Strictly Anonymous Confessions - 1245 - Juliet has a CRAZY Fetish

Episode Date: October 10, 2025

Juliet has a crazy fetish and he called in to talk all about it. Tune in to hear all the details including what his actual fetish is., how and where he stumbled upon it and how it turned into a fetish, how it grew into being even more specific when he did a deeper dive, how and when he told his girlfriend and how she felt/feels about it, what he enjoys specifically and how it changed over time, how his fetish led him into being into humiliation, when he got into wearing feminine clothing and got into sissification, what he likes to wear when being sissified and how he works his fetish into it, the woman he met online who he hooked up with while dressed and what went on, why he can’t get off unless his one fetish is part of his intimate life, how much his gf knows about his fetish and what he hasn’t told her about and why, how he likes to dress up and what he likes to dow while dresses, was he actually jerking off the whole time?! Plus a whole lot more. **To see HOT pics of my female guests + hear anonymous confessions + get all the episodes early and AD FREE, join my Patreon! It's only $7 a month and you can cancel at any time. You can sign up here: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.patreon.com/StrictlyAnonymousPodcast⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ and when you join, I'll throw in a complimentary link to my private Discord! MY BOOK IS NOW OUT FOR PRE-ORDER!!!! Strictly Anonymous Confessions: Secret Sex Lives of Total Strangers. A bunch of short, super sexy, TRUE stories. GET YOUR COPY NOW: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://amzn.to/4i7hBCd⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠   To join SDC and get a FREE Trial! click here: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.sdc.com/?ref=37712⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ or go to SDC.com and use my code 37712   Want to be on the show? Email me at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠[e-mail]⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ or go to ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠http://www.strictlyanonymouspodcast.com⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ and click on "Be on the Show" Have something quick you want to confess while remaining anonymous? Call the CONFESSIONS hotline at 347-420-3579. You can call 24/7. All voices are changed.   Sponsors:  ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://uberlube.com/discount/Strictly⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Use code: STRICTLY for 10% off Uberlube aka the BEST Lube EVER ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://bluechew.com⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Get your first month of the new Blewchew Max FREE! use code: STRICTLYANON ⁠⁠https://beducate.me/pd2532-anonymous⁠⁠⁠  ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Use code: ANONYMOUS to get 50% off your yearly pass plus get a 14-day money-back guarantee ⁠⁠⁠https://brooklynbedding.com⁠⁠⁠⁠ Use my promo code STRICTLY at checkout to get 30% off sitewide ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://vb.health⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ To get 10% off Drive Boost by VB Health use code: STRICTLY ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://butterwellness.com/⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Use the code “STRICTLY” at checkout for 20% off your entire order To get $15 OFF your female oxytocin arousal tablets and more, use code STRICTLY here: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://shamelesscare.sjv.io/xLQ3Jv⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Follow me! Instagram ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/strictanonymous/⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Twitter ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://twitter.com/strictanonymous?lang=en⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Website: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠http://www.strictlyanonymouspodcast.com/⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

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of farting. Now I don't really like that word. You'll hear how like antibody functions I am in this call and he's the opposite of me. I mean this is something that he got wired into when he was young. He talks about it. He gets very specific on how he got into it and then how specific it plays out for him. Like, you know, not only does he like when girls do it,

he likes when they're dressed up, and it changes the sound, and then he talks about the smells and how bad he likes it and all the stuff that he's into it. It's super specific. It's really interesting. It seems quite obvious, like how he got into it because he kind of stumbled upon it on YouTube.

And then it led to him being into cessification and humiliation, and he talks about how he likes to dress up and what he wears when he dresses up and how he likes to be. treated and what he does. And, you know, he talks about the issues he's had with women because of his fetishes, because, you know, the whole first fetish that he has, it's like it kind of had to be there when he was with girls. And it wasn't. He does have a girlfriend now who he told about it. She won't do it with him when they're intimate, but he is able to perform with her. And he

talks all about all of that stuff. It's super interesting. You're going to have to hear him explain all of it. But his story is so fascinating. So I'm going to get right to be right back on with Juliet. Hi, Juliet. Welcome to the Strictly Anonymous podcast. How are you today? I'm great, thanks. How are you?

Good. You're like kind of whispering. Is your girlfriend hiding in your... Are you hiding from your girlfriend in your house? No, I'm not hiding. I'm actually in the shed. So I'm just staying. I'm a bit further out.

So I should be fine. Okay, okay. You have a really thick accent. Are you Irish? Yeah, Northern England. Oh, okay. Yeah. you know, Americans were so stupid with like accents, you don't know what I mean.

Oh, you're fine. Yeah, no, but I mean, that wasn't right. Okay, so let me just ask. So, okay, so you have two things going on, right? Like you're into cystification and then you have a really crazy fetish that I've only heard about from one other person. So you, and I'm like, oh, a foot fetish, right? Isn't that what I'm saying?

Because you have the accent. Yeah. But, like, why don't you explain your fetish? So I am into faulting. so like gas, flatulence, I'm into women doing it and I'm into kind of

I suppose the more disgusting the better like a big part of my fetish is not just the sound but the smell Oh my God people are gonna fucking die I had a girl on okay a long time ago I forget what her name is and

what the episode was but she was like really calling in because she felt like it was a problem she wanted to unwire herself, but she unfortunately got herself wired into the same kind of a thing. And she liked it when women did it. And she found, like, there's porn out there. Oh, I've got loads of it. Yeah. Yeah. That's what she was into. And she wired herself into and she had to only get off on women farting like in porn. Like, and that's the only way. And she was able, because I remember her emailing me a while later, able to successfully like unwire herself by like not going there anymore, I think. But yeah, let's, I mean, What comes first, is cissification or this fetish? I would say the farting and then the cissification kind of plays. It's kind of weird, kind of plays into it a bit. Oh, okay. So let's go all the way back to when the first one started and then, you know,

you tell me the story from where it starts. Yeah, so it started kind of when I was probably about 11, just like on the internet, like looking at stuff as you do. And I basically came across on YouTube, like Girl, compilations. And after watching them, I was like... But do you remember what would even make you want to watch that to begin with? Because you weren't looking for it, right?

Like, is it one of those things were just, like, kind of popped up and it was like in your feed? So you were like curious? Or did you go looking for that? To be honest with you, I'm really not sure. It's like a really weird kind of thing to come across. but I never thought it would feel something I would just search up.

What? You never thought what? I would never really search it up. I think I just stumbled across it. Okay. And then from then on But when you watched it, did you get turned on the first time

or were you freaked out or did you think it was funny? Because it's not typically something. I mean, obviously it's something that does turn some people on because there's porn out there like that. So obviously that's a genre

and some people get off on it. Like, Did you get off on it the first time you saw it? Yeah. Oh, okay. So literally the first time you saw it like first, like were you confused by why you were turned on by? Yeah, definitely. Yeah, I can imagine.

Because it's like a weird thing to like be turned on by. It is 100%. I think I just kept going back to it though. That was the thing. And it was like, I think it was because people were half naked in it as well. Yeah, but how old were you at this time? Were you so young that like you hadn't seen anybody naked? Yeah.

Okay. So this is like young. And so you're seeing it's like boobs for the first time and everything else. It's funny because like if you would have sort of bumped into something like maybe with feet, maybe you would have had a foot fetish. Maybe it was just that it was the naked body, which you were so turned on by because you hadn't seen that because you're young. And then it paired with this thing that typically doesn't turn people on. But because you watched it, you wired your.

into those things going together. Yeah, and it's like snowballed. Yeah, because you kept going back, because you were like, turned on, it felt good, right? You're a young guy. So, yeah, when I was, I think it was just kind of on YouTube, I kind of got, like, caught in the sun as well. How is this on YouTube, naked people on YouTube?

That's normally not on YouTube. It was more like in panties. Oh, okay. Okay. And then I kind of got, more like used to I suppose just like the compilations where it had different

sounds and you would hear about them you would hear the women talk about them like the smell okay can you stop listen you need to sit down you're moving around doing stuff I hope you're not fucking jerking off okay but what I need you to do no no is not move around

you need to be sitting down relax just talking on the phone sorry sorry I was my girlfriend then he walked in so that was that was all I know, but you're still moving around. You just sit the fuck. I could hear it in the background. I hear the moving around. Okay.

Yeah. So they're talking about the noises. They're explaining them and the smell. Oh, no, you're hearing noises and then they're talking about the smell. Is that what starts to happen now in these videos too? Yeah. Oh, God. This is how porn really fucks people up.

Oh, my gosh. I know. I mean, like, imagine feeding this shit into like a young, impressionable, impressionable kid because how old were you at this time? Do you know? 11. Yeah, that's like dangerous if you ask me because it's such a like a specific weird thing. It could really like, I don't know, you know, we'll get to the point of like your girlfriend who just walked into your barn or wherever the fuck you are and, you know, obviously doesn't know you're talking to me. But, you know, like, do you have to bring this into your relationships? Like it could really be a problem, you know?

Like some girls could be like really like what the fuck and turned off and, you know, it could really hamper like your love. life moving forward and the fact that they have this shit and they have these girls talking about all these specific things and now and that's what's happening is they're like you're becoming hypnotized to be into this because like how would you think of that on your own do you know what I mean you're not thinking of that on your own oh the smell and all that but they're now saying that while you're fucking hard and putting that into your brain while you're jerking off and now you're getting wired into that too yeah that's fucked up no and It's not something like, the thing is, it's not something I want to get rid of neither.

Yeah, that girl did, you know. Well, let me ask you this real quick, because I'm just too curious. Like, is your girlfriend down to engage with you in this fattish? Yes, and no, like in a more vanilla way, just like an innocent way. In what sense? Like, she doesn't mind just doing it, it's just like walking by you or when you're watching TV, but she won't do it during sex? Yeah. But does she know that it's sexually arousing for you?

Yeah. She does. Okay. Have you told other women about this? No. How old are you now? 23. Oh, okay.

So you're young. How old's your girl? The same. And she has no problem like let and loose in front of you? I mean, I would never do that even if a guy was into it. I don't know. I'm very not into bodily functions. They really fucking bother me.

I'm so like the opposite of you. And I wouldn't, I could not do that for somebody. I don't want to do it for myself, let alone somebody else, but she will engage, but she won't take it into the bedroom for you? Is that like where she draws the line? Yeah, yeah. It's not like it. It's not something that's doing anything for her. So it's more just innocent for me.

For you. But she knows, though, that this is what you would want in the bedroom, though. You do want it in the bedroom? Yeah. Yes, I know. I mean, I don't want it during sex. would rather it be like innocent like that.

Oh, you would? How come? That's interesting. I'm not actually into people being naked when it's happening. That was maybe when I was younger. I'm in a more closed.

Is it because those women on YouTube were closed? Yeah, and it changes the sound. This is fucking fascinating. Okay, so with the clothes on, it changes the sound, but, okay, you're saying it's innocent because she's got clothes on,

but are you hard? Yeah. Okay, so it's not innocent for you. You mean like it doesn't need for her to be, she doesn't need to be naked, but it's still an intimate act for you because you're getting horny during it. So it's not, it's not like innocent. It isn't, you know what I mean? You're getting off on that. That's right, yeah. Okay, does she know that? Yeah. Yeah. Okay. Well, we'll get to the point where you bring that up for her, but like you're like this poor little kid like getting, you know, hypnotized into having this fetish. And now they're like really. like they're giving you different noises and they're getting and they're talking about the smell and is that how you get wired into those two things too? That's right. Yeah.

Yeah, so explain that. So I think just over yes, kind of like watching so many videos in it. Like hearing like like saying such. You're whispering. Why are you whispering? You have to talk a louder. Like you're like whispering. It's like weird. Sorry.

Can you actually just talk normal? Can I go back into the shed? Can you just hold on two seconds? Where the fuck are you now? I was just upstairs. I needed to come in for a second. Okay. Okay, guys, have you ever had a night where you just couldn't get it up?

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You're like whispering. It's like weird. Sorry. Can you actually just talk normal? Can I go back into the shed? Can you just hold on two seconds? Where the fuck are you now? I was just upstairs. I needed to come in for a second. Okay. Sorry. Yeah. So, yeah, it started off. I think it's a lot to do with good looking women, doing it, something disgusting.

So that's what kind of developed the sound. So like, the better looking the woman. Yeah. And the more disgusting, the sound and the smell. Well, sorry to laugh. It's, no, no, you can laugh at the same. You know, it's absurd. Like, you could step out, like, you're cool enough to know, like, you could step out of yourself and know that this sounds like creature. Okay.

Oh, yeah. Totally. Okay. Okay. Okay. Okay. Okay. Somebody wants, I think it was Doc Chocolate.

I was talking to him. He's another podcaster and he was like, Kathy, you shouldn't yuck someone else's yum. I'm like, I'm just being real. Okay. Like, I can't sit here and not be like, oh, my God, that's like the fucking craziest thing I've ever heard. You know what I mean? that would make me weird, weirder.

You know what I'm saying? Like that would be odd. I totally get it. Okay. I've thought this like for a while. Like like since I kind of got my head around it. Like it is pretty crazy. It's crazy.

Yeah, but obviously because this content is out there, you're not the only one. That's what we all learn from the internet, right? That we're not unique. We're not the only one. Obviously there's other people that are into this. Like I said,

I had the one girl. I'm sure now that I'm airing this episode, other people that are into this. We'll find this episode. Do you know what I'm saying? Because it's specific. And that's what my Fettish Friday episodes are about because there is something very comforting to know that you're not the only one, right?

Because it can be, you could feel like really alone with something if you don't know. But you're young enough to live in the world of the internet. So you know there's other people. But so, okay, let's get back to the noises. So the noise is the worse it sounds, the better is how this was like how this porn was done. Like the more disgusting or like, what is the, like, how does the, like, how does this sound worse? Like, the more like

bubbly and wet, that kind of thing. Oh, my. Yeah, so like, this should be illegal to make porn like this. This is terrible to get people off on this. Terrible.

There's certain, like, models who, like, depends what model it is. Yeah. Like, some of them, like, you know, that wear tight jeans or tight latex leggings. And, like,

like, they'll just be, like, letting them go, like nothing you've ever heard before. Really? And there's something about those leggings or something on there that's trapping it that makes it sound worse? Is that the whole point of like the clothing being on? Yeah, that's right. Like I'm not really bothered about unclosed farting.

It doesn't really bother me one bit. Why? Because it doesn't bother, bother in that it doesn't make you horny. Is that what bother means to you? Yes. Yeah. Yeah. Wait, so it's a regular.

one doesn't sound bad for you. It doesn't, it doesn't do it for you. It's not enough. Yeah, it's more if there were like, yeah, tight jeans or leggings and just like something really tight around and like almost enclosing it. Interesting. And then let's get to the smell part because like the worst it smells for you, the better. I mean, now I'm assuming that when you're young and you're, you know, you don't have any smells. Like do you start doing it yourself to get to live out the fantasy that you're with a woman doing it? Like how do you, what did you do?

Like, how did they get the smell thing into your brain? And then how did you live it out in real life? I suppose it's more than like describing it and like hearing the way they'll talk about it. So like it's, you're probably going to laugh. Yeah, that's fine. It basically like there's certain videos, I've got lots of them where they describe them like smelling like specific foods. Uh-huh.

So like specifically for me, like eggy or rotten egg. Yeah, yeah. Or like cabbagey. Them three are like, like if it has eggy in, then like I'm like a super fan of that model. And obviously they know this because in these videos,

these models, these really hot models, is that what they're talking about while they're doing it? Are they saying, ew, that one smelled like this? And is that like how they're mocking? out this whole like scenario. That's right.

That's like almost like waffing it up and like or like pretending I'm the one having to smell it like a POV. Yeah, yeah, yeah. Now I could see where the cystification is coming into this because there's like there's some sort of humiliation in this, right? Because like that kind of a thing is something you do to torture somebody, you know? That's right. Little kids do it to each other like to be mean, you know, as a joke.

Like, ha ha, like oh my God, we're going to torture you to smell my fart. You know, it's like that kind of a thing. So I could see how this leads into cystification because you're like totally like the sub being humiliated and being forced to have this experience. And the worst, the better. Yeah. And like it's like like the only thing I'm worthy of is like your eggy farce type thing. Yeah. Yeah.

Yeah. Yeah. That's it. Yeah. Yeah. It's a total degradation. It is. Yes.

Yeah. It's degrading you. And these girls. were, and these girls were doming the people, right? Like, that's who they were in the thing. That's right, yeah, yeah. There's not many where they're kind of like the soap. Yeah, I get it.

Yeah. Okay, so now you're like wired into this and now does this like, like from there just snowballs like you said, is that become the only porn that you're into? Yeah, for like a long time it was just farting. I would try and like through school like try and. like not watch it. And, but it kind of got to the point where just, like, I just wouldn't watch it. And then I would just come back even more like wanting to watch, like, way more and sit there all day watching it.

Yeah, because they say what you resist, process. So the more you try not to, the more you'd go back. And then probably when you would go back, it would be even a bigger hit of like adrenaline because you were denying yourself for so long. And that's like the fucking hamster on the wheel. You know, you can't get off of that kind of a thing. thing, yeah, unfortunately. Yeah. Yeah, totally.

So, like, it probably persisted for, I would say, from, like, when I was 11 on and off, I maybe stopped around, like, 15, like, trying to watch new things. But then I would just, like, I would say by the time I was, like, 16, 17, just watching it more than ever. Yeah. Okay. And same kind of a thing, because you, early on, you saw them wearing panties and stockings and stuff like they're always like that's always what you dig let me ask you this in that

genre of porn are they typically always kind of clothes because it gives a different sound and that's what most people are into or do they have like naked porn in that genre i think it's 50 50 like it just really depends what a model you go for i would say a lot of it probably is just in panties or naked. Whereas a lot of other ones are specifically like catered to like clothes and making sure they like keep on

the leggings so it's like bubbly all the way through. Yeah. Uh-huh. Yeah, that makes sense because there's people like you and then there's the other people that like that. Okay, so now you're watching this, you get back into it. You're like 15, 17. Is that when you're back into it? Is what you're saying? That's right.

Yeah. Okay. When does the sissification come into play? And what's going on with you with girls at this point? Like, are you dating girls? Are you, you know, I mean, are you able to, do you ever tell anyone? Or is this the first girlfriend that you told that you're with right now? Yeah, I mean, I've told people online, but, like, they're not people from where I live. So it would never, like, get back.

I've never really told anybody who knows me, like, in person, like, apart from my girlfriend. Okay. So I would say it was girls, I would never really kind of get anywhere because I would go like, say the first time I lost my virginity, I just couldn't get it up because I didn't have that thing. That wasn't there, yeah. The smell, the sound, all that wasn't included. Yeah, even though I was like excited to, you know, lose my virginity. Of course. It wasn't able to be done right because I just couldn't get it up. And it happened quite a few times, to be honest.

Yeah, this is the problem with porn, and this is what can happen. And it's not just this kind of porn. Sometimes it's any kind of extreme porn. If some, you know, these poor kids get into seeing this stuff, and then when the real thing happens, they can't perform because they're so used to something that isn't really, like, common or every day or realistic, you know? That's right. Yeah, yeah, totally.

Yeah, so you couldn't get it up the first couple times? Yeah, I would say, like, quite a lot. And probably until I met my girlfriend, I never really had like a proper you know, like I would say maybe he's having sex for three to four years before I met her and never really had like a proper

orgasm in like a woman with one. Wow. Wow. Because it, because there was none of that going on. Yeah, and it just kind of got worse when like cystification kind of came into play. Yeah, okay. So how does that come in and what you know, what

introduces it to you? Is it another video or something? So I'd been watching, yeah, videos. And then there was one time I was, like, working. I don't do the job now, but I was working at somebody's house. And they would, like, the person there had, like, dirty knickers in the bathroom. And really, I was more bothered about, like, they might be stinky. And I, like, you know, I've seen them and I picked them up and, like, looked at them,

like had a smell but then like something just came over me to put them on. Probably the smell. Yeah, probably. And then I was just like, for some reason it just like had me hooked. So then I would, when I would go to college, I would go like to shops and like go in and like buy little bits to start with and I would be embarrassed. but then it would get at a point where I would be going in to buy kind of the most girly thing in there. And like, you know, the woman on the front desk would know, you know, I was coming in for like the most girly thing in the place.

And it just gave me a lot of excitement. You mean her knowing that you were doing that? This was your. It's like the naughtiness of it. Yeah. Yeah. But it would also consist of watching, you know, cystification porn. you know, it's kind of got to the point now where

that both of them have mixed, but at the time it was like one night I would maybe watch Cissification, the next I would watch Farring. Yeah. Yeah, so that's kind of how it started. Yeah, so here you are, like, not even, I mean, you like women and you know that you like women. I would think it's kind of frustrating for you at such a young age to be, you know, you're, you like women, you know, but you have these two like really specific things that you're into and you can't bring them into your relationships you're having trouble having

like real sex but you know you're jerking off furiously to all this other stuff and in one sense it's probably very satisfying but in another sense it's like ruining your intimate life with women you know that's exactly right yeah you've just hit the nail on the head totally so what happens when you meet your girl so that's that's probably in the last couple years and i kind of had an epiphany like but for it, like, I need to, like, really start kicking myself into shape and, like, doing something because I don't want to be, like, 40 and alone. Yeah.

Do you know what I mean? Like, there's nothing really, like, worthwhile going to come out of just jerking off. So, and I knew I liked her. So, for, like, quite a while, I stopped. You know, I would try my best anyway, just, like, limit it, maybe once a week.

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Okay, but, like, you had all these issues with women before when you had sex with them. Like, when you're having sex with this girl, this new girl, you know, in the beginning, are you still having issues with her? Or for some reason, are you able to get it up and keep it up and orgasm with her? Like, how is it different? Yeah, the first time at, I, I did and I think I kind of knew that I was going to be sleeping with her, so I tried to just stop watching it. Okay.

Leading up. So, like, I think it happened a lot where I couldn't get it up because I would be, like, quanking that much. Like, it just wouldn't work. Whereas I tried to refrain from jerking off, like, say, a couple weeks leading up. And lo and behold, I managed to climax. Okay. So that worked for you. That was a way to that way.

work for you. Okay. Now when, now does she know about like the fact that you're into wearing panties and stuff? Like how far does your sissification go? And do you like to be humiliated as well? Yeah. Yeah. I really, I've, I like to do just dressing up in my house while I'm watching porn because it just makes, it's like makes you feel pathetic, you know? And then like, I'm into specifically like process, like looking close. Princess? Yeah. Like, Princess, not, not, like, slowly you or anything. Yeah, I get it, uh-huh. Why do you think that?

Do you know why? Any idea? I think it's just because it's the most feminine to me. Yeah. And, like, the more feminine I can be, the more it turns me on. I think that's what it kind of combines with my fart fetish, because the more, it's, like, a masculine thing of women farting.

Mm-hmm. So, like, the more masculine, the fart and the more feminine eye, am. It's like mind fucking. Yeah, of course. Because the more, the masculine, the more masculine makes you feel more feminine, and that's like the opposite of who you are, so that's the degrading

part of it, right? Or something like that, I don't know. That's right. Yeah, yeah, yeah, totally. So, yeah, I think that's kind of, I'm not like a full-time, lifetime, cissy. A lot of people are. I don't wear panties on a daily basis.

It's just really when I'm jerking off. However, I have had, I don't know if you want to get into this right now, but I've had a night out where I've been dressed up by a woman. Oh yeah, no, let's get into that. Have you ever been with a guy? No, this woman was going to try and set it up, but just nothing ever came of it. Okay, mm-hmm. So, like, I was on dating apps. This is before I met my girlfriend now, and I came across this woman in my profile I had that was a big cross-dresser. Mm-hmm. but was it a man cross-dressing?

What, on my profile? I don't know, you said. Oh, the woman. She was looking for a man that was cross-dressing? I got confused. Yeah, yeah, I think she was just looking. I think she was just looking for people, like, friends. I thought she said she was a cross-dressing.

Okay, yeah, okay, go on. And then, like, we got talking, and she's into the drag scene up in the city on me. And she basically, like, literally after, like, a night of talking and fight, me up to like stay in a hotel with her and she can do me up like to the to the nines and we can go out and have like a wild night out which was like really eye opening of course yeah like even just leaving the hotel room walking down the hotel room with a dress on in public it was like so thrilling yeah plus you're with a woman that is like into it you know what I mean Yeah, yeah

Okay, go on Yeah So yeah She done me up We went out that night And got like Really drunk And then

Like I thought we were just friends To be honest At that point But she actually Was like turned on And And we ended up like Fucking

But I never actually Climaxed in that situation Neither And I was dressed up How come Why do you think I think I think it's the phone

I think Oh, really? Yeah, I think I think it's more like it's more like a side piece the certification of thought and it's like just my ultimate fantasy that just encompasses

just everything And as I say, even So even without the other things Like that's the main one Like that has to be there with everything else Anything else without that doesn't work Is what you're saying That's right, yeah

Yeah Okay I've got like a lot of like names I used to like to call myself but it's kind of developed into like my sissy name. I like being called an eggy fought princess which is really fucked up. Oh my God. Okay. But wait, let's just like slow down. So this girl is the first girl you do.

But you're not with anybody at the time. This doesn't happen like behind your girlfriend's back or anything, does it? No, no. No, definitely not. Okay. And why don't you wind up dating this girl? Most of he's a lot older. I was 21 at the time

And she was in her 40s Oh, okay So she was just into this She had this kink too And she was a dom? Yeah, she was dominant, yeah Okay Did you bring up the whole other fetish with her

And ask her to do that for you? Like, why not? I did, I did But it wasn't she was It wasn't rocking her boat Which understand me I get She was not into it Not into it, no

Okay, go on She joked about it when I brought it up, but she was like, there's no way I will be, like, farting around you. Okay. So that's why that wasn't on the table. And so you couldn't perform then either? No, I mean, I could get it up, but I just couldn't climax whatsoever. Okay.

So that's probably the most extreme version of mystifications went. That was the, so, because did you ever bring it up with your girlfriend now? No. Never. Never. How come? I think... I mean, don't you think that... You think it's like any worse than the other thing that you already copped to? I mean, did you really cop to the fact that that turns you on? And, like, did you cop to everything about that whole scenario, like, to her, like you did to me?

Not the whole thing, no, it's like... That's what I was thinking. Yeah, it's not like she knows it goes right back into my childhood. Do you know what I mean? It's more like... No, but does she know you like the smell? Does she know you like the bad sound? knows like how deep it is.

Does she know that you like you needed to get off? Not, no. No, not that I need it to get off. I mean, she knows it's like something I'm into. And I have talked about like maybe when I was drunk talk about like or like I want them to sound really bubbly. Yeah. And like I want them to stink so bad. But like not like something I would have like a normal like conversation on.

the night time about it's it's it's it's just so hard to kind of bring up but i think i think why i haven't discussed the certification is i don't think they're farting like in the road like what would the word like interrupts my manhood type thing uh-huh whereas i think her view of me yeah of course there's a two very different things i just think that the first one is a very like hard sell too and the fact that she like didn't freak out and she wasn't like you You know, because you keep saying that it does need to be there. I mean, and it's not there when you're with your girlfriend in the bedroom. Are you just like able to perform with her?

Because you've been dating her a long time. So that's like three years of intimacy with her all this time having sex with her. You can with her. Yeah, yeah, I can't with her. Like it depends. It does depend on where I like jerked off. But I think that would be the same for everybody. Like if you've jerked off early on the day.

And then you go, fuck again, I believe I don't know but I would believe some people would have trouble kind of performing again so I think that's more what it is. It's like if I haven't jerked off early on the day

then I can climax without no problem it's just if I've been kind of maybe watching a lot of thought porn that day it can kind of knock me off I don't like to make it even though she will do it don't like to make it, like the main thing for her, because it's not really something that turns her on at all. Okay.

Okay. So, but this is, so when do you do, when do you dress up and get that, like, the part of you that's into the specification? Like, when do you feed that part of your, like, when, do you guys not live together? Or do you live together? No, we, we don't live together all the time. So I would do it basically on my lunches. Like, I can come home for lunch. Okay.

So I'll come home and like I've got a big bag of like clothes in the back of my wardrobe and I'll just have like a try on and like pretty much like pose and you know like have thought porn on in the background and just like get dressed up and like strut about. That's what I would mainly do. I mean I have done like video course sessions in the past where people would see me dressed up but it would. it would really normally just be me in fault porn. Now this, so this girl that you're with, I mean, like, you probably, like, you should, like, fucking marry her because she's the only girl that kind of knows

you were able to tell her, you could come with her for some reason, right? Like, yeah. Or do you think, let me ask you this, do you think because you've been able to do it with her for a while you would be able to do it with other women too? Or do you think it's something about her because you just, like, really care about her?

Yeah, I think it's just her. I think she's like we get on very well and like she's she's like really is a really good girlfriend so I'm much really attracted to her so yeah I think it is just to her but maybe think I would be able to but I don't actually like deep down if it happened I don't think I would be able to perform with anybody else yeah no oh okay so it's it's not like that she cured you or you can it's just it's specific to her so you have no yeah yeah you better treat her well so she never fucking leaves you. Definitely.

But how do you think, though? Like, this is the problem with, like, I mean, you're so young to be carrying around this, like, secret part of yourself. You know what I mean? Like, I don't know if you listen to my show. I have crossdressers and guys into this shit that are like, you know, in their 50s and 60s and had to keep this as a secret life.

And I think that that's very taxing on somebody. You're, like, super young. You live in a very different generation where things are much more accepted than they are, you know? I mean, like, do you ever plan on being open about that part of yourself, or do you think you're just going to keep it as a secret thing forever? Because I personally, like I said, I think that that's, like, very hard to do. And it takes a lot of energy.

And, you know, it's always in the back of your mind that what if you get caught, you know what I mean? God forbid, the more you get deep with this girl, the more you don't tell her. And as she just finds out one day, you know, that could be a problem. Yeah. Oh, definitely. I mean, she would be the only one I would ever tell just to make that. I would never, like, put it openly anywhere. It would just be her.

But I would like to tell her, I suppose, just, I've been close to at some points, but it's just kind of, it's just a big thing, I suppose. I've kind of lived with the fact that, I know kind of, it's a statistication, but I've lived with the fact I've been in the thoughts for years as well. So, and that was from being really young. Yeah. So I've kind of had it just, I don't know, I'm just used to kind of doing that. You mean used to kind of having this secret kind of a thing?

Yeah. Yeah. But like what happens when you move in with her? Like eventually, you know, if you have like, you know, a life that you want, you're going to get married. You're going to move in together. Like, when are you going to fucking dress that? Yeah. I know.

Yeah. That's a fair point. I mean, I'm just saying because you're young and you're young and you're, you're, you're so close with this girl and you really care about her and she really accepted this other thing. Like, do you ever think that maybe one day you will tell her? Like, that's what I'm saying. Yeah, I think I would like to. Okay.

It's just, yeah, it's just kind of getting there. It's a big build up to it. You know, this is something I've told her, obviously, about the following, but I've never told anybody about, like, dressing up or anything. So, like, as I say, just people online and that's it. So, yeah, it's, I would like to. Right. I think you should and you, you know, because especially if you want a long-term commitment with her because it's not real, it's not, listen, it is realistic. You can keep it as a secret forever.

People do it. But why would you want to live that way? I think it's much better early on in a relationship, the earlier the better to bring something up. She doesn't have to engage in it. You don't have to throw it in her face out of nowhere. You could kind of ease her into it, you know, but, you know, how. far like how like this Cissification thing like how prevalent

is it in your life as in like you know how like is it something that you just engage in like not that much or is it something that does have a pull on you and you need to get dressed up and be in that mode for a lot If I've got a free house If I come back home and I've got a free house and yeah Do you live with your parents?

Yeah. Yeah. Okay. So yeah if I come back home and like I've got a free house then I like but sometimes and I know they're going to be out for a while yeah I'll run and get my like my favorite skirt and like dress and just like throw them on it's nothing really more than I like just dressing up it's not makeup or anything like that right but it is like that's your time to like jerk off like it is a sexual it's just a purely sexual thing for you yeah it is And let me ask you this, where's that shit hidden in your house? I mean, you're...

It's like in the back of a wardrobe behind, like, all that clothes. Okay. In a bin bag. How big is that stash of princess dresses? It's quite big. I had to throw some out. I had to throw some out because there were, like, there was, like, probably too many. Yeah.

And went through and kept my favorite, like, I don't know, maybe 10 or something. Yeah. So I just switch between them. and then I've obviously got like some stockings, panties, bras and and some heels, some pink heels. Right. Now, so you like the shoes, you like undergarments too, right? You're still doing the panties and stuff like that? Yeah, yeah, definitely.

Yeah, for sure. The undergarments and then the princess dresses and stuff on top. No makeup, no wigs or anything, right? No makeup, no wig. or either pink or white ruffles, like flowers, floral.

Yeah, that's just like very feminine, you know? It's a very... Let me ask you this. How do you present... I mean, you don't seem very, like, alpha to me just talking to you. And maybe it's just because you're fucking whispering. But like, in your regular life,

like, what kind of vibe are you as a guy, you know? I wouldn't say I'm alpha. I would say I'm just... Just try to be friendly. But, you know, if somebody who's giving us... giving me some shit. Do you know what I mean?

Yeah, you know how to stick up for yourself. Yeah, yeah. Okay. But no, because sometimes, like, listen, sometimes, you know, some people like to get cisified because it's like a release of like their very alpha part of their personality and it's like going the opposite direction. Maybe for you because of all that porn, it's just a part of like being degraded and humiliated.

Like, that's what it does for you, right? Is that a part of it? Like, when you're dressed up? Like, what is the feeling? Like, oh, my. God, I shouldn't be wearing it. Like, is it a humiliation thing that you're dressed as a girl and you're a guy? It is, yeah, totally. That's why I like going in and buying them. And then it's, like, even more humiliating if I'm, like, dressed up. And, you know, I've done some, like, video sessions online, like Skype once in the past. And, like, say, I love getting me dressed up. And she would laugh and take the piss. And then also, like, after I should see all the dressing up, I would then go into the forcing.

And she would be like, like, it's the only thing that is, I like to say when I'm in them sessions, that's going to get me off. It's like your farts, mistress, your eggy faults, that type of thing. And you could, you pay for those kind of calls, right? Like to have them. And do you still do that through this relationship or do you engage in those kinds of? think sometimes because you can't do it with your girlfriend? Once or twice, yeah, just for more for the cissification side and, and like really getting into like the disgusting bits of the farting.

See their reaction? What is it? What is the name of it? I like to play like fort porn on the video calls and get their reaction as well. Uh-huh. And like, is this. Do you know what I mean? Yeah.

just like you were doing for me. That's why I was like, are you jerking off? Maybe you were. I mean, is that a turn on to you? Like, kind of exposing yourself that you're into this? That's why, I mean, you were moving around a lot. And I was like, are you fucking jerking off?

I'm not going to edit it out anymore because, like, maybe you were because like outing yourself and talking to me right now and knowing you're going to be online and exposing yourself. Is that all fucking a turn on for you? I mean, I mean, I wasn't. No, I wasn't. jerked off. My mom was walking into the garden and pegging the washing out while I'm in the

shed. You lied because you said before it was your girlfriend. Now you're saying it was your mom. Yeah, I know. What's the fucking truth? No, it's, I suppose it is kind of like a I mean, listen, I'm starting to think you definitely were because think about it. Like this,

like the exposure, the people knowing, telling people about it and getting their reaction is like a turn on. Like maybe when I was like laughing at you, did you get a like a little Woody? I definitely, like, felt, you know, excitement. Just be honest.

I'm not going to fucking hang up on you. No, no. I forget that a part of, like, your kink is, like, the humiliation, and I'm sitting there apologizing for laughing, but I forget, like, maybe that was a turn on. It definitely gives me excitement, like, talking to you on the phone. Yeah, exposing yourself. Walking into those places, buying it, people knowing. you know, knowing that this is going to go out and people are going to be listening.

You're creating porn right now for yourself. It's okay. I'm with you on this one, okay? I'm not going to like hang up. I'm still going to air it because I think it's a very interesting episode. But I think I was so clueless to realize that like this whole confession could be like a, you know, a turn on for you. I mean, it's definitely, it's exciting to like talk. about it. It's something like I don't normally do it more of like a professional kind of setting type thing.

Yeah. Like I have actually went in and tried to like do therapy things. Okay. Like just to try and they talk about it more like professionally because if I'm doing it like over a video call it's it's more kind of just cut to the chase. Yeah. Where and they're not really inquisitive whereas I quite I suppose it's something. and I've wanted somebody to be inquisitive about. Yeah, of course, yeah, I get it. So it's both. It's a turn on and it's also feels, I would assume, you know, like, not helpful,

but like really sort of freeing to be able to really talk about it seriously with someone and have them question you and talk it all out. Yeah, and then get your, like, I suppose, like, two cents on what? Because you said, like, at the start, this is really like one of the realist things. you've ever come across and I know I've listened to your show. Yeah. And some of the things I come across, I think, well, that's not as bad as me, but I kind of put it in perspective, you know? Well, I just think it's a hard, like, because listen, I'm like on the opposite end of the spectrum. Like I said, I would never, like, want to share a bathroom with someone. Like,

I'm not interested in bodily functions at all. Like, guy friends have, guy, boyfriends, boyfriends have been so mad at me because, like, I'm not interested in them doing that shit in front of me like and everyone's different some women are very open I remember that really hot girl Jessica Simpson she used to have like a reality show she burp and fart in front of her guy and I was like oh my god I give her credit that she could do that but I just could never I don't want to hear my guy doing it I'm like on the opposite end of the spectrum so I'm like horrified I also just you know for me like real what really you know what my take away from this and you know I had this guy on well I had a lot of sex therapist on I would love to talk to them about this because I just think it's unfurating

And like you don't like you don't think it's unfortunate right like I like I said my takeaway for this is like when I'm hearing you explain it in the beginning as this little kid just Stumbling upon this thing and then getting wired into it and then they kept like getting you more wired into like the grosser the more humiliating Everything you know and then before you know what you're dressing up you know and I'm just like oh my God like you know that like had you not ever stumbled upon that maybe you would have never got into that I don't know but I think that that's like very damaging but like do you ever but you You, like, when I was bringing that up and saying, like, oh, my God, you're like, well, I don't really want to change it. Like, you're like, you know what I mean? Like, you don't have no problem with this now. Yourself?

It's, it's always, like, it's, every day is different. Like, some days, I do think it's just more of a hindrance. But I would see, like, when I get horny. Yeah. Like, I do want this. Like, it's something that, like, really does, like, turn me on. And when I'm in the moment, I would never want to not. Of course.

Of course, because it's a turn on. Yeah, I get it. Yeah. Yeah. But the sophistication, do you, like, when you look about, I talk to a lot of crossdressers and guys that are into that kind of stuff. And sometimes it starts very early. I definitely have talked to people that it came, you know, way later and it was tied

to something else. And that's what I'm thinking with you. But I just want to make sure, like, before, you know, you stumbled upon it and it became this thing because you started to get into humiliating. like, did you ever, like, girl clothing when you were little? Like, can you look back and be like, oh, you know what? This was kind of like in me before, and then it just got triggered when I got into this? I definitely remember when I was, like, in, at probably little school and watching, like, Disney cartoons as a kid.

And, like, I remember one time wrapping myself up in a duvet and pretending to be, Snow White. Oh, so that's why. So see Disney, you're like, oh, it's always princessy thing. So it was there before. Maybe, yeah. Yeah, dad. Because think about that's where you got your princess dresses from, Disney. Yeah.

Yeah. Yeah. Yeah, for sure. It's, I can definitely remember doing that and like watching, you know, Disney cartoons and like, I can just remember Snow White and getting dressed up in it like a dovet and pretend it was a dress. Yeah, yeah, for sure.

Yeah, and that's, I think that that's a sign, I think, a little bit. Let me ask you this last question. Have you ever, like, have you ever been into guys when you're dressed? Some, like a lot of cross-dressers, there are people that dress up or even people in just thisification. Sometimes when they are dressed up as a woman, even if they're not interested in men when they're a man in their male form, they do have a desire to be with a guy, you know, in when they are dressed up. Do you have any of that inside of you? Or do you just always strictly want to play it with? women even when you're cisified. No, I have, yeah, definitely. Like, you've probably heard it that loads, BBC. Definitely, like, the bigger, the better, the more manly. The more manly, yeah, exactly. That's what it's about for you. Yeah, that's what you said. And it's, you know, I watched when I was in that kind of period, just discovering it, I watched a lot of BBC. You know, I got like a big BBC dildo. Okay. So, like, Like, I am into that sort of thing, but it wouldn't be, I think I would want a woman there with me. Mm-hmm.

I wouldn't want to do it just me and a guy, but I would definitely, you know, like, if there was a BBC in front of me, I would, and I have, like, all my clothes, you know, my dresses, and there was a woman who would, like, guide me through it. Mm-hmm. I would be 100% down. Okay. But you never, have you ever been with a guy, or have you just played? online with guys? I've not even really played online because it's it is more kind of I think a woman being there and being like or

kind of forcing me to do it type of thing. Yeah, yeah, that's a forced by scenario. Yeah, and you could get that in a dungeon but I don't want to give you any ideas. Listen, I, you know, you're so young. I want to help you like you know, sort of make sure that you take all of these things that you're into and make sure, you know, you don't wind up like, really, things in your life because you keep them secret and you do all these things and you start cheating on your girl and whatever, you know. So maybe think about being a little bit more open, even with the cissy side of yourself or the part of you that wants to be degraded with your girl

or be more honest about what you want in the bedroom so you don't have to be doing it separate from her, you know, that'll just help your relationship. I agree. Yeah, I agree. Yeah, so I've got a good girlfriend, I want to try and, you know, make this relationship work in the long run. So I totally agree with you. Yeah, yeah, because you don't want to, and like I said, it's at different times nowadays. You know, your girl is growing up in a different time than these guys that are 60 and married to women that were, you know, born 60 years ago. It's a different world and people are much more open-minded. So the chances of her being accepting, especially because she's with you for three years, is she got to want to throw away her whole relationship with you because you have this other side of you that

likes to kind of dress up every now and that. Maybe not. You know, I know plenty of women and I've talked, I've had them on my show who have found out their guys into that and they don't leave them for it. Most of the time, you know, it's hard for women to find guys that everything aligns and they like somebody and everything's good. So if she really likes you, most likely, well, she's not going to leave you for it. So, you know, you should maybe start being a little bit more honest. But, you know, that's that. Yeah, I agree. Yeah. So think, of that okay if you ever do tell her let me know but listen i could have talked to you for another i'm like oh my god it's already at an hour and i have to go because it's a saturday and i got to take

my son out but thank you so much for calling in and being so honest with your these crazy this fetish and everything it's super interesting it's very hard for me to sort of talk to somebody about something that i don't have on my show very often uh yeah recently i have i had the ball busting lady i did like i said have another girl that was into this but it was so long ago you I did watch it, yeah. Yeah. It's a good episode. I put it helped me.

Yeah, it was a long time ago and it was the only one. So this is like, to me, it's like kind of new because I haven't heard it in so long. So thank you so much for calling in and sharing your story. I will give you free access to my Patreon to see the comments. I will give you free access to my private Discord too to go in there, which is super fun. You'll get the link to Discord right after we talk and then I'll give you the link to Patreon because it's for a month. I want to give it to you when your episode airs. Okay, I'll email you that.

So thanks so much for calling in, Juliet. Good luck with everything. Thank you so much. Okay. Thank you. Thanks. Bye. Bye, Kathy. Bye.

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