Spiritually Speaking with Jessica & Samantha - Catch up with Jess and Sam

Episode Date: March 15, 2024

Catch up with Jess and Sam! Jess has been celebrating her 30th birthday, while Sam has been diving into the joys and challenges of the first 6 weeks of motherhood. Despite their busy schedules, the girls are excited to get back on track and bring more spiritual content to their audience. Stay tuned for their latest adventures and insights.

Hello and welcome back to Spiritually Speaking with me, Sam. Oh my god, I waited for you to say my name. Oh my god. And with me, Jess. Yeah. We just gave it back. Oh no, this is the second time we've tried to start this podcast. I just, my brain is mush for obvious reasons.

I've just been deprived. It's alright. Yes, don't worry. Your name's Sam. Yeah. You're recording the podcast. We've got the girls next to us we have they are both there we're hoping that they stay they will silent um they're happy

and all's good all is good so obviously we missed last week didn't we yes which we are very sorry about um but yeah we basically just our diaries just did not align um and we just thought you know what we're just gonna have a little break for one week we were feeling the pressure yeah i was like babe this is our podcast yeah we're not like being told what to do by anyone yeah if we've just got to miss it yeah just one of those things yeah and that was what i needed to be honest i feel like i'm one of them who's like no it's got to be done so like having someone be like no it's fine i was like oh yeah it is fine we're feel like I'm one of them who's like, no, it's got to be done. So like having someone be like, no, it's fine. I was like, oh yeah, it is fine.

We're not like, we haven't got a boss that's like, why has this not come out on Friday? Yeah, exactly. So I was like, let's take the power back, remove the pressure. Yeah. And yours was because you were busy with the girls obviously.

Yeah. Got your mum, your auntie arrived last week as well, didn't she? Yeah, so I had my mum and my auntie here, which is my mum's sister um for a week which was so lovely um but yeah it just meant that we were obviously even busier than yeah before yeah um so yeah and you obviously were busy celebrating the 3-0 it was probably the longest celebrations I've ever had for a birthday so it should be though it was like

three weeks of solid three weeks like food basically Japanese food was the theme of my birthday yeah lots of wine and I basically think I didn't stop talking for three weeks even in my sleep I was talking because I was just constantly socializing it was lovely that's nice but I'm definitely in a bit more I don't know if hermit mode's the right thing but just a little bit of um yeah I've done my socializing yeah you're ready to be a bit more of a recluse yeah yeah get back to work yeah I think that's like the same kind of thing though when you go on holiday isn't it and you come back from holiday and all of a sudden you're like right I've got fresh ideas yes I'm ready to like get in the gym

or I'm ready to do this and yeah definitely and that's quite a nice place to be in actually and I was feeling really frustrated before my birthday with business which I'm happy to talk about because I feel like I was trying to work loads of things out um and actually just detaching from like so good yeah the strategy side of it and the business development of how it was going to grow I just was like I just need a bit of space yeah and then I can come back and I feel like I've come back with all these ideas and that more clarity it was all blurred before so um yeah I definitely needed like a I guess like a a break from business yeah it wasn't a detox no but it was a break from thinking about yeah like that

pressure of like how it's going to grow or what it was you wanted to do how are you going to do it and i'm trying to work it out that's tough when you've got your own business obviously you know you've not got someone else to bounce it off because when i work corporate as much as it was a bullwack half the time like you'd have two weeks off and i didn't give two shits yes and you actually had two weeks off like you didn't think about work yeah yeah even oh hello River was that River making that noise and yeah you actually have two weeks off when you want two weeks off yeah and it's so different when it is your own business because that just doesn't happen even me for my two weeks maternity leave yeah did not happen yeah like yeah things just come up yeah and yeah well this is it isn't it you just

don't switch off yeah exactly like there's so many perks and benefits there is a lot of perks yeah exactly so i'm not saying slating it at all um i'd still recommend it to anyone but to have your own business and if you're you know that way inclined but if you're not that way inclined do not do it because you don't get that same break no in the same way yeah because I think like the time I'm physically with clients is probably like two or three days a week and then the rest of the time I'm just thinking about it yeah but I think it's because it's more spiritual for me as well like I'm always like self-development I know your brain works very similar but it's like oh this triggered me why did that trigger me I should read this book I should listen to this podcast like I need to reply to these people and it's just this constant thing yeah so I did feel a bit of sort of pressure over that time to still be I guess like alert or

I didn't like log off I guess yeah um but I did have some down time on like a creative perspective which helped yeah that's nice and you come back feeling a lot fresher yeah because I actually cried about it oh really yeah it was on the full moon I was on my period as well so it's like double whammy yeah and um I was with my mum and we had a little full moon ceremony and I was just so uptight and frustrated. Yeah. And I felt like nothing was working. And I was like, you know, I want to help people.

And it feels, it was like the energy wasn't connecting me to the people. Yeah. Like as much as usual. And I just was like, oh, I'm so frustrated. And all I could do was cry. Yeah. And then I went to bed and actually cried to sleep. Yeah.

Which sounds a bit pathetic. Even though I believe you believe you me I can relate to that right now but you know it's just like that little tear that like it's a pillar yeah and it's like oh yeah but it needed to come out and I allowed it and I think then having the time to reset yeah helped so yeah good and obviously socializing I've been living my best life yeah love that for you yeah so you've had your sister here and my sister here which was great my best friend from home yeah um and then we went to abu dhabi which was really good yeah went to the grand mosque oh have you been there before no that was your first time oh no way it's just and did you have your own abaya no that was just my dress that is long but didn't you have like a headscarf yeah oh yeah no i bought that oh okay

so like the shops you can still get them when you go there yes oh right okay i did think that i thought oh she bought her own one no right yeah and so we got the giggles because the weather was it was all right but it got a bit cold that evening i was like should we pop to the mosque yeah and they were like oh okay and they were like did you stunning though it's gorgeous it's absolutely beautiful and i've been wanting to go for ages yeah but they obviously weren't prepared for the dress code ah so we really had the giggles because they had like every item of clothing on to cover up so it was like trousers top like it was just so funny and then i had to i had like a long maxi dress but it did show my ankles right so i had to wear jeans did you actually honest to god oh my god no way so it was just like the bottom half of my car

yeah was just my skinny jean it's it's a funny thing really because obviously like being british and being like you know we're not as culturally aware yeah of things like that and i think when you do go to somewhere like the grand mosque obviously you have to follow the dress code it's so important and it's respectful of course they are yeah and um even abu dhabi in general i'd say's a lot stricter than dubai yeah um i took my dad once we went to emirates palace for afternoon tea we couldn't go because my dad had shorts on oh my god yeah we couldn't go we weren't allowed in though isn't it yeah and and you know what fair enough yeah that's their rules and we should have been following them and we just didn't know yeah my sister and friend well it was my two friends and my sister, were, like, taking the mick out of me because I was like,

guys, the dress code for everything and what you need to cover up. Yeah. And I had pre-warned my sister. And the reason I pre-warned my sister is she's got, like, a real Kelly Brick body, in my opinion. Oh, gorgeous. So she's got great legs, great boobs. Yeah.

And, like, sometimes she'll wear, like, really cute little dresses, legs out, boobs out. Right. she's got great legs great boobs yeah and like sometimes she'll wear like really cute little dresses right so I was like Hayley I just need you to be aware that like it's one or the other not both yeah yeah so I gave her a warning but my friend Lisa I would say dress is more conservative okay but then if she was on like girls weekend the girls are out that's just why didn't you tell me and I was like babes you look beautiful i was like you're dressing classy but then she had a dress with her back out and we went to hackathon and she wore a denim jacket over it but then when other people arrived and they were in like spaghetti straps yes yeah but basically i installed fear into them yeah but they had to be completely covered when when we first moved here um we've been here it'll be i don't know six or seven years in the summer i

think and um when we no yeah six years in the summer when we first moved here i remember andy's mom coming over and we were in the marina and she saw a girl in like a sports bra or something maybe not a sports bra but like a vest top and like shorts and she was like gobsmacked yeah and i was like what's wrong and she went i can't believe she's walking around like that and i went oh no no you can actually do that here yeah but you just out of respect wouldn't go to the mall like that yeah but then now i feel like six years later i'm going to the mall and i'm seeing people in like like you say desktop and shorts whereas it was always like one or the other really well i feel like i i've always dressed one or the other yeah but that's just me i'm kind of the

same and not often do i really have much cleavage on show but i think that's because i've got big boobs i was gonna say i don't because i've never really had the cleavage but yeah i think um i think yeah you just i don't know i think you just want to be a bit more respectful don't you well i think also because people are just a little bit more conservative well not everyone but most people you sort of dress to the environment yeah and i definitely have embraced that yeah but yeah no it was funny because they were just like jess you've installed fear into us and i thought i just told you to get in trouble yeah oh glad you had a good time no it was really good and we had a good time but obviously there was loads of rain as well so we ended up going to another japanese restaurant the next day yeah i've dimmed some right now and like

yes yeah yeah i feel yeah yeah so but no it was really good and we had a proper giggle mum and dad were out which was lovely obviously we spent lots of time together yeah that was really nice with the babies yeah he was so happy about that oh he was so lovely he was like can you send me the picture oh yeah i need to send you that yeah yeah because he was like i definitely felt like he was loving the cuddles yeah he's still got the neck i was like you have you know he can put back anytime yeah bless him was quite handy wasn't it yeah grandparents well grandparents my parents aren't your babies yeah honorary senior citizens yeah

gary's listening to this like thanks jess so yeah so that's kind of what's been going on for me babe so obviously we're two worlds apart right now aren't we yeah to put it to put it yeah um accurately yeah definitely to summarize life for you life for me um so oh my god where do i even begin um so my mum left this morning which was really sad really sad it was beautiful it was you know what it's such a mix of emotions in a sense that i never expected my mum to come out so my mum came out for just short of six weeks and when i originally fell pregnant and everything I she was only ever going to come out for like two weeks yeah and something just changed and I was like look I think I'm gonna need you for longer and she was like right okay and she came out for six weeks and I don't know

it always felt like it would be a really long time and actually it went by like the blink of an eye we had the best time together we just I just loved her company the whole time and like we would have never ever have had that time had I been in the UK um to the same extent like obviously she was living with me for six weeks yeah she did she did a night feed with me every night um we just had such a lovely time together and she had such a nice um bond with the girls and it was just it was really really beautiful and it was really sad to have a leave i know i could cry i'm just thinking about it but no it was just lovely and it meant so much to me meant so much to her and it was just really sad to be honest saying bye to her and then my auntie came over as well which was lovely my dad was also here for 10 days and that was incredible

and even like I've said before like I'm not a very emotional person and what I've realized is I get that from my mum and dad because neither of them are very emotional but they are it's just hidden away yeah and I am but it's just hidden away and the first night that we came home from hospital my dad said he was like oh I didn't know what it was what it was going to be like to be a granddad he said but it's actually really emotional and he started crying and oh my god you would think that the rest of us all started crying we all just looked at each other as if to be like yeah like what do we do we're like yeah and like I did say to my dad I was like oh my god I feel like I'm gonna cry and then it was just yeah it was just such a lovely time and something that I will honestly cherish

forever and yeah it's been a really hard six weeks I'm not gonna lie like people keep saying to me like oh how's how are you or how's it been and I'm like it's everything it's beautiful it's hard it's painful it's amazing it's it's everything like it's everything rolled into one and I think the fact that there's two of them just multiple multiplies everything yeah so much literally yeah yeah it is crazy though because even when I am here yeah like I just don't know how you're doing it like you're doing yeah and I don't to be honest and like today's my first day that I'll ever be that I've been on my own with them really um and I'm not even really on my own with them today because like you've come around and then and you'll be back from work and stuff like that but it's very daunting I won't lie and you

just don't know how you're gonna cope but at the same time i just have to well i think that's it isn't it something just kicks in yeah instinct yeah that mother's instinct yeah kicks in which i said to jess before i was like i just don't feel like i've got mother's instinct um which i have yeah and i know that i have but i think i just you just second guess yourself on everything yeah and i think again because there's two and because they were premature and everything else you just do your second guess everything and i think also in my personality that's not like me yeah like i'm so headstrong in all the decisions that i make with everything else so all of a sudden second guess yourself yeah it feels so unnatural totally um and you feel almost like a different person for doing it but um it's yeah it's just it's just new and i'm just riding that newborn wave i think so i don't want to wish away this time at all but i am looking forward to when it's a bit easier absolutely when it just feels a

bit more normal when there isn't as many feeds and night feeds and things like that like last night i think i literally got last night was the worst night that i've had since having them we've yn fwy cyffredinol pan nad oes cymaint o ffyddoedd a ffyddoedd ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod ystod was two hours solid it was one hour and then an hour oh bye yeah um and there was a far gap between that one hour and one hour as well and um yeah it was just what was really nice about it though was that in that time i had um blake on me because she wouldn't settle and then i'd river as well and um i was on my phone so i was trying to keep myself awake so I was like you can't fall asleep with them on you and um in that time I'd had like my sister was texting me my sister-in-law was texting me and that was just really sweet because they were like you're okay you've got this and like it's amazing how that helps the time yeah yeah the time difference really helps in that sense um and you need people like that yeah you know like if you're gonna have babies or you've got babies or anything like that i think you just really need a good support system around

you um of people who do check in on you i think so yeah yeah and i think if you aren't in that phase of your life but you've got friends that are send them the text yeah you know and just check in how are you yeah because i do i do imagine it's quite isolating at times and you probably feel a bit like life stops in a way like yeah do you know what i mean yeah definitely you're in this bubble and it's a beautiful bubble yeah but life's going on outside yeah it's just like you're in this yeah like way of coping yeah learning yeah and it's like i guess also this is just from what I can see with motherhood from anyone that I've met like your brain it's like as if there's a new muscle in

your brain that activates which is your mother's instinct yeah which is never gonna shut off I imagine now well it doesn't does it no and it's just getting used to that new muscle yeah in your brain that's like on high alert yeah exactly and those things yeah so it's just a lot but it's fine it's gonna be okay and yeah they're both bloody adorable i can't stop looking at clothes for them i don't even necessarily buy stuff i just love looking online like i'm just obsessed and they are so cute and my sister's due to have a little girl very soon so that's really special um and another reason why my mum obviously had to go home um to help her yeah and um oh yeah and then I bought a house well hey Sam definitely doesn't do things by half does she literally I think they were maybe two weeks old when we did.

I can't remember. Which was always going to be the way. I think when I read for you. You did. You maybe didn't say that it was. Oh maybe no I think you did actually. I think I was like it's all just going to happen at once. You said it's all going to happen at once.

And this was obviously pre me and Jess like actually like having a relationship and friendship. And you know knowing each other um but yeah you literally did you said to me everything is going to happen at once and which always has been the case for me anyway um but yeah it definitely did so i think that's what works for you babe yeah it does it does i kind of thrive off that you do um but yeah crazy woman i know but so that's exciting anyway oh and it's funny because i'm gonna have friends that'll listen to this and they'll be like sorry what because i haven't even told them oh yeah that's fine don't worry this is the place to announce everything yeah they'll be like shit

sam are you okay yeah so yeah here you are buying out yeah oh no it's good though this is what life's about isn't it growing yeah you know the girls are doing well so you're smashing it yeah no they are yeah they're good oh that's good yeah we've um we've been chatting a bit this morning about how what we want to do with the podcast and different episodes that we want to chat about and yeah there's going to be some really good ones coming i think we definitely need to do some manifesting soon. Oh, 100%. Because I've been getting a bit more bolshie with it. Inspired by you.

Good, love that. Which has actually been paying off. And I was like, right, we need to delve in. Because I feel like I have always been quite a neutral manifester. And more of a surrender. Yeah. And I think that's still really important to me. But I was thinking about like the dialogue in my head sometimes is very much like I'll be like, oh, yeah, like I'll have this one day.

Yeah. It's always one day. Whereas I say when I have that. Yes. Yeah. So I was like really thinking about that. And when I talk about sort of any frustrations I have, you know, being comfortable with it, but not like having it always as natural. Like, how would I say? You know, that with work, if I'm frustrated, it's like I'm learning to love the frustration.

Right. In my business right now. You know, it's like I'm trying to make these changes yeah and I'm gonna like love it to learn from it instead of being like oh this is really tough yeah you know like still own the tough and the frustration but with a more positive energy yeah you know yeah yeah yeah so I think that's like something that I've definitely been thinking about but yeah I definitely well the next one I think will be a full moon episode because we'll be having the full moon in what will it be in just had Virgo so it'll be in Libra I think which is nice yeah so that's on Friday you're looking at me I'm looking at you like as though you're asking me and I'm like as

if I know that I'm just trying to look at just yeah there it is yes so that would be nice and we can really delve into that because we're also approaching the end of the astrological year so we're in this pisces energy everything's going on in pisces right now yeah and then we're about to go like boom bitches aries here yeah let's take over the world oh and i think you'll you know obviously you've got your hands full yeah but that's quite nice timing for new home yeah new chapters yeah so we'll really delve into that and i think at the moment what i'd say to anyone with this beautiful pisces energy i did um have a look on my instagram i did a reel on the new moon but it'll be relevant for the energy

that's happening right now yeah so we've just got a bit of a party in pisces with the planets right now so we've got venus there who is obviously venus bring the penis yes you know still working on it yeah we've got the sun there the moon has just moved out of there now uh saturn and neptune okay it's quite a lot of planets hanging over in pisces um but they all have different so venus is all sort of romantic and loving and penis energy yeah and then um obviously the sun is the fuel and then you've got neptune which is quite dreamy and it's at home in Pisces. So like it's like that more allowing to go into fantasy. Oh. So it's like giving yourself the room to like dream a dream.

Yeah. You know, if there's things. Yeah. So with the house, you could be like, I'm just going to go and visualize every room. Yeah. And every detail and really go there. But then you also have Saturn there who's like's like bitch get your head down and work hard and pisces like oh my god i just want a drink yeah so it's like a bit of a contradiction but

it's quite holistic because it's giving you a bit of everything oh i like that so it's a really nice energy right now so that's really in the air so it's like very um very intuitive and just very nice i feel anyway but obviously i'm a pisces I'm a Pisces, so I'm literally like a pig in shit. Is that what you're saying? Or pig in mud? Yeah, no, pig in shit. I think so. Who knows?

Why are pigs happy in shit? I don't know. I don't think I'd love that. No. I always used to say, I get all my sayings wrong. I used to say instead of, is it, are they pushing me under a bus? I've never heard that. Have you not heard that said?

Are you joking? No. When you're like, are they just pushing me under a bus? Throw me under. Oh, throwing me under a bus? Yeah, threw me under a bus. Right. Yeah, threw me under a bus.

Yeah. I think it's that, threw me under a bus. Yeah. Not push me under a bus. That doesn me under a bus that doesn't even make sense they just pushed me yeah but i thought it was um throw you under a bush like a fallen bush that's and it'd be painful so i used i just make sayings up yeah and they make it make sense yeah you know i don't want to be thrown under either um anyway um but yeah so it's like a really nice time and then we go into the spring equinox on the 20th of March do you know what

that is I have no idea but my sister's birthday is the 20th of March is it oh my god that's so nice so that's a week today so maybe we'll talk about that next week with the full moon as well um yeah don't forget my sister's birthday was yesterday. And when she got here, it was a few days before her birthday. And I was like, this has all been about me. Yeah. I've completely forgotten it's your birthday. So what do you want? Yeah.

And I ordered her card while she was next to me on Ming Pig. And she was like, you can buy me lunch. I was like, nice and easy. But yeah, we've got Spring Equinox coming up, which is a beautiful time. It's very much about sort of those new beginnings and that new energy. So yeah, we'll delve into that, I think, next week. That'll be really nice because it's just a nice new energy. And that'll resonate for you.

You'll be here in week seven and eight. Yeah. So you'll be in a new energy. Yeah. I've got my six-week check-up this week, actually. Have you? Yeah. I've got my six week checkup this week. Have you? Yeah.

I'm assuming then be able to tell you if you can exercise again. Yeah. We'll see. So that should be good. Are you ready to exercise? Mentally, yes. Yeah. Sorry, I was pointing at you.

I was miming for you. I love that you're like, what are you doing? You made me move my microphone close to my mouth. I was trying to tell sam to move a microphone you just look like i was doing like a i was looking at you like um what are you meaning there imagine if this was videoed oh my god that is so funny. Oh, babe, so good. Yeah, mentally I definitely am because I feel like I just want to get a bit of myself back. Definitely. But at the same time, I need to just not put too much pressure on it. Yeah, exactly. I've enjoyed just going for walks, to be honest.

It's all you need to do. Yeah. Take time. And then you'll be back in Pilates when you want to. Yes. And then you'll just be living your best life, babe. Yeah. Are you going to get back walking?

I'm walking already. Oh, fantastic. I'm back in the rhythm. Oh, that's good. So I did like a 90-minute walk yesterday. Oh, wow. Well, I came here yesterday. I basically live at Sam's house every now and then.

I just have chunks where I'm here all the time. And then it's like a little gap. So I was here yesterday morning. I walked. And then I went back home. Then I walked around the marina after. And then I've walked here again. Yeah. I'm going to go for a walk this evening. a little gap um so i was here yesterday morning i walked and then i went back home then i walked around the marina after and then i've walked here again yeah i'm gonna go for a walk this evening so yeah been enjoying that oh good yeah it's been really nice i feel good for it yeah i can imagine

my body feels better for it babe you know yeah you know definitely what else is going on is this it we've had a lot to be honest not that much else um i feel like not really other than the obvious of obviously newborns and all that and like the house stuff yeah um but house stuff doesn't really feel like anything's happening yet i feel like everything comes at once doesn't it when that happens um but it's exciting it's really exciting good it'll feel nice to have that new chapter yeah definitely babes um and obviously i've sent off for the passports oh yeah babies love it so yeah hoping that they come back soon that is a stressful thing to do i think when you

live in abroad because you just ask for every document under the sun just go and do it all i assume for the embassy no you wish that i wish that you did you just have to send all your documents you have to do in the uk so you pay for the passport as normal then you send all the documents which costs a lot as well and then they're like and the documents that they ask for are ridiculous like this it's so intense then they've now said that the documents i've sent it isn't my full birth certificate it's only a copy and i'm like no that's the birth certificate that was given and then i've had to get a new birth certificate where'd you get that from the hospital that you were born at no um just a government website website yeah it's quite easy actually yeah yeah it's just a lot of

then like trying to contact people and yeah definitely yeah well the passports will be here in no time yeah i'm sure i'm sure i'm not stressing about it yeah um but yeah i've not really had anything else going on to be honest good i think really we just wanted to get back into our rhythm obviously where we've yeah i think really with with me doing some solo ones and then you were back came back and we were gonna have my mum on weren't we but then obviously we just didn't have time to when you're back in the uk yeah we'll do it from zing yeah that'll be nice um and then yeah i think so we're gonna be a bit more back to a routine regime yes after this one so thanks everyone for just riding the wave with us yeah exactly and just sticking with us through this bit of a weird time yeah different time your mat leave yeah my mother so yeah it's we're gonna be so yeah next one we'll do spring equinox

full moon energy um and also we'll be moving into aries season as well so we could just make that some real good is that um blake wiggling yeah oh i can see a little toes um and then we will get on to the manifesting yes we'll do that one after because i feel like i'm ready for some energy there and then i feel like we should do a manifesting workshop i was thinking that as i was looking at you i feel like we need to make it happen i feel like loads of people want it i want it let's do it i know you've got a million one things to do right now yeah but yeah we'll make that happen yeah let's do it why not all right well let's keep it short and sweet because there's no need to drag this on is there yeah no I agree yeah I agree amazing well I guess do you want to do the

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