Smoke Sesh - tripping, binge eating & summer body confidence

Episode Date: February 27, 2024

Happy Tuesday hotties happy to be back with a little Tuesday audio episode of the podcast! Today we get right into it and talk the most recent full moon and letting emotions flow through you, the hoodie drop & sharing gratuity, we talk at home coffee recipes, binge eating and how to handle those late night munchies, being a good sober friend and lifting up T breaks, my everything showers, go to products & glamour magic tips, how long should head last? It’s a bad idea (trust me), body confidence and redirecting thought, uplifting other women, comparison kills, life will be good (I promise), current vibes for the week, authenticity, acid & tripping, taking care of your brain, natural is always better, you don’t need to be in a relationship, and finally my local KC food recs for you all this lovely afternoon! I hope you enjoyed todays episode, if you wanna hear more from me watch Thursdays video episode coming out soon, join the patreon.com/smokeseshshawty and follow me on instagram @hannahmarlene to submit your questions and see what I’m up to! Love you all and chat soon! MUAH!

Listen, everybody needs a fairy godmother, you know, just somebody to look out for them. Some people call me their fairy smoke mother, others their internet big sister, but you can call me Hannah, the host of Smoke Sash. So come hang out, let's light up and talk everything there is to life. The good, the bad, the ugly, the embarrassing, I've got a story for it all. Hello hotties of the world. Welcome back to another beautiful, amazing, hot, sexy, incredible episode of Smoke Sesh. I am so excited to be back with you guys, hanging out, lighting up, talking everything

that is on our minds. I hope you guys had a wonderful weekend. We had a pretty big full moon going on in the beautiful sign of Virgo. shout out all my little Virgo babies but holy shit did it not just send us into a little bit of chaos a little bit of unsureness a little bit of what the fuck's going on what is reality um and that was a fun little thing to get through um luckily things are looking up post full moon vibes things are looking up um things are evening out the chaos is diffusing a little bit so hopefully this can you know add to um your peace you know make your stress a little

less and give you a little nice distraction have a little fun share a little laugh maybe share a little smoke along the way um and yeah I don't have much to catch you guys up on honestly I have been outside as much as I possibly can it's been like 75 80 here which is insane I'm actually thinking about like I thought about doing the podcast outside I was like I could be outside recording this like I technically don't need wi-fi I could do that but then I was like bugs cars sirens let's just let's just stick to being at home I'm gonna get outside later but I've had a pretty good weekend I've just been out at the park out and about getting lunch with friends it's been a blast I think this spring is all about smoking weed in the park with your best

friends and that's really the you know vibe I'm trying to take on recently um so if you're feeling inspired go roll up go take your friend to a park on a little walk go smoke go enjoy life that's what it's about spring is about renewal about coming back to ourselves about you know taking advantage taking opportunity of the nice weather and the world around us so do so do do so as much as you can is that a full sentence I'm about six espresso shots deep listen this caffeine addiction that I've had is out of fucking control it's not necessarily an addiction it's maybe more so a symbiotic relationship um like i'm not having withdrawals but i definitely need it to function especially when i'm recording a podcast because hello we gotta get the energy up we gotta be

having fun let's enjoy life i dropped hoodies this weekend as well shout out to you guys shout out to everybody who bought a hoodie i love you all so so so so very much literally blowing you so many kisses right now thank you i love you um i have been planning these hoodies for a while and being able to get them out and get them to you has been such a fun process and they will be shipping by the end of this week so stay tuned shipping updates will show up in your email um and also for those asking like oh my god Hannah please like don't sell out I don't get paid till next Friday don't worry these will be in stock for a while um I figured out a way to be able to um open up the quantity a little bit more than i have in the past um so that's very exciting

so if you feel like you've missed it don't worry you didn't miss it you can always still buy a hoodie you have an opportunity but thank you guys so much i love you all so much i also did do a giveaway on my patreon so if you're a patreon girly i dm'd i said i was gonna dm three i actually dm'd for so i dm'd four of you guys on patreon so check your patreon dms um for if you won the giveaway if you entered it i also for the giveaway i was like tell me something you're grateful for and seeing all of you guys like jump in and talk about what you're grateful for was so inspiring and so eye-opening and if you're part of the patreon community first of all if you're not why are you not a part of the patreon community come join the girlies come have some

fun with us but if you're somebody who maybe like submitted what you're thankful for or you're having a hard time remembering what you're thankful for going through all of those replies and seeing what everybody was thankful for and what they're grateful for was so inspiring and just like such an uplifting thing to read especially right now when in the world things are just feeling so chaotic and so out of control and maybe you feel like we're not as one as we used to be and you want to do more and you want to seek out the good I feel like having that outside reminder especially from other people and maybe people you don't know so it's a fresh new perspective on life but seeing what they're grateful for is such a mood changer such an eye opener and it really

reminds you to kind of look out for the little things because you don't have to be grateful for the big big things you don't have to always live for the big things in fact the happiest people are the people who can find joy in the smallest of things around them and that is genuinely something that i just love looking for and i find so inspiring um with the people around me so shout out to you guys thank you all so much for the support i love you all so so so much if you want a hoodie and you didn't get one um the link is everywhere pretty much I think I posted it on um my youtube I posted the link the link is in my instagram bio the link's on patreon um it's just my link tree link so yeah love you oh my god so much fun but yeah those will be

shipping out soon but yeah I've had a really good weekend other than me getting literally in a fight with an apple store employee not really i love employees like if you are a service worker i will always give you grace i will never get mad at you but i was on the phone with this apple employee for like four hours on thursday i talked about it a little bit on the video episode but like i don't ever get mad at people that i don't know i just start silently sobbing like if you make me frustrated and it's not somebody that I feel comfortable like expressing my emotions in front of especially like a worker or a employee somebody that I do not know and I know is just doing their job once I get frustrated or I'm like okay what the fuck's going on I just start

silently sobbing and I feel like that was kind of the energy for this full moon which is just like what the fuck's going on I literally am just trying my best I'm just gonna silently sob and then move on with my life um we got that out of the way we're feeling good we got some espresso shots in us the sun is shining it's bright it's about 80 degrees out i need myself a patio and a margarita in hand that's the goal for this evening maybe we'll get tacos oh hannah great idea so glad you thought of that that is now the plan let's get into this though you guys have so many questions i want to take i want to smoke with you guys so yeah end of thought let's get into it speaking of not being able to full form full sentences because of your caffeine addiction

and being so hyped up on coffee someone said just got an espresso machine any tips plus tricks favorite drinks um i've talked about the swamp water on here if you are a matcha girly which i think I'm re-entering my matcha era um just because winter I'm not a matcha girl but spring summer I need something a little bit lighter matcha with an espresso shot on top perfect beautiful amazing but the best latte that I do just at home easy simple no need for syrups or special things I literally just take espresso like a half cup of oat milk over ice some honey and some cinnamon and I'm good to go like the most basic natural ingredients are your best bet for a good latte especially at home I also do this with cold brew um I'll like cold brew

a big jug in my fridge but when I'm doing the cold brew I will also put just like I'll mix it with brown sugar so it's slightly sweetened or maybe um some cinnamon or maybe some honey slightly sweetened my cold brew so then I don't need any oat milk and I can just you know basically chug that caffeine straight to my brain um but yeah simpler the better keep your life easy making coffee in the morning um sometimes it feels like a chore so the easier the better and also if you need some fun syrups go shopping go have fun go to world market go check it out but for me personally it's how fast can i make this and get it into my into my body so honey little cinnamon and as much espresso as I can get oh my god me last night off this

edible someone said um how to stop getting ravenous munchies while high and overeating you guys need to build a snack bowl first of all you need to understand when your body is going to feel a certain way and be proactive about it okay so if you know hey I eat this edible and then I to get just like so incredibly high and so hungry don't pretend like that's not going to happen again because you know it happened the first time and the second time and the third time why would it not happen the fourth time you know what i mean stop pretending like it's not going to happen let's just adjust our expectations and be proactive about how we're going to feel so then we're not raiding the local taco bell at 2 a.m you know what i mean because i would get to

this point where it's like oh no i'm not gonna get the munchies i'm not gonna get the munchies and then all of a sudden i'm hitting a taco bella wendy's and a gas station at 2 a.m that's not healthy let's just adjust and let's build a snack bowl a snack bowl has been a game changer for me first of all allowing myself to have snacks in my house has been a game changer but also having a designated snack bowl has been oh my god life-changing so first of all you need snacks in your house you're gonna need first like snacks that are easy to grab in a sense where you don't have to grab a lot it's like a bag of popcorn you know you can take a handful out of it a bag of pretzels you can take a couple pretzels out of there um like a pickle spear um a bag of gummy

bears you can take a couple out of their hot cheetos that's fine too you can take like a small handful out of that bag do you see what i'm talking about though like where you can piece a small them out from a couple of different things and then find a snack bowl like a small size bowl and you're just going to fill up your bowl at the end of the night with everything that you desire from your little snack cabinet now don't over crazy fill it but fill it up you know give yourself a little bowl of snacks take it to your bedroom fill up your water bottle I guarantee by the time you finish your snack bowl and your bottle of water you are going to be satisfied because you will have a healthy way to go about your munchies okay we're not binge eating everything in our

freezer at 2 a.m no we have our little bowl we're gonna fulfill our cravings with the things that we bought previously from the store whatever you were craving at the time and a small amount have your water i guarantee that will satisfy the craving um of your munchies but allow yourself to eat a little bit very normal very real aspect of smoking weed of being high especially late at night you're gonna get the munchies and food is meant to be enjoyed especially while high so take time to build a snack bowl I love it it's one of my favorite things um and you can put anything you want in there maybe you build like a little bowl of ice cream maybe you build like a salty bowl maybe you build like a gummy bowl literally anything okay that's the best thing

about being an adult is I can go to the store and buy snacks we didn't have snacks growing up we had ramen noodles that was my snack after school or a bowl of cereal so now that i have big girl money it's like hell yeah i'm gonna buy that bag of hot cheetos will i eat the whole entire bag no because i want to have a little tonight and a little the next night and a little the next night so we gotta ration it so we're not gonna binge eat all of it we're gonna put a little into our snack bowl and savor it and then move on love you okay i think we need to smoke i think that's just necessary right now right right sorry small little pause there I had to take a chug of my water please if you have not drank any water today this is your sign to do so my body was

swelling up like a balloon I was like why do my arteries feel like they are 10 times the size they should be why am I so puffy why do I feel so heavy it's because I wasn't drinking water and my body was swelling from like all the salt i was eating so please please i am begging you drink some water stay hydrated um so your body doesn't give out on you healthy fun anyways let me pack this bowl then we'll smoke also little psa if you haven't checked your keef catcher in a while check that b because it might be a gold mine i forgot i had one i mean i knew it was there but i don't usually smoke keef i'm just like constantly grinding fresh flour um and i checked my keef container i was like oh my god it's like a it's the sahara desert down there

like there are do there's dunes there's hills and peaks and valleys of keef it's crazy so i'll be smoking a keef bowl if i stop making sense after this apologies but i think it'll make for a really fun time so cheers not me just smoking but someone said almost done with my tea break so ready to light up with you again stay strong queen stay strong i have a friend who's quitting nicotine right now oh wow it is actually like seeing somebody go through an exorcism in real life actually i've never seen someone's head like spin on their shoulders in circles before wait till you have a friend who's trying to quit nicotine it's insane it's insane so uh taking a tea break is way easier

than taking a break from nicotine trust me you got it easy stay strong finish your tea break come light up when you are ready to be back i will be happy to have you back but also if you are a slave to nicotine free yourself because my friend oh my god it's insane to see like it's she's like I'm waking up in cold sweats I'm like oh my god like that's like actual withdrawal that is insane I wish her nothing but the best I wish you nothing but the best but yeah stay strong on your tea break you can join soon enough but take care of yourself first speaking of having a day off my Tuesdays are actually like a normal human Sunday since I work all weekend and I finally have a day off on Tuesday so it's like my day for catching up for focusing on me for like actually cleaning

my house and doing the dishes for doing laundry and also for taking care of myself um so someone asked me um what's your everything shower look like and product recs um I think everything shower is such a fun integral routine and being just a human and wanting to indulge in a little bit of self-care it is so nice and so fun and i love taking a shower for like two hours it is the best thing ever um it's actually one of the biggest glamour and for like my witchy girls my glamour and my like self-love rituals usually come in the form of the showers that i take every night how i take care of myself my body stuff like that keeping affirmations light and positive while also doing those things has an extra kick to it that i love um but product wrecks and things

that i really really swear upon um and use every single week first of all my hair products things like that like shampoo conditioner body wash i keep simple i'm not spending fifty dollars on fucking body wash okay because in fact it's probably gonna make me break out so why don't i just spend the 12 that i know that's gonna work you know i'm not too picky about stuff like that but i am picky about the little things that kind of elevate how i feel so one of my favorite face masks to do especially pre-shower maybe you need to self-tan maybe you need to shave whatever it is throw on pre-shower the ole hendrickson cold plunge pore mask if you have ever listened to this podcast you have only heard me recommend one mask and it is that if you like the feeling

well actually I hate the feeling of a clay mask but I love how it just sucks out all of your pores and really just cleanses your skin but it was too drying for me like that clay was way too drying and it would like crack my skin very unhealthy it would give me like chemical burns but this old Hendrickson cold plunge pore mask fantastic it feels like you rubbed Burt's Bees chapstick all over your face it's like cold and tingly and you will have no pores after it it's also this beautiful bright green color i've had this mask this whole bottle i think it's like 35 i've had it for a year and a half i don't think i'm supposed to keep it that long but it still works and it's still like half full so girl i'm gonna get my full use out of it i feel like it's so worth the money

you get an endless amount of masks that you can do and it is just so nice and refreshing especially after a long week at work so I'll put that on usually before I get in the shower and then things that I use in the shower I keep pretty minimal I don't use a lot of products in the shower um usually it's just like I mean the basic shampoo conditioner body wash but one thing that I do use in the shower pretty consistently maybe like once or twice a week really just whenever I shave or maybe self-tan is the Dr. Teal's I think it's like the sugar eucalyptus body scrub oh my god it is fantastic it is so nice I'm pretty sure you can make it home um it's basically just sugar coconut oil a little bit of coconut oil um eucalyptus you could probably do lavender

DIY it yourself I've done it before I've done a video on Patreon before and I did like crushed rose petals in it and then just scrub your body not only is it just so relaxing and so nice but also it's a very beautiful ritual to kind of incorporate into your daily weekly routine that not only physically cleans your body but energetically cleanses it as well those herbs that are in there the oils that are in there are perfect for ritualizing that kind of behavior and removing any negativity any bad thoughts any bad energies from your physical form from your psyche it is a really nice glamour ritual to incorporate into your everyday life once again you can make it yourself for very very cheap just with products you have on hand but the Dr. Teal's

one I'm just listen I'll just buy it if it makes my life a little easier and I feel like I get a pretty good use out of it but that's one that I would definitely recommend for in the shower especially for my witchy girls who need a little bit more self-care get a body scrub okay fantastic then when I get out of the shower actually one more pre-shower thing hair oiling once again I don't spend a lot of money on the products that I use in my hair but for a long time I couldn't grow my hair I was like why the fuck is my hair not growing but I'm three years older and it's literally still shoulder length what's happening girls because your hair is dry and it's snapping out of your head okay it's breaking off in clumps because

it's so dry you gotta oil your hair especially if you feel like it's dry if you have over oily hair maybe this isn't a great recommendation um but it's like weird my scalp is so oily but my ends are so so dry probably from the unnatural amount of heat i use on my hair but hair oiling at least once a week ideally twice a week is was a game changer for me and grew my hair like six inches in the span of a year when it didn't grow at all for like three plus years so i use the bread hair oil you guys have only heard me recommend one hair oil and it is that one it is the one i swear by it is made for every single type of hair um it is so it's like heavy but not overly heavy where i feel like it greases my hair or weighs it down in any sort of sense so it's a great daily um hair oil

but also if you want a deeper conditioning I will douse my hair in this oil and then clip it up for like four or five hours as long as I can take it um just the ends not my scalp because my scalp is way too oily but I will just let it deep soak so maybe I'll oil my hair throw on a face mask go do some laundry go do my dishes and then by the time my face mask is dry and my hair has been oiled then I'll hop in the shower do my little body scrub wash out the oil like usual but you will get out of that shower with the silkiest smoothest nicest hair ever um I also have been like hyper fixating on my hair in a healthy way I just love oh my god hold on little tangent there was this excerpt on on tumblr.com that I actually shared on the patreon yesterday for a little bit

of affirmations but it was such a perfect roundabout way of answering what it feels like to get older they said actually I love growing older and learning how I work as a person like realizing what kinds of fabrics feel best on my skin or what brand of yogurt I like best or how I want to be touched watching myself change enjoy brussels sprouts when I used to hate them as a child understanding why I got got angry in that one conversation 10 years ago there's so many mysteries inside me that I have yet to unravel and there will always be more and sometimes I think that's uh I think maybe it's all worth it literally it's like I hyper fixate hyper fixate on the little things in my life and realize that they bring me so much joy and then really want to

care for them and take care of myself in that sort of way and one of those things has been my hair so recently I don't know if I really recommend it yet I need to get through the trial period and figure out if it's going to be an integral part of my life or not but I bought the oh fuck I'm really gonna butcher this name I'm just gonna spell it out oh the o-a-u-i-o-y I don't know you know I don't know how to say it though that brand very popular seen it everywhere they have a scalp oil that I've really been wanting to try because I've never really done any healthy scalp things and I was like you know what fuck it let's try it out so I recently bought the scalp oil and like a little scalp brush to kind of it's not like for dandruff it's more so for like hair growth and

stuff so we'll see if that works not formally or officially recommending it yet but it is something that I recently added in and then one more hydrating thing when I get out of the shower I make sure I have like a very fine micro I think they're like a microfiber towels the really soft soft towels to wrap my hair in so it's not ripping my hair out or like overly heavy and then pulling on my scalp and ripping my hair something very light soft I'm sure you can buy a hair towel on Amazon for like five bucks like they are not expensive um but something lightweight to make sure my hair is not breaking or um taking any damage while it is drying and then on the hydrating since I have been oiling my body I don't know what it is about getting older and your skin

is just like getting so dry I was I have always been an oily girl so this is like a very new change to me waking up and having my skin feel like the Sahara desert but I was like we gotta fix this I usually use the hemp spotty lotion and like the papaya scent love if you want to smell good but I need something a little bit deeper a little bit you know more hydrating than just a simple lotion and the oh the glossier body hero body oil mist i love that it's a mist too because it really just gets everywhere fantastic it smells like jasmine flower has a nice powdery finish you feel so elegant you feel like a goddess after you like just spray this all over your body rub the body oil in i feel like a slug like the hottest slug on this entire world um

but it has been a really nice game changer especially for my dry skin and wanting to elevate myself and just going to bed feeling refreshed renewed a little body oil goes a long way but that's really it those are that's kind of how I do my everything shower little ways I elevate my body once a week and really honor my body and uplift it all of these behaviors and things are not necessarily rooted in the products I'm not coming at this from like a capitalistic sense of course I'm going to have products that I enjoy more than others so if I enjoy them hopefully you guys enjoy them as well but every single step of this is really based in finding new ways to honor myself to understand my body to honor my body and to elevate my glamour a little

bit because what is better than that but finding a routine that you really love and finding things that you really love and little things in your life that bring you joy that's really what it's all about so hope this inspired you hope this helped you love you oh uh someone said is head supposed to take about 10 minutes or is it supposed to be short help i don't know i guess it kind of depends on the man question mark but if i'm going down on you for 10 plus minutes babe i'm tired i'm tired my jaw is locking my teeth are about to fall on my fucking head my lips are about to fall off my fucking face my throat's giving out my eyes are dry from watering my mouth is the sahara desert like i'm over it that's why i put my all into giving head that's

why i'm like let's go like let not like let's get this over with but also like i'm gonna show up and show out hello i i'm 10 plus minutes 10 plus minutes unless you're also sitting on his face at the same time like 60 90 then vibes you guys can spend some spend some extra time there you know what i mean but i don't think it's you and then i don't think it's you i think a lot of men have problems with porn addiction and over masturbating and things of the sort and when men have a hard time coming especially during head i genuinely believe it's because of that which i i don't know whose fault that is society there's either way if you find yourself down there and you're like okay jaw is locking i'm what do we do what do we do i'm gonna be down here forever

what's going on you don't have to keep going okay give yourself a nice little break if you want to switch it up maybe be like okay you know i've been down here for a couple minutes now i'm getting bored let me you know maybe i'll go on his face 69 you guys do the little thing switch up the position you still are focusing on giving but also now you're receiving to you know break up the activity a little bit or just get up and sit on it you know like if you're like you know what this has been going on long enough just get up and sit on it just finish the job enjoy your life but yeah if you find yourself down there with severe lockjaw it is okay to be like all right we're switching it up we gotta change positions we gotta do something

I gotta get something out of this I don't know but my literal jaw is gonna fall off my face if I don't um but I do think it's normal on some occasions I think sometimes it takes a little longer maybe someone's nervous maybe they don't know what to do maybe they have a little bit harder time giving in um but yeah i think 10 minutes 10 minutes is too long 10 minutes is okay we gotta we gotta switch some things up here we gotta change positions um and yeah don't feel bad about yourself if it does take 10 minutes sex is weird sometimes things take longer sometimes things take way too short like it's okay go with the flow but also you don't have to stay there you know oh my god sometimes i get questions and i'm like this is something young hannah would

have asked when she was young and reckless and simply did not care but now that i'm old stable hannah i'm like oh it shocks me every time a little part of myself is like oh i remember that but then another part of myself is like oh my god please do not anyways someone asked piercing your body by yourself good idea or not no that is a very bad idea please do not ever pierce yourself on your own please do not ever tattoo yourself on your own please do not ever buy a tattoo machine or needles on your own go to a professional if it's too expensive for you maybe it's not meant for you do you know what i mean like the dollar needle is not going to give you a good piercing i guarantee it i had my ears pierced by my friend in our dorm room and when she

put the needle through my ear it pierced into my neck do not do your own piercings at home do not do your own tattoos at home i have so many bad tattoos that i gave myself sure they're like lol funny but then i see people like teens on the internet on tiktok giving themselves huge tattoos in their basement at 16 and i know they're gonna regret it so just wait wait go to professional so you don't fuck up your body so you don't get nerve damage so you don't regret it and then end up spending hundreds of dollars on cover-ups in the future just wait okay wait till you're 18 wait till you got the money i guarantee you will have it eventually think about it desire it true peace comes from desiring and then achieving but you need to give yourself time to desire

sometimes impulsiveness is not the best especially when it comes to changes in your body cutting your hair that's fine listen everybody needs a bad haircut everybody needs an at-home hair dye job that went wrong that's a part of life but piercing yourself girl just wait I think about that needle in my neck all the time all the time literally crazy all my friends are like oh my gosh he's getting your ears pierced straight into my neck wild anyways someone asked how to feel more confident about your body this summer I feel that I feel like a lot of the targeted ads right now are like summer body ready you need to prepare you need to prepare or like you won't look good unless you do this and it's like oh scary because what if I don't change does that mean I'm not

worthy of going outside does that mean I'm not worthy of you know showing my body off this summer and I feel like that's a really predatory way of advertising and it's not good on anybody's mental health. So if you feel like you're in a place where you're like, slightly panicked about, you know, body confidence this summer, and maybe not having the same body or body changes or anything like that, I am here to nip that in the bud and just be like, listen, here's how I look at it. Especially when I find myself in moments of self doubt, maybe low self worth questioning my body. first of all really good practice to do in your everyday life and really great way to redirect this form of thinking especially when you are having a bad body day is and this is like a

this is like a field trip type of homework but go to your local museum go to your local art museum and just walk around and appreciate all the women who came before you and their body shapes and how all body shapes have been appreciated and carved out of marble and stone and precious metals and honored. Every single body shape has been honored in this way. So honor yourself in that type of way, okay? I feel like this is a really great way of redirecting priorities here. Walking around and realizing everybody's beautiful, everybody is art, everybody is desirable, everybody is worthy of taking up space. And focusing your viewpoint rather on nowadays society's perspective, which is bodies are commodities, into no, bodies are art. These were previous temple pieces.

These were previous worship pieces. These were previous religious figurines. And it is displaying every single type of body out there. Seeing that, beautiful. Immediate game changer will completely redirect the way you look at things. I think it is a great homework opportunity, field trip opportunity. If any of you guys are sitting around thinking negative, self-depreciating things, if you've been inside too long, if you've been overanalyzing yourself too long, this is a very great practice and a great way to redirect that train of thought. and specifically the way you think about bodies go look at women's bodies outside of the viewpoint

of us being commodities of us needing to fit a certain stereotype and go look at them how they have been appreciated throughout time okay the women that came before you honor them appreciate them okay next very real thing when I'm having these low moments I also like to think of the most confident women I know, the most uplifting women I know, the most inspiring women I know. These women, the most confident women, are not people who have the most perfect bodies, the most perfect nose shape, the most perfect hair. The most confident women are flawed. The most confident women I know are a little weird. Maybe they have scarring. Maybe they have, you know they're not perfect but they are trusting and they are understanding in that and they accept

that wholeheartedly and that confidence grows brighter and it glows brighter than any other you know more societally accepted body shape out there is simply accepting and understanding who you are and not giving a fuck about it that confidence radiates 10 times more than any other confidence in the world also last little just small life pro tip here and red flag warning if anybody around you makes fun of your body in any form of any capacity okay in any form is shaming you for the vessel that god has gifted you get them out of your life immediately that is not a trustworthy person to keep around you very basic respect is needed in any form of relationship and the most basic respect comes through autonomy comes through acceptance and if they are making

fun of your body in any form they do not respect you they are an untrustworthy person to keep around you pro tip this is big sister Hannah sitting down and looking you in the eyes that is not a healthy person to be around and I've had friends like this and it's sad because unfortunately I know that it's stemming from like inwards like it's stemming from them not accepting themselves and then projecting that ideal onto everybody else around them but I sometimes I mean there's no fixing that that is something that they need to work on within themselves and I cannot be dragged down with them especially when you have a hard time with body confidence you know as soon as one person says one thing you are overthinking that for the rest of your life it's crazy how

quickly like you start hyper fixating on something so if they are making fun of you especially your body or the way you look that is not somebody that you need to ever associate yourself with and I do not believe you should continue bringing them around you for your own safety and well-being I know it sounds harsh but it is just like a pro tip for you all I know it sounds dumb but literally all bodies are beautiful I think the most beautiful thing about going to the beach is seeing every single person outside in their bikinis in their shorts owning themselves enjoying the sun enjoying their physical form enjoying being around other people enjoying being in good company enjoying simply being that is the most beautiful thing about being outside

about the summertime about being around other people being at the beach being at the pool anything like that that is the most beautiful thing is seeing everybody accept themselves and enjoy that moment so take yourself to that moment don't take yourself out of it enjoy that moment love yourself uplift yourself and also I think the best way to kind of take on that mentality of accepting your body in any form anywhere is to also be less critical of others when you're constantly criticizing other people and how they look you're going to be criticizing yourself so when you find yourself in those moments of maybe depreciation against other people catch yourself stop yourself stop that train of thought give them a compliment and then also give

yourself a compliment it is a great way of redirecting that train of thought and training your brain like no we are not going down that path we are staying positive we are staying chill no need to get negative here like no need to ruin the vibe girl sometimes i'll check myself i'll be like whoa vibe ruiner whoa crazy thought you need to chill out everybody I hear is looking at you sideways literally just me and the 30 other versions of me um but yeah like if you are overly critical of other people it's going to be easier for you to be overly critical of yourself so catch yourself in that thought process and body neutrality I think is also a really great way to go about this no need to like positivity positivity positivity that gets exhausting just

as much as negativity does I get that I think simply understanding that you being human and inhabiting a body means you are allowed to take up space you are allowed to exist in any form you you don't have to be aesthetically pleasing any form you are of value okay I feel like people's value have been diminished a lot recently and it is so sad to see every single person on this planet is worthy and of value allow yourself to take up space allow yourself to inhabit that value give yourself that value don't let people take that away from you you are worthy I feel like that neutrality aspect of just I am worthy of existing is such a healthy mindset to get to especially when you are maybe in a more negative stage and don't want to jump to that positive

place at least find the in-between of you know what i'm here and i'm good and i'm worthy of taking up space and i'm worthy of value because you are and i love you get that hot ass bikini on girl put on that mini skirt enjoy your fucking life you won't be this young forever so you might as well enjoy every fucking minute that you got i feel like a good bikini always makes me feel so hot sexy i get all my bikinis from sydney mary bikini love her endlessly if you want a hot sexy one-of-a-kind bikini she is so fantastic get yourself something you feel confident in get some good friends go do a fun activity uplift yourself sit in the sunshine listen to some birds sing life will be good oh my god i love when you guys just tell me the vibes you're on for the

week someone said rented a cabin with my lovely boyfriend in the smoky mountains this weekend with a hot tub so excited love that fantastic very jealous i hope you live your best mountain girl life amazing someone else said it's my birthday today spending my night doing molly at a rave now eating korean barbecue love that for you girl there's literally nothing better than korean barbecue oh my god I actually think I dreamt about Korean barbecue last night I definitely dreamt about some sort of mukbang situation crazy that's what my dreams are like right now also happy Pisces season is anybody else's dreams going insane right now anybody else having the most insane wild dreams ever this only ever happens to me during Pisces season one I get overly emotional

which I've always been a very overly emotional person let's be fucking real um but as I've gotten older my brain has really leveled out which i appreciate thank you brain for doing that work um but pisces season always throws me for a loop i feel like i'm very quick to cry i remember sitting in the car the other day and i was like i haven't cried in a while like probably like six seven months and then pisces season started and like first day of it of course i'm sobbing on the phone with the apple support guy like that's just a part of it part of the journey don't feel bad about yourself let it out feel your emotions move on that's what it's all about i'm like watching videos on my phone and I'm like sobbing in bed off an edible like what's happening it's

but like I'm looking at a picture of a puppy and I'm like oh so cute I can't help it happy Pisces season that's part of it another thing that it's a part of is those crazy crazy dreams insane dreams um I had a dream the other night where I was like being kidnapped I probably should not be watching criminal minds as soon like right before I go to bed um but I dreamed I was being kidnapped my poor boyfriend like you know when you're in your dream and you're like fighting back but you can't fight back my poor boyfriend he like heard me like you know you know when you're dreaming and you make noises he like reached over and he like grabbed my shoulders like hey babe you're having a bad dream and it woke me up it snapped me right out of it I was like wow

you just saved me you just saved me from that crazy man of my dreams wild love you anyways yeah happy happy Pisces season both those things very elevated for me right now also happy birthday enjoy your rave love a rave I have a rave coming up still deciding if I want to go I probably will end up going I haven't been to a rave in a while and I love just getting out and dancing and letting it loose you know what I mean girls oh our brains are so rotted from social media I've been here though so I feel you someone said is it okay if I can't stick to one aesthetic one day i'm an emo baddie the next i'm line dancing yes yes that is normal human thing you are going to feel a vast array of emotions and want to express yourself in many different ways that is

normal that is healthy and in fact i encourage you to try to authentically express yourself no matter how you're feeling that is truly how you connect to who you are and express yourself authentically is to feel what you feel and to listen to that and express yourself however you want so maybe you're an emo baddie today and you want to wear your all black studded leather whatever go for it if that's how you're feeling own it go for it if maybe you're feeling like a slug tomboy you don't want to wear any tight clothes you want to wear an oversized t-shirt all day fantastic lean into that own it that's how you feel today go for it maybe you want to be clean hayley bieber aesthetic girly slick back ponytail bun pink lip gloss girl cool fantastic

own it go for it that's how you truly authentically express yourself is not trying to shove yourself into one corner of the world and embody that perfectly it's allowing yourself to be a human and embrace every single emotion out there every single possibility out there express yourself in any way possible love it you're on the right path own it okay express yourself however you want you don't have to be one aesthetic oh i was going to talk about this on my video episode but also i sometimes worry about the video episodes because i upload them on youtube as well as spotify shouts out to everybody who listens and watches love you but on youtube i have to be a little bit more careful about the things i'm talking about but i wanted to talk about acid and like psychedelic

experiences because i feel like especially during spring summer more people start having them and experiencing them and wanting to try things um especially someone asked thoughts experiences on lsd slash shrooms um and i wanted to chat about it but i didn't want youtube to kick me off the platform so let's chat about it here let's sit down let's talk lsc shrooms everything of the sort first of all i'm not a huge acid fan i'm not i'm not and i didn't have like a bad experience either um i mean it was a trip i definitely tripped and i definitely tripped way too long that's why i didn't like it um i maybe took it a little too late but listen like acid is a long trip it's like a six to ten hour experience and any sort of six to ten hour experience but

babe that's a full shift your brain's gonna be fucking exhausted okay it's gonna be tired it's gonna be long it's gonna be a journey that's for fucking sure especially while you're tripping and the walls are moving and you have a hard time forming full sentences once again also a big reason i can't form full sentences we'll get into that um but acid i just feel like it was too long i was exhausted from it and it was also this is probably my fault but it's during final season and i did not sleep for three days afterwards i didn't i couldn't sleep i couldn't get my brain to rest this isn't to scare anybody this is just like to emphasize how much of an impact it does take on your brain um it takes a lot out of you i have dated a casual acid user and let me tell

you this casual acid is not a thing babe that's called brain damage okay that's called i'm concerned that's called we can't even talk to each other because you have no idea what's going on in reality anymore like please do not overuse psycho psychedelics because also i have used over i have overused psychedelics before and it completely ruined my brain we'll get into that anyways acid i'm too tired i'm too sleepy that's too long i don't want to experience all that like i don't want to be there for 10 hours plus three days afterwards not being able to sleep like too much for me my brain is mush no thank you i've done acid i just feel like shrooms for me personally I had a little better of an experience on, especially psychedelic wise. They're a little

shorter. I feel like I got the same kind of trip experience that I wanted out of acid in a shroom form. I felt more connected to the earth. It felt more natural for obvious reasons. It felt like more of a natural occurrence than acid did in my body. Acid kind of wrecked my brain where shrooms felt like an actual trip it felt like an actual experience um I also felt like shrooms kind of felt like molly in that sort of sense where you get that euphoric aspect you get that like wanting that peace and connection to everybody around you um and yeah I had a great time but I had a little bit too much fun and this is where I start talking about you cannot trip that much okay I spent all of quarantine tripping balls i'm talking i had i don't have this anymore in fortnight i had

in minecraft i had two gallon baggies of just like raw mushrooms and i would wake up and i would pop a handful like every day during the pandemic do not recommend do not recommend at all but that was my experience um and I feel like I actually faced a lot first of all I made some fun connections I learned a lot about myself I developed a better relationship with myself but also my brain capacity is shot it's shot like I'm having to do things in my daily life that are building my brain back up and bringing it to the level that I want to get again I'm not like dumb Like, obviously, I can form full sentences and speak and talk and have intellectual conversations and things like that. But I find myself internally struggling with things that I maybe didn't internally struggle with before, especially when it comes to, like, comprehension skills and patience, like, little things like that.

So do not overindulge. Overindulgence on anything is never good. Binge drinking, never good. Binge eating, never good. smoking too much weed eating too many edibles never good eating too many mushrooms never good okay so that's my pro tip when it comes to that save your brain protect your brain take care of your brain it is the most important thing about you you need to make sure you're caring for it and um not taking advantage of it um but yeah my mushroom usage also in tandem with my molly usage

definitely killed some brain cells for me so be careful i do think um if i was gonna do anything ever again right now i lightly drink probably like twice a month and i smoke daily but i don't over indulge um if i was gonna do anything again i would probably do mushrooms again um and very low very small very simple nothing crazy um but i i don't think i would recommend molly to anybody I don't think I'd recommend coke to anybody. I don't think I'd recommend Adderall to anybody. I don't think I'd recommend pills. Do not do pills, please.

I'm begging you. I would not recommend acid to anybody. I say, if you're going to do anything, make sure it's coming from a safe source. Make sure it is natural. Make sure it is coming from the ground. That's always your best bet. If it's from this earth, it's probably okay for you. If it's pressed into a pill form, I would be scared.

I'd be nervous, okay? please do not take anything from anybody that you do not know please do not drink anything from people that you do not know I was talking about this with my boyfriend like I feel like I was in a phase where I was young and I didn't want to live and I was not safe with myself and it's something that I really really regret just taking random things from people or drinking random things from people because I could have gotten myself into many positions where I ended up dead or severely hurt and thank you to whatever god is out there and is watching over me and didn't let that happen but i put myself into a lot of scary situations in the name of main character fun

living life you know things like that please be smart about your life please do not take your life for granted um please make sure if you are with people or doing anything it is safe it is comforting you are with people you trust little things like that and also just pro tip as we're talking about drugs if you are going to a concert to a show to a rave if you are spending time with friends i think it is a very important handy tool as much as a band-aid is to have um oh shit what's it called narcan just have narcan on you either you're gonna be able to help somebody or maybe somebody be able to help you if you're a party girl and you're out there doing crazy things the best thing you can do is make sure you're proactive about it and make sure you're safe

with yourself. So it's okay to have fun. I have a lot of fun in my daily life now. I'm just safe about it and I'm having way more fun than I was in the past when I wasn't safe. So it's okay to go out there and have experiences and have fun. Just make sure you're taking care of yourself along the way. That's all I ask because my one biggest regret from when I was young and I was eaten mushrooms by the handful was I didn't think about myself I didn't prioritize myself and I didn't prioritize my health and that's the one thing I really wish I did so take care of yourself love yourself have fun enjoy life go to a concert you know have some crazy experiences with your friends that's what life's about but pro tip if it's natural it's better always and I love a

little mushroom trip I think I'm gonna do it in Minecraft with my friends this summer when we go on our little cross-country road trip I have done mushrooms with them before and it was so fun literally we went out it was during COVID but we were all we'd already like been around each other so we had already been kind of like quarantined around each other so we drove out to my friend's house where she lived alone in the middle of like Springfield Missouri and we went out to the country and she had this like extra like shed in her backyard that she transformed with like glow paint and beanbag chairs and fun lights and we just spent like all night giggling and having a blast in this shed in her backyard with like all of these neon lights so fun talking about life

enjoying life um and yeah i some of those moments are some that i'm like oh scary girl that could have been a criminal minds episode but also some of the experiences that I've had where I was safer and more proactive about my life and my experience were some of the best with the best people having a good time connecting enjoying life but yeah natural is always better pro tip love you someone said I'm 23 and have not had a long-term relationship I feel behind actually you're probably way further ahead of the people who have been in many many relationships because when you're young you have a tendency to sacrifice things that you enjoy and want for relationships and for men and for your partner and listen that's a great quality to have but not while

you're young and trying to find yourself so i feel like you've probably jumped that you know you're finding yourself outside of a relationship which is probably the best way to find yourself before having to enter a long-term relationship so I feel like if anything you're way way ahead don't look at yourself being behind you've not wasted time to lame men you have not also no hate to anybody who has because listen girl I have trust me that's why I'm like no no you're way further ahead of any other 23 year old who's been in long-term relationships I understand also that desire of wanting to be in one and wanting to have that experience but I do think if you want to just like skip all the trauma get to know yourself and uplift yourself and find security in

yourself before entering a relationship and before giving yourself over to a long-term relationship because the more you know yourself the easier it'll be to see red flags to understand what your non-negotiables are to understand what you truly desire and the more likely you are to fall into an actual healthy relationship don't desire too hard that you give it up for a loser quite frankly um I feel like that's always a sticky situation to find yourself in where you're like I just want a relationship so I'll settle for ever for anything like have fun have your little hookups have your little flings whatever but I don't think you're missing out on anything very serious you're 23 you're young you're still a baby basically wait to look for those long-term

relationships honestly to like 25 plus real okay one thing about me if you guys follow me on instagram you guys know i'm always eating good that's the one thing that i'm like life is about eating good enjoying let's get some good food in us um and in kansas city you would think oh there's nothing good there that's what i thought for a long time but in fact there is a lot of good things here and a few of you guys are either i guess like visiting or curious about where i like my favorite restaurants so I thought I would share give you guys my favorite KC gems um first of all the place that I have visited the longest and has a special place in my heart is this local um Mediterranean Palestinian owned um just like lunch spot I would say more lunch

and dinner but they do close a little early so careful I would say lunch is probably the best but I always go there and I get their either chicken um curry chicken gyro with a side salad or I get their chicken hummus platter but if you like pita good fucking hummus home-cooked food nicest people best filling meal ever go to hibashi house it is oh my god it's so good I'm like salivating thinking about it I've been going there for like five plus years that girl at the front desk has seen me with so many different people so many friends so many boyfriends um she's seen me grow up and I just love it and I will always support them and I will always always eat there at least once a week so hibashi house great little lunch spot if you need

um another great spot I've recently become obsessed with this black bean noodle called I might butcher this but it's called like jajangmyeong um I kept seeing this girl doing like mukbangs of it i was like where the fuck can i get it oh i can get it at my favorite pho spot great i love that shout out to them but my favorite pho noodle vietnamese korean any sort of like noodle dish spot is this place called cafe v um they also have a great curry katsu um they have a great ddeokbokki um really just filling home-cooked food and then there's also this um bakery right next to it called tous les jours and they have the best croissants with like fresh whipped cream and strawberries so i always hit those two and then if i'm feeling crazy

i'll go to the korean corn dog spot around the corner wild triple threat so good but i'll go there to get pho or jajangmyeon or um tteokbokki those are usually my go-tos at cafe v um what other places oh you want good authentic tacos there is a taco place connected right next to missy b's so if you're a girl or gay go party it out at missy b's and then go to the taco spot right next door um taquera la nueva um it is open to like 3 a.m it is the best best like street tacos quesadillas strongest margs i think they do like dollar margaritas on tuesdays it's crazy they give you you know it's a good spot when they give you the roasted onion jalapeno fresh radishes on the side oh my god definitely eating tacos after this but taquera la nueva in westport

connected to missy b's um that is the spot that is so good um another you know secondary option for tacos is probably cancun fiesta fresh that's really only because they have a drive-thru and i can get a drive-thru margarita and birria tacos so good if you need semi-fast not really fast food but good wings there's this place called wings and things on truce is the only place i eat wings from it is so fantastic you do have to be prepared to wait like 30 minutes in line do not come an hour before close they're probably going to be sold out for the day like you have to prep to eat there but it is the cheapest the best wings ever we go there so often that like the lady at the front counter like knows us she knows our voice through the drive-thru order so sweet we basically

don't have to order she's like we got you just pull forward fantastic wings and things is a great one especially if you need like a quick lunch sometimes look at the kids menu like the chicken tenders and i'm like these are big ass fucking chicken tenders like i need two of them and maybe you some fries and they give you that like sweet hawaiian roll on the side oh my god it is amazing um and then what else what else what else indian food i always go to um taj mahal in brookside it's just the one i've been all like i've always gone always gone to so it's kind of my favorite i feel like when it comes to indian food people just go to whichever one is their favorite in their neighborhood um so that's been my go-to um what else what else oh you need a really nice

fancy dinner go to westport cafe they're open pretty late i think they're open till midnight but it's all like local food it is like the chef just won a major award for what he's doing and the dishes he's coming up with i also feel like it's a very affordable spot when it comes to higher end food and um locally sourced but westport cafe amazing vibes amazing drinks great service great food um 10 out of 10 recommend and then yeah i really think that's it all i really eat in life is like noodles thai food or not thai food um indian food chicken wings lots of tacos i will probably be getting a margarita and a taco tonight I think I'm gonna force my boyfriend to he loves to go to the skate park at night so I think I'm gonna force him to get me a margarita

and tacos and I'm gonna go lay on a blanket at the skate park and eat those while he does his thing that's the plan cannot wait oh my god anyways I think that's it for the podcast I know I didn't have any call-ins today because I forgot to put the call-up link up apologies I got a lot last week though that i still want to go over so i believe i'll be going over those on thursday's episode keep an eye out for the little video episode for the week i cannot wait to this is kind of like our mid between until we transfer to all video episodes which i'm very excited for i can't wait to be face to face with you guys um more so than not i still love doing these audio episodes because it means i can be like half naked in bed just a mess chit chatting with you guys

love that um but if you want more from me you know where to find me you can follow me on patreon for any extra content things like that instagram to see what i'm up to on my daily life daily little routine and on here always twice a week tuesdays thursdays video episodes are up on spotify and youtube if you don't know where to find them i believe everywhere else like apple podcast and stuff it shows up as just like regular audio that's why i always put in parentheses video ep so if you want to watch it somewhere else you can but i always want to make sure that's available for you even if you don't have spotify that's the youtube i believe my youtube is smoke says shoddy love that um but yeah i hope you guys had an amazing day i hope you enjoyed

hanging out with me i hope we could cover some topics that were helpful helpful for you all and inspired you all um the same way you guys inspire me i love you thank you for being here thank you for sharing yourself with me every week and i really hope you have the best week ever um be kind to yourself let yourself feel those emotions let them flow out of you okay no need to hold on to things that no longer serve us that's what this full moon was all about is getting just tired and fed up and ready to let go and most importantly do better so I love you I hope I can make you laugh smile today hope you enjoyed hanging out smoking with me and I will see you all Thursday