Strictly Anonymous Confessions - 1030 - FETISH FRIDAY: Calvin has a Pantyhose Fetish and he Now Enjoys Dressing Up from the Waist Down

Episode Date: February 7, 2025

Calvin has pantyhose fetish and enjoys dressing up from waist down and he called in to talk all about it. Tune in to hear all the details including when he realized he was into pantyhose and what stood out about them most to him, when he started wearing them and where he got them from the he was younger, how and why he started wearing pantyhose in the shower, how he got caught by his father and brother and how they reacted, how he felt about his fetish early on, when he started buying them for himself, how and why he never told his first wife about his fetish, where he kept his stash and when he would wear hose while he was married, how and why he’d purge, when he got divorced and how he met second wife, how and when he told her about his fetish and how she reacted when he started wearing around her as well as wearing during sex and how she felt about it, when he started dressing up from waist down and what he enjoys about it, what he digs when it comes to pantyhose, the brands he likes being a very tall and bigger guy plus a whole lot more. **To see anonymous a pics of CALVIN plus my other female guests + get TONS of exclusive CROSSDRESSER and or HOSER episodes and content + hear all the anonymous confessions, join my Patreon Crossdresser tier it's only $8 a month for Hosers and $10 a month for crossdressers (you get also get Hoser episodes too!) and you can cancel at any time. You can sign up here: https://www.patreon.com/StrictlyAnonymousPodcast MY BOOK IS NOW OUT FOR PRE-ORDER!!!! Strictly Anonymous Confessions: Secret Sex Lives of Total Strangers. A bunch of short, super sexy, TRUE stories. GET YOUR COPY NOW: https://amzn.to/4i7hBCd To Join SDC and get a FREE Trial! click here: https://www.sdc.com/?ref=37712 or go to SDC.com and use my code 37712 Want to be on the show? Email me at [e-mail] or go to http://www.strictlyanonymouspodcast.com and click on "Be on the Show" Have something quick you want to confess while remaining anonymous? Call the CONFESSIONS hotline at 347-420-3579. You can call 24/7. All voices are changed. Sponsors: https://shop.butterwellness.com/pages/vday Get 20% off your The Perineum Massager by Butter Wellness. Go to butterwellness.com and use the code “STRICTLY” at checkout for 20$ off your entire ordeR https://bluechew.com Get your first month FREE! https://beducate.me/anonymous2025 Use code anonymous To get an additional 10% off the campaign’s current discount - that’s 60% off Follow me! Instagram https://www.instagram.com/strictanonymous/ Twitter https://twitter.com/strictanonymous?lang=en Website http://www.strictlyanonymouspodcast.com/ Everything else https://linktr.ee/Strictlyanonymouspodcas Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

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my code 37712. That's SDC.com. Use my code 37712 for your free trial or it's easier to just go to the description and click on the link that I put in there. It'll take you right to your free trial. Okay, today I'm on Calvin. I love Calvin's story. It's super interesting. I could talk to a million hosers. I'm always going to hear something new and I definitely heard something new on his his episode, I'm not going to tell you what it is. You're going to have to wait for it. I was like, surprise. I'm like, no, my ears are talking to a hosers. I've never heard of a hoser that does this with bany hose. You got to listen to it. And then you got to write in and tell me if you do this too. But he's definitely a hoser. He's also cross-dresses too, a little bit. That comes later on in his life.

And he talks all about that. He was married twice. His first wife had no idea. But his second wife knows all about his fetish. And he talks all about that, too. Of course, we start in the beginning. beginning when he realized he was into pantyhose and how that all played out in his life. And then we talk about, you know, how he kept it a secret when he was older and then how he told his wife, how she reacted and how he's like really out and proud with her now. And then we also talk about how he started dressing and wearing other things. He's kind of a crosshester from waist down, he says. And he talks about that and he talks about what he wears. So he set me in some picks of all his stuff, his stash, uh, his clothing, all that good stuff is over on my page. And if you want to see it. And he'll be over there too.

if you want to talk to him. But his story is super interesting. Like I said, you're going to hear something that I never heard before. And I think if you're a hoser and you never thought to do this with hos, you might try it after hear him talk about it. So anyway, I'm going to get right to it and be right back on with Calvin. Hey, Calvin, welcome to the strictly anonymous podcast. How are you today?

Good, good, good. So, Calvin, you're a hoser? Is that what you are? Yes, I am. That's the short story. I love to get, listen, I could talk to gazillion hosers, and I have, but it is always a, You know, and it's always interesting to me to talk to another one because everyone's story is unique. How old are you now? You sound kind of young, Calvin. How old are you now? I'm 40. Okay, you're 40. Now, how long ago did that hoser? Oh, let me get a quick snapshot of where you're at though now. Okay, so you're 40. Quick question, are you married?

I am. Okay. Now, does your wife know about your hoser fetish? Yes, she does. Oh, okay, great. So we'll work up to that. But let's go all the way back. and talk about, you know, when it was that you realized that you were into panty, I was like, what were those first memories for you? The first memories, I would actually have to say I'd go back almost until elementary. Yeah, normally it does go back. Listen, I've had some guys where it doesn't go back that far, and that's more surprising to me. Typically, it's very, very young. So elementary school, you remember stuff?

Elementary school, I do remember stuff. Obviously, I had family members who wore back in the day, you know, in the early 90s. Yeah. And, you know, it was very popular back then. Yep. Not as much as now, but I feel like it's making a comeback. But, yeah, I started off back then.

And as a young kid, you never, you know, there's no, you know, you're around fan members who wear and grab a leg or something like that. And you feel that softness. And it was always, it was always like a ooh type of thing, you know. The tactile sensation of it. Yes. Yeah, that's interesting. A lot of times that is a part of it.

Now, did you also like the leg? Like, was it about the legs? Or was it about this material and how it looked and how it felt to you? Yeah, it was more like how it looked and felt. It wasn't about the leg very much. It's not much of a leg guy unless it's covered in panty hose. Yeah, no, I know. Some people would say, like, there's this one guy who's for John Smith.

He was always like, oh, most panty hose guys are into legs and why they like panty hose is because, you know, panty hose makes legs look perfect. But for you, what stood out was this thing that looked like visually appealing to you and felt stimulating to you, correct? Yes, yes, yes. Okay, cool. So now you start seeing these things. And when you're little, you could touch it. Like, you could touch your aunts, like, so they're not thinking anything of it.

You know, nobody knows that this fetish exists. They don't know this is a little hoser in the making. Yeah, yeah, yeah. Yeah, okay, so go on. So you're starting to, like, notice these things when you're super young. So I, yep, so I started noticing when I was super young. And then if you move a little forward, I actually didn't really, like, it didn't really like start clicking on to me until maybe my teens. Okay. So what happened in your teens that stands at that you remember the first thing?

I found a pair of my mothers in the basement of our house. It was like in the laundry area. It was just this simple white, I want to say they might have been microfiber or. or even a little lighter, but I found them there. And, you know, as a curious kid, you know, you touch them, you feel them. And one thing left to another, I just was fascinated with them. And then I believe they were just in a bag that my mom just either forgot about because she never really cleaned them or anything after she had left them there. Okay. So they were there for a while.

And I always, you know, every once in a while, I would go down there. and just, you know, either play with them, rub them, you know, smell them, touch them. Now, at this point, was it a sexual thing for you because you're a teenager? I wouldn't say it was sexual, but it was definitely satisfying. Yeah, interesting. Okay. To have them, you know, and just feel them and touch them. They weren't, it wasn't really sexual at all until maybe later on in my later teens that it became a little more sexual. Yeah, so at this point where you're just starting to feel them and touch them up close, right, and personal.

It's just like this weird, satisfying thing for you. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. It's interesting, right? Yeah. Oh, yeah. It definitely was.

And then, like I said, my mom never really came and got them. So I eventually, I brought up the courage to actually put them on. And then the big, big one I used to do a lot with them was I would just wear him in the shower. Hmm. And that felt, you know, amazing, you know. Okay. Wait a second. I'm going to have to do a poll.

I do, I love doing polls on my Patreon. I'm going to have to do a poll because this is a new thing. I've never heard of this and I'm sure other hosers are going to chime in. Have you ever worn the pantyhoes in the shower? That is so, and you loved it.

It's hot. Interesting. Explain it. It's just a more sensation because pantyhoes are like a second skin. Yeah. So when you're, you know, when you use soap and rub on them, it has a different sensation to it.

And to me, it felt amazing. Wow. I feel like you're going to spawn a lot of like, you're going to like, inspire a lot of hosers to maybe go out and try it if they never have. I have never once in all of my years. This is why I told you I could get on a million hosers. I'm always going to learn something now. I don't think one hoser has ever told me that they wore in the shower. It's so interesting to me. It's amazing. Like I said, it feels, it feels completely different from just wearing them dry. Like I said, it's so smooth. It feels so silky, especially when you have, you know, like a 20 denier or 15 denier.

You know, there's a different sensation to it. Oh, so low den. You want the low den is what you're saying? Lower den. Yeah, you want a low den. I mean, I've never tried it with a higher den, but I would assume it'd be this, you know, roughly the same. But, you know, the lower den, it just feels amazing in the shower. Oh, my God.

So interesting. Like I said, I'm going to do a poll about it and see and then ask people if they've ever done before. Now I'm going to have to ask posers in the future. Like, did you ever wear them in the shower? I'm going to talk about you forever. Anyway, okay, so you started wearing, you started wearing them in the shower. Keep going. So I'm wearing them in the shower and then,

and, you know, as a kid, you always feel like, you know, like you're doing something wrong, but at the same time, I mean, it felt great to do it. Yeah. And from there on, I just, you know, I kept going downstairs and grab every time, every time I'd be done with the shower, take them back and put them in the same place,

try to put them in the same place. You know, the same way that she laid them out in the bag. And, you know, and I just kept going back and forth, back and forth. Did you ever get caught? I never got caught with those. But I want to say, you want to fast forward a little bit? I did get caught right after Halloween. I was at home by myself, the typical kid who goes to middle school.

And I found a pair of my mom's in one of her drawers. I put it on. And then sure enough, I want to say maybe 30 minutes. later, my father and my brother came walking in through the door. Wait a second. You're wearing panty hose? Yeah. Oh, my God.

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That's avocado mattress.com. Avocado mattress.com. What do they do? Well, my dad, you know, you freaked out for a bit, obviously, and there was a whole sit-down in the conversation about why you do that and don't do that. That's not really the type of thing to do. you know and I kind of blew it off like oh I was just curious and I just was wondering and that kind of story that I gave that kind of spiel even though that wasn't really the case it was more

I really like doing it and enjoyed wearing but like said at the time when I got caught I was it was just try to get this out of the way and not have a conversation about anymore because it wasn't going to end well oh no your dad wanted you to lie and lie good he didn't want to talk about it anymore either How do you brother have? I'm pretty sure no, he did it. At the same time, it was a sit down between my mom and dad. Oh, my God. I had the dinner room, at the dining room table,

and have a conversation about it. And it was just awkward. So like I said, I said the nearest thing I could possibly think of, and it was just, oh, it was just curiosity. It wasn't doing it or anything. It was just curiosity. I had to walk in the wrong time. Did they ask any weird questions, either one of them,

or did they just want it to be over with? They asked, you know, they asked, they asked the typical questions, you know, like, oh, why did you do that? Where you're feeling some type of way or, you know, like that. And I just, I just, I went with the same answer, you know, I was just curious, just curious, you know, I wouldn't. Yeah, people have no idea that it's a fetish, you know, and it's a very common one. A lot of guys have it, and it doesn't really mean anything other than you really like pantyhoes. A lot of times it doesn't lead to anything more. It's not like every, you know, a hoser becomes a cross jester and it's not like every cross jester

is a hoser, you know, some do go on to wearing other things, but a lot just, you know, or into the hose. So, but people are so uneducated about it. So, of course, your parents were going to freak out. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. Yeah, okay, so go on. So after that, you know, that was a strange situation. I've seen it made it very awkward.

So I didn't, I didn't do anything for a while after that. But I want to say maybe a year or two later, when I was in high school, it came across again. So it was kind of like, I kind of like purged it for a little bit, but at the same time, it was still lurking in me. So I want to say, yeah, early high school, I found another pair. Or I think I might actually got the courage that actually bought my own self from pair. And then just enjoyed it. And that's when it became a little more sexual, obviously. And I, you know, I got into seeing porn with.

it and and it really, really became a thing, you know. Yeah. So, yeah, I mean, and like I said, early high school, it was just when it really kicked off. And I, uh, I would go to like the local Walmart and just buy,

you know, some thigh highs. And I, I even bought a, our garter belt, you know, to hold them up. And, um, I'll just wear, I only wore at night. I didn't wear during the day because I didn't want to get caught. But I would worry that. at night when everybody would want to bed.

And then I would just wear and then just enjoy. It's very ballsy that you would go to the store and buy. Yeah. Well, that was the only way I could, that was the only way I can get to it. Yeah. You know, I, getting caught, I think, was kind of hard of me because I was like, oh, my God, that was my mom's stuff.

Like, I should not have done that. So from that point on, I didn't look at anything of my mom's ever again. Yeah, I got it. I get it. So you had no choice. That's how you felt, right? Yeah, I felt like I had no choice. Yeah. And if I got caught again, I'm sure it was going to, it was going to even more of a talk and probably even, probably therapy for my, for my parents. Yeah, no, I know. I know. I know that you do and I don't want to, we don't have to get to this until it comes up. But I do know that you do also consider yourself like, I don't think you use the word closeted, like closed door,

cross-chester, like you also wear other things eventually. Like, did that start around this time, or does that come way later in the story? That comes way later. Okay, so let's not go there just yet. So now you're still in high school. Now, do you ever question your sexuality? Are you freaked out that you like panty-hose? Like, I mean, you know, how are you feeling at that time in your life about all of this?

Well, at that point, I feel like I was a little in the typical stage where I was like, you know, why I'm a street male. I'm not, I know, I'm not into. guys or anything like that. I'm not gay or anything like that. Back then, that was the type of thing. The type of thinking was if you cross-dressed, then you must be gay. No. Yeah. To me, it was just a really nice sensation. You know, I was a hip puberty and, you know, the sensation felt amazing and felt great. And, you know, I didn't want to let it go. You know, it was, you know, it was very tempting to always wear and enjoy it and have people around me who

didn't know and didn't want me to do it obviously. But yeah, it wasn't until later on where I got into the whole other stuff. Yeah, we don't have to go there. I like to go in chronological order and get like the life story. So now you're like, you know, in middle school or high school and you're like jerking off. Now it's a sexual thing. You're wearing them. You're buying them.

Are you dating girls around this time and do you cop to it to them? I actually know. I was dating girls and I was not telling them. And part of me, I guess is that when I was dating them, I wasn't, wasn't interested into it as much. Oh, that was like a time where it was like it was kind of pushed down or to the side. Yeah. Okay. Yeah.

Yeah, that happened. You know, so I dated early in high school. And, you know, it was, it was fine, but I didn't, I wasn't enjoying the panty hole's life. And I guess when I was single, I guess is when I was. when I enjoyed it more. Yeah, that's interesting. I could see that. I mean, especially when you're young like that.

You got a girl, and this is your first girl. She's letting you bang her and do stuff to her. Like, yeah, that's all that you need at that point. Yeah. Yeah, at that point, the hormones are, you're taking care of. Yeah, you have a real live girl, finally. Like, that's all you fucking need in your life. Yeah.

So, yeah, I, during high school, it wasn't, it wasn't, it wasn't as active as, I guess, as it normally is now. Okay, so what happens after high school? After high school, I actually went into the military, and it wasn't, obviously, that wasn't something I could indulge while I was there. Right, yeah, yeah, yeah. I did a lot of, I did roughly about eight years. And then, so I didn't indulge in it much, but I always constantly thought about it. Yeah.

That's the other thing I should tell you is that. It's constantly on my mind. Okay, so that's important, I think, to say. It's not like, listen, you might not be engaging or doing it, but it's always there. Yes, it's always there. You know, and, you know, you could always see a picture or video. And normal people, you know, they'll look at the person's face or like that. And I was the type of person, I would just look at their feet or look at their legs and see if they were actually wearing.

Yeah, of course. Yeah. That's the type of thing I used to do. And actually, I guess in a way I still do it today. but not as much. Yeah. Just because I indulge it more now, so I don't have to worry about other people. Yeah, I got it. But yeah, after high school, went to the military, did about eight years,

and then when I got out was when it really started to come out. I actually got married while I was in the military. Okay. To my first wife. Oh, okay. So you're with your second wife now? Yes. Okay.

But my first wife had no clue about it. Oh, so you never told her. I never told her. Did she ever catch you or anything? Did you have a stash at that time? At that time, I did have a stash. Okay. And, you know, again, like the typical hoser, you know, started off, I would buy some and then, you know, I would think, like, oh, my God, this is horribly wrong.

I shouldn't do this. And I'd purge it. I probably did that. I want to say at least three or four times. While you're with her. Well, I was with my wife. Yeah. My first wife.

But again, I never told her about it. She had no clue, you know. Where did you keep your stuff? I kept my stuff in a box in the basement. Okay. So, you know, back then it was, you know, she would go downstairs or, I mean, she'll go upstairs to go to bed. I watched TV for a little bit longer. And what I would do is wait until she would go downstairs.

fell asleep and then I would go downstairs, grab it, put it on, and then just enjoy watching TV while we're it. And did you ever get caught? No. Okay. Okay. How long were you married to her for? Married to her for eight years. Now, did you feel like because you were keeping it on the DL and you're living with her and you're married? And, you know, did you feel like it started to grow more because you were trying to resist it? Was it just always there and you were able to like feed your interest in while, you know, dressing while she was asleep? Like, how was that living that double life for those years with her? Honestly, it really wasn't that bad.

Okay. You know, it was, you know, it was, it was just like, you know, I'm not harming the one. I'm sticking to myself. I'm not going out in public. I'm not doing anything crazy at home watching baseball game while wearing and just enjoying it. Yeah, listen, I love that. I think the way you frame things is very important, right? And if you frame it like you're okay with it, then there's nothing else going on there.

You know, I think the problem arises is when you are doing it and then you have all these negative sort of thoughts and you're at odds with it and then it becomes a much bigger thing. But you felt okay with what you were doing and you didn't have any issues with it. So that's probably why it never sort of went. It never created any kind of confusion in you because you weren't confused. Yeah, yeah. But you didn't tell her, which is interesting because you do wind up telling your second wife. Yes, but yeah, I, with the first wife, I did mention to her that I liked it when she wore them.

And she used to work in the, in the business industry where she wore them all the time, but she didn't really particularly like wearing her himself. So she was the type of one, she would wear the dress suit with a pencil skirt and hose. And then so she got home, she would rip them off. Right, like a normal girl. Yeah. Yeah, which is fun. I get it, but at the same time, you know, here's your husband who tells you, you should wear, you know, I really enjoy it when you do.

And she didn't pay much attention to it. So, yeah. Well, I think sometimes you don't really explain it enough to these girls. They don't really understand, you know, enough. But we don't need to talk about that. Let's keep going on with your story. So you wind up getting divorced from her. She never winds up finding out, correct?

Yes. She never found out ever. So do you meet your girl early on the next? next wife after her or do you date in between me? Yes. Yes. I was actually separated. We were separated at the time my first wife and I met my second wife who actually was my friend. Oh, that's a good foundation. We're friends for it. Yeah. It's great. We're friends and we hung out and How did it turn? Like who made the first move? That's a good question actually. You would have to ask her that. Why? She's the one? Say good. She's the one that made the move?

I know I guess it was kind of a mutual well it was a mutual thing because listen I have a lot of guy friends my whole dream in life was like I loved when Harry Met Sally it was like one of my favorite movies I think you know being best friends with someone is and then it turning into something more is such a great story and such like I said a good foundation so I love those kinds of stories but it is weird you know because you hear you are such good friends with someone like that moment where it changes is interesting to me like how did it change from you guys just being friends? Well, I guess it just changed slowly. I was actually still active in the military when I met her. Yeah. So there were a couple times where, you know, we were just hanging out

with all of our other friends. Yeah. We had mutual friends. And I would say actually there was this one night, it's kind of clear my head now. Yeah. What I think about it is that I was I was expecting a phone call to head to the base. And we were at a friend's house.

We were just playing cars, hanging out, and I got that phone call. And I left. So until this day, she tells me, that's when she was like, oh, my God, I might never see this guy again. Like, I really would like this guy. Oh, so that you just leaving and her not knowing about it or something just like made her realize her feelings for you. Yes. Okay.

Interesting. I ended up going to that meeting and just doing a bunch of stuff. And then I want to say a few days later, I called her and you said what was going on and this and that. And I think the, I guess the feelings were developing mutually. Yeah. And then we, I guess we became more close friends. The more and more we realized what we had in common. We had a lot of things in common, you know.

We like the same sports teams. We like to do the same things. But who leans over? How do you wind up in bed together? At the time, I was working at a bar. And when I was working there, she would come and hang out. You obviously bring friends with her, but then come to the bar and hang out and just hang out and just hang out and chill out. And I guess it was just more of a buildup to really, really like each other.

And then one night, you know, I was working and she came in and it just kind of was like, are you going to kiss me or what? Okay, cool. I love that. And so now, all right. So now you're friends with her now. Is that a reason that why you felt comfortable telling her? Like, how does your fetish play into this relationship?

Because for some reason, she knows. I guess, yeah. I guess I was just, I was a lot more comfortable talking to her about it. I mean, trust me, I was deathly scared to tell her about it. But at the same time, I guess I was more comfortable telling about it because our relationship was getting more serious and I didn't want it to hide it. But it's interesting that you didn't, you had no problem hiding it with the first goal. Do you think it was because you were such good friends with this one that you felt like you didn't want to keep that from her? Yeah, yeah.

I would say that definitely had a role in it. Yeah, that's interesting. we um she she's definitely a more open-minded person uh than my first wife and yeah i i would yeah i i would agree with that yes being friends definitely played a better role and and her realizing or her being able to accept it so how when does it come up in conversation is it early on in your relationship yes i would say i would say it was probably it was probably i want to say maybe two years into our relationship. We were just laying in bed and I was, I, I just developed the courage to tell her.

You know, I told her, I said, listen, I, I really like panty hose. And then she was like, okay, cool. And then I was like, no, no, no, like, I really like them. And like, no, you don't know. Right, yeah. Like, yeah, like, I really like it. When you wear them, I really like it. Seeing them, feeling them, touching them, smelling them.

smelling them to the point where I like to wear them. Oh, you were really bold. So you told her this one everything. Yes. Okay. She took it very well, obviously. She was like, okay, cool. Like, I believe at some point she even looked at me.

It was like, why was that so hard for you to tell me? Yeah, of course. But, you know, I did the typical thing. I'm like, I'm a macho man. I don't. I don't know how you were going to react to it. I was very scared, very nervous. But she,

she, you know, made it very easy for me to, you know, to accept it and for me to enjoy it. And it was just, it was, it was a very easy process,

I guess is the best way of saying it. Yeah, I love that. Yeah, that's the way it should be. And I do think with the Panheos fetish, I mean, there's other fetishes,

I think, that are a harder pill for another, for a partner to swallow, right? it all depends, but the Panios fetish, I think, on the scale of, like, I don't know, hardcore fetishes, it's pretty low, right? It's not that big of a deal. I think it's more, it's even a little bit harder when you want to wear them, right?

That's a separate thing. But still, I think most of the time what guys don't understand about women is like, and maybe it's the same for guys, I don't know, but I'm a woman, so I know this. Like, when all the stars align and you actually meet someone that you really like, which is very rare and it rarely happens, if you really like that guy and they, you really like, tell you something like that. You're not going to dump them for it. You know what I mean? Like you like that person. It's not going to be like oh fuck you. So all right. So you tell her and she's like, okay, no big deal. And then what happens? Like do you eventually start wearing in front of her or anything

like that? Yep. I started wearing them. You know, and I was the guy who at that point, I got to the point where I would wear like underneath my jeans. Oh, okay. Underneath my pants out in public. Nobody knew, obviously. So there were times where I would come over and I was. And I was, I would, you know, have a pair out underneath my jeans or underneath my pants and stuff like that. You know, we would just hang out and, you know, we would either lay in bed and just, you know, rub each other's feet and legs and stuff like that. And it was great. Yeah, that's amazing. Yeah.

Now, do you eventually start wearing when you're intimate with her? I know that eventually you start wearing other things, too, but let's stick with the pantingos right now. Yeah. You know, it was when she, I believe she really didn't realize that when she wore her dresses, She would get a little more attention to it. I would pay more attention to it. You know, I would be more touchy-feely and stuff like that. And to me, that's like my drug, so to speak.

Yeah. You know, so if she wore, I was, you know, I was ready to touch her and stuff like that. So she would wear her. And then there were a couple times where, yeah, either we were both wearing or she was just wearing. and to me it felt amazing and it was great. So would you though, I mean, was she down to like bang you while you're wearing, like, and start filling around with you while you're wearing hose like when it came to like having sex? Oh yeah, she didn't.

She had no problem with that. Did that happen early on? Yeah, yeah. It happened fairly early on in our relationship and, yeah. yeah she embraced it just as much as me trying to tell her it really wasn't a problem yeah that's amazing did she do you think that she was like she likes it i think she likes it that i like it i wouldn't say she completely completely enjoys it i i believe she enjoys it when you know i'm a little more touchy feeling with her her her love language is physical so if i'm touching her she's like

I'm all for it. Right, because she gets more attention. She gets more of that physical thing that she loves when she is. Yeah, yeah, yeah. And does she wear for you all the time? Not as much as in the beginning, because we are actually parents. Yeah, that happens. Yeah, shit happens.

Kids happen. You know, between kids and work and all that stuff, she doesn't wear as much as she used to. She's probably in sneakers a lot. with kids. Say again. She's probably wearing sneakers a lot with kids. Yeah, yeah. You know, and she has a job and she'll wear a dress and skirt, but, no, there's days

where it doesn't even, you know, it won't cross her mind or she, it does. But, you know, I enjoy it as much as, as much as she can give it to me. Right. Now, when do you start wearing other things? I actually probably started wearing other things with my, when I was still with my first one. Okay, so how did that come up? I just, again, curiosity, killed the cat. I went to Walmart, bought, you know, a first pair of shoes.

Yeah. Why the shoe thing? Like, how does that come out of nowhere? Did it come out of nowhere? Was it like hose and shoes? Yeah, it just came out of nowhere. You know, if you think about those are things that come together. Yeah, that's what I'm saying.

Like the panty hose in the shoes, you want to see them. Yeah. Yeah. Pankey hose and shoes, you know, and it's, you know, it's just something that goes along. And then, you know, I eventually got a skirt and really enjoyed that. And, you know, other than that, to be honest, though, that's as far as I go. I never, I don't wear dresses or like that. I'm more, I, anybody who I talk to about it, I tell them, I'm a, I'm a crossdresser from the waist down.

Yeah, I get it. I think that, I'm sure a lot of people would agree. That's another good poll question. Are you, like, what kind of crossdresser are you? Like, full-blown or waist down, right? Yeah, yeah. Like I said, I'm just from the waist down. I don't wear any makeup or anything like that.

I don't, I don't, I don't see anything interesting in that, you know. But what is it about wearing waist down, skirt, heel? Like, what is it about that that you enjoy? Can you put it into words? Yeah, I, well, one of the main, one thing is that my wife asked me a while ago. Obviously, in the beginning was why? And I, she knows about the crossdressing, too. too. Yeah, yeah, my wife knows about it. I told her, I told her early on that I wore shoes, I wore a skirt before.

Okay. She know, before moving in together, she knew, she knew I had stuff. Yeah, okay, great. But to me, honestly, it's just comfortable. You know, I felt, I feel very comfortable wearing them. there's plenty of times where I'll have a rough day at work or I'll have a rough day doing a situation and as soon as I get home I'm like I got to put a pair on just so I can feel comfortable I can relax and enjoy my night yeah but what about what my question would and I love that about the hose right because that's what it's always been kind of for you right even when you said before it was sexual it was something that was like satisfying it was something that you're always attracted to so it makes sense

that, you know, way later in life, it would be something comforting to you in times of stress or whatever. It's like a, it's a helping you check out, right? And soothing you. But what about the, like, what is it about the shoes and the outfits when you're cross-dressing waist down and you're seeing yourself in that outfit or like, what is that about, do you think? Can you put that into words? Well, I guess the short version of it, it just, it feels sexy. Yeah, that's interesting. You know, there's that feeling of, you know, like, damn, I look good. Like, that's, that, that, that shoe or that heel looks really nice. Or I also have flats.

And I really like wearing my flats because it's comfortable, you know. You know, and they look very cute and very sexual and very sensual, I guess, is the best way of saying it. Yeah, that's interesting. And I, you know, that's the other part, I guess part about it is it looks good. You know, it feels good. looks good, why the hell not? Now, when you're seeing yourself, though, wearing it and you're seeing it, is it

like, it's like this is someone else, or is it you? Is it about you looking hot? Or is it like, oh, like this is your way of like being with a hot chick, but... No, it's all about me. I don't fantasizing any of that

kind of stuff. No, because sometimes, like what I've heard, I'm just going to tell you, like, and it's kind of interesting, it's not across the board. That sometimes, and I'm just editing an episode that I'm putting on to my Patreon for cross-dressers where the cross-dresser guy said, and I've heard this before, that like when he was younger, he had a hard time getting chicks. So his way of being with hot chicks would be to dress up as one.

And a lot of times, whether it's panty-hose, guys or guys that are cross-dressing, sometimes it's about, you know, putting it on and imagining he's with the woman that he's ogling over in the magazines. It's a way of like, you know, sort of creating that fantasy, but it's a part of yourself. So, you know, that's why I was asking, is it about you fantasizing about a woman and you're wearing those outfits and you're projecting onto yourself? Or it's about you looking sexy in that way. And for you, it's about you. Yeah.

Yeah, that's interesting. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Because I don't think it's across the board always the same reason, you know? That's why I always ask these specific questions because everyone has very different. answers. So you just think you look like hot and sexy in that. Even in flats, which I think is interesting. You see flats as sexy, sensual. Yeah, I mean, like I said, I, uh, over the years I've,

I have a shoe collection, you know, I have my own shoes and I hang them up on the rack, you know, next to my wife's shoes. Love it. What size? I have, I have, I have a bunch of flats. I wear size 11. Okay. So you could always find them, right? There's probably a huge selection. Yeah. And what kind? You're going to be a lot. You're going to be a lot. You're You don't have to send me a picture for my Patreon of like your shoe collection. Okay. They'll be interesting. How many shoes you got?

Well, it's not as men as you think. I'll probably say maybe 15 pairs. That's like more than I have. Probably have high heels now that I have a kid. That's a lot. I have a three incher and then I have, you know, one inch or so. Yeah. It just varies.

Do you have a lot of clothing from the waist down besides panty hose? You can send me pictures of your stash. That stuff is always interesting. But do you have a lot of skirts too or no? Yes, I have a lot of skirts. I have probably close to 30 pairs. Wow. And they're hung up in your closet with your wife's stuff?

Well, our closets are separate. Okay, cool. I have the soft skirts, you know, the ones you can, you know, to get on Amazon. And they're very soft. Yeah, you can fold them up. Yeah, you can fold them up and just put them in the drawer. And that's what I do with my stuff. Now, do you dress in that kind of stuff in front of your wife?

Yes. Okay, cool. And she's cool with it? Yeah, she's cool with it. You know, she's she's on board. She's great with it. She's always like, you know, if you're comfortable, I don't care. I don't mind.

Do your thing and that's that. I have an older child and then we have two younger children. The older one I don't wear in front of. but my two younger ones, I don't care right now. And what's the difference? Is it because the older one is with the first wife and she doesn't know? Yeah. Okay, that makes sense.

That's part of it, but he's also older. Yeah. I don't know how he would react to me. You know, the better thing is what you're doing now with the younger ones. Like they don't know any difference, right? Yeah. Because that's all they know. Yeah.

Yeah, that makes sense. So, yeah, there's times where, you know, if, you know, if I'm home and, you know, it's just certain people who are there, then I'm, you know, I'm wearing all day long. Wow, interesting. Why don't you call yourself a close, was it closed door or closeted? Which one was something like that? Yeah. I forgot what you used. It was something like that.

It was closed. I said closed door just because it's only at home. Okay, so you only do it up. But, you know, listen, you know why you're. only do it at home because you're allowed to. All the other guys that are going out is because that's the only place they could fucking dress up. Probably a lot of guys would never have to go out.

They just do it at home if they could prance around in their outfits with their girl and their kids. You know, you're lucky. Yeah. Oh, yeah. And I'm very thankful for that I can do that, you know. Oh, yeah, for sure. Now, do you ever dress up and, like, wear your heels for sex or anything?

Like, do you ever want to be, like, feminine while you're with your girl? Or is that just something that you do to, like, want to. around the house. No, it's more of what I do around the house. I mean, every once in a while, I feel like I get the sensation to wear heels while we're intimate, but not because I'm trying to be the female. It's just more because I think it's kind of hot. No, no, no.

I wouldn't think that. You're never doing it for the female. I'm saying, but you do do it. Sometimes you want to feel hot with her. And it just adds to the time with her. Yeah, that makes sense. Yeah, yeah. Yeah, every once in a while, yeah, that comes along.

Obviously, I love it when she wears. it. You know, if she wears a heel, that adds on to the whole sensation, which is great. Over the years, have she had lots of questions for you? Did she ever question your sexuality or anything? I want to say there was maybe one time, you know, when I had said something about, you know, painting my toenails or something like that. And she was just like, she was, she questioned it, but it was like, it was just very brief. It wasn't really like a, she was like, why do you want to do that. And I was like, I don't know, it's just something to someone told me that might be, might be nice to do. And then, you know, it was kind of like, oh, okay. I mean, that's just a weird,

but at the same time, I get it. Now, where are all these people that you're talking to? Because you've said a couple times, like, is it on my Discord? Is it on Reddit? Is it like on site? I used to, I used to be on Instagram. Oh, interesting. Okay, like as a hoser, like that part of yourself is out there or just you. Okay. It can't be just you as your regular life. right? It's like you as your secret life. Yes. I used to have one. I don't do that anymore. I do talk to everyone. Every once in a while I talk to a couple of buddies of mine who we became friends over the years. And they, every once in a while, they'll send me a picture here and there or something like that.

And we'll talk about, oh, this looks really cool or this looks really nice or that's really hot and something like that. But I don't do that on Instagram anymore, obviously. How common? Is that there a really? reason or just too annoying? Yeah, it was kind of annoying. It was getting, it was getting kind of annoying on there because, you know, you always get the, you know, oh, somebody who's sending a dick pick and stuff like that. I'm just like, I'm not on here for this. I'm not on here for that. Right. You have no interested in men whatsoever. No. Okay. Right. And you're not interested in doing anything sexually with anyone, but you'd like to have buddies to talk to. Like some of those

guys that you said were your buddies. They were other hosers, correct? Yeah. Yes. They were other of hosers and we just talked about what do we like to wear what we don't like to wear you know that looks really hot that doesn't so we yeah we just like I said over the years we talked about that kind of stuff and it was it was always interesting

you know to talk to other people about it because you know at during the years you know always you always had that little tiny feeling in the back you know like why am I doing this or why you know why why why why is this a thing

you know you you feel guilty every once in a while and just like, why? So it was always good to talk to somebody about it, you know, just, you know, always have friends who understood and, you know, you could have a conversation with. Yeah, so let's use the next, like, 10 minutes or so, because that's what we got left, like, talking about the stuff that you actually do really like, like, you want to talk about the colors and the brands and the deniers and stuff

like that, that specific stuff. I think that people are always interested in hearing that kind of information. sure um i i'm i'm i'm i'm more of a bigger guy so i don't have the best selection back in the day you know it was a little easier because i was smaller but now more more you know bigger guy and adult and so i i i go on amazon you know and and check and try to find uh hose there that fit i'm a huge fan of the tan yeah that's the big color yeah tan or tan or Tanner Tope, obviously, our big one's black. I enjoy quite a bit also.

Whites are always very nice, depending on the, you know, the outfit you choose. You know, I always like to pair up my colors up every once in a while here and there. And what about the Den? Den, I'm pretty simple with it. I like probably my highest out of whatever goes, 30. Okay, that's interesting. Yeah, because after that, it's more about being tights, you know, because I like tights.

So I go for like the high dens, but I think there's a very big difference. You know, most hosers are like you. They like the lower den because that's a panty hose. Yeah, I like the lower den just because I feel like it feels a lot better. Yeah. You know, when you get into the tight stuff, then it's, you know, you get the microfiber tights. And it's just like very thick, you know, you might as well wear leggings. Yeah.

And there's a compression feeling to it. It's a total different thing. Yeah. Yeah. So I like 30, 30 denier or lower. The ones I get now are always, usually they're 20. I just recently found a 15 denier, which is very interesting. I tried those on the other day.

They felt pretty good, a little tight, but they felt pretty good. But, yeah, those main colors right there. I wouldn't mind exploring to different colors. My wife, she wears pink every once in a while. Oh, that's fine. Or she has a pair of pink. She wears navy. She has a navy pair that she wears with a certain dress that she

wears, but... So for women, you like different colors? Yeah. For women, I like certain colors, all different types of colors. You know, I like seeing them and they're always interesting to see. I just found Snag. Snag has all sorts of colors. On me, particularly, I'm not really completely interested in, you know, wearing all those

different types of colors. Yeah, but if my wife was to wear them, I'd be totally for it. That'd be kind of cool. Yeah, and now when it comes to seeing your wife wear, and even maybe for you, you too. Do you like seamless? Like, do you like reinforced toe? Do you like, you know, what's your

preference as far as styles? The styles, I'm not really not too picky about. So you don't mind if it has like the, what is that called when they're like control top or whatever? Yeah, control top. The line, yeah, seen the line at the very top of the thigh. That doesn't bother me.

My wife, she likes to wear thigh highs. Yeah. She's when we have like certain events she's great she wears she'll wear like a guard a belt with thigh highs with the you know the line in the back which is super sexy I really enjoy those the uh you know like I said when we go to like weddings I'll like I should wear those kinds of things those are great for me for the most part I'm more like you know I like to wear my 20s there tan or tote and enjoy wearing those I like seeing the more the more tan not necessarily brown but

You know, like the light, nice tan. Yeah, a very nice skin color. I like wearing those. Yeah. And enjoy wearing those. Like said, you know, I think anything above 30, I'm not interested, but below, I'm all for it because it feels great. Is there a specific brand that you could find that you use that you like, considering you're a bigger guy? Well, actually, we just found Torrid.

Torid, it's called? Torid. Torid, it's called. It's one of the newer stores out here where I live. Yeah. And they have really, they're really, really comfortable. They're great. They,

and their large sizes fit you. Yes. They're, they're actually a large size brand store for, for women. Oh, yeah, that's what I could see. I googled them. They're like plus size.

Yes, they're plus size. Yeah, that's smart. They have, they have a small selection, but it's, you know, it's fairly nice. I wear snag Also

They're more of a I believe they're out of Europe They're nice And then the other one that I really like Also is on Amazon If you type in Silky Toe They're very nice too They have a You know in the pluser size

Which is real nice And they fit great Yeah love it You know these little tidbits I think are Super helpful You know I wouldn't always wonder I mean, I always like to ask because I think other people like to hear about it. I'm Googling Silky Toes.

They have all different kinds. I mean, that's a full brand, right? Yep, that's a full brand. They have everything from, you know, leggings to pantyhoes to bras and underwear and stuff like that. Yeah, love it. So listen, I love your story. My favorite part was the showering thing. I'm going to do a poll on my Patreon and ask guys, you know.

Anyone wants to join my Patreon. I have a whole hoser tier in the cross-dressing tier. But I'll probably get to air this on my regular podcast, maybe you will see, so that everybody gets to hear it because it's a good episode that, because it has both hoser and cross-dressing on it, which I think is super interesting. But if you could do me a favor for my Patreon is send me some picks of your stash, if you want,

or are you wearing, like anything like that would be super cool that I could share on my Patreon. I always say, like, no dicks and picks if you're going to send me a picture of you wearing, I'm saying, I would never send you anything like that. Okay, cool. But I also think, though, for these kinds of episodes, stash pictures are really interesting, too, like the pictures of your shoes and your skirts

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