Strictly Anonymous Confessions - 1174 - Teresa is a Hotwife who's Husband Use to be Jealous

Episode Date: July 21, 2025

Teresa is a hotwife and she called in to talk all about it. Tune in to hear all the details including the first time her and her husband entered into lifestyle and why it didn’t work out and how and why they decided to start back up years later, when and how her husband copped to wanting to see her with other guys, how and why she was super hesitant at first, her first solo hotwife experience and how her husband felt while it was going down, what exactly went down and the how he felt after she told him about what happened, their first time having reclaiming sex and how it was for them, the rules they came up with after her first experience, the kind of guys she looks for to hook up with, the threesome she had at her first swingers party and how that changed how she felt about her body, how many guys she had sex with on the same night after the threesome, the most amount of guys she’s been with in one night, what her husband does while she’s hooking up with guys while they’re at swingers club, their first threesome with one of her bulls and what went down,  her fave bull sessions and why they’re the best, what her husband gets out of her hooking up with other guys, her fave swinger party experiences and what she enjoys them about them the most, how and why sometimes she will also hook up with a woman, how hotwifing has helped her husband get past his jealous nature, how it has also changed her for the better plus a whole lot more. Link to her podcast: https://podcasts.apple.com/pineapple-pinup-hotwife-swingers-life **To see HOT pics of my female guests + hear anonymous confessions + get all the episodes early and AD FREE, join my Patreon! It's only $7 a month and you can cancel at any time. You can sign up here: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.patreon.com/StrictlyAnonymousPodcast⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ and when you join, I'll throw in a complimentary link to my private Discord! MY BOOK IS NOW OUT FOR PRE-ORDER!!!! Strictly Anonymous Confessions: Secret Sex Lives of Total Strangers. A bunch of short, super sexy, TRUE stories. GET YOUR COPY NOW: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://amzn.to/4i7hBCd⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠  To join SDC and get a FREE Trial! click here: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.sdc.com/?ref=37712⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ or go to SDC.com and use my code 37712  Want to be on the show? Email me at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠[e-mail]⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ or go to ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠http://www.strictlyanonymouspodcast.com⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ and click on "Be on the Show" Have something quick you want to confess while remaining anonymous? Call the CONFESSIONS hotline at 347-420-3579. You can call 24/7. All voices are changed.  Sponsors: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://butterwellness.com/⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Use the code “STRICTLY” at checkout for 20% off your entire order ⁠⁠⁠https://liferx.md⁠⁠⁠⁠ Start your transformation now and get $50 OFF your first month, use code: ANONYMOUS ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://vb.health⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ To get 10% off Drive and LOAD Boost by VB Health use code: STRICTLY ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://bluechew.com⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Get your first month of the new Blewchew Max FREE! use code: STRICTLYANON ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://beducate.me/pd2520-anonymous⁠⁠⁠⁠ ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Use code: ANONYMOUS to get 50% off your yearly pass plus get a 14-day money-back guarantee Follow me! Instagram ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/strictanonymous/⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Twitter ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://twitter.com/strictanonymous?lang=en⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Website: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠http://www.strictlyanonymouspodcast.com/⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Everything else ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://linktr.ee/Strictlyanonymouspodcas⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

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podcast. Okay. She is a hot wife. It is about hot wifing. She likes to dig deep. I'm going to definitely have her back on because I like the way she rolls. But on this episode, I wanted to get her whole backstory, how she turned into a hot wife. Her and her husband have been together for a long time. They tried to enter into the lifestyle early on. She talks about that story about why it didn't work. And then many, many years later, something happened to her husband. He started copping to the fact that he wanted to see her with other guys. He has an interesting backstory as to why he was into that. She had some reservations, but once she really realized this was that he was into,

they started hot wiping. Most of the time he's just there watching. She talks about her first experience. They do like to go to parties to pick guys. She talks about a lot of experiences at parties. She talks about her bulls. She talks about, like I said, what her guy likes to do. Sometimes he's there watching.

Sometimes he's downstairs. She loves being pleasureed. She's a squirder. She's a multi-orgasmic woman. She loves, you know, hot wiping. Her husband loves it. Sometimes she tapes it for him. He likes that content.

She talks all about all of it. It's super interesting because she really explains things well. She does have a podcast where she gets more specific in a lot of different topics. On this episode, we want to get her whole life story. I'm going to have her back on because, like I said, I like the way she analyzes things. But anyway, I'm going to get right to it and be right back on with Teresa. Hi, Teresa. Welcome to the Strictly anonymous podcast.

How are you today? I'm fantastic. Thank you so much for having me on. No, thanks for coming on. My audience loves to hear from hot wives. Okay. It's like a very hot topic. It was like I always say this is like one of the things I learn when I started doing my show.

Like that guys were into this kind of thing. Like never in my life did I know that there was a guy out there that love to see their guys, fuck other women, let alone tons of guys out there. Do you know what I mean? Absolutely. Yeah, it's like crazy. It's a mindset for sure. Yeah, for sure.

You do. You are, I mean, besides being a hot wife, you are a podcaster. You have a podcast called Pineapple Pinup, Hot Wife Swingers' Life. And what do you do on there, Teresa? You talk about like your hot wifing stories? Yeah, I talk about basically the events that I've gone to, things that have come up that have been like, I don't know, problematic or things that have been awesome, like things that have been good, things that have been bad, things that, like, have, have

altered my perception some way. And I like to give tips on doing the lifestyle right. Yes. Because my, probably the one thing I preach the most on my podcast is consent and how there are many, many layers to consent. And the very first person you have to get consent from before you do anything is yourself. Yeah, I love that. Mm-hmm. Yeah. And then after that, it's your partner and then after that it sort of ripples out it's like dropping a pebble into a pond you have to start with the pebble inside of yourself first and then it'll ripple out to everyone else because consent is one of those things that if you do not have it if it is not there if it is not freely given can call whatever you're doing will cause damage oh yeah because bill imagine if it doesn't

like that first ripple if that first pebble isn't there then you know the resentment is going to start building up inside you if you're not even doing this for the right reason right i mean come on exactly you know as a woman we've all kind of been there done that sometimes i always say this like you know we tend to sometimes women will twist themselves into a pretzel to make everybody happy and and do you know and do you know a lot of times that can be a problem especially in the lifetime you in the lifestyle you see that with a lot of times women are saying they're into women and they're doing it but the other woman can tell this girl's not fucking into women yeah yeah and it's a turn off and it's not good and over time that builds up resentment. But on this show, we're going to get your

hot wife backstory. But if people want more information and specific details, more details, they're going to get it on your podcast. And what I'll do is I'll put a link to your podcast in the description. But so let's start off. Like where are you at now, Tracy? Like how long you've been married to your guy? In October, we will have been married like officially 24 years. Okay. So been together for a very long time. And, And how long have you been hot wiping for? We've been hot. I've been hot wifing since for, I think we just passed my three-year anniversary.

Like three years of doing it, but we, three years of doing hot wifing, but we have been, we tried to do swinging a long time ago. Oh, okay. But when it actually worked and when we actually had all of the ingredients. to make it the right thing for us was it was three years ago. Okay, but let's go back to when it wasn't the right thing because I'm like you. I like to help people learn about the lifestyle and sometimes I think like what not to do is like really, you know, great information, right?

Not just like. Exactly. Yeah. So let's go back to when you guys started, tried swinging in the first place and what went wrong and why it didn't work out. Okay. I have always been on the kinkier side of life. I have always been probably the one in our relationship that was the least vanilla.

Right. And so my husband and I, I had been talking to a friend of mine at work and she had told me that her and her husband had started swinging. And I found that very fascinating. And I was trying to figure out, you know, well, what do you do? Where do you go? You know, and so we were talking a lot. And one day I came home and we were getting ready for bed and my husband started singing

Katie Perry's, I kissed a girl. And I looked at him and I said, is that something that you want? And he went, well, what do you mean? And I said, I mean, I happened to know a little bit about swinging and getting into the swinging lifestyle. And he said, well, we should definitely check it out. So we actually arranged to go to a couple of different, we went to a couple of events with my friend, a couple of hotel parties, a couple of like,

floor takeovers, because there's a lot of different ways that the lifestyle presents itself. You can do like a hotel party where you're in a hotel room. You can do a floor takeover. You can do an entire hotel takeover. You can do house parties. So there's a lot of different ways that they manifest themselves. And the events near you are usually cataloged in one of the big, big apps that are out there. Yes.

That helps people find one another. Yeah. So you go, though, you started trying a little bit of everything. Yeah. Yeah, we started with a couple. of hotel parties that we'd seen on SLS. Okay. And we actually went with my friends.

And one time, we went with my, the friend that told you that she was a swinger? The friend that told me. Okay, cool. She was a swinger. We went with her, and then we also one time brought my best friend with us. So we basically brought our own unicorn. And what was funny is that every single time we went, nothing really happened because there was a little bit of awkwardness because we were there with our friends that we knew

in our vanilla life. Right. So we decided that we were going to try to do this without the crutch, without the friends, and see what it was like. So we went to another hotel takeover, and we were there, and I was talking to a gentleman, and my husband was across the room talking to somebody. And the gentleman looked at me because I was wearing a corset that basically brought my boobs to my chin. And I am not, I am very well endowed in the chastereal area. And so he was like, can I touch? And I was like, sure, go ahead.

Because I am not emotionally attached to sexual activity. I don't know why it's just something that's not really, I don't have a problem with being sexual with strangers. Right. So my husband across the room sees this man touching me, comes flying across the room, puts his hand on my back and starts. it's whispering in my ear, it's just touching, it's just touching, it's fine, it's just touching, it's just touching. And I went, emotional radar, Bing, Bing, Bing, he's not comfortable. It didn't sound like he was uncomfortable. He was trying to make you comfortable now. Yeah, well, I felt like he was trying, he was trying too hard to make me comfortable.

Right. It was more about his insecurity than my comfort level. What was the truth? the truth was he was very uncomfortable oh okay you were right so you were reading that whole I was reading that whole thing very very correctly he was not prepared for how it was going to make him feel he we hadn't had any of the discussions that you should have

before you embark on this lifestyle sounds like it because it's just literally touching boobs and he's already like what the fuck's going on but I can see why I mean you're across the room he's not there you know like those are kinds of like things that you maybe you want to make sure you talk about ahead of time Exactly. And talk about what is it that what are your expectations of where we're, of what's going to happen when we go out there. Yeah, of course. What are you, what are my expectations? What is my, what are my fears going in? What are your fears going in? Yeah. Because my biggest fear was that I was going to do something that was going to cause him to look at me differently. Right. That makes sense. And his biggest fear is that I was going to find somebody. that was going to take me away from him.

Right. Mm-hmm. That makes sense, too. I mean, I think that these are valid fears that most people would have. Exactly. But the thing is, is that if we'd had the conversation,

if I had sat down and said, okay, so my biggest fear is that you're not going to love me anymore if I do this. You're going to get angry and that is going to ruin this thing that we have. If I'd had that conversation with him,

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anything to me. It doesn't matter if somebody's touching me. I'm so disconnected from it, You know, but so that night, did you guys leave like at that moment? No, we hung out for a while. We ended up talking with some people, but I kept like, I did very much put up some boundaries around us so that it was very much cocooning him and I. So that way he was very aware. Right. So nothing went down.

Nothing went down. Right. And then we came home and we had a conversation. And I said, I don't think this is the right time for us. I don't think that we're in the right headspace to do this. So rather than put us into a position where we had to try to find our way gingerly, I just said, let's, let's do some other things. Let's get to a better place.

And then did all those years go by and then we're talking like three years ago, the hot living thing comes up? Okay, so 2020 was a crazy time for everybody. 2020 was just like this cluster of like what is going on the world is crazy and my husband and I had had discussions about the fact that we should try to get back into the lifestyle but in 2020 he had open heart surgery he had a quadruple bypass during COVID and when he got done with that he looked around and said I want to live my life to the very fucking fullest I do not want me, I do not want to die regretting. And I said, I understand that.

So let's talk about what it is that you want and why you want it. And it took him a long time. It took, he had to have the conversation with me multiple times. And I had to get to the point where I was like, I need to trust that he knows his own mind. But what was the conversation? Like what was the first thing that he said was like him talking about the fact they want to see fuck other girls? because I'm assuming that's a conversation, but how would he start off talking about?

He doesn't want me to. I mean, no, men, men, men. Yeah. Okay. Yeah. So, when I originally went into the life, when we originally went into the lifestyle, I was under the impression that he wanted to see me with another girl. Right.

Or that he wanted to be with another girl and with me at the same time. But that's not what my husband wants. My husband is definitely on the stag side of life where he wants to watch me fuck other men. Yeah. Maybe occasionally join me in that man, but for the most part, He wants to watch that. He wants to see me get so much pleasure. It basically convulses my entire being and sends ripples through the atmosphere.

Yeah. That's what he's looking for. So when he and I started having more conversations about what it was he was actually after, that he wanted to see me with men, that started to really get me thinking. And I know that he came from a background where he had been cheated on. And he told me flat out many times during our relationship that if I ever cheated on him, that we were just going to be over. And that so I had a lot, because of the fact that he's now telling me two very different things, I had a lot of concern. Of course.

And so it took many, many conversations of him explaining what it is that he was looking for, what it is that he wanted to see, what it is he wanted to experience so that I could understand. And I did a lot of my own research. I did a lot of research as to why something goes from a fear. Yeah. Goes from a fear to a kink. Yeah. Which I think is brilliant. Why not?

Why not turn it into that? If your brain is going to figure out a way to protect you from something you're afraid of and make it something that you can find pleasure from, then let's figure it out. Instead of drive you fucking crazy. Exactly. And put you on a shame spiral. That's the worst. So because of the fact that I did, I was doing some research and I realized he'd turned this fear into a kink.

It started to really help me figure out what was going on with him and give me permission to go out and do the thing because there have been other conversations that we had where I looked at him and I said, I need more sex. I need more. And he or I told him once that I wanted to be dominated and he was not equipped to do that. Yeah. So then he started trying to find me a dominatrix. And I was like, okay, thank you. But I don't think that's what I'm looking for. Right. This is going to be, it sounds like you guys were leading up to something that was going to make both of you really happy. Like it was really right for both of you. You were looking for more dick and he wanted you to have it. Yes. Yeah. So I started to like get on board and then I started talking. to him and I started having conversations with other people to see how he felt. We then walked down this path and my first time being a hot wife, I went to a hotel by myself and he went to the Chili's across the street and had a drink and literally considered whether or not our marriage was over.

Really? Yeah, he was literally like, I don't know what's going to happen. Is she going to leave me? What's happening? Right. So he still had a little fear of the unknown because at the end of the of the day, no matter how much you talk it out, no matter how much you do, you know, it might still be like kind of fucking scary because you don't know how you're going to feel really until you do it. Exactly. And here's the thing. Part of being a cuck or being a stag is that angst.

Yes. Is that fear, that jealousy mixed with that fear mixed with that desire to see this happen. Correct. So because of the fact that he's in his angst and he's in his... At chilies. I went, I did the thing, I came back to the house and it was really funny because my daughter, she was visiting and she's literally cock blocking him the whole day. And he's like, I am dying here. He sends me a text message and he's like, I am dying.

You have to get rid of her. Oh my God, I'd say if your daughter only knew. So I had to get, so I ended up having to like be like, oh, she's sitting right there. okay, well, bye. Right. And so it was one of those things where the very first, he's texting me what he's going through. He's telling me in text messages what he,

his emotional dilemmas and how he's navigating that. And I'm texting him, well, he showed up. He has ADD. He is, because the guy, the first guy that I ever, fucked around in this in this hot wife thing was he showed up and he was he'd gotten a flat tire and his brain was so consumed with having to get the flat tire fixed and so ADD about it that he couldn't focus on why we were actually in the room and so I finally got him to focus on me long enough because I just basically went and got my vibrator and I was like I'm going to magic wand to this

until you realize where the fuck we are and I was like you know what I am here for a reason. And I'm going to fulfill that reason, whether you participate or not. And I'm going to get the thing that I came for because that's what I came for. So he ended up, like, as I'm deciding that this is what we're going to do, he finally gets on board. And he does this thing where he, it's like, starts to finger me. But he hasn't trimmed his nails in a very long time. Oh, my God, terrible. And he ends up scratching the inside of my vagina. And so I am a squirder. I have been a squirder for so long that I can't even stop it.

So when I end up squirting, he sees that it's discolored. It's like bloody. And he says, oh, I think he started your period. And I'm like, I doubt that's true because I had a hysterectomy. Yeah. And he's like, oh my God, my big dick destroyed your vagina. Oh, yeah, that's so funny. He like like it.

He's a guy. That's a guy brain. And I was like, and I was, I was, I was kind. And I said, yeah, sure. Yeah. Yeah. Oh my. Oh, that big.

Oh, my. Yeah. So he. So then he went off because he got a text about his tires. And I mean, I had the hotel room. I could have been there all fucking day. I could have been there for hours. He gave me a 20 minute pump and dump.

And then he was off. And I was like. I literally wasted my afternoon for this. Right. So when you go home and tell your husband, though, because that's where we really at. I mean, I don't care. Like, it wasn't great sex with the guy, right? But your guy's at home.

But when I went home, my husband. Yeah. Yeah. I told him all the, like, I told him, good, the bad and the ugly. I told him all of it. But we had the most amazing sex because his ability to reclaim me is one of, is a part of his kink. It's part of it. Like, when he, when he gets me back and it's like, you, I know you went out there and you did that thing and you've got that pleasure, but now it's my time to show you why you're here.

And that part to me is so amazing. Right. Because our sex is, has always been good. There's never been, my husband works very hard to get me off, whether he has toys or whether he has vibrators or whether he has whatever. He has always found my satisfaction to be the most satisfying part of sex. So that translates to what he's looking to get out of the lifestyle. And so because of the fact that my sex life has always been good, when you add that extra heat, it was like animalistic. Yeah, that's what I hear. And it was, it was such a connection between him and I. And every, since we started doing this, our ability to communicate with each other, our ability to share the details, the good, the bad, the ugly, whatever it is, has gotten exponentially better than it ever was.

Right. We are in the best place we have ever been in our relationship. Now, I will say, you're never going to fix bad. you're never going to fix a bad relationship with something like this. No, yeah, I know. It's not going to be a fix, but it can definitely take a good relationship and take it to a whole other level. Yeah, I've heard that a million times.

But let's get back to your story because, like, you have this first experience, you go back, you have the greatest sex ever, and then, you know, but your guy was having like different feelings before. Did he feel like once it actually happened that none of his sort of fears were, valid and was he totally okay with it moving forward? Yes, he's been totally okay with it moving forward ever since then. He and I once, but there were some things about that particular incident or that particular meeting that he had issues with.

And we came up with rules between us that helped us to navigate the best way to do the lifestyle with each other. Right. And the best way to make sure that we're both secure in how we're doing the lifestyle. So what were those rules? So he wants to, the first meeting, he always wants to be in the room. He always wants to be there. He wants to meet the person and make sure that I'm safe.

Okay, I understand that. And that rule actually morphed to we will meet people at parties. And we will only meet people at parties. Okay. And then once we've met people at parties, we, and we have chemistry, we will exchange numbers and then we can set something up outside of the party. Okay. So, but my husband wants to be there for the initial meeting to make sure that I'm safe, to make sure that I'm not, you know. And when we started into the lifestyle, we really tried to set a bunch of things up.

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When we started into the lifestyle, we really tried to set a bunch of things up. And you may, I'm talking to so many people in this lifestyle, you know that there are so many flakes and ghosts and people who are cheating and trying not to get caught cheating, that they are drawing you into their drama. And like, we're trying to avoid all of that. That's why we go to parties. Because you can meet people face to face. you could talk to them face to face. So because of the fact that... So did you start going back to parties at that point?

We started going back to parties in... It took us like six months of falling down, of not doing it right, before we started going to parties. We started going to parties in January or February, because we'd started in June. January or February, we started going to parties. What was your type of guy that you were looking for? I am looking for somebody who is, talks dirty to me, tells me where he wants me, tells me like, like just I like them animalistic, a little primal.

And dominant. My type of guy, exactly. My type of guy is not necessarily a body type. It's an attitude. Yeah. I want somebody who is fun to talk to. but then flips the switch when we're fucking

and becomes just no I'm man you woman do you want to be taken exactly and I want that that we that energy that I can't keep from getting this thing that I want from you because I just it's just everything

and that's what I'm looking for I'm looking for that energy that I must take you energy And it's, I love that. And I love the dirty talk. Holy crap, I love the dirty talk. So when you started going to these parties, when you like hook up with guys there or it was just, you'd go out, guys would go to the parties looking for guys and connect. And then you'd start to see, you start seeing guys solo.

Oh, my very first party. They do this thing where they go over the rules. And that's basically your shotgun blast. That's your like, starting gun. Right. And I was like, oh, I guess it's time. And I took off all my clothes. because that to me was what we were supposed to be like that's what we were there for.

Yeah. And I'm such a fucking pepper corn. Oh my God. Like give me a set of parameters. Give me a set of rules. And I'm like, I'm there. Let's do this thing. This is what we're here for.

Let's go. So I'm kind of a lot of times I am the thing that starts the party. The one who's like, okay, rules have been read. It's time to do the thing that we're here to do because nobody's here. Nobody's here to exchange recipes. Right. So you take your clothes off of what happens? Well, that time, there was a guy who'd come with a girl,

and she'd come from across the country to, like, hang out with him. And he was like, all right, then. And so he and I, the three of us started playing, which then, of course, brought other people to the... And we're talking diametrically opposite women. Okay? I am a very large woman. I am tall.

I am rounded in every direction. I am what they call a big, beautiful woman. And she was a dancer. I'm in my late 40s. She's in her late teens. We are diametrically opposite of one another. But neither one of us could turn around without more dicks flying in our face. And that was one of the things that really amazed me about these parties.

It's not about your body type. It's not about the way you look. It's 100% the attitude and confidence you go into it with. The saying that this is in the space and I'm willing to take it up so that I can get the thing that I came here for. But also the truth is something I think that you just understand it more when you're in lifestyle because everyone's fucking naked and there's you know everyone's just being more real. I mean, the truth is most guys like girls of all different shapes and sizes. I mean, you know, outside in the vanilla world, we all think every guy wants someone that's so skinny,

but it's not true. Most guys that I know, they like a lot of different things. Like sexy is sexy and it's not so much, oh, it is like you have to be a certain body type for the guy to be into you. Most guys don't rule that way. Heterosexual guys like it, like all types. just the way that it goes. Exactly. Exactly.

And that's been one of my, that's been one of the things that I have really tried to give people on my podcast is what you're worried about. What you're worried that they're seeing is not what they're seeing. What they're seeing is confidence and sex and like opportunity. And what you're afraid that they're seeing is cellulite and. a curve and a nipple that points the wrong way. I know. Nobody sees that. I used always,

I always knew that because I always had a lot of guy friends and I always had a lot of booty call guys and I'd ask my booty call guys in the middle of sex. Like, can you see that? Like, you know, I'd get critiques from them of things I was paranoid. They were like, who the fuck cares?

So I kind of always do this about guys, but I think a lot of women don't. And I think in the lifestyle, you learn it because it's just about sex and nobody has to pretend anything and you're seeing so many different people and stuff. But what women out there that have like a couple of partners think like every guy is so this way, but guys aren't like that. But anyway, so you go to that, so that guy,

you're with that girl and turns into like an orgy kind of thing with that girl. Yeah, it does. Like the, the three of us are like, start, are playing and we're giving him a blowjob. And then all of a sudden we have guys tapping us on the back. Like, is this okay? Yeah, go ahead. And then, but it was like, it was, that was the best part is that it was,

free flowing. Yeah. It was sex. And it was. hands and it was mouths and it was touching and kissing and it was all sorts of just fun and with absolutely no judgment there was I was never thinking to myself oh how many dicks did I take oh no what's my body count now I'm sorry that's really I don't care if you want to count something with me let's count orgasms how many orgasms did you get me

Right. Then we can talk about... I want to know how many guys you fuck that night. Do you know? That night? Yeah. I think that night I fucked seven and I gave probably nine different people blowjobs. Wow.

That's a good count right there. But, I mean, I went to one party. We threw a party and we were supposed to have a bunch of women. And the women all showed up, but none of them played. Oh, okay. What were they? I mean, what did they come there for? I have no idea what they came there for.

Yeah. But I ended up being the only one who played, and I played with every single man that came there. And it was like, my body count that night was 17. Wow. And I was like. Do you like that, though? Like, because I, you know, listen, I found out I had a woman on who runs a porn site, and she was like, you know, gang bang porn is mostly downloaded and highly downloaded by women.

It happens to be a big fantasy for women to be taken by a lot of guys. You know, did you have that fantasy? yourself? I am, I used to consider myself a fantasy fulfillment slut, okay, back before my husband. That was like, I loved doing things that made other people super, super hot. Like, I loved moving into the role, being the actress. When I was in that situation where I was surrounded, a dick in each hand, a dick in my mouth, you know, a dick behind me.

Like, I literally, I love the fact that everybody's there and everybody's making comments and they're making the noises and it's so much energy. And I thrive on that energy. I thrive on that, that heat that's built between people who are looking to get off and that energy. And the fact that they're fully dedicated to the fact that. that I must orgasm. If they do not get me to orgasm, they have failed. And whoever gives me the most spectacular orgasm is the guy who's made king of the party, basically.

So that to me is worth it. Mm-hmm. Anybody who doesn't think that this kind of, that this is the lifestyle for them, I mean, that is some potent, that is some potent fucking energy right there. It is a world where women, you know, it's kind of like the upside down world, right? Because like in the lifestyle, the women are like top of the food chain. And in the sense that it goes like they, you know, run what's happening and all that stuff. So it is like, you know, it is a place where women are exalted.

More so than in the vanilla world, you know. Exactly. Because there's, I don't know how many of you have been on a Tinder date where they didn't give a fuck whether you got off or not. They were just trying to get their nut. it's so rarely like that it is so rarely like that in the lifestyle so rarely are like most of the time guys are trying not to come right because they want to please you what about your husband you said he does like during that orgy or the times where you're having 17 guys and all these girls are there like is your guy sitting back watching does he like get so turned on he's got to get in there and do it or you have

your reclaiming sex at home like what's the deal we have a really like most of the time my husband stays to the just watches. Yeah. And then he does his reclaiming at home. And that is, and we've had one where I was, it was after the party and we decided to spend the night at the hotel. And everybody had kind of taken off. And it was my friend Josh, who is one of my bowls and my husband.

And we were all sleeping in this king size bed. And then we all started fooling around. And then I understand. ended up having like a three-way with my husband in this bowl. Yeah. And then in the morning, the same thing happened. And it was really, really like, it was a new step in our development. And my husband really enjoyed that.

So there have been times when it has been just me. Get it. Let's go. Let's get it done. Right. And then let's go home and so I can get mine. But then there are times. when it's, it just

it depends, it depends because there have been times when he's walked over to me because he's just so horny and like I'll rub his cock through his pants or I'll take it out and start sucking him. You know, that kind of stuff. So it's, I personally, there's, we don't

have boundaries with that. Mm-hmm. If that makes sense. We don't have, like, there's no such thing as something he's not allowed to try to do. Right. Do you do DP, DVP, like stuff like that when he's included or maybe when you're with all these other guys? I have yet to do DP. Okay.

I have yet to do double Vag penetration either. I have yet to do that. The farthest I've gotten is finger cuffing, but it has a lot to do with my body structure. Right. Being able to do that with two gentlemen would be. we'd have to have the right configuration and I'd never do anal at a party ever. Yeah, I mean, I've heard that it is very hard to make that work, you know, the positions and all that kind of

stuff, but I'm assuming you've done like spit roasting and all those things, right? If you're having like all those guys at once, airtight, spit roasting, all these words I've learned from doing my shower. I've never been airtight. I've never been airtight. Oh, right, you can't do airtight because you don't do anal at the parties.

but I have been spit roasted and I have been in the center with like I mean there was this one time where I was being fucked I had a cock in each hand somebody was trying to stick their cock in my mouth and I was like you can't because you're going to suffocate me because your balls are literally in the sit on my nostrils and I can't do that and the one guy one guy starts finger fucking my belly button oh my god I can't let anyone touch my belly button for even a tiny bit of sex. That's disgusting. I was seriously like, what the fuck are you doing? Like, you did not have my consent. Do you think that was

your pussy by accident? I mean, who the fuck gives a shit about someone's belly button? I'm going to get away from my belly button. I don't like that to be touched. I don't like that at all. No. I don't like that at all. And I've actually had, I've actually had conversations with my husband like, don't do that. Don't touch my belly button. No, thank you.

Let me ask you a question, though, because you have all these bulls and your guy is like on the side and you've been doing this for three years. do you have like steady bulls that you see long term? I have I have bulls that I see long term and it depends on the it depends on the bowl. I like having somebody that when I've had a very rough Tuesday, I can call and say, Hey, do you want to come over? Yeah.

Recently my life has been complete upheaval and I have not been able to have a bull over. And it has been entirely too long since I've had that kind of one-on-one focus. Right. But it's interesting they come over. So you're having these people in your house and your guy is in the room too. Yes. Or he's downstairs or he hasn't come home yet. Or there's all sorts of different ways that it works.

Yeah. I have them come over and then I get what I need. And then my husband flits in and out. He'll stand on the stairs and watch from outside because that's also got its own like voyeuristic kink to it. Yes, I've heard of that one. He'll peek in. Yeah, he'll peek in. I've heard stories from Bulls where the guys are like,

under the bad, like really funny scenarios. And so there's all sorts of different ways that it, like, and my husband is not like, we don't do the same thing every single time. So, but he and I, I love having the ability to bring somebody over and spend actual time with them and do things, like not just a two-minute session with this guy and then a two-minute session with that guy and then a two-minute session with that guy. It's like, you know, I like having to, I like taking the time, finding new positions, doing more things, talking about it, being able to like move into the right zones. So he and I, so that's what I find when I bring bowls over is that that added layer.

Of what? So. So long, like of not having to rush. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, of course. Yeah. Are you multi-agasmic? I know you're squirder. So, okay.

So you're like, you could be like, you don't need a rest period. So longer the better, right? Because you're just like coming. Yeah, I'm a little jealous. Yeah. Well, that was the best part about losing my, that was the best part about losing my, uh. Insides like your have. Yeah.

When they took my cervix. Yeah. I, I can take huge cocks now because I've lost my cervix. Oh, yeah, because you don't have that. Oh, I didn't realize that. Yeah, because all of the vaginal tissue is just soft and malleable and will Go where it needs to go. Yeah. And it's all has the feeling in it.

Like I think you said earlier, like they're not waiting for all the insides to get tuned up. So you have even more that's being accessed. And on top of that, I don't have the cervix, which is when you batter it, it feels very bruised and it's like hurts. I can't even. I can't. I don't like. Yeah.

Some people have cervical orgasms. I'm like, I like in my belly button. I don't want it to be fucking touched. So that's what I'm always like, I don't know why girls like nine inch cocks. I'm like, I'll take five inches and fat. over nine inches. Exactly. You know what I mean?

And I could understand that because when I had a cervix and it was like, okay, I actually had when I was 19, I had dated this guy that I broke up with because his dick was just too huge. Yeah. But when I got, when I had my hysterectomy, all of a sudden, my world opened up. Yeah. And it was like, holy, that doesn't hurt. It doesn't hurt at all.

Yeah, that's great. Please push further. Yeah. Fuck me from behind as hard as you can. But wait. Is your guy one of those guys that likes to see you with like guys with like really big cocks? You know, because a lot of times that is the case. You know, it's kind of backwards.

Like you would think the guy would be afraid if the guy's cock is bigger. But a lot of times they want it to be bigger because they want to see their wives in pleasure. And then sometimes it is there is more pleasure if they're bigger or they want to see them have something that they don't have? You know, is your guy like one of those that loves to see you with guys of big dicks or doesn't care? I don't think he, I don't know. His, what he talks to me about. Yeah. He does talk about the fact that, oh, my God, it's pathetic, you know?

And he does talk about things that like that. But his main goal is how many times it's that guy going to get me off. Yeah. And that to me, like, because everybody else is a toy. Yeah. And what he's really into, and you said it many, many times is his pleasure is your pleasure, like that, right? So the more they're making you come, the hotter it is for him. Exactly.

Exactly. Do you videotape for him sometimes and stuff? Yes. Yeah. Yes. I give him videos and especially that's one of the reasons why my life being an upheaval right now and I haven't had a bull over in over a month has been really, really hard on me because I haven't had any like content for him. Oh, and he likes that. Because we don't do any, we don't do any content at the parties because it's kind of like, every,

Everybody's there to be a knot. It's like going to an A meeting and videotape. Right. When you say content, you mean like videos and pictures from your hookups. Videos and pictures and stuff like that and full descriptions and all that stuff. So I don't have that to give him at the parties. So he's just got to remember it all. But he really likes going back and revisiting, which is why he really likes my podcast,

because I go back and I talk about what happened and I talk about, you know, things that were funny. and I talk about people finger fucking my belly button. And then I talk about, you know, people giving me orgasms that shoot across the room. So I'm Jackson Pollocking the wall. That kind of stuff. Oh, my God. That's how you squirt. Yeah.

Is it like with squirting? Yeah, tell me the one time. That was good. The one time there was this guy and he had a massive dick. And he was fucking me. And he pulled out at exactly the wrong moment. And it hit his chest and literally flew and hit like me. Oh, it ricocheted?

It ricocheted off of him and hit me and like six other people and ruined the bed at the headboard of the at the hotel. And I was like, oh my God, I'm so sorry. But it was like everybody was just drenched. And it was being at the front row of a Gallagher concert. It was just, it was intense. Yeah. Oh, my God. So what is your favorite like top of the mountain experience?

Like, do you love when there's more than one guy? Do you love just like when there's one guy that really knows how to like. you know, take his time. It depends. It depends. I have my top, like my top of the mountain party experiences are when there have been times when like me and other girls have all gotten on the same bed and we're kind of like co-mingling and we're kind of co-touching and then there are men all around us and everybody's getting fucked and you can hear everybody else's noises and you can feel everybody else's energies. That to me is kind of top of the line. Yeah. I love it when I'm on a bed with

with other women. Do you hook up with them or just light touching and stuff? I have hooked up with a couple of them, but not like, but I am by flexible, not really by curious. I can do it. I don't have any problem. I understand the parts. But it's something I'm doing to enhance the moment, not necessarily for my own deep

satisfaction. Do you know what I mean? Yeah, for sure. So that was. It's kind of like when in Rome, you'll go there and stuff, just not to break the flow or anything, but it's not something you're seeking out. But you do like it when the women are there and they're getting fucked as well with you. And they're getting fucked and we're all like, because it's very, it's kind of the same thing that my husband's going through where I understand what they're feeling. Yeah.

Yeah. I understand what they're going through and it's mirror neuron stuff. And it's like what's happening to me is happening over there. And oh my God. And it's just, it's a lot of mental pleasure. It's a lot of physical pleasure. It's a lot of tactile pleasure because there's so many different textures and there's so many different, like, it's just, it's too, there's so much input. Yeah. That it kind of takes you to this higher spot. It's kind of like being on mushrooms almost where your brain is taking in so

much information in so many different directions that it kind of lifts you to this higher place where it becomes more pleasurable and more like slowed down and but at the same time faster. It's it's really hard to explain, but it's fun. No, I think you do a good job of explaining actually. I get why you have a podcast. Does your guy ever, like I mean, typically the answer is no. Like most guys that are into hot wife and could care less about fucking other women. I mean, has it ever come up that?

He, like, does anything at these parties or he ever has an attraction to someone else and wants to do anything, or is this just like the way you guys roll? This is the way we roll. He, he, if he wanted to, he could play with anybody, like, I would not have a problem with him playing with anyone. Right, but he's not. But I'm also, I'm also very protective of him. So I never want anyone to pressure him into doing something. Uh-huh. So for me, that is, I am very protective.

I am very mama bear. I'm like, if you would like to tap me on the shoulder, but I'm going to keep, I'm going to keep them at bay. But has it ever happened? Oh, yeah, somebody, well, no, he's never played with anybody, but there have been people who have, like, approached him. And this one girl, she was, we were at this party and she was so drunk. She should not have been there. Yeah. Because you should never be so drunk that you can't consent.

Exactly. Yeah, you can. So she comes up to him and she was like, you want to fuck me? And like, and then she's pushing him and slapping on his chest. And I'm like, and I mean, my husband has some heart, has some issues health-wise. And I don't ever want him to feel pressured in doing something or even like, I don't like watching him get beat by this woman. So I was like, nope, we're out of here. by, I don't, I'm not going to do that.

I'm not going to put him in a position where he's being man handled. But it sounds like he's never, listen, you guys have been, I'm assuming, because you've been doing this for three years, you go to parties and you do it. Like, it sounds like he's been in places where he could have found women he was attracted to to to do things with and he's got, he could if he wanted to. It just sounds like he's like, like 99.9% of the guys that are into hot wiping, like, not interested and could care less because he's totally sad. Like what gets him off is you with these other guys watching you, right?

Yeah, and he tells me all the time, you are my porn star. Exactly. You are my definition of what is hot and attractive in sex. Right. You are what gets me going. So that to me is just, I mean, that's a gift and a half right there. Yeah, that's how it always is. When I used to have a YouTube channel and I put a lot of the, because some girls that are hot wives aren't like you, they don't really want to see their guy.

And they're very honest about that. You know what I mean? And it's not their fault. They just don't have that. and they feel like maybe they couldn't handle it and they don't want it and but their guy doesn't want it either and people will go mental like oh they're so selfish just like not really they're actually with the perfect person because everyone's fucking happy in this scenario you know I mean my thing is is that I don't care I know he doesn't right and he because he's honest with me about it and if we if he

wanted to be with someone I would expect him to have a conversation with me first right be like hey I found something that I think I'd like to try. And then I would be like, okay, let's do that. I don't have a problem with him wanting to experiment or be with other people or do full swaps, whatever it is. I don't have a problem with it. But he and I would need to discuss it first because that's not the dynamic that we have set in place. And the one thing that you can never do is change up your rules on the fly. Right.

Of course not. But most of the time, like I said, it's just your guy is like, like all the other guys. Exactly. It's not even, it's not, and that's great. But you wouldn't care, though.

Like, if, I mean, if we had the conversation about it, I would not care. For me, it would be like, okay, because I know where he sleeps

every night. Yeah, exactly. You guys are secure. He sleeps with me. He sleeps with me because he loves his life with me. Right. I'm not worried about some

hotci-totsy, 20 year old coming in and like turning his head. I'm not worried about that. But if I were talking to your husband, though, because really, we get why

you don't care about this. You've been down for this from the get-go and you were the more non-Panella one. But like if I were talking to your husband, right, the guy that was cheated on, that was like super jealous, that was sitting in his car in Chile's like really worried about the scenario. Like, you know, what would he say is the biggest change of him like going and facing his fear and turning it into a kink? And like, what, like, you know, what would he say about being able to do that and where he's at now compared to where he was before? He would probably say,

that he is so incredibly fulfilled with my pleasure. He is so incredibly turned on by my pleasure. And then coming home and sinking into that overused pussy is just the most incredibly intoxicating feeling. But he would say he's not just. jealous at all. Like he doesn't have any of those feelings anymore. But he does have jealousy. He does. And it's part of the, it's part of the angst for him. It's part of the turn off. Yeah. But at the same time, I don't give him any reason to be quote unquote jealous that he's going to lose me. No. And that's the important part. Yeah, that's the important part. It's not like jealous with a risk. Like it's jealous in a very safe place. It's kind of like people that are into BDSM. Sometimes they're doing it to work out, you know, trauma from. It's a very safe place. It's kind of like people that are into BDSM. Sometimes they're doing it to work out. You know, trauma from. You know, their past. And if you're doing it in the right way, like, you know, and it's consensual. That's the most healthy way to do it. Yeah. He gets to feel his jealousy that's being triggered

from the past, not being, you know, not because you're not to be trusted. He has the issue, right? It's something that's coming from the past and he's reliving it and turning it into a turn on and then, you know, moving on from there. So I think it's like I said, I always, you know, the first time I ever heard of someone being able to do that was on my show. And I was like, wow, like what a, kind of smart thing. And I do think it's very similar to people who like maybe have had like I said physical trauma in their past and get or get into BDSM and some people will be like oh, that's terrible. It's like no, actually that's like a great thing to do because you're working through what was put on you because what are you supposed to do with it? You know what I mean?

Your guy was cheated on. He has that feeling. It's a terrible thing not to trust. But like how wonderful is it if you could turn that around? Absolutely. And that's always been the way I've looked at people with their kinks. The way I've looked at people with their kinks is that I am, they're working through something with that. They're working through that pain that brought them something or that trauma that their brain has now turned into a fetish because that's how your brain helps you deal with fear. It helps you by putting it into a different light and giving you a different way to approach it so that that way the thing you're scared of isn't something that's haunting you every single day. Yeah, it's just energy. And you're taking that energy that feels really terrible and turning it into

good energy. Yeah, a hot energy. And I was like, wow, you know, I totally get that and think that that's, like, a great thing to do. And a lot, listen, there are some cucks and some stags out there that don't have that as a part of their story, the cheating thing. But a lot of times that is a part of the story. And, you know, I think why not? You know, because like you said, said it's not like your husband has to, it's not real fear. It's fear from the past, right? There's, you're not leaving him. No one's ever going to be better than him. You're there, you know, securely. But that comes up from him because of what his issues are, but he gets to, like, get off on it and he's got all this one. You know what I mean? Like, what better. Yeah. And he

gets to rewire it. And that's, that's fucking beautiful. Totally. And what about you last question? Like, you know, how has it been you getting to, like, sort of, you know, be with all these men. And and not care about, you know, body count and have all these guys like pleasing you and, you know, how has it changed your life? It's made me less worried about the wrapping paper and more worried about the pleasure. It's like I don't worry about my,

I don't worry about my body nearly as much as I used to. Right. I don't. And I mean, I've come to a place in my life where I have run out of fuckbucks. I don't care. I'm sorry, if this is not your cup of tea, then feel free not to drink it. Right.

There are plenty of people who are standing in line. It's fine. We've got others that will take this. We're fine. Move along. So I have been able to come to terms with the fact that you are not going to be all things to every person. Nobody is.

Yeah. You are going to be, somebody is going to find you like what they're looking for. So just you just need to not worry and it will find you. Right. So it helped your, you feel better about yourself. Like you just much better about myself. I feel much better about myself.

And I've heard that for many women who have entered the lifestyle, not just hot wiping, you know, that it could definitely do that because you get that validation. You start to realize like, like I said in the beginning in the real world, like, you know, all the things I think women are much more picky about themselves

than guys are. You know, we think we're projecting that onto them. And they're not like us. They don't look at women the way we look at ourselves. But listen, Teresa, I love the way you describe things. Like, I would love to have you. I do bigger picture episodes sometimes too. So we'll have you back on to do like a bigger picture topic, hot wiping scenario.

That would be amazing. I could tell you're like my kind of vibe. You like to like really analyze. I think you explain things really well. I just wanted to get your whole backstory on this episode, right? So I was like pushing you more for that. but I really would love to talk to you further again in the future. We'll do another episode to do like on hot wiping and stuff because I could tell that,

you know, you're down to wrap about it. Why don't you give a shout out to your podcast. I'm going to put a link in the description. If you could send me some picks for my Patreon, that would be great. I mean, you know, anonymous ones.

I'll have them there, but give your shout out to all your things so people who go find you. Okay. I am Pineapple Pinup Pod at Gmail.com. I am the pineapple pinup, the hot wife swinger life. It is on Spotify and all the platforms. And then it is, and then I think, I can't remember what my, what my Instagram is right now. But I'm going to open that up.

So we'll get to that later. You don't have to do that one right now. Well, you'll have the link in the description. It's pineapple pinup podcast. It's pineapple banana podcast is your Instagram. So I will put a link to your. your podcast in the description, right? So send me that, send me some picks. And we'll definitely have you back on. We'll do bigger picture. It'll be fun. Because I love that'll be amazing,

content on that. And now that I have your life story, we could like talk about other things. Perfect. That sounds amazing. This was super fun. Thanks for calling in, Teresa. This was fun. Thank you. Have a great one. You too. Bye. Bye. Okay. I just want to tell you before you go that my book, it's called Strictly Anonymous Confession. Secret Sex Lives of Total Strangers is now available. not only in paperback and e-book, but you can pre-order the audiobook. It's still not going to be out until August 25th, but you can pre-order it. The book is basically 17 different stories taken from my show.

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