Strictly Anonymous Confessions - 044 - Henry was Born into the Church of Satan and Now he Has Major Issues

Episode Date: October 20, 2014

Henry has had a lot of crazy stuff go on in his childhood and he calls in to tell his crazy story. He was raised in the Church of Satan, his "Uncle" raped him and made him bi, he had sex with his "brother" and "sister" and he was forced to take part of some crazy rituals. What really goes went on in The Church of Satan, what actually happened with his "uncle" and how did it everything that happened shape his views of the world today. Tune in the find out.   **To see anonymous pics of my female guests + hear anonymous confessions + get all the episodes early and AD FREE, join my Patreon! It's only $7 a month and you can cancel at any time. You can sign up here: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.patreon.com/StrictlyAnonymousPodcast⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ and when you join, I'll throw in a complimentary link to my private Discord! MY BOOK IS NOW OUT FOR PRE-ORDER!!!! Strictly Anonymous Confessions: Secret Sex Lives of Total Strangers. A bunch of short, super sexy, TRUE stories. GET YOUR COPY NOW: https://amzn.to/4i7hBCd To Join SDC and get a FREE Trial! click here: https://www.sdc.com/?ref=37712 or go to SDC.com and use my code 37712 Want to be on the show? Email me at [e-mail] or go to http://www.strictlyanonymouspodcast.com and click on "Be on the Show" Have something quick you want to confesss while remaining anonymous? Call the CONFESSIONS hotline at 347-420-3579. You can call 24/7. All voices are changed. Sponsors: https://bluechew.com Get your first month FREE! https://butterwellness.com/ Try the Butter Wellness perineum massager and use code STRICTLY for 20% off your entire order Follow me! Instagram https://www.instagram.com/strictanonymous/ Twitter https://twitter.com/strictanonymous?lang=en Website http://www.strictlyanonymouspodcast.com/ Everything else https://linktr.ee/Strictlyanonymouspodcast Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

Welcome to the Strictly Anonymous podcast. Conversations with online strangers. We place ads online. Craigslist is definitely a gift that keeps on giving. Real people respond. You go to Singapore or Thailand. You can't not do it. The temptation is just too much.

Real problem. Does your friend know that you're banging her? No, he has no idea. And anything goes. The motto of the show, let your reflect lie. Probably the only good advice I'll ever give you is to re-hide your whips and change. Here are your hosts, Kathy Kay and Tommy. Hey, welcome to Strictly Anonymous Podcast.

It's Kathy. I have a really interesting guy calling in today. It's actually Friday night at like 1.30 in the morning. He wants me to call him after 1.30 in the morning tonight. And I'm going to do it. Hopefully he'll answer his phone. I can't tell you how many false alarms I get with Craigslist. Like, you don't know guys don't understand.

Like all the episodes you hear, there's like 10 more that I try to tape and I make beginnings for. And I just lose these people. I think what it is with Craigslist is that people are on their horny or whatever in some sort of weird zone, you know, that weird zone where they're looking for something. It's not like the, it's like that other part of their secret life. And they email when they're in that zone. And then what happens if I don't get them at that moment and I don't email them back and like, I don't check my email for six hours and they're out of the zone and they're like the normal person going to work and doing their other like real life thing,

they just, they're done, you know. So it's very rare that I catch them in that. zone and if I do catch him in that zone sometimes I lose them because you know there's like a 15 minute window sometimes there's a half hour I had a really good guy the other day who was um he definitely was going to be like a dirty print collar person um and I made a great intro and I lost him because he must have like I don't know came or something I don't know um but anyway who I have tonight he might be a little dark I'm a little nervous uh he wants to talk beforehand but I never will talk to anybody beforehand I learned my lesson the first time I did that was the first and only time

I had a guy actually say he wanted to talk to me before the call because he was very sort of weirded out and he just wanted to make sure. And I was like, okay. And then I got him on the phone and it turned out he was like, you know, had a heart on it. He was like jerking off while he was talking to me. And I was like, shit, you know, this would have been a really good call. And my friend yelled at me for doing that. He's like, never do anything off air. So this guy wanted to talk to me before, you know, on the air before or before we go on air. And I was like, no. But I'm a little nervous of what the fuck is going to happen because this is what the guy writes to me. It's a little dark. And I'm not like being judgmental. I'm sort of open to anything, but I don't know. This guy says, oh, my cat is scratching me. Okay, it says, call me tonight after 1.30. What would you like to talk about? My uncle raping me and turning me bisexual because of it. Having sex with my brother and sister at separate times, of course, my theory on religion, politics, my insatiable lust of the flesh, how my family is a part of the occult churches of Satan. Let me know which one intrigues you the most, and we could talk on the phone before I get on the air.

So that's his deal. You know, all those things seem a little, I don't know, dark, you know. And I'm hoping that that's not the case because I've never really had, I mean, listen, you know, people call in and they do weird things and whatever you want to label it. But it's not dark shit, you know, it's just shit that people do. I'm hoping that this isn't like, you know, criminal kind of behavior. I don't know. You know, but I think it, you know, it could go either two ways. It could either be really dark or it could be really dark.

or it could be really interesting. Or maybe dark and interesting is what, you know, you people want to hear. I don't know. I don't like dark stuff. I like interesting and interesting to me is a lot of things. But not really creepy. But hopefully he's not.

I don't think I did a proper intro. Did I give you my Twitter? My Twitter is at Strict Anonymous. My Facebook is strictly anonymous. I got a review the other day. I was very excited. Somebody wrote a review. I think it was one of my fans who told me that he was going to.

He emailed me through Facebook. But, you know, I would love reviews. I need reviews. I don't solicit my friends because most people don't even know that I do this podcast because I like to do it on the download. So if you could write it as a review for me on Stitcher iTunes, I'd be great. And that's it. So I will be back in a minute when I call up Henry. Henry, I don't even know what I'm going to title this.

I'm just going to have to have a call and see where it goes. So I'll be right back with Henry. Do you have a story, lifestyle, or situation you can't talk about to anyone, to anyone? anyone? Or do you just want to let your freak flag fly and be on the show? Well, Strictly Anonymous wants to hear from you. Send us an email, Strictly Anonymous podcast at gmail.com with your story and your anonymous name. And remember, everything is strictly anonymous. Hi, is this Henry? Hey, good evening.

Hey, how are you? So listen, I don't, I'm having you, I'm recording. I'm recording. this call. Like, we're just going to do the call. Is that cool? Yeah, that's cool. Okay, so you got my email back. Like, I mean, I feel like what normally happens on my episodes. I don't have a co-host with me today. It's just me and you on the call because it's late, but, you know,

one thing normally leads into another. So I feel like probably will wind up talking about all the stuff in your email. And I always read the emails that people send in to me to my listeners beforehand. So I think we should just start off with the first thing that you said, which is, and is that cool

with you like to just get into like I mean you know like I just feel like it'll sort of like I said just go into all different kinds of things unless there's just one thing you want to talk about no not at all um actually it'll probably help me get a lot of things off my chest and um go ahead why don't you start with like the first thing that sort of you know happened to you and then probably like that leads into everything else I don't know if that starts off maybe with your family and their involvement with their things I don't know like you start off with your history where you think it's like the most relevant.

Yeah, I mean, if you wanted to get into the code thing, maybe we should start there because that would actually be a I guess a better, it's all gonna lead back into that, so to speak, so I guess lay the foundation. Yeah, because I feel

like probably you would tell me all these things and I'd be like, well, what the fuck happened to you when you were younger that caused all that? Do you know what I'm saying? So like, why don't we start off with like how you were raised and what your family background was that led to all this other kinds of crazy stuff that happened to you afterwards. So let's just start there. If I start to ramble or become astray, just lead me back. Yeah, no problem. Yeah, yeah, yeah. I'm good. I'm like Barbara Walters. Don't worry. I'll cut you off.

I'll interrupt you. I'll keep you on target. Sometimes, you know, it'll be irritating, but don't worry. It'll at all be good. I typically leave my call. I don't like my calls to be like longer than like an hour. So I'll be paying attention to how long we're talking so that I make sure that we get everything in. So start off with like, I know you said that your family was like, or is involved in the Church of Satan or something like that. I mean, I don't know much about that. Actually, that's a, that's like a generic term for it. It's actually the Luciferian agenda that they're a part of, which is, becomes more deeper than just the quote unquote Satan or devil worship that, um, kids and imbeciles do, actually.

My earliest memory would be when I was eight years old, and we lived in, it was kind of like a plantation house back in the days. I guess it was a lot bigger. Tobacco field out in North Carolina. And the lady who was with me at the time, her name was Sylvia. And even though I called Sylvia, my mother, by this time I had known that Sylvia was not my mother, you know, the first lady to have handled me or take care of me was just my earliest recognition of the maternal person that they had put in front of us.

Right. And, um... How old were you at that time? I'm sorry? Eight. Okay. So that's like your first memory of the first, like, sort of parent figure? Well, what it is is that, um, there is no such thing as a mother or father in the, uh,

Luciferian agenda that's live. We're all the same. There is no maternal or siblings, so to speak. But let me ask you this, are you... Right, are you living, though, like in a commune, or do you have a house with...

No, no, actually, my um, Ted, my father was a politician who are respected, I won't... You said I could use fake names, right? Yeah, absolutely. This is totally... The pie has strictly anonymous. So you just be truthful about everything else, but make up names and places if you want, that shit doesn't

really matter, you know? Well, I'll try to stay as close to realism as I can. Sure. I know that this will trigger other people hopefully into anyway. So you're in this place and you realize that you're, there's, you know, this one woman, what was her name

you said? Sylvia. Sylvia, right? So you've, now you're eight years old and you realize this is like the first parent figure or whatever, but she's not really your mom. Well, you know what it is? She took a liking to me, and that was a no-no. Anyway, long story short, I had, there's a series of tests that you have to go through as a child to even be, to go on to the next level. You could be killed off, sacrificed, or found unworthy.

It sounds a little bit weird. A lot of people want to accept it. They say that this is bullshit, but I have seen a lot of stuff. And I don't want to... Right, okay. It's not... Believe it or not, I'm so... I don't want to say indoctuated into it,

but it's not killing. It's a sacrifice. And there's a big difference between the two and a lot of people don't understand it either. Yeah, we're not going to get into that because that's like, you know, that could be very controversial and, like, you know what I'm saying?

Forget about it. Yeah, forget about it. So just keep going with your story. I was... Anyway, just to give you a piece of idea of the type of stuff that went on, Uh-huh. Downstairs in the basement, there was always three rooms.

Um, a red door. Let me ask you this one really quick. Is this the basement of the church that you guys are like sort of worshiping in or is this in your house? This, see, that's another thing. Have you ever heard, uh, the church in the wild? No. You have? No, uh-uh, no.

Oh, okay. See, that's a biblical term. Uh-huh. There is no church in the wild if you listen to the, um, music today and all this is um actually for instance you guys i'm going to call you the sheep um you believe certain things like you have to go to a church or a synagogue or something like that and these things are not true um right so in your religion you guys don't believe that so where were these doors though were they in your house well they they were downstairs in the basement

of your house of the house that we lived in okay it was more like a mansion believe or not Within the mansion, there was separate rooms, separate. If you didn't know where you were going, you would definitely get lost. Right. And a lot of people live there, right? I'm assuming. No, no, just us. But a lot of people would come by and perform rituals.

Okay. I was taken downstairs. The doors. What were the colors of the doors again? Brown, green, and black. Okay. And the brown door. Brown doors was a tie.

I shouldn't get, I don't want to muddy waters. Right. But the brown door was a testing area. And I was seven years old, seven or eight, I was taking down stairs. I remember that she put her hands across her lips as to tell me, like, to just shut up. And we went into the room, in the room, in the room was a table, and there was nothing else. It was a big-ass room. and forgive me.

And she looked at me and she left me there. And I don't remember how long I was there. I do remember going to sleep. I remember being scared. I remember being hungry. And when she came back into the room, I'm assuming a day had passed at least. She came back with a picture of water and a glass.

And she placed them both on the table. And I asked her for the water. I said, could I please have. Before I could finish, she smacked me so hard across the face. It stunned me, and I looked at her, and she poured the water, she drank the water, and she left. Now, again, I soiled myself, I had passed out. I said, it had to be a couple of days now. But when I woke up again, I was in my room.

And Rebecca, who wasn't my cousin, but again, we played the first. roles of these families. She was a little bit older than me. She had to be like 12. And she told me, she said, you know, you survived. You did it. You passed a test. And I was like the test. And she was like, yeah, she was explaining to me of solitude, of this and that. And if I had shown any fear, if I had cried out, if I had yelled, then I would have been sacrificed. I would have failed the test. And, you know, even as she was telling me that, sometimes I think back on her, like what she was like, they were going to kill you and, you know, kids think, you know, you're just going to get a terrible beating.

But, yeah, it was to that point where. If you would have played it a different way, you would have been killed. Do you know how, I don't even want to get into how they kill or something, because that's like very dark. Like, I don't want to go there. So you get about it. Yeah. So you survive that, right?

And then I was, yeah. I was introduced into the, quote unquote, ways. the world. This is going to sound stupid in a way, but may I ask you a question? Sure. Have you ever flown a kite? I think so. I don't really have that. I probably flew a kite. I don't really know. Yes, I did. Yes. As you picture flying a kite, do you think it would be possible to get your kite to fly in a rainstorm? Yes. Of course.

I think it's possible. You could get a kite up into the sky? Yeah, during the rain. Yeah. Why do you? not? You think the rain would make it fall? I don't know. I think yeah. Okay. Once we got the kite into the sky, if lightning hits your kite, do you become electrocuted? No. Or do you believe if you put a little key on the side of a kite, you could somehow harness the electricity? I don't think it would go through the kite, no, and I don't think I could harness it either. I don't think either one of those things could happen. And that's just a small sample of the lies that will portrayed in the educational system that we were not told that that's a lie what's a lie where

where we get most of the things we get from electricity being one of the smallest forms and the perpetrated lie of a gentleman that didn't even have rubber boots on standing in the middle of a thunderstorm getting struck by lightning and harnessing energy the rest of the world believes this is even taught today to kids in school and not metaphorically but literally Right. What did they teach us? I don't know. I didn't really listen in school. I mean, did I really didn't. I was very bad in school. So did I answer the questions right or wrong? Like, did I learn the wrong right or everything? You answered, you answered them correctly because that's how you're taught. Oh, but I wasn't taught. I didn't even fucking listen. I'm just like stupid sometimes. So the real answer is that you can harness energy. That's what you guys believe in is what you're saying. Everything is energy. Right. We are all energy.

Right. I believe that. In everything we do, whether it's a sacrifice, whether it's sexual, whether it's just even confronting somebody to take away their psyche and absorbing their energies. That's what it comes down to. This part of it is all going to sound crazy. Then it leads into the whole sexual experience. If you want to get into that because as a young child, I was exposed to sex early with adults, watching adults, participating with other kids. It's just been something that has been there all my life.

And when I said my quote-unquote uncle, the only reason that his memory is so strong in my head is because he used to rape me and then he used to beat me afterwards as though it was my fault. Right. To point now that in order for me to feel sexual satisfaction, I kind of want to be abused or humiliated or depraved in some way. And as a sane adult, I am able to attribute it back to the thing that happened to me in my childhood,

where other people unfortunately want to blame everything else other than the truth. You know what I mean? Right. That's where you get your cycles from. Some people would claim the home cycle because I guess I walk around with my disease. I'm a functioning nut job. Is that the correct analogy? That's your disease and your nut job?

but the stuff that I guess would be considered nuts is actually real so you when you say nuts you mean the stuff that you were taught in this sort of society or religion that you grew up in is that the part that you say people think you were nuts

or do you mean the sexual dysfunction that you have because of like the sort of raping that went on with you? Well I guess or both. I guess it's a both yeah because I don't look at it as depraved anymore.

I look at it as the sexual satisfaction or something that... Oh, okay, because I was going to say, I think that you, like, a part of you, like you actually, you're pro, like, your religion. You didn't sort of... You're not out of that, right? I mean, you believe what you were taught,

and, like, that's, like, sort of how you were raised and you still buy into that, right? So that you're on board, and you're saying that you're also on board with the sexual sort of stuff that happened to you, too? Yeah. Okay. But at the same time, mind you, I understand the truth now. Right. And what is the truth? That that kind of fucked you up, right? Yeah. The raping and stuff. You know, I mean, you called it rape. So to say, like, oh, my uncle, rape me and it turned me bisexual, it means that you have some sort of view of it as being sort of done to you and put on you and being something that you weren't sort of, you know, wanting to happen, right? That wouldn't be called rape.

So, I mean, I'm sorry. It's only because the other older male adults performed on me when my uncle had intercourse with me. And that was different. That's why I call it rape that way. Of course. Well, listen, how old were you? 12. Yeah, I mean, I don't know.

Like, I have a guy in my building. I think I talked about this on another podcast. You told me like 10 stories of being like sort of jerked off and chased around by a rabbi and jerked off in his school by a guy. You know, this is all this shit happened to him when he's like 10 and I'm just like, dude, you were kind of molested and he didn't even, he doesn't even put that together. It happened so much, like so many stuff happened. And I really wanted him to come on my podcast because I think a lot of men had sort of

experiences like that when they were younger and they don't sort of put it together in that way. You know, but that is, that's fucked up. And it is like, you're like molested and it's like rape and it is like not sort of right. and it does fuck you up when you're older. And it happens to a lot of people, women too. You know, I'm just saying that. I was going to say that.

I mean, it's a very common thing, unfortunately. It happens to both men and women. It's just whether the men and women are aware of themselves. Because if you're not conscious of who you are, then you get lost. You get lost in the energies of somebody else. The abuser, believe it or not, is projecting their emotions onto you

or their anger that they have. have whether this was done onto them whether it was their fantasy to do to others whatever or whatever else is happening they're actually projecting their energy onto you and that's what makes oftentimes i've heard of like rape victims whether male or female they say they're scared to a place in their minds like that they didn't yeah but no the reality was you didn't escape the reality was they projected their energy so much onto you that you lost you're lost Yeah. No, that happens all the time. I mean, it's the people that have repressed. That's what like repressed memories are about, you know. I'm surprised and, you know, that you have like, you, like, remember what happened to you. Because a lot of times when the abuse happens like a lot, the more it happens to, the more likely you are to repress it, you know? And so a lot of people act out sexually, they use all these things, but they have no, they don't know why they're doing it. But a lot of times it's because they were molested. And it was so horrifying that they had to. sort of check out. I know that you say

that that person does it. I mean, I think it's both, you know? I mean, listen, in the Luciferian agenda, we are aware of who we are. We make no excuses. There is no reason to cry. So you don't feel bad for yourself

for what happened to you? Not at all. Nor do I judge or blame my uncle for his preethees? He wasn't your uncle, though, right? Like, I mean, he wasn't really related to you. Do you have any, no, do you guys know in that in your, do you call it a religion? Is it right for me to call it a religion?

It's not a religion, but what's the proper term. You can identify it as a. Yeah, I don't know what to say, but like, so in that world that you grew up in what you, in your belief system, right? Do you, do you know, who was your biological parents at all or no? You know, I do want to, I do want to go back and say, like, when I say my uncle or stuff like that,

you know, you are my sister. Right. Okay, that's how you see it. Right. Everyone's Because if everyone's energy and everyone's connected, right, is that what you're saying? I mean, only because nobody came from another planet despite what they want you to believe. Right. You know, the original, quote-unquote people had to go back to be our great, great, great, great, great, whatever, I was grandfather and grandmother. So, since we're not derived from apes, which is another lie that was perpetrated to our people, yeah, we're all just related and believe it in that. I know.

Let's go back, like, so we could tell this story. So like you have this thing where you survived and you passed that test. And then, you know, I'm assuming what happened next is this whole thing with the uncle and these men sort of raping you. And it turned, you said it turned you bisexual. Is that what you believe? Or do you believe everyone's bisexual or do you think that that excret? I believe everybody is. Okay.

Right. That's what I figured you would believe. So it's not really that your uncle then turned you bisexual. You don't think that. I know that you put that in the email. Well, I mean, I guess he introduced me into the... So you're into women and women. Yeah.

Right. Were you sort of taken advantage of sexually as a young kid, too, by women as well? You can't what? Rape the woman. You can't rape the woman. But does the women rape you? The willing. Oh, the willing.

Oh, okay. So, right. Never had a problem with the women. Why did you have a problem with the men? well before my uncle it was always dirty old men I guess you could say old performer was sex on me I'd never been anything like that

not until I got older so that freaked you out yeah it used to creep me out right and you didn't like it yeah the older women I never mind right but maybe because you were more straight maybe maybe you had more of attendance

to be straight? Well, you know what it is? I've come to believe that if you've never been with a woman, then you can't say that you wouldn't enjoy it. You understand? If you haven't been with a man, and you can't say that you wouldn't enjoy it. And it's to the point where society makes you believe

that this is straight and or cold gay and or bisexual and or, you know what I'm saying, whatever the label is that fits. But if these labels didn't exist, how would society be it would be more, free sexual society with women. I mean, believe it or not, in the liciferian doctrine,

women are equals. Uh-huh. There are no men or boss, so women are inferior. Women, if they don't want to do anything with you, and they're in that position where they could say no, and they don't have to do anything with them.

It's actually an honor and a privilege if she wants to do something with you. Uh-huh. And, yeah, that's, it's just, weeding it out, reading it worthy enough, those are intelligent.

And don't you feel like you have to be sort of, I mean, because some of the stuff that you've already said, and we're not going to get into details with it, but like you have to also be sort of very detached from your emotions, right? I mean, there are because to do the things that you guys do, or believe in the things

that you guys do, if it's just all about energy, you sort of have to take your, like, emotions and put them to the side, right? I mean, like, you have to sort of detach from them. I used to wonder, like, I talk to, I have friends that are not, normal, I guess, you know, in society.

Sheep. You call them sheep, right? Is that what you said? Yeah. Yeah. I didn't want to use the term. No, you called me before. You said, no, this is, that's, you know, that's fine.

So you have some sheep that you're friends with. I mean, and I'll give you an example why, okay? Yeah. A reason that I'd call you sheep is if you really want to go by Darwin's real theory of evolution and people actually being survival of the fittest, Why do you take care of your kids? Like, why do you love your son so much? Why do you care about your daughter's well-being?

If you look at the animal kingdom after six, seven months, that's it. The animal, lets the child go and you deliver you die. That's it, that's the bottom line. Sometimes when you say that, like, I realize that I am detached, like you said, because I don't understand the concept of caring for something that's actually holding me back, costing you more money, emotionally turning you apart, and I've seen certain parents lose their sanity over their child, and their child is going about living their life,

like they don't care when, yeah, I think I'd rather be more like me and say, screw you. Yeah, but don't you think, okay, but I'm sorry, I can't think of the animals now. Maybe elephants, I think that there's probably tons of animals in the animal kingdom that stay with their young through their whole life. It can't be that every single one kicks them to the curb when they're a little bit older and says to see you later.

I bet you, there has to be. I think that there's all different sort of scenarios in the animal king. So if you're just, because I love, I think that we're human beings, I think that we're spirits, and I think that we're animals. You know, and I could feel all those parts of myself. And I think, you know, so I love the whole animal, we're animals thing, you know, and I buy into that.

And that is nature. And I feel those animal instincts of myself all the time. But I believe so many animals have different ways of being. You know, some are monogamous, some are not monogamous, some mate for life. So a lot of them don't. I'm sure there's a lot of them that, you know, do what you say, which is they sort of, some of them eat their week. They eat the fucking week, you know.

We could talk about bullies and all that shit because, you know, in the animal kingdom, that's the way that it goes. You know what I mean? They eat the week. That's the way that it happens. They'll eat their babies if they're not doing well. But I'm sure that there's animals in the animal kingdom that stay with their children and stay bonded. And I think that we're one of them. I don't think it's an unnatural thing.

I'm going to have to Google it. I would agree with you on that if only we get what the elephants did. And that stayed together. The elephants, if they form a pact, you're right. Yeah. And they mourn the loss of anyone in their family. And in your animal kingdom, all you do is celebrate and mourn the losses of celebrities. Well, listen, my parents like elephants are still together, but they're just so nasty to each other that I'm just like, why don't you just leave each other?

You know what I mean? Yeah. This is torture. But society tells them they're not allowed to them. Right. Well, no, or some people do the opposite. I mean, listen, you know, we're free-thinking people, so everyone just does whatever the fuck they want. You know, it's kind of crazy.

Are you religious? Not really. You know, my dad's a priest. Just so, you know, I grew up in a family of hardcore religion. My father's straight off the boat from Lebanon. He's a Syrian Orthodox. He's a priest. But in his cult, you know, they're allowed to get married.

So, of course, you know, I have a mom and a dad. And my dad was the fucking asshole. And so religion for me, I have a weird sort of relationship to it. I always respect it. And I respect all religions because I sort of grew up with it. And I think it's all beautiful and really interesting. I don't really buy into just one. I sort of have my own belief on things.

I see its place for people. And some people, like you say, need a church and they have to go and blah, blah. And I don't necessarily believe that for myself. But I understand that other people need that, you know, and it's just what it is. And I sort of respect religion, like I said, A, because that's just like what I was raised with. And I think that it's like, you know, every religion is really interesting and their sort of traditions are really beautiful. But I don't buy into any single one, but I think that they're all fascinating. It affects you.

I'm sure. Everything fucking affects us more than we fucking realize. It's what sucks about life. I've discovered the truth when you said your father was a preacher. I do want you to understand this. Whatever religion you grew up in, there's 30, 30 different, like Muslim Baptists, Southern Baptists, Methodist, Protestant, Jehovah Witness. There's only one book of Satan. Uh-huh.

It's a lot easier to come find our leader than it is to find yours. Oh, yeah, I don't even care. I don't want to buy into anything, whether it's yours, my father's, Buddhism. No, that's fine because that actually works out for us. unless people care about God or believe in God or think that it's... No, I have my own beliefs, but it's not sort of any one way. And it's not like... What I don't like about any kind of religion,

whether it's yours or my fathers or anyone's, like how... It's very elitist. Like, everyone thinks that whatever they're doing is the right thing. And that's what I hate because, you know, that's the thing that I hate the most about religion. What I believe in is what I believe in. I don't think it's better or worse. It just works for me.

What I hate about religion, like I said, whether it's my mother, my fathers or yours or any, you know, it's the, it's that everyone thinks that theirs is the right one and that everyone else is wrong. And that is what I hate about religion. And that's, I don't think that that's really religious to be that way, you know, and I think that that's the thing that's so, to me, that turns me off to it. No, no. Your self-assurance and confidence is actually, excuse me? Your self-assurance and confidence is one of the qualities we look for, believe it or not. Right. Just been inducted into the wrong religions. Listen, let me tell you something about me. I quit brownies when I was like five. I don't like any fucking groups.

I'm anti-groups. I think they're like cults. It's so weird. I quit drinking. I went to AA like twice. I was like, fuck this. I'm like a leader, not a follower. I don't like any of that stuff.

I am a independent free thinker, so I'm the nod can be into anything. So I'm like not into, I don't even like to go to picnics or parades. Like I don't like group anything. So it's not my thing. But I think it's fascinating. You know, like I said, like whether I think Buddhism is interesting or my father's, I think what you're talking about is interesting. I think I don't like dark stuff.

And I don't like like when you get into like the slaughter. Like I don't even want to know about that stuff. Like I'm like a very, I like to be sort of focus on the light things in life and not dark stuff. So we don't need to talk about that stuff. I think that the other stuff that happened to is, you know, interesting. Though I don't think it's like, and I think it affected you in a way. I mean, you know, don't you? Like the-

I'm shaking, talking to you. Yeah. You're what? I'm shaking, talking to you. How come? I, I've talked to only one of the person besides you

About About the sexual stuff? About everything Right About almost everything that I told you The only thing that The only thing that makes me feel better Is that this is anonymous

Oh yeah my show is It's called strictly anonymous Nobody I don't Because I don't think it's like It doesn't really matter like what your name is Or where you're from or whatever I think that what people like to hear is people's real stories.

And what people, you know, don't sort of tell the truth. You know, most people are living double lives or they're just really not honest with themselves. And I find that, for me, I find people's real life's interesting. So I don't care what your fucking name is or where you live or any of that stuff. Like, I care about your story. And so I found that like if I just tell people that they could lie and make up all that stuff, that they'll be really honest. And then you get, you know, really interesting stories.

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Avocado Mattress.com. Everything happens for a week. Uh-huh. So when I saw your ad on Craigslist, I was like, wow, what's the chances? Yeah, you could let your stuff out. But like I said, I don't like dark stuff. And that's what we don't want to go to those kind of places. That's what you believe in.

That's what you sort of witness. Like, it's kind of illegal stuff. Like, I don't like any of that. But everything else, you know, we could discuss. I have my own opinions about it because I believe a lot in psychology. And I think that things that happen to you when you're younger do fuck you up. I don't care how much you say you don't have feelings. I think that you do.

And as much as you could say you detach from it and they told you these things, I still think it does affect who you are. And, you know, that's the stuff that I would like to talk about. Well, if you met me, you'd actually believe I'm a productive member of society. I'm sure. I'm arrested. I look like I have a good job. What do you do for a living? Nothing.

Because I was going to say you said you look like you have a good job. But you don't have a job. You don't do anything. No. How do you support yourself? We're allowed access to a bank account. You what? We're allowed access to a bank account.

Oh, okay. So there's some sort of like funding that goes on. The money's not real. Money has never been real. I mean, I haven't heard this all before. But I mean, you guys will soon see the monetary system. You guys will soon see the monetary system. United States will collapse.

Oh, I can't wait until cash and change is just taken out. It's so ridiculous. I mean, I just like to swipe my card everywhere I go. Yeah. I mean, the change that they're going to implement, though, is not which is actually a lot worse. Right. Okay, but that's like a conspiracy theorist stuff, and it's interesting, whatever. Like I said, I don't really like cash.

I think it's so outdated. And I'm, like, very much the type of person, like, I'm into technology and I like to go full speed ahead. and I love like paying for shit with my iPhone and everything. I'm one of those. So I would be happy if like all that and stuff like that changed. But I think you're saying like you're really looking into the future of like massive change. But like, you know, let's get back to the stuff that happened to that you say changed you.

And like what do you? Okay. So you found me on Craigslist. So I always want to ask my guest like what were you on Craigslist looking for, right? That you found my ad. Like what do you go to? Craigslist for? Were you looking for, you know, girls to ping or a guy

to have a hook up with? I mean, everyone's going there for different things. Yeah, that's about it. Right, right, right. But were you looking, because I know you say you're bisexual, were you look, I post in all different sections, so I don't know which section you answered, but like, what were you looking for, what do you go to Craigslist for, and have you had any good experiences?

Yes. Yes, I have. And I hit Personals in all New York. So, I look at all that. I know that you're specifically either, and I just picking shoes in there. Right, but I mean, what were you looking? Do you look for men?

Do you look for women? Yeah, both. Either couples, whichever or. Uh-huh. Some pictures, exchange pictures. Do you meet people? Uh-huh. I've met people, yes.

Unfortunately, on, well, this is anonymous anyway. On Craigslist is the same. They're all looking at them. Right. They're easy victims, so to speak. Right. Well, do you feel like you're abusing them or like you're too consenting adults? Yeah, only because when I sense of whether they're mentally.

Yeah, their weaknesses and just take advantage. And believe it or not, they want you to take advantage. That's why they're there. But what do you mean take advantage of them sexually? Whatever it is. If not, they would have the confidence about crisis alone, anonymous and children. Right. But do you go on there as like a predator to sort of take advantage?

of people or do you go on there just to get like your rocks off and have like a little fun? I guess a little bit of both. Right. Yeah, well, do you think that you're just recreating what happened to you to other people? Like it's like I was once I'm going to tell you this story and it's because it reminds me of what you're saying that you do because you kind of sound like you, you know, you fuck with people's heads. But I think maybe like I was walking down the street once and there was this like a really like hoodie kid walking in front of me and he was very angry and there was a little, there was a woman walking with a very little small. dog and he kicked the dog like really hard and everybody looked at him in horror and I did at first too and then I thought to myself like my next reaction was like I felt sorry for him because I thought

to myself this person must have been so abused like I looked at him as the weak person because there was there's no reason for anyone to ever sort of kick a little thing that's so weak like you say you pray on these people they're weak and you find their weak and so then you fucking kick him when they're down that's no different than this guy and what I think people that do that are people that had that done to them. Do you know what I mean? Like when I looked at that guy, I actually felt sorry for him. I thought, oh, my God, somebody, when he was really little, just abused the shit out of him.

And so now he's just sort of doing that to things that are weaker than him. And what's the weakest thing than a little puppy, a little cute puppy, you know? And I feel like you were very abused when you were younger. You know, you had, I know that you say with your uncle and everyone, it was okay, but you had those men. And I'm sorry, you said it. You said that it creeped you out and you didn't like it. And that's powerful shit because you even said you believe that they're putting their energy in you, right?

And they're sort of doing that to you. So that happened to you. And so do you think maybe that's a part of you sort of going onto Craigslist, finding people that are really weak and vulnerable, maybe like, you know, sort of recreating that scenario that happened to you and sort of taking advantage of them and getting back at them in a weird way, but it's some sort of sick recreation of what happened to you? Do you think maybe that's a part of it? You make me realize why I never went to go talk to a psychiatrist.

I mean, I guess that's irritating. A good, good analogy. I guess if I'm going to be honest, I would say yeah. Part of me is still in denial. Like, no, are you kidding me? No, I do it because, you know. It's fun. Everybody's doing.

Yeah. But, no, I guess. Yes, you're right. I have found myself. I have found myself. Yeah, that's what you're doing. Because you say you look for the weak person that you take advantage of a blah, blah, blah. But that's like you somehow trying to get your power back because you were so powerless when you were younger, you know?

At the time, yeah. For sure. I don't feel weak at all now. Of course not, but a lot of times. Physically mentally. Right, no, you have a good front, but you have, listen, we all have those. sides to us, wherever we're acting out in our life or doing like fucked up things, that's like a weakness. I'm sorry, it just is. So if you're going and you're like sort of praying on weak people,

that's a weakness in you. I don't think that that's strength. I don't think so. Just like it wasn't strength for those guys to sort of take advantage of you when you were a little. Why did they have to fool around with a little boy? Why couldn't they fill around with someone else? You know what I'm saying? Believe it or not. Sometimes I'd rather that they grab me than they grab Rebecca. Right. So see, you were like a kind person because you were protecting her? I don't want to talk about this. Okay. Did I tell about something different?

Of course, absolutely. When you said that the kid was kicking the puppy, you know, I remember Ted Bundy, and he grew up in a really good house with really loving parents, and he went on to rape and kill 150 women. Right. I remember I was at the Detroit Pistons game and that big altercation occurred. I don't know if you had ever heard of it.

No. But one of the basketball players had gotten up onto the stands and gotten into a fight with the fans. It was a big brawl. Anyway, I was in Detroit, and I'll never forget this. And I don't know if there's any record of it or if it was ever captured. There was this very pretty blonde-head girl. Right.

She had to be like maybe 20, 22. She was young. She was a young girl. And as the opposing players were going back into the locker room, even though she was up on the bleachers, even though she was far removed from the altercations and everything else, all the people yelling, she took her cup of soda and poured it on them.

And I wondered to myself, what possessed her to take her cup of soda and pour it on players, that she obviously, and the girl wasn't even dressed in any kind of basketball paraphernalia, so she's not a fan of the sport. She's probably just there with somebody who paid for her to do her. So why did she do that? Why did she? But they were having an altercation.

What do you mean? Are you asking me? Yeah, like why would she, a young, blonde-headed, I don't mean, say a white girl, but, you know, white girls tend to be less dramatic as the rest of the culture. why would she pour her soda onto people that she doesn't even know and for something that didn't even affect that. Well, were they fighting?

Yeah, they were fighting down in the court. Right, and did she pour soda on the person that was the wrong person or was she just doing it to innocent victims? Oh, no, she just did it to any other players that were walking in. Oh, maybe she was a bitch and had her own problems. You know what I mean? That's fucked up. She entered the mob mentality, right? Yeah, I guess, but I've seen people do that without a mob.

Believe it or not, that kid might have seen somebody else do stuff like that. Like, nothing might have even affected. Like, nobody might have abused that kid that kicked the puppy. I don't know. To me, like, if you're looking at a kid and he's smashing windows or he's throwing rocks at people, like that, I could see maybe you could use that. But to kick the puppy, I don't know. I trust my feeling. I trust that I was right.

I don't know that I would feel that in every scenario, but with this kid, that's what I saw. That's really what I saw, and I believe myself. That's what I believe. One of my friends had told me that before they went to Vietnam, the sergeant had brought them downstairs into a basement one at a time. And he said that we're going to war now, gentlemen, and in war you're going to do things that you didn't think you'd want to do,

and you're either going to survive out there or you're not. And one of the things that the sergeant wanted them to do, as he bought the guys down, my friend said he brought him down one of the time. And the sergeant took a puppy out of a box and handed them a knife and said, and cut the puppy's throat. And if you can't cut the puppy's throat,

then how do you expect to kill an enemy combatant? That's hardcore. I mean... And I believe that that probably happens. This is our society. And I believe in, yeah, but you look at the society you were raised and you told me some fucked up things that happens in your society too. So I don't see how you could judge that. But like you said some pretty messed up stuff.

So how could you talk about the puppy? If I could justify it a little bit, you agree that we're animals. Yeah, we're part animals. I told you I believe I feel we're a lot of different things. Not just animals, not just human beings, not just spirits. I think we're all of the above. You look at it as a human being then. it's being sacrificed.

If they sacrificed an animal, you wouldn't feel any way. As a matter of fact, if the animal was something good, you might want to eat. You might want to eat it afterwards when human meat is actually just as good and more nutritious than some of the animals.

They say that humans will taste like bacon. I think, no, pork. They say if you ate a human, because we're very high in salt, that we would taste very much like pork. It depends on how you season it. Right. No, I think you don't.

even need to season us. We're so salty that we just, we don't even need salt. Like that's supposed to do. Yeah. Yeah. Actually, the blood, the blood is actually you could use it as a sauce or spices because the blood has already all the nutrients. Yummy. No, but let's get back to the puppy thing. Okay, like, you know, that's our society. I don't know.

Maybe there's a like, you know, these guys are in war and they have to go do really horrifying things and that's some sort of hazing thing. I don't know. Maybe psychologically they prepare that way. think it's kind of messed up. I personally don't like to know that some of these things exist because like, you know, because there's always going to be negative, dark things or things that I don't agree with, but, you know, I can't go changing people. You know, all I could do is sort of live my life the way I want to, you know what I mean? And do the right thing that I, you know, with my own beliefs. So, but I don't

think for you, it's a little hypocritical because I find that you're a little judgmental. And this is what I don't like about people that are just very into whatever they're into is because they believe what they do, but then they're looking at everybody else and putting everybody else down. You're looking at society and saying, look at what they do here and what they do here. And then you're talking, you're talking about some pretty horrible things that go on in your society, too. So it's like a little hypocritical. Well, we laugh at. I'm sorry to keep calling you sheep.

No, no, no, I love that. I think it's hilarious. I don't understand, I don't understand how you feel. Yeah, I don't understand how you feel you elect a person like Barack Obama when it's obvious that the electoral colleges are the ones that put the person in the position of power no matter how many votes are given. And you guys keep voting. I know. This is the problem with my podcast. I don't talk about celebrities because I could give a shit and I don't talk about politics and I don't necessarily like talk of religion.

Because those, well, celebrities I don't care to talk about because who cares. I find regular people interesting. But like the other hot topics, like real hardcore religion or politics, and I know that you talked about on your email that you wanted to talk about it. Like, I don't really go there. I don't know enough about it. I think that everyone has their own sort of opinions about it, and I don't like to get into it.

I like more human being stuff. I like to talk about you, Henry. I think you have a little compassion in you and more feelings than you want to cop to. That's what I think. And I think maybe you're a little bit nicer than you sort of want to believe that you are. I would hope so. Henry, are you there? I'm still here.

Did I lose you? You know, so the politics, I don't care. Like, that's not my thing. I can't spar with you in that. I can't even have a conversation with that because I don't know enough about it. You know, I don't get into that. I'm more, like, interested, my sort of intel. I'm, like, very super smart and stuff, but, like, what I like to know about

and what I'm really curious about is people and, like, human nature and psychology and even the animal stuff, like that, you know, like I was saying that were animals and the sort of instincts we have. That's the kind of stuff that I'm interested in. So we could talk more about that. Okay. I just like I think, you know, it's fucked up what happened to you. And I know that you say that sexually now when you're older,

there needs to be some sort of pain involved. And you believe it's because your uncle after he got you off or he got off like he beat the shit out of you, right? Pretty much. Yeah, that's messed up. So do you, when you say that there's pain involved, do you need to create pain for somebody else or it has to be for you? A little bit of both, I think. Right.

I still. So it's a sadist, masochistic thing that you're into? I guess in a way. Uh-huh. I got so used to being abused that I look forward to it if that doesn't sound so crazy. No, because it was probably your only way to survive. It's kind of like if you can't beat him, join them, right? I guess.

Yeah, that's sad. At the same time, I want to feel superior. Of course, because you were so inferior at that time. That's your way of like sort of trying to re sort of like, you know, like write that wrong that happened to you. I guess. Right. But that's not the right way because then you're just doing it to other people. I mean, you could talk.

I know you don't like to talk to therapists at all, right? Are you very anti-therapy? Only because I feel that look for free, I'm able to let out my problems to you. Uh-huh. Right. But look how good it is. I mean, you said you really don't really talk to anybody else, right, ever. And you said you were like shaking when you're talking and it's like there's some, I believe that anybody that calls in for my place and it needs to talk to a stranger. You know, it's like it means that you probably have that. You probably should be doing it more, you know. You have a need for that in your life. And that's with therapy. And listen, like anything, I believe in the 90-10 rule. Like I think 90% of everything is like, garbage and terrible and 10% is good. So, you know, in any profession, you're going to get 90% of doctors are going to be horrendous. And 10% are we get a lot of therapists are going to be more fucked up than you could ever be.

And they're so terrible. I've walked out on many of them because I'm like, it's like I'm not going to take advice from an insane person. But 10% are amazing. And if you find the right one and they're hard to find. Sometimes you have to go to like five before you find out. But if you find the right one, they're like really great. And they don't tell you what to do. I don't know.

I have a really great therapist. but I do psychoanalysis. It's kind of expensive, but it's really good therapy. And it's not about telling you what to do. It's just about talking about stuff that happened to you. And it literally changes your life. I think you have a lot of trauma. It's like post-traumatic stress disorder you have when you're really like horribly abused as a child.

And you went through some hardcore stuff. You really did. So you probably have post-traumatic stress disorder. It would be wrong for me to say that because I accept, everything that happened to me. I accept it and when I see Rebecca today, she's in a better position than I am and she's, quote, unquote, a woman.

And you would say, according to society, women are inferior mentally, inferior physically, inferior emotionally, but that's not even close to being the truth because if you even knew the truth, you'd know that women are more more than what men are. Anyway, the whole point is...

Oh, you think I don't believe that? Do you hear how I'm talking? Yeah. I mean... I think that I'm like a woman that thinks I'm beneath anyone? I don't think so. I think that if I went to talk to a therapist,

it would take me... It would take me the entire session to convince them to move their couch to the other side of the room. Why would you need to convince them? Maybe you'd like the couch where it was, Henry. How do you know you'd want to move it? Is that just your way of mind-fucking them?

That's just my way. I'd want to establish my dominance. Oh, you know, when I got, I did that one. I was thrown out of a lot of high schools when I was younger. I was very much like not a rule fall. Like I acted out really hardcore and I got thrown out of three high schools. And one of my high schools, I went in and I, you know, I used to have to mind fuck people the same way. Like what you say, it was like, you know, it was like my way of getting,

I don't think that there's strength in that in a weird way. It's just your way of trying to be strong in a situation where you don't feel like you have any power. and you know I didn't like being in school I didn't like being told what to do they were throwing me out of another high school I don't even remember why and the principal called me in to have a sort of a conversation to see if like he could have me stay or throw me out and I walked in and I'm like I'm like I don't want to talk to you and he's like but you have to it I'm like I don't want to do so what I took my chair and I'm like fine you want to talk to me I'm not going to give you my eyes right because if you give someone your eyes you give them your attention and he just threw me out he was like okay get the fuck out here and that's the way I used to do, but it's very like, when you say that, like, to me, it reminds me of when I'm in high school. It's sort of like a juvenile way of handling things. There's something like sort of, you shouldn't need that kind of power now in your life. You know, like I did that when I was young and unruly and like sort of out of control and I didn't feel like I had any power in my life. But now as an adult, because I've cleaned up my act, I quit drinking. I worked on a lot of my demons. You know,

I don't need to sort of pull those kind of power trips or play those kind of mental mind games with people because I don't feel that people are sort of against me or I'm like sort of being attacked where I did feel that way when I was younger for sure because I was abused and I had a lot of issues growing up. So it's like I feel like the fact that you even thinking you're going to go in or you're going to mind fuck this person and move the thing and everything has to be like this game where you win. It's like you have a lot of you're very defensive and that's like you know sort of hiding of like that's like a that defense is like to hide a vulnerability inside of you that maybe needs to be worked on.

Am I'm so annoying. No, you're not. Actually, I'm going to tell you the telling you the truth. Right. I've always wanted to know what it would like to love somebody. Right. To feel unconditional love, like they say. I don't believe it exists.

I don't believe unconditional love exists. No, it does. No, it does. No, it doesn't. You never had a friend for like 15 years that you can't fucking stand, but you can't, you still talk to them? That's unconditional love. No.

You never had a pet? Sometimes. No. Get a kitten and just don't sacrifice it. You love that kid. My father came straight off the boat from Lebanon and like he, his whole family thought animals were cockroaches. But my dad fell in love with my dog like an insane person. He was the only one of his brothers.

The cat believes you're, you're, your pet. And the dog only cares for you because you walk in and feed it. No, they really do love you and you love them and who, like really, I swear to you, you would experience it. And let me ask you this. You talk about Rebecca. Maybe you love Rebecca. Maybe you have love for her. I did.

But I mean you did. You do love her, right? So that's love. And if you've known her a long time. But you can get unconditional love. I do believe that it exists. But it takes time. If you get it from your parents or your pets or your children, that's like immediately.

But through relationships and people and, like, friends, it takes time. But I do believe that after you've known people 10, over 10 years, double-digit time. You know, you get unconditional love for people, for sure. Do you only have any long-term friends? No. No? I've seen on the news and I've heard, you know, parents killing kids, kids killing parents. But you said that happened in your place.

Exactly. That's why there's no first thing is unconditional love. a person could say that they want that to exist but if you love your pet to death then your pet loves you and I bring you a new puppy and I take your pet to a new home and you go on

and that's not exactly the terminology for unconditional love where... But you haven't... You're not going to love a crackhead. Right. You're not going to love a crackhead. I don't care.

No matter who, I don't care if it's your mother or father. They're a crackhead and they're robbing from you. It's going to come to a point of time and you go, I'm not putting up with this because I have a life. And there's your unconditional love again. Oh, no, but I've seen parents that their children did horrible things and they still love them. I've seen that.

I believe unconditional love is, is, um, exists. And I had not a good childhood. It's not like I come from like this place where I'm like, oh, and I had all that stuff. But I still do believe. And I think it's sad that you don't. But I think that you do in a way because you say that you've always wanted it. No, because you say you've always wanted it. You wouldn't, you're not stupid, right?

To say that you want something, it means that you think it exists, okay? No. Yes. No, yes. I want a unicorn. I don't think it exists. No one wants unicorns, okay? I've never said I want a fucking, you know.

No, I'm too realistic. I've never said I want things that don't exist. That's a waste of fucking time, okay? No, we want things that exist. You're not a crazy person. You're very factual. You're very specific. You know a lot about politics.

You're a smart man, okay? You're saying you've always wanted that. that means you believe it exists. Sorry, it's just truth. Maybe I want it to exist. No, you know it exists. I want to be honest. It does exist.

I believe that it exists. And I think that you need to know that it does. And there's a part of you that wants it to. I believe that. Okay, you want it to exist. I do believe that it does. But I think that you have to go more towards the light. I think what happens with a lot of, like,

I think like sometimes people that are really into politics and all these conspiracy theorists and like all this stuff that you get really have. involved in in your mind, you know, and you sort of go through it and you're looking. It's a way of like not really focusing on yourself and helping yourself, you know, like, we don't, you don't need to like sort of know about Barack Obama and all these things that's going to happen with the cash. Like maybe you could take some time off of all this shit that's happening in the world. Stop thinking about that and think about yourself and sort of help yourself, you know,

because a lot of people, instead, they're watching the news, they're CNN's on all the time, they're looking, they're judging, they're making comments about everything, and they're just so fucked up. And it's like if every person just like took care of themselves, like maybe our world wouldn't be so messed up. So maybe you need to sort of take a little time to work on yourself and heal yourself and talk more about this stuff. So maybe you could experience different things in your life. If I put on my psychologist hat real quickly. Sure. All right, I won't try to dissuade you from me.

the fact of the does I see that you as well? No, I have it for people, and I feel it from things. That's fine. That's good. I can tell that you're passionate about it. You want it to exist. Uh-huh.

Yeah, as far as the politics and stuff, believe it or not, turn off the TV, yeah. If you could get that message out more to people, believe it or not. Uh-huh. So it's all a lie. Uh-huh.

Especially this is a bullet thing. Please just do yourself the favor. I'm a ball of. But do you watch sitcoms? Do you watch anything on TV besides the news I'm talking about? Oh, I don't watch TV. Right, okay. But what do you do, like, what do you do for fun or, like, for enjoyment?

You know, like, what is that that you do? What do you do? Well, I do what they don't do anymore, believe it or not. Read. I have an extensive library. I enjoy reading. Of course, you know, YouTube and the whole. internet is a fountain

of information that... Totally, it's endless. You could know anything you want. Yeah, I love it. I Google everything. Yeah, I don't dilute myself with news or, like you said, celebrity stuff. I don't understand, you know. Sometimes movies are a nice way to check out.

Like, movies could make you feel feelings, and sometimes it's good. Like, movies are pretty amazing if you get a good one. Like, seriously, I got to tell you. Because it's, you know, it's like, it makes you feel. feel something. It's art. You know, it's like anything. It's like music, you know, movies.

So these kinds of art forms really sort of take you away and they make you feel things. And that's a good thing. Believe it or not, I was taught this, there's this thing called the five easiest shots in the world and they separate society. And I'm going to, I'll read them off to you. The first one is modeling. If you look that good, that somebody is going to take pictures of you. well you know what you make everybody else envious of you and you have to have no education whatsoever you're just born beautiful it's so you didn't even do one thing for that job and sit and you believe that your shit does not think

right the second one is singing now people are going to pay you for your voice and all the same things apply as for the first job people are envious of you and believe it in that that's just a separate society the third one is lying that you call it acting and these people go up there and they lie to people and they make the same kind of manipulation that I do

only they're getting paid for it and they don't mean realize that's not. I believe it or not, some of these actors, anyway, I'm going to go on. The fourth one is sports. They'll switch to you and they think that their shit don't think. And the last one is politics, and politics is a culmination. You have to look good. You have to look that has not only that charismatic personality, but also that physicality.

and those, believe it or not, those jobs are created. Right. You guys are in control of that to fuck everybody up. That didn't exist before. Yeah, it dominates society. Right, and bring them down because it's all a bunch of bullshit. Right, sheep. That's fine.

That's cool. I mean, I think a lot of people are sheep. Like, I'm sorry, but if everyone's going left, I go right. I don't follow the, I think most people are dumb. So if most people do something, I don't do it. Like, this is just the way that I think. So I think, yeah, I believe in sheep too. I just don't have to, you know, be a part of your group to believe in it.

No, I mean, but before I broke down those quote-unquote jobs, you didn't even pitch them though. You didn't even came that way. I what? No, I can argue every single one of them and say things, but it's not interesting to me. I'm not one, I have to say, and we all have like our brains are just interested in sort of, you know, delving into different. things. I don't, you're a very specific type. I know people like you. I have really good friends like you. There's people on Facebook blabbing like you all the time. You're very opinionated about all these things. And that's what you like to do. I'm like I don't, I'm not into that. And no one's right or wrong. Right. It's like

whatever. It's like that's what you like to do. I like to like sort of and people find me irritating, right? The same way. Like I like to go on and on and peel the layers back and get to really see through people and see the good in them and like that kind of stuff. You know, so that's what I spend my time Googling and figuring out. You know, so I'm just not interested in sort of arguing your points or changing it or whatever or going on about it because I don't find it that interesting. Just like you might not find my analyzing, you know, human beings interesting either. A lot of people. This is why I do my podcast. This is why I do my podcast because all my friends have.

Most of my friends aren't self-aware. They don't give a shit about bettering themselves. They don't want to know anything. And they're just like, shut up, Kathy. So I'm like, okay, I'm just going to do a podcast where I could talk to you about their problems. so I could actually, people will actually, like, want my help because I like talking to people like this. You know what I mean?

This is, like, what I like to do. Because you like to do what you like to do. Like, you could start your own podcast and talk about all that stuff. Like, and trust me, there'll be millions of people that will want to listen because people like that too, you know? It's just not what I'm interested in. So I could argue those points and we could talk about it for an hour, but I'm, I don't really care.

If I could before I do go. Yes. You're amazing. Oh. I believe anything happened. I believe everything does happen for a reason. Uh-huh. Me too.

Given the opportunity, I would love to take you out to dinner. No, that will never have. No, this is, you could, listen, I have a lot of people on my podcast that call into the show multiple times. So I think you have so much more information to bring to us, and I would love to talk to you again and see you sort of change and grow and maybe move past certain things that you're talking about now, and I think that would be really interesting. So I, this is. strictly anonymous. Nobody knows who I am. Most

my friends don't even know that I do this. Nobody knows who I am. I don't know who you are. No one ever meets in person. I actually had a guy once come into a studio because my friend was a co-host with me and we built a partition so he couldn't see me. Everything is done without knowing anyone because

none of that stuff matters. But we could talk again and I'd love to have you on the show again because like I said, we didn't even get to the tip of the iceberg with your stories really. I really don't think so you could be one of the my repeat callers. I have plenty of people like that. You know, I would love to talk to you again. I definitely thank you just helping me. Well, it's almost three. I'm going to have to go.

Yeah, that's cool. Thank you for calling in, and I'm glad that I can help you, and I'm glad that we have this conversation, and definitely, we're definitely going to talk again. Okay. All right, and I'll send you an email one. Yeah, thank you for calling in, Henry. Okay, I just want to tell you before you go that My book, it's called Strictly Anonymous Confession, Secret Sex Lives of Total Strangers, is now available not only in paperback and e-book, but you can pre-order the audiobook. It's still not going to be out until August 25th, but you can pre-order it. The book is basically 17 different stories taken from my show. I kind of picked one story from each category that I talk about on my show.

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