Spiritually Speaking with Jessica & Samantha - Pilot - Get to Know Samantha Green: Manifesting Dreams into Reality

Episode Date: December 20, 2023

In this episode, the spotlight is on Samantha Green, hailed as the queen of manifesting. Samantha unfolds her entrepreneurial journey, expertly detailing the steps that led to the establishment of her successful business. With candid honesty, she navigates through the unexpected twists and turns of her fertility journey, a true testament to her magical spirit. Now, standing on the brink of a new chapter, Samantha shares the exciting news of her pregnancy with twins. Join us for this intimate conversation where Samantha lays bare her soul, providing a glimpse into the remarkable story that shapes her life.To follow Jessica and Samantha on instagram you can find them at - @jessicamarie_holistic @hairbysamanthagreen 

Hello and welcome. This is a lovely episode but it's one that's slightly different to the others. This one is all about Samantha. So I will be interviewing her and understanding more about her story. And we've done this so you guys get to know us a bit better before we go into the deeps and fills of life and spirituality. So enjoy. We hope you enjoy it and this is yeah one to listen to it's going to be about fertility it's going to be about building a business and having a premises and staff so yeah it's a good one enjoy guys it's official we're getting real we're feeling the feels yes we're going to delve in introduce you to us because we haven't done that properly yet okay so we're starting with me then we are and I guess we should say

welcome to spiritually speaking with me Jessica Marie and me Samantha Green so welcome everyone this is really exciting episode one you're gonna get the stories you know you're gonna find out a bit more about us we're gonna dig into like the underwear drawer of both of our lives yes see these yeah everything and be a bit vulnerable is your underwear under under what is your underwear drawer messy or tidy um it's it's tried I tried to be organized okay I would say it is it's average but what I will say is I have the same knickers and I have 20 pairs of them no yeah really honestly and they're from Asda they're great and okay they're actually quite like that mine's not like that but I actually quite like that I

don't like to think too much yeah because I'm constantly feeling emotions yeah and thinking everything and I don't want to have to deal. Because I'm constantly feeling emotions. Yeah. And thinking everything. And I don't want to have to deal with decisions when it comes to my underwear drawer. Yeah. I feel like that's a really good idea. It's simple. It's clean and tidy. You need to try the Skims ones. Yeah.

Oh, so comfortable. See, now I just, I'm not ready to invest in these things. You need to invest. I know. I know. That's why you should start with investing. I feel like I've gone off on a tangent here. That's all right.

But anyway. But anyway, what's your underwear drawer like? Mine is a mixture between, I would say it's quite neat and tidy um but an absolute mixture I feel like you have Monday Tuesday Wednesday no yeah I definitely did when I was a kid 100% I'd love that now Monday Tuesday Wednesday knickers oh babes well, we are ready to delve and see what is going on. So I guess what we're going to do, this is going to be a bit like an interview. Okay, yeah, I'm here for it. I'm good on interviews, so I don't mind. I know, I thrive in an interview, so I'm ready to shine.

So I think let's just, I'm going to work quite intuitively in the questions I ask you. Okay, yeah. And let's just see what happens. Okay, let's go. So firstly, I guess when I think about you and your life, I have all my observations because I know bits about you. But I would love to know a bit about just, you know, when you decided with your work and your career,

like from school, I guess our 20s I kind of feel like our 20s is we're turning 30 yeah the last decade we have been going through all different emotions so I think tell me sort of when you started your career in hair okay how'd it start so I was 14 when I started doing hairdressing and I just got offered this course which was called a younger learner apprenticeship and I used to go to school three days a week and then go to college on the other day oh you was one of those girls yeah I was one of them went to college on the other day and works on the other day for free and for two years in a salon so till I was 16 loved it yeah and then started hating school because of

that I wouldn't say hating school actually that's probably like a bold statement I didn't care for school okay like I then knew what I wanted to do and what I had to do to become successful within that job and school wasn't a part of that yeah and I was just like well I don't need that yeah so I just kind of stopped going and it's really funny because I know that my mum will probably watch and listen to this and I don't think she has any clue like how much I didn't go to school okay um did you get GCSEs yeah I did get GCSEs in the subjects I wanted to get them in like I was just so focused on what it was I wanted to do and I never did what I didn't want to do yeah um and I loved

art I loved drama I loved um I was fine with like English maths whatever wasn't bothered about science never went to a science lesson no hated yeah hated um PE like sports never went to a sports lesson for two years I know I literally got out of sports for two years and I wasn't naughty I just didn't care for it yeah um then my hairdressing just kind of took off because I put so much into it from being like 14 so then when I was 20 I went self-employed oh wow that's a bold move yeah I was just so confident in everything that I did I think when you are that age you just have this like unwavering confidence of like I can do anything and like realistically all I had to pay for at that point of my um that time of my life was like a car yeah so as long as

I had to I had money to pay for that which was like a few hundred pound a month and I was fine so started being self-employed from 20 worked my absolute ass off like I really really worked hard and then I went sorry pre that I actually went to Australia when I was 19 okay did hairdressing there yeah okay did hairdressing there loved that came back went self-employed loved that then got bored after a few years moved to Dubai yeah and then worked in a few different salons here never really felt like me in those salons and I think one thing that I've really learned in the last few years and what I now teach to the girls that work for me um is that you really have to wherever you work you need to feel comfortable and you need to feel like you and like the best version of you comes out but I didn't realize that yeah like I was

going and finding salons to work in that were just like fun or you know seemed like a great idea at the time but never actually thought about is does this replicate what I'm like or what my clients are like and as much as it was enjoyable to work in those places at that time it wasn't actually fitting for me yeah so then I created my own salon. Amazing. And then. Another bold move. Yeah. Yeah. Another bold move. Created my own salon. I've had that now for about a year and a half. Yeah.

And then I'll be honest, when I opened the salon, loved it. Like I'm obsessed with it. I love my team. I love the space. I love everything. But there was a little bit of an emptiness feeling. Okay. Because I knew that there was still something else I really wanted to do and I was like this hasn't actually brought me that feeling of what

I expected because I was working then seven days a week 12 hour days because I was trying to keep the salon going and busy and saying yes to everything and paying the bills for everything and that wasn't what I wanted to do or what I saw myself doing um and what I've always wanted to do was actually a bit more of like mentorship and um guiding hairdressers business owners within the industry that I'm in on success and how to really like look after your staff and nourish them and nurture them and absolutely that's kind of where I'm at now love that yeah and when I first met you that's exactly what I could see which was crazy yeah so we met when in January of this year oh my god wow you came to me for a one-to-one session yeah we were sort of exploring everything oh my god that feels like so long ago if it was this year I know so January 2023 we met yeah

I had a reading with Jess and I was blown away like I love stuff like that anyway like I'm fully I love all spiritual stuff I don't know a lot about it maybe I do compared to a lot of like maybe my friends but not necessarily on your scale is what I mean and I just took so much away from it like you know when like you take so much away that you afterwards you sit in your car and you're like I just need to process everything that we've just spoken about and I loved it and you did you said to me you were like there's something that you want to do and I thought at the time that it was actually to do like hair videos online and do an education platform that way and you were like it's not quite that it's more like mentoring and helping people and even after you'd said that I was a bit like yeah yeah

yeah like I agree I still didn't really put pen to paper about it it was only really then in like the May of this year that I actually started that process and all of a sudden I was like this is what I meant to be doing. It just clicks when these things happen and sometimes like you just need someone on the outside to just observe and yeah see the energy and then just be like what about this yeah about that definitely I think we can go on such a like journey just a tangent as well of like tunnel vision when you're you know in a job that you've only known from being like 14 absolutely and that you don't then think that there are that many other avenues when actually there's so many other avenues and even when you're saying about like values and

culture like how do we know that like I feel like I'm only working that out now to be honest when you're going for jobs and things it's not about you know what do I want it's like do they like me is this good like do I yeah it's all that outer stuff and you know that that can really get you on the wrong path but it can help you learn lessons yeah definitely then what that does is helps like what you've done the decision you made with yeah okay hang on like how I feel what works really. So my team need to feel that, you know, and it's about, okay, I like it this way, but they might not. So what do they need? And it's that empathy, but also boundaries, all those things.

And it's a really challenging thing. And obviously where you do have people that work for you, I don't have that because I think everyone would probably be living in my house and I'd be feeding them every day. That is so true. So I have to just stay one bad man for right now because that's just what works but I think you're when I sort of talk to you the way that you sort of deal with people and your boundaries I think it's really incredible because I've had to learn so much with that yeah where you have that that

inner strength even just the bold wish you've taken with your business yeah even like like when I was oh he was one of those girls like yeah you know that was quite brave to be like yeah do you know what I'm gonna like cut a few days of school go college yeah you know that was really bad I honestly couldn't even tell you where that confidence came from I think I'm very lucky that my parents have always supported me in everything I've done yeah like they've never once said to me, like, is that a really good idea? Like they've just been like, yeah, you do that. Like they just, my mum, I actually said to my mum, like when I said to her when I was 19 and I was like, I'm going to go to Australia. Like, I don't know why she didn't stop me.

Cause I'm like, how did you let me go to Australia on my own at 19 years old? And she was like, there was no point me saying no, because you would have gone would have gone anyway I feel like that yeah you've got so much self-belief yeah in your decision making which is knowing your worth which is again really inspiring because it's a journey that a lot of us have to go on but it's like okay I'm gonna make a decision and this is what I'm doing like there's a real you know strength with that which is great and that's why you've made these bold decisions and you now have this successful business and a team of people and you're not even 30 and I know like I know we spoke about age a few times but you know it's that's that's really quite incredible and you should be really proud of yourself thanks

because I think it's you know something that many people think about but go oh I couldn't do this or I couldn't do that and you know you've you've managed to do it and show that it's possible yeah I think for me the scarier outlook on it or the scarier reality is actually if I didn't do it yeah absolutely like it's scarier to me to think what would happen if I didn't do this yeah yeah like I would rather try and fail and at least say that I've tried yeah then never do it yeah like that to me is so much worse have you feel like you've had failures in your career definitely yeah 100% where I've maybe made the wrong judgment or I have, yeah, definitely made the wrong decisions, but you learn. Like I'm always very receptive to learning from every decision that I've made.

Yeah, you're a friend. And failures make you. I think I've been very lucky that nothing has been too great of a failure, like in a sense of like to really knock me and maybe that's to come, I don't know. But, you know, I'll just cross that bridge as and when I come to it well this is it I think there's always a risk of failure and that's the point isn't it yeah like you're willing to face that yeah definitely and that fear that comes in you can use as some energy to make it happen yeah

exactly I do think your belief system is very strong though that was the first thing I thought I was like wow she's got so much like belief yeah like a good outcome and you know just with you just believe in yourself and I think that's like really great and something that I would say I envy actually oh no way you know what it's something that like I really struggle with sometimes with other people because I believe so much in other people yeah and I'm like how can they not see how amazing they are like I have friends who I'm like trying to drill it into them like you are so talented you're so amazing and they they can't see it it's their journey yeah and that's what

I'm coming to learn now from having spent more time with you definitely you have to let people learn their own lessons yes and you have to let people work it out because if you interfere you take away the growth yeah that's so true it's even like in relationships, you know, if you become this overbearing person, you're taking away the gift of learning. Yeah, definitely. And that is something that, you know, I've, I step back. Yeah. And I always say I'm the observer of life. Yeah.

And I step back and I'm here. I'll hold you. I always say I'm here, I'll hold you. But you need to work it out. You need to make the decision. Yeah. You need to make the decision. You need to make the choice. And I'll help you with tipping into intuition with it and that gut feeling because we've all, you know,

kind of lost that at times. But let people make mistakes. It's okay. Yeah, that's true. Because my mistakes have been transformational. Yeah. You know? Yeah.

So to take that away from someone yeah that's so true yeah yeah definitely especially with having you know team like people that work with you you know it's it's something you can have foresight you can see things but you have to empower and inspire I would say as a leader yeah instead of um sort of control and I think that's really difficult as a leader yeah especially when you're a new leader yeah because for me when I have think about my best bosses um they inspired me like they led with example of good behavior yeah good behavior but you know they like good leadership yeah it wasn't that yeah they saw my strengths and helped me get there but with nurture and yeah you work it out and I think yeah that's good yeah and it's I think also when you're

with your career obviously you've had bosses you've had managers and things and salon owners now having that you're ready to be what you're doing so you take all those learnings which is amazing yeah definitely so what is the name of your salon oh yeah I've not even said that so my salon is called the greenhouse which is my surname well yeah my surname is green I am actually married so green is my rings and I feel like an absolute fraudster oh when I left the house was like do I go back but no I'll just I'll just do this um so my yeah sorry my oh my god what's it called like your first name maiden name is green um and that was where the greenhouse came in um and it is a very like it's exactly what you would expect a greenhouse to be it's very like earthy

very calm chill very much like these kind of vibes yeah a little bit more relaxed like um that is what my salon is called yes and it's beautiful salon I have to say and I don't really this is terrible but I wasn't someone that got my hair cut often yeah that's fine box dye kind of gown I mean that's not okay that's okay and I went to the greenhouse and I actually felt really attached like Leah's great and she's just like I love her and I love the space and I was like oh my goodness I've now I get it yeah I'd never got it before yeah I'd never had this attachment yeah I did actually there was one at home that I loved and she did an amazing job um but coming here I just was like yeah I think with a salon as well like especially like

with a hair salon they're so busy and they can be they can be quite intimidating yeah yeah like when I think back to where I worked previously I'm like when people used to say like oh you know I feel a bit intimidated or whatever I wouldn't understand it because I was on the other side of working in places and it's so nice now to have created a space where people come in and they just feel relaxed and they feel welcomed and accepted and comfortable. Yeah, definitely. Yeah. And it's your values.

That whole vibe. That culture. Yeah. Like you've really gone into that. Yeah. And then, you know, the key to, I feel, a successful business is you start within. Yes.

And your people feel that. Yeah. And then that radiates out. Yeah. And your clients experience that. And it's that inner first first in life in every way not just business within doing the inner and then the outer comes and I think you've absolutely done that so thank you so who knows what else is to come I know but you know I don't um you know you probably know what else is to come I just feel like nothing

ever surprises me yeah in a lovely way and I think you're incredibly ambitious and will be really successful you already are but even more so um and I think you'll continue to make bold moves and what's amazing is your bold moves now have more experience so you which is an incredible gift but sometimes the fear can come in more and it's getting that balance. And I think you absolutely have that. And I think it's just going to be great. Yeah, there's probably more to lose now the further that I go on. Well, more to lose is a fear, isn't it? But then you have to acknowledge that and tap into that

and go like, hang on a minute, that's just a mindset. Yeah, that's very true. Yeah, because otherwise, you know, so we have to be grateful and receive the abundance, which you're absolutely receiving right now, which is lovely. Yeah. So you're being looked after

and divinely guided right now, babes, which makes me happy. Yeah, it makes me happy. I feel like I'm in the right place. Even just doing this today, like this is something that when we, well, we didn't actually speak about it when we met, but we met up again another time after that

didn't we and then we've if someone can see by the way like arms and legs poking out I really apologize I feel like they're literally like um and yeah when we we were in the car together weren't we and I had um just like my podcast were up in the car like on the screen and you'd said to me like oh you like listening to that podcast and I was like oh I love podcasts I love this one that one we listen to all the same ones and then something just clicked and we were like oh my god we need to do a podcast together and then we've probably been speaking about it for like four months yeah because I was back in the UK for a few months maybe six months yeah probably we've been speaking about it and then I'm just so glad that we're doing this but

I also think that we trusted the intuition with it yeah so I keep saying intuition but no you're right we could have put pressure on ourselves yeah and I needed to go home and do some inner work over the summer which I'll talk about I wasn't ready to like yeah in this frame of mind and I had to clean up tidy up things yeah and I was exactly the same like I again things that we'll go into later but like I had a really intense time this year and at the same time we were talking about doing the recordings of this and I was just like probably not in the headspace for it and it was really nice because I would have been the the me before would have been like,

oh, I'm still going to do it because I've made that commitment. I need to do it. And you were like, no, let's just take a breath. Let's just wait till after summer. And I was like, oh, okay. Yeah, let's just do that. And then we did.

And then now it's actually fell at literally the most perfect time. Yeah, I woke up this morning and I was like, let's do this. Same. And I was so excited. I was like, oh my goodness, my tummy. Like in the taxi here, I was like, oh. And I think that's what it's about. So, okay I've got my name to do oh I've got I've got more for you so obviously that's the business side but I want to know like I want to

know I know but I want others to know obviously you're pregnant yes you're also pregnant with twins I am there are two definitely manifest yes I definitely did manifest that but do you want to talk about your journey with the pregnancy yes yeah sure um yeah so I have when I sorry when I met you you were broody yes wanting it and it was like it's gonna be okay it's yeah and you know there was a few months of just like ah yeah so when I met you in the January I had already come off contraception the year before that so like the February before that was when we had our wedding we've been married for longer but we had our wedding like after which again I'm sure we'll speak about another time um and anyway in that January I was a bit like okay like you know stuff still isn't happening like why is stuff not happening and we're both young fit healthy you know whatever

and yeah you said like don't stress everything's going to be okay so it's like okay came on my period that month and I was like okay everything's fine Jess has said everything's gonna be fine everything's gonna be fine and then February came same thing came on my period and then one of my friends is a doctor and she just said to me why don't you just come in and do a blood test she was like let's just see what's going on um let's just do yeah and we and we're very lucky in Dubai like we do have a lot of access to health care which maybe we wouldn't have in the UK or in any other country for that matter um and at the same time I had a lump in my boob at the same time so I'd gone in to get that checked and my friend was like oh come on let's just do the blood test while you're here because I probably wouldn't have done

it I'll be honest because um I didn't really see the need. I thought this seems a bit unnecessary. So I had this blood test and my friend rings me with the results and she could just tell that I just wasn't listening really. Or like, it wasn't that I wasn't listening, I wasn't taking it in, I wasn't taking it seriously. She was like, some levels are a bit low, some are a high and I was just like okay like whatever like just I love a challenge that's fine like we're gonna be okay yeah and then anyway as time went on and I really did a bit more research

and I spoke to a few more people about it I suddenly realized like these levels are only going to get lower and um if anybody is going through fertility and everything the level that it was was is called AMH now your AMH doesn't mean that you're not going to get pregnant if it's really low just means your chances are a bit slimmer than what they would be or should be yeah and mine particularly were very low like I think I had the fertility of someone maybe in their 40s which is crazy and I was 28 at the time so that was a bit yeah a bit intense you just don't ever expect I imagine no like absolutely not that never ever entered my mind like not even you know some people get a bit anxious about stuff like that I just didn't have that so to be given that was such like a yeah well okay this is a big wake-up call so

anyway we then decided that we were gonna freeze our embryos because we thought for me I still felt like I was gonna fall pregnant naturally so I thought I need to save future babies yeah you know I'm not thinking about actually the first one now. I'm thinking about the second or the third. Or the fourth or fifth. And so then we decided to freeze our embryos. We booked an appointment with a fertility doctor. And even then I was like, I don't need that appointment. I'm going to fall pregnant naturally before that.

And like, everyone says that to you. They're like're like oh now you've put that appointment you're gonna fall pregnant and I obviously didn't and we go for the appointment and it just so happened that the day of the appointment I came on my period which was devastating because I was like a good few days late as well so then so I was like in my head like I don't need this appointment and then on the way to the appointment I'd come on and was like this is shit but actually it was such a blessing because you can only start your fertility treatment on the first day of your period oh my gosh so it was aligning yes it was crazy like the fact that that worked out the way that it did is is mind-blowing um so then we had this first appointment and he was like look i think you need to try iui not ivf so ivf um would have been where we would have frozen our embryos we would have obviously had babies in the freezer

um god willing and um then they would have put an embryo back in well i feel like everyone knows about it yeah yeah it's familiar yeah it's a familiar term um iui is where you yeah so it's where basically you take medication but depending on your situation as the female as to what you need and because people could be obviously struggling to fall pregnant with either the your fit like the woman or the man like it could be either or whereas our problem was me it wasn't my partner um so that's tough as well yeah like I remember um I'll use his name Andy I don't know why he said my partner husband um so when Andy went and got tested I remember him messaging me and going oh my god everything's fine like I'm great like this

is such a relief you know I'm great I was raging yeah like and I don't even know if I've ever actually said this to him like yeah he'll find out now sorry spoiler um and um I was really upset by that because I was like wow this actually is all me and it's not you it's not a combined effort it's it's all on me and that was quite upsetting to realize even though obviously I was happy that he didn't have anything wrong with him so yeah of course you're relieved but it's also like oh yeah so when you do IUI obviously like I say depending on your situation will depend on the medication that you take and then they do they basically take the sperm sample clean it and put it in through I'm gonna say a catheter but I don't think that's the right yeah I don't think that's the right terminology but they put it in

that way yeah so the doctor said we're going to try IUI now I was quite against it to be honest because it's only a 30% chance of working yeah I had done all my research as you can imagine I'd been watching videos I knew exactly what everything was and all I'd seen was people fail from IUI and the doctor has said you know we'll give IUI three goes and I thought three goes it's so expensive as well like we're paying for it obviously over here which again we have amazing care so i'm paying for great care but it's still expensive yes huge and i'd rather pay for ivf and know that my future babies are in a freezer because again these levels are only going to go down so anyway listen to the doctor because he's amazing shout out to dr demetrius at orchid

clinic um in dubai and we started so literally the next day i went in because then i had like a heavy period whatever then you start your treatment and wow that was so overwhelming like I've never experienced such overwhelm in one day because I didn't realize what kind of medication I'd really even be on because again it depends on your situation and because I needed so much help I was on the same medication that I would have been if I was doing IVF which was daily injections I've never had to inject myself I've never yeahF which was daily injections I've never had to inject myself I've never yeah that's just not something I've ever had to do and I've been very you know lucky that that's the case but it was a lot so Andy Blessing being the amazing caring person that

he is was like I want to do your injections I want to do it for you I want to be able to help you so we did that for about 10 days to two weeks. I can't even remember how long it was now. It's such a blur. And I was a shell of myself. It was extremely emotional. Just a lot. Yeah.

Like it really was. It was a huge toll on me as a person. It's an amazing thing as a couple, I actually think, to go through it brings you yeah I imagine it really does yeah like and he was such an amazing support network for me and you know in that time they were like don't drink don't go out don't really do anything so we're just like locked up in our apartment and it was summer so we couldn't go out anywhere because Dubai is too hot so we couldn't even really go for like nice walks or anything and um it gets to this is such a long story I apologize but then it gets to the

end of the process and basically at this point your follicles so you go in like every other day for these tests um first scans to check how big your follicles are and we get towards the end and they're like right we're ready to like do your trigger shot and the the pro the I don't want to even call it like the insemination and um I was in Paris yes I remember this because we had a conversation yes and I had a work trip planned to go to Paris and it was the biggest most amazing thing that I had planned with work it was such an achievement it was such a huge goal I was taking two of my staff members to Paris with a brand and I was so excited and the fertility clinic knew this the whole time as well like this weekend I'm going to Paris and they were like oh it's okay you can try naturally when you're

in Paris and I was like he's not coming and he was going to Istanbul yes for a really important weekend for him as well and it just couldn't have come at a worse time and yeah I left the fertility clinic I went home and I was just like I don't know what to do like I was at such a crossroads and I messaged you and I was like please help me um what do I do and you gave me the best advice and just really like calmed me down and made me feel so positive about it and you know you were like just go to Paris you were like drink champagne go to Paris live your life and you come back and it's going to be okay and I was like okay and Andy was the same he was like I know but it was so important like it was such probably an off-the-cuff thing for you just like yeah go to

Paris live your life girl which is pretty much exactly how you said it but um and he was the same he was like you've not done all this hard work to now be controlled by that and you know he was like we're gonna go we're gonna go we're gonna have a nice time we're gonna come back and we'll cross that bridge when we get back so I went to Paris and I did cut the trip short by a day I flew back um a little bit earlier and I did the trigger shot when I was in Paris which I had to do myself and I hadn't done any injections myself at this point and the trigger shot is massive um which was not nice um I was and you have to do it a certain day at a certain time I was on a boat in Paris

which was the anxiety was just insane like I was like shaking I couldn't concentrate it was it was yeah it was a lot but anyway did that came back to Dubai landed uh I think like 7 8 a.m no 8 a.m I think I landed and at 10 a.m had to be in the fertility clinic met him there he'd done his sample we were just sat like this like waiting for them to message us and be like right we're ready we go up we go in and you like they're like fucking legs akimbo and he's like ready to put like the sample in and um the doctor said are you okay with twins and I was like well it's a bit late now like he hadn't done anything yet at that point but it was like well we're ready yeah and I personally have always wanted twins so I have had twins on a vision board for a very very long time I every

time that I ever saw you know a spiritualist or anything they always said to me like there's a chance of twins there they're like I can't work out if it's two really close together or if it's twins and I've always been like I would just love to have twins and um anyway so we said to the doctor well yeah two is better than none and he was like yeah i agree he said it's only a one percent chance anyway i know five sorry five percent chance was twins one was triplets and um we were like right okay let's just go for it yeah then you wait two weeks for your results um which is intense yeah that's that's like yeah it's a long time and actually even saying that I'm like

god it was two weeks like it was yeah it was an intense two weeks like you really are like just constantly thinking is it going to be okay is it not and I prepared myself for both outcomes um was very hopeful yeah of course but was also aware that the chances weren't really on our side like the you know like the possibilities weren't actually that high um anyway the day that we found out I did my blood test in the morning and it was Eid so Eid here obviously everything kind of like shuts down so but my salon was still open and I was working so the nurse said to me I'm gonna ring you at like 11 o'clock with your results and I was like no no no no you're not um I'm gonna be in work and I cannot get this news when I'm in work can

you please and I'd crazy I'd be like clients cancelled for the day I know yeah I was like no no I'll go to work everything's fine poor Andy's sat at home because it's easy he's off work so he's just sat there like oh um and I said I did move my last client so I then managed to finish it like four and I said please don't tell me till half four and she was like oh and I said look I said just put it in a whatsapp to me I said send me a message just don't put it in the first line yeah and then I'll read it when I get home then I left the um doctors and I was panicking thinking what if she doesn't listen to what I've just said yeah so then I go to work put my phone on flight mode I text Andy and I say look I'm not having my phone on all day um I said I'll speak to you when I get home you're so so patient because I would literally be like sod it yeah I'm gonna read the message you couldn't believe that I

hadn't looked at it but I I had this I'm a very very visual person and I knew how I wanted to find out yeah I knew and you wanted to do with him exactly and I was like I'm not gonna change that experience regardless of what the outcome is so I want to find out the way that I want to find out and again control freak probably um 100% um and all this structure yeah exactly um so I drove home so fast and I remember driving home and thinking it's just got to be but then I was like maybe it's not I don't know anyway so then got home and we videoed this whole process um just for my own therapy really like we just videoed it yeah like I turned my phone on to check the results and um he said he was like have you like what is it what is it and I was like I can't look like I just

physically couldn't open the whatsapp it was so weird and um anyway I then obviously opened it and I just went like this and he was like what and I can't even remember what I said I think I just said like it's positive I don't even know I can't even remember what I said and he I don't even think I said anything and I think then he just went really and I was just like okay and then we just like hugged and cried and it was so lovely it was really really nice and two weeks after that I found out that it was twins. Wowza. Yeah, I know.

Wowza kapowza. I know. I've actually just remembered something. I'm going to grab my phone because, you know, this is informal. We can do this. Just give me one second, if I can get up. One second. You're going to find the message?

No. So the message is lovely but I'd written something in my phone and this was something that I only found it recently where is it now it was when we were going through the two-week wait and I'd written this in my phone we'd met for a coffee on two-week um wait we did yes we did didn't we and I was like oh let me see if I can find it I felt very confident but you just never know so yeah just like you don't want to say oh 100 because you just never know um right let me find this um sam is like the manifesting i know i'd love to manifest um i'm a bit more here we go okay so i

this was like so my way of yeah my way of like dealing with these things when I'm going through it is not necessarily to talk to loads of people. Yeah. I might tell a few people, but I kind of will journal. I will like try and manifest certain things, feel really good, put certain playlists on, like just do things that make me feel good.

But one thing that I did do, and I'd forgotten that I'd done this, like I say, and then I found it not that long ago so I'd put in my phone this was just something that I'd just written out and it says it's about the two-week wait so it was during the two-week wait so I'd put it feels like you're in the longest queue that keeps turning and you can't see where the end is you're trying to remain god this is weird um you're trying to remain positive and hope for the best while also preparing yourself for the worst the most conflicting time mentally and physical physically lying to everyone who asks how i am surely that question

doesn't warrant a true answer wishing so badly that i could tell the future to prepare myself equally leaning into this feeling because no matter what next week everything is going to change I know no matter what happens right now that we're going to have babies we will have three beautiful healthy children that will come into our life in whatever way is in God's plan I have so much faith in the universe and I'm grateful for it bringing us on this journey to show us how much we really want this baby bees I can't wait to meet you one day I hope I live up to any expectations that you'll have for a mother because I know your dad will because he's born for this oh that's beautiful and that was just when I when I found that I'd written that it was so nice because I

thought when you are going through that it is quite lonely and it is just quite an isolating feeling um but it's also such a beautiful thing fertility treatment like the fact that it brings people babies and families who may not have been able to conceive you know like and now obviously I'm pregnant with two and we don't know what they are we're having a surprise so um yeah gosh that's kind of the whole journey like I feel like I've just rambled on for ages about that because this episode is about you okay okay all right then okay keep going no but you know that's a huge part of what's been going on yeah and so many people will be able to relate to what you're going through because there's so many people going through it you're you know cool

calm and collected but there's also all this stuff going on and it's been vulnerable when sharing that even like what you wrote on your phone yeah so many people have probably done things like that yeah they're going through what you were going through then and then listen to this and I just think you know it's it's just so magical what you know the belief you've had with all of this and now you're sitting here with your two babies in your belly yeah and you know like I just think it was meant to be and I love that I did go through that because it's made me a better person for it and I can help so many people. Yeah. And, you know, I speak to people all the time. Like every day now I'll get messages from clients

or just generally women or anyone who will be going through something similar. And sometimes it's hard because I'll feel bad that actually it worked so quickly for us, you know? And they'll be like, I'm on my third round of IVF. And I think god like I don't know well everyone's journey is different of course and that's what's really hard with this in life in general yeah when good happens or bad happens to you there's always going to be the

the parallel and the opposite and you have to just go into your bubble yeah and keep your your energy safe and send love to everyone yeah because everyone is going through their journey and especially with fertility so many people come to me about fertility and it's it's heavy it's hard yeah it's really heavy and I think that you know you just yeah everyone has their divine timing and it's yeah definitely it's a big big test in life this yeah I agree um from my observations yeah you know and it's challenging but brings so much gratitude and abundance as well which is so magical oh well thanks so I think you know this has been a good insight into Samantha Green aka Sammy Sam yeah um and i think you know for people this is just nice to get the exposure and understand a bit more about you and we're going to delve into so many more things in more detail

whatever it is that we're going to talk about because we're just going to fill the feels um but really i think this has been so interesting for me as well. And it's nice because I've seen lots of the journey now. Yeah. And it's lovely to have been part of so much of it and actually to be sitting here now. And I'm like, oh, my goodness, you're pregnant. And, you know, it's just so, so amazing and seeing your business grow and you grow and evolve. Oh, thank you. So, you know, episode one has been really quite lovely.

Well, that was so lovely to hear Sam's story. And I'm so pleased that you all got to hear it. And this is what it's about, really. Like I said at the beginning of this episode, it's a feeling to understand us, get to know us and see that, you know, everyone has a story and everyone has a journey. So thanks, guys, for listening to Spiritually Speaking. And we're really happy to have you here listening just a little reminder you know click to subscribe because we have got lots more episodes coming which is super exciting and also just you know follow us on instagram see what's going on see what's happening so sam's instagram is

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