Smoke Sesh - witch bitch 101, revenge, tattoos & oversharing

Episode Date: October 4, 2022

Happy Tuesday!! So excited to be back with you guys I hope you had a wonderful week. We start todays episode with a bad serving story time and talk about so many different topics such as going to concerts alone, how to find a bf, falling asleep when you’re an over thinker, getting revenge and what that really looks like, bong tips, oversharing, tattoos & tattoo tips, how to be there for a friend, older men, CBD, STD’s, being a witchy bitch and what that looks like for me, birthdays and more! I hope you guys had an amazing week and I can’t wait to see you next week, remember to follow @ hannahmarlene for all updates and to submit your questions there! Love you all MUAH!

Listen, everybody needs a fairy godmother, you know, just somebody to look out for them. Some people call me their fairy smoke mother, others their internet big sister, but you can call me Hannah, the host of Smoke Sash. So come hang out, let's light up and talk everything there is to life. The good, the bad, the ugly, the embarrassing, I've got a story for it all. Oh my goodness, good morning everybody. How the hell are we all feeling? We made it through retrograde. We made it. We did it. Are we feeling just a little bit more

energized? Are we feeling the chaos energy disappear? Oh my god. Retrograde. The beginning, not so bad. The end, pretty fucking brutal for me personally. Just too many heavy emotions and too much chaos. And listen, I was powering through and I was steering through it, but i can only deal with that bullshit for a certain amount of time do you know what i mean but i could feel the blood returning to my veins jesus oh um and i'm feeling better slowly but surely i'm starting to feel more motivated again instead of just sleeping in bed 24 7 i'm starting to feel more energized more like a go-getter i'm trying to make some money I'm trying to you know hustle a little harder now instead of being like I don't want to do

anything which is a better feeling so thank god um I've just been working kind of overtime recently I I love working especially when it means I can put money into my bank account so I've been just trying to pad that up and work extra hard to save some money so I can maybe go on some vacations soon um especially for my boyfriend's birthday coming up but i had goddamn listen a part of being a server is usually it's pretty easy you can get in there you can chit chat with your tables you can make some money and you can get out like fairly quickly pretty easy work not too bad all around holy shit last night i had the worst table i have ever served in my entire life and no it wasn't because of me like listen listen listen listen some people in the service industry

like get kind of like rude tables and then they get rude back for me personally that just doesn't work with rude people they want you to stoop to their level so then they can get crazy you know what i mean and i don't have time for all that bullshit i when people are extra rude to me i kill that shit with kindness oh my god i'm so sorry i really genuinely did not mean to blah blah whatever so then they feel like the piece of shit because they're being met with kindness instead of aggression which is what they want because it's what they are showing and so that's kind of my rule of thumb if people are being rude you just kill that shit with kindness you just fucking you are like over kind you know what i mean so it really sticks to them

that they're fucking being whatever they're being but these people walked in and i knew all i knew i knew that shit was gonna be fucking awful like i knew it was going to be an awful table they walked in i said hey how are you guys doing six people oh right from the start i was like this is gonna be brutal and we had a new girl on the floor and um we had somebody else who was leaving so i was like fuck i'll take it you know i'll take one for the team sit them down let's get into it and you know when people are just fucking dirty ass gross people and you're like this is not gonna be good and i don't mean dirty as in like a like a like a classism kind of thing like they weren't clean no i was bartending saturday i had a homeless man come

sit in my bar i didn't give a fuck he was so polite so kind he ate his wings he had his beer he's like i can't pay for this shit i'm like okay like what am i gonna do hassle this homeless man for money you've been polite you've been kind i don't care if this is the meal you're gonna have for your dinner tonight and you can't get anything else i really do not give a fuck like what i i do not care um but these people were dirty as in like when people have a deep-rooted attitude it starts to show outwardly and they just look gross they look unappealing do you know what I mean not in like a beauty standard way not in a classism way it's just like a full-on energy way and I was serving these people I was trying to make the best of it I really was but this dude

was just being a fucking dick and it's like if you walk up to a table and I'm like can I get you anything and you guys don't look at me and you don't say anything for at least two minutes babes i'm walking away i'm walking away because i'm assuming you're not ready but i put their food order in and they started complaining to my manager that they they they're waiting on drinks i was like they didn't order any drinks so i went over to get drinks drink orders and they gave me two drink orders and then just went silent and started staring at each other so i walked away and started screaming across the restaurant we weren't done yet we were not done ordering i was like oh i'm so sorry what else can i get you like what i would be more than happy to get you more

things what else can i get you and i got their drinks they got pissed that one of them wasn't in a kid's cup because we were out of kids cups so i had to run next door and get these like plastic little kids cups and i set them down i set them down next to the man who ordered them and he freaked out and he told my manager he goes i have ptsd that shit stressed me out so bad she's lucky i didn't hit her i was like okay game over get these fucking people out this man is four foot and he thinks he's going to assault me no no no no no no no no no no it was it was a couple and their four kids and first of all i wasn't having it from the beginning because they were like throwing their three-year-old around like telling them to sit down and shut

the fuck up i was like no no no no we got to get these people out of here and so i started bitching my manager and she's like you guys gotta leave you gotta let me pay your pay your tab you guys gotta go it was just like oh my god like i just that is the one downfall of having a deal or be in the service industry is some people are just absolutely and genuinely miserable in their own lives and you simply cannot take it purposefully because the way that they're acting to you imagine the way they act at home imagine the way they treat each other imagine that just continued cycle of nastiness and grossness and attitude they perpetually have in their life at least you only have to deal with it for like 30 minutes to an hour okay and then you can learn

something from it and look at your life in a perspective and be like is this how I behave because this is batshit crazy and I do not want to ever be like this so that's the lesson I kind of took from it last night but holy shit was that fucking frustrating there's nothing I hate more than a bitch with a bad fucking attitude god oh my god it was awful anyways that's what i do as part of my job and it sucks because you have to just like smile through it like usually if i'm like out in public and people are giving me a nasty attitude like sure you can like you know be a little mean back but i'm in a position where i'm like i can't get fired oh and they they left a yelp review while sitting at the table my manager she had my back during the whole thing

she was kind of just like also giving them shit because they just like were genuinely unhappy there's nothing we could do to make them happy um and they wrote a yelp review about us and said we were sassy i was like good thank you honestly they're not wrong i am really sassy but anyways that was a fun little ending to my night and then i went and got a asada quesadilla and down that shit and washed atlanta and passed out and here i am good morning how we doing i hope you're got you guys are feeling a little energized that really sparked some fire back into life for me for me to be like okay i need to get my shit on track so i do not end up like those people just miserable and making everybody else miserable around them oh anyways i'm gonna chug some coffee

real quick and maybe put some contacts in so i can see and then let's dive into some questions okay let's jump in last week we did like a really quick i really got through like every single question and i'm gonna try and do that again this week because i feel like it's more fun it's more interactive we get more topics done you know what i mean so i'm gonna fly through some of these someone said my sex drive is so low and i feel bad for my boyfriend because of it any tips i feel like when my sex drive is low it's because there's an uneven balance in my life like either i feel like i'm not taking care of myself or i'm not being taken care of or i'm overworking myself or I'm not working enough there's some you know the scales are tilting towards something that's

probably not great so I think you just need to reevaluate and also stop looking at sex as like a chore as something you like have to do something that's required from you something that needs to happen within your relationship and start thinking about it as something that you and your partner can do together to kind of escape the chaos that is your life and is your world and have a little bit of fun together um so yeah i don't know i feel like it can really easily be solved by just taking some time to sit down take time to yourself relax a little bit and also you know be willing to have fun with your partner but also if you're just not feeling it if you just need some time we all have like spurts where we're just like very very sexually active and probably not sexually

active as much um and so if you're maybe in one of those phases where you're not sexually active as much that's okay it's all right you don't need to be you know energizer bunny all the time um and no one should really take it personally but yeah check out make sure everything's pretty much balanced in your life and don't be afraid to have a little bit of fun someone said um i'm going to concert alone tonight for the first time and I'm excited but nervous any tips all the concerts I've been to um I've been to a lot of concerts alone and I feel like I always have the best time because everybody there is willing to make friends everybody there is willing to have fun everybody there is wanting to get out meet new people conversate have a good time and so the energy

there is already kind of built up positively and so it makes it really easy to go there and have a fantastic time last concert i went to alone i was in the bathroom and some bitch grabbed me by the arm pulled me into a stall locked the door and had lines lined up on her phone and i was like oh my god this was all very sudden i really appreciate it babe um but you know what i mean like everybody there is just trying to make sure that everybody else has a good time and as long as you keep that same energy around you i think things will probably go very well but i love going to concerts alone i don't think there's any reason you shouldn't go to a concert alone um of course you know keep your wits about you stay safe make sure people know where you are

make sure you're contacting people when you get there when you leave whatever it is um basic rules of thumb when it comes to safety but other than that have a great time run around get some drinks talk to some people take some pictures the girls bathroom is always a safe space for like meeting people and then being like hey i'm here i'm here alone um can i come hang out with you and your friends people are usually always so down for that um so yeah i don't think you should ever hold yourself back though if you are like afraid of being the quote-unquote person there alone i feel like that doesn't fly with concerts there's so many people who show up alone and are all just looking to have a good time and make new friends um so yeah if you've never been to a concert alone

i also really really recommend it um i feel like sometimes when you go to concerts with people you kind of um especially with people who you're trying to either not like impress but you're focused on so you're trying to make sure they have a good time and they're enjoying it when you go alone you can simply just focus on yourself and focus on am i having a good time what do i want to do what do i want to see do i need to sit down do i want to drink whatever it is and you can really make sure all those needs are met so someone asked how to find a boyfriend that isn't trash what are the green flags please help i want a boyfriend um i think the biggest biggest biggest green flag is when you're not looking for them when you're actively seeking out a partner like

of course, you know, you can be open and willing. You can be single and be like, you know, if someone comes into my life, I'll be interested in it. But you need to be focused on yourself is the key there. Through and through, you need to be focused on yourself, but allowing the reception of, you know, if a partner enters your life. You cannot be dictating your life completely and utterly around finding a partner or else you're gonna settle you are going to settle and trust me i know this i have been there um i have attracted men in a quote-unquote lack state who just added to that lack state because i settled for somebody who i thought was good who i made up to be a good person in my head because i wanted a boyfriend at the time but in reality was not healthy for me

not good for me um and the people who I did attract into my life who have been very good um were people where I was not looking for anything I was focused on myself I was focused on making myself happy and if they can fit into a routine and into a lifestyle where you are completely and utterly focused on making yourself happy then boom that it works it just does but if you were completely and utterly focused on trying to make other people happy and not focusing on yourself and trying to appease everybody else around you, you are going to also find yourself in that similar situation when you're in a relationship with that person who enters your life at that time. So I think the best thing you can do to really bring anybody into your life

is focus on yourself, better yourself, do things for yourself, stop looking outwardly for attention, stop looking outwardly for affirmation and start look start looking inwardly, make sure you have that inwardly and i guarantee that like confidence you gain from that and that energy you gain from that and that comfortability within yourself that you gain from that will attract people who are also feeling the same way uh like same way that you feel about themselves and so it'll really equalize during your relationship but yeah my biggest tip for finding a boyfriend is don't look oh advice on getting through those late night feels felt i when i was in like peak peak depression it was like you i couldn't go to bed because i would be in my head too much at the

very end of the day but also i wasn't doing anything during the day to tire myself out so i would just have so much energy at night and it would just be like a spiral fucking session it would just be bad i'd be up till 3 a.m just like hating myself which is not healthy not good so i think the best thing you can really do um is a make sure you are busy during the day make sure you're getting shit done during the day make sure you're tiring yourself out during the day the same way like if you had a dog and you just made it lay around all day in your apartment it would be wound the fuck up at night it would be ready to go party it'd be racing around jumping around that's what your brain's doing okay so you got to make sure you get out you exercise your

brain you tire yourself out a little bit in whatever way is necessary even just little tasks getting little tasks done especially when you're in a deep depressive state those little tasks start to add up um so a i would say make sure you are getting shit done during your day so you tire yourself out at night and b if you have a really hard time distracting your thoughts at night which I do I love having something to fall asleep to at night um my parents kind of conditioned me this way because they would always put like a cd on for me to fall asleep to like uh just music when I was a kid so now I or like a radio show so now I can't fall asleep with anything um with nothing like I really can't uh so I always have a tv show on or music or something else that

i can you know have my brain focus on and fall asleep to that i feel like helps me ease into the transition of falling asleep um and distract my brain a little bit from thinking those overwhelming thoughts as well as sometimes you just gotta knock yourself out and for me personally i love cbd gummies um cbd gummies or even melatonin gummies i feel like melatonin gummies give me crazy fucking dreams though crazier than they already have been i've been having wild dreams recently um and so love cbd gummies paz packs has these pomegranate cbd gummies oh they're so good highly recommend you can use code smoke sash for 10 off if you're interested pazpacks.com but yeah um for a overactive mind you really just have to make sure you're getting

it enough activity someone asked how do i get revenge on shitty boys so listen i revenge is not always the best way to go but i think if you've truly been hurt utterly absolutely decimated and led astray then you can put to work the karma that is necessary sometimes you don't even realize what you're doing is payback until you're doing it um in my last relationship that man broke me broke me absolutely broke me i have like i thought it was normal to cry like five days a week i was so stick thin because he was just stressing me out so fucking much and he would just stress me out stress me out stress me out and do nothing like like he wasn't adding anything to the relationship other than his negative self

talk and bad attitude and so when we broke up i had boughten him tickets to one of his favorite musicians uh for valentine's day and so night of i get off work i'm so excited i get off work i go to his apartment to get ready I got all my stuff he's sitting there playing video games like oh are you ready he's like no and at the time he had a cat that we kind of uh I don't know he got it but you know how that is it felt like we got it together and the cat was sick and I was like well did you take the cat did you take the cat to the vet today because that was like the one thing I had asked him to do he never did anything is the one thing I asked him to do um and he was like no I was playing video games and that just pissed me the fuck off so I went off on him I was like

what the fuck we had agreed to fucking you know yeah but like are you kidding me like this is the one thing I was fucking asking you to do and you couldn't even do this one thing like how selfish are you and it kind of clicked in my brain and that was like the tipping point I was like it's done this is done we're done like and I was like freaking out on him and all of a sudden he was like I don't want to go to the concert anymore the vibes are bad you ruined my night I'm not going anymore even though I had spent like $170 on tickets for Valentine's Day and so you know what I did as he was sitting on his bed pouting playing video games I put on the hottest outfit i could find i did my makeup i did my hair i took some molly and i said okay bye bye i am

going to the concert without you and guess what i went alone i had the best fucking night of my life I danced I met people I had fun I met the opener oh my god and the best revenge I could have gotten was letting him sit there with his miserable ass self knowing that I looked fucking hot I felt confident and I was out having fun without him and then i went home and all my shit was on my front porch and so i was like okay we're done and so instead of ever having to see that person ever again i never saw him again after that night thank fucking god because you know what i did i got a task rabbit which is not an uber i think i've talked about this before i got a task rabbit they thought they're about to move my house i was

like no it's one bucket it's full of his shit take it to his apartment drop it off i never want to see this person ever again and so she did she put the bucket in her car she drove 45 minutes away she dropped it off on his front porch she rang his doorbell and she left and she sent me a message she sent me a photo with the shit on his front porch and she said uh i'm so glad you never have to deal with that man again i hope you have a wonderful rest of your life and i tipped or like 40 yep that was the best revenge i ever could have had the best revenge was not no me seeking personal self-destructive things to make me feel better to put him down no the best revenge i ever fucking got was me realizing what a piece of shit he was realizing my worth and taking steps

accordingly right in front of him just directly in front of him best feeling ever absolutely best feeling ever easiest breakup ever because i was over that man oh my god was i over him holy shit i was just burnt out on the negativity and the toxicness and the crying and i just wanted to have a good time and so something that he was never able to make me have was a good time and so i went out and i found that by myself and that's the best revenge i ever could have gotten because i never spoke to never talked to that man ever again thank fucking god anyways yeah i think the best revenge you really can do is focus on yourself glow up and really just have the best fucking time with who you are um celebrate your freedom celebrate who you are celebrate your

independence celebrate not having a shitty man stuck to your side anymore and karma will take care of the rest with their future if you know what i mean but hey hannah love you in the pod uh i was just listening to the most recent episode that you posted the other day and every time that you mention the weather i always find it so funny how different it is from where i'm at so you're in kansas city right so it's getting a little chilly it's starting to turn into fall you know everything's getting nice not here no no no no I'm in Florida so we have a hurricane currently like five feet away from my face it's raining because we're in the middle of a hurricane right now but I'm outside rolling up a blunt because that's what you do in a hurricane when

you're from Florida um but yeah we're still hot and humid here plenty of rain uh waiting for it to get cold can't wait so maybe I should just come up to Kansas City love you I love this I best have a lot of girlies from florida or like the florida area listening so shout out florida is such a scary state i'm not gonna lie like i listen i had an ex from florida he just he ruined that state for me i'm sorry but i know you guys are lovely and i know all my girlies from florida are hotties and baddies i can't lie so felt but yeah weather very much different because i kept getting i know i have a lot of girlies from florida follow me because i kept getting a lot of dms like thank you for posting you know this is getting me through the hurricane and i'm like

oh my gosh i look outside and it's like sunny and 75 but you know the one thing that we have to deal with which i can relate to tornadoes we got we have like crazy spring tornadoes here um i grew up like in the country so like that was more of a threat because they could touch down anywhere and just destroy every fucking thing but now that i live in the city you know it's just like some some bad weather and that's really it like tornadoes aren't gonna touch down on a city street but just like you know my florida girlies i will be outside during it like i feel like after you grow up with it for so long it's like it becomes just a part of the routine you're like anyways i know it's like a torrential rain outside but i still gotta roll up you know like i still gotta

get that shit in um because like of course every midwestern dad when there's a tornado is like i'm gonna go sit on the front porch and watch it like come on but love you guys i hope you're staying safe hope everything's okay um and yeah love you oh someone asked first time bong tips i'm assuming they're buying their first bong um first of all i really really i have one company that i love love love oh my god i'm so sorry about the sirens please ignore canna style oh they're they're releasing um the fucking fuck they're releasing this like crystal ball bong and it's so fucking pretty i'm about to snatch that shit literally why are there nine police officers flying down the road i'm over it like peace and quiet please goddamn um but i love their box and i have so

many of them um i also they're very sturdy hand painted if you pick them um trustworthy just great pieces of glass i don't really have any big tips other than a make sure you are changing your water every day yes every day okay before you hit that shit make sure that water is poured out and changed you do not need to be spoking mold water because it will grow like sediment and mold within 24 hours so rule of thumb before i ever take a hit of anything either my dab rig or my bong i always just pour the water out refill it at the bare minimum you can also like um to get it clean really easy um what is it it's just alcohol and salt and you just pour that shit in there give it a good soak soaking it is probably the best thing that's really gonna happen

and then give it a good shake and yeah just pour it out it should all really come out but i love bongs i think they're way easier than pipes they also hit better easier on your lungs you know what i mean um fav way to smoke definitely well probably right now if i have way to smoke previously my favorite way to smoke was absolutely papers like joints but now that i can't smoke joints in my house um because of course i want to be considerate to my neighbors i have been loving my bong bongs all the way absolutely hi Hannah um I am recording this in my bed at 4 44 a.m that's not a sign I don't know what is I am having a really big problem with oversharing um I just overshare about everything it's almost

like word vomit um and i was wondering if you had any tips to kind of help that um anyways i love you and the pod i listen to you constantly every night when i'm driving home from work i work about an hour away you're just phenomenal and so smart and thank you for just being you thank you okay so i am a big oversharer and i i mean i have a whole podcast dedicated to it babes like big time overshare and i feel like in the past i used to be like i need to not do this as much i need to not be this way so i zipped my mouth up and i wasn't as honest with people and i wasn't as open with people and it didn't feel right and it didn't feel good you know what i mean it's like when you are having a good time and you're being loud and someone goes hey don't be so loud and it

kind of just like ruins your fucking mood you know what i mean i feel like i was doing that to myself in a way i'm an overshare i have to accept it um if that's who you are that's okay that's wonderful i am an overshare if i'm in an awkward situation with a person and i don't know what to talk about i'm we're i'm gonna bring you to my level okay we're going to talk about something funny and silly and something that i've been through so we can both relate to each other and we can have a good time you know what i mean and that's just a part of who who i am and the more i forced myself to try and not be that way and i tried to be the mysterious cool girl i was shutting myself off to the world and i was shutting the world off from myself as well and i found myself in a kind of

like a depression um I thought I shouldn't be that way and so I was trying to change myself into something that I wasn't and just was not worth all the trouble so I think you should really ask yourself like sit down and ask yourself like hey am I an oversharer and if so that can be okay all right just like pick and choose what you want to share you don't always have to share your deepest darkest most horrible secrets you know sometimes you can just overshare a funny story or overshare something funny that you heard or overshare a experience that you had you know all of that is totally fine you don't always have to like walk around and trauma dump on everybody but you can still be an overshare and do it in a positive way i think it's really just all about

being true to who you are and not trying to change yourself into something you're not so ask yourself those questions but i love an overshare and obviously everybody else loves an overshare too because thousands of you guys listen to this a week which is mind-blowing and mind-boggling to fucking say and think about because I really am just saying anything on this but I love it and I wouldn't trade it for the world so oh someone said I want a tattoo any tips great question I've honestly been thinking about um if you guys don't know I'm an artist I've been an artist all my life whether it's like painting or drawing or now doing podcasting whatever it is I've always been creating and for a majority of my life I wanted to be a tattoo

artist I'm kind of getting over serving and bartending and I kind of want to lean into the tattoo world I want to put together a portfolio soon so maybe in the coming years I could tattoo you crazy anyways um i have two professional tattoos the other nine i like gave myself and they're just small i have like a happy face on my foot i have like a little inside joke on my foot i have someone's twitter handle on my foot because i lost a bet and it's also spelled wrong and it's done really bad so I'm not sure who it belongs to because I was like blackout I have a moon on my finger I have three dots on my finger um and then I have a eye professionally I have an eye on the back of my neck that was the first tattoo I ever got done and then I have sumac leaves on

my arm um which was also professional I say a well the first tattoo I got I just walked into the shop and I was just like it's a walk-in you know and she did a great job I can't lie um I wish some of the lines were better done so if you really want a high quality tattoo which is what my second one is super high quality incredible artistry incredible patience and time put into it research your artist okay look up the shop you want to go to look at the artists that are featured there look at the work they're doing and try and find an artist who can do the kind of work you want done sure tattoo artists need to be versatile in many different styles that doesn't mean they're going to be good okay so like say you want calligraphy script writing you know what I mean

not artist not all artists are going to be able to do that well and that's okay but if you do want it done well find somebody who can do it and who really loves doing it so then when they put it on your body it'll last and it'll look good okay my two professional tattoos really great job from the same um shop a grim tattoo if you're in kansas city love them but two very different types of tattoos two very different types of artists you know what i mean um my more professional one took five hours my uh my sumac leaves on my arm took five hours and that was a little brutal I can handle pain well I think I really can so I started getting annoyed by the end of the five hours and I was over it um but I made it through and I didn't really need any breaks thank god

but if you're the kind of person who can't handle like long-term pain or um doesn't really like you know dealing with long-term pain ask your artist like okay how long is this gonna take can we take breaks um you know can we do this in different sessions whatever it is I'm sure they're gonna be able to work around it with you as long as you're willing to pay and also the more you pay usually the better it's gonna turn out the one on the back of my neck was like 90 100 with tip and like it was done well i enjoy it i really like it i mean i never really see it so honestly i can't really tell you but is it the best no now the one on my arm was like 650 it was pretty expensive um plus tip so really high like lots of money you know what i mean

but it is incredible quality it is incredibly done it is still so vibrant um and like i'm looking at it right now it looks really good like they put their fucking effort into it so take that into consideration but yeah i love tattoos i don't regret any of my tattoos no matter how stupid they are i think they're all fun i think they're all funny um every one of them has a story I am not the kind of person who can just like maybe one day but I'm not the kind of person who can just be like oh that looks cool I want it on my body um everything that I have is very intentional I think um and even if it's not intentional it at least has a story behind it and I think that helps me kind of deal with the fact that it's on my body forever

you definitely are going to go through a period right after the bus like breaks are squealing um you're definitely going to go through a period of like maybe a day afterwards where you get it done and you really really like it and then you like hit this like wall of like oh my god this is on me forever did i just make a huge mistake like oh my god what did i do you know what i mean that is a normal feeling it's not going to last long i promise so if you are getting that feeling don't worry it'll pass you'll learn to love it um you just got to get used to it um i forget i have tattoos at this point uh my boyfriend's family was like oh is that new i was like uh no i have had this for years actually and i actually forgot i had it you know but i love tattoos

go support your local tattoo artists um go support some artists that you really want to get i think it's really cool to get art done by other artists on your body um and they will work with you with whatever you want i also recommend not going on pinterest and just finding photos and being like i want this okay because i have some people being like well i want your i really want those leaves you have tattooed can you take a photo of those leaves you have tattooed and it's like do you want those because they look cool because i have them because they represent my childhood and where i grew up and their specific sumac leaves which is a street i was raised on it represents like the connections i made during childhood and the family i grew up with you know

like it's way deeper than you might think and so instead of just being surface level and um you know finding a pinterest tattoo that you want maybe find five or six that are similar put them in kind of like a collage to show your artist so then they can take inspiration and make your own tattoo for you. Make your own art for you so you're still kind of original and you're not just ripping off someone else's hard work and idea. They will absolutely work with you but I don't know any tattoo artists who are just going to tattoo other people's work. So if there is something you want specifically done, I say find four or five inspiration photos to show them so they can work on some original art for you but yeah I want to get some more done soon I just

am unsure of what I want but I really am itching to get a tattoo um I do know I want like a spiral tattoo of some sort I just am unsure of how I want it to look or what shape or where and so I need to sit and think about it for a little bit i sat and thought about my eye on the back of my neck for like three years um at first i wanted it on my wrist and small and then i wanted it on my elbow and one day my friend was like well why don't you get it on the back of the back of your neck because it represents like you know something someone the universe watching out for you so doesn't it make sense for it to be on the back of your neck so it's constantly watching your back and I was like oh love that like you got to sit with the idea and talk it through with a bunch of

people to kind of like it once you can sit comfortably with the idea with yourself then you'll be able to sit comfortably comfortably with the idea on your body um the one on my arm I thought about that one for four or five years I wanted something to represent my childhood where I grew up my parents like all of a sudden just sold my childhood house while I was in college and so I had nowhere to live it was very confusing a very odd time for me because there was no place that felt like home and so I really need something to represent that and to kind of mourn the loss of that and I thought about it for a while then finally got it so I say take your time think about it have fun with it create some original art treat your artists well remember to tip them

and I think you'll have a great time but yeah I love tattoos my parents were so against tattoos and then they started getting them and I was like well if you guys are gonna get them then I'm gonna get them like what makes no sense anyways okay someone asked tips on helping your friend through a breakup great question absolutely great fucking question so this is the time where you get to be the hype woman which I love I love being the hype woman I love it because part of that is just absolutely shitting on their ex whoever it is okay every time you got to be around them all the time too i can't lie of course they need alone time but sometimes when you're sad you want alone time but you really don't need it do you know what i mean so try and

make sure you're around them as much as you can so when they're like but he was or i miss this or what about you can just be there to shut them the fuck up okay so then their mind can't run and get crazy with them okay you can be there to shit on their ex so then when every time they think something positive or but what about the time or but i miss this you can just be like no bitch we're not doing that today okay a make sure they're having good food because they're probably not eating i think we've all been there you know when shit's just hitting the fan and you're like i'm the hunger's gone you know make sure there's a bagel there for them make sure you know maybe go out to dinner do something even just staying in the house and crying and sobbing and watching

movies just make sure you're there with them staying on track towards the positive okay making sure they're fed if you can get them out of the house i really recommend doing so usually within the first couple days to a week depending on if they did the breaking up or whatever they're probably not going to want to leave the house if you can get them out of the house good but if they don't want to leave honor that listen to that have a little girls night a little movie night whatever um when i broke up with my ex i was in just like not a good place a i had like a uti b i was going through a breakup my mom was like well i want to go out to a new restaurant i was like i really don't i just want to stay inside and cry she's like well you're

being selfish we need we're gonna we're gonna go to this restaurant so we went to the restaurant you know what i did i sat at the burger counter and i cried the entire time and the waitress was like are you okay no babe obviously not my mom just didn't give a fuck that is not helpful so if they don't want to go don't make them because it is the most uncomfortable thing to be crying in public crying in general is not fun but if you can cry in the comfort of your own home with friends fantastic great if you're crying in public not great not fun once they're starting to you know feel themselves a little bit feel a little bit better that's when you swoop in you do their makeup you do their hair pick out a hot outfit have friends around get some drinks

go out dance party have a good time okay that that is the best fucking thing ever whenever my girls are freed from a relationship it is the best thing because they just go out and they lose their goddamn minds and it is so fun because you're just gonna be there to hype them up the entire time that's your job you're not there to shit on them you're not there to put them down you're not there to you know whatever you're there to reality check them about how amazing and wonderful and brilliant they are okay and you're there to distract them from whatever they're thinking about that is your job okay love it absolutely so much fun okay so got this dm just a second ago she said okay question for the pod so my friend just met this guy at her work and they started dating

pretty quickly he's her first boyfriend she just turned 18 and this guy is 24 24 idk if i'm just blowing it out of proportion but it's grossing me out that he is so much older than her i know the six-year age gap isn't that big and i wouldn't care as much if they were both older but they are at completely different points in their life why is he okay with the fact that she is freshly legal he seems fine in other ways the very little i know about him but i can't get over the age thing i just don't want her to be with some uh sussy man i'm curious to hear your thoughts yeah no no no no no that is what we're not doing because listen my friend at work just turned 21 and i was telling her i was like 21 is a big age because you hit 21 and you feel like okay i've entered

adulthood 18 you don't feel like an adult okay you're still a baby you're still a kid 21 you feel like you've entered adulthood you've stuck your foot in the door and by doing so you put a gap between your childhood okay 0 to 20 and the rest of your life which is your adulthood and you do not want to step back because you're starting to taste that freedom you're starting to taste what it is to be an adult and you want to keep moving forward working forward a big part of that is you are not looking back and anything behind you age-wise person i person wise you are not interested in and so when i see older men being interested and younger women huge red flag absolutely huge red flag I'm 23 my boyfriend's about to turn 24 if somebody my age was like

yeah here's my girlfriend she's 18 I would absolutely be so shocked and so utterly horrified okay because 24 year old women are so mature are so driven are so smart because they've been through things they've had life experiences and so if he is regressing and dating somebody that is way younger it is simply because he does not want to put up with a woman who knows her worth and knows her value and will stand up for herself straight up he wants someone easy he wants an easy target he wants someone he can manipulate he wants someone who will be a quote-unquote okay girl a girl who will just go with anything he says and that is gross and that is disgusting and that is manipulative and it's what a lot of dirty ass fucking gross men will do okay there is no reason

a 24 year old should be dating an 18 year old a six-year difference is okay if it's like 25 and 31 26 and 32 the late 20s and early 30s and beyond that is fine that is okay all right still a little you know hmm you know you're still gonna think about it a little bit but it feels a little bit normaler because you're both at least into adulthood and you are understanding adulthood and how it is and you're building a life and you have experiences to build this life around when you're 18 you have zero experiences straight up i don't care that they say 18 year old is an adult when you're 18 you're a baby i was such a fucking baby at 18 like i just didn't have the life experiences to understand what the world was yet you know you're still in high school or maybe

freshly out of high school you are finally having the open or having the world somewhat open to you but it is not fully open to you because you have not built any life experiences when we were in high school my friend was dating like a 22 year old when we were like 17 18 and at the time we didn't really think anything of it because you know when you're younger you're like oh you know older man interested in you you know nothing should be wrong with that right but then once you get older you think back and you look back on that and you're like why the fuck did anybody allow this to happen why did anybody allow this to happen if you're a young girl 18 19 17 20 whatever it is and any man 23 24 25 26 or older is interested you interested in you

or hitting on you it is not because you're special it is because they're quite honestly preying on you and i think we get this warped idea in our minds that you know if an older man is attracted to us it means that we're more mature or we're not like other girls or you know we're special in some sort of ways because the media has warped and changed our brain into thinking that way it is not true men are preying on younger women because they're easy easier to manipulate they're easier to get things out of um and they can absolutely 100% take advantage of you think about the andrew tate like fans he literally said he wants young women because they have no life experiences and they're easier to manipulate yeah big red flag right there i would say play this for

your friend straight up listen girly if you're playing this for her this is for you okay you can do better you need to date people your own age when you're younger because it is better for you to date an inexperienced man when you are also inexperienced and to learn and to grow and to change together and to discover the world together than it is for you to date a man who is older than you because he is going to take advantage of every single thing you don't know and i know you think you know everything because i was an 18 year old girl once too and i thought you know i knew everything about the world no the world is much harsher and much more manipulative than you might think and at this point in time in your life you need to protect yourself and by protecting yourself

that means setting harsh boundaries for yourself and not allowing these men to walk into your life and take advantage of your newness and your openness and your excitement for the world because that is precious and it is valuable especially to pessimistic older men and it needs to be valuable to you too so i would say leave him dump his ass fucking lame ass man why are you dating an 18 year old and it's not the 18 year old's fault it's not it's not her fault it is absolutely 1000 the man's fault because he is weird okay oh you got to get out of that situation. Hi, Hannah. Hope you're having an amazing week. I just wanted to call in and say I love you so much. I love your pod so much. LEAD has really changed my life over the last few

months, and it's just such a positive for me, and I think listening to your podcast really validated that for me and made me realize it's okay to smoke every day if it's, you know, benefiting me um anyway I am currently studying abroad in Amsterdam it's amazing the weed of course is super high quality and just like there's such a like a distinction between the indica and the sativa so it's amazing I love it and I was looking to take a little bit of a tea break just because I got into a bike crash when I was high and I realized let's not do that so I tried CBD I love it I love it I love it so I just want to say thank you for the rec thank you for facilitating my tea break and love you love you love you god I want to go to Amsterdam so bad I

have been meaning to travel and I just haven't gotten around to it and it sucks I need to get out I got to experience the world and the beauty and Amsterdam weed most importantly um but I'm glad I could help for real though CBD changed the game when it comes to tea breaks um and it is a gift quite honestly especially for my chronic girlies who love to smoke and maybe just can't get it out of their routine great supplement cbd is so love you okay i read this dm and i screamed i screamed because i have been this girl well not specifically but i've been in this situation so let me read it to you let me read it to you all righty um so i caught my first scd i went to get tested for one but they told me i just had a yeast infection so i was treating that the symptoms

would come and go anyway i hadn't had symptoms for a while so i figured it was gone i'm talking to the new to a new dude we had been hanging out for a while and he comes over and you know you get down a few days go by and i start bleeding but it wasn't on my period this is when i went back and got tested again found out i have trick which she said is it's a very common to get trick confused with the yeast infection also trick is straight up very very common um she says so now i have to tell the dude that he could possibly have an std so we're in a weird spot i get treated but we're still waiting on his results i made a dumb decision i understand how dumb this is um and i know i'm almost positive i'm having symptoms again and we are still waiting on his results which i'm

sure are going to come in the next few days i guess my question is what would you do if your partner came to you saying you have to get tested for an std and they didn't know they had it would you let this one slide and stay with them also i love you so fucking much you inspire me i love you okay so i want to preface by saying stds are very common and before you're like what no literally they are so fucking common um and i realized that once i talked to people around me and realized everybody had gotten it at some point in their life whatever it was chlamydia gonorrhea whatever and it's just a part of having sex you know it's not like you should want them or should you know you know you shouldn't want these things to happen to you but if they do happen i don't think you

should be hard on yourself very easy to solve you know take a little pill get a little shot mine was a powder mix it into a drink chug it you know and then go get retested after i don't think you should be harsh on yourself because i guarantee every single person who's having sex unprotected is going to get an std at some point and so instead of you know oh i hate myself oh how i'm so gross like instead of just being down on yourself let's be mature about it okay if you are doing something that can have harsh consequences such as having a baby if you are having sex you need to be mature okay because um if you know if it was a baby you would want to be having these mature conversations with your partner about okay well what are we going to

do well i need to i need to be able to talk to you about this stuff so if you can't talk about std how the fuck you gonna talk about a baby you know like let's be real here so i think the best way you can go about it and the situation i was in was my partner came to me immediately after getting the results was mature about it apologized i think him coming to me quickly was what really you know um showed that you know like the care um he didn't hide it he didn't put it off for a few days it was like immediately as soon as he got the results he told me and i really appreciated that even though i was sitting down at my family dinner and i found out i had an std through text i appreciated that he did not waste any time um dilly-dallying or worrying he let me know

immediately that showed that a he cared about me um b he offered to pay for treatment to pay for whatever it was even though it was just like a little pill he offered to pay for it to set up the appointment to get it figured out and c he apologized profusely um really really regretted it showed that he regretted it um and made it a part of his plan to fix this with me instead of like i think what some guys do is just hey go get tested and then never talk to you again because they're probably too embarrassed be mature about it have these conversations i think i don't think he'll take it personally i think as long as you are open and honest and really just um let them know what's going on and don't put each other at risk again then things can work out okay and maybe

this is a great time to talk about like hey do you have other partners you know are you having unprotected sex with other people i don't want to risk myself i don't want to possibly get other stds like it's okay if you guys are just on like a hookup basis but these are conversations that you need to be having as mature people who are going to be having sex because you don't want to end up with something random okay talk to him hey very sorry i'm so fucking sorry i have this you're probably going to go need medication for it um I genuinely I really didn't mean for this to happen I still want to see you again if there's anything I can do please let me know I hope you don't think differently about it or about me um and then also I think this is a good time to talk

about like if you are having sex with multiple partners or even with one partner get tested get tested just it's so easy it's like i twenty dollars with copay with insurance go get tested so simple takes like 10 minutes you pee in a cup oh my god easiest thing ever all right and it saves you a lot of stress a lot of worrying because straight up a lot of stds like i feel like in high school and middle school they showed us pictures of like people who had gone like 10 10 years with this std sorry untreated and so it just looks a hot fucking mess like gross you know what i mean but a lot of the times stds do not have symptoms and they do not show up and you know you notice yours good you're paying attention to your body and the way it works

very smart of you babes um but um a lot of the times there's no symptoms there's no signs there's nothing and so instead of just assuming that everything is right go get tested you'll save yourself some pressure you'll save yourself some worrying you'll save yourself some stress but also if you do find yourself you know in a position where you do have something whether you're the one who gave it to them or you're the one who's getting it be mature about it okay be fucking mature about it like i said if you're doing mature things you need to behave maturely so apologize get it handled very easy to handle yeah i didn't really the seeds were so common until i was younger and like my friend had like just gotten into her she

was like she's not a prude but like she doesn't sleep with a lot of people at all and like the first person she had like given a blow job to or whatever um she got chlamydia in her throat and i was like what the fuck you can get it in your throat like i didn't know that like so many things they don't teach you in sex ed and then also i went to my doctor after i had gotten something and they were like oh yeah this is super common i treat girls daily for this and i'm like what like i thought this was like a very uncommon thing to happen no it's common don't feel bad about yourself do get tested so you don't get it again and if you do get it you can treat it asap without having to have these uncomfortable conversations with your partner after accidentally

giving them something but I think if you go about it maturely and you act maturely and you take the necessary steps to you know heal and to help each other and maybe talk about like exclusivity if you don't want to take a risk but also if he maybe doesn't want to be exclusive be like okay well are you sleeping with other partners and are they tested all conversations that very much so need to be normalized and talked about much more often because I think a lot of people catch something or they get an STD and they're too shameful or afraid because we've been taught to be shamed about sex to have that conversation with their partners and so they just ghost them never talk to them and then put their partners at risk because they're too selfish to think about it

or to admit to other people they had contracted something it's okay it's all right there's one thing nursing school taught me it's that sc's are so fucking common all right you'll get through it you'll take a little pilly you'll get tested again and i promise you will make it through but be mature be honest be open um and don't be afraid don't be afraid of course however they wrap however they react is up to them um and you have to honor that but also i really really think that if people just went about it more maturely than they do um and weren't afraid to have these open and honest conversations and talk about it quickly and make plans to solve it quickly then people's feelings wouldn't be hurt as much as they are so there's that story never told that

one but holy shit you guys i drank a shit ton of iced coffee and i was pooping obviously what else comes after that and i was hearing this loud ass fucking knock on my front door and i'm like it's probably management or whatever i don't got time for this like i'm in the middle of shitting so i was like one second and they started knocking louder i was like what so i got up shut my bathroom door this is smelly and i opened the door and it was the police it was like excuse me they're like we're looking for this girl i'm like a i don't know this girl also like i'm gonna go back to the bathroom so i shut the door and there's like nine police officers on my floor and i just arrested my neighbor like what the fuck is happening what is happening chaos like

are you kidding me me in the middle of my morning poop like leave that poor girl alone why is this happening at 12 o'clock come on nine police officers unnecessary anyways that was wild hey hannah love you and the pod so my question is if you had any advice for people who are just starting to get into tarot um it's something that i've been really interested in for a while and i really want to start doing it just to kind of like grow a deeper understanding I don't know within myself connect to myself on a deeper level um so yeah I was just wondering if you had any tips tricks advice would love to hear it I know you've talked about it before on the podcast all right love you and hope you're having a lovely Tuesday bye oh my gosh I had a

whole like witch bitch witch bitch 101 um kind of oh my god thing recorded and my boyfriend facetimed me and it deleted so let's get back into it let's let's get this organized i just made myself some lunch i was feeling myself deplete so i got i took a for lunch today i took a bell pepper like a green bell pepper cut it in half stuffed it with rotisserie chicken hot sauce a little mozzarella cheese and i'm throwing it in the oven until the pepper gets soft and then i'm gonna devour that um but witch bitch 101 okay let's get into it because tarot definitely is a huge way i connect back to kind of like my witchy roots um it's one of my favorite things to do but i have been a witchy girl for a majority of my life my parents would just see me

collecting animal bones in the forest when I was like nine and they'd be like it's a little odd it's a little weird not sure how to feel about that anyways it's continued into adulthood no it wasn't a phase mom um and now I have a little altar with some cute little bones on it with some crystals that my dad um got me cute you know whatever it's continued into adulthood and if anything it's just gotten stronger so let me talk about some of my favorite things that I like to do my favorite rituals how i have a altar um tarot all of it let's dive in so first of all when it comes to tarot i love working with tarot i've been working with it for a majority of my life took a little break there for a while but i love working with it it's a great way to kind of like ask the

universe simple questions and get simple answers back and my favorite thing about tarot is it does not spare your feelings the way your friends might spare your feelings tarot does not in fact tarot will tell you exactly what you need to hear whether you want to hear it or not so one of my favorite card polls and one of the only card polls i really ever do is a one card poll okay sometimes when you do a three card poll a seven card poll like yes you can get a lot of fucking information out of it but sometimes it can be blended together sometimes like people will get seven different cards have six of them be negative and one of them be positive and only focus on the positive when in reality the universe is trying to give you a warning sign trying to tell you

something and now you're ignoring it when you have one card you can't ignore what is right in front of you so this is where a altar comes in very handy when doing rituals when practicing tarot you need a space where you can sit down openly connect with the universe and with yourself a huge part of witchy rituals is making sure that you feel comfortable you feel connected and you feel like your true self that is how you're going to get the most honest answers out of anything that you're looking for okay you need to make sure you are asking for things you truly want you need to make sure you are being honest with yourself you need to make sure you're feeling comfortable with yourself comfortable within the ritual all of that is a key factor here and that's

where um alters kind of come in handy alters are a great way of expressing yourself of expressing your gratitude of having a fun little area to really represent you spiritually but it doesn't need to be complex it doesn't need to be intense it doesn't need to be you know a conglomerate of hand-carved candles and special crystals and bones. It doesn't need to be that, okay? An altar space can be a place you sit. An altar space can be a way you are sitting. An altar space can be one item that you maybe pray over, one area that you maybe pray over. It doesn't matter as long as you build it yourself and you feel comfortable, okay? We picking up what I'm putting down here, you got to make sure you feel comfortable and you need to make sure that your

altar space reflects that honestly and openly. For me personally, I have a conglomerate of a bunch of different things because I've been collecting them over the years. If this is something I may be just starting, I probably wouldn't have a lot of things that I honestly connect to. But for me personally, it's a pretty big altar. I sit on a little like floor pillow in front of it and when asking for anything from the universe or speaking with anything from the universe especially with tarot i just have an open stream of consciousness so i talk i ask for things don't be afraid to ask for the things from the universe be confident be proud say your affirmations it's okay to get your worries off your chest as well just that open stream of consciousness talk is very important

so the same way you would like pray i think it's very similar now a tarot i will ask the universe what i'm looking for the answers i need i'll express how i feel um you know what kind of answers i am trying to find not specifically the answers but what i'm looking for and i will take my tarot cards i will shuffle them in my hands and i will shuffle them and shuffle them and shuffle them until one card pops out okay i take as a sign that you know that's the card that needs to be um focused on and that is the card that i will use for my one card poll um you can do this daily if you would like to do just like a daily check-in you can do this whenever you feel like you need it so just occasionally i probably do this every other week i've been doing this for

you guys on my patreon as well just asking the universe for any sort of answers people who are um connecting with me might need this week it was the four of pentacles which is kind of just talking about money balance and balance within life and not over indulging but not over withdrawing or spend or not spending but not over um saving you know having that open flow of energy that ebbs and flows and not only with money sure money is a big important factor here but also with your life you cannot grasp onto the things you have so tightly that they are not able to breathe and you need to be open to change especially when change comes. So every card is going to have two meanings depending on where it's facing. I see a lot of people have a card face you know

the opposite way that it's supposed to face and they'll turn it around to make sure it's facing correctly quote unquote but each card has multiple meanings and you can easily find these meanings if you don't know either in the book that comes with your cards or online if you want a more in-depth kind of understanding there's many different great resources online if you just google the cards um and yeah i love tarot tarot will always be honest with me constantly it'll either be comforting or it'll be the fucking slap in the face that i need to you know pull my shit together and get together love it incredible um other witchy things i've been doing are like rituals i feel like cooking is kind of a ritual for me and especially in the fall oh my gosh um it's like

a love ritual in a sense i love baking i love cooking i love pouring my heart and soul into these dishes and doing so for people who i love so they can feel the love that i am wanting to share um some other rituals i do if you need to get rid of negative energy you can do a salt bath um so make sure you have salt around you as well as salt salt in your bath run it very hot sit in the bath release all that negative energy release all that toxicity into the water into the salt and then the key here is while you're sitting in the water to drain it so to drain it as you're sitting there and feel all of your worries and all of your anxiety and all the negativity slip away from you as it goes down the drain wait until it's completely drained that's what i really

wanted to do last night after having to deal with my crazy ass fucking table um what else i uh love doing like writing rituals like affirmation and worry rituals so if i have something i'm worried about and i want to get rid of and um completely remove from my life you can write it down on a piece of paper seal it with like black or red wax and then light it on fire or you can write it down on something that you can break like such as a plate go to a thrift store oh my god my food's ready go to a thrift store find something you can easily break write it down with a sharpie go break it of course somewhere where no one's gonna get hurt um but just like physical acts of removing negativity from you you can also do like an affirmation i made this one up um but you take

a piece of paper write down what you want your hopes your dreams your biggest goals fold it up seal it with white wax and then for me personally i bury them in my pothos plants my potted pothos plants um bury those bad boys in there and then it's really beautiful to see the plant nourish from the life of the paper that you give it and grow and become something beautiful so it's kind of a physical representation of what you want to happen and how you want to grow um another great one is like an egg ritual so you know of course the one where you you take an egg you um rub it all over your body to kind of get rid of um negative energy have it soak into this egg and instead of like some cultures you can break it into a glass and see if anybody's been giving you

the evil eye see if it's like taken anything for but for me personally i love taking it to a crossroads um of any sort taking it to a crossroads and breaking it there and leaving the egg and walking behind and leaving those bad intentions that people have set on you behind into the crossroads um but yeah there's so many different fun things it's a great way to connect i feel like i'm way more quote-unquote like witchy spiritual than i am anything else um and it's so fun and the energy is just extra high as we're coming into fall you know i'm wanting to connect back to my witchy self a little bit more than usual but it's great there's so many different ways you can take it there's so many different fun things you can do and when it comes to rituals you don't have

to follow them specifically of course there's certain things you're supposed to do to have it certain ways such as like i fucked up one time and did the uh abundance ritual where you take cinnamon and salt put in your hand the cinnamon represents abundance the salt represents um it protecting your abundance and you are supposed to blow it into your house um because the front door represents the portal between the outside world and your inside spiritual world and you're supposed to blow into your house to bring abundance and peace and prosperity into your house but for me i was dumb and the like one rule you're supposed to have is like cinnamon and blowing it into your house i took a cinnamon and i blew it out of my house and i ended up losing a lot of money that

month i cannot lie great one also if you're trying to you know bring abundance into your life at the beginning of the month can be done anytime there's small things of course that you should follow because it's the basis of the ritual that you're performing but also make it your own don't be afraid to take your own spin on things to make sure that they are you know accompanied to how you feel to you to your practice to how you want to practice things and also make sure you're not stealing from other people i think that's pretty simple um like but but honor it in a sense you know like don't just perform something because you saw someone else do it make sure it's something real something you want to do and something that actually connects to you and to how you feel you

know what i mean but i love just little witchy things my apartment is such a little witchy apartment it's so cute i got all my plants i'm staring at my boyfriend's hair that he gave me which is like a true sign of trust because like there's a lot of things i could do with that um my little altar i have so many different candles in here um but it's so nice to have a space where i can feel comfortable within myself and yeah have fun with different types of practices that you can do but my favorite part that's kind of a part of the uh witchy scope of things is tarot I love tarot so fun and I feel like people usually learn tarot to do it for other people which of course is a gift and a skill but for me personally I love keeping it to myself um it's a

great way to kind of just connect to yourself pour your energy into your cards and they will pour back into you so go get yourself a little deck go go collect the cute crystals that you want um do what feels right but definitely in my heart I am a witchy bitch hi Hannah um I hope you're doing well my name is Ella and I'm from New Zealand um I love you and the podcast so much every day I walk home from school I plug in my headphones and I zone out for half an hour and I end up home but like I've learned so much from you like on the every time I listen that so thank you so much um I have two questions one I turn 18 in four days and I not only hate my birthday just it is it is what it is but I'm terrified of growing up so how do I go about stop being

scared to grow up because 18 is scary and my second question if that's okay um if not totally cool totally cool if a guy has disrespected me a lot do i completely block him out of my life or do i leave him on leave him on scene forever but let him see me do well in life thank you love you hi babes love you shout out new zealand okay um first of all if a man if a man is disrespecting you remove him entirely um don't play any games do what feels right if you blocking him completely is necessary do that if you just removing him from your life is okay as well do that either way make sure he is removed completely second of all birthdays i used to hate my birthday i used to hate it best birthday ever was 21 since then it's been pretty good when you don't have people around

you to plan a birthday it's up to you and it's okay to plan your own birthday because in fact that gives you more control okay if you have a few friends around you that's awesome one is perfect two is great anything more is just a blessing so use who you have around you you know and think to yourself what do i want to do you know what i mean what kind of birthday party do i want to have what activity sounds fun to me sometimes it's just nice to get together with the girls hang out watch a movie get way too blazed and just like have a good time you're 18 never mind do not do the second thing but just to relax and have a good time have a good time do some face masks you know maybe get some matching robes for everybody or like matching um like onesies or something i

don't know something cute um and then eat some cake and pass out great night uh get a um i don't think you can do this yet but get a like a um a table at a club invite people out if you've got a table people are gonna come and hang out with you okay um do like a pool party do like a picnic it can be very very simple things it's okay to plan it yourself but it's better to plan it and to have something in the works and something you can be excited about than to sit around and be like hmm i wonder if anybody's gonna do anything for me and then to probably be disappointed at the end of the day um just just listen to yourself listen to what you want how do you want to celebrate it's fun to celebrate growing up doesn't need to be scary it's a blessing to not have to be

a kid anymore okay you get so much more freedom so much more experiences growing up doesn't have to be scary 18 was a good year i'm pretty sure what i did with my friends was we just had like a sleepover and we were at my lake house and we just swam ate some good food hung out talked gossip fell asleep very simple doesn't need to be anything crazy i think it's just really fun to get together with people um whoever is in your life whoever's around you even if it's just family and um you know just just be around people and celebrate if you don't have anybody to be around that's absolutely okay as well i get it i've been there i think um the best thing you can do is just treat yourself a little bit you know have that favorite food of yours um buy that favorite thing treat

yourself to something at least because it is your birthday and you deserve to be spoiled whether it's from yourself or from your friends either way you will have a great time i pinky promise but 18 was a good year for me 21 was a good year for me um 23 has been okay life's kind of punched me in the fucking face but i think 25 is probably going to be my next really good year um i'm excited though and as someone who was very afraid to grow up and terrified of the future being able to um now sit here and be excited about the future is something really nice to feel and really wonderful and i guarantee you'll get there it's not as scary as you might think or what people make it out to be so i love you happy early birthday also anyways with that being said

today was a fun day today was a fun day it's been a little chaotic for me since i woke up that police thing made my heart fall into my fucking ass but i'm gonna go smoke a bowl i'm gonna go munch down on some lunch and i hope you guys have a fantastic rest of your day this was so incredible um and i will see you next tuesday as you all know we are kind of back into a routine and it feels good honestly i've just been working overtime so i can't really put out two podcasts right now and i'm really sorry but i hope you guys are enjoying the once a week podcast please don't leave i love doing this actually no one's leaving i feel like more people are coming and it's kind of shocking like thousands of more people are showing up every week and it's wonderful to

have you here it's amazing and incredible that people are finding this and finding you know um a community in this that i think a lot of us have been able to find but thank you guys for showing up thank you for being you thank you for listening i hope you all have a fucking fantastic rest of your day fantastic rest of your week and you know save those questions okay dm them to me at hannah marlene you already know but on sundays i post my little questionnaire you can ask whatever you want you can say what's on your mind i'm always open to hearing to listening to talking about anything but i love you all i hope you have a fantastic week and i will see you all very soon