Strictly Anonymous Confessions - 156 - Violet Can Only Get Off Watching Women Fart

Episode Date: December 12, 2016

Violet can only orgasm while watching women fart and it's become a huge problem for her considering she's straight. When did she get into fart videos? How did she get into them? Why is she into them? How can she stop being into them? Tune in find out plus hear all about her overly active sex drive and where she pleasures herself, her promiscuous past, her battle with alcohol and a whole lot more. **To see anonymous pics of my female guests + hear anonymous confessions + get all the episodes early and AD FREE, join my Patreon! It's only $7 a month and you can cancel at any time. You can sign up here: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.patreon.com/StrictlyAnonymousPodcast⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ and when you join, I'll throw in a complimentary link to my private Discord! MY BOOK IS NOW OUT FOR PRE-ORDER!!!! Strictly Anonymous Confessions: Secret Sex Lives of Total Strangers. A bunch of short, super sexy, TRUE stories. GET YOUR COPY NOW: https://amzn.to/4i7hBCd To Join SDC and get a FREE Trial! click here: https://www.sdc.com/?ref=37712 or go to SDC.com and use my code 37712 Want to be on the show? Email me at [e-mail] or go to http://www.strictlyanonymouspodcast.com and click on "Be on the Show" Have something quick you want to confesss while remaining anonymous? Call the CONFESSIONS hotline at 347-420-3579. You can call 24/7. All voices are changed. Sponsors: https://bluechew.com Get your first month FREE! https://butterwellness.com/ Try the Butter Wellness perineum massager and use code STRICTLY for 20% off your entire order Follow me! Instagram https://www.instagram.com/strictanonymous/ Twitter https://twitter.com/strictanonymous?lang=en Website http://www.strictlyanonymouspodcast.com/ Everything else https://linktr.ee/Strictlyanonymouspodcast Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

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I'm always looking for callers, strictly anonymous podcast at gmail.com. The girl who I have on today, Violet, I love that name. She wrote in to the show. She was a listener and said, hey, I've got this really weird fetish. And I, like I have to say, like you, looking at the title, about to listen to this podcast, probably thought a lot of the similar things that you're thinking, which is like, oh, my God, this isn't really real. Or, oh, my God, I'm going to laugh through this whole podcast. Or, you know, like, how am I going to keep a straight face? Because this girl, okay, her fetish is she could only get off if she sees and hears women farting.

like that's a real that's the real deal and like I said I'm not even going to get in on this intro to what goes on and what we talk about on this podcast because you have to listen to it but like I said you're no doubt in my mind you're thinking the same things I did the first thing I thought of when I got her email because it was very specific and she laid it all out and we'll talk about that in the podcast exactly like where how her fetish sort of plays out in her life and it's very niche it's not like the typical farting fetish uh that other people have it's different and she explains that and so you know when I got the email I was like this is not true like this is a joke right and then I also thought like how am I going to do this and not laugh like I don't know maybe it's

just going to be funny you know or how am I going to take it seriously but like I said a second ago like you're thinking those same things but like I don't know everything played out so much differently like I have to say and it was like a really interesting call with a really interesting girl named Violet who explains a really interesting part of her life and reveals a lot of stuff for the first time, you know, because it's not something that she's ever talked about. And it was great for her and it was great for me to hear. And it's going to be great for you. So like I said, I'm not going to get into details. I'm just going to let you listen and see how different you're going to feel after listening to the podcast, just like I did. Okay, so I'll be right back on with Violet.

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How are you today? I'm good. How are you? I'm good. So, Violet, I was very excited when I got your email. At first, I was like, is this even real? Like, I was like, maybe it's not real. But, like, once we started talking back and forth, I really realized.

And you were very specific in your email that I figured it was real, but I was like, maybe it's not. Because I've never heard of this fetish. It's definitely a fetish, but like you said in your email, there are a lot of videos out there about this fetish. So it means that other people must have it, you know, but I've never, you know, heard about it or had anyone on my show about it. So I was very excited to talk to you. So I want you to explain exactly what you explained to me in the email. And then I'll get to the other specifics.

Okay. So I guess basically what it is is I can never orgasm during sex. So the only way, you know, through experience I've found that works for me is if I find videos online and, like you said, they are everywhere. And they're just like women just, like farting. It's like not anything like there's plenty of different kinds of like there's nude women and like women having sex. And I don't like, I just like just fully clothed like sitting somewhere.

and I don't care of what they look like. I don't even really necessarily look at them that much. I don't, yeah. But wait a second. Okay, let's just clarify a little bit because your thing is you could only get off if you, even when you're by yourself, right? If you Google and watch videos of women farting,

like how about men? Have you ever tried men? I have, yes. And? I think. I think what it is, weirdly enough, is I find it, like, not necessarily gross, but, like, I'm attracted to men, and I don't, and I'm not attracted to, like, in general, farting, like, if I were having, like, hooking up. Yeah, it's so, like, yeah. Yeah, it sounds so crazy, right?

But yet, that's, like, how it plays out in your reality. Is that, like, you would be turned off if a guy farted during sex with you, yet, you'd, yet, you would be turned off if a guy farted during sex with you. yet you could only get off if you're watching porn, right? But like you don't even like hardcore farting videos, right? You said like they have women, lesbians, like all that kinds of, you like fully-clothes or just women on the toilet farting, right? Like that's your thing. Yeah, yeah.

I don't like to see any of their business. You don't want to see like their vagina, their vage, their tits, like nothing of that. But yet, so it's just the noise. Like, how about this? Like, did you ever, like, is it just the noise of it? Like, if you're in a public bathroom, right? And somebody is next door. And I'm sorry, but, like, guys don't understand this.

But how many times, like, I've been in a woman's bathroom and you hear other women farting? I don't know why people can't control their assholes when they pee. I don't know what it is because I don't think I've ever farted in my life when I've been going to the bathroom. But people do all the time, right? Don't you hear that in bathrooms? Oh, yeah, all the time, yeah. I know. And so, like, would that, like, turn you on?

or is it have to be like you see the person too? I think it's a lot of it is seeing them and also just like, it's hard to explain, but there's something about, like, distancing myself from it. Like, even if I'm, like, with my friend and, like, she far, like, I get nothing. I don't even, like, think about it. Uh-huh. It's just, I don't know. I think some of it is the fact that they're doing it, like, for the purpose.

of helping people get off. Right. Because, like, certain videos. And, um, I don't know. Like, I,

it's not like an accident. Yeah. Yeah. You don't get turned on by that. I'm just, okay, but, and then this is the other thing

that you also talked about. I mean, like you had slept with a lot of guys, right? But, you know, but you never have come through anything. Not just like sex, not from them going down on you.

You don't have orgasms with men at all. But you are super horny. Like, you did say, as well in your email that you will jerk off like you go masturbate anywhere when the need comes up right like I mean when you get horny if you're at your friend's house or you're like whatever you and you have to get off you go please you go pleasure yourself right right yep and so what do you do you do your phone and like Google videos or do you just think about farting in your head like what do you

do in those scenarios um yeah I can't one of the other thing I can't just think about I have to be watching a video. Sometimes I'll just take my phone and like go into the bathroom and just like rub one out real quick. Like it, I don't know. It's, um. Okay, just because I'm curious about like what maybe my horny friends I've done behind my back and like, you know, who knows? But like where have been places, like the craziest places and scenarios that you've gone in the bathroom or wherever and jerked off because you just couldn't help yourself? Um, I guess most frequently it is, um,

if I'm spending the night out of friends, you know, because it's not like a few hours. Right. I can handle a few hours. But, um, and they'll just be like watching the movie or something. I'll be like, oh, I got to go to the bathroom and they'll just think I'm like taking a dump or something because I'm in there so long. Right. And, um, and sometimes on my old job, I would take my break in my car just because I don't know, I did. And, um, I would do it in there a lot because I had like half hour or 44 minutes.

So you would go in your car and do it like in the parking lot? Yep. And you never been caught or busted by anybody doing these kind of secret masturbation sessions anywhere? Not bad I know if I did. No one's done anything. Yeah, you might be on videotape in your parking lot of you. You know, if there's ever like a murder close by while you're in that,

you know, they might actually, when they go to look at the tape, might see you. Right. Well, they won't know what I'm watching. No, they'll just know. that you're jerk off. So let me ask you this. When you jerk off, because we're going to get to the specifics, because you really like wish, like you want to sort of overcome this problem. Like, it's an issue for you that you can't orgasm without that, right? When you are playing with yourself, like in the car or in the bathroom or home alone, right? Are you playing with your clit? Are you

fingering yourself? Like, what are you doing, like, manually that's making you get off? Yeah, I have, like, vibrators and stuff, but I really never use them. I just, I'll just use, like, my clip, I'll just run, and that's, that's enough for me. Right. Okay. So even though, because you could get off with your clip being stimulated by just your fingers, because I don't think vibrators are good to use all the time. I never like them either, because it's just like, if you get so used to, and I don't know

if this is true, but I always thought this as a woman, like, if I got used to using a vibrator all the time, like, how would I ever get off regularly? Because, like, no dick, no tongue, no nothing is ever going to be that intense. know what I mean? It's almost like to me desensitizes you. So I think it's much better to stay away from that stuff, right? So if your hand, right, if your hand can stimulate your clit and turn you on and you're super horny, which means you have like a very healthy sex drive, like when a guy goes down on you, like you can't come even then? No, I mean, I, it feels good, but I feel like there's just like that element missing like that I'm not feeling it the way that I want to be.

I don't know. It's like they don't do anything wrong, but I just can't like, I don't know. You can't get over the edge. Like you can't get to that place of like what happens when you're like, you know, it gets, you get more intense. It feels better and better. And then you eventually orgasm. Like you can't get to that even that sort of incline where it starts to get like really great.

And then you're close to orgasming. Do you even get close? No. really I really don't and I think a lot of it sometimes I think I'm so stressed about it because I really want to that there's just no way it's going to happen because I'm thinking too much about it totally uh-huh yeah probably now that's the problem you know um right with sex problems and too once it becomes like something that you overthink and stuff that's like the worst thing with any kind of sex for men and women I had a I've been with guys that had getting it up problems and it's like very mental you know

mean you have to like push through it but let me ask you this when did you first start like masturbating and when did you first you know was that like when did you first get into the whole farting fetish thing weird really for like the first few years when I was like I was pretty old I was probably like 14 15 and I would just um like it was before I had any of my own stuff so if no one was home I'd like go to the computer like just watch YouTube video um and And, but I would just watch them. I wouldn't do anything. And I honestly, I was trying to think, because I figured you'd ask, but I don't remember, like, what made me search that in the first place.

Yeah, that's why I was just going to ask. Yeah, like, I don't know. I must have, like, stumbled upon it and just, like, I don't know. Like, I honestly can't remember. I just know I was around that age. And then it wasn't until I was, like, 17, almost 18, and I was watching them. and decided to try to masturbate, and then it took like one minute. And I was like, wow, why haven't I been doing this the whole time?

Right. So let me ask you this, though, from 14, 15 when you're watching those videos, right? And I'm assuming you were watching all kinds of videos or that once you came across those farting videos, did you just stick with them? Or were you trying out all different videos? Yeah. No, I just searched all different videos. I just searched to see what I could find.

Right. And you would get slightly horny from other things too, though? Yeah. Okay. Yeah. But let me ask you this because you said that you only get off through farting. Like, did you not have an orgasm until you were 17 that first time that you used that video? Or were you having orgasms before that from other random stuff?

I really, I don't remember ever having an orgasm before then. Like, I feel like I never experienced that until that time. Yeah, I think you know, okay? Like, I had a friend. who would be like, I don't know if I had an orgasm. I'm like, well, then you didn't have one because it's the type of thing like you know. You know what I mean? Like it's like a thing.

If you don't know, then you were, you definitely weren't. So if that was the first time, so it really like nothing else. And like were you like trying and it would feel good? What would make you stop? You would just think, okay, I'm finished like because you didn't have an orgasm. Maybe you didn't know. Like, or you got bored because it was taking too long. Like did you know that you weren't coming or did you do you know what I'm saying?

Like, because I'm like, maybe you don't even know that you're not coming because you would never come before. Like, I don't know. Well, the thing is, like, I didn't even really try until, like, then. Because, like, I would watch the videos and I wouldn't even really touch myself at all. And, like, I would just sit there. And I didn't really know, A, like, why I was watching them. Or be, like, why I always wanted to. I was clearly, like, horny, but I couldn't, like, pieces together because I've never had any experience.

So I just, I just. I am like, I don't, I didn't think I was having an orgasm. And I also didn't especially try. Right. Like, I tried a few times, but I never really connected the dots when I was, like, in high school. Like, I would try to masturbate, but not with the videos. Uh-huh. I would just try because I was curious.

Yeah, and it didn't work. But, and then, like, it literally took me, like, four, three years to connect it. And then I was like, wow. Yeah, because, like, I would say, sometimes as somebody like sometimes you know people can't sort of relax when they're with somebody it's hard for them to and for women I think it's a lot more mental than it is physical you know like for guys so I think you know women tend to have more problems with orgasming than men though there are men I'm sure that have issues but women sometimes do because it's just like they get in their head too much and they're

with somebody else and they can't be themselves but typically when they're home alone right like they don't have that problem because they're not in their head but yet you did have a problem even when you were by yourself until you were 17 and you had that one video, right? Yeah. Yep. Which is interesting, you know, because it's like to me, like you were getting horny, but you weren't trying. And you were watching different videos and different things kind of turned you on, right? Is that what you're saying?

Yeah. Yeah. And you knew, like, was it confusing to you that like, because I'm assuming by the time you jerked off to that first farting video. And I'm sorry that I always giggle when I say it kind of a little bit, but I have a baby. It's understandable. You know what I mean? So did you have tried, like, did you wonder about your sexuality? Because I'm assuming by then you figured out that it was only women that you liked farting.

Like, right? On videos, even on videos, right? Yeah, yeah. I did definitely. And especially because I didn't really start to be, like, sexually active with any other people until I was fairly old. You know, like 18, but, like, that's pretty old. And so I always wondered. like maybe you're gay right yeah because I just I didn't know right but then but you by the time

you were 17 did you know that like the specific types of videos that you definitely liked or did you get into the specifics once you started like orgasming and really getting into it um yeah I definitely kind of like scrutinized more once I figured out I could get off with it and like kind of found what I like more specifically rather than just searching vaguely. Right, right, right. And then you honed it down like this is the thing that is the that gets me off the quickest and is the most intense, right?

And it's every single time. It's interesting because like I feel like with porn for me, like I could, it's like a different flavor every day. Like who knows what gets you, you know? But with you, it's really, it has to be the same thing over and over again. Yeah, basically. There are different videos, I guess. But I'll all still even still go to the same couple.

And I also, what I try to do, I like don't want it to take a long time because the whole thing I feel really weird about. So I want to just like get off as quickly as I can and like move on. Whatever. Yeah, yeah, yeah. I just kind of like my go-to, like what works and then I just get done. Right, and that's it. Now, what made you before you even had? orgasms. Oh, like you said you stumbled upon it, right? But when you stumbled upon it, like,

do you have that memory of like realizing like, oh, that like makes like my vaj kind of tingle? Like, I mean, do you remember those first moments where you started to like get this idea that this is what you liked? Um, yeah, I think, I mean, it's kind of weird when you did, I was just so clueless, but like, I don't know, I could, I could definitely feel it. And I was like, that's why I, like, continue to do it so much. I was like, I really like this, but I don't know why. And, like, I knew it was weird, too, even when I was, like, 14, 15. So, I just kind of, like, yeah, so I would just watch them and it would, I would enjoy it.

And I didn't do it, like, every day, but, you know, yeah, I don't really know. Like, again, I really wish I knew why I stumbled upon it, but. But you just did. Yeah. Yeah. And then you realize that. you like it did you ever because you know did you ever go Googling to see if there's like forums of like i'm assuming that there probably are like did you ever go looking to see other people whether they talk about it and whether

they have like i was going to actually google before this podcast and that would have been a first for me i've never done any kind of research or looked or asked questions just because i was trying to figure out like where the hell would that come from you know but i'm like i better just like talk to her you know but like did you ever go googling for information you know to find out and what did you find? Yeah, I did, and that's part of the reason also I contacted you because I have such a hard time finding people that are like in this same boat. Like, I know it's a thing, but when I look online, there's a word for it.

I always forget. Uh-huh. And, but it's all, it's always men or lesbian women. Like, it's, like, and there's nothing that I've found that's like, I'm a woman and I like it when men fart or I like it when women. It's like always like men who want to like, who want women to like fart on their face. Right. Or women.

But what about the lesbian women? That's kind of close enough, no? Yeah. I mean, true. And that's the same thing. But, um, and when they talk about it, they, they talk about it as like a fetish based on, like, smell. Oh, right. A lot of the time, which I obviously, like, I don't have any of that.

And I don't want that. So, like, I really. It's the noise for you. It's the noise. Yeah, it is. And like, I can tell, like, there's a lot of fake videos online if you, like, I don't really use YouTube so much anymore. Yeah, of course. You realize there's a lot better stuff out there. Yeah. I need to do. There's like a bunch of fake videos and people and, like, fake stuff, like, fart sound effects. And I'm like, mom, like, that's not real. And like, I don't know. It's just very odd.

So you need the real deal. Like, you know the difference. Like, you need somebody really farting. And you want her dressed. And you want to see her, though. Yeah. And you've never found through all of your Googling anybody else. Listen, I don't, like you said, because there's like a lot of videos, there have to be a lot of people out there. So like, you know, there's got to be, I bet you anything, I get at least one email from somebody that says maybe they're in the same boat out of all my listeners. Do you know what I mean?

There has to be other people, right? I think sometimes, listen, for every fetish, I think it does come out in different ways, right? Like, that's why I was like, what's the difference if someone's a lesbian or not? Or maybe it's a guy, you know, because it could be from the same place. But you said that most people that are into the farting thing, it's like a smell thing as well. It's not just the noise like that you have. Right. Yeah, it's so weird.

It's almost like, have you ever tried like forcing yourself like for real? long time to watch something totally different, right? And just force yourself to like master me until you could come from that? No. I mean, I've watched more standard, if you will, like porn. And I would like get into the mood and stuff and like it would turn me on. But I think to be fair, I never really gave a chance. I was like, now I'm really in the mood.

And then I'd be like. Yeah, you get the. Yeah, you want to take you over the edge, you get what you like the best. Yeah. Which is the farting thing. Yeah, I think that's less like a, you just wired yourself very improperly. And I'm only saying improperly because you believe it's an issue. It is an issue for you because like, you know, you're not like orgasming when you're with men at all.

And you're totally heterosexual, right? I mean, when was the last time you had a boyfriend? Um, a boyfriend I haven't had in probably six months. Okay. But what was? Did you have a long term? relationship with anybody ever? I've only had one long term ever and

it was almost two and a half years ago so everything's been pretty great. Okay so is that the guy you lost your virginity to? No, I left, no, but he's the only person I really like had like sex that I was really into with. Okay, because you did say in your email that at some point you did go a little crazy and you fucked a lot of guys, right? Was that before?

or after your boyfriend? It was after. It was in a really fairly considering how many. It was a pretty short period of time. I was also drinking a lot, which I quit since then, which is the whole other thing. But like... We'll get to that because I quit drinking too,

so that would be interesting. Okay, so go on. So, yeah, I think a lot of it was, I was kind of in that place. I'm like, I was so just, like, heard by that relationship that I was like, I don't need it. I'm just going to see what I'm into and, like, you know, school around.

and also me just trying to find someone that could get me off because I had never had, even in my two-year relationship. And I just felt like I needed to find, like, to prove to myself that I could get off with a guy, which is what I wanted. Yeah. And it just didn't pan out. Yeah, you probably wanted it too much. Even with your boyfriend, like, I'm assuming that you went into that relationship

already having been jerking off to all those farting videos, right? So you probably went into it with a lot of shit in your head, right? Because this was like, oh, now that I like someone, maybe that's going to go. You know, it was probably like a very mental thing, like a mental block for you because now you're with a boyfriend, right? So there's that pressure. There's the hope that, oh, this will be the thing that really changes me, right? Because I really fall in love with this guy and he's, you know. And then it's a, and you want that to happen because you want to be quote unquote normal.

right because this is probably some like secret that you keep right who can you tell about this right and so you go in with such expectations and i get it right but it probably it totally is the reason all of that is the reason why you can't you know orgasm with that boyfriend with with those other guys you know because of the mental shit that you have going on in your head when you're relaxing because you're you know you work properly that's the good thing right like Like your wires are connected. Like your brain's connected to your pussy, like your clit. Like everything's working because you can totally have orgasms.

And you have them very fast when you see here or something that you're interested in. Right. But you have just been using like the easy way, which is those farting videos. And maybe listen, you might always get into that. But I and I am no sex therapist. I always see I give unprofessional advice. But I always think that there's like wiring in the. brain and we wire ourselves certain ways and we could unwire ourselves and we could change those

kind of things. It just takes work. And I think for you, because like you say, sometimes you get in the mood and you get horny and you work yourself up to a place, but then you're just like, okay, you know, you take yourself over the edge with the farting thing. And that just makes that stimuli to you, stimulus stimuli, I don't know, you know, stronger. So then it's like what you need, right? it's just reinforcing that as like your only turn on. You need other turn-ons. You just do. And I really believe even if you just found one other one, it would totally make you feel

so much more relaxed that eventually you would be able to have an orgasm with a guy. But I think that there's just so much in your head. Do you know what I mean? Because you've backed yourself up into a very small corner, you know, and you're almost, trapped, right? Don't you feel that way in a certain way? No, it does. And that's like why I'm like,

and you know, like you said also, like I'm never telling anyone this. Like it's just not something I've ever to have come people sharing. No, you kind of can't. Yeah, who are you going to tell? And you can't tell a boyfriend, really, because then he'll be like, oh, he's going to be farting all the time in front of you. It's just like, that's the last thing you want. Exactly. And like that's interesting too.

I would never do that for, like if I met some guy who's like, why don't you fart. I'd be like, no way. Like, I'm not going to do that. Right. Uh-huh. So it's so, it's so disconnected from everything else that I, like, feel and like an into. So I just. Yeah.

It's very. It's so, you're so, it's so confusing, like you said, because, like, in one sense, that's the only way you could get off, but it, and it's so specific, right? And you're not gay, but it's only women. And yet you don't like farting in real life, but in your heterosexual and this guy. So it's like, it's a very confusing thing. And I think even me saying that to you, it only just adds to the mind chatter that gets in the way of you ever being able to have an orgasm without that because it's just too much. You know what I mean?

In your head. At this point, I believe it's just like a mental problem, like a wiring problem because you've just been getting yourself off for too long that way. And the good news is, like, you started drinking up at like 17, right? You're 23 now. It's not that long of a time, even though it's your whole life. It's not that long, right? You're not like 50 and been doing it forever. You know, you could unwire yourself, but it would take work.

And I think what happens, because I've tried to, like, I'm the type of person that I was like, I've never been multi-organismic. I didn't, I've never squirted. And I've really wanted to do those things. And so I've tried, like, you know, by myself. And even if I get close, I think about it too much and then I stop and I never could get past that. So it is very difficult, do you know what I mean? To get past those mental blocks.

And if I were you and when you, like, and I were to go Googling, instead of finding people that are exactly like you, just find information about people who only could orgasm through incorrect things. I'm sure there's stuff out there, right? Or things that aren't like what they want to. orgasm for like orgasm problems in general do you understand and it's because it's all the same thing it's just at this point I believe you're just too in your head about it and I get it because you've put all this pressure on yourself and even when you're by yourself like when I'm trying to squirt or do those things for myself and I'm like I'm by myself and I still can't because even if I get close I start to think like oh my god I'm about to like this is impossible because I just believe it's not

you know what I mean and it's probably you're going through that same thing when you're getting close. But you, for me, I have regular orgasms. And okay, if I never squirt it, I never squirt. But for you, you're not even just having regular orgasms. And you have your whole life ahead of you. You're going to eventually get married. You're going to eventually have another relationship with somebody.

Now that you're not drinking, you're not fucking around a lot. But like you're going to eventually meet someone that you like and you want to be able to enjoy yourself with them, right? So you need. Yeah. You need to get, I mean, you need to just jerk off a lot and you need to, if you need videos or whatever, you need to use your imagination and if you need a video, but you have to force yourself never for right now. It's like almost like quitting an addiction, right? It's just like, this is the way I would approach it. And I could be totally wrong. I told you I give unprofessional advice, but this is what I think. This is how you unwire something that you sort of create. You know, it's the way I quit drinking, it's the way I quit smoking, it's the way I quit anything. And I believe you have to quit being turned on by farts.

And that's like the most hilarious sentence I think I'll ever say in my life. So, and I think the way you could quit being turned on by farts is to never watch another farting video again. And if you don't orgasm for sick, whatever it is, you could not allow yourself to do it. And eventually, you will be so starved to have an. orgasm that you will be taken over the edge by something else. And I, I 100% believe that as a possibility. Like, I really believe that that will work. It just takes discipline on your part because I always say this. Like, when you're horny, it's like you're drunk, right? So once you get to that point where you're really horny, all the words I'm telling you right

now are going to go out the window. You understand? That's why it's so, it's going to be very difficult because you're going to get, oh, hold on. You're going to get to a place where you're really, really horny. And then you're going to be like, I know I'm not supposed to, but then you're going to be so horny, going to like, fuck it. And you're going to hit that thing. You're going to watch it. And you're going to come.

And then you're going to feel like a fail. You're going to be like, oh, fuck, why did I do that? You know, like, this is the way that it always goes, right? But you're so you're really going to have to try. You know, you have to like really be disciplined and not at all and know that, you know, you're giving up instant gratification for a future gratification. Because I really believe that the. first orgasm without the farting video is going to be the hardest, right? But once you have one,

it's going to get easier and easier. I swear. And then once you have a bunch, like, you'll be fine. And you might always kind of like farting, but if I were you, I wouldn't ever totally just use it as the whole shebang because you may get back to that corner again, but you have to get out of that corner. And the only way to do it is by starving that part of yourself that likes it. That's what I think. Listen, if you were orgasming with guys when they went down on you and you were just, but you still like farting videos privately, who cares? Do you know what I mean?

Big deal. So watch those videos for the rest of your life. It's not a problem, right? But for you, it is getting in the way. And I think, like I said, women have more of an issue because we think a lot and we're just wired differently than men, you know? And because you feel like ashamed about it and it's this thing, you know, it's got you really, it's like cock blocked you

to having, like, being just fully aroused sexually by all kinds of stuff. Do you know what I mean? Yeah, it has. You know. Yeah. Yeah. It is really, there's a lot of parallels there because I quit drinking and like,

it's kind of the same thing like you really want to, but you can't. And if you do, you kind of have to start the whole thing over again. And I mean, if I could do that, I could probably do this. I just, it's not. But it's not like, you know, sometimes at night I, like, naster day. It's, like, all the time. So, like, I'm going to have to, like, oh.

No, but that's why you'll happen quick for you because you're super horny. That's why I don't worry so much for you that you can't conquer this because you, listen, it'd be a lot worse. And I have girlfriends that just, like, can't orgasm from anything and they're not really ever horny. Like, that's a way worse problem because that's like, you know, they don't even know what turns them on. You know what I mean?

They can't get turn on. They can't come even if they play with their own clits by themselves. Like, you can, and you can very fast. You just, like, need this certain thing, right? But you could rewire yourself to, like, some other things. You know what I mean? And I really believe once you see that you could, like, something else, then everything will open up for you.

I think you just have, like, tunnel vision right now because you've just used the same thing all the time. You say you're super horny, so you're jerking off to farting videos, like, constantly. So it's only made that very strong, you know, as a fetish for you. It may never go away, but you want to weaken it so you could allow other wires. And the only way to do that is to like, it's almost like going back to when you're 17 and you're like Googling, you know, on YouTube.

But now you're going to use like, you know, you porn or some other good free site, right? And you just have to go and you have to just be super horny and just keep looking until you click on something else. Or use your imagination. I don't know about you, but I know for me, and most of the time I would say 95% of the time I don't do this. I just go the easy way, which is like we throw on some porn, you know, look at something and just because it's quick, you know. But when I take the time to just create a scenario in my head and visualize it and get off that way, it is so much more pleasurable and it's so much more intense, the orgasm and so much better than if I watch porn, right? when I just use it.

But most of the time I'm just too lazy to do that because it takes a while to really like sort of lose reality and get into that place where I could really visualize something else. But when I do do that, it's like way better orgasm than using porn. I don't think porn is like that great. It just gives you like a flat orgasm. My orgasms I get when I use my mind and my imagination are so much better. So you may have to work the two. Do you know?

Do you ever just use your imagination? you're always going to porn. Yeah, I can't. I've never, I've tried, but, like, I've never been able to get off and using, like, just thoughts, like, imagining scenarios. It just doesn't, or even, like, if I'm having, like, hooking up with them and I'll try to do that sometimes. Yeah.

You know, think about something. Yeah. Not, not farting, but, like, something that's. Yeah, yeah, that's hot. Yeah. Yeah. And, but it just, it just doesn't, I don't get there, so. How come?

Like, what do you start thinking of? Like, what are scenarios that you think might be hot, but they're just not hot when you're involved? Like, what do you try to think of? The farting? No, I don't. It's so separate, like, which I don't know if it's part of the problem or if it's a good thing, but it's so separate from, like, when I'm having sex or hooking up with someone. That's not on my mind. I'm thinking about just, like, what I want them to do or, like.

Right. Just, you know, and even if, like, because I've had sex of all the people. A lot of them I wasn't really allowed in, too, but I just was trying so hard to have an orgasm. So I would just think about, like, what I wanted them to look like or, like, what I wanted them to do to me that they, and, like, I would kind of, like, get into it a little, but it's just like, I just. You could. Yeah, well, I think that you, yeah, I think that the, you can't, you're not going to be able to just go and get a random guy to get you off. You have to figure, you have to do that yourself. So, and thank God you stop drinking and you're not sleeping around because, you're not sleeping around.

I don't think that that was, it obviously wasn't the solution to your problem, right? Because it didn't work. You know, you fucked a lot of guys. And let's get into that a little bit because you did talk about that. Like you had sex with, did you say 20 to 30 or 30 to 50? I think it's like 25 to 30. Right. I try to make a list, but you know, yeah.

Yeah, yeah. You lost count. So 25 to 30 guys and how long of a period of time did you, did it take to get that number up there? probably it was just between probably about three years. So three years. And really you were like using these guys because you just like, like your mission was I want to have an orgasm with a guy. And so you just like go out and like you just,

is that how it was in your head? Or did you, were you just drunk in a bar and then you'd go and you'd hook up? And then you'd be like, oh, maybe I'll try to get him to have an orgasm. Like, do you know, like what was the reason for? Yeah. Um, a lot of it was that I wanted to have an orgasm. And I thought, like, it's not that hard, you know, where I live and being a female.

Like, it's not that hard to get people that, um, stop with me. So it's like, I just thought if they wanted to and they're going to get off and out a matter of work, because it's inevitable. And I was like, I really want to figure out, like, what I'm into and what I can do. But, and I try different things. So I, you know, I'd go on, like, um, just like Tinder and basic whatever and, um, try to find people who are into something maybe weird, not like weird, like, footing, but just a little different than ordinary and see if that worked for me.

And, I mean, it didn't, nothing. Like, I got more into it. Yeah, wait, you got more into the farting thing because this other stuff was so bad? Well, no, like, I really, what happened is I got more into, like, sex things in general. Like, I would just Google, like, what people like. And I was like, well, maybe there's some weird niche out there that's not this weird, that like that people are doing and I can get into. Uh-huh.

And so, like, I tried, like, various stuff like that, like, bondage and, like, in, like, really rough sex and, like, really, like, I don't know, just stuff like that. That's not really that weird, but just different than what I have experienced. Right. Right. Because you thought, oh, maybe this is what I, like, you didn't know, right? You were, like, maybe I need, like, to be tied up or whatever. And you tried that stuff?

It did, yeah. And, like, I got into it. And it's definitely something that I would like to do more of in the future. But it still didn't, yeah, it didn't get me there. But do you think that it didn't get you there because you, like, was it the type of thing that I was talking about before? Like, you get, like, really close and then you start to think about it. Like, oh, my God, maybe I'm going to have an orgasm. Maybe it's not going to happen.

It can't happen. Like, is that what happens? And you get close. Like, what was the closest you ever got without the farting thing? Like, do you remember what it was that you were doing? Um, yeah, I guess, like, the only time that really stands out, and I also wasn't drunk, so I remember it more, is that, like, um, I was with a guy and he had, like, I don't know, he had these weird videos to teach you how to, like, tie up a person that doesn't, like, give you rope or, and, like, he had, like, a tutorial on it was, like, getting into it. And then he, like, so that I was, like, kind of, like, immobile, but, like, not in, like a super demeaning way. I don't know. And I like, and he was just really attracted to, which also helped. And I just got really into it.

And so, like, I can't, like, I can really, like, close. Like, I could feel that if, like, maybe if he was, like, really patient and did it for, like, another half hour of what he was doing, I could maybe, but I don't know. And then it just kind of like. Right. Why don't you Google those videos? Yeah, yeah. Of course. Yeah, yeah.

No. And then you just ruin the moment right then. And then you're fucked. Right. but why don't you Google videos about like that next time or think about that in your mind when you're trying to jerk off like you're going to have to take like hour long jerk off sessions I mean this is going to take time you know what I mean like you're going to have to do it like a like a job you know what I mean you're going to have to say okay every day it's like working out a muscle right I'm going to go work out

you know and do what I have to do like homework or I don't know you know and you have to yeah maybe you know maybe if the imagination thing is really really you know maybe if the imagination thing is really difficult for you, just try videos. You know, maybe Google stuff like that because you like the whole bondage thing, right? Yeah, yes. Yeah. Yeah.

Well, I, and there's also, like, I went through the thing where I was, I really like, which I think I guess is everyone does, but like just the, um, a guy like being really into me, obviously. And, um, so I would like, kind of for a while would just do whatever they wanted, not in like a creepy way, but that's kind of how I came across it the first time. Like, being tied up and stuff, I'm like, okay. And then I was like, this is kind of okay. And then like, because since I couldn't come, I at least, like, wanted them to,

but it wasn't like a couple of ways of time, you know it was for me. And or like, I don't know, I kind of sometimes would go on whatever that, Omega or whatever, that you did a video, random strangers. Uh-huh. I don't know what it's called. I don't know either. What is it? What is it?

It's like chat roulette, I think is another one. Oh, right, where people, or anyone could go on and put themselves on video, right? Yeah. Okay. Uh-huh. And I have, like, I have, like, really large tips. Uh-huh.

I would just, like, get people to, like, I don't know, really dutcher people like me, I guess. They're trying to get off, and I would just, like, help them get off. And then, like, I do, like, like, I do, like. 10 guys in the night I'd be like yeah that was great but I got really nothing out of it except like my ego boost

so right but you would have to get horny did you so you were trying that first of all I don't think that those guys are desperate I just think that they're horny I don't think people call that desperate you know everyone's doing shit like that nowadays

and you were desperate you were you're a problem solver I like people like you you got a problem and you try to fucking solve it okay there's nothing desperate about you you just got yourself a little fucked you know

with this whole farting thing, but you're trying to figure it out and get past it. And there's nothing wrong with that. And you've tried a lot of stuff. So whatever. So you try that chat roulette thing. First of all, let's describe to my listeners because they always want to know, like, you know, and I always have to ask, like, a scale of one to ten.

We all know that you have, like, huge tits, and I'm assuming they're natural, right? Yes. And are you skinny? Yeah. I mean, I'm not, I'm like. Normal average. Like, I'm not like a, I can't be a twig because I have giant tips. But, like, I'm thin so that it's kind of like.

They are pronounced. That guy's like, where it's like big boob and then it like goes to a smaller waist. Not like. Yeah. You know. Yeah, like hourglass. It is what guys like the best. Yeah, absolutely.

Very curvy. Yeah. Right? Right. And, um, so. And I'm really short, though, it's kind of top heavy and awkward, but sometimes. Yeah, but guys like it. What size is your, what size is, what size is, what size is, what size, what size,

are you wear? I usually wear a double D or a triple D depending on the brand. Right. And what do you consider yourself on a scale of 1 to 10 looks wise? Like the whole package? On a good day, I probably go

like a 7 or 8. I also live in a weird town, so it's not like a big city with a bunch of beautiful people. Right. So you do well. So you did the chat roulette and you'd get off like 10 guys and that didn't do it for you either, right? No. I mean, I got horny, but I couldn't, you know, yeah.

You couldn't finish yourself off. And then what would you do at the end of that session after you got like 10 guys off, right? Would you go jerk off to the farting videos to like, you know, completion, to complete yourself? Yeah, pretty much. It kind of like, at that point, I was like, well, I need to just get it out and I'm sick of doing it. So I just finished the night. Yeah, I totally get it. What was a lot?

Okay, so what happened? You started, after your boyfriend, you started like, I'm just going to fix it. this problem with the, like, why do you and your boyfriend break up first, though? Let me ask you that. Um, a lot of it was my drinking, a lot of it. Um, we just, uh, he was kind of a dweep and wanted to just, um, move to, like, silly and be weird. So he just called me up and was like, I love you and that was it. And then for a while, I was like a set. And then, obviously, and then I kind of went on like a little ex-franchage thing. Right. And that, but you were, but you, but you, Had a drinking thing before, right?

So you had an issue with drinking while you were with him. Did you ever cheat on him? I actually did. He didn't know because he was away at school. But I did twice, actually, toward the very end of a relationship. Was it because things were bad anyway and you were just drunk and so you fuck someone? You were sloppy? Or did you do it because you were just met someone and you were horny?

Like, what was the reason you think? My drinking, I mean, it was a problem then, but it wasn't to the extent it got. It was kind of mild, and I really wasn't drunk. I was just kind of like, we weren't getting along that great, and I was just, I wanted to fuck, and he was never around. Uh-huh. Uh-huh. And I just kind of tried to justify it, but. Yeah, no, that, I mean, that's, that's just a, that's, that's a reason, right?

You're a very horny girl, like you say, and so, like, he, you know, he wasn't around, and it was towards the end of your relationship. Things weren't so great. And so you cheated on him twice. He never found out, right? No, he doesn't. I mean, out of spite, I almost told him, but never did. Yeah, no, there's no reason for that.

So then after that, you went on a rampage and screwed like 20. So, like, what was the most hardcore thing that you did, the tying up and the chat roulette? Like, did you do any other crazy stuff while you were acting out sexually? Not really, no. I did some things like, like, I don't know, like, I only got anal like once. And I, that I know of. I have drank a lot. But I know.

But I know I did once. And also I brought home, like at my apartment at the time, this guy was like 46, which was really a bummer. But, yeah. And he was kind of. creepy for a while and that's kind of when I started to be like maybe I should stop doing it. But yeah, I didn't really do anything that. But you were a blackout drinker too.

I mean, I was a blackout drinker too. And that's always like a bad thing, a bad sign. Maybe you shouldn't be drinking. Yeah, definitely. And I was. And how did you meet the 46 year old? Like how does the 46 year old wind up back at your apartment? Were you just like drunk of bed at a bar?

Yeah, that is, I was drunk. I was at a bar. And he walked over you. Like, you're looking at me. And then, like, I don't know. I was alone. So the next thing I know. You know.

Yeah. Listen, I acted out sexually with men while I was drinking a lot. And that was one of the reasons why I quit, too. I've been sober for a very long time. But it got to the point because I always like sex and thought sex was really great. And towards the end, it was like I would just like sleep with anybody. And it didn't even feel like anything to me. And that's when I really realized like, oh, maybe I shouldn't be drinking because it's like ruining

sex for me too. You know what I mean? It wasn't pleasurable. I was just fucking people I didn't like for I don't know what reason because I wasn't even getting off because I was like blacked out. You know what I mean? Like I wasn't even present. It's like what's the point? You know? And then I sobered up and I was really nervous like what is sex going to be like totally sober?

And I have to say it did wire me a little bit differently. Like I changed when I was like younger I could only get like sort of super horny for people that I didn't like and that I wasn't attracted to. Like I was wired very improperly right? You know, it was like the more disgusting a guy was or the more an asshole he was. And I think

a lot of girls have this, right? Like, you know, the more into it I was. And then if I really like somebody, it just took away all the fun. Like it just wasn't hot to me, you know? And then though now, I mean, fast forward, now it's the opposite. And sometimes I wish, like, oh, I wish I was wired the other way because it was so much easier. Do you know what I mean? But now I'm like, I have to actually like somebody. It's like, this is annoying, you know? I don't have that sort of itch that I could scratch it, which is some sort of illicit, sort of like naughty scenario,

you know, and that's what I used to really be into. But that was like a matter of like cleaning up my act and going through a lot of changes personally, you know? So I do think for you, I think it's so great that at such a young age. Like I wasn't, I didn't quit drinking or figure out my shit until I was like 34,

you know, that at 23, you're smart enough to know, you know, A, that you have this issue with the orgasms that you want to, as much as it's a secret, like, you're still calling into my show and you still are looking for help, and that's a great thing. And B, you were able to know that you have, like, a drinking problem and you took that out of your life, which I think is really great.

Do you do AA or any of that stuff? Oh, yeah. I did rehab and I go to AA like four, three times a week. Okay, that's good. And that helps you. It's hard. Listen, it's really hard when you're young, you know, because it's such a part of everybody It was a little bit easier for me, I think, because I was 34, and it was kind of like been there, done that. And I had some friends that were a little bit older. And some people were like working themselves out of the bar. And I had done it for so long in my 20s. So I can't imagine giving it up at like 23 when it's like everybody you know that's what people do when they're younger. Like what else do you fucking do? So what's you need to figure out your orgasm thing? Because you're probably best in a relationship, right? Because what else are you going to do when you're single at 23? You don't want to go to bars, right?

You can't go to the movies alone, you know? And movies are great when you're sober. Yeah. You don't want to be the losers that are in Starbucks. I don't know, whenever I used to go into Starbucks and see like 20 something, and I'm like, oh my God, look at those poor people in Starbucks at 11 o'clock on this Friday night. And that's terrible to say. But like, you know, what do you do when you're young and you're not into partying, you know?

And it's like there's not a lot of options, though there should be. You know what I mean? Because it's not like everyone isn't like wired properly. enough to be able to handle alcohol. I don't think alcohol is a bad thing. I think so many people could drink and they could have fucking fun. But some people just can't, right?

And you realize that about yourself and I think that that's great, you know? So with your clear head, how long have you been sober for, by the way? Well, it's only been about two months of, like I've been trying for about a year. Okay. Since my last three laps, it's been,

I guess, almost three months now. So, yeah. Three months is a long time. And so what was the longest before your three months since? Like would you always like sort of relapse or drink again after like how like a month? Or like when would you always just go back to drinking? It honestly did very a lot. The first, like my first attempt, I actually went six and a half months.

Oh, that's long. Yeah. How did you go back? Honestly, a lot of it was boredom because like you're saying, being so young, I don't know. I can't hang out with people. Yeah. Because I don't feel like strong enough, I guess.

Uh-huh. I'm kind of just like reclusive trying to like get my shit together. And I just, I don't know. Got forward. So, yeah. Yeah. Listen, my first year of sobriety, I literally was like, I literally stayed home for like a whole year and didn't do anything. And for me it was like nice because like I live in the city and I was like always out

partying like hardcore. Like in the city like people go out every single night of the week. Like the weekends, you don't go out. It's like every night. So like for me I look around. I'd be like, oh my God, thank God. I'm like not a part of that rat race. But it was such a mind fuck because I just didn't know what to do with myself.

There were nights where I would put on loud music and I would put on all my makeup and I would get out my clothes that I used to wear. And the clothes that I used to wear were like I couldn't wear them unless I was drinking because they were so slutty. It was like beyond me that I would go out like this. You know like girls dressed for Halloween? Like I would dress like that every night. And I would like put on. I would put on my slutty clothes and my makeup and put on music. And then it would be like, but I have like no place to go.

And it was very hard, you know, for that first year because I didn't. And a lot of people thought I would move out of the city because what else do you do unless party, you know? But I did figure out other things to do. And it really helped me figure out who I was and what I liked when I didn't have all that other sort of nonsense around me. You know what I mean? And I wasn't. And it forces you sort of that time and that space. that quote unquote boredom to try and figure things out.

You know what I mean? It is hard. But like I said, it's harder for you and I feel for you. Like I don't know. I probably would have relapse like you did a bunch of times too if I was 23 because it's hard. But that's why a relationship would be really good for you.

Because most people, even when they're 23, they stop partying so much when they're in relationships. Don't you think? Yeah. Absolutely. Yeah. Right?

So, you know, they go out to movies. you have dinner, you go on vacations, you cuddle at home and watch, you know, so if you would do really well in a relationship with a guy, you know, that's really would be the good thing for you. But that's not going to happen right now. And if they say, and I don't listen, I never listen to it, but they do say in your first year a sobriety, you're not supposed to have any relationships, though I did. But you really, what I think you should be doing right now while you're waiting to meet that next

guy, you know, and get in a relationship is you need to just be jerking off as much as possible. But never, never. It can't be an option. It's not an option. Farting videos are not an option. Pretend they don't. Mind fuck yourself. Do you know what I mean?

Like they just don't exist. That's how it has to be for you. It's the only way. And I swear to you, I really believe, because you're a horny girl, you're going to be horny all the time. still so young. You're going to be horny every day probably, right, for the next two months? I really believe if every single day for the next two months you jerk off, there is not a doubt in my mind that you will not email me and say, Kathy, I totally had an orgasm within two months.

It's not going to take you a long time. It really isn't as long as you do not quote unquote relapse and go back to those videos. Like swear. It will happen. It won't be that long. Seriously, you just have to not do it. It's just a discipline thing. Seriously. Because you are horny, you're going to want to orgasm. And so all you have to do is just like retrain yourself. For real. You've just trained yourself a certain way.

So you have to do it like a job and a mission because if you want to be, because it plays out in your whole life. And it's like if you want to stay sober, you have to be in a relationship, okay? We figure that out. And maybe people will say that's like the most ridiculous thing I ever said. But seriously, it makes sense because what else are you going to do at 23 when you're single, you know? So or you got to get like a hobby.

I don't know what a hobby would take up all your night times, you know. But most likely you're going to wind up in a relationship and you should. And you want to be happy in that relationship. And you're going to need to be orgasming with that boyfriend to have a full, healthy relationship that you're not cheating behind his back, that isn't dysfunctional that you're not lying all the time. because if you get into enter another relationship in your head and you have the secret and you can't jerk off, you're like you're never going to be able to jerk off. You're never going to be able to come with him either. You're not going to, it's going to be harder to conquer it in the middle of a relationship with somebody than if you conquer it way before. Do you know what I mean?

You want to enter into your next relationship with a guy knowing how to at least get off on yourself. And then you start working on getting off with a guy. Do you know what I mean? And you could do that with a boyfriend. And you could even take that into your relationship. you know what I mean eventually but like I think it's not so great to talk about sex so much in relationships because then it becomes like like what it's become for you like an issue you know I mean it's sex should just happen naturally so get yourself like really like a professional

normal orgasmer orgasm person and you know and then you meet a guy and you get a relationship and you're going to be fine and don't drink and I think it's so great that you don't drink AA is great for people. I did AA for only like six months and then I stopped. But I think that it's really a great thing that's out there for people, you know, to keep your head on track. But like when I say with the farting videos, like it's not an option, that's the way drinking has to be. It's just like not an option. For me personally, the reason why I couldn't do AA is because going there every single day and talking about it all the time, it was just, it was in my mind too much that it made me want to drink more than when I just was like,

that's it. It's not an option. And my mind, I never even went there in my mind. Do you know what I mean? Even to this day, I have never sat around and thought for real what it was like to be drunk. I never go there. Because I do believe, like if I did that every single day, I'd eventually go out and get drunk, right? I just, I don't feed that part of my brain ever.

It's like it just doesn't exist. And it was the way that I could successfully get away. and I've been sober for like over 14 years. I have stopped counting at a certain time. And so you have to tackle these both things the same way because I think it's great that you don't drink, you shouldn't drink. And I think you have to quit farting videos too. Yeah.

I mean, that's probably the only way to. Yes, but the goodness is you're going to be successful. What were you going to say? Yeah. I was just going to say, I think if I can have an orgasm on my own, without fun of the videos. I'll feel way less stressed

if I, once by the time I'm hooking up with someone again. I think. I don't know. No, I just got the chills. That means it's the truth that being said.

I believe that. I swear to you. Yes, no, that is absolutely, that absolutely will happen. And you are, I know because of, like I said,

you're like a problem solver. You're looking for, like, you're going to, you're going to be able to do this. Like you are going, you're not a problem haveer. You know what I'm saying? I can't stand problem havers.

You're a problem solver. You're going to be able to kick this just like you quit drinking. Even though you relapse, that's fucking fine, whatever. You know what I mean? You did it six months, three months. It's like it's strong enough that you even know to do that. You know, so you're going to be able to do it. It's just going to be really hard.

You know, and like I remember when I was about to quit drinking. I mean, I quit smoking before I quit drinking. And I was a hardcore smoker. And I quit smoking when I was 30, like even longer ago. You know, and I remember people saying, to me like, but what if you can't quit smoking? And I'd be like, what do you mean? What if I can't? Like, you know, the correct sentence is like, what if it's really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really hard? Will you still quit? And if the answer is yes, then you fucking will. Like, nothing is impossible, you know?

But you have to go into things realistically and know that things are going to be really fucking difficult. but if you will still do something, if you're willing to do something difficult, you could accomplish anything. It's just a fact. I was like, you can't tell me I can't quit smoking. That's like the most weak thing to say. It's like taking the power away from yourself.

You have the power in you to do it. It's just a matter of saying, like, no matter how hard it is, you're going to keep at it. Because the good news about that is, the more you do the difficult thing, the easier it gets. Do you understand?

It's only difficult for why. It's not difficult for the rest of your fucking life, you know? So just do the difficult work now while you're single, while you're sobering up, while you're figuring yourself out. So that by the time that next guy comes, you'll be in a much better place and you'll be quote unquote normal. And, you know, but just know that it's going to be hard and give yourself a good amount of time when you're jerking off. like, you know, and don't feel bad if you are weak and you go for a farting video a couple times. Don't let that stop you from like trying again the next time. Do you understand? Yes. I, yeah. It's going to be hard, but.

It's going to be hard, but what? Like, but will you still do it? Oh, yeah. I know I'll do it because it's really kind of exhausting because I'm so ashamed of it. Like I'm sick of dealing with it, you know? Yeah, you have no choice. Yeah, you have no choice. It's you against farts. No, really is. It's a hard life I lead.

Yeah. That's okay. I've had to conquer a lot of things of myself, and that's how I always look at. It's me against myself almost. Sometimes you have to look at it that way. You have to kill that part of yourself and the way to kill it because you don't like it anymore. Like I said, if you were like fine with it and you were orgasming, who cares? But it's really creating a big fucking problem in your life.

So you have to kill it. And the way you kill it is by starving it. You just have to believe that those videos don't exist. They don't exist for you. That's it. It's over. And, you know, if you really believe that, you might feel a little sad at first. And that will mean that you really know it's the truth.

Because whatever there is an ending, it's always, there's like a little sadness there because you're giving up a part of who you are. But literally, you have to give it up. It's over. It really is. It's like, what's when they say one day at a time. Because if you think about, I can't do you on my whole life without alcohol. No.

Oh, my God. Yeah, exactly. Please, I work out in a gym and I torture myself all the time. And if I thought that I'd be working out for 20 years, I would never sign up for it. You know, you can't think, you can't think like, but like I said, when I say it's like really difficult, like you have to be realistic too. Like people have to know that. You can't be like a fairy tale land. Like, oh, I'm just going to do this and set my mind to it.

It's just going to happen. You know, like, no. Right. It is going to be hard. But you take it day by day. you can do it and that's it and it will change your life it's not going to be hard forever at all swear to you that's the whole great thing about conquering something or quitting something it's only hard in the beginning but what people do is they they get to the like what people that don't

have like good discipline or willpower or they fail at you know quitting certain things or it's because the minute it becomes difficult they check out because I think it's against human nature to like torture yourself I personally was like had a very bad childhood and my father like hit me a lot and was really mean. So I like torture. Like, and I think that that's a positive thing that comes out comes from being like abused. It's like that you could take the torture. My, my healthier friends don't like to be tortured. And I think that's probably more normal, right? I don't think it's human nature to want to like hurt yourself or do things that are really difficult. But that's what's needed in times of like change and to really sort of, you know,

kick bad habits and change, you know, damage parts of yourself. So know that it's going to be hard, but know that if you keep trying every day that it will eventually work, you just keep at it until it does. And that's it. The option is no more farting and the only option is to get past it. And eventually it'll happen. I swear to you, I give you two months. If you listen to what I say, like whenever you start, I want you to count two months from that and let me know because I make predictions and I believe that I'm right. And I have been right so far on my predictions. okay yeah I mean

Hey it's worth a shot I think yeah listen and this is what you do Like I remember before I quit smoking people were like Oh did you like gradually cut out cigarettes for like six months I was like no I fucking increased Every time I thought because I decided like six months ahead of time I'm gonna quit on my birthday You know because I'm gonna be 30 on March 30th

Like that's what I'm gonna do and like I increased every time I was like should I smell I was like yes smoke up because this is my last time You know what I mean so if I were you I pick a date on the calendar and say, okay, I'm going to give myself two more weeks. Like, don't cut it out today. Like, go get as much farting videos as you can. Get your full of it.

Go out with a bang and say, by this date, I have to stop. Do you know what I mean? Because you're not killing anyone. I mean, if it was heroin, I would say, don't do that. But, like, you know, go jerk off a bunch more times and say goodbye to your farting issues. The last time you say goodbye to it, you should have to feel a little bit of sadness. And that would mean that you're actually serious about what you're doing.

But do it up for a little while. however long you feel like you want to give yourself. But then on the date that you say you're going to stop, that's it. Stop. And then from that day, count two months and let me know how it goes. Okay, I will. Okay. Did I help you at all at least a little?

It's helpful. Absolutely. Okay. Work it out. Get past it. And keep me posted. And thanks so much for calling in and talking about this. It's so interesting, I think.

And I'll let you know if I get any emails. If anybody out there that has the same issue and maybe conquered it or feels the same way or I don't know write in give her some advice yeah okay and I'll let you know if I get any emails okay great okay all right thanks violet thanks for calling in good luck with everything yeah thanks for talking all right cool bye okay I just want to tell you before you go that my book it's called strictly anonymous confession secret sex lives of total strangers is now available not only in paperback and ebook but You can pre-order the audiobook.

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