Strictly Anonymous Confessions - 1320 - Mandy went From Zero Orgasms to Getting into Kink, Squirting, Hooking up with Guys Online and More

Episode Date: December 29, 2025

Mandy went from never having zero orgasms to getting into kink, squirting, hooking up with guys online and more and she called in to talk all about it. Tune in to hear all the details including how and why she never had great sex and never had an orgasm, how and why she recently decided to change the game in her sex life, how and why she had never masturbated in her whole life, who suggested she start jerking off and playing with toys and the friend who helped her learn, the adult site she went on to find a guy to live out all her fantasies, the podcaster she met up with who was married but willing to hook up, what they discussed they were going to do beforehand, their first hook up and exactly what went down, how he made her squirt, all the types of orgasms she had with him, the Munch she went to recently and the young guy who wanted her and how she felt about it, what's on her backlist next plus a whole lot more. GET A COPY OF THE STRICTLY ANONYMOUS BOOK! Strictly Anonymous Confessions: Secret Sex Lives of Total Strangers. A bunch of short, super sexy, TRUE stories. GET YOUR COPY HERE: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://amzn.to/4i7hBCd⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ To see HOT pics my female guests + hear anonymous confessions + get all the episodes early and AD FREE, join my Patreon! It's only $7 a month and you can cancel at any time. You can sign up here: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.patreon.com/StrictlyAnonymousPodcast⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ and when you join, I'll throw in a complimentary link to my private Discord! To join SDC and get a FREE Trial! click here: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.sdc.com/?ref=37712⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ or go to SDC.com and use my code 37712  Want to be on the show? Email me at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠[e-mail]⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ or go to ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠http://www.strictlyanonymouspodcast.com⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ and click on "Be on the Show." Want to confess while remaining anonymous? Call the CONFESSIONS hotline at 347-420-3579. All voices are changed.  Sponsors: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.quince.com/strictlyanon⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ — For premium quality Quince clothing plus FREE shipping and 365 day returns! ⁠⁠⁠https://vb.health⁠⁠⁠ — To get 10% off DRIVE Boost by VB Health use code: STRICTLY ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://butterwellness.com/⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ — Use the code STRICTLY at checkout for 20% OFF your entire order⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://beducate.me/pd2540-anonymous⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠— Click here to take the quiz and  get your personalized roadmap to sexual happiness ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://bluechew.com⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ — Get 10% OFF your first month of Bluechew GOLD! Use code: STRICTLYANON⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://motorbunny.com/strictly⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ — Holiday Sale PLUS $50 off! Follow me! Instagram  ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/strictanonymous/⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ X ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://twitter.com/strictanonymous?lang=en⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Website  ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠http://www.strictlyanonymouspodcast.com/⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Everything else: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://linktr.ee/Strictlyanonymouspodcast⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

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just email it to me strictly anonymous podcast at gmail.com. Now the last thing I want to tell you about is SDC. I have a free code. They have really great deals in December. So now is the time to sign up to SCC. They're the world's largest online hookup site. You don't just hook up with people in SDC. There is so much information over there on everything having to do with the lifestyle. If you use my code 37712, you're going to get a free trial to check it out. That's SDC.com. Use my code 37712 or just go to the description and click on the link. Okay, today I have on me. I love Mandy's whole story. I actually think it's very inspiring. She is a woman who, you know, never could like orgasm, had terrible sex her whole life, had never even like played with herself,

like ever in her whole life. And she talks about why that was what she had been through, why she had never received any kind of pleasure in her life. And I mean, this is a woman who's like 46 at this point. But she did finally change things up. And that's what makes this whole story interesting. This is like a woman who has just like literally changed her whole life, midlife, and is living her best life finally now. Not only is she like having orgasm, she's like squirting. She's like having nipple orgasm. She's like a beast. And she's had like this one super hot experience with this guy that she met online.

But like the whole story is about how she went from being like this woman who was like not having any kind of sex with anybody and never having an orgasm to deciding to get into like a little BDSM and just going on like adult websites and looking for people to hook up and explore the things, the sexual thing she was into that were not vanilla at all. And she wound up meeting one guy. She talks about where she went. She eventually met a guy and she had one major hot experience with him. She talks all about it. And she talks about how now she's like going to do a gang bang. She's going to go to Swingers Club. You got to hear her whole story. Because there's like massive change in her life. And I think it's like inspiring for any women out there. And she's like,

who haven't like really got in touch with their sexuality. Like she's here to say it's never too late. So her story's super interesting and I'm going to get right to interview right back on with Mandy. Hi Mandy. Welcome to the Strictly Anonymous podcast. How are you today? I'm doing well. How are you?

Good. So Mandy, you're one of those women who like later in life, you know, decided to, I don't know, like, you know, come to terms with some sexual stuff that you might have been into all your life that you weren't. I don't know. You did recently, out of nowhere, 46 get into BDSM, correct? Correct. Okay, was this something that you had always been interested in? Like, why BDSM and why at 46? What's your story?

Oh, God. My whole life, I was always, like, wanting, like, more. When it came to sex? Yes. The initial, like, me on top, him on top, just never really got me there. Okay. and it always seemed like the sex ended before I could even get close to a climax. And I would ask like, hey, how about like holding my hands above my head? Why?

I'm like, because I think I said, wait a second, man. Let me get your history. I mean, have you only been with one guy your whole life and like he just never could do it? Did you have a lot of guys and you just had no voice? I mean, how come you never found satisfying sex all these years? Were you married for like your whole life? I have never been married. Okay. And I have had multiple partners. And they all were terrible? They were all terrible. No wonder why you never got married, Mandy. I know.

Maybe that's what was missing. Okay, so you just never had good sex, but you were always trying to get guys. Like, you were trying to push the boundaries a little bit with your guys and no one was ever, no one ever got into it. Oh, yeah. I was always told that I was crazy and I had to go seek therapy. Why? What kind of things would you ask? I mean, no one's going to say you need therapy if you say, hold my hand.

What kind of shit were you asking them to do? Slap my face? I was asking for my ass to be smacked. I was asking to be choked. I was asking to be tied up. It was all from all these novels that I was reading out. It was turning me on. Yeah.

I want this done to me. Yeah, there's a lot of women that are into BDSF. And you know what? I remember a guy friend of mine being with a girl and he like broke up with him. He's like, oh, I can't tell you why. I'm like, no, like, what happening? Just like, oh, no. And I think it was like she wanted him to like choke her or

slap her like real and he just like for the life of him could not do it could not understand it he made her seem like the biggest freak on the planet you know what I mean to him so I understand that you would have that kind of reaction from a lot of guys because you know I know a lot about this stuff because I'm I've been podcasting for 12 years and talking to people you know so I'm in the no but I think on the outside world a lot of people just don't have any clue and they might be a little like what the fuck why would you want me to hurt you you know Exactly. But the thing is is that it's not hurting. It actually enhances everything. Exactly. That's what they don't effing get. Okay, so you'd never been married. You were always in like sexless marriages. So what changed all of a sudden that you decided to like go seek it out on your own somewhere or like I don't know. How are you into it now and you weren't before? I had a huge life change. The relationship that I was in was a nine year abusive relationship and I ended up getting a diagnosis. of vaginal cancer.

Oh, no. Everything's fine. I made a move down to Florida with my best friend, and once I was down here, I started realizing because I'm in a very liberal town, and everybody speaks very openly about their sexuality, and I noticed that there was a lot of people into this world, and I'm like, hmm. Oh, yeah. By the way, Florida is like the Swinger Club Mecca, you know what I mean?

seriously. Oh, God, yes. And so I was just like, you know what? I'm going to throw caution to the wind and I'm going to do this. Okay. So I started listening to some different podcasts, yours, you're strictly anonymous. And you talked about SDC. So I signed up. Did you use my code? You have to tell people I have a code. I did use your code. Yeah, you get a free trial for three days. It's 37711. or just go to the description, click, I'm like, do you like SDC? I did.

I just didn't want to pay for it. Okay. And I think I'm going to give it a try again because I had better luck on there than I do with FetLife. Oh, yeah, I think you know what it is with Fet Life? Fet Life does have a lot of, like, kink and fetish stuff on there.

It's a good place to go, but it's much more of, like, networking than pickup site. You know what I'm saying? Like, I feel like a lot of people don't meet up on FET. I can't explain it. That's what I think I was. told one day.

Whereas SDC is much more so of a like, you know, an app to like date or meet people, stuff like that. Yes. It's more about finding that dynamic. Yeah. Where FetLife is more about a quick hookup. And that's not what I'm looking for. That's what, that's my experience.

Because every time I get a message from somebody, it's quickly like, I want to do this to you. And I'm like, did you not read my profile? I'm looking for somebody that I can connect with where I can do. the things that I'm interested in because I need trust for these. Yeah and anybody that's into any Dom that's seriously into BDSM I think would know that. I mean what I was most surprised about about BDSM when I first started doing my show is how much like it wasn't about sex and how much a lot of it was about mental foreplay and stuff like that you know so I'm surprised that these guys were

coming at you I mean they weren't real Dom's if they were coming at you like that because they would know that it's not BDSM is never a quick hookup. So, you know, BDSM is never like that. So you're on Fat Life, you're looking, you're on SDC, and what do you post on there? So on SDC, it was very simple. It was just like a one little headliner where I wrote, it was something like collar, it was like colored to chain or something like that. And it caught this gentleman's eye. And I have their permission to drop their, to talk about them. And he reached out to me. And he reached out to me and he's like, hey, my name is so-and-so, and my wife and I have a podcast. Why don't you check

it out? And here's my number, and let's see if we live. And so I went to their podcast. I don't, you can edit this out if you don't want it. No, I don't care about other, I have people on other podcasts on my show all the time. I love helping other podcasters. And it's called Swingology, and I listened to it. And I would just say, okay, so obviously he is being honest about his wife, just letting him go out and play because she talks about. talks about it all the time. And we, and so we were messaging back and forth through the phone. And then he said, you know what? We're viving pretty well. How about a phone call? I said, okay. And we started talking. And he just made me feel very relaxed. He made me feel like he cared

about what I wanted, my needs. And he's just like, I know this is out of the blue. And I'm like, yeah, he's like, would you be free tonight? And I was just like, you know what? Fuck it. Oh my God. In one sentence, you are a little wacky. One sentence before you're like, oh, all these guys hit me up and they just want to meet me right away. And I'm like, no fucking way.

But this guy hits you up and you meet him the next day. It was the way that we were vibing. Yeah, I got it. I get it. I'm very big. I've learned a lot about myself in the last couple months. I'm a very demisexual. I'm a sapiosexual words and connection.

And somebody like getting into my mind, that turns. turns me on. Okay. And he, he was doing all that and it just turned me on. And I was like, okay, I was like, you know what? Sounds like my alternator is going and I won't be able to make it to work tonight. And so he lives three hours for me. So we decided to meet somewhere in the middle. And I was just like, well, I'm just going to Uber for a little bit and then I'll head out that way. And we were supposed to meet at nine. And at seven o'clock, I picked up a ride. that was taking me to where we were meeting. And so I just let him know,

hey, I'm going to be there way before you. So he left early and we were talking and thank God he called me because I was really talking myself out of this. I was like, you're crazy. You've never met this man, regardless of the fact that he has a podcast.

He can murder you. And he called me and we talked and he's like, you seem like you're a little anxious. And he just helped me get out of myself. And when he got there, we sat in the lobby and we were just talking. And through the whole entire thing, he was asking for my consent for everything, which let my guard down because I felt safe. When he wanted to move close to me, is it okay if I move my chair closer to you? Yes.

Is it okay if I, if I rub your arm? Is it okay if I kiss your neck? he was letting me know that I was in control, which helped me so much to be able to relax and know that nothing was going to happen to me that I did not give consent to. Yeah, and the truth is, if you talk to anybody that really knows about BDSM, the sub seems like they're the one in the least control, but they actually do have the most control. That's the way it's supposed to be, because they need the most trust. And I finally got to the point where I was like, you know what, I feel comfortable. I'm like, I'm ready to go upstairs. And when he said, give me a minute, I have to go pay for the room.

That really made me feel good because it wasn't like he was like, yes, this is definitely going to happen. He made sure that I was okay before he even purchased the room. And when we got up there, it was so nice because I have never done this before. So I wasn't fully thinking about packing everything that I needed. and he had this little bag that had feminine wash and all this stuff and I was like oh my god how sweet so I showered up and everything and he said that he had to go downstairs to go get us some water and all that and when I was still in the shower he knocked he's like I'm sorry is it okay if I use the bathroom I'm like sure and I'm showering and I look and he's like looking at my stuff that's out on the countertop and I'm like

why are you so nosy what are you looking at and he's like so nosy what are you looking at and he's like Somebody just came all dressed up. I'm like, shh. And so I get out of the shower. I get all dolled up. This is the first time I've ever worn lingerie. And I'm about to walk out the door. I'm like, okay, this man's about to see every imperfection of my body.

And I was so scared to walk out. And when I opened up the door, the lights were off, but there was this faint little red light. And just enough to like see the silhouette, but you could see more when you're like, on top of each other. Yeah. There's something about red light that all these people use in the Swinger community. Oh my God. It's sexy.

I don't know what it is. I hate red. Yeah, but it's good for that. Right. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah.

Okay. And so like I was like, okay, I'm just going to run and like just hop on the bed and like just close my eyes. And he's like, there's nothing to be nervous about. And he's like, is it okay if I massage you? I'm like, sure. So it all started with a massage. and the best damn massage ever.

And little by little, he was asking if he could kiss me. And finally, I just said, you know what? I want you to do what you feel will make me feel good. If I don't like something, I will let you know. None of this was negotiated ahead of time. A lot of this was negotiated. But I think because of the fact that it was my first time and he knew it was my first time, he kept wanting to

Yeah, no, you're making it sound like he has no clue what you want and you're just going to let him know as you go. But that's not the case. You did sort of tell him stuff that you were into ahead of time, which typically happens. Absolutely. Like our initial phone call. Yeah, let's talk about that.

I mean, this is like, listen, this is a newbie story. Okay, newbie stories, you don't have a lot of experience under your belt, but what newbie stories are good at is talking about all the stuff that you did before, how it went down before. And then we're going to get to like the actual episode that you finally had. And I remember you saying like it was like a first time he had an orgasm, which we'll discuss that too. But like you had to like what was the negotiation that happened beforehand? That's important.

Okay. So he asked me like why now. And I explained to him my whole entire life that I wanted this. And so he asked me what I was into. And I said, I've never tried any of this, but being tied up with my hands above. my head is something that I'm really interested in. I'm interested in being spanked and and having nipple clamps on. I am into oral, both giving and receiving.

I'm into, and like I explained to him, I'm in, I want a man to be a man and be aggressive with me, not abuse me, but be aggressive. Pull my hair, smash my face into the pillow, talk dirty to me, tell, tell me that I like how you take me. I said, I like to be called a sled. Yeah, don't be afraid to say that out loud. A lot of girls do. Don't worry that.

I find some hesitancy in your fight. And he asked me, he goes, what are your hard nodes? What is something that you don't even want to explore? I'm like, anal. Anal is 100%. Don't even try to discuss it with me. Okay. And he did say, is it okay if I,

asked why and I said yes I was brutally sadamized and anything talking about that just turns me off and takes me to a place that I don't want to be. So you have past trauma with that? Yes. Okay. And so

he asked me if I'm into toys. I said I just recently got into toys. Being 46 years old, I've never pleasureed myself, never penetrated myself. Do you play with your hands? Oh, I had never touched myself.

Okay, I'm obsessed with people like you because I had one girlfriend my whole life that was like, yeah, I never masturbate. I'm like, what? Like, I've never, I can't even believe you could just be with yourself your whole life and have all this time to yourself and never. I mean, I get that no guy can make you come. But the reason why no guy can make you come is because you never figure out how to make yourself come. I mean, that's the problem. It wasn't really the guy's fault. It was your fault.

Typically, you need to know your own body as a woman. You do know that, right? Oh, I do now. Yes. Yeah, I mean, that was the reason why. It wasn't all the guys were bad. You had no clue how your body worked because you never explored it. Do you think it's because of that past trauma?

Like, how old were you when you had that trauma in your life? Well, I've had a lot of trauma in my life. I was 19 when that happened, but I had been sexually abused when I was a child. Exactly. That's why, you know, you had some sort of like major block, you know, to, because I think it's natural curiosity for most people to do that kind of stuff. And you probably had, like, you know, well, you did have, like, really horrific stuff put on you, right? That you had no choice on. And that probably really affected your ability to pleasure yourself and be pleasure by other people. And a lot of times, unfortunately, and I don't think it's a bad thing as long as you're in control. And it sounds like you are and you pick the really right person to do it with. You're not like doing this dysfunctionally, like where you're just going out with a stranger.

You got your head on straight. But like a lot of times people that do. do have trauma in their past sometimes are into stuff like this. And they say it's not necessarily a bad thing as long as like you're in control of it. Sometimes it's a way to work through that kind of stuff. Or if you got wired into it, you know, it's okay if you're doing it like consensually. And like I said, with you in control. And it sounds like, you know, everything you've done up to this point with this guy, we're going to get back to the guy, has been correct. So you had never had an orgasm your whole life. You had never even went to town on yourself ever by yourself. Never. Wow. Interesting. Did you ever even think about it? Did you ever watch porn in your whole life?

I did. And my thing is, is that every time I went to go touch myself, in the back of my head, I would hear, if you masturbate, you'll go to hell. Oh, God. And you really believed it. I did. You know, remember when they said you would, like, they have all different things. Like, you go blind, you grow hair on your hands. Like, there's all kinds of things that they would tell people. So you're like, you kept hearing that in your head. So it was like religious stuff that was put on you too. Yes.

And so when he asked me if I was into toys, I said, I am now. And he told me that I could bring like a toy if I wanted to. Okay. But let me ask you this. Why all of a sudden did the girl, the woman now, who's never had an orgasm, never played with herself, never was into porn really? Like why all of a sudden did you start playing with yourself and using toys? Was it like that whole big shift like getting cancer like changed your whole like view on life and you just decided to like completely change things up and you came

into your own? Actually my therapist suggested it. She suggested that you start dittling yourself. Well she. I love that. No, I think that that was probably like a really great thing. She had talked, she had asked me because I was talked about how sex was never good and how I want to have sex.

Yeah. But why do I even want to? start dating anybody when nobody can even get me off. Yeah. And so. She was like, you need to figure out how to get yourself off. Yeah. And I'm like, what are you talking about?

Yeah. And she's like, you've never explored yourself. You've never looked at your vagina. Yeah, she's right. You've never touched yourself. Mm-hmm. I'm like, no. Why would I do that?

Yeah. And she's like, because the whole point of knowing what turns you on is knowing yourself. Yeah. And then I just say that. I should have been a therapist. I just didn't want to be. Because they have to be more patient.

I could just shove it in your face. Go on. So I remember being on the phone with my friend and telling my friend that I'm supposed to do this and I don't know how to do this. So my friend's just like, you know what? Just go in your bathroom, sit on the counter and talk to me. And we'll just talk about everything. And you just do what you need to do. This way it helps you with your mental block.

Interesting. Your girlfriend is like, I'm going to talk you through it or a guy friend? It was a guy friend. Oh, of course. And what a generous guy friend. He's like, you could jerk yourself off with a dildo while I talked to you over the phone. And so like, I remember looking at it. I'm like, and I was like, oh my God, my vagina's ugly. He's like, what do you mean your vagina is ugly? Explained it to me. Did he want you to explain it? And I'm like.

I didn't know he was jerking off probably the whole time. Oh, he probably was, and that's fine. That's so funny. Because we do it all the time now on the phone with each other. Oh, okay. And this was the start of it. I love though that he comes in like Good Samaritan, but really, he's like, you know, he's no dumb dummy.

He sees an opportunity. And actually it paid off because he's still like, you know, having phone sex with you. Yeah. Oh, my God, so funny. And I go visit him now, so. So, okay, so you get your toy and he talks you through it. Yes. And I was like, oh my God, that was fucking amazing.

He's like, was it now? I'm like, oh, my God. I'm like, I'm like, why have I been depriving myself my whole entire life? Yeah, yeah. Imagine? Can you believe what you've been missing? I know. And so with that, that's how that led me into wanting to explore my desires.

That's when you're like you're going to allow yourself to. find somebody that is really interested in what you have to do instead of the opposite way around, right? Like you're going to just go on these sites, put out what you want, and now you know for a fact you're going to guide a guy that's not going to be weirded out by what you're looking for. And I think that's smart. Absolutely. Yeah. Absolutely. And that is one thing that I think that all women should do is explore themselves and figure out what they like and what they don't like. Because I know for me, once I realized what I liked, it opened up my mind to be able to relax when I had the right partner

and to be able to reach those climaxes and to just feel like, the best way to explain it for me is, like, I feel like I have felt all the joy that the world could ever give me when it comes to the next day because I'm just completely depleted, but it's a good depletion. Of course. I mean, there's like, like, orgasms are healthy and needed in your body. They release serotonin. I mean, there's a lot of physical things that happen. And it is very true. Listen, women are much more complicated than men, right? Like, so for a woman, there's so many women out there that don't know, I mean, maybe they explore their body, but they don't do it enough that don't know their bodies and have like, find it very hard to orgasm for those reasons. They don't speak up for themselves in the bedroom. Like, there's a lot of, of things that, you know, women don't do that sort of gets in the way of them really having great sex, but they're capable of it. And one of the main things is you need to know your own body because we're all different, right? Every clit is different. Every G spot is different. Like, some people know how to squirt. Some people can't. Some people can figure it out, you know,

you got to like work your body and figure it out. And then you got to be comfortable, then you're going to be more comfortable with a guy. And then you're going to have to speak up and tell him how you like. it and that's another thing that I think a lot of women don't know how to do they don't speak up for themselves when their guys doing their things to tell them what they you know move down a little bit do it this way stop that you know and you speak up and get yourself fucking off you know you got to be a little selfish and I got to tell you guys love self selfish women I was always extreme I'm a big mouth right so I never had a problem telling guys exactly what the fuck to do I knew my body and I was there to have a fucking orgasm okay and I'm not going to leave until I do and I was always

very selfish in bed with guys. And let me tell you, most guys thought I was like so fucking good in bed. And I think it was because, listen, guys want you to have an orgasm. They want to please you. There's nothing more frustrating if they can't. And then a woman gets in her head because she knows it's frustrating and then she can't. You know, so it's just a recipe for disaster. So women just got to speak up for themselves, know their body, go in and don't leave

to you get a fucking orgasm and make him work for it. And trust me, he'll be happier because of it. So listen, so let's get back. So let's get back. to your guy. Now I see the full picture, and I love it. It's like, you know, you're kind of really coming full circle without really realizing it. I love that your therapist, you know, sort of got you into that.

I love your good Samaritan friend that jerked off with you and helped you out with your toys. And now you got this guy. What did you bring with you? Did you bring anything with you to that hotel besides your lingerie? Yes. So I did bring my little pink little dildo that I got from CVS. CVS has dildos? At least in Florida.

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his beautiful member his beautiful cock was that was all I could handle because I was feeling things that I've never felt before and he made me squirt and I did not know that I could swear.

See? Can you believe, you bitch, I've been having orgases my whole life and I still can't squirt right out of the bat. You're like a fucking squirter. Well, I'm telling you, maybe you need to get with him because, I mean, his wife talks about how he's an amazing lover and she is not lying. Like, he will not stop until you have been completely depleted. Yeah, that's all. He's a pleaser. Wait, so let's start at the beginning. So you get there, they got the red lights and everything.

He knows what you're. what you want. You want to be like rough, like you want to be roughed up. You don't want to be hurt for sure. You do want to be tied up and you got your toy. So what does he start to do to you first? He starts with a massage. Is that what you said? Yes. He starts with a massage and then he rolls me over and we start kissing and like a little bit of like just groin and growing and growing action with his pants, his boxer still on and like my tongue underwear. And then slowly he starts Like just like, just regularly like kissing my neck. I'm doing like my lingerie, exposing my breast. And it's just like central lovemaking at this point.

Mm-hmm. And just like overstimulating like all my senses with his touches and his kisses all over my body. By the way, this guy looks young to me. And how old, you're 46. How old is he? He's like 41. Oh, okay. He looks like a young guy.

I know. It doesn't it doesn't make you want to hate him that he looks like. young. Even though he's bald, like he's got no hair, but he still has like a baby face. You know what I mean? He does. He just Googling their podcast. Okay, I want them on my show. All right, so go on. So he's, you know, you're kissing, you're getting into it. You know, and again, he asks me, is it okay? I'm like, just go. Just go. You know, my boundaries, just go. Like, I could not think because I was enjoying everything that I was feeling. And him asked me for consent, snacks me out of it. I'm like, just go. Yeah. Yeah. And so, so he started finger-fucking me. And I felt this like horrible pressure. And I'm like, no, no, no. And he's like, does it hurt? I'm like, no. And he's like, he just kept going. And then I felt like this, this like huge explosion and all this. And I didn't, I thought I peed myself. I'm like, oh my God, I just pissed myself. He's like. That's what they say it feels like. And he's like, oh, no, you're a squirder. I'm like, oh, God, is that a good thing. He's like, oh, I fucking love it.

Yeah. And he was just like gathering up all my, I call it mead, all my juices and like just started like, like just washing my body with it, which I would think that I would be like totally grossed out by it, but I got turned on. I was like, oh my God. And then he went down on me. Mm-hmm. And the way that he ate me out was like nothing I've ever felt before.

all I remember is that he constantly was constantly making me squirt while he was going down on me, finger fucking me and eating me out at the same time. And then I was having like multiple orgasms. My body felt like it was betraying me. That's the only way I can explain it. Like it wasn't betraying me in a bad way, but it's just like every single muscle in my body was like contracting and releasing. and I felt like I was, I literally felt like I was on the brink of dying.

But that's like where you're supposed to be, you know, and I think that's why some people find it hard to go there because it is a letting go. You have to completely let go and allow whatever to happen to happen. And sometimes people, especially women if you're too in your head, you can't get to that place and you need to be there. And that's the ecstasy of it all. Oh, yeah. And I remember it. one point he got me up off the bed and we were on like the six or seventh floor and he opened up the drape and this is night time thank god yeah and and he pushes he pushes me up against the window so my breasts are all exposed my hands are up on the window and he just starts fucking me

there and he is the hottest thing like oh my god like and like the whole time he's like you like the fact that people could possibly see you. And at that moment, I realized, I want people to watch me while I'm doing this. I like to be watched. This whole entire play scene, I'm learning stuff about myself that I didn't think I, I never knew. And he made me come like four times just standing there as he was fucking me. And like, I read, all of something primal came over me. like I no longer wanted to be the submissive. I wanted to be the dominant. And I remember pushing him on the bed and getting on top of him and just riding him.

And like, I have never been able to reach an orgasm with just plain penetration. But for some reason, his cock, it like curves up and it was hitting that spot just perfectly. And I remember just like feeling just like nothing but like it felt like it felt like I was in a pool after a while because of how saturated I made him. Yeah. And somewhere along the line, he was just like, yep, you're done being primal. And he flipped me over and oh my God, he was teaching me like doggy style saying because through this whole thing, he was just like, would you like to do this again and maybe go to secrets? And like, I've never had conversations during sex before. But here we are having conversations and still orgasming.

And I'm like, well, what's secrets? And he's telling me all about this and asking if I would ever be into, like, gang bang. And as we're talking about this, it's turning me on because I'm thinking about, like, him watching me having all these guys just, like, pound me out and then coming to reclaim me. and I'm like, I'm like, that's kind of hot. I'm like, yeah, I'd be down to that. Oh, my God. He's, he's really,

you really hit the jackpot with this guy. You're going to be trying to, you move to the right state for what you're into. Oh, I know. And like, so like, as I'm doggie style, he's like, this is the perfect position where one, either me or somebody else, whoever you choose to be with,

would be getting you from behind, and then you could be giving you from behind. and then you could be given oral to a guy on the bed. And, like, he was teaching me things that I didn't even know was possible. I didn't know that a woman could have an orgasm just by our nipples being pinched and twisted a certain way. Some women can't, but you can? Oh, my God, I was getting turned. Oh my God.

I don't know what this man. This man is a god. Yeah, but I think it's in combination with you just like fucking plugging yourself in finally. And now you're like every girl should be jealous of you. You could have orgasms. You could squirt. You're like everything's like working tenfold. Like the best.

I mean, a lot of women can't orgasm from their nipples being touched. I think I had that once. Oh, my God. and I'll never forget when he put me to the edge of the bed. And I don't know, if I remember correctly, I believe he put a pillow underneath me so he got deeper penetration. And I'll never forget the orgasm. And it felt like I had like multiple orgasms there because the pressure was coming from all different areas.

Mm-hmm. I remember getting a leg cramp because my muscles had tightening up so much, but it was so amazing. Like, I could not catch my breath after this orgasm. It was so intense that I started crying, but I wasn't sad. Yeah, yeah. It was just releasing. It felt like I had released, like, years of, I don't know, tormentation or something. I think you might have.

But it was absolutely amazing and how soaked the edge of the bed and the floor was just for me. I was proud of myself. You should be. I'm like, I'm a dirty little whore. You are. I mean, you've come a long way and you came out of the gate like with a bang. I'm very lucky that my first time was with. this person.

Yeah. And that he was a pleasure dumb. And we didn't get into like tying me up. He did hold my hands with his with his hands above my head. But like what he said is that he wants to make sure that I am comfortable because all of that comes with trust. So I do appreciate that he didn't do it right away. And he wanted to build this rapport with me so that I felt comfortable.

Mm-hmm. And but like I remember like having to take break. because I was just so depleted and I felt like I couldn't go on anymore. And he would just, he would just let me relax and like just doze off. And then, and like 15 minutes later, I'm like,

okay, I'm ready. After five hours, I just had no more energy left. I just couldn't. Like, just to like spread my legs open felt like, God,

it felt like I had like two ton bricks on my legs and I could not move. Yeah. You were depleted. And like I looked at him. I'm like, I am so sorry. He's like, just sleep. This is a safe space. And like he allowed me to sleep. And like, and he had told me, listen, my wife lets me play. But I, there's one role. I have to be in bed by 5 a.m. before she wakes up. So at like 4 o'clock, he woke me up and let me know that he was leaving. And, and I said, that was fine. And the next morning, I woke up. And it just, I don't know the feeling. All I know is that it felt like I was walking on air. Right.

But I would also start crying for no reason. I'm like, what is wrong with me? And I had called one of the dom, not my dom, but he is a dom. And I'm like, what is wrong? I'm just crying. And he's like, you hit sub-drop. Sub-space. Oh, sub-drop, sub-drop, meaning like you're the crash.

chapter subspace. Yeah. Yeah. And I'm like, what's that? He's like, you depleted all your serotonin levels. Yeah. So he, he door-dashed me like some dark chocolate, a little bit of red wine. Oh, I love all these nice guys around you. Considering you came from an abusive past, you're, you're collecting the opposite kind of guys now in your sphere, which says something about your growth, by the way. You know that. Oh, thank you. Thank you. you very much and yes and I'm lucky that I take time to get to know people now before I let them into my life yeah I mean swingology man obviously that was like out of the norm not out of the norm but out of the norm for most people who are getting into BDSM but you weren't doing hardcore BDSM with him anyway you know what I mean it wasn't like there was whips and chains and

shit like that and listen you made the right decision you know somehow you felt like he was okay to meet up with and he was he was actually a very great first person you know and he was very thoughtful to you and kind to you and it was a great experience so you know you you did your picker is correct you know what mean it's not like he thought he was great and everything you showed up and he was the biggest asshole no he was he was he was a good first person to be with oh absolutely and like he's set the bar so high that I've tried to have scenes with other people. And I feel like we're viving, but the moment that we start becoming intimate, it's like they forget that consent needs to be there. And like they touch me in a way that I have already told them that, no, that's not okay. And I

end the scene right there. So you do. I was going to say, what do you do? You end. Yeah. I mean, because especially when it's a hard know, we have discussed this at agnosticum. Yeah, no, no, no. Anyone that lacks those kinds of boundaries, that's a major red flag, especially the first time you're with them. Get the fuck out of it.

Yeah. And do I feel a little discouraged because I haven't been able to find another play partner a little bit, but at the same time, I think that it's helping me grow with, with learning about red flags to watch out for fake doms and people who are just there

just to get their jollies off. Oh yeah, for sure. And I think maybe, you know, do a little bit more, you know, listen, I think you're doing it the right way in that you have to be very careful in these kinds of situation. I think, you know, you could probably listen to more BDSM episodes

to find out because I feel like real doms will approach you in a much different way then somebody that just wants to get down your pants and, you know, to have sex with someone who's willing to right away. It doesn't even know what BDSM is. Most doms, real doms that I know of that I've talked to. You know, it's all about building trust and getting to know the other person. Like I said, there's a lot of mental stuff that goes on. I mean, it's never like hop in bed the next day. Now, this guy, it doesn't sound like you had like hardcore BDSM with him, like you lived out some of your kinks with him and stuff. You know, he was a great first partner. But yeah, listen, it's not like it's easy.

It's like anything in life, whether you're dating, whether you're trying to find a hookup, a booty call, you know, a new job. I mean, you know, it's hard to find the one. And so you're going to have to vet people just like you would in any situation. You know, what you're looking for, though, does exist. And just make sure you do your due diligence. You're going to meet up with this guy again, correct? The Swinology guy?

Yes. We are planning on doing it after the whole. holidays, either before I go to Europe or after I go to Europe. So, so it's either going to be like January or like March time because I go to Europe in February. Oh, for the whole month? I'm going for two weeks. That's awesome. Where are you going? I'm going to South Hampton, Winchester, and London. Oh, amazing. Is that going to be your first time or do you go every year? No, this is going to be my first time ever leaving the United States. Oh, my God. This is your first of everything. It's like you've really reinvented yourself. Do you notice that about yourself?

I do. And it's amazing because when I look in the mirror now and when I'm smiling, I'm also smiling on the inside now. Yeah. And listen, traveling to another country isn't just amazing because you're traveling to, like there's something about travel, especially when you're going internationally or out of your, like that really changes you. You'll see that. It's just going to be an amazing experience. You're going to love it. It's important. And it's about time. But I mean, I love that at this point in your life, you've completely, like, changed the game.

Everything's new. You're just doing things for the first time. And why not? You know what I mean? It's never too late to fucking change things up, try new things and stuff like that. I love that for you. Oh, I encourage people. And, like, I talk openly at work with the girls.

And they're like, how, were you scared? I'm like, well, you're always going to be scared. You're always going to be scared. Even when you just go on a normal mundane date, you're nervous. Yeah. Yeah. Do you think you're ever going to go to like a swinger club or anything like that? Or do you just want to keep it up?

I want to. Oh, you do. Okay. Well, I think the swingology guy would be the perfect guy to get you into it. Or, you know, listen, you're in the mecca of like swinger clubs and stuff. And I got to tell you what's really great about the swinger world most of the time, I would say 99.9% is like women rule that world. I mean, you are in control. in a swinger club.

Like women hold all the power as they should. So, you know, you will be very safe even if you wanted to go there solo as a solo person. I know tons of women that have gone solo, you know, or you go with a friend or something. But you'll probably find a lot of amazing people there. Yeah, I went to my first munch a couple weeks ago. Yeah. And that was nice because I was able to network a little bit. Yeah.

And for some reason, I have some 27-year-old that is. just like in awe with me. I'm like... Okay, is that another thing you don't know about? Milfs and young guys? I mean, where are you just like, I know for already that you've been living under a rock. I mean, I'm learning about it now. That's a thing.

That's a thing. I'm like, I'm 46. I'm almost 20 years. Tell him your 50s. You'll be even more into you. That's what they like. He likes the fact that you're way older. It's a thing.

Part of me thinks it's because they want a mother. No, it's not. They just want a fucking older woman because they think there's no nonsense. They're probably good and bad. They've been there done that. They might have it as like a kink, you know, whatever. But it's, you know, it's been around since the dawn of time and it's a thing. When I was 40, I was fucking a 25-year-old for my gym and he was hot.

I think maybe I was 42. I don't even know. But it's a thing. Take it for, you know, there's nothing wrong with that. Oh, I mean, I don't think anything's wrong with it. It's just. But I'm just saying you could trust it. I mean, listen, this guy doesn't want to date you, but he wants to fuck you.

And if you want to fuck him, go, go for it. I kind of do. He's kind of hot, but at the same time, he's not smart. Yeah, but what do you? I mean, you know, what do you need? But let me ask you this. This is my last question for you. Like, what are you looking for, though?

Like, ideally, like right now in your life, now that you're exploring yourself, now that you know how to orgasm, now that you know that you could have pleasure. Would you like to find, like, a partner that you could do all this stuff with? Do you want to have, like, like, one night stand. Okay, so you are looking for somebody more serious that you could be like in a relationship with, but also explore all this stuff, right? Absolutely. And until I find that, I'm going to have fun. Yeah, so you could fuck a 27 year old. That guy's never going to be your boyfriend, though. You know what I mean? But, you know, you definitely can find people in the lifestyle, other single people. Make sure to go on the apps. Pay for a fucking app, okay, if you want to meet people. Munches are a great thing to do. A lot of even Swinger clubs have.

like meetups beforehand that so you can meet people and where they tell you about the club and stuff like that but i mean listen you're just starting i'm very curious where you'll be like six months from now a year from now i love newbie stories because a lot of times couples who have been through a big change it's like 10 years later they don't remember all the beginning stuff so much you know whereas like a newbie remembers all of it because it was it's so fresh it was only like how many months ago that all this happened or you know it was like recent so i love like all the stuff that you talked about in all of your experience. And I think it gives hope to other people out there if they're in your thing that like your life can totally change. You could go from being a woman who can't

fucking orgasm, who's been with abusive men, who's at all this trauma and no pleasure their whole life to someone who's like fucking in ecstasy so much that they're dropping the next day crying because they're depleted of ecstasy. Do you know what I'm saying? Like I think it gives other people hope. But I think, you know, you did the right thing. You went to therapy. You know, you moved, you broke up, you're not with the abusive guy anymore. Now you're living your best life, and I think it's like really super interesting. Oh, I love my life today. Yeah.

I love myself today. And I think that embracing the things that everybody told me was taboo, made me realize that I am who I am and I'm happy with who I am. Yeah, and there's nothing taboo about it, whatever you're into at all. The only taboo thing about it is if you ever enter a scene and don't get off. That's taboo. Or someone, you know, doesn't listen to you and it's not consensual, you know what I mean? But you have had experiences where people weren't listening and you get yourself out of those things. You're grown up. You take care of, you take good care of yourself. You know, you're not stupid. You

know what to do. And you just got to vet people the right way. But there's nothing taboo about what you're doing. I mean, that's what my show is here to say. It's not that like, I'm promoting the stuff and think everyone should do it. But the truth is that a lot of people do do things like this. And they aren't like weirdos or freaks that you would never think are, you know, like you. They're regular people, you know, walking around. It's like, you know, this is what some people are into. And who the fuck cares?

Why not? What's wrong with it? Nothing. And the thing is, is that once you really start looking into your desires, you realize that they're really connected to your dark side. Yeah, they can be, but it's a matter of like, and I'm sure you're, are you still in therapy talking to that therapist? Oh, yes. Yeah, and I'm sure there.

I believe everybody should do therapy. Yeah, it's the best, isn't it? I mean, it really does work. I'm very into therapy. There's been times in my life where I had it and it like, you know, changed my life for the better. And if it wasn't for that, you know, whatever. But like, and it's hard to find a good therapist, right? Sometimes I tell people it's like finding a boyfriend.

It's not that easy, but, you know, when you find the right one, they could literally, like I that change your life. And they're going to talk to you and give you advice very different than any friend can than anyone else can. It's like it's really, it's something special when you find the right person and it's, uh, everyone could use one at different times of their life. You're right. I love yours.

I like that she has explored that. And like I'm sure she would explain to you about like, you know, sort of your dark side being attached to what you're into. Sometimes you get wired into stuff because of trauma. But if you like relive that stuff and, you know, go there as an adult. in control of all of that stuff. It's like you kind of take the power back and sometimes it could be very healing of that trauma.

And that's what she told me. Yeah. Because like I was so afraid to get into it. And she even told me she's like most people who are into your life, the lifestyle that you're interested in has had the same trauma that you have had. Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm. She said they get into it because they're taking their power back.

100%. Yeah. And it's true. So, and you know, and you're doing it in the right way. Listen, you know, sometimes people are acting out because of trauma sexually and it's all like crazy and stuff. I did a lot of that when I was younger. But you're not doing that. You know what I mean? You're doing it in the right way. You're doing it very clear-headed. You're doing it at a time of your life where you're smarter than ever making the right decisions, you know. And so it's all, it's all a good thing. It's not coming from the wrong place. It's very obvious when it is when someone's acting out because of trauma in a sexual way. You know, Sometimes that's very obvious, but what you're doing is not. And for people to assume that anybody that's like really into fucking sex is like acting out, it's like, no, if you're doing it without consent or you don't know what the fuck you're doing, you're drunk off your, you know, you're totally drunk, you're a high on drugs, you know, that's a problem. But if you're doing it completely

clear-headed and it's all consensual, what's the fucking problem? There's nothing wrong with it. That's not acting out, you know? You're just like finally taking back the control of your life and giving yourself all the pleasure and the joy that you have to, been like that was denied for you because of all that bullshit that was put on you when you were younger and it's about time exactly yeah there's nothing wrong with that go have fun you know okay listen i i love feeling free yeah i love it i love your whole story i think it's super inspiring thank you so much for calling in and telling me uh you know maybe i should have your slingology people on my shell you should yeah you should tell them absolutely i even told them that i

was talking to you and I asked them. I'm like, is it okay if I mentioned your podcast? And they're like, absolutely because they just, his wife just does it for like a hobby. And I don't think a lot of people listen to it. But they have a lot of good, they talk about a lot of good topics. I love that. I mean, listen, I started, I did my show, I've been doing my show for like, I would say 11, 12 years now. And when I did it for the first seven years just as like a side thing, it was, you know, I did one episode a week, but I loved doing it and I did it forever. And then eventually I made it like my full-time thing. But I'm always looking for a guest.

I totally have them on. I have a very big audience. So they'll definitely get people listening to their show. So tell them to email them. Me, I'll definitely have them on the show for sure. Absolutely. All right, awesome. Okay.

All right. Awesome. Thank you, Mandy. This is so much fun talking you. I love your whole story. And I'm so happy for you. Thank you so much. Have a wonderful weekend.

You too. Bye, Mandy. Okay. Bye. Bye-bye. Okay, I just want to tell you before you go that my book, it's called Strictly Anonymous Confession, Secret Sex Lives of Total Strangers, is now available not only in paperback and e-book, but you can pre-order the audiobook.

It's still not going to be out until August 25th, but you can pre-order it. The book is basically 17 different stories taken from my show. I kind of picked one story from each category that I talk about on my show, like There's a hot wife story. There's a cuck queen story. There's a cuck story. There's a gang being girl story. Like I said, 17 stories.

And they're all told in the third person, and they're all true. I took the interview and rewrote it in the third person. And I wouldn't really call it like a total erotica book. Think like Penthouse letters. It's more direct. It's not so over the top like erotica. I don't really like that kind of vibe, right? But these are true stories.

17 of them. They're really short chapters, easy read. You could read, you know, one or two and then skip around. You could read the whole book. It's available in eback format, paperback format. And finally, the audiobook is available coming out August 25th. But you could pre-order it now. And if you buy my book in any format or pre-order it, I will throw in a complimentary link to my Discord. My Discord does not disappoint. Okay. There's no way you get into my Discord any other way than getting the link from me. Okay. I give it to people who buy my book. There's tons of people in there. Everybody shares content with each other. And that's what you get to do there. You can post your own pictures and videos. There's tons of channels. We have lots of contests where you can win a lot of

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