Strictly Anonymous Confessions - 133 - Smith Dates Women Who Beat him Up

Episode Date: July 4, 2016

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his girl. And he's gotten beaten up by other women in his life. It's a pattern, which typically is the case. And I think it's really interesting because most of the time we hear these stories about women. And nobody knows that it happens to guys to. I know a guy who it happens to, and I talk about it on the podcast. And I was shocked when I heard about it because it was the person that I would least expect it to be happening to. But, you know, that shit happens. And so it's interesting. This guy's kind of a mess. The women he dates are out of of their minds. So it's an interesting listen. This is the guy that like, I know I always talk about date line on my show and how I watch it. I'm kind of obsessed with murder stories. And this is like,

seriously, this is like the appetizer to the date line episode. This is like the shit that's going on before the person gets killed or disappears or gets poisoned or chopped up and put in a bag. This is the kind of relationship and the shit that's going down in the person's life. So I'm going be right back on with Smith. Do you have a story, lifestyle, or situation you can't talk about to anyone, to anyone? Or do you just want to let your freak flag fly and be on the show? Well, Strictly Anonymous wants to hear from you. Send us an email, Strictly Anonymous Podcast at gmail.com, with your story and your

anonymous name. And remember, everything is strictly anonymous. lot of it. Hey Smith, welcome strictly non-noist podcast. You're on the phone with Kathy. How are you? I'm doing more.

Okay, great. So you have a long-winded relationship story. There's a lot of drama, maybe, I would call it, going on. Yes. Yeah. So why don't you just tell your story? Because it's, like, easier if you explain it

and then we'll take it from there. Well, basically, five and a half years ago, I met a woman in a bar. Mm-hmm. And she just absolutely sparkled. She looked amazing. She was hot. Scale of one to ten, what was she?

Scale of one to ten, she was a ten? I gave her a solid nine, for sure. Okay, cool. What are you on a scale of one to ten? I'm around an eight. I've never had a problem getting a girlfriend or going to the bar and picking up someone and taking them home. It's not something I do, but it's never been an issue. Okay, cool. And how old are you and how old was she like five years ago?

I'd be 41 and she would be 43. Okay, cool. So you see this woman, she's totally hot and you see her across the room and you're like, that's my girl. Pretty much. Yeah, it was just, I walked up to her and I have a bit of a reputation at the bar that I frequent. Or the dance hall. And, you know, I just. just everybody she kept turning everybody down and I just swabbed right up to her and said hey what's your reputation what's your reputation at that bar um well with the guys they just clear a path when I walk through it's not not because of any of the reason in the way I carry myself I am a big guy but I don't push people around but I do have a reputation

from many years ago and um that just sort of precedes me as I go. As far as the women go, I was rumored to have slept with a lot of women, but typically what I would do is walk them out to their car, kiss them good night,

on the cheek or whatever, and send them on their way. And then I would just go home. But everyone assumed because you were walking them out that you guys were going home together and you were banging them, but you weren't.

Oh, God, no, no, no, no, no. I don't do that. I'm a gentleman. My mama would beat the hide off me if she found that I was pulling something like that. Right. But everyone thought that's what was going on. Right. Okay.

So I gave her my number. I didn't get hers because the way I look at it is if I give you my number and you're interested, you'll call. If you don't, you know, now a nose can off my nose. Okay. You're not like you like the girl to sort of pursue you instead of you pursue her? Uh, yeah. I mean, it's not too much to ask. I mean, I'm a decent looking guy. I'm in great physical shape. I have a job and I own my own business and I write music and novels. I mean, I'm a very talented individual and she'll call me. Right, but I mean, listen, everyone could say everyone that feels good about themselves should feel the same way you do about yourself right. So she could say the same thing like, hey, like I'm this. hot, you know, nine on a scale

110, she's a nine, she sparkles in the bar. So she could be like, if he likes me, he should call me. I just think, because typically the man is the one that sort of makes those moves. It's interesting to me that you, you know, you're the type of guy that passes that on for the woman to do. Well, it's, why not? I mean, in this day and age of feminism, you know, it's been beaten into our children's, you know, our heads that, you know, the women have as much right. to be, you know, the aggressors as the men do.

Besides that, and again, going back to the feminism, it's just a matter of I don't want to appear to be the aggressor. I had too many options at that time. I had several other women that I had, was dating on a full-time basis, or, well, if you want to call it that, I was booked four nights a week, if that, that'll tell you anything, but. You were what? Booked.

Right, okay. But were you sleeping with all of them? Oh, God, no, no, no, no. Right. Because I was going to be like, what about that mom thing where your mom's like, she lets you date four girls at the same time, but she tells you you can't have sex with any of them? Not really.

It's just, gosh, this is going to sound class. I've never really found anybody that was, that really turned me completely on. I mean, to be perfectly blunt, my ex-wife was the only person who could ever do that. And one other woman, her name was Dawn, and she was amazing. But beyond that, I just, you know, they set the bar high and it's like, I just don't want to be disappointed. Besides that, there's so many diseases out there.

No, but this is so interesting to me because, okay, I talk to a lot of men. I know a lot of guys, right? And guys just have a reputation for being pretty horny, right? It's just like sort of the given, right? But you're telling me and tell me if I'm correct, like if I'm understanding you correctly, that you, don't get turned on by really most women. Is that what you're saying? No, it takes a certain kind.

You've got to have blonde hair, brown eyes, and be tall. Okay. What about like, okay. So you don't see a lot of like blonde hair, tall women with brown eyes? No. Not at all. I mean, I've seen out of all the women are dating, I think maybe, I don't know.

10 or 15 might have had brown eyes, but they weren't the tall blonde with the, you know, it's just me. I mean, I like a woman my height. Okay. No,

listen, I'm just saying, because I'm just like, like, listen, I, you didn't listen to any of my other shows. I found you on Craigslist,

right? So you're not like, sometimes listeners call in and so they know my deal, right? What I do a lot on my podcast and hopefully it's cool with you is like, I sort of like, peel back to, layers of stuff, right? And I try to figure out what's going on, right? And sometimes I sort of, someone says stuff and it sort of makes me think, oh, maybe this person has this kind of thing

going on. I don't know. It sounds, it's a little weird to me when I hear a man who like is very sort of picky, especially when it comes to sex because guys are just so horny. It's like most guys aren't like they have to have a certain color eyes. They're like they got to have like a pair of good tits and a nice ass. You know what I mean? A small waist and like, you know, most guys will fuck anything. Like, it's just the way that they are. You know, they're very visually stimulated. By bodies, by body parts. Not necessarily, oh, they're pretty.

Like, I'm always telling girls, like, because I think girls sometimes think guys are wired like that. You sound like you are, but I don't think it's typical for guys to be that way. I think typically guys are like, you don't have to be pretty. They're more looking at, like, a woman's, like, you know, her body and how it is because it's like, you know,

that's the sexual sort of. aspect of a woman. Well, I'm attracted to intellect. I mean, I'm very, very, very well educated. And I won't date a woman who cannot carry on an intellectual conversation. There was a song forever ago by one of the Jackson boys that came out. What is it? We don't have to take a clothes off to have a good time.

Totally. I like country music, but I listen to that stuff. And I heard that song when it came out about a million years ago, back when everything was carved in stone tablets. And it kind of struck me funny. I thought, you know what, that is true. Well, yeah, that's true for you. That's cool.

I mean, I like guys like that. I mean, most girls love guys like that because most guys aren't that way. But I know guys that are like that. They're more, I always say they're farther away from the apes. You know what I mean? They're a little bit more evolved, you know? A lot of guys are like, there were apes and then there was men, you know, and they're just like the horny, you know, guys that I'm talking about.

But then I think some guys are a little bit more evolved and they're not so Neanderthal in their ways, right? And so maybe they might want a woman who's a little bit more than a nice pair of tits and a nice ass. Exactly. Well, we've had 2.4 million years on the planet from the Australopithein until now. And the thing is is propagation of the species. Mm-hmm. I don't have that. I don't have that issue.

I have six children for crying out loud. You do? Oh my God, we have to get into, okay, I can't wait to analyze you. Okay, because I hear a lot of stuff going on because you say once, like, who, you have six women from one, from your first wife? Oh, absolutely. I don't, mm-mm-mm-mm. One woman.

It's easier that way. Okay, great. Okay. So you got all your kids from your first wife, right? How old were you when you first got married? I got married at 18. Okay. Cool. And how long did that marriage last?

17 years. Okay, cool. And then you got divorced. And then is that when you met this girl or like were you, did you get married again? Okay. I met this woman named Dawn. She was a suburban housewife kind of divorcee. She found me on Craigslist. She was looking for an end table and wound up with a doormat.

But I met her. and just was head over heels with a position that, you know, dating a woman who comes from money, and I had a job paying about a quarter of a million dollars a year, so it wasn't really that big a deal. Mm-hmm. But she had class. And that's the thing that attracted me.

Mm-hmm. And, of course, she made the first move. Well, after we broke up, you know, we both got what we wanted out of the relationship. She wanted someone to put her on a pedestal, and I needed someone to fix. So we both got what we wanted. Okay, how long did that relationship last?

It was five years. Okay, cool. So that was after your marriage. And Dawn was one of the women you said would, like, you know, set you up for these high standards that you have women, right? Because she really didn't. Oh, my gosh. Oh, my gosh. Dawn, I loved that woman like, no, nothing else.

And she was just absolutely beautiful to me. Okay. And why did you guys end it after five years where you said you both got something out of it and you were done? Like you had fixed her or realized she wasn't fixable or because I know that's what you said you were getting out of it. I fixed her 100%. I mean, the reason we broke up was the fact that she found somebody else that had position and title. And she told me, the only way I'll marry you is if you've been in the same job for five years, have a college degree, at least at bachelors are better, and $100,000 in your bank account.

And I thought I could pop that out in five years, and I almost did it. I almost made it. Shit, what were you at like $90,000? Pretty close. $97,000 was where we were at or I was at at that point. And then, of course, you know. And she didn't even give you a $3,000 pass? Like, she was like that sort of particular.

You're kidding me. That's the most ridiculous thing. I wish, I really honestly wish I was kidding you. But the problem is that I'm Oh, you have no idea That was the first time I learned to take a punch from a woman But Oh my God

Wait Smith My psychiatric just tell me Smith Let's not get ahead of the game Okay Let's stick with Dawn a little bit I just want to get a little backstory Because a lot of times I think what happens in a relationship

You know In the current relationship Has to do sometimes with stuff that happened in the past one right So let's just focus on Dawn Because you just said she's the woman who taught you how to take a punch, right? So she was physically abusive? Oh, absolutely.

Okay. How did that happen? When did that start? It started when her youngest daughter hit puberty and suddenly started dating and sleeping around. And I told her, you know, I caught her boyfriend sneaking out of the window of the house and so I kind of tased in. But the whole thing was that, huh?

Yeah, go on. It was turned around on me that I'd tased him and nobody paid attention to the fact that her daughter was sleeping with this guy. But then, of course, John came out and we got into an argument. And I just told her, said, look, it's not my fault. Your daughter is effing this guy, okay? And then, of course, she hit me with a really beautiful, I mean, out of nowhere, right hook. I was impressed. I mean, literally.

I was like, wow. Mm-hmm. And I saw stars and staggered and came back and looked at her. I said, no, what was that for? You called my eye? Okay, fine. Right. And little by little, she weeded me out of the children's lives.

I mean, I spent five years raising her three daughters. Mm-hmm. Because of that one incident or because of other things? I think a lot of it came down to the fact that I just wasn't the, you know, I'm a, I was raised poor. Mm-hmm. I mean, you know, we didn't have money, but mama, mama taught us. manners and that's all it was to it. You don't hit a woman. No matter what, you don't hit a woman. Right. But.

You think she wanted you to? From then on. I mean, why did she start to take you out of her children's life? Because you didn't have enough cash or like you weren't like sort of this like this, you didn't have the sort of status she was looking for as a man? No. No, I did not have the status she was looking for. So that's why you think she did it right. Okay. Yeah, I mean, I learned her, well, I learned her quite a bit of money and our house. I bought her oldest daughter a car, you know. It wasn't that I was trying to buy their loyalty or anything, but she asked me, and I said, sure.

But that wasn't enough. Never, ever enough. And then it got to the point she tried to weed my children out of her life. And a lot of Christmases would go by where I would buy all these gifts for my children, and then she'd want me to put her name on them as well. So she wouldn't have to buy my kids anything. Well, weren't you guys a couple? Like, wasn't, like, if you were buying it, like, wasn't, like, weren't you guys, like, buying it kind of together?

And wasn't it okay? No. No, no, no, no, no, no, no. No, no, no. The money the spent was mine. Behind closed doors? Oh, yes, absolutely. But in public, it was more of a, I don't, I don't really, I've never had a relationship quite like that.

Like what? But she did show me at one, at one, at one time how amazing a lady could be. Mm-hmm. She did. Before she started punching you and all the other stuff. Oh, yeah. Oh, yeah. Did she just punch you that one time?

Did she just punch you the one time with the daughter? Oh, okay. So after that she started hitting you on a regular basis? Pretty much. I mean, I get hit once or twice a month. Just saying something or doing something she didn't like. She just haul off and punch you like in the face? And were you like an abused guy that would like show up at places with like black eyes

and people would ask you and you'd be like I tripped and fell? Like would you be lying? where you like the abused woman like that lies about shit or did you let people know why you had a black eye well for a long time it was basically well you know

I went to the bar and Friday night and these two guys jumped me or this guy jumped me then so you were lying to people well yeah I was covering up for it I didn't want people to think she was alone right you knew she was a loom

but you didn't want anyone else to know no you know because you didn't want to leave her yet I mean you were still in love with her for whatever reason. Mm-hmm. Right. And so she would be, and you, of course, never hit her.

I know a guy, let me tell you. I had an ex-boyfriend come back and want to date me again, and he told me he got divorced because basically his wife was, like, physically abusive to him, like, the whole time. Like, she was, like, beating the shit out of him. Like, the cops would be called and stuff. It's like a weird thing. I was dying to get him on my podcast because I think that this is something that exists. A lot of men don't talk about it, but there are guys out there that this happens to,

so it's kind of interesting, you know? well the reason i never did anything about it i never called the cops because when it started with tina who's tina being a night Tina was the was the relationship that i'm i just escaped from yeah uh-huh but you know police the police don't understand that men get beat on to and it's not because we're wusses

it's because of the fact that, you know, my dad and my mom treat a woman with reverent respect because they go through a lot in life and you have to be the gentleman. You have to be the lighthouse. No, no, no. I don't think, listen, the guy that, the guy I'm talking about that this happened to him too, he used to beat the shit out of men and he was like really tough when it came in that sense.

But with a woman, he would never hit a woman either. But there is something, I mean, you go to therapy, right? Because you've talked about your psychiatrist in the, Craigslist hat, so I know that you are in therapy, right? So there's something else going on with men that get abused. Are you a pussy? No, but there's something going on there that you are taking abuse from a woman and staying there. I mean, you're no different than the woman that stays in the abusive relationship with the man.

You know, it's like you don't, on some level you have low self-esteem or whatever's going on that you're putting up with that kind of behavior from somebody that's supposed to love you, right? Right. Well, I had a bad relationship with my mom, really, really, really, really bad, abusive, mean. And there was a lot of that. And my psychiatrist told me the reason you're getting these broken women is because you're trying to fix the relationship with your mom. 100%. We all do that. Yeah.

Totally. And he said, the reason what you need to do is step back and ask yourself, if what you went through with your mom made you. made you the person you are today. You're reverent. You treat women with respect. You don't sleep around. You don't curse in front of them. You expect table manners and intellect.

I mean, that's just, you know, if I take a woman on a date and we're having steak, I don't want to see the cow slaughtered a second time. It doesn't work for me. Where just the same is, and this is something I told both women on our first date together. You know, I mean, if you don't want to respect, yourself, then I will. You're not getting it. You're not getting late. It's not happening. I want to get to know you first because if you don't stimulate the brain, you're not getting nothing else. Okay, but stick to what you said your therapist was, your psychiatrist was telling

you that if your mother, like if you learned these good things from your mother, like what was he saying about the bad things that you sort of experienced? Well, my mother would tell me that you're never supposed to hit a woman ever, no matter what. But your mother treated you terribly, though. You had a bad relationship with her. She hit you. Oh, absolutely. Absolutely. There are many, many times, Mother they told me I wish you'd never been born.

Okay. If I had to have only, if I had... Yeah, terrible. Yeah, that's just one of those things. She told me that she wished she'd wished that I'd been aborted and all of a sudden nonsense, but, you know, you're a kid,

and you're like, well, gosh, that's hurtful, but, you know, I'll just let it slide off. And it doesn't slide off, like water and off the duck's back. It's more like rain gutter, because basically you catch it and you remember it over the years. Oh, yeah, please.

Totally, yeah. It's a very bad thing. I mean, it literally sort of affects you for the rest of your life. I mean, I grew up in a very bad relationship with my father and both my parents. And it made my life really difficult, you know, because of the thing. It's like, I have a baby now. I just had a baby and my, and I know people that have children and they don't think. And they don't understand that those things that you do when children are really young, you know,

if you're not really thinking properly and you're abusing them in whatever ways, like it literally, will affect them. You could like ruin their life. You know what I mean? Or make their life so much harder. It's like it's really sad, you know. It really is. Well, we have a, yeah. We have a responsibility to our children. To not do the same. Because children, children don't do what we say. They do what we do. My father told me that, you know, you be a gentleman, your boys will grow up to be gentlemen. Right. And your daughters will know what kind of man to expect and respect. You have to actually set the standard on both sides of the coin.

Well, me getting into these abusive relationships is great havoc with my kids. I mean, I've lost all of the respect of my children. I could imagine. How many boys, how many girls do you have out of those? Three and three. Three and three. Okay. You got the Brady Budge.

Okay, so you. Yeah, I'm never going to get my figure back either. Right. So your kids, did you get abused by your first wife to their mom? Oh, no. No, no, no, no, my first, my, my only person only wife was absolute saint. I mean, 100%. She was the greatest thing that I was the single most greatest.

Okay, so then why do you think that you went, like, why do you think that you were able to sort of keep all your dysfunction that you got from your mom when you were little, like, sort of, like, it didn't hit you to, like, way later? Because you had this healthy relationship with a woman for 17 years, right? You had all these children. And then it ended and all your shit came up and you started, you know, dating probably women like your mother, right? And starting to work that out. Why don't you think you were sort of doing that in that first relationship? Because normally that's what you do it with everybody. Well, no.

See, I went through a string of bad relationships. My first Tina was right after my divorce. Then it was Dawn. And then it was my second Tina, which obviously I'm beginning to see is probably a bad luck name for me. and I just, you know, I stepped away from this. I mean, Dawn was a good person, and she still is, and I respect her, and I still love her. I mean, there's no doubt in my mind and my heart that I still loved woman. I dream about her and, you know, things like that, and I'm okay.

I know she's married, she's happily married, and her daughters have gone off and they're living their lives, and life is beautiful for them, and for that, I'm grateful. I mean, I actually, after a year or so, I found myself praying for him for it because I, you know, I'm not, I'm a daist. I believe there is a guy that I seriously don't think he has an effect in our daily lives, like finding us a parking spot. Uh-huh. Uh-huh. And we're basically, he's like, to quote Constantine, the movie, God's like a kid with, like a kid with an ant for him. Uh-huh.

But, you know, my therapist told me you need to forgive yourself for the bad decisions. You can't forgive her to you forgive you. Right. Mm-hmm. Smart. Mm-hmm. And that's exactly what I did. I forgave myself for the bad decisions.

But then you went and dated the woman that you're currently involved with. Well, yeah, up until yesterday. I got involved with her and I'm going to tell you something. I had to call the police a couple of times. I mean, she came over my house one night and assaulted. and me with golf balls of all things. Okay, but let's just start this relationship. Let's get into this drama-filled relationship that you're calling me about.

You met this girl after Dawn, right? And she was the sparkly girl in the bar. She's the nine, right? Or was Dawn the nine? I'm confused. Who's the nine, the new girl, right? The girl you're currently with, right? Tina, yes.

So you meet Tina. How long you've been dating her as of right now? We've been about five and a half years, I think. Okay, so when did she, when did like her sort of red flag start that your whole relationship, I'm assuming, was like filled with the craziness, right? She's pretty nuts too. Okay, so two weeks in, what happens? Red flag. Her car broke down, I went and took care of it.

She called me on the phone. And I went and I got her car going again and she bought me dinner. And then that was it. I hadn't heard, didn't hear from her for a week. And she called me at the end of a week and said, hey, why don't she come over and have sex with me? Had you had sex with her yet after two weeks? No, no, no, no, no.

Okay. And, you know, she kept calling me, calling me, calling me when I was on the way to her house. So I get to her house, it happens, and I leave. And she says, well, I just wanted a one-time thing. Well, I was a bit disappointed because, like I said, I thought she was amazing. I was, oh, my gosh, this is so, this woman's so beautiful. And then, of course, the first time we had it. It was vulgar.

I mean, she was just as vulgar as a person could get in bed. And I'm like, oh, no, no, no, no. Oh, interesting. You weren't into it. I wasn't. Believe it or not, she just, yeah. And I told her. I said, you know, I know what we're doing here, but she needs to act like more of a lady.

I know how strange it must seem to be butt naked with another, with a guy and try to be a lady. But there's just some language that I won't tolerate. Okay. Like she was just like she was dirty talking and it just wasn't, you're not into that. Well, it was dirty enough talking that it caused a physical malfunction there for a couple of minutes. I'm like, you need stop. You mean you lost your heart on because it was like distracting to you?

It was the most disgusting talk I'd ever heard. Oh my God. Could you just give me like a little taste of what she said? Just give me one sentence. Well, F my. Fuck my pussy? No. She didn't use the P word.

She used the other one. What? See, like say the first letter. The C word. Fuck my cunt. The C word. But it was just vulgar. Yeah, because she said it in like a real dirty way because she was so horny.

I get it. It was nasty. I just, I looked there and said, okay, first off, I don't use that word. Right. Uh-huh. Maybe, listen, maybe she's, listen, I'm not a dirty talk over. Like, maybe she just really is. Like, when you, you know, you know.

maybe that she's just like really into that. I guess she was. I don't know because it stopped after I told her to stop doing it. I said that doesn't turn me on. That doesn't do anything for me. Okay. It's repulsive as far as I'm concerned. You want to say, you know, the P-word, that's great.

But don't throw that C out there because, you know, that's just just vulgar. I mean, wow, you know, who, who happened? Okay. So you guys had that kind of, but that was the red flag when she talked really dirty to you, or she's told you I just want a one-night stand. Well, when she's telling me how she wanted just a one-nighter. And I just chalked it up and wrote it off and decided that was that. I'm done.

A trip to the CDC to get checked out to make sure a week later. You were okay. Oh, yeah, absolutely. Spotless. Okay. And then I went out to another dance hall and I was having a good time. And somebody texted my phone. And it said, once you come over it.

And I didn't have the number. I'm like, okay, I didn't save her number. And I figured she told me she told me as one-night stands. Oh, well. And I said, who is this? And she says, I can't believe that you don't remember the girl you effed less than two weeks ago. Mm-hmm. I shot her the text messages that said Tina, question mark, and she got all mad and sent me this long, long text message with vulgarity.

I just took my phone outside and tossed it in the truck and went back in and just dance the rest of the night. Mm-hmm. I come out and find the tires to my truck slashed. I'm like, wait a minute. Oh, my God. This is two weeks in. Red flag number one.

I mean, it's worse than a red flag. It's just, you know, it's a four, you know, flat tires. I know, well, yeah. He says, this is a mushroom glad, dude. I said, I can't prove she did it. He said, do you really have any doubts? Mm-hmm. Two years later, I found out the truth.

Yes, she did. She told she admitted it. Well, sort of backhanded. You caused it, and then everything that she's ever done in the relationship was my fault, was a reaction to me. Of course. Well, she is probably reacting to you, but, I mean, if, listen, if at 40-something years old, she can't handle somebody not coming over her house that she has to slash her tires. I mean, she's, like, mentally unstable, you know what I mean?

So, I mean, a lot of people, you know. idea. Yeah, let's get to it. So that happens, but you continue to date her. How do you go back to her after she slashed your tires? Well, I can improve it. And after a while, I'm like, you know what? You know, I got into a fight maybe three or four months before that with a fella. And, yeah, so I figured it might have been him. I wouldn't really worried about it. And I was like, oh, you know, I got new tires. A buddy of my works at a tire place. And I got new tires. Okay, but how did you get back in contact with her? Did she keep? keep texting you?

Yeah, it was endless. I mean, at that time, I'd closed my business, I was doing sales for a friend of mine. And, you know, I'm a salesman. I'm very good at what idea of it. And I just kept in these text messages. And I was astounded at just how vulgar they were.

What do you mean? She'd be like, why haven't you fucking called me, you fucking ass? Like, what do you mean vulgar? Like, what was she? she's saying to you. Yeah, the F-bomb got to, it got to the point, like, I felt like I was being texted by a 16-year-old girl because it was just all F-bombs. And I was like, who is this?

And she goes, I-da-da-da. I'm like, well, whatever works for you, Frickick, okay, fine, your deal. Stop texting me. I'm at work. And so I would be at work, and then she'd call, and I wouldn't take the call. Then she'd call my boss. But what was she looking for at that point? I don't really understand.

I'm not really following you. She slashes your tires because you wouldn't come over, and that's it. And then she kept texting you to come over and hang out? Or she's just cursing you out for no reason. Like, at this point, you just had sex with her once two weeks ago. Like, what, I don't understand what she's texting you about. I don't know what I didn't know what her deal with. I really didn't.

And after a while, I just, like, I finally went over to her house and said, what is your problem? Of course, she drives me into the house, and that happens. And I'm like, okay, we should date. I'm looking at my hand. I'm looking at her. I'm like, well, it's kind of a toss-up, so to speak, here. I've never slashed my own tires. But I just, you know, things just kind of spiraled out of control.

And it was like every other week, every two weeks, she would, you know, we started dating. She would break up with me and make she start a fight. Mm-hmm. And then break up. And then, of course, me, I'm the kind of guy. And at this time, I like to think I was at my lowest moral point because we'd break up on a Friday morning. So she'd find some excuse or reason. And she'd break up with me.

She couldn't have me spend the night away from it. But then she'd break up with me on Friday so she could go out. Well, I'd go out and find a replacement. I mean, just that fast. For me, it was like, whatever. go into the bar, see something I want, go after it. Confidence wins the day every time. But what would you do with that person? Would you sleep with them and to get her back secretly? Oh, heaven's no. No, no, you weren't. So you were just like talking to somebody else.

I would do the same thing I'd always done. I would dance with them, have a good time, have drinks, share, hug, kiss, walk into the car, smack them on the lump, tell them, see you later, know where they go. Then I'd go home alone. Okay, but she probably was, what was she doing? she was getting laid bigger than Dallas. Yeah, and talking really dirty to them too. Oh, yeah, yeah. Like I said, she had a pretty bad potty mouth for a long time. Okay, so she was dumping you every Friday so she could go out and screw other guys.

And then when she would come back to you on Sunday and ask you to go back out with her and you'd say, okay? No, it was every two weeks. Every weekend that I had my kid, she'd break up with me on that Friday because she figured I wouldn't be out. Okay. but I always picked up my kids Saturday morning because they always had something going Friday night. Okay, so you couldn't see her anyway, so she'd go out with other guys, and then two weeks would go by and you guys wouldn't talk?

At the, yeah, that's pretty much she had. Because at the end of the, when my kids would go home, she'd call and she'd want to get back together. And then we'd be together for the next, to let that next Friday that I was supposed to get my kids. I never told her I was picking them up on Saturday. Okay. she just assumed that I was picking them up Friday

But anyway Long and the short of it was there for a long time It was just touch and go I mean Yeah she sounded like she's got like borderline personality Oh boy Psychotic is better But she's you know

Got into the point where she doesn't remember a lot of things But never takes Responsibility And you're going to love this I'm working for a fellow doing repossessions, car repossessions. I was one of those guys, badge and all. And I was out for 36 hours repossessing cars. Uh-huh.

And it was, it's touching go. You got to get, you got to get them at two or three in the doggone morning. Because that's when the person who's missed the payments is usually in bed. Yeah. But I came in after a 36-hour run. and I was pretty proud of myself. We were very successful. We pulled like eight repos.

And she was waiting at my house. So I got home. She goes, I want to spend time with my boyfriend. I said, oh, now I'm your boyfriend. Good to know. I thought I said, I'm up for 36 hours. So I'm going to go to bed. I'm going to go find somebody to.

I said, well, great. Don't let the door hit you with a good Lord switch. And she got mad. My idiot roommate Collects Or collected This is the room And I had

He collected Golf balls Oh this is the golf Incident Okay Because he loved golf And he collected golf balls And he sell them back

To be golfers And she saw a bucket of them By the couch And started And picked them up And I was introduced To the little slugger pitcher Because that girl

Could throw a golf ball Mm-hmm I had roughly, what, 12 to 15 bruises on my left on my side and my back. I mean, it's not funny, but it's kind of funny. Like, she just started throwing your balls at you. She was throwing these things at me.

I mean, I was just ducking. I couldn't do anything because I couldn't tackle her and beat on her. She was a guy. It would have been over with pretty quick. But, you know, finally she ran out of golf balls, and I was just thankful that was the bucket that he had, you know, taking some balls out of earlier. I'm like, shoof.

Then she picked up a bowling ball and I was out the door. Oh, my God. Okay. Ran across the street. Now, this is what I was talking about. Ran across the street, call the police. The, the, the, oh, I really want to say their name. They show up and they're, let's put it this way.

This is the only city that is known for shooting minorities in the back that are handcuffed. Right. Oh, God. Okay. and most liberal city of American. It's not San Francisco. Anyway, basically, I ran across the street called the police. The police show up, and she sat outside waiting.

She was waiting with me to come back, and I'm like, hey, I ran across the street to the neighbors. Police officer finally came up, and he said, are you the kind of called? And I said, yeah, I'm a guy to call. And he goes, what's going on? I said, well, she's for her. And I told him, he goes, that little girl right there. And I said, yes, that little girl right there. And said, he goes, and a big old guy like you, little, little woman beat him up.

He must not be much of a man. I kid you not. He said this to me. I looked him. I said, I have put 14 people in the freaking ground. I don't think I have to explain my manhood. Do you think you? And he just looked at me.

Well, you let a little woman beat you up. I think a lot of guys, unfortunately, I think a lot of men, and some women would think the same thing. And I know that there's so much more going on, like I said, because the guy that I know that was physically abused, like beats the shit out of guys. And he's like a tough guy with men. But when it comes to women, he's got this weird thing going on that he lets them push him around, you know? And it's, I think it's a different thing than, you know, being a pussy. But I get, but you got to understand why a guy, especially a fucking cop, you know, they're so, what is that word, macho? You know what I mean?

Like, you know, I just think you got to. understand why they would sort of say that or the way it would look to them you know what you mean because i feel like a lot of people would feel that way he wasn't a young trooper and this is a on a side but three years later he um he got me for dw i thought that was kind of funny he got you yeah yeah well we i you got a dw i got stopped by him for with a dw i I didn't get stopped by him. He was in the gas station, the 7-11. My truck was a friend of mine had borrowed my truck.

We were playing a party behind a 7-Eleven. Okay, listen, you sound like you're 17. This is happening in your 40s. You get busted with the DWI and the parking lot of 7-Eleven by a cop. Oh, this is worse because I was why the buddy of mine had borrowed the truck to go do something. I didn't know what it was.

When he came back, he said, I said, did you lock the truck? He said, no, I didn't lock the truck. I said, hello, we're not exactly in the greatest neighborhood in the world. So I went around the corner. I took the keys around the corner and I got almost to my truck before Barney Fice stopped me and said, is this your truck? I said, yeah. Did you park it here?

I said, well, no, buddy of mine borrowed it. And he's like, really? I said, yeah. He said, I smell alcohol in your breath. You're drinking. And for some reason, the mouth got a gear before the brain. could catch it and I looked at them so your eyes were blazed you've been eating donuts oh god yeah yeah bottom line is he called another he called another uh the county share the county

downtown and they showed up and they did the whole breathalizer and everything else oh you're drunk blah blah blah well when i saw his police report he said he followed me and through traffic and i cut across three lanes of traffic and make a right hand turning when i was going southbound there were only two lanes how did that happen and of course he's is um so wait i don't want to get so focused on this because my show's more about relationship stuff but you know so whatever so he you got busted with a dw i by this guy that's calling you a wuss because you got like you know pelted by golf balls from this little girl that you're dating i told her to leave they made me tell her to leave if she came back in the criminal trespass

and for the next two months she sat outside of my house after work every day right you So this girl is sort of a, like she's crazy, right? So crazy to the point that you told me that you're, like at this point, she stole some of your tools. You tried to break up with her. You want your shit back. But even your psychiatrist, who I'm assuming you've been seeing for years and knows your pattern in history and knows all the ends and outs of everything. I got out of the military, yeah. Told you that you should just let her keep all your shit because you, she might actually kill you.

I mean, it's funny. Let me just tell you. It's not funny because I would say this all the time of my podcast. I watch a lot of Dateline. People do kill people. And people like her do kill people. Like, she could actually kill you. It's not, it is true.

Oh, it's just 100%. I mean, I've been, I mean, I got pushed down, down the flight of stairs at the, at our, at our home when we lived in the house. And I was actually, she pushed me down the first flight. and I managed to crawl down the second, and I just couldn't get up. I was in excruciating pain, and she made me promise not to tell anybody what happened. Right.

Otherwise, she just leave me on the floor to rot. Yeah, well, listen, I mean, at this point, right, after, like, someone does all these things, you're dating her five years. I mean, like, I know you're a victim, but, like, you're, like, it's hard to sort of be like, oh, my God, she's the crazy one in the relationship. You're crazy, too, right?

you got to take accountability for that right i'm i passed crazy a long time ago i mean i never did anything really nutty or crazy yeah but that doesn't mean that you're not crazy you're not that that's a different side of the same coin there's a lot of people like you out there that sort of keep everything sort of on the surface that looks really okay like you don't fuck girls and you're so you have manners and you have all this stuff that makes you seem like maybe like uh polished and together but you're at As fucking nuts as these women that you date, you just don't sort of let it loose the way they do, but it comes out in other ways, right?

It's not any, but it's, it's, it's, it's, you're, your, your, your, your crazy is equivalent to her crazy, you know, it's, she's acting it out. You act it out in a very different way, you know, but like attracts like. Well, to be perfectly blunt, I should have left the first time. Yeah, but you have deeper problems. The problem is, is that you have a history of dating women like this, right? So you're going to leave her eventually. Somehow it will end.

You know, you eventually, it seems like you have a five-year thing, you know, when you get out. You know, hopefully she'll go away and won't kill you. Somehow you have to put that fire out by just not feeding into it at all. That'll be hard for you because you're attracted to drama. But you have to know that most likely the next girl that's going to sparkle across the room is going to be another nut job because that's what you're interested in. You think it's blonde hair and brown eyes in a certain height. It's not.

It's fucking crazy. That's what you're interested in. And I got to tell you, there's not a lot of women that are that crazy. That's why you find it hard to find women you're attracted to. It's not because there's not a lot of girls that meet your high standards. It's not a lot of girls that are so fucking nuts that they're going to. be like, you know, stabbing your car after knowing you for two weeks, you know? Most women are not that nuts. I mean, women, you know, everyone listening to be like, women are nuts, whatever,

but they're not that nuts, okay? Most people could deal with shit in a different way. So, and I really under, I really believe that that's why you find it really hard to find women that sort of push your button. It's not because you have high standards. It's because you're unfortunately wired to be attracted to the fucking craziest person in the bar. And probably a lot of nights, there just isn't that kind of level of crazy in the bar. There's probably other levels of crazy, but you like the real crazy. You're the extreme, you know? And it's unfortunate because it's like it is definitely, you know, it's sad because

you're like this perfect person that was born and you were like a whole person. And then, you know, you had parents and they did all this shit. you and they created, you know, they put all this stuff on to you, right? And you go to therapy, so you're trying to work it out, you know, so I feel for you. And at least you are in therapy, and that's the good news, you know, and you're working on yourself. The first step is admitting there's a problem, just like alcoholism. Yeah, but it takes a long time. Listen, I've worked on myself my whole life. I'm 47 years old. I had a very bad childhood. I dated tons of the douchebag guys because my father was a nurse.

It says douchebag. Do you know what I mean? I totally understand. And I have to say, I think, like, really what changed recently in my life is I was seeing a psychoanalyst, and I was literally going to her for two years three times a week. I was doing that kind of analysis. And it was, like, amazing. I was, you know, fortunately at that time dating somebody that was able to pay for it for

me. And so, because it's very super expensive, but it really, really helped. Like, I felt like it raised my self-esteem. And, like, that's what you need to do for yourself, too. So it's so great that you see somebody, right? and that you're in therapy. Do you go more than once a week or do you just go once a week? Typically myself, I go once a month.

Once a month! This is the VA and... The what? The VA Veterans Administration. They don't give you more than once a month? I suppose they could, but at the point, you know, before I left, my psychiatrist told me point blank. He said, you need to get out.

she's going to kill you. Walk away. Yeah. You know, you know, I left her eight different times and I've gone back each and every time. And, you know, I believe the nonsense. I'm going to change. I'm seeking therapy and blah, blah, blah. And I misunderstood seeking therapy for I'm thinking about it.

All right. You know, and we, well, I'll be honest with you. This is, this is pathetic on my part. Here is in the relationship. My psychiatrist actually wants. wants to talk to her. Mm-hmm. And so we go.

Wait, can you stop walking or whatever you're doing? Because there's a lot of noise. I'm sorry about that. Yeah, okay. Anyway, he says, bring her in and we'll talk. So he talks to her, then he talks to me, then he talks to us both together. Then he lets her leave a room,

and he looks at me, and he says, I can only say one thing to you. And I need you to listen very carefully. Run. Oh, my God. like you're like a psychiatrist. Why do you only see him once a month? I'd want to see that guy like three times.

I would totally be into that guy. He's good. Okay, why don't you see that guy? You need to see some, you need more, you need help, okay? You need serious help because you're still young. You're only, what, 41 years old?

You have six kids that don't want to... I'm 26. Excuse me? I'm 46. Okay, you're 46. Okay, you're still young, though. Say you live till 87. You have how many years left, 40, okay, 41.

So you, you, and, you, you, you, you have six kids that won't talk to you and you don't want to you know you it's you have to be better than your mother you have to do better you know what I mean you have to write your wrongs you still have time you still are young I believe that and I think that it's even if you were fucking 70 and we were talking I'd still say as long as you are alive you have a chance to better yourself that's what it's all about and you are but once a month is not enough for you you will never work out your problems you don't just need somebody that's going to tell you you what to do. You need, besides that, because you need a little help with that, right? You need

somebody also, though, that's going to get to the root of the problem and try and work on that part of yourself that's so damaged because, you know, first you have to get yourself away from these crazy women and you have to be alone and then you have to get into, you know, figuring out yourself. Forget about figuring out these nut jobs that you're dating because that's their job to do for themselves. What your job is to do for yourself, what your job is to do for yourself. You know, is to figure out yourself. Like, you're the mess that needs the help, right? You know, and so you need way more than once a month.

You need three times a week for a couple. And it would really help you. It really, really would. It takes time, you know, not to say that throughout that time, you wouldn't date another fucking psychopath, right? But if you're in therapy and you're working on it, that's okay because that just helps. It brings data into your sessions.

and you could talk about it and figure your shit out, you know. In the meantime, you have to stay away, not only just stay away from her physically. You can't feed that fire. You just have to let it go out. You have to let her like, you can't give her anything so that she goes, because she's attracted to drama. She wants all this nonsense.

She'll find somebody else, okay? You're not the end-all be-all of her nuttiness, okay? She just needs somebody that's going to play ball with her, Right. That's why she kept calling you because she smelled you from a mile away that you were like the guy that would fucking stick around. Most guys would fuck her. They'd love that dirty talk. They'd abuse her and then they'd go home and talk to their friends about her and trash her. They wouldn't go back and date her. You did. On some level, she knew that you were going to, like I said, engage with her. It takes two people to play a game, right? She can't play the crazy game with someone that's not playing. it back. You have all this time and that's why she keeps coming back to you because she

expects and knows that if she pushes hard enough and throws enough golf balls out your head that you'll go back out with her. You can't do that. It's like it's just an addiction. You have to break the addiction to her. And trust me, she will just go find somebody else. It's not you. She's not

obsessed with you. She's just obsessed with nonsense and you like I said, you engaged with her for so long. She needs another nut job, equivalent to you and there's guys out there like that who will you know get involved

in the messy shit that she's interested in doing. You can't anymore because you've exhausted that and you might wind up in a garbage can chopped up like seriously your psychiatrist is right you know people like that can lose their minds

and do something really bad you know so you should stay away yeah what I've come to the decision I'm to and it's it's more of a a revelation that I've never been single from the time I turned 14 until now I have not been without a girlfriend more than a month you know it's just my mother told me when I was a kid learn to trade on personality because you ain't got the looks and I learned to trade on personality mm-hmm and um the thing is I've never been without someone and I got I was thinking about

it thinking about it today I went on a shopping spirit with my youngest daughter because she wanted time with a daddy. And, you know, to my children, the woman was a joke. She was just a complete, bad, bad joke. And they were right. But my daughter asked me something, and typically when my kids ask for favor, you know, dad, will you do me a favor? And I'm like, well, sure.

They're my kids. They never asked for anything unusual or unreasonable. And she says, would you do me a favor? And I said, sure. She says, I'm going to be going to a two-year college. Would you be okay? It would it be possible for you to be single until I graduate the two-year college to go to the four-year. And I said, well, yeah.

I didn't realize what kind of a promise I made. And then I realized I don't have to answer anyone. I can go anywhere I want to go. I can do anything I want to do. And I don't have to live by your leave. I don't have to ask anyone. You know, I've always believed, you know, ever since this psychopath came into my life,

I noticed that that's not allowed, or I forbid that, became part of the daily speak. It was part of, you know, where are you going? I'm going to go see my kids. Oh, you're lying. You know, on the way that my phones always had to stay unlocked and I couldn't have any privacy on my laptop, but hers were always locked because she had things going on.

she, you know, on the lane excuse she gave me. Mm-hmm. And everything she did was to entrap me further. Yeah, but you were looking to be entrapped because you can't stand to be alone. I was asking how to put the bait. Right, of course. So, but you have to learn how to be alone. Yeah, and that's 100%.

And, you know, the thing is what I was telling my children. I got some training. I got to go do up in Denver. And then I'm going to move back down to Houston. And, you know, I got a settlement from a restaurant. that I was involved in. And it's enough money to start the kind of business that I can run. And that's what I'm going to do.

But my daughter's request. And I looked at her and I said, is it that bad? She says, Dad, I haven't seen you smile in three years. Right. That's sad. And she said, you know, it takes three muscles to smile, Dad. 17 or something to frown. And I'm like, okay.

well you know it's kind of like wow oh wow coming from a she just graduated and she's all excited about that but you know the fear was that the psychopath would go to her graduation well listen so because I typically

have my podcast to be like about an hour we're almost there right so you know right I want to make sure we hit everything so you know when was the last time you talked to this crazy bitch that would be this morning when I went back with the police officer

to pick up all of my stuff. Okay, so you got your stuff back from her? Most of it. Okay. She put a password, a lock on my computer so I can't get the damn thing open but I can get that fixed tomorrow. Okay, sometimes you got to take a loss

for things sometimes. You know, so whatever. Sometimes. You know, you got to suffer some consequences. You know, if you don't suffer consequences, then, like, in a weird way, like, you know, it's, like you kind of sometimes have to pay for like your bad decisions right this is that's like two plus

two equals four you know you date a fucking psychopath you might have some loss you know that's like three times a square root of nine is whatever yeah it is what it is like that's this makes sense right so you know you lost a computer oh well you know it's you're lucky that that's the only thing you lost i think you lost 40 000 worth of tools right is that what you're still trying to get back from her you said that in your email. That's gone. Okay, so that's a loss. Like, what can you do, you know?

So now, has she tried to contact you? Or do you think, like, before you went to the police and picked up all your stuff, when was the last time you guys had seen each other? Like, seen each other, like, to have sex or to, like, date, to, like, be back with each other. Oh, we hadn't had sex in almost six months. No, the last time we saw each other was actually two days ago before I had to go get the police. Okay, but was it a friendly meeting or was or have you guys been broken up? No.

Right. Okay. No. Things were thrown. That's all I can tell you. Okay. So why have you guys, when did you guys officially break up six months ago? No.

No, we broke up three days ago. She, but basically she's going through something menopause, whatever it's called. It's some sort of a, whatever it is, it gives her an excuse never to be horny, never to put out. And be perfectly honest with you. ever since, you know, I got in a wreck with an 18-wheeler, and it totaled my car and me out. So up until a couple of weeks ago, it wasn't going to be, you know, she was having a menopause thing and she didn't want to.

And then, of course, I really couldn't without excruciating pain. And I didn't have somebody who was like, brave it, be a man. And it's more like, oh, God, don't touch me. So, okay. Yeah, but three days ago, you guys are, like, talking about having sex, but you don't want to and you're together. And then three days after that, you're at the cops. like giving shit back and forth.

Like how does that happen? Oh, no, no, no, we weren't talking about sex three days ago. We gave up talk. I gave up even bothering. Okay, but you were together breaking up three days ago. So you were together these past six months. Oh, absolutely. Okay.

For sure. Since October, we got back together and the sex stopped in November, December, sometime. And when was the last time? So you broke up, you think, for good three days ago? I mean, what are the odds that you're not going to go back to her again? Hell yes. I'm never going back to that. I can't do that. You would have said that. You've got back to her 800 times. And I don't even know you and I know that.

Because you told me after two weeks, you'd break up with you constantly. She hasn't fucked you in six months, but you still are back with her. You just broke up with her three days ago. Again, for the upteenth time. What makes you think that this time is for good? Because I don't think I would live through going back to her one more time. I honestly do believe the next time, if you're there is the next time that I go back, she will probably kill me because some of the things that she said this last time we broke up, they were a lot different than the other times before. What did she say? To the effect that she would cut me up, put me in a bag, dumped me in the trash, poising me. I'm taking some prescription heavy-duty pain killers.

And she said, you know, what I might do, I not. You know, this is before I, this actually was a conversation that broke us up. you piss me off blah blah blah I'm going to do this so I'm going to do that and you're going to die and no one's never going to know because I watch forensic files and I'm like oh my god it's too bad you're like I'm going to see a date line and you're going to be the person that they're talking about and I'm not even going to know because this is anonymous and I don't get people's real names and I don't really want to know who you are but like you might be on dateline you may be on a future episode if you don't really take it seriously and I just have this feeling that even though she

says that to you and on some level you know it in your mind I don't know that that's going to be enough to keep you away. That's why people get killed. I can't go back to it. It's just simple as that.

It's just for me it's a matter of survival. I have six children I have to put through college and this drain on my life and you know this is too much. And as far as the settlement goes she wanted to get her gwams on that just so

she could take that money and send it home to where she's from. She's from another country, but, you know. What country is she from? I mean, Barbados. Okay. So she wanted some of your cash. Okay, but you're not going to, when are you getting that money and getting the fuck out of where you are? When are you moving?

Well, I'm getting the fuck out of where I'm at tomorrow. Okay. Okay. Are you going far, far away? I'm going, yes. I'm going about 1100 miles away and I'll be there for roughly three to six months for training.

It just depends on how I go to training. That's great. That could be the reason why you don't go back with her. That's the best thing I've heard this whole podcast because I think that you physically have to be that far away from her to not.

I think that this is the only way you could do it. Like for real. You should not let her know where you are. You should block Okay, great. You should block her phone number, her phone number from your phone so that you don't get any of her calls and she doesn't can't get through to you. And you should take that three months to just be totally clean and not feed the fire and let that just dwindle and let her find somebody else. And no matter how much you get the urge to go back to that because you probably will because you're dysfunctional. You have to just deny yourself of the urge. That's it. Well, to be honest with you, yeah. You know, I'm not an alcoholic.

I drink occasionally. And I got to hear about how it was an alcoholic because I get a DWI. The situation was not important. It's just the fact that it was ammunition. But you're not an alcoholic. What's the point? My point is simply this.

You are an addict. You're addicted to nuts. My thing is this, is I made a promise to my youngest daughter. You're addicted to being abused. There is an addict's sort of quality to that just because, you know, so there is something to that, you know, that you're addicted to the drama, you're addicted to being treated badly. So it's very, it might be very hard for you

to stay away from her even when you're away. There might be a pull to that because you are, you know, but you just have to, the way to get over an addiction, whatever it is, is to just, even when you feel the pull, to just not do anything. And eventually that pull loses its grip of, you. I quit drinking. It's like 15 years for me. I was a total addict and I know I quit smoking 20 years ago. Like I quit a lot of my shit so I know how to do it.

That's what you have to do. I have to end this call. You have to go away tomorrow. You have to block her number from your phone. You have to find a therapist wherever you are or talk to your guy on the phone and you need to do that at least once a week minimum. Okay? Seriously.

Once a week minimum, you should be be doing more than once a week. And if you're with a therapist that isn't telling you that you need to come more than once a week, then they suck, okay? Because anybody that you come in their office, they should be like, no offense, but you need to come in more than once a week. And because that's the only way to do it. You have to really stay focused on digging deep and you have to, the only way to stay that way is to not have a lot of time in between sessions, okay, because you lose the focus. So you need to do that and you need to not have any contact with her whatsoever. and, you know, as much as possible.

Forget about her. She'll find somebody else. And then you have to come back in three months and call me and tell me where you're at and that you're still alive. And that you didn't talk to her. Okay? You got it. Good luck, but please get more help.

Get more therapy. Totally leave tomorrow. Don't let her know where you are. Okay? Like seriously. She thinks I'm going to California. Okay, good. Yeah, good.

she can't really know where you're going. Like, seriously, you really have. That's the only way you're going to be successful at cutting this cord. And it's going to be very, it's like very healthy for you. And it could be the life or death. I mean, it's kind of funny, but it's not. I mean, you know, you have to take it seriously. It's hilarious.

I mean, you know. No, but it's serious too. And so I'm very happy that you're moving away, far away, and that it's for a bunch of months. I think it's your only saving grace. And that's going to actually be that. that's the best thing. But I want an update from you when you're done with this. I mean, maybe you'll find a crazy person there. It's fine. But keep me posted, dude. Okay. I got too much life to live. I got to go back to Paris and Ireland because that's my family's room. Okay. So yeah, really. Like you need, you need, I could talk to you for another hour. We'll do a part two. I want an update in a, you know, when shit goes down or doesn't go down. Okay. Keep me posted. I want to make sure that you're alive and not in a bag somewhere. All right. Good luck, dude. Smith. Thank you. Okay. Talk to you soon. Keep me posted.

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