Strictly Anonymous Confessions - 1124 - Milky Jessica Secretly Breastfeeds Guys Behind her BF Back??

Episode Date: May 26, 2025

Milky Jessica secretly breastfeeds guys behind her boyfriend’s back and she called in to talk all about it. Tune in to hear all the details including What abf is all about and what the benefits are for guys who are into it, how and when and why she got into adult breast feeding herself and how her boyfriend reacted when she brought it up to him, how she went about getting milk into her breast, how she and why she wound up letting other men “feed” off of her and why they come to her for it, how and why she thinks its not sexual thing for them and why she might be wrong, her traumatic past and how it all plays into her cheating now, how long she breast fed her bf and when it kind of stopped, the first guy she breast fed how it turned sexual and then into a full fledged affair and how it ended, the second affair she had and how and why that one ended so badly, what she gets out of breast feeding and how it makes her feel, the issues in her current relationship and what she’s been doing to resolve the issues plus a whole lot more. **To see anonymous pics of MILKY JESSICA plus see anonymous pics of my other female guests + hear anonymous confessions + get all the episodes early and AD FREE, join my Patreon! It's only $7 a month and you can cancel at any time. You can sign up here: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.patreon.com/StrictlyAnonymousPodcast⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ and when you join, I'll throw in a complimentary link to my private Discord! MY BOOK IS NOW OUT FOR PRE-ORDER!!!! Strictly Anonymous Confessions: Secret Sex Lives of Total Strangers. A bunch of short, super sexy, TRUE stories. GET YOUR COPY NOW: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://amzn.to/4i7hBCd⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠  To join SDC and get a FREE Trial! click here: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.sdc.com/?ref=37712⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ or go to SDC.com and use my code 37712  Want to be on the show? Email me at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠[e-mail]⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ or go to ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠http://www.strictlyanonymouspodcast.com⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ and click on "Be on the Show" Have something quick you want to confess while remaining anonymous? Call the CONFESSIONS hotline at 347-420-3579. You can call 24/7. All voices are changed.  Sponsors:  ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://beducate.me/pd2512-anonymous⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Use code anonymous to get an additional 10% off the campaign’s current discount - that’s 60% off ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://shamelesscare.sjv.io/xLQ3Jv⁠ ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Get $10 off Shameless Care’s female viagra cream, just click on the link and use code: Strictly   Follow me! Instagram ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/strictanonymous/⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Twitter ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://twitter.com/strictanonymous?lang=en⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Website: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠http://www.strictlyanonymouspodcast.com/⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Everything else ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://linktr.ee/Strictlyanonymouspodcas⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

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So you could also get into my Discord that way. and it's super fun that will get you in forever. The link to the book is in the description and email it to me at strictly anonymous podcast at gmail.com. Okay, today I have on Milky Jessica. Milky Jessica is very into ABF, which is adult breastfeeding. And she wanted to really come on and talk about the fetish and the community and the misconceptions about it.

But it turns out she's like cheating on her guy and she's breastfeeding guys on the side. And I don't know. And she's had some crazy cheating things that I'm. have happened to her that I just got more into those stories. But this whole episode is about, you know, Milky Jessica, how she became Milky Jessica, when she realized she was into adult breastfeeding. She was the one that kind of got into it. She talks about how and why. And then when she brought it up to her guy that she's with, she's been dating a guy for a while, she brought it up to him. They got into it. But then eventually, like, she threw out there that she's like milking other guys.

And I was like, what? And so then we start talking about all of that. And that's when all the cheating comes in and the situations that happen because she's cheating and why she cheats and the problems in her relationships and you know it's kind of interesting to me because there's a lot of drama there so we talk all about that her whole story is fascinating i had another woman on who talked about adult breastfeeding recently and so where there's one there's many whenever i have an episode on i wind up getting emails from other people who were into the same thing her name is milky jessica she's very involved in my discord go see her over there she's all over there send me in picks for my Patreon. Then there's more stuff over my Discord. The links to that is in the description.

But anyway, I'm going to get right to be right back on with Jessica or with Milky Jessica. A, I'm going to call you Milky Jessica. I don't know why because I just have that name in my head because you're all over my Discord milking your boobs for everybody over there. You're milky Jessica. And you know what happens? Like just when I think I've heard something for the first time and all the people come out of the woodwork, right? Like I have one adult breast feeding episode and then I hear from other people. And, you know, I do, I do know that you want to come on and talk a little bit more about adult breastfeeding and what it's all about and really, like, educate people on it, right? Yes, absolutely. There have been news articles and there was a

Rolling Stone article and some shows that have come out about adult breastfeeding or ABF, as I'll call it, like the rest of the time. Yeah. And it, people in the community, the community have really generally felt like they didn't do the justice to what ABF is really about and the, the real benefits of ABF. Right. I mean, and when I was speaking with the other woman, I aired somebody recently. When I was speaking with her, I was more getting her whole life story, and I will get your life story, too, but we are also going to focus bigger picture here because what

you said to me when we were off air is like, oh, most of the time when, and you kind of just said it, too, is like, you know, when a story does come out about this, the community goes and listens to it. And they always feel like people get it wrong, right? Like, there's just stuff that isn't talked about. Correct? Yes. I mean, it's more sensational to just go straight to the sex part, you know, the sexual part, the eroticness. Yeah. And we always want to give people a little witties here. Right. We always want to. I like to give. I always feel like, you know, I tease people with that stuff, but I like to bring the so much more to my episodes for sure.

Because I think that that's the really interesting stuff, you know. So why don't we first start with your story and then we'll get bigger picture, right? Like so you're milky, Jessica, okay? How did you get into this? And like, let me ask you real quick though right now, Jessica. Are you married? Like, what's your current status? I have a boyfriend that I've been with for 10 years.

We own a home together. You're in a long-term relationship 10 years. Were you ever married before him or this is your guy? I was. Okay. So this is like your second guy, your second long relationship. Or 30. Yeah.

I don't know. So how long were you married for? Oh, gosh, like 15 years or something like that. Well, when did you get into ABF adult breastfeeding with the first husband or this guy? or by yourself at some point. With this guy. It was like a year or two after we started living together. Okay.

So like does he just bring it up one day? Was he always a little freaky? Did he love your boobs? Like was he a boob guy obviously before that? Were there any signs? He's definitely a boob guy. Most guys I've been in a relationship with are boob guys, obviously. Because you have big boobs.

Yeah. It just always gravitates them towards you, right? Yeah, yeah, of course. Go on. They're like beacons. Yeah. But so I, I mean, and he would like do a lot of breast play during sex, you know, like suck on my, not like suckle, suckle, but, you know, like suck on my breasts, bite them or my nipples or whatever. Usually guys fall into like three categories.

There's the ass guys. There's the breast guys. And then there's the pussy guys. Right. Yeah. Very rarely do you find someone all well-rounded. Yes, but this guy was very much a boob guy. Very much a boob guy.

Yeah, I don't know if it's something with their mother or whatever, like all of his brothers. There's like nine kids and all the guys are like obsessed with boobs. It's like this primal instinct in humans to gravitate towards breast, though, because it's what gives us life. Yeah. If it weren't for breasts and breast milk, then we would. wouldn't survive infancy before formula of course but it's still they have done extremely poor at studying breast milk even they don't even know what all makes breast milk special and what all components make them how could they not know they know they could fly people to the fucking moon

they don't know what's in breast milk come on what do you mean they don't know what it's just like i'm sure they know what they're not saying you have scientists that don't believe a female orgasms real or something, you know. It's like female body parts and female issues, they've always been so poor at studying. Right, but I think that they know why breast milk is so important to a baby. But they do. Maybe just not to your boyfriend. They haven't really studied all the components of breast milk.

Oh, really? Honestly. Yeah. Listen, if anyone's going to know it's going to be you because you're, you guys like this is what you do study ever since you got into it. Let's get back to your guy, though. like he's really into breastplay somewhere like when you're into your relationship what does he say to you that brings us up well i actually uh brought it up what happened was i was leaking drops and i

thought oh my gosh what if something's wrong right like yeah of course some woman problem or something and so i started researching online to try to make sure that there wasn't something wrong with me right And I came across information about inducing lactation. And it was from a site that primarily focused on women who adopted babies that want to breastfeed them. Yeah, yeah, of course. But then I also saw some mention of ABF. And so I didn't know what ABF was, so I decided to look into it. Yeah, we all go down those rabbit holes without realizing.

it right all of a sudden now you're on the site you were just trying to look to make sure you were like dying of breast cancer or something here you are now adult breastfeeding yeah the internet works that way right yeah and so i told my boyfriend about it and he told me that he would nurse a little from his ex-wife when their kids were babies she was kind of a bitch so she i don't think she let him do it very much but and you know how much he enjoyed you know how much he it and I could see that with him. He's just this, you know, big corn-fed country boy, you know, armed boy. I'm sure there's a lot of guys that were like, hey, let me taste that breast milk, right? I'm sure he's not the first guy that like when his wife was breastfeeding didn't sort of go.

Because like you said, it must be some weird thing inside guy, like inside people because it is what gives you life and maybe you have a memory from when you're younger. I don't know. It probably triggers people. It's like a primal instinct. Yeah. And it's not just the nutritious and nutrition and the giving life. It's also a comfort and security. Yeah.

Connected to someone and the security. Yeah. So he had tried it with his what he admitted like, oh, by the way, I tried that with my wife when she was nursing. Yes. Yes. And as I've, you know, been in the community now, it's like, about eight years. And I've seen different things and different articles and done research. It seems

very common that men will actually nurse from their wives. Oh, right. So I'm right. So there are plenty of guys that sort of say, hey. I mean, I don't like nobody, none of my guy friends that have, you know, whose wives have maybe ever told me they tried that. But no one's going to go around talking about that. But you're seeing what you're here to say is that a lot of guys do wind up trying it out while their wives are nursing. Yes. Interesting. It is. I'm going to do a poll. Wait, I love doing polls on my Patreon because I love conversations about stuff.

You know what I mean, obviously, this is what I do. So I'm going to start a poll and see how many guys, you know, tried it when their wives were nursing. It's going to be interesting. Yeah, I thought it's going to be kind of surprising. Yeah. I mean, I'm always surprised when I see how common it is and how really mainstream it is compared, considering no one talks about it, you know. Yeah. I never heard of it.

I had four kids that I breastfed all of my kids and I never ever heard of it or thought of it or never crossed my mind. Right. And your guy at the time though wasn't one of those guys that say, hey, let me take a taste. No, no. But my ex-husband would have loved it. Like, you would have really loved it. Guarantee he would have, but, you know, it just never crossed our minds.

I never imagined that that was this thing. And there's thousands of people, you know, that are into this. the world. Probably more than thousands. Okay. Did you know that May is the official international masturbation month? So why not celebrate by not only learning how to get yourself off better this month, but also learn new ways to get your partner off? And you know where you're going to find all those new ways. It's on beducated. Begicated.com really is like the Netflix of sex education. They have over 150 courses to choose from all in one place. They have courses on everything, including how to locate and stimulate your prostate,

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And he's like, oh, by the way, I tried this. Like I did kind of. I was kind of into it with my girl. And you're not lactating, though, at the time, right? So what happens after, like, you realize he's kind of down? Are you, like, curious about it? Now you want to try it with him? Yes.

Yes. I think, well, this is something that. he might really enjoy and I you know he does so much for me and I want to please him and I want to do something for him because I'm kind of I'm a really shitty housewife what do you mean you don't like to cook or clean that kind of shit I'm terrible at it you know I'm always it's like no matter what I do I'm like never have everything clean I never have all the dishes done I never have it it it it just feels like I'm just crappy at it I mean I'm a good cook but I heard ever do it right And I just worked, went to meetings, and worked and worked.

I'm kind of a workaholic. And that's just kind of what I did. And, you know, being pretty and... Your dogs in the background. I'm so sorry. Okay. So go on. So what is it?

So that you feel like, oh, I want to throw this to my guy because of all these other things I lack. Like, you were obviously curious about it, too, right? Like, was there something about it that turned you on as well? I think, you know, it's probably, gosh, how old was it? It's like about 40 at the time. So I feel like there's a part of it that appeals to some women that it kind of as you're getting older, you know, it kind of gives you this femininity back that you kind of feel like slipping away, maybe a little or something. Well, is that how you felt? I don't care what the study say. You're the one bringing it up for your guy and you're making it seem like you're just doing it for him. But wasn't there something in it for you?

Or are you just such a pleaser that you wanted to please him? Or were you actually curious about it and you're really into breastplay too? I don't know. Well, primarily, like the underlying thing is I'm that much of a pleaser. There's nothing wrong with that. I'm a cancer. Yeah, I love that. You're nurturing.

Such a cancer. Yeah, but I'm surprised you don't keep a nice house. as a cancer. But no, but I like, no, but that's cool. There's a lot, most guys are pleasers. You know what I mean? They love to please. And, you know, a lot of people get off on turning somebody else on. There's, there's nothing wrong with that. And I really enjoy it. Yeah, that's cool. So you're looking at this like, I'm going to please this fucking guy by getting into this because you're curious about it. He's like down, right? Oh, yeah. He was totally down for it. Okay. So then what happened? Because

now you're not lactating. So like do you wind up going and researching how to like get filled up? Like filled with milk? Yes. And I start off with just pumping and and then you know he was suckling sometimes. And then you got I started taking there's this little pill and you can't get it in the United States. You have to order it from overseas. It's called Dom Peridone. And so I ordered Dom. What does the pill do? It, it, it, it's, for some reason it stimulates the milk production. And it, I, for, I honestly forget, like, the chemical reason why I think it, like, like, gets prolactin going or something. I, I honestly don't know.

It's marketed besides for milk production. It's also marketed for, like, heartburn. So people. Oh, interesting. Or stomach issues. Which I get really bad heartburn and it never helps me with heartburn. I take a lot of Domperic. Oh my God, that's not right.

But it works for milking you. It's like magic. Really? So you can't buy it, just buy it in the U.S. Why is it banned in the U.S.? Did you ever look into that before you popped some pills? Yes. And there were some study that showed some heart risk.

Uh-huh. And that's why. But the general consensus is in the ABF community. is that, and I haven't read the study myself, but I've heard that the study was done with people that already had underlying health issues. Right. So you don't really buy into the study. You felt like it was safe. You decided to take it. And because I know, like, when I've had two women on, my last guest who spoke about it, and she did a lot of, like, the, her guy sucking her and doing it a certain way to get it and the pumping.

And there was no medication. But I remember somebody else. who was on, who was into this. And it was a small part of the episode, but she had talked about, and I remember thinking that she had told me she did use some pills, right? So maybe some people don't use pills and some people do, right? There's both ways you could do it, correct? Yeah, correct, correct. And really, and you can without using the pills. It just takes a lot longer. And really, it doesn't, for most women, it doesn't get them as much milk as well. Oh, okay. So you start taking this medication. How fast do you, like, get milk in your breast from it? It's about a month.

Wow. About a month. And then you start getting drops. You really have to stick with it to start getting like it squirting out and any like consistent volume. You know, and it takes a really long time. I've been doing this for like eight years. And at my highest, I was getting about five ounces a day. Oh my gosh.

From both breasts total, which like breastfeeding mothers can, you know, with that in one sitting, right? Yeah. So it's a lot less than like a breastfeeding mother. But it's so a lot. For most women. Yeah. Yeah.

And like even now, like I'm at an ounce and about an ounce a day. And I nursed someone a couple days ago. So let me ask you a quick question. I want to stay chronological though, but I just a quick question. You're like I nursed someone else. Do you have like an open relationship with your guy in that you nurse other men? as well besides him or do you just nurse him but you just said I nursed someone else

so I'm assuming there's others no we don't but I've nursed others and I actually do some professional wet nursing and it was a client yes I mean they're not babies I guess I mean they're men

to adults to adults yes mostly men I haven't just so you know that's bad and I was a woman okay but I mean you're like you're letting like grown adults for sexual pleasure, you know. Not for sexual pleasure, though. No?

Okay. No. No, I'm very strict with my rule. Okay. But there's no self, not even self gratification. Right. But they're probably horny while they're doing. I mean, what's the purpose?

Oh, God. Yeah. At their age, right? I mean, so what I'm just saying is like, you, you know on some level, you do kind of have like a kinky setup in that your guy, you know, allows you to go and get your breast sucked by other grownups, you know, men, women. I mean, it's not, you know, you're not helping out infants. They're adults. So it's, you know, it's like a fetish. You're, you're, you're, you're, right? Yeah. But I would say like to the ones that I'm nursing to my clients,

that the other benefits are, are a higher need to them than the sexual outlet that they do it. because they know at front that they aren't going to get sexual gratification from it. Unless their thing is edging, you're just not going to get what they want out of it, right? And it's cost me many, many, many clients because I'm very strict with it. And, you know, some of them ask, well, can I at least, you know, touch myself? You know, it's no, no, no sexual contact at all, not even with yourself. It has to be. Right.

So then they probably are edging. I mean, let me get, let me ask you. this because you're more in touch with this community than I am. You know, why would a man and a woman? Because you said you had a woman come. Like if it's not for sexual reasons. Oh, no, no. I haven't had a woman yet. But I mean, a woman could be a client. Okay. Okay. But it's all men. So like, you know, these guys that are like, why would a guy come, you know, listen, I know that there's a lot of guys that are into now. A lot of guys go to Dominatrix and there's no sex involved and they leave. And there's no gratification whatsoever, but they're still kind of going there for a sexual experience, right? And maybe they get off when they go home. Why would someone come to you to be milked for when, if there's

zero sex involved? Like, what could be the reasoning besides sexual gratification is maybe what I'm trying to say. There are so many reasons. Some men just get hooked on the milk. They're obsessed with milk. Right. I call it the milk thirst. That's my name. It's the milk thirst. They get the milk thirst. They can't stop thinking about the milk. Right. And so it's not even about necessarily the breasts, even though it's preferred to suckle, you know, as opposed to buying milk. Some people just buy the milk online, you know, if they can't find someone to nurse with. So they just like the taste of it and what is that milk doing for them? Like if it's not a sexual thing, is it like the taste of that milk is just something that they like the flavor of and it's the great snack that they're missing,

you know, when someone's not there to give it to them? Or is it something that makes them feel like at ease or at peace or something? Well, mostly, you know, if it's because of the milk thirst, it's the taste, I think. They're just hooked on the taste. Right. It tastes really sweet. At least I know I've heard from my, you know, people who've nursed that it tastes, mine tastes really sweet.

And they all taste a little different, you know, kind of like. Come. I was going to say come too. You're allowed to. That's what I'm typically talking about. about on my show. No dick taste the same, right? And no woman's breast milk

taste exactly the same. But they are pretty sweet. There's a lot of glucose in it, you know. Right. Okay. But it is a little bit like, it is interesting that your guy does allow you to go and let other guys do it.

You know, well, he doesn't really know. Oh, okay. Well, and I didn't start out doing that. You're making me ask a million questions because you're not telling me the truth of front. I'm like, do you have an open relationship? No, but listen, just hear me out for one second. Okay, I'm going to put it all together for you.

Okay. You know, I said, do you have an open relationship with your guy in that he lets you go out with other guy, you know, because you said I breastfed somebody else. And you said, no, no, because I'm just doing this. It's not about sex. You know, it's like, no, you don't tell him. So if you don't tell him and has nothing to do with sex, like why doesn't he know about these other people?

because he's not around when I go to do this. I know why do you keep it a secret from him is what I'm saying because it is a sexual thing. He would never want some other guys sucking on my breasts. Right. Because it's a sexual thing. That's my fucking point. Well, he can't. Why can't you explain it to him like you're trying to explain it to me?

It has nothing to do. I'm helping these people out. They just want to taste the milk. I'm like a lemonade stand. He can't separate the sexual part from the non-sexual. part. I can't. I don't know that those guys can either that are coming to see you, Milky Jessica. And there are other reasons they come. You know, I mean, there's the milk that they just are obsessed with that. Right now. Your sweet milk. Okay. Your big tits.

And there's some that, you know, have just wanted to try it for so long. And they just are like anything. You know, even if I can't have sex, I just want to try it. Yeah. Just to try the milk. because they just have this craving for it. Yeah, but I think most of the time, if they've been down that rabbit hole and they're very involved in that community, sex is in there somewhere. Listen, I don't want to,

I talk to a lot of people with fetishes. I'm not saying that's not. No, listen, I talk to a lot of people with fetishes, and I don't want to, I'm not here to say that every fetish is only sex. You know, I don't want to, right? Because I talk to a panty hose guys that wear panty hose.

And, you know, a lot of times it turns out a sex thing. But it's also like a release. It's something that the tactile sensation feels this way. you know, there's always so many more facets to a fetish than sex, but most of the time, like, sex is a big part of it, you know? Well, it can be very erotic. And usually, you know, even though there's no sexual component, I'm sure they get aroused.

I don't look. Of course they are. I'm assuming that they probably are. Most of, you know. But I feel like sex is like that. I feel like sex is that. It's more like the erotic part is more like, oh my gosh, what's the word I'm looking for? It's a component of it, but it's not the main component.

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But you could possibly get caught and lose it all to do this. So obviously you have a pull to do this. Like, what is pulling you to go out there and do this behind your guys back? Well, I mean, the primary reason is because I needed the money when I started doing it. Oh, they pay you. I did get the money. I had someone who I was in this, you know, space, and he kept messaging me wanting to me to nurse him for money.

And he'd been asking for a couple of years before I. finally agreed to. Right. Because I needed the money. And then once I did it, though, I, you know, I was really nervous, of course, meeting some stranger to let him suck on my breast, right? That was pretty scary. But once I did it, I wasn't so afraid to do it again. And then we're got out. I am very nurturing in nature, you know, naturally very nurturing person. And so being able to, you know, give them that connection to someone that they may be lacking. You know, maybe some of these guys, you know, sometimes they haven't been in, you know, an intimate kind of position with a woman for maybe a couple years, you know. Right.

See, we're getting the truth. It is an intimate situation. It's not just there for the treat. But like nurturing and comfort, too, you know. some people to be held in someone's arms, you know, at their breast. Of course, would say the same thing. Sometimes it's not just about the sex. They're just there for the companionship.

It's nice for them to be able to talk to somebody. Laynex to somebody. It becomes more than that for sure. Yeah. Let me ask you this. And it's very primal. Yeah. You know, it's very primal.

I'm slightly obsessed with your cheating story though now. I'm sorry. I mean, you're dating this guy. That's a whole different. No, but it is a part of your story. What I like to talk about here is like people's life stories because everyone's unique and it's interesting and you know you just took me in a long journey yeah but you've been with this guy for 10 years you start doing it with him right let's stay there and then let's let's talk

about like when the cheating came in have you always cheated on guys in the past or is this the first time you've done something behind someone's back or you're always kind of a little bit of a cheater uh no i i wasn't until my ex-boyfriend after my ex-husband and before this one yeah i was with for five years yeah and he was very abusive uh-huh And he would throw me across the room every day saying that I was having an affair with this one guy. And so then I started having an affair with this guy. But you were before? I wasn't before.

He was throwing me across the room every day for it. But then at that point, it's like I'm already getting a beating for it. Why not do it? Right. But you had never cheated before that ever in your life? No, never. Okay. So you're always like fully monogamous.

At this point, you're being like, you're traumatized by. this relationship so you kind of like revenge fuck this guy because he's like you're not in a good relationship with him obviously like you're revenge fucking that guy on him well and this guy like the guy that I cheated with he was he was someone I talked to every day he was the only when you're in a domestic violence relationship yeah either you know the guy pushes people away your friends and family yeah or they kind of low key get a sense what's going on and they back away like People will back away because they're afraid that they're going to get, they're going to hear about it and they're going to have to do something or they're going to have to get involved. Or, you know, that there might be some kind of social responsibility on their part or that they have to admit that it's happening.

And so people will back away from you. And he really was the only person I had. So, you know, there was, you know, a feeling of closeness with this person as well. You know, it wasn't just a revenge fuck. but it was someone that cared about me. Right. Enough to listen to stories about me getting beat every day. You know,

but I mean, because this guy is treating you terribly, you know, so you're like, I'm going to go over there, like, fuck off. Like, you know what I mean? Sometimes, like, that's your way of getting back at that person, you know, before you can leave. I've done it.

Been there done that. I understand. Well, and, you know, I think part of the, not to excuse my behavior, at all because there's no real good excuse for it. But part of it, I feel like, because I've thought a lot about this, and part of it is just that I feel like I have to do something in every relationship to, I mean, since then, to deserve to be, to get, to deserve to be treated

poorly. Like, when, then when I get treated poorly, I'm like, okay, well, I did this to this person you know like they're so then that when when it does happen I have well you know I haven't maybe I deserve it or something I don't know because of that relationship well how was your relationship with your husband my husband oh oh crappy I you know we grew apart I was like 16 when I got pregnant and he was he abusive to you no okay now this guy though was he abusive or is he a good guy you're with now, the 10-year one. He's a really good guy. Okay, so, so, you know, when you...

I mean, he's emotionally neglectful. Yeah, but isn't everyone after 10 years, you're probably emotionally neglectful to him, too. He just, no, he just always been that way. Oh, really? It's always that way. Yeah. Well, let me, okay, so you start, he starts getting it,

you start filling up your breasts and now is, was he totally into it when you got like filled, filled up with milk and everything? Did you start going at it? Yeah. And for a while, he would nurse twice a day. Wow. In the morning and when we woke up and then before.

Right. And then life happens. I was, you know, working a lot and stuff or he was working a lot. And so with scheduling, it just, we couldn't do it as much. And he just kind of fell off. Oh, I didn't realize that. And then so it's not between you and him. Well, I mean, he still does it like once a month now.

And for a while he didn't do it all because he was withholding sex to punish me for not turning in some paperwork or something like that. Was he like your dom? I don't understand. He's withholding sex from you like you can't get fucked because you didn't turn in a paper to your boss? I don't understand. Or turn in a, or get. Yes. It was some paperwork thing with the bank.

not a one time thing or he did this all the time. I mean, it's, no, it was just a way to punish me. Like, that's how he punished me because I'm very...

Horny? Yes, I'm a very horny person. And so that was how he punished me was just to take away sex. Yeah, that's so stupid. Whether you're a man or a woman,

don't ever punish your horny partner by not giving them sex is the dumbest thing. They're going to go get it someplace else. That's why you're fucking cheating on it. It's like, Women do it to guys all the time too. They deny them sex and then they go cheat and they wonder why. If someone's really fucking horny all the time, you better satisfy them or they're going to go someplace else.

I'm like, what's the point of withholding sex from you if that's all you want? Well, especially when you're not there emotionally too. So then you just really feel alone. Yeah. So when this relationship starts to feel like not so great and not so fulfilled, but you just stay together, but you just go and get your needs met elsewhere, besides being breastfed by these guys, Do you like fool around with anybody behind this guy's back since he's so sexually like not satisfying you? That was never my intention.

And so and it's never been with anybody who's been like a paid person. Listen, I get it. I love that. You make that distinction because you're not like going to do anything illegal and all that stuff. But like there are. So you have though gone and like fucked other guys besides the breastfeeding people behind this guy's back because of. the way he denies you sex and everything and the issues you're having with him, correct? Is that what you're saying? Yeah. Well, I had, so I had one person that I was friends with on, you know, in the community. And I talked to him and he was separated from his wife. And they lived separately at the time. And he was wanting to reconcile with his wife. But he wanted to try breast milk first. And so I grew,

You know, I agreed to as, it was a pity nurse, right? Yeah. But, and he'd never wet nursed. He'd suckled from women who didn't have any breast milk before, but not one from someone who did. Right. And so then I ended up nursing him a lot. And, but it didn't turn, like, I was trying to stay non-sexual. I told him, you know, this is, but when you nurse someone that often, I, I,

and aren't so close with them, then stuff can happen. Of course. Your tinnies are out on the table and the guy's mouth is on you. You're trying to tell me in the beginning of this episode that it's like you're trying to paint some dumb picture that doesn't exist. It's just not sexual at all. I mean, you know, if it's like your frame of mind. When I'm with the client, I can like think about it.

If he's not cute, it's not sexual. Maybe if he's not good looking. Well, that goes off. I'm not going to lie. Okay, so this guy, over time, though, you started to get aroused by him because you're spending time with him. You're starting to get to know him. I get it.

Right? So you did wind up sleeping with that guy. Oh, a ton. And oh, my gosh, when I would nurse him, he was the best nurseer ever had. Really? You even get a different voice when you say it. He was, he would like look up at me and he would smile. And then he'd like brush him.

his hand on my cheek and, and, you know, as a woman that's like, melt. I guess. When they do it so sweetly. And then, yeah, finally he, like, kissed me. And we had, like, a really amazing chemistry when kissing. And so just kissing itself was so ironic for us. Yeah, you can't stop there if the kiss is like that hot. You know what I mean?

You know that the sex is going to be good. Oh, yeah, and it was great. And this went on for like nine months. Oh, my God. How long ago was that? It's been since I last saw him. How long was that affair? Nine years.

Nine months. Four or five months? Oh, so it just ended. Yeah, it wasn't too long ago. I saw him, you know, he broke off things with me. Him and his wife ended up getting divorced. They never got back together. Right.

And then you and him ended. Anyway, though, regardless. Yeah. And I think he was like. sleeping around a lot or something, you know, like, you aren't the only one. Yeah. But, I mean, when we went into it, I was very much like, you know, this is our escape from the world and, you know, not to have emotional attachments.

And eventually I did. Like, you can't. He was so sweet and it was so amazing when I nursed him that eventually I broke down and had. Yeah, that happened. Yeah. That could happen. And it could happen for the man or for the woman. Yeah, it could happen to anyone.

Yeah. I did catch the feelings and, you know, and he never did. And so, but I mean, I wrote this whole poem about it. It was really good. That happens. But I'm glad that, like, I can still look back on it fondly. Unlike, I've had one other, what I call a casual nurseer. Yeah.

And it actually did not end well. And so, like, so that guy I saw one last time like four or five months ago. Same one. The other one, the bad ending one. No, the good ending. Oh, okay. So I saw him like four or five months ago and it was awesome.

That was like the best sex we ever had. Oh, really? The last time you were together. Mm-hmm. So does your guy like, has you ever caught you cheating on him or anything? Because for nine months, that's like a long time when you're like feeding these guys. I don't know when you're doing it, but like, is your guy just so detached from you that he doesn't even take notice of what's going on in your life that he has no clue that anything's

going on with you and these other guys? Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Are you still in love with your boyfriend? Like, why stay with him at this point? Yeah, I am. You are. Yeah. Yeah. And I think you guys love me. Just, I don't know. Just. Do you guys live together? Which mean, like, different. Yeah. We own a home together. Right. So it's hard to break that off and see. easier just to stay in something that's not really ideal? Yeah, well, and I don't know. I feel like he's definitely in my life, mate. It's just that he can be very emotionally detached.

Like, with the last nursing partner, like, I was crying for days. He never even asked me what was wrong. Oh, my God. You're crying about another guy in front of him. Well, I'm not, like, bawling in front of him, but like my eyes are red. You can tell, like, you can tell. You must be so oblivious. He must be so like not into you or the relationship that he doesn't even get that.

You're like, you know, there's an energy to good sex and feeling great because he got this new guy in your life. There's also an energy to like being dumped by the guy that you were into and, you know, you're, you were in love with them and you can't have it. Like, all this has energy and he doesn't even fucking get it. It's interesting. But, and that happens to women all the time, too, that they're not sensing anything because they're just not paying attention. They think they got it in the bag. Their partners there are. You know, it's Groundhog Day in the relationship.

And no one notices stuff, but it should be noticed. On some level, it was obviously noticeable. Yeah, yeah. Well, and the last, since I've only had like two casual nursing partners. Right. Like long-term things. Yeah.

And the last one, like, he was going through a lot in his life, and I felt bad for him. And I, again, And a pity nursing. Is this the one that ends badly? Yes. Uh-huh. Go on. And so I started nursing him and then it started, you know, it was going to be a one-time thing and then it turned into more.

And we grew really close. Like, he was unhappy in his marriage and, you know, his wife wasn't there for him emotionally and all this. And, or so he said, right? Who knows? Yeah, of course. You know, we just had this really. strong connection. You only live like 10 miles away for me. Uh-huh. And I would nurse him. We tried having sex like twice, but he is kind of a

alcoholic and has a underwork pilot dysfunction. Oh, oh, okay. So he couldn't like finish. Yeah, okay, interesting. And he could for a blowjob, just not sex. Yeah, okay. But I, you know, I didn't care because like, I mean, I did care. But I just want to be close with him. But as a woman, sometimes you feel like, I don't know. Maybe it's like past abuse that, yeah, I think there's actually studies. And what? So that women have, you know, gone through sexual abuse or their self-worth or, you know,

they feel like sex is the way they can connect with other people. For sure. Not to be a cliche, but I kind of am there. that's where you're at that's what that's how you're connecting with these guys through this and you feel like it might be like acting out in a way to get just the companionship that you're lacking in your relationship and you're using sex as a way because it is a way to get the guy there right but at the end of the day is it you know is there anything behind it and that's when it's devastating for that person that's doing it right because maybe you're thinking it's something that it's not I did it I had to quit drinking because I acted out like that all the time you know so I totally understand it. Well, and, you know, he was telling me how much he cared about me, how, you know, he wanted us to be close forever, all this stuff. And he worked really hard. Yeah, well, that's all the stuff you're dying to hear, right?

That's like crack cocaine for you. Like, that's like the perfect thing. Yeah, especially when I'm just feeling so alone and just want to have a connection with someone. Yeah. And, you know, and from talking with him, he was in the same boat. We were just in this together. and I found someone that I could Well, how did it go bad?

Was he lying? Was he lying? He was lying. He was lying. He was texting my friend behind my back. And she was texting with him and I confided in her like all, you know, like, so she knew we were together. Did she say, oh, yeah, he's hitting me up?

No. No, she lied. I asked if they were messing each other. And she lied, and he lied. And they were really good liars. And I trusted them. I believe him. But like all you're all.

I know, I know, but I'm just going to let you know that all three people in this story are all fucking liars. You, the woman and him. Okay. You're all equal. Okay. Like a track. Like a check. You don't want this fucking nonsense in your life. You know, start being more honest with yourself. I, like I think you do understand where it's coming from. And I give you credit for that. Right. Like you could kind of take a step away and say, you know, listen, I think, you know, you're sort of hesitant when you're talking about it. But you know, right? Like I had this really abusive, relationship. It really fucking wrecked my self-esteem. I'm in a not a good relationship, but I think I'm acting out and using sex to get guys and I'll take whatever just to make myself feel better. But you know, on some level, it's coming from like the wrong place, right? And from an insecure place. And I give you credit for knowing that because that's probably the truth. But when you are in that state for whatever put you there, whether it's right or wrong and it was put on you or, you know, it's always put on you somewhere, whether it's from your parents or your husband or people that have those issues, you're going to attract the same sort of stuff, like bad stuff when you are like on that level

because you're not putting out something healthy and positive, right? Because you're coming from like a place of low self-esteem or not feeling great about yourself. So that's when you get yourself involved in this kind of nonsense. I, I 100% agree. And you know, shit happens to everyone. Yeah, like you're talking. You are responsible for your own actions. Exactly. Like you're doing right, wrong. Nobody in that situation is better than the other. Like, it's just funny. Like, you got three liars. We're all cheating, right? Everyone has, like, probably partners in this situation.

Everyone's lying. Oh, you're cheating. She's cheating. He's cheating. He's cheating. So, there's no worse than you are. You just got, like, the brunt of it because you were, like, in the pecking order, you came second. But you could have been the one, you could have been the other woman in the situation. You know, it's just, you're all sort of, you know, on the same level. There's no victims is all I'm saying. And if you don't want that kind of nonsense in your life, you know, you could work on the part of you that is looking for all this connection, you know, within your own relationship.

Like, you know, like I think it was the girl that I spoke with with the breastfeeding. I mean, like, the way she was breastfeeding, it was such hard work, you know, and she had this, like, disconnect with her husband. And I was like, if you put in the work that you have with your husband, I think it was her or somebody, like, you know, it takes a lot of work. Like, I know to fix what you have at home. but if you put in all the work over there, instead of being on all these websites and doing all this stuff and breastfeeding these other guys and dealing with this cheating nonsense with when you're cheating yourself,

you know, all this kind of stuff, you know, maybe you could make things better like where it really needs to be better with, which is your primary relationship at home, you know, or just even with yourself. Like, did you ever see counseling after that really abusive relationship? Because that plays a real mind fuck on someone's head, right? Like when something like that happened. Like, did you go into therapy? No, I did hypnotherapy, but I just never did well in regular therapy. I have a lot of stuff from my childhood as well, right on top of it. Yeah.

So that's why you could use it. It's hard. Listen, let me tell you, it's not easy to find. You can have bad situations in therapy because most therapists and most hairdressers and most mechanics and most doctors or it's like the 90-10 rule. like 90% of everyone that does their jobs does their jobs poorly. Everyone's, and there's like 10% that's great.

And, you know, I have met with plenty of therapists to try to find a good one. And most of them are out of their fucking rocker, okay? And you're going to find like, you know, the 10% that are really good, you know,

and maybe you just never found the right therapist. They're hard to find, just like there's hard to find a good hairdresser. Sorry. Just the, the last time I went to a traditional therapist. Yeah. It was probably like,

I don't know, maybe 2000. and 10, 11. And the last time I saw her, she was, I finally opened up to her. Yeah. I just would go in and talk about bullshit. Yeah. All the time. I can talk a lot about bullshit. Yeah. I had to, I had to hone you in and get to the real shit. You were really trying. You do. You do. And let me tell you, you speak a lot better when you're just telling the truth. You sound like you can't, you stumble over your words when you're talking bullshit. But anyway, go on. And the last thing, like she told me was, She had this valid argument for my parents not loving me.

And I was like, this is fucked up. I can't do this anymore. She was like, this is why your parents didn't love you? No, she was like, your parents allowed this to happen to you. They didn't love you. Oh, she kind of showed you like the truth of the situation. And it was so harsh that you were like, I can't go there. Yeah, yeah.

Well, I don't think it's that. My parents don't want to. No, they weren't capable probably. My parents weren't capable. Big teenagers, you know. Of course. Like they've never, they've never, they're like pushing 70 now. Right.

Or about 70 and they're still are not, don't take responsibility for themselves. Listen, I'm from your generation and all of our parents are the same way. You know, and at some level, at some point you have to realize that they were not capable and they were born in a different time and they're less evolved and they didn't have therapy at that time. And they had kids when they were like fucking children, you know. And if they didn't love you, it's because they weren't capable. That's it. they couldn't. It has nothing to do with you, you know, but it wrecks you, you know, that, that it happens, right? Because kids do need love and stuff. So, you know, you could benefit from a little

bit of some therapy, but I'm just going to say you got 10 minutes. I really feel bad because you did want to talk about your community a lot, you know, more. And I'm so fascinated in real people's stories, you know, I'm more interested in digging deep into someone's life. And I actually think your life is very interesting, more so than the, a different. all breastfeeding community, but I do know that you want to come on here and say some things. So is there something that you really want to say that is important to the community, you know, since I harped so much on your relationship? That's fine.

Yeah, well, you know, the sexual part and the erotic part, I mean, it is a part of it, but it's kind of like an after effect. Yeah, interesting, yeah. You know, it's the bonding, being able to bond with someone and feel that closeness. I think that, you know, it's a strong human nature, you know, natural reaction to crave that connection with people. And I feel like, especially in modern life when we spend so much time online and interacting with people online, having that just quiet closeness with someone is extra special. Yeah, what's interesting is it sounds like. to me, when you're talking about it, it's really what you're getting out of it. This isn't just

for the guy in the situation, right? As the woman who's doing it, it sounds like it gives you all of the stuff you're talking. It's not just for the guy, right? It sounds like you feel nurtured. You feel like you're nurturing, right? You're getting all of that out of it as well. Both sides are. Absolutely. And I think that's what I crave from it is the feeling like I'm being able to care for someone to give them something special and nurture them. Yeah, and maybe it's like a projection. You see them as you. It's like nurturing yourself through somebody else.

Maybe if you want to get really deep. And you did say like when that guy like would look at you and smile and put his hand on his face, it's like that was like got you, right? Because that that's like really makes you go to that place where you feel like you are nurturing somebody else, right? And taking care of them and making them happy. Oh, very much. Yeah. Very much so.

We don't want to give out your tricks because then you're going to have some more liars come in and get breastfed for you. They're going to pull those moves and then you're going to fall in love and they're going to be fucking assholes. I am careful. After that last experience, I am only doing, I am not doing pretty shitty nursing anymore like for, you know, $200 for an hour. Then we could talk. And I also feel like when it's that. situation it's you know most of these people that do it most of the men that do it are single and they're looking for a partner and it really saves that sexual part that into that sexual intimacy for when they

find that partner so they still get the milk and they get to try it yeah which you know it occupies so much of their thoughts and you know and they're craving it so bad but still save something for when they do find a partner something special that they can share with them where do you hide all your shit. Like, I mean, how does your guy not find out? Like, do you ever get nervous that he would find out that you're milking these other guys? That's my last question. Not really. I mean, he knows I'm inducing lactation. So, like, my breast pumps, stuff like that. He, you know, he never wonders who you're doing it for? No. Well, he nurses, like, once a month. Yeah. So he assumes you're just doing all that for him. Yeah. Yeah. Which I'm not doing it for any of them, really. I hardly ever

have nursing clients. It's like once every couple months, honestly. Oh, okay. But, You do it for you too? Like just getting the breast milk and getting engorged and all that stuff is is something that you get out of. You don't really get engorged so much. Not like when you have a baby. Right. Because you just don't have that much milk. I mean, they can get sore and tender if you need to pump.

But yeah, it is like it gives you an enhanced like sense of femininity. Right. It really has an effect on. And power that you can do this, that you can still produce this milk even without a baby. Yeah, that's interesting. This ultra-feminine thing. The only, well, I mean, men can produce milk technically. But it's so, you know, this is something that mothers for since, you know, the dawn of humanity I've been doing.

And so to be able to get that back at a later stage, it makes you, like, feel rejuvenated. Yeah. And I feel like most of the women that I see into this are in their 40s. Yeah, it's interesting. I asked my last girl, I was like, you know, because she was saying she wanted to like have another baby. I went, do you think it's like because you're doing all this milking thing? There's some sort of connection with me, like, did you ever start to think like, oh,

maybe I want another baby because you're in that mindset of being a mommy because you have the milk in your breath? Oh my gosh. My youngest is 21. No, but it doesn't matter. I am not going to have another. No, that's what I was wondering. I understand though.

Yeah, I'm saying like, I know that like, I was just wondering, do you think it has something to do with being in that mindset? Because you say you are going back to that time and it makes you feel, you know, so I'm wondering, does it give you baby fever too on the top of it? Once it did because I was, when I was pumping, I was watching like YouTube videos of newborn babies crying because it just helps your breasts like, are like, oh, I want to feed the baby, right? Oh, interesting. Oh, my God. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah, the sound of babies, even when you're inducing or when you have a baby.

Yeah. It's like it will make your milk. But during your time, you could even do it while you have breast in your, like when you have milk in your breast, even when you go to YouTube and you put baby. Well, and that's, you know, when I very first, you know, when I first was leaking milk and I thought, you know, or, you know, just like a little drop here and there. Yeah. And I was wondering if something was wrong. It was after my grandson was born, my oldest grandchild. And he sounded like my oldest two.

children when they were babies. His cry was just like there was when they were babies. So I think it kind of tricked my breasts and they were like, is there a baby we need? For sure. So you did have that feeling once when you were watching the babies on YouTube. Yeah. Well, and I was doing it a lot because it was helping, right? And then I started to have, I had this dream that I wanted, I had a baby and I wanted one so bad. And like, I could feel myself having baby fever. I was like, oh no, I'm shutting this shit down. I have not listened to baby crying when I'm pumping. Sons. I'm like, nope. Not doing it. I'm like, I'm going to be 48 this year. Like, oh my gosh, I'm not having a baby.

Oh, my gosh. I started having babies when I was 16 and my youngest is 21. I'm not going back. Yeah, that's amazing. I'm free. I never got to be free. Now you just have adult babies. I know it's to take away my freedom. Yeah, there you go. Well, listen, I hope you never get caught with your poor I don't know. You don't try to have, I just, I've been, you know, since this last experience,

I've been trying to focus my energy on, you know, trying to, you know, get what you're looking for elsewhere. Yeah. Before, before I was like working so hard,

I would send him, like, hitting pictures, like almost every day. Like, he was afraid to open his phone in front of his coworkers. Like,

right. And so I'm trying to do those things more and being more, you know, try to, I'm trying. You know, all I can do is try, right? Yeah, and it might take some time because you've been not trying for so long. You know what I mean? You guys have been like sort of, you know, on separate paths, not really paying attention to each other, probably equally, right, for a long time. So it's like, it's not going to happen overnight, but maybe over time of you doing those things, maybe we'll bring them back. It really, like, to me, it's like, you know, all it takes is one person to, you know, throw the ball a different way to

change the fucking game, right? You've got to do something different. And I think that's great that you're trying that because like if you guys just stay in your groundhog day life of what you're doing like nothing's going to change no it's not going to change for you you're going to have to actually do something different you know and you are and i give you credit for that and you know keep at that and you know i think that that's actually a smart thing to try yeah yeah i just hopefully i don't know he's never been emotionally supportive he's really bad at that Well, then maybe you get, you know, you're only 48. Like maybe then eventually if you, you know, that well is dry and you realize it, you know,

maybe you wind up meeting somebody else and or you decide that you want to leave and go find someone where you are emotionally fulfilled. Like, why stay in that relation? You know, you have your whole life out of you. There's no reason to just stay forever. Just you're not even married to him. I know you just have a house. But maybe eventually you would leave if nothing changes.

But, you know, hopefully you are giving it a shot at smart. I'm happy for you. Thank you so much for calling in. Like I said, I know we were supposed to focus mostly at adult breastfeeding, but, you know, we had to go to your cheating stories. Listen, it's kind of relatable, whether you're cheating with breastfeeding or not, you know, with the kind of relationship you had at home and even the abuse that, you know, these are real life things that happen to people, you know, and I just always feel like these

stories, all the stories that I have on my show are relatable to a lot of people. And this one will be as well. So thanks for calling in and sharing it. no problem I like I said I know you wanted to do that focus more on the rest of eating but like once I got into your thing I'm sorry like I was more interested in the rest of your story but it's gonna be a good episode Jessica

milky Jessica thanks so much for calling in I love how you participate on my Discord people could go check you out over there right you're over there now do you have your own Discord that you want to give out or your own platform it's just kind of like a really private yeah There's like 150 people on it, but the ones that participate, it's like kind of a I mean, do you want to give a shout out? I have a large audience.

I mean, I'm just giving you the chance. If you want to keep it privately, you're interested. Yeah. It's really centered around ABF, but it's mostly just people hanging out, just trusting each other, being friends, joking around. Well, that's cool. Unfortunately, yeah, we just found. out today that someone who'd just joined, passed away, got murdered.

Oh my God. Yeah, it's pretty awful. My God. So it's a crazy, like, so you guys are all close on there to know these kinds of things. So it is a very tight-knit community. And what I love it, I think it's great that if someone's into this fetish, there's not just a sex thing, right? Like, it's more than that. And people could go and meet friends and make friends with people who are kind of like-minded, right?

Yes, yes. It's great. And I mean, there's a lot of different communities out there. This one, you know, everybody's kind of smart ass has inappropriate sense of humor or dream-minded. Do you want to give out the name? Yes or no? Or do you want them to go to my Discord to get the link from you there? Do you not want to give it out?

I'm just trying to get you to promote your shit. If they contact me, if they want to join, I'll give them the link. Okay. Okay, no problem. So do that. But you could see Milky Jessica on my Patreon on my Discord. You'll send me some R-rated picks for my Patreon, okay? I will give you free access to that to be able to see the...

Or are you already on there? I am already a member, yes. Yeah, yeah, yeah. So you'll see all the comments when I air it. Probably because it's not so much just about ABF and it's got the whole cheating thing. It'll probably be up sooner than if it was just about the fetish because I just had that on. So I'll keep you posted when it's coming, when it's going to be on, but it should be up soon. So thanks so much for calling in and sharing your story.

No problem. Thanks for having me. great to talk to you. Awesome. Thanks, Jessica. Bye. Okay. Okay. I just want to tell you before you go that my book, it's called Strictly anonymous Confession, Secret Sex Lives of Total Strangers, is now available not only in paperback and e-book, but you can pre-order the audiobook. It's still not going to be out until August 25th, but you can pre-order it. The book is basically 17 different stories taken from my show. I kind of I picked one story from each category that I talk about on my show. There's a hot wife story. There's a cuck queen story. There's a cuck story. There's a gang being girl story. Like I said, 17 stories. And they're all told in the third person. And they're all true. I took the interview and rewrote it in the third person. And I wouldn't really call it like a total erotica book. Think like penthouse letters. It's more direct. It's not so over the top like erotica. I don't really like. that kind of vibe, right? But these are true stories, 17 of them. They're really short chapters,

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