Strictly Anonymous Confessions - 1578 - Drew is a Gay Cuckold Who Loves Being Cucked

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Starting point is 00:03:07 hook up with people. You could learn all about the lifestyle. You could find out about all the lifestyle events and meetups and all kinds of things going on in your neighborhood as well as if you're going to travel and you want to have a little fun. You're going to find it all on SDC.com. Like I said, you get a free trial. If you use my code three. 7-7-1-2 or just go to the description and click on the link that's 3-7-7-1-2 or just go to the description and click on the link. So let's get to today's episode. It's a good one. This guy knows how to tell an effin story. Okay, his name is Drew and he is a gay cuckled. And Drew just talked the whole time. I think maybe I said three sentences in the whole episode. And then at the end,

Starting point is 00:03:50 when I was saying by to him, I think I talked more at the end for like two minutes than I did through the whole thing because he told the story from beginning to middle to end so well. He's very descriptive. He is a gay cuckled and he talks about how he became one. I mean, this wasn't something that he always knew he was interested in. It was something that kind of came about because he was in a relationship with a guy. He's a relationship guy, one person, gay man. Like, that's how he rolls. He was in a long-term relationship with a guy. And he wound up getting hit on by another guy, kind of like a straight guy. I don't know. He tells that whole story. And that guy kind of brought up a threesome with him and his boyfriend, and he brought it to his boyfriend.

Starting point is 00:04:28 His boyfriend was down. And then the threesome happened. He gets very explicit about that threesome. And what went down, they had some rules, him and his guy. And during the threesome, those rules went out the window. And when he saw those rules go out the window and saw his boyfriend engaging with the other guy, he got really jealous and really upset. And then eventually he got really turned on. He walked out of the room.

Starting point is 00:04:52 He heard noises. and like I said, those kind of noises eventually became his kink. He loves nothing more now than to watch his partners be with other people. He sits back. He watches. He likes to be out of the room. He likes to hear. It's all because of that first experience. Now, that first experience had not to end well. He talks about what happened at the end. But all of that turned him into the cuckled that he is now. He talks about how his kink has just grown and grown. He loves watching his partners get dominated by guys and be the submissive. He's a submissive and that's why he can't be that person. So he loves to bring that person in. He does try to pick unavailable guys. So there's

Starting point is 00:05:35 a lot of like straight guys guys on the DL coming home and fucking his partner in front of him. And he just likes to watch. There's no reclaiming sex. We talk a little bit about that. That's just the way he rolls. His partners love it. Everyone seems to be happy. And you're going to be happy too because it's a great episode and he tells a great story. and he made my life easy and you're going to love it. I barely talk at all. So I'm going to get right to it and be right back on with Drew. This is the strictly anonymous podcast.

Starting point is 00:06:05 Strictly Anonymous Podcast. Hey, Drew, welcome to the Strictly Anonymous Podcast. How are you today? I'm great. Thanks for having me. How are you? I'm good. I'm a little excited to talk to you because who you are and what you do and what you're

Starting point is 00:06:17 into is something I've never really had on my show. And I've been doing my show for nine years. I mean, I've had a gay guy on. I've had cuckolds on. I've had bi guys on, but I've never had on a gay cuckled before. And that's what you are. You're a guy. You're gay, but you really love seeing your partners hook up with other guys, straight

Starting point is 00:06:37 guys, by guys, all kinds of things. And you definitely have that cuckled thing going down. It's not just, listen, because a lot of people in the gay community, I think they're more open to having open relationships, right? And they all like fuck around. But like, you really like that cuck thing where you're like sitting back and watching, right? I do, yes. So tell me your story, Drew. Are you in a relationship right now? I've been in a relationship for about one year right now, a romantic relationship. And I'm more of a romantic

Starting point is 00:07:05 relationship type of guy, so I don't really go out much and I'm not bar hopping or clubs. And ever since I had one encounter some years back where I opened up my relationship and I decided to bring someone home that I kind of knew, I knew for a couple of years and I wanted to have a threesome and opened up my relationship and that relationship didn't end well because of the encounter but ever since then I have opened up all my relationships that I've had my romantic relationships with men that I got to care for and I love and I like to see them with with actually men that I hook them up with and I bring them home. It's almost like a cuckled fetish that I had, but I actually didn't even know that I was a cuckled with what they say until not too long ago.

Starting point is 00:08:01 I just felt like there was some type of just weird fetish that I had. And I understand why it all started back then when I had that first relationship that I was in for about six years. I was 22 years old at the time. And I brought that one guy. home and it was just this a broad a scene that I had when I was watching my my boyfriend at the time getting fucked and sucking cock with this very dominant top and after that it just it all went from there it started from there and I I've been kind of evolving into it and I've been kind of like it's growing and it's evolving into other things and I'm sometimes kind of scared because I don't want to I don't want to lose the guys that I'm into in a relationship with for this or to this,

Starting point is 00:08:54 but it seems to not stop. Yeah, yeah, I get it. Let's go a little back. Did you always know you were gay? So I'm 34 years old now. I came out to myself when I was 15 years old. I've never been, I never have really been that type of gay guy. I have a lot of gay friends.

Starting point is 00:09:15 I go gay clubbing, bar. Not really that. I was always into school and sports. I used to play a lot of softball and I was a runner. And so I had a lot of straight friends and I had a big straight group that I kept. And I had two girlfriends in high school that were sort of like my high school sweethearts. And when I was around 15, I ended up having an encounter with my 15 year old like friend from school. We were like kissing and stuff like that. And I noticed that romantically and sexually I was into men, more than. women and I decided that that was probably who I was because I was confused at the time and I came out to myself as as gay and some of my family and then I ended up meeting someone that was a couple of years older than me when I was still in high school and he was also the same as me and I'm going to call him Tyler but he was actually my first boyfriend that I had romantic relationship I started very young that I knew what I wanted this guy that I was dating at the time, his name was Tyler, and me and him decided to have like a romantic

Starting point is 00:10:23 relationship, and we did, and we ended being together for about six years. I pretty much thought that me and him were going to last for a long time. I always said, I like having relationships. I do romantic relationships. I like to have a good sex life, but I don't, I'm not, I don't cheat. I try not to lie. And I would say after being together with Tyler for about six years, it was just something that happened that it happened so quick and it happened so fast where I decided to open up my relationship with him. With this, at the time I was 22 and he was two years older than me, so he was around 24. We were young and I've always been kind of athletic. And so I knew this man that was a softball coach where I used to play softball in a park.

Starting point is 00:11:14 I used to think, oh, he's old. He's older than me. He was around, I would say he was in his early 40s, and this man was married, and he had children. And I knew him from the park and the events and stuff like that. But it's kind of our relationship between me and that man evolved into a friendship, and he started asking me out to like happy hour and go out with him and you get to know each other. and I remember asking him and questioning him one day like, like, wait a minute, aren't you married and don't you have kids in our marriage? What does your wife say about this?

Starting point is 00:11:50 Like, he never fully asked me that he wanted to be with me, but the way he would look at me and talk to me and walk to my car, it was kind of bizarre. And I kind of got the hint. And he said, he told me one day when he was walking to me to my car, walking with me to my car, he said, oh, I got a divorce. I'm separated. My kids are older. They live with her mom and I'm just I'm just going out and having fun and I said oh Okay and I remember one weekend it was a Saturday I was sitting at home watching movies and drinking beer with Tyler and I ended up telling him about this man And he said who is he do I know him and I said I don't know I don't think so I said but this This man has been asking me sort of on date and has been telling me to go out with him.

Starting point is 00:12:42 And he said, well, what did you tell him? I said, no, I told him that I wasn't interested. And so this kind of continued with this man, and I'm going to name him Julio, because he was like an older Latino man that spoke very little English and mostly Spanish, but I'm also Latino myself. And I used to kind of was able to communicate with him in that aspect well. I ended up going through this for, I would say, a few weeks or so. And then one day he just asked me straight out, Julio asked me straight out,

Starting point is 00:13:18 why it was an eye accepting his proposal to go out and have a good time, get to know each other. And I remember I looked at him and I said, because I have a partner. I said, I have a boyfriend. I'm with somebody when I've been with him for a long time. And he looked at me and I remember he said, it's okay. He said, bring him along. And I looked at him and I said, what? And he said, bring him too.

Starting point is 00:13:41 He said, bring him too. He said, we'll all have fun together. And I was confused. I didn't know what he meant. And I said, does he just want to go out and have some drinks like boys, like guys? Yeah, yeah. Wasn't too sure. And I remember I hopped in my car that night and I was just thinking about it.

Starting point is 00:14:00 It was just something that just started sparking my mind. And I was like, what do you mean by that? Does he want to go out like friends? Does he want a threesome? because he wanted three-way, and I was just like, this is very intriguing. It's very interesting. Okay, guys, let me ask you a question. If there was something you could use for just a few minutes a day that could give you

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Starting point is 00:16:21 There's this older man that is very masculine. He's very attractive and he's very butch. He's the softball coach at the park. And he's telling me that he wants to go practically on a day. with me and my boyfriend like like what does he mean but it caught my attention and i would say some days passed again and as me and tyler would sit at home and watch movies and drink i spoke to him about it again and he said well didn't he get the point that you're with somebody and i said apparently not and he said well what did he say and i told tyler said he asked me to bring you

Starting point is 00:17:00 along and he said what and i said yeah he he looked at me at my face and he said and he looked at my face and and he said to bring you along with me you go out with you know and get to know each other and he looked at me and he said what does he mean like a like a threesome and I said I'm not sure I said all I know is that I've known him for a couple years he's a softball coach where I play softball and baseball as well and I thought he was married and had children but apparently he says he's not and he was like he was kind of perplexed and just looking at me and we had never spoken about anything like this outside of this realm. Like it was just all that kind of new to me and it was new to him to have this conversation. Me and Tyler had watched porn together and we had fantasized about porn scenes and spoke to each other about these hot guys in porn. But it was just that.

Starting point is 00:17:54 When our sexual life was just normal, he was the top. I was the bottom. He, Tyler was very masculine and I would say I'm, I am pretty much. But I have always dominant and masculine man tops and I always seem to be the bottom. It's just the way that's always been with me. It's kind of weird. Even though I want it or not, it's just the way it's been. And I remember asking Tyler, what do you think?

Starting point is 00:18:24 What do you think about me and you get together and we go out on a date with him? And he looked at me and he said, what does he look like? And I said, oh, like it was in a no, it was in like a no way. It was just like, what does he look like? I said, okay, he might be interested. And so then I explained to him, I said, I have to explain to him well what he looks like because this is not your typical gay guy or a guy that we think is hot from the porn. So I said, well, he's an older man.

Starting point is 00:18:57 He's like, older man. What do you mean? I said, I don't know. I think he's like in his 40s. He's very attractive. He's masculine. He's very athletic, so he's fit. When he speaks a lot of Spanish, a little bit of English, I said,

Starting point is 00:19:10 but that's what he looks like. I said when he was just looking at me like he was kind of intrigued about what I was telling him. And I said, do you think that it's something that you would want to do? I can set it up. I can talk to Julio about it. I just started telling him the details because it was taking weeks, like going back and forth. It was like it wasn't something that was. happening like I could make happen fast because it was new to me and I didn't know how to go about it

Starting point is 00:19:40 and then I went back to the park I ended up telling Julio that that Tyler my boyfriend has said yes we decided to meet at I wanted to meet at Julio's house because I wasn't sure what was going to happen and Julio said no we're going I'm going to order to your house and I said okay so we it was a Saturday night and we just I gave Julio my address my telephone number everything Me and Tyler were waiting for him. I remember in the dining room drinking. And he walks in and he sits in the table with us Friday, pop out of beer and it's very quiet.

Starting point is 00:20:16 We're watching TV and I didn't know if it was a language barrier thing or if it was just we were kind of feeling awkward or what. But he gets up and he says he wants to use the restroom. So he goes and he uses the restroom. I got into the restroom. I come back and I asked Tyler, What do you think of him? Do you like him? And he said, yes. So that was like a green light for me. I said, okay, well, I guess we're going to do this. Like a threesome was going to happen. So when Julio gets out or the bathroom, I get up from the table and I said, let's go inside the bedroom. And we went straight to the hall. We went into my bedroom. And the first thing that he does is laying on the bed, right in the middle of the bed, which. his head on the pillows he opens up his legs just like a very masculine very very confident man and

Starting point is 00:21:10 that was very attracted to me that was i was like wow this is hot and i hope it i was always thinking in my head because i was thinking about tyler i hope it's hot for him too so tyler sits on the right side of him i sit on the left and we're just kind of sitting there i turn the tv on and the TV's just on regular TV, no porn or no nothing. I turned the volume down. And then a few minutes have passed and I said, well, what do we do now? So in my head, I was thinking I have to initiate this because I don't think Tyler will. More like the one that suggested it is, the one that talked to him about it, I'm going to do it. So I reach over and I started grabbing Julio's crotch.

Starting point is 00:21:50 That guy was massaging it, groping it, and then Tyler follows me right after that. We're both doing that when we're both getting the feel of his balls and his crotch. And I was like, this is nice. I'm starting to feel comfortable. I really like it. And then next thing you know, Julio unbuckles his belt. He pulls down his pants all the way down. And there he is with these flannel boxers.

Starting point is 00:22:19 And I still remember the boxers because they felt like they were like old man boxers to me. But I was tripping out on them. but I started as soon as he did that I looked at Tyler and I went inside his crotch and I was feeling his his cock and I was feeling his boss and I remember he had an aunt he his cock was really uncut and and I said oh this is an uncut cock like he's got a lot of foreskin and we were just Tyler followed me right after that too and both of us started stroking him under his underwear and feeling him stuff like that he pulled down his underwear and we see this nice looking cock it was pretty thick and he had a lot of foreskin and he had these big balls and they look at

Starting point is 00:23:08 Tyler and they said yeah this is nice huh and he said yes the next thing I know we're getting into it just stroking him and Julio's there he's liking it he's loving it who you didn't say nothing he wouldn't even he'd mention a word nothing he hadn't touched me he hadn't even mentioned anything to me and I said I have to try to initiate something here bigger because I wanted Tyler to feel comfortable so next thing I know is Julio goes and he grabs my boyfriend's butt like he pulls down his shorts he pulls down his underwear and he starts groping Tyler like in the butt pulling him back more towards him and he said okay okay this is this is getting good like we're there but in reality I was sitting

Starting point is 00:23:56 there and I was thinking why was he why hasn't he touched me I thought he wanted me no so he was having fun with Tyler's behind he was enjoying him and me and Tyler was stroking him and and we were grabbing his balls pulling his foreskin down and I was looking at that cock and I said I really want to suck this cock I haven't sucked any other cock but Tyler's cock in a while like I really want this and I really want to do it and as I started almost to do that. I almost like almost bending my head down and I was like I'm going to initiate this. I hope Tyler starts sucking his cock with me and we both are going to like it and we'll go from there. I start hearing like kissing noises and I look back and there they are kissing each other like French kissing

Starting point is 00:24:48 passionately like tongues out and everything. And I had spoken to Tyler about this when when we talked about what was going to happen before I invited Julio in I said he said well what's going to happen when all that and I said I don't know when we cross that bridge we'll get there I said but one thing

Starting point is 00:25:10 let's try to do no kissing in the on the mouth area and he said okay so when I look back and here they are kissing like French kissing tongues out and I'm over here getting ready to suck his cock

Starting point is 00:25:25 I looked back and the sense of jealousy and anger just came upon me because that was that was kind of like the boyfriend that I was at the time. I was a jealous boyfriend. I was possessive. I was kind of insecure. And I had spoken to him about the mouth kissing and it was happening right in front of me. And I got all these weird feelings that just came upon me. It wasn't, there were not good feelings. So I sat up on the bed, I moved a little bit away, obviously I was upset, and Tyler stopped kissing Julio.

Starting point is 00:26:05 And Julio hasn't said anything, hadn't touched me, nothing. He was really into my boyfriend. I mean, the chemistry was there between them. And Tyler said, looks at me, and he says, what happened? And I looked back and I said, I thought we had came to this rule where there was going to be no kissing in the mouth. And he looked at me and he said, we're just having fun. And I

Starting point is 00:26:32 said, oh, okay. But it didn't seem like there was no chemistry there with me, with them. It was like it was just them or maybe it was just me. I had no, like all these feelings just overtook me at that moment.

Starting point is 00:26:47 And Julio had no idea what was going on. He was just like, what happened. So when he said that to me when Tyler said, well, we're just having fun very casually. And I said, I got to go to the restroom. I said, I'll be back. So I got out from the bed. I went straight into the hall and to the restroom and I sat there. And all these jealousy feelings overcame me. Possessive feelings of all these anger feelings was like a 22 year old guy that I was at the time. Scared of losing my boyfriend and and watching this was like whoa did I did did did I do the right thing to bring

Starting point is 00:27:26 Julio to you know my house and is three some the right thing and so a couple of minutes passed and Tyler walks into the bathroom and he says what happened I thought this is what we both wanted and I said I thought that we had came to the rule there was no kissing in the mouth and he just looked at me blank like he didn't say anything and I said you just broke that rule. I said, so I don't know what I feel. I don't know what I want. And he kind of just stared at me like he didn't say anything. He didn't say, okay, let's call it off. We'll do it another time. Nothing. He just looked at me and he said, come out when you're ready. So he walked out of the bathroom. He went back into the room and I stood. I was sitting in the bathroom and I was just thinking,

Starting point is 00:28:17 wow, he really wants this bad. He wants it. And now I don't know what to do. So what I did is I was just thinking and thinking. I said, I have to stop thinking. So I got myself back up, went straight into the hall, and I said, I'm going to go in there, and I'm going to try to enjoy this.

Starting point is 00:28:36 It doesn't matter what happens. I'll try to enjoy it. So as I was walking back towards the room, I would say five minutes have passed maybe. I start hearing noises as I'm walking towards the room. And I, the door was slightly open, slightly closed. I walked in, I pushed the door open and there they were, they were on top of my bed. And they were sort of like in a 69 position.

Starting point is 00:29:01 And my boyfriend was sucking the shit out of Julio's cock. He was just sucking it, enjoying it. He had no underwear on. He had just a shirt on and Julio was just kind of rubbing and fingering him in the butt. And I walk in and I'm standing there and I said, whoa, it was just overwhelming for me. Like I wanted it bad, but it was not what I thought it was going to have. I mean, I honestly thought I was going to be like the star of the night between them, like the one in the middle, the one in the sandwich. Like I wasn't.

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Starting point is 00:31:39 for the moments that matter. He was my top, he was my dominant top, he was like, all was the bottom. And I was just watching all this unfold. And I was thinking, like, I was angry at the same time. And then at the same time, I started getting aroused. They started getting horny. And then angry and jealous and then horny. And I was all these feelings, one after another.

Starting point is 00:32:04 And I said, I was standing there looking at them. It was just, I would say it was just like 30 seconds a minute. And Tyler gesture. to me to join them. He was sucking that cock and he wanted to let it go. And Julio was just enjoying it. And he gestured to me to come into the bed and enjoy it. And I couldn't. Like, I didn't want to join. At this time, I just didn't want to join. And I didn't know where to say. I didn't know what to do. I was, I was like, what do I do? Where do I sit? I want to watch this, but I don't want to join anymore. like I'm getting aroused, I'm getting horny, but I was jealous at the same time.

Starting point is 00:32:43 And I was like, so I was still standing there by the bed and I said, I'm going to be right outside. And I walked outside of out of the room into the living room. And I sat in the living room again, just feeling just jealous and then horny and jealous and horny. And I sat there for about 10 minutes and I said, what do I do? I can't undo this anymore. What do I do? So I decided to go back into the room. And I got up because I could hear them from the living room make sex noises, right?

Starting point is 00:33:16 So I was getting more and more and more aroused, more horny. I was wet. I was rock hard. And I was like, I really want this. But then I just, I don't want to join. I don't want to join in. I don't want to be a cuckold. I don't want to ruin it.

Starting point is 00:33:32 What do I do? I want to watch it. So I decided to walk back. into the room and as I walked back into the room the door was again slightly open slightly closed and I just stood there by the door and I just started watching and they were just going at it they were like having oral sex doing the foreplay and I stood there and I was just the fact that I was watching the person that I was with for six years this this guy that I knew that was my top a masculine guy just get completely completely

Starting point is 00:34:07 dominated by this straight Latino man that came in and just took him and was just making him his submissive. It was just so hot for me at the moment. Like I was so aroused. I was excited at the same time. My feelings of jealousy started going away. I didn't want to be like that creep on that standing at the door jacking off. So I was like, what do I do? But I was like bulging.

Starting point is 00:34:33 Like I was like, I want to see this. I want to stay here and see this and see where it goes. So I stood there by the door. They never once looked back at me. It was like they were just in a euphoria themselves. And they were going at it with foreplay. And my boyfriend was sucking the shit out of that cock. He was doing the deep throat.

Starting point is 00:34:57 He was liking his butt getting played with. And I could see why Julio liked him. I mean, we both were pretty athletic. but Tyler had like the the slim athletic tone look to him with a nice bubble butt and I could see why he was so attracted to him and then he probably completely forgot about me

Starting point is 00:35:17 like I could see that and just watching it just unfold down my bed it was the best thing for me as I stood there and was just kind of like touching myself I was getting so wet and I was like what is going on And and one thing led to another and they started changing positions and I noticed they were getting up from the bed and I said, whoa, because I thought they were just going to jack off and come. Like Julio was just dominating him, like moving him from position to position.

Starting point is 00:35:51 He was face fucking him. He was playing with his butt. And I said, he really wants him. Like he really wants him back. And I said, they kind of got into a doggy style position. and I kind of moved back out of the door a little bit. I was embarrassed in a way. They saw me watching.

Starting point is 00:36:09 It was like, it was a weird feeling that I got at the moment. I was like, I'm embarrassed that I'm watching it. I don't want to see them like face to face watching me watch them. So I kind of like scooted back a little bit into the hallway. And then I went back in at the door on the doorway watching them. And Julio was trying to position him into a doggy style position like to fuck him.

Starting point is 00:36:32 And I was thinking in my head now, Tyler won't let him do that because Tyler is the top. I was like, he's my top. He supposedly, he doesn't like to bother him. And he started rimming him. He started rimming him. And my boyfriend was loving it. He was just in heaven, face down on the bed. And Julio was just taking control of that butt.

Starting point is 00:36:55 He was done with the oral sex and really wanted to penetrate my boyfriend, you can tell. Something that I didn't think was going to happen, especially bear back. We had no condoms. We had some looph that I had brought out on the side of the bed to masturbate or jack off, stuff like that.

Starting point is 00:37:14 But I never even thought it was going to come down to penetration. So here was my boyfriend, he bought up in the air, doggy style on the side of the bed, and Julio got up. He was standing and he was just getting ready to fuck him. And he was controlling the whole,

Starting point is 00:37:32 thing and he ended up penetrating him and I was like no way no way I I couldn't believe that this was going on at that time I was like no way but I was getting so aroused by it that I just stood there and I watched him just pound my boyfriend this man that I knew for about two years that was a softball coach very athletic very handsome never even thought would have bisexual tendency or was by curious. Here he was in my house. All of a sudden, and he was dominating my boyfriend. Just made him a complete bottom, complete submissive. And I was standing on the door just enjoying and loving it. I was like, whoa, what is this feeling? I'm loving watching Tyler get fucked in the ass. It's, it was just like a euphoria for me already at that time. At that moment, I was like,

Starting point is 00:38:27 whoa. So he was pounding him, pounding him. And it was all bareback. And I was like, whoa, this is crazy. Next thing I know, this happened for about 10 minutes. And I heard Julio said something in Spanish to Tyler. And I was like, Tyler doesn't know what he's saying. But he was telling him in Spanish, I'm going to fuck you hard. I'm going to come in your ass.

Starting point is 00:38:52 And I was like, at that moment, I was like, no way. Some guy's going to come in my boyfriend's ass. No way. No way. And he did. he was fucking him fucking him fucking him and they were both in heaven making noises

Starting point is 00:39:07 they were like on cloud nine and I was just sitting standing there watching everything from the doorway and I still have all those pictures in my head from that one time and it happened so fast so quick

Starting point is 00:39:23 and he ended up just given Tyler I think what Tyler probably wanted for a long time but he never showed me that side. He never, I felt like I never knew what Tyler really wanted in bed because he was just always my top, the dominant person in the relationship.

Starting point is 00:39:43 Here I was the bottom, I'm the submissive. And I was thinking, this is someone that I don't know in reality who he really is. He's either versatile, he's a bottom, or he's just in the moment, and he wants to really get fucked. So that ended like that. I went back into the bathroom because I couldn't see Julio in the face. I was embarrassed.

Starting point is 00:40:10 I didn't know what to tell him, what he was going to tell me. So I waited in the bathroom and I sat there and I heard the doors open. I heard them talk. They were like trying to talk or say something and Julio ended up leaving. I heard the front door open, closed and then five minutes later, Tyler comes into the bathroom and says he's gone. he had to go make some calls and I said, okay. And I never spoke to him about this situation or anything.

Starting point is 00:40:41 We never really talked about it. What happened was that three months later, me and Tyler broke up because I found out that they were texting and calling each other to me in places behind my back. So that, that relationship didn't end well for me. It ended right there when I knew he was lying to me. And that's when my fetish of being a cuckled and bringing men home that are straight and masculine and vicarious to bring them home to my partner started. Like I started evolving into it when now I'm kind of like feeling like like my fetish is growing and evolving to a point where it's changing. and I'm like, like, becoming kind of like scared at the same time,

Starting point is 00:41:34 but then at the same time, I wanted it to happen again. Like I would say I was thinking about it a lot every day. I was, I couldn't get the pictures out of my head, what I saw and what I heard, that noises Tyler and him. And I wanted it to happen again. And I remember, I would say a few weeks that passed and I had reached out to, Julio again and he brushed me off. He kind of said, oh, no, no, I don't want to do that again, whatever. And I knew something was odd and was different. And so that's when I started kind of snooping

Starting point is 00:42:10 around and trying to see what was going on. And I did find out that they were texting and meeting each other behind my back. So obviously the sparks, the sparks were there between them and they really liked each other. And I ended up using my six-year relationship to that. But I'm wondering, does that factor into your scenarios, Do you like to be denied? Do you like to be not in on it? Is there some sort of cheating component now or not at all? Yeah, I still like to watch.

Starting point is 00:42:38 Yeah, I have brought my new relationships, I have brought more men home. I like arranging the whole thing, even just arranging the whole thing and hooking up my partners with these guys that I know. All that to me is, it's a thrill and it's arousing to me. So I like to watch. I don't join. I don't. I never have joined. I just like to sit and watch.

Starting point is 00:43:04 There's been a couple of times where the guy was kind of has been uncomfortable with me in the room twice. And I had I walked out of the room and they have fucked the shit out of my boyfriend when I could hear it or just imagine what's going on in the next room. And even that has been arousing. So like that that makes me believe that my fed. is evolving and it's growing and sometimes I'm like, okay, should it stop? Should I control it or what? But I would say that encounter completely made me not jealous anymore of my partners. I'm not jealous anymore. I don't want to have those feelings of jealousy. When I see my boyfriends and my partners look at another guy, I kind of say, damn, he's hot, right? Like, it would be nice to have him in bed, right?

Starting point is 00:43:51 Like I'll bring conversations up like that before that that wasn't who I was. So yeah, I would say that first cuckled scenario, something good came out of it because I was that that jealous, needy, boyfriend, and possessive. And after that, I wasn't anymore. And I'm not with my partners anymore. And I have opened up, I would say, two relationships after that. I have brought men home. And it's always like men that are close to me.

Starting point is 00:44:21 that I know. I don't bring gay guys home from bars or from clubs. It's always that one guy that I like, a masculine guy that is curious, by curious, or bisexual that says they're straight and they start opening to me up about fantasies. And then I go from there. So like arranging the whole thing for my partners

Starting point is 00:44:45 is also for me like arousing and exciting. And I get something. out of it too. Do you ever have a fear of them leaving you for the person or going behind your back like that first guy did? Yes, I do. I always think about what I did to that first relationship and I said, I opened it up and as I'm 34 now, but as I get older, I open up my relationships, the two that I've had and then this one that I'm in now. And I try to be really open with my partners and say this is just fun, no feelings involved. And that's why I kind of look and I seek out men that I know I'm not going to get emotionally attached to my partner or to my boyfriend or

Starting point is 00:45:33 them to them. So I have a big group of straight friends. I've always more than gay. And so I, if they open up to me and I say this guy is hot, like this guy is good looking, I love, I would love to see him in bed with my partner. Then I kind of started opening up to them. I knew this guy that was a car mechanic. He used to work on sports cars. And he opened up to me about he used to fantasize about being with transsexual women. And that's how it started with him.

Starting point is 00:46:06 And then I opened up to him about having an open relationship. My partner was really odd. He had a nice ass and gave the best blow jobs. And I ended up bringing him home. And so I kind of feel like that's why I seek these guys that are kind of like really, you know, masculine and on the DL and dominant tops and or bicarious or they are very, very like on the secret side. They're just fantasies that they have because it makes me feel secure. It reassures me that there's not going to be anything going on behind my back. Of course.

Starting point is 00:46:43 Of course. You don't want what happened before. And now, you've been with the guy that you're with now for one year. How many times have you done this with him? I only have brought home two guys. Yeah. So I had a relationship after Tyler for about four years. And I brought men home with that relationship.

Starting point is 00:47:04 And then I brought, and then I had another relationship after that of two years, and I brought men home. And this relationship that I'm in now is kind of new and I just started. But I feel that at times I have to kind of take it slow because I feel like I'm not becoming a pro at it, but I feel like my fetish is evolving more and more. And so to the point where I don't want it to get it. I don't want to go out of control. But because I've had situations where the guy has the person that I bring home tells me he's uncomfortable with me in the room. Like he can't get it up or something like that. And I say, no problem. Like, I'll just step out.

Starting point is 00:47:46 And then I step out and I just tell my boyfriend if he's okay with it. And then I just let them be. And even that alone, just hearing my boyfriend get fucked or sucking cock in the next room and hearing everything that's going on, even that just gets me rock hard, gets me wet. I'm aroused by it. And I could just, I could just jerk off just listening to that. And so it's gotten to be like a cuckled thing. but at the same time, I have had some situations where I'm not even in the room and I can still have a good time and enjoy just listening to the hearing.

Starting point is 00:48:26 Or I've gotten to the point where I've seen it on camera and I love it too. But let me ask you this. What happens when that person leaves? Is there a lot of together time between you and your guy? Do you make sure to reclaim? No. No. It's not, there's no.

Starting point is 00:48:42 there's no reclaiming sex here. We just kind of go about our lives. I mean, I try to have good sex life, but I think the throw out of this too is that I'm always the bottom in most relationships. I don't know why. I always seem to have these really

Starting point is 00:48:58 masculine, dominant tops as boyfriends, and they never kind of want a bottom or kind of be versatile. And so when I look at these guys that I bring home that are completely tops and they're bisexual, bi-kirms, and they just completely dominate my boyfriends, that's what I want to see.

Starting point is 00:49:17 That's what really excites me. When I've seen these situations go bad is when people are allowing other people into their relationships and that cuck starts being denied and staying off to the side too much and doesn't do the reclaiming, that's where you start to get in the little bit of the danger zone because if you stop doing that with him, then Eventually, what can happen is someone comes in and is there's some sort of weird chemistry that maybe is different than anybody else. And if you're not reclaiming and you're not going back and reminding him who he really is with,

Starting point is 00:49:56 he could get attached to somebody else. And that happens in the regular couples that when it's gone wrong. When it goes right, there's always reclaiming. When you're always going back, when you're always remembering and reminding each other who you're with and when it's always about you two together. not just separate, you just watching him with somebody. So that's what you want to be careful about. I try to keep a good sex life always with my partners,

Starting point is 00:50:22 but like I say, most of the time on the bottom, I'm a submissive, they're my tops, and that's the way my sex life is. Can you ever be the person that you see these guys come in and be for him? Oh, I can. I would consider myself to be versatile, like I say. But most of the time, I always end up being like a bottom. I'm not sure why.

Starting point is 00:50:42 Well, I think most guys in the gay community, like they roll one way or the other. There's not so many versitiles, right? I mean, it's mostly more bottoms, right? Yep, I would think so, yeah. And so the relationships that I've had, I've always been these, you know, I'm with top, with dominant men. But they're being topped by other guys that you bring home. Exactly, yeah. So if your verse, why don't you every now and then be the top?

Starting point is 00:51:10 I don't know. It's never really happened. And even though sometimes I've tried, it doesn't happen. And so when I see these guys that I bring home, I have brought in a college friend, a barber that I knew, a car mechanic. I brought in all these different type of guys that I know personally well enough or acquaintances that I know that are these butch, masculine guys that are trying to explore experiment and they dominate my boyfriends and make them to submissive bottoms. It's so rousing to me. And I don't know if it falls back to that first time with Tyler and Julio, but this is this is what really gets me going. Like, it wouldn't get me going if I bring another bottom home, another gay guy from the bar, another bottom home or a versatile guy, and I see my boyfriend in bed with him.

Starting point is 00:51:59 Listen, I don't think there's anything wrong with it if this is your king and your guy is into it and it's what you're into. I just think what you want to make sure of is that you always keep that connection and that sex life and everything. really secure with you and your guy. And I would make sure you reclaim. Yeah, that could be true. I've never thought about it that way, but it could be true. But I would say that's, that's probably one of my kinks and my fetishes, like bringing these men that are completely tops and completely masculine dominate my boyfriends. Like I said, it wouldn't be the same if I would bring a bottom There's times where I want to stop because my fetish and my my kink is growing more and more to the point where I don't have to be in the room anymore or I've seen it on video happen.

Starting point is 00:52:49 But what are you afraid of by that? What is what's the fear? Well, that I, that the kink and the fetish just keeps growing, growing, growing so much where I'm just getting out of hand and forget about my relationships. Right. That's what I'm afraid of. Yeah, same thing. that's why it has to, but that's, and I have to wrap it up in five minutes, but that's,

Starting point is 00:53:10 that's the whole, that's the whole thing. That's what you should be afraid of. And listen, I think that you're smart to be thinking that way, because that can happen when you become so into it. But what also happens at the same time, a lot of times when you, you do have a fetish. It's just, it's so powerful and the urge becomes so strong. It could really cause a problem. So you just want to make sure you get, you try to be as moderate as possible and continue to make sure you're doing stuff together with your guy in every aspect of your relationship, especially being intimate with him. So that there doesn't become this thing where he's so separate from you and that part is separate

Starting point is 00:53:52 because what's going to happen then is it's just a matter of time that you're going to meet somebody that he's going to maybe click with and then you're wind up in the Tyler situation. And that's what you don't want. And that's what I've heard can happen. So you have to make sure that your relationship with him is stronger and better and you are smart to be worried about your fetish because you don't want to be overtaken by it. You know what I mean? Yeah, I agree. Yeah.

Starting point is 00:54:17 It's just a kink and a fetish that sometimes just grows and grows. I've never had a know from my partners when I tell them, let's hook up with this guy or let me bring this guy home. What do you think about him? So I feel like they also want it when I see him. and bad get dominated and they're just enjoying it so much and loving it. I'm like, this is hot and this is what they want. And I'm like, okay.

Starting point is 00:54:43 Yeah, there's nothing wrong with that. I only started asking questions because I know that you had some fear and trepidation. I'm like, oh, maybe you need a little advice, but you're a really good storyteller, okay? Like, seriously. You made my job really easy. I love this story. It's super interesting because I never had, like I said, it from the gay man's perspective. but I think what's interesting about this

Starting point is 00:55:04 and is that it can really, like even a straight couple could relate to what's going on here in a way because it's kind of like the same dynamic. It doesn't really matter if you're gay or straight. It's kind of like you're living out the same thing as like when the straight couple calls in and talks about this kind of thing.

Starting point is 00:55:20 So, but the fact that you are a gay man doing it is interesting because I've never heard from one. So thank you so much for calling in and sharing your story. Thanks for having me, Kathy. I appreciate it. Yeah, it was great. Now listen,

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Starting point is 00:56:13 All right. Thanks, Mark. Thanks so much for calling in. I'm glad you found my show. And I'm glad that you called in to tell your story because it's unique. And I've, like I said, I've been doing my show for nine years. So it's very rare that I get on something that's unique. You know what I mean at this point? Thank you so much. Thanks for sharing. And thanks for being such a good storyteller. You drag the whole thing out and made it great if you were great. Thanks, bye-bye. Okay, I just want to tell you before you go that my book, it's called Strictly Anonymous Confession, Secret Sex Lives of Total Strangers, is now available not only in paperback and e-book, but you can pre-order the audiobook. It's still not going to

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Strictly Anonymous Confessions - 1578 - Drew is a Gay Cuckold Who Loves Being Cucked

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