Strictly Anonymous Confessions - 1366 - Crystal is a CD, into Guys, Hoods and Latex and More

Episode Date: February 13, 2026

Crystal is a crossdresser into guys, specific kinks and more and he called in to talk all about it. Tune in to hear all the details including when he realized he was into wearing feminine clothing, when he realize the was into guys and how he labels himself, the style of dress he enjoys, when he got into pegging and who got him into it, how he would dress up on the DL and how no one ever found out, the hood and mask and latex he likes to wear, the dominatrix he saw and what would go down during their sessions, how he only hooks up with guys while dressed up, the first guy he hooked-up with and exactly what went down, the first time he hooked up with a guy while dressed with a hood on and what went down, the women who have hit him up who are into him being a crossdresser, where he posts naughty pics of himself dressed up and what enjoys posting, the cock cages he enjoys and how long is longest time he was caged plus a whole lot more. GET A COPY OF THE STRICTLY ANONYMOUS BOOK! Strictly Anonymous Confessions: Secret Sex Lives of Total Strangers. A bunch of short, super sexy, TRUE stories. GET YOUR COPY HERE: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://amzn.to/4i7hBCd⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ **To see anonymous a pics of JACK plus see pics my other female guests + get TONS of exclusive CROSSDRESSER and or HOSER episodes and content + hear all the anonymous confessions, join my Patreon Crossdresser tier it's only $8 a month for Hosers and $10 a month for crossdressers (you get also get Hoser episodes too!) and you can cancel at any time. You can sign up here: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.patreon.com/StrictlyAnonymousPodcast⁠⁠ To join SDC and get a FREE Trial! click here: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.sdc.com/?ref=37712⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ or go to SDC.com and use my code 37712   Want to be on the show? Email me at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠[e-mail]⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ or go to ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠http://www.strictlyanonymouspodcast.com⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ and click on "Be on the Show." Want to confess while remaining anonymous? Call the CONFESSIONS hotline at ⁠347-420-3579⁠. All voices are changed.   Sponsors: ⁠⁠⁠https://beducate.me/pd2605-anonymous ⁠⁠⁠ Get your personalized road map to pleasure ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://loadboost,com⁠⁠⁠ — To get 10% off LOAD BOOST by VB Health use code: STRICTLY ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://butterwellness.com⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Get the Butter massager and get 20% off your whole order ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://bluechew.com⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ — Get 10% OFF your first month of Bluechew GOLD! Use code: STRICTLYANON⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.quince.com/strictlyanon⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ — For premium quality Quince clothing plus FREE shipping and 365 day returns Follow me! Instagram  ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/strictanonymous/⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ X  ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://twitter.com/strictanonymous?lang=en⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Website  ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠http://www.strictlyanonymouspodcast.com/⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Everything else ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://linktr.ee/Strictlyanonymouspodcas⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠t⁠ Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

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I will also give you complimentary access to my private discord. All of the links to everything that I talked about are in the description. But anyway, today I have on Crystal. Crystal's super interesting because Crystal's a cross-dresser. We talk a little bit about the cross-dressing. Cross, but Crystal also got into like hooking up with guys eventually, like after Crystal's divorce. He got into that and he hooks up with guys too. He's one of those guys that likes to just like blow guys, but he's done more and he's pretty hardcore in that he likes to

try everything once. He's been to a dominatric. He's done forced by scenarios. He really loves to mask up when he's with a guy. That's a whole interesting thing that I can't get past because Sometimes he wears a mask with no eyes. It's kind of like a ski mask. Sometimes with no eyes, like with eyes at a mouth. And he's into that. He's into being caged. He hooks up with guys.

Well, he is dressed. He enjoys that. He was with one woman who pegged him. He loved getting pegged. He did that for a while as well. And he talks about all of that stuff. We discussed like when he got into cross-dressing and then when he got into all the other kinky things that he was into,

all the guys he hooks up. with. He talks about a lot of his experiences. It's a super interesting episode. I have a lot of naughty picks over on my Discord. Some regular picks on my Patreon. If you want to see Crystal after, you got to sign up and join. He'll be over there. But anyway, the story is super interesting. So I'm going to get right to and be right back on with Crystal. Hey Crystal, welcome to the Strictly Anonymous podcast. How are you today? Yeah, good. Thanks, Kathy. Thank you. I love people with an accent. I love people that listen to me all over the world. I love that, you know, my show carries all over.

You are a cross-dresser, and you're also into like, you know, forced to buy scenarios, pegging, you fully dressing, of course. You hook up with dudes, right? Like, all that kind of good stuff. Okay. Yeah, all of that. Let's start talking first about the cross-dress. I would assume that comes first, right? Like, are you typical in that you realize you were a cross-dresser or into it, like, very early on?

in your life? Yeah, I think I'm pretty much like all the other crossdresses that have been on your show. Yeah. Probably about 10 or 11, you know, started finding like, you know, masturbation and like, and then, you know, was always drawn to like the in the catalogs, the, you know, the garter belts and the stockings and the corsets and just I always found that stuff always very robotic. And it was like, oh, always loved all that stuff. And then I had an older sister. Classic, classic story.

And I remember it really well, actually. I remember being in the bathroom one day in the laundry and she was a bit older than me and she had left her little pleated skirt and her knee-high socks in there. And yeah, I just had a massive urge to put them on and yeah, it just felt great. Yeah, there's a reason why like a specific memory like that stands out to you, you know, because it must have been very powerful. Like that's why we remember because you don't remember all the other days of that year, but that one you remember.

No, yeah, exactly. Yeah, yeah, no. And it kind of, yeah, it just progressed on from there. And I kind of like, just every opportunity I had, I would try and put something on. And just, yeah, every time I did it, it just, yeah, it just always felt good. But then you would always get that post kind of like coming, oh, what's wrong with me? What am I doing? There's something I'm broken.

Like, you know, this is not normal. You know, no one talks about this stuff. There was internet back then. So there was nothing to like to look online. And it was just like, yeah, you felt a bit dirty. And you felt a bit like, oh, what am I doing? I know the weird thing is everyone puts on the internet for all the bad things about it. But I think one of the greatest things about it is that sort of sense of knowing that you're not

alone and you're not the only person who does something now that you can do that. But back in our day, like I don't know how old you are, but I grew up with just encyclopedias, no fucking internet. And, you know, we all got to think we were so unique and really alone and the only people like we were. But, you know, obviously that's not true. But it must be super confusing for a little kid, a boy who's, who's in. into cross-dressing and like did you even know that there was a term for it?

Not really, no. I just, yeah, it's hard. It just, it just felt good. Like that kind of like, you know, that you're chasing that dopamine,

that kind of that feeling you had, like, you know, like, oh, this feels great. Did you ever get caught when you were younger, when you were,

like, dressing up at home? I don't think so. If I did, no one ever said anything. I don't think you did. You know what I'm saying? You were good.

You were good at hiding it. So, okay, so let me, you ask you this because you are into like forced by scenarios and pegging and all that kind of stuff. Like when did you realize you were into guys? And now does it are you only and let's two questions I'm going to ask you. Like are you only into guys when you are dressed? Are you into guys regardless? Only into guys when I'm dressed? Okay. Yeah. So when did you figure out when you were like into guys? Did it start

early on like with the dressing at the same time? Not really. It's probably been in the last sort of 10 years really. Interesting. I'm in my early 40s. Okay. And I don't know, like, you kind of like, you know, I've gone through, I've had many, you know, relationships, female relationships. I see myself as sort of like, I know you're going to ask, heteroflexible. Yeah, yeah.

Uh-huh. I'm, in my mind, everyone's got their own opinion. Like, being bisexual means that I'm emotionally, physically and sort of attracted to both sexes, which I'm not. I'm attracted to women. Yeah. Like emotionally and, like, sort of like, romanticly, yeah.

Yeah, but just from the, you know, the, the horny part, the dick brain kicks in. It's just like, yeah, let's just go for a dick. Yeah, they call that erotic orientation. I don't know if you listen to my episode with Dr. Joe court. Yeah, yeah, it makes sense. It does. It does. And it's helped me a little bit because I've always been a bit like, well, am I bisexual? Hey, I can't imagine myself dating a guy.

I don't want to go out for a drink with him or I have very clear boundaries when I do hook up with guys. Like there's no kissing involved. I normally have a hood on. What do you mean a hood? Like a hood with just eyes and a mouth hole. Oh my God. Are you? Oh my God.

We got to get into that shit. Okay. That sounds a little kinky. You know what I'm saying? Like that sounds a little bit like, it's very specific. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. Well, okay. So yeah, go on.

No, I suppose it's just like I quite like that it's a secret part of my life. and I like to keep it like that. Oh, interesting. I find that a little bit of turn on as well. So I like to keep my amenity, I suppose. Yeah. And so I have a hood on when people, you know, so that's what the hood is about. You don't even just want to keep it from like the vanilla people in your life. You even want the person you're blowing not to know who the fuck you are. Yeah, basically, yeah. Yeah, that's pretty hardcore. I mean, it's very specific, you know, it's interesting. Yeah, yeah. I wonder what they call that kink, stranger sex. I don't know. I don't know. But wait, so back when you were, so you didn't realize you were into guys back then. Are you married by the way or ever been married? Yeah, I'm divorced. Yeah. Okay. So, but during your marriage, were you with guys behind your wife's back? No, no. I never did that. No. Okay. So let's go back to the cross. I definitely dressed a lot.

And did she know? No, she did it. No. Okay. Well, we'll get to that part. So let's go back to when you're little. So you're like dressing, you're kind of confused, but it feels good, right? And you're doing it. on the DL, nobody knows. When you start, do you ever wind up telling anybody about it ever? Don't think so. I don't know. I don't think so.

I think, I mean, in my, now, I have mentioned to a few people that I have hooked up with guys, but I don't tell them the dressing part of it. Yeah. Oh, really? Yeah. Well, what part do you tell them if you don't tell them the dressing part? That's what I'm talking about, the cross-dressing. Yeah, I just tell them that I'm hooked up with guys, basically. Yeah, yeah, yeah.

Yeah, yeah. But do you hook up with guys dressed as well as not dressed? No, just dressed. Oh, okay. I don't tell them that part. I don't know why. It's just like, that's my little dirty secret, I suppose. But what part are you not telling them?

I'm confused, because if you're dressed and you're hooking up with them, how are you not telling them you're a cross-dresser? So I'm only, so people that, you know, friends of mine that are close friends, I'm just telling them I'm hooking up with guys. Oh, okay. You tell them that. Oh, you tell other people, not guys. you hook up with. Okay, I was confused. No, another guy I'm hooking up with. No, no, no. But you are,

well, you are, okay, so you're open, though, about the fact that every now and then you'll, like, hook up with a dude. Yeah. That's kind of interesting. When did you come out to your friends? Because this is something that you said you recently realized about yourself. Yeah. I don't know. Just kind of like, we were just kind of like, just chatting about stuff. And I just kind of, like, I don't know, maybe I casually dropped it in conversation because I'm a pretty private person and don't know. And they were pretty cool about it. I'm like, oh, that's great. Why do you think you did that?

Why, like, why at that point in your life do you think that you just, like, lob that out there? Do you have any idea? No, it was just, yeah, I don't really know too. I don't really thought about it. It just kind of just seemed like a natural thing to kind of say, oh, hey, you know, I've been hooking up with, you know, with guys. And they were kind of like, oh, that's cool. And I got the usual questions, you know, do you think you're gay, bisexual? And I said, oh, I don't know.

I kind of came down to maybe bisexual, but I didn't tell them everything else around it. They don't know the cross-dressing. That's something you very much cute yourself. No, they don't know the cross-dressing part. Yeah. Well, listen, it's not like you've been sucking dick since the dawn of time and then just decided

to tell people. It's like you just started hooking up a guy and very early on in that experience you wound up telling people. So you're just honest maybe. You don't know what I mean? Yeah, yeah. I mean, you said you're a private person but that doesn't seem very much like a private person to me. Yeah, yeah, true.

true. So, but that's cool. I mean, because they're, listen, unfortunately, there's such a stigma against guy on guy action that a lot of people keep it to themselves. So I think it's very brave of you to sort of put it out there and who the fuck cares, you know? And your friends were cool about it. Yeah, very cool. Yeah. Yeah. I'm surprised. And none of them like wanted to hug up with you afterwards. Because I wonder how many other of them are into guys. Because there's listen, there's a lot of guys that are into guy and guy action. But okay, so now when you dress up, okay, let's go back to the crush. As I think that when you're getting dressed up, when you were little, how far did you take the dressing? Like, did you do heels and stockings and panos?

Was it just like undergarments? Was it fully clothed? Like, I mean, like, how, what were you into wearing when you get dressed up? So when I was younger, it was just probably just undergarments. Yeah, it was mainly just like, I was more into like, you know, panties. So it started with the undergarments. Yeah, like stockings, garter belts. I was, I've always been drawn to little mini skirts, little pleated skirts, you know. Yeah. Well, you remember that, yeah. You did. tell me that first memory was that little pleaded skirt you found. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. Okay, and then it progressed.

Yeah, so it progressed as I got older. And obviously, I've had relationships and all that sort of stuff, but they've never known. But yeah, it's probably progressed into much more slutty. I like the slutty cross-dressers, okay? I like to ask cross-dressers what kind of vibe they have. I love the slutty ones because I would be a slutty cross-dresser for I was a cross-dresser. Because when I was younger, I was a slutty chick, you know what I'm saying? Like I like, I like slutty clothes.

So I get why, you know, you as in your girl form want slutty clothes. It's very, in a weird way, it could be very feminine. So this, like, in short skirts and that kind of stuff is what you're into. Yeah. So I've now, like, you know, in the last 10 to 15 years, probably progressed more into like PVC latex. Oh. Like high heels, thigh high boots.

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Like that addiction, you just, you need to up the dose. Yeah, because what you're getting out of it, once you get it, you need something more to get that big kick. Because you're getting big kicks off of it. Like you said, the endorphins that you get. Yeah, definitely. Yeah, yeah. Hey, guys, do you know that you also have a G spot? That's right.

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Like, I've got the breast forms and then it's kind of progressed on more like, you know, chasing that, that dopamine thing that I said before. So I progressed into chastity, into like, you know, vibrating butt plugs, prostate stimulators. Yeah, all that kind of stuff. And it's all that kind of stuff. Yeah. Is it because like you just got to scratch the itch and you need it more and more kind of thing? And so like you have to just keep pushing the boundaries.

Like that addiction. you just, you need to up the dose. Yeah, because what you're getting out of it, once you get it, you need something more to get that big kick. Because you're getting big kicks off of it, like you said, the endorphins that you've got. Yeah, definitely. Yeah, yeah, yeah. Yeah. So when did you, like, when you say that you're into pegging, like, did you get into that with women that you were with, I'm assuming?

Yes. So I did date a girl many years ago who, if you lined her up in a line of people, you would point her out as the most vanilla person that was, the most librarian. person who was, but it turns out she wasn't. Interesting. It's always those ones. Yeah. It's always those ones. And like, she had various things that she was into. But I think her main thing was, is it something that turned you on, it turned her on even more. So we kind of, we kind of discussed the pegging thing. And I had all the, all the arguments of my brain about, you know, it's not gay because, you know, like, you know, it's, you know,

that whole discussion around it. But she was. just like, yeah, let's give it a go. And yeah, we, we had a lot of fun over the years pegging. Yeah, we did outdoor pegging stuff. Wow. Oh, really? She would randomly bring it along in a handbag and we'd be out like in a park or a hike. And yeah, I definitely got fucked over the car a couple of times. Oh, my God. Oh, my God. She was out there, out there. Now, let me ask you this, were you, obviously because you said you never told any women, you're not dressed with this girl, right? You're just being pegged in your male form, right? No, male form, yeah. And listen, I mean, just because you get pegged in the ass doesn't mean you're gay. It's like I always say,

it doesn't mean anything, you know, it just means that it feels fucking good, like when you tried it. Had you ever explored that part of your body before, or was she the first one who went there with you? No, I think I had played around with it as a sort of a younger teenager before. Yeah. I think I remember, I don't even remember, like, if you had those, you know, those quite large pens that had all the different colors in it that you'd push down. Yeah, yeah, my son has one of those. Yeah, I think I remember putting a condom on one of those and being in the bathroom and, yeah, sticking that in my ass. It's okay. You're not beating out the one guy who told me that he shoved a G.I. Joe up his ass when he was little. Yeah. No. A pen makes more sense.

It's a little. I made for something that had a similar sort of like, you know, but I mean, obviously now it had no flat base and I could have ended up in hospital. Of course. Oh my God. So you were into the pegging. Did you ever wind up copping to that with anyone else? Or was it just with that woman because she brought it up and she was so open? Yeah, no, it was only her. It was only her.

And then as I've got older over the last few years, I've been to visit a professional Dom. Yeah, that's what I'm thinking. Because I'm with the mask and everything. Like, when do you get into all this kink stuff that you're into? Yeah, I don't know. I just kind of like, I've been on Fet Life for quite a few years and it's kind of just grown from there and I don't know.

Is it after your divorce? Yes, after. Yeah, yeah. I mean, I still used to dress during my marriage to the point where I would buy like, you know, quite nice sort of like laundry outfits for my wife thinking, well, I can probably wear that more than she will. Oh my God, I'm funny. If she only knew.

If only she knew. I lost them all in the divorce, yeah. It was hard to make an excuse to take them with you. But you would go and you would, like, you would buy her stuff, but then you would sneak and dress when she wasn't home? Yes. Did you ever get caught by any of your wife, by her or any of your girls? No, I don't think so. No, no.

I'm very careful normally. That's good. Like to the point where I would actually, like, I know this sounds really OCD, I would take a picture of the drawer. No, that's smart. No, that's smart. And then when I put things back, I could check the picture to make sure it was all back the way it was. I started to think, like. cleaning lady was going through my shit or when I started to find out that guys go into

girls hampers and look at their panties all the time, I've taken pictures of things to see if they're in the same spot when they come back. So it is smart to do. I think like you do. You know what I mean? I'm trying to catch people by the pictures, but it's the same thing in reverse. Yeah, but if I was trying not to get caught, I do the same thing. You know what I mean? It's actually very smart. That's why you haven't been caught. So the whole time you were married, you were dressing up behind your wife's back and she had no idea. Like if people were to meet you or if like your ex-wife, someone told her that like this whole time, he was dressing up wearing your lingerie, blah, blah, like, would she be like no fucking way? Like, or would she be like, oh, okay, like I could see

that. Are you like the librarian where you present very differently or, you know? There'd be no fucking way. I'm very like, you know, forward facing, mask looking guy, like hairy. I do a lot of sport. I go to the gym. I have a job where I'm in charge of lots of people, you know, it's very, you know. Like no one would have any clue. it's the opposite to what you'd think of, yeah. Yeah, yeah. That's typically the way that it is, right? And so when it did progress, right?

So by the time you're with your wife and you're older, like are you doing like head to toe dressing up or is it still mostly into undergarments, like the lingerie and everything? Yeah, it's probably more head to toe. I've played around with makeup, but don't really, I can't really seem to get the grass of it. You girls make it look very easy.

Listen, I taped a guy. Let me tell you. I taped a guy this morning, and you'll hear his episode on my Patreon. And he was talking about how he learned to do makeup really well. He took like he went to some like cross-dressing services places, you know, and they taught him and he got done up. And then he did some like watch some videos and stuff like that. So you can learn.

It can be learned. Yeah. Yeah. I've seen some YouTube videos, but yeah, I'd just wear a hood. Oh, yeah, your hood. Red lips, red lipstick if I have to. Oh, so the hood is even when you're, the hood is when you're dressed up. So you're all girly and everything and you have that mask on.

To me, that's more of a mask than a hood. Because it's covering your face. Yeah, it is covering my face. I've got a few of them. I've got one with just a mouth and no eyes. Oh my God, you need to send me picks of these. I don't know why you call them hoods. It sounds like masks to me.

Like a ski mask, right? Yeah, like a ski mask. Yeah, basically, I've got a pink one as well. Oh, my God. And I've got a latex one as well. It's very like, to me, it's very kink BDSM. I mean, you might as well have a ball. You might as well have a ball gag too.

You know, it's very much like that kind of vibe. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. It goes all together. Well, okay, so eventually after your divorce, like you get onto Fat Life and that's when like you get into latex and wearing the mask and all that kind of stuff. Yeah, it kind of progresses on from that. I think I've always had a little thing for the tight, shining, slightly clothes.

Yeah. If I can. Yeah. I definitely had a girlfriend who kind of wore like sort of like, you know, PVC. sort of stuff years ago. What's that? What is PVs? What are you saying? What's those the acronym for? Oh my God. I don't remember.

It's like latex, so tight and shiny, but it's not latex, if you know what I mean? Okay. What did you say? What did you call it? PVC? PVC, yeah. PVC. Interesting. Okay, just keep going. Yeah, yeah. And I was always intrigued by her clothes, but I couldn't wear them because they were too small.

And yeah, it kind of aggrat. I've always been intrigued, but you know now now I'm just on my own I can I have all that stuff so yeah it's great oh yeah PVC is like a whole cross-dressing term every cross-dresser is going to know what the fuck you're talking about with the PVC yeah I'm googling it while we're talking like it's a thing yeah I'm trying to google it but see what my computer doesn't want to work yeah it doesn't tell you what it is but it's constantly in there with all the cross-dressing stuff you know so did you get more into that stuff when you did say you went to a dominatrix like should we start there like and talk about that experience? Yeah, sure. Yeah, yeah. So a few years ago, I don't know. I just kind of like

just thought, how good would it be to go and visit a professional dom, get dressed up in front of, because I've never really been dressed up in front of anyone ever. It's always just been on my own. I've always been a bit voyeuristic and taken lots of pictures and shared them online. Okay. So you're like exposing yourself or having people see you? Yeah, but always hiding my face, but everything else. I'm always very careful with the pictures, so, you know, people don't, can't recognize it. Okay. Which has always been a bit of a fun thing to think that there's probably people out there that I know who are maybe getting off to pictures of me who they don't know. Yeah, you're a little bit of an exhibitionist. Do you like that? Yeah, yeah, yeah, just kind of. So

there's lots of doms here that we have options too. So I, yeah, clicked with one. Things went really well. I went to visit her. She was amazing and, yeah, got dressed up. She, you know, pegged me spanking, tied up. I was in Chastity, which for the first time ever she made me come in it. Now, this is after you started being into Chastity yourself, right? Or was she the one that got you into it? No, no, no, no. I was playing around with it beforehand, but not really that much. Just like my first one didn't go very well. It was a cheapy Chinese on. It was terrible. I threw it away. And then I kind of tried it again. And it was, it's kind of just prolonging that sort of that moment, trying to make that feeling last a bit longer, that sort of edging and playing and, you know,

all of that process and that sense of like, you know, slutty submission, no, I can't, can't play, I can't do anything, you know. Yeah. So, yeah, and in between, so I kind of was felt empowered after visiting her, and then I kind of jumped onto a few of the well-known apps where you hook up with men, which kind of opened me up to another world that I'd never really come across before of. gay men who also like to wear lingerie, which I never really even thought about. Yeah, that's very specific.

I mean, listen, a lot of guys do like men who dress up in clothing, but you're talking about specifically gay men who like to dress up themselves. Yeah, so I kind of arranged to go to see a guy my first time ever. I'd never done it before. I remember it very well, like when I was 10 wearing my sister's thigh highs, socks. And he was a gay guy in a relationship who also liked to wear lingerie, but he also liked the fact that I wore lingerie and was hairy. He liked those two things, which was very strange.

Well, maybe it's the best of the both worlds. You know, he wants like the feminine and the masculine at the same time. Yeah. So I went to his house. I was quite nervous, very, very nervous. I remember sitting in the car outside. I had laundret on underneath, like a basque and stockings under my boy clothes. Uh-huh.

And he left the front door unlocked. He was laying on the bed. He had a blindfold on. Was he, he's dressed now, correct? He's also dressed as well, yeah. What was he wearing? He had like a white sort of lingerie fishnet body suit. Okay.

With the crotch cut out. Okay. Now, let me just ask you this, because this is going to be your first guy-on-guy experience, correct? Yes. Did you know how far you wanted to go? I'm assuming maybe you know that you're a bottom or do you just want to top him because you want to

or do you want to be bottom? Like I mean, did you have like any kind of expectations or rules or boundaries going in? So it's quite specific though. I just wanted to go in and do a blow and go. Yeah, yeah, yeah. That's what most guys are into. They just want to give blow jobs.

Yeah, so I just went in and yeah, just got on my needs and, you know, sucked a cock for the first time. How was it? I did. Yeah, it was fun. It was great. I definitely got into it.

I got very slutty because it was my first time. Yeah. I asked him to film it. Interesting. Which you did. Okay. Now let me ask you this. This is the important part.

Are you masked this first time or does this because the masking start after this? No, I didn't have a mask then. I never thought about them. So I'm actually unmasked at this time. Okay. That's what I'm thinking. This is a video that the general public will never see. You have a hopeful.

Okay, so did you swallow? I did. I became very slutty and he covered my mouth. I even showed the camera and then I swallowed it and then carried on. Oh my God. Did the proper porn slutty crystal? Yeah. Let me ask you, did you get a blow job too? Did he, like, did you receive or you just want to blow him and leave? No, I just wanted to blow and then I left. Because I was worried that if I come, then I would have that whole process of feeling like, oh my God, what's wrong with me? What have I done? Yeah, at that guy's house. Yeah, so I went home and I think then I probably masturbated to the video and thought that was great. Yeah, yeah. So that was your first experience. And how did you feel after you masturbated and came down? And that's like you just realized you just hooked up with a dude where you're like, oh my God, what does this mean? Blah, blah, blah, because like, you know, this is the first time in your life.

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and use my code strictly for 10% off. Yeah. I've got to the point. Like, who cares? Yeah, I think that that's great because who does fucking care? Why should people care? You know what I mean? If you and him don't care, why should anybody else fucking care? That's the whole point of my show. I don't understand why people are so judgy about it. Yeah, I think I just grew up in that kind of like that stigma era. you know, very military family background, and it was very, you know, it was very anti-gay, very homosexual family. Yeah, most people still, I mean, that is still all over the place, you know, unfortunately.

Yeah, unfortunately. Yeah. So did you continue on that app to meet other guys? Yeah, so I went to, yeah, then I did, and then I met another guy. I met the same guy again. He came to my house this time, which I don't only do. And again, door unlocked, I'm on my knees, dressed up. I had a hood this time.

Oh. This is the one. The first one I got had no eyes. It just had a mouse because I suppose that's all he needed. Yeah. And I sucked him. He also wanted his ass eaten. Okay.

And you did it? So I did that as well. Yep. And then another guy who was married to a woman, a straight guy, and he sees himself as a bull. Yeah. That was kind of like his profile. A bull?

A bull, but not a bull like in the sense of my show, meaning he likes to fuck couples and shit like that. You mean like a bull like that animal? Yeah, like you're like, he's in charge. He's the dom. Oh, okay. Yeah, that makes sense. Yeah, yeah.

And yeah, so Suckton swallowed him as well. And then went back to the mistress and we started discussing, like, you know, she started discussing about what have you been up to and I told her I, you know, set these guys off and she said, oh, okay. And then she kind of went, oh, have you ever thought about getting fucked? And I said, oh, not really. I said it kind of like just, you know, it's not really something that's kind of like, I've, I just enjoy the, you know, the submissive, like on my knee sort of thing. And she goes, oh, okay, she goes, what about like a, we could do a forced buy scenario where a guy comes here, I'm here, and then we do a spit roast.

Totally, yep, there you go. So I ended up contacting this bull guy. he was very happy to do that. And then so I turned up at the mistresses. I got dressed up, had my hood on, and then he arrived, he came in, he got naked, and basically she told me to crawl on all fours over to him and start to suck his cock and lick his balls, all that sort of stuff.

And then she started to loosen me up, and then he fucked me while she filmed it. And then basically, then I sucked her strap on, and then they swapped around and then she fucked me and I sucked him. Oh my God. I was wondering who was being spit roasted when she said that that was going to happen. You know what I mean?

I was trying to figure it out. It was me. It was me in the middle. Yeah, yeah, yeah. And her with the strap on, that makes sense. And her with the strap on and him with his cock. Yeah. Oh my God.

I mean, how do you kind of like scratch an itch after that experience? Like where do you go from there? Yeah, no. That's pretty much the ultimate itch to scratch, isn't it? There's not much else besides that. Yeah. I mean, listen, it's pretty much like, you know, that's pretty, major, you know. Yeah. And even the mistress said she had never done that before. She'd never,

she had done like forced by, where she'd made guys suck other guys, but she'd never been spit roasted. She'd never been like on the other end of it. So she said it was great fun for her as well. Oh, that's interesting. Now, you're dressed as a woman, you're dressed in your, in your, your female clothing for that experience, correct? Yeah. I'm in a pink PVC mini dress. Right. I've got later. text stockings on with pink fishnets over the top of them, a pink garter belt, a collar that says little slut and a hood. Oh my God, the hood. I mean, that becomes your thing after the, why did, do you remember, like, I'm kind of obsessed with the hood thing because it's so specific and I've

never heard it before and I think it's very not, it's not that common, you know, I won't, I'm wondering like that first time you decided to wear one, like, how did that come up? Did you see a picture? Did you watch a porn? Did someone else? you see someone else wearing one. Like, how did you get into the mask thing? Yeah, I think I saw something on, I'm trying to think. I think it was like she was the mistress for the first time. And I think we were talking about makeup.

And I think she said, oh, because I wanted to take pictures, but I didn't want my face out. She was happy to take pictures. And she said, we can put a hood on you. And I think, oh, okay. I'd seen pictures of it, but I hadn't really put two and two together because it doesn't look particularly feminine, but that's okay. I just want to hide my face. So yeah. And I think it just progressed on from there.

Oh, okay. So it became something for, like, because of something else, but now you're kind of into it. Like, is it a part of the turn on, like them not knowing who you are and they can't see you, right? Yeah. Yeah. And I give them the option, do you want the hood with the eyes or without the eyes so I can't see you? And I don't really care what they look like. Oh, my God. That's super slutty. Listen, if you're going for the sluddy. bloody thing. That's as slutty as you get, right? Like, you can't even see who you're blowing. Exactly. It's just a cock. Yeah. Yeah. Oh, my God. Have you ever been to like any kind of like, I know you go to the dungeon and stuff? Like, have you ever been to any adult bookstores or

anything like that now that you're into the whole guy and guy action thing? I haven't. No, I have thought about it. Like, because there's quite a lot of them here and like, you know, I thought, oh, well, glory holes would be pretty slutty. But no, I haven't, no. I even looked at, you can buy a glory hole for your house. Like you get like a, yeah. You can get with those screens. And I was thinking, oh, I could do that. You're probably going to wind up one day. You're probably going to wind up trying it one day. Why not, right?

Yeah, probably. Yeah. Why not? Okay, so now, how was like the actually getting fucked in the ass by the guy different than the pegging? Was it like, oh, my God, this is so much better? I would assume because there's nothing like the real thing, right? Yeah.

I mean, it was, you know, for the first 10 seconds, like, very painful. Yeah. Yeah, because you're being, this is called a forced by scenario. So it's not like he's not easing in, correct? No, he kind of pushed it in. It was like, yeah, it was like, I mean, I had been, you know, the mistress had loosened me up a bit, but it wasn't like, you know, he's quite a, he's quite a thick boy. Oh my God. Did you ever do that kind of experience again? I haven't. No, I haven't. That's the only time I've been fucked actually. Okay. And that's the only forced by scenario you've done so far? Yeah, that's it. Yeah.

Do you enjoy like the whole Like mistress thing and like how far have you taken? Like what other kinds of things have you done with her? I mean she's done the the the the cock the cage right? Like you've been yeah the cage and you know she's fucked me many times I've been you know yeah lots of lots of impact play Yeah that's why I was like any kind of beat SM or any kind of Yeah we've done all the yeah impact play yeah she would

make me, you know, gag on her cock, which she seemed to enjoy a lot more than I thought she would. Yeah. And we did like kind of like a whole week of she would give me different tasks every day to do it. You laugh, but that's like very BD, like that's very common in BDSM. It's a lot of stuff like that, you know? What kind of tasks? She would give me that I'd have to wear Chastity for the day. And then she would, at times during the day, would message me to say,

showed me, so I'd have to go to the bathroom to show her. Yeah. Things like I'd have to try and find a cock to suck in the next 24 hours and show her pictures to prove it. Oh my God. What else do we do? We did lots of things like wear lingerie underneath my work clothes. Oh my God. And show pictures of her throughout the day. Just, yeah. So yeah, it was a whole week of things like that. Yeah, yeah. That's pretty, that's like, I mean, it's very, you know, that's the kind of stuff that guy see Dominatrix for. Like, that's the typical. kind of stuff. Where are you finding all these guys? Like when you have to take a picture of you suck and cock,

are you still on that same app and that's where you find the guys you hook up with? Yeah, yeah, there's a couple of apps I tend to go on and they're just, you know, like, you know, I hate to say, but made it quite easy. I know that. I always tell my straight guy friends, like you'd be a lot happier if you were open to dudes. It's very easy to get sex, you know, from a guy if you're into it. Same with the blowjohns. They don't care. They just want to finish, you know, they just want to come and they're happy. That's it. They don't really, they're not really that fuss to what happens in between. Exactly. And, you know, look, you don't even care what they fucking look like. Don't. I mean, you know, what are you like, I mean, obviously you don't drive there with the mask on.

So what do you do? Like, before you enter the room, the, with the mask that has no, like, you that you can't see? Like, what do you just, like, feel your way over like a blind person to the bed? And find the car. I tend to have it my, like, you know, hold on to it. Or I have it on the top. my head. Okay. And then I pull it, pull it down at the last second. Oh, okay. So you're not walking in, like with that, with it. No, no, not walking like, but looking like a blind burglar. Yeah, because I was like, how do you do, without the eyes? What do you find that most got, like, do a lot of guys, like, I mean, because you say you give them the option, eyes, no eyes, like, you know, do they ever, do you see a preference or do most of them not care? Yeah, they prefer to have with the eyes.

Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Interesting. Have you, since you've been, masking up have you like not masks to or do you always now wear it always? Yeah always pretty much yeah always there's not time I haven't worn it when yeah when I've sucked a cock no So the reason why like the whole reason why

I'm assuming you didn't do anything with guys When you were in with your wife is because You hadn't really realize you were Into dudes then correct Yeah I think so I think It always been a little itch to To scratch but I just thought Oh no it's probably just part of the

cross-dressing process, you know, like, you're dressing up like a woman, you must be attracted to a cock, you know. Yeah. Yeah. And then it was when you got divorced and you were free to do whatever you wanted, you decided like, oh, I'm going to try this out. Yeah, I thought, oh, I remember sitting in the car that day and the first time thinking, oh, I can't do this, I can't do this. And the guy was super nice. I was messaging him and I thought, I don't know if I can do this. I'm super nervous. He's like, don't worry if you can't do it. And then I sat there and I thought, well, if I don't do it now, I'm never going to do it. And I thought, I'll just do it once. If it's horrendous and it's an absolute, you know, shit show, I'll walk away.

But yeah, I went for it. Are you typically meeting up, like, you know, with the guy, I'm assuming you're hooking up with a lot of guys, right? Yes or no? There's been a few. Yeah. I mean, there's definitely dry periods and, you know, better periods. But, yeah, no, when I'm working and, you know, I still have a family and stuff like that.

So there's not always the perfect time. But yeah. But who are these guys? Are you, first of all, I was going to ask. Like when you're with the guys always, you always are dressed, correct? Yes, always. Okay. And who are these guys that are you meaning?

Are they always dressed or are they sometimes not dressed? No, 98% of the time they're never dressed. Exactly. That's what I was thinking. But that first guy was, that was like a thing. The first guy was, yeah, it just happened to be, I think it was just a fluke. Yeah. Do you have a preference?

No, not really, no. I mean, it would be fun to hook up with another cross-dresser, I think, one day. but no. Yeah. Interesting. And who are these guys typically? Like, do you think that are they married guys? Do they come from every walk of life?

Like, are they guys that you would never believe? Funny enough, I think probably most of them are like outwardly straight. Yeah. Isn't that interesting? In their 50s probably. Yeah? And yeah, they've just decided to experiment down this road. I think they like the fact that there's a man, but it's also dressed like a woman.

I think they like that. It kind of eases that. like that sense of like oh i'm not really with a man yeah i'm not really with a man yeah yeah maybe i don't know and then it makes sense they can't see the face neither so there could be anyone under there could be yeah yeah could be a girl but you're i mean because you're not really like you're sucking their dick right like they're not sucking your dick most of the time correct that's right yeah so they could really just pretend but and like and so and when on this way do you typically get them on or are you still on that gay website or are you getting them mostly

from FetLife? Like where do you meet all these guys? Yeah, FetLife. And yeah, and I suppose that Grindr is probably the other one. Now, on Grindr, let me ask you this, because I know for sure there are so many straight guys that will hit up guys online who are like crushed dressers. Don't you get hit up a lot by guys?

Yeah, it's definitely very popular. The second I put a profile on there. Yeah, yeah, yeah. And so even on Grindr, like a place where you think it's typically just guys to guys, right? Like, if you go on Grindr as a cross tester, like you get a lot of people hitting you up. Yeah, I think you're quite, like,

if you go on Grindr, like, it's predominantly just, you know, it's all the same. It's all like, you know, the very gay men, lots of cocks. And then all of a sudden, like, there's probably like less than 5% is like this little niche cross-dresses, you know, like who are in that world.

And I think it just stands out. Yeah, that's interesting. I think that's kind of good to tell other cross-dressors because maybe cross-dresses some cross-dresses would never think that you could go on Grindr, right? Because you think it's a place where it's just like all-masculine men with other men. You know what I mean? Yeah, as long as you're honest and open, this is what I am, this is what I'm after. The people who are not interested will, you know, not interested won't hit you up, but they're the ones that are will. So, you know, that's all you need to do.

No, and the truth is when you go on there, you get hit up a lot, right? Yes. Like, it's not like it's a few and far between. I do think it's a popular thing. Yeah, I get lots of messages. You just, you know, you have to kind of weed out the, which I'm sure you women have dealt with for long, long time, you know, weed out the guys who just want to get off online quick and easy and not do anything or the, you know, the time wasters and all that sort of stuff.

Yeah. Yeah, of course. Now, have you dated any women since you've been divorced? I have, yes, yes, yes. And have you ever told any of those women about you being into guys? No, nothing, nothing. Do you plan on, like, in your future? Because you're still what?

You're in your early 40s, right? So, like, if you get in a long-term relationship, are you looking to be with somebody that you could let them know about the fact that you're into guys at least? Or do you think you'd keep that a secret? Currently, there is a particular, I'm on Fet Life, and I've been chatting. And what I've noticed recently is a lot of interest from women. Oh, interesting.

As a cross-dresser. Well, not as a cross-judice, but not lots, but quite like quite a few women who have been messaging me. One particular woman who we've been chatting a lot who actually now knows, you know, I've shared my number with her and we chat quite regularly and she's quite into that. So I think on FetLife, she comes across as more of a sub.

But when I've spoken to her, she quite likes the fact of being a dom to a cross-dresser. Yeah, interesting. So, and yeah, we've kind of like, you know, been chatting for a while and to the point where I've kind of like, have actually showed my real face to her, which is something I never do. Does she live in your area? It's a few hours away.

So we haven't actually been up yet, yeah. And do you find her attractive? Yeah, very attractive. Yeah, yeah. So we've been sending things to each other for Christmas and stuff like, like naughty things. Yeah, of course, yeah. Okay, that's a good start. You got to be sexually attracted.

She sent me some of her panties for Christmas. Oh, my God, hilarious. And you're like sex. and stuff like that, like online with each other? Yeah, yeah, basically. Yeah, yeah. And do you have plans to meet up? I think we do. Yeah, I think we will meet up. Yeah. Listen, I think it's good to know. The first guy I told you, I did two, I taped two people a day every day. And today, it was a cross-dresser in the morning and, and you as well. And the guy in the morning, you know, has just come to terms with his cross-dressing and he really wants to go into his next relationship, completely honest, you know,

and he's really worried that he could never find a girl that's into it. It's great to know that. to know that on fat life you have a few girls emailing you and you fat right i mean that's good to know no no it's nice it's nice to know like from a from my point of you you just always assume that women are not in but a lot of women actually quite quite like it and quite enjoy it like she is to the point where she's telling me what to wear and she's like finding me outfits to buy online and stuff like that so yeah it's yeah it's been a lot of fun yeah that's super interesting so do you plan on if you ever got in a relationship, maybe it would be preferable to be honest about it and you would like that? I think so. I think as I've got older, I've kind of come to terms with it and I'm quite

happy with my sexuality and, you know, what I do. And I think if I was to get into a relationship and it was like, you know, a nice serious relationship, I think I would need to be, yeah, I think it would be better for a relationship if I was honest and open about everything about me earlier on. And this girl also knows about you being with dudes too. I would assume everything's out on your fat life profile. It is, yes, very much. The most popular picture is the spit roasting picture. Oh, my God. Thousands of likes, thousands. You're kidding. Oh, my God, because you got like, you're being spit roasted by a chick with a strap on and a guy. Yes. Oh, my God. Now, where do you go online to, like, post yourself and

everything? Like, are you just on different forums? Or is it mostly fat life? Mainly fat life. I do seem to have a lot of followers on Fet Life all of a sudden. Do you want to give a shout out to your Fet Life by any chance or do you want to keep that private? I mean, I have a big show. I'll keep it private. It's fine. Okay, okay. Okay. But you have a lot of followers on there. Yeah, I do, yeah. And I also do have a Twitter or X, but I'm not particularly a big fan of that at the moment.

It's kind of a bit toxic, too honestly, and I've kind of justed away from that. In what sense? I used to go, it's just a lot of the, you know, a lot of the doms are all getting their accounts cancelled. Oh, yeah, of course. Yeah, lots of like, you know, quite anti, you know, sex work and sex life and all that sort of stuff on there. And it's become kind of like, you know, a toxic sort of area.

So I've kind of drifted. I was on there many years ago, probably like 10 or 11 years ago is kind of how it started. And I kind of, Twitter was great because it kind of made me realize I wasn't alike. Yeah. Yeah. Lots of us and lots and lots of us. all the same and we all like the same thing so it can't be that, you know,

it's not. If lots of people like the same thing, it can't be weird. It can't be abnormal. Totally. Totally. Yeah. Yeah. I think that that's like what I said. It's like that's very important for sure. But yeah, listen, I learned because what I do, I face that kind of problem with

oh, you know, you're like I'm going to sleep with one eye open because like any platform could be deleted because you're talking about sex. You know what I mean? It's so crazy. And I've learned the hard way because I had a YouTube channel. I got like 500,000 downloads a month there. I had 57,000 subscribers there. And I got fucking deleted in one day.

And I learned, and I think I learned this many years before they fucking canned me. Like, just don't bother putting your time into those kinds of platforms where it's really risky because you can be deleted in two seconds. And you're going to be so fucking pissed that you wasted your time, like you said on Twitter, you know, at least on FetLife,

you know, you could post your stuff, you could build your platform, you could do whatever you want there, and you're never going to be like, it's all going to be taken away from you, you know? No, and it's a really nice community. Everyone's, I haven't come across any negative stuff on there at all. Like, everyone's very open, very, like, you know, oh, you should try this. Or have you thought about doing this.

You know, everyone's very supportive. Yeah. Yeah. And so you have all your pictures up there. You don't want to give it out. Do you have any, I mean, listen, my listeners are really cool. You know, the people will be, like, asking for your friend life, but you don't have to give it. But, like, let me ask you this now.

When you, do you ever go out besides like, you know, dressing up underneath your clothes? Do you ever go out fully dressed as a woman, as a woman, woman, woman? Or only clothing underneath? Only clothing, yeah. And do you do that only when she forces you to underneath? Or do you wear underneath sometimes because you, it's naughty and whatever? Yeah, I like to, you know, when I'm in the mood, I'll just do it sometimes anyway. You will?

Yeah. Yeah. And so, I mean, I'm always like the type of things like, oh my God. God, if you ever got in a car accident or whatever. But I'm sure, like, you know, the doctors in the ER have seen it all. Yeah, I'm sure they have. I'm sure they have. And much more.

Yeah. I've definitely thought about that when I've been driving around thinking, oh, this would be an awkward time to have your clothes cut off. Or especially if I've got, like, you know, a vibrating butt plug in or something. Oh, my God. You do that too. And you do that too. And now what is the new?

Because, listen, I think all cock cages are not made the same, right? You have to spend a little money to get a good one, correct? Yeah, I've got a few. I've got a metal one. I've got a silicon one. I've got a couple of cheapy plastic ones. And, you know, yeah, I've got a few of them. Which ones do you like the best? There's a particular pink small one I like. Uh-huh. I did try, for the first time a couple of weeks ago, I tried a flat cage. What's that? It's completely flat. Like where your penis would go in is completely flat. Okay. Yeah, that was quite a challenge.

But it pushes it in so it makes you look more feminine maybe too at the same time? Is that the point? Yeah, it's almost inverted. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. It's a strange feeling.

But yeah, no, like I said, I'm happy to try most things, honestly. Well, I've almost tried most things I wanted to. But yeah. Yeah, you sound committed once you get into it. How long? What's the longest you've ever been caged for? I think 24 hours. Okay.

Yeah. Not very long. But, yeah, I put the keys in a massive top. of water in the freezer so I couldn't get them. Oh my God, you're so fucking funny so that you knew for sure you couldn't get it. Yeah, when you change your mind. So I woke up at like, I think at 2 o'clock in the morning and it was throbbing and I was like, oh my God, I can't get these.

And I'm there trying to run hot water on them to try and get them out. I couldn't get them out. Oh, my God. You needed an axe. You needed to like axe, like pick it out or something. I know. I needed something. I was like, oh, I need to get this off.

And I couldn't. So I ended up going back to sleep. Oh, my God. Oh my God, that's so fucking funny. Would you ever do it again? Yeah, probably. Yeah, it was fun. It was fun. Like, you know. Mm-hmm. So do you still see the girl, the dominatrix? And does she still do stuff with you? Or do you not see her anymore? I haven't seen her for probably about 12 months now. She's kind of been off busy doing other life things. Family and stuff like that, I think got started. But yeah, no, we still chat though quite regularly. Yeah. I still send her a coffee quite regularly at least once a week.

Okay, so that's cool. Could you do me a favor like for my Patreon? And listen, when we hang up here, you're going to get free access to my Discord, which is super great. There's like a whole, there's a lot of channels you're going to be interested in because there's like a pegging channel. There's a cross-ressing channel. There's like so much stuff in there that you're going to be like fucking down for. Plus there's like 6,000 people in my Discord. You're going to get free.

It's private and no one gets the link unless I give it to them. So you're going to get a free invite for calling into my show. I'm also going to give you free access to my Patreon. You're not on there, right? I don't think so. No, I don't think I've ever used Patreon before. No. Okay, but listen, you'll get a free year to it. And like, honestly, that's a great deal because it's $10 a month. But I give every cross-dester or hoser who calls into my show a free year. And there's so much exclusive content there. Like, I give the cross-dressing tier like a free episode, like one exclusive content every month. So there's probably hundreds of episodes there that nobody else gets. You'll get free access to that. You just use a link. If you don't want to sign a free Patreon, you don't have to. I'll send you the free link. I'll send you the free language.

Yeah, once your episode airs This will definitely be on my podcast. If you want to send me picks, though, that would be super great for my Patreon and my Discord. Can you send me picks? Yeah, of course. How do I send you picks? Send them through my email.

That's the best way. Okay, all right, sure. All right. And email them to me sooner than later so that I know that I have them. You know, for when your episode airs, it'll definitely be on a fetish Friday, okay, coming up soon. Okay, perfect.

Yeah, yeah, amazing. Okay, thanks so much, Crystal, for calling in and sharing your whole story. It's super interesting. I wonder where you're going to go from here. What itch you're going to scratch next? Yeah. Yeah, I'll have to see.

Yeah, but thanks for calling in. Thanks so much. No worries. Perfect. Thanks, Kathy. Okay, thanks. Bye, bye, bye, bye. Okay, I just want to tell you before you go that I do have a book.

The book is called Shirkling Non-Mas Confessions, Secret Sex Lives of Total Strangers. The book is basically 17 different stories taken from my show. I kind of picked one story from each category that I talk about on my show. Like, there's a hot wife story. There's a cuck queen story. There's a cuckold story. There's a gang bang girl story. There's like I said, 17 stories.

And they're all told in the third person, right? So I took the interview and I rewrote it in the third person. I wouldn't call it like an erotica book, though there's plenty of sex in there, right? But I didn't write it to sound like erotica because that's like the vibe of my show. You're going to learn a lot. You're probably going to get a little turned on. It's a different way to hear these stories, like I said. because they're written out in third person. There's an e-book available if you don't want your partner to know

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that's in there are people that listen to my show and people that listen to my show are fucking great. So my Discord is fucking great. My book is great. You're going to love it. If you buy it, all you got to do is send me the receipt or a picture of proof that you bought it and I will give you free access to my Discord. Send it to Strictly Anonymous Podcast at gmail.com. You could find my book in the link in the description, okay, or just Google it, strictly anonymous confessions, Secret Sex Lives of Total Strangers. You can find it anywhere. You buy books. Send me the picture and I'll give you access to my Discord email, strictly anonymous podcast at gmail.com. Anyway, thanks so much for listening. Okay, I just want to tell you before you go that my book, it's called Strictly

Anonymous Confession, Secret Sex Lives of Total Strangers, is now available not only in paperback and e-book, but you can pre-order the audio book. It's still not going to be out until August 25th, but you can pre-order it. The book is basically 17 different stories taken from my show. I kind of picked one story from each category that I talk about on my show. Like, there's a hot wife story. There's a cuck queen story. There's a cuck story. There's a gang-being girl story. Like I said, 17 stories. And they're all told in the third person. And they're all true. I took the interview and rewrote it in the third person and I wouldn't really call it like a total erotica book. Think like penthouse letters. It's more direct. It's not so over the top like erotica. I don't really like that kind of vibe, right? But these are true stories. 17 of them. They're really short chapters, easy read. You could read one or two and then skip around. You could read the whole book. It's available in eback format, paperback format, And finally, the audio book is available coming out August 25th, but you could pre-order it now.

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