Something Was Wrong - S24 Ep20 Extreme

Episode Date: January 11, 2026

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Thank you to Survivor Brittany for sharing with us today. Brittany was sent to a Jamaican residential lockdown facility called Tranquility Bay in 2005. Tranquility Bay, like many of the international WASP programs, were reported by journalists and former residents to be among the harshest in the network and were sometimes invoked as a threat by other programs. Youth were regularly shipped between Tranquility Bay and other international WASP programs like Casa by the Sea and high impact in Mexico. Moving kids internationally often reset legal jurisdiction, making it harder for pay. parents or attorneys to intervene. Tranquility Bay operated from 1997 until early January 2009 on a two and a half acre property that had originally functioned as a hotel.

Tuition reportedly cost caregivers between $25,000 and $40,000 per year. The Jamaica Observer recounts a 2001 fatal fall of a teen shortly after arrival and a 2005 incident in which two teens fled after a hurricane, while other reporting characterizes Tranquility Bay as among Wasp's most severe programs. A 2003 Guardian investigation reported that, quote, an American Time magazine journalist visited Tranquility Bay in 1998, and since then, no media have been allowed inside, end quote. The same Guardian piece states that parents signed a contract with Tranquility Bay, granting 49% custody rights, which permitted staff whose qualifications are not required to exceed a high school education, to use physical force,

and included a waiver of liability for harms to the child. Throughout its years of operation, Tranquility Bay drew widespread allegations of unsanitary conditions, medical neglect, and severe punishments. The two WASP-affiliated Mexican institutions, used as feeder programs to Tranquility Bay, were shut down by Mexican authorities. In 2004, Casa by the Sea was raided after reports of child abuse. High impact was later shut down amid allegations of children forced to exercise in extreme heat and being beaten. A federal civil lawsuit filed in 2006 accused WASP owner Robert Litchfield and others of racketeering and fraud involving multiple wasp schools. Allegations included forced labor, abuse, mail, and wire fraud.

In 2008, near the end of Tranquility Bay's existence, the case of a 16-year-old resident drew media and legal attention in New York, including reporting on alleged abuse and efforts to secure his release from the Jamaican facility. Litigation and coverage that spring helps spotlight Tranquility Bay's conditions. I'm Tiffany Reese, and this is something was wrong. My name's Brittany. I went to Tranquility Bay in Treasure Beach, Jamaica. I was sent there May of 2005.

And was that the only institution you were at? Yes. Tranquility Bay was the last resort. People got sent there when they got kicked out of all of the other WASP programs, but I got sent there directly. What was your family dynamic like growing up? My parents were still married,

have one older brother and two younger brothers. We're all kind of close. We used to be a lot closer. We love each other, but we were all very much involved in this cult church. Everything from the outside seems like everything was normal. We are just a great Christian family.

We love God. We go to church. We fellowship. I was homeschooled up until second grade. Before we were even born, my mom was a T-shirt. So when she started having kids, she wanted to homeschool us. She wanted to be the perfect mom. She's going to teach us.

She's going to raise us. It's going to be this perfect family. But the church told her to send us to public school so that she would have more time to devote to the kingdom. The kingdom would be the church. They had disciplesors is what they would call them. That disciple is in charge of leading you and guiding you and telling you what to do. That disciple is a better Christian, is closer to God.

They will lead you the right way. And if you don't follow your discipller, then you're sinning. My disciple had a discipler, and it goes all the way up. Everybody's trying to keep everybody in line based on this hierarchical structure. everything I knew was church. When I was super young, it'd be like, this is your friend Krista. Krista is your best friend.

And then Krista would be my best friend. I didn't even know how or why I would make another best friend. That was all I knew. Everything was given to me and placed accordingly. So a high control environment was something that was normalized to you pretty early on, it sounds like. Yeah. Because this is a worldwide church. They're all over the place.

So every quarter they'd come together, there'd be like thousands of people and they'd have a whole show. It'd be like a whole production. You had the elders who were up in charge and the big head honchos. They were the ones going out to the third world countries and doing all of these mission trips. They would be making movies and videos and ads. How did they have so much money? We're talking about hundreds and hundreds of thousands of people in this church. Whatever the tithe amount was would be different for each person.

So you would work that out with your discipller. It'd be like part of your budget. Your discipller would help you do your financing. Where is your money going to be going? And how much money can you give to the church and still be able to support your family? Some people could give more. If you couldn't give as much money, then maybe you could give in other ways, like giving your time. So maybe my mom could be a Bible school teacher.

everybody had to contribute and they would have special contributions. I don't even know how often it was, but it'd be like everybody would be saving their money up for a long time in addition to all the tiving. I do not know how much money my parents gave to the church. We did not grow up wealthy at all. We were sent to church camp every summer,

sometimes multiple weeks. And my mom always said, she brought me to camp kicking and screaming I didn't want to go, but when I came back, I had, like, completely transformed. I had been awarded most like Jesus that week. I started studying the Bible, and I got baptized. It took months. I had an older brother, and I have two younger brothers.

And out of all of us, I was the only one that really got into the church. My parents picked our whole family out and moved us from Gwinnett to Marietta so that we could go to school with a larger population. Marietta had a bigger youth ministry. The church told my family to move there because we would have more support because there'd be more network. I was getting older and I was starting to question things.

The thing that sparked it for me was this head honcho guy. He had written a letter that had exposed a lot of things that were fucked up that the elders of the church were doing. We're thinking we're giving all this money for them to do all these mission trips, but apparently the money was going for them to have these fancy cars and clothes and houses and things of that nature. This letter got leaked out, and it kind of split the church in two. Some people decided to stay, and then some people decided to leave and do their own church. That's when I left, and when I left, I got shunned by.

everybody that I had ever know. My parents, too. They didn't leave the church until after I did. I was shunned by them for a while. They did have a choice, but they were so brainwashed. All they knew was that I was turning against the church. I was turning against God. I wasn't even like I was not going to be a Christian.

It was just like I want to think for myself and I want to separate. And that was a bad thing. people that were my best friends for many years would not even make eye contact with me anymore because I was such a terrible sinner for turning my back against the church. It felt very alone. I didn't have any friends. I didn't have anybody to talk to. I was completely lost.

My parents thought that maybe something was wrong with me. They started sending me to doctors. They started taking me to psychiatrists. I remember going through a bunch of different types of medication because we were trying to find what was going to fix me. A lot of the stuff that I was being prescribed would make me just totally loopy. Like I didn't even feel like myself.

My parents were trying to just make me into the child they wanted me to be. And it was purely because of your wanting to separate from the ideology of the church. I think that's where it stemmed from. Because like your brothers, were they just never as involved, so the expectation was just different for them? Yep, they just weren't not involved. But I'm the only girl out of four kids.

Do you think maybe gender roles also plays a little bit of a piece there in terms of expectation? Probably. My older brother, he got kicked out of the house. He had dropped out of school. He was sent to an alternative school. He didn't go to Jamaica. I don't know how.

They found out about Tranquility Bay, but the church was really instrumental in making most of the decisions for my family. So I'm assuming that somebody in the church had probably pointed them in that direction. Could you talk to me a little bit about the weeks leading up to you going to Jamaica? I had been shunned in and I made a whole new friend group with different people. I got really addicted to OxyCOT and stopped going to school. That all happened really, really fast. It was like a six-month period of time. My parents and I had been discussing going to alternative schools

where my older brother had gone. You can go there and get your GED. It's a lot more lax. We had also visited a couple of outpatient rehab places, and then they had taken me to a couple of... A couple different private Christian schools as well. I went in and did like a shadow, spend the day at school with another student kind of thing to see if I liked it. Those were things that we were discussing to get me out of where I was going to school.

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I'd been staying with my boyfriend at the time. The nights directly prior to me getting sent to Jamaica, I had come back to my house, went to bed and they had to have heard me come in and been like, all right, she's here, this is our chance. Call him. The light turned on and I rolled over and looked and there were these two people, one man and a woman. They were both older. They were standing there next to my dresser. They were like, oh, we're here to take you to a new school. I was confused, but I was like, oh, okay, my mind's

little groggy. And I remember being like, I just want to smoke a cigarette. And they're like, you can't have a cigarette. And I remember thinking in my head, where is my wallet. I know there's an oxy in there. I'm like, can I change clothes? They kept being like, everything's already taken care of. The woman had handcuffs. She said, I don't really think that we need these with you. I feel like I can trust you to walk out with us. I'm just like, wait, why would you need to put me in handcuffs? That's what I'm thinking. I didn't do anything wrong. And she's like, if we have any issue, I'm going to have to put them on them. That's what I really started getting very confused. They wouldn't tell me anything. They kept saying the same thing over and over again. It was all very

scripted. I remember walking up the door, looking back, and it was just so quiet. The house was so dark. There was not a light on in the house at all. Where was my family? They took me into the car, and it was probably like 45-minute drive to the airport. I had to go to the bathroom. They stopped at a gas station, let me go in. She stood outside and waited. I remember looking at the window and being like, can I get out thinking about running? But then wondering, like, why am I running? Because I don't know where I'm going. At that point, it was like the best option is to continue with these people.

You have no idea where you are. You have no idea where you're going. You don't know where your family is. You don't know what the situation is. It's like, let's just ride this out for a little bit longer. And then we got to the airport. I didn't know where we were going until we had gone through security, gone up to the gate. That's when I found out we were going to Jamaica.

I remember trying to make eye contact with other people in the airport. Like, I need help. I felt like I was being kidnapped, and my parents didn't know about it. Whether my parents know about it or not, somebody helped me. This is not okay. I think I had been able to get somebody to come over a talk and they cut that off pretty quickly. I don't remember what time we actually got to Tranquility Bay. It was really, really bright and sunny.

It had to have been like midday. You were in a cement-bound facility. It was like a prison. Everything was painted, white. Everybody had their own little cubby. And there's like an open scorebox, like an IKEA shelving. The beds fold up, and then the cubbies would be in between each one. But you weren't allowed to have things.

We didn't have toilet trees. You couldn't clip your nails. You can, like, clean your ears. They gave you pads. If you're on your period, they had similar to what you would have in jail with like a commissary. I think that was once a month. They would bring around a sheet of paper

that would have things that you could order. Basic total tree stuff or if you needed a new uniform or you needed a new pair of socks or shoes. We had white-collared button-down shirt, short sleeves all the way down to your elbow. But it's that nasty fabric that's rough. The shorts we wore, they were navy blue, elastic band, no drawstring.

They went down to your knees. It was almost like a pair of basketball shorts, but that wasn't material. You had to have the shirt tucked in, and we had to have her hair in a bun. How are the rules told to you when you first are arriving and adjusting to being there? We had a buddy. It wasn't for a very long time. She really didn't have too much care about it. And because I was already like, I know how to do this,

she's like, oh, you got this. Just keep following the rules. This is going to be easy for you. Ain't no thing. She probably worked the program very quickly and was about to get out. So I don't remember her doing much or telling me much about anything that I didn't already learn on my own. Looking out at the ocean was a level six consequence. It would drop you all the way down to zero.

Points, level one. It is classified as a run plan. Mind you, it's visible all the time. They'd come out and be like, something wrong with your hair, they'd pull something in my hair, and be like unkept. Consequence. But it'd be something stupid that's like very subjective.

We'd have to walk with these buckets to get water for bucket showers. And we'd wash our clothes. Every other day, we'd go down to the wash area, then we'd sit there and we'd scrub her clothes. You had to move very quickly. And this is not very hygienic, but we did not have enough time. It was like a race.

And if you didn't finish, you're consequence. You're moving too slow. They would pick on these girls. And then the girl would be like, I'm trying. And they'd be like talking back. Consequence. If the kids were getting out of control or something like that, they would call for staff.

They'd pushing down the floor. They would restrain them. A knee on their back. You could hear sometimes people like screaming out or crying. Sometimes they'd be gone for days. But when they come back, Most of them had been all bruised and cut up. They'd tell us they were getting beat up,

but I didn't really believe it because I was like, they were just acting out and could pray for them for God to open their hearts to help them see that if they'd just only change that they could get out of here. There was no one overseeing the staff. There's no one that would come and be like, well, hands off.

the moms, these would be the staff. They spoke English enough to be able to communicate, not enough to be able to, like, sit down and have a whole long conversation. Some of those moms had to take two buses. It took two hours to get to work. But they were on alternate shifts for like three or four days. They would do 12-hour shifts, and then they had somewhere, they would sleep, and then come back. The only people who weren't Jamaican was the therapist.

that would come in once a month. If you were lucky, because she didn't always show up. We had a psychiatrist. He was a Jamaican doctor. You would see him not as often. But my parents were in touch with both the psychiatrist and the therapist. Therapy was not a big focus. My parents would be like,

make sure you talk to so-and-so about this when you go and see them. They were thinking that we were going to go every two weeks. They thought we were going to get help, but we did it. We're all taking these medications that you have to take every day. day, but you've got a nurse that's distributing medication and sometimes doesn't even make it by. I had written about stealing a Q-tip from one of the upper levels to clean my ears out because they were so dirty and itchy. But then the problem is now I can't hear and I had a really, really, really bad ear infection. I could not hear at all for almost two weeks before the nurse

came and gave me ear drops. This is when they took me to a doctor off-site. They had to take me in a van and transport me. There was this woman who was a family liaison. She would talk to my parents and update them on how I was doing. If there are any things that I specifically needed or wanted to pass information along, she would do that for you.

I'm sure that what my parents were being told wasn't exactly what was happening and vice versa. Level two was when you were able to start writing your parents. You got a journal and a pen at level two. Being able to even write was a privilege. Uh-huh. Being able to have your own things was a privilege. I talked to my parents for the first time in four months.

I do remember that first phone call. They brought me in. I sat at the cubicle. Like a square boxed, but with one side that was open, and it was old-school phone. It was maybe 15 minutes. Most of the entire call was crying. I wrote about it in my journal.

They love me so much and it's so obvious to hear that coming from them. I feel so happy right now. Hearing their hope and enthusiasm for the future makes me have that much too. Completing the program is going to benefit my family and I so greatly. Thank you for that opportunity. I feel so lucky, but I know that I have worked very hard. good disciples see God with all of their hearts. They are not perfect.

I remember the feeling coming out of that, everything from like the pride I had of myself for working so hard to get the privilege to talk to my parents. Level three is a big level because we got our own toothpaste. We would put toothpaste on our face, on pimples, to like dry out the pimples. And that was considered a self-inflict that, would drop you down to level zero all the way down to the bottom.

At night, the staff would be walking around and checking in. Level three, you're allowed to go to the beach. If you are lucky, the staff will be able to arrange a time for you to take a field trip with them. It wasn't like you turned level three and they're like, all right, let's plan the beach trip. They had to actually like you. That's probably one of the clearest men. memories that I have from Jamaica. I think I was there for like 30 minutes, maybe.

And there was quarreled. For my first time ever in my whole life, I had seen a sea urchin. We were just walking on the edge of a shore, but we're outside of the gates. And by gates, I'm talking about 12 foot high, five feet wide cement, just walls. Also, we were able to do work projects. These were cleaning tasks. We were allowed to do unsupervised because they trust us to be alone, doing things like scrubbing the showers. I've journaled about that too, telling God, thank you.

I was so excited. I was asked to join the upper levels in a cleaning project in the bathroom. And I'm singing praises to the Lord while I'm scrubbing the wall of this bathroom with what I think might be a piece of a sponge. This is such a privilege to be able to clean and give back and look at what I've earned. I was so successful there because I switched my brain back into this brainwashing mentality like when I was with the church and having just gotten out of the church. It takes time for you to reprogram your brain so you might have pulled yourself away from that. But immediately you're looking for something to fill that voice.

Do you do the seminars during level two or level three? You had orientation, then you had discovery. And when you finish discovery, that's when you were able to get level three. That's got to be when you had PC1, which is parent-child. My parents would fly up and they come up with all the other parents. And then we have simultaneous seminars during that time. It's like a big field trip and you had to walk them around. They didn't get to come in and see where I slept or anything.

We ate together, but it was like a special meal. It wasn't what they served us every day. There were a couple of workshop things that we did together. I remember just hugging my mom a lot and her crying, then being so happy. And then being, this is such a beautiful place because it was so beautiful. It almost looked like you were at a resort in that area. But no one goes in the area.

It's like strictly locked down. for PC one and two when the parents come in and then they show them off this luxury resort. They don't get to see anything else. Did your parents do the seminars at home? Yes, they did. My parents became so excited and doctrinated with the program that they began teaching classes and seminars. When you were level four and level five, you had a job because you were there sitting and being with the family and following everything else, you could start

giving out consequences on your own. Now I'm an enforcer. Now instead of me just being like, hey girl, make sure you tie your shoe, now it is, hey mom, so-and-so she's untied. Consequence. You would do it just right in front of people. I had a buddy, Anna had told on her for something, but she went to O.P. This is what I wrote about in my journal. See her to go, I had the privilege of visiting my old buddy and O.P. Staff walked me up to the black room, and I walked into new surroundings that brought up tons of stories

that the girls had told me about, and walked into a small isolation room where she was. I saw about five or six staff and a supervisor standing in a circle, but I didn't see her. I followed their stairs to her wedged between two walls in about a three-foot area under a shelf by choice. She looked up at me and said, oh shit, why did you bring her up here? Talking to the staff. Her face was bruised and swollen, and her eyes were bloodshot in puffy surrounded by black swathe.

and skin. Her arms were covered with deep gashes and her legs with bruises and she was holding her face. I almost cried, but was praying to God. Why did you send me here to her? She hates me. How can I help her? I told her I wanted to help, but she said, I couldn't. I didn't understand. She started screaming that I was making it worse and it was clear in everyone's eyes that we were all hurting for her and didn't know what to do. After about 10 minutes, I got back to the dorms and cried harder than I've cried since being here. Why did I have to see her like that? Why was she doing that to herself? Why did God send me up there if I couldn't help her? Her misery was spreading to me. I didn't like seeing her being out of control and it hurt me to see her hurt and to leave with her saying

she hated me and I wanted her to feel love but she didn't trust me and she was scared of me and everyone in the room. I've prayed and prayed and prayed that God can use me in her life because I know he had a reason for sending me up there, but out of all the girls in the facility, they chose me to bring her up there

and console her. I am so believing that she'd beat herself up like that. I had this self-righteous attitude. You know, I'd be praying for them. Like, God, please open their hearts to see the way that they're acting. If she would only just follow the program, She's doing this to herself.

She wasn't doing all that to herself. I put somebody in that situation. He shouldn't hurt me so bad. But I was doing what I thought was right. I was working the program. And you are all children. Again, going through your own significant challenges and struggles, I hear how hard that was for you and how remorseful you feel about that.

You have this strong passion. And it's almost like a need to take care of other people, especially young girls. When I was reading back through that, I think that's where a lot of it stemmed from. I felt like the whole time I was there. I was sent there from God to protect these girls. And then going back through and realizing that La'He was one of the ones that was causing them pain, it was just like, at that point, I was fully submerged in the program. I'm still thinking I'm in the right, but it obviously hurt me emotionally.

because I didn't write anything in my journal for four days. When do you feel like the shift happened for you, where you started to see the experience for how harmful it was? So that would be once I started getting to upper level. Friends in Sacramento, California, we are so excited for our next benefit meetup party, Friday, November 21st, 2025 in Sacktown. Join host Amy B. Chesler, myself, and our amazing Broken Cycle Media team as we come together to party for a purpose, with all the net proceeds benefiting The Gathering In.

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when they're trying to convince me to stay and finish the program when I turned 18. My parents did not get extended custody. As your children are older, parents were encouraged to apply for extended custody for your child,

which would mean that they have you until your... You're 21 years old instead of 18. Extended custody and parental responsibility. It's very case-dependent. But the parents could go to the courts and try to get this extended custody, which would, in essence, allow them to transfer that custody to Tranquility Bay for an extended period of time. Correct. To keep you there after your 18th birthday.

That's what they recommended to your parents. To all parents. But my parents did not do that. They were committed to my success and our family would be fixed and they would love me unconditionally if I finished a program. When I finished a program, I moved back home. I would live with them for free. I would have all of the freedom and stuff as an adult, but I wouldn't have to pay for room and board so that would give me the opportunity to start saving and they were going to help me. They'd got to buy me a car. They were going to help me get an apartment. Our family's going to be perfect. We're going to give you everything if you say and graduate the program. I had already graduated high school. I had taken my SATs in Jamaica.

You can either sign yourself out when you're 18, or you can stay and finish the program. I was close to finishing the program, but I had gotten drops down to level zero because someone told on me for cheating on a test or something right before. I didn't cheat on a test. When I'm reading other people's stories,

happened to me is not uncommon at all. They don't really want you to succeed that fast. They're making money. If I had started over and decided to stay and finish your program after a high dropped, it would have been probably three years. And they were trying to get me sent to this other school that was only for upper levels. Instead of staying at Jamaica to finish the program, they would send me over to this other program. It was small dorms and work programs. And work programs and you're responsible for cooking and you had free time and movie nights and things like that. You would learn how to do things like be an adult in real life. The way it made me feel was that y'all are full shit. You're saying you love me unconditionally if I finish the program.

But if I don't finish the program, they use the term. We do not support those choices. My exit plan was my parents were going to buy me a play ticket home, and then they rented me a room in somebody's house for one month. They gave me a $100 gift card to cover. And if I wanted any kind of relationship with my family, I would have to reach out to them. If I got a job, but in the first two weeks, they would pay for my second month of that room. And then after that, it was nothing. I was still there for a week or two weeks after my birthday, which was November 14th. End of November is when I got back here.

They picked me up from the airport. They brought me back to the new house. We had dinner, and I spent the night there. The next day, they took me and moved me into this room. It was that same day that my parents were like, we'll drive you around if you want to find a job. We don't mind driving you around so you can go and apply places. that's how I got the job of Waffles.

I just walked right in and got the job immediately. My parents were like, you're just going to go back to these old friends, your old world, you're going to go back to tracks. But no, I mean, I went to college of scholarship. My parents paid for my books if I got A's and B's. My parents have helped me out a lot. That mindset, we don't want you a part of our family. That is not what they wanted. That was all brainwashed talk.

I think when I came home, and they were able to, like, see me. They're like, you've changed so much, you're entirely a new person. You're not addicted to drugs anymore. This is great. We do want you a part of our family, but it's always been she never graduated the program, so at any point in time, she could just turn on you.

Or if I make a poor choice, it's not a surprise because we're expecting her to fail. When I got out, there was a guy that was in there who, His family, he actually was in the church that I grew up in, too. He was in TB at the same time that I was there. When he got out, he had called and asked me, there's these big lawsuits going on. They're looking for people to join.

You want to join? And I was like, no, because I never had that experience. I got on Facebook, and there's groups of people with other programs. I had found this guy and had talked to him. He was one of the three guys that had, escaped Tranquility Bay, and she told me the whole story firsthand. He is the one that told me that one of those three guys had died. And did your parents know that?

I don't know. My dad, he is always one to have done research. I mean, that's one of the questions I really won't answer. Did you even look into this? I too told my parents, I used to be a lot closer to them, but since they moved to Alabama and when I'm, I started tapping into this whole Jamaica thing and revisiting memories and stuff, they have really pulled away.

It has put a wedge in our relationship a little bit. My parents see it as Jamaica saved my life. When I went there, I mean, I was addicted to Oxy's. I was not on a good path. When I came out of Jamaica, like a lot of the people I was hanging out with had died or were in jail or rehab. I think it did save my life, but I think that I could have been saved in a lot of other ways. Being sent to Jamaica was just extreme. It was that same kind of cult brainwashing the church had installed in them. It was, this is the program, this is going to work, this is what you need to do.

I do believe that my parents really felt like they were making the right choice. For me, I'm like, okay, it saved my life, but can you please acknowledge, The C.PTSD that has caused me from B there? I'm not going to take to the autosies anymore, but I'm sure it's fucked up in a hell of a lot of other ways. Rehabilitation is possible without abuse. Without having to go to a place like that, I never had been sent to a rehab. I had never been sent anywhere else.

Do they feel like a burden on my family for costing so much money? Feeling guilty that I'm such the problem child that all my brothers are. others are hurting, that my family's hurting because I'm so fucked up that they have to spend all for me keeping me in Jamaica. Like, I felt so terrible. There were a lot of things that if my parents would have just been honest and had some family discussion with the boys, it would have saved a lot of heartache over the last 20 years. Up until about six months ago, and I started talking to them about it. They all thought I was just at this school in Jamaica, like living at large, on the beach, smoking weed, just having a grand old time,

mom and dad spending all the money and them being broke because Britney's in Jamaica, and it was this glorified experience, but they didn't know any different. I felt like they had blamed me. Even my parents, they were struggling financially for the whole time. My mom would talk about it was so much money to ship me a package. It was not like she didn't care, but that's how much my family was hurting for money.

That's how broke they were, because they were paying all of their money to keep me there. Because they thought this was going to save your life. Yeah, and they still do. Now you're working on a book and you've done quite a bit of writing. Has that been helpful for you and healing? Yes, absolutely. The book, I started putting that together before any of this Netflix documentary program

stuff even came about, I had read this book. It's called An Unquiet Mind. and it's a personal memoir of this psychology professor who is diagnosed with bipolar. Reading that book was like the first time I felt in my life that I ever really related to somebody that I felt that I wasn't alone. I journal a lot and have.

Since I got back from Jamaica, it's probably what started. My book that I want to write is more focused on that. Me going through and rereading this stuff, reopening my journal from Jamaica, going through rereading my letters that I wrote to my parents and the letters that they wrote to me. And revisiting these memories that I had suppressed for so long, this is helping. It is healing, but it is really hard. I have a lot of really phenomenal qualities about me that sometimes they can be taking

advantage of the loyalty, the kindness, the generosity, things that I'm doing, but knowing where they came from in why I have such a passion to be that way, understanding that has been vital and me kind of learning how to give myself to the right people instead of just getting walked all over and hurt and disappointed continuously. I want to be able to share my story and what I went through my feelings, if I could just be able to change somebody else's life. If I could help one girl feel like they're not alone and prevent them in some way from making the choices that I did, I would feel like my life was fulfilled. I'm learning more and more and more about how much that place had a direct impact on some of the dark times that have happened to me of over the past 20 years since I've been out. But I feel it's important to share that with other people.

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