Strictly Anonymous Confessions - 1153 - Emily Worked at a Nudist Swingers Resort, Recently Cheated on her Husband and has a Lactation Fetish?!

Episode Date: June 26, 2025

Emily worked in a nudist swinger resort, recently cheated on her husband and has a lactation fetish and she called in to talk all about it. Tune in to hear all the details including the group sex experience she had when she was younger and what exactly went down, her job as a front desk receptionist at a regular hotel and all the visiting baseball players she slept with, how she got her job at the nudist swinger resort and what exactly went down at interview including her having to get naked, how she felt about being naked while working and what exactly went own there, how and why she was super turned on by everything she saw, how she met her current husband while cheating n her first husband, how and why she started a very naughty virtual affair behind his back, exactly what her and the other guy would do while video chatting with each other, why that affair stopped, how and why she had suppressed her wild side and fantasies when she got married, and how and why she decided to finally start revealing them to her husband, haw she copped to having a lactation fetish and how her husband reacted, how she is going about being able to locate and live out her fantasy and exactly what she needs to do to make that happen, all the other fantasies they have that they want to now play out plus hear a whole lot more. REPEAT THURSDAY, originally aired 12/23 **To see HOT pics of EMILY plus my other female guests + hear anonymous confessions + get all the episodes early and AD FREE, join my Patreon! It's only $7 a month and you can cancel at any time. You can sign up here: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.patreon.com/StrictlyAnonymousPodcast⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ and when you join, I'll throw in a complimentary link to my private Discord! MY BOOK IS NOW OUT FOR PRE-ORDER!!!! Strictly Anonymous Confessions: Secret Sex Lives of Total Strangers. A bunch of short, super sexy, TRUE stories. GET YOUR COPY NOW: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://amzn.to/4i7hBCd⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠   To join SDC and get a FREE Trial! click here: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.sdc.com/?ref=37712⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ or go to SDC.com and use my code 37712   Want to be on the show? Email me at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠[e-mail]⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ or go to ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠http://www.strictlyanonymouspodcast.com⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ and click on "Be on the Show" Have something quick you want to confess while remaining anonymous? Call the CONFESSIONS hotline at 347-420-3579. You can call 24/7. All voices are changed.   Sponsors: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://butterwellness.com/⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Use the code “STRICTLY” at checkout for 20% off your entire order ⁠⁠⁠⁠http://promescent.com/kathy⁠⁠ ⁠⁠⁠⁠To get 15% off your WHOLE order ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://bluechew.com⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Get your first month of the new Blewchew Max FREE! use code: STRICTLYANON ⁠⁠https://beducate.me/pd2516-anonymous⁠⁠  ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Use code anonymous to get 50% off your yearly pass plus get a 14 day money back guarantee  ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://shamelesscare.sjv.io/xLQ3Jv⁠ ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Get $10 off Shameless Care’s female viagra cream, just click on the link and use code: Strictly    Follow me! Instagram ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/strictanonymous/⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Twitter ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://twitter.com/strictanonymous?lang=en⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Website: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠http://www.strictlyanonymouspodcast.com/⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Everything else ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://linktr.ee/Strictlyanonymouspodcas⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

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younger. That was super interesting. Like she had some group sex experiences that were pretty funny. She also though, when she was younger, she worked at a nudist hotel, but it was more than a nudist hotel. It was like a nudist swinger hotel. Okay. And the whole story of how she wound up working there and what she had to do while she was working there and what she saw while she was working there. Oh my God, I could have spent like a fucking hour just asking questions on that. And let me tell you, The employees at the nudist colony were naked too. Okay. So just got to hear the whole fucking story.

It's super interesting. But she also then talks about how recently she's married. But she did wind up recently having an online like cheating affair with a guy that they both met together. She started living some stuff out with this guy via Snapchat. And she talks about what they did. But she always felt super guilty. about it and she eventually ended it and decided to try to take her fantasies and talk about them with her guy. And that's where she's at now. And one of her fantasies, okay, is lactation. She loves

nothing more than lactation. I mean, she's a woman that's into that herself. She has watched it. She loves seeing women do it. She wanted to lactate herself. She wound up being honest about that to her guy. He was like, fuck yeah. He was into it too. And now she wants to live out. all kinds of other things with him. She talks about all of that. Her whole story is super interesting. I loved her. You're going to love her too.

She sent me in picks. Those picks are over on my Patreon, but I'm going to be right back on with Emily. Hi, Emily. Welcome to the strictly anonymous podcast. How are you today? I'm well. Thank you. I'm so excited to be here.

Yeah, I'm excited for you to come on because you got a couple things going on here. I feel like we're going to have chapters. There's chapters in your story. There's two major parts of it to me. There's some stuff when you're younger that's super interesting. When you were young, like in your early 20s, first of all, you've done some group sex in your early 20s. We'll take about that real quick.

But you also worked at a nudist resort. And like the receptionist as the receptionist, I really have never got that angle of a nudist resort, right? I've talked to the people that have gone and I talk to the swingers and the people that are there. Never have I talked to the workers. But I would love to get your quick analysis of what that was like as a young girl working there. But the other stuff that's going on with you is you did. cheat on your first husband with your current husband, right? So you're what you had that one episode in your life. You're married to another guy. You just went on testosterone. You're in your 40s,

which is the horniest time anyway. And the fact that you went on testosterone on top of it, you're going to be like having gangbang soon. Okay. I'm just going to tell you. But what you did is you met some guy recently and you didn't step out physically, but you did step out like virtually. And did have an online virtual, very naughty, let's jerk off together, watch each other kind of thing going on with a guy behind your current husband's back, right? And this is all happening now. And then the other thing that you have going on, which is very interesting. It was something that you called into my Confessions Hotline to talk about. And this is why I got you on the show and I thought we were just going to talk about this, but you have all this other stuff going on. But you and your husband have a

lactation fetish. Okay, you literally sent me like a video of you lactating in your fucking parking lot. I'm like, what if I got? Look at these people. Oh my God. And when I aired your confession on my patron, so many guys are like, oh my God, I can't wait to hear it. So obviously your husband's not the only one that's fucking into it. I find it interesting that you might be into it too, but we will get there. Let's like start all the way in the beginning. And I just want to hear that stuff that you did when you were younger. Which came first? The group sex or working at the nudist resort? The group. sex. Now, is that just like drunken flings with bunches of people at parties? Like, what went down

those group sex thing? The largest one I had was there were six of us total. And I was dating a guy who was best friends with a set of twins. And one of the twins were dating my best friend. And then the other twin had a girlfriend as well. And we were all, just back in Florida. We were young, 19, out drinking, hanging out, went back to my boyfriend's house. to swim and get the hot tub and one thing led to another before I knew it like all six of us are in the shower and everyone's fucking each other and touching each other and it was a pretty large shower and the guys had all the girls lined up against the glass and we're fucking them and the glass broke and my boyfriend's dad was home yeah and he opens the door and it's all three couples

just freeze and he just looks at us and shakes his head and was like get dressed get out Oh my God. Was his son there? I hope his son wasn't there. But he just saw a hope. His son was there. Oh my God. That was been so confusing for that poor father. Because oh my God. There's so like information overload. A bunch of hot young girls. Everyone's fucking naked. But also you just busted his fucking bathroom. Plus his son is there. Oh my God. That poor dad. Yeah. So this was also around the same time that I was also working for a hotel. chain in Coco Beach and we used to have the B team for the baseball players come through. So whenever I'd get off work, I would just make myself a key to whatever guy's room that had invited me over. So I just, what are you talking about? No, no, no. You're losing me here. Okay. I don't live in Coco Beach and I don't understand what the fuck of the B team is or any of the shit. So are you telling me that like professional baseball people came through town and stayed at the hotel and would hit on you and you go home and fuck them? I don't understand.

Sure. Yeah, exactly. Oh, okay. I was the front desk receptionist, which is how I lead into, this is how I eventually wind up working as receptionist for an all-nude resort. Yeah, but let's start here where you're banging the baseball players. Yeah, yeah, go on. Yeah, so it's like the college B team. They're the ones doing the tryouts, and Florida is a big area that a lot of baseball players come. Not just their local teams, but other teams come, and they do the tryouts, and they get picked and they get planted for,

the second roster and these young men were coming in and I'm 20 something 21 22 they're 20 something and I'm like hey you're hot you're hot what are you doing later and there's be three guys staying to a room well I'm sorry there'd be two guys one per bed and so I would just hook up with whoever how many guys do think you bigged like how many of those baseball players that came through town did you wind up a hit in a maybe 15 or 20 wow okay so now how do you go from being a receptionist at this regular hotel to a receptionist at a nudist hotel um i'm gonna kind of jump around here a little bit basically i was under 21 i was still living at home we moved to another state where i entered into a relationship for three years that it the relationship had become a

emotionally abusive and was beginning to become physically abusive. And I asked my mom for help to escape it. And she's a travel nurse. And she said, well, I'll take a job in California for the summer and you can come with me. And that's pretty much how I followed my mom out to California. We didn't realize whenever we took this assignment or she took the assignment in Desert Hot Springs in the middle of summer that most of the town rolls up for summer. It's like a quiet. So when I started, I thought, oh, I'll find a job bartending or waiting tables for a few months. So I'm having a hard time. I've applied to 10 different restaurants.

Everyone's closed for the season. I'm like, what am I going to do? I don't really want to go get a job at a grocery store or whatever. So I get on Craigslist and I see an ad for a receptionist. And I'm like, oh, this is cool. So I write, here's my resume, blah, blah, and they invite me to come out. So the day of the interview, I show up and there's this nine foot private. fence and I have to ring a basically like a ring doorbell which those didn't exist then but it was something similar and then the little

screen pops up and they're like oh you here for the interview I'm like yeah sure I am and then I come inside someone comes to greet me and they're wrapped in a sarong it's a lady and she shows me where to go and sit she's here's the lockers if you want to go ahead and take all your clothes off can I get you a margarita and I'm like what kind of interview

is this? Did they say that this was like a nudist yeah yes it was like this is a nude resort for adults, but it wasn't implied that you would also be nude. So I will, but you still went. Oh, of course. Of course I did. Why not? You need a job. I'm going to check it out. Yeah, yeah. Okay. Okay. So, and at the time, at the time, the pay was $30 an hour, which was huge. So I go, they welcome me. The receptionist says, oh, go sit here. You'll be meeting with John. He'll be out in a minute. He's the owner, him and his wife own the place. And I'm like, okay.

So I take my clothes off and put him in the locker. Wait, wait, wait, wait. Stop, I'm sorry. Yeah. Like, when she says, hey, take your go in the back, take your clothes off, you didn't know that you were going to. But now that it's put on the table for you, you're like, okay, I'll go do it. No nerves, no nothing.

I would have been horrified. No, oh, yeah, no, the nerves are totally there. But so the area that she showed me to to meet him was a pool side. We're all outside. There's other nude people. And there's two little lawn, not lawn chairs, they'll, canning chairs that you would lay out on, set to the side that stay reserved, and this is going to be your space. John will be out to meet you. The locker rooms are over here. Go ahead and take your clothes off.

Because the whole rule at this particular facility was, as soon as you got in as a guest, and I checked you in and gave you your keys, I'd take you to your room. And I'd say, okay, please, if you're going to come back out, it has to be either nude or just a towel. but they didn't allow any clothing in the main outdoor area. One of the best parts about having a partner is definitely sharing everything with them, including your fantasies. Trust me, opening up to your partner about your secret fantasies can be a total game changer. And that's where the Dipsy app comes in. Dipsy is an app full of over a thousand spicy audio stories,

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and then there's a pool and hot tub and a dance floor and a circular bed that moves. And then all these chairs around it, right? It's so, it's so hot. I like, I actually want to take my husband back here now that we're starting to explore more, but we'll get to that. Yeah, yeah, yeah. Okay. But when she says you're going to get fucking naked, you, you just feel like, okay,

this is what I got to do. So you get naked and go out. Oh, my God. You got balls. I think I would have left. I would have been too nervous. I like contemplated for a second. I'm like, okay, am I, what am I, what am I, what am I doing?

What am I getting myself into? But I was there by myself. No one knew I was there. My mom didn't know what I had applied for. So I was just like, fuck it. What source that could happen? Yeah, I give you credit. I like people that are more ballsy than I am.

Like, I think I would have been too shy to do that. And I've been to nude beaches and stuff, but like I went with a boyfriend. In that situation, I think I would have run for the hell. So I give you credit that you were like, I'm just going to fucking do it. So you got naked and go out to the pool area? So I went to the locker room, put my clothes away, and then I came back out and sat at the assigned chairs. And then the owner and his wife, well, she comes back later, but like the owner comes out, introduces himself. And he asked me, do I want a margarita?

And I was like, I guess, like, I've never had someone offer me a drink in an interview, but fuck it, let's go. You've never been naked in an interview either. And he's just standing here nude. He's nude, too, right? I mean, he's off interview. Yes, yes. Yes. And he's red-headed. And I just, I remember him being like in his 40s and he has this red bush around his dick. And I'm just like, oh my God, what is going on? I saw one of those. I couldn't believe it. It's very red, right? Orange. Yeah. Yeah. So, I don't know. It was kind of hot, but I'm like, my nerves were going. So I did want the drink. And so I, I, he gives me a margarita. And then he asked me if I want a shot of tequila too. It was like, yep, yep, let's just do this. I can't. Like, I can't. I'm so I'm trying to fuck you, I think. I mean, like, why is he trying to get you so drunk? Oh my God. Here's a drink and a shot of tequila on top of it. Honestly, though, I needed it. I needed it to call my nerves. And then, and then it was.

very professional after that. Okay. So tell me about your experience. And I told about working at this place that's a high tourist area near Cape Canaveral, where you've got a lot of people coming up to see shuttles and stuff like this, spring break, blah, blah, blah, blah, a lot of nudity. Because you, back in Florida, you've got wet t-shirt contest and t-shirt contests and t-shirt contests and t-lo-blah, right? So he says, I think you're going to fit in here. It explains my duties, but we do require that you be nude because we want to set the example that people that come on the property that we don't want them to wear clothes. That's the whole reason why people come here is to have experiences. The only time that they would allow any type of clothing

was they would have theme nights like Friday or Saturday. It would be like lingerie. Exactly. Exactly. So the thing about this property was there was only about 15 rooms. They were all really nice sweets. But you could also purchase day passes. So if you were a couple, you could purchase a day pass. or if you're a single female, you could purchase the day pass, but they didn't allow any single males. And it was an open free-for-all. And so I had never really experienced group sex outside of that one cluster fuck, right? So then I'm like, so part of, we had cameras all over the facility to make sure that people were safe. Everything wasn't recorded, but it was monitored, right? So if that way people could say, well, I didn't get consent, it's get murky, right? Right. So we would

have these, we have to watch the monitors in the office. And it's 11 p.m. And there's six chicks in the hot tub just gang bang in and giving blowjob after blowjob or like I make my jaws dropping. I'm literally getting paid to work and be nude and watch for him. Can I ask you a question where you hot and horny jerking off there in your seat? Oh, the fucking time. Were there cameras on you too? So like you might have been watching and jerking off and then somebody who was watching your camera that was on you watching you jerk off to watching the other people gang bang. That's what probably was going to be. Exactly. I'm sure it was like so meta. Wait, can I ask you a quick question? Did your mom know that this is where you were working?

Oh, God. This is so awkward. Okay. So I lie to my mom. And I tell her I get a job. I kill her, I tell her got a job at this hotel. It's like a super private, swanky hotel. So towards the end of it. My mom's like, I really want to come to come to come see you at your work. Is there a bar? I come sit and have a drink. It's my day off. And I'm like, no, sorry, mom. I'm not, we've got a big, we've got a convention in town. I can't all that. And I like, I make excuse after excuse after excuse. I just can't make anymore. And then I think it was like the last week or two of us being there. She finally surprises me at work and rings the fucking doorbell. And I answer the reception. And I'm like, okay, so when you make a reserve. No, no, no, no. So when you

make a reservation at this space. Yeah. We give you very detailed instructions on how to check in and what time you can check in in and what to expect to check in. And so you shouldn't be getting a doorbell ringing unless you already have someone on the books, right? So we should be anticipating every person. So this doorbell rings, my fucking mom, oh, my God.

So she rings and I'm like, Mom, I can't, you need to leave now, now, now. And I will text you. And so I get home and she goes, you're working at a nudist colony? And I was like, yeah, I am. It pays $30 an hour. And she's like, oh, could I come in sometimes? I was like, no, dude, I don't want to see you naked. Oh, my God, that's great.

So we just kept it as a, we kept it as like a nudist colony. Your place was not just a nudist resort. It was kind of like a swingers resort, like a nudist swingers resort, because there was a lot of sex going down. There was so much sex. There was one room in particular that was actually like the grand suite that was a first floor with a second story balcony that overlooked the pool. And I remember like the first week I worked there. This guy and a lady had booked it for the weekend. And I just checked them in.

I'm like, here's your room. Please respect the rules. Don't come out without your clothes. Like you can wear a towel, but you're not clothes without it in any of the water. It's like funny. And then they immediately go up to the balcony and just start banging in front of the full. Like we're completely at capacity for a Saturday day. And I was just like, hell yeah.

This is amazing. Oh my God. How many times did you get hit up by guess? I mean, because you're like the youngest person there probably, right? And you're fucking naked. No, actually. No. They kept an entire staff of women between the ages of like 20 and 30.

I mean, even all the housekeepers were nude. Oh, yeah. Yeah. Oh, so yeah. Probably yes. As staff, I was, I was, I was, we're all. about the same age, but as people that were hanging out there. Yes.

Wow. And we actually had a wall. We had a wall of celebrities that was like Bill Clinton and the cast of friends. Wait. It's a pretty. What do you mean? What do you mean? That they were there?

Yes. Signed autographed copies of all the famous celebrities that had visited that area. That area or that resort? No, no. No, that resort. Sorry, that resort. The cast of friends came as the cast. I don't buy that.

I don't know. I mean, it was on the wall. It was signed. it was before my time. So I just took it with a great ass wall. Maybe it was like a regular hotel before it became like that. I mean, I don't think Bill Clinton could technically put his name to something like that. Even if he did do it on the GL, we never know.

But I don't think he'd say he'd let himself be on the fucking wall. He can't. He was the president. I agree with you. I agree with you. What I'm telling you is that my young naive self was like, oh, this is cool. And I believed it. You're right?

Oh, no. Listen, your whole experience there is fucking fascinating. We don't need the celebrities to. be added to the story to make it interesting. It was so silly. It's interesting enough, but wait, so did you ever wind up hooking up with anyone there while you're there? Because I'm assuming you're, like you said, you're super horny, you're seeing sex all over

the place, everyone's fucking around you. Like, I know you jerked off while you were watching things. Did you ever hook up with anybody while you were there? No, so they had a very staunch rule that was a terrible offense. Exactly. And you don't want to open those doors because of it becomes a slippery slope. And part of the fun thing was like once the, once your roster for the day is all checked in, you're like, all right, everyone's settled in. It's 11 a.m. They, we had these super squirters that we would fill a tequila and we'd walk around the pool naked and give out shots to all of the people staying on property, which was one of my favorite things to do.

Oh, my God. Yeah, it was wild. That is wild. Now, did you see a lot of attractive people there? This is my last question because we have so much to talk about. But this story is so fascinating to me. I could probably ask you questions of Philip. a fucking hour. But like, you know, what were the demographics of the people that showed up at

that resort? Like, was it all across the board? Was it typically older people, younger people, attractive people, not attractive people? Like, wealthy people? Everything. Everything, right? Yeah. Everything. It was everything. And I would say it was probably a good spread. On a Saturday, you might see a couple of really pretty women and a couple of hot men. And then it was like average after that, which was still fun to watch. I didn't give a shit. Watching people come out with strap-ons and the lingerie nights, what kind of cool shit do people come up with? But yeah, no, it was, it was really neat. Wow. I'm surprised that you didn't get into the lifestyle after that or anything. I mean, because you're so like sort of almost like you're like on the peripheral,

but you're really because you're naked and you're there. Like I'm surprised that didn't set you up to start going to those kinds of places after that. But you didn't really, right? No, I had never. No, I mean, even after that, right? So, after that you wind up getting married, right? Let's get to the story where you meet your husband. You cheat on your one husband with your husband. So, I don't know, at the age of 29, I met this guy. We dated for six weeks and then we were engaged and we were married by six months.

So I met my current husband. He's my best friend. We used to bartend together and we bartended together for two and a half years before he and I ever, like, connected. Yeah, yeah. So one night he comes over. we get drunk, my husband goes to bed. My first husband goes to bed and I wound up fucking my best friend slash now husband on the hood of his car.

My husband's car at the time in the garage. And I'm like so pissed off at the sky. I'm like, fuck you. You're supposed to be my friend. This is not okay. Like my whole life is upside down. What the fuck is wrong with me? You blamed him?

You blamed him for fucking you on the car? Yeah. I mean, did he rape you? I don't think so. No, no. It was very welcomed. It was just unexpected. Yeah, yeah, yeah.

And because you had just got married, but did you were you not that happy with the guy? Oh, I think it was just young and dumb and rushed into something. I woke up one day. I was like, I'm not going to be like my grandmother was slaving, working full time for a man and coming home and doing the child rearing and cooking and like that typical southern bullshit that people used to do 50 years ago. I woke up one day and I was like, I'm not going to do this. You're like, you got to pull your weight or I'm out. And that's pretty much how it happened. So you stay, but you, because you had the side piece and you were, like, you fucked him in the car and you realized that you got this connection going on.

You wind up immediately with him, right? I mean, that's the transition. Kind of. At one point, I told my current husband, who was my sidepiece, I was like, you're going to have to be okay with being the second person. He's, I'm fine with it. And that lasts like all of a week. And I was like, no, I can't do this. I don't want to juggle this drama.

I just, I just want to be who I am. So I moved forward with the divorce and then he and I start dating like officially dating three months after my divorce. Right. And then now you wind up marrying this guy and you're totally faithful to him. Like you said, he's your best friend. This is the keeper. You're finally on track with your life. Like literally I've never had like a like a traditional relationship with a man who pulls his weight. It's financially responsible, is emotionally responsible who communicates. Like it was just like weird. It was the most. on like any of the other relationships I'd ever had. Well, that's why they call, no,

no, but that's why they call it the quote, unquote, the one. He was the one. He was the one. Yeah, he was. Yeah,

he checked all the boxes. Right, yeah, actually. Yeah, absolutely. But so he's the one, right? You're faithful to him this whole time, no longer young and dumb and doing all this crazy stuff.

Right. And not fucking anyone on cars and everything. But somehow, right, along the line, very recently, you and him go away and you meet some guy, right?

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very recently, you and him go away and you meet some guy, right? He's there with you when you meet this guy that you have this Snapchat thing with, right? All right. So let's talk about that. Okay. So we take an international trip for a concert. And it's my 40th birthday. And I jump on Reddit and there's like a meetup for people that are fans of this concert and they're all going to meet up at this one place and someone had reached out to me and was like hey are you going to be there and i was like yeah and so i'm telling my husband about how i've met this person on reddit and the subgroup for this same band yeah and and he and i tell him like he he wants us to come to this meetup and my husband kind of on the fence.

But I wind up convincing him and we go and we make a bunch of friends, three or four, that we still stay in touch with this entire group to this day. And so we go to the concert. We have a great time. After the concert's over, we end up going back to one of the other guys' flats in this international city and do some psychedelics and a couple more drinks and we watch the sun come up. And we had to get on a train the next day to another country.

So it was just kind of a whirlwind. Anyway, so fast forward. We were back from vacation. That was early part of the year. And two or three months in, this person and I are, we're all friends, my husband included. We're all friends on Instagram. And I'm posting selfies, like how my day is going, yada, yada. I'm in the car a lot for work.

I drive. So I'm constantly distracting myself while I'm driving, posting, whatever, listening to new music. and he's hey is it okay if I send you some flirty messages whenever you post these selfies and I was like finally I've been waiting for you to get the hint that I'm posting them for you and he's like just blindsided no but I'm a little blindsided too because you didn't tell me anything about I mean at this point it's like he's a friend and my husband's a friend I mean on what was going on with you that you were looking for attention from this guy oh I wasn't okay okay So whenever we first introduce ourselves on Reddit, he's like, hey, I'm going to send you a friend

request on Instagram. Here's just a snapshot of who I am so that you know when I request. So I see, I click on the link. I look at it. I open it. I see this man that is like salt and pepper, fucking muscular, covered in tattoos, just full on daddy. And I'm like, oh, fuck.

I knew in that moment, I wanted to get fucked and I was fucked. This was not going to end well for me. knew it in that moment. And then this is the guy that you and your husband go to meet and then you wind up staying friends and your friends, but you're setting these picks, but you got the hots for him. You left that out of the story. Exactly. Okay.

So he's like physically your type. Like he's just super hot. Oh, actually, no. He's not my type. He is like the opposites into the spectrum. Like I love my little tall, lanky, green bean men that have their big dicks and their long hair. Yeah. I know that type.

Yeah. Yeah, yeah. And he's not. He's post-military and he also does have long hair, but he's like salt and pepper. He and I are only one year apart. There's just this cosmic connection. And he used that term first and I agree with him. Yeah. One thing after another, we were always aligning, always aligning. And he told me flat out that he was in an open relationship. What is it, ethically non-monogamous? And that got my wheels turning. And I like start doing more reading on this. And I don't know. know, like, this guy is just fucking hot. And then eventually our Snapchat, like, friendship turns into us just full on masturbating when we can. And, yeah, like, I'm just, like, chomping at the bit for every private moment I get to send him sexy picks. But I'm also feeling guilty at the same time because this is, like, it started and then it went on for almost eight months. I finally got the point where, like, I have to stop.

Like I love my partner. And if I'm going to move further into this territory, I want it to be with my partner. Yeah, of course. Yeah. And like basically I want the same thing. I want to have my cake and eat it too. But I don't know if my partner, my husband now, if he, I kind of brought it up to him. I was like, would you ever be interested in a three?

Something's, fuck yeah. And I was like, what if it was another man? And it was like, oh, perfect. So. Well, listen, you don't need to start there with your husband. We felt it out like at the top of the mountain. Would you be into me fucking someone else? I mean, you could have said like, hey, would you be into like us just like getting attention,

posting naked pics of ourselves online, like doing naughty things? There's a lot of things you could start with to get your guy involved in the stuff that you're looking for. You like attention. You like for the adulation. So let me, like you said earlier, I'm just like full on, full on balls to the wall. That's exactly how I started it. Yeah. So this is a few months back.

And then now fast forward to where we are now. I've been like slowly trickling stuff out there. So the other night we're being intimate and I had a couple drinks on board. And I just said, hey, can I tell you something? And he's what? And I was like, I really want to make milk for you. I really want to just like. Who is this to your husband or the other?

My husband. Oh, this is where our lactation fetish comes in. Okay. Yeah. So the other guy things have slowed down. It's pretty much. Yeah, but I can't skip past that. We can't get to the, I have questions.

about that okay could you just hold on stop balls to the walls with me okay take it down enough we have 30 more minutes left okay so let's not get to the lactation yet i mean you have this whole eight months thing where you are like jerking off with a guy on snapchat every minute you can be behind your husband's back like where the fuck would your husband be like would you be in the bathroom and your husband would be in bed so my husband works every other week open closed. So on the off weeks where he was closing and I would come home from work at a normal hour was like we would, he and the the Snapchat guy, me and the Snapchat guy would, we had a code like O and C. Is it open week or is it a close week? And so closed weeks we were

spending our time together in the afternoons. Okay. So your husband was never home. No. And I even bought a selfie stick just so I can take even hotter pictures. share. Oh my God, hilarious. Oh my God, yeah. So like when you were jerking off, what would you do? Put your phone across the room and lay on your bed. Paint the picture. Yeah, yeah. That's exactly. We would set up a time and I would always get excited ahead of time. I get my sticks set up and take pictures and cute lingerie whatever. And we would edit. And then I would start sharing those pictures before our appointment time. Yeah. Scheduled time together. And then we'd get on and we're like, oh my God, you're so fucking hot. No, you're so fucking hot. And yeah, we would, I'd look at his pre-com and I would show him

how wet he'd made me. And it was just, yeah, it was fucking hot. Yeah, because it's super naughty on so many different levels, right? But you're also feeling guilty. Like after you would come all those times, like is that when you would feel guilty? Of course. Pre-come. Yeah. Post-come clarity. Yeah. Yes, girls. Have it too. Everybody has that. Exactly. Oh, my God. But then you'd go back for more because it's probably like highly addictive. It was. And that's something that he, Snapchat guy and I would talk about is like we both have like trauma responses and like how we're all in therapy. We all talk about how we get this attachment syndrome and addictive personality and things like that. So a lot of it bleeds over

into the sexual place. Of course. And we talked every single day for for eight months. I mean, almost exclusively every single day, except for the weekends when we're both. our spouses. We had code for, if you're going to share a picture, you would say, are you hungry? Can I like to cook a lot? Yeah. So I was like making sure the room was clear. Can I share this picture with you?

Yeah, yeah, yeah. You guys were really full on like fucking lying to your partners undercover, secret little online affair. Now, why was, was he just, he didn't have codes for himself, did he? Because he was supposedly in a very open relationship, right? So were there codes for him? where it gets a little complicated. So he and his,

he and his wife, uh, experienced an unexpected pregnancy that wound up, uh, being ended naturally, like she, she miscarried. And I wasn't really privy to a lot of what,

what's going on. And I had sent him like a topless snap. And he was laying in bed next to her and opened my snap. And then told me like, hey, you can't just send pictures about warning. And I was like, whoa, whoa,

I try to lay these back. boundaries down with you like three weeks ago, but you're like, he just was so excited. He's, let's get to the good stuff. This was the first time we were ever sharing. So this was very early on in our, in our affair. So that's when we kind of started setting boundaries and rules and regulations for how we were going to communicate. But essentially his lady saw this like unsolicited tit pick and was not really happy with him because she's grieving and she's emotional and why not then i felt wow this is fucked up dude like you're you've hurt someone that didn't anyway yeah so so because of that she knows who i am she knows of that we have a

kind of a more than friendly relationship and i i'm i've been talking about talking about this with my therapist my therapist is convinced that he's not in an open relationship and i'm just lucky cheating yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah because that's why i ask like i get why you would have codes, right? But if he has fucking codes, then I don't buy the whole open relationship. Because most of the time in open relationships, there is, people love the sharing of it and the knowing of it. Most of the time, it's not don't ask, don't tell. Most open relationships nowadays, the real progressive ones. It's kind of like, oh, fucking open, do it and share it with me. Tell me. Show me that fucking titty pick she just set you. There's no like codes that need to be

given. So I don't necessarily believe that he was in an open relationship. And trust me, guys and girls that you don't want to get what they want and will fucking lie in situations like that so that you don't feel bad. He's going to think you're more likely to engage with him if you as a woman think that his woman is okay with it. And I agree with you. And my therapist, she's convinced as well. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. But you stopped it with him, right? Yes. Oh, yeah. We're still friends. Okay, but how did that go? I mean, were you just like, I can't do this anymore?

I feel too guilty. Was that what stopped it? No, yeah. I mean, honestly, it's really weird. Like, I have not had the same level of openness and communication outside of my marriage ever that I have with him. It's almost equal. I'm actually, I told him I was doing this interview. Yeah, yeah.

Right. He knows and your guy doesn't know, right? I get it. Right, right. So it's just weird. I just told them straight up like I It was stressing me out I was losing sleep

I felt like I was getting protective of my phone And I just felt like it's just a matter of time Until I hang my own rope And I'm not willing to sacrifice my entire life for this Yeah you're smart because you were And you were that first of all It's exhausting leading a double life Exactly

The people who feel guilty or the people that get caught You will would have you would You will eventually wind up sabotaging your own fucking happiness Like seriously that's what happens When you're doing something that you don't feel right about it It's just you just can't fucking do it. You know what I mean? That guilt that you felt that part of you would have wound up getting you busted

if you didn't wind up like ending it. So you did the right thing. Yeah. Well, and so I think a lot of this is a catalyst. Okay. So my Snapchat guy is a catalyst for I get into this marriage with my husband, my current husband. We've been together for 10 years.

We were together for three, married for seven. And we still are together. But when we got together, it was like the first in my life. I'd had a stable, normal relationship. It was not normal to me. So I got in, and I didn't think, talking about this, my therapist, I got into this poor Madonna complex where I was like, fucking whoever I wanted to fuck. I was fucking chicks.

I was fucking guys. I had group sex. I'm having sex on the beach in Florida and California, whatever. I just didn't care. And then I finally meet someone of substance and I start, like, settle down. You got a job. Yeah. Yeah, of course.

Yeah. I got that. Yeah. Yeah. A house, all that stuff. And so my husband and I, even though we were kind of fun, really it's kind of vanilla. But like at the time it was very new and exciting, right?

But we never really sat and had those conversations. Like he kind of knew I had had some history, but never anything explicit. We never talked about desires. Hey, that feels good. I like it when you do that normal bedroom stuff, but not like fantasies and things. Yeah. And then you get to a point where it's gone so long. How do you break the ice?

Like, oh, by the way, I'm into fill in the blank. Yeah, yeah, yeah. No, I always talk about that. It's really, you should just start right from the get-go when you meet someone because it's almost more embarrassing to bring that shit up with someone you've been with the longer you have been with them if you haven't told them. 100%. I get it.

So the international city that I met my Snapchat friend is a city that my husband, I love to go to. And we do a lot of, like, food play where we put, like, we go shopping together and then we go back to our Airbnb and he buys me fancy lingerie. and I rub these things all over my tits or my clit, and it's our thing that we've always done. So I think I was already kind of predispositioned to be a little horny when I met a snaptrap friend, because this is a city that my husband I always go to and fuck it out. But also, this is my 40th birthday, and it's like, I came home and I'm just like, I'm exhausted all the time, and we have some medical things that run in the family.

And so when mom tells me like, why don't you go get tested, see where your hormones are, and see if you're carry menopause. And I'm like, okay, fine. So I go to the doctor that she gets her pellets from and the doctor's like, oh yeah, you're like way tanked on testosterone. So I get my first pellet. And holy fuck. I know, right? 20 year old was back.

Oh, no. Oh, baby. Which is around the time that I'm at my Snapchat friend. Yeah, yeah. I listen. That could be the reason. Exactly. So now fast forward, I've had two and a half rounds of pellets done at this point.

So it's been like eight, nine months. And I'm feeling guilty. So I'm like, all right, we got to, we got to stop this. If we're going to ever maintain an actual friendship, we have to stop. And that's what we decided. And it's all agreed upon. And then I start thinking myself, like, why did I want this attention? Oh, because my husband doesn't know who I am sexually.

That's why. Yeah. So now then I'm like, hey, would you ever want to have a threesome? And I just spring it on them. The night before, we had a party for Fourth of July and some friends were over. We have a lot of friends that are transitioning. We have a lot of friends that are by, both male and female. We have friends that are Polly.

And so it's kind of already been floating around us. And so we're starting to have more and more conversations like, hey, he knows. My husband knows that I love women. I love tithies. I love men, like equally. And so I kind of asked him one night, hey, well, how would you feel about that? And he's like, hell, yeah, that would be awesome. But, you know, we need to talk about it more in depth because you need to set those boundaries and those rules.

Yeah, he's right. sure you're comfortable. Right. Which me, he said yes. Immediately. I'm like, well, what about a dude? Jumping the gun. Usually just left it there and started talking about rules. Bringing under girl first. Eventually, he'll realize he'd into the fucking guy. So that was back in July. And now we're in November. So lactation. Bring in the lactation. Okay. Okay. So I've just been slowly like trying to share more with him or have more conversations with him. And so for Halloween, we've gone out and we got a couple drinks and got a taxi home and then we took some mushrooms and we stopped drinking and we were like doing water and hot tea and we're listening music and we're dance around the living room naked and then we go

upstairs to get it on and we're like in the middle of it he's sucking on my tits and I'm just like oh my god this is so good fuck this feels so good and I've already been watching a lot of lactation for for years now but I've never had the balls to like tell him like fuck milky tithes are so fucking hot. That's interesting that you even have that kind of thing. Yeah. Oh my God. It's just I can't. It's like women that squirt down below or it's not as hot to me as women that can squirt from their tits. Interesting. Yeah, yeah. Yeah. So that was always something that you like love to see. Yes. And I want to see it. I want to experience it for myself. Yeah, yeah. Yeah. As like a lactating woman. And I also want to suck on them and feel what it feels like. And I want a nurse. Oh my God. So I just, we're husband and I are having sex and I'm just like, hey, can I tell you something? Because this is part of me learning to be more open in the moment. And I was like, yeah, of course, what do you? And I was like, I want to make milk for you so bad.

And he just stops. And I'm like, oh, no. Oh, no. And then he's like, hell yeah. And then we just go at it. And so in my drunken stupor, high stupor, I'm like, well, tomorrow I need you to go by me. breast pumps because there's a whole regiment and I'm rattling all this stuff off like super technical. I have a lab background by the way. So I like really into chemistry. But it sounds like you had

already looked it all up for yourself anyway. Yeah, I had. I had been studying it. Oh my God. So the next day we wake up, we go to work, whatever's going on, it's going on. And two days passed and he doesn't say anything and I don't say anything. And I'm like, does he remember? Was he really high? I don't know. And then fast forward that evening, he's like, hey, so the other night you kind of mentioned something. He was like, yeah, where are my pops? And he's like, so you do want to do this? And I was like, yes, I want to do this. I've already ordered medication. So with like with induced lactation, you can do it naturally from expression, massage, and suckling. Really? But it is a very strict regimen you, you need to wake up in the middle of the night and at least do one 20 minute

suckling section. So a lot of people are into these adult breastfeeding relationships. It can be dry or wet, wet implying milk. But a lot of women when they're trying to achieve wet, it takes six, eight, nine weeks if you're doing it without any hormones. There is a medication that's available. It is not FDA approved, but it is not illegal. And so it helps a lot of women begin that lactation with progesterone. And so I ordered some of those. I'm waiting for them to come in. I think they should be in the next week or two. But in the last two and a half three weeks, my husband and I have bought pumps. I've been pumping daily.

I've pumped in the middle of night. We suckle as much as possible. So whenever I come home from work and he's on days, and we're both home at the same time. He lays down my lap. I set a pillow up and he suckles each nipple for 20 minutes. And we're just trying to slowly increase that breast volume and induce. Yeah.

Wow. Yeah, I'm really excited. And he is too, it sounds. Oh, yeah. Because I also asked him. I was like, hey, so if we, if we get to induction, can I start an anonymous Reddit account and share with a lot of these? That's what I want. I want to be back into a voyeur.

I want to be back into my voyeurism. I miss it. That is who I am at the end of the day. I always have been a voyeur. Right. And that's what maybe that Snapchat thing reminded you of, like that if you're going to take anything out of it. Hopefully it's in the past. Hopefully your husband never finds out.

Hopefully you never go back to that. But if anything may be the only positive out of it. This is it reminded you who you are, what you need to get back to, what you have to be honest about with your husband and take that into your relationship. Yeah, that's smart. Exactly. Yeah. And just showing him like the value. And so we started having more conversations about after we talked about the lactation, my eyes, like, can I, will you fill me and will you, can we share stuff online?

And I want that, I want that attention. And I want it for us together. Right. You don't want to feel guilty about it. Right. Right. And then the night I asked him, I was like, hey, would you be okay with all of this as I'm pumping? And he's like, fuck, yeah, that's great.

Like, that gets me so turned on. I was like, babe, I just want to be a fucking porn star, but go to work in the morning. Yeah. Unless I can make money and I don't have to go to work. But I also told him that same night that he agreed. I was like, okay, well, if you're on board with that, would you like to go down the street to this park that I really want to fuck at? there's this beautiful park that has a creek running through it

and we've never had outdoor sex and we just picked a spot and we were having sex on this picnic table and a truck drove by and he came so hard we jumped in the car and took off and he's like oh my God I don't even know who you are

like I don't know everything is just so amplified yeah yeah but he's he's right there with you he's right there with you exactly that's what I'm saying and so it's like we we ripped the band-aid off of not talking about sex for 10 years and now we're making up for it

Yeah, isn't that so interesting when you really just start opening up? You might find out that you really are on the same page. It's just all a matter of communication. I think it's fear. I think it's kink shaming and like being rejected. No one wants to be rejected. Listen, when I put your lactation fetish confession on, I can't tell you how many guys like, oh my God, I get her fucking on.

That's so hot. I mean, there's probably a lot of guys might not ever tell anyone else into that. but yet look, the people online are all fucking into it. Look, you brought up to your husband and he was like, oh, my God, drooling over it. I mean, who knew? I wouldn't have thought that. Exactly. And that was the first thing he said to me when we like, okay, not that night when I first confessed in a moment and a couple of drinks on board.

But a few days later when we were like, hey, he was like, hey, so you said something the other night. And I was like, yeah, let's fucking do it. And he's like, I have always had this kink, but I never wanted to talk about it because I thought it was weird. And I'm like, me too. Let's make some milk, baby. Yeah. And what are the odds that you both have the same one? Because I don't know that there's a lot of, listen, the fact that there's a lot of men with a lot of kinks.

Yeah. But the fact that you're a woman that likes that kink too, I think is even rare. So you guys are so like made for each other. And why don't you do? And listen, why don't you start your threesome off with a girl? You said you love girls. You obviously have been faithful to your husband. So you haven't been with a woman all this time, right?

Nope, nope. So why don't you start? Like why leave the guy threesome off the table right now? Why not do the threesome with the girl first with your guy? Your guy was on board for that. You like women. Like that's a good start. So I'm working up to asking him.

I've been doing some research to see if there's any like swingers clubs in our area. I live in a state that has a total population of one million. And this is it's very small town minded. So I want to find a place that we can go that's going to be a place that we can walk into that's far enough away from us potentially running to others that we might see in a community on a daily basis but i've i've been researching like swingers clubs that we could drive to and i kind of want to be like hey let's just go let's just go check it out like you were talking to the couple that wrote the book is fucking your way into existentialism oh my fucking god

they were like goals for me i'm like this is what i want with my husband right i want to be on that same level. But I'm going to have to ease him into it because there's all those jealousy feelings and I don't know how much he knows about reclamation sex. I don't know. I don't know. I mean, has he brought up any kind of weird feelings about anything so far? It doesn't sound like it. So you're just assuming all these things. I think he might be more down. I think, listen, when you, you did bring up the guy really quickly and he was like, wait a second. So I would take that cue and maybe not bring that up. Listen, at the end of the day, if you could lactate for him all the time, and get that going and go down on a girl in front of him and have a threesome with women.

And wouldn't that be enough? I mean, that would be a lot to have, right? You haven't had any of that stuff. So if at the end of the day he would never want you to be with another guy and that's his limit, okay, I mean, couldn't you deal with that if you did all this other stuff? Yeah. That's what I mean. So you don't need to go there yet with him because he did say what the fuck.

But you could start with all these other things. He was down for the threesome with the girl. He was like, oh, fuck, yeah. So just set that shit up. Well, hey, didn't we say my name was Emily, but really, it should be balls to the wall. We know your balls to the wall. We don't care about your name. You are balls to the wall.

I mean, go balls to the wall with this. It sounds like you already have. And I think I'm just learning how to communicate better. And I'm baby steps. I'm making up for 10 years of non-sexual conversation. No, and I really give you credit for ending that thing with that guy and taking it for what it was and really taking the lesson out of it and saying, hey, you know what, this was just a sign that I need to be doing this in my real relationship, because that's

really what's going out of all that other stuff that you sometimes feel for strangers that you haven't been with. Like you said, oh my God, I felt like it was like so instant and we were talking so much. All that stuff is like great, but it's not as real as what you have with your husband. This is someone you've been with for so many years. It's everyday life you guys are on the same page. It sounds like you did meet the one. said and the fact that he was down to your lactation thing and he's also down for a threesome sounds

like you're more into this kinky stuff too as well. So it just sounds like it's all great and that he will be open to the things that you want him to be open to. He doesn't sound that vanilla to me. No, and I think it's just getting caught up in societal pressures and feeling those like roles as wife and husband. And there's so much more than that. Like, I don't remember who you were interviewing, but the person said, I'm going to be around until I'm 80. I want to fuck as many people as I can and get as much pleasure as I can. Because you're only here for so long.

And as long as I have that person in my corner and he knows that I'm in his corner and nothing can ever change. I don't feel like anything can stop us. No, and I think it's really great to be able to live out those kinds of fantasies with a partner, you know what I mean? and to know that you're like, and for you especially because you had that Madonna Horror Complex, most women do that were raised at a certain time. It's different now, but you're in your 40.

So you still have to, you worry that you have to have those things separate. But to be able to come into your own and be all of that with your man who loves you, that is your husband and is that all those other things to you, but also could accept you fully realized as a sexual being with all of your fantasies. Like that's top of the mountain and that's great. And that's like the real deal. And it sounds like you've been honest with him finally. And it sounds like he's just been right fucking on board.

And that's great. That's great. And that shows people, other people listening that were like you listening to other people. Try it out. Try telling your partner what you're fucking into. Yeah. The scariest thing is that they would be like, ew, like what the fuck? But you don't know.

But you don't know until you fucking try because who knows? what people are really thinking about. I never knew that there was a girl into lactation stuff. I don't know. There's probably other way. There has to be, like, you know. There are so many subreddits for lactation. For women being into it.

That's what I find fascinating. Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah. That women like that, that's so interesting. And now you're doing it. So you're taking the pills and stuff. You're ready to do it? So I'm waiting. So I've ordered the pills.

They're coming from another country. Like I said, they're not FDA approved. So they're coming over from Italy. they've already entered customs. I think they're going to get delivered this week. And then once I start them, it'll take about two to three weeks, hopefully. And I can start lactating. Wow.

My husband and I every day were like, where is it? Tracking number. Tracking number. Where is it? It's getting closer. And then you want to share those videos online and stuff. That's what you talked about actually taking it a little further, right? Yeah.

Yep. And get some of that voyeurism back. And that was what I was getting was that attention. right getting that sexual attention feeling hot and then i was having reclamation sex but didn't realize i was having reclamation sex right yeah and he didn't realize it so right right so i want to get to where we're like oh god you're so hot look at this guy's comments and then we go bang it out and see where we just start taking baby steps and he's four years younger than me so we have another hopefully 30 to 40 years 50 to bang it out yeah and to fulfill all your to fill all your

fantasies and why not do that? Why not as a couple share some naughty picks with other people and get the adulation? I think that's a great place to start because it's super safe, right? It's just maybe an online thing. But I think you, because your balls to the wall, it sounds like you guys will eventually take it to the real life too. But that's like a great start. I'm trying to steer it that way. You're going to. Emily, keep me posted. You're fascinating to me. I loved all your stories. I could have probably talked about the nudist colony camp or whatever you find. Oh my God. Like for an hour, but I knew we had all this other stuff to get to. And I think it's just like super interesting.

And like I said, I think you're super interesting. And this, your story has a lot of different layers to it. And it's, it was great. I appreciate you so much. I've been a big fan. And I've been contemplating like how to share my story and how to formulate it with you. So thank you for helping pull it all out. Oh my God.

You just got to be fucking honest. It's great. No need to formulate. You live the fucking life. All you had to do is dish it out to me and tell me it. It was like, it's fucking great. So listen if you want to, I mean, if you listen to my show all the time, that if you want to send in hot picks of yourself, like rated R picks,

you like the fucking adulation. You could send it to me on my Patreon and I will give you free access to my Discord. It's private. People have to pay, but you will get in for free and talk about like adulation. Like you could go on there and post whatever you want. I don't get involved there, but there's 16, 1,700 people on there. it's a community of people. It's kind of like a Reddit kind of place, right?

But everyone gets to post whatever they want. And there's all kinds of stuff going on there. So feel free to go on there when your episode airs and talk to people. You could post whatever you want there. But if you can, send me some hot picks of yourself if you want, like rated art, nothing X rated. If you want to show me like, and also like a pick of your pumps, like I think would be interesting, like something like that too. Sure. Because it's so specific.

Can you do that? Okay, cool. All right. So get me those sooner than later. because your episode will be up soon. And thank you so much for calling in. It was fascinating. It was great.

It's a great episode. Thank you. Thanks, Emily. Bye. All right. Bye. Okay. Good news.

I do have a book out. I wrote a book and it's coming out. The book is called Trickling on Miss Confessions. Secret Sex Lives of Total Strangers. What I did was I picked out the 17 best episodes. That was very hard to do. Okay. I picked like one from each category.

And I retold the story from the third. person. So it's not interview style. It's a little bit more erotica. The only place where I took creative liberty was in the sex scene. So it's even hotter than my episodes. Like I said, it's told in the third person. And they're all true, just like my show. I mean, these are real stories from my show, just written out. Like I said, in the third person, not an interview style, more like a story, but a true story, a true super hot story. Now, listen, it is available for pre-order now. And it's not coming out until October 14th and I was like, oh my God, that's a long time away. So I figured I'd incentivize people. If you want to pre-order it now, I will give you free access to my Discord if you pre-order

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now available not only in paperback and e-book, but you can pre-order the audiobook. It's still not going to be out until August 25th, but you can pre-order it. The book is basically 17 different stories taken from my show. I kind of picked one story from each category that I talk about on my show. Like there's a hot wife story. There's a cuck queen story. There's a cuck story. There's a gang being girl story. Like I said, 17 stories. And they're all turrulled. told in the third person and they're all true. I took the interview and rewrote it in the third person. And I wouldn't really call it like a total erotica book. Think like penthouse letters. It's more direct. It's not so over the top like erotica. I don't really like that kind of vibe, right? But these are

true stories. 17 of them. They're really short chapters, easy read. You could read, you know, one or two and then skip around. You could read the whole book. It's available in. in the eback format, paperback format, and finally, the audio book is available coming out August 25th, but you could pre-order it now. And if you buy my book in any format or pre-order it, I will throw in a complimentary link to my Discord. My Discord does not disappoint, okay? There's no way you get into my Discord any other way than getting the link from me, okay? I give it to people who buy my book. There's tons of people in there. Everybody shares content with each other, and that's what you get to do there. You could post your own pictures and videos. There's tons of channels. We have lots of

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