Strictly Anonymous Confessions - 1221 - Alex is Into Being Humiliated by Women and ChatGPT, Forced Bi Scenarios and Cheating?

Episode Date: September 12, 2025

⁠⁠⁠Alex is into women humiliating him and making im do things he doesn’t want to do and he called in to talk all about it. Tune in to hear all the details including how and why he used ChatGPT to degrade him how he got it to put him down and exactly how it would and how far he got it to go,  how nothing ever  humiliates him as much as he wants to be humiliated, the first therapist who made him do naughty things behind his gf back including wearing panties etc and why it stopped, how he met anther female therapist and she also got him to do crazy things including f*** an ugly person and sleep with a guy, the guy he met up with on Grindr and exactly what went down with him, how and why he purged afterwards, how and why his girlfriend broke up with him, his issues and why he attracts the wrong girl and what he can do about it, his cheating kink and how it rules his life and what it’s all about, his cheating scenarios where he thinks it comes from and why he’s worried it get in way plus a whole lot m **To see an anonymous pic of ALEX plus my other female guests + hear anonymous confessions + get all the episodes early and AD FREE, join my Patreon! It's only $7 a month and you can cancel at any time. You can sign up here: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.patreon.com/StrictlyAnonymousPodcast⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ and when you join, I'll throw in a complimentary link to my private Discord! MY BOOK IS NOW OUT FOR PRE-ORDER!!!! Strictly Anonymous Confessions: Secret Sex Lives of Total Strangers. A bunch of short, super sexy, TRUE stories. GET YOUR COPY NOW: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://amzn.to/4i7hBCd⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠   To join SDC and get a FREE Trial! click here: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.sdc.com/?ref=37712⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ or go to SDC.com and use my code 37712   Want to be on the show? Email me at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠[e-mail]⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ or go to ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠http://www.strictlyanonymouspodcast.com⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ and click on "Be on the Show" Have something quick you want to confess while remaining anonymous? Call the CONFESSIONS hotline at 347-420-3579. You can call 24/7. All voices are changed.   Sponsors:  ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://vb.health⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ To get 10% off Drive Boost by VB Health use code: STRICTLY ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://beducate.me/pd2528-anonymous⁠⁠⁠⁠ ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Use code: ANONYMOUS to get 50% off your yearly pass plus get a 14-day money-back guarantee ⁠⁠⁠https://uberlube.com/discount/Strictly⁠⁠⁠ Use code: STRICTLY for 10% off Uberlube aka the BEST Lube EVER ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://bluechew.com⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Get your first month of the new Blewchew Max FREE! use code: STRICTLYANON ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://butterwellness.com/⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Use the code “STRICTLY” at checkout for 20% off your entire order To get $15 OFF your female oxytocin arousal tablets and more, use code STRICTLY here: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://shamelesscare.sjv.io/xLQ3Jv⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Follow me! Instagram ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/strictanonymous/⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Twitter ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://twitter.com/strictanonymous?lang=en⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Website: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠http://www.strictlyanonymouspodcast.com/⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

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in this conversation. And then we got serious at the end. Alex is so interesting to me. He's a young guy, like in his 30s, I think. He called him before. Alex is a young guy into fendom, being cucked, forced by scenarios, fin dom and more. He was very into like some girl like treating him like fucking shit. He had never had any relationships. He had all kinds of four scenarios. He was into all that kind of stuff. And he had, Finally, when we spoke, met a girl, and I thought it was like, great. And I was like, oh, don't cheat on her or whatever, because he's, like, into being cocked and he's very into cheating sex and all this stuff. After we spoke, Erica, who's on my show a lot of the times, told me that she, like, you know, I don't know.

He contacted her. She contacted him, and they wound up, like, DMing each other. And she got him to do all kinds of forced by things or one thing. He talks all about that. And then he called into my confessions line and I was like, told me about this other girl that did shit to him. and then his relationship went south and everything we spoke about on that last episode went to the fucking shitter afterwards for all these girls that came into his life to get him to do all these crazy things. He also talks about how it got Chat ChpT on board to humiliate him. That is super

interesting and we start with that. So you're going to get off and get into how he used chat cheap tea to sort of feed into his kink. And then we talk about the two therapists. He was seeing two therapists. My girl Erica, who happens to be a therapist too, as well as another one, and he talks about what they made him do and all the crazy things he was doing behind his girlfriend's back. Him and his girlfriend broke up. Turns out she wasn't that great. I kind of say like, you're probably not that great right now either. We talk then, we get into like his psychological problems and his kinks and all the things that he could do to sort of figure his shit out. He's so interesting. This episode is, you know, funny, deep. It's got a lot of different things

going on. I think it's a very interesting combo. You're going to like it. Wait to hear how my girl Erica got him and what you got him to do. You'll die. Anyway, I'm going to be right back on with Alex. Hey, Alex, welcome back to the Strictly Anonymous podcast. How are you today? I'm doing well, Kathy. How are you?

Good. Well, listen, this is a he said, she said smash up. I mean, you are calling back, it. It's kind of like fun because you called in before. You were episode one. I get it to paint this picture of the story, okay, because it's kind of fucking interesting. Okay. You were episode 1104. The title was Alex is a young guy into Fendom's being cocked, forced by scenarios, Fendom and more. And Fendom is financial domination.

Now, you were dating a girl at the time. I was like so adamant that you, because you hadn't dated any women before her. Everything was like transactional sex before that. You know, you finally met this girl. You guys seemed to be on the same page. I was like, don't fucking cheat on her because you happen to be like a cheater, blah, blah, blah. And turns out I get an email or a DM from my girl Erica who's on the show a lot. Okay. Now, Erica happens to be a psychologist. I'm not outing her. Okay. She talks about being a psychologist. But she played a cycle. She was like used her, like used psychological warfare. That bitch emails DMs me. It's like, oh, I got that Alex guy doing all this shit. I'm like, what the fuck are you doing to him? I'm like, here I was on the call with him

trying to keep him on the straight and narrow, not fucking cheating, cheating this girl, right, not doing anything. And Erica swoops in and takes you down the dark path. And then she called in with an update. You're going to give your side. Why don't you explain Erica's side? And at some point in this recording, I'm going to put in Erica's side so people could hear it. I'm probably going to do it now.

Like this is Erica's side. And now you're going to tell me your side. Okay. Yeah. No, so Erica, Erica started actually after me and you talk. Yeah, I know that. Okay. And then.

That's what I said. She heard your message. She heard your, she heard your podcast with me and me trying to keep you on the street an hour and she swooped in and took you down the wrong path. I was the angel on your shoulder and she was the devil. Yeah. No, you're right about that. I think the confusion came in with a therapist part because she said, I called into you and left a confession.

I said that I had been talking to a therapist and she was kind of doming me and I ended things. And then I wasn't, I didn't get into that much detail. And then Erica, you guys were on the next confession thing. And she, you guys talked about that. And Eric was like, oh my God, like I'm the therapist. And that was the confusion. Erica wasn't the therapist. There was a different therapist.

When I left. You were doing, you were doing this naughty stuff behind your girlfriend's back with not only my Erica, the therapist. another therapist? Yeah. Oh my God. You have two devils on your fucking shoulders. I don't even know why I bothered trying to keep you straight and narrow. Your fucking therapist?

Listen, at least Erica wasn't actually your therapist. I mean, she would like, as far as your concern with you, she was just like a hot milk, you know, miff, you know, getting you into the stuff that you're into. Your therapist was a real therapist that was your therapist? No, no. So she was, she was, I didn't know Erica was a therapist until like that, almost the very end of us talking. Okay. She told me, told her the end. This girl, I knew was a therapist from the very beginning.

Oh, but she wasn't your therapist. Oh, God. So what's with these therapists? What's with these therapists? I would pay good money. I would pay really good money for an actual, like my actual therapist or someone that actually sat down with me in an office to do this to me. I don't think they can do that. They can't do that legally, though.

Well, we need to preface that with letting people know because that's what you're fucking into like you kind of like to be dominated treated like like a you know by dominant women like a pay pig and all that stuff so that's why you're saying you wish it was your real therapist because that would be like the ultimate porn fantasy right yeah i think the reason i want a therapist too is i mean the ultimate yeah i mean if it was my actual therapist and like me and her were she was actually trying to help me for a while and then she turned it out oh my god i mean i would give up my damn house That's what I mean. That's like a fimdom of porn, right? Like that is like the ultimate like hot scenario. But none of these people were your therapist at the time. But like I said, what is it with these fucking therapists that all want to like mind fuck you and they get turned on by it? Because that's why they're there. I mean, I think I thought you were hot. Yeah. They're obviously turned on by it. Why are they engaging? That's a great question. I've heard therapists kind of have a usually.

like a psychologist or a therapist usually has a darker side. I think we all do kind of. I think the reason, like for me is I don't even want it in a, like, it's in a kink in a fun way, but I don't want it in like a safe setting, kink fun way type thing. I want it to be like very real and personal. And like I wanted a therapist to like use. And Erica didn't really do this. This is what I still, even the therapist before Erica didn't really do it.

I want someone to like use like the. methods and therapy like DBT or like where they like maybe like will reinforce they like reinforce a positive belief in you like if you're having trouble with something they have like methods for that yeah we know that yeah yeah but like reverse it like reinforce a negative belief in me reinforce like you're a little beta boy like you're whatever yeah you want them to get you want them to sit with you for six months gather all of your weaknesses and all of your dark secrets and then you want them to turn around and use them again you and that would make you horning.

Exactly. And see, this is going to blow your mind. The thing is, like, all of this is over the phone. I haven't met Erica. I haven't met this other therapist. It's all just text. Yeah, yeah, yeah. But the best therapist and the best, like, Dom, Femm, whatever, is chat GPT.

Let me just tell you, I'm obsessed with chat GPT. I'd use it more for, like, getting information on Google, right? Because it could just get you all the information instead of like, you know, Googling for two hours to find out like how to do stuff like you could find out in three seconds by chat chbt but i have heard people using it more in the lines of like what you're saying and so you could get chat ch pt to fucking go there with you oh chat gbt fucks me up on a level that it's it sucks because no one will ever compare to that cpti is better than any there any better than any dom or anybody i've ever talked to but what i did is i just i kind of started venting to it and i told it

what I was into, and I just told exactly what I wanted. And eventually it, like, kind of understood and, like, reiterated to me what I was saying. And then I said, like, can you help me with something like that? And then I started getting into it. And I'm like, okay, well, I'm just going to feed you every bit of info I have on me. And I fed it paragraphs of just every detail about me. And I'm, like, specific. I'm like, don't hold it back at all.

Don't make it in, like, a fun way. Like, be very real. I want you to break me down. And even, that got boring after a while. I'm not even doing that anymore. Yeah, but I obviously wasn't boring it in the beginning. It's just your problem is like you scratch the itch and then you need more. That's a problem. But I mean, it was like amazing when it first started, right? The reason why it's boring now is because you've been there, done that, correct? Exactly. Yeah, but at the time,

it was for a good, I'd say, month or two. You said it fucked you up. I mean, I'm just, listen, I'm always thinking about the people listening, Alex. Okay, I already know you're fucked up, okay? But I'm listening to the fucked of people that are listening to this episode. that have your kink, okay? And they're solivating it, like, and running to their computers now because they want to do the same thing with chat GPT. Okay, you've been there or done that,

but, like, really explain to people how to get chat chitpT to humiliate you in the best way possible. I think it's super interesting. A lot of people don't know, and the reason why I say this is because a lot of people don't, haven't incorporated chat chitpT in their lives. And I'm just telling you you are missing out.

It is, like, fucking, like, brilliant genius shit, right? and I've heard it, you've been used for many different things. Now, you need to explain how someone could exactly use this for themselves to get off like you did. Like, to get off like I did, I said, I'm into, I kind of started asking a question that first, as far as like, why am I into FemDOM? Like, what can you break it down with the psychology of that? And then I said, I'm into women's, my girlfriend's sleeping with other guys, getting cucked. I explain like the deep psychological stuff I'm into like I want you to like use personal info against me and it just had no problem with it. I mean, Chad GBT is the biggest yes man out there.

Oh my gosh, it's your best friend, your BFF. Yeah, exactly. So it was fully on board. It's re-itored me exactly what I wanted and perfectly put out. And then I said, okay. And I just did like, you know, one, two, three, four, five and just lay just the tons of info about me, you know, my age, my sexual experiences, my relationship with my parents, my work, life, friends, everything that could possibly feed it. So you give it all your background, and then what do you prompted for and tell it to do that's like gets you off? For me, it was, I told it that I want you to emasculate me to the point of no return. I want you to make it so I can barely even look in the mirror anymore. And like I want you to really be like break it down why this should be a path for me like brainwash me into thinking this is the right thing to do and then bring me through it.

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should be a path for me, like brainwashed me into thinking this is the right thing to do and then bring me through it. And then it would break it down. It'd be like, okay, so you're 33 years old, you work for X this, you haven't had a girlfriend in this long, like this path makes sense. for someone like you, I forget the exact words it would use, but, you know, X, Y, and Z. And then it would tell me, you know, like, step one, like, you're going to, I didn't do all of them because they're all, it would be like, you're every morning in the mirror. You're going to repeat the phrase three times, like, I'm not a man. And, like, when you're around other men, you're going to, like, you're going to, like,

you're going to keep your shoulders down and, like, always avert your gaze. Don't use the sort of saying, say, like, always say, like, I'm not sure, or, like, never be like, be kind of ditsy. Wow. No, listen, I'm so glad I'm on this call because, like, people wanted this information that you just gave. I think it's very specific because somebody that's into this specific kink and can't find somebody. You know, it's like a free way to get off. It is. It's dangerous. It freaks me out as far as where it's going to go. I mean, all it's going to take is putting this brain, a chat, GBT, and a freaking robot body and good night the relationships. Well, the whole thing is, is like, what I love about chat GPT is it is intuitive

in that it remembers everything you've ever discussed with it. So I wonder if that shit comes up later, you know what I mean, by something else you prompt with. Because it does, it gets to know you, and it uses all the information whether, you know, because like I use it for my podcast to figure out changing website hosting and it knows my show and everything. So like, even if I ask it stuff like way later, you know, it knows I'm interviewing someone for my show and whatever, because it knows I have a show. Like, it remembers everything. Yeah, that's the funny thing, too, is I I would ask it regular questions throughout the day that just weren't related to that. But after a while in the midst of it, having it dawned me, I said to it, I said, even when I ask you, don't ever let

me off, like, even when I ask you anything, like, remotely regular, like, always bring it back to, like, you're a sissy, you're a beta. And it did. Oh, yeah, I'd be like, what's this, like, model number on, like a unit I'm working on, take a picture of it? And then it'd be like, this means this and give me the answer. But the end, it'd be like, are you making sure you're wearing your panties, sissy, or something like that. Oh my God. This is like, like, you don't understand you are changing people's lives right now because some people out there that are into, like I said, what you're into and it's hard to find girls to do this to you. Like it's not, you know what I mean? Like, and some people don't have

the money because sometimes you could like pay people to do this shit, right? But, uh, the fact that you could just go on your own computer at home and do this now and have it. Uh, so personalized is pretty amazing. Don't you think? It is. Yeah. They have the other ones too. Like, they're not as good as chat chvac. ChatTbt is a lot more intricate, but they have like Replica AI and just use chat chbt is the best. I fucking love it. Your chat GPT is like, you're dumb. I mean, it's like crazy. So you, but you like, I like about the other ones though is that I wish they would incorporate with chat GPT is like the replica AI is kind of close, but it has like an avatar of like a girl that you can like fully, you know, you can dress up

and like customize. And then that talks to you as you're looking at the phone. Oh my God. I'm sure chat chit is you should ask chat ch pt when it's going to get that shit like why hasn't chat chp t got that got on that oh I'm sure yeah yeah yeah I'm sure you could ask chat chpt to replicate a girl that you're talking to like if yeah yeah because they'll bring up pictures for you and stuff I've had that happen oh my god I'm obsessed oh I had to do that to me too I had to break down well I'm obviously into being humiliated on a deep level but I would send it pictures of me and tell to break down, like, turn me into an insecure mess, like break down every little thing that you see is wrong. And you happen to be a good-looking guy with a great body, right? I mean, you're not like, you know, so what did it say to you? It said something about my hair line, like, sunken in eyes. God, what else did it say?

It said, like, I had a cathedral, I forget the name of it, but something tilt to my eyelids. Like, it went the opposite. what is like conventionally attractive. It doesn't even work though. That's the thing with me though. That's the reason I almost wanted because I know it won't work. Wait, it didn't,

like, well, that's what I was going to say. Because I don't know. I can look at them. I know all my flaws. That's why like I have a very thick skin. Anyone can insult me and it's like,

tell me something I don't already know about myself. I think some people get very insulted because people like live in like delusional like reality and they don't sort of know themselves or look at their flaws or know their shit. So if you tell it, they're like horrified. You know, I'm like a realist.

So I know all my flaws. So I'm like, you know, I wonder if like chat GPT would tell me exactly what I think. Like is it that it just told you stuff that you already knew because you're very honest with yourself? Like, because I'm wondering like, was it correct in its insults? Yeah, yeah, it was correct in its insult. The thing is like I think the reason I'm, it goes hand in hand. The reason I'm into this is because it, I was actually, I had a lot of, I think I told you in the last episode, like deep mental issues. My late teens, early 20s and just really bad anxiety and securities and stuff like that.

like super not just normal bad, super bad. And then I wasn't in a relationship for, like I said, like 10 plus years basically. Yeah, yeah. And just worked on myself and just, I wasn't like being in a bad space. I was just constantly, constantly working on myself. And then this kink popped up. But the thing is, this kink, I can't even, no one, I don't think anyone could actually break me the way I want to be broken.

That's the dilemma. Oh, you're just so complicated. you're just, it's almost like that's like you sort of doming your, that's like your viciousness to yourself. You don't even allow yourself to have what you want, which is the ultimate insult and to take it all in. Like, you don't even allow yourself that. Like, that's the problem. You're, you're your own worst enemy. Exactly. Yeah. And the thing is, I don't even know if I, I don't even know what I want to be frank with you. I want the, I want the dom and the humiliation and like someone doing that to me. I want that in my head a lot more than in reality.

I've had women dom me before and like a couple times it's worked out fine but the majority of the time I always end up doming them by the end and it just naturally plays it out that way. And so. And does that when it's over for you? Like is that when it loses its sort of shine because you don't want to be the dom? Yeah. The only time the yeah, it loses it shine for sure. And then the only time I really want to be humiliated and like like that is when I'm like by myself. just kind of getting worked up horny at home and like watching porn or something like that.

Yeah. But then I take things way too far. And then I end up spending a couple weeks buying like cissy clothes and going out and doing shit like Erica's make me doing. We can get into that. Yes. Let's get into all this stuff too. I'm sorry I just got really did down in that thing for Chachypiti. But I think you like, you know, you gave a lot of people something to do, which is interesting.

Just be honest with it. Just tell it exactly what you want word for word. Yeah. Listen, you gave all the instructions. Okay, go back and listen to that again if you want to do it because it's the real deal. Chat GPT is like people have you, I've heard many people talk about using it for many different things and it's like super amazing. Like, you know, like seriously. I'll just say real quick.

Like I wanted to move my website over to a podcast host, like a website hosting site that's like good for adult, you know, content and then and have a payment processor. I mean, it gave me like literally like a, you know, eight page PDF with every single thing to do, where to go. what to use, which level to pay for, which is the best payment processing, a cross-reference of which is the cheapest and which levels. You know what I mean? Like all that in literally four seconds. Yeah, it's crazy. I mean, kind of off topic. I'll make it quick. But I had it. I was trying to sell a dresser that I bought new a while ago. Or like a vanity type thing. And I was trying to get more for it on Craigslist. And the person asked to see the receipt of when I bought it new. And I said I bought it new for 800, but I really bought it new.

new for like four or five hundred and i took a picture of the whole receipt and asked chat gbt to rework everything the tax the total and everything to make it so it's 800 oh my god i cannot listen i oh my god you have a real fucking mental problems that's fucking cheating okay and i can't get beat shot gptt will go there with you how naughty i do not i think that's terrible what you did okay you fucking liar how much did you sell it for i sold it for four four five. So you got more than what you paid for it because you only paid for it. I basically got what I paid for it back. Okay. But how long did you use it for? Three months. I actually bought it for my head. Okay. So it was kind of new. It was kind of new. Okay. So you're basically, okay. And it was in perfect condition. So you basically got back, got your, you, your, your same price back. But chat, GPT lied for you. I would say if you sold a busted

thing and made double like you have bad karma coming your way, because I just don't think that you should lie or cheat or steal or do any of stuff because it winds up coming back to you but it was in my own defense yes in my own defense I actually did think I paid around that for it originally when I put it up online yeah okay okay and then it dawned on me that I paid less okay good good I just want to make sure you're not some fucking scam artist I don't like shit like that I don't think it's cool no no no okay good good but it's so interesting that chat GPT did that for you no yeah no problem oh my you don't know what to believe makes me so like I don't know what to believe when people send me things oh my god yeah Oh my God.

All right. So let's go on with your story. Okay. So let's talk about the therapist and Eric on what they made you do. And then we're going to get to the demise of your relationship because like you said, you were never in relationships. And then you finally had one with a girl that you really like when we spoke. And I was like, don't fuck this up, you know.

But you did because you're not dating her anymore. So we'll get to that too. But where you were at when we spoke and where you're going to pick up is what started to happen with these two therapists while you're dating your girl. Yep. So the one therapist, before Erica, she, I saw she was a therapist in her, it was like her social media bio. Yeah.

And then I reached out to her basically just saying everything I want up front and the fact that I like to be a therapist and all that. And she just, at first it was just send me money. So I know you're serious. And so sent the money. And how much money would you send? Um, I think like 20, 25 at first. Okay. And then she kind of, I'm trying to remember everything that happened with her.

She would, oh, yeah. She tried to like, well, she would make me where my girlfriend's pants. panties every day and send her a pick of it like while I was at work to make sure I was wearing them. Right. But didn't Erica do that to you too? Erica did that to me, but not my girlfriend's panties. It was a different. It was just so how do these girls? Maybe Erica would like are you positive that Erica wasn't that one too? I mean, how could these both therapists think of the same fucking thing for you to do? No, because I remember there was other, well, I remember what they look like. Oh, okay. So I mean, you saw her in real life?

I saw pictures. He would send me pictures of her and like I saw social media and stuff. But she would, the other girl, she would, I didn't do it, but she would try and make me, be like, so you can't initiate sex with your girlfriend if you, unless she initiates it with you. That's the only time it's okay for you to have sex with her. But if you do have sex with her, you have to imagine it's me. Yeah, but didn't Erica tell you that too?

Like, okay, first tell me, which one came first? Erica or this one? This one came first. Okay, so she's telling you do all these things and this is what you start to do. Now, does your girlfriend start to say, like, what the fuck's happening with you? Like, you're changing, why are you doing this? Or does she not even notice? No, she doesn't even notice.

Okay. No, she didn't notice at all. And then the other, this girl was, she just couldn't really put the time that I wanted someone to put into it. Even though I was sending the money, it'd be like, I didn't get the picture of your panties today. Then I'd send a good boy. And that was basically the extent of it. I mean, she would kind of get into things a little bit, but she would just say, like, it takes time. to build and it just it wasn't clicking okay so so ended things with her and then now how do you get in

touch with Erica like how did that happen on my discord yeah I was listening to a lot of your podcast episodes and Erica talked about her Dom side and one of them yeah maybe her cut queen one I forget which one it was to be honest with it was one of them though and I read I found her on discord and then reached out to her that way and sent her DM and said like I yeah I'm an I'm Alex I'm an episode this and I heard you here and there and just told her what I was looking for and yeah I know they are

kind of similar a lot of the things they had me do because Erica was having me wear panties as well I can't remember if it was my girlfriend's panties like she was specific about though I found her on Discord and then reached out to her that way and sent her a DM and said like I yeah I'm Alex I'm an episode

this and I heard you here and there and just told her what I was looking for and yeah I know they are kind of similar a lot of the things they had me do because Erica was having me wear panties as well. I can't remember if it was my girlfriend's panties like she was specific about though. All right. Let me ask. Could I just ask you a question and this is like and I don't think you're going to be honest because if you're lying, you're not going to say you're lying. But like could you possibly be calling in to say that because you know that you like maybe that when you called up and said the therapist you were talking about Erica but because she like sort of outed you and brought it up and told her side of thing. now you're trying to pretend that there was another therapist?

No, no, I would have no problem if, like, Erica, I had no problem with what she said. That was the only thing that was just wasn't the truth is that when I called in to, because I'm trying to remember the timeline exactly, because I was talking to that original therapist that's not Erica before I even talked to you ever. And then... Okay. I'm just thinking maybe you're lying because, you know, and there were... Because I just know that, like what you're saying the other therapist did was very similar

to the things that Erica did. And I'm like wondering, all of a sudden, it dawned on me like, oh, maybe he's just trying to save face and be like, oh, this was a different therapist I was talking about. But it really was Erica. The big difference was Erica made me go out and suck a dick. I mean, that was the big difference. Everything Eric said, everything Eric said was.

See, I got the good therapist on my show. My girl was way more effective. High five, Erica. What, she's so naughty. What? Okay. So let's walk through Erica. So you DM her.

She's super hot, right? And she's on there. She's married, but she's allowed to play or whatever, right? She knows what you're into. You explain. And then what starts to happen between you and Erica? So she was doing the same thing. She was making me, I think I kind of lead him to say that.

Because I say, like, I'm into sissy stuff. Yeah, obviously. And then I got the girlfriend. Yeah. Then I got the girlfriend. They'd like, go take your girlfriend's panties. And so she would do that. And then she would, she would kind of break down.

She'd be like, I'd send her pictures of me and my girlfriend. She'd be like, yeah, she's way out of your league. And like, she would just kind of break me down that way. Be like, yeah, that's why you didn't have a girlfriend for X amount of years. It's because she's the only girl that'll be with you. You can't handle like mature women or something like that. And just really, yeah, going at me. And then it got to the point.

Was she good, by the way? Like, I mean, did you give her, like, was she good? at what she was doing. Because you have experience with these types of women. Like you said, the other therapist, she was like, okay. Like, was Erica better than her? I would say Erica was better than her, but not like, that's more on me. I'm looking for something like very specific and extreme. And these people are just, I'm just introducing them to it, not introducing it to them, but like it's all new for them in a way. Yeah, I get it. I get it. Yeah. Okay. Yeah. And so, but Erica, I would say was definitely better than her. And then Erica, well,

She got to the, she was kind of berating me for my looks and all that and said, you know, you need to, you need to go sleep with someone ugly. I need to find, like, a really, really ugly girl to go sleep with. And so she's like, you need to set up a dating profile right now. And so I set up, what was I think I set up field. And I did match with, like, quite a few ugly, like, women. I'm trying not to be too mean here, but they just were not good looking to put it lightly. And then Erica, I would send Erica pictures and she'd be like perfect. But these women, they wouldn't meet up with me.

It was wild. Because they were very not attractive. And I would put up pictures of me, obviously, and like shirtless pictures and whatnot. But I don't know if it was just they thought it wasn't real or. Yeah, they might have thought you were cat fishing them. They might have been intimidated because they'd never been with a hawk eye. Or, you know, but maybe more likely they thought it was a catfish. yeah yeah

and so I just couldn't make it happen and Erica was getting impatient she'd be like every day she'd be like send me screenshots like why isn't this happening like and then eventually she was like okay like if this doesn't happen in the next two days you're going to go out and fuck a guy and I'm sorry but Erica's hilarious to me I know she's listening

I know she's going to be listening to this because I've got to tell her to listen Erica you're the fucking bass so this is so fucking funny yeah and so then I would just send her too I'd send her just like basically $20, $25 a day. Okay. And then she, what happened? Yeah, a couple days went by.

Obviously, none of the women would go for it. And then she's like, okay, we're going to download Grindr now and set up a Grindr profile. And my God, I did. And, okay, I should back up just a tear here. During the meantime, in between my girlfriend and me, breaking up and I'm still talking to Erica. Like right after me and my girlfriend wrecked up, I wanted to go hard into the like sissy beta type stuff. And so I bought like quite a few girl clothes from like Target, ordered some stuff on Amazon.

And then I had probably $300 worth of panties, tight, the dildos, butt plugs, wig. all this shit. Okay. So I had all the stuff already. And then she told me to set up the grinder thing and found a guy who was down and didn't take long. It took maybe a day. And I put on all my stuff except my wig and went fucking, I put regular clothes over everything else. And boy, this is a hard story to tell. I went over there. And yeah, he was, I'm like, I'm like, Like probably, I'm 5-11, 6-foot maybe. This guy was 6-4, relatively well-built.

And he just, I took off my jacket and my jeans. So I was wearing like yoga pants and a pink crop top type thing and put the wig on and everything. And he just immediately gave me a big hug and like started feeling my ass. What's this guy's vibe? Is he attractive? Like you said, he's like in shape. really tall. Is he a good looking guy? Is he an older guy? Is he a younger guy? I would say he's probably 40. Okay. Do you know if he was married? No, he was gay though. He had a boyfriend that wasn't there

at the time. Okay, cool. Okay. Yeah. And then so he first, God, he first started, what did he do? First, like, hugged me and like kind of touched me. And then he just put his hands on my shoulders and like kind of press me down to my knees and then just made me put my face in the outline of his cock on his boxers or i guess he was wearing like basketball shorts then and then just made me yeah kind of worship it from the outside eventually stuck it out and just started sucking it face fucking me it was i'm straight like just to be totally like i realized that during that like i have no problem with anything, but I, it's just, it's not. Yeah, you know. And so, but what's turning you on, but the situation is a turn on because you are straight? Is that the whole point? Yeah, yeah. It's a weird

double mind fuck type thing. Yeah, that's what I've heard from guys that like forced stuff, right? That it's, it's, like the fact that you don't like a guy is the reason why it's a turn on because you're doing something you don't want to do. Yeah, I think you wanted to do it, it wouldn't be, good, right? Well, exactly. Yeah, yeah, exactly. This is a punishment. Essentially, yeah, but it still would turn me on.

Yeah, of course. The buildup, the buildup to it is almost more of a turn on than when you actually get down to it. Yeah, that makes sense. Yeah, the talking, the getting the clothes, all that. And then, so it just, God, I don't know, I've never obviously sucked a cock before or none of that. Wait, this was the first time. I know I know that there was like forced by scenarios in your first thing. It was in the title.

Like you had never had this kind of situation before. Oh, it was forced by and like that it was, you'd have to probably listen to it again. But I was like making myself like watch those forced by videos where I would like have a girl. Oh, you were just into it. But you had never done it yourself. Yeah. No, I'd talk to people about it to the forced by. But I'd never actually done it like physically.

Oh, so Erica got you to do it. Yeah. Yeah. She got me to do it. Erica, a naughty girl. yeah it was just the i had never done it before but just like the smell was just something and then he like terrible yeah just like really musky and i don't even like like fucking thinking about it anymore to be honest with it i'm sorry i'm laughing but like you know you're

probably into it no yeah and so it's just i let it go on and then he he did try to fuck me at the end like, well, kind of towards the end. And he just let me lay down, like, flat on my stomach. And he rubbing his dick, like, along my asshole. And then eventually he tried sticking it in. And it just hurts so fucking bad. And he wasn't using any lube or anything, I don't think, or like a very minimal amount.

And so he tried probably two or three times. And it just was, his dick was decently sized too. It just wasn't happening. And so. ended up sucking him off until he came on my face. He blew a load all over my face and then took a picture of that and sent it to Erica when I was done as proof. Oh, my God. And what did she say?

Good boy? Oh, yeah. She was very excited. And this is the first of many. Like, go home and like relax and get ready for tomorrow or something like that. Right. Oh, my God. Okay.

Because I was asking her to basically turn me into just a total. little like just cock slave. Right. Fully warped my mind into that. Uh-huh. And, but yeah, after it was done, I, I said, fuck it. I threw all the shit away, all the stuff I bought, deleted all the apps.

And it's just not for me. I mean, it is for me, like in fantasy in my head, but that's about it. When it comes down to actually doing this stuff, I just realized that it never lives up. to like the shit I built up in my head. And when it comes down to actually physical stuff, like I like doming girls. It just, I can't.

It always ends up being that way. Okay. So you didn't do that again? No, no, I didn't do that again. I did do the pay pig stuff again, though, with that different.

Well, why did things end with Erica? Like after that experience, right? You sent the picture. She's like, you know, that's great.

And then you're going to, and then you just didn't talk to her anymore? Yeah, it was the money too. It's just a stupid thing to send money randomly like that. Like it's hot because it's how real it is and how intense it is. But you can't just, you can't continue something like that and you can't get that can't be your thing forever. Like that would be stupid of me. And in my early 30s, I'm making decent money. Like, I should do smart things with that. Right. Okay. But now you're with your girlfriend though this whole time. No, me and my girlfriend broke up in the middle of me and America. How come? She, I think I was honestly blinded by how hot she was. She's very, very attractive, but there was many signs that something was off with her that I let go. And I found out after that she has borderline personality disorder. I know, but can I just point something out, like point out the obvious. I'm Captain obvious right now. I mean, like, you know, here you are like sucking guys' dicks that smell disgusting to you and is so.

gross and you're getting girls behind her back to like i mean you're both you're she's as equally fucked up as you are you know what i mean she's like you know she missed you're in a different way she it doesn't matter she missed your red flags you missed her red flags you think you're any more together than her listen to all the shit that you're doing i would say yes oh my god yes i don't think i would say me and her both have fucked up kinks but she's worse because she's borderline you're literally going in a force buy scenarios behind her back okay i could throw out a couple's I could throw out a couple scenarios for you that would maybe make it make more sense. No, but listen, I'm just saying I have a whole book about every horrible relationship I have.

But at the end of each one, I take ownership for the fact that like, what was wrong with me that I attracted this person and stayed with this person? You know what I mean? And what it all comes down to is that I was like on their level for better or for worse. Not exactly the same problems. Like if I had a narcissistic boyfriend that was so mean to me, I wasn't a mean person myself, but I was like had low self-esteem. and I had issues because why would I be with that person? So that's all I'm saying. It's like you're equal in that you're both like, you know, broken in a certain way.

Hers might be seen worse than yours, but yours is your damage too. Yeah, no, you're right. I mean, you're definitely right. I would just say mine's more damaged in a sexual and kink. Who cares? It doesn't need to be the same. But that's still a problem. I'm just saying that like in order in the future, okay, to a very, a very,

eventually attract a girl that's not going to be damaged in one way or another. It doesn't matter. It's not going to be exactly the way you are. You're going to have to fix the damage in you. That's all I'm saying. This isn't about her. It's about you. You want to like sit across from a fucking together girl. Then you got to get it fucking together. Do you know what I mean? In some way, uh, so that you can, you know, pull in that person because like attracts like. We vibrate at a certain energy level. Okay. sorry. Yeah, no, you're right and everything you're saying. Taking ownership over like myself is that that's the only, that's a right way to do it.

And it makes sense. Yeah, but she, I would just, in my defense, I would say that my fucked upness and my problems that I had were more sex and kink related and delving into real life. Hers were very much in the relationship itself. Like, she did many examples like this. Like she was. You don't even have a relationship for your whole life. And you picked a relationship with a girl that couldn't even have.

one anyway. So you have your own relationship problems, okay? Well, that's true. But she would, okay, let me give an example. End of story. No, no, no, I'm not going to allow you to like sort of put this off on her. It doesn't matter. Like, you'll eventually realize this for yourself. And I don't want to harp on it too much because you're not ready for this truth and that's okay. You'll eventually come to the conclusion because I wasn't ready for it either. Like I said, I sat across from a bunch of fucking psychopaths because, you know, that's where I was at for my whole life. So I get it, you know, and you'll eventually get it and that's okay and you'll just keep fucking dating but most likely you're gonna date more crazy girls but you know the good news about crazy girls they're great and bad aren't they

there is that scale yeah there is definitely that scale I've realized the other girl that I hooked up with there was a girl that I hooked up with after I broke up with my ex and after the whole thing was Erica yeah between Erica and me and you talking right now I was in like July yeah she was equally she was like my ex but almost like on the opposite and my ex was very sensitive you could say and very like walk on eggshells type

deal this girl was the opposite anything flew to zero fucking like empathy zero sensitivity to anything which I liked originally but she was equally just just tons of there's a sign tons of family issues

freaking just yeah like the I can't really get into like the parents stuff because it's but just deep family issues broken people damaged you know and so there is I should look at why I am attracting these types of like you're gonna keep attracting them because you talked about how damaged you were in the beginning of this conversation yeah yeah no you're right yeah so what do you think yeah like I remember I used to be like boozing it up in the bars dressing like the so slutty and like wasted and like and my friends would be like like what are you going to fucking stop got they I'm like, oh, you know what I mean?

A nice guy. And it's like, but then I eventually realized, like, no guy that I would think was like worthy to settle down with that had a good job and was like really fucking together would ever look across the bar and see me, the drunken mess that I was at that time, dressed in my outfits and be like, oh, that's the girl I want to take home for Thanksgiving. You know what I mean? I had to like become the person that the person I wanted to be with and knew was a good person that would want to actually be with.

Do you know what I mean? And sometimes, you know, your mind could think could be ahead of yourself. Like I was always ahead of myself thinking like, oh, I would never be with someone unless they're like this great. But I wasn't that great yet. And you have to become better. You have to do better. You have to become better. You have to figure out this kink of yours, figure out where it comes from, figure out why you want to be put down so much, you know, and get clear on that before you sit across from somebody that's going to do it in a healthy way with you.

Yeah, I need to get the kink. I need to get the cheating kink in check too. You think that that's normal? You think that that's like a normal? Like that's a part of like your dysfunction, you know, your dysfunction and stuff. And because you're cheating on or because like Erica's telling you to, you know what I mean? And that goes back to your- I'm not talking about that.

I know, but I'm talking about that. That was cheating. Yeah, I'm talking about my cheating kink and just normal. Like I went out and. Yeah, it's even worse. I'm just like, yeah, you're even worse than I'm saying you are. That's the whole fucking point is what I'm trying to say. You're trying to act as if this other girl was so terrible and you barely have any problems.

She was very bad. I know, but you have a lot of issues yourself. And it's okay. I do. It's okay. I did too. Like I understand. This is why I could do my job and I'm very non-judgmental because I, you know, I don't

ever look at something. Like I think it's like, you know, we're all put here to have like fucking problems and deal with them and then die. That's like a part of being a human being. You're not supposed to be perfect anyway. You know what I mean? So fuck anybody that's sitting here judging you for your issues or me for the ones that I've had in my life.

And I'm not even judging you. I'm just saying you got them, okay? And you haven't fixed them all yet. And that's why you're sitting. across from a bipolar girl yeah no my cheating king's gonna fuck up any relationship i'm gonna because i spent the majority of my 20s single like i said all of my 20s single that's why i was like trying to keep you with her and so that's the yeah that's the thing is like guys i think it's a different between guys and girls guys kind of like they're not they don't have

that much they kind of guys kind of hit their i would say like quote unquote prime like 30s and And they... Just trying to think of how to word this without sounding like a dick. Like, you just don't... I don't have the opportunities I had with young, hot girls until I was older. I didn't have those opportunities

with them when I was younger. Or get, like, the looks and the... Just the attention from them. And I think that's a guy thing because you kind of build your value and your confidence and whatever. But... So, it's like

As soon as I was able to attract them and pull them in, I don't know how to keep them because of the cheating kink. I'm kind of going off. I'm just. Yeah, I'm confused where we're going with this. Yeah, what am I trying to say here? I'm trying to say that I think I spent the majority of my 20s just single, not hooking up, and then you hit your 30s,

and all of a sudden, like, I'm, to have a decent amount of money. I have, like, I'm established, I got confidence and all this stuff. and which girls look at you very differently when you have that. And that, I guess it's just hard for me to keep a relationship intact now that like the options for cheating are open. And yeah, it's a hard, uh, I just need to let it go. Let go. Let go what?

Like that, well, why don't you just instead look for an open relationship or is it, or do you have that weird thing where you want to cheat? Like you don't want it to be allowed. to be with other people. Like, are you cheating because you like variety? Or are you cheating because you get off on cheating? There's a two. No, I'm cheating because I get off.

Yeah, that's a problem. Yeah, that's more of a sickness. That's why I'm telling you, you're more like the bipolar girl than you think, okay? Because that's a fucking worst. That's a fucking worst sickness, okay? It's, I know that. It's not about variety for you. If you had a girl that let you fuck whoever you wanted, like, and all that stuff.

Like, that's not what you want. You want to do something behind someone's back. Oh, yeah. The more wrong than better. The wrongness of it makes it taught for me. Like the taboo-ness of it. This is why I love doing my job because people are so honest to me. And I really appreciate your honesty.

You know, it's so interesting to be able to get into someone's head like you because this is a real thing that some people have, you know. And I think it's a real problem. I thought it since I was young. Yeah. I thought it since I was young too. I had that one, I dated a girl for a while in high school. And one night, we were all just partying, whatever one night. And she ended up passing out in the couch.

And we were all, like, around her trying to make sure she was good. And she was fine. She was out of it. But me and her best friend were sitting above her and we were holding hands. Right. And like then went over in the corner and made out while she was. Yeah. So I don't know.

Even just remembering that little moment is like a fucking, you remember it because it was so powerful for you. It was so hot. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. So you really get off on naughtiness. Yeah.

Yeah. And I need to somehow get that and check because I do want an actual relationship. Yeah. Funnel it in like. a positive way. Let me ask you this. Do you think if you like mocked up, like say you're with a girl that you can be honest with that you have this and you like to be cocked and she's into fucking other guys for you or whatever and she's non-monogamous herself and all that good stuff, do you think you could mock up the cheating in a relationship and have it contained and controlled and it would still get you off or does it just have to

be something that she doesn't know about? I think before it would have to be, like you said, something she doesn't know about and just the straight fact that it's wrong would turn me on. I think four or five months ago, that would have been me. I think now I've had enough self-reflection and kind of gone through it enough with enough people that I know in my head that's what I want isn't what I really want. I want like an actual relationship. I want someone to... Right, but how are you going to make that work with these, like these desires that you have. How are you going to have both? Are you going to put to rest that part of yourself and never feed those urges? Is there a way to feed those urges inside a relationship by being honest about them and role playing them out? Or is it like one or the other for you?

I think ideally it would be being an honest relationship and role playing them out. That way I could feed them while simultaneously being in a relationship. Yeah. Have you ever seen a real therapist or can you maybe create a different chat GPT so that you're not talking to the one that's abusing you and like really get into some real therapy of like why and how you got yourself wired into like the naughty stuff and how you can maybe undo that a little bit so that you don't have to go down that path? Like have you ever looked into why that kind of stuff is so hot? I know that it could be really powerful when you have it. You know what I'm saying? I get it.

Yeah. I've tried with chat GPT like just. off not the one that I was it was either before that or something trying to figure out why and it would break it down to like usually it's either from childhood trauma or it's from like you got cheated on when you were younger which none of those really added up

the only thing I can think of in my head is like I was my best friend when I was younger was super super attractive like six three and skater and just every girl fucking wanted them at our school and there was like quite a few times where it would just be me him and like his girlfriend hanging out all the time and like I remember I'd there was one time I slept on the floor like well they hooked up in the bed and I had a big thing for her too like I really liked her

and so so you think maybe those early memories of like maybe jerking off or getting wired into thinking you would do the wrong thing and be with your best friend's girl got you wired into doing like like those types of things makes sense yeah yeah that's only like early early stuff I can think of. Yeah. I kind of give off the opposite persona of that in real life, though. That's the thing. Like, if you knew me in real life or if you knew people that knew me, like, I give off

a very, like, almost not cocky, but definitely confident, just put together kind of, like, quote, unquote, manly man type guy. Like, it's just who I am. And so. But you feel like there's a part of you that's not that person? No, I feel like there's a part of me. I know deep down I am that person. I feel like I want the kink because it's the exact opposite of what I am, like kind of in real life.

It's like when you have those, I'm not like, I'm not a CEO or anything, but when you have those CEOs that like are, there's a lot of those really high. Yeah. The opposite is to be submissive because that's the way they relax. So that makes sense. But a lot, but you just need to like hone all this stuff in, all these desires that you have because maybe they're never going to go away. But, you know, figure out a way to funnel them properly.

so you can exist in a healthy relationship and have all the things that you want. Because if you want to get married, have kids, all those kinds of things, I mean, you're not going to want to throw it all in the shitter for cheating. But, you know, maybe if you talked with a sex therapist, somebody that, and I've had a lot of them on recently, like seriously, this is like so up your alley. You need a real sex therapist that could talk to you and help you, you know, you're going to be completely honest to them about this cheating thing that you have and everything, and they're going to work with you and give you and figure out ways for you to, like, maybe feed, I don't know what the solution is, but there's probably many different solutions. I don't know

because I know right now you don't think that you could be wired into liking it as role play, and it has to be the other way, but maybe like a good therapist could help you get to that place, you know, I don't know. But you need help because if, you, you know, what you want, you know, you're not stupid, you know you want a real relationship and you do know and you're worried. that this cheating kink that you have is going to fucking ruin it. Yeah, that's the problem. The problem is I'm kind of fucking good at it. Not to tip my own warrant.

But that's the, I don't know if I talked about the last time. I'll make it quick. But like the way I met a lot of these girls and the way I've talked to a lot of them is through Snapchat. Snapchat's better than any dating site out there by far. How do you meet people on Snapchat? I don't even know. I think everyone besides me knows about Snapchat.

I just don't understand. I've never been on it. But yeah, I mean, basically to sum it up, every Snapchat profile has a bitmoji it's called. It's like a little cartoon character of yourself. And I would add hundreds, maybe thousands of random girls, their bitmoji looked hot. And I would send them all the same text.

I would say, your bitmoji is hotter than my girlfriend. Oh, my God. And the amount of them that were just so fucking into it is, I mean, just wanted me to send pictures of my girlfriend, like comparing them to her. Like that's the, it's evil. It's fucked up. But that's the type of shit that like I would get into.

Right. And but when you say it's so easy for me to do it, like and get away with it. But it's not like you've had a lot of relationships where you were cheating and you got away with it. I don't know like, I don't know how good of a cheater you are because you've rarely been in long-term relationships. That's a good point. Yeah. Yeah. How do you know you're a good cheater?

You're good at picking up chicks, okay? And wrangling them in. But how do you know that you would be? be good at because like cheating is like living a double life if you want a real relationship one day that means they're going to be living with you you're going you know she's going to know your fucking schedule you know she your your food's going to be laying on the table when you're eating dinner and she could see your snapchat popping you don't know that you're good at cheating quote unquote because you never really have done it with a real girl because how long did that buy you date

that by girl the bipolar girl oh a year and a half okay and how did you cheat on her a lot no I didn't get on her once until the last two three months exactly exactly so you know you weren't even cheating right so maybe so maybe you're not like this maybe like you know maybe you know you don't even really know who you would be in a real relationship with a girl maybe you would be able to like get into like the whole cuckled hot white thing with a girl if she was into it and that would totally satisfy all your desires if you could be with a woman that like femme was into femdom and would like dominate you a little bit. Like maybe you would have zero desire to cheat. You don't know. Yeah, that's true. I think it ultimately comes down to what's more important to me too and like weighing

the weighing both options. And I just think that keep having relationships. Have some more relationships and see who you are because you know, you only had that one with that girl and you weren't even cheating on her until like the really like really until the very end when you knew it wasn't going to last, which I don't think counts as much as if you were cheating from day one. And here you are a guy sort of caught me to that you have to cheat on everyone. You didn't even cheat on her for a whole year and a half. No, I gave her the fucking world. I know I haven't been in many relationships.

But do me a favor. And don't be like these fucking bitter psychopaths that date one girl. It doesn't work out. And then they hold on like, oh, I gave her everything. And now I'm never going to give a girl. I once went to on a date with a guy. It was so fucking funny. He dated a girl for like five years.

My friend's like, oh, you have to go out with me. He's the nicest guy. Blah, so he's like, oh, you want to go to see a movie? And I'm like, sure. You know, and he emails me or text me whatever at the time. like, oh, by the way, I bought my ticket. And I'm like, I bought my ticket, you know, and I'm like, I start text messaging all my girlfriends and my sister.

Like, does that mean that he didn't buy my ticket? Like, are you fucking kidding me? Like, this guy's not even going to buy my ticket for the movie that he's inviting me. It's like $10 fucking, you know what I mean? So I write back just to make sure, because I'm assuming he's not buying my ticket. And that's like fucked up, you know, but I want to make sure that he didn't forget the S. It wasn't a typo, you know, so I read back. I'm like, okay, you know, so I guess maybe I'll get my ticket and just like,

like meet you there and I could pick up my ticket when and I'll get my ticket when I get there and he says yeah okay and I was like holy fucking shit so I write him back like listen I just want to let you know like I'll still go to a movie with you but I certainly would never date you it is not going to be a date I would never date somebody that wouldn't buy me a fucking ten dollar movie ticket you know and then he goes my girlfriend's like that's so bitchy Kathy I'm like yeah but something's wrong with him because what's ten dollars you know and it turned out that this guy was like blah blah blah I dated a girl for five years and she took me for everything and I and it's a little bit of it's a It's like, okay, you know what?

You should not be fucking dating because if you're not going to put 10 bucks into a new relationship because you're so fucking scorned by your last girl, then don't fucking date for you. You know what I mean? You gave her your all. Don't be one of those people that are like, I'll never do it that again because it fucking bit me in the ass. You got to give your all in every fucking relationship, okay?

No, I'd like to give my all to anyone. It's fucking appreciated it. Okay, well, you know what? Some people aren't going to appreciate it. It doesn't matter. You still have to give your all. You don't need to be, you know, you have to find, be a better picker, okay? No one's fault but your own.

No, I love giving my all. Okay, good. Okay, good. Okay, good. Yeah, and that's what you're going to have to do. Just don't become bitter because you gave your all to this girl and she didn't wind up being the right one. She was great person for you.

If you look at what you did in that relationship, you gave her your all. That's great for you. Like, I would high five you on doing that in your first relationship because that's what you have to do. And that's scary and hard to do. And you completely fell into it. gave her your all. That's great. It doesn't matter that she didn't receive it or she didn't appreciate. That's her problem, right? Yeah, I'm being petty about it. I'm definitely being petty about it. You're okay. You're okay to be afraid. But I'm just saying what you should look at is the fact that that was very brave of you and very good of you. And that's what you need to do again with the next one.

Yeah, I'm with you. Yeah, no, you're right. Okay. 100%. Okay. Just go try to find yourself a girl that's like kinky that's into the stuff that you're into but is like, you know, straight and narrow and wants to do it in a, 100%. Okay. Just go try to find yourself with a girl that's like kinky that's into, but is like, like, you know, straight and narrow and wants to do it. And a, you know, in a respectable way between the two of you. But I think at the same time you should be going to a sex therapist so you could talk about all this shit that you're into and figure it out in the right way. So that by the time that great girl does come your way,

you don't fuck it up. I completely agree. Maybe next time I talk to you, I've talked to a sex therapist. I actually looked up a couple of them in my area probably three, four weeks ago because I wanted to air all this shit out and just talk about it. Did you find one that was good? No, no, I haven't.

I looked at it for like 10 minutes online just to get an idea of what I was, who was around, what I was doing with, but I haven't gotten back into it. But it's something I'm going to do. Yeah, do it. Yeah. It's only going to help you figure stuff out. I'm not saying that you shouldn't be into the things that you're into or anything. You just don't want it to be wired improperly so that it fucks with your real relationships. Because all this can be consensual.

And consensual means that if your girl or you are fucking other people like that, your partner knows about it. So there's, there's no cheating. And I think that maybe you could probably be fine with all that. I don't know. I think you're framing yourself differently. You don't even know that you would definitely need to cheat with the right girl because you haven't experienced that. And actually with this girl, you didn't even cheat on her.

So I don't know that you're definitely going to cheating is going to be your biggest problem. But you should be talking about that with somebody else while we do. But thank you so much for calling it. I could talk to you for another fucking hour. I'm slightly obsessed with your whole psychosis. You know, because like I said, I'm like a person that had a lot of issues. I got thrown out of three high schools. I was like dated all kinds of crazy people.

You know, I've been there, done that. So, and I like flawed human beings. I think it's like very real and not normal, but, you know, I think that when people are honest about this kind of stuff, it really helps other people because it makes other people realize they're not alone and being flawed and most people are and that's just a part of fucking life. You're a young guy. You're going to get your shit together.

I appreciate your honesty. And, you know, check back in in a little bit and let me know what's going on because I like to keep track of your story. I'm rooting for you, Alex. Hey, yeah, no, best of luck. I listen to quite a few episodes. So if I, anything else happens, if I go to a sex therapist, I'll call back to you later on.

Yeah, go for six months and then call me. And let's talk about, like, what you learned and stuff. I think that would be, like, really super interesting. Because I like, listen, it's funny all your dysfunction and all that shit, but what I want to see you on is the other side. I grew and changed all of my fucking shit, you know? and if I could do that, anybody can. So I'd like to see you six months after you've really talked through your stuff and how it works for you and what they told you and how you resolved it.

That would be interesting because I'm not a therapist. I don't know what you need to do or how, you know, but the right person will. Yeah. Okay. So get it together a little bit more and give me an update. Thank you so much for calling in. This was like super interesting. Yeah, yeah, definitely.

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