Strictly Anonymous Confessions - 1126 - Reanne had an Affair with a Married Guy, Slept with a Couple and her Brother-in-law and Now she’s Celibate?!

Episode Date: May 28, 2025

Reanne had an affair with a married guy, slept with a couple and her brother in law and more and she called in to talk all about it. Tune in to hear all the details including the older sexually deviant guy she met when she was younger and the crazy things they did together,  the masculine woman she dated after him and what went down between them, the cheating she did behind her back and who she cheated on her with,,how she met her husband and what he had done to his brothers wife that had his brother flirting with her, how and when her husband passed and how she bonded with his brother afterwards, the affair she started with a married guy she used to know and all the kinky things they did together when they hooked up, when she went on to Fetlife and the kinky things she got into, the couple she met on there and the kinky things she got into what would go down between all of them, how her brother in law found her on Fetlife and how that led to them hooking up, exactly what went down between the two of them during their hook up, how and why she’s recently become celibate plus a whole lot more. To purchase her book Sexcapades:  https://a.co/d/7Ff4ee6 **To see anonymous pics of REANNE plus see anonymous pics of my other female guests + hear anonymous confessions + get all the episodes early and AD FREE, join my Patreon! It's only $7 a month and you can cancel at any time. You can sign up here: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.patreon.com/StrictlyAnonymousPodcast⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ and when you join, I'll throw in a complimentary link to my private Discord! MY BOOK IS NOW OUT FOR PRE-ORDER!!!! Strictly Anonymous Confessions: Secret Sex Lives of Total Strangers. A bunch of short, super sexy, TRUE stories. GET YOUR COPY NOW: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://amzn.to/4i7hBCd⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠  To join SDC and get a FREE Trial! click here: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.sdc.com/?ref=37712⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ or go to SDC.com and use my code 37712  Want to be on the show? Email me at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠[e-mail]⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ or go to ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠http://www.strictlyanonymouspodcast.com⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ and click on "Be on the Show" Have something quick you want to confess while remaining anonymous? Call the CONFESSIONS hotline at 347-420-3579. You can call 24/7. All voices are changed.  Sponsors:  ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://beducate.me/pd2512-anonymous⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Use code anonymous to get an additional 10% off the campaign’s current discount - that’s 60% off ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://shamelesscare.sjv.io/xLQ3Jv⁠ ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Get $10 off Shameless Care’s female viagra cream, just click on the link and use code: Strictly   Follow me! Instagram ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/strictanonymous/⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Twitter ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://twitter.com/strictanonymous?lang=en⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Website: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠http://www.strictlyanonymouspodcast.com/⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Everything else ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://linktr.ee/Strictlyanonymouspodcas⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

If you want to be on the show, it's called Strictly Anonymous because I change everybody's voices and everyone's name. So if you have an interesting, naughty secret life that you want to talk about while remaining anonymous or not anonymous, you could be on the show. So me an email, strictly anonymous podcast.com, or go to my website, strictly anonymous podcast.com and click on Beyond the show. If you have a naughty confession that you want to leave on my confessions hotline, you could call 247, the number C-47-4-2-0-3-5-79. 3-7-4-2-0-3-7579. Call in, leave a message.

Make sure the phone is held up to your ear. I get so many messages where it's just such shit background noise. I can't use those confessions. So make sure you're calling from a quiet place, not while you're driving. Hold the phone to your ear. And if you need longer, just hang up and call back again. I will change the voices on the confessions as well.

some of those confessions make it onto a confessions episode and I talk about them the rest show up on my Patreon my Patreon is a great place to join right now you could get in for just seven bucks a month and you get for just seven bucks a month early and add free episodes every single one of them I do six a week you also get access to every single confession that ever came into my line plus you get all of the anonymous, super hot, R-rated picks of all of my guests, mostly. Every one of my female guests has set me in a hot pick of her. So if you want to put a body to an episode, they're all on my Patreon. You also get Q&As that I do where I answer really personal questions about my Patreon members. We do a lot of polls. But I think the best thing about my Patreon is you get

access to my private Discord, which is a super fun community I have built. There's over 2,500 people. on my Discord and everybody gets super naughty over there. That is where the X-rated stuff goes down. You want to see X-rated picks and videos of not only my callers, but also of other listeners. Well, that shit is all on my Discord. Like, you will not believe what's going down there. There's tons of stuff. And what's great about my Discord is you get to interact with other like-minded people. I'm not there moderating. It's not like you could only talk to me. That happens. Patreon. You want direct access to me. You'll get it on Patreon. But on Discord, what you get, which is to me, even better, is you get direct access to a ton of other people. Like I said, like-minded, naughty people.

So anyway, get all of that when you sign up to my Patreon. It's Patreon.com slash strictly anonymous podcast. Now, listen, I wrote a book. I got a book deal. I was really excited. I wrote a book. It's called Strictly anonymous Confessions, Secret Sex Lives of Total Strangers. It's not coming out until October 14th, I think it is. My publisher put it up for pre-sale. And I'm going to do this thing where if you pre-order it so ahead of time, I'm going to hook you up and give you free access to my Discord. I think this is a really great deal. So if you want it, get my book. Send me the screenshot of your purchase to my email Strictly Anonymous podcast at gmail.com. So last thing I want to tell you about is if you are into the lifestyle or you want to learn about the lifestyle or

you want to learn about all the, you know, swinger clubs or gangbings or swinger events that are going on in your area or you want to meet other swingers or you want to start having three sons yourself. Well, right now I could give you a free trial to SDC. SDC.com is like the world's largest adult dating website. Now, what's great about SDC that my callers have told me is that it's not just the place where you can meet other people. It's not just a dating site. It's so much more.

You can find out about all the events, the gangbings, the meetups, the hotel takeovers going on in your area, as well as anywhere else. So if you're traveling and you want to have a three sub on your vacation or check out a Swingers Club really far away from where you live, well, get on to SDC and you could check out that location as well because they are all over the world. It says cc.com. Use my code 37712 or just go to the just go to the just. description and click on the link and you're going to get a free trial to check it out. Okay, today I have on Rianne. Rian is an extremist. She's either one way or another way and she's done a lot of crazy things. She's got a super interesting story. She wrote a book about one thing that she's going to talk about here, which is this affair she had with a daddy dom. But she's kind of been very naughty and, you know, going through a sexual journey since the get-go. She talks about, you know, stuff that she did when she was

super young. She started seeing a guy. Then she started seeing a woman and she realized she was into women. And then, you know, she had this thing with her ex-husband's brother. And then she started to really get into this one guy who she was able to explore her sexuality with this guy. And that's the guy later on that comes into the picture when he's married. And she has a total blown affair with him. She talks about that. She talks about the woman that she hooked up, which she talks about going on FetLife and hulking up with a couple and she would watch them on cam and then go and meet them and then she had the affair and then she had this whole thing going on with her husband's brother. She was married.

She's not married anymore, but it's because her husband passed, but she did wind up like having a little thing with the husband's brother before he passed and then having a full on thing with him after he passed. She explored her king. She talks about the stuff she got into. Right now she's currently celibate for the past couple of years, but she certainly wasn't for most of the story that we talk about. You find it at the end.

That's where she's at now because she's kind of an extremist, but she's been there, done that. She's got a super interesting story. Her book, Sex Capades, Mark St. James, that's the affair she had. That's in this erotica. She's a writer. The link will be in the description,

but anyway, I'm going to get right to it and be right back on. Her name is Rianne. Did I say that before? I'll be right back on. Oh, and I have picks of her, okay, on my page on. But I'm going to be right back on with Rian. Hey, Rianne, Rianne Linson. Welcome to the Strictly Anonymous Podcast.

How you doing today? I'm doing all right. Looking forward to getting some things out there that I typically can talk about. Yeah, you're like having a book and you're like, you know, promoting my book isn't the most important thing. I'm like, what is just like talking about your naughty shit that you've done in your life? Oh, my God. Pretty much. Yeah.

Yeah. Yeah. Yeah, you obviously like to talk about stuff because you did write a book about one of the stories. I mean, you have numerous things that have gone down in your life that are pretty. crazy, right? One of them is that you had enough, I don't know that you were having an affair, but the guy was having an affair. You were with a guy that was married. Later on, you became a teacher and his daughter was in class or his kid was his like, is so crazy, you know? So that's one of your stories. You also had an affair. This would be an affair with your husband's brother or your

brother-in-law or some shit. I don't even know you're going to talk about that. Then you fell in love with a woman and you have other things to talk about too. I don't know. But the book, you did write a book about that affair and it's called Sex Capades, Mark St. James. I'm assuming Mark St. James is the guy. You know, he's going to come up, I'm sure, in this conversation. Very much so. Rianne Linson is your made-up name, your pseudonym that you use, right, to tell your stories. Now you sound super young to me, Rian. How old are you? And like, what's your snapshot of where you're at now and then we're going to go back? I think that makes it better.

I'm 40. I just turned 40 in November. So I don't think I'd call myself young anymore. I'm young at heart. Don't live in that box. Don't live in that. Oh my God. I'm old box at 40.

Trust me, you'll get nowhere. I cut my hair into a bob when I was 40 and I would never do it again. It's like a midlife crisis. A woman goes through and you're just going to get so sick of thinking you're actually old at 40 because you're not. I'll tell you when you're old at 55. Like that's when you're old. 40 is like nothing.

Okay. Trust me. Yeah, I don't let it rule me. But yeah, right now I am teaching, as you mentioned, I've decided to go back to school for my master's degree in teaching just to kind of advance myself professionally. I would say on paper, I'm your average, you know, white female. You married, though, single? Like, what's your status like that way? I'm single.

My husband passed away when I was 30. Oh, right. Yeah. That's crazy. I have had dalliances in the last 10 years, but I have not pursued a relationship or anything serious. I think possibly I've stuck with maybe, I guess we could call toxic situations because they don't have the potential to turn in anything serious. Yeah, that's typically what it's about, right? That'd be a lot to unpack. But in the 10 years, you know, I kind of went to traditional.

I go traditional for a couple years of my life. and then I go wild. Like, you know, I, I date a, you know, a Republican white man, and then I fall in love with a Panamanian woman. It's, I, there's two parts of me or more. Are you a Gemina? I'm a Scorpio. Oh, okay. So you flip-flop.

And once you put it, but not really, like, not every other day, every couple of years, which I don't think is that bad. You know, why not? Change it all up. You only live once. Yeah. My morals and values stay the same. But my outward manifestation and how out I am in the world with who I am seems to wax and lame. Yeah, why not?

I don't think there's anything wrong with that. Let's go all the way back, though. You're 40 now. You're single. Besides the confessions, I said you have other ones. Let's go. Like, was the first crazy thing that you did was, like, have that affair, that sex expoade with Mark St. James?

Is that when you started to, like, you know, do freaky shit? Was that the craziest thing you started? Oh, really? Well, it was him. It was him. Yeah. But I was 19. Right. Okay. So I had pretty, not a lot of sexual experience. I didn't really know a lot of what was out there.

I knew I had a sex drive from a young age. You know, I knew I was well versed in sexuality, but I didn't really have the opportunity or the partner to really explore. And I don't think a lot of 19-year-olds do. enter Mark St. James when I'm 19 and he is a bit of a sexual deviant and it kind of starts off, you know, it's in the book for all the details, but to shorten it, I'd never let a guy go down on me. Why not? Well, he was 19. And actually, let me rewind that.

When I was 15 and had sex for the first time, the guy went down there and was like, oh my God, you have hair and I'm like well yeah I do I'm only 15 yeah like I'm not getting Brazilians yet I mean were you fucking a 35 year old though I mean like well how old was he that he had seen like a hairless pussy oh my god oh he probably was only remembering from doctor days with young girls you know what I mean that's probably what he remembered he probably never saw a vagina older yeah yeah so I'm like after that I'm like oh my god so then I kind of just had a complex around it So I just didn't do that. That makes sense.

Because who or what woman in their right mind would refuse oral sex? Sorry. Yeah, I just understand. I never experienced it. So I didn't know what I was missing. Yeah. And the one semi-close encounter was, you know, made me feel self-conscious. So where do you meet Mark St. James?

In a bar. And yes, I'm 19, but I have a fake ID. And I'm, you know, a barfly already. And we went to high school. together, but I just kind of knew who he was. Did you know he was married? Well, he wasn't. I mean, at the time, we were, he was nice.

We were, we were young and we met at this bar and. But he's not married when you're with him? When I met him, he was not married. We were just fresh out of high school. Okay. It was years later. He resurfaced married. Oh, and that's when you had an affair with him.

Yes. Okay. So we kind of grew sexually together. He had a lot of ideas. ideas and things he wanted to explore and didn't had really found someone that was down and I was like sign me up. So we would go to like sex shops and I mean this was early 2000. So we would go get a DVD and you know the craziest DVD we could find. And I remember we found one on squirting and we were like, okay, we're going to accomplish that today. So we would, you know, wait until one of our parents were gone and spend the day trying to figure that out.

You know, and so there was a there was a comfortableness. There was a, we became really close. I mean, toxic codependency at its finest, but we were close and we're able to be fully sexually open in a way that I don't think a lot of people get in their formative years. But it was a match made in hell because even though we are our sexual aspect was great, that toxic codependency emotionally destroyed both of us. So it ended messy. And we went our separate ways a year or two later. Okay. Did you know that May is the official international masturbation month?

So why not celebrate by not only learning how to get yourself off better this month, but also learn new ways to get your partner off? And you know where you're going to find all those new ways. It's on Beducated. Begicated.com really is like the Netflix. of sex education. They have over 150 courses to choose from all in one place. They have courses on everything, including how to locate and stimulate your prostate, hand job mastery, anal sex demonstrations, and orgasm control for men, just to name a few. And the best thing about their courses to me

is you don't just learn by reading about it. You're going to see most of the lessons being done by real people teaching you exactly what to do right on your screen. Want to see a real prostate orgasm in action? Take the stimulate your prostate course and you're going to see it. So what are you waiting for? Go get Beducated now. And Betjicated is so sure you're going to love their courses that they offer a 14-day money-back guarantee.

So you really have nothing to lose. And for listeners of my show, Beducated is offering 60% off the yearly pass. That's 60% off their yearly pass plus the 14-day risk-free money-back guarantee. All you got to do is go to the description, click on the link, and use my code anonymous. That's code anonymous. Use it now for 60% off plus a 14-day money-back guarantee. Again, go to the description, click on the link, and use my code anonymous. There was a comfortableness.

There was a, we became really close. I mean, toxic codependency, and it's fine. But we were close and we're able to be fully sexually open in a way that I don't think a lot of people get in their formative years. But it was a match made in hell because even though we are our sexual aspect was was great, that toxic codependency emotionally destroyed both of us. So it ended messy. And we went our separate ways a year or two later. but I I never could break that hold

that he had on me both emotionally and physically and so I then went off to college and saw my first see we didn't have we're talking like 2005

so we didn't have transgender wasn't as like casual as it is now we didn't even have that term we call it a stud back then I know that that's still sometimes used now not as much, but she considered herself a stud. She was masculine, short hair, you know, kind of like a thug vibe. So this is somebody new. This is Mark St. James.

Yeah. This is how I kind of detoxed. Oh, okay. You found a stud. It got real messy. Sorry, it got real messy. But my first time I saw this clearly a woman, but that had this masculine energy. Yeah. I was like, oh my God. And I was absolutely infatious. And, you know, I dabbled and dated other people, but I hadn't gotten that zing since, you know, that first, you know, and it was Mark St. James, who was like, he loved going down on women, like, he loved eating pussy. And so he talked me into it. And I was like, oh, my God, this is amazing. And so to then fall in love with a woman who's, you know, quite well versed in, in that, it became something amazing. But now, was she gay? Yes. Okay. Never was a man. Very much.

Yeah. Full lesbian. And I'm like, oh my God, you are the most amazing thing I've ever seen. Mm-hmm. And we fell in love. And I'm like, I'm like, I'm done with dick. I'm a lesbian, which I did not see coming. And that was amazing.

Did you enjoy the sex? Like, had you ever, did you ever realize before them that you were into women? Yeah. Yeah. I kind of always knew. Okay. I never, like, she had a strap on. Like, she was a well-versed lesbian.

We're like 22 at this point. So, like, she's a couple years older than me. And so I experienced, you know, strap on sex. And I was like, this is amazing because, like, you can pick your dick. Like, sometimes you may want a big old dunger and sometimes you may want a little more average. And so I had no experience or knowledge of two females having sex, like fully. Did you scissor? I always like to ask that because sometimes you're like,

how do people really sizzer in real life? No. No. No. No. And it may be, I don't know. I did. She'd never experienced like a, it wasn't like an internal vibrator, but like a silver

bullet, like an external vibrator. Yeah. She'd never like, she was not cool with like penetration for herself that gave her some dysmorphia. Uh-huh. So like I would suck this drop on like it was her dick. And I, but. One day I talked to her into letting me put a little silver bullet under the strap on. So it was like sitting against her clit.

Yeah. And I will never forget. She cried. Like, can you imagine being 24 and never having had a vibrator touch your clit? Like, that's like, that just broke my heart. So I'm like, I'm like, let me put you on game because you're missing out. Yeah. It doesn't have to go inside.

Like, you can just be outside. Yeah. And then I met her best friend who was a male. Mm-hmm. And we were not officially a couple yet. We were just, you know, having great sex and hanging out in college. And I met her best friend and ended up hooking up with him. She graduated a year before me.

He moved away, but we were still, you know, talking, but we weren't officially together. She got in a relationship. She moved back to her hometown. And I'm having booty calls with her best friend. And we keep it a secret. And how come? I mean, she's with somebody else. Why are you not telling her?

Well, we didn't tell anybody. Right, I get it. Just started as a secret, so you kept it as a secret. Yeah, and we were heavy into the bar scene, and, you know, it was slutty early 20s. I have no regrets. No, I've had situations like that's like kind of fun. The fact that it is a secret is like part of the thrill, right? And I think that's where, and this is why I'm tying this in because I think that,

That's where my getting off on deviant things grew. Like, because it's nothing too bad. But like, like, you're talking to a woman. She has a girlfriend, but you're still talking and, like, having phone sex. But you're sleeping with her best friend. And no one knows. And, like, we go home from the bars and then meet up after. And nobody knows.

Like, it was, it was like, I knew it was wrong. But, like, it was so right. It was so right. Yeah. I got it. He was super hot and like, ugh. And so it was just like the secret. Like all the girls wanted him and like nobody knew that like he was sneaking in my dorm once we got home from the bars.

And it just works. But then things progressed with her and I. She ended up moving into my dorm with me. Like moving back, she broke up with her girlfriend. Moved into my dorm with me. And we were like, okay, we're going to be together. Like I'm going to, like I said earlier, I'm just going to be a lesbian. except for fucking her best friend

who's a male. So I guess technically that's not really exactly a lesbian. Right. And you're doing that while you're back with her and she moves in with you? Yeah. Yeah.

And like, we would go out to the bars and drink too much and end up back in a house or whatever and like she would fall asleep and like I remember one time she was asleep on the couch

and him and I were like behind the couch fucking. Yeah. So at this point you're just like a massive cheater like in the worst kind because it's like her best friend. right fucking in front of her. I'm just adding drama to your story because

it's what people like. It's because it is very dramatic. If you think about what you're doing, it's fucked up. Well, it's really shitty. Yes. It's really shitty. And I never, and that's not the person I am. And I think like I said earlier, like, there's two sides of me.

Yeah. There's two sides of me. Like, even then, like, I didn't, I wasn't like, if I heard someone cheating, I'd be like, that's so fucked up. Like, so, such a hypocrite. Yeah. But I was just dumb. And like young, dumb and full of come, I guess.

Like, I don't know. Like, I just, I was just a sexual deviant. And did she ever catch you? Did she what? Did she ever catch you guys? Oh, catch us. Yeah. And like, is it something I don't know about?

No. No. Well, here's the thing. So we, this, we weren't like totally serious yet. She would go home a lot. Like, we weren't like official official yet. And so. When she was like, I want you to be my girlfriend.

I want us to just be like me and you. Like you're about to graduate. Like I'm ready to like let's move in together. Like let's be officially like partners. And I'm like, okay, well, I'm going to have like, I'm like, I have to tell her best friend. Like I have to tell him. Like we can't do this anymore. And we need to tell her.

Like I can't go into this relationship like that I'm agreeing to be monogamous and I'm agreeing to be serious. We're going to move in together that like, I can't hide this from her. I need to tell her. And I'm like, but I think we'd be better coming from you. He's like, no. Like, I think she already knows. Like, I kind of already told her. And I'm like, what?

Like, you already fucking told her. Like, why is she not mad at me? Like, why isn't she brought it up? I'm like, what the fuck? He's like, no, she already knows. And I'm like, okay. So she comes. And like, we're looking for.

a house and like, I'm like, so, like, have you talked to your friend? Like, she's like, what do you mean? Basically, this motherfucker didn't tell her shit. And that was his way of like getting you not to tell her because the dumbest. No, getting it to come from me. No, no, he just didn't want her to know. You're going to fuck everything up by telling her. Why would you tell her?

It's in the past. One way or another. So dumb. I've never thought of it from that angle. I know guys. And I have a guy brain. The dumbest thing is to tell her about what you. guys were doing before that you're going to stop doing. Why would I did it? Why does she even need to know?

It's like the dumbest move. He would didn't want her to know. So he was saying, don't worry, she knows because he didn't want you to fucking tell her. Not that he wanted you to tell her. Guys aren't like that. There's no reason for her to know. That's an epiphany moment. But again, as much as I'm a deviant, I'm, I'm deeply loyal and honest. I don't know how I'm both, but I am. And so I'm like, if I'm going to do this. No, no, you're dishonest and honest at the same time because That's not deviant. That's dishonest too, by the way. So I told her and she, like, we got through it, whatever.

But we still all hang out together all the time. So that was a bit awkward. They would drink too much and get fights about it sometimes. But this is all young kids stuff. I mean, you guys are all, like, in your 20s, right? I mean, this is like drama, 20-year-old shit. When do you meet this Mark St. James guy? Well, no.

Mark St. James is the guy that, like, I met up with and grew sexually with and No, I know, but you're not with him at this point while you're with this girl. No, I don't know whatever even happened to him. And so. No, but he comes back into your life. Yes. Okay.

But so I ended up being with my lesbian lover for four years. Okay. We get together for four years. And then we break up, like a week after we break up, I get hit up on Facebook by a guy I hooked up with a few times in high school. And to make a very long story. short. I ended up marrying him. This is your husband who had, who passed?

Yes. Okay. So it was like back to back. Like I went from one relationship to another, but one being lesbian to being straight again. Yeah. Okay. And we had this like whirlwind. At this point, I'm 26, I think. So I'm like, like, okay, like I have a good job. I have an apartment like, or I had a house like by the beach. I was like, I'm doing my grown up shit. And he comes into the picture. And looking back, I couldn't even tell you what happened. But this was 2011. We both kind of went into it like, well, we had some great sex in high school.

Like we're both single right now. Let's have some great sex. But we ended up married. A huge fancy wedding and all the pomp and circumstance and everything I never thought I wanted or wanted to do. Like totally like cookie cutter by the book. I don't know. Listen, you're not like anybody else. I mean, that's what most people do.

They read the book. They do it when they're supposed to. I mean, that's about the right time when girls start, like, thinking they got to get married. Everyone starts doing it. That's what you're doing. You're doing like what is, you know, you're supposed to do. So the half of me that's, you know, proper, prim and proper is like, I am, I am killing it at life right now. Like, I'm doing all the things.

You're checking the boxes. Yeah. And that's a big one to check off. Every girl wants that. Yeah. Yeah. So we're falling in love. We're not monogamous yet.

We both know there's a few side people, but like we're cool with that. We're honest about it. And then we decide to be official. He's like, I think you should move in with me. Like, I think we should just not see any other people. We need to be serious. And I'm like, cool. And he's like, but I need to tell you something.

So last week I went home, which is a state across the United States. And I fucked up. I got really drunk. and I fucked my brother's wife. And I'm like, you what? He's like, yeah. You guys are all so incestuous with everybody because you wind up fucking his brother. Yeah.

That's why this comes full circle. Yeah. So I'm like, I'm not mad because like I had sex with someone else the week before too. Yeah, yeah. You're not really official anyway. Yeah. So we're getting all of our, we're airing it all out before we decide to like lock it down. And I'm like, well, that's crazy.

Like you're a dumb ass. Yeah. He's like, I just hope he never finds out. Like, he can never know. And I'm like, well, he'll probably find out someday. Dot, dot, dot. So we continue. I move in.

We get engaged. It's a big, beautiful engagement. Like, it's a big old deal. And he's like, okay, well, I need to take you home again across the country to meet my mom and my brother and my sister because they all live in this state across the country. And I'm like, okay, cool. Let's do this. Hey.

Listen, you know, guys I've had pills. Since the dawn of time that get them hard, right? Well, now, women have something too. And it's called shamelessly aroused. And it's not just some pill that's maybe going to work. No, this is topical Viagra for women. And it works. All you got to do is rub it all over your vaj. Wait 15 minutes, and it sends the blood rushing exactly where you need and want it. And you know what that means. that means more natural lube, stronger orgasms, and more sex, because you're going to want to actually do it again and again. So whether you're premenopausal, manapausal, or just tired of always having to work so hard to have an orgasm, you're going to love shamelessly aroused.

Now listen, I had Robert from Shameless Care. Come on my show and talk all about this cream. And the minute we hung up, I bought it. And I can't tell you how many times I've used. used it, okay? I love it and it does exactly what it's supposed to do and then some. And I have to say, like, honestly, every time I've used it, it almost feels like it works better and better. So what are you waiting for? Go get yourself or your girl some shamelessly aroused. All you got to do is go to shameless care.com. Bill out a five-minute intake and a board certified physician will prescribe and ship it to you discreetly that very same day. And if you use my code, Strictly at shameless care.com, you're going to get $10 off your purchase.

That's $10 off when you use my code strictly at shameless care.com. Or just go to the description, click on the link, and use code strictly to get $10 off. Plus have better fucking orgasms. And he's like, okay, well, I need to take you home again across the country to meet my mom and my brother and my sister because they all live in this state across the country. And I'm like, okay, cool. let's do this so we're all packed up i'm nervous like oh my god we're going to meet the family his phone starts ringing at like two o'clock in the morning this is the night before we're flying across the

country to meet his family right it's his brother and his brother's like you fucked my wife and i'm like oh my god so apparently his wife journaled about it and he found the journal and we're flying there and he gets off the phone and he is sobbing. He's like, my brother's going to legit kill me. Like he has a temper. He's crazy. Like he's going to kill me. And this is going to really suck. And I'm like, oh, well, this is making meet the family a lot more comfortable, isn't it? So we go, we fly across the country and the brother is now, we're staying at his mom's house. The brother is now staying at the mom's house too because he left his wife. And my fiance

decides he's going to deal with it by drinking a shit ton of whiskey. Wait, is this when you fuck the brother? Well, this is when it all, well, no. I didn't, not technically.

So he gets way too drunk, passes out somewhere. Everyone goes to bed. I'm like sitting there eating my birthday cake by myself crying. In walks, my fiance's brother. He's on a revenge tour right now.

And he's getting home from work. I'm sitting at the kitchen table, eating my birthday cake, crying by myself. He walks in and looks at me and like, my whole body is on fire. I'm just like,

because he looks just like my fiancee at the time. And like, I'm mad at him because he got drunk and passed out. Plus you're a deviant. You're deviant. Well, and I've been good for so long. this point.

Like, fuck. So we hit it off. Like, we get along so well. We stay up until 5 o'clock in the morning, eating my birthday cake. Like, he's all, he's all like, he's a, he's, I didn't know so much later, but he's a daddy Dom that will come into play later. So he's like, are you eating your birthday cake all by yourself? We can't have that.

Let me help you. And he's like, gruebing you. He's like, comforting me. He's cruebing you. I'm like, abs so fucking looting. I'm so fucking lute. but I am just like thinking with my vagina 100% like I'm just like oh your brother and he's on revenge he's thinking revenge okay his brother just fucked his wife so he's gonna fuck his brother's

wife okay he's not a dumb dumb yeah so we stay up all night we talk about our deepest darkest secrets he's literally so upset about his wife obviously and being betrayed by his brother and and we stay up all night and we stay up all night and we we realized it's like five o'clock in the morning. So we're like, okay, let's go to bed. So I was sleeping on like a cot in like an extra room which shared a wall with his bedroom. So we both go, we go to our beds and I can hear him. He's jacking off on the other side of the wall. And I remember when I lay down, I'm like, fuck, I'm so horny right now. Like we didn't talk about anything inappropriate. It was like all in the up and up, but like I'm so turned on right now.

and then I hear him jacking off the other side of the wall. So I joined suit. Like, what, I mean, like, what, I'm like, technically it's not cheating. At the time, I'm like, this is not cheating. Right, but you're just, but you're wiring yourself into that, that sort of way. He knows, he knows what I'm doing on the other side of the wall. And I know what he's doing on the other side of the wall. Yeah.

And, and, and, and then in comes my fiance the next morning. He's like, I can't deal with this. We're leaving. I booked us a flight. And I'm like, what? So I don't see the brother again. But that's fine. So we fly home.

The brother won't be in the wedding. He won't fly in for the wedding. He will have nothing to do with the wedding. So we have this big, huge, fancy wedding. I get pregnant on the wedding night because we were like, well, we're married now. We just won't prevent. And maybe we'll have a baby within a few months. No, the first shot I'm pregnant.

So, again, to make a very long story short. Yeah, get the, these details. We need the, like, the sex-salacious stuff. Get to those things. Like, get to Mark St. James. Get to fucking the brother. Get to all the other things you've done. Well, it's just the backstories necessary.

No, I got. We can figure it out. Don't worry. We don't need to know the reasons why you got pregnant the first night. We all know. Most brides do. We get married. Yeah.

We get married. Have a baby and he dies all within a year. Wow. Within a year of that poor baby, like literally? Yeah. Yeah. And in a car. accident, right? Something tragic, right? Was it a car accident? Yeah, he was driving his motorcycle home from work.

And a car pulled out in front of him and that was it. It was immediate. It was immediate. Yeah, horrifying. So, so then his brother obviously comes to the funeral. Now his brother has now died and he's sad because he has cut him out of his life. And he literally like gets me through the whole thing. It's not sexual. It's just very supported. Again, Daddy Dom at its finest. Like, yes, it's his brother. Yes, he's sad. But at the end of the day, if you're a Daddy Dom, you're a daddy, like, you're going to take care of the wife. Like, he's just in a very delicious way. He's married at the time to his wife? No, they divorced. Okay. That's important. Okay. And so I'm thinking, well, this is awkward. Like, he was the only one that, like, I felt comforted by. And so I'm like, fuck, I thought it was like going to not be there anymore.

Like my husband just died. And to a certain extent, like I couldn't fully get in the mindset of like wanting to fuck him at that point. But I was very drawn to him still. So now here's where we get to Mark St. James catches wind that my husband has died. Yeah. I haven't talked to him since I was 19 years old. Yeah. My daughter is now too.

so like about a year after my husband died. And guess who trick or treats at my mom's front door? None other than Mark St. James with his kids. Because he's now married with children. Right. And thank God my mom answered the door because she knew who he was. And she said his name really loud. So I went and hid.

And he's like, I need to talk to Rian. I need to get a hold of her. Here's my phone number. his wife walks up she's like what's taking you so long he like slips his number to my mom on the fly and she gives it to me and I'm like what the fuck what a what a piece of shit like what's going on she's like I don't know but I don't know and I'm like well I'm never calling him well I lasted two months before I broke down and I'm like what is this motherfucker I have to say to me like he ruined my life broke my heart like whatever and so I call him and he's like I did you dirty I should never treat you like that

my life hasn't been the same and more importantly like I've never had the same sexual experience with anybody in all the years since it's been like 10 years at this point so I'm like you're married like what the fuck like what do you mean and he's like yeah I know I just I had to tell you and I'm like well I hope you fucking feel better and but I'm like at the same time this is the best sex of my life Like, because I haven't had the same sexual experience either. I've had some good sex. But like, nothing ever compared for him or I since. So now he's, we've got each other's phone numbers, which is a bad thing.

So it quickly evolves into sexting. It quickly evolves into sending pictures. And, yeah. So I write my first children's book and I'm working in a bookstore, right? this dude comes into the bookstore unannounced because he finds out I work in the bookstore and pins me against like the bookshelves and just like attacks me in a good way like he's like there's probably two or three customers in the store and he just walks in and it's like I'm going to So this is the first time since you've been sexting that he comes in so now it's game on.

This is the first time you've seen you stay out of there in person after all the sex stuff. and now you start this affair and now it's physical now it's physical so we don't fuck because I'm like I'm at work he's like trying to bend me over like the little like steps on the book I'm like I'm at work and like there's people in the store like you can't

like no like let's let's not come over my house tomorrow you obviously start fucking him though right well then the pandemic gets so I move away and he ends up

he he ends up saying he's going to work driving three and a half hours away to come fuck me three and a half hours away and then drive home that's how it all starts right then it starts like we're meeting at hotels in the middle but like the sex like we are both in our late 30s at this point

like we're not 19 anymore like it's different like but like as far as like the kind of sex you have typically like but it it goes it goes just as well as it did we were 19 like it's still fucking amazing

like because there's no inhibitions there's no holes barred like like we're tying each other up like we're using butt plugs like we're using I have a duffel bag full of toys like we're going all out like every time and I'm realizing wow I'm really into this like I was new I like toys and stuff

but like the more we explored, I'm like, I'm even kinkier than I thought I was. Right. Like I get like a leg spreader bar, which by the way, everybody should experience in their life. Yeah, I agree. Oh my God. And I'm like, this is the best thing that has ever happened to me. Yeah. So I'm like, I'm getting kinkier and kinkier because something about me is when I'm having sex, I want more sex.

If I'm not having consistent sex, I'm not as sexual. Everyone's like that. So like, I'm having these super hot fucking sexual rendezvous with my married ex that I always carried a torch for that. And so I'm like turned on all the time. So I hear about that life. I'm like, well, maybe this is a good place for me. Yeah.

And it turned out to be great. Like I ended up meeting, but we're still, we're in the pandemic. So like you have to kind of be careful. Yeah. So I ended up meeting like, I met a couple that was like, well, we can't. can't really meet up, but maybe you can, like, watch us fuck. And I'm like, better than that, like, I'll tell you how to fuck. I'll watch you and I'll tell you, like, what to do. And so- And that's what would go down? Yeah. For, like, in between my meetups with Mark St. James,

I was like, so I ended up, so then once it was like safe to do so, I ended up starting to meet up with this couple. But again, they live three hours away from me. So I basically have this hotel that's like in the middle of my hometown and where I moved to. Like some weekends, I'm meeting a couple there. And some weekends, I'm meeting Mark St. James there. Oh, my God. And I don't know. They probably think I am like escort at this point.

But like, fuck it. I am getting, I am doing what I need to do. Like, let me ask you this. Yeah, I get it. But wait, paint the picture of the couple. Like, who, what are they all about? And are you into like what's going down with them? Yes.

We are, we are having a fantastic fucking time. I'm way more into the girl than they. guy. Yeah. How old are they? Do you know? Around the same age as me. Like I think they were like 34, 35. Like we're all in our mid 30s. They're not married, but they've been together for a while. And I'm the first woman. They've like, he's never had a threesome. She's never been with a woman. Yeah. So like I show them the ropes literally and figuratively. And like he's watching and I'm showing her like, sweetheart, this is this is what being with a girl can be like. Like you've been missing out. So and he's totally into watching.

and like I'm tying her up and I'm whipping her. I'm like I'm going full on like and I realize I have a major dom in me like like but only with women. Oh, that's interesting. So I'm dominant. I'm dominant with women and submissive with men. And so that helped me kind of figure that out because with Mark St. James, I'm like, tie me up, make me your bitch.

Yeah. Spreader bar. I am your cum slut. Like just go for it. But with women, I want to be in charge. So it was a really good learning experience. experience. And it was me kind of like finding my stride after, you know, my whole life fell apart. Yeah, for sure. I'm like, so, so what if I'm 35? Like, I can still have fun. Like, it's okay. And so I start exploring

fat life and like exploring different fetishes and I start posting pictures on my set life without What fetishes are you exploring? I'm exploring nice play, not blood bloodletting, but like, I forget what it's called. It's like a pinwheel with like needles on the edge. doesn't break the skin. I'm so glad I asked. But like, and I remember like busting that out with the couple and I'm like, okay, I'm going to run this up and down your outer labia. Like, I'm just going to like, but she's tied up. So she doesn't really have a choice.

But like I'm telling her this is what's going to happen. Of course, consent has been established. But like, I'm realizing how much I love like the feelings. So I get like there's like knives you can get that look like they're sharp, but they're not. And that's really fun. to like running that up and down her body like her neck and like all over her and like the the handcuffs and I got this with Mark St. James I got this like hood that had a hole cut out like for my eyes and my mouth but that's it and I found that really fucking hot because like with him I wanted to be submissive so like my mouth was like I'm like like all I am is my mouth that's like just use my mouth because it's like that's all I'm here for like you know and it was like it was like fucking awesome. So I'm just like exploring a lot of things like some impact, some light impact play and some some light breath work like it's going, it's going quickly. Like it's progressing

quickly. So I end up posting some pictures on my fat life page without my face. And the whole thing kind of implodes with Mark St. James and the couple. And so I'm like, does he his wife find out? Not yet. We just kind of started getting, it started interrupting our lives to the point where like we couldn't function anymore really. Okay. And we both have families. Like, you know, like, and it just, it got to be too much. We're too addicted to each other. It's too toxic. And the couple, her and I actually decided, like, they ended up breaking up. Her and I decided we were going to try to date. But like, she's just not, like, she just likes dick a little too much to, to go to lesbian

in a row. Which was fine. It was fine to be the test dummy. Absolutely. So, but we ended up looking up just her and I quite a few times and I bought my first strap on and luckily I had some experience not using it but receiving it. So I was like super excited to like go

get one and like learn how to use it. It's hard work man. I got a whole whole new respect for men after fucking a woman with a strap on like that's some cardio. That's some major cardio. It's not the same as like writing as a woman on the top. It's a lot of work. But so this, so I'm, that's kind of where I'm not when my father-in-law, so my late husband's father is really sick and he's in the hospital.

So my, I don't know if it's my ex-brother-in-law, but it's my late husband's brother that I haven't seen since the Latt encounter comes into town because we think that, you know, my father-in-law might pass away. So we're sitting at my father-in-law's house. We're talking about my youngest brother-in-law and how he's young and dating on all these websites. sites. My brother-in-law goes, well, at least he's not on fat life. And I look at him. Like, A, you know what fat life is. B, are you on fat life? C, I'm on fat life too. D, oh my God, are you a fucking kink like me? And are we going to actually do this? Like, all that happened in like one second, just through a look. And by the end of the night, this, my brother-in-law had somehow found me on set life and commented on my pictures.

Did you know it was him? Like, how did he find you if your face isn't in there? And was his face on his profile? Nope. I don't know. I don't know. Apparently. Do you have tattoos or a house that he knows of and that was in the background?

No. How do you find you then if you're not, your face isn't on there? Well, my location is on there. So what? There's probably a million people. Like, how do you know he knew that it was you on Fat Life? Did he say, hey, blah, blah, blah. Rian, hi.

This is your brother and, No, no, but I don't, I don't, I couldn't really tell you. I couldn't really tell you. Okay. I, but it was just, I just, I didn't care how I just like, because I have a picture. I was like, like, on my hands and knees on a bed. I have a robe, but it's like lifted up over my ass. So my ass is out and my captions like, want a test drive or something like that. So he comments. I, he comments. So after we have that look of like, okay, we're both unfelt life. What the fuck. He comments. I, I, he comments. I, he comments. I, I, he comments. I, I, he comments. I, I, he comments. I. I. I. I. I called dibs toss me the keys. And I'm like, oh shit. He does, he does. He wants to fuck. And, and this is, oh, my God. So we plan it out. We're like, I go over, I meet, I meet up with him and I'm like, okay.

So like the jig is up. We want to fuck. We know we've always wanted to fuck. Like, it's really inappropriate. It's taboo, but like, should we just do it? Like, we've wanted to for 10 years. Like, on holidays, it's always like this tension. Like, we've known for 10 years. And we're like, I don't know.

And he almost kind of like teases me about like he like, like he now he's let me know he does want to fuck me. He's been jacking off my pictures on FetLife. Like he has always wanted to fuck me. I've always wanted to fuck him. And it is the revenge, which oddly I'm like down for. Like I don't know why, but I'm down for it. And so. Well, I mean, do you think some of it might have to do with like the fact that he reminds you a lot of your ex who you have never seen and can't see anyone?

doesn't he look just like him like maybe it's a part of like like that too a connection with your ex that you can't be with anymore because he's passed i don't know i don't know if it's there that wasn't in the forefront of my mind yeah i got it they look alike but they're so different right okay and and it was just a different kind of attraction not necessarily stronger just completely different and so we like we're like having phone sex while he's in town and like we're saying like we should fuck like i'm like yo like let's do this like and his profile on foot life is like the sexiest fucking profile i've ever seen in my life like his like he's written up this thing about like like he is like the most delicious daddy dom i've ever come across

and like i don't consider myself a little but like i don't know it did something to my brain and like i want him so bad at this point and we ends up like sexing here and there and So long story short, we end up making plans. So we do meet up at a hotel. We sneak away. We meet up. He's in town for, I think, Christmas or something. I don't know.

And I'm like, okay, I'm going to get the room. And, well, he paid for the room. I made him pay for the room, of course. But just come find me. Like, I'll be in room 222 at 3 o'clock. So I put on lingerie and like a really sexy little robe. and I just I'm like because I'm nervous like this is so taboo this is so wrong but I want it so bad so I'm just going to go for it like I'm not going to even have my clothes on and I'm no chances to make it awkward

I just want to like do this so he comes in this man turns me out like he grabs me by my hair puts me on the bed like pins me down he has the biggest dick I've ever seen in my life it's like a like he He sent me a picture against like a monster can, like a monster energy drink. And they're like the same size for a mental image. He's got a fucking puck. Like, and he just takes me from behind. It, fuck, it hurts. Like, and he's like healing sound.

He's like, are you okay, princess? Like, that sounds so cheesy. But in the moment, it was so fucking hot. And like, he's biting my neck and like drilling me into the fucking mattress in like all the best ways. And, like, dragging his nails, like, down my thighs, like, or I guess up my thighs, technically. And we end up going, like, five rounds. Like, I, like, we didn't end up getting the toys out because we didn't even need them because he's so great. Yeah.

He's so creative with, like, his body. I'm like, it was so amazing. I'm, like, dirty and all the kinkery I needed without, like, the toys. Like, he was, he's an experienced daddy dom. Like, so, like, he gave me. a whole experience, like, and the aftercare. Like, it was like the whole thing, everything I'd ever wanted. It was so amazing.

And then we just agreed, like, we're never, we're, we're never going to talk about this. Like, this never happened. Like, we're never going to do it again. No. Interesting. Okay. What and done? That was three years ago.

Yeah. And he now has a very serious partner. And we have Christmas. and we just act like it never happened. Interesting. It's really fun. Yeah. Yeah.

I mean, you got it out of your system like you wanted to, but it wasn't a long kind of a thing. Now, in the past three years, because that has gone by, is that what you're saying? Like, I mean, that was three years ago. Have you just, have you dated both men and women? Have you ever been with any other couples? Like, what have you done in the past three years? And what are you looking for in your life right now? I take it.

I have not had any. I went celibate. Oh, that's another side of you. That's just as extreme. That's just as extreme as all your other shit, right? I told you. Why not try that? Yeah, why not try it?

I decided to like, you know, go back to school and get my answers. And I'm really focused on my kid and my life and my self-growth. Yeah. So I have not had sex in three years. That's okay. That's interesting. And I just write about it now. So I sense wrote, you know.

You'll get back to it. And who knows what you'll get back to when you get back into it. You know, a couple of years you'll be bored and you'll change it totally up. I become such a sexual person when I'm having sex that it kind of could like take over my life. So I needed to take a few years off to like just pivot. Well, maybe it's very extreme because look, now being celibate. Yeah, of course. Because you're like you maybe need to just find a little moderation because you're like all one way or all the other way.

There's a little spot in between that you might eventually get to one day, which is fine. Yeah. But it's okay. Like there's nothing wrong with that. You've been there done that sexually. Now you haven't been doing it. You're tending to other things in your life. I think that's great that you're going back to school.

You went through a lot. I mean, having, you know, being left with a child as a single mom at age one is like pretty fucking hardcore, you know. And then you went on that world when and did all that stuff and everything. And now you're back to taking care of yourself. And who knows what your future holds for you? You're still young at 40. Do you ever think like you'll get married again or anything like that? I don't think so.

No? You're not looking for that in your life? I wouldn't, not right now at all. I wouldn't be opposed to if a partnership of some sort. Marriage is not for me. I don't think. Never say never. Is monogamy for you?

Do you think you could be monogamous in a monogamous relationship or would you have? Because like nowadays, I think it's so much easier you can have like open relationships and stuff like that. Like do what do you see for your future when you do get back into the game? I think ideally, and I put a lot of thought into it. Yeah. I think I wouldn't want my partner to be with another person without me. Yeah. But I think I would almost not want, but need an occasional guest start, like to come in with us.

Yeah. So, like, I wouldn't mind my partner fucking someone else in front of me. But not in front of me, I think I would have a problem with. Yeah, well, listen, I talk to over, you know, I have over a thousand episodes on my show. I'm not in the lifestyle, but I talk to a lot of people who are. And most couples don't play solo. I mean, most couples are playing together. And listen, tons of couples do play solo, right? And they go off and they do their thing. And they know they're not. But most people that are doing all that stuff are doing it with their partner. That's like a big part of it. So that that's nothing like out of the norm. Yeah. When it comes to open relationships. You know what I mean? Open relationships. Typically people, because listen, the the hotness of. of it for most people is compersion and seeing the other person being pleasure, you know, and so, you know, you want to,

you don't want to miss out, you know, no FOMO going on there for most swingers, you know, but listen, some people are into, oh, you go out and do that other thing, but, and sometimes things evolve into that, like, 10 years down the line, you know, but most people start out doing stuff together. Yeah, and I think that I've learned, I mean, I'm clearly not home, I'm, like, I'm not heterosexual. There's no, there's no part of me that. It's strictly dickly.

But I don't think I could ever be fully homosexual again. But I hate labels like bisexual, doesn't feel right, pansexual. Like, I'm just whatever. I like the person. Yeah. I think I don't see myself being in a relationship with a woman. I see myself, if I ever gotten to a serious relationship again, it would be with a man. But I would still have to have sex with women.

Yeah. So I think in that area, I would have to have some sort of openness. Like, I would need to bring some girls home for us. Like, I would have to have that. And I think, listen, you know, as a woman who's sitting across from a guy on the fourth or fifth date saying like, hey, listen, babe, you know, if we do get serious, I just want to let you know, like, I like to eat snatch. Like, I hope you wouldn't mind. That's the ones I do that. Most guys are just going to get a fucking witty and be like right on. It's not like you're a guy sitting across from a girl. That's a harder sell. And it's sad that for guys, they have to worry about how our girl's going to feel about it. But for a girl to be tell a guy eventually, listen, if you get serious with me, I'm going to want to hug up with a girl and you're going to have to watch. I mean, it's most likely you're going to, a lot of, listen, some guys are not going to want a deal. It's not like every single guy wants that.

You know, some guys are very possessive and they don't even want their girl to be with another girl. And I understand that too. But a lot of guys would love that. And so, you know, I'm sure any guy you meet or most guys you meet will be okay with that. It's not going to be hard to find. Yeah. It's, it's, but again, it is complicated, like you said. And so I've just been like, I don't even want to deal with it at all.

I don't think it's complicated. Yeah. I never said it was complicated. Well, just as far as like a guy like immediately getting hard and thinking, oh, hell you have three. I'm like, no, that's not. I didn't mean that in a bad way. First of all, you want a guy to get hard when you first meet him on you.

Okay? Sorry. Like attraction has to be there. And if it's not there in the first five dates and he's not getting hard by you, then he's not into you. And it most likely will never happen. So there's nothing wrong with a guy getting a little Woody under the table on your fifth date. Okay, that's nothing wrong.

That doesn't mean he just wants to be with you because you're with a girl. That's not what I was saying at all. I was saying he's going to be like, wow, I already like this girl. I'm already invested in her. I'm already like interested in her romantically. And now she's getting me hard because she's into that. Like that's icing. I think you need that in a relationship.

Sorry. Or else you're just going to be fucking friends. So there's nothing complicated about it. That's just not where you're at, but you could totally get that is all I'm saying. So no, I don't think it's complicated. I don't even think what you're doing now. it's complicated being celibate. You're like a little bit of an extremist.

That's what you do. You totally commit. You're not like flaky. You're not like changing every other fucking day. You go through years of your phases. And then you totally change it up. And I think that that's great. Why not?

Yeah, it's been great. And the thing is, is looking at me, like, I think that's really the kicker is like, I am like the last person you would ever expect would be talking like this or have done these things. Oh, I like that. So you have to send me in. anonymous picks for my Patreon. No face

picks, but like what I do on my page out is people post like anonymous picks like if you want, you know? Yeah. Because that's always like an added plus. Like, it is always the ones you would never expect. Like I'm a middle class America, white woman, Mac teacher. Like you would just never expect that.

I once had a woman on my show who had like a very naughty story. And she sent me in the most generic photo. I was like a photo of her with a dog and I'm like, are you kidding me? That's what you want me to post as your hot pick. And so many guys, like, we're like, oh, my God, she's so fucking hot because she, like, she sent me like a picture of her, like, as a librarian.

You know what I mean? It's like, they like that contrast, because that's, and that's real life, you know what I mean? It's not a lot of times. It's like, oh, you have to look the part, play the part, and everything. You know, I think it's more real a lot of times that you don't look the part, but you play the part. And that's real life, right?

Girls like you, middle of, are doing shit like this. That's what my, that's what my show is here to say. So make sure to send me in some anonymous picks. I will give you free access to a full month of my Patreon for free so you could see the, what is it called? The comments on your episode. I'll also give you free access to my Discord.

I have over 2,500 people on there and you could promote your book and stuff. Give a shout out to your book and where people can find it. And I'll put a link to it in the description. Cool. Yes. My book is Sex Capades, Mark St. James, by me, Rand Linson. and it kind of covers a lot of what I've talked about in a lot more detail with the title like Sex Capades. You know, it's a lot of really juicy stories, everything from sweet to kinky.

And it is available on Amazon. I love it. And you wrote some kids books, too. Is that what you said? I did. Or can you do them under a different name? I did. I do my children's books under my real name and my smut books under a append name.

I don't want someone, you know, searching up one of my kids' books and getting sex. So I keep it very separate. No, no, just like your sides of yourself extreme. You know, yeah. You've brought a lot of, you've brought a lot of clarity, this conversation. Like, you've hit the nail in the head. It's true. Even the way you write is extreme.

Children's books or sex books? Yeah, I like it. I like it. Yes, I like it. Don't try, don't worry about that. That's all, that's just who you are. I like it. I think it's interesting.

Okay, awesome. Send me a link to your book or whatever you want me to put. Do you have a website or do you want to just send me a link to the book, like on Amazon? I have an Instagram. Okay. And I have a Twitter and then I have the link directly in Amazon as well. Okay, great. So send me your links with your picture.

And thanks so much for calling in. I like your story. It's super interesting. I wonder where you're going to be five years from now, probably in a very different place. I'm sure, a different extreme. Very extreme. Yes. Okay.

Thanks, Rian. Thanks. Bye. Bye. Okay. Okay. I just want to tell you before you go that my book, it's called Strictly, anonymous confession secret sex lies of total strangers is now available not only in paperback and

ebook but you can pre-order the audiobook it's still not going to be out until august 25th but you can pre-order it the book is basically 17 different stories taken from my show i kind of picked one story from each category that i talk about on my show like there's a hot wife story there's a cuck queen story there's a cuck story there's a ginked being girl's story. Like I said, 17 stories, and they're all told in the third person, and they're all true. I took the interview and rewrote it in the third person, and I wouldn't really call it like a total erotica book. Think like penthouse letters. It's more direct. It's not so over the top like erotica. I don't really like that kind of vibe, right? But these are true stories. 17 of them.

They're really short chapters, easy read. You could read, you know, one or two. two and then skip around. You could read the whole book. It's available in eback format, paperback format. And finally, the audio book is available coming out August 25th. But you could pre-order it now. And if you buy my book in any format or pre-order it, I will throw in a complimentary link to my Discord. My Discord does not disappoint. Okay. There's no way you get into my Discord any other way than getting the link from me. Okay. I give it to people who buy my book. There's tons of people in there. Everybody shares content with each other and that's what you get to do there. You could post your own pictures and videos. There's tons of channels. We have lots of contests where you

can win a lot of money. It's a super fun place to be. It's a total strictly anonymous community and you will love it. I will be giving anyone who buys my book access to my Discord. It's private. Like I said, all you got to do is email me a screenshot of your purchase, whether you did the audiobook, the ebook, or the paperback. Send it to me at Strictly Anonymous Podcast at gmail.com. That's Strictly Anonymous Podcasts at gmail.com. And I will send you the link to Discord. So anyway, thanks so much for tuning in.

This is the Strictly Anonymous podcast. Okay, good news. I do have a book out. I wrote a book and it's coming out. The book is called Strictly Anonymous Confessions. Secret Sex Lives of Total Strangers. What I did was I picked out the 17 best episodes. That was very hard to do.

Okay, I picked like one from each category. And I retold the story from the third person. So it's not interview style. It's a little bit more erotica. The only place where I took Creative Liberty was in the sex scene. So it's even hotter than my episodes. Like I said, it's told in the third person. And they're all true, just like my show.

I mean, these are real stories from my show. just written out, like I said, in the third person, not an interview style, more like a story, but a true story, a true super hot story. Now, listen, it is available for pre-order now, and it's not coming out until October 14th. And I was like, oh, my God, that's a long time away. So I figured I'd incentivize people. If you want to pre-order it now, I will give you free access to my Discord if you pre-order it now. All you got to do is screenshot, a pick of the receipt, just screenshot it to me. Send it to Strictly Anonymous podcast at gmail.com.

And then I will send you the link to my Discord. So that's a little incentive to pick it up now. It's on Amazon, Barnes & Noble, Simon & Schuster. The link is in the description. So make sure to click on it. And if you get it, send me the pick of you purchasing and I'll give you free access to my private Discord. That is a totally naughty, super hot community with a lot of people over 2500 people over there having fun.

Remember email me the pick. at Strictly Anonymous Podcast at gmail.com.