Strictly Anonymous Confessions - 043 - Big Momma the Lesbian and her Partner are Trying to Have a Baby

Episode Date: October 13, 2014

Big Momma the lesbian and her lesbian partner are trying to have a baby. They've tried a couple IUI's but they didnt work. Now they're faced with what to do next. Should they have a baby with the help of a male friend, stick with artificial insemination or move onto IVF. If you've been trying to have a baby and you've been having trouble this podcast is for you.    **To see anonymous pics of my female guests + hear anonymous confessions + get all the episodes early and AD FREE, join my Patreon! It's only $7 a month and you can cancel at any time. You can sign up here: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.patreon.com/StrictlyAnonymousPodcast⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ and when you join, I'll throw in a complimentary link to my private Discord! MY BOOK IS NOW OUT FOR PRE-ORDER!!!! Strictly Anonymous Confessions: Secret Sex Lives of Total Strangers. A bunch of short, super sexy, TRUE stories. GET YOUR COPY NOW: https://amzn.to/4i7hBCd To Join SDC and get a FREE Trial! click here: https://www.sdc.com/?ref=37712 or go to SDC.com and use my code 37712 Want to be on the show? Email me at [e-mail] or go to http://www.strictlyanonymouspodcast.com and click on "Be on the Show" Have something quick you want to confesss while remaining anonymous? Call the CONFESSIONS hotline at 347-420-3579. You can call 24/7. All voices are changed. Sponsors: https://bluechew.com Get your first month FREE! https://butterwellness.com/ Try the Butter Wellness perineum massager and use code STRICTLY for 20% off your entire order Follow me! Instagram https://www.instagram.com/strictanonymous/ Twitter https://twitter.com/strictanonymous?lang=en Website http://www.strictlyanonymouspodcast.com/ Everything else https://linktr.ee/Strictlyanonymouspodcast Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

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Because this is like, I have big mom with a lesbian who's trying to have a baby with her lesbian partner. And they're doing IUIs and they don't know if they're doing IVFs and they need money. And like I have to say that everybody, most people that listen to this podcast know that I was trying to have a baby. And I still am. I'm doing a surrogate. and that's in the bag and everything's okay, so I'm not getting pregnant myself anymore, but I tried for a while,

and I did IUIs and I did IVFs, and I did things very, you know, out of the box and different. Some people say dysfunctional. I say unconventional. I'm an unconventional person, and I like to do things in a different way. Here's two lesbians doing something unconventional, too. I don't think it's unconventional.

I mean, I think it's like, whatever you want to do, whatever. But other people do. But really what this is about is like IUIs, IVS, try and have a baby and how that works. So a lot of the guys that listen to my podcast might not want to listen, but I don't know. I thought it would be interesting because I actually do this podcast so I could actually help people and I think that I can help them because I've been there, done that and that's a deal. And so hopefully other women actually find this podcast because they go Googling and they're looking, you know, for information about this because this will be very informative to that type person. or if you're a guy and you're married to a woman and you guys are trying to have a baby and you're doing iUI ivy. This is always good too.

I feel like so many people don't really like to talk about this. They don't talk about it. They sort of hide it from everybody because people are embarrassed or I don't know what it is. I don't really hide anything. So, you know, I'm always, I always think it's great to talk about things and make other people understand that, you know, everything's okay. And, you know, there's other people like you out there. Okay. So anyway, I'll be right back with Big Mama the Lesbian.

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Is this Big Mama? I like that name. This is Big Mama. Big Mama. So listen, Big Mama, I was just explaining to my callers beforehand. I read them your email. And I explained that I had posted. Normally I post ads just so you know on Craigslist in the Personals Department.

So I get all kinds of crazy people with crazy sort of sexual problems. But you found my ad in the regular section because I just wanted to test that out and see what who I would find. And it turns out that you have an exact problem that I was actually dealing with. You're a lesbian. So I'm going to call you Big Mama the Lesbian, right? And you and your partner. Okay, fine. What? Big Mama the Lime. Big Mama the Lerner. My new Orange is a black name. Orange is black. Yes, Big Mama the lesbian is trying to get pregnant with your partner. Are you married? We are not married yet, but we've been together 11 years. It'll be 12 in April. So it feels like a marriage, but it will be official

so I can be skinny mama. That's when it will happen, so hopefully another year. You think getting married will make you skinny? No, no, I mean, obviously, I would like to be thinner just for pitchers, but I mean, I don't care. Okay, so you call yourself Big Mama because you're a big girl? No, I've called myself Big Mama because I want to be a Mommy. I'm so a Big Mommy, yeah.

Yeah, like Baby Mom, Big Mama, yeah. Oh, your big baby mama. Yeah, but my partner's the one that's been going at first because she's older than me. She's 44. She just turned 44. And I'm 42. Even though my eggs are younger, she wanted to try. And since she's the one that makes, it's her insurance and she makes pretty much, well, I don't know, not anymore.

I mean, I actually, I've been making a little bit more lately than her. Are you trying to say she's the man? She wants to go first, and I think it's fine because she's older, so whatever. Who's the man and your guy's relationship? Her? Neither. We don't have a butch femme relationship, which is, we're just two normal-looking women who happen to be lesbians. Right.

So you're trying to have a baby, right? And you were on Craigslist. What did she try? She tried, what did you say she tried? IUIs, right? We've only done IUI. We didn't even mess with just regular. I don't even, what's the other one?

Just vaginal. Well, there's a lesbian kit, by the way. I mean, listen, I've tried it all. And I've done IUIs. I've done IVF. And there is, when I first started out trying to get pregnant, I was doing it with a guy friend of mine. We weren't married, but we were,

and at some point, we were having sex, and then I cut them off because everything got really complicated. And when I didn't want to have sex with them, but I still wanted to get pregnant, in between the IUIs, which is the artificial insemination if people don't know what that is. They gave us this kid. We called it the lesbian kit.

It was like a turkey baster where you could put like jizz inside of it and then you stick it up there and you squeeze it in and you get it. Like, you know, have you guys ever thought of like just doing that? Like either purchasing the just the vial of sperm yourself and then doing it at home with the turkey baster method or getting a guy friend of yours to give you the sperm, put it in and you know what I mean? Instead of having you to buy the vial. Yeah, I know that there are a lot of people who have done that in the community are, oh, God, I should not be saying her name.

Can you edit it out? I'll delete her name out. Yeah, that's totally fine. No, I'll delete her name out, no problem. We'll call her Big Mama. I'll just call her my partner. Yeah, your partner. Yeah, my partner and I, so can you rephrase the question?

I'm sorry, I got distracted with everything. I wanted to know if you guys have ever thought of you. using a guy. I mean, because I know it gets very I was very lucky. You know, I had all these issues with having my friend's baby and all this stuff, but I never had the money problems because I was always financially okay. And I know that financially it becomes a, it's a huge

burden. I feel so sorry for people because doing all that stuff is so expensive. Even IUIs, you know, and that's the lower end of things. Once you get into IVF, it's even more expensive. So I was wondering, because once I went to a sperm donor bank, it's right up the street from my house, so that's where I would go and get my sperm donor's stuff after I stopped doing it

with my friend I was doing it with the sperm donor as well. So I found a sperm donor. And one day when I went there to purchase another vial, I saw like a really hot guy sitting in the lobby area where I was and he was very young. And I was thinking to myself, like, I should just offer him, you know, do 500 bucks to fuck me in the bathroom because this guy's probably getting a buck 25 to jerk off in there, right? I'm like having to spend 20,000 to do IVF with that jizz. And I'm paying 500 for a vial.

Like, why don't I just, you know, cut out the middleman and just do it? So I'm wondering if you guys have ever, that's my long-winded way of saying, have you guys ever thought of like getting a dude involved that you either know or don't know in sort of getting and doing it on the cheap that way? No, I know people do that, but my partner and I have just a set of, just our moral compass and our values don't allow us to even be open to that. I personally wanted to be open to at least maybe having Okay, no, we're not going to go to a bar and pick up some guy and just

Right, she's not going to fuck a guy She won't have sex with a guy. Right. And even though we're in a relationship and to me that, I mean, what's the point of being with her at that point? You know, putting, getting somebody to, you know, finding a friend, I can understand that more and saying, look, we're going to pay for you to go to UCLA or, you know, get your sperm taken out and then we're going to use it and sign a contract. That's different.

Right. You know, actually having sex with somebody, you don't need to have sex with somebody. Right. No, no, no. I'm trying to create a family, not a problem. Okay. Yeah, no. That's just for us absolutely no.

No, no. I'm talking about bringing the friend over. I actually had a friend that I was very interested in possibly using, even though he's not, you know, French or German. and doesn't have the same genetic makeup, essentially as we do, background, ethnic background, a race, whatever you want, you know, I'm trying to say. But he's a good guy, and he has the same value system as we do. And both my partner, I have an extraordinary relationship with our fathers.

So we love and appreciate men, and we know the value of a father and a child's life. Now, what I'm saying is not actually politically correct in the lesbian community, but I mean, it is what it is. You are raising a child without a father, and you can say single mothers do it or whatever, but we're consciously choosing to bring this child in the world, knowing that they will not know somebody or have a father. So for us, it was hard, and because we're both Christian, we were conflicted. and so we've decided to go for a donor that was willing to meet the child at 18. Also, there's the fact that you don't know what kind of kid you're going to have. What if you need bone marrow? I also think that, oh, my gosh.

No, I also think that. Sorry. It's okay. I could delete that. I just heard some music, but that wasn't a big deal. I also think that. I need to shut that down. Hang on.

Okay. I also think that it's important to allow your kid, you know, if that kid ever wants to go meet that person or see that person or know that person to leave that. that open. I think it's a little claustrophobic to like sort of shut that down. I know that you could buy sperm where people are anonymous or you could, you know, it's a little bit more expensive to buy people that are open to meeting that child or that person could go

look for who that person is. So I purchased that kind of sperm too. Because you want your kids to have every option. I'm not trying to deny our child but what I want to know is are you going to bring anything. Can you hear me? Excuse me. Excuse me. How are you going to, you know, Excuse me. Are you, am I on mute?

Can you hear me? No, I can totally hear you. Why, what's wrong? Oh, okay. No, I was just trying to cut you off while you were talking. I know that that's not good as a home. Sorry. Funny, how rude?

Sorry. Who's rude? Mario, I don't know. No, I think that I'm just saying what, I asked you the question was about, not about your Christian and all that stuff. I get that. It's more about were you, are you willing to do the thing with the friend? Because I know that you said your problem is you can.

can't afford all these treatments and the sperm and all that stuff and that's where you're kind of at. So I'm wondering, is it an option for you to bring in that guy, not to fuck him, but your friend, you know, and sort of have him jizz. He could just jizz in your house, I think. And like you put it in a cop and then you put it in this turkey baster and you just put it inside your partner. No, I know what you're saying. And no, the answer, my partner was not open to that. She's like, I'm not interested. It gets complicated when you know somebody. What if he wants custody later. I'm not trying to... I think so. I agree with that. That's a little

like iffy depending on who that person is. You'd have to really... Yeah, he's a close friend. So, I mean, basically, we have a kid. You're going to tell me you're going to see your son and daughter, you know, and you're going to have a relationship with them, but they're not going to... You know what I mean? Yeah, yeah, that's complicated. It's very

complicated then. And so she said, let's avoid that, just get a sperm daughter that's open. And so that's what we're doing it. Even though it's... I wouldn't we can't afford it because I'm working really hard to get too afforded. What do you do? And what does she do? You said she's 44. One second. One more second. She's 44. How old are you again? I'm 42. So you're 42. She's 44. Yeah, I got to tell you as a 45-year-old that started when I was 42. I'm in the 40s every year. It goes down.

She's like almost like maybe she has a 5% chance. And in a year it's going to be like 1%. So you're going to have to take over with those eggs pretty soon. But she's got to get on it. But you told me, like, where you're at right now is, are you going to do IUI? Are you need more money? Or, like, are you setting up to do another series of something? Yeah, I'm going to pay for the next round of IUI. And honestly, I've been trying to talk her into just doing IVF. I feel like it's almost like, you know, look, we tried twice. And I felt like, you know, why go straight to IVF?

We haven't even tried an IUI. But now we've done two. We've done hormone shocks with the second round, you know, for her. and I just like, let's not, I don't even want to say like, you know, it's not like I'm giving up because I know it's pretty common not to get pregnant right away, but, you know, let's just do IVF get over and know that we're putting an embryo, a literally, a live embryo in you. So if we already know we're pregnant with the embryo, then, you know, all we have to do is wait for it to really just attach and grow. So that seems pretty much more, I mean, just successful than just basically. particularly playing lawn darts and hoping that you get the right, you know, you know. Yeah, you're getting, like, just so you know, you probably have the same chances at 44.

She probably has the same percentage chance of getting pregnant with an IUI or IVF. But the thing with the IVF that I always felt when I started doing that is it's like you, I don't care that they give you the same percentage. You're literally putting, like you say, an embryo, you just needed to implant, you know, and sort of stick. And then you have to hope that, you know, and there's a lot of stuff that goes. into that because of the age, you know? Have you ever thought of getting your eggs?

Because you have 15,000 for an IVF, right? Have you ever thought of getting your, like, how does it work with partners? Like, I mean, have you guys, like, did you guys decide that the baby would be hers and then you're going to do one with yours or like, how did it decide, how do you guys decide that she would be the person with the genetic, you know, link to the child and not you? No, we're both going to have, I want my own children. I mean, not that her, that sounds horrible, but I wanted my own biological. Yeah, I mean, it does sound horrible, but I wanted to give birth to my own biological children.

I mean, I would love to have four kids, but, I mean, whatever, you know, living in L.A. And, well, two kids is going to have to suffice. One of hers and one of mine biologically are birth, you know, our children. So maybe I can get away with two kids so we can have three. But yeah, I plan on having either giving birth to it. I found out that I could because I've had spinal surgery. And the doctor said I could give birth vaginally. So I think that I should still have a C-section, but that's just me because I have a fusion. So I'm a little skeptical about that. But who knows? I was given the okay

So we'll see But you're a 42 Have you guys ever thought of like trying to get pregnant At the same time? Like because you're like I did think of that And then I thought God What if we are pregnant at the same time

And then we have to deal with the fact that Who's going to help anybody When we're both like you know Miserable and you know Right Big So Right

But what about getting your eggs removed now Because you're way young Because I'm going to tell you In your 40s You know your eggs That each year It's like cat years Each year's like, you know, you go your chances and your, like, the healthiness of your, like, it goes down really drastically.

So your eggs this year, you know, as opposed to next year is there's a very big difference. So if you wait a year for her to get pregnant and she might not even because she's way older than you and her chances are very slim, you could be letting, you know, those good. Because what happens when you get older, it's not that you don't have good eggs. It's at like one in 10 or one in 20 are good. So you have to be there when the right one drops. And, you know, that could take a really long time. A lot of people that I know at my age that we're doing IVF were getting pregnant between six and ten times, okay, of IVFs.

I just wasn't going to put my body through that because IVF is very hardcore. The drugs that you take, it's not just the hormones. There's a lot of drugs you take after retrieval. It's just a whole process. It's amazing, and I love doing it. But it really fucks with your hormones. and it, I still not normal, and I haven't done one since April. It'll probably take me a year to two years for my body to get me totally back to healthy.

What do you mean normal? What do you mean by that? Normal, I mean, it fucks your hormones up. I mean, you're taking a lot of drugs. They're basically like shutting down your pituitary and taking control of your body. So, you know, you can't keep shut your pituitary and turn it back on. You know, I did three, I did four IVFs. One was converted to an IUI because I got a lead follicle so it didn't go through, but I did a lot of those drugs.

I got pregnant on one, and that's why I did the second one after. But it just fucks with your body. It's a hardcore stuff that they're doing. It's amazing, and I'm glad that I tried it, and I did it. But I wasn't willing to do six to ten. I just couldn't do anymore. It was just so much drugs and such a harsh effect on my body. Like, your hair gets messed up.

You lose hair. Your hair gets dry. Your hormones get, you start having, like, hot flashes when you get your period like you just I'm still not normal like I said and you know it does a number on your skin it's like because it's uh it's major what they're doing it's a major miracle what they're doing but it's also like you know it's a harsh and when you're older and your hormones are a little fucked up too so it's it's a lot so it takes it could take a long time the older that you get I mean eventually you could get pregnant like I said I've heard one lady at 44

45 got pregnant after 11 IVs or after six or after seven you know, so it's a lot. But for you, before you get to that point, because she could try for a year, at that point you're 43 going on 44, and then you're going to be in her same position. You should get your eggs out now. It's a very simple process.

I agree with you. I do agree with you. But I'm also freaked out when you tell me that you're not even normal yet, and that would mean for egg retrieval that I would have to go through all of that. Yeah, but it's only one time, Big Mama. You're doing it once.

I did it four times plus I did iOS. One time, I swear to you, after one time, it'll take three months to get back to normal. Okay, so I won't have this thing, because I don't want that. No, and they had me on something called Lupron. Like, I did, like, max doses because I was trying to get pregnant at that time. You're just, what they would do with you is they would take out your eggs and then they'd make you, because you have the donor sperm. You want to freeze embryos. You don't want to freeze eggs.

So you make an embryo, you freeze that embryo. And then what they could do with frozen embryos, if you pay a couple thousand dollars, It's actually very good, though. They could test all of them to see if they're chromosomally, okay? Which means that, you know, you don't have to go. The worst part about IVF or even IUI is the process of like trying and putting all of your shit in and then not getting pregnant and not knowing. You know, they put that embryo in. They'll give you a grading.

It's very interesting. Like, I would love to, I wish, like, you know, I do everything anonymously. So, you know, I can't show you the things that I have and you don't know who I am and I don't know who you are. nobody really fucking cares, but it's really great because they give you pictures of your embryos when you, and they rate them and you get gratings and they have certain cells and stuff. So sometimes you could kind of have a gauge of like whether this one's going to be healthy or not, but you really don't know unless it attaches in terms of baby or not. There's so many factors that go into it. But when you have a frozen embryo, you can send it for testing and find out if it's genetically okay,

instead of having it put it in and then either you get pregnant and you have a chemical pregnancy or a miscarriage or, you know, it goes to fruition. And, you know, not a lot of those eggs will make it to a healthy baby when you're in your 40s. People have a very, like, skewed idea of it. I did too until I got into it and started trying and then met other women that were and just like, you know, it's not as easy as you think. And time is of essence.

I know, they're always very, like, doom and terror. And it's like, well, what, you know, I don't want to hear. I mean, obviously, I mean, I get it, you know, but at the same time, it's like they should be slightly encouraging. I mean, my doctor did say, you know, there's a doctor that just gave birth to, she was 47 naturally, and then my friend had, her mother was going through menopause and had half of an ovary and only one half working. The other one was gone, and she still gave birth to a healthy child, and she was 50. So you just never know. I mean, I feel like the baby's going to come when it comes. Like, you know, I just feel like you know God says that's going to happen.

I don't know when, but I know that we'll have children. I know I will. Right. You have to have that idea. For me, what was really great for me and what I'm glad because I saw a lot of other people that are going through what I was going through and they weren't able to sort of adjust and take on a difference or decide to do things differently. For me, I every step of the way, had to sort of give up my game plan and my idea of how things

we're going to go and completely sort of wrap my head around a totally different way of doing things and then be okay with that and take a whole new path. And that's just what I've had to go through. And I'm glad that I was open to those things because some people are and I totally respect that. Some people don't want to do donor eggs or they don't want to do donor sperm or, you know. And so then if they get to a point like they could get to a dead end for me, you know, any of that stuff didn't matter. So I had to give up the idea of having my friend, you know, a father, for my baby. Then I had to give up having my own genetics. And I've gotten nasty emails from callers saying like you're ridiculous for having a baby the way you're doing it. Whatever. I could

care less what they have to say. Whatever. You know, they can, it's not their family. So, you know, I chose to do this podcast because I always think, like sometimes a lot of my stuff that I do and people call in this is like crazy sex stories. I don't know if you checked out my podcast, but if you look at the titles, it's like stuff that's not like this. But I like this because I think so many women don't talk about it. So many women are doing it. And it's not just, oh, someone like you, like a lesbian couple that is very different and a lot of people are detrimental. Most of the people

we mean in the wedding room are heterosexual couples. That's what I'm saying. Those people, that, I feel so bad for those couples because so many of them don't want to talk about it. Not to cut you off, but my friend, she, I didn't know this, she told me that she has

one child and she goes, it took forever and she goes, I didn't, she didn't know her husband when she married him. He, when his 10, got something happened to him in an accident and his nuts got crushed or something when he was a 10-year-old. And anyway, the point is he had an accident to his testicles, and it screwed up his sperm. And it was his sperm that was the problem. And she had to go through the hell of trying to get pregnant. She said, I'm done.

I have to accept that I've one child. She's like, it is so painful. We love our daughter so much. We want to give her a sibling. But what can I do? His sperm is just like a crap. shoot. It's just like you don't know. So what is she doing? She's like, and I just can't take the drugs anymore.

She's done several, several rounds of IV. So wait, what was her choice? So she's not doing the IV? So she's not having the baby at all or using donors? He said she's done. She has a daughter that's four with him. Oh, so right. She said that they kept trying to give her a sibling, you know, her daughter. And also they wanted another child. But it was his sperm. She goes, it's his sperm. It's his issue, but my body is the one that's going through hell with the hormones and the shots and the drugs. And she's like, I can't take it anymore. And she's like, as much as I want the style.

And she was sobbing. She was just everything, well, not talking. You could tell her she was fighting bacteria. Her eyes were rolling up. Like, it was very traumatic for her. She's like that I have to focus on the child that God gave me. And I'm so grateful. But she's like, I just wanted to create another life for my daughter.

So she wasn't alone in this world when we're gone. But she had a sibling. I had a friend who was like, you know, I met a lot of people through when I was doing IVF and I heard all kinds of stories. And like I said, I had a friend who had a baby and was looking for, you know, really wanted a girl. She had a boy, really wanted a, you know, and it just wasn't happening. And she was older. And I lost touch with her. Because when I, you know, I'm doing a surrogate now and I'm doing donor eggs and donor sperm.

So basically I'm adopting a baby with someone else. And I'm sure people are going to write in and are just horrified. by what I'm doing, but I think more of more people... You gotta do what you gotta do. And the paper, and I heard trying to adopt is a process in itself that we have. I am not trying to even go down that road right now. I just... I can't even imagine.

Well, it takes like five years. They won't, like, you know, they won't give me a baby. Like, I mean, my friends, I have friends in New York City single women who have looked into adopting. And you can't get a baby here and you got to go someplace like the third world country. And it takes like five years. You don't even get a newborn. You get like a three-year-old. I mean, you're bottom of the barrel when you're a single woman.

Nobody wants to give you a baby. So, you know, I'm lucky to be financially able to do it the way that I'm doing it. So I could still have my baby. And I also think with adopting, it's really hard. I think attachment issues for children are sort of established very early. Oh, I agree. It's interesting that you mentioned that. He's 50-something years old.

My good friend, her mother got pregnant and was married when she was a teenager. like 17 or something had three kids with an abusive relationship and her parents were wealthy and they said because it was a different time. This is my friend's mother. Right. And she made her give up the kids. They said either we, you give up these kids or we are going to not be helping you in any form. You won't have a relationship with us.

So she left the guy that was abusive to her with the father of these children and gave three boys away. and so his parents, his grandparents, the father, the biological father's grandparents, raise these boys. Now, two of them were strung out on drugs, and the other one is successful, but now he's battling with suicide, and he's out. This just happened a few days ago, because his mother remarried and had two other kids, so she gave birth a five kids total, and those two kids, her daughter, is my friend. Now, the mother's passed on. She got a cancer.

My God, the story is worse and worse. I know, but my friend just got married, and what my point is is that he was given away at three, and his message, he said, if I can't get my mother to see me, is worthy and love me and keep me. How can I find real, he does not think he's worthy of love. He's 50-something years old, and he has two daughters, and he's out here, left, walked his job, literally Friday left his job in Minnesota, came out here and told nobody and texted my friend and said, I don't even want to live. I don't even understand. And it's all stems from his childhood. He's a wrong man struggling with the abandonment issues.

Right, but it could happen in three months. Like when you're an infant, those very, very, very early, early. I mean, three years is really fucked up. But when you're an infant, three months of not having contact with a parent or, you know, that one person, that kind of attachment that you need at that age could fuck it up for life. So, for me, I want my baby to be with me from the minute that baby comes out so that I know that I could raise that baby and make it healthy and secure and happy and give it the life that I didn't have because I had two parents and they didn't fucking attach to me properly. So I'm a mental person when it comes to love and attachment because of that. It's very important.

So, you know, anyone that wants to write in and talk because you guys are lesbians and it's wrong and there's no father. And I'm crazy because I'm a single woman. It's like, I can't tell you how many people I know that were raised by a mother and a father. And they're the most fucked up people because it didn't really work. So I think, you know, listen, parents could come. And I know that you say that you guys are not giving your child a dad. But your child will have two moms or two people. in their life to love.

I mean, for me, I don't know. Yeah, and they'll have our fathers, and they'll have good male role models, and we're definitely, and then at the end of the day, when they become 18, and it's not our choice, it's just the sperm bank's decision. At 18, they can reach out to their biological father. And I plan on showing our children

their biological father's photo and talking about them, because I would not have this child without this donor's help. Did you get adult pictures? Like I need to hide it. I want to celebrate it. I want them to know there is somebody out there that wants to meet you. They didn't have to meet you, but they want to.

And knowing that somebody cares enough to donate and also still want to be, you know, acknowledge you and have a relationship with you at 18 is something they can look forward to. And I would never choose an anonymous donor. I think it's selfish. Did you guys get, did you, I thought the whole picking, I mean, I don't know, this whole process for me has been so fascinating, but I'm just fascinated by everything. So when I had to wrap my head around donor sperm or anything, it was horrifying at first. But then it became interesting. And it's like what people don't understand is you get like all this information from the person. I know the sperm donor bank that I went to.

I only got baby pictures. Did you get adult pictures or just baby pictures of you? Oh, we got an adult. Oh, yes. We have an adult picture. Oh, really? We didn't get a baby picture. We have an adult picture, which was freaking great because let's be honest.

I mean, a baby can be cute, but an adult can be nasty. So you don't know or bald or whatever. Right. And you have to decide, you know. I'm sorry? What was important to you guys? In a adult photo? Is that what you're asking?

No. Oh, you mean genetically? I mean, I mean, it's like you feel really weird about yourself when you start looking for things like that because I feel like, oh, my God, I'm so shallow. Basically checking things off. It's like I'm ordering and designing a child. No, it's not about that. But didn't you feel?

I felt like, oh, my God, I'm so fucking shallow. I'd be like, oh, my God, this guy has a big nose or. This was not tall enough. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. For sure, for sure. This guy that we ended up choosing had a little bit of thinning hair, and I'm like, oh, my God. And my partner's like, he has beautiful skin, he has full lips, he's French, and he's German and Norwegian. He has green eyes like you.

He has 800 on his mask, or there's no dementia, no diabetes in his family. The only person that died of anything was skin cancer, that could be anything. you know, I'm like, we have a really, who cares if his hair has been? It's not on my side and it's not on your side. So, I mean, the kid's going to be fine. Right. And it's worth comes to words. We combine plugs if it came down to that.

You know what I mean? Yeah, but I know a guy. The guy is gorgeous. And he's, you know, we have an adult photo and it's so great because he's perfect teeth. He has a nice body and, you know, he's got some definition. And the other guy was good looking too, but this guy had actually, like, kindness in his eyes and he was exuding light and there was just a good energy about him and what did you do for a living you didn't answer me before i need to know what do you do for a living

you sound very religious are you very religious uh i i mean i wouldn't say religious but i was i got i'm christian and i love god but um what do you do for a living i'm i'm i'm an entertainer and i'm also uh finishing my degree and communications as well as because I had to end up driving for Uber and Lyft. So I do that as well. Oh, you do. Because my partner wanted me to finish my degree, because we're going to have kids, she wanted some sort of security.

I'm like, great, I'll finish my degree, and it'll say commemorate things for four years. You're welcome. What are you getting a degree in communications? Communications, UCLA. Okay, so wait, you drive people. I like, this is actually even more interesting. to me because, well, I, unfortunately, I know all about your IVF and IU, I think, because I lived it for two years and we could get back to that. But you're an Uber lift driver. Like, so those people that pick me up are just regular people, like they hire, like anyone could be an Uber lift driver?

Well, it depends. Uber actually has different tiers. There's an Uber SUV and there's Uber black cars. Those people tend to be hired by that. cab drivers that switched over. Although UberX, anybody can drive as long as you're 23 and over, and same with Lyft. It's 23 and over. You have to have a valid driver's license. And, yeah, you do background check, and you watch the videos. You've got to get your car checked out. Your car has to be 2004 or newer.

Can have body damage on it. and yeah, and then you take it, yeah, it has to be clean all the time, and they suggest they can't make you that you always offer your guest something. So I used to have, well, like if I pick you up in the morning, I used to give donuts away, I would go to, you know, Stan's Donuts at UCLA, and I'd pick up a dozen, and I'd have a mixed, you know, mix match, and I would offer them. Would people eat them?

I was parted eating them, and I'm like, I'm never going to get ready for this wedding, with this kid if I keep eating the sugar. Oh, you were eating them. I would be like, I got it for you, 12 for me. Like it was bad. One for you, 14 for me. Yeah, exactly. And I was like, oh, God, I'm going to stay fat if I don't change.

So I just started going to Costco and buying water. And I would just put four-size, sports bottle tops, Arrowhead water in my car. It used to give smart water away, but that was a big. it more getting expensive. I can write it off. You write everything off because they don't take taxes out so you have to save your receipts and you have to raise your minders down. Now I realize me and this guy went to a Yankee game and we got a ride home from somebody and he had a whole boombox in there with all kinds of tunes and he was definitely like pitching to us like what kind

of music we like he's going to play he was like a fucking DJ in the car and maybe that was like his Uber move like he like Uber said Or something and he's like oh I'm gonna offer music I'm sorry but I would never take a donut From a stranger I mean I was weird like that I think people I know what you're saying but All Lyft and Uber drivers have to have background checks I don't give a shit when I was

There's a countability unlike a cat I don't care I mean I heard of a woman I had two people who took taking over with me Her friend was in New York She was She was a drunk leaving a club. She got into a cab. The cab drove to an alley and tried to rape her or she escaped. Now, here's the thing that scares me about that story. He obviously felt comfortable and was

successful before to do that. Two, when you're dealing with cabbies, how are you going to get their name? Their name is usually this long foreign name. It's on the badge in front. How are you going to get that? Plus, you're drunk. At least with Uber and Lyft, it's in your phone. You know who drove you. The entire thing is tracked. If you leave something in an Uber or a lift, you're going to get your stuff back. I had somebody leave weed in my car, and I found it, and I knew who it was. I drove back to where I dropped them off and gave them their weed back. They couldn't even believe it. Well, I mean, what am I going to do with it? You know, I mean, well, obviously, but I mean, whatever, I'm trying to have a kid. I'm going to smoke weed. So I gave him the weed. And then the other thing

is, is they give you a tip? Did he like, was he must have been so great. No, he didn't. He gave me a high five. That's such a, it's such a we had thing to do. I don't need a tip. You know, sometimes people are, I think it was more shocked than anything and caught off guard that I did that. Wait a second. You don't get tipped by people?

You get tipped by people, don't you? I do not get tipped by Uber people. I do get tipped by, and sometimes people give me a cash tip, but usually, no, the whole thing is cashless, and it's safer. The entire thing's tracked. How do you get paid? So that's why I do it. as a woman, I would never drive for a cab because you're picking up random.

And even though I don't know you, there is accountability because they have your credit card. They have a lift, they have your Facebook account. Like, they know who you are. Right. I send up for love. Because you're dumb enough to do something, you are going to jail. And if I'm dumb enough to do the drivers, they're going to jail. If you're in your phone.

My picture is in your phone. So they know who you, you know, no way. It's the safest thing you could do. And it's always. 33% cheaper. And it's a game changer. Hey, Big Mama. Google invested in Uber.

They're about to release driverless cards. Big Mama. Yeah, I'm personally, anyway. Big Mama, can I ask you a question, Big Mama? Is your girl, is your partner a deaf mute? Is she very quiet? She's deaf mute. Yeah.

Because I'm loud? No, because you talked and I tried to interrupt you or get a word in Edgwight. And it was literally like I'm on fucking mute the whole time. You, I mean, she like, I'm sorry, I think the only way you could be dating someone for 11 years is she's your polar opposite. She cannot have, like, she's no big mama. She's one big quiet mama. There's no idea.

She is a quiet mama and she is an over-it mama sometimes. I mean, oh my God, you just go on and on with no. And I'm sitting here trying to interrupt because I'm a good interruptor. Let me tell you, you're pretty fierce. I give you credit. If you were here, I'd fucking high-five you because most people I could sort of forcefully interject myself into their conversation or get them to stop talking because I'm like irritating like that, but not you. You take the fucking cake.

I'm like Robin Williams. You can't get an edge word and edgewise in his interviews. Yeah. Oh, my God. Uber left. What does she do for a living? She's senior payroll specialist. So she's an accounting.

Yeah. Oh, yeah, she's quiet, no personality. You have all the personality. She's all about the money. She's all about organization. She's not quiet. I mean, she's definitely no quiet. I mean, I'm sad.

She's a Leo. She's definitely, she's got an opinion, believe me. Right. And she may be the quieter one in public because I have a huge personality, obviously. but she's definitely charismatic and she has a voice and she's definitely controlling sometimes. Why? Well, it seems like maybe you need that a little bit, right? I mean, you have to.

Actually, she feels like she goes, you've turned me into this. I said, no, it's always been there. It's just being revealed to you now. Right, totally. A lot of guys, like, I mean, for me, because I have a very strong personality too, like I was just telling this guy that I was dating today, like, you know, a lot of guys come in and they say that they like me, but really when they get in, they want to, you know,

push me down and make me smaller. Like they say they like me, but not really what they want to do is control me and change me, you know what I mean? And so, because they sort of sit me and they're like, oh, no, you're not. You know, it's very rare that I get the guy that's like, oh, I fucking like you like that and you could stay that way, you know, but

that's still need, you still need, as women like us, like big, low, you know, you still need to be tempered a bit. So I think it is good to have someone that's, not someone that's trying to put your fire, out or shut you down, but somebody that is trying to sort of temper you a little bit, you know? Yeah. The Mary Ann Williamson says, like, you just don't, there's this really great quote about, like,

you know, you never do any one, any good by shrinking yourself to make other people feel secure around you, you know, and I think, unfortunately, a lot of women do. You're not shrinking yourself on this call. I feel like we went away from the topic that we were talking about, like, what is your problem again? Like, you don't have money to do it or you don't know what to do next? I don't even know if I have to do with your problem. Well, part of me is, like, maybe.

it's this guy's sperm. I'm wondering if we need to get a sperm that's already had a baby with somebody because they show that on some of the things. That's what I was wondering. Oh, well, they have, well, no, you get a count. When you do an IUI or not, like, you do a count, and when you do IVF, they're only taking one sperm and they take the best one.

So you don't have to worry about the JIS with IVF. They literally, they take one. And there's like millions. There's like, I don't know, sperm is so ineffective. But then I was, we did IUI. We haven't done our VEF, that's what I mean. But what was the IUI's count? They always give you a washdown account after it's washed.

I actually don't know the count and I didn't know to ask. Yeah, you should ask for the count. The whole process is like, I mean, I had a friend that went through this and she's been kind of navigating me, but it's been like there's certain things that come up. I'm like, why didn't I ask that? I didn't know that. I know. I wish I could be like somebody for people like that because I've been through so much.

And that's actually how I made so many friends with IVF after because people that I found that were doing it. I become like a person that really sort of they confide. because people don't like to talk about it with other people. Nobody, it's this everyone's big fucking secret. Whenever you see people walking on the street with fraternal twins, you're kind of like, oh yeah, they probably did IVF because a lot of people get twins, but they don't get identical, right? Because you're getting two separate embryos.

That's a very big IVF thing. But nobody talks about it. And I'm very open. That's why I wanted to do this call with you because I think it's like something that a lot of people do. You know, it's either you're the person that could get pregnant on the first fucking try or you're the person that has issues and it takes you, you know, a couple of years, some people, you know, and there's like, there's, there's, you know, you're either in one of those groups, you know, I was in one of the group where it takes you a long time. And, uh, but I feel like that's okay. Like, it's not a bad thing.

People are so embarrassed. They don't like to talk about it for some reason, especially women. I have this one girlfriend who I met and we have mutual friends and she doesn't want to, you know, she had a baby shower recently and it was like this whole big drama about like what I'm going to, how I'm going to say that I met her and what, you know, because all my other, you know, because all my other our mutual friends know that I'm doing IV because I was very open about it but she didn't want to be and I don't understand why I guess people see it as a flaw

or something I don't know but I know I just see it as an opportunity that most people wouldn't have otherwise yeah just the way that it is I just want to move forward yeah some people think like I'm not one of those people that think like oh if something's difficult it means it's not meant to be so a lot of people use

this is why I asked you if you're religious before because sometimes people use religion in a way or God in a way where they say oh, you know, this is difficult or it doesn't seem to be, so it must not be meant to be. And I think that's kind of bullshit. And especially if you're going to be spiritual or look at it, you can look at it as like, you know, anything that's ever, anyone ever does in life, especially people that are hugely successful. They hit tons of roadblocks, but you keep going. That's the difference between people that are successful and people that aren't.

You know what I mean? You just never quit. So I just don't think that. Yeah, I'm not going to blame God. God will give you the undesires of your heart. No, no. It's not that people blame God or some people use it and say, oh, you know, the, you know, this wasn't meant to be because it's not working

out so I shouldn't try and it's like you know it's like not divine kind of thing which is like bullshit maybe you're just being taught to sort of learn the lesson of like you know sort of moving forward and trusting that things are going to work out and going through the hurdles that you have to and whatever that is you know

in whatever way whether you're a single woman a lesbian couple you know a regular heterosexual couple I mean anyone could fuck up anybody it to me it's more about the person and you know how evolved there when they're having their baby as opposed to what sort of setup they have.

You know, I'm open-minded. Yeah, I tell my partner all the time to stop stressing out and stop trying to, you know, I'm like, you need to think, and I try to tell her to think positive and to visualize the child in her, and her uterus and to talk out loud because I believe that there's, that there is, I mean, we've been prayed over the sperm tank because I believe energy is transferred and you can, um. Okay, but let me just tell you one thing, because you haven't tried it yet.

I'm just going to give you a little advice because you're calling into my show and this is what this is about. It's about me helping you and giving you advice. So I'm just going to give you one little bit of advice because you're not going through it she is and I know what she's going through. And the worst thing for a woman to feel like, and a lot of people would do this to me is like to make her feel like somehow she's her thinking is not letting it happen. Like people don't understand. Like I used to explain to people like, do you actually. think that I'm putting all these drugs in my body, doing all this work and like I am like making it not happen.

Like every part of me is saying I want this to happen. That whole bullshit stress and you're not thinking positively and all this stuff. That is so much more pressure on a woman that's going through. Don't ever say that. You can't really understand how bad that is unless you're going to it. I don't understand because I haven't gone through it yet. Right. And I'm just telling you.

Don't. Yeah. Stop with the praying and everything because then what happens is is you, She will feel like it's her fault. It's bad enough not to get what you want, but to feel like a failure. And that's how you feel as a woman. You're taking it on for the man and for you. She said she felt like a failure.

Oh, yeah. I felt like I failed so many times. And when I was doing it with my friend, I felt like when I was doing it, I was doing it for me and him. And when it didn't work out for me, even though it was his sperm and it was us together, I was carrying that burden. And so it's hard enough. And when people say, oh, you're not supposed to be stressful and you should do this and you should do that. And it's just like, you know what?

I'm doing everything I can to have a baby. It's very hard, and that's the worst thing to hear because it's bad enough that you're not having. You've got to think, oh, I'm thinking negatively, so I'm thinking myself from not having a baby. Like, it's just, you feel it's like very self-defeating, and it's not good. So don't ever say that to her.

And don't with the praying and stuff, because, you know, then if you pray and then it doesn't happen, what do you think? Like, you just have to know that it'll happen when it's supposed to happen. No, that's fine. The praying, it's actually saying she wanted because we're just blessing. transfer, we're not

you know, we're not trying to wield something through prayer versus like just saying, you know, we're giving this to you, God, and your will is your will, and we're going to do our best on this end if it happens great. But we just pray that, you know, the child knows we want them and

we're excited and we're getting ready for that child. That's it. That's pretty much the prayer. I know. I mean, but like if you try 18 times down the line, you might start to be like, what the fuck is this God thing all about? Like, you know, when you just, when you pray or you want something really bad and you just don't get it no matter what you do and you're trying so hard, like it really does test your faith. So I think sometimes it's just like you and you, and I'm not saying that faith isn't true or I don't believe in it, but it's like maybe it just is supposed to happen when it's supposed to happen that each time you can't really change it no matter how much you pray or beg.

It's just, well, I know. There's, yeah, I believe in the power of prayer. and I also believe that, you know, it's going to happen when it happens, and I also understand science. So, but I also know that, you know, can't hurt to pray. No, okay, but just Uber, one more question before we get off this call. Uber, I want to know. I'm sorry, I don't, the whole religious thing is,

I don't talk about celebrities and I try not to discuss, like, religious or anything like sort of kind of. That's right. I'm just an honesty about my life. Yeah, yeah, no, that's cool. Oh, how much do you make a week driving Uber and Lyft? about well I made $999 and 69 cents is last week and that was just one week I'm averaging I gross a thousand and then it's an 80-20 split

so I took home 789 this week 734 last week and are you driving how many hours 35 hours sometimes 40 do you mean interesting people I wish I could give you like business cards and you can if you mean any create like I would We want callers from your lift rides. Do you talk to the people? I get incredible people, and I... You do.

I do, because like I said, I'm an entertainer. I have a web series coming. I'm not trying to plug something, but I do have a web series coming. Oh, with your people driving in the car? Uh-huh. Oh, yeah, see, that's really... I would love that.

I mean, this is why I do my podcast. I do the same thing. I just talk to strangers, and I feel like, you know, if you just start talking to anybody, they become more interesting. Like I said, I mean, we started with the baby thing,

and then this lift thing, and then I could go into your relationship, and I could talk to you for another hour, but I don't like for my podcast to go longer than an hour. We're already at 50 minutes. No, I've enjoyed talking to you, and I appreciate the advice you've given me. I don't even know what advice did I give you. And you said check the sperm count about the sperm.

Is that what you were saying? Oh, is that my advice? Well, no, you just want to know how much it is after washed. You know, they'll give you a count, and they should know. You know, you want... What's good and what's bad? Like, even if I know the number, I wouldn't know what's good or bad. They want over 10 or 15 million, but you really want like 30 to 50 million.

He said that it had great mobility. That's all he said when he injected in there. Motility. Yeah, that's great. That means it moves really that they're moving and that they're swimmers. And that's great, you know. When they wash it down and stuff, you're going to be probably at like 15 to 25, but that's still good.

It's so weird. I used to say to my doctor, like, you know, why is sperm so fucking ineffective? Like a guy has to jizz millions and millions of sperm. You know what I mean? Like 15 million sperm is not good enough to get you pregnant. You need like 70 million sperm to get one baby. But then I thought like, you know, if sperm was very effective and out of 70 million of those little critters, 70 million made a baby, like there'd be a population problem, right? So I guess that's why sperm was created to be hugely ineffective.

You need so much of it just to get one fucking baby. I mean, please. It's ridiculous. Like you need 70 million. and hopefully you could get pregnant with 17 million or 15 million, but you want the higher or the better. But the motility counts, the morphology, like there's a lot of different things that they take into consideration.

You just want to ask them about the sperm ahead of time. They'll always give you the count. You guys just don't know what to ask, but they should have that. And you could even ask in the past, like you could say, what was the count? Because, you know, for the last two times, you should ask that from your doctor. Are you doing another IUI or IABF? What are you planning on doing?

I'm sorry. I plan on taking my eggs out, like you said. I was just scared because I didn't want to go through the hormones. No, you have to. It's just so fucking crazy, all the drugs, like you said. It freaks me out because I'm all about trying to keep my body clean and healthy. So is I, my whole life. I never even took antibiotics.

Now I'm a drug junkie. I'll take anything. I'll shoot anything. And I feel fine about that, okay? And that's fine. And my body needs to get. But the amazing thing about your body is your body will work itself and you are okay. and you'll be fine. I did a lot more and I'll be fine one day. You need to do it once. It's fine.

You'll be fine in a couple months. You'll be seriously. After my first one, I took a three-month break and I was completely fine. It was after four that it got really bad, you know, for me because that's a lot of, and they, you know, they up your drugs each time. So the first time you're not going to do that mud. They're not going to give you like the shit that they gave me by the end of it. So you, you'll be fine. And she should do the IVF if she can. If she has one more chance and she's going to, she needs to up her chances as fast as she can and get moving on it because her time is taking at 45, she's basically like a 1% chance. And it's not about doom and gloom. It's about, unfortunately, it's facts.

They're not being doom and gloom. I mean, I went to the best doctor at Cornell who specialized in getting women in their 40s pregnant. And he wasn't doom of gloom. I mean, that's what he does. He takes you on as a person and he believes he gets people pregnant. But it's 5% of the people. And at 45, it's 1%. Those are real people.

It exists, but that's just the facts. And it's not doom and gloom. It just is reality. So she needs to get on it before she turns 45. And you need to get those fucking eggs out before you turn 43, 44, 45. Okay? I am. While you're driving on your left.

Where do you live again? You're in L.A.? I'm in Los Angeles, yeah. Oh, yeah. Okay. Well, if I ever come out there, I'll do left and see if I rubber your voice. Anyway, thank you for calling. Okay.

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