Strictly Anonymous Confessions - 1096 - Nick Hawk on Being a Gigolo, the Recent Sin City Gigolo Murderer and More!

Episode Date: April 23, 2025

Nick Hawk called in to discuss his past as a gigolo and then as a gigolo on reality tv and then the recent Sin City Gigolo murder documentary he took part in. Tune in to hear all the details including his early experience as a stripper, how and and when and why he started stripping and how it changed him for the better, when and how he decided to then become a gigilo for Cowboys with Angels and then how that led to him being on reality tv, the types of clients he would see and how the whole experience was set up, how and why he was always very picky when it came to what he would and would not do with his clients, what he was open to doing with clients on the show vs. what he was open to off the show, what really went down while filming vs. how it was portrayed on the show, the awakenings he had and how that led to him ending his stint as a giggle, what he did after he left the show and the business, the gigolo named Ash who wound up murdering a woman and how and why he never liked him, the documentary he was in about the murder called Sin City Gigolo: A Murder in Las Vegas and what he learned taking part in it, how some of the other gigolo’s he worked with also got involved, the last words Ash had spoken to him and why they’re relevant, how and why he moved to Arizona and how he is now helping people. You can find more on Nick and get all his info here: www.nickeaglemystic.com All Nick's Social Media is @thenickhawk" **To see pics of NICK HAWK plus HOT, anonymous pics of my other female guests + hear anonymous confessions + get all the episodes early and AD FREE, join my Patreon! It's only $7 a month and you can cancel at any time. You can sign up here: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.patreon.com/StrictlyAnonymousPodcast⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ and when you join, I'll throw in a complimentary link to my private Discord! MY BOOK IS NOW OUT FOR PRE-ORDER!!!! Strictly Anonymous Confessions: Secret Sex Lives of Total Strangers. A bunch of short, super sexy, TRUE stories. GET YOUR COPY NOW: https://amzn.to/4i7hBCd To Join SDC and get a FREE Trial! click here: https://www.sdc.com/?ref=37712 or go to SDC.com and use my code 37712 Want to be on the show? Email me at [e-mail] or go to http://www.strictlyanonymouspodcast.com and click on "Be on the Show" Have something quick you want to confess while remaining anonymous? Call the CONFESSIONS hotline at 347-420-3579. You can call 24/7. All voices are changed. Sponsors: https://butterwellness.com/ For 20% off your Butter Wellness perineum massager use code STRICTLY https://bluechew.com Get your first month of the new Blewchew Max FREE! use code: STRICTLYANON https://beducate.me/pd2508-anonymous Use code anonymous to get an additional 10% off the campaign’s current discount - that’s 60% off Follow me! Instagram https://www.instagram.com/strictanonymous/ Twitter https://twitter.com/strictanonymous?lang=en Website: http://www.strictlyanonymouspodcast.com/ Everything else https://linktr.ee/Strictlyanonymouspodcas Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

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Okay, today I have on next. Nick is super interesting. He was on a show called Gigalows. You know him, Nick Hawk. He was on a show called Jigalos that ran for six years. Okay, I am a reality TV obsessed fan, but for some reason I missed that series. But I heard of it. What happened recently with that show is one of the guys on there, Ash, okay, wound up murdering someone in a blackout.

Like, this is the real thing. This is not a fake dateline episode. This is a real Dateline episode, okay? And Nick is here to talk all about it. They just released a documentary called Sin City Jigolo, a murder in Las Vegas. This is a true story. One of the guys on there literally murdered some girl in a blackout,

and he's here to talk all about it. We do, of course, get his whole backstory, which is super interesting. How did he become a quote unquote jigolo? What does being a jigolo really mean? He was a stripper at some point. He talks a lot about the production of the show. six years of it, what was really going down, a lot of behind-the-scenes information that you wouldn't

believe, or maybe you would believe, you know, he also talks about behind the scenes of the documentary, too. And then, of course, we get into details about the murder stuff that he learned. He was a part of the recent documentary that's out, Sin City Gigolo, a murder in Las Vegas. And he talks about the stuff that also went behind the scenes on that documentary. And it's super interesting. You hear it straight from his mouth on this show. He did a whole turnaround. in his life. That's another interesting part of this whole episode, besides the murder details, which is kind of interesting. I was really interested in his journey, which is starting out in L.A. in Hollywood, stripping, being a jigolo, being on TV, getting famous, and now he's like

a spiritual guru, it's master yogi and shaman, and he does a lot of other things, and he's totally in a 100% different place, and he talks about that journey and that change. And he's very very happy where he is. He offers services. He talks about those towards the end. You could check out his website to learn more about him and what he has. It's nick eagle mystic.com. I'll put a link in the description. But if you remember him from the show or even if you don't, you're going to find this whole episode interesting. So I'm going to get right to it and be right back on with Nick. Hey, Nick Hawk. Welcome to the strictly anonymous podcast. How are you today? I am always amazing. Why would we choose anything else?

I said before we even start doing, I just have a feeling we're going to have a fun combo here because you are our character, Nick, and you have such an interesting backstory, and this whole episode is going to be filled with a lot of interesting stuff, sex, spirituality, murder, like, I mean, your story kind of has it all, and you don't even look that old. It's like, imagine what's going to happen in the next 40 years of your life, right? Yeah, well, we're all playing characters, but. I love that. I choose the play has been pretty interesting. I do have to admit that. Yeah.

With all the stuff that I've done as well. Now, Nick Hawk is, I'm assuming, was that the name on jigilos? I mean, you were on jiglo's. Six seasons of jiglos. You were a jigolo. You were also before that a stripper. You did bachelor parties. You told me you were on the girls next door. You strip for those girls, you know, on one of those episodes, which I probably saw. The murder's going to come into play way later. It has to do with someone that you were on jiglos with. That's a big scandal going on right now. You have your own. YouTube channel. You have like a lot of different, you know, social media platforms. Everywhere online, you are at the Nick Hawk, right? And I will put like links to your stuff and everything in the

description, just so people know. My tag is the Nick Hawk online for social media. Yes. Yeah, they just released Sin City Gigolo. It's a three-part documentary on Paramount Plus that talks about the murder and everything. And that's why it's trending and everybody's talking about it. Oh, I love it. We're going to get to that. Because that looks at least. Listen, that's just a part of your life story. But like, let's go all the way back. Because you're very spiritual now. You're like a guru.

You're an ordained minister. But you were once a fucking jiggle. And I would assume that meant that, like, you had sex for money. I never had sex for money. Okay. There were times I would have done that. When I was a stripper, there were times I would have probably done that. But I actually, I never did.

The opportunity never presented itself. I actually did. I didn't do anything super crazy at the bachelor's parties. Oh, I've heard stories about those. You never fucked women at the bachelor parties? I never did. I never did. I never even got a blowjob at one.

Really? Yeah, I didn't. I felt like one day I may have to start doing that to continue to get bookings. But when I started feeling them out more, especially bachelorette parties, when I would leave them and we didn't do those crazy things that you sometimes hear about. Yeah. I feel like, you know, they're going to sleep better, especially the Bachelorette, you know. And you too, I don't know. I have regrets going into this. And I didn't, I, you know, I would get nude and dance around and we'd have a good time. I'd do, I've had a whole routine. It's been a while. I got to think about it. But I would give, I'd have a lap dance contest with the girls would dance on me and the winner would get a, my company at the time was explicit strippers.

And they would get some booty shorts or a prize for the winner. And I, I would do a lot of fun things, but yeah, nothing super crazy sexual, and I'm glad I didn't because I feel like everybody's drinking and getting crazy and drunk, and, you know, there had been a lot of regrets, especially I've done over 300 Bachelorette parties, too, and if every Bachelorette was blowing me, like, I'm glad I didn't do that. Okay, well, let me ask you this. First of all, how old are you right now? Do you speak your age, like, how old are you now?

40 something two three yeah I get it I know I try not to remember my age either sometimes I forget too but okay so you're 40 something how old were you when you got how old were you when you got into that business how old were you when you got into that business and what made you decide to get into it like did stripping come first because then eventually you became a jiggle and you were on that show and we're going to get to what that fucking means and what you did and what that was all about but was the stripping like the start of it all Yeah, I don't really do time anymore, but I'll do my best here. Please, please.

We need, you know, we're still on planet Earth. We need time. Mid-20s, the late 20s is when I started stripping. I actually, I was in the Air Force for four years, and I struggled with my confidence greatly growing up. I actually, I lived in a constant state of panic. I couldn't talk to girls. I found alcohol, and I was able to start talking to girls. But I had a stripper friend who was 17 when I was 16.

and the whole town found out that he was a stripper and everybody made fun of him and called him gay and like all these things and I envied him. I couldn't, at the time I couldn't talk to a girl, much less dance in a G-string or dance nude in front of a group of girls. I just, I thought that was the most courageous act like a man could ever do. So I envied him. I wanted to be like him for many years. I joined the Air Force. After the Air Force, it was either moved back to Wisconsin, mow lawns and remove, move snow or go to California, suck it up, try to learn what confidence is, and pursue entertainment.

And when I moved to California, I called a stripping agency. And I told, I lied to them. I said I had experience. They're like, come out to the show this Thursday or Friday night. And I went to the show. And again, there was the headline act was this cop act. And all the girls are screaming for him. And he's just the chalkiest, most arrogant person he'd ever meet.

He's fighting with the boss. and he's got a bag full of money. He's the headlining act. And again, he's everything that I wanted to be. A few days later, the boss called me up and said, so-and-so is fired. You're in this Friday. Oh, wow.

And yeah. And so I had to learn an act in a couple days. I shaved all my hair for the first time in my life. And I somehow, I got wasted and I got on that stage. And I don't remember much, but I had a bag full of money. And then after it, he took me to my first bachelorette. party and the same thing happened. I gave I remember giving a lap dance for 30 seconds to a girl and I blacked out. I don't remember anything. I don't remember anything until I was leaving the house walking in the

grass with him with a bag full of money all the girl screaming and really happy. So I guess I can't say for sure I haven't done anything crazy because that that's one time I don't remember, but I don't think it went down. But then I went from that to yeah, a year of just just going for it and in tackling my confidence and I moved to Hollywood. I started taking improv and scene study classes and audition classes and you just have to go for it. Few people struggled as I did with their confidence and straight panic attacks. I'd wear special shirts in high school that didn't show my sweat because I was in a constant state of panic and constantly sweating. It was insane what I went through as a child, but I wanted to battle all those demons and get through it. And I did. And then yeah, next thing,

you know, I'm dancing at the Playboy Mansion three feet away from Hugh Hefner. rotating lap dances of like a line of 30 playmates without any alcohol in me. And it felt really good. And I did. And then, yeah, next thing you know, I'm dancing at the Playboy Mansion three feet away from Hugh Hefner, rotating lap dances of like a line of 30 playmates without any alcohol in me. And it felt really good.

And cameras, right? Because they're filming it for TV. So you also have that on top of it, right? Yeah. Oh, yeah. Knowing that millions and millions of people are going to see it as well. do you think that like doing that and just like going in such an extreme way to conquer your fear is what helped you get past it? Because here you were like this massively shy guy that couldn't even talk to chicks, right?

Like did stripping help you become more confident? Like just actually like going to like the like you know just you know you kind of went right into your fear like the opposite extreme of it. You have to. You have to. Well, number one, this is this is what you have to. do you have to start paying attention to other people you have to see that we are one if you see a confident person you're like you got to look into their eyes and be like i know i'm that i can do that that's what i saw when i saw confident people i'm like i can do this i have to figure out the equation

the calculation i i know we can all do this i i started seeing i had a big awakening before i think it was right before right after i started stripping too where i threw everything out the window and I've spent the day just crying tears, tears of ecstasy and joy, though, not feeling bad for myself, but tears of understanding that now I have to, I have to put the work and I got to take better care of myself, I got to put more effort, and I got to go for this. And I'm going to do everything I can to operate at the highest levels and be the most confident person I can be. Yeah. And then, you know, jump to 10 years later, I wrote a book, how to operate at your full potential and master confidence. Yeah, well, listen, who better to teach something like that than someone who's kind of

been there, done that, right? You're not reading it. Yeah, yeah. learn from a textbook. You learned from actually doing it. Everybody who comes to me. Everybody who comes to me. I see through it. I'm like, I was probably worse than you. I was probably worse from you. I know you can get there. Just keep moving forward. Right. You're kind of like if I could do it, then you can because you're, you and you can empathize. And you could empathize with them. And, you know, I think that that's always like the most powerful person to help somebody else. It's amazing that you were able to do that. Now, okay. I most definitely wouldn't have been able to help as many people as I have if I haven't had my. I had my. story. If I've always been confident, nobody would listen to me. So I'm glad that I had those struggles because, yes, I can help more people now for sure. Yeah. And some of those self-help gurus make up bullshit's backstories. You know what I mean? Trying to pretend that they were sort of been there done that, but they haven't, you know, but I think it's like the best kind of advice you could get is when somebody, it's somebody like you who has been that person and change things up. So, so, okay, so now you're stripping and everything. How do you become a quote unquote jigolo?

And what does the word jigolo mean? So when I was stripping, after I stripped for a couple years, I actually started contacting escort agencies in the LA area because it's something that I was interested in doing and I wanted to do it once my confidence was developed. And all of them wanted to see me to see dudes. And I wouldn't do that. Oh, really? Yeah. Every single agency I call. Like I guess.

Yeah. There's probably more of a demand. But female clients weren't there at the time. Yeah. Yeah. So, I mean, they're still not really there. Yeah. I was one of the few who actually booked a lot of female clients. So I called all the, pretty much all the agencies in L.A.

and they all said that I'd have to see dudes and I want to do that. So about, I actually wasn't that long after this, I think maybe six months or a year. I did have an agency contact me. They found me on some website and saw that I stripped and they asked me to start working for them. And their name was Cowboys for Angels. They were a big part of the Gigolo show, too. Yeah. So they were just getting moving, and the owner asked me to come along, and I started working for him.

He did a big thing on Tyra Banks and promoted it as the first agency, straight men for straight women. Yeah. Which there really wasn't one. All the, like I said, all the other escort agencies wanted you to see dudes. But this is the first one, strictly straight men for straight women. And he promoted on Tyra Bank. it started doing well. I had about a booking a month or every month or two for about a year. And then the TV show Gigalows contacted him, asked him to send in his top guy. And he sent me in.

I nailed the role. Next thing you know, we're shooting the sizzle. And a couple weeks after that, it got picked up. We shot season one and two in the first year. And yeah, things really started happening. wait so okay now when do you have like your first client when you say things started happening you come like you you brought into that company and now you're one of their people now you're seeing only women and you start to see women and like what type of woman was soliciting that kind of a service and so again yeah again prostitution isn't legal so it was never prostitution okay yeah but yeah what was it Your time. And they called it a companion service, which is a more appropriate word because, yeah, we, we weren't selling sex.

It was never guaranteed. We, and I would see any client because, you know, that's, that's not what you're selling. Yeah, I get it. You know, you're selling more of an experience. And that's what he did with his agency as well. You know, he made it more about an experience. You know, our guys will take you out to dinner, take you to a movie, go on cruises with you, travel the world, whatever you want. Yeah, no, I get it, but I want to know, like, what kind of women sets up that kind of arrangement.

Were they married? Were they divorcees? Were they young? Were they old? Were they all of the above? Like, what was the demographics? All the above. Obviously, they had, they, most of them were very successful.

Yeah. Especially when the show started taking off and I started getting many, this endless requests, my prices went way up as well. And I would do a four-hour meet and greet with anybody. You know, we'd, we'd go out. to a club or dinner. And if we got along, if there was some connection there, then I'd agree to see you again. And then usually it's a, you know, one day or a two day minimum after that.

And a lot of the time we'd be traveling around the world. But yeah, it was all of the above, all the above. There's lots of couples. I never liked the couple thing. It was always weird. Oh, that is. What did you have to do with the couples? Like, I don't get it.

There's some situations where, you know, the husband was a very loving person. and he wanted to do this for his wife. And they had a special relationship. And it actually helped the bond in some ways. But most of the time, the husband was by and weird and, you know, would want to touch me. And like, we'd walk to the room and he'd put his arm around me and I'd have to say no. And then it'd just ruin everything. Yeah, yeah.

Well, and there's a lot of cucks out there, though, that aren't by. So maybe sometimes it was something like that. You're not at all, by the way, right? no okay all right now i've never been with a man or had an inclination to do so right but you were able to like get down with and have your experiences with whatever kind of woman was sitting across from you that was there for the experience meaning like you could get down and turned on and into whatever no right definitely not i slept with very few women even in my even in my personal life uh when I started jiggleowing, you know, my big awakening was in my mid-20s.

And, you know, I was still living in Hollywood and partying and being a stripper and screwing off. And I met a lot of women in Hollywood, too, that I hung out with. But when I started, when the show started and when I started seeing more clients and I moved to Las Vegas, I was over the partying. And my body was much more sacred to me. And yeah, there was no way I could just be with anybody. Right.

But there was a time that you were in the beginning? No. They weren't buying sex. I know. I know that the show made it look like, you know, every date we went on, we had sex because it was an adult TV show and they needed to show that. Yeah. And it's and they just needed to see, you know, I simulated all my scenes and jigilos as well. But they needed to see like some, some humping or some tits flopping a little bit, you know.

But let me be more specific. Yeah, but let me be more specific. Okay, because sometimes it would lead to sex if you were interested in that person, correct? Fortunately, when I've always had high testosterone and it's, you know, sex has never been a problem. Even if there was somebody, you know, I didn't really, really want to be with. Yes. In the beginning, you know, there were there were a few women I, I slept with who I probably, you know, shouldn't have or. Yeah, that's okay.

But, you know, you do, you're not selling it, but you know, if you do go through with something like that, then there's a, there's a possibility of them rebooking you, obviously. The more you connect with somebody, the more they're going to want to see you. So I was definitely in a few situations in the beginning with, you know, people who I've slept with, who I definitely, you know, maybe probably shouldn't happen if I understood the energy exchanged more and then treated my body. as I do now I most definitely wouldn't of. But no, like in the bedroom, it was never a problem. I could always, I've been good with my mind for a long time as well.

You know, it's, we can, we can orgasm without touching ourselves. Yeah, I know. I got it. I was just, I was just, I was assumed that was the case. It just, you just kind of like step around it and kind of don't, I have to like back you into corners to get specific answers from you on certain things. I know that you're in a very different place now. And I think that's like the natural evolution of life, but by no means where you always supposed to be so perfect.

So we are talking about like your past and maybe you're, you know, you're not like that now, but let's just talk about the way you were then, you know, you don't have to explain it all. I get it. So you, because I was, I'm just thinking that if some woman comes in pays for this experience, she sees you on the show or on the website. And she's like, this is a fucking hot guy. Like, I'm going to have a good time with him.

And then if it doesn't lead to sex, because, you. you don't have to, then maybe she would feel rejected. I don't know. You know, and I was just wondering if that ever happened. That happened with the show, not, not with clients outside of the show. Oh, that's interesting. Most of the time, they didn't want sucks, at least right away either. Yeah, yeah.

They, most of the clients who booked me, they're hoping to establish, you know, some sort of relationship and connection. And then, you know, obviously, if you're going on a date with somebody, you're going to hope that it will lead there sometimes. but most of the times they didn't even want to have sex on the first date and then I had I had people booking me who were doing a bucket list thing and I'm like no this I don't I don't do that I don't just share myself with anybody you know I don't if we establish a relationship if we continue to see each other on a regular basis there's there's a possibility for that but yeah I didn't

like doing that either now on the show so as I said I simulated almost all of my scenes especially that I simulated all of them the last four seasons I think so but I'm a good actor and so it looks like it's happening and everybody who watched the show thinks it happened but no you'll never see my my penis was never hard you'll never see it go into a vagina it's it's it's it's soft core and they just show some they'll show my flaccid penis or they'll show some tits or some it's it makes it looks like like we're going at it so but I I'm a really good actor. And so all the clients who would come on the show, and then I would simulate the scenes with

them. And I tell them beforehand, too, that we're not having sex in front of these cameras. I just met you, you know, have some, leave some with some dignity as well. You're going to regret this if you go through with it anyway. And we're going to simulate the scene. And we simulate the scene. And so many of them ordered, I offer, they used to be, I used to call them hot talk talks. Now I call them awakening sessions on my website, just a one-on-one video conference.

And they would schedule these and they would get on and they would start crying and be like, you slept with all of these other girls. Why didn't you sleep with me? And I'm like, no, I'm a good actor. I promise you. You didn't see a hard penis going to a vagina. I promise. It didn't happen.

So, yeah, that happened more than maybe 10. no less than between five and ten times on the show people would do that yeah and then yeah even after the scene sometimes they would cry to me and be like why didn't you sleep with me you don't like me oh my god how did you how were you like okay you were on that show for six seasons it sounds highly produced it sounds like a lot of stuff was like kind of you know it's supposed to be reality but was it i mean it was like set up shit that maybe was kind of alluding to things that weren't even happening i mean how do you feel about like doing that show now looking back? It's like most every reality show out there.

I mean, obviously you have to set some things up. There was less script with this show than probably any other show. Fortunately, I was a big part of that. I was really good at improvbing and getting the other guys talking. All the other guys were super nervous and shaking and sweating just about every time they're in front of the cameras and drinking and they couldn't hold the conversation. So I had to get everybody talking as well, especially the news. guys coming on super nervous you know they do say that there's nothing sexier than confidence and i could

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So I had to get everybody talking as well, especially the new guys coming on, super nervous. But what was the question again? I just think, you know, if a show is called Jigilos, you'd you do want to know that the people are really having, are really having sex, but you're saying there was no sex going on. That's like a little funny. So, well, I mean, our most infamous, our most infamous scene I wrote and I wrote a lot of the show, you know, it's setting up situations and, you know, having a fun situation with a client, you know, to make it for TV or something to talk about. You know, we, we write, you know, what we're going

to do, but then we kind of improv when we get there. The producers will throw out lines and especially the interviews, too. I'm the only person who was ever on that show who wrote their interview questions and responded. They wrote them for everybody else because they had, they couldn't do it. They didn't have any experience and they weren't good at it. But so everything was set up. I was going to talk about our most infamous scene.

It's a scene that I wrote. It actually made, do you remember the show, The Soup? Yeah, of course. Talk Soup, yeah. With Joel, Joel McHale. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah, well, we were on that just about every week when our show was really?

And one of our episodes made the number two clip of the year. Oh, really? Yeah, so I wrote a scene. I pitched this to them season one. You know furries, right? Yeah. I'm sure you do in your world. Very interesting world.

And when we, it was season one or season two, I wrote this scene where we would crank a new guy. And we would have him go. going at it with a furry client and we'd walk in on him. So, yeah, and it was, it was, it was, it was, it was brilliant. It would have been hilarious. So we, we, we were finally season three. They told me they were going to do it and they found a guy. And we all had to take STD tests.

And apparently this person failed his SDD test. So he wasn't able to do the scene. So the producer called us and said, Nick, we know how much you wanted to do this scene. So and so failed the SDD test. Will you do it? I'm like, shit, I'll call you back. I thought about it. And I'm like, we got to do this.

I'm going to take one for the team here. I called them back. I said, okay, this is how it's going to go. I'm going to pick up the key from the front desk. I want her sitting on the bed. I'm going to knock. I'm going to go in. And I want her to stand up and put her arms out to hug me.

Right. And that's exactly how it went down. And I planned on everything. And when she stood up and put her arms out, I'm like, fuck. And then it was this hilarious from there forward. I cut a flap in the back of the costume too, and I told her at one point, you know, turn around and point to the flap.

So I simulated this scene with this furry, and she's riding me, and I'm pretending I'm, like, crying, and then I'm behind her doggy style, and I have my hands over my eyes. I'm like, and I'm, like, crying during the scene, and it's, it was good.

It was good. It was definitely. Jiglo and TV worthy. Yeah. And that was what season? Season two? I mean, that lasted for six seasons that show. Three or four.

Yeah, we had six seasons, 52 episodes. Yeah. And you went down with the show. I mean, like, you stayed the whole time. It didn't have a longer run, right? I started in every episode. Yeah, me and Brace started in every episode. Vin came season one and then murderer came season three and his buddy came season four.

Okay. So now did you have your spiritual awakening? Like, I know you had started in your 20s. Like, when did you? decide to give this all up and become like who you are now? I mean, did this happen while you were on Jigilohs? Did it happen after the show? I've had many of them. The first one was, yeah, in 0405. The second one was actually at Burning Man in 17 or 18. And that was my first full chakra Kundalini Awakening where, you know, I started making some changes and started, you know, on the way out.

I was on a 10-year plan to start a retreat center in Peru or Costa Rica. And then a couple A couple years later, I had a major awakening in Costa Rica, actually. And after that one, that's the one that I'm writing about in my book right now. I'm releasing the Golden Laws of Enlightenment. And I now offer an enlightenment protocol at my website. And after that awakening, that's when I had to get out. I had, and I was on my way out anyway. I only had a couple regular clients at that time.

and I actually, I induced the kundalini awakening in a client before she was ready. And I said I couldn't do this again. So that was the last client that I slept with. And I made the decision that I was going to sell all my Vegas homes and move to Sedona. Oh, okay. Is that where you are now? Yes. I've been here for about three years.

I'm building my, and I go by Nick Eagle now. Oh, interesting. You can call me Nick Hawk. That's fine. That's what I used to go by. or Nick Hawk Eagle, but I did, I did upgrade to Nick Eagle. And my healing sanctuary is called Eagle Vortex Awakening Sanctuary now. And I've been building and building and building away the last three, four years.

And I am opening here in the next month or two. And I'm super excited about it. Yeah. So. Okay. Okay. And now, all right. So you're out of that.

You decide to become Nick Eagle. You have no more clients anymore, right? did you just like make enough money or like were you making money on doing these awakenings for people and stuff like that? Is that how you, is that like your career now and how you make your money? I was one of the few guys who had consistent bookings and made a lot of money with the agency. Okay. Most the other guys on the show didn't make very little. I mean, murderer and his buddy got fired.

Okay. We got to get to murder next. Yeah. They were horrible and all they just got complaints from everybody. There was a couple guys who weren't on the show who did pretty well. They were friends with the owner. So obviously, you know, he could push them in their direction. But yeah, I did.

I did very well. I had my last two months, I had a, before I went off on my own, I had a 60,000 and $70,000 month to back-to-back months. And then, you know, I made it, we didn't make crazy money with the show, but I did decent with that. I was making money with my book and music. I had one of the world's largest sex toy line. ever that was in all hustler and deja vu show uh where's that sex toy line now it was a nick hawk jiggleow line it was that was a while ago i actually i i pitched it i came up with all the products including the sex position book and i wrote all the positions in it and i went to uh california exotics and i

pitched it to them and they loved the ideas and i molded my penis as well i had the first dildo that had movable balls i wanted the balls to hang down and slap. Yeah, that's the best part. It was the first, but they couldn't do that, but I incorporated that into some of the cock rings. Oh, that's smart. So, yeah, this was, I haven't talked about this in a long time.

It's been a while now, but it was fun. I did all right with that and appearances and, and I wasn't just doing the jick-a-low bookings. I had a lot of celebrity appearances. I was playing my music at the clubs and I had endless opportunities. But to top that off, I

was smart and I invested all my money. Actually, the most amount of money I made was in Bitcoin. I crushed it with Bitcoin and real estate. I bought four homes and I made money on all of those. So when I was ready to get out and build my healing sanctuary, yeah, I sold them all and I invested that money into my healing sanctuary. Yeah, that's amazing. And so, okay, so now you're where you're at, when does this murder with this guy, Ash, because I mean, how many years out of being on that show and working with these people, how many years has it been? It was years. Again, I don't really do time anymore, but yeah, it was three, four years. Actually, I was here. I remember it was after my awakening and I remember I couldn't deal with it at the time because I was in such a good place and I was building everything. I was in the early stages of this place and I didn't address it and but I always wanted to and I knew I should have. I knew I needed to shed truth and light onto the situation and I'm glad I really got the opportunity with this documentary. because somebody didn't need to speak up about all the horrendous things that he did and what was really going on.

Because the show edited him to make him look like, you know, this beautiful spiritual guy. And actually, I just found out last week, I didn't remember this. Someone messaged me and said, I remember the first episode where you met him and he was wearing sunglasses. And you told him to take off his sunglasses to see his eyes. I'm like, I don't remember that, but that totally sounds like me. and that makes me so happy that I did that. So, I'm happy I was able to do this Sin City Jigolo documentary.

It's really dark. It's really dark. I'm the only light in it. The other guys are super dark too, and it's gross, but it was edited well. They did a good job with it. It's a good watch.

And I brought some light to it. Then I did some YouTube videos as well that even shed more. Okay. And what Sin City Jigalos is all about is about this guy, right? turning into all about the murder yeah the murder they do a little background on us and it's kind of it's kind of a reunion for us i didn't even know that i didn't even know the other guys were going to be involved in it but oh i wish i wrote i wrote a show called jiggle olds and i i wanted to do that at least do you know where are they now yeah and i i considered

you know producing something like that too and i've been talking to the jigalos producers about it they said they liked the idea but now that we did this it probably won't happen for a little while but it was it was kind of a reunion and i was i was hoping it wouldn't be that dark it was dark it's so you got to see it it's it's it's done well it's artistic it's shot well it shows like the story it gives like each side like the producers kind of played like i don't know if he did it or not like but they had to do that yeah but and the other guys can you give some of the details about this guy first of all and what you you always thought of him and your relationship with him.

And then, like, what happened or what they're alleging he did? He's in jail, correct? Prison, yeah. Yeah, he's in, okay, he's in prison. He really full-fledged murdered somebody, you know. You know, what? He beat a girl to death. Wow.

Smashed her face in so bad. The cops said it was the worst beating you ever saw and you couldn't recognize her. They thought it was somebody else. Wow. Was he in the show for six seasons two like you were? No, he came along season three. believe. Okay, but he was there to the end. Now, were you, it sounds like you never really liked him. I don't know. You tell me. Like, what was your relationship with him? And like, did he, like, did you, I mean, it's one thing to find out that someone you knew, like murdered somebody? I mean, is that something when you look back, you're like, oh, yeah, I saw that in those eyes when he took the glasses. I'm one of the few people. I'm one of the few people who saw it. Everybody is, everybody on my social media is saying that all they saw it now, but whenever I brought it up prior to the murder and, and talk. of them. They're like, no, he's such a nice and beautiful man. Oh, so even before this came out,

you had beef with him and you didn't really care for him. Didn't have beef. I didn't hate him. I just, he lacked confidence. I knew he was an effortless human who, you know, this brought a lot of darkness to the world. Yeah. You know, I was getting out of drinking and partying. He was big into that, and he was, he wasn't that good on set. And, you know, I saw through all the, all the fake smiles. I knew he had a lot of demons. I knew he had his struggles. I knew that he lacked guidance. You know, nobody, none of us are bad. None of us are crazy. I don't, I don't hate anybody. I do hate darkness. I hate lies. And, and I did hate seeing that now he had this crutch to put himself on a higher level than what, where he should be. He, he didn't deserve, he wasn't deserving of the opportunity that

presented itself to him. Right. And it actually, it hurt his growth and development. Well, and ultimately, he dug his own grave. I mean, he did, like, the truth did come out about him, right? I mean, he's in prison for murdering somebody. So obviously, he wasn't all that. I mean, now he, he's blaming. He, I don't, he was on a bunch of drugs, I think. He's, I think he ate some mushrooms. He's blaming the mushrooms. He's blaming demons. He's blaming, he said he blacked out and he didn't remember anything. Well, I mean, doesn't that what all? I watch a lot of date line. I mean, a lot of these murderers. say stuff like that. But I mean, like, how did those demons get inside you? I mean, you know what I mean?

Exactly. They all have these kinds of stories. It's 100% their creation. Yeah, yeah, yeah. It's due to what they, you know, put inside themselves. They're their negative attitude, how they take care of themselves. It's they conjure this darkness. They can't blame it.

Yeah, it's unfortunate. What are the details about the murder? Was it his girlfriend that he killed? Okay. So when I was, when I was brought in to do this documentary, I didn't have that many details about everything. I didn't really look into it as much as I guess I should have. And I learned most of the things there.

They had all the details. They informed me of everything. And then they asked for my opinion. And what I found out from the producers and everybody who looked into this, the girl who was there, originally they thought it was a girl that he was dating. Yeah. Who lived with him.

But they were fighting. I guess she was living in the basement. and he was still, he was seeing this client and this client was at his house while the girlfriend was still living there. The whole situation is stupid and weird. And they're, they're now thinking the girlfriend came after he killed her because two of the other jiggilos went there as well. Bradley and Brace went there after he killed this lady. He didn't call the cops right away. They like the whole night went through. It wasn't until the next morning. Bradley supposedly went there and like, took some guns and a bunch of stuff.

And he's on the run right now. Wait a second. Other people got in on the action, the other jigilos? Other jigolo. Oh, my, what was going on behind the scenes? Oh, my God. They were all friends. And yeah, he called the jigalos instead of the cops.

You can't make this up. Oh, my God, that's the best sentence of this whole podcast. He called the jigilos instead of the cops. I learned all this on the dog. I didn't even know this. This is ridiculous. Oh, that's hilarious. And then hold on.

not this just wait yeah so bradley one of the jiggilots he was good friends with ash yeah oh he's scary now you watch the documentary they had to give him subtitles because you couldn't understand anything he was saying and he was chugging a bottle of vodka the whole time so i didn't even know this but i guess that was the the free recording to pitch the documentary that wasn't even after it got picked up and you they had they flew everybody in and had everybody come in after it that was the pre-recording. Right. I guess.

And then some news story did something about Bradley saying that he went in there and he took the guns and he removed the guns from this murder scene. Wow. Because there were guns in there. They can't find the object that he beat her with. There's so much, so many ridiculous things. So Bradley said all of this on the documentary and then he wouldn't do it when it got picked up because he was advised not to.

And supposedly he's on the run right now and he wanted for questioning. These guys aren't brilliant. Let me tell you. The shit that I had to deal with. You have no idea. You have no idea. Oh my God. This is so funny.

So wait, so like they were all accessories to the crime. Like they knew what was going on. Like he called up like, hey, I just murdered some bitch. Like come over. They're wanted for questioning now.

They're probably going to get some teeth. I don't, I don't know the process. I haven't been through it. But yeah, they're going to probably get called in. for questioning. And yeah, he admitted to removing guns from a murder scene.

He went, Ash called him supposedly. He went there, took guns and some other objects. It looks like he took the object that Ash beat the girl with too, because they couldn't find that. And his hands didn't have marks, I guess. Wow. So, and then there was other footsteps of a smaller person with smaller feet there in the blood, which suggests that Tia, which was his girl, well, I guess they were broken.

up at the time that it suggests that she went there as well. She was also on the documentary. They totally shaded her though. They had her come on and then the behind the scenes things is all suggesting that Tia maybe murdered her and was there or was involved in some way. Yeah, maybe it was a threesome that got wrong. Maybe it was a threesome that went wrong or something. Who knows, right?

I mean, does anyone know what his, because I know that he said he's high on drugs and he's blaming it on the demon spirits, but I mean like, does he, like, does anyone know what was going down when he started being the shit out of her? Like were they being intimate? Was it over like, were they having a fight with clothes on? Do you know? I heard,

I heard both. I'm not certain. I don't think it was, I don't think they were having sex. He is now saying or he has said that he saw demons in her. And that's like, just like Lori Valo. He had like three different stories.

He admitted he did it when the cops arrived, number one. Yeah. because he's so brilliant. And then he's said many things after, such as he was blacked out and doesn't remember anything. And then I think they got him saying that he, something about him seeing demons in the girl. And that's why he attacked her too.

So there's all these different. And the worst, the most horrific thing out of this, the documentary, they ended it with this. And my video on YouTube as well, or I make. fun of him where I'm pretending to like read from my hand and he's saying this this is how he says it at the end I am so sorry I did this and I mean it from the bottom of my soul he said it just like that he's reading it he doesn't even have it memorize it's like three lines oh it's it's it's it's it's beyond darkness and insanity and ridiculous and stupid and What does he go to trial?

He did. He's in prison. Oh, no, I mean, well, I thought he was being held. I mean, how long ago did this happen? Because sometimes it takes a long time between the murder and the trial. I don't know. I watch a lot of daylines. It's been a few years.

No, he was sentenced. No, he admitted he admitted guilt when the cops arrived and then he pled guilty manslaughter. Right. So, yeah, he's gone. But they didn't sentence him to life. And they most definitely should have. and, you know, we need to, I think, do more about this because after the fact, I come to find out. So I don't think we talked about this yet.

Did I tell you the last words he told me? No. We didn't even talk about that. No, let's talk about that. We got a good 10 minutes. This is a whole other story. But the last words he ever told me were on my voicemail saying, I'm going to find you and kill you. Oh, yeah, right.

And then I come to find out on the documentary. one of his friends said that he looked into hiring a hitman to either kill me or somebody else who was dating his ex. Oh, wow. Really? Yeah. Yeah. Yeah.

I mean, typically these things don't come out of nowhere. Do you know what I mean? Like, there's signs or other things. I mean, it's obviously the demons. There's one of their signs from the beginning. Yeah, obviously the demon in her eyes didn't make him do it. I knew how lost he was this whole time. There was plenty of signs.

And I don't know how people didn't see. through the edits. You know, they, they, they, everybody thought that I was the, the bad person, because they edited me to look like the cocky and arrogant, you know, the guy that you're supposed to hate, you know, and they made him look all spiritual and everything. And then it's this, it's ridiculous. But you have to be pretty blind to not see through, you know, the edit, my edits and his edits. Yeah, but let me ask me this. Most people have thought like if anyone was going to kill someone, it would have been you than him. I mean, did he really? come across as like the nice guy or did he crumb across as like a douchebag?

Oh, they totally added me as a douchebag. No, what about him? When I started the show, they kind of edited all of us as douchebags. They clowned all of us really bad. But, you know, whenever I probably messed up one, two lines in six, you know, seasons. And they made sure to, you know, put those in there, like mezzletioma or you were talking about cancer. And I said the word wrong. And you know, that makes it.

And then the worst thing about the edits is, so I didn't realize this in the beginning, but they had us just shoot the shit in the beginning before filming. We didn't realize that they were filming our reaction shots. Yeah. So if we're doing a scene and we're talking about something, they can cut in a different reaction and pretend that you had a different reaction than what you did. I know.

That's the worst. That totally changes. your whole character. Yeah, they can make you look like a real douchebag. Or an idiot. Or you're laughing at something that's not funny. That changes your whole personality and character in everything. I had lawyers come to me saying that, you know, they've handled situations like this before.

And it's horrendous because, yeah, they shit on us big time. Yeah, because that's just a blatant lie. I love reality TV. And I think reality is always stranger than fiction. You don't need to make that shit up to make it interesting. I'm sorry. But the fact that they do is bullshit. of good stuff.

Exactly. You didn't need to change our characters. Yeah. You know. Yeah. But I mean, showtimes on their ass, too, they told me as well. They're like, you know, if you had any idea of Showtime told us to do, you would love us. I promise.

Oh, really? I think they had our backs a little. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. They told me that Showtime told them that Nick Hawk can't win anymore. So they had me lose everything there forward. They needed that.

I won. We had all these weird competitions like a cowboys. boy competition. I don't really a bunch of stuff. But then at a certain point, they said I couldn't win anymore. So we had a shooting competition. I had it with Bradley.

He's an ex-marine. And it was so amazing. We went to this shooting range and it was head to head and it came down to the last gun. You couldn't have written it any better. We shot this giant eagle magnum gun and he got a close, he got close to the bullseye. And then I ended up winning it by hitting the bullseye with this giant gun. And it was amazing.

But they added it to make it look. like I missed. I missed one of my shots with my best weapon, which was the bow and arrow, because I hit the top of the, of the, where you're standing. And there was a reaction from one of the guys on the show. He's like, oh, you missed when I was shooting a bow and arrow. So they edited that in and made it look like I lost that. They staged the rap battle. I wrote a scene where I rap battle, the blackish guy who was on there, Vin. We, I destroyed them. I did the first double. I freestyled a double mic drop. and crushed him at the end of this battle.

And they edited all that out and made it look like I said something that didn't rhyme and made it look like he won. Yeah, well, let me ask you this. Like this documentary, do you feel like they did a good job and were pretty real about it and stuff? The Sin City one, yeah. Like as far as what you tipped and what you saw. I was super concerned because like I said, they trashed us. And they clowned us and they made us look stupid. So I was definitely concerned going in it, especially dealing with a murderer.

You know, I'm like, you know, there's there's a couple times where I laughed about something that was off subject. I'm like, you know, you could edit this in anywhere and make me look like an asshole. Like I'm laughing at this guy and kicking him when he's down. And, you know, so I put some trust in them. I said, I had some really good talks with the producer. And I told her, you know, where I stood on it. And she said, you know, this is what we want to show. We want to show the truth and what you really think.

And she got my trust, even though the other Jigilow's producers were kind of in on it too. but for the most part yeah they they gave my voice you know I went into some things much more deeply and I did that in my YouTube videos and I wish they would have shown a little bit more but no I'm I'm happy with

I'm definitely the light in this as I already said very very dark documentary I am the light in it I'm happy to be that that's I love to shine the light in the darkness I've been doing it for a long time now you know when it came to this industry the stripping escorting my adult sex toy line all the above. So I was happy to be a part of it. And where are you at now? I needed to be.

Where are you at now? Like, do you have a relationship? Are you still single? Do you like to be monogamous? Are you a non-monogamous guy? What's your deal? I haven't had a girlfriend in since like the first year I moved to Las Vegas. Okay. So not like somebody who I called my my girlfriend and was like a long time. I hung out with a couple girls, you know, for a few months here and there, but nothing serious. As I said, I have for a long time now, I've treated my body very sacredly and I'm very not that open to who I share my energy with anymore. And especially since I left Vegas, I've just been putting my head down and working hard here in Sedona as well, building this healing sanctuary and working on my book. So it's something I'm open to. It's not

something that I need though. I very much enjoy my time alone and peace and silence. Right. I wouldn't have turned into the man I am if I didn't spend much time alone and at peace. And I highly recommend everybody out there before you even attempt to start dating to go to the mountains, go to the mountains, find peace, be alone with your thoughts. Yeah, but I'm sorry, but like, listen, it's easy for you to say because before you did that, you were like doing a lot of other stuff. You don't know what I mean? You kind of like did things like you kind of

been there, done that when it comes to sex, right? I mean, you probably have and had tons of girls throw. Yeah, so it's yeah, so it's easy for you to then go and retreat and become a guru monk, you know, but like other guys you know, that can never get fucking

my school. No, I was wasted though. It was wasted. I was going girl to girl, the girl, trying to find some peace or find answers. there's nothing there. You go to the mountains first. Right, but I got to tell you, though, you have to. Right.

I wish we would teach our children until they were 2530. Oh, my God. Go find the answers first. Go learn what this sacred body is. I get it, but I'm a very spiritual person and stuff. But don't you think, though, in a weird way that some people like have to go through the journey to find that sort of piece and that's the way they learn and that's the way you learn as a human being?

I mean, we're not here to be perfect. I mean, if we were perfect, we would never be born, okay? But like, I just feel like you went through. We are most definitely here to be perfect and one day we will be. Yes, of course, but we're not, right, but you have stuff put on you so you could like go through things and work through things and better yourself. It's not about like getting to the top of the mountain and being perfect by the time you're 12. Like it's about going through lots of different things and coming out on the other side like where you came out, which is amazing. You know what I mean?

You conquered a lot. You evolved a lot as. a soul, right? But I think that other people have to do that too. And sometimes I think, unfortunately, the way you got to do it is through like the hard times and through, you know, sort of going maybe down the wrong path to the other. Okay, well, we need to go to the mountains first. All of that time in Hollywood, all that nonsense in the beginning of my life, it was distraction. I was trying to, I was pretending that I had to be with somebody at all times or I was lonely and life was miserable and it was just distraction. It was a lot of time wasted. But that's what

you had to do because of your life circumstances. And so other people that have to do that have to do that, too. You know, I'm just saying that. Like, I don't feel like, you don't look back at your journey and regret it. I don't want people to suffer. I don't want people to suffer. But people have to suffer. That's a part of being in the being able to be. My dissertation is titled, life does not have to be suffered. Okay. Well, we're going to get into arguments here. No, no, no, I don't want to. I don't want to. Because I like you. I don't argue. I like you. I think you're actually like, I love your journey, actually. I think it's like amazing where you've been, where you've come from, and where you landed. I personally think, you know, when I was like doing a little bit of a deep dive on you, I never saw the show and I'm a big reality TV person. I don't know

how I miss that show because I love reality, but I don't really, and I was doing a deep dive for you. And don't take this the wrong way. When I was like looking through your Instagram and your YouTube, I was like, oh, he's a little like off his rock or like, I don't know, you kind of like turn things up and notch when you do your videos and your stuff. And I feel like you, you, do yourself a little bit of a disservice because when I actually was talking to you on the phone, like you're very level-headed and sound like you got your fucking feet on the ground and your head on straight and you're really smart and articulate. And I don't think you need to like turn it up so much on your videos and stuff to get people's

attention because that kind of takes away from your groundedness that you actually seem to really have. Whereas if I were just to watch the videos and stuff, I think, oh, he's a little like kooky. But you're really not. And I feel like, you know, maybe pull it back a little bit because talking to you on the phone like this. I go back and forth on those. It depends on the subject and what I'm talking about. I get it.

A lot of the videos are different. I do agree with that a little bit. You know what I'm saying, right? But I do know, listen, I have a child. He's nine. And all the YouTubers that he fucking loves are people that are screaming into the screen. You know what I mean? I'm like, I guess like people, these YouTubers know that these kids fucking love it.

You know what I mean? I'm probably your kids love you. Like, they love people screaming on YouTube. but I just think, you know, I definitely don't scream. There's no anger involved. You know what I mean. I battle darkness. So most my videos are about battling darkness and they are very intense and calling it out.

Yeah, yeah, yeah. They're done appropriately, but yeah, some of them are a little loud. I'm just my little constructive criticism. I'm not screaming and they're not angry. It's not anger, though. Okay, but you know what I'm talking about? I'm not taking you the wrong way. You're intense and you're passionate.

I don't mind that. I think that that's all great. I'm just saying that it. They are very intense. I have a very different opinion. We need more people standing up to this darkness. Yes. There are people do it.

Darkness, life, real life is not just darkness. I would love to like hash out that whole thing. Yeah. But people pretending. Yeah, I guess. Yeah, a lot of people, absolutely. But listen, I love your story. I'm glad that you came on.

I have another podcast or that wants you on her show. Lela, you need to go on her show. She watched your show. She was in love with you. And she actually thought Ash was a really great guy. She's like, he killed someone. And I'm like, oh, you know him? She's like, yes, he was such a nice guy.

That's what she thinks. So I'm going to get you on her show. Most people did. Yeah, yeah. But listen, but you didn't. You always had a good, you were a good picker. But listen, thanks so much, Nick, for calling in sharing your story. I'm definitely going to air it now while that documentary is hot out there and people

could listen to what you have to say. But thanks for so much for calling in. Yeah, I'm going to air it soon. Yeah, absolutely. Yeah. So thanks so much for calling in. Oh, yeah, give a shout out to everything you want. Yeah.

Thank you for asking if I wanted to delay it as well, because that would help me. But no, I think it's more appropriate to release it now as well since the documentary was just released. You did ask earlier on. You did speak about how I looked younger for my age. Yeah. And I just want to talk about that a little bit. So I am one of the leaders in aging in the world right now. My measured telomeres, which is the most accurate way to measure your biological age, say that I'm

less than, I'm more than 10 years younger. Yeah. That I'm 33 actually. Uh-huh. So I follow all of the biohackers and all the people, you know, trying to live forever. And I also involved a spiritual aspect to that. I believe I'm the first spiritual biohacker out there. Uh-huh.

So I've released a free protocol that I've sent so many people come to me for answers now. So I have a free protocol on my website. It's called my Enlightenment Protocol that's on there. And I encourage anybody who's looking to make some serious changes in their life, losing weight, operating at higher levels, and all the way to, you know, having spiritual awakenings to check that out. And that is at my website. All my social media is the talk. My website links are on those.

My website's nick eagle mystic.com. And thank you again. Yeah, thank you. And listen, I just started a sexual health Saturdays series. I have to make my, I'm in the process of doing my new logo and getting people to call in to talk about like health. related stuff because I love health and fitness and anti-aging and all that stuff that you just talked about. So maybe I'll have you back on talking about that thing and you can promote that. Yeah, to discuss this Enlightenment Protocol. It's my life's work. I put so much work into it.

There's so many amazing things that I do. Yeah, I love it. So we'll talk again. So thanks so much, Nick, for calling in and I will put the links to everything in the description so people didn't have to remember it. Okay. And send me some picks or I'll get some picks off your Instagram. Sure. If you want me to send some, just let me know. No, send me some for my, for my thing. so I don't have to look and send me with them sooner than later. I got you. Thanks, Nick. No problem. All right. Sottnum. Bye. Okay. I just want to tell you before you go that my book,

it's called Strictly anonymous confession, Secret Sex Lives of Total Strangers, is now available not only in paperback and ebook, but you can pre-order the audiobook. It's still not going to be out until August 25th, but you can pre-order it. The book is basically 17 different stories taken from my show. I kind of picked one story from each category that I talk about on my show. Like, there's a

hot wife story. There's a cuck queen story. There's a cuck story. There's a gang being girl story. Like I said, 17 stories. And they're all told in the third person, and they're all true. I took the interview and rewrote it in the third person. And I wouldn't really call it like a erotica book. Think like Penthouse letters. It's more direct. It's not so over the top, I don't really like that kind of vibe, right? But these are true stories. 17 of them. They're really short chapters, easy read. You could read, you know, one or two and then skip around. You could read the whole book. It's available in eback format, paperback format, and finally, the audiobook is available coming out August 25th. But you could pre-order it now. And if you buy my book in any format or

pre-order it, I will throw in a complimentary link to my Discord. My Discord does not disappoint. Okay. There's no way you get into my Discord any other way than getting the link from me. Okay. I give it to people who buy my book. There's tons of people in there. Everybody shares content with each other.

And that's what you get to do there. You could post your own pictures and videos. There's tons of channels. We have lots of contests where you can win a lot of money. It's a super fun place to be. It's a total, strictly anonymous community. And you will love it. I will be giving anyone who buys my book access to my book.

access to my Discord. It's private, like I said. All you got to do is email me a screenshot of your purchase, whether you did the audiobook, the ebook, or the paperback. Send it to me at Strictly Anonymous Podcast at gmail.com. That's strictly anonymous podcast at gmail.com. And I will send you the link to Discord. So anyway, thanks so much for tuning in. Okay, good news. I do have a book out. I wrote a book and it's coming out. The book is called Strickland on Miss Confessions. Secret Sex Lives of Total Strangers. What I did was I picked out the 17 best episodes that was very hard to do. Okay, I picked like one from each category. And I retold the story from the third person. So it's not interview style. It's a little bit more erotica.

The only place where I took creative liberty was in the sex scene. So it's even hotter. Then my episodes, like I said, it's told in the third person. And they're all true, just like my show. I mean, these are real stories from my show, just written out. Like I said, in the third person, not an interview style, more like a story, but a true story, a true super hot story. Now listen, it is available for pre-order now. And it's not coming out until October 14th. And I was like, oh my God, that's a long time away. So I figured I'd incentivize people. If you want to pre-order it now, I will. give you free access to my Discord if you pre-order it now. All you got to do is screenshot, a pick of the receipt, just screenshot it to me. Send it to Strictly Anonymous Podcasts at

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