Strictly Anonymous Confessions - 1023 - Roxy is Into Orgies, Gangbangs, Threesomes and More

Episode Date: January 30, 2025

Roxy embraced her inner slut and realized she loves orgies, gangbangs, threesomes and more and she called in to talk all about it. What made her decide to embrace her inner sl*t? How long has she been at it and what kinds of things has she done? And, how has it all completely changed her for the better? Tune in for all the details which include how depressed she got when her 11 year relationship ended and how she navigated out of that depression, the masturbation website she found and how she started camming there and what she dogs about it, how the attention she got from camming made her feel better about herself, the stranger sex fantasy she lived out with a married man she met on Ashley Madison ad exactly what they did together, her first experience at a swingers club and what went down that first night, how she quickly started trying everything including all types of threesomes, hookups with females, orgies, group sex while blindfolded and more, how and why she loves gangbangs the most, what’s left on her f-it list, the DTF nights at the swingers club she attends and exactly what goes down there, her sexual liberation and why it has all been so transformative and a whole lot more. REPEAT, originally aired 5/22 **To see anonymous pics of ROXY plus my other female guests + hear anonymous confessions + get all the episodes early and AD FREE, join my Patreon! It's only $7 a month and you can cancel at any time. You can sign up here: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.patreon.com/StrictlyAnonymousPodcast⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ and when you join, I'll throw in a complimentary link to my private Discord! MY BOOK IS NOW OUT FOR PRE-ORDER!!!! Strictly Anonymous Confessions: Secret Sex Lives of Total Strangers. A bunch of short, super sexy, TRUE stories. GET YOUR COPY NOW: https://amzn.to/4i7hBCd To Join SDC and get a FREE Trial! click here: https://www.sdc.com/?ref=37712 or go to SDC.com and use my code 37712 Want to be on the show? Email me at [e-mail] or go to http://www.strictlyanonymouspodcast.com and click on "Be on the Show" Have something quick you want to confess while remaining anonymous? Call the CONFESSIONS hotline at 347-420-3579. You can call 24/7. All voices are changed. Sponsors: https://bluechew.com Get your first month FREE! https://shop.butterwellness.com/pages/vday Get 20% off your The Perineum Massager by Butter Wellness. Go to butterwellness.com and use the code “STRICTLY” at checkout for 20$ off your entire order https://beducate.me/anonymous2025 Use code anonymous To get an additional 10% off the campaign’s current discount - that’s 60% off Follow me! Instagram https://www.instagram.com/strictanonymous/ Twitter https://twitter.com/strictanonymous?lang=en Website http://www.strictlyanonymouspodcast.com/ Everything else https://linktr.ee/Strictlyanonymouspodcas Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

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I saw her email. Okay, this is a great story about a woman who entered into lockdown in an 11-year relationship, and then that went bust. And she got really super depressed. And she wanted to get out of that depression. And she did, okay, by focusing on herself, she wound up getting involved in all kinds of sex stuff. She wound up first getting into a mutual masturbation, website. where she started camming, watching people jerking off,

and then jerking off and letting people watch her. And she was so good at it. She was like, it really made her feel better about herself and gave her the confidence to check even more things off her sex bucket list. Or fucket list, right? And she wound up going to her first swingers club alone. And she hasn't looked back since, okay? She has done orgies, gangbings, blindfolded sex.

She has been with women. She talks about how doing all these things changed her life for the batter. This is a secret life that she has, okay? So you're not going to know where she lives or where she's doing her business, but I know you're going to be emailing me, like send my email to Roxy. She sent me in pictures. Of course, I have anonymous pictures of her on my Patreon. So if you want to see Roxy, of course, like I said, my pictures over the show.

there are all anonymous. And most of my other female guests send me in pictures. They're all over there. They're not X-rated pictures, but they are rated. They're hot pictures of my female guests as well as, like I said, Roxy, if you want to put like some sort of picture to this story, go to my Patreon. Patreon.com slash strictly anonymous podcast. That's Patreon.com. slash strictly anonymous podcast. You could see Roxy in all her glory. But you're going to love her story. So I'm going to get right to it and be right back on with Roxy. Hi, Roxy. Welcome to the Strictly Anonymous Podcast.

I like your name, Roxy. I mean, everyone's fake names on here, but I like when girls pick like good names. It's like a hot name, Roxy. Thank you. And is like, Roxy, your alter ego because you are, you do have like a very transformative story. I love stories like yours. When you emailed me and I got your story, I was like, oh my God, I love this,

the way you sort of laid it out. You know, I'm going to tell it really quickly and then you're going to start from the beginning. but it really, like, you, things really changed for you over the pandemic. You were in, I guess, a long-term relationship. You guys broke up. You hit a massive depression and then your life changed. And the biggest change, I'm assuming, came in like your sex life.

You really started checking things off of your buggy list and you went really in a total different direction and now you're living your best life. Is that like the short story? that is the synopsis the long and the short of it is pretty much that yeah yeah yeah yeah so start at the breakup like were you how long was your relationship and what and what happened at the ending and stuff like that like what was that story about so okay we have been together for like 11 years we were almost 24-7 often together we did everything together we traveled we had a great life and it imploded without me even seeing it coming and so

that just sent me into a spiral of, of what the heck happened, you know, like what the fuck, you know? And at this time, everything was getting locked down. There was nothing to do except sit and wallow in the dark. Oh, my, in my head.

Yeah. And it was not a good place to be. Definitely not. And so this went on for about eight months or so. And I should mention this, this relationship, although it was very good, it was very, very vanilla. Okay.

Very. sex in your life with him and was vanilla. Yeah, I can count on one hand the number of times we'd have sex in a year. You know what I'm saying? No, no, I don't know what you're saying. Meaning like in a whole year you might have just fucked five times?

What did you guys do? Yep, I'm telling you. That's not vanilla. That's like another word, okay? Vanilla is like, you know, you just do it missionary and you're doing it normal. Vanilla is normal. That is like some sort of weirdo flavor of ice cream I've never heard. Five times in a year is

like you're not even having sex. Yeah, exactly. So it was, it was, you know, there were times where I was begging for sex and things like this. At some point, I was just going a little bit nuts and whatever. But, you know, I mean, we were together for so long. And obviously over time, you know, this kind of thing could happen. But yeah, no, it wasn't enough for me. Having said that, you know, this was the sacrifice I was willing to make.

We had a good life together. Yeah. Until we didn't. Until the rug was pulled from underneath you. Like, you had, you really did not see it coming. So he dumped you? Yeah. Interesting.

And moved cities. And, you know, we just moved to a new city. And, yeah, turned around and ended up back there was freaking out with the pandemic. And yeah. And then you were by yourself in a new city all alone dumped. Yeah. Wow. That is kind of crazy.

That's weird, bad timing. But I mean, listen, what I love about stories like this is we already know that it leads to this great shift for you. And I think that's what's always so important about. hearing these kinds of stories because if like you're in that bad place or that really awful time, you know, a lot of times that moment in your life comes right before you're, you know, a whole new amazing time of your life. And if we only had a crystal ball and we knew that, we would suffer less. 100%. If anyone, if anyone told me where I would be a year from now, you know, right, in that massive depression. Right. Yes. If anyone told me,

told me this is what you'd be doing, I'd be laughing because there's no way that I would have thought this would be possible. Right. So now he dumps you, you go into a massive depression. Yeah, and stayed in that hole for a long time. And something happened, I guess. Somebody close to me said, you know, try and maybe do something that will bring pleasure to yourself. And I thought, pleasure to myself. What does that mean? And I started to think about it. I'm like doing things for myself that make me happy. What would that be? Because I, you know, I spent a lot of time doing it for everyone else, but not me. Right. So what do I do? I'm like, well, let's start with things like food. I'm going to buy me lobster because I want to, no, I'm going to buy two because I can. And I ate them in

the same meal. And I just went and bought makeup and clothes. Like, I don't even care about clothes, bought all kinds of clothes. Whatever I could justify, I would buy myself. I spoiled myself as I could. And I thought to myself at one point, is this going to turn me into a big bitch? You know? Like, am I going to become this selfish, self-centered bitch that wants everything? And it's always for me. And that was a concern early on. But I learned how to channel it.

And, okay, the material stuff went by the wayside. And I started to explore sex. It started to come back the, you know, the lust. And that's when everything took a turn. Okay, but what was the initial thing that came up? or like what was the first? Because listen, I know, because you put it in an email, like I know you eventually go to Swimmers Clubs and you're doing all these kinds of crazy things.

What is the first move that you make towards checking things off your bucket list or the first crazy thing you did? One day I'm looking on the internet and keep in mind we were in lockdown. So there wasn't a whole lot of options. I'd seen, you know, I didn't, I was just surfing the net. And one day this message pops up, you know, one of those ads for. one of the masturbation sites. And I went, a masturbation site.

Yeah. Where has this been all my life? What is this? Yeah. What is it? Can you explain? Yes. So I went into this rabbit hole and I went, wow, what is this?

And it was a bunch of men and women who are on cams. And basically, it's a mutual masturbation site and it's used for different ways. but that's what it is where you can log on and either masturbate or watch somebody masturbate. You can have an account and sign up. People make money doing this stuff. And what happened is, no, it's being a cam girl is basically what it is. And so I'm watching these people do this. And I'm looking at some of these girls and I'm thinking, geez, girls, do better.

Like you suck. Oh, my God, hilarious. What is this? Because I'm like, they're hideous. They're not. I don't know, like dress up a little, do something. Anyway, and these guys are watching and waken and they're just having a grand old time. And I thought to myself, I could do better than this.

And for fun, for a challenge, because I had nothing better to do during lockdown, is I put myself on cam. And I started to webcam. And the funny thing about that is that the, how can I say this? I didn't do it for money. I didn't for pleasure. Yeah. And that was in my profile. And I think that turned a lot of people.

on. So nervous as I was, didn't show my face at first, but it's hard with a laptop to not show your face. You know how it is? And so I eventually did start showing my face, but with a mask or with a wig or like one day I was a schoolgirl. And one day I was, I don't know, Sonic the hedgehog, you know, a cat woman. I know. And so I started to get a following. And what happened is people would log in and the minute I logged it, people would see me and they'd come running and they'd want to interact with me. And they would tip me. I'm like tipping. I don't even care about that stuff.

I have money sitting in that account. I don't even know how much, right? I didn't care. But like it was just for fun. And I would watch these guys and they would worship me. And what happened with that is that my ego came out of the gutter and was prompted back up. And this made me remind, this reminded me that, you know what, I am hot stuff despite everything. I am, you know, I am good and I am sexy, and people do appreciate my body.

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Yes. Exactly. Like I still have my mojo. Yeah. I was the type I would I would fuck around. I'd have one night stands. You know, even now people are like, you know, hi, my name is. I'm like, shh, don't ruin the moment, you know?

And so it's, it was easy then. It's easy now. But obviously when you're monogamous, that that doesn't happen. So yeah, this was like the ego boost that I was looking for. Mm-hmm. And I did this for a few months. During this time, I also discovered a local sex club, the existence of it. And I thought to myself, I must do this, but they were closed.

Oh, right. Because it was COVID, yeah. Biding my time. Yes. So I was biding my time. In the meantime, after camgirling and while I was doing it, I actually decided to take the next plunge and sign up on Ashley Madison. Oh, really?

On Ashley Madison. Yes. And Ashley Madison, I met, well, met somebody, didn't really meet him, but we communicated via email. And it was back and forth, not texting, not anything, it was email back and forth. We had never spoken. We had never, we'd seen one picture of each other. We exchanged one photo, pretty much. And we developed an incredible relationship, like, unlike anything that I would have ever thought possible.

And we both had a fantasy, and we both lived it out. And the anniversary of that is tomorrow. And that is the start of my real journey. Okay. Tell us what that fantasy was. So we, I had a fantasy of stranger sex complete. But wait, let me just start. Wait, before we get into that hot thing,

because then we're taken off into all your stories. So you go on to Ashley Madison. You know, your lockdown in COVID. Are you looking for like an online affair? Are you looking for a married guy? Like, why Ashley Madison? That's kind of interesting to me. Yes, and he asked me that same question.

And for me, this was my first foray into internet dating in like, you know, since... 11 years, yeah. Much the beginning. Yeah, and longer than that, because I just didn't do it before then, you know? Right. And so it was... Exactly. So I'm a little nervous about that.

I didn't want to run into all the, you know, the crazy freaks that you run into on, you know, plenty of fish and all the other places. Yeah. So I decided a married guy would be safe. Okay. He has more to lose than I do. Okay, yeah. So I wasn't looking for a relationship. I wasn't looking for a boyfriend.

I was looking for a fuck. Right. So that is the safest thing. I totally understand that mentality. Okay, so you meet this guy. And now when you say you have this incredible relationship, he's married. It's all long distance. Are you like face-timing each other and shit like that?

No. No, we're both local. And so it's going back and forth through email. Okay. Email by email by email by email. And it was all text-based. we connected on such a level that I would never have thought possible through email. It was crazy.

Yeah, me neither. It was, yeah, I have, yeah. Anyway, when we finally did meet, it was a hot, hot kind of thing. It was, the electricity was in the air. We had to wait for vaccines and all that kind of thing. So, you know, once we were past our second vaccine with the two weeks and et cetera, et cetera, we met and we had an incredible time. It was, yeah, magic.

Okay, so now, but take me back to now, you're at that place again. You have your, you both have this hot fantasy and it's stranger sex. Yes. Yes. So I'm in the hotel room waiting for him, blindfolded and nicely dressed in lingerie. Oh, wait, and is this your first meeting too on top of it all? This is our first meeting. We exchanged one photo and never heard each other's voices.

Oh, it's so interesting. Okay. I had dressed the room up with like, you know, dark lighting, you know, purple lighting and, you know, pimped it out with some music and the whole bit. So he texted me to say he's downstairs. I said, come on up. He had a key. He walked in. I'm blindfolded.

I am, you know, dressed in something sexy. And he took a few minutes, came up. And then I started to feel hands on me. And it was so sensual because I trusted this guy. Yeah. I somehow learned to trust this man through email. that I had never seen met or talked to. Right.

And only one picture you guys exchanged. One photograph, yeah. So you knew what he looked like. I mean, the photograph was of the face and everything. I mean, you knew that much about him. Okay, cool.

Yes. So I knew what, you know, at least that he didn't have two heads and he wasn't, you know, going to scare me. But so, but the fantasy is though, too, when you say stranger sex,

you mean like, the fantasy was that you guys wanted to, on your first meeting, like fuck each other without even seeing each other or kind of something like that is that what is exactly we i didn't i didn't want to hear his voice he asked to have a phone call and i said i didn't want to hear his voice because it ruins the mental image that i have created in of him in my head he's a personality yeah so to like let's say we we call each other up and he sounds like freaking bart simpson like ah you know i don't want that in my head when he's fucking me i totally understand whatever was in my head i wanted to

create this person based on what our exchange has been. Right. And you had created him this whole time because you had no other choice. You're in lockdown. So you, the last thing you want to do after being so hot for him for all this time back and forth is to ruin it by that, which I totally understand your thinking. Yeah. It was smart. Yeah. And that was part of the kink also is to not know the voice, not know anything. And we didn't even, we didn't even exchange our real names until after we thought. Like it was crazy. Oh my God. All right. So you. Dark, you know, so you're going to be blindfolded. He's going to come in.

He's not going to be able to really see you because it's dark or he's going to be able to see you. Yes. Yeah. He can see me certainly in the outline and he can see me, but it's not in the light of day. Yeah. Okay, cool. So he comes up. Yeah.

Hands on the shoulders. Hands start exploring. Hence turn me around. Start kissing on dresses. Leads me over to the back. I'm still blindfolded by the way. leads me over to the bed. We had a blindfolded sex session whereby, like, he took me the way I wanted.

It was, you know, music's playing in the background. All the fantasy part is coming true. This is my first exploit out of that relationship, too. So, you know, I hadn't had sex and who knows how long. So I was raring to go. And it was just like, boom, explosion. It was fantastic for both of us. And so after that, I literally took the blindfold off.

and said hi and gave my real name. That's great. That was pretty, we had a good laugh about that at the end. Yeah. Yeah, that was a really, really nice moment.

Unfortunately, this gentleman has moved on and I would love to see him again. So we'll see one day if, you know, fate intervenes. Was that the only time you guys ever hooked up in person? Or did you continue hooking up afterwards?

Because you could. We did see each other. Yeah, well, we did see each other one other time afterwards and then, yeah, it sort of, it, not that it fizzled, not in that sense, but there was distance that was between us. Like we were living in different places at that point. Right, right, I get it. Okay. So, and, all right, so that's your first meeting. And then does that lead to all these, like, how does, what comes next? So that, that for me was a very healing moment. The way he made me feel, the way he, he repaired the brokenness in me over time. And that whole experience culminated with that. The very next day was my first day that I went to the sex club. Oh, that's why this is your one year anniversary. This is a year later?

Yes. Oh, okay. So that club that you were looking at that you had found is finally now open to and you're like, you're going to go there by yourself? Yes. Part of my journey. Part of my year of Heatonism journey is to do things that you wouldn't normally do. Yeah. So if normally I would say, oh, no, I'm not going to do this. Oh, no, I need to do the opposite. I need to get out there and get out of my comfort zone. And this was part of that journey. And so, yeah, I put on my big girl pants and then, you know, prepared to take them off.

Wow. Okay. And I mean, you know, and you're, this is like someone that's totally vanilla. You had never done anything like this before. And so you. I had never, yeah, never kinks, never like, you know, nothing like this. Right. And are you still camming? at this point still? A little bit less. You know, it would help. When I needed an ego boost, I could, you know, go on cam or I used it more actually to watch. That's kind of my thing.

At this point, for sure. I don't really cam at all. Oh, interesting. And you like to watch. It served a purpose. You like to watch people jerk off or masturbate. Oh, yeah. 100%.

I want to be the fly on the wall. Yeah, yeah, yeah, like a little voyeur. Yeah. Yep. So now, okay, so you go to your first. Swingers Club. Yes. So go in there.

I'm nervous. Greeted really nicely at the front desk. Get registered. I asked for a tour. They took me on a tour of the place, explain the rules. You know, I'm nervous this whole time.

And I just took a deep breath and embraced it. And even though inside I was like panicky and nervous, I just embraced it like I owned it, almost like I left that insecure person outside those doors. Right. And I walked in and I wanted to be a goddess. Right. And you felt like a goddess.

Now, what did you, did you get involved? Did you hook up with people? Did you just like, did the voyeur you just watch? How far did you go that first time? Okay. So that time, the way it works, I, you know, everyone's pretty much naked in this club. You can go as you feel comfortable or not. And I just thought I have to go all the way because what's the point, right?

But at first I didn't, I wasn't sure. So I put on, you know, something little sexy and I walked downstairs and I realized how overdressed I was. And I walked back upstairs, took it all off and thought, take a deep breath and here we go. And I just walked in and blended in with everyone else. And, of course, I gravitated to the first person that I saw that I could sit and chat with. Right. Who happened to be like a male.

Okay. And it happened to be, I didn't realize, a 23-year-old male. What did you think he was? A 40-year-old man? I mean, he must have looked 23. Well, no, he looked a little bit older. He had a beard. He was burly. Oh, okay. When I found out, you know, I was thinking, okay, this is going to be it. You know, I've chatted with him. When I found out his age, I just started kind of giggling out loud. And he's like, what? And then, you know, I kind of said to him, oh, man, like, I'm old enough to be your mom. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, I get it. When I found out, you know, I was thinking, okay, this is going to be it.

You know, I've chatted with him where this, when I found out his age, I just started kind of giggling out loud and he's like, what? And then, you know, I kind of said to him, oh, man, like I'm old enough to be your mom. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, I get it. And so it took me a while to wrap my brain around that. I said, you're going to have to give me a few minutes. Let me just come to terms with that. And giggly me, we ended up fooling her. around a little. I didn't sleep with them or anything, but it was the icebreaker that I needed.

Yeah. So he took me under his wing and everything. But that first time was more of an observation visit. And that's pretty much as far as I went that first time. Afterwards, I continued to go and I continued to get to know the stuff. I continued to get to know the familiar faces that showed up in the new faces. And it wasn't long. I mean, I think the next time I was there, I'm sure I fucked somebody. You know, it was. the list like do who do do i remember it absolutely not just like i don't remember my first kiss like there's it's been way too long right but all of you know there's been so many things that you know people my friends who are also in the club have said that i have you know gone beyond

what they've ever done and what they will ever do and i'm like really that sounds surprising but yeah i guess when you call gang bang is your regular tuesday afternoon um oh my god so you like you've only been doing it for a year and you were like surpassed some of the regulars that were doing it for so long because you just yeah all in yeah all in i wanted to i wanted to try everything i want to experience everything and see you know within the the you know the acceptable things that were not my hard limits and whatnot but i wanted to try i mean i dabbled in bdsm not because i find it you know appealing but because i have to try it and found some appealing elements to it yeah um you know it would have to have I done. I can't even remember. Couples, orgies, MFF, FM, FM. I just recently used a dildo, a strap-on, on a woman. You know, orges and gangbangs are my regular fun activity using a Sibian, rope play, clamps, ass play. I just filmed my first porn movie. Like not me in the porn, but me, me as a camera person. So I was involved with that. Oh, how did you get into that? Some friends of mine were having a threesome. They do film for their only fans. And I offered to be a mobile camera.

Because otherwise, they only had still camera. And I said, I thought, why not? So I didn't play or anything. I was literally just, you know, the person holding the camera. But that was like, you know, one more thing for the fuck-it list. I keep checking it off. Oh my God. Gangbanks, orgies. MFF, M-M-M-M-M-whatever. Like, I mean, I don't even know where to start. What came first? Like, what it, and like, okay, so had you ever hooked up with a woman before or was this going to be your first time doing something like that? Okay. So the first time really, you know, when you're young and you're in university, you try, you know, I think you and I are close to the same age. So you and I are trying to, you know, fool around with your friends and the two guys are like, we kissed, oh, no, we don't want to do this.

And we're figuring each other out. And that was back in the day when girls didn't necessarily shave their bush. And I had a bad, I had a bad bush experience. And so I was just like, yeah, no, moth diving is not for me, you know? And so I think that kind of turned me off, not turn me off women, but I was, it wasn't my natural inclination to begin with. Yeah. And so the bad experience, that was pretty much all I did with the woman. And so fast forward many years later, here we are.

And I'm still a little what I call vagifobic. Right. It means I'm a little, you know, the, the slimy parts of it are. I'm getting used to. I don't go inside. So I'll play. You know, ass, tints, no problem. But, you know, I'll leave the rest of it to the eager guys who want to do that. All right. Okay, cool. Yeah. But, and what about gang bangs? How do you get into doing gangbangs? Is all of this? Let me ask you this. Is it all stay in this club? Is this where you wind up experiencing all these things? Or do you eventually start going to swingers parties or have parties at your house? I mean, what is, or does it all happen at the swingers club? Yeah, the Swingers Club for me is the safe place. Right. This is the place where you meet like-minded people. This is the place where you can assess somebody before you decide to sleep with them.

Yeah. You can feel their energy. The problem with online stuff, you can communicate with people online, but you can't feel their energy. And for me, even if we connect online, with the exception being that first guy. Yeah. If we can't, you know, connecting online is one thing, but I want to feel the energy of that person to see if I really want. to be with them. Mm-hmm.

And so at the club, you can do that. At the club, you can feel someone out. You can see their face. You can see them smile. You can see them. Photos don't do anyone justice, right? Not at all. This is when you see the real person.

Yeah. And so, yeah, that's pretty much where it all happens. Now, I did meet people that I've continued to see very few, but outside the club. I have several play partners, some from the club, some not. and each one fulfills a certain need in my life. Oh, interesting. So what are, like, how many play partners and what need are each one meeting? So there's somebody that I love very much that, unfortunately, is not in this lifestyle,

and I don't get to play with often. Okay. So that's like he's meaning your emotional needs. Exactly, 100% the emotional needs. I have another one who is an awesome, booty call. And it's also meets certain emotional needs, but not in the same way and not in any committed form whatsoever. Definitely booty call. And he, I met him at the club. Right. There are others who have come and gone. There are a few on the roster that I know I can call up

tomorrow and do something with. Yeah. But honestly, the club has its, has its merits. So. Right. Because you're still, I mean, with all these things that you've done, is there anything left on your fucking list. I mean, it's funny that you should ask that because with the friends we were walking up, you know, where all the sex happens and we're looking around, we're like, eh, another orgy,

eh, another, you know, another threesome. Another guy fucking. Like, it's just, we've seen it all. So what's what excites us? What's left? Yeah. Of course, I want to explore different types of relationships because up till now I've only been flying solo, right? Right. So

relationships, such as a daddy-dome relationship. relationship or the cuck relationship. I know you're into that. Yeah. Yeah, yeah, yeah. I love your podcast. Oh, good. I'm glad.

But wait, meaning like you would want to be because like for me, I would want to watch, I would want to know about my guy with another girl. You know what I mean? Like that kind of thing. Right. Are you, would you be a doubt for that or the opposite? Like you want to go out and fuck another guy and then tell your guy about it. I want to be, yeah, exactly.

I want to be offered up. and I want him to get excited by it. But I don't want him, you know, going off on his own. Yeah, but I have to tell you, the good news is, and this is what I find on my show, the truest cucks have no need for that. A lot of cucks. I know.

They just don't. What gets them off is that exact scenario that you like. And a lot of times I get all these people on YouTube saying, like, that's not fair. Like, she doesn't want him. And like, she gets the fuck other guys, but he doesn't. It's like, no, no, no.

What you don't get and what you're not listening to is that, This is exactly what both of them wants. That guy has no desire to go out. And let me tell you, as a cuck queen in my scenario, too, I have no interest in going to be with a, you know what I mean? I don't want five, ten guys. I want one guy and then he could go out and do that. It's typically it works out that way.

So, you know, that's the perfect scenario. And there's tons of guys that dig that, by the way. That's it. So that's the kind of thing that maybe I'm interested. in exploring in a more, I want to say to a longer term capacity, you know, not a one-off type of thing. So I haven't found the proper person yet, but I'm open to all of that. There's some BDSM stuff that I'd still explore if opportunity arose. But yeah, there's not a lot that I haven't done that I've, has been on my list.

I, contrary to yourself, like variety. Yeah. It's like a big buffet, that club. Okay? Think of it like, you know, the best, the best buffet. and you can pick a little and choose here and have some of this and taste this and taste that. And the things you love the most, you go back for seconds. Yeah.

But the rest of it, you just want to move on to the next dish. Right, but you like to try it. Aha. Yeah, that's interesting. Interestingly enough, and I think I know why. I've figured this out. Yeah. I think we're all, or at least I am, chasing an elusive orgasm.

You mean like the chasing the dragon, like that best one, that one that we had that Will I never forget like that thing, you mean? Not the best one, the authentic one, the real one, the one that's going to blow my mind. Right. And so. Oh, that you've never had, that you think you've never had. Exactly. Oh, okay.

Exactly. So I, when it comes to being at the club or with other people, it doesn't happen. I have a form of orgasm. It's great. It's, you know, it involves squirting and yay, hooray, but it's not the same as the one one gives oneself. And that's the elusive one. Oh, okay. Interesting. Now, do you think it's because maybe, you know, do you think that if you had everything in that one person, the emotional, the sexual, the kink, you know, all of that in this one guy and he was a cuck and you could do all that, that maybe that would all come together and that's what's missing?

I mean, what do you think is missing in those? 100%. That's what it is? Yeah, I think in the end I had to ask myself, and this is where I'm at. Yeah. Ultimately, what do you want? You know, I'm not getting any younger. And so I'm, you know, what do I eventually want with this?

Can I go back to a vanilla monogamous relationship? I don't know that I can. Right. But would you, so what would you set up? Do you think you'd set up an open relationship where maybe your guy's a cuck and you could have that variety, but you could also have a real relationship with this person? In a perfect world, it's exactly as you described. Yeah.

Well, that perfect world exists. I have so many couples that have that scenario. And, you know, I think the good news for you is that. But, you know, it's not like you're fishing out of a tiny little pond over there. The most, you know, I couldn't believe how many guys are into that when I started my show. I never knew that guys wanted to see, you know, that that was a thing until I started to do my show. You didn't, right? But I had no, you know how much vocabulary I have learned in the last year?

Right. I knew nothing of any of this. Right. It's been incredible, you know? And so, yeah, I didn't even know that was a thing either. Yeah, it is. And it is a big thing. And I just feel like, you know, you could definitely meet a guy.

and have all of it in one person. I would assume, and I think, like, listen, you're only a year out from your breakup. You were an 11-year relationship. You are like, this is like it's so, like you really are having, you know, taking this time for yourself. And I think that that's great.

I know, like when you said really early on, like, oh, I was buying all these things and I was just doing things for myself. And I got really nervous that I was going to turn into a bitch. And I think, you know, that's a lot of the reason why women specifically in, general, don't allow for that in themselves because there's this negative stigma attached to being quote unquote selfish, you're selfish, you're a bitch, you know what I mean? But there's nothing wrong with tending to yourself and, you know, taking care of yourself and doing all the things that

you are right now and you're still just like gathering information about yourself. So I feel like a year out, like maybe you're not really ready for that long term commitment, but you will be soon and when you are, I feel like you absolutely can meet somebody that, you know, is open to all the things that you are. Because it's not like it's hard to find. I mean, I just, I've talked to many couples like that, you know. Interesting. And you can meet them at the club, right? What?

100%. 100% I could and just, you know, I could meet them on FetLife, which is where I have profiles too. Just, you know, something different, something to. find an alternative that's going to be a happy medium eventually. Yeah, you're going to meet them here, okay, because you know what's going to happen, Roxy. I'm going to get all kinds of emails. This happens all the time with my female. I get some of them, especially the ones that put it out there, where I get emails, like,

Gang Bang Betty, okay, the fact that, oh, besides the fact that you're into the Cuck scenario and you would be well-suited for a Cuck and you want variety and you want them to stay home. And the fact that you have done gangbangs and like it, those are my most downloaded episodes. Gang bangs. Gang bang Betty, okay, has been on my show and she put out there after she left her husband. Her part two is she left her fucking husband and she was like, she was looking for guys. I to this day still get emails. Can you forward my email to gang bang Betty? Like I let, you know, and she and they, a lot of these guys send pictures and she would be like,

oh, that one's hot and stuff. And you know, so you're probably, there's going to be a lot of people that going to be like, oh, can you send this to email to Roxy? Maybe if I live near her, like I could hug her. Like, she's the perfect girl for me. Well, yeah, I'll only go local. So, you know, we'll have to see. Yeah, we won't say where you're from, but people could email me, but let me ask you this. So you're on Fat Life. And now, what do you have on there? Like, what are you looking for? And have you met guys so far on Fat Life? I've had mixed success on Fat Life. Again, Remember the energy thing. You can't talk with somebody.

And then you end up on the same room and you're like, yeah, no, not so much. Right. And so there's been a lot of that. There's been, I've learned how to, you know, turn away people who I've connected with that won't send a photo. Like if after we've connected, you're still not sending me a photo, there's something wrong. So I'm much more picky about who I'm willing to entertain. Having said that, I did reach out to somebody who fit the cuck scenario. We were very well matched.

I don't know, it petered out, you know, don't know what's going on. But there's still lots of success to be had. I don't go actively looking. Right. That's my problem. No, but maybe you're not interested in actively looking right now. I don't think that that's a problem. I think that when you're ready, if you are, you know, like if you really wanted it,

you would actively look on there. And I also think, you know, when you're on there and you kind of figure out, like most of these people are not going to pan out. there's all, you know, you're going to have to lead through so much. You're, you kind of realize it's not the end all, be all. Like, you shouldn't really put all of your energy over there. You know, do you go to this club, the swingers club all the time now? Is that like your regular hang?

Yeah, it's a regular thing. I'm there two to three times a week. You know, I just, I enjoy the atmosphere of it because it's a type of club that's also very social. So my social life in this new, you know, new. move in the new city has revolved around that. So I've made friends, platonic friends at this place. It's like your cheers. We do stuff together. Yeah, it is my cheers. Exactly. The place where everybody knows your fake name. I love that where everyone knows your fake name. You walk in the rock. So wait, that leads to my next question because I think you put this in the email. Like this is a secret life.

Correct? Yes. Yes. So. So I hide this from pretty much every family member. Of course. And most, some friends who would not be able to handle the information overload. Right. I have other very, very close friends. My closest friends, they know they're not in this lifestyle. They're vanilla.

Mind you, two of them met in the lifestyle, but don't have it practiced since them when they were in their 20s, you know? Oh, interesting. Okay. They know. They know about it. They kind of don't necessarily hear all the detail stories, but just ask how it's going, if I'm still going, that kind of thing. Yeah, yeah, yeah.

There's not a lot of people to talk about the details of this. Like, where can you go and be like, so, hey, what was the last porn you jerked off to? You know, and get an answer from 20 different people. My friends aren't like that. Right. And this is the kind of combos that people have and that you could go to those places, I'm assuming, when you're at the Swingers Club. Exactly. So friends and family don't know about this. They don't know where I go until 3 a.m. every couple days. Oh, my God.

You know? So I'm trying to keep both lives separate and sometimes it's difficult to not have crossover. What do you mean? I live with my, with a parent. And so I can't entertain at home. I can't. You know, I do so by choice. I live with a parent. And so I can't entertain at home. I can't, you know, I do so by choice. I live with a parent by choice. But still, you share common space. You know the comings and goings of the other.

Of course. I have to hide my toy chest, you know. I have to hide all my, my, I call it my tickle trunk, you know. I have to hide all the stuff and be discreet. And that's just my choice. I just don't want that parent looking at me going, you know, seeing what I do every time they look at me. Of course, nor do this, I'm sure they don't want to either, okay? Like, yeah, they don't want to know. Living this, living the blind life is hard is people ask,

so where'd you go? And I kind of have to sib a little bit. You know, yeah, I go with friends and we hang out and da, da, da, da, but I don't tell them that we all fuck each other in the in between. Yeah. It's, it's, it's, I keep out certain details. Yeah, it is a little hard. Now, is there any part of you that feels like maybe one day you would, come out of that closet or is it like for sure you would dabber? Probably if it comes out, it would be by accident. I mean, do I really, do I really care, you know, in the light of things, look, I'm, I'm past caring.

Yeah. I don't have the same, the same cares that I would have, say, 10 or 15 years ago. I don't have to prove anything to anyone. I'm my own woman. Right. I just, like I said, I just think. certain things from family should be kept private for me. Yeah. Because that's our dynamic. And so they don't need to know. But if they did find out, is at the end of the world? Probably not.

Like, I'm not going to jump off a bridge or anything, you know? Yeah. No. And listen, I feel like a lot of times, you know, nobody talks about their sex life with their family anyway. You know, whether even if you're a vanilla sex, you know, person, you don't tell your parents like, oh, I just had sex with my husband last night. You know what I mean? So why do you have to tell them if it's an alternative lifestyle? That makes no sense. I just mean like, you know, you know, because like, you know, with your friends or like that you would just put out there like, yeah, I'm a swinger. Like, what do you consider yourself if you had to label yourself? You said you did hear, learn a lot of vocabulary. Yes. So, and there's a lot of words that you could use to describe.

And I tend to stay away from the labels because I'm still experimenting. So I am, I would consider myself heteroflexible. Yeah. At this point. I would say that I am a swinger who would enjoys gang bangs and orgies of all sorts. I enjoy trying new things, light impact play, and some, yeah, some, I don't know. Is it Polly relationships? I don't know. I don't really think so because by definition I'm not really Polly. Yeah, Polly is like you would be wanting to have emotional relationships with more than one person. And I do, but it's not that they know about each other. and it's not that they are committed relationships. And they are not, you know, it's more,

I have an emotional connection to different people. And some I don't even know their names. Some of the people, you know, so it goes all over the board. Yeah, yeah, yeah. And the emotional connections are different, like you said. I mean, and I understand that I had a lot of times in my life, more times that I was single than with partners. And sometimes I would have like four different guys.

This one like was the guy I fucked. this one was the guy I had companionship with. This one was like my best friend who bought me flowers all the time. And we never had sex. It was weird. But like, you know, I was getting sex from the other one. And then this one always took me out to dinner. So I got that.

And that was the friendship. And so I would always be like, you know, I do have a boyfriend. Like, you know, I get all those needs met. But it's with a bunch of different guys. And I think sometimes, you know, we set that up in our lives because maybe you're not ready for that real relationship or you don't want to put it. And that's great. There's nothing wrong with it. You know, you're getting your needs met.

Exactly. And when the right relationship comes along, being a cuck or. otherwise. I'm at the age that I'll recognize it. I'll know that this is a good thing or not a good thing. I, you know, I will embrace it when it happens. But in the meantime, I keep going back to my club. I keep trying new stuff. I keep tonight's a, tonight is another gang bang night. Yes, that's what I want. I want some gang bang orgy stories, please. Any requests? I will be happy to call in and tell you about that afterwards. No, I want to though, but I want your gangbang stories that you've had already. Oh, now. Yeah, now. We still have

15 minutes to talk. Tell me some good stories. All right. Well, let's see. So, you know, my friends joke around that I basically fuck the United Nations. So I am not particular about, you know, I've been with all the different races. I've been with, you know, I enjoy it all. So I have no, no qualms about that. The first, how about the first DTF night that I went to at this club? So DTF, for those who don't know, is down to fuck. It's for women who like the company of multiple men. Okay. So the first night that I went there, I wanted to be simply an observer.

Mm-hmm. Just see what happens. I ended up being the biggest fucking slut. So I came out of there. Okay. I'm watching this and just getting a feel for it and seeing what goes on because I've heard intense stories. Yeah. Anyway, I come up and I see this orgy going on.

Actually, what happened first, it was pretty funny. I see a man who's wanking. And he caught my eye And then I looked away quickly Because I didn't want him catching me Right Yeah Went into a different room

Came back Saw him again And I you know Peaking around a corner I looked at him And he caught me again Damn it And I ran to the other room

And anyhow As I came around He ended up in this orgy With these people And when he saw me come a third time He called me in And I had my girlfriend On my shoulder

Say do it Do it! Go! Go do it! Right And I thought to myself What the fuck Do it And I jumped in there And that's how that first one started.

And that was an awesome one. And so what is, so that's an orgy. And just like everyone is doing everyone? Is that what's going down? So there were three people. There were like, there was a couple and there was this wanker guy. And I think there was another couple that was next to them. And everyone was sort of just fooling around with everyone.

But I ended up myself just going with this one guy. So we were in the scene, but I wasn't playing with everybody at that point. That was my first for it. The next, later on, after that finished, I ended up in a room and I decided that I was going to have a few of them. And I put on a blindfold. Yes. I put on a blindfold and had my girlfriend pick out my partners. So I never even saw them.

Yeah, it was quite the thing. So I didn't know who I was fucking. I just got dick in hand. dick in mouth, dick and pussy. I can say pussy on here, right? Yeah, for sure. Just checking. All right.

And just make a share. And so, yeah, it was, and it was hard to control. There were three people. It was like, that's a lot of holes. There's no hands left for balancing. Like, I'm going to fall over. Yeah. So it was a lot of work to figure that out.

But that was my first, that was the second part of that first, that first foray. Right. And that's the same night is what you're saying. That's in that same night. Yeah. Absolutely. Yep. And then I ended up with a third person on that same night.

So, yeah, it was all at all. It was a pretty good first night for someone who intended to observe. Right. That went out the window. But would you consider that time with the three people? Was that a gang bang or was it like one guy at a time? No. Not a gang bang.

No. I would say that wasn't a gang bang now that I have the vocabulary for this. That was not so much a gang bang as it was being in the scene of an orgy. Right. Uh-huh. I wasn't full participating because, you know, again, I was a little nervous with that. The next one that happened, not nervous. So again, I did the blindfold thing.

And I just had one after the other. And I think we lost count around eight, which wasn't bad. Oh, this is the next DTF night you went to? The next DTF night. Okay. So now you're really going all out. And now you get how many guys? I did eight over the course of several hours.

Wow. All picked by my girlfriend, curated, you know, We didn't really talk about too much what I liked, what I didn't. And I ended up with the kids, it's kind of funny because some weeks later, I ended up in the club. And a guy came up to me and he said, oh, your friends with so-and-so, right? And I said, yeah, how do you know that? And he says, oh, because I fucked you. I said, oh, did you now?

He says, when your eyes were closed, I said, yes, okay, I remember now. Oh, my God. So I'm meeting people that have fucked me, and I had no clue. That was a little awkward. it was fun. That's a gang bang, you know? Yes.

So that was one after the other. There was, like, I guess a scene with three at a time. And, and then when one would finish, they would rotate out or, you know,

they would rotate out. She'd pick a new one. And you go, and you go. And it's funny because the story, I couldn't see anything. So I was experiencing this from a censorial point of view.

Dick A, big dick. You know, Mr. Big Dick, Mr. Big Dick, Mr. Small Dick, Mr. Harry Dick. Like, that was not all in my reference,

right? Yeah. Mr. Smells Good. Yeah. Doesn't smell so good. And afterwards, she was saying that when she was picking them, they were all standing around, like a whole bunch of men, and they're all like jerking. And she was looking at them.

The power trip that she had, you know, going through the line and saying, you're in. Right. The men would look like they just won the lottery and be like, oh, oh, and in they go. You know, they're like excited to be chosen and into they go to the scene. So it was like she was making their day. I was making their day. They were making mine. Everyone left happy that night.

And this girlfriend, you keep mentioning this girlfriend, is this a girl that you met at the club? I'm assuming because this is not an outside friend of yours, right? Yes, exactly. This is a platonic friend that I met at the club. And we've been kind of BFFs ever since. And she's my wing girl. Obviously. And yeah, and I'm her.

She's not so DTF. She takes more time to warm up to people. So she wouldn't be in these, you know, rapid like you, you, you, gangbanks. So that wouldn't happen. So she, but she loves to curate this stuff. She loves to orchestrate. She likes to be in charge as an orgy coordinator. Yeah.

You would call her. Yeah, totally. It is interesting. Totally. You know, when I talk to people, everybody has a different kind of experience. I remember a lot of times with couples, some couples really want to get to know the people ahead of time and stuff. And I remember I had this one couple on and they were like, not Hasidic Jews,

but they were very strict in. their religion. And I remember asking them the question they decided to swing. I'm like, what do you guys, you know, how do you roll? And she said, you know, we made a specific decision. We decided like, are we going to be picky or are we going to be slutty? And she was like, I decided let's be slutty. I was like, I love that because, you know, it's like, everyone is different. But it's is, there's something entertaining to me about the person that just like, go fuck anybody. So I think that I had this in me all the time. Yeah. I always think that this potential, was there to just get down and dirty.

And, you know, when you're younger, you're like, well, I'm going to maybe try and find a husband one day and have kids and blah, blah, blah, and all that stuff. Look, life passes you by. It didn't happen. I have nothing to lose and I wanted to be slutty. I wanted to embrace my inner slut. Yeah. That is what I have done.

Yeah, there you go. Listen, I think everyone reads, reads that book, you know. Like, you get married at this age, you do this at that age, you know, and this. I never bought into that and I did things when I fucking wanted to and my life is very like not normal if you put a time stamps to it and age attached to it and stuff. But I don't think that's how real life is supposed to be anyway. You know, throw that fucking book out. It doesn't really matter. I think life is a journey.

Everyone's things happen in their own time. Like your life is your life. Your path is for you, made for you and is set up specifically for you. I think what happens sometimes as people look at other people and they judge their life by others and they put age and chronological shit attached and all that kind of stuff because like I said, they buy into that book. And it's so dumb because it's like swimming upstream. You're going to be going against the natural rhythm of your own life.

And I think right now you're just like relaxed into it. You're living your best life after having a really, going through a really difficult time. You know, listen, COVID was hard for everybody just on its own, but you had a massive death of something. Like you said, you know, it wasn't great, but it was what you knew. It's what you, where you were, you know, you were in that for 11 years. So I can't imagine. You know, I can't imagine having to go through that in that time. And you really came from such a low to being in such a great place.

And that's what I think, that's how I think life goes. It's just sometimes you're not there yet and people don't know that the good is coming from the bad or the ending that they just went through. I think you just like, who knows where you're going to be five years from now? But like you're at the start of it, you know? Yeah. I consider like the phoenix risen from the ashes. I was in a land that was nowhere and dead and feeling dead inside. And by embracing, and I guess that's the moral of the story, by embracing something being.

beyond you and doing something you wouldn't normally do that would benefit you. Yeah. Do it. Embrace it. And for me, it happened to be sexual liberation. And what a time it is. You know,

I mean, I'm marking my 50th birthday this year. Yeah. Yeah, that's amazing. And I have immortalized this journey through boudoir photos and just everything I've done. I'm thinking of maybe even getting my first tattoo. How crazy is that?

Yeah, yeah. I love it. Yeah. Nobody knows. Nobody knows. I don't tell people my age at the club. They're all like, you're 28. You're 35.

I'm like, yeah, you got it. Exactly right. As you know. Right. Whatever you need to be for them. That's right. That's what I have. Yeah, but you know, and I think of the, like as long as you're alive, I'm always

like there's a, you know, you could change and you could do whatever at any age. I remember once walking down the street and there was a guy riding on a skateboard and the person I was with was like, oh my God. Look how old he is. He shouldn't be on a skateboard. I'm like, who thinks like that? Like, you could be on a skateboard at any age. You could have an orgy for the first time at any age.

I think it's like, you know, don't get so attached to that kind of a thing. And I think it's hard that, and a lot of people do. But I think the best thing in life is to try not to because that's the key to it all. I mean, like you said, this was like probably always who you were and this was a part of you. And you're just learning this. You know, you're like, and so it's not like you're creating a new persona. It's just about you're figuring out who you really are. Exactly.

And trying to live it. I mean, a lot of people suppress who they want to be because it doesn't fit into our norms. Yeah, yeah, yeah. And it doesn't fit into their lifestyle. And that's possible. But if you embrace it, you'll find a piece of yourself that you didn't even know is missing. Yeah, totally. And I mean, I never knew what sex positive meant when that term first started coming out, you know.

But I do now. And like this kind of a conversation to me is sex positive. What you're going through is sex positive. I love this kind of thing. And I love putting these kinds of stories out there. Because I think people, if they just heard, oh, this girl likes gang bangs, orgies, you know, they just heard that sentence. People could get such a judgment about that person, you know.

But if they hear your whole story, to me, it's like I said, it's transformative. It's inspiring. It's got all that kind of stuff that I love. It's real life. Yeah, it has this naughty stuff and it's all about sex. But it's deeper than that. And I think that, and that's, that's the kind of stories I like. Yeah. It's, it's definitely a journey of a coming of age, but not the age that you'd think. Yeah. And it's the, the universe keeps sending me messages that remind me that I am a sex goddess. I love that. And yeah, I'm taking it. to the limit. So it's nice. Another DTF. Can't wait. Roxy is a sex goddess. I don't know what I'm going to title this, but thank you so much for

giving me like one great fucking story. Okay. You're going to be back on, please. Maybe you and your girlfriend will come back on at one time. That girl. I want to talk to her too. But make sure to make sure to keep me posted and good luck on your journey. I think I, like I said, I love these kinds of stories and not a happy ending, but a turn. And it really shows people. So I'm glad to have it on to put it out. Thanks so much for calling in. Thank you so much. Bye. Okay, I just want to tell you before you go that my book, it's called Strictly Anonymous Confession, Secret Sex Lives of Total Strangers, is now available not only in paperback and e-book, but you can pre-order the audiobook. It's still not going to be out until August 25th,

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