged eyeliner look religiously and i took it off at like 1am every night after i got into snapchatting people like i would only take it off once people weren't gonna see me and it kind of warped the way

i viewed myself a little bit like i could not view myself without fucking winged eyeliner like first thing i got up and did was put on winged eyeliner and i had to learn you have to actively you know have moments where you intentionally are not putting on makeup and you're seeing seeing yourself without makeup same way you were intentionally putting yourself um in makeup to feel pretty you know to treat yourself a little bit I don't know but you got to make room for both in existing both ways does that make any sort of sense I don't know but okay so someone asked me how to be content with being single when everyone around you is in a happy relationship I think this is a valid question because a lot of my single friends i've been talking to recently especially

with valentine's day coming up they're getting a little like sad a little lonely you know valid valentine's day is a little bit triggering especially when you're not in a relationship at the time um but western society puts way too much of an emphasis on the um plate no what am i trying to think of of the romantic relationship okay because we do not emphasize enough community based love let me say that again we put too much of an emphasis on romantic relationship because we do not receive community-based love enough okay nor have we really established any sense of needing that in a society we've really only established a sense of a relationship type of love now although relationships are fun funky fresh like we as humans you know we like to

partner off we like to have relationships that's fun that's awesome that's great you also need to have a sense of community and you need to have a sense of love within that community and if anything that is more important than any sort of type of relationship um because i feel like a lot of people feel like they're missing out oh i'm not in a relationship i i no one loves me um i've never had a boyfriend okay but you have a group of like five friends who love you and would do anything for you and if anything that is way way more important than any relationship ever will be building communities and building communities for yourself of people that love you and will show up for you is straight up more important than love and relationships ever will be and it took me a

long time to learn that um i kind of just had that figured out in high school and i was like only just like in good communities of people and that's it like i was never in a relationship any of middle school or high school and then I got way too obsessed with boys in college and kind of lost myself and lost a lot of those communities and I'm trying to rebuild those back up because I've realized no play no like relationship style of love can compete with a community style of love okay does that make any sort of sense so don't feel lonely there's people out there who do love you there's people who are out there who are showing up for you like I guarantee you probably have friends I guarantee you probably have a good community around you so focus on that don't focus

on what you're lacking okay because you're not lacking anything you think you are but you're really not if anything focus on what you do have okay we're gonna take a little hit and then I'm gonna finish a few more questions and then I think that's it for the podcast you guys I gotta put up a questionnaire today so you guys can send me stories literally any stories I just sort of read them on the podcast. I think they're so funny to read. But let's take a hit. I can't believe that. Oh my god. Whoa. That bitch punched me back. somebody asked me if a i had a gag gag reflex when it comes to weed and yeah i do but only when it tastes fucking bad oh my god i think there's a stem in that bowl

fuck it really only usually tastes bad if like your shit's not clean or if there's a stem in it um, so keep that in mind, because I almost just, the projectile vomited everywhere, okay, someone asked me, if you don't smoke, if you don't use any nicotine, do you not smoke blunts, and if you have in the past, do you, um, have rolling tips, okay, so, I used to, well, when I first started smoking, I really only smoked pipes, okay, and then college, I moved on to blunts i think oh my god and i was a blunt girl green grape white owls were my fucking shit i don't know why i was just obsessed with rolling blunts and going out and smoking blunts i just had an unnecessary amount of weed around me all the time um i'm not sure why my brain thought yeah

blunts are the way to go um like i could have chosen joints i guess blunts were just like i guess when i was around more also my friend who smoked at the time also pervert blunts so that's what we went with um but green grape white owls oh i was obsessed with those i smoked so much in college because there was nothing else to do there was no fun things to do there were like college bars i guess but like there were no activities other than that like anything else to do so that's why i kind of smoked myself into a coma one could say um but i remember we so like valentine's day oh no i'm saving that story for when we do the valentine's day podcast you have to come back okay february 1st i got you but there was this one time like when i said there

was nothing to do in my college town there was nothing to do we were so bored one day we were like why don't we go to this like little lookout we drive why don't we drive this lookout and like just go sit there and hang out like during sunset and like roll some blunts and smoke on the way there like that's literally all we had and the view like wasn't isn't even like a good view like the views where you're probably from are like ocean side cliffside villas or like mountain ranges no i'm talking we're gonna overlook the dried up river and the construction like dead ass when i say i'm a midwestern middle of nowhere fucking girly like that's what we did for fun me and my brother what we did for fun growing up is we go to the fucking pawn shop

and we would go and he'd bid like 25 cents on just a cardboard box and like a glassware cardboard box like we'd have no idea what was in it and he was usually just like random glasses and then he'd take me down the river and we would just go throw glasses into the river that is what we did for fun like i was not roaming the streets of manhattan at 13 like i am very much like you anyways so we were just i don't know fucking bored we wanted to go smoke a blunt and look at a good somewhat good lookout um so i think i rolled six blunts maybe seven like full blunts i rolled that many and then we just smoked we just sheathed those blunts as fast as we could in the car on the way to the lookout and i'm not sure how we didn't get arrested but we did smoke

all seven blunts on the way to the lookout and we made it there and i know i was extremely fucking high um but um she got me into blunts and I used to smoke so many blunts even after I finished or even after I dropped out of college I came home and I still would smoke some blunts um and I I did that until I realized my acne at the time for that past year and a half was induced by my nicotine usage and the whole act of me smoking blunts was making me break out because when i would smoke these blunts it wasn't just the nicotine the nicotine in itself of course is going to break down like your fucking skin but also the smoke is so heavy and dense because of the tobacco that if it flies back in your face it just slowly just starts eating away at your face

and just breaking down the skin barrier and I was like as soon as I found that out my skin is like a huge priority to me because um it's something I've always um struggled with that I've never had a good handle on and now that I do have a good handle on it I want it to stay that way um I get a lot of confidence for my skin now and so when I notice myself breaking out I'm like we gotta fix this shit and i was breaking out for a good year and a half and i realized it was blunts i stopped smoking blunts i bought a pipe again boom acne it was gone immediately gone no more active breakouts so yeah unfortunately i do not smoke girl blunts anymore if they're offered to me who am i to say no i'll smoke a fucking girl blunt but am i going out and buying blunt wraps

no not really i'm not um i really only smoke by joints now i think joints are the best all my bitches know i am a blazy susan girl for life i love blazy susans um i and then oh you also asked me how to do roll or how to roll um so i roll all my joints i roll all my blunts it's really just practice go buy two or three packs go buy like a whole blazy susan you can get like a hundred wraps in a fucking pack and just like go at it and keep working on it but it really just takes practice and like you have to pack the weed down a lot of people kind of just like stuff it um but that leaves holes that leaves gaps it doesn't burn correctly it probably burns really fast the best thing i can really tell you without showing you is to just

try and stuff it and like you're gonna try and mold like fucking weed is sticky your weed should be sticky it shouldn't be just dry and like like it should be sticking together okay if you got good weed it should be you know and so it should stick together and you should be able to just like roll the paper in between your fingers and kind of roll the weed so it like sticks and forms together it's way easier to roll if you do that to your weed um before trying to seal it up um but yeah and sometimes you gotta use a lot of spit but that's okay no one's gonna judge you because everybody's gonna want to smoke anyways anyways i think that's the end of the podcast um thank you for being here with me we can smoke one more um bowl and i'll answer one more question

because it'd get me excited for the future for my day to make some money i finally have a break this tomorrow thank god but um somebody asked me if i have any raves or any festivals i'm planning i'm going too soon and yes i actually have so many finally for the first time in two two years i finally have fucking shit i want to go do because i miss going to festivals i miss getting out i miss traveling holy shit like when i met my um when i met my current boyfriend he was so intimidated by me because i had all of these like big plans to travel i was going to bonnaroo i was going to california i was going to new york and he was like i didn't think you were gonna stick around for me like i i straight i thought you had too big of plans i was just gonna have fun while

we could it was like period but now we're in a pandemic so let's hang um but now it's even better because we can go together but i have been taking the pandemic kind of seriously like i really haven't been going out i haven't been to any concerts period since the pandemic started um i haven't gone out for any holidays like i haven't done shit um just because i haven't i have a nephew and i want to see my nephew and he's one and i don't want to give him covid because that would be crazy also i don't want to spread it um but i'm vaccinated i'm boosted we're good i think things are starting to look up and i'm excited um so me and my boyfriend are planning to go to the smokers club festival it's not really a festival though i'd say it's more of like

a concert but it's like a day it's one day i've never been to a day festival let's hit this but that one looks super fun my boyfriend's never been to a festival so like to kind of get him out of his comfort zone and you know get him open to the idea of uh festivals i think this is perfect because the headliners are like oh my god Kid Cudi, A$AP Rocky, Schoolboy Q, Wiz Khalifa like Joey Badass, Flapper Zombies we're gonna have some Rico Nasty some Earl Sweatshirt I'm pretty sure Coco and Claire Claire are there too so like come on like come on it's gonna be good The Alchemist and it's Saturday April 30th so I think we're gonna go out to California for a few days maybe just like real quick in and out for that concert and then also my friend invited me

to Beyond Wonderland but I'm also seeing Trixie and Katya the day before so I think I might go see Trixie and Katya where I live and then fly out the next day to go to Beyond Wonderland for the last day which is like an Alice in Wonderland themed rave kind of in California so I think at the same amphitheater that smokers club is at so i think i'm gonna fly out there like kind of last minute and get that one day in also disclosures touring this year i know disclosure is so good but it like really triggers my inner like 14 year old so like to satisfy her i'm gonna go see disclosure but yeah i have so many other concerts and fucking things i want to go to if there's anything you're going to let me know if there's anything you have been to and would recommend

let me know i love festivals i love raves i love concerts you guys are going to see a lot of content from me soon of me traveling and going to those so stay tuned but i'm gonna go fucking make me some lunch and get ready for work thank you for hanging out with me this morning i had such a great time answering your questions um i'll be back thursday we'll do some story times we'll hang out a bit do this again but thank you for joining me it's been lovely to have you here and i'll see you thursday