Strictly Anonymous Confessions - 1104 - Alex is a Young Guy Into Femdoms, Being Cucked, Forced Bi-Scenarios, Findom and More

Episode Date: May 2, 2025

Alex is into femdoms, being cucked, forced bi-scenarios, findom and more and he called in to talk all about it. Tune in to hear all the details including how he was always into cheating sex as far back as he can remember, how and why he started only seeing sex workers very early on, when he got into femdoms and older women and the hook ups he had with them, when he got into forced bi scenarios, the guy he met online for a hook up and exactly what went down with him, the “censored bi-porn” he got into and the other kinds of porn that led to him watching, when and how he decided he wanted to be a “pay pig” and who he wanted to be financially dominated by, how that lead to him losing all of his friends, how he went on to snapchat looking for girls to dominate and what he would do on there, the one young girl he met that he started to dom and the crazy things he’d make her do, how she cheated on him and how he found out and how they got past it, how they eventually moved in together and how she eventually started to dom him, how he got her into cucking him, the first guy she hooked up with in front of hi9m and exactly act went down both times they all hooked up, the last time she hooked up with him while he listened over the phone, the one bad thing he’s doing in this relationship that he should stop and why plus a whole lot more. **To see anonymous pics of ALEX plus see HOT pics of my other female guests + hear anonymous confessions + get all the episodes early and AD FREE, join my Patreon! It's only $7 a month and you can cancel at any time. You can sign up here: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.patreon.com/StrictlyAnonymousPodcast⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ and when you join, I'll throw in a complimentary link to my private Discord! MY BOOK IS NOW OUT FOR PRE-ORDER!!!! Strictly Anonymous Confessions: Secret Sex Lives of Total Strangers. A bunch of short, super sexy, TRUE stories. GET YOUR COPY NOW: ⁠⁠https://amzn.to/4i7hBCd⁠⁠ To join SDC and get a FREE Trial! click here: ⁠⁠https://www.sdc.com/?ref=37712⁠⁠ or go to SDC.com and use my code 37712 Want to be on the show? Email me at ⁠⁠[e-mail]⁠⁠ or go to ⁠⁠http://www.strictlyanonymouspodcast.com⁠⁠ and click on "Be on the Show" Have something quick you want to confess while remaining anonymous? Call the CONFESSIONS hotline at 347-420-3579. You can call 24/7. All voices are changed. Sponsors: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://butterwellness.com/⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ For 20% off your Butter Wellness perineum massager use code STRICTLY ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://beducate.me/pd2508-anonymous⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Use code anonymous to get an additional 10% off the campaign’s current discount - that’s 60% off ⁠⁠https://shamelesscare.sjv.io/xLQ3Jv⁠ ⁠⁠Get $10 off Shameless Care’s female viagra cream, just click on the link and use code: Strictly Follow me! Instagram ⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/strictanonymous/⁠⁠ Twitter ⁠⁠https://twitter.com/strictanonymous?lang=en⁠⁠ Website: ⁠⁠http://www.strictlyanonymouspodcast.com/⁠⁠ Everything else ⁠⁠https://linktr.ee/Strictlyanonymouspodcas Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

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relationships with. He got into force-by scenarios, tried to hook up with guys a couple times. He was very into a lot of porn, all these interesting kinds of porn that he watched that he talks about. He did see a lot of escorts, and that was like the only way he was getting laid when he was younger. And why I say it's weird where he wound up, because eventually in the story, he does wind up meeting a girl on Snapchat. But he talks about all the things he did between the time he lost his virginity and met her on Snapchat, which was like about a year ago. And he got into like a lot of different things. like I said, hooking up,

doing forced by scenarios with guys. While he was dressed, he was into justification, and then he got into all the porn, and then there was a time where he got into being a pay pig, and that led to him losing all his friends, and you have to hear that story

why he lost all of his friends by being into that. It's an interesting story, and then he went on to Snapchat, and he started meeting all kinds of girls and met the girl that he's currently dating, and this girl that he's currently dating is as freaky as he is into really hardcore stuff.

He talks about all the things, that they are into, he was always into cucking and humiliation, like, you know, thoughts of it. And now he's got a girl doing all of that to him. He's also dominating her. She cheated on him once. He got past and now she's cucking him and he tells all the stories. The way he brought up being cucking to her is like super interesting. Wait till you hear the twisted thing that he did to kind of propose cucking to her.

But she's doing it now. He's got it all. He explains the whole story. His whole journey is super interesting. He's still young. but it looks like his future is bright, but he did mention one bad thing about his relationship. At the end, you'll have to listen to here and I go off to him about it. But anyway, the story's interesting. I don't want to give it all the way. So I'm going to get right to it and be right back on

with Alex. Hey, Alex. Welcome to the Strictly anonymous podcast. How are you today? Doing good, Kathy. How are you? I'm good. So listen, you're like in your email to me. I'm going to discuss everything about my sex life from the beginning. And you're into a lot of things. It's like femdom, which is like female dominatrix. You've been dominated girls, cucking, humiliation. You've got some crazy story about a girl you're dating. Who's your current girlfriend, right? She's way younger than you.

And I don't know if you do kinds of like a lot of crazy things with her. I don't know where you want to start. Why don't we start chronologically and go all the way back? I don't know. Yeah, yeah, sounds good to me. I mean, it kind of, yeah, I'll try and stay as much on course here chronologically wise. Okay. Yeah, no, from what I can remember, I mean, I was just obsessed with girls, like most guys, from a very young age, you know, just I remember in, like, elementary school, I would buy girls things. I would buy them, like, well, two girls, I guess.

So we'd give them money sometimes or just, like, candy, whatever. I was trying to, I was really interested, and I was trying to get with that. So that was, you'll want to keep track of that, because that'll come into play. later. But so then I had a pretty normal. I mean, I had like my first kiss, whatever when I was probably in fifth grade. Middle school was very hit and miss. I had a regular girlfriend. My first girlfriend when I was like 16, 17, took her, took her regeneration, take mine.

I had some, even back then, I had some like anxiety erectile dysfunction stuff. It was like I couldn't get hard the first few times we hooked up. up. With every girl? That was like a pattern for you? It's always been kind of a pattern. Even with my current girlfriend, it's still a pattern. Once I get over it, I'm usually good, but it's a mental thing.

It's not really a physical thing. Yeah, obviously. Yeah, obviously. And so basically, you had that first girlfriend, and then me and her, we fucked like crazy once we started going, cars, parks, everything, yada, yada. And then we got to the point where I got to the point where I was always obsessed with cheating. So I would And my friends, girlfriends, anything wrong I was kind of obsessed with.

I was always really wanted to hook up with my friend's girlfriends. That was always a big thing with me. Like I would get kind of obsessed with him. So basically, yeah, me and that girlfriend, we hooked up, we were dating for about a year. I ended up breaking up with her because I really wanted to just, I wanted to party, hook up with all kinds of girls. I felt confident in myself that I could do it.

So there was another friend I had, and he had a girlfriend. This is like a couple years later. And she came, she came over we did some drugs and whatnot and she asked me later if i had any of the same stuff when he wasn't around and she came over and i fucked her on the couch and a lot of like i really wanted to play into the cheating though like i would ask her like what do you think like sean would think if he walked in right now would he that's a little of a cockle and so that was probably when i was let's say i was god i want to say 20 maybe 21 then when i hooked up with my friend's girlfriend

friend. And that, so I'm going to jump around here. That was the last time, this is probably going to trip you out, I consensually, well, hooked up with a girl that wasn't like an escort or something paid for from 20, let's say, to 32. You have only escorts that you pay for? Where are you located because it can't be legal? Yeah, I'm up in Canada. Oh, you're right. Okay, I know about Canada. I've had escorts. Okay, so you, so how many years did you, did you pay for and did you have transactional sex? And why? Was it set up that way for such a young guy? So it was from the ages of basically 20 to 33.

Wow, that's a long time. Or 20 to maybe 32 because I'm 33 now. So it would be 20 to 32. And so that I would say from 20 to 24, there was zero hooking up with anybody. I went into, it's kind of a separate story, but I went to like deep depression and mental issues combined with other stuff. drugs, alcohol. And so that happened from 20 to 22, I would say, I was really deep in that. And then at 22, I decided, okay, I'm just going to, this is going to take over my life if I don't turn some shit around. So I'm going to put my mind to just, you know, being, doing positive

shit mentally, working out consistently, eating good, and like just do a full turnaround here. And so, so that's what I decided to do. And the only, I got rid of most of it, but I had like debilitating anxiety left. Like it was, you wouldn't think it with me walking around like at my job or normal day to day life, but like I would get really bad social anxiety. So I just had to get very real with myself and just did really dig deep and try and turn some shit around. And I did for the most part.

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just do a full turnaround here. And so, so that's what I decided to do. And the only, I got rid of most of it, but I had like debilitating anxiety left. Like it was, you wouldn't think it with me walking around like at my job or normal day to day life, but like I would get really bad social anxiety. So I just had to get very real with myself and just did. really dig deep and try and turn some shit around and I did for the most part and then after that I was in an apartment and I started getting obsessed with Femdom older women um just not even like anything too

kinky I just remember during that time I specifically wanted an older woman but if I was 22 I wanted a woman probably 40 to 60 to like just yeah I wasn't I didn't even know any kinky terms or anything but i just wanted her to like kind of just be like we're gonna hook up and like hold me down and fuck me and like all that shit and so i had a i got i had an escort that was probably 50 come over and she didn't really get it like i explained that i wanted like an older dominant woman to like basically i think i said make me her little bitch yeah and she like just she was trying to have me explain it during the time and like I ended up just fucking her regularly like just missionary just fucking and then leaving it was a waste it was insane yeah yeah and then the other one

that was probably 24 or and then I went and saw another escort probably 26 or 7 maybe a couple years later and she was a little better she would have me like suck her toes remember she wanted me to eat her actually goes okay well eat me out like first thing first and I'd only eat now my first girlfriend when I was 16, like once or twice. And so I didn't know what the fuck I was doing. And I tried that and that she ended up telling me to stop after like 10 seconds. And like just put a finger up my ass while I laid on the bed. And like, I'm sorry, but these are terrible sex workers, okay?

Because like they should like, I don't know, why tell you to stop? I don't know. Maybe that was humiliating for you and she was trying to humiliate you. But like, you know, she should have just wet with it. You're like, you're being her bitch. She should have made you be her bitch. I don't know. It's weird. Yeah. And I might have been choosing the cheaper options. I probably could have had someone a little better if I went a little more expensive.

But I was young at the time. But then I, so this is going to be a reoccurring thing during this. I'm obsessed with humiliation. That's probably the main thing. Humiliation and degradation. Like I love the thought of and being just absolutely humiliated on a real level. And so I'm not into guys as in like, I'm not like, I've never seen a man and been like sexually attracted to him. or want to hook up with him or anything like that really like just on a but there is like a deep part of me that wants to be like turned into like cisification or feminization forced by forced by forced by is huge yeah and so that type of stuff and i'm going to just say i'm sorry to cut you up but i just want to let people know because i've heard it a million time because i've been doing my show a long time and i do fetish fridays and so many guys that do seek out dominatrix and stuff will say exactly what you just said we're in that it's not really the guy that they're into it's the humiliation and the being

forced to it's like all of that is what is the turn on um so i've heard that so many times and for some people won't make sense if they're hearing it for the first time but it's very common yeah yeah exactly it would almost be the op like it wouldn't even be if i was into guys and i was actually attracted to him exactly exactly that you know what way better way to to explain it that That was the perfect way to explain it. Exactly. It's the fact that you don't like guys, which gives you all the humiliation that you need. Yeah, exactly.

Yeah, thank you for being better than me. And so I started posting, yeah, I started posting on Craigslist. And so I started posting on there. Well, I did before that post on there. I said, I said the stupidest thing. It was like young, attractive guy looking for dominant, older woman. And like, I would talk to people on there. And so I talked to a couple people.

And then I ended up going with the straight young guy looking for daddy thing and wanting to be turned into like a sissy and all that. And I talked to a guy on there. And I talked to a few different guys, but it must have been, I don't know what drove me to choose this one guy. I think he barely even sent me a pick of him. But I was just super, super horned up. And he's like, you can come over and bring all your stuff and we'll do this, this and this. And so I ordered, I think of Amazon or something like panties, whatever you call them, the fishnets, the bra wig, all that.

I went over there and, oh, my God, it was like a trailer park type deal where, and oh, fuck, I was just so horny. It was insane. I can't, it's saying it now, just even more insane. So I went over there and I come up, I'm in regular, clothes. I got all my cross-dressing shit in the bag and he opens the door and he's like shorter than I expected. He's like probably a good six inches, at least shorter than me. And then I'd say 50 is a little little chunky, not too much. And he's first thing he says is like, you're prettier than most

the girls that walk in here or something like that. Oh my God. And oh yeah. And then I, he's like, go to the bathroom and get dressed and so I go to the bathroom and I'm putting on all my shit and I mean I'm just got the full gear on at this point and walk out there and he's uh he's like filling me up a little bit and touching my ass and then he kisses me which I was already feeling a little this is my first time doing anything like this and I was feeling a little just off and then he the kiss made me feel definitely off and so the kiss was a whole different thing for some reason And he, then he brings me to the bedroom. And there's like a, it looks almost like a dildo, but it's like a really like a wooden hard dildo.

But like it's shaped like a cone. And he has that lane on the bed and he tells me to get on the bed. And I fucking, I said I forgot something in my truck. I grabbed my keys, walked out there. Yeah, walked out there full cross, full the girl's clothes and walked out of there. And then drove off and I took his robe because he told me I could wear his robe outside to, you know, go get my shit. And I took his robe. And I still have it to this day.

And he, like, he would text me, like, probably every month or two for a good year. That's asking for his robe. He's wanting to come back on. Yeah, of course. Yeah. Try it again. And I just never responded like once. And then, so that was, let's say, 27, 28.

and then I started getting into... I have a quick question though. Sorry, I have to interrupt. In this time, in between these hookups, is there any kind of penetrative sex going on with women? Or are you basically like fucking a woman, like maybe once or twice every couple of years? No, I like...

But the escorts are the ones that I told you about that I'm fucking maybe once or twice. Maybe like three escorts in total. But besides that, I'm not hooking up with any girls. Sure, but like, so you'd have fuck a girl. like once a year. Like if I'm doing the math, right? There's like no sex going on. You're jerking off a lot, right?

You're having fantasize, your fantasies and everything. But in real life, you're not having much real sex at all. Pretty much zero. Yeah, it's interesting. Yep. And so then maybe that's where the, this is right around the time, I'd say, the humiliation and degradation started ramping up. And I started getting into, God, I can't remember.

the orders of which I got into it all but like so censored porn was one of the things I started getting into to humiliate myself it'd be like um it called it was called censored porn for betas and it would make you jack off to like a video of a girl or like porn but the girl's whole body or at least her tits her ass or pussy everything would be censored and like pixelated and you had to it would be like jerk off to this like the feet or the armpit or the elbows. And what's appealing like that to a beta? The fact that you can't have what you want, that you can't see it, like that they're hiding it from you, that you're not good enough to see the fucking pussy in the tits?

I don't understand. Exactly. Like you're not worthy enough to see. Only real men can see this. You don't get to see this. And it would like circle what it wanted you to jack off to. And it was usually like I said, the feet, the belly button. That's so interesting.

I've never heard of censored porn for betas, but I'm going to get tons of emails from other people who know all about it. Oh, it started going deep. You can get, I started going deeper and deeper. It started about that, but then it would move on to, like, blackout to where it would be like the girl's body. You could see the silhouette of it, but it would be completely blacked out. And like just her hand, her hand would be, or just the jeans, maybe, like just her jeans and Mickey Jack off to her jeans. Wow. Interesting.

Okay. Yeah. Yeah. And then I started, yeah, I started watching a lot. I started finding better and better. And like just the more you look around, you kind of realize where the good stuff is and where to look and whatnot. And I just found like better. It was called like bi-conversion therapy porn where it would make you, it would like, it would be like, you're straight, right?

At the beginning, it would be captioned. So it would be like words would pop up and then it would be a video. So it'd be like, you're straight, right? You like girls and like there'd be hot girls on the screen and like, okay, start jacking off. And then they would eventually slip in like a transgender woman. And they would just show one or two. And then it'd be like, then the caption would be like, you like that, huh? And it'd be like, okay, you need to say goodbye to girls and jerk off to only transgender people.

And then it would move on from, then it would move on from transgender to men. It would kind of do the same transition. It would eventually, it would make you come to full on gay porn at the end. and it was like trying to, I don't think it really works, but it was trying to condition your brain to associate like gay and cock and all that with pleasure. Yeah, I got it. Yeah.

Listen, porn and stuff like this, if you do it so much, it can rewire you into things. I mean, that's the problem with it sometimes. You know what I mean? Oh, by the end? Yeah. Yeah, by the end of this conversation, you'll probably think it has rewired me.

This is like therapy for me in a way, because I've never talked about anyone fully what went on with everything. Yes, I go out. And then, so I started getting into like, there's a site called Hypnotube. And there's a lot of the stuff I'm talking about, like, cystification forced by. But it's all based around, like, the videos would be supposed to hypnotize you and, like, you know, really get it in your head that you're a beta, you're a loser. Like, you need to start wearing women's clothes and just start taking cock all the time. And, yeah.

So sort of getting deep into that stuff, which eventually led to pay pig type stuff. And I've just heard becoming interested in Fendom and Pay Pig type stuff. And Fendob, just so for people to know, because there was a time where I didn't know what Fendom means. It's not Femdom, which is female domination. It's Fendom, which is financial domination, which is you want some bitch to take all your money, basically. Exactly. Exactly. They sound very similar.

Yeah, yeah. And some people, I didn't know. what Fendom was the first time someone said it to me so anyway go on so then you now you're into Fendom I'm not yeah I'm not doing it but I'm into it's interesting to me I'm like looking stuff up about it and like the concept of it's interesting

to me and so you'll see throughout this that I have a very risky and I kind of I'll put the best things that I have going for myself on the line for sex essentially and that'll all make sense in a second but I wanted to be a pay pig for someone that knew me well.

And for someone that like maybe knew me from back in high school or my early years that actually knew me. And so I had a group of friends. I didn't, I wasn't hooking up with any girls and like kind of, I'd say, looserous type stuff that's subjective. But I did have a lot of, I wasn't a loser. And like, you wouldn't think it with me walking on the street, like, not to tut my own horn, but I'm a relatively like good looking guy.

I have a good job. Which is even more fascinating to me. Yeah. I carry myself pretty well. People usually assume, I've had guys telling me, like, I always thought you got a lot of girls or, like, I come across that way.

Yeah, interesting. And so, like I said, I wanted someone that really knew me to do this. And I had, even though I wasn't hooking up with girls, I had a group of really close guy friends, and probably like four or five at least. I would call it my best, best friends.

And, I mean, we were tight from middle school until recently, and you'll see why. But I, I, so I knew their girlfriends very well. That, that was with a lot of their girlfriends day in and day out. They were basically like my friends too. And especially, especially my one or two, like, friends that I was with every day, pretty much going over their house.

And so I would become, I was jacking off to their girlfriends a lot. I've always been into that. But then I wanted the pay pig from them. But I didn't know how to, like, how the fuck do you approach something like that? Yeah. And, and so what I did is I created a fake. account on Instagram. And I said, then found them and sent them a message and said, hey, fake account for obvious reasons. But I'm, like I said, I'm one of your boyfriend's friends. And I've always

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And so none of them replied except one. And she wasn't, she was my friend's ex-wife, actually. They had just gotten divorced like a year ago prior to this. And she said she'd be interested, yada, yada. And so we ended up getting into it. She wasn't really going in depth the amount I wanted to. She's just like, I'll turn you into more of a loser than I made your friend. all, like, worship me.

I need a coffee, send me money. And that went on for just a little bit. That went on for a couple few weeks. And I ran out of money. Money was getting tight, quick, because she was having me send her a lot of money. Yeah. And so I quit.

I backed out of everything. And I'm like, okay, I'm just not going to fuck around with that. And then later that, me and my friend group, we're in our 30s now. And so we're not, like, hanging out every day or like talking every day like we used to, you know? And they, we form a group chat. And everyone's, we're talking the group chat like every day.

And then for some reason, that girl that was my friend's ex-wife that I was doing the pay-pig stuff for decided to tell my friend, his, her ex-husband, that I was doing the pay-pig stuff with her, showed him screenshots and everything. Yeah, I'm surprised it took so long. girls have big mouths i'm just gonna tell yeah the stuff i did i mean i like i like to think i'm a semi good person but i'm aware these are very piece of shit moves and they're very not it's like so super interesting how could she keep that story to herself yeah i mean it's just she needs she needs to tell so what like what like can you believe like like because it's so

out of the norm that well she's the type that you might think would be into it out of all of them She is got a goth. It's definitely leaving goth. A lot of tattoos. Always wearing like leather. But anyway, she ratted you out. She fucking ratted me out. And so the other thing is, though, I sent that text about the pay pig fendom thing to all of my friends' girlfriends.

Oh my gosh. Right. And so by revealing one, they were able to piece together that I had done this to all their girlfriends. Yeah. That's a little. That's very. I mean, the fact that you even did that was that, is that a part of like your humiliated? risk part of you because that is so like teetering and on a boundary that you're not supposed to cross,

you know, but was that a part of the thrill for you? Not, I mean, no, I would say that I really wanted someone that knew me personally. So it was just like you were so, so horny and the only people that you could wrangle up were these, your friend's girlfriends, like those were the closest women to you. So it was just a necessity. It wasn't like that was the part of the. the hotness because you do like cheating, you know, you did say you do like these guys, girls all the time, you know.

Yeah, yeah. And so, yeah, that basically ended all my friendships that I had. Oh, my God. What did you say to you? What did they say to you or what did you say to them or were there no conversation? Oh, I denied it up and down at the beginning until, I mean, I was freaking the fuck out denying it for a good day. And then it got to the point where there was obviously no more denying it.

And so I asked you a question like the guys from the guys perspective. They were like blowing you up obviously saying shit to you. Like what was it that they were mad at? Were they like freaked out that you were into this weird thing or were they pissed that you just solicited their girls, right? No, they made that clear too. They were like, we don't care what you're into. Yeah. Like people are into kinky shit.

Yeah. It's the fact that it's my wife. It's my girlfriend. Yeah. Yeah. They had every right. I would do the same thing. if I had them, I'd be fucking pissed.

Yeah, yeah. And what was your reasoning? What did you say to them? I lied. I mean, I said it was one night. I said I'm into that stuff and I was drunk one night and said, fuck it and sent out a bunch of texts. And one thing led to another and like I know it's not right.

And all that I had a lot to say. I mean, there was like a fucking book of what I wrote them. But yeah. No, it didn't work. A couple of them that I didn't, wasn't involved with. There was like one or two friends that I didn't send it to their girlfriends. And so they still are on semi-good terms with me. But I wasn't like super close with them.

Not only that. No, I'm sorry. But if I was one of those guys, I'd be insulted. Like, why didn't you fucking hit up my girls? She's not hot enough. Like, I think they'd all just be pissed for one reason or another. Because why did you leave out two of the girls? What was wrong with them?

I just wasn't getting the There's a vibe you get when you want someone to dom you And humiliate you And I just wasn't getting that One of the girls, one of my best friends, girlfriends That I didn't do it to Is actually probably the couple that would have been And they're like into they've cucked and cucked queen

And all that stuff Like they might have been fucking down But Yeah And so everything blew up So keep in mind like I'm into the Femdom Humiliation I look up a lot of cucking video

Even though I don't have never I haven't had a girlfriend in 10 plus years. I'm really into cucking. I'm watching all kinds of cucking porn. I'm like, God. I'm making like Tinder profiles and other dating profiles, like advertising as a cuck. And none of that's really working because it wouldn't work. You'd want to get into a relationship with someone normally almost.

And then eventually the cuck thing kind of develops. It's weird. It starts. No, well, listen, you're kind of weeding out anyone that wouldn't want that. So you're like, hey, I'm looking for a woman who will, go out and fuck other guys for me, like straight off the bat. That's what you're proposing on Tinder. That's what you're leading with.

Yeah. Yeah. And so I would do stuff like that. And then, but I was very well versed. I wasn't having sex like at all. I mean, and then,

but I was very well versed in it. Like I knew all the terms. I'd watch tons of porn. Even like guys dominating girls. Like face fucking. Um, just all the BDSM stuff like Bukakis. Like I very,

I knew what was going on. And so I started. hitting up random girls on Snapchat and they have a quick ad section in Snapchat where you can just like add a bunch of random girls and you look at their little avatar, their emoji thing

and I'm like kind of time to decipher who's hot and just adding a million fucking girls and just and I would send them a picture of me just like my chest and my fucking like whatever because I'm a fairly muscular I'm not like super over the top Jack

but I'm muscular enough to where like you got veins and get the definition and whatnot. And so I would send him a pick of that. And like, it was a, I was having a lot more luck with a lot hotter girls than I ever expected. Just because it was like, it's just a numbers game. If I send it to

two, 300 girls, maybe one to five of them would actually respond. Right. But you do it enough. And like, yeah, eventually it works out. And the, and so I'm 32 at this time. And I end up matching with an 18-year-old and that is finally a real girl comes into your life and now we're back to

inaction right this is going to be your girl yeah so she lives she lives five hours away though okay well okay that makes sense yeah and then i match with another 18-year-old who lives like probably even far like 12 hours away okay and so I'm talking to them both and and other girls at this time And it's me dominating them, though. They don't know anything about the femdom, the cucking. Because most women aren't, or girls, especially that age, they're into dominant guys and like the majority of them. Yes, for sure. And so I wasn't opening with that or even letting them know about any of that.

And this is where I met my current girlfriend. She's one of the 18-year-olds that I'm talking to, just started talking to on Snap. She's the one that's five hours away. And so she's 18. She's still in school. she lives with her mother. And so those are just a lot of factors. And I'm talking to her for probably three months.

And eventually she asked me, like, when are you going to come over and like, fuck me? And I had her do a lot of shit. The very first night I met her, I had her, like, write, you know, like, W.H on one cheek of her face, R.E. on the other. make the O with their mouth. It's spelled out horror across her face. Right, right fuck toy under her eyelids. I mean, this is a girl who's still in school.

She's 18. I'm just Googling like in Canada. I hope that this is the age of consent because if her mother finds her phone, okay, you're in a lot of food. That mother's going to be fucking horrified. No, Canada's 15. Oh, okay. Okay, go on.

But she's 18. Yeah, okay. So she, we're doing, all that and then I'm having her do all kinds of shit I had it right like a she was working at a what was a some little job at the time and I would have her write W on her hand and tell her every time she looked at it to remember what it meant I meant horror and like your job is to non-stop seat cock out there like I was really I wanted to like turn her in from she wasn't a normal girl she was

kinky as fuck but I wanted to like convert her into just an absolute cock whore and so I was doing stuff like that and she was very kinky too like i didn't introduce her to any of the shit she was pretty well-versed and so we're going we're talking eventually she asked me to meet up and so i drive five hours over she lives with her parents and so we get a hotel room and i mean just we get drunk and fuck her brains out all night and i couldn't get hard at first actually that was the same thing like with my very first girlfriend couldn't get hard at them initially and did a lot of shit with her face fucking um you know doggy cowgirl reverse cowgirl just fucking all night long because it's our first time meeting each other and then so that went

well and she was doing like online work at the time like only fans type stuff and she had a sugar daddy too who would come and see her from time to time he was he was older than me he was like 45 and he would come see her and fuck her and whatnot. Me and her were talking every day, and we just kept getting closer and closer to the point where I was going over there every other week and getting every other weekend and getting a hotel and just kind of doing the same shit,

a lot of writing, you know, right, like fill me up with like an arrow to her pussy or like something on her back to the ass and all that shit. And then we just kept going and going. I went over there every two weeks for six months until last July. This was when she ended up moving in with me. She moved over. Oh, wow.

Yeah. You come a long way, considering you were so, like, anti-real anything for so many years. And now you're, like, living with someone. I give you credit, because sometimes people get stuck in, like, an unavailable state of being for their whole life. Yeah, and my mind was blown. My mind still is blown, honestly, because she's not like, she's fucking hot. She's like, she's five, four, probably 110 maybe, sea cup tits, blonde, great face. I mean, just like banging fucking hot. And so I'm amazed that everything's worked out to the point where it has and she is living with me. But before she even moved in, though she was still doing like the only fans and online type stuff and this is so i wanted to get her into cucking and well yeah that's i was gonna say she sounds like she could be perfect she could go do all these guys and her sugar daddy guy and you're down for it now yeah no i ended the sugar daddy guy

initially when i very first got with her i told her that i wanted to be exclusive i wanted her to myself which i did at that time i was so like i was so on edge that i had this hot girl that actually wanted to date me and like to lock it down that That's not in the wrong with that. That's cute. Yeah. And so I asked her to cut it off with the sugar daddy guy and all that. And then she did. And so I'm going to back it up. Yeah. So that's when we first started dating. That was in that January. And so we started dating that January. And March comes around. And I go over there for the hotel visit. And I find out that I had a thing where I was always nervous. This is probably why because I'm kind of a cheater myself. And so I get worried about her.

her cheating on me and I looked through her phone while she was sleeping next to me and I found a text from her ex with a picture of her house that had a and then it had like a line drawn on the picture from her showing where her bedroom window is oh my god and yeah and so I she denied it at first and long story short ended up getting out of her that she let her ex come over and face fuck her in the shower. And when she first told me, she was, I was like, did you fuck him? And she was like, no, but it's probably worse than that. And I didn't really get what she meant worse than that. But I think what she meant is like, she wasn't even getting any pleasure out of it. She just let him use her mouth. Yeah. Yeah. And so me with all the stuff I'm

into, I'm very torn. I have this hot girl that I want to lock down. She lives five hours away. she just cheated on me and what but i'm also into cucking and humiliation and all that and so i didn't bring it up at that time but i was god i was fucking close and so a little bit of time went on after that we ended up working things out i forgave her and then i ended up making a fake account on only fans and messaging her pretending to be this big black like dominant guy and who was he was into cucking and so I basically I knew all the shit she was into

and what would push her button so I was saying this as that guy and she was really digging all of it and she would like humiliate me to that guy I would get her to be like, what can't your boyfriend do it to you? I'll fuck you like that. She'd like, he couldn't put his foot on my face

while he was fucking me because I tried the weekend before and I couldn't get the angle. And then so and then as I'm faking being this guy, I'm like, okay, I want you to do with me something. I want you to send your boyfriend these videos. And the videos are like BBC cucking videos. And see what he thinks. And so I have her send me the videos thinking I'm that guy.

Oh my God. This is so psychotic. Yep, a little bit. And so she's sending me the videos. And then I revealed, I'm like, I'm actually kind of into that. That stuff used to interest me. And I'm like just totally faking it. Yeah, but this is your way of kind of introducing it instead of being straightforward.

Do you think? Yep, exactly. Okay. And so we, and then I ended up as that guy on OnlyFans, I would have her write stuff on her face, like BBC slut and like all that shit, blacked. And she would do it all. And then she would like tell me, like, not. She'd be like, I'm doing this for this guy, and he wants me to send you this video, and I'm acting like I'm really into it. And then all that kind of, I forget why exactly, all that ended.

She got off online stuff. And like me and her were just getting more serious. And then she moved over here. And when she moved over here, we were doing the same, just not vanilla, but just me doming her and kinky stuff for the first few months. And then ended up, the cocking stuff got brack up. got brought back up. And so we made a dating profile for her. And we were just going to do the talking at first.

And so she ended up matching. She ended up matching with a lot of black guys anyway. Like the majority of them were. Right. And so she, we talked to a few. And we ended up deciding on one guy. And we were like, okay, we're going to get a hotel and just. even though we're in my hometown now,

we're going to get a hotel so he doesn't come over to the house. And we're going to do this. And so we actually had to have setting up. It was like two guys that night. We only ended up doing one. We did some of the other. But we got to the hotel and we're like trying to get all ready in the room and get all jacked up. And he comes up there.

And he's probably about my size and my height, maybe a little bit taller. Dick's about the same length. I'm like seven inches. His was right around seven, but his is much girthier than mine. And she, the first thing he did was just eat her out and all that,

which she was much better than I was at that type of stuff. And so she's like just moaning like fucking crazy. And eventually she slips out like, he does that so much better than you. And that type of stuff and like kept looking over and making eye contact with me. And so we did that. It was very in and out.

The whole ordeal was probably 20 minutes. Oh, wow. That's quick. But probably the hottest experience for you. Yeah, I was almost in shock at the time of it all, so that it was actually even happening and where I was at and everything. And, yeah. And so, yeah.

And then we went home to, this was when she really made me, like, eat it. She, like, sat on my face, made me eat her ass, which I hadn't done before. and like called me a loser you know slap my face that type of stuff and so then we ended up what was it probably three weeks you're switching roles because you were dominating her for a while there right and now she's doing it to you yeah yeah exactly yeah which i kind of led her coerced her into even though she she's liking it at this point like she's having fun with it obviously whatnot yeah but and so after that first cuckin experience a few weeks went by and we decided to do it again

and this guy she has a hard time with big dicks like mine's a seven and even that like you have to take it easy with her and she's just a tighter girl I guess and she's small you said she's like five four five four yeah

and so this other she wanted she wanted a smaller dick because she really wanted she likes to get fucked like super hard and fast just relentlessly. And so she found a guy who had like a five-inch dick. And we set up, did the same exact thing, same exact hotel. He came over.

He didn't eat her out or anything, which he was kind of disappointed in. But he fucked her like an animal, doggy style on the bed while I was sitting in the chair watching and just like absolute animals. So that one was almost better just because it was so like intense. The first one was almost slower and like love making and whatnot. Yeah, interesting. But so that happened. And then that was this, I mean, it was the same deal. It was very quick.

It was like 20, 30 minutes of the guy actually there. They'd hook up. Fuck, he'd come. Then he'd leave. And then she would make me do that fucking eat the cum out of her, sit on my face, and all that shit. And so yeah, this is when we start to get into normal everyday stuff. tell her that I like, I don't want you to just dominate me in the bedroom. I want you to like make me your little bitch in every aspect. Oh, so this is where it's like female led relationship you're

looking for. Yeah, which she's not, we've dabbled in it. Like she made me wear her panties one day to work like under my jeans. Let me just tell you something. Okay, I'm just going to give you a little fucking warning. And I would warn anyone into this. But listen, it works sometimes and stuff. But that's a hard line for a woman who's into a guy to ride, right? Because at what point, at what point does, you know, she sort of humiliate you so much in every era of your life that she loses respect for you. You know what I mean? It's kind of like hard to do, I think, sometimes for a woman. Yeah, that worries me. And we've backed off. She's not really into doing it full time. And then part of me when I realized that and whatnot was like, thank God because of what

you just said exactly. Like, this is a girl for you. Okay. Right. So you're going to have to, you know, you have a tendency to go all in, right? You're very, you're all in kind of person but like you have to meet her where she's at which is a little bit in the middle of stuff like that because if you go all in on that with her

you know she might eventually just like lose her respect for you and then you lose your relationship and this girl is like perfect for you you got his fucking meet you know so she's obsessed with me too she's very like I mean I hate even saying that but she's like I'm constantly like how are you so amazing

you're the best man ever man right so the last a girl that's obsessed with a guy wants to do is like berate him and make him feel like shit like you don't want to take away that obsession do you know what I mean like you got a good thing going on here don't fucking ruin it by going too hard core in that way you know what I mean and because and then five years from now

you lose this girl because you you got a good thing going that's all I'm saying yeah you know I know I hear you so there's a lot we do the we do the switch like I domed her a couple weeks ago which I hadn't done in a while and I have a few times since then and so I think just keeping the switching balance is going to be the most important thing.

Because there is that part of me after she does humiliate me and cuck me and whatnot. Like there's that part of me. It's like, okay, I'm going to show her like how much I can fuck her shit up and remind her. I like that. Yeah, that creates a nice balance, I think, for the, for her, you know, seeing you in a certain way and vice versa, I think. Yeah. Yeah. Because I've done a lot of super dumb.

I mean, I would do, like I said, like the first time I had her right on her face, but like I've done that in person. Like I would have her right W.H. on one cheek, Ari on the other. Hold her mouth open. And like I would hold the sides. I would hold the sides of her face. And I would face fuck her. I mean,

she loved it too. She said this. She cheated on her ex. Like I told you with, cheated on me with her ex who face fucked her in the shower. Yeah. Yeah. And because I introduced her to face fucking.

And so once I got the full story out of her about the ex, I was like, she was like, I basically, I was given him a blow job. And I held my mouth still and I told him to start pumping. And, and so,

but I introduced her to that I would I mean I would Facebook her I face fuck her to the point where she's puked before Oh my God Yeah and like yeah and then So We would got even that thing with the ex like He lives back in her hometown which is like five hours away

And I was torn up over the cheating initially And for a long time Like I didn't like talk about it in a sexy way or anything like that But a couple months ago when we started getting into the cuck stuff like deeper I was like, you should hit him up and just send him a nude right now. Wow. And she, yeah, she did. And then she, they were talking for a while.

And we were actually going to drive back there and I was going to pay for a hotel for them to fuck in while I sat out and listened. And she didn't end up doing it because he ended up flaking out for a different reason. But so, yeah, and then, God, that's kind of where we're at. right now. She actually cut me one more time. I told you about the two times, but she met another black guy who was definitely on the more like gangster side of things. Um, he, this was this one I actually listened to on the phone. And so she went and drove to where he's at. He's probably 20 minutes from her house. And they went to a park. And she put me the phone that's in her console. And I just listened to their like conversation and them fucking in the back and whatnot.

That's a hot cuck scenario for a lot of cucks. Yeah, using my imagination. Yeah. And then at the end of it, at the end of it, he goes, you take black dick so well. And like,

that's when he came. And so that was like something out of a movie I felt like, is this even my life at this point? Like, what the fuck's going on? You're living like a cuck cuckled's dream. And you got a hot little bitch doing it all for you. And the good news is, I'm sorry, but like the good news is and what I'm so happy for you about is that this is a real girl in your life.

This isn't like, you know, a transactional kind of a thing. This is a woman you live with. You have a life outside of the bedroom. You have a real relationship for the first time in your life. Like, I love that. This is also like more than just this sex, right? It's like a real relationship for you for the first time. Yeah, I could really, yeah.

I'm very risky and fucked up, though. So I've, I left it. I've cheated on her probably four times already. You leave this so right now, okay? And I have someone to tape right after you. I can't get into this. But like, are you serious? Don't fuck this up, Alex.

Yeah, I need someone to yell it at me. Don't fuck this up. Let me ask you something, okay? Did you ever ask her? Listen, she's a real kinky girl. Listen, she might be cheating on you too more than you think. But let me ask you this. Have you ever asked her if you could go fuck girls?

Like, did you ever ask her if she wants to be cucked? You know, girls are into that. I like to be. I'm a little. I don't want to do that. I don't want to do that. Oh, you're twisted. No, no, no.

You're twisted. This is what you are. And a lot of people are twisted in this way. You want to cheat on her, but you only want to cheat on her. You don't want permission to go fuck other girls. It's not about just fucking other girls. It's about cheating, right? You're exactly right.

Yeah. It's wrong. And you know what? You did say in the beginning that you're going to think that I got wired into this. Like, that's that cheating thing that you have. You have to stop scratching that itch because you scratch that itch so much in your life when you were younger, that when you weren't available for real sex and stuff, that you wired yourself into that kind of a thing.

But now that you're wired into it, that exact thing, that stupid kink that you have, the fact that you're actually living it out in real life, it could really be detrimental to your real life now. Like you are in a different place now. You're having a real relationship with a girl who is giving you everything that you want. That's very hard to find and get and you have that. And you don't want to fuck it up just for a fucking high cheating scenario. Seriously.

Stop with a cheating kink. Okay. And mock it up in your real relationship or let it fucking go. Because if you lose this girl, you know, what is it going to be? 10 more years of nonsense that you were doing before? I'm surprised that you wound up with a real girl. girl. Oh, especially a young, especially a young hot one. I mean, I feel like

I'm living in like every guy's dream right now. Yeah, but you're going to fuck it up for just like a 15 minute, you know, hard on. Like, it's not worth it. It's not fucking worth it, okay? Get over, get over the cheating kink. Stop going there in your brain. Stop jerking off to that. Remember how you did the buy conversion therapy? Do the, I'm not going to fucking cheat conversion therapy. Stop. You're like, you wired yourself to be into that. You have that as your

thing. But the, The way you kill that thing is by not feeding it, no matter how much you want to cheat on her, don't fucking do it. You have so much in your sex life with her that you could get pleasureed by. You don't need that, okay? And when you lose her for that, you're going to be like, what a stupid fucking asshole I am. It wasn't worth it. You're going to really regret it. Oh, yeah, I'll probably let myself go if I lose her.

She's the last real good thing that I got. So don't fucking cheat on her again. ever again that when you get the itch to cheat don't fucking do it fantasize with it with her talk to her about how you used to have it when you were younger start role playing do something but keep her involved but don't ruin this okay no if I just jack off it'll end that's what I always get so jack off so jack off so jack off okay please stop cheating on her yep I know I hear you loud and clear and I'm going to I haven't actually since we got back into the cuck thing that's one thing about the

I haven't hardly had the urge to cheat since we got into really got into the cuck thing like a couple months ago. That's good. But listen, I think though... It shouldn't be that though. I shouldn't not be... No, no, no. It's not about that.

It's not about that. I'm just saying that when that wears off, you might all of a sudden get that urge, but I think that if you actually tell your girl, not that you cheated on her, but tell her that when you were younger, you had this cheating kink and stuff and blah, blah, blah, and you tell her this is the kind of girl

that's so open and dirty and kinky. She might be into it, too. Who knows what she's fucking. Maybe she has the same thing. So why don't you bring that kink into role, like role playing with your girl? Oh, we have actually, we could do a second episode on just me cheating on her and the shit she's got that you're talking about right now. No, I don't want to, no, I don't want to give life to that part of you. I want you to fucking stop it, okay?

And go on with your life. You're a young guy. You want kids. You want to have all these things in your life one day. You're finally in a real relationship. Like I said, I was surprised. I thought you were like one of those super unavailable people that, you know, still is not with anyone. You have a real live girl in your life, okay?

Don't fucking out. Yeah, we've been dating for a year and officially dating for a year and a half now. Yeah, and she's hard. Yeah, living together. Like you went from like, to me being a guy that didn't know how to have like real relationships with people to like living with someone and having a, it sounds like a good relationship. The cheating thing is your issue.

It's not an issue with her, it's not like you guys are having problems. That's not why you're doing it. You're doing it because you have this kink that you developed a long time ago before her and you don't want to ruin it for that because it's a waste. No, having her too is mine. Like, just walking around with a girl that hot is mind blowing hot. Because I've never had that before. And just the looks you get from people, the way they talk to you.

And forget it. And she's into all, I don't care about that. And she's into all your kinks, okay? What girl is going to be into all the shit that you're into? Okay. No, that. And then she does want to get married and, like, travel. Like, she talks about it all the time.

She's like, I really want to have your kids and, like, travel and get serious. Yeah. Don't stop with the cheating, okay, enough. And I'm not going to do a whole episode on because I don't want to know. I want you to move forward. Yeah, no, no, no, no. I want you to move forward and I just don't want you to do it again. Just jerk off every time until you do it.

And then I promise you, if you stop feeding that and actually acting on that desire to eventually goes away. I quit smoking. It's like quitting smoking. I smoked a cigarette every single day, every other hour for my whole life, 15 years. How did I not smoke ever again by no matter how many times I thought I want to smoke? I never did. And it took a long time for that feeling to go away.

But if you don't feed it, eventually it goes away. That's how you have to kill it. So kill that vibe by never actually acting out on it. Jerk off to it if you want or just ignore it. But go on with your life. I love your story. It's super interesting. It's going to be up this Friday.

If you can send me picks for my Patreon, just of you, if your girl doesn't know you're calling in, obviously she doesn't because she's not going to hear this because you talk about fucking cheating on her, okay? So don't send me picks of her. Don't tell her about this episode. but send me anonymous picks of you if you want. Then I'll also give you free access to my page on so you can see the comments for one month. And then I'll also give you free access, though, for all time for my Discord.

And you could go on there and post whatever you want over there, okay? Oh, perfect. Where do you want me to send the pick to? To my email. Okay. Perfect. All right. I'll probably cut my face out.

Of course. No, no, you have to cut your face out. It's only anonymous. Don't put your face in, especially after all the shit. You told me and you're cheating on your girl. Don't put your face in there, okay? Send me a anonymous. Okay.

All right. All right. Thanks so much for calling in. This was super interesting. Good luck with everything. Yeah, thank you for having me. Yeah, have a good day. You too.

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