Spiritually Speaking with Jessica & Samantha - The Power of Reflection: Our Six-Month Check-In

Episode Date: May 24, 2024

In this episode, Sam and Jess take a moment to reflect on the past six months since they launched their podcast. They discuss how quickly time has flown by and the importance of taking the time to reflect on their journey. The conversation includes highlights of their experiences, personal growth, challenges faced, and the progress they've made. They also share insights on the benefits of regular self-reflection and how it has helped them stay focused and motivated. This reflective episode is both a celebration of their achievements and an encouragement for their listeners to engage in their own self-reflection practices.

Hello and welcome to Spiritually Speaking with me Sam and with me Jess. Welcome everyone. Hello, welcome back. We're back on Zoom this week. We are babes. We are, even though we are actually just down the road to one another, we are actually still on Zoom just because our lives are a little bit hectic at the moment they are to say the least yes they are hectic babes it's been hectic here it's been um a busy schedule busy schedule have you been doing a lot of zooms or more i have it's been do you know what it makes it easier when i do zooms because i can fit them more more in yeah because when it's in person it's like people get like stuck in traffic and they can't find a parking space yeah yeah so you end up giving like 90 minute slots in like my diary for in-persons

but when I do 60 minutes yeah I can just do it on the hour every hour yeah and I like to do them back to back so it's been good because more people are doing zooms with me again which is nice yeah I think zooms are great yeah they are great I think that I don't know like I've personally have actually never done one um for reading but I do think that we had a session it wasn't a reading I think I looked at your chart once on zoom I was in the UK oh really oh yeah we did oh yeah that was really good I forgot all about that yeah I love um I just love the idea of being in the comfort of your own home and then you can kind of decompress and relax afterwards and really like think on it reflects on it rather than like I remember when I first met you and then afterwards

I just got in my car and I had to sit in my car for like half an hour before I could so many people say that to me yeah because you can't just start driving it's as though you've just been told all this information all of a sudden you're like oh shit I can't like just drive a car now I need to really think about it or ring someone or write it down or whatever it is so yeah I think Zoom's amazing so I think the more people that can get on to that then yeah why not I think people struggle like they've you've got to build the trust and I think you know that's been built over the last sort of three and a half years of doing readings yeah um but when I started it was COVID so everyone was on Zoom straight away so it was

just pretty easy um because there was no like expectation for it to be in person yeah and actually it was all on Zoom for like the first couple of years to be honest and then it was only when I moved here that more people wanted in person and then I kind of like put this pressure on myself for everything to be in person and I'm going back to my roots with it and really offering the zooms because I really feel like people benefit and I just have to explain you know if anyone has an issue um I'm like it's just like thinking of that friend and then they message you and it's like oh I was just thinking about you that's energy yeah you know and it's like when that's a good way to describe it yeah like it's

so simple but it's hard to comprehend so yeah the zoom diary is busy which is brilliant because over the summer I'll be working only on zoom unless I have in persons in Thailand which would be great and I'm manifesting that I'm seeing that already which is good oh yeah I'm seeing some cool business stuff over the summer it's all started to come to me yeah I had a few visions yesterday yeah I am excited now I feel like kind of um I've like got some new clothes for the travels like comfy clothes like shorts and things I wouldn't necessarily wear here I feel like I have two wardrobes I feel like I have a slightly modest wardrobe here um which is like yes Thailand you get your tits out I will be running around that beach with my tits out babes everyone will be like she's she's let loose I do sense this summer's gonna be listening to this oh he's all right he's seen

me do that before me and my sister's drunk at barbecue the poor guy we did that last summer we just jumped in the swimming pool at my sister's house tits out and he's just like oh for god's sake I think that's life of having girl I don't feel like you're my sister would you get your tits out and run around the garden no no no no my middle sister would and she told us off because it was at her house and she was like oh for god's sake the neighbors can see oh it's so funny was she the one that told you off at the funeral as well for laughing she was the one that told us off so she's all she's the modest well-behaved one and she always says to me I am fun you know and I'm like no I know because I love her but Zoe the oldest one is normally the one that kind of is like should we do it and I'm like okay yeah and then but then what happens is she I

think she got in the swimming pool and then I like hid her or someone hid her bra and her top so then she couldn't get up so funny but yeah it always ends up a bit you know chaotic in my family we just love it we're a bit weird to be honest I actually think we're a really weird family I think you're a great family like a lovely family but I feel like people when they must see us like we're so like we just when we hang out like we could all bump into the like each other down the town at costa and it's like the best thing ever yeah we all get really hyper and it's like you know and then we just it's just like like we're shocked when we see each other even though like well i remember yeah i remember you your mom and dad and it was yeah it was literally like oh my god like this is

you know we were all in the same country like it's not like we didn't know each other lived here i literally say my building from where you're standing i was gonna say it was right by your building we always laugh that we were a bit of like the brady bunch family where i live so like when we were younger like all five of us like we always would laugh at the five helpings would like take a dog the dog for a walk like if the dog didn't oh no so did i it's so funny yeah so we do we do like a bit of that time but obviously it doesn't happen now um but yeah so i will be getting my tits out running around hopefully i don't know what the rules are because i probably would you get in trouble there for that probably i don't know i feel like probably not i think of like a full moon party or go to an ach do you know what nudie speech yeah you do you hon

i'm not sure maybe oh and um weed is legal it is in thailand i learned that this morning yeah yeah it is um yeah that but i wonder um if it will stay legal I'm not sure because I bet everyone's loving life I remember when I went to Amsterdam and it was legal it's obviously legal there and yeah I apologize about my dog by the way oh don't worry um and my mum cried when I told her that I was gonna go and do that because she's like you might die and I was like 19 yeah she's oh I didn't die I had the best time and then yeah I think it became like our annual girls trip everyone else went to like Zanty and Ibiza and we were like obsessed with Amsterdam and we're really obsessed with the red light district like we used to yeah it's fascinating though isn't it well now I feel

like I'd just I'd really struggle like to see oh I think you'd be really sad to see it now. But I didn't feel like it at the time. No. No, because you don't think of it like that, do you? Yeah. When you're that age. We would just go back, should we go again? And they would get annoyed with us for going up to the windows.

We were just so young. No wonder my mum was crying before I left. She probably thought she was going to lose you to Amsterdam now she thinks that about Thailand the other day she was like you know you don't need to like live there you can come back like you can come back to Dubai or you know and I'm like it's all right it's all good so thank you mum for embracing me because I know that it's probably a bit challenging having a child like me sometimes yeah I think it is like both my sisters are married with kids and she knows where they are where I'm just um you know a little bit more free-spirited at the moment but

so yeah the free spirit in me is is flying high right now yeah I bet ready for Thailand yeah so anyway that's enough about my weird family and family dog dog walks um you're gonna be seeing all your lot soon but let's go yeah you know what's really weird like do you ever find sometimes when you're going home you forget that you're actually going home like I haven't thought about actually seeing people I actually haven't like yeah that I feel like I've not thought past really like the plane yeah but I get that because this is like a whole new experience of being on the plane with your babies yeah true maybe it's that and everything else I've got going on probably but yeah like I'm really um I haven't actually thought about that someone said to me the other day like oh it's the most

magical thing when you go home for the first time with your babies and um I was like oh shit yeah I suppose it is I think this trip though is going to be more of a like intense trip and then in the summer whatever you decide to do yeah yeah you can then embrace it a bit more where you're there definitely some some key things obviously the funeral the wedding and like your sister obviously she's had her baby yeah yours it's like that's a big deal yeah huge and even like trying to arrange things with friends like I can't give a time because I don't know what my routine's gonna be and I'm someone like I've got a very like strict I'd say routine with the girls like I know when they're feeding I know when they're sleeping like it's

very regimented and that just works for us and um but because I'm not necessarily gonna have that or I don't know what version of that I'm going to have when I go back, can't really say, oh yeah, we'll meet at nine. Because if they come first, like if they need feeding or they need this, then I will see to that first, you know? So yeah, it's a bit weird really. Just don't put too much pressure on yourself on that side of things. Yeah, I think the priorities is a few more of the wedding and and your sister really isn't it like yeah I mean your mom and dad and and yeah you know friends understand these things

of course they're all going to be excited yeah but like you know you'll be back again so yeah exactly we're going back again in the summer so I'll just see people then yeah um if need be sorry I'm getting excited I think you and your sister sorry I'm getting excited thinking about you and your sister getting reunited with your babies I know I'm so excited honestly the fact that you two have been like away from each other like when when my my sister had a like the first baby of us at all like we literally me and my other sister went straight to the airport but we weren't even allowed in and we just got in we got into the wall I was so inappropriate and like like the nurses must have been like what are they doing we just like got in the room we

shared a private room and we just spent the day there like and we was just like obsessed and I feel like where you both physically couldn't yeah you know like that probably helped in a way because it was yeah we know we can't and it will happen when it happens and it's so lovely now it's going to be beautiful babes I know I'm really really excited and she lives really close to my mom and dad as well so I feel like we'll literally see each other all the time which will be really nice and she's an absolute angel she's even insured me on a car and given me a car for the time that I'm home I know yeah she's so um so generous my sisters don't do that to me I don't think I'd have done it the other way around to be honest no I'm only joking um so what's going on

with like villa apartment moving obviously you like to do things like oh why do I do this I don't really know I think I thrive in chaos yeah like I thrive with like lists I thrive with like that energy of like everything needs doing it once I've got to fix it and like I just I think that is my weirdly like maybe even happy place um strange very very strange well no my full happy place is like on holiday with a cocktail but like you know day-to-day life I feel like I do do quite well in these situations um so we leave tomorrow morning you're fucking out yeah tomorrow morning and um move house three days later four days later yeah so we're moving while i'm away and he's going to come back and then he's going to move us but i've had to like this morning i've had

like take my junk home they've taken loads of stuff oh that's late around i've got i've organized so this is where see my organization just goes into flow i fucking love it i love a list you know i'm like um and i have planned for the suitcases to get picked up tonight have you heard about this i have heard about this so good so the suitcase is going to get picked up tonight for the flight and check us in and everything so when we get to the airport we can just go straight through i have bought fold down prams that can go in hand luggage amazing so i've sorted that out i have we've dropped a car off at the villa so then we can drive one i know yeah and so i can drive one we can drive one car to the airport leave it at the airport and you'll pick it up and then the other car will already be at the house for then when they move to the house

yeah so he hasn't got to worry about that um yeah everything's done we've already turned like the gas off and stuff so we don't need to cook like for the next few days type thing yeah um so yeah it's all systems go so when i move when i come back from this trip i'll be going into my new house oh my god and the renovation's not even finished that's all right yeah it will finish it's going to be finished i hope so i don't even know um it's going to be finished this weekend oh you'll be fine don't be fine first case you'll just have a wee in a bucket if there's no toilet i mean there's like four bathrooms so i'm sure i'll be fine i think you'll be all right then three three bathrooms yeah so i'll be fine yeah there we go yeah um yeah yeah we have actually yeah we have the kitchen top isn't there

um yeah I should have really sent you pictures there isn't a kitchen top but there's like appliances that work nice so yeah there's AC there's lights so we'll make it work so yeah and then have you got like clean bedding for the beds so when you're there it's like fresh yeah but like I say they move on the Monday I don't land till the Saturday so all that can be done that week and so Andy make the beds 100% well yeah and um my amazing joy will help as well i was gonna say and that'll be nice because then you'll come back and it'll all be like nice and all be unpacked or be clean and then you'll be like why did you put these spoons in this cupboard they don't go there yeah and i'll be like oh sam's back yeah here we go drill sergeant let's get the list out yeah i'll be like notepad each room

inspecting everything oh babes maybe in a past life you was like an army sergeant or something i probably was to be honest i won't even surprise me i definitely have that in me and so so yeah so that's all going on at the moment and yeah yeah it's fine everything's fine it'll all come together but yeah I am I'm really excited when I do think about it I'm really excited to see my family and see my sister I can't wait to see my sister obviously um but yeah the funeral wise I don't know why i'm laughing i'm completely like just not even really i don't know i'm just not even thinking about it like i'm just not even i'm just like meh it's not gonna happen when it is and i think it will very much take me by surprise on the day

and the reality of everything because i think one of the things when you live abroad and you're grieving for someone you aren't reminded by them daily yeah when you're at home you have those reminders around you constantly whereas like being over here I don't the only time that my real reminders are like when I'm in the car and when I go out for a walk which I know is still quite a lot but because that's when I would ring my grandma um but other than that I don't get like constant reminders where I was like as soon as I go into my mum and dad's house there'll be reminders everywhere because there'll be like pictures and yeah things like that so we'll see I'll just cross that bridge as and when it comes um and luckily

I've got the distraction of all the lovely bits that come with it as well. Babies. Yeah. Yeah. I think what I would say to you is it's about breaking it down day by day. Yeah. So like it's okay that you're not thinking about the funeral. Like just focus on the suitcases getting picked up tonight. Then tomorrow it's like on the fly and then it'll be and then it'll be about routine and just sort of allow yourself to try and enjoy some of that quality time without worrying too much about yeah like days ahead just take each day as it comes I'd say yeah yeah that's good advice yeah definitely

yeah 100% looking forward to having some extra help of hands as well, actually, when I get home. Yeah, absolutely. That would be nice. 100%. 100%. So, anyway, should we get on to this week's topic? Let's do it. Okay, babes. Let's dive in. So, Sam came up with a good idea and she was like, babes, I've got an idea while I'm awake

in the middle of the night with insomnia, which I was like... Oh, shit, there was was actually wasn't it when i checked she yeah it was like three best ideas come at witching hour at 3 a.m um but you suggested about reflect on the last six months and obviously the podcast has been going for six months now almost oh my god it is five or six it was december the 21st we started oh well remembered it was only because it was a Mercury Kazemi that day and I remember doing it for that so what was that December I could you know what I struggled to count the months you don't count December though you count January so

then it's been five months almost six five six five okay cool so I never knew that I would count December be like December the no because yeah no no no no so we was like let's reflect let's fill the fields it's go into it and then I was like okay but let's look at the astrology and what's been happening and why like all the different energies have been here because let's be honest it's been bloody bonkers hasn't it the last six months yes to say the least 100 percent and I think for a lot of people listening they've probably felt like it's been a bit bonkers either listening to us or their own life yeah I think like if you if you look back now as to like where you were in January or what you were feeling what you were thinking what you were expecting for your year and then to now where you are I imagine it is quite chaotic it has been quite chaotic it's just been a really fast energy right now um and we when we

started the podcast Mercury was in retrograde which we all know about that now like things that get a bit like technology and stuff can be a little bit screw if and communication and that happens like three four times a year and we've had two of them since doing the podcast so you've had two chunks of time where we've all felt out of sorts and everyone always replies to me in a Mercury retrograde being like babes I feel it I know and we've also had some big eclipses happening that we spoke about. Sam gave birth to two babies.

I had a bit of a crisis like January, February when I was like, what am I doing with my life? You know, so there's a lot that's been going on. And we just thought sometimes when you think about it and you lot have been on the ride with it, let's do a little like review, like an appraisal. Yeah. Let's give feedback but just kind of thinking about that time and so like I I was thinking about it from my perspective of how slow January and February was for me and we were laughing that I was I'm gonna stay in Dubai for the summer I remember you saying this

you were like I'm gonna get my head down I'm gonna work really hard and I was like you know what good for you like you even started to sell it to me I was like maybe I should do the same thing yeah yeah literally and I remember thinking wow that's really good and then like not that long after you were like so a week later and I was like oh. I literally was like head down. But also that was because of my financial situation. At the start of the year, like work was just, you know, I was in the deep and depths of Saturn. It felt like it was drying up, didn't it?

I remember you saying that. Yeah. So at the start of the year, I was in the peak degree of my Saturn return. And you was in yours like two months ago. So yours is like kind of now as well for you babes but I literally felt like everything was getting taken away from me and that's what Saturn does he brings in limitation and there was like a shift happening with my work and it felt as though just things changed and I needed to review it and look at it and this was all leading up to my 30th

so yeah that version of me was a little bit down in the dumps you know like I was a little bit um frustrated and I just kind of settled sorry what would you have like at that time what was it that you were really wanting then out of this year or how did you see I mean I suppose we just said that you saw yourself like settling in Dubai for the summer I feel like I sort of accepted that I was just gonna fail sorry we just cut out a little bit again so I just sort of felt like I was just accepted that I was failing and and I wasn't failing it was just there was a lot of time for me to like review and reflect which has never happened before in my career with with this work um I was like oh do you know what it is what it is don't make big goals

like I just played small in my energy so I think it was that I was doing that and I felt flat felt just a bit low I think you were almost like punishing yourself as well by being like oh I've got to stay here and work for the summer as though like oh I've not done enough so I have to stay and put my head down and work yeah I think there was that and it was like yeah the only way you can work hard is if you just stay and and then I was like actually I just need to change how I'm positioning my work something's changing and that's when I sort of made that decision to work with people on a regular basis and I've worked with people on a regular basis for years but I just haven't promoted it and I

haven't shown up yeah and obviously you've seen it in the last few months that I'm like pushing on socials I've put a lot of coaching packages together like I'm actually advertising them I'm not I'm just doing them then ad hoc and you know it was an opportunity to step up and that's why that happened for me where things slowed down because there was more for me and I didn't see it I just thought okay this is the end you had a. Maybe you'll have to get a job. Honestly, that thought came into my head for like a day and I was like, fuck that. I can't sit at a desk again. Yeah, absolutely not. I wouldn't have let you.

So yeah, no, I know, babes. I know. I also would have got sacked. Like, I can't do it. Honestly, I'd be terrible. I can't be employed. You'd be here at nine and you'd be like, absolutely not. I'd be like, actually, it's a full moon, so I will not be.

And they'll be like, don't give a shit where the moon's at. It's to your desk. So, yeah, I'm no longer, I'd say, employable, which I don't know if that's a good or a bad thing. Who knows? I think it's a good thing. Thanks, babes. So, yeah, so that was coming up for me.

Obviously, January for you you what was going on when you reflect January was I remember being quite bored in January which is ironic now um yeah I'm being quite bored because I couldn't really work well I definitely couldn't work like I couldn't physically work couldn't do hair um I was doing a bit online but it was starting to slow down like I was still doing like my mentoring and things but I knew it was about to end um for maternity and it was just a lot of sitting and waiting a lot of waiting you know like um thinking when this is gonna happen I literally couldn't even walk to like I couldn't go to the mall looking at really couldn't even walk to the toilet you had to wear a nappy just a couch potato in January imagine um yeah you was doing well yeah I was

all right I just I just remember being very everything was very slow and it was just a case of just waiting um so what would you give oh sorry I'm getting excited I was about to go into therapy mode what what advice would you give to that version of you now as in if I could talk back to the one in January yeah myself and John um make the most of it because it's about to turn on its head which everybody said to me but you just can't think that way when you're in it like I remember people saying it to me and I was like I felt like I had no purpose like it was the Saturday afternoon and the weather was amazing because it was January and I'd just be sat watching Love Island

yeah and I just couldn't do anything physically and so yeah I'd probably tell myself like settling because a lot's about to happen yeah um but there's really nothing that you can do at that time you know like you can reflect on it all you want and think oh yeah I wish that I'd made more like enjoyed it a bit more but I couldn't have I really couldn't have it's just not in my personality to enjoy that type of thing yeah no I get that so yeah and then when I but the funny thing is really when I think back to like January and kind of like any like goals that I'd made for the year and how I wanted things to go I would actually say that I am exactly where I wanted to be yeah so that's good that's amazing yeah I really wanted to obviously buy a house um have a garden for the dog I actually I was clearing out my room before and I'd seen like the goals I'd made at the

beginning of the year and I was like oh it's pretty spot on to be fair so that's nice yeah same here my goals have come come through yeah um that were actually before my little moment of misery yeah that was like travel I said the year I turn 30 I just want to be moving all around different places which is exactly what you're doing it's amazing yeah so yeah no I definitely feel like I've had a good sounds weird sounds weird saying I've had a good six months because it has been probably the hardest time ever but there has definitely been a lot of amazing parts to it as well yeah it's been productive achieved quite a lot yeah yeah yeah yeah so you know yeah exactly there's a lot to look back on and I guess you won't have a six months like this probably ever

again well you might do now and you you probably will end up being like oh should we have twins again and should we renovate a house and should we like do this absolutely not absolutely not although I do remember when it was 2022 I remember like in the January I went to Saudi with work had this huge like opportunity with work which was amazing to do hair for like Dolce & Gabbana like in Saudi and then I left my job opened the salon had my wedding and my honeymoon and went to another wedding abroad all in six months wowza and I remember thinking like fuck that was a lot so yeah I think it's um quite a common theme for me to be honest it is just do everything at once that's all right that's all right I think I thrive in the chaos

yeah and a lot of people do I think it's like your nervous system obviously enjoys that. Well, my nervous system gets overwhelmed. I'm like, even when I have a full diary, I'm like, honestly, I struggle with making social commitments for two days' time. And do you know what? That is something that, yeah, that is something. I mean, two days' time is a bit, you know, I think you could make a social commitment for a dinner.

Honestly, I'd struggle. I'd be thinking, be thinking what if like i'm not in the mood what if i'm tired yeah what if i can't be asked instead of being like what if you have a really good time yeah yeah exactly and i am yeah i'm definitely not making as many social commitments like far in advance now I do say that to people now I'm a bit like I can't because I just don't know where I'm going to be at and I think that's fine and I also think that people that you surround yourself with should just understand they should just get it and if they don't then I think as you grow older I think as you grow older like you just live like most people are understanding if they're not, they probably don't. They're probably not right for you.

Yeah, exactly. They're probably not, babes, you know. So I was also thinking like the story of the podcast over the last five months. We, I think we both feel quite proud, don't we? Yeah, definitely. we I think we both feel quite proud don't we yeah definitely I was looking actually at the stats of it the other day and I was thinking wow it's doing way better than what I could have ever wished for um so it is I love it absolutely love doing it me too and it's like we just put this intention and I think we've got into our rhythm with it which is nice um but like there's just I think we we kind of

find it therapeutic as well like this is like well the other last like what six weeks were a therapy session for me weren't they and everyone was just listening to it it's all right but then last week I was sort of in the therapy seat and like on the other side getting a bit of motion I think it is good to just sort of be vulnerable and share those things and I think we've both really enjoyed it and we're just going to keep going aren't we yeah the next six months will be oh someone's messaged um it was Charlotte message saying about doing a live event and performing like a live podcast um I'm up for it I think that's gonna happen in the next six months yeah I'm all up for it I mean I have no idea how

that works how you even do a live podcast I'm absolutely I would absolutely do it so you with 100% like it would be a piss up like it's not sober like you know it would be basically like a bottomless branch podcast oh that is like covid times yeah yeah no we wouldn't do it on zoom we're doing real life oh okay real life it's not real life as in face to face face to face oh yeah we just have the microphone so then it will be like full moon, whatever night it is when I'm back in Dubai and we'll set it up. Maybe we'll do it at the greenhouse or we'll find a venue and we'll just – maybe it'll be in your garden.

Oh, my God. Could you imagine? And we'll just, you know, have a great time. Yeah. Right, I'm here for it. We'll do it. I'll work on it babes we'll put the energy right now you're like Jess I've got a million one things to think about it's all right you can project manage it when you're ready you like those things yeah yeah yeah no I will yeah no I have I've really enjoyed though the last like six months of the podcast I think it's going to be amazing like what will then next continue to come from it um and then I think over the summer obviously we will just navigate as and when there might be the odd week where we

miss it um depending on like wi-fi and stuff like that yeah um but we'll figure it out yeah we'll just go with the flow girl and just see see how it goes but your feedback is all really nice from everyone we like the messages we love it we love validation makes us feel good we're good yeah when people are I love your podcast I'm like you don't know how much that means to me because sometimes it's like you're just chatting along chatting shit yeah I was listening we do yeah I know I know oh um anything else on the last six months for you anything else on the last six months you know what I did actually make notes before and now I can't even remember what I put in oh to be fair there's been I would say there's been quite a big shift in my business in the last six months yes come on then come on uh come on then tell them come on then um yeah I feel like the business that I

started when I started the salon was one business and then what it is now is different and that might not make sense but like what I needed when the salon first opened versus now I feel like it's completely changed but for the better um yeah evolved that's probably yeah exactly and it's really weird because it's not something that I actually ever thought would happen um I just never saw past that time of opening it um and how really I just always wanted it to be you know um a place where people could thrive and be successful and um be happy really working there because a lot of places people aren't happy and I just want people to be happy and you know all the girls are and they're all amazing and but we've been attracting some amazing new staff members who are just incredible and just have such a good vibe about

them and yeah I really feel like it is changing but for the better and um it's going to continue to change continue to grow I don't know what where it's going to end up but I feel like I'm very happy with the way that things are going becoming a little bit sure as well in my decisions I feel like yeah it's a bit hard like to begin with I always was so keen on making sure I felt like I was pleasing a lot of people yeah um and like having to kind of say yes to everything that everyone wanted because I needed the staff and like I needed the business to be successful and whatever else and I think actually taking time to think about how I needed the business to be successful and whatever else and I think actually taking time to think about how I want the business to look and how I want it to progress you do have to sometimes do things that people aren't going to like you do yeah it's a shame but

it's it's just life isn't it really well it is and I think that's what your Saturn's return does and obviously we've both put that well in it and Saturn's like okay it's time to grow up now it's time to show up and grow up and have boundaries and what do you what you know what do you like so for you it's like you know I want consistency or you know I'm that you know whatever it is that's coming up for you like you're actually asking yourself what you want instead of being like oh my god I need this so do you know what I have this or I need that you know and when it comes from that place when you start things like I felt like that when I started my business like yeah I would just take on anyone and anything to you know do get work yeah and like change it I can remember when we first opened not when we first opened but maybe

like almost a year in and some clients like oh just such dicks and like yeah I know because I'm not even asked anymore but like some people are just so rude and entitled and it would give me pure anxiety and like I'm not normally someone who'd get particularly affected by stuff like that but I think because I'd had so long of having all my own clients who were so so so lovely and then all of a sudden experiencing new people or other people's clients and things like that and that was really really difficult and then like now if ever there's a situation like that I'm just a bit like no like this is the way that it is yeah exactly like we don't need people like that and it's nice to just kind of have evolved in that way

um and have a bit of a um structure to it basically I think so and I think that comes with time knowing your worth and things like that and I've definitely felt the same with my business I feel like there's been like a real level up and what I want yeah and actually by putting myself first like my business has grown from it and yeah it's my business is the best it's ever been yeah and you know I'm shocked by that and I think not shocked that's probably not the right word but in January I think I'd have been like really but? But, you know, it's sort of when you kind of look. Surprised you? Surprised because I think you have to have a real reality check when things aren't working.

So that when those sorts of customers or clients are coming to you, you're like, why are we attracting this? You know, so with me, I was like, why am I attracting this like frustration in my business instead of being like, oh, you know, X, Y, Z. I'm like, I'm being shown something so let me look at that and let me explore that and I think you know that's what you have to do and make changes and be bold with them and be more empowered with them which is yeah what you've done and it pays off babes and it's going to continue to keep happening like you know it's always going to be like a massive learning curve and it's a huge responsibility owning a business and having staff and doing all of that it really really is and it

doesn't go um you know easy but it's um one that I enjoy so definitely babes well I'm so proud of you you've had a bloody intense six months you've smashed it thank you i'm proud of you feels oh babes yeah proud of us both yeah it's all good you know we've we've made it work we'll see where we are in december we'll be crying like oh my god yeah it'll be all good for anyone listening thinking about their six months work your way through the months and reflect on each one the good bad and the ugly absolutely and and give that version of you some advice what would you give them now I do also think like exactly what you just said then I feel like think to yourself you know if you had a really negative interaction with someone or something like that what was it that you took away from that what have you learned from that yeah and how could you let that go as well yeah well it's

acceptance and surrender like so even a few of your business you've let it evolve in a way that you didn't know was possible but by doing that you've seen results and I think that it is letting things go and sort of going in whether that's a good thing letting go or a bad thing that's been let go yeah you know so it's just could be a mindset could be a person could be unresolved business that you've not sorted out in the last six months that's still bothering you and holding you back and you know that you need to have that conversation like yeah could be so many things but reflect on it and I would just write down the last you know five or six months right each month down and write how you felt and then write some advice to it it's a good little

tool yeah definitely now you can you know think forward to the next six as to what it is that you want to achieve and yeah yeah definitely yeah absolutely Love it. Well, I think that's us for this week, isn't it? I agree. Next week, I think it's going to be just you. Am I right? Yeah, so I'm going to do an episode on Gemini season. So all the Geminis that are eagerly awaiting their Zodiac vibe, I'm going to hold the fort and do it myself

while Sam is obviously busy doing stuff. In my chaotic bubble. Yeah. yeah yeah and then i'll be back after amazing yeah oh well thank you so much thank you for listening and um don't forget to do all the stuff that we ask you to do every single week send us nice messages tell us how much you love us um validate us um like rate subscribe um follow the podcast we're on instagram at spiritually no spiritually speaking speaking underscore podcast underscore podcast and then i am at hair by samantha green and you are at i'm at jessicamarie underscore holistic um and also I've got my patreon to come and join if you're wanting a bit more ash oh I can't get my words out astrology tarot all the moon stuff is

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